#topic: syscourse

[editblr-confessions]

> join editblr, which is 99% anti endo

> come out as pro/neu endo

> get backlash for it

> find people who share the same opinion with you and keep yourself away from those who judge people for being harassed for stances

> know now that you don't need to fit a mold to be in a community, and that you can be yourself and you don't need to hide that to express yourself online just to not end up on a name list

— 🪽

based

[bah-pearl-cookie]

By the way, PTSD flashbacks aren't always "suddenly you're in the moment again". They can be of course but emotional flashbacks are a kind of flashback too (remembering the event and suddenly feeling the emotions you felt in the event) just in case someone needed to hear it

[feast-of-tongues]

"But I needed to be ableist and trigger people's moral OCD! It's for the greater good!"

It's a tumblr poll to make you feel good about your actions. There is no greater good to be had here.

[thefluxsystem]

Most people in my day-to-day life have no idea that I have DID. The ones that do know, I told them.

Nobody has ever come to the conclusion on their own (aside from professionals) that I have DID, because frankly most people know nothing about it outside of the name.

My peers see me as a high-functioning hermit. I do what needs to be done (career-wise, socially, etc) then disappear to recharge. I’m labeled as a little odd, eccentric, quirky— all kind ways of saying “we can tell there’s something wrong with you, we just don’t know what”.

I’ve lost friends because of my DID, except they didn’t know that’s what it was. In their eyes I was unreliable, forgetful (interpreted as uncaring by them), I changed my mind too often, I never knew what I wanted. All symptoms of DID and yet never taken as such.

My point is, I feel like the ideas of overt versus covert DID are misconstrued in online system spaces. It’s not necessarily overt means people know you have DID and covert means they don’t. A lot of it is overt means the DID symptoms are noticeable (from the outside looking in), covert means they’re not so noticeable.

[cavityinmybrain]

i am once again reminding syscourse that “anti recovery” means literally nothing because recovery is a personal experience for everyone. saying someone engages in “anti recovery behaviors” is just using buzzwords against them and also moralizing recovery.

recovery has no moral attachment. recovery is not the same for everyone. what helps one person might hurt another

[quoigenic-anon]

Have you ever considered that syscourse is very English-centered?

Okay, wow, that's a loud word.

But seriously! We all know that English is the most spoken language in the world, but can you imagine syscourse... In another language?

I'm Russian. Russian is a very vast and descriptive language with high ability to make up different words. And I can't imagine syscourse in it. I mean, almost all existing plural/systems/syscourse terms would be loanwords if there was any real acknowledgement of plurality/systemhood.

Those who speak any language besides English, any thoughts on this?

[anomalymon]

[ratbastardz]

TW FOR RELIGIOUS THEMES ON THIS POST

RULER OF DAMNATION SYS ROLE )

Ruler Of Damnation : a system role which describes an alter who is that of a satanic presence among their headmates. What this means is that the alter will watch over other headmates quietly, studying them, "damn" those who "sin" (cause the system, body, or others outside of the collective harm in some way) by not allowing them to front, keeping them locked away, etc. A ruler of damnation can be a protector, a persecutor, a gatekeeper, any role really. A ruler of damnation usually does not have bad intentions, however they may come off as cruel or inhumane in their ways of working with the collective.

Alternative names for this role could be Lucitor or Infernalmate if desired~

A system/alter does not have to be religious or have religious trauma to use this role btw

Requested by : no one

Coined by : The Cardmaster

Tagging : @radiomogai

Inbox : 02 (responses slow, requests open)

If this already exists, consider it an alt flag/term.

[oopsallsyscourse]

People really assume the bare minimum when they hear self diagnosis. Like how do you know the person hasn't done a ton of research over the course of years? How do you know someone using the term self diagnosis isn't using it as a synonym for "highly suspected but no confirmed." You're making a lot of assumptions of a word.

