#I try to be consistent with the ones I do give him

[puck-luck]

s(we)e(t) dreams | trevor zegras

warnings: thigh riding, dubious consent (i guess? girlypop is asleep and grinding against trevor’s thigh to try and get off because of a dream she’s having. she’s not consciously doing it. but it would not be UNWELCOME if she was awake.), dirty talk pairing: trevor zegras x inexperienced!fem!reader requests: “ok that’s it, NEED a trevor thigh riding piece”, “having done nothing sexual together but sleeping all cuddled up with his thigh between her legs and tz waking up to find his sweet innocent girlfriend grinding on his leg in her sleep and moaning his name” wc: 1174

You were asleep in Trevor’s bed when he got home after the Kraken game. You were wearing your Christmas socks and it was clear that you had tried to stay up for him and greet him when he got home, but sleep had overtaken you. Trevor smiled fondly and toed his dress shoes off, slowly stripping down as to not make too much noise.

The two of you hadn’t done anything yet, having started dating about two months prior. It was refreshing, to be honest. Trevor enjoyed coming home to you, when you stayed over, and not feeling pressured to do anything. There were plenty of girls in his DMs, at his games, or, hell, even in public that were willing to hook up with him on a whim. You, however, were special and he wanted to wait for you. He wanted to go at your pace, put in the effort and get the rewards. Trevor wanted to make you happy, and if that meant waiting for you to be ready to take the next step with him, that was what he would do.

He’d never met anyone like you before, so vibrant and passionate and caring. Trevor suspected that that was why he was so willing to make this work– hey, a man has needs– because you saw through all of his “arrogance” and how “untouchable” he was. You saw him for what he is: a man who wants to give love and receive it in return.

He shimmied on some sweatpants and carefully lifted the covers on top of his bed so he could join you underneath them. Still asleep, you cuddled into his warmth and he pressed a kiss to your forehead. You let out a precious sigh, and Trevor’s heart swelled with a feeling that he wished he could bottle up and use like a drug the next time he was feeling down. 

He turned towards you, throwing an arm over your waist and sliding the other under his pillow. His eyes had long since adjusted to the dark and he could see the way your hair was splayed out around you, one section falling dangerously close to your mouth. Trevor brushed it out of the way and admired you– the curve of your nose, the slope of your lips, the small wrinkle between your eyebrows. 

You shifted in the bed, burying your face in Trevor’s chest and moving your leg so that it was hooking his. Trevor chuckled as quietly as he could, pushed his leg between yours, and pushed your leg down so your knee was hooked behind his instead of resting so high. He closed his eyes and pulled you tight, breathing in the smell of your shampoo, and beginning to drift off.

That is, until you made another sweet noise, one that sounded particularly similar to his name.

“Mm?” Trevor hummed softly, not wanting to speak too loud and shake you out of what he assumed was the in-between state of sleep and consciousness.. “Yeah, baby?”

You didn’t reply, which caused Trevor to frown and open his eye, looking to see if you were awake. You appeared to be sleeping still, your breath deep and consistent. Your chest was rising and falling in an easy rhythm and Trevor would be lying if he said he didn’t let his eyes linger for a moment longer than necessary. You were his girlfriend, after all. Even if he wouldn’t fuck you before you were ready, he wasn’t going to stop himself from acknowledging how much he’s looking forward to seeing you like that.

He closed his eyes again and shifted his leg up, pressing it into you inadvertently.

“Trev,” You moaned out, rolling your hips against his thigh. 

That he couldn’t ignore. His eyes snapped open and for a split second, he panicked. Here’s his girlfriend, his sweet, innocent, virgin girlfriend whose first time is so important to her, grinding against his leg and moaning his name in her sleep. He’s not sure whether he’s supposed to push you off and wake you up and ask if this is okay. He doesn’t know if that will just embarrass you and scare you away, you who blushed red to your roots when he asked if he could kiss you after your fourth date. You, his girlfriend who nearly shed a tear when she admitted she’d never had sex before and asked if he was going to leave you because you “couldn’t give him what he wanted,” were rubbing yourself against his thigh and clearly, so clearly, dreaming of him.

Once the panic wore off, Trevor was entranced by how beautiful you looked. Here, in the darkness of his bedroom, you were shining. Trevor watched, unblinking, as you continued to whimper and sigh and move against his quad. 

