#the worst part in all of this is that I don't thing the will ever come when all monbebes and wenee could just be in peace together

[cantputmetorest]

Actual Childe headcanons because I'm insane from the mischaracterization on social media

Note : It's funny how most of my posts are just complaining about how poeple write the characters, but I swear that I am just passionate about love and I hate the way people portray some characters.

This will mostly be debunking the headcanons from tiktok tbh 😭 (this is x reader btw)

- He is NOT a kinky daddy who will call you a slut. This thing just drives me crazy, look at this man. He will be the GENTLEST lover you could ever get ffs. He'll treat you like a glass, once you are a part of his family he will literally turn teyvat downside up for you.

- He won't rape you and force you to have his children, this shit is the worst headcanon I ever saw here on tumblr and I saw a lot of fanfics with it. Like, how can you even think of that???? Why tf would you hc a character to be a rapist.

- Talking about children, yes he would want to have children with you but he won't. He is a harbinger, having kids would probably put them in risk and I don't think he would have enough time to take care of them, yes he has time to see teucer and the rest of his family, but they are siblings, they have their mother at home. Childe would have to be 24/7 with his kids and it would take time from his job and from seeing his family so absolutely no. This popular belief isn't bad and I like it but I just see no possibility of him actually having kids.

- and i'm kinda unsure about all that sparring thing, yes he is competetive and loves to fight, but honestly I don't know if he either would love to have a gentle spar with you or would never raise his finger at you even in a spar.

- and for gods sake, he is not a flirty pervert ☠️☠️ people saw him flirt like a few times and make him into some kind of horndog istg. I don't think he would flirt or tease you that much tho, i think these things are sort of playful things and if he takes your relationship seriously, he'd be afraid you won't like him.

- His mama raised him right, he absolutely acts like gentleman and lets you do anything to him. Open doors for you, takes your coat off, cooks for you and shit, he'd 100% would let you do his makeup. Tonia probably did that to him like 29483 times already.

- never does anything without consent, always makes sure you're alright with everything.

- now to the bad side of his because no one is perfect, I think he would isolate himself on bad day.

- He would tell you that everything is alright even if you see its not a true, which would make you guilty because he does a lot for you and doesn't let you do anything for him, he probably has no idea it hurts you.

- Would give you silent threatment if he is upset, he doesn't want to say anything he'd regret when he is emotional so he figures out it's better to ignore you.

Well this is it atm, I will perhaps make second part if I want to :3

[faillen]

a little conversation I imagined happened before the bachelor party/wedding

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"Hey," Tommy said, twisting his index finger into the hem of Buck's t-shirt sleeve. "Been meaning to ask—"

Buck tipped his head back against Tommy's shoulder to make eye contact. "Mhm?"

"How do you feel about PDA?"'

"Oh, I'm fine w—" Buck found himself stuttering to a stop, and his own hesitation had him flushing, stomach turning. "I—Actu—"

"Hey, no, you don't need to answer right now," Tommy said. "I just wanted to make sure I asked."

"Yeah, no, th—" this angle was shit for eye contact. "Actually, can we—" he lifted Tommy's arm off his shoulders and over his head, twisting so that he was sitting with his good leg tucked underneath him, facing Tommy and meeting his kind, open eyes. The thing that had threatened to topple loose in Buck's chest resettled.

"Evan," Tommy said, adjusting so that he was sitting the same way. He reached out and pulled Buck's hand into his lap. "There's no wrong answer, I promise."

"Right," Buck replied. "I know, it's just."

He liked PDA, he liked the easy affection of slinging his arm around someone's waist, or dropping a quick kiss. PDA was really, really nice when it came from feeling secure with who he was with.

But at the same time, there was still—when he and Tommy were in public together, there was still a part of him that was almost expecting someone to jump out from behind the bushes and yell that he was a "faker, fake! This guy isn't bisexual, he's a FAKE! Look at this asshole, pretending that he's a que—"

"Evan?"

"Sorry." Buck said quickly, snapping back into focus. Tommy's brows had dipped together, but he didn't say anything, just squeezed Buck's hands. "Sorry, I—" Buck took a deep breath. "I don't want to, y’know. Stick you back in the closet. But."

"Not being comfortable with PDA is not sticking me back in the closet," Tommy replied. "It's just you not being comfortable with PDA."

"But I am comfortable with PDA," Buck protested. "I just—" he hunched in on himself, unable to finish the sentence in a way that didn't inadvertently sound like a personal indictment of Tommy. Or suggested that he wasn't ready. "I think I need more time. And that doesn't feel fair to you."

"Evan," Tommy said slowly. "There's no expectation here. We can take it slow, I don't mind letting you lead."

Tommy's patience, Buck was beginning to fear, was endless. Which made him feel all the worse for saying things with the expectation that Tommy would interpret the worst out of them.

"You've been letting me lead with everything though." Buck swallowed. "Don't you want things, too?"

Tommy looked momentarily taken aback. "Of course I do," he said. "But I don't want things that make you uncomfortable."

"Right. But I know I hurt you," Buck pointed out. "On our first date, when I was uncomfortable. I know you said it was—but—I mean, I know it must've hurt."

Mouth pursing, Tommy sighed. "Alright, it did," he admitted. "But that's different. It's not like this—I don't. Okay, I actually don’t really know why this feels different, but it is. I suppose it’s because I know that you want this. And not wanting PDA doesn’t mean that this doesn’t feel real.”

“Unlike me acting like we were going to go pick up girls.”

Tommy tipped his head to the side, shoulders shrugging up. “Yeah,” he said. “I mean, I did say that I didn’t want to push you. And I think it was both. I was hurt, and I didn’t want to ask for more than you were ready to give.”

“And get more hurt.” Buck exhaled heavily. “I want to give you things,” he said. Because he did, he really, really did. “I’m not going to make you wait forever.”

The corner of Tommy’s mouth ticked up. “I know,” he murmured, the words laden not with a sense of expectation, but with a sense of surety that Buck would catch up with him eventually. “I’m not worried about that, Evan. Promise.”

“But if you ever are,” Buck said with a pointed look.

“I’ll tell you,” Tommy replied. He smiled. “So, temporary hold on the PDA?”

“Temporary hold,” Buck agreed. Then paused. “Wa-wait, does that mean hugs, too?”

Tommy laughed. “I think that’s up to you. Do you want to hug me, Evan?”

Buck grinned. “Yeah,” he said. “I do.”

And then he tackled Tommy into the couch.

(And then they did a little more than just hugging.)

[jo-harrington]

This was everything he ever wanted.

And some things he only ever let himself dream of.

Eddie stared upwards at the towering skyscrapers. He let the lights twinkle in his eyes, absorbed all the sounds and smells, and tried not to smile.

This was it.

The moment it all changed.

He was just a small town boy and suddenly he was stepping into a brave new world, a big city with his friends, away from everything he'd ever known.

Away from his only family, his uncle Wayne.

It was terrifying but he knew his uncle was proud of him.

