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chacerider-casual · 1 year

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You had me hooked at Godzilla

Are there robots? Cus I remember reading robots somehwere

And these guys give me superhero vibes, do they have superpowers? Or are they like, power rangers but high tech

Fun fact! The original head of the company that makes Ultraman, Mr. Eiji Tsuburaya (may he rest in peace), was the special effects director for the original Godzilla, before he split off to create his own production company! (Yeah, Ultraman's been going a while... Off and on since 1966!) So there's a good reason Godzilla is an easy comparison to make, and it's not just because of all the kaiju!

There are robots sometimes! The big focus is on the titular Ultramen -- aliens made of light from a distant galaxy, (usually,) capable of being large or small, generally do-gooders and capable of fusing their life with a human host for mutual survival -- but there have been both robot antagonists and robot friends throughout the years. The current season, Blazar, is very new-viewer friendly and has a giant mecha-godzilla-esque mecha that our heroes pilot (starting from episode 3)! His name is Earth Garon and we all love him.

As for superhero vibes... Kinda! As I mentioned, Ultramen can fuse with humans for mutual survival - Ultras need intense solar radiation to survive more than a few minutes, which Earth's atmosphere unfortunately blocks, so fusing lets them hide in the human's body on Earth to survive long-term when waiting for kaiju to show up, and lets the human hide in the Ultra's body for combat! (Well, there's other situations too, because not all "Ultramen" are from the same place, and others find other solutions... but that's the most common way.) So the protagonist is usually very superhero-like, with a "secret identity" of sorts! (EDIT: ... And yes, Ultramen themselves typically have superpowers. The most basic is beam attacks, but there's been everything from healing powers to energy weapon summoning to CRAB MINIATURIZING BEAM to summoning black holes! They're a bit magical like that.)

But then there's usually a government Defense Team, or other human allies, who are trying to solve mysteries and save Earth themselves, with human technology! So that part's often more got Star Trek vibes than Power Rangers, I'd say, but they'll often have combining jet fighters or mecha and such, so a bit similar after all, lol. A big theme is humanity trying to find its own place in the universe and grow to protect themselves!

... Though, that's mostly in proper seasons. Zero's a bunch of movies, usually set out in space with very few humans (or human-looking characters) at all, so it's very much a larger-scale sci-fi superhero romp there. A bit more Star Wars than Star Trek, but still it's own thing and very fun!

... Ah, I talked too much again. Well, if you need any more rambling about my favorite series, I'll be around, lmao

#rambling #listen. ultraman's love for humanity is intense and real #they largely tend to view us like younger siblings #we can mess up and be annoying but #they want us to succeed so much #and if we get in over our heads they will rush to protect us #it's all so very good and cute ;w;#ARGH TRYING TO SUM UP SO MANY DIFFERENT SEASONS IS HARD #alright alright time for bed ace

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anyoldfandom · 7 months

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I am actually. I am so emotional over the Salazar parents and I need to share this to tumblr too.

A lot of stories where the MC is adopted I feel. Either dismiss the biological parents and the impact they have on the kid's life, or makes them evil and abusive, framing the loss of the bio parents as a good thing, or at least something we shouldn't think about just look at this new family.

But Genrex doesn't do that. From the start, Rex wanted to find out more about his parents - it's one of his primary character motivations, next to helping people. He loves them, even though he doesn't know them.

And the more he finds out about them, the more he realizes they loved him. Rylander is consumed by guilt but as Rex's first connection to his pre-Event life, the first thing he does is hug him. And when he tells Rex about his parents, the two things Rex knows is that 1) they were scientists, and 2) that when he was in danger, they were desperate enough to use their secret, experimental technology to save him. Technology built from their desire to help the world, to save countless lives and end countless suffering.

And then. When he finds out that they were dead, he doesn't stop caring. It'd be so easy, too, to tie it up there - his parents were good people, he got his answer about them, the end. But they don't. He doesn't. Because the show is saying once again that they are his parents. He still calls them mom and dad, even as the show makes it clear Holiday and Six adopted Rex as their son. Even as the show even parallels Six and One with Rex and Six (and I will talk about that more later if I don't forget, trust me), to really drive home how much they're family. Rex even says he considers the two of them family, and later that he considers Noah, Claire and Annie family.

He has new family, the show tells us, but his old family still matters to him. He's upset that he never has the chance to meet his parents, that everything he hears about them, about his time with them, is secondhand knowledge. It tells us clearly that not only does Rex still love them, but that he still wants to know them. And everything we find out about them reinforces the love that they had for each other.

