#sorry this is such a mess I just kinda wanted to vent a bit I guess

[makerofmadness]

Gotta say being Persian is funny because you're too white for progressives to care about your representation but not white enough to not get called camel-riders

[devildom-moss]

May I possibly ask for headcaons for the brothers with a MC does not speak like at all? Like Zero words unless they’re in a position where they absolutely have to talk? Sorry for late request.

First, sorry that I still have so many requests in my inbox, and I kinda disappeared for two weeks. I was feeling kinda uninspired for a bit. None of the requests were fully clicking in my brain, but I tried. I hope you'll end up seeing this and will enjoy it, anon.

Reacting to an MC who doesn't speak unless necessary headcanons (the demon brothers)

(Suggestive for some: Lucifer, Asmodeus, Belphegor)

(Warning: Belphie's last headcanon has some creepy, messed up, dubcon-ish vibes)

Word Count: +2,600

Lucifer

He gets pissed off by it for the stupidest, most irrational reasons. When he lectures and nags you, he takes your lack of response as a sign that you were ignoring him or don’t care what he has to say. If he’s just trying to chat with you, and you don’t respond verbally, he assumes you’re uninterested in him. Lucifer gets especially upset when he asks you a question and you respond non-verbally (shaking or nodding your head, shrugging, pointing) – even if you’re answering him properly. All of it hurts his pride, and he’ll huff and pout about it all day.

I know he’s like the dad of the group, but if you don’t explain why you don’t talk, he’ll be so childish about it. He might even resort to giving you the silent treatment in return.

His annoyance is eased a bit when he sees that it’s not just him you don’t talk to.

You’ll confuse the poor man so much if you’re comfortable texting him. How is he supposed to take that? So, you’ll chat with him in messages, but you won’t actually speak to him? He’ll wonder if you’re mute and just never brought it up – but he hopes not, because then he would feel like an ass for getting mad.

Assumes that you’re just nervous or scared, so he tries to interrogate you for the answer. At least he’s smart enough to ask only yes or no questions.

You’re better off just explaining to him that you don’t speak unless you have to. He won’t push for your reasoning – although he’s curious. Eventually, he figures, you’ll let him know.

It’s still frustrating from time to time after he understands that it’s just how you are, but he can appreciate the quiet.

Definitely takes advantage of it to vent to you. However, he wishes you’d stop glaring at him when he does something wrong. It’s hard to enjoy the perk of you not scolding him when you’re burning holes into him.

The closer you get, the more he wants to hear your voice. You can’t tell me this man wouldn’t try to get you alone and tease you until you spoke to him, and then say some cocky shit like “There we go. Let me hear your voice. I can be the only one you share those sounds with.” Put him in horny jail.

Mammon

He doesn’t understand you. Even if you explain that it’s just how you are – even if you had a perfectly rational explanation for why (other than just not wanting to), Mammon wouldn’t get it. “How could ya not wanna talk to me, the Great Mammon?”

He’s always chatting or arguing with someone, so the idea of just sitting silently is unsettling for him. When you’re quiet, he starts to worry about whether you’re enjoying hanging out with him, so he’ll often glance over at you, scanning your face for any hints of your feelings. And, honestly, he gets pretty good at picking up on your particular expressions and body language.

Mammon feels weird about being the only one talking, so he tends to ask permission and check in more often. “Can I bend your ear for a bit?” / “Ya mind if I talk during our movie?” / “Just lemme know if I’m gettin’ on ya nerves or somethin’. I don’t gotta talk.” If you welcome him talking to you, he’ll be overjoyed – albeit a bit over-confident. “Damn right. I knew ya couldn’t get bored of the Great Mammon.”

After the pact, he loves that you are sparing with the “stay” command. He can only imagine how bad it would be if you used it whenever he got slightly out of hand.

However, he also gets bummed that you don’t really stick up for him when his brothers are insulting him. The comfort from you holding his hand or offering him physical reassurance is nice, but sometimes he wants more.

Feels sad that he can’t hear any praise or kindness you offer him through messages directly from your lips. He might bring it up and ask you to say something nice to him – especially after a rough day. “Ya can’t blame a demon for wantin’ to hear ya say it. Just for today? Come on.”

If he gets you to say his name (or really anything at all) in private, he’ll beg you to say it again and again. He wants to savor the sound of your voice and engrave it in his mind.

Leviathan

Take the older two’s insecurity and doubt, add it up, and multiply it by 23. He assumes you hate him at first – and his first response to that is “yeah. Fair.”

He gets so consumed by self-pity that it takes him longer than it should to realize that you’re like that with everyone. You aren’t singling him out just because you hate the shut-in otaku – although he doesn’t rule out that you still might hate him.

That worry doesn’t go away until you two start texting more often. You actually seem interested in engaging with him. A part of him still thinks that it’s just wishful thinking on his end.

He needs to get confirmation that you just don’t talk unless necessary – for whatever reason. Like Lucifer, he won’t push you for a reason. He’d love for you to open up and tell him if you have one, but you don’t have to. Once he knows that, he’ll be a lot more comfortable around you.

Levi loves that you’ll just let him go on and on about his interests. He’ll even leave you lengthy voice messages and patiently wait for a response. However, his insecurity gets the better of him, and he establishes a system with you so you can get him to shut up whenever (if ever) he’s being too much for you. It’s something simple like putting both hands up during a conversation or texting a stop sign to signal that you need him to pause.

Often texts you while you’re in the same room (much to everyone’s, especially Lucifer’s, annoyance) or messages you through games. You’ve both gotten lectured by Lucifer multiple times about not having your phones out at the dinner table.

The first time he gets you to laugh out loud at one of his messages, he falls so hard. He’ll be a flustered mess and immediately get upset that he didn’t capture such a beautiful moment on video.

Satan

He notices that you don’t talk unless necessary quicker than the others, so he’s not particularly offended that you don’t speak to him.

Probably the most understanding and willing to meet you where you’re at. He won’t try to get you to talk. Instead, he’ll try to incorporate different forms of nonverbal communication with you. Satan will try to learn some sign language with you as to develop more communication options that don’t require you to speak.

He’s good about asking yes or no questions and remains patient with you while you try to communicate with him.

It feels personal to him that your feelings are taken into consideration, and you’re given the tools and time you need to express yourself. Satan still remembers all the times he wished someone had been more patient with him when he was angry or hurt.

He’ll also communicate with you via text even when you’re in the same room. It’s a win-win. You’re free to respond however you wish, and he gets to hold a secret conversation with you. It makes it easier to plot his pranks on Lucifer with you, too. Lucifer can’t overhear any plots if you two don’t speak. However, he gets incredibly shy when he’s texting you and someone points out that he has a smile on his face. He’ll blush and get all indignant. “Shut up. I was watching videos of cats.” Which is, of course, a blatant lie. If he was, he’d be trying to show the videos off while gushing about the cats.

Satan will often try to communicate with you through books. He’ll share his books with you, often leaving notes inside that you can respond to – sometimes in the margins, but often on cat-themed note cards that he tucked between pages. Also, he would 100% write letters to you. Sure, he could say that to your face or in a text, but it wouldn’t be the same.

However, sometimes, especially when he’s on the verge of a rage-induced rampage, he just wants to hear your voice. He wants to hear you comforting and soothing him as he tries to calm down. He wants to hear you praise him. He wants to hear you whisper his name.

Asmodeus

He could talk enough for the both of you. Although he probably still talks less than Levi, Asmo has enough gossip to keep you entertained for hours. He could go on and on about nothing, just spilling ideas out for you to examine.

He doesn’t get why you don’t speak to him much, and it takes him a while to realize that you’re like that with everyone. “Aww, too stunned by my beauty to speak? Go on, you can praise me if you want. I only bite if you ask me to.”

If you shake your head “no” in response to him, he’ll be so insulted. You’ll have to explain soon after because Asmo will be pouty for days if he thinks you just don’t want to talk to him, Asmodeus, the cutest being to ever grace the Devildom.

After you explain to him that you don’t talk unless necessary (and that it’s not just him you don’t talk to), he’ll perk up cheerfully. “Oh, why didn’t you just say – oh. Well, never mind that. I’m just so glad you’re not immune to my charm.”

He appreciates it when you’re willing to listen to him. Even if you don’t respond to him verbally, he feels heard. Occasionally, he’ll ask to vent to you if he knows that your one-sided conversation is mostly going to consist of complaints.

He’ll text you a lot – often including a bunch of stickers, voice messages, and videos. In part, he’s hoping one day you’ll send him a voice message or video so he can have a file of your voice saved on his D.D.D. forever.

Pushes you to talk sometimes because he worries that he puts all the weight of his stress onto you. He doesn’t understand how you get your feelings out without talking, so he’s worried about you being all pent up. If you really won’t talk, he may try to drag you along during some of his stress-relief activities (spa days, shopping sprees, and I kind of headcanon that he would box on occasion just so he can punch something).

Definitely still flirts with you. However, instead of waiting for a response, he watches your expressions. “Well, if you’re ever feeling stressed, you can talk to me. And if you still don’t want to talk, pull me to a bed, and I’ll make you moan instead.”

Beelzebub

He’s not a big talker himself, but the absolute silence from you makes him uneasy. At first, he assumed you might be more of a listener like him, but after he sees someone try to strike up a conversation (or if he tries himself), he realizes that isn’t the case.

Wonders if he makes you uncomfortable. Usually, others don’t approach him or talk to him because he’s intimidating. So, maybe that’s the case with you, too? If one of his brothers mentions that you don’t talk to them when he’s around, Beel might question if you’re afraid of all demons.

