#sad boy summer

[areyoudreaminof]

Whisper of Darkness: An Azriel Playlist

Sad boy summer is here, and it's time for Azriel's playlist!

This proved to be the most challenging playlist to make thus far. My feelings about Azriel are complicated to say the least. He frustrates me with his temper, then he has these really beautiful moments of compassion and kindness. I adore his friendships with Nesta and the IC. He’s dark but fascinating. I hope I capture that here with darker lyrics but really weird sonic cues, much like shadows. I hit the books to make sure I could refresh my sense of Azriel. The shadowsinger, hiding his own self doubt and frustrations beneath that stoic shell. Listen Here! And follow me behind the cut!

Nocturnal-Disclosure & The Weeknd

My shadow doesn't show in the dark The night time is inclined to my heart The emptiness I felt from the start Will follow me 'till I fall apart Nocturnal, My demons are blocking out the light And my mind is about to lose the fight Why can't I find peace, when a caracal could sleep tonight?

Talons-Bloc Party No bolt nor brick nor crucifix Can hold it back I have been wicked I have been arrogant And when it comes it will feel like a kiss, silent about it

And I did not think I'd catch fire When I held my hand to the flame And I didn't think it would catch up As fast as I could have run Fate came a-knocking When I was looking the other way

Unrequited Love-Lykke Li

And blue is my tune Another stitch to my wound Another inch in this dwell I know it all too well

When once again it's happening Oh our love has gone divided Oh my love is unrequited

Trip Switch-Nothing But Thieves

Sharing secrets with another world Rubbing shoulders with some unknown lovers Making waves through the universe Starting wars with anonymous brothers

What we do when the power's out? What do we do when the lights go down?

Woes vs Woahs-WILLS

You got me losing my mind Got me losing my mind Just to get you to notice me My friends say I'm losing it They can't even notice me But I know it's me I know it's me I know it's me

If this is nothing it's love I guess that's the way it's supposed to be If this is nothing it's love I guess that's the way it's supposed to be

You got me like woe is me, woe is me Or is it?

The Breach-Lazy Habits

And I'm in this, and it's been so long It's hard to know what you did right and what you did wrong Will the scales stay balanced at the end of the song? Coz it's all that I really wanted to be was strong

I walk this beat Feel each hit I've fallen in My blood streams I'll walk this beat I'll try to man the breach

Night Swimmers-Foals

We swim under the moon In the cool blue lagoon You count up all my scars Crumble them into stars You're such a perfect mess You in your dirty white dress And the day I came to

Holding on for Life-Broken Bells

Well you might belong to another time Still you have to carry on, yeah Nowhere else to go and you never know What to hide and what to show, no You're holding on for life, holding on for life You're holding on for love

Retrograde-James Blake

Suddenly I'm hit It's the starkness of the dawn And your friends are gone And your friends won't come So show me where you fit

Sleep-My Chemical Romance

Some say now suffer all the children And walk away a savior Or a madman and polluted From gutter institutions Don't you breathe for me Undeserving of your sympathy 'Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did And through it all How could you cry for me? 'Cause I don't feel bad about it So shut your eyes Kiss me goodbye, and sleep

Ties-Years and Years

And you're a dancer, well, I'm a spy It's so beautiful to see you lie Are you having fun? Then give it up, you don't need that stress You're still hungry for another test Are you having fun? Oh, tell me, how did it feel? Did it all get too real for you? Everybody's screaming out your name Are you scared? 'Cause I don't think you're worth it

Genghis Khan-Miike Snow

I know there's no form And no labels to put on To this thing we keep And dip into when we need And I don't have the right To ask where you go at night But the waves hit my head To think someone's in your bed

Goodbye-Apparat & Soap Skin

Fold down your hands Give me a sign Put down your lies Lay down next to me Don't listen when I scream Bury your doubts and fall asleep Find out, I was just a bad dream

Possibly, Maybe-Bjork

As much as I definitely enjoy solitude I wouldn't mind perhaps Spending little time with you Sometimes, sometimes Possibly maybe

Keep the Streets Empty for Me-Fever Ray

Memory comes when memory's old I am never the first to know Following the stream up North Where do people like us float?

