#who wont gaf anyway

[adharastarlight]

Barty: why weren't you in school yesterday???

Reg: I hadn't done my homework

Evan: ...so you called in sick instead of taking the detention...?

Reg: yes.

[luchsyy]

i think i got accepted into the 2D animation class at my university #win #success #awesome

[crowsgrudge]

writing for a fandom ur no longer in but still care for the characters is insane. is my pookie still my pookie? am i butchering him? no that cant be. the source is butchering him if he isnt the same at his core anymore

[stuffeddeer]

hello deery, back like i promised lmao

as much as i love silly goofy buddy dazai, deluded possessive and lowkey scary dazai is my fav 🙏 he's such a silly guy with reader, then turns right around and destroys their entire life. then hes like :O omg thats so horrible, so what im hearing is you have more time to spend with me? seeing as all your friends left for reasons unknown, your family wont even look at you. but dw, i'll never leave :)

BWHAHA im not good at this stuff, but your characterization of dazai is my fav in general, such versatility, we love to see it

have a great day :D

-🩵 anon

HES MY least FAVE TOO ugh 🩵anon you get me

“I’m sorry, lovely. That’s so horrible…” Dazai’s knuckles softly rub against your jaw, his skin soothing you as you try to halt your tears.

“It just— ” you hiccup, “ —just feels like everyone’s leaving me!”

The brunet pulls you closer, practically sitting in his lap as his hands move around your torso. “Shh, shh…” He gently wipes away your remaining tears, pressing a kiss to your forehead. “I’m here, aren’t I?”

You let out an embarrassed chuckle before nodding. “You’re the only one. Not even my boss wanted me around, I can tell. It’s like she was waiting for me to mess up so she could fire me.”

“That’s not true…”

“How would you know?” The words were genuine, like you were looking for him to explain that it was the work of fate or your shitty coworker you always complained about.

Well, it's because Dazai was the one to get you fired. Your boss was too fond of you, something he simply couldn't have. Plus, work hours always took up your time, time that should be spent with him. Honestly, you didn't need a job, anyway: Dazai would be happy to provide for you and make you dependent on him.

Instead of explaining any of this, he pressed another kiss to your head before pulling you in for a tight hug. “You’re a hard worker. And you’re a wonderful person. If none of your friends want to be in your life, well, I do. So I guess you’ll just have to spend time with me.”

It’s his attempt at lightening the mood, you’re sure of it. A chuckle passes your lips before you can stop it, shifting in his hold so you can hug him back just as tightly. “You’re all I have, so now you’re stuck with me.”

“That’s all I’ve ever wanted.”

oh he’s the worst i need him

he’ll cradle you so sweetly, telling you alllll the good things about yourself!!!

n when you get all confident and hey! maybe you are good enough, maybe you should look into making new friends! ones that won’t leave you so easily 🙄

well,

he’s there to remind you just how heartbroken your last ones left you. your very own flesh and blood cut you out so easily! maybe dazai is the only one who can truly love you for who you are.

he’s not saying it to be mean! he just wants you to know what you’re getting yourself into. he’s always been so smart, too…. well, you guess he’s right.

if you’re a bit more stubborn or masochistic, maybe you don’t gaf!!! put you back in the ring you wanna try again!!!!!

ugh. okay. i mean, dazai did so much for you... y’know, when you lost your job and he insisted let you move in with him, dazai was trying to be a good friend, but... whatever, if you don’t need him anymore than you can just get your own place. oh, you still haven’t found a job? well, since you’re so sure of yourself, you can just get a new one. you can be out by tomorrow, right? you know dazai would’ve liked to go out and make friends during the time he’s been working to keep a roof above the both of your heads and keeping you company after everyone left you. maybe he’s starting to see why they did, since you’re so selfish— 

...

you decided not to go out!

that’s probably when he realizes he should begin moving your relationship along a bit quicker. he’ll flirt with you in the exact way he knows you respond to best (whether that's words of affirmation, teasing, physical touch, etc); he'll bring you back pastries and cute trinkets he saw on his way home from work… his courting is a little eerie, bc he also acts like you two are already dating???? "you're staying in my home, of course i assumed we'd be having dinner tonight. i even learned to cook your favorite— " like he 100% just assumes shit but it always works out bc . well, what else were you doing?

this includes sharing a bed btw. he probably started w having you take his and he takes the couch (a true gentleman) and then maybe he gets another bed and makes a guest room for you... but, well, since you both are so close and it's so cold in his apartment, maybe you can just spend one night with him? It Was Not One Night

if you catch on and reciprocate, oh he's over the moon!!!! his love giving him affection? oughhh.. you're staying in his room in his arms and he's just breathing you in, reminding himself you're still there... it'd be actually kinda sweet if he didn't orchestrate this whole thing

if you catch on (or don't lmao) and deny him? .............

desperate times desperate measures or whatever they say

he locks you in his room for mandatory cuddles, will not give you food if you stick to one side of the room and refuse to let him hold you, he starts pulling away and spewing words he knows will hurt you so you feel so alone and unloved only to turn around and love bomb you.... it's horrific tbh

i'm so sorry . just... go along w it for now pls ❤️

also i mentioned that he'd bring up how you don't have a job and he's the one working hard to pay for your expenses but he's just being a brat. he caught you looking at help wanted ads one time and pretty much cried in your lap about how upset he is that you don't feel his care is adequate enough and only stopped when you promised not to get another job

he's gross :( get out of there

[flanzee]

what did u think of the anime ?? thoughts on wallace’s characterization ? seems to be heavily debated. love ur art !!