He’s surprisingly nervous when he tries to ask. He’ll bring you an offering of delicious snacks, asking if you want to share with him. (In his head, no one who offers good food should be seen as scary.) If you accept, he’ll smile and wait for you to try it before awkwardly asking, “Hey, MC, are you scared of me? Do you not like demons?”

He will be overjoyed when you shake your head “no.” “That’s a relief. But why don’t you want to talk to me or my brothers?”

You’ll probably have to find some way to explain it to him eventually. He’ll let you off if all you do in that moment is shrug, but his “oh” in response will sound so sad. He’s smart enough to send a text later, asking if messages were an okay way to communicate instead.

Once he understands that you just don’t talk, Beel’s pretty chill about it. He still likes spending time with you – especially now that he knows you don’t dislike him. You don’t have to talk to enjoy meals with him or watch movies or exercise together.

He’s the least likely to crave the sound of your voice. That isn’t to say he wouldn’t appreciate it, but communicating through messages and physical touch is plenty for him. A tight hug, holding his hand, a kiss, caressing his arm – all of it speaks to him just as sweetly.

Belphegor

It takes him longer than it should to realize you don’t talk. Partly because of this, he’s pretty chill about it at first. He likes that you don’t nag him about sleeping too much or not listening in class or dumping his chores on his brothers.

Doesn’t notice until he asks you something and you don’t speak. He would probably be using you as a pillow when he starts chatting before he drifts off to sleep. His eyes would be closed as he awaits your response. Nothing. Annoyed, he would open one eye to see why in the Devildom you’re ignoring him.

“What, not interested in talking to me?” Nod. “That’s rude – but I’ll let it go this time since you’re such a comfy pillow.” Belphie would snuggle into you. Then, it would hit him. “Have you ever spoken to me?” Shake. “Really?” Nod. “Why not?” Shrug. “You can speak, right?” Nod. Belphie would scoff and finally fall asleep.

He (thinks he) gets it: talking is such a bother sometimes. He doesn’t assume he did anything wrong, especially if you’re letting him cuddle with you.

Belphie loves napping on you in relative silence. You can still stargaze with him while he offers free lectures on the constellations.

His understanding doesn’t last long. Eventually, he hates that you don’t talk at all. He wants to hear your voice when he’s falling asleep. He wants you to call out his name when you wake him up (and in general). Messages don’t feel like enough. He wants to hear you praise him and tell him he’ll be okay. Reading comforting, affectionate words is nice, but he needs more.

He will tickle you to try to get you to talk – or at least tell him to stop. He’ll ask you whether you would be okay talking to him in a dream, and he would probably invade your dreams without permission, seeking out your voice.

Belphie’s the least understanding and somehow the most persistent. You’ll have to send him a strongly worded message (or be extra and tell him via a letter) or get one of his brothers (Beel, Satan, or Lucifer) to tell him he needs to chill.

Honestly, he’s horrible. If he has already developed feelings for you and you are okay with some forms of physical affection, he would push his luck – kissing you deeper and touching you wherever he pleases. “If you want me to stop, say it. Or just let me have my way until you’re screaming my name.” He says that, but he would probably stop at the first sign of resistance and apologize (but it’s still a pretty messed up thing to try).

A/N: Again, sorry I've been so unmotivated to write here - and kind of in general, too. I hope this came out alright and it will give me some momentum to keep working on requests. I'll see if I can get something else up this week. The thing is, some of the requests are so long that they're daunting to even start - so that might be part of it. But I'll shut up now.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for insisting on an apology?

☆I'M SO SORRY THIS GOT WAY TOO LONG☆

(Ok tbh I feel like I already know the answer, but I'd like some other opinions just in case. Also, I kinda need to vent, sorry)

(ALSO- I tried to post this on reddit AITA and holy shit are they picky about submissions- this story got deleted because "no interpersonal relationship problems allowed". WHAT possible conflict situation would not be interpersonal? Can you even have a AITA submission that isn't interpersonal?)

My mom is a premium member of a casino and she found out that the casino was having a BBQ for the premium members and their guests. So she wanted us to go.

Except she didn't find out about this BBQ until the day before it would happen and I had work that day and since my shift had long ended, I would not get a chance to talk to anyone at work about switching shifts and I don't have anyone's number to ask. So my mom decided for me that I should just call out.

Now here's where I might be TA (but I feel like what happened after could earn me back some points)

I was pissed off at the fact that she didn't even ask if I wanted to go or if I was ok with calling out or if I even COULD get someone to cover. She just automatically told me to call out, like I have to listen to her. (I'm over 18. I am an adult) I didn't appreciate that she just decided this for me like I was a child and told her so. This lead to a big fight where I cussed at her and called her a bitch and told her to go fuck herself (not my best moment) and told her to go to this stupid BBQ alone. (I genuinely meant that part about going alone- at least somebody should enjoy it. Also, she's my ride, so I was willing to be stranded with no way of getting anywhere if it would enable her to enjoy her party.)

After I calmed down, I told her I'd be willing to call out if she absolutely insisted. She said no, it was fine and I ended up going to work as usual.

Almost.

About an hour before my shift ends, she shows up AT MY JOB and tells me to ask my manager if I could leave.

No! It doesn't work that way! I work retail. As far as I know, no retail job will let you leave early unless it's an emergency. She worked retail, she knows the drill. So I tell her to think of a legitimate reason why I'd have to leave and I'd tell my lead that. (Luckily I had a lead I was pretty chill with that day and she was like why is your mom here? And when I explained the situation, she was like "yeah I don't really care if you leave, but I need you to make up a legitimate excuse for when [our boss] asks why you left.")

She couldn't think of a reason, and after humiliating me at my job, she left without me noticing and I finished my shift. (It was a very busy and stressful day, even without my mom pulling that shit)

She surprisingly picked me up when my shift was over and we went to the dinner and were able to make it in time and had a nice dinner, so all of her stunts were wholly unnecessary.

She had sent me several long and vicious texts while I was at work that I didn't see until much later in the night. I will quote some of the more vicious ones (text message will have 《》 around them my personal thoughts on the text will be after with *) omitting personal info:

《You are a 26 year old loser [my name] stuck at a dead-end job that you've been doing for almost 5 years. A little bit of a rush shouldn't phase you like it does and you should be able to ask to leave a few minutes early- why can't you?》

*Name-calling is unnecessary and rude. She is constantly putting me down and calling me a loser and insulting my job, like she doesn't also work retail. So it's no wonder why I hesitate to jeopardize my job to please her.

[Context- one of the reasons I couldn't leave, other than the fact that retail Doesn't Work That Way is that I had a huge rush of customers and had to straighten up my department that I was working alone. I was closing and it would be extremely obvious who had left the department a mess and I would get in trouble for it.]

《Who left you with that mess? I overheard them [my leads] talking and they didn't sound like they thought you were being left with anything. They thought you should've handled it and can't do your job if that was a problem.》

*This one really got me and I was VERY glad I didn't see this text while at work, because I probably would've had some kind of meltdown. I honestly do not know how long she's been doing this (probably my whole life) but recently I've been noticing that she keeps trying to plant seeds of doubt and paranoia in me. Mostly by telling me that people are talking about me behind my back and/or judging me. Or telling me that my friends don't actually like me. Another example that I caught recently was her telling me that when I go to retail stores as a customer, she notices other customers and the employees staring at me, judging my hair/outfit/whatever. I immediately thought this was total bullshit, but just in case I was wrong, I paid extra, EXTRA attention to everyone around me when I was out in public to see if anyone was pointing, whispering, looking at me, doing anything to suggest judgement and I honestly did not see a single person even glance at me. I have unnaturally colored hair, so I expected at least one glance, but I got nothing. Side note rant over.*

I'm not going to quote the last text, as it doesn't have any specific quotes that provide any context. She just demanded that if I am not out of work by 5:01 (exactly 1 minute after my shift ends) then she is leaving me stranded and that I need to get my friend to pick me up.

*which....I live in her car. If I hadn't been out on time, I would've been completely stranded at night, with nowhere to go and no way to get there, which as a female, is unbelievably dangerous. It is also incredibly rude to demand that my friend, who doesn't work with me and has his own life, should drop everything and come pick me up and....what? Take me where? I'd probably end up having to stay at his house, which is very rude to basically guilt him into letting me stay at his house for the night*

SO after the dinner, I read all these texts and I was furious and insisted that she apologize to me for 1. Causing a scene at my work 2. All of that nasty shit she said to me in the texts and 3. For blaming me for ruining her plans when even after I went to my shift, we were still able to go to the dinner, so all of the stunts she pulled were entirely unnecessary.

She literally laughed in my face and called me delusional (for...wanting a verbal apology....) and when I doubled down on demanding an apology, she called me a delusional cunt and I still have never received an apology to this day.

What are these acronyms?

[anakiinhighwalker]

How they react when you’re injured please? Thank you!

evil laughter. i woll make a part 2 if asked….

— Obi Wan Kenobi

Poor Obi Wan. First it’s Anakin getting blasted and now it’s you in the medical bay getting patched up. He can’t help it at this point; he immediately assumes the worst. It’s second nature for him to worry about the people he cares about at this point. I don’t think there’s a day where Obi Wan doesn’t worry about something, which is both sad and kinda impressive for the old man (affectionately).

He has a bad habit of holding his breath before he sees you. It just adds to his feeling of being suffocated of hearing you get hurt. Is it melodramatic? A bit. But it just makes his love for you all that blatantly obvious; he literally can’t breathe if you’re not okay

Honestly, I don’t think it depends on the severity of the wound—Obi Wan will worry. He’s seen someone as powerful as his master get killed by a simple stab (although it was with a lightsaber). Obi Wan knows that any wound, regardless of how small or miniscule it can appear, can bring unseen consequences with it. Better safe than sorry is his motto, for anything really.