I will never disappear For forever, I'll be here Whispering Morning, keep the streets empty for me

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[husina]

Track Analysis

This will be a long post and most of you will skip it, understandable ngl. However over the summer, a X post emerged claiming that N named an album after JD, and some tracks from the album were leaked. A X post shows July 22 as a starting point. There might have been discussions about this earlier, but I couldn't find any information, so I'll use July 22 as my reference. I'll only look at events up to that point. Since this is a X post, everyone should take it with a grain of salt, but the songs mentioned in it interestingly reflect the summer events, which is why I want to analyze them now. As far as I know, no one paid much attention to it at the time (at least I didn't) but it has piqued my interest now. Better late than never. Lol. I'm not a professional music critic, but I did study lyric analysis in school, though that was nearly a decade ago, so my knowledge isn't current and may not be entirely accurate. I'll always include an official analysis as well for those who are only interested in that, as they are also quite telling.

Even if N has nothing to do with the album, I enjoyed analyzing it because whoever put it together did an excellent job. Although the album is named after JD, I believe, as I went through the tracks, that they perfectly describe L and N's situation, the feelings they have for each other, and what has happened between them since the first "papgate" and before.

Why don’t I think it’s about JD? Because I’m a Lukola shipper. Period. Just kidding, it’s not just because of that, but it is significant. My loyalty belongs to them, and I analyze things related to them based on that. However, more importantly, as we have gotten to know them over the years, especially during WT, the album seems to fit them better. It aligns with the image they’ve portrayed in the SOCIAL MEDIA. Yes, I don’t know their private lives and what feelings or thoughts they have, so I wanted to highlight that.

Moreover, most of the tracks fit L and N very well. N has mentioned several times how much he likes the new Billie Eilish album, and two tracks from it are included here. One is "Birds of Feather," which he specifically talked about in a Canadian interview with Buzzfeed, saying it will be a perfect song for a Polin edit. He also shared the track "The Louvre" by Lorde in his story after Brazil, and a bunch of us believe something significant thing(s)must have happened between them, as the song also suggests. We know that Luka likes The 1975, and there’s a track from them as well. Additionally, Matt Healy, the frontman of Sunshine Baby, worked on the track, providing vocals and assisting as a producer. Based on this, the list is strongly connected to them.

Dog Eyes by Dijon 

Hands grip the back of the wide lens

You tell me to smile and I do

I'm wide-eyed when I think about you

I'm wide-eyed when I think about you

Glory, glory, well, I could cry now

So I avert my eyes and I do

And I'm red-eyed when I think about you

And I'm red-eyed when I think about you

See ya later

No way, no way, no way

See ya later

Hands on my chest when you lie down

A sea of grey and black around you

I get dog eyes when I think about you

I get dog eyes when I think about you

Save me, save me now

Your new eyes look pretty on you

Your new eyes look pretty on you

On you, babe

On you, babe

On you, babe

On you, babe

On you, babe

On you, babe

On you, babe

On you, babe

Oh, if I die today

Will it be without grace?

Will it be violent? Will it be tame?

Will I be silent? Will I be brave?

I don't wanna go

Don't wanna go

This would have been a very long introduction. For anyone who has read this far, thank you. I will analyze the tracks from an emotional perspective, focusing on how they relate to L and N rather than just analyzing the songs themselves. This means that there will be a lot of assumptions made. For those who are not interested in this, I recommend the official text-based analysis. However, songs are fundamentally emotional, as they impact us in some way when they stay in our heads or become our favorites, especially from an emotional standpoint. So, my analysis will also reflect this aspect. I just wanted to clarify this upfront.

So, the first track I chose is my personal favorite from the album. It reflects a bit on the "papgate" and the subsequent feelings that might have been expressed by Luke. Since I believe he might have contributed this piece to their little album (because he loves to suffer), I will focus on him, with N appearing through him.

I chose this song because it's one that most people have heard the least about. I didn't know it at all before the album, not even the artist. It's not going to be everyone's favorite, and I didn’t like it at first either, but on the second and then third listen, it clearly became one of my favorites. So, I recommend giving it a few more chances if you haven't heard it yet or if it didn't appeal to you initially and perhaps you can brodan your horizons.