hello!!! :] thanks for liking my art EEEEEEEE

for a long time i saved my opinion about the anime because the first few days it came out it was a war zone out there and people with a different opnion would've be jumped on hahaaaaaa.... but ANYWAYS To this day I'm still neutral about it. Not what I personally expected. After my first watch I felt so devasted tbh LOL I took me a while to even get closer to it again and watch some of it for a second time. BUT with time, i slowly started to appreciate what I did liked about the show: the amazing animation!!!!! it's one of the things i praise of, alongside side the music (which i still listen time to time) Now everthing else... is something... I don't like how Scott was handled in this show nor The whole plot for the last 3 episodes ifykyk 😭😭😭 like at ALL. And something that people always praise about the show is how the Exes now had more depth and and were fun too watch but imo the only one who stands out was roxie and matthew...everything else felt half cooked... todd just being part of a Gag and istg i feel ike the Twins talked/did more in the comic than the anime 😭?!?! they didnt gaf about them even here LMAOO

I feel like this show could've been so good if the people behind it weren't thinking about "doing everything we can do in 8 episodes and conclude it because we are sure we wont get a season two!" you know?? and these last episodes are the prove of it and that they were running out of time

About Wallace's characterization, back then I've mentioned to my friends once that i felt like he was OOC at first. Him pretending that didn't cared about Scott did hurted a little ahaha. But after Bryan mentioned that he wasn't OOC, wasn't being a dick like everyone else was saying-including me lol-and that we should've be looking at his actions rather than his words[?]I stepped back and think "well Alright if he say hes not I guess i'll go with it. I guess. thats just his way to cope with scott's disappearance. I think. .... Ah. ... I get it now........... I see.......!!!!!!!" and understood that perhaps he's not the kind of person to admmit his real feelings, But Being with Another Scott the day after hes gone, Being in a Movie about Scott's life, Tell the director that there should've be a scene of him and Scott making out just to later have sex with the actor that played Scott and was also only interested on him while he was on his Scott custome WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's true that actions says more than words!!!!!!!! wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[jkarrow]

sawtwt is fucking insane, ya costas mandylor is a terrible person but like they’re fr doxxing eachother over it 😭 who gaf who people like or dont like, you dont HAVE to talk or interact or even like them so can everyone just chill tf out 🙏 i personally dont like costas as a person because i find him racist and homophobic etc. but like i dont seek out stans just to start arguments because stans of anything are fucking insane and that should be clear by now 😭 can we all just let eachofher have our own opinions like who fucking cares. him losing 1 person in a fanbase wont make him any less rich or popular - plus he old n crusty now he prob doesnt have lotta time left lmao

anyways lets all appreciate cary elwes for a good little bit becaude oh my goodness

[girlwithfish]

so honestly if im being really direct and just no bullshit

i feel i want better than what hes giving and can do better in a partner or idk like i want better and dont think hes in a position to b in a serious relationship or at least w me i guess. i feel like im not picky enough in relationships and accept treatment im not happy w and it just makes me unhappy. like being w guys who wont cook for me or really do much for me dont put in a lot of effort and then also are bad or incompatabile with me in terms of emotional support

and i feel if we do break it off hes gonna blame it on me and my shit which it definitely has a large part in it but idk maybe i just wont say my grievances w him it doesnt matter ig and he wasnt really listening anyway when i tried. i just dont like being blamed or whateva or dont want it to b framed like im at fault but i mean who cares it was a month who gaf... idk i dont want to sound mean too asking for what i want i tried to b as nice as possible abt it and framing it in a positive way like "i liked when u used to compliment me" and it went over his head. it just sounds mean if i say i feel u take me for granted and dont put effort in but idk i dont think he cares enough and i shouldnt keep trying to revive something thats dead when hes shown me how it is. but i also have trouble leaving something that isnt making me happy maybe cuz im used to staying and i feel a little bad idk why. i guess i thought he was different and even wehn. isaw he isnt really the type of partner i would want i just let it happen and dont say anything and ik thats on me. I just dk what to do but i know what i should do😔 i guess its just disappointing even tho i dont have that much attachment to him i still do a little bit. but i have to focus on the now and how hes making me feel now. i guess i just thought he was more understanding at first or came off that way so its throwing me off that suddenly hes nkt cool w me still dealing w stuff eben though i thought he knew that bc ive been open abt still recovering and healing. i guess it wasnt what he expected. idk i feel my life hasnt impacted him that much honestly bc its so early in the relationship we dont see each other every day and our lives r separate and i guess he can still see im kind of depressed but i dont really confide in him or rely on him or let it affect how i act w him or i dont think so bc i still would do all thr activities he likes and just typical stuff we do idk. Like unrelated but i could be sm worse i think sometimes i could be cutting or relying on substances to avoid shit or using sex to cope or idk but i just dont do much besides try to survive each day lately and do things on my to do list and feel vaguely sad or depressed but sometimes i wish i was doing the destructive things bc im not very happy feeling this way either. idk! lol

[lovediives]

🌟 and 💛 for kaira!