Constant testing, constant checking. I swear by the time Obi Wan’s done inspecting you himself, he’ll have a PhD.

It’s tough for Obi Wan to conceal his worry. He attempts to mask his worry with frustration towards the situation at hand but it can only convince so many people. You don’t know why, but Obi Wan always lets his professional Jedi mask slip when you’re any type of injured. He can’t ever seem not worried over you and there’s been too many close calls where Yoda raises an eyebrow at Obi Wan’s tenderness towards you.

He vents to Yoda that you shouldn’t be getting hurt and that it’s not fair. But he does it in his own, poised manner of venting. He’s very subtle when he’s venting because he doesn’t like to yell nor complain outright; It’s a quiet, seething type. Maybe there’s some untapped anger deep inside of him sitting about, piling up at the very fact someone had the opening to hurt you.

“This is ridiculous. How can the fleet expect to protect the capital if they can’t even protect them? They’re in the infirmary now and it’s because I was too distracted with droids.”

He’s just feeling too many things. Any anger he feels is stemming directly from the fact he wants to so desperately protect you from everything and anything bad. Don’t hold it against him if he’s moody or in a bad mood. Obi Wan loves you deeply—more than a man of his status should—so the aspect of harm coming to you unsettles him to a disturbing amount. That and mixed with his unresolved emotions towards his master’s death? The way the war has shaped and molded him? :(

Please please please reassure General Kenobi. He needs you to straighten him out so he can work properly.

— Anakin Skywalker (Deftones Liker)

It’s like Anakin adapted Obi Wan’s worrying but then added his little Ani twist to it and now it’s Anakin worrying AND being livid. This man has destroyed and mauled droids for blasting too close to you and I’m pretty sure if he could, he would’ve beat the shit out of the senator who messed with you. I don’t think Anakin has a chill button when it comes to you.

He’s too worried, in fact. He can become overbearing very quickly if you don’t check him. I’m talking Obi Wan’s checks but combine that with constant questioning and no chill at all. Anakin will very quickly overwhelm both the nurses and you with his frequent checking. So much so that you’re not sure if you’re secret relationship will be so secret afterwards (not that it was hidden that much in the first place tbh).

It’s even worse if Anakin can find the person or thing that hurt you. Whoever let Anakin roam free with his lightsaber and no therapy is the TRUE menace to society. Because the DAMAGE he will do if he’s unrestraint, oooh Lordy. I’m not even sure if I can say Anakin won’t kill a man for hurting you. You’re way too precious to him to care about someone else’s well-being, and especially if that person hurt you? Bye. They’re goners.

Obi Wan doesn’t panic, he silently worries. Anakin does panics and probably gets overwhelmed from how much he panics. He makes Ahsoka and Rex worry with him unknowingly with how he paces about. He, like his master, also has a habit of constantly checking your wounds and injuries to reassure himself that it’s not that grave. I honestly think Anakin puts a fairly decent amount of guilt on himself since he feels like he couldn’t protect you despite being such a highly regarded Jedi.

Would cry a little in all honesty. Anakins very emotional and he needs you to tell him to relax and to calm down because I really think Anakin can’t do that himself. He puts so much time, effort and love into your relationship that if you were to leave in any way, I don’t think it’s too far off to say Anakin would be shattered.

Angry venting to Obi Wan and Rex. If he doesn’t vent, he paces and overthinks and scowls. Honestly, at this stage is when Anakin could be really be tempted by the dark side if he’s not reassured your recovery. I think ROTS speaks for itself lol.

Once you’re safe and healthy, the way this man is so relieved and he always reminds you how much he loves you.

— Ahsoka Tano

Old trauma flares up. Ahsoka saw so much as a teenager during the Clone Wars and she’s still seen so much now as a leader for the Rebellion. The fact you’re harmed? What’s she suppose to do? Like her master, Ahsoka feels self pity and guilt at the fact she could not stop blaster fire from hurting you.

Ahsoka was never a crybaby when someone got hurt or died, she only has a faded memory of crying a little when Obi Wan was fatally ‘shot’ by a bounty hunter she doesn’t even remember the name of. So she won’t cry when she hears of your injury. But the way any Force sensitive person could feel her sorrow. I honestly believe Ahsoka’s guilt and deep melancholy would have a domino effect on people.

She’s learned to keep her cool and to be refined like a Jedi in combat because if she’s not, she could end up like him. Ahsoka, both with time and with becoming a leader, has learned to remain calm and quiet during tough times. Her quietness is both for good and bad. Good for others, who assume their leader is not afraid and unmoving at the Empire’s threat. But bad for herself—she becomes recluse and guards even the most deplorable, horrid feelings with mental guards.

Sort of pushes you to the back of her mind. She has to focus on the success of the Rebellion and how to undo everything the Empire has done; Ahsoka doesn’t have time to grieve or feel sorry for herself. She has to step up as the leading command of the biggest revolt against the Empire.

Silent over-thinker who really needs a break. She mimics Anakin’s nervous habits without even thinking. Pacing in her room, overthinking, scowling, it’s so ironic how she can be so similar to Anakin when she doesn’t paint herself as a wise, strong and sort of ethereal leader.

When you’re okay, Ahsoka asks everyone to leave you to be. And she finally lets her guard down and hugs you tight, so afraid she would have lost you to whatever battle you were fighting. She was so ready for the pain of the loss that it always gives her a happy surprise you’re always bouncing back better. It’s kinda sad to say, but Ahsoka has been surrounded by loss her entire life so the possibility of you leaving isn’t as frightening as it should be. She doesn’t know if thats healthy.

You kiss her cheek and she stops dissociating. You clear her blurry, rushed thoughts and soothe her sorrows and traumas. :)

— Luke Skywalker

This boy is human disaster Anakin Skywalker’s son. He’s practically BESTIES with worrying and overthinking! He doesn’t mean to worry, since Luke believes the Jedi way is one with mental stability and without struggle of overbearing emotions. But tuen again, Luke’s also a Skywalker. He attempts to appear this graceful Jedi who won’t freak out but we all know Luke is worrying his bowl cut off thinking about you.

I dont know if it’s a Skywalker family thing, but Luke really worries himself horribly thinking about the fact you might, even for a split second, die. That grave idea of death haunts him even if it doesn’t show behind his cool attitude and collected persona. He just deeply cares about you; he adores you beyond measure so the lingering thought in the back of his head of your demise is something that just—frightens the poor guy.

Although worried, he will put heavy amounts of trust and huge amounts of pressure (unknowingly) onto the doctors and medics doing everything they can to ensure you don’t pay an early visit to Luke’s hot dad. Like he’ll put a gloved hand onto the medic’s shoulder, tighten his grip a bit and go, “They’ll be okay, right? I don’t have to worry, right?” with his imposing stance and intense stare. I swear Luke sometimes scares people without meaning to.

Fighting himself a little bit. One side is like, ‘your feelings are valid, Luke. You have every right to be concerned over them—what if they pass like aunt and uncle?’ but the other side is like ‘No Luke, you need to be the Jedi that your dad and that Ben Kenobi wanted you to be.’ so often Luke is between the rift of wanting to feel as selfishly as a human feels but also feeling as selflessly as a Jedi would. What an unfair world, unfair circumstances too. Neither of you deserve this outcome.

He loves visiting you anytime he can, he loves having Han bug you to check up on you even if Han does tease you a little because your leg is broken. (Thank Luke for getting you stuck with Han Solo for the next few days. Fyi, Han is not the greatest bedside nurse. He’s probably the worst bedside nurse. He won’t even put on the hot nurse skirt, either!)

Not much else. If you get better, Luke recovers from his limbo of constant infighting in that noggin of his. If you don’t, well, we don’t have to go down the rabbithole that is Luke’s easy susceptibility into long periods of depression. Stares HARD at older Luke.

When you get back and moving, it’s just a relief for him. :)

— Padme Amidala

Eerily calm, like very eerily calm. I don’t know how she can stand to be so calm but it’s honestly very just Padme for her to not outright show so much explosive emotions; that’s not how she was raised, afterall. Even in her most dire moments, Padme can cry yes but I don’t feel as though she’s the type to have earth shattering outbursts although she does experience. She’s just never displayed them.

It eats at her though, no matter where she is. There she could be listening to some senator go on and on about their trade routes and how the Separatist scum have crested rifts in business and all Padme can think about is you. Just you. Your well-being and recovery is the only thing so very valuable to her in those moments.

She visits often and her aura of calm and poised position comforts you. At least one of you has the ability to remain so level-headed even during such difficult times. Her lessons and etiquettes in manners really kick in, her back sat straight and her gentle hand on yours everything but out of place. Padme is so gentle and softspoken with you that it shocks you she can be such, well, a princess even when shit hits the fan. She really is ready to be a professional senator, isn’t she?

Will argue with nurses and doctors to see you. I don’t care, that woman is doing everything in her power to constantly check up on you. Even if it’s getting Anakin to get up from his couch to check on you or getting 3po go make the journey into the medbay. You’ll either grow exasperated with her persistence to check up on you or you’ll find it incredibly attractive.

Her handmaidens make sure you’re okay too after you’re discharged from the hospital. Sabé stays with you throughout your whole recovery when Padme can’t be with you. And when she is with you, I dont think I can explain how caring she will be. How simply and utterly devoted Padme will become to taking care of you—it will probably make others jealous that such a beautiful woman loves you so much.