We see Abuela and the family in Mexico, who connect him to his birth family and tell him that he was so loved back then, and still is now. We see their office in Abysus through Rex's eyes. The picture of him and his dad on his desk. The drawing Rex drew, proudly pinned to the wall.

We see it in the familiarity of the drawing. That that robot, that build, was what Rex created when he was lost and scared and alone - that it was made to keep him safe. That it first appeared in his mind in a place he felt safe.

The show says, tenderly and softly, that the love is still there. That the fact these people died was nothing but a tragedy, that their love is a big part of what made Rex who he is today - that every molecule in his body is filled with their final gift to him. That every time he cures someone, every time he uses a build, every time he makes a machine - we see the love that they had for him.

And the way he quietly absorbs his father's face. The way he freezes and whispers "Mamá?" when he finds out Zag-Rs has their mother's voice. The fact that she even has her voice as a testament to Caesar's love, too - that it was meant to bring comfort and safety. The way Rex yells at Caesar when he finds out they have a family property, a connection to their past, the way he fights to protect it.

And, none of this takes away still from Six and Holiday being Rex's family too. None of this removes the work either set of parents did for him, the love either set has - the show says that it was unfair that the Salazar parents were lost. That Six and Holiday are not replacements, that they still love him as parents but play different roles in his life. They can not, and have no desire to, replace the Salazars. But Rex needs parents, he needs protectors, and so they will do what they can for him - at first out of necessity, to keep this kid they barely know safe, but then out of love. They aren't replacing what was lost, but are doing their best to do what Rex's bio parents would do. And they do mess up in it - they mess up in ways Rex's bio parents might not have. Six is clearly bad with showing affection, affection we saw the Salazars give Rex so easily, and Holiday is overworked and stressed constantly, sometimes breaking under the pressure and snapping at Rex and Six, things we never saw the Salazars do.

It's just. It's about how sometimes things will not be the same. They will be different. That doesn't mean the people you lost aren't still with you.

#This is also. Why I dislike the 'Rex was secretly made for the nanite experiments the accident was a lie' theory so much #Bc it assigns malice where the show says over and over again there was only love.#That this was only ever a tragedy of good people whose good intentions were manipulated and twisted.#And I think giving them something shitty to have done in the past especially goes against the message of the show's perspective on adoption #The family we choose is not always stronger than the family we are born to. Sometimes they are equal in different ways.#Rex's bio parents are gone but not replaced. They have also shaped who he is #Six and Holiday are just picking up where they left off. Because they have to.#Also I don't like the theory that Rex's parents are EVOs somewhere bc I think it diminishes the impact of the tragedy too.#I get. Wanting them to have a happy ending. But I think it's important to realize that this is the closest they can have to a happy ending.#Some things cannot be replaced. Or fixed. Sometimes life takes what we love and what loves us. And that is okay.#It is okay to be upset at that and it is okay to never fully move on.#'What about Caesar?' I have. Another post's worth of thoughts about him.#But I think he's also a character who is defined more by Rex by their relation and defined by the story by his guilt #I think he is the closest thing Rex has to a shitty bio family member and he is shitty in plenty of ways #But he's also a parallel to Rex in a lot of ways. He fails where Rex succeeds bc of it.#generator rex #genrex #Anyways. Sorry for the big post.

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 4 months

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"yes im so fine"

*researches whether i can get my hands on ipecac*

#tw ed #obligatory MASSIVE do not do this #straight up poison that can kill you from one (1) time #used to be used to induce vomiting #directly the cause of death of karen carpenter and countless others #i wont i swear i wont #but i still researched it bc i was curious #tbh there are easier ways of poisoing oneself than semi illegal drugs #also if yall remember the post about a poison i own: i did more reseach and while that amount would probably kill me w no medical #intervention; it would take just under three times as much to be absolutely certain of hitting the toxic dose (calculated quantity per kg #of the top end of a given range. so it could kill me but if i was gonna go out that way id want about three times as much to be sure.)#honestly surprised ive never heard of any deaths from it. the most likely way to survive would be to throw it up i think #(or present to hospital and take charcoal or smth)#honestly though. my research says loss of consciousness and required intubation within half an hour in case studies #hence if you werent in reach of medical attention youd probably collapse an die #and i am very deliberately NOT mentioning what it is bc of how toxic it is #ive thought of combining it and another method to be absolutely sure but eh #honestly if it DIDNT work it sounds straight up embarrassing to admit to people tho thats one of the things stopping me #but literally a dose in a child requiring intubation and kid ended up in a coma recovered w no ill effects.#thats the dream yk. try and succeed and youre free; try and fail and you see no ill effects.#but yeah i wouldnt try w only the amount i have.#so im safe #....rereading the above. okay i might be a little mentally ill lol #but i am safe and absolutely nobody call the cops on me.#im fine.#tw suicide #puddleglum hours #nobody worry abt me ok. im fine.#just thinking silly lil thoughts like usual :)#EDIT: just occurred to me that using this poison could make it not look like a suicide

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giantkillerjack · 4 months

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Uh-oh! You are like, SOOO awkward!!