He honestly can’t wait to bring this up, you humping his thigh in your sleep because you need relief so bad. He won’t bring it up until you’ve been together for way longer and he’s fucked you at least once, wanting to save you the embarrassment, but fuck if it’s not the prettiest sight he’s seen in a while. The thought of this night is going to serve him well over the long roadies he has coming up. 

Trevor’s hand moved to rest on your waist, feeling the way your hips moved against his thigh.

“Oh, Trevor,” You sighed. “More.”

Trevor squeezed his eyes shut, wanting to grant your request more than anything, but knowing he can’t. This you’ll have to do yourself. He won’t take advantage of you like this, no matter how pretty you sound or how frustrated your expression is, struggling to find relief.

But– that doesn’t mean he can’t whisper some nasty things in your ear. He hoped, somehow, his words would translate into your dream and bring you to your peak.

“Wanna see you get yourself off, baby,” Trevor mumbled, struggling to keep his hands from wandering over your body. “You look so pretty, using my leg for your own pleasure.”

Your hips sped up when he started to speak, and your lips pout.

He continued. 

“Here I was thinking you were so innocent, but look at you. You’re dirty, baby. You need me so bad that you’ll hump my thigh and you’ll enjoy it.”

You whined, tilting your head back.

Trevor brought his lips to the tip of your nose, kissing it briefly before pulling away and thumbing over your cheek. “I can’t wait to make you come, baby. I’m going to make you hump my fingers just like this until you’re shaking. It’ll be even better than whatever you’re dreaming about, yeah?”

You tensed up, face scrunching in a way that made Trevor’s dick twitch in his pants. “Yeah,” You agreed in your sleep, slumping against Trevor with a heavy breath. You cuddled up into him, your lips less than a hair away from the nape of his neck, and Trevor has to very carefully unravel himself from your grasp to relieve himself in the bathroom.

note: look, guys, i'm a slut for thighs and a slut for a wet dream. if i were better at manifestation, i would've manifested a dream w trevor for myself already. additionally, i think i might have to make a timeline for this or put the oneshots on the masterlist chronologically? i don't know if that would help y'all at all. let me know. WELCOME BACK TO THE INEXPERIENCED READER SERIES!

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You're the Only Girl for Me- Chapter 20

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August 1st 2021

Airielle jumped and let out a gasp as someone knocked on her driver's side window. 

“Girl, are you okay?” Trinity asked her. “How long have you been down here? Yas is still upstairs waiting for you.” 

Airielle just shrugged, she didn’t know how long she actually sat in the garage. Her mind was all over the place, because she had to be imagining Christopher… right? There was no way in hell he was in Pensacola. What were the actual chances? 

“Airi?” Trinity called out again, unlocking her phone and sending a quick text to Yas who was down in the garage at record breaking speed. 

“Airielle?” Yas called out her name as she got closer to her car. She looked over at Trinity who shrugged. 

“I was going to my car and found her out here.”  Trinity sent a quick text message to her husband telling him that she was staying with Airielle, there was no way she was leaving her best friend after seeing her in this state. 

“Sweetie.. Come-on” Yas said softly as she unbuckled Airielle’s seatbelt and gently pulled her out of the car. “What happened?”

“He-He” Was all Airielle could get out, as Trin and Yas led her back up the elevator to her apartment. Yas sighed, suddenly feeling guilty that she told Airielle to go talk to Josh.  Yas and Trin helped Airielle into her apartment and sat her down on the couch. Trinity went into the kitchen to call Josh and give him a piece of her mind while Yasmine sat on the chair and watched her cousin.

Yasmine had only seen Airielle like this one other time and that was on their vacation to California last summer where they almost ran into Christopher. He didn’t see them but Airielle damn sure saw him and shut down for the rest of the vacation, refusing to leave their hotel room. But there was no way… right? 

Airielle didn’t know how long she had been sitting on the couch, all she knew was that her body no longer felt numb.  “He’s in Pensacola, Yas.” Airielle whispered and Yasmine felt her heart drop into her stomach.  “I went to the pier to clear my mind after going to Josh’s and when I opened my eyes, he was there. Just staring at me.”  Airielle whispered and all Yasmine could do was blink at her, she was trying to form words but her brain had stopped working. “He wasn’t real though, right?” Airielle asked, her eyes pleading with Yasmine to agree.  Yasmine nodded instantly

“He wasn’t real Airi, I promise.” Airielle let out a shaky breath and let herself sink into the couch. 

