#would anyone miss me? i think my cats would. but like. people? I'm already dead or missing to them yanno

[ijltln]

I'm so sick of this besties

[celluloidbroomcloset]

Hey there,

You’ve got a lot of insight into Ed and his whole journey from S1 to S2. Apologies if you’ve covered all this already (and I’m not the most articulate of people so also apologies for any confusion), but I’m interested in your thoughts…

I get the impression that a basic debate here is that either Ed is a psychopathic sadist (who basically ‘reigns in his sadistic tendencies’ until he loses Stede) or he’s someone struggling with his own self loathing and the toxic environment he’s had to live in (or maybe I’ve missed the mark entirely).

If it’s the latter, do you think he becomes at all vindictive in S2? Or is he more going through the motions of what he thinks is expected of ‘the pirate Blackbeard,’ because he’s somehow trying to cut off his emotions or is just tired of even trying to be anything else (ie himself) anymore? Or maybe it’s something else?

Also, to me personally it seems like Ed is stuck in… how to describe it… a depressive stasis at the beginning of S1, like at least resigned to death but doesn’t actively seek it until the end of S1/beginning of S2. I can’t decide though if in S2 Ed wants to take the crew with him (because that at least means not dying alone, like the mother and the cat in Crimes of the Heart), or if he doesn’t mind one way or the other what happens as long as he’s dead, or if the goal is to actively make the crew despise him because he thinks hatred and death are what he deserves?

Again, sorry if I’m beating a dead horse here…

Thanks!

So a lot of people have written a good bit about this. This is just what I think (and my thoughts may change—I'm planning on rewatching "Red Flags" today).

When we meet Ed, I think he is depressive and perhaps passively suicidal—he's talking about how the one thing he hasn't tried yet is death, but he doesn't seem to be really looking to die, and meeting Stede makes him re-evaluate the life he's been living and what he wants from it.

Stede and the space of the Revenge make Ed feel safe to express the parts of him that he’d concealed within Blackbeard in order to survive (the whole bringing out of his mother’s silk and Stede giving him the space to wear it openly on his heart). He tries to find this again with the crew after Stede leaves him, and it is Izzy who tells him that he is not safe unless he is Blackbeard (by directly threatening him and telling him that he would be better off dead than being the person he is).

I think a lot of what he’s doing at the end of Season 1 and into Season 2 is malicious compliance - “You wanted the caricature of Blackbeard, well HERE HE IS!” By the time we pick up with the Revenge in Season 2, he's moving from passive to active suicidality - he has been unable to correctly perform (Izzy invoking Stede and the fact that Ed's feelings are what have made the atmosphere on the ship toxic - quite literally his inability to conceal those feelings have poisoned everything around them, according to Izzy. Ed's feelings themselves are poisonous). Ed cannot reconcile his past with what he wants to be with who he is, and he has lost the safe space to be Ed.

I don’t think he wants to take the crew with him - his first move is to try to get Izzy to kill him; when that fails, he tries to get the crew to do it. If anyone actually just pulled a gun and shot him, he'd not try to stop them. He’s goading them until they’re forced into a space where they either have to die themselves or take the initiative and kill him (hence his “finally” right before his death).

Ed has been working to become all the monstrous/demoniacal stories about himself, the ones that have been told by the English and by his trio of monstrous fathers. He hates them but he also wants their approval, and he’s transforming himself into the monstrosity that others say he is. His love for Stede and the things that he was allowed to access via his relationship with Stede are the soft, genuine parts of himself that he has been told are not him but that he's also now incapable of concealing. He’s not worthy of that softness, he’s not worthy of love, and so he tries to kill it.

He’s going to die on Stede’s ship, with Stede’s cravat around his throat, murdered by Stede’s crew, as a final confirmation that all the things he wanted to be, and all the love he felt, he wasn’t really worthy of, that Stede was right to leave him because look at what he’s done, and that the people who loved him should never have loved him. He’s dying like all his monstrous fathers have died, murdered by people who once cared for him and whom he should have taken care of, but failed to because he's a monster.

[alicenttully]

"Men would say she had my look."

There's something about the way Sansa looks like Catelyn, an accident of birth that she isn't rewarded for.

Firstly, it's a source of Arya's resentment towards her. Arya already resents her older sister for being "perfect" without having to try whereas Sansa resents Arya for not trying enough in her eyes. Both are wrong. But anyway, to Arya it's bad enough that Sansa is already ahead, does she have to look like Catelyn too?

It's the cause of Littlefinger's obsession with her. He has her framed for murder because he doesn't want Cat's daughter to rely on anyone else but him. He is a grown man contenting himself with forcing kisses on a thirteen-year-old girl because he knows he can't force himself into her bed yet. He is going to die.

Lysa, who could have taken a chance to make amends after realizing- "My god, what have I done", when she learns that the sister, she tricked into going to war with the Lannisters is now dead after she and Robb- the nephew Lysa held when he was hours old at Riverrun- was butchered at a wedding by them. She could have chosen to see Sansa as a way of honoring Catelyn's memory. Instead, all she sees is how much Sansa looks like Catelyn. Too much. And it's not because Sansa is wanted for murder. No, in the end it turns out Lysa is more bothered by the fact that Sansa is the spitting image of the woman who Lysa thinks tried to steal Petyr away. And she tries to murder her traumatized niece. She dies because of it.

Sansa is beautiful because she looks like Catelyn, in the same Arya will develop Lyanna's wild beauty because she looks like her lost aunt. But Sansa being beautiful is literally the reason why Tyrion wasn't forced into marrying her. He had a choice, and he chose Sansa because she's beautiful. She's forced to marry her enemy because he was literally attracted to her and decided he'd rather have the beautiful child instead of the plain, older woman. As much as Joffrey hates Sansa, the text shows him lusting after her because of her looks. He assaults her and would have graduated to rape if he survived his wedding and Sansa never escaped Kingslanding. Let's not forget the awful way the Hound treats her.

So yeah, with all this background/context I'm just going to find it really cathartic when Sansa is reunited with people who will find it bittersweet seeing Sansa because of how much she looks like their lost mother/sister/niece. You can't tell me Arya and Bran won't get emotional at seeing how much Sansa looks like the mother they miss, in the same way, Sansa won't get emotional over how much Arya looks like the father they miss?

I also love it because with the whole "how will Sansa prove her identity without Lady"- um BECAUSE of Catelyn. She is the spitting image of Catelyn Tully, wife of Ned Stark. Lady of Winterfell for 15 years. The Northern lords damn well knew she was.

I love it because in the end Sansa looking like Catelyn is going to work in her favor. The very thing that this fandom has bizarrely used as one of their pieces of "evidence" to argue is that she isn't really a Stark (even though in the books none of Cat and Ned's kids look like Ned except Arya) because she has Tully looks... will be the very thing to validate her Stark identity.

[lemonmaid]

There is no one here.

Warnings: angst? Also this was kinda of a vent fic, I wrote down all my feelings from the past year and turned it into a fic, that's why it's corny.

(Name)/Reader is Yuu/Perfect

"I do everything, and I never get a thank you"

"I've had to take care of every mess, and my only reward is getting a pat on the back or being allowed to even go on trips as the bag carrier".

"When I complain, I just get threatened to be kicked out or reminded that there is no where for me to go. How would that make you feel?"

"I get asked to do thing, but if I don't do them then am the asshole"

"I have no one besides that damn cat to hug. How sad is that. I don't even remember when the last time someone said that they love me or gave me a genuine hug. I miss my family, I miss the people who genuinely cared about me".

"If I died here there wouldn't be anyone to care, my family probably thinks I'm already dead!"

(Name) felt like drowning, they felt like tempered glass that was dropped too hard.

'Burned out' that's the word (Name) wanted to use but who can say? Depression, burned out, anger, agony, it was the same thing in the mixing bowl, but beaten to hard.

(Name) just stared at their phone, waiting for the alarm to just go off so they could start another day, doing everyone's chores, then working a shift at Azul's lounge, then finally doing theirs and Grims homework.

*ting*

Times up. Time to get ready and be there for everyone while no one is there for you.

.....

(Name) could barely hear the arguing between Ace and Grim, then venting coming from Epel, (Name) was too zoned our to notice their food getting colder and colder. But they could feel the hundreds of eyes upon them, it was like a curse.

"(Name) are you-" before Jack could finish his sentence a swarm of needy people came to their table.

"Oohhhh (nammmmee)! Me and Jamil are going to this new restaurant, do you wanna come with?"

"Oi her-"

"Get your dirty paws off them, I was here first, so their attention should be on me".

"Shrimpy!! Can you take my shift tonighttttt?????".

The bickering slowly started fade out, (Name) couldn't focus on anything but clock ticking and their heart beating.

"IM GOING TO THE BATHROOM!" (Name) suddenly ran off.

In the bathroom, (Name) was almost hyperventilating.

'I can't keep doing this' (Name) thought as they splashed water onto their face.

(Name) looked in the mirror, their sunken face, tired eyes, their appearance was laughable.

(Name) felt angry, why are they always the bad guy, why can't they put boundaries? Why are they the one who has to do everything? Why are they the one who has to fix it?

(Name) was slowly seething.

But then their heartbreaks at the thought that no one really cares, can't anyone else see them slowly slipping away? Why won't anyone help them, why can't anyone else see what they are going through?

"Hey, you doing okay bro?"

(Name) turned around facing Duece, "Yeah, I'm fine. You know, stressed".

Deuce gave (name) a look, "are you sure? You look agitated"

(Name) thought about it, this would be a great time to just vent! "Am I? Sorry, I wouldn't know why"

Deuce hummed, "your food was getting cold, thought I would save it"

(Name) grabbed the tray from Deuce, "thanks".

A knock interrupts the two, "oh! (Name)! Perfect timing! I need your assistance!"

(Name) felt their body sink to the floor, "How can I help Crowley?".

