#ANYWAYYYYSS

[perlelune]

The way Atreides!Reader or Targaryen!Reader basically implies white most of the time lol.

[99probalos]

drew these gross guys in my sketchbook instead of paying attention to my geology course videos today. cliff arlo and 70s!ray living in my brain and cutting my neurons in half

[zarophod]

i’m replaying mystic messenger (god help us all) and god i forgot how gay Zen and Jumin are

[puppyceleste]

😳

[dreamingofstarslight]

Have officially drank enough to be confident to make out with someone but im at a bday party for my coworker friends

[promniight]

AND I WAS RIGHT. THEY HATED ME CUZ I SPOKE THE TRUTH

[martalomew]

"Am I a toy to you, my love?

Just a thing to play

And then throw away"

!!! VENT ABOUT MY STUPID BAKA FEELINGS PLEASE DONT PAY ATTENTION UNLESS YOU WANT TO LMAO !!! SEXUAL TOPICS !!!

Despite knowing that this song is heavily tied to technology lyric-wise and probably a lot of people relate it to AI/robot love, i can't help but relate this song to my own experience with my own love/sexuality and BPD. It sucks to feel like all you are to people is a thing to be used and thrown away because you are simply "not perfect enough", and your other "double" who wouldn't have your flaws(in my case, my "flaws" are my asexuality and my anxiety) would happily replace you anytime, because there is no one who would love you just for who you are.

It feels so fucking lonely to want someone to love you, to need a "human's touch", but being not good enough for them, being wrong, being "obsolete"

I hate my own asexuality. at least THREE of my ex partners in my life weren't satisfied enough with me and having BPD on top of all that just created a nice cherry on top called paranoia and abandonment issues. It sucks to desire to be someone else so fucking badly just because you can't handle hearing "i think we should see other people" just because you aren't enough. you are never enough.

It's stupid to want to be and FORCE yourself to be more sexually appealing and attractive just so the person you love won't leave you for someone else, won't desire someone else just as much as they desire you, just so you feel loved at least in some way

I hate being asexual. I hate feeling like i cannot be loved. I hate feeling like everybody is bound to leave me eventually. Because i am broken. childish. not enough.

just a thing to play with and throw away

unworthy of something more than pity.

[dragonridernoobie]

Hello, hello, hello! I saw your requests were still open and since your one of the few tfp writers that has their requests open(plus your writing is awesome) I’ve returned with another request>:3 I really enjoy seeing headcanons where reader is similar to a character I love soooo, here I am as you did so well last to, could I possibly request some headcanons for TFP Ratchet, TFP Shockwave, TFP Optimus Prime, and if your able to TFP Soundwave(completely optional!) with a S/O who’s very nervous and twitchy, very similar to tweek from South Park(I can’t think of another way to describe it:,))

OR

If you don’t feel like doing that, some scenarios with TFP Bumblebee, Optimus Prine(Bayverse or TFP, your choice:>) with a reader like Eska from The legend of korra, similar to Bolin and Eska’s relationship( here’s a video as an example: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPRTUnBXW/) idk why but they are just oddly cute-

Anywayyyyss! Remember to take breaks, and don’t feel forced to write this, I shall eventually return with hopefully more creative ideas! Have fun!

I'm so happy you enjoy my writing! It makes me all giggly seeing people say that. I agree there is not many transformer writers or they take a long time to respond. Also, thank you for telling me to take breaks! Don't worry, I will (meaning I will immediately go grind on a game that will make me mad). I hope this is up to your standards and that you love it! Don't remmber to take breaks yourself. (Sorry this took a bit)

TFP x Nervous Reader

Optimus

When optimus met (Y/N), the first thing he noticed was (Y/N) was twitching and was extremely nervous.

He was gonna tell them to stay calm and he ment no harm.

Intel the decepticons appered.

(Don't ask)

Once he got to a safe place, he faced (Y/N).

He was concerned at first and asked if they were ok.

He learned that they are fine but can't control it.

When (Y/N) was brought to base, leave it to miko to make (Y/N) uncomfortable.

She probably said something like "why do you twitch? Is there something wrong with you're head?" 😑😑😑appeared.

Which caused bulkhead to yell at miko

Optimus looked up what was wrong with (Y/N), along with ratchet.

When he figures out what was wrong. He made sure to help (Y/N) as best as he can.