“He wasn’t real.” Airielle repeated. But no matter how many times she said it, she knew it wasn’t true, and him being in Pensacola was only the beginning.

August 20th 2021

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850-876-5643: Airielle talk 2 me  850-876-5643: Please 850-876-5643: just answer the phone so i can explain.  850-876-5643: stop ignoring me. 

Airielle threw her phone in her bag as she entered The Footprint Center in Phoenix, Arizona. Josh had texted her every damn day trying to explain himself and he honestly didn’t need to. He was single and could do whoever he wanted to. He didn’t owe her an explanation but he was hell bent on giving her one. 

Airielle definitely needed those two weeks off, Paul had even granted her an extra week after Airielle lied and said she had a death in the family.. It was wrong but shit, the mere thought of going back outside and probably running into Christopher scared her shitless. She had somehow managed to survive off of whatever she had in her cabinets and pantry which mainly consisted of canned goods and chex mix. 

“Hey.” Airielle jumped - she’s been doing a lot of that lately- “Woah.” Josh said, holding his hands up as he walked closer to her. “ I didn't mean to scare you Rih, You good?”

“You look nice.” He said and she rolled her eyes. 

“Josh, wassup?” 

Josh was taken aback by her standoffish attitude, she had never been like this with him. “You been ignoring me. I wanted to talk about what happened.” Airielle let out a soft grunt and looked around,checking her surroundings,  she had been doing a lot of that lately, too. She let out a quiet hum as she noticed Yara and Zelina standing by the other end of the hallway, looking in her direction. 

“Rih.” Josh called out, cupping her jaw and bringing her attention back to him. “I ain’t mean for that to happen. I was hurt and upset and-” 

“Josh , stop” She cut him off, removing his hand from her face. “You don’t have to explain anything to me. You’re single, you can do whatever you want.” She tried to walk around him but he stepped in her way. 

“Bullshit, you’re upset.” Airielle sighed and closed her eyes. She was on the verge of a breakdown and she needed to get away from Josh ASAP. 

“I’m not upset.” She lied and Josh knew she was lying. But there was nothing he could do about it and it pissed him off. He wanted her to talk to him and to stop keeping shit bottled up inside.  “Can I go now?” 

Josh sucked his teeth and moved out of the way, letting her pass. For some reason he felt as if he had cheated on her and he wanted to fix things, but shit.. She kissed Raymond first. He sucked his teeth again and walked in the opposite direction to start getting ready for his match against Rey Mysterio. 

Airielle held her head up high as she strutted past Yara and Zelina, she had almost walked past them when Yara reached out and grabbed her wrist, stopping her. 

“Hey, um- i’m gonna need you to stay away from my man.” Yara stated, flipping her cheap ass wig over her shoulder. Airielle scoffed and looked around to see who she was talking to. 

“Excuse me.” 

“Don’t play dumb. You know that’s my nigga now. You’re old news, you have no need to be talking to him anymore.” 

“Girl, get the fuck off of me.” Airielle laughed, snatching her arm out of Yara’s grasp. 

 “I'm being so forreal right now. I might be new, but he’s my man and you're getting too comfortable.” Airielle had to giggle at the look of anger on Yara’s face. 

“Maybe you should be having this conversation with ya’ man. He been blowing my phone up for days.” 

“All I'm saying is stay away from my man.” Airielle sighed and rolled her eyes.  oh boy.

“Tell your man to stay away from me.” Airielle winked and shouldered her way past an angry Yara and amused Zelina. 

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Sooo... hope i didn't disappoint w/ this chapter 😭

Yara is a grade A BITCH but Airielle can handle that ass.

I like how Josh's number is no longer saved in her phone neither lol

it went from being Josh to Josh ❤️ to J.Uso and now just a number lmao.

