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#my art#feralnette au#birds of a feather#long tags#sorry I went apeshit in the tags#LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW#I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO#its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical#and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread#as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational#in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away#and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do#shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again#legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it#but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings#alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird#she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her#knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself#between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot#and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo#essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that#busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way#to show her she's self sabotaging#cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD
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when your mates absolutely need to interrupt your twitch stream with an urgent house update + the guys all trying communion wafers
i think about this clip regularly (jesse is the funniest guy in that house)
#jesse ''wow! š this is terrible! š'' thats what he sounds like#I'd transcribe but they all kinda sound the same to me#i was in the trenches trying to download this you don't understand#i need to know who was barking at the start it's probably jesse but yeah#noah sebastian#joakim jolly karlsson#jesse cash#michael taylor#orie mcginness#metalcore mansion#bad omens#erra#twitch clips#or was that tag just for mando streams idk
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The parallels that hurt so much


They both jinxed the most important event in their lives trying to help...


They both lost their closest friends to this....


And both were abandoned and hurt in the worst way possible by the sibling they've looked up to....


They had good intentions, they were so young......


And they're the monsters others have created.
#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane s2#arcane meta#arcane analysis#as abba sang: the history book on the shelf. it's always repeating itself#these scenes made me think so much about silco and vander. and the parallels between them and jinx and vi#young silco looked so sweet and healthy. he looked so innocent... where did the years go#him and jinx are just people stuck in a cycle of poorly made decisions. internalizing the trauma. doing the worst crimes imaginable.& repea#and I'm not trying to absolve them of guilt. they're pretty terrible people and are responsible for their own actions.. but I can't stop-#-feeling bad for them#also. just how old were they when revolution started? silco said to dekart that he learned a lesson about power when he was his age-#-and tapped his bad eye while talking. how old was dekart? was silco a teenager/barely an adult (18-21 or 21-25) when his life fell apart?#it's sad as hell... arcane stop breaking my heart....#silco#arcane silco#jinx#arcane jinx#jinx arcane#silco arcane#young silco#arcane vander#arcane vi#<- no negativity to these two btw
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i've returned for 2 seconds to tell you that they're not leaving my head. (sort of unrelated but i've been thinking as well. what if vasco died before machete ? what would go down)
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#ah this is so terribly cute#makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside#āpossessed by the vaschete spiritā you and me both#their expressions are so sweet#couple of dorks#and I like the dusty desaturated color scheme! with pink and darker brown accents#gift art#insect-shenanigans#own characters#Vasco#Machete#as for what would happen if Vasco died first#and I'm assuming of natural causes like illness or old age#I suppose Machete would try to sneakily sponsor his funeral#throw the fanciest burial possible#and maybe add some kind of anonymous half hidden obscure tragiromantic inscription on the grave#about wishing to see him again one day#and then either go on to do what Vasco did and commission art in his honor#or get a bad case of widowhood effect and go downhill quickly after his passing#oh yeah he might start to financially support Vasco's widow so that there was a little less pressure on her to get remarried#as you may remember she's a lesbian and one lavender marriage was probably enough for her#I can see that being a thing in certain circumstances
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Conrad, idk how to tell you this but you're not recording, you're playing audio. You wanna click the red circle instead of the sideways triangle.