Keys jingle, the door opens, "Perfect! I need your help! It's a dire situation! One that will cost Ramshackle!".

(Name) felt themselves age faster.

Crowley explains how he fell into a pyramid scheme, how does this involve (name)? No one knows.

"If you don't help! Who know what could happen! Those overbolts only happen around you!".

(Name) felt their heart-dropped, tears tricked down their face.

Deuce reached out for "(Name)".

"I just feel so ashamed and embarrassed? How was any of that my fault? Like don't they know how traumatizing it was for me to go through all of those damn overbolts? Why do they have the right" (Name) wailed.

Crowley and Deuce could only watch in shock.

"This is all YOUR fault!" (Name) screamed.

"Now listen here perfect! Just because-"

"NO! It is your fault! Why am I to take any of the blame?!".

"What's going on in here?".

A crowd gathered around the bathroom door, hushed voices, judgemental, sympathetic stares.

(Name) felt the stares, eyes staring at them, seething. It was all too much.

The room was spinning; the voices getting louder, more eyes appearing.

It was madness.

(Name) felt their heart race, breathing so fast like they'd run a marathon.

'I've got to get out of here'.

(Name) went to move into the crowded hallway, their steps erratic.

The hushing voices are getting louder.

"Look at them".

"How are they the perfect?"

"Can't do anything right-".

"They don't belong here-".

"Magicless-".

"Abnormal-".

"Waste of space-".

"The school's janitor-".

"Teacher's pet"-.

"Stuck up-".

"WORTHLESS-".

A hand grabs their shoulders, "(Name) are you alright?".

(Name) looks into Malleus's eyes, "no".

Darkness.

☆

(Name) finally opened their eyes.

'It's quiet'.

(Name) looked around and saw "Get Well Soon" cards decorated the room, deflated balloons.

"You're awake".

(Name) saw Crowley sitting in a chair by them, "It's been a couple of weeks you know? Personally I thought you were gone, I mean, a magicless human overbolting? Never happened before. But with you, a lot of things never happened before".

"I'm still... so tired" (Name) silently cried.

"I know. I'm sorry".

Authors note:

No part 2, this was a vent fic that I fixed up and wrote into putting characters from Twisted Wonderland.

Sometimes there is no happy endings.

[barrenclan]

I think catabolic seed by the scary jokes is very slugpelt, maybe about her life in general?

Yeah, I think so! I like the themes in this song about trying to take control of your life by reaching out to other people, but getting denied. That's very Slugpelt.

Also, check out this awesome PMV with Catabolic Seed, which I just have to show off cause I love it so much.

"But is bad luck really such a crime? If you won't be my valentine, could you at least give me a little bit of sympathy?"

"I don't care if I'm losing myself in the garden of earthly delights I could drop dead right where I stand, and I wouldn't mind"

You guys always find such interesting songs. I like this one. It's definitely got good Rainhaze energy.

"even through the pain animals cannot change dance with the skeletons and float away"

"eat and then die all your siblings cast aside too"

"see with new eyes a world ready to despise you"

No, no one's recommended this Hannibal fansong yet. But nice call for Ranger talking to Rainhaze!

"So look in the mirror And tell me, who do you see? Is it still you? Or is it me?"

"Do you feel the hunger Does it howl inside? Does it terrify you? Or do you feel alive?"

That's a good classic ask, back from the beginning of the blog. Never forget Christmas music Daff.

"Underground, boxed and glum Left you there for rot All my fears are overgrown Will someone burn this grove?"

"Welcome home! It's been a while Do you miss your head? With your tattered clothes and your bloody nose?"

I LOVE Vulture Culture! That song is great. I've been wanting to do a version of its animation meme for years now with a fandom I'm in. Maybe someday.

It can be a Rainhaze song and a Defiance song. They're so interlinked now, right?

"We live and die in a vulture culture We crucify anyone we hunger Gemini and a broken brother We live and die, my friend"

"Well, I guess I made my bed Now I gotta lie in it Like a suicidal kiss I got a guilty conscience"

BarrenClan is a cursed land!...

"The curse ruled from the underground, down by the shore And their hope grew with a hunger to live unlike before"

"If they called on every soul in the land, on the moon Only then would they know a blessing in disguise"

Asphodelpaw's themesong is a MARINA song, so you're already halfway there! I also agree with you about the idea of Asphodel feeling like she has to put on a strong front and pretend like she doesn't have any genuine feelings.

"It's okay to say you've got a weak spot You don't always have to be on top Better to be hated Than loved loved loved for what your not"

"You're vulnerable, you're vulnerable You are not a robot You're lovable, so lovable But you're just troubled"

What a wonderful title for a song. I also love mashing my OCs into any vaguely related song to them.

"I bid the sunshine adieu! In 1872 When the girl that I liked Made me a creature of the night"

"On the shortest night of the year I told him he’d nothing to fear As I bit his throat and crooned as he choked “Together forever my dear”

I'm certain this song has been suggested before, but that's only because any song from The Crane Wives discography could fit into PATFW.

"He taught me that the hand that feeds Deserves to be bitten when it beats He taught me how to break my chains And that money ain't worth a thing"

"Reminding me how little I have But as for time, as for time It's mine, it's mine"

Poor Pinepaw! He really does know too much, often envious of who he used to be.

...yeah, that's going on the playlist.

"Everything here is built on bones

Everything everything everything

And men will do as they’re foretold

Everything everything everything

Visions you don’t want to see

Everything everything everything

Hide your face from prophecy"

If I'm being real - since this song is so desert-themed, it's giving much bigger Saltburn's Clan energy, especially with the line about "mountain cats". (Blasting beams into the 3 people who read this's head to go read SBC at @nanistar)

If you want my opinion, I would say Slugpelt.

"So, if I can wait five more In this shape that I abhor I'll sleep with an open door Knowing you haven't touched a cell on my body"

"Now, my love carries the task Of handling the aftermath Can you smooth the looping lines Of fingerprints before your time?"

Lol I ran out of video embeds

[go-to-the-mirror]

Weaver time! I really do like this episode. If I'm being honest I like every episode - bar a couple stranger ones in season 3, they just weren't scary to me - so that isn't much of a surprise, but it's a pretty good one.

I'm also pretty tired, so... yeah? After this I'm going to go to sleep.

@a-mag-a-day

The concept of free will gets me pretty excited so enjoy the words!

This includes: love of Jon Sims, looking at Jon's life through the lens of "this guy ADHD", cat photo, musings on free will (good words), how are the tapes turning on, what does Annabelle mean about the statement summaries, musings on what the web is and "The Spider & The Eye" by pocketsizedquasar propaganda, discussion of Enid Blyton books, among other things.

DAISY (Quietly) Perhaps they bugged out. ARCHIVIST Was that a joke?

Asjdjshfhsjh I love him so much your honour. I want to shake him a little bit.

MELANIE I'm fine. Uh, a-and please don't call me Mel. DAISY What? Since when? MELANIE Always. I’m trying to be more open about this stuff.

Hnhrnhrh Melanie my absolute beloved <3 I'm glad she's getting better, that's good for her, you know. Being ok is really great actually.

ARCHIVIST I'm sure the flares will work fine. I mean, unless it's all some elaborate plot to have us burn this place down again. BASIRA So what if it is? ARCHIVIST I don’t follow. BASIRA I mean, anything we do could be part of the grand master plan. So, what, we do nothing? Just sit on our hands and hope that's not what the spiders want?

Jon's either incredibly impulsive or incredibly indecisive, which... A) Attention Deficit Hyperativity Disorder (the name is a misnomer, not a deficit, etc, i mean he's adhd though) and B) I mean like... that's sort of partially why he ended the world? I mean like grabbing this kid, dead parents, granny doesn't care about him - and yknow, a shitty childhood affects you, and with this Extra trauma, he'll be alienated from other people, due to the mundane things and because... you can't tell anyone about the spooky stuff.

And then he's already probably predisposed to be impulsive, to not think things through, and then ADHD it's... not a Great Time. Because of other people. You know, you're either too much or not enough, no one's ever going to like you so why try. With him it's like "I was an annoying child." "I was hardly an easy child to deal with." Like, not to sound like a broken record, but I see myself in that. It's not always malicious, but yeah, when you're always too much, too loud, too annoying, you internalize it, think there's something wrong with you, cut people off, don't... try.

Like, Elias's plan sort of depended on the Archivist and the Archival Assistants being... isolated. No one'll notice, or care when they die, or go missing, or change. And, I mean, yeah. He was pretty much alone. Is it an ADHD thing to have no best friends? Is it an ADHD thing to never wonder why you're alone? Like, he was closest with his assistant, who he suspected of murder, and his ex-girlfriend who he hadn't talked to in years. His work-life balance was terrible since before he discovered he'd work for life. Also ADHD ppl usually have a higher rate of substance abuse and addiction, because of the whole less dopamine thing.

This is getting so bloody off topic. Jon's combination fear of being manipulated and his impulsivity and inability to think things through, in addition to all the other things detailed above make him a great candidate for ending the world.

Sasha's too friendly, and we don't know enough about her to really draw any conclusions about how good of a (spooky) Archivist she'd be. I'd say she'd be a better mundane archivist but none of those people had anything even resembling a library science degree, and she was stapling things. Apparently you're really not supposed to staple things.

Melanie, I think, would be a great (spooky) Archivist, mostly because she's so similar to Jon. What with the whole chasing after War Ghosts thing, and being pretty prickly, and I think that she could have been an Archivist, Archivist!Melanie guys, come on, think about the possibilities! Also this leaves the door open for Flesh!Jon and I fucking love Flesh!Jon, but now is really not the time to get into that.

ARCHIVIST Yep. Official Institute paper and everything.

Official institute paper should be available as merch smh.