Proud that he was gonna make something of himself, more than his father did or, truly, anyone else in the family. Proud that he waited and finished school first. Proud that he let his friends finish school too before springing them from their sad little destinies of putzing about their close-minded community.

Well, maybe not proud of that last one exactly. More relieved that Eddie wouldn't be out in the universe alone and that all of the boys would have each other.

Eddie was a little relieved about that too, to be honest. Jeff, G'areth, and Dave had been his backbone for years. While other friends moved on, got themselves out and didn't look back, they made sure he knew that they were in it together.

Still, he would miss Wayne. Hell, they'd miss each other, more than either of them could ever admit aloud. It’d been years since they had anyone more than each other to rely on.

Wayne knew Eddie had a bigger destiny on the horizon and getting out was the first step and the hardest one.

But here he was.

Backpack slung over his shoulder, guitar safely packed away for the big move, lucky vest thrown over comfortable travel clothes.

Out of the pit he called home for the past 20 years. Free to be himself. Finally.

There was a crash behind him and he turned on his heel, idealistic daydreams forgotten, to find his friends standing over a fallen pile of boxes.

“Careful with those!” Eddie hollered and winced as another box crashed onto the durasteel floor of the landing platform.

"Kriff, I'm pretty sure it was part of my drum kit," G'areth ran a hand through his hair and heaved a long sigh.

"We're never gonna pass the cargo inspection if we don't have our shit together," Dave panicked.

"Here we go," Jeff rolled his eyes as Dave started heaving and whining about Empire this and trooper that. Eddie waved a dismissive hand and motioned for his friend to start restacking their belongings.

"Listen, hey, listen," Eddie grabbed Dave by the shoulders to look him in the eye. "Breathe. When the inspector gets here, everything's gonna be ok. We're just a couple of guys coming to Coruscant to play a few gigs at some cantinas, trying our luck to make it big, and if it works out, maybe we'll stay. How many others have tried that before? Huh?"

"Tried and failed."

"You get it," he squeezed Dave's shoulders and shot him a calm smile. "Bunch of dumb scrapper kids from Bracca? We're not gonna make it far. In a month, we'll either be slinging Bantha Hash at a diner or fixing shuttle thrusters in some shop in CoCo town."

"I think I'm just nervous, Ed."

"It's alright. I'm nervous too. But what's the worst that could happen? We're not hauling anything illegal." Not yet.

"What if they just send us back?"

"Then at least we made it this far," he clapped a hand on his back.

If Eddie was a betting man, he'd put all of his money that they'd make it even further.

And he'd win.

The inspection went without a hitch, although all three of Eddie's friends nearly shit themselves at the sight of two stormtroopers in the speeder along with the imperial inspection officer. Which meant he did most of the talking.

He did pretty well, if he said so himself. Remained calm, had all of his paperwork in order, made sure to mention his father's old sabacc buddy--Lip Tonrick, a name that he always mixed up--as a contact.

He even got the inspection officer to laugh at a joke about their ship, a clunky old retrofitted defender-class corvette that he affectionately called the Dragonborn, thanks to its scaly red exterior.

Before they knew it, the inspector was off to the next landing platform, and they were in the clear.

Eddie turned to his friends with his arms out triumphantly.

"We're gonna do big things, boys!" He cheered amidst their whooping and hollering. "We're gonna make a name for ourselves."

He was gonna make a name for himself.

Eddie Moonsun. The best smuggler in the galaxy.

Coming Late Summer 2024...

Find the masterlist here.

[swaglet]

absolutely unhinged rant about fertility treatments (specifically ICSI) below the cut

uhm... just watched a video of the process of an ICSI (intracytoplasmic sperm injection) fertility treatment and they used a needle to inject one single sperm into an egg. that gave me the heebie jeebies as a biologist. like. the only reason 99.9% of us are alive at all is because 1) the egg we were made from was viable, 2) only the utmost fit sperm were able to reach the egg at all, and 3) naturally the egg has the 'final say' in which sperm 'wins' and it chooses which sperm is most fit to fertilize it.

like. injecting an egg with a needle can hurt the cell membrane and fuck up fetal development. what happens if the one single sperm you chose from the cum vial was one that wouldn't even be able to swim past the inside of the pussy lip, congrats, you just let a dumbshit useless disadvantageous sperm fertilize an egg. you have no idea if that egg was viable or not and what if it was fucked up before you even stuck a needle through the membrane.

idk this almost makes me sick to think about. the female body works so hard to protect you from pregnancy and has a system to try and get you only the healthiest of pregnancies possible, your egg shits on bad sperm and your endometrium tries its hardest to flush out the zygote if it doesnt implant correctly and in a safe location. i think there's only so far you can take fertility treatments until it becomes completely inhumane for everyone involved, but especially the mother and the fetus.

the absolute worst part of it all is that ICSI was created for couples that are having trouble concieving because of Male Factor Infertility. why the fuck are we making lab babies out of sperm that isn't even functional enough to do the only thing it was made to do: SWIM? imagine every single sperm this guy ever shoots out from his pathetic cum is too weak to swim up to the egg. idk if this is just the evolutionary biologist in me talking but i would rather die than willingly incubate, give birth to, and raise the poor kid who would end up being a result of absolutely abysmal sperm. if they can't swim to the egg then they don't deserve to fertilize the egg. i don't want to damn my own child to a life of genes that are actively working against its survival

even if i wasnt terrified of pregnancy and didnt hate kids and i really really wanted a family, i still wouldnt want to have my own biological child because there's an almost guaranteed chance that, regardless of its sex, it will have FXS or at least the premutation for it because that shit is on both of my stupid little X chromosomes and i would not wish this on anyone ever

Like. i know that fertility treatments are mad expensive and very few people get them but whyyy why why why would you let inept sperm fertilize something why are we even entertaining this it is sooo unethical in every way

[regretevator-confessions]

(Re-sending this cuz i made a spelling mistake)

I've probably quit because of the incinerator floors.

Firstly, I love this game. I want to love it. It's so fun and quirky and unique and the characters are all top notch. The vibes, the soundtrack, the levels, everything. At least, most of the levels. There's a few unlikeable ones, we all have floors we don't like, but for me there's two in particular I can't stand; the incinerators.

They're not enjoyable, they're just stressful. They end floor long streaks, and there's nothing you can do to opt out of them like in the concrete flood floor. The worst part is when you die on one, that's it. Your steak is over. All your hard earned inventory items are GONE. I hate how these two rooms kill you outright while easier rooms don't, like the four corners floor, meat grinder disco, the sled floor, etc. Even with the concrete flood floor, dying is optional since you can cheese out on it by drinking grey stuff. It's insane that Wall Of doesn't have something like this, especially when ONLY 2.6% OF PLAYERS have ever completed it. Hall Of gets a pass since it's rare, but Wall Of is pretty common, unfortunately.

