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Don't Stop Moving. Don't Stop Burning.

Don’t Stop Moving. Don’t Stop Burning.

It’s been a hectic few weeks, but for the most part it’s almost over and this time next week I’ll be halfway around the world for a while.

Estate agents. Property surveyors.  Landlords. Landladies.  Housing meetings.  Accusations from the downstairs neighbour.  Issues with my children.  A mother recovering from a stroke.  A nan who is having a rough time with her cancer.  Trying to complete my…

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Life Is A Musical Instrument

Life Is A Musical Instrument

It’s not often I find a playlist I like as I prefer to mix my own up from my database, but this one has been going on in background for a while as I study.  Rocky enough to keep me motivated, but not so heavy I want to go lift weights.

So it’s less than two weeks till I leave the country for Christmas, and feeling a little sad as I will miss my son’s 18th, plus with my mum in hospital the timing…

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Who’s Perfect Being Not Perfect? Perfect is perception. It means different things to different people. Some people were perfect to me, but I wasn't for them.

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Fly Away With Me

Fly Away With Me

Well this year has been hard, and as the saying goes…

After this past week though its beginning to feel like I’m facing a tsunami, not just the pouring rain.

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When Wrong is Actually Right

When Wrong is Actually Right

Well a lousy day in uni yesterday.

Struggling to get a database to work, only to have the tutor come take a look and say I’ve got it all misfigured is not the best thing to occur.  Especially when the report for it is supposed to be ready in seven days time.

What made it worse; and I fully admit completely wound me up, was the fact the guy then went on to point out all the mistakes I needed to…

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Far From Good Stress lines and cigarettes, politics and deficits Late bills and overages, screamin' and hollerin' And oh, stupid things I do…

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It's Time To Let Her Go

It’s Time To Let Her Go

As I’ve mentioned before this year has been rough for a number of reasons.  However, the last few weeks I have been mulling over the past, trying to make sense of things, and in fact I have surprised myself as I realise just what I did achieve.  I’m actually smiling as I realise that despite all I’ve lost, I’m still better off than those who left me behind.

Yes my relationship ended, and that has…

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Hear My Battle Cry

Hear My Battle Cry

Well, I started writing a post at the beginning of the week about university and how next term looks to be more interesting, as due to different circumstances I am able to change the modules I’m studying.  I had assignments due though, so the post didn’t get finished.

I managed to get to Thursday, and I was probably in one of the best places mentally, physically, emotionally than I have been for…

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Don't Put The Blame On Me

Don’t Put The Blame On Me

It’s hard to be supportive to a child who you and everyone else in their lives believes is making the wrong choice.  But I’ve tried.

Simply put, a couple of months ago, my seventeen year old son’s girlfriend ended her  eighteenth birthday celebrations by sleeping with his best friend.  That is unforgivable in my eyes.  There is no excuse that can be given by either of them to make it right.

I…

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Friday Night Fiasco

Writer’s block, chest pains, lies, deceit and then a son who decided to leave home…

One day I’ll have just your average Friday night.

Breakdown.  Regroup.  Move on….

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Master's Thesis Planning

Master’s Thesis Planning

Well today is being productive and yet confusing.  (Yes, I have been up for hours already as I couldn’t sleep.)

I’m investigating potential thesis projects for next year, and the reality is I have absolutely no idea about what I want to do. Yesterday I had an Ethics lecture where I met the tutor who is going to be overseeing the Master’s projects next year.

The lecture was semi-interesting as she…

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Always Here For You

Always Here For You

Well I had an interesting day Tuesday.  My kids are off from their respective academic venues due to it being October half term for them.  As UWS follows the standard English university timetable, rather than the Scottish academic one, it meant that I still had some classes to attend though.  Reason being some lecturers set their classes to self-study this week to help out those of us with…

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Hello Grey Matter, My Old Friend This isn't the post I had originally planned for today, but since yesterday evening I've been feeling out of sorts. 

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My Love/Hate Relationship With Sleep

My Love/Hate Relationship With Sleep

Sleep and I have a love/hate relationship.  I love it, but it hates me, and avoids me with a passion that rivals any Celtic versus Rangers fan.  (Don’t worry I hate football so that will probably be the only reference I ever make in my blog about it.)

I’m not an insomniac.  Nope, that would be too easy.  As usual; if there is a simple solution to something, then nine times out of ten it isn’t…

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Well, one part of my Ethics for IT Professionals assignment submitted, and an exam last week on Database Design means I am slowly making progress on my post-graduate studies.

It’s taken a while to find the academic side of myself again as I fully admit I was scared.

Truth is I almost didn’t continue studying as I was terrified that the stress of deadlines, and the lack of ability to walk away…

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The Ford Enigma

Well yet again I have gone through the day of hell I have each year when I hand my Ford Tourneo minibus (aka The Van) over to Scott at my local garage and sit in the house for the day wondering just how badly I am going to be hit financially as I wait for the results of her annual MOT test.

You see the van is now 15 years old, and I have owned her for the last 14 years of those.  When I bought…

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Life's Gonna Be Bright

Life’s Gonna Be Bright

Funny how making a decision to cut everyone out of my life brings a peace I never thought it would.

Don’t get me wrong; I’m still worrying about people and hoping that they are okay. I’m still missing people and hate the voids they have left behind inside me.  I still love people with all my heart, and my thoughts turn to them many times a day.

I want to see people and hug them.  Just to let them…