(psh if you want a full breakdown of just how bad he is at this I made a full post here)
#Or better option#shut the laptop#stop being a prick#and do something else with your life#than be another man with a podcast#no but seriously as an sound designer it always bothers me when shows do this#Like they thought I wouldn't notice#but I did#don't even get me started on how fecken psychotic he has whatever recording software that is set up#it's blurry so it's hard to tell what he's using#I think it's GarageBand#shoulda known he was a bad guy from it set up in a windowed mode#also recording in an mostly glass room is terrible#Doctor Who#Doctor Who lucky day#lucky day#Doctor Who spoilers#15th doctor#fifteenth doctor#doctor who#doctor who spoilers#dw spoilers#spoilers#doctorwho#the doctor#dw s2 e4
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You know Ghoulcy has become a very serious threat when antis are literally forgetting that their ship IS the main cannon ship. Because what do you mean you'll cry if Vaultknight doesn't become real?? They ARE real. Did we somehow slip into an alternate reality where they aren't canon? Like please be so serious right now šš
#ghoulcy got them shaking in their boots so bad#that they started to lose their grasp on reality lmao#like if antis are so convinced ghoulcy is some immoral terrible ship that will never ever happen#and that us shippers are just delusional#why are they questioning their own ship's future??#honestly i think they know deep down ghoulcy is a possibility because of the type of world fallout is#and it scares them more than they'll want to admit it#cause otherwise they'd be unbothered and secure in their ship#I'm just saying#ghoulcy#vaultknight#vaultghoul#lucy x cooper#lucy x the ghoul#cooper x lucy#lucy maclean#the ghoul#cooper howard#fallout#fallout show#fallout tv series
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imagine!!! imagine if you willā¦
contains: menstruation | gn! reader | reigen | might be ooc
i just needed some comfort :/

Reigen massages your legs and stomach when youāre on your period. He runs warm, so warm that his hands are a bit clammy at times but perfect for when chills wrack your body. Plus, he has an older sister, so he knows exactly what to buy you: various pads (or tampons, both on some weeks) , snacks of every flavor profile and extra tea and heating pads (sheās thrown enough fits at home that he remembers it all).
āIām home.ā You throw your bag to the side, and slump onto the couch.
Work was terrible, and running around all day had led to more aches and pains. Your thighs press together, trying to prevent any leaks that might result of your fidgeting. Your boyfriend walks from the kitchen over to your side, kneeling and brushing your hair out of the way. Maybe you should swat him away; get rid of his insistent poking and prodding.
āRough day? Let me help.ā Reigen pulls your shirt up, and hushes you by pressing a warmed up rice ball to your mouth.
You take the little onigiri, and nibble on it as his hands rub up and down your sides and abdomen. He digs them into your back, hitting every spot before he returns to gently rubbing soothing circles over the front.
Just a few days of unbearable irritation and feeling unlovable. You can deal with it. But it doesnāt stop the tears from filling your eyes, and soft whimpers to escape your mouth when the one man who always sees you as your worst treats you so kindly, as if you're his favorite person.
āSo pretty, yāknow that? Adorable, really.ā Reigen winks at you, his hands slowly warming up your bloated stomach.
He doesnāt comment on your sullen expression, but a quick peck on your jaw is all you need before you sink back down.
āāTaka, at this rate Iāll fall asleep.ā You yawn softly, feeling the warm darkness pull over your vision as you swallow the last grains of rice.
āSleep. Iāll take care of you, always,ā Reigen brings his hands to your face, massaging the temples and your forehead, āi love you.ā
Reigen whispers little reassurances, pulling you up to sit on his lap as he runs a hand up and down your back.
āYouāre so good, my favorite person. I cant ask for anything more; youāre everything to me.ā A kiss on the crown of your head.
āDo you need me to grab anything? hearing pads? ibuprofen?ā
you shake your head, a yawn bubbling up. Reigen laughs and kisses your nose.
āYouāre so cute. I love how your nose scrunches up.ā A pinch on your side.
You swat his hand away with a small pout, ādonāt do that.ā
"You're smiling again, I'm glad. You were so tense before." He wipes the tears off of your face, and picks you up.
"Sleep. I'll make you radish and pork bone soup? Or congee?"
You hum your answer noncommittally, the warm cologne that had seeped onto your shared sheets lulling you to bed. The last thing you feel is a warm rag over your face, and an arm around your waist.
a/n: needed some comfort⦠been having a rough patch :/ reigen makes me happy tho! i hate politics but itās important that i stay informed. and i hate it all :3 stay safe out there dears :3
my parents made me white radish and pork bone soup :3 it's very comforting!!!!
rushed but this was very self indulgent.