WHAT IF THEY HAVE PENS?? DO YOU THINK THEY HAVE OFFICIAL INSTITUTE PENS? THEYVE GOT TO RIGHT? OH THE POSIBILITIES OF NOVELTY STATIONARY!!

Free will is a funny old thing, isn’t it, Jon? Can I call you Jon? I’m going to call you Jon.

I mean, hey! It's an improvement on the other Avatars! He gets to be called a name! Lovely jubbly!

With any other animal, we talk about instinct, we talk about training. Perhaps, if we have spent enough time with them, we talk about personality. But we never talk about choice. We never look at a dog racing wildly after a thrown ball and think, ‘What an odd decision that dog has made.’

My cat, Marble, chases after things like a dog. He's so odd /pos, I love him so much.

Cat Anecdote (Catecdote?): Ereyesterday, early in the morning - so early to be basically still the day before - Marble climbed onto my bed and lay right beside me, and as I stroked him I realized how small he was - Marble's a mainecoon so he's a LOOONG cat - but, I realized that he's still just a cat, and as he purred as I fell asleep, I knew that I loved him more than anything else in the world. I love him so much.

[ID: A photo of a cat, sitting down with one paw raised, looking at something above the camera. He's a tabby maincoon, and is dark brown, light brown, and grey. His legs are mostly dark brown, his stomach grey, and the rest of his body a mix of dark brown and light brown. /End ID]

Look I had to include a photo of him. Sorry, this was so irrelevant.

Of course, people are so very different from dogs. Our brains are larger, more complex; so many more little factors and wrinkles to push us and pull us. But does any of it actually constitute free will? Free of what? We all have forces that drive us, circumstances that direct us, and even if we choose to ignore these and act against all logic just to prove that we can, is that not simply allowing the existential terror of our own powerlessness to control us instead?

!!!

Look, okay, if someone knew everything, knew everything about you and everyone else and the world and everything, then theoretically, they would be able to know exactly what you'd do. We're all pushed and pulled by forces in our lives, no matter how unpredictable you are, there's always an underlying reason, and if there isn't... well there's your reason.

I was baking a while back, and thinking about this episode, and I realized that every moment in my life had lead to me, standing in the kitchen, thinking about The Magnus Archives, and looking for some kind of measuring cup, and I realized that whatever decision I made, if I took one from the drawer, or from the dishwasher, or left the kitchen entirely, that choice was not my choice, none of them were, my whole life has been preordained from the very beginning, not in some fate way, but in that everyone is affected by the circumstances around us, and this just makes what happened happen?

Yes, we're responsible for our own choices, but are they really our choices? If knowing everything makes them not - which I believe, it makes sense - then they are and were never our choices, free will is ignorance.

Not only can free will and omniscience not coexist, but free will has never existed, it's just a lie we tell ourselves, because it makes sense to us. Why am I lying on my bed typing this out? Because I wanted to. But no. It's because Sixteenthdays wrote The Hermit Archives AU, it's because my sister got into an unspecified university, it's because Ashes started a mag a day, it's because the pandemic happened, it's because I was curious about hermitcraft fandom demographics, it's because I have a computer, it's because of so many things, and none of those things were done randomly either. I presume Sixteenthdays is writing THA because they like both TMA and MCYT. A mag a day was started because The Magnus Archives was created, because the mods wanted to re-experience the community created from the episodes initial airing. My sister got into the unspecified university because we moved to unspecified country. And that's only a fraction of the factors that lead to me, here, talking about these factors.

Terrifying to think about, isn't it!

He ultimately decides that, if all the millions upon millions of factors and influences that weigh upon our choices were fully and completely known, then all could be foreseen and predetermined. But, he argues, it is quite impossible for the human mind to comprehend even a fraction of these, and in that vast, dark space of ignorance lies ‘free will’.

Come onnn Jonny, we had an omniscient character who's bloody terrified of being out of control, I really really do wish that we'd gotten more of this sort of thing in season 5.

Like I get why not, his omniscience has limits, we're more focused on other things, but there was a missed opportunity there, I feel.

Where would it fit in? Idk!

I think that one probably comes down to whether or not you’re choosing to continue reading this statement out loud. You didn’t mean to, did you? No, I’m sure you told Basira and Melanie that you were going to glance it over and report back. Perhaps they asked you if you were going to record it and you shook your head. “Maybe later.” That sounds like the sort of thing you’d say.

!!!!!!!!! oh boy!!

Do you think that's... exactly what he said? Because I think it's exactly what he said and he's just like Oh Boy!

But think about it, Jon, when’s the last time you were able to read a statement quietly to yourself without instinctively hitting record and speaking it aloud? Is it just instinct, habit? Or is it a compulsion, a string pulled by the Ceaseless Watcher or the Mother-of-Puppets? Or both?

That raises the question - are the tapes turning on by themselves, or is Jon (and by extension Martin and co.) turning them on unconsciously. The Web has shown an ability to... distract... people what with Jon and his lighter. Jon's also been shown to forget to turn tapes off a lot of the time, and Tim did mention that Jon was just reaching for the tape recorder when they were talking (MAG 98). I feel like that's actually more plausible to me than them just... turning on by themselves. The Web's all manipulation and stuff. Alternatively, it's Annabelle Cane hiding under Jon's desk /j.

I know the summaries have started to confuse you. Where do they come from when you read a statement fresh? How do you just sort of know what it’s about before you even start to read it? But by then, you’re away, the rollercoaster is dropping and you’ve no real choice but to hold on and hope that I don’t crash you.

I'm guessing this is referring to statements that haven't been read before, like MAG 123 - Web Development. That raises the question, though, what about the statement of Hazel Rutter? I mean, he obviously didn't know what was going to be inside that, and The Eye can't lie.

Actually, I think Elias, you know, he just put the summary there so it wasn't one of the spooky ones, but like he's already... tied in by the point where he's reading the summary. No turning back, already too deep.

Also that line, just, "hope that I don't crash you." Hmm. Oh, Jon, there really was no way to avoid it.

Of course, I learned many of my skills from my mother, who could wield guilt like a rapier and anger like a scalpel. She never simply screamed at you. She was always aware of exactly what kind of fury or disappointment was needed to make sure you regretted ever catching her attention.

Sure! Did Annabelle grow up to... sort of be a part of The Web? Yes, she did. Sure, maybe it's manipulative, but you know what? I've been called manipulative, I've been worried I'm manipulative, and if The Eye can be the fear of being both Watcher and Watched, The Slaughter the fear of the one getting hurt and the one hurting, The End the fear of the one who stays alive forever and the one who knows when they will die, then The Web can be the fear of the one being manipulated and the one afraid of being a manipulator.

She might not have been afraid, sure. What we know of Annabelle's childhood is from the perspective of her fundamentally changed - in more than just the regular way - from that. We just don't know what she was feeling before, we barely know anything about her.

Just read "The Spider & The Eye" by pocketsizedquasar, it's really good, the first lines of the summary live in my mind rent free.

Annabelle Cane has a choice to make. (Annabelle Cane is not sure what choice is anymore).

Like! Aa! Sahar has great words.

She had eight children, yet weaved that life around herself in such a way that she always seemed both the victim of it, yet curiously divorced from any responsibility. In many ways, she was the victim, at least of my father, whose pathological absence spoke of a man who had no interest whatsoever in engaging with the life where he had trapped his family.

Uh nothing to say, just highlighting it. Hmnhrnh good words.

My biggest attempt to assert some form of influence over my family was when I decided to run away.

I've actually packed a bag to run away before and let it be known I was much worse at packing than Annabelle asjdssjfg

and the only book I could say belonged to only me: Five Go Down to the Sea.

I was always more fond of The Five Find-Outers and Dog, and The Adventurous Four, though I did like The Famous Five. I also really liked Mallory Towers. George from The Famous Five is definitely the reason I'm trans.

I will simply say that when a spider reaches a certain size, it is not entirely made up of spider anymore.

Hey, what the fuck does this mean! :D

So, how much free will was involved in that story? What could I have chosen to change? Would a different path have been possible? I felt no loss of control – no puppet strings guided me – and yet the Mother got exactly the result she no doubt wanted, one that would lead to a fear of spiders so acute that would later have that horror focused and refined into a silk-spun apotheosis.

Isn't it more terrifying to not know for sure whether you're being controlled or not? To be frozen in terror and indecision, unsure of which action you will willingly take will be the one they want you to take?

The Mother is the fear of manipulation and lost control made manifest, so perhaps it is our fear that projects her influence on everything that happens, like the mind retrospectively assigning reason to our actions, so we fit whatever occurs into the neatest pattern we can and declare her web both intricate and complete.

But, the mind of the dreamer affects the dream, so perhaps she wasn't weaving her own web, but the fear of her weaving her web made it so she could and did! Aaaa I love this podded cast!

Or perhaps I am simply telling you what you need to hear in order to behave exactly as the Mother wishes you to. Perhaps I have never even seen a beach.

THAT ENDING!!! OH WOW THATS A GREAT ENDING!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH! JUST dont dont drop the mic it'll damage it, BUT DO SOMETHING TO A SMILIAR EFFECT!

(Shaken) That was, uh… I d-didn’t like that. I couldn’t…

Fuck, dude, he really is shaken.

Ahhh it's only going to get... worse.

I can’t say I’m sad to have another ally allegedly on our side, but I don’t like the idea of being important to The Web. That’s a really bad place to be.

IT SURE IS! Aaaaaa... :(

Annabelle’s right, though. I mean, I can’t trust anything she says to not be another lie to further manipulate and manoeuvre us, but deep down, I think she’s right. What I’ve been doing to these people, it hasn’t been because I was puppeted or controlled or possessed. I wanted to do it. It felt good. But at least I know I can stop. I just... don’t know how. I don’t want to stop.

Hey, I mean! Good for him right, he has all these people around him to help! They're going to be nice about it and not threaten him with murder, right!

Right?