The first line of the verse begins with "Hands grip the back of the wide lens." "Hands grip": This suggests that someone is holding onto something firmly with their hands. Just like A held L's hand, because you can see in the pictures that it was a determined step, confident and tight. There's no doubt that even their fingers were intertwined. By holding his hand, he didn’t just hold his hand; he confirmed their relationship. He made it clear that what we saw on WT was just an illusion and PR to sell their season, and we were delusional to think it was real. Luke was just an actor doing his job, and now that it's over, he's returning to reality, and that's where we belong, too. By holding L's hand, he placed a huge burden on him, which still affects him—that from this moment on, they are a couple in the public's eyes, no matter how quickly he tried to free himself from the handshake (the guy literally ran away), but in that moment, their relationship became official without a word being said. Especially since on WT, a significant confirmation happened through a handshake—another twist of the knife in the fans' and (N's hearts).

"The back of the wide lens": Refers to the rear part of a camera lens, specifically a wide-angle lens, which captures a broad field of view. The lens here could refer to the paparazzi photographers' cameras that appeared out of nowhere and ruined six months and another eight months of work, as there are many people who still haven't watched the second half of the season due to the "papgate." (Personal opinion: If those pictures hadn’t come out, WT wouldn't just be in sixth place—although that's an impressive achievement in itself—but it would definitely be in the top five on the all-time list.) The cameras captured a moment that will never disappear from the internet. However, the photographers did a thorough job, not just recording the handshake but also the events before and after it. You can see A's face light up as he sees the opportunity or realizes what he needs to do. His hand gesture looks like he's greeting them, or at least he’s happy to see them. After the handshake, you can see A laughing and L staring angrily at the camera, trying to get out of there as quickly as possible. Just as the lyrics suggest, the wide lenses captured everything.

The next line is, "You tell me to smile and I do." I think this refers to N's words, as we see in Milan how he tries to pull himself together, but he's likely bracing himself for backlash because you can see that he's panicking. This was his first attempt to smile, but it didn’t really come off as genuine, showing that he was happy with the situation he was in. However, later at the Loewe show or on Jimmy Fallon, we saw a more composed person. With Jimmy, he showed a particularly calm side (famous quote: "I can be a Ken for her"), and there’s a chance N was there with him (pap photos of N at the airport), so he could have told him personally how to smile and keep going, no matter how much he didn’t want to.

The phrase "I'm wide-eyed when I think about you" typically means that the person feels a sense of wonder, amazement, or intense focus when thinking about someone. It suggests that the person is captivated or fascinated by the thoughts of the other person, much like how someone might be wide-eyed with surprise or admiration. We saw many times during WT how much L admired N, how smitten he was with him—sometimes even forgetting about the cameras. However, the lyrics also suggest that now the person can only think about the desired person because they’re not close to each other (La pool pic, La La Land—it’s always nice to think about him lol).

The phrase "Glory, glory, well, I could cry now" suggests a strong emotional reaction. The word "glory" here can imply something awe-inspiring, magnificent, or overwhelming, while "I could cry now" indicates that L is feeling such strong emotions (perhaps joy or even sadness) that he is on the verge of tears. The combination of these expressions suggests that L is deeply moved by all the emotions he’s holding in. Based on the pictures, it’s most likely pain, anger, and sadness that make him want to cry about the situation, missing N or/and regretting that the fans were disappointed in him.

"So I avert my eyes and I do" indicates that L is intentionally looking away from something, either physically or metaphorically, and then proceeds to take some action or follow through with something they intended to do. "Averting one's eyes" typically implies avoiding something that is difficult, uncomfortable, or overwhelming to face directly. The phrase indicates a deliberate choice to avoid confrontation or direct engagement with something, followed by taking an action. It could specifically refer to him not wanting to see that A was involved in the "papgate" or that his friends, including R, were playing games behind his back. Or maybe he doesn’t want to see the consequences that the "papgate" had on his reputation and career.

The phrase "And I'm red-eyed when I think about you" typically means that the person feels deep sadness or emotional pain when thinking about someone. "Red-eyed" often refers to eyes that are irritated or swollen from crying, so the phrase suggests that thoughts of this person bring the speaker to tears or cause them to feel strong, overwhelming emotions. The lyrics specifically state that these aren’t happy tears and that the person probably lost the one they were thinking about. Emotions overwhelm him when he thinks about N. This could show how much of a social media void we experienced from N's side and how much he disappeared apart from a few Bton-related posts. But even when we saw Luke, he didn’t look like himself, increasingly giving off a soulless, stoic impression next to his alleged girlfriend.