🌟 - what does your f/o do to help comfort you about your insecurities? what do you to do comfort them about theirs? kaira sucks at comfort lmfao. man cant even comfort himself. but i think he would be the type to just to.. literally go.. "im the snake king, you're the one i chose." like who gaf if youre the snake king. enma still in the castle like he own the place. but anyway. think he would be the type to just try to use actions over words. one of my biggest insecurities is my nose. i think.. nose kisses, bopping it, trying to be a sweetheart over it all. stares at my face a lot, doesn't say anything which is really creepy at the same time cause he has this really intense stare. but its only cause he finds me to be so pretty.. but he doesn't want to say it out loud because he's shy about it all. but eventually, he starts to use his words. "you're pretty.." he would mutter in a soft, gentle voice. and then just look away cause he's stupid shy over it all.. NOW ONTO ME COMFORTING KAIRA. OH MY GOD.. now listen i said this a million times. all i gotta do is be there.. i just stay near him, i promise im not going anywhere soon and it brings him such joy. he knows he wont be alone. he knows he going to be okay. i think also reminding him and reassuring him that other yokai respect him as king and love and cherish him as well also works too.. like idk just taking komasan to visit the castle and he just smiles at kaira and asks him about his day and is just soo sweet to him. i think also telling him that i understand what its like to not feel like i belong to certain communities. how isolating it is. but hey, we got each other right? it helps him feel less alone in a sense too. like we're alone together (no su.) think when he's like starting to feel stressed or tired or feel the world is against him, i would want to press my hand against his and just hold it. press soft kisses against his head and tell him that its okay to cry once in a while..i think if he ever did cry. i wouldnt tell him not to cry. he really needs to let it out and he doesnt want to be vulnerable to anyone else at that point. so he cries quietly so fuu and rai dont hear it. but this is the first time he felt like he was allowed to be weak and i want to be there for him through it all.

💛 - what is something most people consider a flaw of your f/o that you find endearing? why is it that you like that trait? despite knowing kaira's existence since i was 16 years old, i have never seen people talk really negatively on him. lemme come up with a lie rn. what if i said i liked his outbursts? like okay this is crazy but hear me out on this.. it feels so human in a sense of he's acting entitled because he's hurt? he's been holding onto his hurt for years and he's finally lashing out all that anger and pain that he had to suffer through alone. like it's so reasonable for him to be so angry in a sense.. like it makes sense that he's calmed down in the game, but my god, when i saw that mission when all that emotion was even felt through his ancestors. OH MY GOD..i had so many thoughts because wow he really doesnt talk about his problems with others huh? the only time he really talked about it was when he was TRYING TO KILL ENMA? but other than that jesus christ? wow. you're a man who's been refusing to get therapy, refuses to tackle the issue head on.. it's realistic in a sense? why would he turn to anyone when he's so convinced that others see him as a freak or as an outcast? the world turned their back on him. turned their back on his family. turned their back on his tribe and treated them as less than. i would be scared too to open up!! ohh it so endearing i would throw everything away to tell him how important he is.. like yay or whatever. glad he's starting to realize how loved he is. but i wish they went more into how much pain he went through i need more lore on his tribe. like dont play with me.

[gayspock]

ok 1 menty b for me

i dont know. i think its just always been so alienating. i think theres something wrong with me and its unfixable. and sometimes, if i cant have anything else, i just want at least the fucking chance to express that without people thinking even less of me. and ik in reality nobody even gaf or sees me. but i also know know that if they did, 9times out fo 10 people would be rolling their eyes. whatever. idk. i feel so lonely and i dont think im ever not going to be lonely and its never going to get better because even when given the resources, the opportunities i just can never manage . i just cant . i swear i try . but every single time. my whole fucking life . i just walk away from everything with even less, it feels like. and its getting so much harderand harder. and i dont know how to express it liek ... i fucking feel myself SEETHE as ppl keep insisting "theres still a chance! there's still hope!" like sure bro. but i dont want to fucking keep living my life along the fucking asymptote of getting consistently closer to dying alone but "haha technically its not a certainty" and . like theres just something so fucking repulsive about me and i just cant seem to fix it no matter what. and im so exhausted all the time. and i genuinely dont think theres any way out of that . i go to work and i come home so burnt out and tired. and people are nice there but i dont think i can really connect with anyone . i just cant seem to get close to people . and i dont have it within me to meet anyone else because im so fucking tired all of the time .