I hate Wall Of so fucking much. Whenever I get a 50+ floor streak, it's always ended by Wall Of, without fail. It's not fun. I struggle at focusing on what's happening on the screen because of my neurodivergence and my hands get all shaky. I've never beat it, and at this stage I never want to beat it, I just don't want to see it again. I love playing Regretevator but at any moment one of those god forsaken floors could show up and fuck me over. My favorite thing in the world is buying something in Mach's shop only to immediately lose it because the next floor just happens to be Wall Of. I'm sick of it. I haven't felt like playing for a while because of this. It just isn't fun.

I fucking hate it

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[mimiyewaffles]

A FEW INTERESTING THINGS

I guess I need help

So if y'all dont know, I'm trying to revise my boyfriend's d3ath.

It's been two months since I have been affirming and a few days since I got into the concept of void. Now, I'm trying to get into the void.

I've noticed a few crazy things, that I would love to share.

I've always affirmed that “everyone will forget about my boyfriend's demise because it was just my nightmare and no such thing ever happened. He's all alive and healthy” So I guess my affirmations are kinda playing out.

1.

When I got to know about his demise, I sent him like 100 texts that day, I was so emotional and poured down everything to him. He not only is my boyfriend, but also is my best friend. The bestest friend ever and it was the worst day of my life. I was never ready to lose him.

I sent those 100 texts to him on Snapchat and obviously, my texts were just delivered. Nobody read them because that "nobody" Was long gone. I'm talking about feb, 2024. So I checked his snapchat after a few days of emotional ranting, and those texts didn't show up. I thought it might be a glitch and now after like 3 months, I went back to check on him because I missed him and guess what? ALL OF THOSE TEXTS ARE GONE!

Now idk if I'm tweaking but wtf? Snapchat has this feature where messages get deleted after 24 hours of being seen. But nobody saw my messages to begin with, where are those texts????

Like... All the snaps, that were sent before those texts and even after those texts are still in delivered, not seen.

Can anyone tell me if this is a glitch? This couldn't be, right? It's been 3 months to that incident, if it were glitch, it would have been fixed by now but idk-

2.

My bf would post about his travelling and stuffs in Instagram reels and I often visit his account to look at him all alive once again and one day, I noticed one of his reels cover has changed 💀 and I even showed it to my sister and friend and they were shocked too. I thought it might be a glitch too. But it stayed like that for 3 days and then switched back to what it was before.

This might be a glitch idk honestly but my friend said it might be a "timeline/dimensions overlapping"

3.

Two of my close friends are really logical minded and I never told them about my manifestation/shifting to a reality where my bf never got into an accident, because they wouldn't believe me. They don't even believe in multiple realities... So, not worth it.

A week ago, I texted one of these friends, saying that I feel like my bf is alive (emotional ranting) and all she told me was to hold up and move on, I'm thinking way too much 😮‍💨

And that's that. We didn't talk much about it.

After a few days of that, she texted me herself telling me that she feels the same. She feels as if my bf is alive too and maybe faking a death. We didn't get into the conclusion but yeah, we are still in doubt.

Also I would daydream about meeting my bf once again and i would make infinite possibilities to proof my reasoning mind that he's alive. So one of my imagination was my friend texting my bf's brother (they have nothing in common, they don't even know each other yet I imagined them talking) and his brother would say that my boyfriend is actually alive. And that scene exactly happened, except for the alive part. my friend talked to his brother to get his "last" Pics and guess what? They don't have that. Which is super weird because that accident just happened this year and those photos are gone. I texted one of his other brother who always replies to my texts and always give me updates about how their family is grieving but when I asked about pics, he left me on seen— again very weird.

Moreover, all of them (his family members) have moved on completely. They are enjoying and travelling. Idk how but like in a month of my bf's demise, they started partying a stuff which is super weird to me.

.....

I guess my affirmations are kinda becoming true. My 3D is maybe conforming slowly (?) Idk 😭

Lemme know what y'all think. Any tips on revising such thing would be appreciated. Thanks for reading 🎐

I'm sorry if I don't make any sense, I'm probably being delusional. Sorry for the rant 🥲🤌

[iamunabletothinkofablogname]

Isn't it SO fun to be harassed and bullied at school? /sarc

People call me a "FUCKING WEIRDO!" (Yes, that's word for word.)

They make faces at me like I'm sort of disgusting slob. (And they SHOW it and they WANT me to know they think that!)

Along with that, one kid pretended to gag and throw up at the sight of me, and used solar eclipse glasses to not look at me.

One kid called me ugly today! (YAY! /sarc)

They poke and prod at me like I'm a science experiment.

They fear the fact I smile all the time, that I tend to keep an emotionless expression in my eyes. (I'm only following Alastor's advice!)

They love to annoy me... But it's getting tiring.

Only a select few enjoy my presence, they keep me in and go along with my antics. My friend group likes having me around. And other kids I don't know much and we're neutral with each other.

I know I'm "weird" by their standards. But what's the fun in the world without differences?

I know I took on the persona of "weirdo" in my class. I want to go up to a teacher and cry. Because I didn't deserve to be treated like this?

I didn't deserve to be told "You know you should kill yourself" when I'm already suicidal. Did I?

Get told I'm retarded like 10 times already? Maybe more? (I'm not even exaggerating...)

And considering I might have mental illnesses such as possible autism, that's even meaner. At this point I'm not living, I'm surviving.

There's a reason why I've given up. My best friends are on the internet. I don't think without them I would be able to live today. Why do the people who care about me, share my interests, accept me for who I am, respect me, and TREAT me like I'm a human being, so far away?

I know I may be Xenogender, but that's no excuse for treating me no better than some sort of inferior species.

I see no one else getting treated like this, I'm the subject, no, the OBJECT of their bullying.

What the fuck am I supposed to do??? What do you fucking EXPECT me to do??? "Be yourself"??? I AM being myself, and you're fucking BULLYING me!? AM I SUPPOSED TO PUT ON SOME SORT OF MASK? I AM SMILING, MOTHERFUCKER, YET YOU STILL BULLY ME WHEN I DO HAVE A MASK!? /not you, to them

Like, please. Let me rest. Let me have a normal day where I don't have to face discrimination. Where I get treated with love.

I get treated so awfully so much, that I don't even know who I am anymore.

I lost myself.

My catchphrase has to be "I'm so done-" because I said that more than I needed to.

I feel like the next time someone does anything to me, I'm just going to burst out crying.