"See ya later": A casual farewell indicating that the speaker expects to see the other person again in the future. "No way, no way, no way": This repetition emphasizes strong disbelief, rejection, or refusal. It suggests that the speaker is adamantly denying something or expressing that something is impossible or unacceptable. However, if you combine them, the phrase could be used to indicate a combination of saying goodbye and firmly rejecting or doubting something. For instance, it might be used in a context where someone is leaving and also expressing strong disagreement or disbelief about something that was said or proposed. Or that they won’t meet again. However, the "See ya later" reappears, so the bridge gives a bit of hope. Well, yeah, even if they don’t want to, they’ll have to meet again because season four filming is starting. Lol.

"Hands on my chest when you lie down": This suggests a close, intimate moment where someone’s hands are resting on the speaker’s chest while they are lying down. It conveys a sense of physical closeness. Brazil, Ireland, Italy, London, Australia—believe what you will. Lol. "A sea of grey and black around you": This imagery describes a surrounding environment dominated by shades of grey and black, which might represent a somber, melancholic, or emotionally charged atmosphere. Together, the phrase evokes a scene of intimacy and connection contrasted with a dark, possibly emotionally heavy or unsettling backdrop. It could imply that even in a close, comforting moment, there is an overwhelming or difficult environment surrounding the experience. This could hint at a secret that L is hiding or they’re both hiding, or just that their time together is running out, which the first "papgate" certainly brought about, whether planned or not. When N posted "Frames Your Face" on June 10, there’s a similar part in the lyrics: "But now your face is hiding something,/ something, it's burning/And I'm gonna wait for you." (JD and N don’t share the same song, only the artist is the same.)

The phrase "I get dog eyes when I think about you" suggests a deep emotional reaction when thinking about someone. "Dog eyes" can be interpreted as having a look of longing, vulnerability, or affection, similar to the expressive and emotional gaze often associated with dogs. Additionally, it suggests loyalty. It shows loyalty that after the first "papgate," we never saw him hold A's hand again—a famous GQ picture where he intentionally clasps his hands in front of him for everyone to see. It also shows that he still longs for N.

The phrase "Glory, glory, why do you hide now?" can be interpreted as a poignant question expressing confusion or frustration about why something or someone once admired or celebrated is now concealed or no longer visible. It also shows that N likely distanced himself from L, despite the boyfriend-coded posts, but they aren’t talking. Or it can be interpreted as having to hide their happiness from the public, depending on how one sees what might have happened between them over the summer.

"Save me, save me now." Imo, this is the strongest part of the song. It’s a simple, straightforward expression, but very powerful. It could refer to asking N to save him from the situation he’s stuck in with A, or from the backlash he received for the "papgate," just as N did (proud member of the Lukey Newts fan club since 2019 etc) Anyway, he shows that he wants to escape the situation, but he can’t do it alone. (Why not L? Seriously. Get a grip! Lol)

The phrase "Your new eyes look pretty on you.” It can be used figuratively. It could refer to a change in perspective or attitude, suggesting that this new way of seeing or understanding things suits them well. The Wimbledon event is a fitting example. If I remember correctly, this was the first time we saw N publicly since the premiere, and she looked stunning, confident, and radiant. And L admires this (as always).

The lines "Oh, if I die today, Will it be without grace?, Will it be violent? Will it be tame? Will I be silent? Will I be brave?" express a profound contemplation about the nature of one's death. Together, these lines reveal a deep anxiety or curiosity about how one’s end will unfold, pondering its nature and the emotional or spiritual state in which it will occur. He is reflecting on the finiteness of life, but this is just a melancholic moment, not a serious contemplation of death.

“I don't wanna go.” This could imply that he doesn’t want to die, but even more so that he doesn’t want to become a soulless person. Furthermore, it could mean that he doesn’t want to attend events where A is present or that he didn’t want to go to Italy and go through that gateway. There are plenty of options. (We hate some of these too.)

