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blackthorn-legion-irl · 4 months

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//Doing a little check in if you see this before your hiatus is over. How have you been?

//i've been in two senses:

1: the main part of the hiatus i've been chilling at my partner's place, so i didn't want to do much rp-wise because it wouldn't be a big priority for me (i don't get to see him much now brexit means i can't get my meds shipped into the eu)

2: and now i'm 'home' and depressed :D but also trying to work out how to progress with this - i don't want to go back to 'staying up until 3am rping' like i was for a bit because that hecked my sleep schedule and i just got it fixed, and i also want to write a better intro for blackthorn (which is a very slight retcon but makes her fit into pokeirl a little better) before doing much? but don't feel like doing that because hey guess what it's easier for me to do work when i'm with one of the two people who understands me most in the world instead of at 'home' where my mum 'tidied' my room and i don't know where anything is.

anyway. i'll probably just be reading/liking for a bit to ease myself back into it. and ooc reblogging stuff because blackthorn would be a lot more eager to get back in than me FOMO is a hecker too + retroactive fomo of 'oh heck what did i miss that i now don't know what's going on' and i still don't know what's up with my equivalent of the pixies except that they definitely aren't as prominent as blackthorn's.

anyway thank you for the check-in, i appreciate it :) i'll be trying to ease myself back in, slower than i expected but

#//ooc post #//but yeah i am home safe #//also i may have spent a lot of my time playing digital devil saga finally. highly recommend #//there is a Lot you won't get answers to until the sequel though (and also one of the hardest optional superbosses of all time is in it)

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lee-and-honey-bee · 5 months

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Give us the tea sis

OK OK.

I'll try to keep it PG.

Sooooo

The date was amazing. He was lovely.

You know when you know that someone is big? But you see them irl and your like "....wow..."

Yeah. That how big he was

We chatted. We talked about a lot of stuff. He's got a real deep voice, but it's like. Soft? If you get me?

He bought me food and tried to get me a drink too. But I can't drink because it messes with my head (didn't want a flashback on the first date), and he was so sweet about it too.

He said he understood. That his dad was similar, so he knew it was best not to push getting me a drink.

Anyway cut to us walking out the door.

He grabs my hip. And looks at me. Bro, his hands were so big. Aaannnnddd we maybe smooched....

OK. we smooched A LOT.

And I may or may not have ended up back at his place for the night....

And we may or may not have done some other stuff.....

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mugwot · 10 months

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what i look like in my friends's (?) dms right now

#welcome home update #welcome home original character #if somebody knows how to saw this safe open please do tell me i am so dumb #i have tried character's rotary phone numbers backwards and forwards i have tried their numbers from the number pad in different versions #tried even just the first letters of their names #this close to just hunting for out of place letters again or smth or maybe i misinterpreted the clue and the questions are somehow the key #and not the answers #at least there is a limit of characters otherwise i would have spontaneously combusted leaving only the ashes of smoldering felt #anyway yeah big fan of the update the voices are great #actually? to hell with it #get main tagged idiot #welcome home

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i-am-just-a-skeleton · 19 days

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jesus fuck walmart is hell

i haven't been to a walmart in months and approximately two minutes after stepping through the door i feel like i'm halfway into another dimension and my brain doesn't work anymore

#am back home safe now and got what i was looking for (somehow). witch was a battery for my watch cause it stopped last wednesday #i forgot how bad it was but yeah if i am at all below 100% best energy levels i can Barely handle walmart #autism #probably

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flovverworks · 5 months

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thought again how overwhelmingly lonely akira would become after everything while time does its healing. u go from having a twenty-something ppl around u at all times to being alone. no one to knock on ur door in the morning, no ppl going in & out, no chaos of sudden fights. even in the (more likely) case where akira forgets its like. this haunting feeling of having forgotten something u shouldnt have. guy who goes to every social gathering ever to have that chaotic energetic experience of having so many ppl around again

#stardust speaking !#meeting some of the most important ppl to u and losing them in a yr is uhhh a lot #akiras had a lot of themes of not wanting to leave their world just yet/see through what theyre there for #as well as questions like 'what will /i/ be doing next time x happens?' in a very...hm. accepting way? casual?#actually idk if theres ever been any point where its been 'yeah probably a year and then we'll see what happens'#but considering akira went from 'i wanna go home;_;' to 'whats the way to make sure all of u are safe in the fight against the moon'#as well as what they knew about them appearing right after their last battle w the moon. theres. suspicions. i am sure of it #either way there Is that one 1.5 segment too.......#I LOST MY THREAD #but. lots of stressful topics too #since akira knows how many wizards THEY had to summon and the implication the old sage summoned at least one too #thinks about some of the drusilla event lines again.....forget being special i wish we had met under normal circumstances......#i had more to say about this topic but it also feels like just repeating myself i just think its gonna SUCK for akira #thinking about some lines in kk's diary too...T_T very akira to me. ill go find them again l8r

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 3 months

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u know it’s bad when ur doctor literally goes “hey you need to take a break from Lent/going to Mass this year until we work through some stuff”.