You're so awkward that it is occasionally mildly uncomfortable for people!

You're so awkward that sometimes people are confused by you and then there are awkward silences!

You're so awkward ...... that ultimately no one is harmed!!

Oh damn!!! What a vile crime you have committed! What an unforgivable thing it is to make a fellow human briefly confused!

Why, if *I* were ever briefly confused and kind of uncomfortable as a result, I'd be devastated.... by the absolute net zero change in my happiness and health! - From which I might never recover!! Yes indeed! No punishment can ever be enough for you!!

So you better absolutely hate yourself for it.

Better be SO MEAN to yourself about every single missed social cue so you don't forget your horrible crime! Meaner than you'd ever dream of being to someone else for the same thing! This is YOUR responsibility!

You need to show the world that you KNOW you are bad by punishing yourself constantly! After all, think of all the people who BENEFIT from you punishing yourself! - No, really! Think about it! Think about who benefits from your pain.

Think of alllllll the definitely-good people that your definitely-necessary self-torment definitely helps! I mean, you can't just cut off their definitely-life-sustaining supply of your suffering, right?? Sure, everyone else has a breaking point, but you're probably the only person in human history who doesn't, right? Best not to question it probably. Sure, it's a symptom that billions of people with trauma have had, but who knows? You could be a one-in-seven-billion exception. Anything's possible!

Instead, better just accept that idea that bullies carry like guns in holsters - the idea that people who have trouble with social cues deserve to suffer. Better carry on the burden they placed on you until you drop. Aid the cause of the callous by enforcing shame and suffering upon yourself extra hard; try your best to do their work for them. They're very busy.

Better not recognize that you need patience and kindness to heal from your trauma. Better not find out that it was trauma rather than personal weakness filling your head with self-hating thoughts. Better not find out it wasn't your fault.

Better not find out that awkwardness is not inherently harmful or unkind, and, in fact, the people who act like it is *are the ones enacting harm and being cruel.*

Better not get righteously angry when you realize just how much unnecessary damage this has done to you. After all, if you get mad, you might realize you deserve better. You might even feel brave enough to DEMAND better! You might build boundaries that keep you safe! You might make other people think they deserve to feel safe too! And we obviously can't be having that, so...

Better not show yourself even a little kindness a little bit at a time.

Better not make a habit out of it after all that practice.

Better not get confident.

Especially if you can't first wipe out every trace of awkward. (And you probably never will. Because people who experience absolute social certainty at all times tend to be insufferable assholes that enforce the status quo. And you just don't have the stock portfolio for that.)

Better not be confident and awkward because then you might confuse and delight people

- you might accidentally end up making other people feel less shame for their social difficulties

- you might make isolated, traumatized, and shy people feel like they deserve to be included in social situations

- you might even make them feel they can be themselves around you

- you might start loving the effect you have on a room

- you might enjoy conversations more

- you might forgive yourself and bounce back from shame more easily and frequently

- you might come to enjoy some of those moments of harmless confusion you cause because NOBODY expects the Confident Awkward, and that can genuinely be an advantage in social situations

- you might stop apologizing so much.

- you might find that socializing is like a video game: it requires practice but also a safe space for it to be fun and positive.

Or if you can't become assertive and confident, better not remain awkward and shy and quiet, and then love and forgive yourself anyway!

Why, it would be carnage!!

In either scenario, you run the risk of finding out that it's not your fault that safe spaces full of kind people can be really hard to find, create, and nurture. You could end up building a skillset that helps you do those things if you're not careful!

If you start giving yourself even the tiniest amount of grace at a time, you will find that you've accessed a gateway drug with extreme long-term side effects:

- You might realize that it was never your fault that it took so long to like yourself.

- You might realize that you were always worth talking to, even when you didn't like yourself and communication felt impossibly difficult.

- You might realize that you'll still be worth talking to even if communication becomes harder as you age and/or experience disability.

