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Confession of a Self Sabotager

I came out Sober..... Jail I mean... and not the Jail of the Mind but actual Jail. Where they tell you when to wake up .... Have your Meals, If you can or cannot Shower..... That Place!

Sober jolly me..... Connected with spiritual realities and truth! Running back to the past and consequence that led me there in the first place .... Now leads me here speaking my truth before all else fails!

Take it from me!!!! Please TAKE IT FROOOOOM ME! Gods intent your ( Higher Powers Intent) is to move forward not to stay stuck ....

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Depression= stressing /worrying/ focusing about the past.

Anxiety= stressing/worrying /focusing about the Future

The NOW is the only existence that matters. Today you will never live again your Lessons or emotion cant be trapped in a photo

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Depression Beauty,

Suffering in Joy,

Glowing with Knowledge,

Inhaling the Positive,

Exhaling the World

Welcome to Freedom.

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SHADOW WORK

MY SHADOW JOURNEY

HELLO AGAIN,

THE SCARED, THE AFRAID,

EYES DAGGER, PIERCING THE MIND WITH JUDGEMENT AND PUT DOWNS

EVERY WORD OUT YOUR MOUTH BELIEVED IDOCRACY

WITH A FLASH BACK ,CONFIRMING YOUR YOUR EMBARRASMENT.

HELLO AGAIN,

AGONY,TRAMA AND LEFT BEHIND PAIN.

SUPRISED THAT ITS ME AND NOT ALCHOL OR DUGS

DROWNING YOU DEEP, DEEP , SO DEEP DOWN

THAT YOU THOUGH I FORGOT YOU EXSISTED.

HELLO AGAIN,

SEXUALLLY ABUSED, PERVERTED THOUGHTS

BODY CRAWLING IN FILTH,

WOUNDERS OF WHERE MY PARENT IS?

COME FORWARD ABONDONMENT , FEAR,

HUMILAITION

SO SMALL AND INNOCENT - ALLOW ME TO BE YOUR LIGHT AND FREE YOU FROM THIS BODY

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HAIKU

Winter Tulip Caught

Pink Tips Cascade To white

Blessing The souls Eye

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HAIKU

Winter Tulip Caught

Pink Tips Cascade To white

Blessing The souls Eye

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SHADOW WORK

MY SHADOW JOURNEY

HELLO AGAIN,

THE SCARED, THE AFRAID,

EYES DAGGER, PIERCING THE MIND WITH JUDGEMENT AND PUT DOWNS

EVERY WORD OUT YOUR MOUTH BELIEVED IDOCRACY

WITH A FLASH BACK ,CONFIRMING YOUR YOUR EMBARRASMENT.

HELLO AGAIN,

AGONY,TRAMA AND LEFT BEHIND PAIN.

SUPRISED THAT ITS ME AND NOT ALCHOL OR DUGS

DROWNING YOU DEEP, DEEP , SO DEEP DOWN

THAT YOU THOUGH I FORGOT YOU EXSISTED.

HELLO AGAIN,

SEXUALLLY ABUSED, PERVERTED THOUGHTS

BODY CRAWLING IN FILTH,

WOUNDERS OF WHERE MY PARENT IS?

COME FORWARD ABONDONMENT , FEAR,

HUMILAITION

SO SMALL AND INNOCENT - ALLOW ME TO BE YOUR LIGHT AND FREE YOU FROM THIS BODY

[selfinity777]

MY SHADOW JOURNEY

HELLO AGAIN,

THE SCARED, THE AFRAID,

EYES DAGGER, PIERCING THE MIND WITH JUDGEMENT AND PUT DOWNS

EVERY WORD OUT YOUR MOUTH BELIEVED IDOCRACY

WITH A FLASH BACK ,CONFIRMING YOUR YOUR EMBARRASMENT.

HELLO AGAIN,

AGONY,TRAMA AND LEFT BEHIND PAIN.

SUPRISED THAT ITS ME AND NOT ALCHOL OR DUGS

DROWNING YOU DEEP, DEEP , SO DEEP DOWN

THAT YOU THOUGH I FORGOT YOU EXSISTED.

HELLO AGAIN,

SEXUALLLY ABUSED, PERVERTED THOUGHTS

BODY CRAWLING IN FILTH,

WOUNDERS OF WHERE MY PARENT IS?

COME FORWARD ABONDONMENT , FEAR,

HUMILAITION

SO SMALL AND INNOCENT - ALLOW ME TO BE YOUR LIGHT AND FREE YOU FROM THIS BODY

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WE ARE NOT ALONE

IF you have been following my Blog you would notice my cards have me stuck on self Reflection. It's funny i use the word STUCK because I'm sure that i have been the one stuck and my reading just confirming it haha. Anyways, Todays reading was concerning because it made feel as if i haven't started to put in the work or at least trying these few days. My overall Energy was the Devil, lessons of the Day The Page of Cups REVERSED and the 5 of Pentacles Warnings :/ YIKES like its getting worse then better, Then again if Anyone has done Shadow work on themselves you know it only gets worse before it gets better. My issue at the moment is that i don't think i can handle that worse right now . Its like the Book The GIVING TREE if someone or thing even a place can keep taking and taking but when you have no more to give because what was given was not precipitated how can you possibly keep giving what you don't have ? That's how EMOTIONALLY DRAINED i am of being stuck in this Negative thought process that is fueling my nervous system making it putrid producing guilt in my Veins, Sadness fills my Stomach, Kidneys Drunk with Wallow ,Liver is no more, Heart Pumps Agony, Throat Frozen Tight in pain with Pent up Words needing to be released . What's holding Me back? why cant I move forward or what's the Right Questions that i have to ask myself to really pull out that deep DEEP hidden from Self Possibly trapped little girl or a very Ugly demon Face it or HUG it and feel My Body be mine again? Fearless and Proud FULLY ALIVE!

WE ARE NOT ALONE ... YOU MATTER.

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NEED GUIDENCE? ARE you in Need of Guidance? Do you have Chakra Block? Feeling Down or stuck in a Rut? Please message me if so, I am a Spiritual Guide and Certified Reiki Master, Please Allow me to Help, Your Happiness Matters.... You Matter!

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NEED GUIDENCE? ARE you in Need of Guidance? Do you have Chakra Block? Feeling Down or stuck in a Rut? Please message me if so, I am a Spiritual Guide and Certified Reiki Master, Please Allow me to Help, Your Happiness Matters.... You Matter!

[selfinity777]

NEED GUIDENCE?

ARE you in Need of Guidance? Do you have Chakra Block? Feeling Down or stuck in a Rut? Please message me if so, I am a Spiritual Guide and Certified Reiki Master, Please Allow me to Help, Your Happiness Matters.... You Matter!

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Spiritual Guidence

Hello Everyone single one of you Gifted, Talented misunderstood Blogger Friends and Family,

Not sure if you noticed my post but regardless, I am a light Worker and Spiritual Guide. Who is here to offer my services to anyone whom feels in need. Interested in Numerology, Tarot, Dream interp. Simple advice? Please follow and message me