[godly-rambles]

this isnt what i normally post but it's important to me that i say this

before you block me, please just hear me out

it scares me how much of alterhuman tumblr (and alterhumans in general) support(s) endogenic systems

systems are people who experienced severe repeated trauma before the age of nine. by removing the trauma factor its impossible to form alters.

before you turn nine, every emotion is a different state of self. (thank you @/quoigenicfromhell for helping me to understand this bit better) essentially you are a different person when you're hungry, happy, sad, scared, etc. when you experience such severe trauma that your body decides it's unsafe for your personalities to merge, THATS when you become a system.

Severe Repeated Childhood Trauma.

that is how systems form, thats literally how it works. the trauma factor is what makes the system a system

i wouldnt say im anti-endogenic, more like i'm endogenic cautious.

again i am all for hearing people out, please tell me your thoughts in the reblogs or comments, but this is just my personal take on it.

i wish no harm to people who identify as endogenic, live however you want to live.

this is how I've interpreted the topic as someone who isn't really qualified to have a take on it, i just wanted to share some of my thoughts.

UPDATE: I've read through the reblogs and comments on my take, and I still dont fully understand the identity itself, but it makes more sense now. Thank you to everyone who helped to explain it, I appreciate your help

I see everyone in the reblogs/comments talking about how being an endogenic system doubles as being alterhuman, but I really don't understand how that could be the case. If anyone's willing to explain it further please do

[editblr-confessions]

i am a HARD pro-endo until the day i die, but it's so hard ot, you know, actually be for endogenics within editblr because of the pure hatred i've seen here.

also, editblr is very toxic in general (outside of just being anti-endo) and we need to grow up

REAL

[dyspunktional-leviathan]

No, not everyone has an inner child/worksona/etc that is literally a different person (or at all). There is no universal hard line between singlethood and plurality, it is all a single spectrum, and plurality is vastly more common than is, ahem, commonly accepted, but some people actually do not have experiences you might think as universal and that goes in both directions. I have literally been plural-questioning for years and I know for a fact that my experiences are much more singular than those of many who are not sure if they are plural.

[thestarseersystem]

Okay I came across this stupid ass opinion not too long ago about someone saying "you have to work towards fusion" and it can't happen "accidentally", this is something I want anyone to answer if they have experience with it. Is that true? Do you agree or disagree? And why?

In my experience, fusion will happen if an alter is unstable and cannot handle being alone/their own part, often right after they leave dormancy, or to integrate memories of some kind. It can kind of happen naturally for those reasons. But I don't think any of us have actively worked towards fusion within therapy (mostly because we have to raw dog trauma processing on our own, and therapy's expensive).

Let me know your experiences and how true any of that is, and let me know if you're a polyfragmented system, if fusions kind of just happened on their own.

[thecircularsystem]

[cavityinmybrain]

i wanted to try to get some positivity going in the syscourse tags today because it is a headache to look at (as usual).

whats something you’ve accomplished recently that makes you feel proud? it can be as big or as small as you need it to be, even just waking up today is an accomplishment to be proud of!!

i’ll start: i’ve recently been able to talk about experiences within my system to people other than my therapist without Gatekeeper shutting it down by triggering a fear response! this is a really big accomplishment for me given two years ago i couldn’t talk about it at all with anyone :)

[quoigenic-anon]

Trigger warning culture is nice, but, unfortunately, it's not universal, and in the most cases you have to curate your online experience by yourself.

Like, wow, who could've thought that "when our mamas sang us to sleep" line in "Stressed Out" song would cause spiralling because of very complicated relationship with my mother? And I used to like this song! But I had to turn it off because this specific line repeating every few seconds made me cry.

I personally struggle with trigger warnings, I don't see a lot of stuff as triggering, and I have to use my brain to prevent any unintentional harm.

People can't include every possible warning. Sometimes they're unaware a certain thing is triggering (like eye contact). Sometimes they don't think of triggering interpretation when it's not originally implied.

Sometimes triggers are so specific for a person that it's almost impossible to expect a trigger warning on it. Like a name. Or hair color.

Trigger warning culture is nice, but it's not perfect. So please, be careful, and take care.