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

I hope you're doing alright right now, first things first, i need to let you know that you do matter, and you certainly don't deserve to be treated as subhuman as they treat you, I only wish the worst upon them <3 They are bitches who are a waste of oxegyn, they need to put you down to feel something or feel like they matter, and for that they are the weakest most disgusting subhuman people, genuinely hope they get more fucked up than they ever made you feel 🧡

It's pretty obvious that they're trying to make you feel shit, and i wish i was there to fight them off or comfort you when it happened, i said it before and i'll say it again, you don't deserve any of this. You deserve to be happy, and to feel like you are loved and cared for, the way they treat you is uncalled for and it's disgusting [them, not you, your cool] And agreed, your gender or your neurodivergence shouldn't be the reason you get bullied, they aren't things you can control, or things you have to change, they are litterally a part of your being/existence, I can't believe all of the shitty things they're doing, you don't deserve it. Have you tried to tell anyone? [although that doesn't work often, it's worth a try]. It seems like it's really affecting you, whether you admit it or not /nbr /npa I'd reccomend telling a teacher/principle [the meaner the teacher the better], if that doesn't work fight back, physically i wouldnt reccomend but if you have to, do it. Theres not much we can do about bullying, which is fucking shitty, but please hang in there at least and take care of yourself, i care about you and love you /p

I hope it gets better and they stop, they're pieces of shit who shouldn't be making you feel like this, they're insensitive cunts who should have their face cut up, hope they get bullied those fucking assholes

[nevieatiny]

Chasing Shadows in Water

Part 5

Ex!Mingi x Reader/ Reader x San

Summary: You had the hottest boyfriend in campus, handsome, captain of the swimming team, tall, but when he takes you for granted you decide to take a break from relationships, winter break helps to recover and focus on yourself again, but what happens when a new student shows up as a christmas miracle, you swore not to get distracted by a boy gain, but maybe life is giving you a new chance and things do happen for a reason.

Word count: 1726

Genre: Angst / fluff

Masterlist

After the gym encounter San left the gym at the same time, and you could tell he was the type of person who would get off a car to open the door for a girl since the first instant, even though it was not that late he insisted on walking you to the bus stop, now, you were literally exchanging words for the first time so you didn't what to get your hopes up, but how could you not when he stood at the bus stop after you got on, waiting for said bus to leave while waving goodbye

The worst part was the guilt, the breakup was fairly recent and you haven't spoken with Mingi ever since, but again you weren't doing anything wrong, and if something happened why would you feel bad? you don't owe him anything, he lost his chance.

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The next morning your whole body felt stiff, and once you turned off your alarm you saw a text message that you were not expecting at all 

"Julie:hey partner, hope you ready for today's routine, it's leg day 💗"

That woman will be the end of you after what felt like an eternity to get ready due to the pain you were able to leave your apartment, and on your way to campus you subconsciously were thinking how to greet San once you saw him, it's not like you were friends, right? you only spoke once, and all he did was ask for your name, but maybe you were just overthinking things.

And when the moment came you took a big breath before going into the classroom, and to your surprise he was not there as well as a considerable amount of people compared to what you saw last class, a few minutes passed and you saw the professor about to step in when a large group of people tried to enter the room at the same time, and then you saw him, he waved at you with a smile and headed your way "hey" he said out of breath sitting next to you as if it were the most normal thing in the world "Hey, you're late" he just laughed while getting his stuff out of his bad, his eyes disappeared completely while doing so and you could see his dimples showing, shit "yeah our last teacher thought that a pop quiz would be a good idea" "what? but it's only the first week" you knew he studied something related to engendering but a test on the first week? "it was not that hard, just quite tedious" he shrugged and then class started

Although the idea of taking class with San excited you, you soon remembered why you hated this class so much, and just after a few minutes you could feel your brain burning, in the middle of class, when the teacher thought that his extensive and confusing explanation was enough, he decided to leave in a few "quick" exercises, honestly they didn't seem that complex, but halfway through the first exercise and after a few minutes you gave up, Looking at your partner in the chair next to you for a moment you realized that he was very relaxed, leaning against the back of the chair while looking at his phone, "you're not going the exercises?" "Uh? oh no, I finished already" He said as if it were the simplest thing in the world, you knew that San studied something related to engineering, which you admired a lot, but this was too much, after a few minutes of silence we looked over your blank notebook "Do you want help?" You're not sure why he asked, since he hadn't even finished asking when he was already leaning towards you (is not as if you were going to protest anyway), and bless this man's heart, he was so patient with you even after asking the same question over and over, explaining as many times as necessary without making you feel like a fool "I can give you my phone number and you can ask me if you have a question again"

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Ever since that day texting San became second nature, at the beginning you were asking him about class, one day he even called you because it would be "easier" for you both, but he knows how to make people feel comfortable, so how could you say no to that?

he even motivated you to go to the gym after class when you were not feeling like it, and insisted on accompanying you to the bus stop afterward, it felt like everything was working out for you, like a new start.

That was till the club activities were about to begin 

"Oh, so you dance? that's cool, let me know if you have a performance so I can see you" He said one day when he was walking you to the bus stop "Yeah of course, usually if there's like an event or something they ask us to perform at campus, I'll make sure to let you know, Is there a club that catches your attention as well? it's a great opportunity to make friends and get to know people" "So you don't want to spend time with me anymore?" He asked with wide eyes while walking backwards having his whole body facing you "What? no no no, I was just asking you know, maybe you had a hobby or.." "Y/n relax, I'm joking" Again that smile would be the end of you, how can someone be so cute and hot at the same time? "'I'm joining the swimming team, that's what I used to do back in my hometown" Oh lord, it felt as if someone was hitting you to the ground and wouldn't let you get up, hadn't it been enough? "Y/n?" "Oh yeah I'm sorry, that's great, I had no idea, I bet you're really good" "Really? you didn't seem too excited about it" "No, it's just that I'm not the biggest fan of water, that's all" "Don't worry, once I join the team you can come and I can teach you, you know I'm happy to do it, they told me that they pick a new leader for the team each semester, I'll make sure to get it for you" Maybe that sounded romantic in his head, but for you it was like a nightmare.maybe you and Mingi you were no longer together, but you knew how much that title meant to him, he's had it for almost a year and a half, of course, there was nothing you could do if San got it, but things wouldn't get pretty "I bet you'll get it, don't worry about it" 

That Friday once he dropped you off at the bus stop you couldn't help but think that Monday would be a disaster, not only for San but because you also had to see Yunho, this time there was no way to hide and you would have to act like a grown-up so the whole situation wouldn't be uncomfortable for your teammates.

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Monday came by and there was nothing you would like more than to stay in bed and pretend to be sick, but at the same time you were excited to finally see your teammates again, that was your safe place after all, they always made you feel comfortable and allowed you to be yourself and you didn't want to lose that

As you tried to concentrate during class you couldn't help but feel nervous and anxious at the same time, but it was inevitable since your last encounter hadn't been very pleasant, you were trying not to be in your head, and the only thing you could think of to try to make things easier was to arrive as early as possible, maybe arriving earlier to talk to a small group of people as if nothing awkward happened before the broken winter would be easier than arriving and meeting a large group of people, so you did but to your surprise when you entered the classroom it was empty, maybe it was a little too early, then you went to leave your things in front of the mirror while you sat on the floor, and as you were about to take your water bottle out of the bag you heard the sound of the door opening, you looked up and both of you froze for a second before he finally spoke: "hey, how was your winter break?" his voice was very low and you could hear the hesitation in his voice as he asked "Hmm great I guess, I went to my parent's house to spend a few days there" "I see, we went to his hometown to see his mother" Again, you knew Yunho would always be his best friend first, but his tone of voice during that last sentence threw you off a little, it felt as if he was trying to make accuse you in a way, but you were tired of being the bigger person " I don't know what you're trying to do by telling me that, especially with that tone, but I'm going to be very clear with you, Whatever happened between Mingi and i is just between him and me, I understand that you are his best friend, but I thought that you were also mine at some point If you want to pick sides like that it's fine, but I just hope you know it's nothing against you." It was rare to see Yunho angry, but it was pretty obvious that what you said was not to his liking at all "Yes Y/n but you need to understand... " You had to stop your little argument as both of you head the door opening and a few of your teammates came in laughing, having no idea of what was going on before they arrived, and you were honestly grateful for that. 