#my period is terrible#had a nosebleed right before it started#isnāt that funny?#literally an hour before#reigen arataka x reader#reigen x reader#mp100 x reader#reigen arataka#koiāŖ#cw periods#my periods always come with bad depressive episodes and pre cramps.#lol#it's over so I can edit this comfortably.#mp100
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blessed be (lorscher bienensegen) | telling the bees (wiþ ymbe)
"Bees" [remixed, abridged], Claudia Emerson // "Letter to Someone Living Fifty Years from Now" [remixed. abridged], Matthew Olzmann // "Letter to my Great, Great Grandchild" [remixed, abridged], J.P. Grasser | Len Redkole, Nina Weiss, Brian Babineau, Christian Peterson, Mitchell Leff, Dave Isaac, Megan DeRuchie
#liv in the replies#if i were insane there would be an appendix to this called telling the bees however i finished this at 3am yesterday its nearly midnight &#my cutoff is when my ahl asg stream cuts. GOD by now i should know when i save a poem like hmm. not applicable but god it'd be perfect#THAT'S A CURSE. DON'T PUT IT IN THE DOCUMENT. DON'T SAVE IT. FORGET YOU READ IT. IT'S A CURSE!! <- things i should've told myself when i#went to read bees was already like š &then the first line was FUCKING CLAUDE!!!!! anyway. sorry also this is like. insanely long but ALSO#regarding mf claude. the first picture is a leftover from the claude edit i made years ago so that feels GREAT and BEAUTIFUL & also for me#as ever y'all will be getting a full breakdown. starting with what i regularly have a breakdown about every time i see it which is joelle's#james 1:12 tattoo which if u use the king james version (gay) is blessed is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test he#will receive the crown of life the lord has promised to those who love him. which i always go blessed is he who perseveres // for those who#love him. and that's joel. ignoring him getting it then getting sent down on his birthday IGNORING IT. also we know the frosty/maple leafs#hahaha fuck the flyers lore right? good. that's morgan and his dad also bc i love a baby picture & it was perfect. also the dave isaac pic#next was in an article talking about morgan 'stung' by draft camp. shut UP. i have an alt for tells him with claude and ALSO hate the#elephant w/phil bc myesie u fuckin leaf-eater (giraffe) but i love the composition of that jake shot & had to use it (it was also almost#tells him) with thylacine jakey frog nolan also raff the extinct whale bc i needed him here. if my editing on incapable of joy is bad no on#tell me i did some SHENANIGANS to put morgan in there & color-pick/alter his jersey. new skill. i think euphoria is one of my favorite for#the sake of pride night but ALSO that polaroid kills me very time &they're so stoners contemplate the universe but ALSO i love transcendenc#so that whole three photo string i think is my favorite. and i was in looking at these like listen okay it's okay there are only so many#photos in the world. you can repeat from others you've seen before. except ALSO there's so many of these freaks together do you separate#and every time i was like there can't be more there was more. don't ask the number of back-ups for the sweetest blossom/pinch/ruffle sets#okay also the ready to be stung one was a surprise favorite fit for me because i love that line but wasn't sure how to convey it? so it's o#i think with how morgan's face is and the almost of it all. yes joel hardest trier is in there purely for me i do have an alt but. how coul#u doubt him. insert sasha's tweet abt how much joel loves philly but all his quotes have been abt being excited for morgan to have a fresh#start. AND NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES IN CALGARY AND YOU'RE STILL INSEPARABLE god i literally googled frost farabee calgary to find the last#blessed [because. heard but not seen you know of everyone traded but you went together. not seen. (which ties into the terrible appendix)]#and IT DIDN'T EVEN TAKE ME TWO MINUTES TO FIND THAT!!! WHAT DO YOU MEANNN anyway. sorry again it's so long & also i will be vanishing a wee#& a half after posting [redacted] is kicking my ass & im doing [redacted fun things WAIT ACTUALLY U CAN KNOW ONE i'm seeing hippo campus]#morgan frost#joel farabee#philadelphia flyers#calgary flames
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12 year old tim realizing robinās not coming back to gotham and deciding that itās Batmanās fault so he has to ruin the little bit of sanity and peace of mind Bruce has managed (read: struggled) to keep in his grasp:
#tim drake#dick grayson#robin#dc robin#bruce wayne#batman#tim drake is a menace#tim drake was and still is a die hard Robin fan before anything else#so he 100% thinks Damianās funny when heās not the one being targeted#thereās mission reports with comments in the margin like ānice šš¾ do it againā and ā650000000/10 šā and Bruce hates it sm#it starts with a mild explosion and psychological fuckery and ends with a prank war with city wide structural damage#Bruce sees Tim and Damian getting along and starts sobbing in the batcave#It was 12 year old Tim Drake and his 67 alt twitter accs against the world (Batman) when dick left#For the two years dick refused to stay in Gotham I promise you batmanās anonymous tip line was just 325 ruthless insults from tim everyday#Imagine bruce trying to figure out which of his rogues keeps photoshopping terrible .5s of Batman then mailing it to the gcpd#just to find out itās some fucking middle schooler with a bowlcut from bristol#Tim drake is unhinged and petty#Like it gets so bad that gothamites (even the rogues) have picked a side in this mostly one sided beef between a middle schooler and batman#I want internet beef between a middle schooler and a 29 year old med school dropout bruce āI am the nightā wayne#Bruce is foaming at the mouth whenever someone opens Twitter next to him#and batman is breaking your clavicle if you mention twitter in his hearing range š#Batman showing up at Timās windowsill: take down all your accounts rn and im calling your parents š”š¦#Tim pulling out a ouija board: letās see if your parents answer before mine š¤Ø#I made yj on the sims so they could fight the jl and I was like middle school!tim drake w/ a twitter acc???
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Horror's nightmare
Horror doesn't think much on his past anymore, but his nightmares often resurface the guilt he's buried about the idea that he could have prevented it all somehow, even if it came at the cost of his own life.
Thankfully, Nightmare is here to make him a hot drink to calm his nerves and promise him a visit to his brother when the sun is up, because Papyrus will always be very glad to see his brother alive and visiting (and as sleepy as ever).

#UTDR#UTMV#Horror Sans#Nightmare Sans#My Art#Truce au#Bad dreams comic#Just when you thought you were safe from my 50 ongoing art projects I remember to finish another one >:3c#I had a lot of fun with this one! Despite how kind of grim it is#It gave me a chance to play with different brushes and work with colours and such which is cool :D#Anyway yeah Horror likes to think he's at peace with his past#Especially considering who he lives with - he's probably the least haunted of the 4#But there is always a nagging thought in the back of his mind that he is in some way responsible#If not for breaking the core and more or less killing the scientist trying to fix it#(Even though it was at least partly justified since they tried to kill him first)#Then for letting the human go by with lvl in the first place knowing that they would end up killing Asgore in the end#Even if he couldn't have possibly known how bad things would get as a result#Also!! In case you're wondering Monster Kid and the dog are in the start because it's a dream#In his mind he always remembers horrortale before it started falling apart and losing people#And now... (turns my terrible little eyes upon Cross)
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gamer palu is funny to me
edited the text bc I didn't see all the TYPOS!!!!
#this is why we aren't gettign a new kid icarus guys :[#kid icarus#pit#palutena#fan art#my art#redraw#kid icarus uprising#i can't draw hands :[#i only notice the typos when ppl started reblogging :[#I'm blaming my constant headaches </3#minty's terribl. no god. very bad day
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for the record. i think it's like. okay to be annoying. you're gonna be annoying sometimes. it comes free with being a human fucking being. it shouldn't be the end of the world when someone says "hey this thing you did kind of annoyed me. you don't need to stop doing it just know that I'm not gonna interact w it much" like. that seems like a reasonable thing to me. everyone (yes, even your friends) have pet peeves that sometimes you will set off. this is fine and it will not ruin a friendship unless you. like. make it a bigger deal than it needs to be, because thats when things tend to get ugly and bad. not everyone is gonna like everything you do and that's fine? not everyone has to be so enthusiastically hyped for things that you like. you'll never be happy if you start thinking like that.