#blue chatter #this is because I am at the point where I cannot walk into a church without shaking #I had two really bad experiences at Mass in a row and it was. honestly rly damaging.#neither of the churches in my area are really viable places for me to go right now #so either I try and find an Orthodox Church or smth #or I go to online mass #but yeah my therapist is specifically known for helping ppl work thru religious trauma n scrupulosity n such #and she was like ‘hey. building up your relationship with God is really important. if you go to those churches again it is going to be bad’#the goal is getting to a point where I can live my faith and be close to God in a safe and healthy environment #bc the panic and guilt spirals and anger is not it girliepop #point being. I will be observing Ash Wednesday at home this year.#and be talking with my therapist about a good Lenten devotion that won’t cause more harm than it helps

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deva-arts · 2 months

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☆ Nathaniel Wilson ☆

I Really Like Nathaniel because the guy embodies Hope and Positivity without forcing it down the gullets of everyone around him.

He looks like he'd be a pleasant individual to actually be around at 7 am. Even before his coffee. [ Sera should be too, she doesn't seem like an unbearable person to be around in La Matinée ( the Morning ) . But still, she is alot grumpier than her other half. ]

With that said. Insert Happy music here. Nujabes or Smth.

Submitted by @mettamorphoses!

Love the way you drew Nate here! such a clean style and serious face :> He's my favorite little quadfocal guy... friendly, polite, and a good conversationalist! You're absolutely right, he's one of the easiest people to get along with. It's almost like he knows exactly what to say to people.

Sera isn't grumpy so much as she is disinterested and dismissive. She heads to work without bothering to make small talk besides a basic "Hello." if she passes you by. Not the worst outcome, really, if silence doesn't bother you.

#submission #yeah. i'm in Tags too. wassup witchu #Aight but seriously i wonder how literally anyone would be like at 7 am.#Deva's tags start here =>#If he's home for the day he will always be a good conversationalist and offer breakfast or coffee on a morning #This is literally so cool #queued post #As for people at 7 am...#Sera is up by 4 AM unless Nate doesn't have work. By 7 she has already had breakfast and gotten ready to work on her projects.#If you catch her it is likely after she returns from a morning flight. She'll be civil but it can easily come off the wrong way. aw.#Nate takes a lot of long shifts that stretch into the night. Due to this he and Sera have very contrasting schedules.#If you see him in the morning it is usually only because of the weekend or whatever other days he takes off. He is a very tired guy #Vincent has a very erratic schedule and he is always out and about doing things that fancy him #He is also a HEAVY sleeper. Nothing can really wake him except for a very specific noise #Said sound makes him wake up in a horrendous mood. Most mornings are thankfully safe from this sort of temper.#It is hard to say what new bizarre thing he will get himself into next. Like doomcrying while hidden on the roof of a religious congregatio #Sonia is not up by 7 AM without a good reason to be. She is down at the kitchen in a bathrobe by 9 to eat some breakfast.#Which made her the unknowing first victim of Vincent's newly founded pyramid scheme #Amon is a late riser since he is still used to his old schedule from his time at the Ricciardi mafia. Sleeps late? wakes late!#If it's a weekday he will always be up at 6 AM regardless of the amount he slept to take Adra to school.#Eric tends to wake up early but often gets caught up in personal projects. He loves music and editing his tracks but it really eats his tim #So Eric will be going to sleep at 4 and see Sera making herself coffee whilst Nate is also coming home from work and crashing on the couch.#Not even Amon heads in that late. Maybe Vincent does though. If he's “Traversing the night.” Like he says he does.#Vince can't see very well at night anymore. And the sun is almost blinding now. But it's nothing to an immortal like him! ha! bow before hi