and even if i did and i mustered all the energy and spent all the little time i had left in the world i dont think theyd have time for me. not just bc nobody in their 20s does but also because i dont know . it just never seems to work . and i cant do it again where i try to invest every little piece of me into it when its jsut always left me fucking miserable and pathetic. bro do you know what i mean. not to be 16 and lame as shit still. i feel like im always the idiot ppl take pity on at best . i dont think ive ever been real to anybody. like alwaysssssss...... and even now i feel like every time I HAVE existed within circles of others. its literally 10 times out of 10 just constantly fighting to be included and seen as someone whos not a fucking joke and i just feel like such a fucking . loser for caring so much about it when. REALISTICALLY. pretty much all the people ive met in life will have forgotten i exist. and ok. ok. i just dont think ... like its not like some trait within me right like ... im not As melodramatic to be like oh . oh theres an actual innate trait within me thats activated and stops people liking me. just. the contrary like. i just think theres nothing within me to actually like . or to gravitate towards. so likeyeah sure . that makes sense. why WOULD you want to bother with someone whos just kinda hollow or whatever.. something something or other. and i kind of wish i was more resilient about tht. but i jsut . i guess as is a Guy of that Nature, its just ... im trying to fucking not fucking spiral but i just feel myself fucking filling up with fucking . miserable SHITTY bile or whatever because i just wish i felt normal or whatever. its such a fucking human fucking thing that other people can MANAGE. but i cant . its so so fucking hard and i cant do it and i cant handle it. and i just feel so angry sometimes anyways . bc i hate it . and i keep trying bc i wanna make peace with it because i know theres no out . like ive long since given up on ever thinking its going to work out . because nothing fucking helps but makes it so much worse . anyways. i dont know. but i dont know bro. it drives me fucking insane when people always spout some bs about how "haha everyone has someone! everyone will find someone! like no they dont no they wont . its so .. so much more isolating. or like "EVERYONEEE feels lonely sometimes" like HOW does that help. HOW. and it makes it so MUCH FUCKING WORSEEEE when people tell you about how lonely they are too!!! like cool . i dont have a chance then. sorry i know thats such a bitter bitch thing to say. but idk if it rlly matters like ... at the end of the day idc when ppl have partners. or people they talk to. family who loves them. and youre still lonely. cool. thank you for letting me know, dude. go back to the people who will look out for you and love you whilst i sit in the dark and not speak to anyone for weeks whilst not a single person would even notice im gone .

or like. bro. i dont think a single person has taken me seriously for long enough to ever fucking like me or hold me in enough regard to like... want to talk to me again nevermind like be with me in a certain sense so i jsut. i dont know. sits alone. every fucking day for years maybe. i dont know. i feel so fucking sad and angry knowing deep down that i can know all this and know its true but even then . i cant even have that . people wont even take THAT part of me seriouslyand think im just some fucking idiot whos not even trying. when i really reallyhave but its just so... worthless it feels like . it feels like im never getting anywhere and everyone thinks i just gave up when i didnt. and i dont know. thar makes it sound like people actually see me and really are laughing or something when i dont think its nearly that much. i think its like oh people see me make that as a snap judgement and i fall out of existence again. and i dont know. it shouldnt matter but i feel so fucking strung out and exist between these instances only and idk. idk bro. im trying to be okay with it. but as im getting older i just feel like theres so many more things that are revealing themselves as worse and worse. and im going crazy. im going crazzzzzzyyyy . whatever . insert the mental breakdown gifs . the funny ones where those guys aremoving really fast

[selfundiagnosed]

Insane that my mom ran the most popular patrick stump archival blog on tumblr + was a full time lawyer + was raising two mentally ill kids + doing culinary arts school + having a cookie business. I think its her autism i wont lie. But now its all catching up to her and she has no energy which would be the ehlers danlos fault this time.. tried to convince her to steal her old url back but on cohost so she made an account but couldnt immediately make side blogs but boy oh boy. she would be giving the fall out boy fandom what they want and more. Shes like i cant do it again i have no idea how i did it before im like ma! its called having boundaries. Shes like i cant do that when i have a special interest its called autism. Im like right but queue posts for once a day and find 30 pictures from a photo set and boom one months worth of posting fall out boy and you can conserve your energy. But she doesnt know how to do her special interests in moderation. Im honestly just glad she went and accepted a bunch of access to her mega archive folder thingy. But shes so mad she doesnt have access to like her actual archive bc the website she used go archive everything changed their subscription plans and she has so many photos it would be like a zillion dollars she doesnt have 😭 like bogus i remember photo storing websites were so free. Take me back to 2010 for real :T Anyway she used to get so mortified when i told my friends as a teen about her blog i actually told her coworker once and her coworker somehow RETAINED the url and went home and looked at her blog and she was so upset at me 😭😭 but now like she kinda doesnt give a fuck anymore bc fall out boy was her special interest for an entire decade and she’s over it. Obviously still a big big fan but not in bandom anymore. Her new special interest is a band i introduced her to when i was 13 and its kinda cringe so i dont talk about it but she also ran an archival blog for THIS band and i told my friend at a sleepover who liked this band about her blog and they fucking FOLLOWED HER and shit bricks and my mom was MORTIFIED. But anyway yeah she doesnt gaf now if i tell people she was this blog and i even posted a tiktok about it once and people started doing detective work that would make her autistic self so proud…. Bc thats what she was good at! sleuthing stalking detective work on the band. Pete wentz privately answered several of her asks on tumblr i’ll see if she can send me the asks and their responses. But yeah she doesnt care anymore. her original url was scrubbed by tumblr and shes very angry about it bc it was an original bandom url for patrick stump so shes like wtf ever i dont wanna touch this im so mad. Which SAAAAME. ive done that so many times. She started permitting access to people who requested it for one of her photo archive website thingies she left in her last post. But yeaaaahhh… she was patrick stump for halloween in like 2008 and she won the costume contest bc she had rhe coolest sideburns and looked so much like him. My first ever concert was a fall out boy concert in spring 2007 i was 6 turning 7 within the next few months lemme just say the music video for carpel tunnel of love played on the screen as they played the song and my brother and i was so traumatized. But then immediately they played this aint a scene after that and we were like HELL YEAAAAAAAAA. And my brother (5 at the time) and i knew every single song and sang along and my mom went look at everyone else no one else knows these songs. You guys are so cool. And we looked around and yeah no one was singing the songs and were sooo excited! Oh and theres that one time she recorded us singing keep it simple by cobra starship and THEY PUT IT ON THEIR MYSPACE PAGE AT THE TOP WE FLIPPED SHIT. i wish THAT video was still up. Shes also met fall out boy so many times and walked away from patrick stump while he was talking to her bc she didnt want to take up his time at a meet and greet. Omg. so many memories. I was literally raised in online bandom thats so insane. Maybe thats why im a homosexual