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HEY it's me, I'm sorry for taking so long, my work has been a nightmare these last few days, I hope to be updating more often tho, and also IM GOING TO SEE ATEEZ IN NEW YORK, I'm so excited, if any of you is going as well let me know, maybe we can meet there or something <3

[moon-fics]

Nicest Thing- Peter Parker

A/n: I've lost interest in writing but this idea has been stuck in my head for days. Enjoy what might be this account's last post as I move on in life💜

The nicest thing Peter Parker could have ever done was say a lie. It's something he's done a million times to keep himself safe; to keep others safe. It wasn't one of those 'you look great' or 'I'm doing fine' lies. It was a soul-crushing, devastating lie that only he could concoct with his brilliant mind and ever-present fears.

The nicest thing Peter Parker would ever do was look you in those gorgeous eyes and lie. It wasn't like the ones he made up on the spot, no, this one took time. He'd spent days pouring his heart out for this lie, vomiting his soul into his hands and secretly leaving it in your pocket. In his mind, there was no other way, nothing that could shake the terrors.

"I don't love you," Is all he needed. He didn't burn the bridge, he ripped it piece by piece as if he made it himself. Even as his rough fingers broke the cement and metal, he held onto it as gently as he could. "I never did," The final sliver of what he once cherished was now lost in time.

As he waited for your response he scratched his thumb over his pointer finger, forcing his lips shut. He knew that if he didn't he'd beg and plead for you to forget what he said. Every part of his body gnawing at his skin, craving your forgiveness for his cruelty. It's the worst pain he ever felt, nothing compared to the broken bones and gashes of battle.

"Then I will love you forever," He wasn't expecting your response to be so calm. He expected tears and anger, but instead, you looked almost regretful. "So that you will always feel a pit of guilt when you feel unlovable. So you know that someone out there does love you but they will never forgive you," There's no anger in your tone, not even a hint of it.

You're being completely honest, you will love him until the day you die. It will blur the line between love and spite, yet it will always bloom. Peter Parker will forever be loved by a woman who will never want him again.

[ticklishprincey]

Hazbin Hotel Tickle Headcannons

Enjoy your food you heathens /aff (Part one bc word count)

Charlie

-Switch energy 100%

-Loves to tease her lee but is very gentle

-Knows when to stop or give breaks

-Has established a safe word with all hotel members

-Favorite teases are complimenting her lee

-"Aww, look at that blush, that's adorable!"

-Main targets are Vaggie and Angel Dust

-Aftercare usually consists of cuddles and a snack

-Main lers are Vaggie, Lucifer and Angel Dust

-As the rest of the hotel gets used to her they sneak in a few tickles though

-Very giggly and blushy lee

-Very easy to make flustered

-Worst spot is her tummy

-Melt spot is her wrists

-Gentle scratches there will make her very giggly and very happy

Vaggie

-Ler-leaning switch

-Only tickles Charlie

-Not good at teasing, she'll end up flustering herself

-Favors gentle tickles than wrecking her lee

-But if Charlie wants it she's more than happy to wreck her princess

-Very good at aftercare, gets her lee water and snacks and will cuddle them as well if she's close enough

-Will only let Charlie tickle her

-Anybody else will die a slow and painful second death

-Not super ticklish

-Her wings are the only place that really gets her laughing

Alastor

-Likes to believe he's ler-leaning but he's just a 100% switch

-People would think the famous Radio Demon would be above tickling

-They would be mistaken

-Since Charlie has forbidden physically harming people, tickling is a nice substitute

-He also likes the bonding aspect (but would rather die twice than admit to that, he's the fucking Radio Demon)

-HUGE TEASE

-"You're never fully dressed without a smile, darling!"

-Has no knowledge of the word stop

-He stops when he's bored or when he sees his lee has had their fill

-Main targets are Husk and Rosie BUT he's a devious little bitch and will tickle anyone being annoying/without a smile

-Surprisingly good with aftercare, typically gets his lee a blanket and water and if he's close enough he'll pull them into his lap and let them fall asleep on him

-Main lers are Rosie and Lucifer (platonically of course my guy is THE aroace icon)

-Worst spots are his hips and upper ribs

-Melt spot is his ears

-Either static-y laughter or loses his filter completely depending on the ler and the spot being targeted

-His accent really comes out when he's being wrecked

-Don't forget he's from Louisiana guys that accent is HERE AND IT IS QUEER GODDAMMIT

Angel Dust

-The switchiest switch to ever switch

-Having six arms really comes in handy (pun 102% intended)

-Main targets are Husk, Cherri Bomb and Charlie

-Big fan of cheer-up tickles

-The biggest fucking tease there is

-Beware easily flustered lees this spider talks nonstop

-"Ooooo this seems like a baaaad spot"

-Does the whole "getcha getcha getcha" thing

-Very big on consent (for obvious reasons) and will ask his lee multiple times throughout a session if they're okay with it

-Asks before pinning someone or at least makes sure they're fine with it

-If he sees his lee is uncomfortable he immediately lets up and starts apologizing

-Aftercare is very important to him, he will snuggle his lee and get them water and a blanket

-Having multiple arms is a blessing and a curse

-His armpits are his death spot and he's got six of them

-Satan help this poor guy

-Not afraid to outright ask to be wrecked

-Sometimes flusters his ler accidentally with how forward he is

-Main lers are Husk and Cherri Bomb

-Favorite ler is Husk

-Absolutely melts when his pattern on his chest is tickled

Husk

-Ler-leaning switch

-Main target is Angel Dust but will attack Alastor every once in a while to take him down a peg or two

-Doesn't do baby-talk teasing (will fluster himself if he tries)

-BUT HE DOES KNOW HOW TO TEASE DON'T UNDERESTIMATE

-"Bad spot, eh? Maybe I should stay here for a bit. You don't mind, do ya?"