#like..no im not mad at you no i dont hate you i just found this one thing you did kind of annoying. thats like a normal part of being alive.#some ppl have never had siblings and it shows. i think.#<< this post has been in yhe drafts for months but im seeing a huge uptick in 'everyone is mad at me' posts#and im still pmsed as fuck which means i feel less bad about posting potentially mean things.#also potentially a red flag for me but as history shows i Am a terrible person to be friends with:#like. i dont think anyone Owes You an explanation for when theyre annoyed/mad at you.#sometimes a guy just needs to feel their feelings and being asked to explain those feelings only serves to exacerbate the issue#and make things worse for everyone. its like when youre in the middle of doinf chores and your mom tells you to go do your chores.#anyway. just my two cents#fact of the matter is i think āyes i am annoyed at you. no this isnt the end of the world for our friendship#but freaking out about it directly to me in my dms is eroding away at that fact#because i shouldnt have to. like. not feel an emotion because it might make you feel bad?ā should be a valid thing to say.#i feel a similar way about like... needing to be included in everything. like.#people NEED to start being okay with being left out of things sometimes. not everything is about you !!!!#sometimes your friends have hobbies and interests that will not include you and thats fine !!!!!!
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Everything is very horrible today in an autistic meltdown kinda way so either I'll pop off and draw a lot or lay face down in bed doing nothing for several hours we'll just have to see
#the worst thing is its not just any one thing#its a build up of terrible terrible terrible#and when i do fibally get set off it seems like its over smthn really fuckinf stupid#RAGHHH#i will explain actually cause most of it woild piss anyone off#my whole family is off of school/work today except me#my siblings went to the movies#i had to go to work and work was fuxking SLAMMED#so i had a pretty shitty day already work wise#then i learn like an hour before i leave that i have to pick up my siblings#in the rain#in the dark#and also two othee peoplw are gonna be there so my car will be litetally full#and its in the busiest part of town#AND i have to pick up dinner beforehand#so that combined with evweything elae aboit today was already upsettint#and then the coworker i dont fucking like started fuckung around with smthn#not doing his aork#which is why i dont like him cause he never gets anything done#so that was sort of the last straw ig#anyway my manaher was bejng really nice befoee i left cause i was obviously upsey#but i was like ' listen i am literally about to have a meltdown so i have to go i cant do this rn '#i feel bad about it#but whats worse briefly inconviencing my manager or having a whole fucking meltdown in frojt of everyone#muppets ref ha#anyway#i just wish my parents respected me#even a little bit#cause they sure fucking dont#not me nor my time haha!
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I feel because of Jinx and Viktorās popularity in fandom (having some of the most annoying fans in Arcane fandom) and the attention they receive in the show itself, people forget/donāt realise how bad they were done by the writers in s2
#saying this as someone who had thought jayce was reasonable for killing viktor in s2#the way they stripped all nuance from viktorās actions and made jayce 100% right and the arcane/glorious evolution instead of highly flawed#and morally dubious/neutral#into just bad and wrong(tm)#was weird. it was weird.#i donāt want to compare to league because i do think adaptations should be judged on themselves for the most part#and iām not too familiar.#but i think the ending should have been left open. like let piltover and zaun still be at war and the characters finding their place in that#also escalation from misguidedly transforming unwitting but willing people to viktor just deciding to turn everyone into an emotionless robo#was weird too#someone smarter than me do a deep dive idek#everyone became a centrist when faced with the true enemy; extremist zaunite (but like not even for zaun)#its not that i wanted viktor to be innocent. his actions in act 2 were morally dubious and he was destined to become darker and more extreme#but the way they did it was weird#and the way they resolved his character. it just feel so half-assed if you look past how emotionally charged and beautiful it was#do not even get me started on jinx⦠the ājinx is aliveā theory better be real because thatās the only way to salvage her character#but like i think they handled her character terribly for all of act 3#i think ekko and mel were done dirty in the way characters like lucas in st were. but i wonāt get into that rn#jayce and vi also kinda felt reduced to their relationshipsā¦#arcane s2 act 3#arcane critical#arcane criticism#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane s2#viktor arcane#viktor#jinx arcane#jinx
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nightmare and his stupid mascot that is basically him but with even less redeeming qualities.