[mangoposts]

idk why people spread rumors and shit (mattsneezing)

like she just met them she dont know shit about them, and shes saying all this stuff.

anyways who gaf if matt and madi dated or any other rumor thats going on we wont know ever if its true.

-🪐

Like me personally idgaf about rumors everybody can talk and whatever but all that’s interesting to me is the videos they upload and what the triplets ACTUALLY do like rumors and the theories is so like ….What…. Just watch the videos read some fanfic and shut up

[deardollyz]

A Murder At The Palace

(A/n: WOAHHHH dolly writes for once!!! Weird to see it! Anyway, this is/was my first and only „long“ story and it lowkey, sucks ass. My bad. This includes my OCS!!! No official characters from media here.)

NOT PROOF READ WE DIE LIKE MEN.

CONTENT INCLUDED: murder you idiot, Reagan being a hopeless romantic, slight romantic implications at the end take the ending as you will i don‘t really gaf.

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“She’s just an outcast, a heathen at that. Pain wont matter, its all the same”

“She’s a witch. Burn her at the stake.”

They all talked, chastised. HE Spreads the rumors. It felt like they were closing in, the air got denser and it got harder to breathe in and out.

“ w-

“Reagan wake up, its time to go to the market.” I felt Cassidy shake me awake. It was just a dream…a nightmare at that. I don’t understand- I'm letting them get to my head….

I dragged myself out of bed and stretched a crick out of my neck. 

After struggling to pull on my dress for the market i met Cassidy outside holding a basket. 

“You all set?” She asked, slight sarcasm tainting her voice. I hummed in reply, making sure my black kitten was tucked safely inside. 

And so we set off into the busy streets.

We passed some familiar faces on the way, a wandering entertainer that we knew by the name of Ali. And an outcast like me, Ramona. We waved and hellos were exchanged but nothing more, we needed to get our food before any mishaps could occur. 

“Cassidy look at this, theres a sign saying theres been attempts to kill the queen to be-” i pointed to the sign, slightly tilting my head. “I bet its just a hoax to rile people up.” Cassidy blankly said, checking all the apples to see if they had bruises, I huffed, she never seemed to really care even though we knew the Royal quite personally. Cassidy quickly paid for the food and pulled me along the roads, picking up things as we went. “We need to hurry home, the streets are getting too busy.” Cassidy said. I nodded, checking to see if my cat was ok from the jostling of the basket. My kit mewled at me, assuring she was fine. 

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Around 4 o’clock there was a firm knock on the door. “Reagan can you answer that?” Cassidy called from the other room. I hummed in reply, going up to the door and opening it a bit to see who it was. “Oh hello there Lady Amari, what brings you here?” I said, greeting the knight. “Ive come to bring an invitation this time, not just to laze off I'm afraid.” She laughed before handing me a piece of paper. “You are invited to the royal ball of Princess Tamara to celebrate her eighteenth birthday..” I read to myself. “Oh how wonderful!~” I exclaimed, hugging the paper close to my chest. “We‘ll be there for sure!” I said, as the knight bid me goodbye. I ran into the room Cassidy was in, quickly rushing to tell her the news. She simply waved me off saying i should go ahead and get ready. I ran up to my room and pulled out a trunk from under my bed .

There should be a few dresses my mother gave me in here… i thought to myself, searching throughly. I soon found found a nice light blue dress with deep pink lace. I started to inspect it for spots before holding it up to myself in the mirror. It was perfect…

Just as I was tightening the corset i heard my kit yawn, sitting on my vanity chair. I smiled at her, She was such a nice cat. I walked around my room a bit, to see if the dress fit enough. 

I twirled a few times before sitting down on the other plush stool next to my vanity. I took my hair out the two plaits i usually have and took some golden pins I inherited from my grandmother. I tried to fix my hair into a bun but strands kept sticking out in all sorts of directions. I huffed in frustration and braided it into a single braid before coiling it and sticking a pin in. “It will do.” I said, shrugging. My kitten messed with a necklace, catching it on her ears. I laughed at her amusement while putting on my own jewelry. The kit batted at my earrings causing me to bring her into my lap, stroking her head. She seemed content with the action. 