No but, I mean, I'm not really, I don't really feel right talking about this, I don't have any experience related to it, I'm just pointing to it. Great words! Yeah!

Well, that's been a little ramble! Hope you enjoyed the cat picture if nothing else. He really is the light of my life. See y'all tomorrow I guess?

[nayruwu]

I feel same way about ons as you :') I got into it because of gureshin it's been long since I already lost interest alas. I was wondering what do you think of characters like guren shinoa mika & krul? I really liked them back then but now I'm really disappointed with how author wrote them since past few years & weirdly fandom still tries to act as if nothing wrong with them but "people didn't read correctly"

hello!! :D

i'm sorry that so many others seem to be suffering the same way i am, but it's also a little reassuring. at least we're not alone in our misery.

and i think answering your question will be quite fun!

well guren, obviously i love guren. he's so sad and pathetic and tired and broken he's like a wet cat. the way he loves, the way he does terrible things and hates himself for it but does it anyway because he knows he has no other choice, it's so intriguing and painful. i love it. there's aspects that bother me when reading the novels, like when i cannot for the life of me grasp why he is doing what he's doing, or when he's being an arrogant asshole. but then i read the paragraphs my friends have written about him and love him with my whole heart again. i think they called it blorbo-in-law, that fits it quite well.

but i feel like i need to mention, i totally get why people got so mad with him recently. the way it was handled with the kids just immediately forgiving him again after one word was just... not good. i wasn't kidding when i said i wanted him to be more evil. it was a lot more exciting when him and mahiru first started that "let's betray everyone" stizzle and we weren't sure if he was actually going to harm anyone. it was serious, oh the suspense! now he's just our friend guren again. let him go batshit insane. please. he's not a saint, and he doesn't need to be.

at this point the only one i can trust to truly judge and be mad at him for more than half a panel is shinya. and that's a little odd. also he's currently in eeby deeby.

ohh shinoa! i used to like her a lot. it's only natural, i guess, since she is so similar to shinya. i always thought her to be a less extreme version of him - shinoa was also trained to be numb and hide herself behind jokes and smiles, but she seems to retain more of her emotions than he does. she's scared of dying, she's not much of a killing machine, and she is very much capable of developing actual romantic feelings for someone. wow, shinoa!

now, the problem is the toxic view of love that mahiru drilled into her head, and how the story will adress that, if at all. i don't mind her crush on yuu, it's her proof of not being dead inside or worthless or meant to be alone. but the way she acts on it is quite selfish. she's taking after her sister a little too much for my liking lately. "i will get yuu back, even if i have to kill mikaela to do it", alright miss mini mahiru. chill.

i would very much like someone to drill some sense into her head.

as for mika, he was my favourite for quite some time. i'm afraid i can't speak on him anymore, though, since he's kinda wiggled himself out of my field of interest. younger me would be going insane over his angel self... but now, i actually don't have anything to say about him. he exists. he's a massive scapegoat. i wish we could have seen him bond with shinoa squad.

krul is great solely because she's somehow the only female character who doesn't have a crush on some guy. hooray for vampirism! i don't have that many thoughts on her either, but i do adore her. she treated mika fairly well, she acted against vampire laws, she was more trustworthy than others. and god, that chapter where she was turned into a vampire was so awful, i loved it. more of an ashera-perspective probably, but still! as i've mentioned, i'm not a fan of her and all the black demons having been angels before, so i can't bring myself to look forward to their reunion as much as i used to. but i'd still like to see it.

[nightmare-dreamt]

May I request either hcs or a short story about someone from bnha (whoever you think would be funniest/most interested) meeting a civilian who's quirk is basically just like one punch man, but their quirk manifested super late so by the time it happened they already knew they didn't want anything to do with hero/villain life and so they just kept their quirk a secret and they're just chilling with their regular degular life, probably being a cashier or something. Thank you <3

Thank you for the request and I enjoyed writing this :) Request are now opened!

The bright sun shone over the city, blinding through the windows of the shop that happened to be filled with no ane besides the worker and an elderly lady who was buying food for her cat. Swiping the pet food, the cashler hummed softly leming the music playing in the back fill their mine as the last item was scanned. The cashler smiled, "That'll be five fifty Miss. Miko."

"Ah here you go dear Y/n, keep the change," She handed over some cash. Y/n signed, handing the cash back, "Miss Miko, I can't accept a hundred dollars."

"Yes, you can take it as my tip for being an amazing cashier," She grinned, taking her bags and heading off. Y/n laughed, putting the money in the register, "Thank you for coming and I'll see you later Miss." Stopping their setnece the sound of someone coming through the door was heard, causing the young cashier to look up and see a man wearing all black with a mask over his head. He held a - painting it at the elderly women, "Give me all the money or this women dies."

"Miss Miko," Y/n blurted with widened eyes. The man screamed again, "Give me the money and set it on the ground."

"Fine, just leave her alone," Y/n mumbled, pulling the money out of the register and placing it on the floor. The man glanced down, "I know there's money in the back, bring that out as well."

"You want me to go alone?" Y/n questioned, about to head off. The man scoffed, "Don't doubt me, start walking I'll follow, keep your back turned as well." Nodding their head, Y/n raised their hands in the air and began walking, hearing the guys footsteps behind them. Y/n spoke, "Out of all the places to rob, you choose here. Bad luck I guess."

"What did you say?" The man snarled. Y/n smirked, "I'm just saying how it was bad luck that you choose to come to this convenience store instead of all of the other ones in this area."

"What do you mean?" The man wondered in a confused tone. Y/n shrugged, "Well anyone of this area knows that the heroes patrol around this time and it would be a shame if someone pressed the hero alert button alerting them that there was danger in this building."

"You bitch!" He cursed, ready to attack. Smirking at his reaction, Y/n spun around on their heels kicking the knife out of his hands causing it to slide onto the ground across the store. Y/n rushed over standing in front of the elderly women, "Are you alright Miss Miko?"

"Yes dear, but you should be careful yourself," She worried, staring at the man in front of them. Y/n glared, looking up at him, "You have five mintures to get out of here before the heroes come and deal with you themselves. Take the money on the ground and leave now."

"Screw you," He growled, pulling a gun out and aiming it at them. Y/n signed, stepping forward, "Really? You have a knife and a gun? Where are people getting all of these weapons from?"

"Stay back!" He shouted. Y/n rolled their eyes, "Or what? You're going to shoot me?" Swallowing harshly, he screamed, letting the-fire multiple times each missing the two in front of him except for one. He looked over seeing the cashier on the ground with a bullet in her head gushing out. He backed away, "No…"

"Jeez man, did you really have to shoot me in the head? LIke look at that, it's dead center," Y/n grumbled, sitting up and touching the wound on their head. The man shivered, backing away, "You… you're alive? How is that possible? I shot you in the head! How are you alive!"

"I ask myself that as well, now where were we?" Y/n asked, mumbling to themselves, "Oh yea, I was about to throw you out at that window." Widening his eyes, the man tilted his head not realzing what was happening till the sound of glass shattering was heard and everything went blank. Miss. Miko rushed over dabbing the wund on the cashiers head, "You're bleeding sweetheart."

"Hm oh yea, I'll be fine just have to heal myself and-" Y/n started before the sound of the covience doors slamming open were heard. A boy with green fluffy hair rushed in, "I am here!"

"Um, who are you?" Y/n asked in a confused tone. He smiled, "My name is Deku and I'm here to help- oh my god you were shot in the head! We need to get you to the hospital!" Shaking their head, Y/n tried to explain their quirk and that everything was alright but was once again cut off by the sound of explosions. A boy with ash blonde hair walked in with sparks coming out of his hand, "Who else do I have to beat up?"

"No one, I had it all under control," Y/n stated, but stopped when the hands of the green haired boy were felt. Deku rambled, "You still have a pulse and it doesn't look like a lot of blood was lost. I'll call the hostpial and send an ambulance over."

"No that won't be neccessary," Y/n started. The ash blonde huffed, "You idiot, they'll take forever. I'll fly over and then we can deal with this."

"No there's no need," Y/n tried to reassure. Watching the two argue, Y/n opened their mouth to speak when the sound of a large crash was heard and a sudden strange feeling was felt in their head. Deku cried out, "We killed them!"

"You're so stupid icyhot!" The ash blonde shouted. A new face spoke in a low tone, "Kaminari told me that zombles were real and you usually hit them in the head. This one must have been hit, but not fully dead. I was doing us a favor, Bakugo."

"I'm not a zombie," Y/n growled, rubing their head trying to crack it back into place. Screaming all three of them, jumped into each other's arms staring at the once dead figure that now was standing in front of them. Bakugo shoved his hand into their face, "Let me kill this zombie!"

"I'm not a zombiel" Y/n shouted, stomping their foot. Feeling the explosion, Y/n coughed out the smoke shooting a-glare at the three of them. Y/n spoke in an annoyed tone, "I'm not a zombie and I'm not dead."

"Then what are you?" Deku said.

"Anti-death quirk, they're unable to die from anything that is thrown their way and don't receive any pain or sickness," Endeavor explained, walking in with the elderly lady. Miss. Miko gave a thumbs up, "I filed your report Y/n, you're all cleared."

"Thanks Miss. Miko," Y/n took a deep breath, "Does that mean I can go home now? I got to deal with this bullet wound and I kinda need some peace and quiet."

"So you're not a zombie?" The red and white haired boy whispered. Y/n frowned, "Yes I'm not a zombie, now no more throwing things at me that makes me break my neck."

"Of course, if you don't mind, can I ask some questions? I would love to get to know your quirk some more," Deku exclaimed with stars in his eyes. Bakugo shoved him, "Stop being a nerd! Hey loser, you should train with me so I can try my most dangerous moves withou worrying about injuring someone."

"Are you sure you're not a zombie?"

"I'm not a zombie!" Y/n screamed, already done with the three boys.

