#take that ocd fuck you

[youkah]

I'm cleaning my room (!!!) and here are the things I found in my closet that have been sitting here since we moved in 2003:

garfield inflatable chair

sega genesis

a bunch of photos we thought were missing (including of when my parents met) (they got divorced six years ago)

computer parts (including a graphics card)

a scanner from the late 90s

some vhs tapes (one of them being sound of music, another one being home life insurance)

two (2) roms for windows 2000

a fuck ton of yellow books (one being the 2004 one from when we moved here)

some... sort of assistant? like an ai assistant? also from the late 90s/early 2000s

art from when me and my siblings were Baby

my dad's nascar collectibles

digital camera

not from the early 2000s but my friend's mom gave me a sari so that she had someone to match with

also not from when we moved but empty girl scout cookie boxes from when my older brother and sister snuck food into the room and hid it (this was in like 2005)

[antimony-medusa]

Incidentally, because I have been seeing some wild guilt-tripping posts today to the point that I'm kind of concerned, if you are not reblogging every post you see you are not killing your fandom, you are not a terrible person who doesn't care about artists, and you are not destroying the culture of fandom space in general.

I'm a huge fan of reblogging, I do it all the time because I am a gremlin who likes sticking pictures of my blorbos on the walls of my cardboard box, and I like showing things to my followers. It's the hold up blorbo to friends emotion. I encourage people to reblog and also have fun making their blog their own with lots of fun posts. But I also see thousands of posts a day and I can only reblog like 250 of them, and I'm not always on social media, and sometimes I see art that contains a character I don't care for, or stuff that is intended for another audience, or jokes that don't do it for me, and I scroll past. I am firmly convinced that that is not an immoral way to do fandom. I'm not here to be an SEO optimized marketing machine, I'm here to be unwell about the blorbos for a bit. I am not ascribing a moral quantity to the way I reblog posts.

Reblog stuff you like! Without shame! Take those 40 pictures of a movie you just watched and inflict them on your followers, go for it! But also if you just scroll and like you are not going to be struck down by heaven for your sins. It's literally fine to be a lurker. I know plenty of people who lurk on one site and engage and keep their fandoms spinning on others. You're fine.

[punkeropercyjackson]

[six-of-cringe]

Tumblr blog six-of-cringe take iceberg

[hostilemuppet]

Whenever someone says something like "ugh I wish people understood ocd was more than contamination and took other forms of ocd seriously" I think about when I said I hated how the people I live with eat straight out of (shared) ice cream or drink straight out of (shared) coke bottles etc, even though I have asked them not to, and someone (rando) reblogged saying how they ALWAYS eat right out of the carton and will never stop, and I said that I hated it bc I have ocd and the thought of the shared germs spreading and poisoning made me want to die and it was a little insensitive of them to say that on my post, and then they said they hope everything I drink from now on is full of backwash

[act-more-like-a-dog-sirius]

HP Rants: Things Fandom Gets WRONG

Remus Lupin’s Scars

Or more accurately, his lack of them

Alright kiddos I got a salty HP take and y’all are not gonna like it.

It is basically universal in any fandom depiction of Remus Lupin, whether in fic or art, that he has extensive facial scarring. this is another one of the movies-making-people-think-things-are-canon-that-really-aren’t-canon. the movies are shit. the movies lie. also.

it’s not physically possible.

y’all really never seen the anatomy of a wolf or even a dog?? they? can’t? physically? scratch? their? faces? unless? they? sit? down? on? their? bums? and? twist? around? all? awkwardly? to? use? their? hind? leg? but? even if that was what a rabid werewolf would do… that position/angle would in no way generate enough force to create actual cuts.

and like. most importantly, if Remus was covered in scars, don’t you think harry would have, i don’t know, mentioned/noticed/referred to it at least once??? kid’s visually observant (look I’m not talking emotionally, my man can be fucking clueless, but he paid attention to visual details) he always noticed people’s physical features and appearances. and the only visual/physical attributes ever associated with Lupin were ‘prematurely lined/aged face,’ and ‘[prematurely] graying hair’ ‘shabby’ [‘had an air of shabbiness about him’] he was often ‘worn’/‘wan’ ‘drawn’ [‘thin face’] and ‘tired’ or ‘pale’ and ‘ill-looking’ but never, not. one. singe. time. was he ever noted as having any scars.

NOT A SINGLE FUCKING TIME.

and harry notices those kinds of things. read any book 7 description of Bill. read any description ever of Moody. if remus had scars that could be seen, harry would have said so.

also, if he was so extensively scarred as fanon just looves to make him be, by the time we meet him in canon, he would have been through over 28 years worth of transformations (a very minimum of 336, with the 144 most recent being without the marauders to keep him from hurting himself as a wolf). and most likely he didn’t have ready access to the Wolf’s Bane potion as he was not actually able to brew it for himself—which he fucking said flat out. so. yeah. he would have been even more scarred than mad-eye moody if the whole transformations ==> facial scars thing was true.

This is the actual canon description of Remus John Lupin.