Chats with senator Organa about you. Discussing your situation and Organa being the amazing person he is, comforting Padme’s each and every worry. He also just kinda likes the gossip Padme tells him. Not to mention, you and Padme are cute together lol he loves to see y’all thrive.

Kisses. So many kisses. She sneaks in cheek and direct kisses whenever she can; Sneaky kisses, gentle kisses, adoring kisses and apologetic kisses. Padme will do all she can to see you smile, because your smile is the most precious thing to her.

— Mundi

idk but he’ll prolly hit the california girls dance on u lol for getting hurt

ditches u for one of his other wives (is that still canon???)

[wrathofrats]

I NEED MORE ERA 3 GHOUL CONTENT 😭 PLEASE MORE IM BEGGING PLEASSSSSSEEEEE

Again yall are opening a box that I cannot contain. I’ve been rambling about old ghouls to @divine-misfortune for months.

Here’s some of the headcanons we’ve come up with. Please enjoy

Also I’m counting era 3 ghouls as pebble, ivy, cowbell, mist, zephyr, ifrit and delta! But delta will not be mentioned here for reasons (the reasons are I am having a lot of fun with him and will post about him later). And I know I talk a lot about Zeph and ifrit on here so I’ll put a bit less of them.

Cut for length bc ohhh im going to ramble

Pebble:

- very punk inspired for looks. I think he has a lot of piercings and that kind of mentality. He’s a rebel (also a shithead but like in the most positive way)

- his favorite hobby is fucking with alpha. He’s just so easy to anger. It’s all stupid pranks and comments, harmless but they argue a lot.

- he smokes weed in the vents with cowbell

- extremely soft for ivy. Also very possessive but it’s ok they’re in love your honor.

Ivy:

- shy, nerd type, he looks like a dork im sorry. He has anxiety just a bit for character

- pebble is his emotional support mean person

- he’s so sweet. Genuinely just here to be nice to others and vibe

- terrible pain tolerance. He’s a bit of a baby but I love him so much (pebble coddles him beyond belief)

- touchy, enjoys physical contact

Mist:

- short hair, rbf, she runs the place like the navy when she’s left in charge

- snarky, very well respected, very “leave me alone” type a fair amount of the time

- enjoys messing with the other ghouls w pebble. They’re besties I don’t make the rules

- very much dews mentor when he’s first summoned

- she’s my mean lesbian stereotype back off I’m in love with her

Cowbell

- oh he’s kinda fucking strange

- like he looks off putting. He came out wrong (I love him)

- enjoys being creepy. He likes scaring the other ghouls by looking fucking strange

- fire and air specialized multi ghoul

- he knows everything about everyone

Zephyr:

- disabled and chronically ill (he’s my emotional support Barbie and I’ll give them all the illnesses I want)

- he/they or they/them it depends on the day

- mean, cranky old man (with so much love)

- obviously they’re in love with ifrit and would do anything for him that’s his himbo everyone else back off

- he has a sick ass cane that og earth widdled them to help with the joint pain

Ifrit:

- he’s so beefy and stupid

- he’s so fucking sweet though. Like he is THE himbo

- carries Zeph around bc he would do anything for them

I’m leaving this here but phhhhhh pls ask me about the old ghouls and these guys PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ASK ME ABOUT THEM ALL MORE IM DYING TO TALK ABOUT THEM

[td-scenarios]

Okay same thing with Anne Maria but Heather, mean girl is so pretty.

Thank you so much (I loved the last one so much!)

OMG YESSSSS ur literally inside my head i swear <3 mean girl,,,, (also im gonna go w/ like s1 Heather since that dynamic seems the most fun to me :D )

Heather x f!reader where Heather isn't used to a girl crushing on her

Okay, let's be honest, Heather would act like it didn't phase her for the longest time

Like her "of course she likes me. I'm hot asf" mentality yk

She's a bad bitch she's gonna act like one

Okay with that out of the way

You've fallen for her

HARD.

Like, yeah, she's kind of a bitch to everyone around her and is extremely manipulative

But in your head, you could fix her (or decide you like the atrocities. either way, you love her.)

Really, it starts off relatively small. Your main displays of affection towards her were staying out of her way and just admiring from afar

Not close enough to be manipulated like Beth and Lindsay, but not far enough to be completely shit on like Gwen or Leshawna.

But slowly, it develops a bit more where you're just

"Oh no. It's not a simple crush anymore I think I really really like her"

So now, she is starting to recognize your presence within the game

You defending her whenever the other campers get on her ass

Never voting for her

Stumbling through your words everytime she talks to you

This is basically all it takes for her to notice that you like her more than in a friend way. Let's be clear, she's NOT dumb.

At first, she thought she could use it against you to get you out, but something about that idea seemed "illogical" to her

Heather decided that you'd be better to keep around instead of getting rid of you too early

Rookie mistake.

She may or may not start catching feelings back in the meantime

The way that you're willing to stand your ground against the other campers, the way you are pretty competent in challenges, not to mention the fact that you are somewhat bearable.

And, being Island Heather, she has no one she will willingly vent to besides the confessional and she did NOT want the people at home knowing a vulnerability of hers

So the gay thoughts™ stay pent up and attack her like crazy

This is when she starts to think that she NEEDS to get you voted off

You are messing up her game and by God if she loses that prize money just because the most attractive girl she has ever met is on this island she will just about murder someone

Any move you try to make on her from this point onward will be ultimately thwarted since she will make the most distance between the two of you as possible

Everyone else had seemed so EASY to get voted off, but you. You were just too perfect in her eyes. She couldn't think of any possible weakness that she could use to get you voted off and it was driving her insane

There is no happy ending here unless you get voted off I'm sorry. It's just her character to not positively commit to anybody while also participating on the show

But once you do get voted off

Her game on the show would only improve. Her only motives being the money and getting to see you again

She doesn't get the money

But you end up being the only person who doesn't laugh at her shaved head and that only allows the two of you to grow closer

(I'm so sorry if this is worse than the usual imagines i write </3 im kinda out of practice AS YALL KNOW qwq)

[the-s1lly-corner]

facial dysmorphia comfort spot x reader

maybe maybe

Spot w/ an S/O who has facial dysmorphia

Okokokok two things!!

One I am once again so sorry for taking so long for getting to your ask 😭😭 same goes for everyone else who sent in requests <\3 but I got nothing going on tonight so I'll likely be knocking out asks throughout tonight!!

Second!!

Bit personal but I really didnt know there was dysmorphia that's centered around faces :0 I thought it was just body dysmorphia; and this ask kinda

Made me feel things

Not necessarily bad things but like

"Oh that's a hyper specific version of me" as someone with body dysmorphia that's very. Face centered

🧍‍♂️

Anywahs

Eeerm yeah!!

With all that being said some of this might dip into my personal experience with body dysmorphia <\3

Actually it kinda dips into a lot

It's the self projection for me

Not proofread we die like peter parker

He gets it

Kinda?

Sorta?

I mean it's not a 1:1 but

Close enough...?

I think he may have also had similar issues precollider tbh, like when he said "oh I used to be handsome by scientist standards" sounded... backhanded..

Anyways

Not the most attentive, he wont immediately catch your mood souring if you two are out and about; but he does eventually catch on if you're quiet or fidgeting

Offers you things you can fidget with to keep your hands busy; from small stress toys to rubber bands, to keep your hands busy

I know everyones different but again, self projection here

Helps especially if you mess with/tug your hair into place or pick your face at any perceived flaws

"Look at me dont look at them," when he notices you start comparing yourself to others when you're both out

Probably steps in front of you, if you're walking hes walking backwards to keep him in your view

He falls over/hj

Ah yes the mirror

Frowns

Another thing that spot would personally relate too; I believe I've mentioned somewhere in a different hc post that he tends to just

Stare and talk down to his reflection, post collider

It's a habit he probably had precollider too, but instead of his lack of face he's scrutinizing the moles and beauty marks

He never really liked his spots

But aside from sympathy when he sees you do the same he also feels

Hurt

Is this how he makes you feel when he does the same thing?

It's weird for him to be on the other end; watching you pick at your skin or teeth, sizing up every curve and crevice

He doesnt want to just go up to you and pull you away from the mirror or upright tell you to stop; nono that doesnt feel right.. it feels too.. forceful, accusatory... he doesn't want to make things worse

He'll probably try to subtly bring your attention in another direction; be it asking you what the plans for that night are, or asking for some affection

The most bold he'll get is walking up to you and gently bopping his face against you

He does his research, hes a scientist afterall

He makes sure that your shared home is a safe place to retreat to at the end of the day; his protective side outright banning anything that could potentially trigger your dysmorphia, doesn't matter what it is he's just not going to let it through the door

He never ever wants you to feel like your experiences are less than; whenever he notices a day is particularly hard hes immediately dropping everything to help and/or distract and/or comfort you

Listens diligently to what you need

He probably keeps a little notebook somewhere with notes scribbled down, along with things he knows you like and bring security

You both have feeling sessions; you both just sit down and talk, about anything really

Not necessarily vents but also not necessarily not vent but

You know

God forbid anyone ever makes you feel bad about himself

He would never... kill anyone (attempting to off miles dad aside!! I write these like. Imagining it's the time between the movies :0) but boy does he get thoughts

Literally just

Spawns a hole under them and sends them to god knows where

If you've got anything to help it, like say therapy or medications he'll make sure you keep a consistent and steady schedule with it

Insists on taking you to therapy himself

Via holes, of course

"Wait wait wait I think... I got it this time-!"