He loves being with (Y/N) since (Y/N) is very nice when they are calm.

He also made sure to keep little things inside of his subspace for (Y/N) like blankets, fidget toys, snacks, etc.

Ratchet

When ratchet meets (Y/N), it was when optimus brought them to base, after they where almost captured by the decepticons.

Even though he is a grump, he aint a asshole.

He knows something wrong, he might be annoyed at first but he will come around.

I can see ratchet being really protective of (Y/N), since they can hurt themselves from twitching alot.

He will look up ways how to help (Y/N) with their twitching.

Once he figures out, he will act on it immediately.

He will take (Y/N) away from anything that will cause them to twitch or get extremely nervous.

He will also ask the kids to get fidget toys from (Y/N) so they have something to do.

Ratchet now has a friend with him while he works on his Computer.

He will listen to (Y/N) talk, since when they are calm, they have a very nice voice.

He will also listen to (Y/N) when they tell him to take a break or take a drive with them.

He will also be willing to drive them to work/school/home.

Soundwave

When he met (Y/N), it was when the vitcons kidnapped them, megatron couldn't figure out why they were twitching, so sent then to Soundwave.

Since Shockwave was busy with predaking or he wasn't here at the time.

Soundwave immediately put (Y/N) in a caps thing (I don't know the name) and watched them

Obviously (Y/N) would twitch non-stop and Soundwave wrote this down.

Eventually, Soundwave will look up what (Y/N) has and once he figures out, he reports it.

Sorry (Y/N), you are the new pet of the decepticons.

(Get you're fucking head out of the gutters you sinners! Shame on you!😤😤😤)

Eventually Soundwave would actually start to build a friendship with them.

He would tell lord megatron they will be their "guardian" and protect (Y/N).

Lazerpeak also loves (Y/N) since they pet their head when relaxing.

(Y/N) is mostly stuck with Soundwave, so Soundwave gets used to (Y/N) just sitting next to his keyboard.

Soundwave would listen to (Y/N) and is penitent when he waits for (Y/N) to finish their sentence.

I can see him trying to teach (Y/N) how to speak normally while stressed.

Random funny pitcher.

[danielleargentino]

redraw..!!!! i think i have improved n that makes me very happy. anywayyyyss i love envy if you couldn't tell

[pinetreespants]

uugggghhghg i was not happy with how i was drawing my lamb before... so here we are exploring new concepts

but im liking this direction so.. meet Kenos the last Lamb. im really liking the dreads so we're keeping that

(ill actually make a character sheet once i stop shaking lmaoo my blood sugar is so low whoops)

anywayyyyss yadda yaddda blah blah something about being the eldest of triplets and watching them be murdered does somethin to ya. now they just angy

[skyliv]

ANYWAYYYYSS THE ETSY SELLER SENT ME A PIC OF THE LOCKET BEFORE THEY SHIPPED IT i’ve gotta wait till i get home but it’s making me feel better yk

[littlelovelyspiderling]

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhmaxinggg I loved your newest chapter update!! I took my time reading er as not to rush through it too fast 🫶 cherish all the sweetness within. Ugh Tony bein a total goofy dad walkin in like “so whos this LaDy you have a CRuSH on son” like dad go home. And teasing shmoozin Johnny is back full force 😍😫😍 I cannot wait until he gets to bask in the full force of spideys blushing once he see’s him face to face 👯‍♂️👯‍♂️ gonna need some sun screen from them cheek rays ☺️

Very excited for the next instalment ☺️ I would truly and happily read a book you’ve wrote with yer own characters and everything, such a talented author i stg 🙌

Anywayyyyss have a good night! ✨⭐️🌠

YAAAY MORE LONG RANTS MY FAVORITEEE 😍

heehee thank you for all your kindness 🫶🏼 tony is trying his best to be supportive but at the same time is a dumbass who accidentally screwed everything up lol

i have a very big & dramatic moment planned for when peter is gonna reveal himself to johnny and i cannot WAIT to get to that part you have no idea 😫😫 but i suck and like to drag everything out for as long as possible cuz im a slow burner at heart

who knows - maybe after i finish this story ill write a book 🤷🏼‍♀️ i think once i get thru this, i’ll have the confidence to flesh out my own world and characters without the crutch of using ones that already exist & people already know & love. we shall see

yall are too sweet & big big thanks again ☺️

[avatarreema0]

IM BACK FROM THE DEAD GUYSS IM ALIVEE i know im really inactive on this acc if anyone wants more active art u should probably check my insta (avatarreema0) 😭🙏

anywayyyyss my persona WHT YALL THINK?😋

[winkle-pickers]

🦈🎁🚀 for the ask game! (If you're still doing it ofc)

Omg YES, I am doing all ask games in perpetuity 😂💞 Thank you for checking, and I'm delighted to answer!