I placed a silver floral headpiece atop my hair, lacing my bangs nicely. I heard a soft knock on my door. “Come in!” I called out, seeing Cassidy in the doorway. “Reagan it’s nearly time to go aren’t you ready.” She said. I noticed her dress was even prettier than her usual one. It was a dark navy blue like the midnight sky and had lace lining the ends with a tulle veil near the waist. 

“Yes I'm ready.” I said cheerfully, standing from my seat. I slipped on my gloves before checking to see if kit was asleep. I saw her peaceful form sleeping comfortably, so I set off with Cassidy.

The carriage ride was a bit bumpy due to the road not being used much. But it was fine compared to other roads we’ve taken before on foot. 

We arrived at the palace at around what I could think was 8 o’clock judging by the look of the sky. Cassidy and I were then ushered inside where I finally got a view of the inside of the palace. “It’s…beautiful….” I gaped, seeing all the decorations and crown molding on the walls. We walked into the main room where the party was taking place. Princess Tamara was chatting with Lady Demetria while Lady Amari was stuffing her face per usual. I scanned the room for my two sisters, Roxy and Reese, and eventually spotted them looking at a few paintings near the exit. I ran up to them and hugged Roxy tight, I hadn’t seen her or Reese since we moved. We had separate houses but couldn’t see eachother a lot. I hugged Reese too, careful not to ruin her buns. After some catching up I started to hear music. Ballroom music. I saw couples joining together to dance, a few caught my eye as familiar faces. The bakers daughter and apprentice, the teacher from another kingdom and a familiar long black haired bard. And the tavern owner and some lady with long pink hair. 

Lady Demetria stood up and clasped her hands together to get our attention. “Attention everyone! Today we celebrate the day of our princess’s birth, a day of joy and luck throughout the whole kingdom! And to welcome her as the new Queen!” She said, raising a glass. everyone else did the same. we all made a toast and I heard from the far back someone choking on their cider. I stifled a laugh, taking a sip of my own cider. I went back over to Cassidy, seeing her clearly bored. “Oh Cassidy wouldn’t it be nice to have someone that loved you, let alone to dance with…” I put a hand on my cheek, staring into space. She shook her head as if letting me know she thought i was insane. “Rea, you must stop thinking like that or you’ll get nowhere.” She laughed, putting a hand on my shoulder. I gave her a side eye, continuing my monologue. “-someone that adores you and won’t ever leave you for anything else. It would just be nice you know!” I finished, slightly irritated by her last comment. 

“Whatever you say ninny.” She shrugged. Ninny was a weird nickname she gives me when shes done with my rambling, so I knew it was best not to “bother” her anymore. 

After wandering around a bit I found a partner to dance with for a while before finally sitting down on one of the plush stools set around the room. I swear my legs were aching like fire.

Tick…tock…tick…tock…10:45 PM

People were gracefully dancing across the room until…….the lights went out.

The chandeliers lights suddenly cut, causing everyone to gasp in horror, I instinctively clung to the person closest to me, god i hated the dark….

Soon enough, a loud bang ran out throughout the room, followed by a scream and thud. And then the lights came back on. Everyone stood in horror, Queen Tamara had been murdered. I noticed Sage out of the corner of my eye, she turned to look at me, since she definitely knew who did it. But before anything could happen, another gunshot rang out, causing the chandelier to crash down. I grabbed a sword from one of the statues and prepared myself to fight as some rushed to get away. This was no accident. There was someone out to kill everyone here. The lights were dim, no one was visible but a few faces, but someone was approaching me with a weapon. I braced myself and blocked the attack, as the music grew louder and louder by the second. Out of the corner of my eye i noticed a statue move. “This is the work of some very dark magic…the statues are sentient.” i thought to myself, now fighting with what i assumed was once of the statues. Cassidy was nowhere to be seen, so i knew it couldn’t be her, I trusted her getting as many people out as possible. I landed a slash of my sword against my opponents arm, which only caused them to get even more aggravated as it got harder and harder to dodge moves. I looked up for a moment and noticed Sage gracefully dancing across the balcony railing with one of the statues, a very nice distraction indeed..

My hair was out of the style and disheveled at this point, and I was bleeding from my cheek, but eventually managed to land a large enough slash on my opponent to cause them to fall to the floor.

I felt a blunt object collide with my head, making me feel lightheaded, but I had to keep fighting if i wanted to keep my head. The music was pounding in my ears at this point, the sound of gunshots mixing in with the music. As i was distracted for a second, the statue struck me against the head. “I feel….dead…” I thought, and only felt myself colliding with the marble floor. 

“Reagan”

“…..Reagan…wake up…” I faintly heard, My head was pounding, and my vision felt blurry, blood was on my hands…it was mine. I looked around the best of my ability, and noticed I was laying in the courtyard, next to a bed of flowers. I saw Scarlett faintly, and she helped me sit up. “Tamara….the ball…WAIT.” I thought before speaking. 

“Is-” I got cut off by Scarlett. “She’s dead. Amanda’s taking her place as Queen. The murderer is still unknown, it seems they used some sort of dark arts to make the statues sentient and kill her with some external force.” She said, and I felt a pit in my stomach, we were friends…

“What about the others…?” I hesitated asking. A small smile crossed Scarletts face, as she gave me a pat on the shoulder. “Everyone else is fine, just shaken, and lightly injured. They’re trying to get everything under control and all.” She said, I felt relieved by that.