“The stranger was wearing an extremely shabby set of Wizard’s robes that had been darned in several places. He looked I’ll and exhausted.Though quite young, his light brown hair was flecked with grey.” “Professor Lupin’s pallid profile” “illuminated his tired grey face but his eyes looked alert and wary”

also. let’s be real here. werewolf bites are cursed wounds (which is why the scarring from them does not heal). you know what’s not cursed wounds? werewolf scratches. so it is not physically fucking possible for Remus to have cursed werewolf bite wounds on his face. because you cannot bite your own fucking face. and magic easily and seamlessly heals normal cuts and scratches and non cursed wounds. without scarring. so sure, even if he scratched his face with his werewolfy claws, they’re not cursed wounds, so they would have been magically healed as such. same goes for any other injuries he got as a wolf. any broken bones, or scratches not from his claws. they all would have been magically healed and wouldn’t leave any scars.

and i just honestly don’t think that a werewolfs cursed bite mark wounds would be cursed on itself. like. it’s already a werewolf. it’s not gonna become any more werewolf. i don’t know. i just don’t think that any wounds from a werewolf biting itself would scar. it just doesn’t really make sense. plus again, we return to canon.

remus has no visible scars.

sure maybe. maybe. he is absolutely covered in scars on the parts of his body that aren’t covered by clothing or robes. but definitely not his hands or forearms. because canonically there is no mention of him having scars, and harry has seen his hands and forearms (when he just casually rolled up his sleeves so he could murder his former best friend, as one does nbd).

actually you know what. scratch all that. there is canonical evidence. WEREWOLVES ARE ONLY DANGEROUS TO HUMANS. once he became a werewolf, remus was no longer a human. so. any bites or wounds he gave himself while he was transformed were just normal non-cursed wounds. that could be fixed by magic and wouldn’t leave scars. so yeah. there’s my proof.

TLDR: my take is that remus has bad scars from his initial bite from greyback, but doesn’t have any scars from his own werewolf ass biting himself

[redrockbutch]

Y'all have got to stop asking people with contamination OCD if they're aware of [X thing guaranteed to be dirty, I usually see ones cell phone used as an example] as a way to try and put an irrational obsession "into perspective"

You haven't fixed the fear that using a clean knife that may have been used to cut mold off of something still has mold spores on it. You haven't put anything in perspective or eliminated any obsessions

You've given them a brand new one

[hussyknee]

I set my kittens on a giant grasshopper that flew onto my bed and wouldn't leave. Méka pounced on it and carried it off, with Moo trailing after her. But now I feel so guilty. That poor fellow was minding his own business, even if it was on my pillow. And I had him murdered. Not even a quick death bc cats are sadistic little fuckers. Can I call myself an animal lover if I feed bugs to cats for my own convenience. What was the grasshopper's crime, other than not being a cute mammal and being on my bed.

Can't tell if this is the result of being raised Buddhist or having OCD.

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

[badolmen]

Tips to keeping sane when staying informed about an active genocide

Share hope

Fact check sources; especially the ones that confirm your worst fears or darkest desires

Share hope

Bear witness to the horror, but let the despair pass through you. do not let it consume you

Share hope

Participate in organized activities offline: protests, art or book clubs, vigils, etc.

Share hope

Read and listen to stories of life Before, and imagine the peace and joy of life After

Share hope

[ozymoron]

reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

[medinaquirin]

For the love of god, Montressor.

[crayonurchin]

In 2021 I suffered a very severe bought of T-OCD, Transgender OCD.

This is a subset of OCD where, despite having never experienced thoughts of not identifying as your current gender (it can happen to all identities) you are suddenly obsessed with the thought 'what if I'm not this gender'?

The difference between T-OCD and actual trans thoughts, is the reaction. I cannot speak for transgender thoughts but I can speak for T-OCD thoughts. Mine were a constant terrifying fear that I was wrong about my identity, that if I didn't transition RIGHT NOW I would become so depressed I'd kill myself, I had constant intrusive thoughts of my breasts cut off like slices of ham, of my genitals being different, of facial hair and a deep voice and (essentially looking like my dad when he was young)

and it was horrible. I was so frightened of losing my femininity, something I really cherished. I had a couple nights holding scissors about to cut off my very long hair, something I love. I didn't want to do it, but it felt like I HAD to do it, because if I didn't then something very awful would happen.

I tried being called Andrew and wearing mens clothes and I bought a binder and packed my underwear, my thoughts to my body because extremely distorted, referring to my fat as 'blubber' and my breasts as 'udders'. And with all these fearful thoughts, there was absolutely 0 joy in being 'male'. I didn't want it. But it wouldn't go away.

It was one of the worst OCD episodes of my life and it came out of absolutely nowhere.

It's a tricky thing to talk about because there's a fear of hurting transgender people with this. If any fuckwit thinks they can go to their trans family, friend, coworker or stranger and say "are you REALLY trans or is it just OCD", I hope you step on a blowtorch.

But it does nEED to be talked about ,the same way all OCD subsets need to be talked about. This includes R-OCD, P-OCD, True-OCD and Sexuality-OCD. The more we make them 'normal', the less power they'll hold.

I wrote this because I was listening to a song cover and the singers used illustrations of themselves on screen. The female singer was a very pretty illustration, blouse loose around her chest, lips full and painted, gentle pretty eyes and long, volumeous dyed pink hair.

I saw that picture and thought 'she's so pretty, I want to look like that'

And THAT, is a gender thought that is NOT terrifying because it's female based. It's a good thought.

And I'm very happy I got it.

[bearstuck]

theres a hypothetical instance of asylumstuck being written well and not incredibly offensive and yet every single time i see some old asylumstuck posts i am blown away by how they manage to get literally every depiction of mental illness incorrect. its like they googled the symptoms and then deliberately wrote against the reality of those illnesses. its like they googled awful stereotypes about mentally ill (mostly psychotic or suicidal people) and made it their personal project to include as many as they could

[rottenr0ckets]

There's a difference between speaking out about how people treat npd and how npd isn't abusive and Elijah using it to defend himself for abusing us even though he probably doesn't have it and self diagnosed himself the moment he heard someone else say they had it

[ultimateinferno]

Looking back I think one of the biggest things that got me through uni was that Canvas had calendars that showed when assignments were due and actually let me plan out what tf I was going to do without feeling overwhelmed.

Well... that and being a tutor/TA/lab assistant letting me work on homework during my shifts. Those two things really pushed uni from being agonizing to doable.