#unsaid

[demigods-posts]

do you ever dream of mom? of me? of us? of a world where gods could coexist within the mortal realm free of consequence? with the exception that once you commit, the essence of your soul becomes intertwined with ours? so much so that you can't tell where you end and where we begin? but you couldn't care less as long as you have us? do you ever dream of the three of us being the family we all desperately needed? and if you don't, please tell me you haven't forgotten what could've been. dad, i came all this way.

edit: i found the photo haha

[mariellaolden]

Words left unsaid:

Use my eyes as a mirror; it reflects beauty you can't see within you / I wish I'd asked you, "How are you?"/ I hope you eat well / I enjoy being with you / My back is heavy and in pain. It carries loads of worries and melancholy / Put your head on my shoulder, take a pause from the burden of the world / Amidst all the extreme black clouds of darkness, I admire you for looking for the stars / The world may be cruel, rather I'd be kind to you / I should have peeled you oranges before you left / Maybe you are the problem at all / May you never take things for granted again / I am so proud of you, I hope you know / You deserve every good thing the world could offer / At least we're looking at the same sky, right? / You are strong and brave. I admire you / How I wish I never met you / I pray you'll never leave my side / One day, everything will be worth it / There's nothing wrong in trying hard for your dreams / Thank you for existing.

[nootgi]

Unsaid - Teaser

Getou Suguru x Reader

A/N:// i just wanted to test out an angst prompt I had in my head and wanted to see if you guys have interest in it! I am currently working on Pretend as well but I'm not happy with the writing already and the trajectory of the story so I will be rewriting the story! Tags: Angst, unrequited love, best friend to ?, drabble

“I missed you for a while but then I started to feel different.” The way he spoke to you was gentle and cruel as sweet nothings. He leans back against the brick wall, holding onto your drink for you as you hold an unlit cigarette. Your body unintentionally leans into his warmth, a habit you always had with him. You always searched for his warmth and he always gave it to you with open arms. 

“Different?” You asked softly. You two were in your own world, separate from the night life around. You know not to get your hopes up, you learnt your lesson with that and even learnt it from the man himself. But you couldn’t help it, you’ve been cursed with a romantic heart. You begged your heart not to hope, it’ll crush you, it’ll break you in a way that you couldn’t begin to put back. But your heart did as it pleased, evident in the way you fell in love with your best friend.

“I missed you… then I hated you. We can’t go back to how we used to be and the person I blamed was you.” Silence lingered in the air. Just you and him standing in each other’s presence, was it as friends or as strangers? You felt his eyes on you again as you lit your cigarette. You let the smoke slowly pour out of your mouth, hoping that it carries your emotions away with it. 

“I blame myself too Suguru...”

[starlonga]

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

[ahsenhaider]

"I wrote a poem about it, and then threw it away, because that's the last thing I need right now: More words dedicated to people who will never dedicate a single thing to me."

- I need more time to heal. Brb.

[may8chan]

Sora Choi

[sarphiri-sirimiri]

communication is key. (everytime I addressed something that bothered me, I became the problem.)

[wedarkacademia]

I'm afraid of what you may say, it's easier this way to leave things unsaid. ~ pia

[darkcottoncandy]

Somedays it's hard to love yourself, you don't even like who you are. You think about how ugly you looked in that picture, how you said something really stupid to that one friend. You think about all the wrongs you have done to people, decisions that ripped you apart into so many pieces that you were never able to put it back all together like before. You think about that one thing that could have been different if you did it a little better. You think about that one person who could have stayed if you tried a little harder. You think about your flaws, scars, weaknesses, insecurities, literally every worst part of yourself. Every piece that you despise and just want to make it go away or somehow want to undo it. But it's alright to feel like this, we all do. It's important to acknowledge these emotions and think about them to bring you closer to yourself. Afterall these feelings are also a part of your soul, your life. But what is not right is to drown yourself in these thoughts and never be able to make peace with them.

So when you think about how ugly you looked think about all the times you have been the most beautiful both inside out. When you think about the wrong decisions, think about the right ones that changed your life forever. When you think about how harsh you have been to that one person, think about all the times you were so kind without expecting anything in return. When you think about the scars think about the struggles you got them through and fought like hell. And when you think about your flaws think about the perfections you have. Once you understand how everything is just about perspective, you change your own life. 

You cannot change what you did in the past, your wrongs, your decisions, your harshness but what you can do is own them like you own your right doings, decisions, kindness and strive to be better than before. Start loving yourself for what you were and what you have become. Love yourself for all the times you made mistakes and regretted every second after it. Love yourself for that every moment when you were harsh on yourself and doubted your capabilities, your purpose and your entire existence. And at last love yourself for all the times you thought you won't be able to make it but still did. 💞

[mariellaolden]

Leap year wishes

As leap year occurs only once every four years, I hope for a gentler and better life. I wish to not be in the same dread. May good health, financial stability, and genuine happiness wrap around my family. Let my father win his fight against cancer and my grandfather stays well. May all my hardships and efforts be fruitful and blossom into becoming a registered microbiologist. May I find myself not just surviving, but thriving and joyful in the boundless of possibilities the year 2028 could offer.

[tender-somethings]

tacenda

[the-space-between-my-words]

My therapist asked, "What would it look like if you lived for yourself?"

And I said,

"Hobbies without guilt even if they cost money. Saying what I mean, not constantly judging myself, kind words, thinking less about others, allowing myself the space to enjoy my life when I can and also the space to mourn difficulties"

But that wasn't true.

The truth is, if I lived for myself,

I wouldn't live at all.

If I made a choice purely for myself,

I would take the hundreds of items in my gratitude journal and never experience them again.

I would take every person I love,

And never see them again.

If I lived for myself,

I would not live at all.

There are reasons I continue to walk this Earth

But wanting to be here

Is not one.