Tessa fucks me up dude can I just talk about her for a sec? Yeah? Yeah.
She loved those drones. She loved them because they were what she had. She felt sympathy for them when nobody else did. And I like to think there was a little bit of loneliness motivating her as well.
Her mother hated her. She was nothing to her. When her mother scolded her by saying "seems you still can't follow simple orders" her respone was "No, no no! Please!" BEGGING. Begging her mother to believe in her and be kind to her. She got chained up in her room (multiple times btw. At leas tthats implied. the hand she winced at and rubbed is the same hand the chain was on, which means shed be chained up long enough for it to rub her skin painfully. long enough to leave lasting pain.)
She is very connected to these drones, to the point where she kept all the error drones aroud because she LOVED them. She spent time digging them up. HELL SHE TOOK A FAMILY PHOTO WITH THEM DUDE...
Even when Cyn was creepy and scary, she kept her around. She'd rather lock Cyn up than get rid of her. and when n points it out, shes apologetic and hesitant. But we know WHY she did that. Even if it was kind of a sucky move, it was because she didnt wanna have to throw cyn out. and in the end that killed her.
Also she knows J well enough to know what sets her off (enough to. bite the shit out of a chain). She knows them. and she loves them.
I wish we'd gotten to know more about her an N. why is he so clearly her favorite? but thats not relevant ig
also her saying "I've only ever yakked to robots, J!" She has NO human friends. she has nobody to support her other than these robots. these robots who get treated like garbage by her family.
and then she has to watch these robots turn on her. Not just THESE ROBOTS but the three that she loved most. (also im going off what wouldve happened in ep 5 WITHOUT uzi, where n doesnt get out of the swamp, and nobody goes down to the basement)
V first, then Cyn, then J. And we KNOW she loved these three+N especially bc she took a family photo w them, interacted with them more often, and generally just seemed much closer with them.
and what does she get for it? killed. And also its implied by this screenshot that she wasnt ACTUALLY killed by cyn right then
(the scientists, the sword beside her, the footprints, the way shes sitting against the wall, the expression she has. she totally just saw all that shit)
and she cant have been skyn bc the scientists wouldve known. the skinsuit wasnt exactly. hm. pretty.
which means she DID see her whole family+more slaughtered in front of her while she was powerless to stop it. She DID see J violently kill everyone around her. She DID see Cyn kill everyone. And she just has to. Deal with that. And despite all her efforts, the solver took over and cyn killed her. (im assuming tessa died somewhere around when n's mineshaft flashback was like i mentioned b4)
and all the while she was convinced shed lose N, id assume. based on the state of the other drone out there.
And honestly, i think what she got was worse.
also i am team "N knew Tessa wasn't the same Tessa he knew back on Earth"
The way he looked at her, and the way he was suspicious of her. He knew HIS Tessa would never treat a drone like this. Cyn has been known to have relatively shitty recreations of people at times (like Thad in episode two) But even so there was no way he could believe it was someone else (like. who would it be? he saw her blood he heard her voice like...) which is why he was so stressed after killing her (when he leaned on his sword and was breathing heavy, yk?)
he loved her and she loved him and now shes dead. just like everyone else he loved.
this isnt about n but like. idk if tessa could see him now i think shed cry. she loved him and all of them
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AU where Blackinnon raises Harry
Harry copied everything Sirius did. You could basically call him Sirius' little shadow. From his speech to his stance, from the way he ate and held his knife and fork, from the way he dressed, from the way he read the newspaper (even though he could only read a few words), and even the way he got angry. Marlene would have found it annoying if it wasn't so bloody cute. She quickly learned that persuading Harry often required convincing Sirius first, which was a challenge in itself with Sirius's own childlike tendencies, sometimes even mirroring the tantrums of their 3 year old godson.
So when the healer prescribed glasses for Harry, Marlene knew he'd resist unless Sirius led the way. Sirius, however, was convinced he could sway the child, despite Harry's attempts to avoid wearing them. But after days of hide-and-seek with the glasses (including her finding them in a dug-up hole in the backyard, which Marlene wasn't entirely convinced was just Harry), and near accidents due to squinting, Sirius finally admitted defeat.
As Harry sulked over breakfast after Marlene put his glasses on, she was just telling him how handsome he looked when she stopped as soon as she saw her husband. Sirius walked towards the kitchen, sporting not only the same colored shirt but also the same glasses as Harry's, with hair tousled and shorter just like their godson's. Leaning down, he used a tone reserved solely for Harry, asking, "Do I look as brilliant as you, mate?". Harry stared at him in awe and then burst into a fit of giggles as he pointed at Sirius. His giggles were so infectious that Marlene and Sirius couldn't help but laugh as well. "Dada," he said in between his giggles as he pointed at the photo of James and then Sirius. Sirius froze as the color drained from his face and the blood rushed to his ears. He looked into the mirror, and Harry was right. With his glasses and his shorter, tousled hair, he looked eerily similar to James Potter.
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