Proceeds to accidentally send yall to the top of some random building somewhere

VERY persistent about any meds, almost gets naggy with it

This is the same with any other stuff you may or may not take; other meds, vitamins, antibiotics, ect ect ect

Spot is more or less kind of. ..

I dont wanna say hes a mother hen, but asides from revenge, the thing he wants most is for you to be happy and healthy

It also kinda offers himself some reflection, because again he carries/used to carry similar behaviors; whether he had dysmorphia or not, he can see himself in you and it

Hurts

As a side note you notice his frequency in the bad self talk lowers

Gives off that "do it for her" simpsons meme, but its spot having a board of you

Figurative board of course

Maybe

I can kinda see him having some version of it actually

He just wants you to know that he loves you so so so much. He thinks himself to be the luckiest man in the world; hell in the entire multiverse, as cheesy as it sounds. Despite everything hes been through and going through, he still managed to get someone like you by his side. You give him clarity in his whirlwind of a life and he wants to let you know how grateful he is for your existence

Anyways

Yeah I dont know where I was going with this post and hcs I kinda just let my feelings and experiences talk here so <\3 normally I like to keep things like this vague so others can hopefully relate easier but

Man this topic got me

But

Yeah

I hope this is alright !! It's not often I write stuff with this sort of topic matter so I'm a lil rusty <\3

[dippindaz]

how do u think the grabber would react if reader fell pregnant? Like how would that go? 💀💀💀

A/N: :0 I- I had never even thought of this before you asked. I hope headcanons for this are ok! :) sorry this is kind of short as well I didn’t completely know what to write for it lmao, I don’t have much experience with kids.

Part 2 has been written and can be found here

The Grabber x Pregnant Reader

Warnings: Brief mention of a breeding kink, mentions of kidnapping, he’s insecure :’( and has a lot of guilt, reader is pregnant obvi, mentions you going into labor, Unedited

So, I think there’s a few different ways this could go, I think this is also dependent on your relationship.

For example, if you have no emotional bond and it was just kind of a one time (or even multiple time) thing I think it’s possible he would kill you out of fear for being a father, or maybe not kill you but kill the fetus. Such as stabbing your womb. I feel like he isn’t the kind of guy to do one night stands with random people so for this one you were definitely someone he kidnapped and then it just kinda happened.

The next possible way, and the way I like better cause it’s cuter, is if you did have an emotional bond. The relationship wasn’t just sex and was romantic, regardless if you were a kidnapped victim or not.

In this way, at first he’s probably panicking, however since he cares about you and loves you, he isn’t going to do anything as drastic as the other way.

If you’re a victim that’s still trapped in the basement he likely won’t visit you for a couple days. He just needs to get his emotions in check.

If you weren’t kidnapped or were and no longer stay in the basement, he’s pretty out of it around you. A bit distant but also extra emotional.

After the initial shock he’ll come back around acting more like his normal self.

He definitely apologies for being so weird.

He’s also more emotional than you, even with your messed up hormones.

One day he’s completely calm and collected, taking care of you. The next day he’s freaking out and panicking and venting to you about how he’s scared to mess up as a father.

If he hasn’t talked about his past with you he’s planning on talking you or already has now.

You’ll be gentle and assure him he isn’t the adults that were in his life. (Even though he kidnaps kids lmao)

Speaking of, he probably won’t be kidnapping any children at least not for a long time.

Once you’re in your third trimester he’s gonna baby tf out of you.

Like, you’re never alone now unless he’s at work.

He’ll 100% take the longest possible paternity leave he can.

Once you go into labor he’s gonna be panicking. Think of how in The Sims, sims panic while your sim is giving birth. Yeah that’s him right now.

At first he won’t want to hold the baby for fear of hurting it. It may take some convincing from you to get to finally do it.

Once he does, his entire world changes.

Be prepared for a lot of nervous but fun and careful dad grabber, cause that’s what he is.

He is determined to be better than any adults he ever knew as a kid and that makes him a pretty good dad.

Except most of the time you have to be the bad guy.

Also be prepared for some rough nights. Nights where he’s guilt ridden over all the horrible things he did to those random kids he kidnapped.

He almost couldn’t imagine ever kidnapping again now that he has his own kid. Almost.

Him and the kid are gonna best friends. Like they’ll be doing everything together.

If he ever makes his kid upset in any way, shape, or form, he is going panic and fear them hating him forever. Especially if he made them cry.

He also has this little constant fear in the back of his mind that they’ll be just like him. They’ll have his messed up thoughts, his fucked up emotions, a constant battle of good and evil inside their head.

He might not express just how scared he is but know, he is. He needs your comfort.

After the kid has been put to bed you’ll be playing in bed and it’s just one of those nights where he can’t turn off his brain. His thoughts are constantly going and his fears and worries are in the forefront of his mind.

You can tell easily when it’s one of those nights. He’ll only mumble a “goodnight” and be turned away from you, or be on his back staring at the ceiling.

Give him extra comfort and love on these nights. He needs to know he’s a good dad and hasn’t fucked up. He needs a distraction of his brain. You’re the only person who can distract him.

The next morning he’ll either be super sleepy and groggy or he’ll be calmer and happier.

Overall he’s a good dad, but he is insecure about it. He’s also always worrying about not just your kid but you.

Ngl to you, you being pregnant and having his kid probably created a whole kink that he didn’t know he had (aka a breeding kink)

If you both want it you’ll definitely be having another kid.

If not that’s ok, you’re both content and happy with the life you’ve got now.

(If your child is a girl he doesn’t want her to date ever)

(If they’re a boy he’s just as overprotective but more so just letting them go out alone)

Every birthday whether it’s yours or your child’s, he makes a homemade birthday cake.

When he first started doing he may or not have destroyed the kitchen

100% wants to homeschool your guys’ kid.

Long story short, he’s a good dad but he need your assurance.

Also, he encourages his kid to talk about their emotions.

#WhatWeAllNeededButNeverHad

[ubehalayas-blog]

Kyle w fake s/o that has a crush on him (?) 

saying sorry in advance lol

Kyle’s and your gambit actually went on for months, it’s like that game gay chicken

https://www.reddit.com/r/Jokes/comments/eeawja/i_once_played_a_game_of_gay_chicken/

Wendy actually realized that you and Kyle were just putting up a front for everyone, honestly all of it got too stressful for you and Wendy seemed like the only person you can talk to about it. She was clueless to why you agreed but listened to your rants and vents nonetheless (best girl fr)

Stan also found out– Wendy is great at keeping secrets but let’s be honest, I feel like Stan and Wendy are the type to gossip about people but not to worry, Stendy kept it a secret that they knew about you two fake dating. 

This actually benefits you, Stan and Wendy having a good friendship with each other, you start to hang out with them most of the time, leaving Kyle because he’s a killjoy who always studies :( honestly at first he doesn’t care but as time goes he feels a bit left out.

Stendy helped you try to drop hints to Kyle that you like him, he’s a bit dense here. Since you two fake dates when you drop hints he thinks that you were just acting (?) even if it’s just the two of you in the room (?? dumbass kyle) honestly, it would be like: 

You were lying down on Kyle’s bed, looking at the ceiling as he was studying by his table, and your lips let out a sigh as you glanced at him. “Ky” you mumble. It was the only nickname Kyle approved of, and you already got used to calling him that, “yeah?” he responds, his eyes not leaving the computer. “Do you actually like someone?” You ask, sitting up as you look at him. This made him stop on his track, his eyebrow raised as he turned to face you, “why?” he asked. “Just curious” you spoke as you shrugged your shoulders. “Um, okay…?” he mumbled before turning back to his computer. Silence filled the room for a second before he sighed, finally coming up with an answer. “I– I do… I think, maybe” he stammered, which you thought was weird, your eyebrow raised as you listened to him. “Then, why didn’t you.. Ask them to be your fake partner?” you asked, flopping back to the bed, feeling a bit bummed out and jealous by his answer. You heard Kyle mumble something under his breath, but you really couldn’t get what he meant, “what was that?” you asked, curious about what he said, “nothing, I said shut up” he sighed, you found his attitude a bit off so your eyes landed on him and you saw his ears and neck was red.

Basically you are dense too. (not really you dropping hint but you get it)

Wendy recommended like, laughing at his dumb jokes to which you took offence of because his jokes really were funny (not really) and complimenting him, she says that boys love that shit and pretends to use Stan as an example, he was a blushing mess after. 

Since you always hung out around Stan and Wendy, Kyle came to the conclusion that you either liked both of them or one of them. He tried not to mind it because you two were never a thing, he shouldn’t meddle in your business if you liked them anyways. 

Since he got a bit fed up with you hanging out constantly with Stan and Wendy, he started to avoid you more than usual and the whole school made a big deal out of it, saying that you two already broke up. 

The whole situation made you rethink your steps, trying to figure out why Kyle was maybe mad at your or why he was avoiding you although it only resulted in you burning out, Wendy stepped in and suggested to just talk it out with Kyle, as much as you wanted to you felt like you couldn’t really visit him. 

Stendy felt a bit bad for you and Kyle, so Wendy persuaded Stan to have a talk with Kyle while she consoles you so he did… it kinda went down like:

Stan knocked on Kyle’s door, feeling like he shouldn’t have gotten caught up between you and Kyle’s drama, nonetheless, he wanted to help. The door opened and he was greeted by Kyle, the redhead was looking like he hadn’t had a good sleep for ages, “Jesus, Kyle…” Stan hisses as he frowned at the appearance of his best friend. 

“Do you even sleep?” Stan asked, pushing through his best friend, and guided him to the couch. “I do sleep,” Kyle retaliated, sighing as he let the latter drag him. “Good, you sure don’t look like it” Stan mumbles, sitting Kyle down. He sat down beside Kyle, letting out a sigh as he sank down to the couch, stealing glances from his best friend. “I heard... You haven’t been talking to y/n” Stan started.