#I really like that one trope where villains argue with their reflection and then smash the mirror at some point.#nightmare 100% would do that. although his reflection is also his mascot that is plastered on all of his products and city-#-so it's pretty much inescapable.#the mascot isn't actually sentient or anything. nightmare is hallucinating or dreaming it.#edit: it's not 3am anymore my thoughts are finally coherent and I can add stuff :3#what the mascot represent is nightmare's outer facade. the sanitized and simplified version of nightmare that he shows the world.#it's all of his bad habits and morals and whatnot personified. everytime nightmare starts feeling guilty-#-that thing appears and tells him to suppress it.#all of that is imaginary. nobody is telling nightmare to suppress his feelings but nightmare himself.#just that nightmare isn't very fond of taking blame.#it makes sense for him to make up an imaginary culprit to put the blame on for even his terrible coping mechanisms.#I'm not sure if I should give the mascot a name. something like ntm⢠maybe.#nightmare sans#HOME#sans au#undertale au#utmv#šļø
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Sorry guys I gotta speak my truth on this one
I'm not kidding when I say that I think that blaming shit media literacy from fans on shipping/shippers avoids the actual root of the problem to throw people you can easily throw under the bus (simply because it's not unpopular to consider people who post about ships or ship characters in media as having lesser or derivative tastes by default)
And here's why.
I think when you blame people who are "shippers" or "consume media through shipping lenses", the true root of it all is a mindset problem.
In actually, putting on shipping lenses can be helpful when trying to analyze a piece of media. When analyzing media you're supposed to approach it through a number of mindsets and put on different lenses (both to deepen your personal understanding of the media, and to pick it apart and see what you can find there (whether intentional or not on the author's part)), and different ships can be some of those lenses
When it comes to ships between main characters (for those who are genuinely willing to see what the narrative is showing with their relationship and what it's doing), there are times when analyzing it from a shipping lens may be helpful. As someone from KH fandom, I have seen people come to deeper understandings and pick canon apart in the process of analyzing a relationship that is genuinely integral to the story (platonic or not). I've also seen people get into rarepairs of characters who barely interact or who just suffer little screen time, and I've seen them come to better understandings of those side characters and how they potentially fit into the world of the media simply because people are now focusing on these characters and how they fit into the narrative.
Frankly, I resent the idea that the only way to truly objectively analyze a piece of media is by turning off the part of your brain that gets excited over relationships and individual characters. Don't get me wrong, that is a way to approach a piece of media and a valid one at that, but the truth is that we cannot be free of bias.
For instance, I was watching House MD with my parents circa last year. At some point I started heavily tuning into what was going on with House and Wilson's relationship. My parents, on the other hand, were largely watching casually. They're not thinking of character relationships or getting heavily invested in most characters, they're watching because they like watching. One of them in particular did try to analyze things that were happening in the show as they happened. However, when it came to the scene late in the series where House threw out Dominika's letter approving her American citizenship, my parents could understand that he was doing that because he didn't want her to leave, but not much beyond that. I ended up explaining to them that House's fake marriage for Dominika was an explicit parallel to when Wilson was living with House in the early seasons. Both situations started with House being none too happy about it but ultimately letting them stay, spending a considerable amount of effort getting them to leave/getting this situation to be finally over so he didn't have to deal with it anymore, and then by the time a piece of news comes through that would mean the person in question actually leaves, House hides this news as long as he can. Because he doesn't actually want them to leave and has grown attached. And by doing this he became a self fulfilling prophecy. By reacting to the truth of Wilson and Dominika leaving him the way he does, he seals his fate and they ultimately leave anyways. Maybe I ship Hilson, but becoming open to how their relationship was handled allowed me to transition to doing character studies and recognizing patterns/parallels that I wouldn't have noticed if I didn't particularly care about the characters or their relationship.