🦈 Which character is the toughest to write?

I think last time I answered Jounouchi, and that is still true to an extent, but oh my god BAKURA. I just tried writing my first Bakura fic recently. Like yes I know being mysterious and strange and (deliberately?) confusing is like his whole thing, but if you haven't been steeped in the Bakurae/Ishtar side of the fandom for the last 20 years...it's a lot of meta to catch up on. A LOT. So many good takes, many in direct opposition to each other, many of them equally compelling despite that. WHEW. I tried my best, I hope I didn't write an offensively wrong Bakura, everyone's gotta start somewhere right?!?! ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ

🎁 Have a piece of a WIP you want to share?

Ooooh, yes!! A little Kaibros character study from years ago that has been languishing in my drafts, that I'm re-working and may actually publish someday. I'll stick it under a readmore, tell me what you think!

🚀 Do you like to outline your fic first or create as you go?

Unfortunately, I don't have the kind of brain where I can sit in front of a blank document and think a story out in bullet point form. I desperately wish I did lol. But alas I must charge in headfirst and get a few thousand words in before I have any idea of where I want things to go. Sometimes (often) I blast through the entire thing without outlining. Sometimes I hit a snag somewhere and realize I done fucked up and need to put myself back on the tracks.

And then there was the time I got 100k words into a YGO/Zelda crossover and realized oh no i think this will be MUCH more than 100k and wrote a very rough outline, then another Zelda game came out halfway through the fic and I had to spend a solid month rewriting my outline to accommodate lore from the new game, and also I somehow accidentally turned the whole thing into a huge ensemble cast with multiple concurrent plot threads balancing both YGO and Zelda character arcs, Hyrulean politics, and an imminent multiverse collapse. My Scriv file now has a 120k word planning & research section. (Oops.)

tl;dr I have exactly one fic that is well outlined and the rest are me doing the writing equivalent of a Leeroy Jenkins. congrats if you get that reference and are ancient like me

ANYWAYYYYSS thank you for the ask!!! Kaibros snippet under the cut 🐉

“Come on, nii-sama,” Mokuba pleads. It comes out weirdly desperate, more pathetic than he’d intended. “This is so unfair. It’s unfair enough that I don’t have parents, and it’s even more unfair that you won’t tell me-”

“You do have a parent.” Seto's reply is so sharp that it makes Mokuba flinch.

“I know, I know,” Mokuba replies, irritated at the pedantry. “You’re my parent legally. But you’re not, you know...I just want...”

Mokuba realizes as he’s talking that he’s said something terribly wrong. The change in his brother’s face is minuscule and significant and makes his stomach flip in shame. He trails off, the words curling up and dying as they fall off his tongue.

“Please go to bed,” Seto says. His tone of voice is so perfectly even that Mokuba gets up and leaves without another word.

Mokuba doesn’t go to school the next day, opting instead to stay in bed and stare at the wall. Seto either doesn’t notice or doesn’t care.

For the first time in years, he cries. And then he thinks about the fact that it’s been years since he last cried. Mokuba spends so much time wondering what the fuck is going on in his brother’s head that he’s maybe neglected to turn the same scrutiny on himself. And he’s maybe leaned a little too far into his role as the ‘normal’ Kaiba - the charming one, the easygoing one, the one who exists to balance out the bombastic, powerful force of nature looming tall at his back.

But who had cried - just once - after Gozaburo hurled himself from the top of the Kaiba Corporation building, and who had watched the coroners wheel away the black-draped gurney with impassive, bone-dry eyes?