So, this was the analysis of the lyrics of this song. It turned out pretty long, so thanks to anyone who reads it. But I enjoyed breaking it down line by line and reflecting on it from a Lukola perspective. Obviously it is soo delulu. Probably I'm on the board to win the title for the longest unnecessary post. ✌️🤍

[chaoticbuggybitchboy]

IF I HAD TO CHOOSE BETWEEN LONELY AND YOU I THINK ID BLOCK YOUR NUMBER

[iii-days-grace]

can't wait until @in-death-we-fall wakes up and sees all the 13/1/2 polycule stuff i just woke up at 4:00 AM to write in his DMs, apparently

[flashbackonyourbehalf]

I can’t tell if this is solely due to oxycodone withdrawals but I feel so pissed off, frustrated, and overall awful.

I started this blog last summer to cope with the abuse my now-ex husband put me through. Now that I’m completely sober, it’s all flooding back.

Thing is, I’ve blocked most of it out. I’ve forgotten a lot of what he did (hell, there was so much), but I remember how he made me feel. It was nothing short of a hellish nightmare.

I’m tired, I’m ugly, I’m restless, I’m angry, I’m incompetent.

And as much as I want it to, time won’t stop for anything.

[ratdentist]

Some recent photos

[oodlesodoodles]

[chipsahoyforyaboi]

❤️ Big T*ts Big Heart ❤️

Favorite shirt at the moment for sure

Taking asks until I fall back asleep

[missjashin]

It’s been some time and Dustin and Steve go to see Wayne. Maybe he is moving out of Hawkins and they go to help with packing or maybe they just wanna check on him and he is reminiscing Eddie. Either way he has punch of old photos out. School photos, birthdays, first concerts, various different types from different ages.

One photo really catches Steve’s eye tho. It’s a group photo from the early 70s, taken in the summer. Steve asks Wayne “Why do you have this?”, seemingly little shocked and bewildered by the photo. Wayne looks at the photo and smiles telling it was taken in a summer camp Eddie once went. “That’s my boy” Wayne tells pointing one kid among the others. Dustin also looks at the photo and smiles. It seems like a good and happy memory.

So Wayne and Dustin get little puzzled when they hear choked sob coming from Steve. He is trying to hold it together but not really succeeding, his hands in his hair pulling so hard it can’t be comfortable. Just walking away from them now, fighting the tears. Rather weird and strong reaction for a mere summer camp photo, especially coming from Steve… Till you take a little closer look at the photo.

Because yes, with his buzz cut hair and thousand watt smile there’s little Eddie. Little Eddie who has his arm over another kid’s shoulder, pulling closer a little boy with a sweet smile, chestnut hair and tiny moles dotted on his face.

[lemonidae]

BEST LIGHT HAIRED CHARACTER TOURNAMENT

Round 1:

Laois Touden (Dungeon Meshi) -vs- Mithrun (Dungeon Meshi)

Vash the stampede (Trigun) Lost to Arataka Reigen in Round 1, Saved in Round 1.5

Round 2:

Laois Touden (Dungeon Meshi) -vs- Thorfinn (Vinland Saga)

Vash the stampede (Trigun) -vs- Victor Nikiforov (Yuri on Ice)

Round 3:

Laois Touden (Dungeon Meshi) -vs- Arataka Reigen (Mob Psycho 100)

Vash the stampede (Trigun) -vs- Ash Lynx (Banana Fish)

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Best dark haired character tournament: Round 1

[bellybo0]

brat summer this. brat summer that. this is the summer i’m having

[b4kuch1n]

sunstroll

[kindahoping4forever]

Luke on IG Story

[hannahssimblr]

Lucky Boy: Evie and Jude

The story so far

[iii-days-grace]

Just posting this one quick before work so I can figure out if these plants grow in Iowa

tar seems to be a popular remedy for asthma and other lung conditions actually! Like I've also heard of people taking children or animals down to construction sites to huff the asphalt fumes to cure their wheezes. It is bracing at least?

Wild or Indian turnip

Slacked lime

Tar (not specified if pine or coal tar)

Milkweed

Lobelia

Wine

[beskarfrog]

what good would i be to you? my hands have no memories of peace, my mouth no soft words of comfort