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shalegas34 · 27 days

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sigh, as much as i dislike jenny tian’s comedy (a lot of her humour falls flat and she comes across as kinda inauthetic) i will fight to the death against the racists that crop up like weeds on all her videos

some examples:

• (that accent) isn’t hot on asians • voice doesn’t match the face • i love (that accent) on a pretty asian babe 😍😍

yeah all of these are racist, and if you don’t agree you can kindly go fuck yourself <3

#just thinking about this cos i saw a comment on an a different post about whether it’d be safe to travel to edinburgh as a non-white person #this was on an aesthetic post. you know the wanderlust type #and it made me remember that oh yeah. the travel posts are cool but i’ll never be able to have that experience on account of not being whit #i’ll only ever be seen as a brainless asian tourist who doesn’t speak english (i am frequently mistaken as such in my own city)#just like jenny tian will only be seen as a pretty asian face even if shes actively calling out that very fetishisation lol #i was racially abused going to school on exchange in germany. almost daily. which the other aussie exchange student didnt have to deal with #she and i had a completely different experience just on account of her being white #going to uni here i’ve been yelled at in public by random strangers to kill myself. to go back to where i came from. to fuck off home #to leave australia to australians #anyway i don’t actually have a point to this post. lmao

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dutybcrne · 28 days

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Thinkings thinkings of Fatui!Kaeya have been reawakened in reviewing Arle's teasers/animations

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. );#//Whether it's Dad!Pierro or not; I do love the idea of him being left in the care of the Fatui/House of Hearth #//Tho timelines considered; he prolly would be in Pierro's personal care while Arle goes through her Traumatic Matricide Experience #//Doubt the man would want to leave him out of his sight; Khaenri'ahn/Alberich ties considered #//Or maybe he was raised/trained to fight under Signora. Or even for Columbina (her namesake's ties to Pierro's; considered)#//Tho also do LOVE the idea of Kae and Taru growin up together in the Fatui ranks and being the disastrous + shy boi duo #//Tho Kae'd prolly have less to hide/fear with them when it comes to his heritage. The strictness he'd be raised with though...#//Eh; Taru could bring him out of his shell even still jdbgfkf. If anyone can; he deffo could. His little wintry sunshine #//So maybe he'd grow into his peacock self a little more naturally; even if perhaps still out of necessity/for ease of his missions #//Less of a facade to hide his grief/missing pieces tho; more like the way Taru is charming & goofy to lower people's guards #//Still has his little habit of testing people deffo is Much worse and much more sadistic when it comes down to it #//Particularly towards fellow Fatui who disrespect him or their comrades; or just someone he ends up disliking in general #//Does 'test' new comrades; but is more willing to step in & help them if need be. Wants UTMOST trust; determination & loyalty in his men #//So will only ever take those who push to complete the mission at all costs; even themselves/willingly ask him for help when they need it #//Dislikes those who run; & LOATHES cowards who abandon comrades to save themselves; he WILL deliberately make sure they don't make it back #//Still employs his intel gathering methods as normal verse; but has preying mantis tendencies when it comes down to it nbcfjgf #//ESP if they try to take advantage of/blackmail him in some way. Or worse; those who betray him. He is meticulous & VERY ruthless abt it #//His signature is decapitation & an unmelting (Abyssal energy-laced) ice shard through the heart; around which he'd carve a stylized one #//If those informants keep being useful to him; they are safe; and treated so lovingly by him; spoiled rotten with gifts & favors aplenty #//Once they lose their usefulness...well; regrettably he cannot leave any loose ends. These become frozen as statues for him to keep #//'Precious mementos of lovers & conspirators'; he'd call them. He'd keep them in his private home in Snezhnaya #v; glacialis pavonis (fatui!kaeya)#//If he had to have a Harbinger title/name (maybe bumped up for when Scara erases himself); he'd prolly be l'Innamorato #//Fitting of his methods (is also the remaining role of Commedia dell'arte lololol). He is saccharine sweet; pretty & deadly as a belladonn #//Deffo would have tango-based motifs rather than waltz; would favor frost-laced roses. Might even leave those with his victims too #//Can you tell I listened to Rondo Across Countless Kalpas as I wrote this up jhbfjgkfhf #hc; kaeya #//I mean yeah lol. I have so many more thinkings abt this verse aaAAAA #//Am torn if I want his to use a Cryo Delusion; or have him with Cryo Vision and an Anemo Delusion. Do like that for Cryo Swirls #//Then his rage/scorn could be likened to a Blizzard. Do like that image. Deffo favors his Abyssal powers more tho; maybe THAT'd be better