 “By the way, theres a gentleman that was worried about you, and wanted to see you, follow me.” Scarlett grasped my hand and pulled me towards the gate, where i noticed a young man. His eyes pierced into mine, it made me feel…odd…in a nice way…. 

He pulled me close to him in a tight embrace, and i felt myself feeling…warm. Despite how chilly it was outside. He smiled softly before whispering in my ear.

“There you are darling, I was getting worried about you, you know? I missed you.”

…

Who…?…

[literaphobe]

HITW top plays are always weird. Like unless people parkour clutch like Fundy and Dream have, do really hard jumps that they are the sole survivor of like Jojo did before (I think Tubbo got that one too though so I would look for a better clip) or do something new or extreme (like winning all three rounds?) it doesn’t really mean much tbh and not that exciting.

hi. the first time i tried answering this i was halfway through my ranking before i got sniped while switching between tumblr and the video TUMBLR U NEED TO STOP EATING ASK RESPONSESSSSS anyway im on my computer now just to be safe AND im gonna evaluate mcc all things' top 10 plays list

10 - antvenom hitw -> eh. like good on him ig but someone has to win a hitw round and it happened to be him. like idr him doing any insane clutch to stay alive or surviving multiple rounds ?

9 - zeuz meltdown -> i admit this is clutch his teammates were frozen and he killed 3 people on purple on his own wasnt an ace but it was p good

8 - ponk parkour tag -> good and perfect!!!!!!! no notes

7 - sylvee meltdown -> ALSO good sylvee aced red which consisted of sapnap foolish gumi... sharpshooters who were literally cosplaying valo characters like they are VERY good and she still got the upper hand

6 - hannah survival games -> AGAIN very good and deserved hannah had the most kills in SG by quite a bit 7 is very impressive for SG fr SO great

5 - captainsparklez parkour tag -> it IS cracked tbf like zeuz tagged antvenom and pete (POOR PETE) out almost instantly so the fact that cap was being chased the whole round and survived is very cool but...... 5th....? its ranked a little too high sawry

4 - sapnap battle box - sapnap was top player of battle box but i wont lie this isn't even anywhere close to being sapnap's best battle box iirc? idk man like how many kills did he even get in his other battle boxes. its p standard tho sapnaps pvp plays tend to make it into these top 10 videos lol

3 - purpled tgttos -> .......................................................................................................................................................................ok fine. wjatever. his lobby map bridging was really good. top 3 tho... idk man...

2 - fruit parkour tag -> ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? HUH??????????? OH MY GOD. im suddenly mad. upon rewatch i didn't realize they placed it second. IT WASNT EVEN THE FUCKING RECOIRD?????? WHEN DREAM DID IT IN 12 FUCKING SECONDS NO ONE GAF??????????????????????????????????? BROTHER HE WAS EITHER NOT INCLUDED THEN OR LIKE 10TH AS A BEST PLAY WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT ISTG IM REWATCHING THE MCC23 TOP PLAYS VIDEOS

1 - green dodgebolt -> like this wasn't even a clutch dodgebolt or anything they just won like there will be winners and losers include an actual play from this team instead??? there's fucking plenty jojo was literally first???? zero top plays from the person in literal first place???

also pete ace race/his second half of mcc25 was only an honorable mention... like huhhhhhhhhhhhh he should've been an actual top 10 play as should jojo SHE WAS LITERALLY CROWNED S TIER AND ON UR BOSS'S (CPK) TEAM WYDDDD

[refleter]

! mjava * kiss to the sky *

WHO WAS THE ONE TO PROPOSE? mm, mj. she'd get all antsy about why it's taking so damn long and just take matters into her own hands like doesn't she LOVE her? bet she's cheating, like… anyway, she'd do it in public, too. she's so man-coded, lol.

WHO STRESSED MORE OVER THE WEDDING PLANNING? neither, i feel. they're very laidback with low expectations, so… they'd probably just get married by one of their friends at the beach or something. or maybe they'd vegas it. baby, i don't know!

WHO DECORATED THE HOUSE? mj, yet again. does she have good taste? no, but she knows what she likes and i feel like ava wouldn't gaf about what things look like as long as that fridge is well stocked <3 (it wont be)

WHO IS MORE ORGANISED? neither, omg. they suck at being married. ABORT MISSION…

WHO INITIATES THE BEDROOM FUN? mj, for sure. ava's just a wee virgin. let miss pearce be big daddy dom for a day. tables turned and shit.

WHO SUGGESTED KIDS FIRST? us <;3

WHO'S MORE DOMINANT? in the bedroom? mj. in general? probably ava. like, i know she's all baby gay and shit now, however… mj kinda whiny brat 99% of the time and ava could probably get her to do whatever, i think. she'd just pout about it first.

WHO'S THE CUDDLER? both :)

WHAT'S THEIR FAVORITE NON-SEXUAL ACTIVITY? smoking the devils lettuce, hehe. or maybe, i don't know, skating and just being menaces to society. they'd probably fuck up a good concert. or for the more aww narrative, showing each other their favorite stuffs. laying in bed, legs all tangled, watching star trek. or mj reading ava some depressing ass sylvia plath, idk.