Headcanons

When finding out about your quirk, he was amazed and wanted to know everything about it. He invited you out and pestered you with multiple questions filling in multiple pages of his notebook just about your quirk and the effects of someone who wasn't able to die.

He asked you to spare once and it totally shocked him when he tried to use one of his strong attacks and you jumped over it, doging the attack interly. He was also shocked when you landed a kick to his side causing him to fly into a nearby wall.

He's extremely shocked that you didn't become a hero knowing your quirk would have been good and would have made an excellent ability in missions. But, he respects your choices and supports your career path even if it continues with you working at a conscience store. On the bright side, you have a new customer that spends most of his money on foods that he likely won't eat

Didn't understand your quirk and didn't really care either. You were just some other nobody that was in his way of completing his goal, that all changed though when he watched you train with the nerd. After that moment, he demanded that you trained with him and let him throw his strong attacks at you and you complied.

Training with him was intense with him always pushing his limits just to get stronger, but he never realized it and it got worse when you barely broke a sweat. He throws everything he has at you and everytime you find some way to avoid his attacks never getting a single hit or blow on yourself. He never felt so much pain until be felt one of your attacks as you tackled him to the ground before he could throw another one of his explosions your way.

He doesn't care about your career choice, as long as you're not in his way he could care less. But, he wonders to himself sometimes why someone with your strengths didn't attempt the road so many with strong abilities took. You told him about your late quirk and he was confused, never having heard of someone getting their quirk so late, but he knew of Deku so it didn't shock him. He visits your convenience store when he's on his morning jogs or when he's done with training and every time he gets something random and always makes sure there's two of them so the two of you could share

He was so determined that you were a zombie and even convinced Kaminari that you were one, but the other two were quick to shut the theory down before it spreaded around school. It took him a while to talk to you again so sure that something strange was going on with you and he was always prepared for you to jump and try to get his brain.

He went to train with Deku when seeing you there and everything changed, leading to him freezing you into a giant piece of ice. He was proud of himself being able to stop you unlike the other two, but that confidence went away when you broke out of the ice and attacked him. He was surprised by your strength and skills, always finding your new moves amazing and well thought out

He didn't care much about your point of view with heroes, but he was thrilled to hear that you weren't a big fan of his father. The two of you grew closer from talking about his father and it got worse when be invited you to your house and you straight up insult his father in front of his family. The two of you were frineds after that and he spends the night at the convenience store when his father is around not wanting to deal with him.

[koiifiishy]

I don't know if I should ask here or on the main blog, but what do you think some of Kou's voice lines would be like(rain, thunder, etc), or his hangout(4-stars vibes sorry)/story quest?

Hello! thank you for this ask ^^ sending it here is okay, no worries. my main is in perpetual shadowrealm timeout (thank you tumblr) so its probably best to send me things on this acc! as for your question, thats a good ask :0c ive vaguely thought about it before but never wrote anything concrete down. i'll throw some random ones out but if you had particular lines you wanted know, please feel free to ask!

also - thank you for waiting so long for this answer :")c i know it was sent sooo long ago. also! i assigned him stephanie sheh as usagi tsukino (sailor moon) for his voice claim :3c if that helps you imagine his voice while saying these lines.

Hello: oh, come on, you already know me! ... fine - i'll tell you again, and this time you better commit it to memory: i! am kou, and i'm not just a nekomata - i'm The nekomata! the best there is! a true yokai! i set fires hotter than the sun, my dancing can raise the very dead, i've feasted upon the FLESH of humans!!! huh? ... no, not recently, you told me not to... i've been behaving!

Rain: y'know, cats and rain don't really mix well together..! can't we go find someplace warm and i dunno - not wet?

Thunder: hey, did you know that if you hold your sword up really high in a thunderstorm, it'll scare away the lightning? it's true, try it!

Favorite Food: chicken! fish! and when you put them on a stick, doesn't it make it more fun to eat? but really, i'm not all that picky - so give me lots of treats, okay~?!

Least Favorite Food: it's not that i don't like it exactly... but i just can't stomach it, y'know. what am i talking about? alcohol! i can't stand it! ugh, not even a cup in and i'm snoozing away, belly up, for all the world to see my fur! it's so undignified... hey, you're not thinking of using this against me, are you...

About 1: hm? what do you wanna know that i haven't already told you? i'm not holding anything back y'know, i just can't remember some things... but you're gonna help me with that, right? you promised!

Memories: sometimes... i get this feeling like i've lost something. something really important, that i shouldn't have misplaced - but when i try to check myself, it's like, i know that it's not just some thing like my clothes or my bracers. it's more important than that... i'm missing something special.

About Paimon: hmph... you know that gnat better than anyone, so why ask me. ... uuugh - i'll stop calling her a gnat when she stops hovering around my head and buzzing in my ears all the time! what - no! i don't hate her. . . i'm just the better companion, obviously. you think so too, right? ...RIGHT???

About Traveler: aaw, do you need a little praise? c'mere, i'll pat your head for you~ hehe. ... i never did thank you, did i. so much has happened between me waking up and now. all of the adventures we've been on together and the people we've met... and the things we've seen and done... i may not always say it, but i am appreciative to be here; by your side, as your friend. ...it's okay, if you need someone to lean on. stay here a little while longer, let me brush your hair...

as for his story quest or hang out (i could see him having either, but i think he'd most likely have a story quest instead of a hangout! nothing too long, but since he's the traveler's second companion a hangout event seems a little redundant - they're usually 'hanging out'! lol) i've thought about it off and on and i think it'd just be a one part quest; he doesn't remember much of his past besides vague things, so it'd probably deal with him regaining those memories.

i imagine that, fitting into a canon game timeline, he'd of regained most of his memories post-chasm yaksha event. that would've triggered a lot of his memories to come back, since the chasm is where a very significant struggle in his past took place. he's an old cat lol. if not at this time though, i can for sure see him regaining all of his memories in the sumeru archon quest line, since memory and timelines are such a big thing there. by the desert and fontaine's storylines, kou has for sure gained all of his memories and i think he'd of had a character quest by then.

i don't have anything concrete, but having him run off for a longer time than the traveler is used to having him be gone would probably be the push for them to find him/the beginning of that quest. something like paimon stating "it's been a while since kou's been around, hasn't it? where did that cat run off to now?!" and prompting the traveler to asking around if anyone's seen him (probs in liyue). little search quest, finding clues while running around liyue. find some clues at the cave that they originally found him in, maybe use elemental sight to see that he's been there recently. follow that out and find kou? something like that!

i dont think i've really written in depth on this blog about kou's background. or like. anything LMAO,,, i just share silly art that i make of him. but his story quest would be very melancholy. tl;dr, he's a nekomata originally from inazuma who was tricked into servitude and was the mochizuki clan's property (assassin? "political helper" lol??) for a few generations until towa. towa stole him away from inazuma and they went to mainland teyvat, mostly traveling mondstadt, liyue, and some of sumeru; focused on liyue though. the cataclysm happens, towa is a healer and good soul and volunteers his help; kou of course sticks by his side and fights that good fight. but towa saw how much it took out of everyone, and how even those that weren't humans couldn't handle this much fighting and suffering; towa didn't want kou's entire life to be spent fighting for others, and decided to use a bit of underhanded trickery himself, to seal kou away.

it was "for his own good", but that doesn't change that kou felt betrayed by it. he was prepared to die and would have welcomed it, if he could have perished protecting towa. he hadn't been fighting for liyue, or for the 'greater good', he'd only been fighting for towa - his "special person". that's who he was forgetting and what he felt he'd lost after waking up, and he only got vague feelings and splintered memories of happier times with him. his story quest would definitely focus on him remembering towa and the events that led up to his sealing and the betrayal he felt by it, and the pain of losing towa not only once but remembering it all over again and feeling like he'd lost him a second time.

like any good quest, there needs to be a fight >:3c which i think he'd be the boss of his own quest, with the traveler fighting him. they fought him once before when he had just woken up in modern teyvat, but by this time i think with him a lot more lucid (even if he's in emotional turmoil) they wouldn't be able to overpower him like they had before. i think it'd be a scripted end to the fight, where kou's pinned the traveler down or something but instead of finishing them off, the traveler feels tears hit their face; straddled over them, kou's chest heaved with sobs. his red eyes shone like rubies through his tears, his mouth twisted into a pained grimace. though his metal claws was poised to strike, the traveler forgot about any imminent danger to themself ; in that moment, all they could feel was a resounding sadness. something like that - kou yelling that he can't handle being left again. he doesn't want to lose the traveler like he lost towa. eventually they're going to leave, when they reunite with their sibling, right? cue traveler consoling him and calming him down, AND A HUG there needs to be a hug after all that.

as is the way, there's of course that moment after the quest where kou's just standing someplace outlooking the scenery wistfully. no further dialog from him, just one of those "he looks like he needs a minute to himself..." traveler inner thoughts pop up.

or something along those lines lol! thanks for the questions :>

[writingamongther0ses]

7 People, 7 Snippets

Rules: I think you give 7 snippets of your WIPs and tag 7 people? I think?

Thanks for the tag, @at-thezenith and @writinglittlebeasts!

Heartbeat

"That... wow." Liza shifted uncomfortably. "Wow. That's awful." The detective sighed. "Yeah. To be frank, Miss Dorado, that's why I'm here. Paired with the recent death of Kyle Burton, my-" "I'm sorry?" Woodhall blinked. "Excuse me?" "You said Kyle was dead. Last I checked, he was still among the land of the living." The detective sighed. "My apologies. It seems nobody has told you yet. After he was released from the hospital, we took him and…"

Treasure Triplets

They frowned. “Um...from when I know, Bill offered Becca and Ella internships. But when they got there, turns out the internship was for one. At the end of the week, one of them would be forced to leave.” Jesse took a sip of their coffee, wincing at the memory playing across their face. “Both wanted it and the only thing escalated into...a pretty bad fight between them.” “Harsh words?” “Fists.” Harrison winced, seeing where this was going. “Yeesh.” He was lucky that he only had an older brother. He couldn’t imagine a fistfight between female triplets. “And let me guess. Terra got stuck in the middle.” “Yep. Then they found out Bill was a crook and from what I heard, Terra just kinda...snapped? I can’t blame her if she was dealing with that bullcrap all week. She ended up threatening him.” Jesse scratched their cheek. “At least that’s what he’s claiming. All I know is that she yelled at him.”