-Likes to give nicknames to his lee

-Usually very gentle but will not hesitate to wreck someone if they get on his nerves (or if they ask)

-Tickle hugs are his specialty

-Most definitely uses his wings and claws as tickle tools

-Aftercare with him usually consists of a glass of water and cuddles until his lee falls asleep

-Doesn't get lee moods too often but when he does they're BAD

-Main lers are Angel Dust and Alastor

-Purrs when he's tickled and hates it

-Isn't a big fan of being pinned down so his ler will usually trap him in a hug while tickling him

-Will deny being ticklish until he's out of breath

-Worst spot is the part of his back where his wings connect

-Absolutely melts when his ears are tickled

-His tail wags and his ears flick and twitch because he's happy

-The easiest lee to fluster

-Angel found out he was ticklish during a drunk cuddle session and he had a field day

-Would sooner dig a grave and lay in it than admit to liking it

Lucifer

-You're gonna sit here and tell me this man isn't a switch? LIES

-Deviously teasy ler

-Main target is Charlie but goes after Alastor just because he can

-Tickles Charlie whenever she's stressed or upset

-Tweaks his methods for each lee to better suit them

-Definitely uses his wings as tickle tools

-Loves to see his lee blush

-"Awe, don't hide that blush, cutie!"

-Likes to give nicknames to his lee just to fluster them more

-Loves the rib-counting game

-Aftercare is super sweet and cuddly, he'll pull his lee into his lap and play with their hair until they fall asleep

-Deathly ticklish

-His wings are his worst spots but his thighs are a very close second

-Accidentally shape-shifts sometimes while being wrecked

-Main ler is Alastor (the little shit)

-Blushes very easily and cannot take what he dishes out

-Pushes at his lers hands but doesn't actually try to get away

-Melt spot is right under his chin

-Compliment teases kill him

Rosie

-Ler-leaning switch

-Helps Alastor with his ler moods but is ler 99% of the time

-Main (and only) target is Alastor

-Holds the power to say the t-word whenever she pleases and uses this to her advantage as both ler and lee

-Nibbles on her lee's belly and pretends to eat them

-Loves to tease

-"Does this tickle? Hm? I don't hear a nooo~"

-Queen of raspberries

-Tickles Alastor when he's stressed or particularly obnoxious

-Doesn't really pin her lee (Alastor usually leans into it anyway)

-Aftercare is usually letting her lee curl up in her lap as she hums a lullaby while playing with their hair

-Isn't that ticklish but if you know her well enough you can get her to laugh

-Worst spot is her hips

-Alastor likes to drill his thumbs into her hips and she absolutely SHRIEKS

-Anywhere else either gets a smile or a small giggle out of her

-Doesn't really have a melt spot but her neck is her favorite

-Only lets Alastor tickle her

-Anyone else gets eaten

I'll do the Vees when I get a chance and maybe the angels too, I'm tired and have a fanfic request to cough up work on

[panda-writes-kpop]

Sour Banana Slushie - Kazuha

a/n: I'm going to be completely honest with you, folks, I really wasn't going to post anything this week because I had exams last week and was too burnout to focus on anything else. however, I had a boring shift at work today and had some extra time on my hands so I have this lovely little draft for you. And yes, our beloved hunters in this fic will make their returns at a later date. :)

tw: kidnapping, demons, deception, there's an exorcism without saying there's an exorcism, some mentions of violence, one shotgun is seen and loaded but it unused, reader is vengeful AF, supernatural spoilers if you aren't caught up to season 3, oddly sad ending

summary: a lovely vacation with your beloved Kazuha goes wrong when you run into two demon hunters. which would be absolutely no problem... if you two weren't centuries-old demons.

♡ Masterlist ♡ ▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎ ☆ Prompt List ☆

"Next time, I'm choosing the motel." Kazuha sighs as you struggle against the bindings on your arms. "It's no use, trust me, I already tried."

"Where are we?" You slowly raise your head as the dizziness starts to fade - you must've been drugged while you weren't looking.

You remember the bright lights of the bar. The pretty women passing you by - but none would ever compare to Kazuha.

It didn't matter what form she took. You still loved her years and years later.

You were talking to two women - hunters, you were sure, and you tried to warn your beloved, but it was too late. The needle in your arm had already done you in.

Your eyes lock with the same two women, one who nervously checks the closed blinds and the other who holds a shotgun with one hand.

"Did you two think that you'd get away from us? After all of the shit you've done?" The girl with the shotgun scoffs before loading it up with... salt?

"We're just a couple of vacationers, please, let us go!" Kazuha tries to reason with them, but neither of your captors are swayed.

You look down at your feet, only to notice an odd looking pentagon that's been drawn at your feet. Once the realization hits you, you thrash around until your hands and feet are loose.

"Let us go. You don't know who you're messing with." You hiss as you pace around the circle.

Kazuha's tied up, away from your reach, but the pentagram above her head traps her in.

"Who would that be?" The girl at the window asks as you stop pacing.

"Siyeon-ah, you know they're not going to answer truthfully. They're demons-" The girl with the shotgun starts to reason with the other, but you interrupt their conversation.

"-Lilith." You stand still as her name passes through your lips. "She might tear me to bits for saying that, but you might not send me back to Hell if I'm honest with you."

"Darling-" Kazuha calls out to you as you sigh.

"If it counts for anything, SuA, I would've followed Siyeon if things had worked out between her and that other demon." You shrug as SuA scoffs before loading the shotgun.

"Siyeon, do the ritual." SuA looks over to Siyeon.

"What if they're telling the truth? We have a lead, a name of a very dangerous demon. We can finally do something to prevent the apocalypse."

"It's already come," Kazuha mumbles, "and we're not even the worst parts of it."

"SuA-"

"Say the damn words before I find the book that contains the ritual." SuA shuts Siyeon down, and the latter reluctantly begins to recite a chorus of Latin words.

Pain immediately covers your whole body as you fall to the floor. You hear Kazuha's screams echo around you, but you can't find the strength or energy to look at her.

You wouldn't harm any humans, at least, not any that didn't deserve it or muddle in your business. But upon hearing Kazuha's screams and cries for mercy, something within you broke.

You're going to rip those two hunters to fucking shreds when you're back above the surface.

"I love you, Kazuha." You grit your teeth as you feel yourself succumb to the pain.

It won't kill you, but you'll be sent back to hell until another doorway opens or some idiotic human summons you.

You swear that you can hear Kazuha whisper back to you, but you can't make out what she has said. Maybe it's the regrets of your mind speaking her words instead.

Either way, you just hope that Kazuha will be with you when you end up back in Hell. And when you do, the first thing you're doing to do is figure a way out of Hell.

Just so you can put an end to those fucking Winchesters.

[bitterkarmaa]

I bring another offering! I had been thinking lately about something about Rays, some little things i've noticed - in the fics it's been hinted a couple of times that Rays is surprisingly strong despite his appearence, once when he caught Eclipse from falling and the second when he pulled Eclipse and Veil up to save them from Bloodmoon, and then held them off without immedietely getting mauled to death. This combined also with your reference sheet of him saying 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger'

This has made me assume that lord bastardo had Rays fighting some pretty nasty creatures at some point over his long lifetime for his own amusement. So despite how skittish he is, Rays does know a thing or two about fighting/self defence (though the self-defence part is questionable, he's more like a shield specifically for others)

And so with that all in mind - i wrote this experimental shot super quick! :D

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If Eclipse had a nickle for every time something horrifically dangerous came out of the portal…

Well if they were counting only his own experience he'd have just the one. But then with the amount of weird shit that came out of that accursed ballpit on a weekly basis Eclipse might as well be a millionaire.