- You might come to know that you deserve to be heard even on bad days when words come slow and blurry.

You might discover that you were always deserving of kindness, first and foremost from yourself.

So. As you can see, it's FAR too much of a risk to start granting your awkward self free pardons for your many heinous and harmless crimes. Better to just leave it there.

#social skills #i have a few posts now in my ' social skills' tag #original #maybe eventually I will compile them and polish them in some meaningful way. I know what I want to call the book title #in big text it'll say 'I'M AUTISTIC' and then beneath that in smaller text 'And I Have Better Social Skills Than You'#or something to that effect. and the cover of the book will be me making an exaggerated smug face like the little rascal I am #challenging the viewer to pick up the book and see if they can prove me wrong.#and then the entire first section of the book is about how actually the issue with our society's social skills is the harsh judgment #for people who have trouble communicating and not the other way around. I don't actually think I'm the #most charismatic person in the world by a very long shot. but i do know that I have put more thought into my social skills than #most allistic people and frankly i have surpassed most of them. not because i am more persuasive or smooth or funny #(tho i am persuasive and funny lol) but bc i have questioned which social functions are more restriction than utility.#and instead i have focused my energy on actively learning how to make people feel safe. i feel social rules would benefit all people by #being a little more autistic tyvm. i don't think every person should dedicate themselves to being better at communicating #i think people should dedicate themselves to being kind and patient to everyone regardless of their ability to communicate #I think our society wrongly links communication ability to intelligence and intelligence to level of humanity.#when in fact all three of those things are fucking unrelated and connecting them inevitably leads to #really fucked up views on disabled people that hurt us. and then with that aspect of the book firmly understood and established I would #go on to recommend some ways to make socializing easier and more fulfilling (and less shameful and terrifying) for all kinds of people #it wouldn't be a book about Leaning In To Succeed in Business or 'here's how to avoid being the awkward loner at a party'#it'd be a book about how if you see someone alone at a party here's how to invite them to join your group without pressuring them #stuff like 'hot tip! if someone takes a while to type or speak a full sentence - talking over them b4 they can finish makes u an asshole!'#I know that a lot of people cannot or don't want to dump a lot of skill points into socializing like i did and they shouldn't have to in #order to experience basic dignity and respect. if we treat people like that then we just validate that people - especially #autistic children and elders and disabled people of manu varieties - have to suffer unless they learn all these arbitrary bullshit rules #and a lot of them are arbitrary bullshit! one of the reasons I throw people off so much is because I harmlessly break a lot of social rules #but I know I'm doing it and I'm not ashamed and people just don't know what to do with that! but a lot of them like it actually!!#i think it's a relief to be around someone so openly and unrelentingly weird bc what am I gonna do? judge you for being weird??#I only care if you're kind. not necessarily 'nice' or passive. Kind. Brave enough to care about people being treated well. Kind.#also I recognize that at least some of my ability to be openly weird is white privilege so that's important to acknowledge too

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im-gonna-be-weird-about-it · 2 years

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Me, a casual viewer of BFU: True Crime and Puppet History, clicking on the Making Watcher playlist: Oh, its so nice that the boys got to start their own company :)

Me, 40 minutes later, no longer a causal viewer after seeing Ryan Bergara talk about his anxiety and then almost cry on camera because he is so happy that his friend agreed to work at his new company:

#ryan bergara #as that tweet once said #there is just something about him ya know #this is mostly a joke #BUT!#like i have a pretty solid no interaction policy with celebrities #i care about the character and not the actor #so i never felt the need to watch interviews or follow them on twitter or w/e #but now ive seen ryan get emotional and almost cry multiple times and im ??????#i still dont want to meet him in person but i do want him to tell us about his day #and i hope hes having a good time in disneyland #and I want to leave supportive comments on all their videos #and i very much want him to succeed because A) I genuinely like their shows and B) hes just so nice and relatable #ive never followed a YT channel before but I do see now how it creates that feeling a lot easier than traditional media #because YT creators do depend a lot more on engagement and views #and they interact with the audience a lot more #anyway im being really dramatic about the fact that I dusted off my twitter account after 6 years just so i can ❤ watchers tweets #and then promptly created a patron account just so i could support them #this is just a lot more involved than i usually get #just rambling in the tags to sort out my own feelings