“Yeah, and does it even matter to you?” Kyle sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose.

“You and y/n are my friends, you know? So naturally, I care about both of you… and Wendy pushed me to talk to you,” he placed a hand on Kyle’s back. “Dude… I am honestly concerned. You look like shit, so just tell me what’s wrong? Why are you avoiding y/n?” he continued. 

“I– it just felt right…” he trailed off, taking a breath before continuing to speak, “we were just fake dating, Stan… we—” he paused, taking another breath, “we actually are not together” He admitted, looking at Stan for some kind of reaction.

Stan let out an exaggerated gasp, covering his mouth as he acted surprise in front of Kyle, the latter’s face twisted. His eyebrows furrow at Stan’s reaction.

“What?” He murmured before realizing, “no— you knew?”

“Well…” He paused, shrugging as he continues “yeah, y/n told Wendy… And Wendy told me” Stan mumbles, averting his eyes from Kyle’s gaze.

“Ah…” he nodded before looking at Stan again, his eyes wide, “huh?! they told Wendy? Is that why you all have been hanging out more?” he asked.

“Well... kind of? Yeah, why?” 

“I thought– I thought, maybe y/n liked you–” he was cut off by Stan’s laugh.

“y/n like me? What a big joke– they actually like–” he immediately covered his mouth. His eyes darted to Kyle. “Um... I didn’t say anything” he mumbles.

“y/n likes who? Stan?” Kyle asked, his voice stern.

“I dunno man, ask them, I am not going in the middle of ya’ll shit again so just talk to them and clear this misunderstanding alright?” Stan cringes at his word, “Oh god, man, you made me sound like an old person” he sighed, shaking his head.

Kyle chuckles a bit and nods, “you kind of do” he agreed, which earned him a nudge on the shoulder.

“Shut up and just do what I told you to. I swear to you, it will make your life easier” he sighed, rolling his eyes at his best friend.

“I know…” he mumbles, scratching his nape, “but don’t you think that y/n would be a bit— maybe not even a bit…” he mumbles, letting out a sigh before continuing, “like y/n would be mad at me for avoiding them?” 

Stan chuckles and nods, “oh hell yeah, for sure, but if you want to at least keep being friends with them just... say what you feel” he cringed again, sighing as he rubbed his nose bridge. “Did I actually say those words?” He whispered to himself.

“Yeah, that was gay” Kyle laughs softly, sighing as he lets himself sink on the couch, “You know... I think— I think I like y/n” he admitted. 

Stan looked at him, his eyebrows raised as he sank back to the couch, “Wow, nice solve, Sherlock,” he mocked, chuckling slightly.

“Shut up. I’m being for real, Stan” he murmured, covering his eyes with his arm, “I- I was jealous when… y/n started to hang out with you guys, I legit thought that she either liked you or Wendy,” he let out a sigh.

“y/n doesn’t like me or Wendy.” Stan sighed and turned to look at his friend, “was that why you avoided y/n?” He asked, raising an eyebrow at Kyle.

“Yeah… Well, kind of, I was just jealous. I thought it would be better for me to stay away from her until…” he took a breath, “until I sort out my own feelings because I really couldn’t face her, I thought I might lose my temper if I see her with you and Wendy…” He dragged a sigh, running his finger through his hair. “I just- I never actually intended for this to happen, I just wanted to get my parents off of my back… then next thing I know the whole town knew about it” he grumbled, “I mean- I don’t regret it, I did end up liking y/n even though we made a rule that we won’t fall for one another” he mumbles.

The last sentence made Stan look at Kyle, “you made house rules? No one should fall for each other?” he asked, sighing as his hands hit his face, “no... fucking wonder”

“Yeah,” Kyle mumbled, “Thanks, Stan, for coming here,” his lips tugged as he looked at Stan.

found this kind of dumb

(yall couldn’t tell I got carried away by the dialogue right?) I’m so sorry... I didn’t like this too :( maybe they’ll talk? maybe they won’t? 

[avenfawn]

TRIGGER WARNING. vent

It's just me that can't forget many things? And i absolutely hate it?

At middle may to the end of september i had a very good friend group, which i really felt comfortable too, i shared alot of my life with them and etc, i loved them very much.

But in middle september i lost them for a thing i said, can't remember it very well...And till this day and on, i can't just erase them from my memory?? Some of them still wanted to talk to me, others just, messaged me and moved on, there was one that just blocked me too. And that was it.

It has been moments, but i'm not able to move on, i have so many friends now, the time i lost them i didnt, and i felt lonely for the first time in so long.

But i have new friends now. But still, i'm unable to move on, maybe it was because i just saw them as a family? I dont know to be honest...

i feel miserable when thinking about them, i feel sad and i start hating on myself so much. Even though, at this rate they even forgot i was among them one time.

I hate it, i wish i was unable to forget, i wish i was able to move on.

That's why i stopped so many things i had, because i feared losing other people because of my actions. I kinda lost my humor too, i just dont feel secure making jokes like before.

I remember crying for days over them on call with my best friend, just wishing i would stop being so dumb.

I stopped almost everything i did, i stopped eating properly, i returned to one of my bad drinking habits, i couldnt sleep that well.

That was it for some weeks until my best friend helped me with it.

Because of this i rarely vent too, because if i vent too much, i'll be trauma dumping and people will get bothered at me. So yeah, i'm just cant get over it.

Doesnt help i was scrolling over tumblr and i found one of these ex friend that mentioned the group of friends, with a drawing they did. I wished i was there, but i mess up everything i do.

sorry for the depressed text, just needed to get this out of chest a little bit.

[pixelatedraindrops]

I’m turning anon asks off for a bit.

(small vent below)

I just want to say right now (again) that I am not a kink blog and none of my work is meant to be kink or fetish based. Whatever I draw write or post is based on the sake of my own comfort. Seeing characters, especially my faves sick and being tended to by another is something that makes me happy. It's a therapeutic thing for me to view or create. I explain as much in my pinned post.

So when I got an anon ask that told me I "literally" post fetish content, it REALLY affected me. I am ace and detest nsfw stuff, so for someone to call the work I post that brings me happiness and comfort, fetish work? I was broken, I cried and felt ashamed of what I did. Heck I felt like I wasn’t safe to post it anymore and wanted to stop… Deep down despite the fact that it makes me happy, my illness guilty passion is something I am actually very insecure about. I've only just started being loud and proud about it now. So I'm still kinda fragile about it inside.

Im not sure if that anon was being hateful or was upset and thinking I was hypocritical because I said from now on I don’t want illness kink of fetish blogs following me. But then I thought to myself…maybe that’s going too far. Because I do follow some kink blogs but mostly for liking their art or writing/prompts. I just don’t want people to look at my work and get off on it. That makes me SUPER unsettled.

But yeah that anon made me feel pretty upset for a bit so I think I’m going to turn anon asks off for a while. So far the anons I’ve got were positive and asked nice things. Until that one. That one messed me up.

So if you wanna ask me something, sorry you can’t hide yourself anymore. You gotta say it to my face with your face now.

And to those that enjoy and don’t think that way of my work at all, and to those that tried to cheer me up on the day it happened, sincerely thank you. I’m so happy the fandom I’m a part of is so nice ;w;

Maybe the sick whump community isn’t really where I belong. I’ll just remain a lurker. I am a whumper w fictional characters, I won't deny that. But there are some in the community that I'd rather steer clear of. (just saying if you already have been following me as a kink blog, then you're fine!)

[shyflameweasel]

Roommate grunts but grunts are small compared to humans, like only barely coming up to knee height. Picture this;

an ever feral gremlin that can get into impossible places in the house(including vents) or knocking shit down just for the hell of it(kinda like a sentient feral cat)

peepaw still somehow managing to be the superior of the house despite the size difference and would scold the others for doing something stupid or reckless and getting hurt (that also includes the reader)

deimos and Sanford working as a team to get to places in the house they cannot reach easily now, 9 times outa 10 it’s just to steal snacks or for Deimos to say “who’s the big man now!?” To the reader from up top the fridge.(it’s usually Deimos who bothers Sanford to help him do this)

bonus brainrot here is me imagining Sanford still trying to help the reader with chores or cooking when he can despite being small

Deimos most likely asking to ride around on the reader’s shoulders and would just keep annoying them until they let him(hank on the other hand would just pounce on them from where he is when he wants a free ride)

Doc still insisting to do checkups on the reader despite only being a forth of their size

This got a chuckle out of me so thanks for that.

Honestly it's up to interpretation on the guys height, since I always leave it pretty open ended on if grunts are shorter or taller than humans.

Hey at least Reader doesn't have to worry about how to house these guys anymore since they're so small. Well except 2B because that is 2B, he get's his own room solely to make sure he doesn't murder the others in their sleep.

A normal sized Hank would do all of that. A knee sized Hank is crawling through Reader's walls and eating all of the drywall. Reader can try to use a broom to stop his reign of terror but there's a very good chance he'll break off the broom head all while staring dead at Reader's face. Hank clings onto Reader 's shoulder, metal jaw resting on flesh covered bone, staring at everything. Very likely to bite Reader's hands if they try to move him up or take him off their shoulder.

2B can be the size of a Reader's hand and he'll still be in charge. You do not disrespect the Peepaw. Never pick him up or there is a very good chance that there is going to be a lecture that lasts hours with a small possibility of loosing a non essential organ or two. He may be tiny but hey, free healthcare so who really cares if you can pick the man up like a football.