WHO KILLS THE SPIDERS? mj will stomp on it for her girl.

WHO FALLS ASLEEP FIRST? ava is just like her momma and just dozes off unprovoked, i've decided. mj likes to play with her hair while she does.

WHO IS LOUDER? in what context… mj.

WHO IS MORE EXPERIMENTAL? mj, because she's a crazy person. but she'd also be fine with baby gay vanilla sex for the rest of her life, don't let the old men fool you! she is kinda exhibitionist, though. sorry.

DO THEY FUCK OR MAKE LOVE? i fear they'd make love.

WHO IS MORE LIKELY TO BE CAUGHT MASTURBATING? mj, screams.

WHO COMES FIRST? ava, idgaf. mj is a GIVER. she likes to GIVE and be told she's doing a GOOD JOB and ava better provide on that front.

WHO IS BETTER AT ORAL AND WHO PREFERS IT? well, mj has more experience, so.

WHO IS MORE SENSITIVE? mj is really rejection sensitive, i fear. but in general ava, probably. it's called being an aries (the baby of the zodiac) and she needs to calm down.

WHO HAS THE MOST PATIENCE? neither, thanks.

[brattyandwhorrible]

Omg im so mf funny. So my gfs phone lit up last night when i was getting up to go potty after us just having like the best sex I've ever had and her already having passed out afterwards.. and this phone that lit up said.. "hey baby... blah blah blah"

So NATURALLY ima pick up the phone and see who is saying this right.. well when i picked the phone up the message saying this wasn't on the notifications anymore. 😐 so me starting to rly feel some type of way proceeds forward in the snoopy sesh thru baes phone tryna uncover this person 'hey baby'ing' my girl.

All out on camera and all. Plus i was still naked 😂💀 i did not gaf how crazy i looked.

Oh uh uh.

So during my little investigation adventures i realized that MY GIRLFRIEND IS NOT THE PERFECT LITTLE ANGEL I THOUGHT SHE WAS.

I just had this image of her in my head of being God-Like and blemish free. Especially when it comes to personal matters i guess. But what did i learn. NOBODY IS TRULY PERFECT AFTER ALL. Bc while shes here rn bothered by me telling her a lie #1 (me saying that i was in love with her b4 i actually was), by me telling other ppl the same lovey stuff i was telling her while i was locked up #2.... she also was being all extra friendly wit other ppl and in a whole 'relationship' or w/e wit someone else, telling grls she wanna see them and good morning texts and inviting them over to netflix and blah blah whatever.. WHILE I WAS IN FL WITH HER.

And ya wanna know what else ive realized?

I dont care that she's imperfect, i love her anyways and i just am going to trust that we not be like that to each other anymore. I'm not saying what she did is worse than what i did either.. just had to put that out there.

Anyways so now not only did she wake up without me, she came looking for her phone.

She's acting all weird and being distant and quiet.

I feel wrong 4 just tryna act like nothing happened and i didnt just do what i did and see what i seen.. lmao this is so typical. I couldn't even help it, my inner most crazy got the best of me when i seen that hey baby whatever it said. I had to know what the fuck. Im not even mad tho, not yet anyways... i mean ill be mad if she dont stop tryna act like she didnt do the same thing shes upset that i did.

Lol. But rly tho, its not cool but i mean its cool. I fucked up, she fucked up. I have genuine, real feelings for her unlike before.. and ive fallen in love with her, experiencing a type of love I've never felt before. I'm not trying to sabotage our bond we have together what so ever, over nothing. I feel like our feelings for each other are mutual so i can trust that the funny business wont be a thing from here on out. Leaving me not to worry but to be excited abt having her and the Universe working its magic like it did..

I'm not the same person i was 2 years ago by any means. Im like complete polar opposite of where i was then actually. And for the first time i actually WANT to have a future with another human being period.

I rly hope we can not lose all of our trust over the things we did before we rly had a chance at being together and fully experiencing one another. I also hope this isn't gonna be an on going issue or source of sorrow either.

Ugh.. ok im done 4 now...

GOOD JOB LIL BABY 4 SLIPPING AND RLY LETTING YOUR CRAZY SHOW.

0 to 100 real fucking quick. I do have to say im glad i got to the source of recent consistent concerns abt my actions during the time of these events taking place. Maybe now we can call it truce and grow into better ppl tog..

One last thing.. 2 my Lover Baby, pls know that i do apologize for invading your privacy even tho i know you was looking 4 love else in somebody else too. I'm rly not tripping tho. I don't feel any diff abt you at all.. im just lowkey gonna be hurt if the situation abt tonight happening is handled the wrong way.. like i don't just wanna pretend like nothing happened. I want to talk abt everything.. even if it hurts, i still feel like its better 2 talk abt it. Even if we dont have much to say on something. I love you tho baby, I'm not going anywhere and i still trust you.. im not even tripping like that. I know how im coming at you also so i KNOW we good. You'll see that too once you see that ima consistently act right as well. Your still my sweet baby pookie pie 😻😘😇 and we were still made exactly for each other bc flaws and all, i want every single part of you bby. Im sorry for doing too much and letting my crazy get the best of me 🙄💀🙈 not gonna lie I'm a lil embarrassed over it lol

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