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vaguewizard · 1 year

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I cast Safe From Tornadoes to anyone in the Kentucky-Indiana-Illinois tri-state area right now

#yeah #right in the middle of an exam btw #we had to move down to the most secluded part of the basement of the liberal arta building so we could finish it #cue a ton of missed calls and texts from worried mother and fiance #sister in laws roof is gone #church down the road from my parents roof ia gone #i dont have power rn #but i am home and i am safe #and while i doubt any of you are in the area #if you are please stay safe #<3 #wizardblogging #wizardposting #wizard problems

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ragnar0c · 4 months

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Cried at work

#fun fact i guess: I am a huge crier and if i go somewhere frequently i am bound to have a crying spell at some point #its embarrassing but really inevitable i usually try to go onto a bathroom when it happens bc its usually not over anything big #i just get stressed out and when it bubbles over i cry #really funny its happened now bc i was just talking about that girl from college and that scenario i had started crying #yeah that #personal #i wish i wasn't a crier but alas i am and the bathroom is my safe pace 😔 even at home #ragna rant

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pepperpixel · 9 months

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One of my friends liked the post and I perked up like a dog w there human coming home but they aren’t rESPONDING TO MEEEEE…… I want attention….. I want to be annoying…. Drunk me is annoying just wants friends… just wants to have fun chats…. Where r my friends… I don’t wanna go home and have chats w my boring relatives wanna chats w my FRIENDS!!!!! Want to catch up.. ask how ur horses and chickens r doing… last time we talked w our voices the very next day my house burnt down that was SO LONG AGO… tell me about ur life I wanna listennnnn… blease….

#I’m vague posting at this point gGHGH-#I’m sorry that’s kinda stupid of me idk I’m drunk I don’t care about proper behavior anymore want attention!!!#it’s funny that was the first and last time we talked w voices…..#i wuv u…. u r one of my very few friends u r great. we don’t talk enough #I’m too busy w my… early 20s mid life crisis and u r too busy w ur farm activities….#still tho… friend… wow… I have more than 1 friend #it’s not just me and ghast I have 2!!!! friends!!!!!#wowie zowie….#update! the responded to me :)#yay!!!!! I am at peace and content now…#also I’m home now! safe and snug in me room #hell yeah….

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todayisafridaynight · 10 months

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psst for my stream regulars

How does the idea of me starting streams at like 1:30PM (EST) sound. i’ll still plan to run them to like 5:00PM (EST) but now its more definite it’ll actually end then opposed to accidentally going on until like. 7:30PM (EST)

Also im on mobile so i cant make a poll so you gotta let me know through like a comment or somethin ok ty

#snap chats #maybe end even sooner at like 4:50 idk point is how does this sound...#ik everyone shows up for the 3:30 time but im also wondering if 1 is just really too early for some people #maaaaybe 2 if not ???#reason for the time switch is that my moms starting to like. actually use our gym equipment now #and all of thats in the basement. Where I Hang Out #and she’s been getting home just a bit earlier nowadays so im tryig to play it safe #i dont want this arrangement to be permanent and if things go my way for once it shouldnt be #but just for now..#if its not alright then i’ll prob have to pause on streaming for a bit #not forever just. A Bit until i get some personal things sorted #‘personal things’ Wow So Im Not Oversharing For Once leave me ALONE its a complicated situation so we’re going with Personal Things #ok im gonna enjoy my walk. or try to #my therapist is making me take my blood pressure daily and yesterday it was like #149/107 or something and i was like ‘yeah i might as well have high blood pressure’#luckily. or unluckily to me i just took my blood pressure wrong #‘snap how the fuck do you manage that’ I Am Very Stupid. I Am An Idiot Even anyway i didnt know i had to sit POINT IS #took it today and it was actually a Normal reading but man it Would Not be unbelievable if i had HBP #when my dad was with my mom he had HBP all the time and as soon as he got out he was at a normal level... lol...#ok enough rambling bye #im lying I Had That bout myself cause theres a stereotype with filipinos #where bitches just Cannot Say Goodbye like fam will say ‘bye’ and talk another ten minutes and i keep proving it true ENOUGH #BYE FR THIS TIME PLEASE LET ME KNOW HOW WE FEEL BOUT THIS TIME SHIFT

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the20thcenturykid · 7 months

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one piece? more like mid piece

If this is mid think about how high we can still go! Such opportunity! Sky isn't the limit anymore!