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graciousdragon · 9 months

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ok i finally finished watching the fnaf musical dark remains deep dive/stream archive and oh my god. absurdly long script with more on the way. crazy stunts. vanny and glitchtrap have much bigger roles. alexandria is back for a flashback sequence. one of the new actors is nonbinary. new cg5 footage?? mike is back?!? MIKE IS FUCKING BACK YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HYPE I AM HE'S LITERALLY MY FAVORITE CHARACTER

dark remains will literally be peak >:D

#rys.txt #fnaf the musical #fnaf dark remains #fnaftm #random encounters #cg5 #i get the feeling mike's return is also going to be a flashback like with alexandria and i'm so unbelievably hype #i love mike so much y'all have no idea. he was such a sweet guy and he just wanted to succeed and he got done so fucking dirty #he just wanted a successful restaurant! and what did he get? overworked and constantly terrified and a horrible gruesome death #all because of his fucking uncle who only treated him as death fodder instead of anything close to family. or even just a person #fnaftm mike is so tragic i love him #i'm saying that like no other fnaf media has a tragic michael. they all do and they're all great but i latched onto this one the most lol #and also benbyy being in the cast and hosting that stream makes me so happy as a nonbinary person as well #there's a cool enby working on the fnaf musical!! and everyone is using their pronouns correctly!! it genuinely made me so happy #peace and love on planet me :D #i'll say it again. dark remains is going to be so peak

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kerorowhump · 1 year

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keroro the type of person to get very upset if he's not invited to something

#and literally invite himself like ep21 lol #headcanon #musing #he doesn't just wanna be included he wants to feel like he Belongs. it is a subtle difference from kururu in my opinion #kururu wants to feel like he matters in people's lives! yep! and so he likes to participate and be asked #but he won't be heartbroken or anything if hes left out bc hes used to it and hes low energy so hes gonna be fine #keroro i think feels extremely like he doesn't belong anywhere rn #because earth is just a foreign unknown place. unwelcoming. everything is so big. he's not a human he's not a frog. he's not home #but he just as much doesn't feel like he belong with keron and the platoon because he doesn't really wanna succeed in his goal #not like his teammates' lament of wanting to at all (despite not wanting it either! giroro open ur eyes!)#and so and so... something snth why wont you resonate with me? thank u ep31 the perfect character study on keroro #anyway yes he wants to be included in the sense he wants to feel Part of it not just to hang out but Actually to.#be part of the family. part of the team. be . NEEDED. im saying.#make sense?#i thiiiink that is why the birthday thing stings. that and he wants to be appreciated as well. like praised. know hes doing a good job.#that hes loved . that he is needed. is what he wants to know. and doesn't. :) and when hes reminder he loses all strength #consistently from what ive noticed #kururu #keroro

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metaben · 4 months

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why is the mountain pass patrol so OP why do you punish the player for Lae'zel failing a deception check lmfao?

#I legit hate this game sometimes bro the development choices are so wildly bizarre #so much shit that if an actual DM pulled you'd all be like #do you want us to actually finish this campaign or do you just want to sniff your own farts #its esp funny when people are like oh you can persuade check your way out of it #not realising that LAE'ZEL has to succeed her deception roll #which is totally random and stacked against you because her CHA sucks #so yes you can just be forced to fight them or be stuck in a reload loop until she succeeds the check

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astrarche-x · 2 years

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back to obsessing over Richard

at first he doesn't seem to have any obvious fatal flaws - no hubris, no hunger for power etc

but his fatal flaw is this little voice in his head that whispers sometimes ''maybe violence IS the answer tho"

it's not like he believes that it's a good solution; but sometimes it's the more reliable solution. more efficient solution. faster solution.

and oh how he wants to speedrun his way back to being respectable citizen

(which is, of course, very ironic given the methods. but deep down he believes that he's so good at killing he can afford being immoral. he tries to get rid of this belief but to no avail.)

#like. sometimes he wants to do a good thing but the more violent way to get that is the way he prefers despite everything #like getting Tommy out in s3 finale. he could have broken into the house and try to do it stealthily #but no. he went in and started blasting guns in a very ''either i succeed or i'll die trying'' kinda way #then with proving Gilian guilty #he could have just waited for the final trial in the custody case #Julia's arguments were strong after their marriage and with Gilian accused of murder they were practically winners #but Richard had to make sure. and he thought he could only achieve that by using his killing skills #ugh. the complexity of this character #esp his character arc #the writers were like ''oh see how broken he is''#''just kidding! he started to heal; not so broken now! just a guy who wants to be loved!''#''anyway look how deeply broken he is. more so that you realized''#it's like a reverse matrioshka #where the surface-level angst covers the deeper abandoned dreams which in turn cover an ocean of angst of much much bigger scoop #* scope #anyway his fatal flaw is deep-seated belief of ''i'm so good at killing that i don't have to be moral'' which persists despite him trying #to fight it #boardwalk empire #richard harrow

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tansypaws · 1 year

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gonna drop some adopts soon w/ the proceeds going towards mutual aid efforts in maui. keep an eye out.

