akemisdreams

[akemisdreams]

Hey, guys. This isn't a post, it's just a shitpost about my feelings that I don't talk about to many people. I'm tired, very tired. Waking up and going to sleep every day with a feeling of emptiness inside and feeling that this is not your body, memories and life is very painful. I hardly recognize myself or my loved ones anymore despite loving them. Even a hug from my loving mom feels foreign. I don't know who I am. I'm tired. I don't want to grow up, I don't want to take responsibility. I want to disappear and die. I feel bad. I'm a total zero in the studies I need for life, I have no talents or distinguished appearance. I'm a disappointment that can rot all day lying around with my phone in my hand. I'm too much in my head that I don't even remember what happened before. The only solace I find in the 2d world and in my fantasies over which I at least have control. No one around me understands what it's like when you feel empty inside, not in your body according to the sensations that you stole and live the life of a given person. I'd love to kill myself, but I don't have the courage. I'm afraid of pain. Maybe I'm being dramatic because I'm a teenager. I want to cry. My parents are loving, my friends are good. I'm very grateful for that but I'm mentally exhausted, I want to disappear. Or at least lay in a quiet, very soft warm room where I'll be alone. I'm tired of hiding the pain under a smile and a laugh. Bye, thanks for listening to my pain.

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🌸 𝒽𝑒𝓁𝓁𝑜, 𝓂𝓎 𝒹𝒶𝓇𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈! 🎀

♡₊˚ Hello my dears! I know I probably should’ve done this waaay earlier but... better late than never, right? ♡₊˚

🫧 You can call me anything cute, but I personally love Akemi-chama (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

🍓 basic info zone꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠꒱⁠˖⁠♡

> 💖 name: Akemi Simidzu

🌸 age: 14

🎀 height: 158cm | weight: 43kg

🧠 neurodivergence: Dyscalculia + possible DPDR

🗣️ languages: Kazakh / Russian / English

💭 personality: INTP ✧ phlegmatic ✧ introvert

🎨 fav colors: light tones, especially white & pink!

🍮 games/anime/manga♡

> 🖤 Twisted Wonderland | Black Butler | Obey Me! / NB | Diabolik Lovers

🪞 TBHK | Naruto | Black Clover | JJBA | Blend S | HxH | AOT | JJK

🛡️ Shield Hero (sigh...) | KNY | Apothecary Diaries | Slime Isekai

💌 From Bureaucrat to Villainess | Haikyuu | TDLOSK | TPN | AssClass

🕵️‍♂️ Spy x Family | Danganronpa | MHA | God of High School

⚔️ SDS (help) | Made in Abyss | Tokyo Revengers | Gakuen Babysitters

🍼 Buddy Daddies | Blue Exorcist | Kamisama Kiss

Bonus: Hazbin Hotel + Helluva Boss

💞 current favs!

> 🧁 Characters: Maurice Cole, Nanami Momozono, Malleus Draconia, Neige Leblanche, Lucifer (Obey Me), Yashiro Nene

🙊🩷Ships: Soma x Maurice | Lucifer x Angel Dust

💭 also: I’m a proud Yumeshipper! (⁠´⁠∩⁠｡⁠•⁠ ⁠ᵕ⁠ ⁠•⁠｡⁠∩⁠`⁠)

🍬Fav songs:

Cascada: Bad Boy, Big Bad Love, Ready or not, What do you want from me?.

Others: Hypnotic,Like a Dream, if with tears in one's eyes, Blood Sweat & Tears, Fake Love, Love like this,

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˚˖𓍢ִ🍓✧˚.🎀⋆ﾟHello darlings, I apologize for my long absence. I had an art block and was also very busy with school again. As an apology I decided to draw new art+ headcanons! 𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒✧˚ ⋆｡˚♡

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🎀 Hello my dears. Again I apologize for the absence but I went on vacation today! So now I have more time. I spent 4 hours on art with my baby Soma and his lover Maurice🍯

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🎀 Hello my dears! I haven't drawn Maurice for a long time so I decided to draw him. Hope you like my art but lately it seems like my posts are getting boring. Any tips? Or any suggestions? I would really appreciate it! 🍬

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🎀 Hello my dears! I decided not to draw in TBHK style anymore since I got bored and try a different style. But not about that. I drew my MC Obey me🌸

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🎀Hello my dears! I drew prefect-chan, and also gave information about her! I hope you like it. 💝

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🎀🍨 Hello my dears! I apologize for my long absence because I was busy with school and other personal things, but as an apology I drew you an art with my favorite boys! 💫🌙

I love you all!

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🎀🪞Hello, my darlings. Today I drew Maurice in an elegant and graceful dress that I liked a lot! I hope you like my drawing. I will draw something else soon.....🌸🌷

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🎀Hello, my dears! I was able to overcome my laziness and finally finished the drawing! Will you help Akemi (MC) to choose a side? 💘

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🎀 Hello my darlings. Today I drew two cuties that I adore so much. Enjoy!(*˘︶˘*).｡*♡

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🎀 New art in the studio! I love drawing Maurice, he's so cute. 🍰

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🎀Hello my dears. Today I drew my favorite ship, but unfortunately I didn't like the art itself because Soma looks strange, but Maurice turned out great. It was quite a hard art for me. 💌

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🎀Hello my dears. Today I drew our croissant boy 🥐 This is an art in just one hour! Hope you like it! (≧▽≦)🌹

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🎀Hi my dears. Today I drew two kittens 🐈‍⬛ I apologize for my absence because I had school. But I hope you like my art! Meow meow meow...🍓

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🎀 Greetings my dears. I have drawn a new drawing again! I'm surprised myself that I'm suddenly so motivated. I drew my two favorite boys, Soma and Maurice! I love them so much I want to pinch their cheeks! Well, I hope you like my Alice in Wonderland-themed drawing. ☕🪞🃏

Welcome to tea party....☕

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🎀Hello my dears! I drew my yuusona today along with Adeuce duo! I drew this for five hours...I'm still trying to draw in TBHK style. I hope you guys like my art. I changed the design of the MC a little.🌕♥️♠️

Bye bye(⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+