Likewise, I've seen mutuals complain about how people who don't like or don't care about certain characters often overlook these characters (what they're actually like and their place in the narrative), while the mutuals in question (by default) are able to come to deeper understanding of what the writers/story is trying to do because they care about this funky guy
You can't eradicate bias when you're engaging in media analysis, but you can consciously put on a range of lenses and observe the media through different povs with the goal of understanding the media better or bolstering your reading of it. And those lenses/povs can include focusing on specific relationships or the perpective of certain characters
And this is why I say it's actually a mindset problem. Shippers and people who have this one blorbo they like a lot aren't inherently terrible "fandom brained individuals" who are the root of media analysis problems. The problem only arises when people's readings/analysis of a piece of media are inherently restrictive/narrow and self centered. Your problem is with people who view a piece of media through a ship they like but don't keep an open mind about it, and whose "media analysis"/views on canon cannot be split from fanon and their comfortability levels. These are the people whose "media analysis" starts and ends with justifying their fanon as canon, whose views on media revolve around sorting characters and relationships into categories they personally enjoy rather than trying to understand what's going on.
Here's another example.
Here we have a fictional ship we'll call uhhhh...Blanebin. this fictional ship I made up on the spot for characters that don't exist named Blane and Corbin
Person A is super into Blanebin. They're part of the main cast of characters and canonically childhood best friends, so person A (as much as they enjoy fanart and fic) is also enjoying analyzing how narratively important to each other they are. Recently, Corbin started dating another character in canon, but Person A is enjoying watching how Blane is reacting to this. "Is this potentially a tell that Blane is jealous or is having complicated feelings about this? What if he was, how would that contextualize his behavior this season? Here's what I think based on how Blane dealt with explicit jealousy last season in a different situation". It's not impossible that person A is still missing further understanding due to their obsession with Blanebin, but at the end of the day this obsession has allowed them to start picking through the characters both in and outside this relationship. It has allowed them to see potential subtext and theorize on what might happen next with these characters' relationship. Not to mention that with addition of Corbin dating someone else, instead of trying to erase this fact or state that Corbin canonically isn't into that person, Person A is trying to factor in how Corbin's current dating life affects his relationship with Blane (irregardless on personal views on the nature of Corbin's relationship with the person he's dating).
Person B is also super into Blanebin. They really enjoy fanart and fic of the characters, love obsessing over their moments together, and just feel like there's really something between the characters. To person B, every moment between them is just further proof that the writers are ship teasing them. But Corbin getting together with someone else this season? Oh that pissed person B off. They cannot believe that even though Corbin and Blane are CLEARLY gay for each other the writers had Corbin get with someone else this season. Perhaps, they think, it was even a decision specifically made to spite fans. How evil of the writers to tease a perfectly good ship and then have them not get together first? They must have been just doing those teases to get views from Blanebin shippers those scoundrels. To Person B, since Corbin started dating someone when he obviously has some chemistry with Blane (even though the series is far from over) means that Blanebin can never get together now and Corbin x person he's dating is ruining Blanebin by existing. In fact, they think, this is terrible writing for Corbin to be dating someone else because they don't like that relationship and don't see the point. Obviously if the writers were good then Corbin would have started dating Blane instead because this was supposed to be the Blanebin show.
Person C despises Blanebin. Don't get them wrong, they've always enjoyed the character's childhood friendship, but they actually have always thought Blane would have been better off with Victoria. They have a lot of moments too! But they're tired of seeing people ship Blanebin. Corbin just got together with someone else, so obviously that's not gonna work out. Plus Corbin and Blane totally has always given person C bro vibes. In fact, person C thinks, sure Corbin and Blane have a close friendship, but people shouldn't be shipping them. Person C likes Blanetoria and Blanetoria can't be canon if Corbin is in the way of it. So Person C likes to read Blanebin as siblings anyways. Sure they're canonically friends, but obviously their friendship turned into brotherhood. This means that nothing can be in the way of Blanetoria and Corbin can keep dating the person he's already canonically dating. Actually, now Blanebin just straight up makes Person C uncomfortable. Don't the pesky shippers understand that Blanebin are sibling coded because they're childhood best friends and that they're important to each other because they're brothers? It's obvious to anyone with eyes.