#wren speaks #the rage i feel about this situation is fucking endless #and taps into the rage i feel for how puerto rico is treated #and how the US gets away with colonization like this bc people think they should be able to travel wherever they want #because fuck solidarity when it gets in between you and your tropical travel fun times #even though it’s so fucking well known that tourism is killing these places #figuratively but also so so so literally #if i think about it too hard it makes me cry #if i think about water resources diverted so vacationers can swim in oretty pools #and every other resource is depleted bc people choose to believe the lie that tourism is good #that it’s good for theee places when all it does is disenfranchise and harm and kill and kill and kill #and dehumanized #the plight and nature of these places is so cool and fun when you can make a pseudo thoughtful instagram post about it #as if you have any fucking right to go to these places #and you can’t even speak about thjs ppl it’s so normalized ppl look at you like you have two heads #because confronting that specific privilege is just too much #how can we ever succeed in this when people are unwilling to give up such meaningless pleasures #for the sake of solidarity for the sake of other people to prevent their suffering #it just makes me fucking sick

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em0-opossum · 1 year

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I feel like because social media is so catered to each person to the point where we don't see anything we don't want to, a lot of us don't realize the extent that transphobia is going to and how normalized it's becoming not only in laws and people who are political, but in (American) society right now. I rarely use youtube on my phone and am not logged into my account, so my recommended shorts and videos are pretty generic/whatever is popular or cater to whichever video I watched most recently. every so often I see a short I like and click on it, and when I inevitably end up scrolling through more shorts, the amount of blatant transphobia I'm seeing is INSANE. A lot of it is making fun of trans people and arguments on why trans people shouldn't be allowed in [x space], but as we're seeing in laws being passed right now, these mindsets quickly become so much more dangerous. this isn't just some political obstacle, their goal is to spread transphobia until they fucking eradicate us.

#friendly reminder that discourse within the queer community is so fucking dangerous right now #they WANT this to happen. they want us to tear each other apart so they don't have to do it themselves.#stop fighting about neopronouns or who can say slurs or kink at pride because if we don't come together as a community they will succeed #and if you're not trans don't think they won't come for you next.#they know trans ppl are easy targets to start with but soon it'll be the whole queer community #remember that their mindset is and always has been: you're either cishet or you're not. there is no inbetween.#if you're not one then you're not the other.#there is no way to gain their favor because they will come for you after they're finished with the part of your community you've abandoned #i am so tired of seeing queer people fight about identites and whether people are faking it when we are in so much fucking danger right now #lgbtq #queer #trans issues #trans #we will not be eradicated #activism #no lgb without the t #ftm #mtf #nonbinary

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minterim · 7 months

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just had my dad admit to me that even though he's fully aware of how much his alcoholism hurts me and my mum and brother he refuses to quit drinking outright because he likes it. cool

#im so sick of this shit. cant wait to move out #his current method if youre interested is to only drink wine after dinner. so that hes not pissed drunk at the dinner table #note: he can still drink as much beer as he wants. and still drinks all that wine after dinner anyway. and has a success rate of very bad #this is harm reduction. apparently #AND he has the fucking gall to complain that we dont give him any positive reinforcement when he succeeds!! fuck offfff #i try to be graceful and forgiving. addiction recovery isnt linear. and at least he admits its an addiction now #and he has chronic back pain and childhood trauma and whatnot. but given that he has that back pain because he stormed out in a drunken huf #then shat himself wandered into the shower to clean off and then slipped and broke his ribs. i find it. a little hard. to be sympathetic.#the complete dismissal of the success stories from recovering alcoholics going teetotal as fucking AA propaganda also doesnt help. lol.#but yeah. point is: he values being allowed to drink more than he values us and keeping himself from hurting us #there you have it. in black and white #personal #delete later #apologies for oversharing. needed to get this all out #i gotta get the fuck outta here man. i feel numb to everything #anyhoo. if you read this far kudos. thanks for lookin out or whatever <3

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tenrose · 2 years

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On the bright side, the selfish gremlin I am, is happy to have a good TV show adaptation not being trendy and having to enjoy it without all the annoying mainstream drama. I don't like to share my things with a big audience.

There, I said it.