Heartbeat

A quiet noise nearly made Jordan startle out of his seat. He relaxed once he saw the concerned brown eyes. "Oh. Hey Little Bird." Liza Dorado, nine years old, held up a yellow lunch box. "Snack time already?" She bobbed her head in a nod. He chuckled, picking her up and setting her on the desk. Once he was sure she was secure, he turned and grabbed his own lunch bag. Together, they pulled out their snacks- Jordan had a Go-Gurt and chips, while Liza had what looked like homemade tortilla chips and salsa- and started eating.

Arcane

"Henry?" Her husband was making an unconvincing show of pretending to examine the spice rack. He had discarded his vest, coat, and ascot, leaving him in an untucked shirt and black pants. He was barefoot, and his auburn curls were sticking up. It was a type of disorder she was unused to seeing. "I was just coming down for a cup of tea," Emma said gently, shutting the door behind her. "I thought I heard a noise-" He turned. His eyes were red, tear tracks visible on his cheeks. "Oh, Henry."

Bad End

The silence was broken by something batting at her ankle. The sound came rushing back as Mary Arden looked down. It was a cat. A black cat, with one little white splotch at its chest. It blinked big blue eyes at her before batting at her ankle again. And anyone who knew Mary Arden knew that she was an absolute sucker for cats.  She let out what could be considered an undignified "Awww!" as she scooped the little guy up.  "You are really thin, little man!" she cooed, feeling his ribs underneath his fur. She headed to the door as she continued cooing. The cat seemed to be more interested in her hair, batting at it. "Let's get some food into you!"

Bride of Loki

 "She flat out pounded you against the pavement, that's what she did!" Runa said. "Something you said set her off and her arms went all tree-like and she freaking shoved her fingers-" Asta hit her twin over the head. "Sorry."               "We were pretty sure you were dead. There was blood everywhere and you weren't moving." Asta said, spreading her hands out, probably to show the amount of blood. “Kari started freaking out and the doctor said you were dead but then you…” She clasped her hands together. “It looked really gross-” Runa hit her twin over the head. “Ouch! Sorry.”

Bride of Loki

I don’t want to see what she hides from me. He looked up just in time to see her jump. There was a huge crack as she landed on the base of the statue. Then Siv straightened, aiming a toothy grin at him. “Yes.” Like the others, she had changed.

I'll tag, with no pressure, @ink-fireplace-coffee, @writinglyra, @eternalwritingstudent, @hyba, @radley-writes, @akindofmagictoo, and @ashen-crest.

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

Rules: answer 20 questions and tag 20 blogs you’d love to get to know better!

Tagged by: @gayvillainerainera (open tag hehe and it looked fun!)

Name: Katie

Pronouns: she/her

Zodiac: leo sun, sagittarius moon, virgo rising

Height: 5'3" (if anyone makes a short joke I will bite you)

Time: 00:59 bby

Nationality: Irish babe

Favorite band: Oh man idk, I do love Måneskin and The 1975, ADORE Florence + The Machine (I never know to list the group as a band or just focus on Florence but I adore the music either way, and if you weren't gonna read it in this category, you'd read it in the next) and La Femme, love me some Cocteau Twins, but I've been getting into Siouxsie and the Banshees, Sisters of Mercy, Type O Negative lately! Also vibe with The Radio Dept. And much more tbh but the list will legit keep going so I'll shut up now hahaha :P

Favorite artist: Outside of the aforementioned, Lana Del Rey. Also love The Weeknd.

When you created your blog: Originally in like 2014 or something?? But my blog got flagged for no damn reason back in like early 2020 so then I set up this one. Still occasionally use the other one, but mainly to reblog specific things/signal boost, given I had a sizeable follower count.

The last thing you googled: Madeira famous drink (the answer I was looking for was poncha)

Lucky number: Not telling!

Other blogs: @mademoiselle-katie (the OG blog that is like an old abandoned saloon which is frequented by ghosts rip; if I like one of your posts, that's the url you see). There are some others but I never really use them. @la-fxmme-damnee was a kinkier one I made but I had to keep logging in and I am lazy so. Not bothered to keep it up unless I get traction there lmao.

Why I chose my url: I felt like a change and was watching an old Edwige film where her character was accused of being a "coquette", and I sorta can behave like a coquette (in the original sense, not the Internet Type™ ) and wanted something a little dark, so added "malefique" bc it felt right. I can indeed be an evil coquette, or a nightmare dressed like a daydream (sorry to use the lyric but like...it is lowkey me lol).

How many people you're following: 1,024

How many followers: 1,122 (on this blog, but the OG has 1,192 and a history blog I seldom use now has 1.5k)

Average hours of sleep: Lord knows, nowadays between 7 and 9 I think.

Instruments: My voice 😌 I used to play violin and piano but gave those up. Did tin whistle in primary school lmao. Sorta harmonica (keep losing the harmonica bc I'm an idiot fml). Have been considering doing harp - for a variety of reasons.

Currently wearing: big, fluffy pyjama top and fluffy pyjama bottoms

Dream trip: GOD SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!! Various destinations across mainland Europe, but I'd really love to see the Nordic countries and the midnight sun/aurora borealis (depending on time of year). <3 Mexico, Cuba, Thailand and India would also be super cool!!! There are some others too but I've already talked too much :P

Fav food: omg sis I love food way too much, Sicilian olives, hummus, kabanossi, brie cheese, fettucine alfredo, pizza, ratatouille, this ratatouille lasagna recipe my mom makes, blinis, smoked salmon... <3

Fav song: okay i have several atm: Passaccaglia by Ennio Morricone, Dominion by Sisters of Mercy, Christian Woman by Type O Negative, Bela Lugosi's Dead by Bauhaus, Cat People by David Bowie. I have many others including all-time faves but these are current ones.

Three fictional universes I wanna live in: none thank you (that I can currently think of).

I shall tag: @little-miss-scare-all666 @bodhitreebluebird @neednottoneed @sonybuzz42 @bouncing-flowers @jazz-vampire @mirandasinclairs @blackwoodbanshee @cafeomancer @catherinebronte (if you guys wish to, ofc!! no presh if not), and anyone else who'd like to do it! <3 It's great fun!

[incognito-insomniac]

OC Interview

Tagging the standard peeps because i don't want to blast people's inboxes otherwise. But please tag me if you want to make one. It's a really neat exercise! ^_^

@funkypoacher @confidentandgood @socially-awkward-skeleton @captastra @twosides--samecoin

"I still think this is a waste of both our time, Piper," Calder grumbled.

"Humor me, Blue."

Name?

"Jedediah Calder Jacobson the second. But I go by Calder or Cal. Jed was my father."

Are you single?

"No," he hummed with a small smile but did not elaborate. But Piper was well aware of his relationship with MacCready. Her readers didn't need further details however if he wasn't willing to provide them.

Are you happy?

"Yes." He paused then added, "As much as one can be at 230."

Are you angry?

"Oh yes. But that's all behind me. Focused on building a better world for the Commonwealth. No use in looking back."

Are your parents still married?

"They're 200 years dead I imagine. I hope so anyway."

Birth place?

"Norfolk, Virginia."

Hair color?

"Now what use is that in your paper?"

She clicked her tongue, "Just answer the question, Blue."

"Black."

Eye color?

"Brown."

Birthday?

"Really, Piper, do your readers need my mother's maiden name as well?"

"If you'll tell me, sure."

"No."

Mood?

"Better once this is over."

Gender?

"Male"

Summer or winter?

"The nuclear summer has gotten rid of all that, hasn’t it? I miss snow. The crisp smell in the air. The cold wind before everything is blanketed in white. It leaves the world in a dreamlike wonderland until the trucks come and plow it up and productivity can resume." He sat quietly in a far off place for a moment. 

Morning or afternoon?

"Morning. Nothing beats sunrise with a warm cup of joe."

=EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE=

Are you in love?

"Didn't we already cover this? Yes."

Do you believe in love at first sight?

"Yes. That's how it was with Nora. Knocked my socks off while I was at the Academy."

"Academy?" "Naval Academy in DC."

Who ended your last relationship?

"The damn bombs."

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

"A few way back when."

Are you afraid of commitments?

"I was. Before Nora. And again after I woke from the Vault. It's difficult to trust with the world the way it is now. But I'm not afraid anymore."

Have you hugged someone within the last week?

He nodded. "My family. Every damn chance I get."

Have you ever had a secret admirer?

Cal scratched his chin, "Not sure, probably. But if I knew it wouldn't be much of a secret then would it?"

Have you ever broken your own heart?

Cal took his time to consider the question. With tears in his eyes, he asked, "Can we skip this one, Piper?"

"Yeah" Piper nodded solemnly. She has some idea what had him choked up. Shaun. The human Shaun. She had hoped he would talk about it with her. But she wouldn't press the issue either.

=SIX CHOICES=

Love or lust?

"Both in equal measure."

Lemonade or iced tea?

"Lemonade."

Cats or dogs?

"Dogs." A few best friends or many regular friends?

"Being friendly is important. But you need that select few that know you better than anyone and can call you on your bullshit."

Wild night out or romantic night in?

"Wild night out. Goodneighbor knows how to have a good time."

Day or night?

"Dawn."

=FOUR HAVE YOU EVERS=

Been caught sneaking out?

"Can't become a Navy Seal without learning how to sneak out of the house undetected. Of course there's some trial and error in there."