Sure, ships are involved here, but is the root of this problem shipping? Character A isn't as knowledgeable of other characters in the plot due to this lens they're using, but at the end of the day they're dedicated to analysis. Their love of the characters is pushing them beyond what they like or dislike to try to understand what might be happening through their lens. Not perfect, but they are slowly broadening their horizons. But Person B and C's problems here are their restrictiveness. What is or should be canon to them is tantamount to what they personally like or find comfortable. Is person C actually analyzing the this fake show when they decide to "read" Blanebin as basically canonically siblings (and this all of their moments are totally a bro thing) just because they don't like Blanebin and the idea of them getting together over Blanetoria makes them uncomfortable? Is person B actually analyzing this fake show when their "analysis" of Blanebin goes only as far as asserting it's being ship teased and deciding anything short of canonizing Blanebin is a targeted attack or "bad writing" because it's not what they wanted personally to happen?
This is what I'm talking about. This is the mindset. Shipping isn't the problem. The problem is when people marry fanon and canon to the point where they have a vested interest in superimposing their fanon over canon as "a reading" and trying to make "collective decisions" on what is canon (or what canon is trying to say) based on what does or doesn't make them uncomfortable. The problem is people being restrictive and centering their own likes and dislikes in the conversation, so they can only interact with canon "analysis" wise by deciding what is canon or should be canon "as obviously agreed on by everyone". You can't simply claim you like media analysis. To be able to analyze media and bolster your views on any given canon, you must be open to looking at it through multiple povs, to studying characters without trying to pretend things you don't like don't exist or do like do exist. There is a balance that must be kept between trying to keep objectivity and putting on specific focus/bias based upon the lenses you're putting on. You have to be willing to try to figure out what a media is doing or saying, not saying you're trying to figure out what it's saying while in actuality trying to define the narrative around what people believe it's saying in ways that suit you.
Thank you for coming to my ted talk.
#fandom wank#on the flip side it really just doesn't all happen with shipping#doesn't this go the same way when someone hates a character so they brand them with terrible terms and act like they're terrible without#actually taking a second to analyze them simply because they dislike that character?#Hell I've seen people get really invested in platonic relationships on the fanon sideā start labeling them as siblings because the idea of#people shipping them makes them uncomfortableā and then when new canon doesn't fulfill their hopes they still act like those characters#being siblings to each other is canon because it makes them uncomfortable if that's not true#I've seen people watch a trailer for a piece of media before it comes outā build up an entire story in their head based on that trailer#that they've designated as their perfect idea of how to handle concepts presented in the trailerā and then when canon doesn't end up going#that way they decide that it's bad writing simply on the grounds that this wasn't the story they wanted. so they unironically act like#writers can only be good writers if the writers play into their specific wants as the audience or things they as an audience member thinks#would be great#genuinely even if people turn off the ship side of their brain or the side that gets obsessed with characters they can still be one of those#people who acts like they love media analysis but ultimately are shit at it#I didn't put this in the body of the post cause it didn't really fit but I have to say this too#I think that 'There are multiple readings one can glean from a text and no reading is the 'true' oneā and this is okay' and 'not every#reading is a valid one or a good one' are statements that can and should coexist#There is a difference between genuinely reading into a piece of media based on what is happening in it and purposely miscontruing and#twisting canon in a direction that contradicts text so you can then quell all criticism by saying that it's just 'a reading' and#'all readings are valid'#What I'm saying is that if you see a blue carā the way you get 'valid readings is people who are determining what shade of blue it is or#what it being a blue car means or the author's intent making the car blue or even speculation as to why it's blue and not potentially other#color. A case of an 'invalid reading' in this case is if someone pointed at the blue carā said it's canonically red and the author obviously#intended it to be red and it's canonically redā and then when people point out that the car is very much not canonically red (that you#can see it is a very clear shade of blue) this person doubled down and started saying that the 'haters' are being rude by implying that#their personal reading of the text is invalid (in other words 'no you can't get mad at me for saying the blue car is red because it's my#reading of the text and all readings are valid no matter what!')#anyways sorry for going off there#it just pisses me off when people repeat the argument that people who like certain things as fans are inherently unable to perform good#media analysis and are the root of fandom media illiteracy.
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