You cannot tell me for a second that the duo don't try doing the 'two kids in a trench coat' gag for shits and giggles.

Jokes on Deimos, lil shit is gonna stay up there. Got himself into that mess he can get himself back down. Unless its serious Reader is not going to lift a finger, watching as the fire starter debates if he can jump to one of the cabinets or aim for the fridge handle. If he is ever on Reader's shoulders they better hope he doesn't get bored because its Ratatouille time. Gonna try tugging Reader's hair in a attempt to 'pilot' them. It doesn't work and he's laughing his ass off at the sorry state of Readers hair. Up until Reader puts his cigarettes where he can't reach them. Revenge ya troll.

Sanford however can get from place to place a hell of a lot easier since its a matter of throwing his hook and climbing upwards or using it to lower himself down to ground floor. Second to Hank in how well he can traverse this giant world. Cooking is a bit annoying but as long as he has those small utensils he's good. Gonna order Reader around how to cook what.

[pumpkinsy0]

Headconnons about....

Buck Merrill (im aware that there isn't much info about him) but I like him, he seems like a cool character.

I wanna know what you think of him. How would you describe him and his life (meaning him working in the bar, him being friends with Darry, Dally and Tim)

How did Buck and Darry meet

How did Buck and Dally meet

How did Buck and Tim meet

Who did Buck meet first and where (for the three of them? In different places ofc)

How would he celebrate his birthday if he every has/celebrates it, you know just simple little things and how he got there in Tulsa.

Now I would like to headconnon that, Buck used to be a greaser with Darry and them but he retired and got the bar thingy (its fine if you don't like it) ohhh you should add how good a fighter he was (when he was a greaser) I feel like he really was a good fighter but he's a old man (He's not really old he's 25 y/o) he retired😭

In the beginning I said "Im aware there's not information on Buck" but I would love to see what you come up with, also he's my 3rd favorite character. (SORRY FOR WRITING SO MUCH😭 I JUST WANNA KNOW WHAT YOU COME UP WITH ABOUT BUCK, AND HIM BEING MY FAVE..😭 I WANNA KNOW WHO YOU PUT FOR THE, "WHO DID BUCK MEET FIRST" [THANK-YOU😭🙏🏻])

•personally, i like buck, he seems alright from what little we know about him

•i imagine him to b as put together as darry, but like a bit more grim, but slightly funny w messed up humor if that makes sense, he works at a bar ik hes seen some shit

•if i remember right i hc’d him as being black and trinidadian so he does have a bit of an accent, he moved to the us like 5 ish years ago, somewhere around there

•generally pretty chill guy if ur not annoying 24/7, hes that bartender who knows a lot about ppl bc ppl yap when theyre drunk

•his life obviously has hardships here n there but nothing like, too traumatic???? his life was just “pretty pathetic” as he would describe it so he got his shit together and got where he is now

•buck and darry met through tim before a rumble, tim was going to a rumble and darry was just seeing tim off cause he had to get back home(which was also before buck got the bar)

•tim and buck met bc buck used to b in the tiber street tigers (yes that is an actual gang in the book, yes i forgot exactly how they called themselves but it was somethin like that), tim and the street tigers used to have the alliance but that broke off and buck left not so soon after, and buck got a job working at the bar he would soon own and it was close to where tim lived

•buck doesnt belong to a gang now but its not uncommon to see him w tim for a bit

•dally and buck met when dally just moved to tulsa, before buck got the bar he was this worker another guy who owned the bar and buck and him became friends (not friends friends but not strangers either), eventually when the guy gave buck ownership of the bar, buck offered him a place bc buck knew what it was like to just bounce place to place not having a steady home and believe it or not doesnt want dally dying of like hypothermia

•he says its bc he doesnt want dally to hit that stage of hypothermia where u just feel rlly hot so u take ur clothes off n ur just naked n die cause “cops r gonna fall over just seeing ur ugly body bro just stay here”, so yea friendship🫶🏽🫶🏽

•he knows dally doesnt rlly live at the bar its kinda just a place for him to go if he has nowhere else, one stable thing in his life kinda

•as for his friendship for darry, its not a deep one, they respect each others hustle but dont understand each others life style but it’s whatever, if darry needs to vent w a lil prying and one singular drink from buck, he’ll say somethings

•w tim, not the closest of friemds as i said but the closest thing to a friendship between buck and dally and darry

•so in order of who he met it first to last goes dally, tim, then darry

•buck doesnt rlly celebrate his bday???? he does drink a bit more and indulge in junk food more but thats just about it, nothing special, he doesnt hate his bday its just, nobodys there to celebrate it w him so y would he put in the effort

•at best he drinks w tim maybe dally n goes “happy bday to me”

•hes that guy that nobody rlly knows his bday but everytime u see him hes just older, wether physically or like actually just older

•to b less depressing however, one bday he did get a dog and so buck does have a dog thats just runnin around in the bar, its like the mascot and everyone loves em, that dog is pretty much his best friend

•i do like that idea of him retiring from gang stuff n just getting a bar to “retire” so im stealing that now thx 😋😋 /j

•as for his days in the tiber street tigers, idk it wasnt much, he wasnt close to anyone in that gang, he was respected tho, he was a pretty good fighter, he was in that gang from when he was 18-20

BUT YEA THATS MY IDEA ON BUCK🙏🏽🙏🏽 NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR WRITING TOO MUCH I LOVE ASKS🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[mister13eyond]

Any tips on how to silence the "don't tell people you feel sorry/you wish them to get better/you understand them because if you do you're the most tactless inconsiderate monster to walk on earth and you should feel bad for yourself" voices in my head?

Because me growing up on tumblr meant that teenage me had internalized all the poor counseling tips HARD and every time somebody opens up to current me I enter a stupor because wow, what do I say to them? Surely they'll hate me if I say I'm sorry

And like, from personal experience, how many times have I flipped out at people who told me they're sorry or everything will be alright when I opened up to them? That's right, zero. And how many times have I re-read my awkward tumblr lingo ridden attempts at counseling and thought to myself "damn this is the most awkward thing I've ever said. I should have told them something like "I feel you, everything will be alright". It would have been a lot better I think."? Wayyyy too many

BOY OH BOY DO I FEEL THIS PAIN ANON, im shaking both your hands because this one is HARD and i still haven't fully managed to turn that part of my brain off weeps

in my case i think it comes from being the person that apologized for everything, and then got scolded for apologizing, so i turned around and tried to stop saying "i'm sorry" reflexively and Way Overcorrected

but yeah i'm right there with you- when i open up to friends and they tell me "i'm sorry" or "it's gonna be ok" i never think twice about it, i know they care and are listening to me and want to console me. but when i do it? oh no, not allowed

HOWEVER i have been trying to do things a bit differently to work around that bad reflex so maybe it will help you too!

personally, i think part of my approach has been going "what do I actually want and/or need when i am opening up to someone?" and part of it has been going "what do i MEAN when i say 'i'm sorry' to a friend opening up to me?"

for the first part, usually what i really NEED is just like, for someone to genuinely listen, for me to feel heard, and for someone to say they understand! like, i don't frequently come to my friends expecting Solutions or Counseling- they're not my therapist and i'd never ask them to be, I don't need them to give me sagely advice or solve everything because, well. we're all a bunch of mentally ill queers struggling through life and trying their best and i don't think they'll be able to magically solve all my problems because most of them have the same problems i do! i really just want someone to listen, to go "yeah that IS unfair" or "you're right, that IS really hard" and then tell me they care about me and they hope it will get better soon.

for the second part it really ties into the first- a lot of the time when i would apologize after a friend vented to me it didn't really mean "i am personally responsible for this problem and i am apologizing for it", it meant "that sucks and i wish it wasn't happening to you". so i've kinda just... started saying the latter? like i mentioned above, i really just want to know my friends understand and care about me when i'm struggling, so i've tried to do the same when i can by just like.... validating what someone is saying. "yeah you're right that WAS an unfair way for your manager to treat you" or "god it's fucking hard when mental illness acts up like that and you're understandably struggling under it!" or "i wish all this wasn't happening to you and i hope you catch a break soon because you deserve it." i can't, like, counsel someone because i'm not a trained professional and i don't want to mess things up worse, but i CAN say "you're right, that sucks, i love you and i get why it's making you feel [stressed/upset/angry/etc]" and "i care about you a lot and i hope things get better soon"

it's hard!!! changing a reflex like that super ingrained in you is hard. i kinda started using workarounds like this so that i could... trick my brain? "well, you didn't actually use THE WORDS "i'm sorry" so it doesn't count" (even though i just rephrased the sentence to say what i mean when i say sorry without actually using sorry)

i wish you the best of luck!!! wanting to be good to people and give them what they need when they open up to you or rely on you IS genuinely hard but i also so badly want to be good to the people i love too, so i think it's worth it. here's to hoping we both get it figured out ;o;

[toastywatchesstevenuniverse]

S1 E40

On the Run

This episode broke me.

I am...

I....

I am a broken creature & my heart has been thoroughly stomped into the ground.

This is....this is the best episode so far....but it's achieved the status of best by absolutely tearing me apart in every way & leaving my emotions as a pile of tear soaked dust.

Okay before we get to that: I have one thing to say....

GARNET HAS MASSIVE AND PLENTIFUL BALLS. Look this post ended up being a lot more personal & emotional than this blog usually has been so I'm giving you a balls joke to balance it out. I have a feeling that there will be more emotional venting if this episode is an indicator of what the rest of the show is like: we're gonna need all the dick & ball jokes we can muster up.