Fallen down/up the stairs?

"Who hasn't?"

Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt?

"Mmm," he nodded. "Mac. That son of a bitch hit me like a freight train. It took some time. But I fell hard."

Wanted to disappear?

"There was a time after waking up in that Vault alone, thrust into a world so foreign from the one I had known, I didn't see a point on living. My trusty Handy, Codsworth, having survived 200 years of radiation and rust snapped me out of it. I am forever grateful of his little caring processors. Robots were considered mere conveniences in my time. But somehow humanity has worked into their code. And I call quite a few dear friends."

=FOUR PREFERENCES=

Smile or eyes?

"People tend to have both thankfully." Piper scoffed, "That's not what I meant."

Cal grinned, "Real smiles are in the eyes. You can't have one without the other."

Shorter or taller?

"I wish I was a bit taller."

"You're over six foot."

"So?"

Intelligence or attraction?

"Both are important."

Hook-up or relationship?

"Piper, you can't be serious with these questions."

"The people want to know."

"I'm a married man. The people can mind their own damn business."

"Reporting is categorically the opposite of minding your business," she pressed but he'd had enough. She moved on.

=FAMILY=

Do you and your family get along?

"Most days. Mac and I solve disagreements fairly amicably. Duncan and Shaun have been known to get into scuffles as any young boys are want to do when there are prized toy cars and dinosaurs to be had. But they've settled in well with each other. Acting more like brothers every day."

Would you say you have a “messed up life”?

"I would call this whole world messed up. It should never have ended up like this. The bombs destroyed life as we know it and left it to rebuild on crumbling bones. Many have done their best. I don't want to discredit what has been achieved in the last 200 years since the bombs fell. But from my point of view it's all gone horribly wrong."

Have you ever run away from home?

"Never."

Have you ever gotten kicked out?

"What is youth if not getting tossed out from a bar every now and then."

=FRIENDS=

Do you secretly hate one of your friends?

"Now why would I tell a reporter that? And no that's not what friends are for."

Do you consider all of your friends good friends?

"Yes."

Who is your best friend?

"Mac." He paused for a moment then added, "And Sturges."

Who knows everything about you?

"Same answer."

[waitingforwinterwinds]

ASOS; Steel and Snow: 14 CATELYN II (pages 188-201)

Robb returns to Riverrun, Catelyn meets her surprise new daughter-in-law, and Edmure learns his victory against Tywin was not the best outcome.

-

"King Robb has returned from the west, my lady," the knight said, "and commands that you attend him in the great Hall." It was the moment she had dreamt of and dreaded. Have I lost two sons, or three? She would know soon enough.

Reading this line and my first thought is just "there's more than just one way to lose someone." And I think Cat's aware of that, especially with how she's been treated and shunned for releasing Jaime, even if Robb returns alive, he might turn his back on her too. Treat her like the enemy because (it feels like) she's the only one who even seems to remember that Sansa and Arya are still hostages.

(Well not really Arya, not that anyone knows that at the moment outside that little in and King's Landing. But very much it's like no one else cares about the why now that Ned's dead.)

"- Love is not always wise, I've learned. It can lead us to great folly, but we follow our hearts... wherever they take us. Don't we, Mother?" ... "Forgive him, Mother." "If you will forgive me." "I have. I know what it is to love so greatly you can think of nothing else."

Cat, my beloved, let me translate what he's circling around. "Ma, I kinda sorta fucked up, because I couldn't keep it in my pants, but also let's not focus on that too hard because you fucked up too and honestly I think we should all just let bygones be bygones on this one, okay? no blame for anyone? plz?"

all hail king robb, the oathbreaker. but let's not talk about that. I'm sure it will have zero consequences later down the track. (exhausted sarcasm)

She had the uneasy feeling that someone was missing, too. ... It was only then that Catelyn realized what was amiss. The wolf. The wolf is not here. Where is Grey Wind? She knew the direwolf had returned with Robb, she had heard the dogs, but he was not in the hall, not at her son's side where he belonged.

It's actually kind of interesting, ... how to put this? I dunno, I'll just ramble it out and hope that it makes sense.

First of all I suppose: look at that foreshadowing, Grey Wind not being with Robb, and we'll call back to one of Ned's chapters (GoT) just after Summer saved Cat and Bran, where Ned realised that the Wolves were sent to protect his children.

This is the moment, for those of us who've already read or seen the show, we know that Robb's done something he can't come back from, this is the moment we see him set on the path to death.

But it's interesting in that, with Bran and Rickon and Jon, there's a steady presence of their wolves even when they go hunting or aren't by their side, there's still a connection, between the boys and the wolves and Winterfell/the Stark family.

The girls both lost their wolves, Nymeria to the wilderness, Lady to misplaced duty and death, but it's not them being cut off from their heritage at all, it's representative of how their home intertwines with the support they've been receiving. ( "support," "receiving," for given values.)

Sansa (and I have seen the theories that Lady's death means she's not a Stark, and the theory that like the warg who got stuck in the bird, Lady did a reverse and is still with Sansa in spirit) has no help from former allies, she's stuck in place, her help is coming from people with a connection to her mother, and from herself.

Arya literally just reconnected with a man from Winterfell after helping free some of her brother's men, she and Nymeria were in the same area, Nymeria was helping her, but Arya's path is leading her back north to Winterfell (for now) and reconnecting her with those allies (for good or ill) before she'll be lead away from that path again to Braavos (the wilderness, metaphorically).

Jon and Bran are both shown warging with their wolves, but the wolves are both wandering away from them and home to them, and their own paths lead them away from and back to allies and familiarity.

And Rickon is a feral baby.

There is a reflection in the wolves and the fate of the stark children, not about blood rights, or inheritance, or whether they are part of the family, but in... pack bonds, for lack of a better term.

For Grey Wind to be missing in these moments, feels like a reflection of the broken bond, the broken oath which will lead to Robb's death.

... Well, at least Lady Mormont and Greatjon are on Catelyn's side with the Jaime-exchange plan... or understanding of it.

The first thought that flew across Catelyn's mind was, No, that cannot be, you are only a child. The second was, And besides, you have pledged to another. The third was, Mother have mercy, Robb, what have you done?

quick on the uptake, if only her eldest son had inherited her intelligence. I'm sorry Robb, I'm being very mean to you, but you just did such a stupid thing.

"- Jeyne had me taken to her own bed, and she nursed me until the fever passed. And she was with me when the Greatjon brought me the news of... of Winterfell. Bran and Rickon." He seemed to have trouble saying his brothers' names. "That night, she... she comforted me, Mother."

Oh? She got you in her bed before she got you in her bed, did she? I'd love to know whose plan that was, hers or one of the adults in her life.

Well played though, shame their efforts to secure themselves to Robb's crown safety are what led to the Red Wedding. (Let's not kid ourselves, it was probably the crown.) And involved taking advantage of an emotionally vulnerable, possibly medicated boy.

(I do wonder if the swap from this Jeyne to Talisa more about false-feminism brownie points - Look, our love interest isn't like other girls, she's a cool battle field medic! Girl Boss! Empowerment! Don't you mansplain politics to her you man! - or about making Robb look like less of a boob by giving him pseudo-agency, and turning his flustered teenage boy hormones and sense of honour into a battlefield romance.)

"- If I'd listened to you and kept Theon as my hostage, I'd still rule the north, and Bran and Rickon would be alive and safe in Winterfell." "Perhaps. Or not. Lord Balon might still have chanced war. -"

Oh he would have, he'd already given Theon up for dead (or worse: turned into a delicate wilting flower like the rest of those land-lubbers!)

Robb bristled at that. "The Westerlings are better blood than the Freys. They're an ancient line, descended from the First Men. The Kings of the Rock sometimes wed Westerlings before the Conquest, and there was another Jeyne Westerling who was queen to King Maegor three hundred years ago."

... which Maegor? Cause babe? Probably not the positive argument you think it is.

...brb, wiki.

... Maegor as in Maegor the Cruel... Jeyne was one of three women he widowed during the wars then wed in a single ceremony (where her son by her dead husband was used as a hostage to force her to go through with it), called the 'black brides' ... got pregnant and ... ah, yeah, there it is: premature labour resulting in a still-born and malformed feotus, Jeyne died shortly afterwards.

Robb: "She'll make a great wife mum, she even shares her name with another queen!" The other queen: widowed and killed in childbirth losing the baby.

Damn. GRRM did not pull punches on this one.

"- Grey Wind doesn't like her uncle either. He bares his teeth every time Ser Rolph comes near him." A chill went through her. "Send Ser Rolph away. At once."

Cat's got more of an eye for the wolf warnings than the boy with the wolf bond. Probably helps that she's not addled by hormones right now, but you'd think Robb would be vibing.

... oh good, and now Robb and Blackfish are telling of Edmure.

I feel I'd enjoy that a lot more if it didn't boil down to "how dare you do things without telling us, now you've upset the plans we had that we told you absolutely nothing about nor indicated you needed to stay out of, how dare you take initiative."

People in this series either need to stop getting upset at people for taking initiative and acting with incomplete information, assuming they get any information to begin with, or start sharing information with their family members/closest allies.

... learning that Edmure's sallie against Tywin led to Stannis' loss from the rear at King's Landing does change the context of Edmure being the sacrificial Groom at the Twins.

[askisabella]

What is one thing you'd like to get off your chest? Spell of Shattered Sight, opinion.