[iijkblogg]

Booooa noite girrrlls

Não tenho postado muito aqui por que nos últimos dias só o que tem sido interessante tem sido as brigas com minha mãe lol :/

Enfim, atualizações—> minha mãe conseguiu marcar a nutricionista para eu manter meu peso e eu estou tentando convencer ela de deixar eu tentar sem enfermagem em casa por pelo menos uma semana e ela falou que ia pensar; mas hoje numa discussão ela ja mudou e falou que não vai deixar e que se bobear ainda me leva pro hospital de novo dependendo das próximas semanas T-T

Anywayyyyss, até que estou conseguindo me manter na minha dieta ; Surtando todos os dias por causa da ansiedade sobre a consulta e acho que só lool :P

Hoje foi uma dia pessimo bbyys, passei mal o dia todo e só consegui dar 4.000 passos :((

Me sentindo uma falha; lol kms 💊🥲

Be safe bbyyys, take ur meds xoxo 🦋🦋🌻💊

[siren-melodies]

Hiii, so idk who else to tell this too but backstory my family has never been religious but lately they have an some points they be making does make sense but some are like I have my own opinion of it

But what has gotten to me is that manifesting is a sin and that we should believe in God and God only and rn idk what to do because I don't want to sin but I also want to manifest my dream life just how I want to live it. The thing is I'm not educated enough in manifesting/loa/non duality even thought I been in this community for almost a year now, to actually tell them about it.

So now I'm stuck.

Religion is a trap, a bubble designed to keep you ignorant. It was created so that you look elsewhere for God when in truth it was you all along. Why would God make the Earth and then not partake of it? There is no other power but you as awareness. Nothing is outside of your control. Religion is full of fuck ass limiting beliefs to make you feel small and incapable. Society is crafted the way it is so that you never awaken to your true identity. It is full of distractions and unnecessary rules and whatnot.. constantly telling you bullshit like you have to work your whole life and slave away, life isn't fair, I'll believe it when I see it, daydreaming is a waste of time, glorified hustle,, superpowers are fantasy and the likes of such. All of this is fantasy to awareness. It is all imagination, a dream. And when you remember who you are, you consciously control the dream. Awareness is in a human body literally just for the experience, to be entertained by it all. You don't need to be educated because there is nothing to learn, just unlearn. This is your rebirth. Start from scratch. In the very first chapter of Genesis in the Bible, God created heaven and earth of of nothing. The world was void and out of nothing, came everything( this is the void y'all) literally mentioned in the very beginning of the holy book. Look it up for yourself. This is why religion and society have done their best best brainwash by the multitude. If people awoke to their true selves, where would there power and authority go? Surely they can't oppress a self-aware God. Lol and a bunch of teenage girls on tumblr fucking know this out of everyone in the world to exist at any point in time. Honestly, it's not even just about manifesting and stuff. That is what ego desires. You are pure awareness experiencing the human body and mind in a dream world. Nothing really matters, never has. You are always awareness. You were before you took on an ego and incarnated, you are during and will be after the character dies. This is a game and it's supposed to be fun! I'm really glad you asked ME this question because I feel I am perfectly qualified to answer. I come from a deeply spiritual family. Starting with my great-great-great grandmother, black magic was heavily practiced in the family, men and women. Seances and speaking to the dead, letting the dead possess your body and speaking through you type of shit. I've always seen and felt dark entities (was attacked a couple times but not anymore bc I'm above those shits) Anywayyyyss, point being that my family went crazy and it passed from generation to generation. Suicides, Drugs, Mental and physical disease, Severe abuse.. until my grandmother decided enough and looked towards Christianity. Now she is a FANATIC. Absolutely ludicrous! It's so amusing hearing her speak about Jesus and crap because in my head I'm going "if only you knew God was right here." She is also one of the dumbest women I know. She believes you shouldn't ask questions about the afterlife and stuff because that is doubting God. And she thinks Saturday is a holy day and you shouldn't even buy anything on that day because it's a sin. She forbids anyone to listen to music and thinks if a woman was raped she has to marry her rapist because sex is holy and the woman is impure... She became a Christian at 19 and now she is pushing 60 with nothing to show for it. She has nothing! Her faith in " God", who is supposed to be a man that lives in the sky, had gotten her absolutely nothing and it is because she is worshipping a false God instead of herself. I don't care if it sounds narcissistic.. Worship Yourself! The moment you want something, give it to yourself. You are not a pathetic little human with it's pathetic little problems. You are sooo much more than this. You are above everything. You are truly privileged to know the truth out of everyone. Everyone else is suffering and going through their own shit, and would kill to know what we know. Don't let this life on Earth go to waste when you can heaven right now! Feel free to DM me for anything

Xoxo,

Jezebel 💜