But that was beside the point.

Because right now he was facing off with quite possibly the scariest thing Eclipse had ever had the displeasure of meeting. And that was saying something given his past ventures into worlds where he's had to meet the very worst of what he could have become.

But a giant insect the size of a large horse that looked like some amalgamation of a spider and a wood louse with mandibles to match was certainly up there.

And right now the thing had its eyes - all 12 of them from what Eclipse could count - on him.

Wonderful.

Moon was currently at the computer trying to activate the security protocals but something was clearly wrong because it was refusing to co-operate. The most he had managed was to re-open the portal so they could at the very least try and lure the nightmarish bug thing back into it.

But they'd needed something or someone to act as the bait and that is where Eclipse came in, and already he was regretting every life choice he had ever made.

But well- he did hold the power of the universe at his hands afterall. The star thrummed in his chest, reminding him of what he could be capable of. And so, steeling himself Eclipse raised his hand toward the creature and began to focus.

But as the light began to glow from his palm, the bug started to scuttle toward him at an alarming speed and Eclipse lost every single nerve he had.

Oh fuck that.

He bolted.

The bug was fast however, and Eclipse had barely managed to quickly dodge to the side before it barrelled past him and into one of the play structures leaving an alarmingly large dent in the side of the bars.

But it gave him no chance to gather his nerves or his thoughts as it twisted around horrifically, it's shell cracking like the sounds of a hundred bones and charged Eclipse again. This time as he tried to run, one of his legs gave out and he found himself crashing to the floor.

Of all the times for this to happen-

Panic flared within him, burning hot making him disorientated. Eclipse scrambled but ended up hitting a wall, trapping him. The creature was almost right on top of him and Eclipse had no chance to react or to even think-

A flash of yellow filled his view and for a moment Eclipse thought it was Sun. But battered rays said otherwise, and the scarred orange and black animatronic came to the horrifying realisation that Rays had jumped inbetween him and the bug.

He struggled to stand, claws digging into the wall as he yelled 'Rays don't!'

But it was too late and the giant insect charged into Rays and Eclipse would later deny the painfully anguished no that left him. However Rays did not end up mauled to death or crushed between those horrific mandibles as Eclipse had expected.

Instead somehow this frail looking and very skittish animatronic had actually grabbed the insect by those said mandibles, one in each hand like someone grabbing the horns of a wild bull and was somehow keeping it at bay as the creature thrashed and bucked under his surprisingly strong grip, screeching horrifically and at a pitch that made Eclipse cringe in pain.

But Rays appeared to be unaffected and Eclipse could only watch as the scarred yellow animatronic braced his feet against the ground before heaving, his vents and hydrolics releasing a loud sharp hiss as he turned the creature over onto it's side and with a sharp kick flipped it fully onto its back.

Now incapacitated, the insects nightmarish legs skittering helplessly in the air and it's pillbug like body arching and swaying in a mad attempt to make itself upright. But thank to whatever deity was watching right now, it seemed to be incapable.

Rays turned to Eclipse who stared back. Rays' eyes were blown wide open but his pupils were fully shrunk into pinpricks. Honestly the second scariest looking thing Eclipse had seen today. The yellow animatronic wordlessly pointed toward the portal which quite conveniently turned out to be right behind Eclipse as he soon realised as his bearings came back to him a bit.

Right right portal, plan, get the scary ass bug out of here. Then he could focus more fully on the other scary ass but admittedly very impressive thing Rays just did because what the actual hell was that how and where did that even come from.

Eclipse shook his head and pulled himself to his feet. His legs were still shaky but he steeled himself, as he had to finish this before the nightmarish creature could right itself. Setting his face in stone, Eclipse took the few brisk steps toward Rays and the insect and after a brief moment of hesitation, the nerves briefly flaring up at the sight of the thing he reached out and grabbed one of the legs.

Eclipse began to drag it over the rest of the way to the ballpit, and the insect screeched and chittered loudly, the noise ringing painfully in his audio receptors. But he ignored it, instead noting distantly just how heavy this thing was. Eclipse knew Rays was strong, but the fact he had managed to grapple and flip this thing was honest to God impressive and terrifying.

With a mighty heave, Eclipse twisted and partially swung the angry insect into the ballpit where the portal flashed to life and then the creature was finally no more. He turned back toward Rays with the question of 'ok what actual the hell was that?!' fresh on his tongue only to find Rays was crumpled on the ground.

And he was not moving.

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*clears throat*

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Today held a new record for ‘the amount of times Eclipse has panicked over the course of a single day.’ First the bug, now Rays laying on the ground like a pancake after having just saved Eclipse’s ass from being squished by said gigantic insect. It was not a happy day, no sir.

Pride be damned, he slides down next to Rays, shouting his name as everyone else begins to either dive off of the balcony (Blood Moon), or scramble towards the theater door to take the safer way down.

It’s a sickening feeling, the world fading from awareness as Eclipse begs Rays to be alright, shaking his shoulder in the most gentle, yet desperate way he possibly can.

If I had just stood my ground and used The Star as planned- dammit. DAMMIT!

Do not cry. Do not cry. Do not cry.

“Rays, I swear- I’ll- I’ll-“ The threat dies in his throat, silenced by the emotions that strangle him into submission. Blood Moon bounds over on all fours, circling Eclipse and Rays like a hawk hunting for its next meal. They stop dead in their tracks when they see the look on their father’s face.

“Just…resting? Just tired. Break time.” They murmur, leaning closer to get a better look at Rays. Eclipse nudges them back.

“Don’t be too sure.”

Heroics. So stupid. I wouldn’t have been missed.

Eclipse of tightens his grip on Rays’ shoulder, painfully so if he had been awake.

I had The Star, you idiot. Why? Why’d you step in like that?

Eclipse looks down to the floor at that thought, his own rays clicking, then retracting behind his faceplate. His grip loosens once again. He knows why. Knows why Rays took the hit, took the heat in Eclipse’s moment of weakness.

Because he was trained too.

“Dad?”

Eclipse looks up and over to Blood Moon, eyeing them tiredly.

“…you’re crying.”

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Just thought I’d add my piece to the wonderful surprise I found in my inbox :) thanks a bunch once again, Bloo <3

[im-actually-a-certified-idiot]

my guy you must elaborate on why you hate wolfstar

hehehhehe alr alr be warned: this turned into a huge anti-wolfstar essay so read at your own risk.

so basically

i want to preface this by saying that this isn't slander to wolfstar shippers. i used to be one, in fact (the first hp fanfic i read was wolfstar centered) but i kinda grew to realize it sucked later on.