First off: easily the best musical number in the show so far. Yes even better than Pearl's solo number. And I do not say that lightly. That is a tough level to beat. And they did it. Steven & Amethyst take the gold medal for best song so far. 👌

ALSO OH MY GOD THESEE SHOTS THESE COLOURS THIS DJFJFNDIFJW ITS SO FUCKING GOOD????????

WHY DID SO MANY PEOPLE ON YOUTUBE TELL ME THIS SHOW HAS BAD ANIMATION WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT ARE WE WATCHING THE SAME SHOW?????? SURE THERES BEEN SOME WONKY DRAWINGS BUT MOST OF IT HAS BEEN VISUAL GOD TIER SHIT LIKE THIS. This episode was actually quite a step up in the animation compared to the previous ones. It's like the animators stepped on the gas here. I love it.

(Hey there uh so Trigger warning for this post just in case bc I do mention the topics of self harm/self hate/passive suic*de & that kinda stuff. So if that's not your thing, I'm really sorry & I understand if you wanna just stop reading here. If this isn't a topic you like to see mentioned at all, I'll just summarize my opinion here real quick & you can click away, I'm happy you're here at all btw thanks for reading this far!! & I want you to know you're valid for feeling this way btw: Don't let anyone tell you different. Anyways tldr I love this episode & how it tackles Amethysts character & it's the best episode so far & it made me cry really really bad & I am more of an emotional mess now than I usually am.)

So getting a bit personal here: I have said many times throughout my life that 'I never asked to be born'. I still think it now.

(Side Note but oh my god the animation in this fight was fucking incredible. Holy shit. And these shots go so fucking hard they COOKED this shit to perfection.)

Ive been depressed & passively suicidal for most of my life. I honestly cannot really recall a time where I didn't feel this way. I'm just kinda used to it by now I guess.

(This shot. This frame right here. This was when I had to pause the episode to calm down from how bad I was crying.)

So to hear Amethyst say the exact same thing that I have said so many times before: That broke me. That just fucking broke me. And like it's not the first time I cried at this show so far: BUT this IS the first time the show genuinely struck an such an extremely difficult & personal chord with me, not just like being sometihng I relate to, but the chord it struck was deep & painful enough that I had to actually pause the episode because of how much I needed to process it. Like I could not pay attention with how bad it made me break. So yeah it's now score 1 for the amount of times this show has fucking utterly destroyed me. Not every show is able to get me to react like THAT. The only other show in recent memory that got that reaction out of me that I can remember at the time of typing this is well, The Owl House. To be fair I haven't watched too too many new shows but yeah. This got me crying badly enough that I had to take a moment to calm down. Wasn't expecting to have that nerve struck like that.

That just hit on a personal chord for me & just....fuck man. I know that feeling. And they nailed how it feels. Amethysts reaction was exactly how it feels for me, just outwardly anger & tears. It hurts. Obviously anger & crying is simplifying it a lot, it's a lot more than just baseline that but you get what I mean. You could tell that she was feeling that exact way. & holy shit the fact that she's been the "comedic relief" of the gems so far & yet she's had easily the most fucked up & sad backstory of the show so far. Yeah if catching me off guard & completely blindsiding me with this was the goal: Goal fucking achieved because that was like a whack to my fucking face with a frying pan.

So....like, is this gonna be a reoccuring thing? I just.....get the feeling that this is a sign that the show absolutely fucking me up emotionally may become a more frequent thing going forward. So like, if that is the case......fuck. I'm so fucked. I am going to be a fucking wreck by the end of this show. This is gonna fucking leave me a sobbing mess, isn't it? What the fuck have I gotten myself into-

I am afraid. Also I am going to need to buy more tissues.

And the scene where Pearl & Amethyst speak in the hole is some of the best writing in any CN show. Ever.

(Also to break up the depressing talk, OH MY GOD I LOVE THAT PEARL IS SO FUCKING TALL THAT SHE HAS TO BEND DOWN AND SIT STANDING UP ON HER TIPPY TOES. THAT'S SO FUCKING ADORABLE I LOVE HER I AM GOING TO FUCKING LOSE IT.)

This episode was absolutely perfect.

[pumpkzsafeplace]

vent- Tw: ed, depression and thoughts of s/h

(For your daddy since he answered the last one)

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I thought I was starting to get better but I think my ED is getting worse... my eating schedule is all messed up, I'm eating super late and I'm not eating enough..

Right now I'm in the dark, crying while I lay on the couch and I feel like crap. I'm lightheaded, have a headache, nauseous, and just feel bad in general. It's almost 9pm and I haven't eaten dinner and I honestly don't really want to...

School starts next Monday (the 28th) and I'm kinda worried. I'm going to have a set time that I have to eat lunch and as far as I know I only have lunch with one of my friends. Her name is Mercedes and I've been friends with her for 12 years. She's really nice and if she notices that I'm not eating she'll try to get me to eat even if it's just a little bit. I'm really glad that I have lunch with her but I don't know if that'll get me through a 30 minute lunch period every.. single.. day..

I've also been thinking about s/h.. I know that its not gonna make anything better and I know that I shouldn't, but I just don't know what else to do. I know it's bad and that it's gonna hurt and that I won't benefit from it. But it's just a thought that's been floating around in my mind...

On a little bit of a different topic my grandma keeps coming over. She was originally coming over because my mom asked her to help me clean the "play room" upstairs. When we were a little younger we use to play up there but now it's pretty much just a bunch of clutter and it's where we keep my baby sister's diapers. Ever since she came over to help clean that room she's been yelling at me to clean my room. Shes also been telling me that I haven't cleaned anymore since she left. Which I have cleaned since she's been there. I cleaned a decent amount and I was actually really proud of myself, but everytime I see her she reminds me that I "haven't cleaned or made any progress" and it really pisses me off. I just seen her any hour ago and I almost cried because she wouldn't stop talking about it. The more upset I got about it the funnier it seemed to her.

She's even been trying to go into my room. I don't want her up there. I have all my regression stuff in there, plus it's super messy. I don't know if you've ever seen a depression house, but it's pretty much where someone gets really bad depression to the point where they stop caring, stop cleaning, and pretty much just do the bare minimum to live. That's kind of what my room looks like. There's trash and tissues on the floor, clothes everywhere, there's stuffies on the floor. If I'm being honest, you can hardly even see the floor. It's just... not good.. at all. There's even a rat that likes to hang out in my room (I named him Remy). He didn't always live in my room. There's a lot of stray cats outside so I'm assuming he came in the house to hide from them. My mom used to see Remy downstairs, but I've only ever seen him in my bedroom. I know that I really need to clean, especially since there's a rat living up there, I just don't have any motivation. My depressions been getting worse too, and I just feel like there's no reason to do anything. I'm not enjoying life, I'm just walking through the the motions everyday. Just doing what I have to do to survive.

My grandma's coming back tomorrow and she's going to do whatever it takes to go in my room. It won't matter how much I tell her no, and that I don't want her in there.

I just really don't know what to do anymore.. I want to feel better, but I don't think that'll happen any time soon.....

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hihi lil bug’ 🌼

💼:

Hi Little One,

I'm sorry to hear that things are getting worse. Hopefully I can offer some help?

(all information in here Pumpkin has allowed me to share, trigger warning!!)

-> 1st: The ED.

First off, I'm sorry that the ED has gotten worse. But i'm proud of you for still eating at least one meal a day, that's a great starting point. Now, we need to just eat a little bit more okay? We've got to fight against this parisite because you deserve to live in a happy and healthy body, okay?

With Pumpkin, we had small but frequent meals, even if it's just an apple cut up or a couple of crisp. As long as its freqent and filling you up-then it's a positive. I also would highly suggest therapy or a doctor/consultant to help on the medicial side.

Something that also helps Pumpkin on the dark days is tiktok. She follows a couple of accounts that suffer from ED's and publish their journey of getting better. She find that it makes it easier for her to try if someone is trying with her (if that makes sense). Mukbangs are good for her too as they help make her hungry enough to eat when her mind is yelling at her not too. Don't go overboard with food, small plates for now while your body adjusts to the portions.

-> 2nd: The SH.

Now, I am going to say this part incredibly clear.

PLEASE DO NOT DO IT.

SH isn't something to be messing around with.It is a addicitve reaction that is incredibly unsafe to do. There are other healthier options such as writing down your feelings, talking to people about them, getting them out in things like boxing or painting. I know your mind is working against you, so maybe have a look and see if you could find some help for that too.

Therapy and asking for help is nothing to be ashamed about. Pumpkin did it, she said therapy really helped her out- the only reason she stopped is due to money issues. But the lessons she did have helped her cope with trauma of things a whole lot healthier.

So please, look after yourself okay?

-> 3rd: The Depression House.

I know what a Depression House is little one, I lived in one with Pumpkin a while back when we were both struggling servely. She was having meltdowns every week and I was stressed out and couldn't be in two places at the same time.

It was rough, but we got through it (which is the main message here).

Depression is extremly difficult and hard to overcome, but it's not impossible- remember that. Every boss battle has a victory path, you just have to keep fighting and find it.

You also that it's starting to attract wildlife, that's not healthy for you love. Especially with everything else you're going through, we need to slowly change that okay?

Even if it's just cleaning a corner at a time, start small and take baby steps. Pumpkin told me to add that watching cleaning vlogs and having relaxing vlogs in the background helped her so much. It made her feel like she wasn't alone struggling and that there was still a light at the end of the tunnel.

All in all love we're extremly worried. Please ask for help from people and try and tackle this depression early before it could potentially lead to other things.

We are all here for you to support you. We all love and care for you, so please don't give up just yet.

Okay?

Much Love <3,

💼 & 🍰