#i had to #but honestly this is kind of true because if one piece is REALLY mid so... im here for whats better #i mean i know a lot of works that concept writing or complexity wise are better than one piece so i know theres a lot of room out there #but here i am coming back to one piece from all of those masterpieces to my comfort zone of safety hope and inspiration #try to take it from Blindsight. I DARE YOU #and for me it's one of rare masterpieces out there #this book is everything but safe place #and i love it #but after long week of work i dont need psychological cosmic horror. i need safe uplifting safe place when i feel like home #imperfect as it is #so yeah i will take that mid so i can venture to projects that can shatter my existence to the core #just to come back to op for sould shattering characters backstory lmao #anyway #yeah #back to ffxiv #one piece

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pepprs · 1 year

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idk how to reconcile my new self with my old self. also i fucking hate waiting. GRAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#delete later #im getting a taste of my own medicine bc when im overwhelmed depressed etc i don’t even open emails or dms or whatever and then ifeel guilty #and let them build up and run away from them and literally do not reply for years. but ive been waiting for like 5 different but related #replies for 3ish days at this point and im soooooo impatient omg i want to bash my head into the wall.. and afaik no one i messaged has #opened the message despite being active online elsewhere which is EXACTLY what i do so i have no right to complain at all. but still. omggg #i just have a simple question (me and the ps5 voice) reply to my message boy #purrs #also.. ok yeah im gonna be honest about it even if there are consequences lol. idk why im on such a mission to get back all my old #characters but if i don’t i can and will go crazy. i don’t even do that kind of thing anymore and d*viantart is an irreversibly warped #landscape due in part to capitalism and in part to own mistakes and selfish actions. and i truly feel like my tumblr mutuals are the only #ones who understand me and feel safe and cozy on here. but i miss my old internet home. and i really miss my old internet friends and seeing #all the jokes we had and how we were all like interconnected w the same adopt groups and stuff and now we don’t even talk… it makes me so #sad and i feel weird messaging them just for the purpose of asking if they can give me back characters i gave them 4 years ago like a) you j #just don’t do that kind of thing i don’t think but b) it feels so transactional and would make the part of saying hey our friendship was #important to me when i was a teenager and even though we don’t talk anymore i think of you fondly and wish you well. like lollllll. and i #feel cringe even tracking them down / messaging them bc we are all jn our 20s now… embarrassing. but i am so mad at myself for letting those #friendships wither (not that i have the spoons to sustain them these days anyway but still) and for not keeping bettr track of my characters #when i sold them and for giving them up in the first place and for letting my old internet life just fall apart due to neglect bc it puts me #in a bind to try to piece it together again no matter how i try it and i shouldn’t try anyway. but i am so tempted to rn. lol #* itd make saying stuff abt appreciating friendship weird bc there’s a transaction tied in (source: i did this and feel weird and bad)#like the way i want to SCREAM seeing that dA ate all of the journals i made when i was a 14 year old and turned them into glitched polls. th #the way the wayback machine has terrible unreliable records of everything and i can never get some stuff back / track some stuff down. pain #anyways it’s stupid bc i feel cozy and listened to and as connected as i have the energy to be to all of u guys so why am i doing this. but #i miss the dA stuff too and i wish it wasn’t cringe and i wish i could have everything that’s ever been part of me all in one place. lol #also this doesn’t even take into account my poetry community on dA on my other account who i also felt so safe and cozy with and i abandoned #that too and lost touch with basically everyone even though we all knew each others deepest secrets for years.. the heartsickness of it all #anyways mutuals who knew me on deviantart i am clutching both your hands with impassioned urgency and kissing u on the cheeks. that’s all

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purple-is-great · 7 months

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average topics of discussion during drunken late night walks home: "our experiences with sexual harassment and how it's really fucked up that we discuss them like 'oh he just talked a little creepy but didn't try to follow me home so it's fine', and also how people who pass as cis guys will just do shit like casually walk on unlit paths in the middle of the night with no care in the world"

#also ''ngl that one time i got called a sort of outdated homophobic slur (i think - i was wearing headphones) was kinda gender-affirming''#but that was just a side trek in our discussion of all the times we've been in scary situations #so yeah thanks to friends who live in the same direction as i do #i am home safe and healthy #and i felt safe the whole way home #walking alone i almost certainly would have been safe #but i would not have felt safe

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