Henry is an ungrateful spoiled brat who doesn't realize how good he has it. Your mom was the Evil Queen, so what? She took care of you growing up, didn't she? You had everything you could have desired, didn't you? You were loved. You were cared for. This is more than most can ask for in life. I get he wanted to meet his biological mother, but he had no regard for others feelings. Did Regina deserve to be called on her behaviors? Of course. Did everyone deserve the curse break? Damn straight we did. Henry, I'm sorry your loving mother tried to convince you a story about her horrible tragic past wasn't true but grow the hell up. He wants to be treated like an older child but he still throws tantrums like a toddler. And EMMA! Did this woman actually think about what she was doing? She threatened to take a son away from a mother who treated him right. She had no legal right to demand her son back. SHE GAVE HIM UP! She abandoned him at birth. There were chances to get him back before he was adopted out and she chose not to. She chose to let him go! So she regretted it after she met the kid? She didn't seem to care enough to find him before he knocked on her damn door. Then she walks in and demands to have custody of someone she gave away? Sod off, Sheriff. If anyone is abusing power it's you! Does Henry deserve to have both mothers in his life? Yes. Does Emma deserve the right to dictate when his legal mother can see him? Hell no.

What the bloody hell is wrong with this town?

Don't get me started on Cecily! I've been around the girl for years and all I've heard is how much she misses her family. We get it. It's been decades of the same woes. Drop it already or do something to find them!

Then we've got the very man who brought Cecily to the Merry Men. Though we clearly weren't all merry once Cecily joined the ranks. Robin Hood. First of all, why Hood? You couldn't come up with something else? It sounds so idiotic. Second of all, what the hell is wrong with you?! I understand your wife was brought back from the dead, another wonderful thing the Sheriff Savior did for us all, but that doesn't mean you have to be with her. She died. Like dead dead. Your vows died along side of her. You finally moved on. For the first time since we met you were actually happy! You're a halfwit for trying to resurrect a relationship that died years ago. I have been babysitting your son for weeks on end while you try to figure out your heart. Get it together! We all know you are in love with Regina and that isn't going to change. Stop trying to make it. You're so damn righteous it's annoying! You speak of honor but I don't see you honoring your love for Regina. You're not the man I thought you were. I hope Roland doesn't grow up to be as careless with others as you are.

Don't ask about Regina. Just don't.

Does Rumple even have power anymore? The man is whipped by the librarian. THE LIBRARIAN! He gave it all up for love? Pathetic.

Evie, who the fuck even are you?

Sam, no one cares about your animals except maybe Snow White. Seriously. If we were back in the Enchanted Forest your cats would have been my dinner many moons ago.

Speaking of dinner, Booker is not as great of a cook as he thinks he is. Wolfboy needs to work on some new recipes. Also, he needs to stop showering before a meal. I know he's in human form but I swear he still smells like wet dog at times. It's disgusting. Then again when he puts on aftershave or cologne all I want to do is fuck him which is annoying. His stupid attractive face and toned body needs to leave me the hell alone before I end up with another broken heart. No one gave him the right to be so damn nice to me! WHY? I'm not a good person! I would gladly burn a few people if I wasn't so afraid I would be ostracized like my mother. He’s just an idiot.

HOOK, CHANGE YOUR DAMN CLOTHES!

[mor-and-more]

Sometimes this here idiot has somewhat cursed thoughts about its presence in FFXIV in form of an unhinged cat

Like "how would the catsona think of the Scions if I never want to assume anyone is my friend, just that probably people who talk to me hate me marginally less"

So for the post-ARR it's kinda like that

Y'shtola is the closest to a friend it can consider anyone (because they've worked together for the longest, and she's ever been so chill with it)

Minfilia is "she probably thinks I'm useful so maybe she doesn't want me dead? Yet?"

Alphy - "he definitely doesn't need me" (anyone's saying they need the cat's power or that only the cat can do something is brushed aside as obvious flattery because the cat Isn't Doing Anything That Impressive)

Alisaie - "oh I will miss her, she's very sweet, hope the road treats her well" (she is now its Little Sister whether she is aware of this or not. But they definitely got close through experiencing the Bahamut Coils together. The cat still doesn't think she thinks highly of it)

Urianger, Yda, Papalymo - blank. It only communicates with them on specific purposes, might sometimes get frustrated by Yda's mannerisms but not so much as to dwell on it. Just no emotional connection to speak of, they are just coworkers - are they not?

Thancred - "this guy hates my guts and always reminds me of it whenever I'm around, so I don't feel the need to mask around him and always tell him exactly what I feel in response" (Thancred likes to joke around with the cat. Cat can't tell difference between friendly banter/jabs and personal insults, and chooses violence. Thancred has no idea it considers him an Enemy, and thinks both are just having friendly fun. Only him being a coworker, and laws against violence, make the cat stop itself from doing bodily harm as soon as spoken to, and it's not experienced enough in the Worldly Affairs to land an insult that can be 100% read as having intent to harm behind it)

New assorted Scions - "oh fellow newbies! We already have something in common, maybe I'll make friends with some?? ...if I figure out how one does that, till then I'll just hang around and hope someone speaks to me" (definitely befriends the New Scions one and all, because they DO approach the cat and are very surprised to find the "champion of Eorzea" thinking of itself as Just Some Guy The Actual Scions Picked Up In The Streets. Hoary suggests helping it with physical training - as a pretence to spar with it more often. Everyone but the cat realises it - the cat is ecstatic and blurts out that its main mode of training to date has been memorising spell formulas, so it's high time it got physical)

[ieatsurveys]

85.

Where did you get the pants you are wearing from? I'm not wearing pants ;) Do you find smoking unattractive? Nah, you do you. I dated a guy who smoked. I don't prefer it, but I also would encourage you to cut the habit. Have your parents ever searched your personal belongings? Yes. Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Yes. Is there someone you’ll never forget? Yes.

Do you miss someone right now? No.

Last time you were on the phone? Tonight. Do you get distracted easily? Yes.

Have your parents ever caught you drinking? No, plus, I'm an adult. Do you think flirting is cheating? Yes, haha.

Do you hate the last girl, other than family, you had a conversation with? No.

Who was the last person you sat next to in a car with? Lisa. Is your room messy or clean? Very clean.

Do you drink tea? I hate tea.

Wish you could be somewhere else right now? Nah, I'm in bed all cozied up. What are you listening to right now? My fan. Where did you get your last bruise from? I don't currently have a bruise. Are you looking forward to anything? Seeing my nephew this weekend <3 When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? I don't remember.

Whose house where you last at? Erm, I don't know.

When someone says ‘we need to talk’, what do you think: I messed up.

Tell me what’s on your mind? Nothing really. Will you be in bed before 11 tonight? It's 12:41am and I'm already in bed. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Pretty good, all things considered. How much money did you spend today? Too much. Can you see a cat from where you’re sitting? I don't have a cat, so no. Who was your last text from? Chris. What was the last bad thing that happened to your phone? I dropped it today. What’s been upsetting you lately? Haha shut up. Is there anyone getting on your nerves at the moment? No.

Is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind? Yeah.

Last place you fell asleep other than a bed? Couch probably.

Does it take a lot to make you cry? Yes.

Do you have a dog? No. Do you like to wear pants? Sweatpants, yeah haha. How many people do you trust fully? A few. When you’re bored in class, what do you usually do? I used to doodle. What’s your favorite color out of these five? Green, Yellow, Blue, Pink: Blue. What was the first thing you said when you woke up today? "Hi, thank you for calling. This is Katie. May I have the patient's name and date of birth?" Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday? Pfft, please. Ever like someone older than you? That's usually the case. What’s your favorite amusement park? Um, I've only been to a few in my lifetime. But Disneyland.

Are you cold at this very moment? Nah, I'm hot. Do you prefer people who talk a lot or are quiet? I like to talk, but I'm usually the person that listens, which is fine for me. As long as you can listen when I talk, it doesn't bother me. Is there someone in your life you wish you never met? No. How many hours of sleep do you need to function? I can function off of 5, but super tired regardless.

What do you think Avril Lavigne is doing at the moment? Apparently, she's dead and there's a doppelganger that has taken her place :P What’s one fear are you most paranoid about? Ummmmmmmmm. Have you ran into an old friend recently? Nope. Have you ever had a song stuck in your head for more than a day? Yes. Could you go a whole year without cursing? Nope.  Would you rather give up the computer or the TV? TV because I can watch TV on my computer. Have you ever liked someone who had a girl/boyfriend? No. As of this minute, what is going through your mind? I feel like you've already asked this. Does anyone know your password besides you? Just my Mom who uses my peacock account. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? Absolutely not. Have you ever ridden a horse? Yes. Are you a patient person? Yes. Could you go a day without eating? I have. Honestly, are things going the way you planned? No, but it's fine. Are you a forgiving person? Meh, it's hard for me to forgive but I try to. When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep? Gurl, I have like, 7 alarms set in the morning because I WON'T wake up. What is something you disliked about today? Talking about my feelings, haha.

When’s the last time you had a headache? Last week? Is there anything that you are craving right now? Pizza/ What was the first thing you thought of this morning? UGH DONT WANT TO GO TO WORK. What part of your body hurts right now? Nothing, just itchy. Is there anyone you would like to just appear at your front door right now? Sure. What is something that you realized today? Ugh. Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be? No. Do you remember who your first crush was? No. Ever walked into the guy’s bathroom? Probably. Have you ever cried from being so mad? Yes. What’s a word that starts with the third letter of your first name? The. Do you have a bad temper? No. How many wives or husbands do you want? Just....one? What’s the closest pink object to you? Um, nothing. Do you consider yourself lucky? No. Whats on your bedroom floor right now? Too much. I need to clean. Do you trust anyone? Yes. What’s your favorite color gummy bear? I don't have a favorite. What’s the last movie you saw in the theater? Avatar. TOok myself out on a date and it was a lot of fun. If you could push one person off of a mountain, who would it be? Whoever is reading this (I'm sure no one has gotten this far into my survey. This is a long ass survey) Wish you could be somewhere else right now? No. What color is your iPod? I don't have an iPod. What should you be doing right now? Sleeping, but instead, going to watch The Last of Us. Do you like roller coasters? Yes. One famous guy you would marry in an instance? Oh gosh.