FIRST OF ALL

they do not deserve each other.

yeah, that's right. you heard me right. THEY DO NOT DESERVE EACH OTHER.

And they wouldn't want each other either.

Sirius exposed Remus as a werewolf in their fifth year. He willingly gave up that secret to Snape, one of their worst enemies, who would definitely somehow take advantage of it. HE KNEW Remus's secret could get him jailed or killed or worse. And he still chose to give that up.

To contextualize it in the society we live in today- imagine your best friend told your worst enemy (a boy you've been bullying for literally 5 years and who would undoubtedly do anything to hurt you back) that you were, say, trans. They outed you, without your consent. They outed you, knowing you trusted them with this particular secret. Being trans today can get you killed in some places. Are you really going to forgive that?

No. Absolutely not. Maybe you'll accept their apology, and try to move on, but you're never really going to let that go. You're never really going to shake that off. They were your best friend, and they hurt you.

It doesn't matter if Sirius grew up in an abusive household. It doesn't matter that James ended up saving Snape's ass. It was still a dangerous violation of trust- and not to mention, Snape almost got killed because of it?? My guy. I am not a Snape stan but that is a whole different level of FUCKED UP. Sirius very nearly turned Remus into a murderer- one of his worst fears.

So, fast forward a few years. It's October 31st, the Potters die, Voldemort vanishes, baby Harry's an orphan, and Sirius is jailed. You know what Remus is probably thinking?

Well. I should've seen that coming.

This is the same guy who outed him as a werewolf to Snape. Do you really think he's going to be surprised to find out Sirius breached James's trust? He's probably beating himself up, thinking something along the lines of "poisonous toadstools don't change their spots" (yes i stole that from ron weasley deal with it)

But whatever. That's just a personal hc I slipped in. The more important part comes now. What Remus did wrong.

He left Harry alone.

Harry, who's Sirius's godson. Harry, the son of Sirius's best friend. Harry, the spitting image of his father. Harry, a baby who lost his entire family all in one night.

He left Harry alone for 13 years, and I just can't see Sirius forgiving that. Sorry, but I can't.

It's clear that Harry is like a son to Sirius. He treats him with such paternal affection and love it's hard not to see it. It's like a parent whose child was wronged by an adult. They're not gonna be so forgiving.

I don't think Sirius ever truly forgave Remus for that. Leaving him in Azkaban, he could deal with- but leaving Harry? That crosses a line. That's uncalled for. No matter what, Harry was their best friend's son first. It should've been first priority to protect him.

It doesn't matter if Remus was a werewolf. If he was ashamed, scared. Even visiting Harry or giving him to someone else to raise would've been okay. But no contact at all? That's horrible. To leave him in an abusive household, year after year...how could Sirius ever forgive that?

So, in conclusion, they most likely wouldn't want each other, and they certainly don't deserve each other. I'm not slandering them- I'm actually a Sirius kinnie. But. They both did fucked up things that's unfairly glossed over, and I think their relationship could never truly be repaired.

but well that's just my take lmao

[nofomogirl]

Before the Beginning (part 2.3.)

Part 1.1. | Part 1.2. | Part 1.3. | Part 1.4. | Part 1.5. | Part 2.1. | Part 2.2.

Hello, it's been a while.

If you're jumping in the middle, hi, this is a series of posts where I discuss things I've noticed in the Before the Beginning scene and suggest how they might shed new light on other scenes from both seasons.

Today let's do our favourite thing, shall we?

Let's revisit the Bandstand Breakup again.

Right after Aziraphale and Crowley argue over the possibility of killing Adam, and Crowley turns to leave, there's this memorable exchange:

A: You can't leave, Crowley. There isn't anywhere to go. C: It's a big universe. Even if this all ends up in a puddle of burning goo, we can go off together. A: Go off together? Listen to yourself.

and ever since S1, we've been arguing about exactly what was stopping Aziraphale from taking Crowley's offer. Why, despite clearly finding the idea appealing, it just as clearly wasn't an option he would seriously consider. Was it more because he wasn't able to choose Crowley or because he wasn't able to abandon Earth?

There are many sound arguments to support both and, like most people, I used to believe the truth to lay somewhere in between.

But then S2 happened, the Before the Beginning scene happened, and the bomb was dropped that it might actually be the entire universe that was on a 6000-year deadline, not just Earth.

True, we don't know for sure which is it, and more importantly, which Aziraphale believes, but if we assume that to the best of his knowledge, the end of the world means the end of all material creation, then you have to admit it changes the scene quite a bit.

It means that running away with Crowley wasn't something the angel could technically do but just wouldn't, it was objectively not an option. If it was just like Death said - if Armageddon happens anywhere, it happens everywhere - Aziraphale was right - there wasn't anywhere to go - and Crowley was wrong - the size of the universe made no difference.

Now the big questions are (1) why Crowley would propose running away, and (2) why Aziraphale hasn't called him out.

Regarding the first one, I've offered some theories in part 2.2:

Crowley may actually be right, and it's Aziraphale who's misinformed

Crowley's knowledge of the universe's fate might have been erased from his mind

Crowley could have repressed the knowledge himself due to trauma

Please feel free to take your pick.

I've already confessed my personal HC is the last one, and I stand by it. There's just something about Crowley consistently refusing to consider the worst-case scenario and behaving like it isn't an option. Book canon explicitly called him an optimist but I don't think that's the reason in the show.

Back to question (2) then. If running away was objectively impossible, why haven't Aziraphale simply pointed it out?

If we look at just that one scene, it's not hard to explain.

A: Go off together? Listen to yourself. C: How long we have been friends? Six thousand years! A: Friends? We're not friends! We are an angel and a demon.

You know how it goes.

My point is, like most of us after S1, Crowley assumed it was the "together" part that was the issue and addressed it. In other words, Aziraphale got distracted by another touchy topic.

Easy.

But I'd like to offer another explanation: Aziraphale doesn't have it in him to break Crowley's bubble.

This is my HC right now and here's why:

Aziraphale did give Crowley the bad news once, the very same exact piece of bad news, before the beginning, and he saw what it triggered and where it eventually ended

Aziraphale generally isn't the kind of person who easily delivers hard truths

Aziraphale is uncomfortable with confrontations

Aziraphale understands the absolute horror that is his and Crowley's situation and understands that not thinking about it is often the only way not to lose their mind

That's it for today, thank you for reading! I know I'm posting less frequently right now - for some reason putting my thoughts into ordered words has become harder recently... But the thoughts are still there and so is the desire to share.

[iwasbored777]

The worst thing Miguel and Jessica did to Gwen wasn't even threatening to send her home if she ever visits Miles, it's forcing her to choose their side during the chase scene and make Miles never want to see her again and once the chase scene ended they kicked her out. That's the kind of evil that the Spot was trying so hard to become.

Edit: just in case you forgot - they knew that prison and dead dad were waiting for her when they send her back home

[taegularities]

some men are textbook villains fr