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A work friend of mine's daughter has recently developed (?) schizophrenia. He seems to like my advice in general, and in particular thinks I gave him helpful advice about handling traumatic experiences he's had, and so talks to me about this a lot. I've tried to give advice along the lines of prioritizing her comfort/well-being/calmness over her "connection to reality" (his words), like not picking arguments over things she says in pursuit of correcting her, similar to taking care of someone with dementia.

Do you have any points I can focus on or resources I can look up to support him and by extension his daughter better? I'm not very familiar with the subject but do know that in looking this up I'm wading through a lot of stuff that's not very supported or with the schizophrenic person's well being and agency in mind.

You're exactly right about the comparison to dementia. Although not nearly as severe an illness, schizophrenia is one of those "redirect not reinforce" conditions.

So, one of the big things you can suggest, especially while the person is in the early period of onset (which can happen over the course of a year at any age, but usually between 20 and 30), is try to help them make plans for the future. Which sounds big and scary, but it mostly consists of honestly going through with them to make lists of the things they enjoy, the things that stress them out, etc. Because there is going to come a time, and it's sooner than anyone wants, where remembering what she finds relaxing will become impossible on her own (at least, during periods of high stress; she may always be able to self regulate in normal conditions).

Schizophrenia often makes people feel deeply afraid and out of control of their own thoughts, which is really scary!!

But your friend's daughter is likely still able to remember what things she enjoyed before the onset of her illness. Whenever she gets too wound up in a fearful delusion, rather than trying to combat the delusion, I suggest redirecting her to one of the things she enjoys, whatever that may be. A hobby, a movie, etc.

It's important that the idea for the redirection initially come from the schizophrenic person themself. This way, you can honestly say, "hey, remember when you said you like X, why don't we try some X together," and it be something reaffirming to the person's sense of control rather than fighting it.

Of course, if the delusion isn't fearful/scary/stressful, the best thing to do is to accept that it is her genuine reality right now, and just work around that belief. No need to start a fight and make it stressful.

Another thing is, and this is MUCH more controversial in the west but I'll go ahead and say it. Another thing is, if the daughter's voices are friendly or kind, to support her engaging with them (if she so chooses). This way if/when her voices become mean she can choose to "disengage" with them as a conscious change. In practical terms, this means if his daughter is ever having conversations with her voices that seem to be in good spirits, to treat that more like she is talking on the phone with someone you don't know, than to treat it as a scary hallucination.

Then, if the voices ever get mean, she can "give them the silent treatment" to help establish a sense of control over them and help her feel like she doesn't have to listen to them.

In a way, it can be good to conceptualize her voices as "influential strangers" and just encourage her to listen to good influences and ignore bad ones.

Finally, depending on where the daughter lives and her support needs, it might be good to get her registered with the healthcare service in your area sooner than later. In the US, a young person with schizophrenia automatically qualifies for medicaid and can also qualify for disability. Both will need to be applied for, and the application process is a byzantine mess.

Especially regarding disability, it is best to hire a lawyer to make your application (they will be paid out of your benefits not your pocket).

As such, if your coworker's daughter is unlikely to be able to live entirely on her own, including job, hygiene, travel, etc it's a good idea to get there registrations started ASAP. That way if the coworker ever becomes sick or when he eventually dies, etc the daughter can be supported.

If the daughter has low support needs and is likely to be able to live on her own (which can and does happen sometimes!! Even with schizophrenia), one of the biggest challenges she's going to face in the long term is going to the doctor.

Not only are doctors deeply, deeply scary to the mentally ill in the west (for good reason!), which makes doctors a prime target for delusions of fear and abuse. But also delusional thinking can interfere with a person's ability to identify their own body sensations.

EG, it is very common for schizophrenics to "be really angry and not know why" and it turns out it's because they have a UTI but couldn't feel it due to delusions. In fact, it's so common that one of the first things we do at work when a client is very upset like that, is ask them if they have been peeing more often (the answer is usually 'yes').

A huge part of the reason people with schizophrenia die young is the inability to tell when they are sick, followed by feeling unsafe going to the doctor.

Ultimately, the biggest thing to remember is that no matter how stressed or scared you are as a carer, the person with the illness is just as of more stressed. They aren't fighting you, they're fighting terror. Remembering that can make the intense demands of caring for someone with higher support needs less draining.

The second biggest thing is to remember to take time for yourself, because if you burn out as a carer, then you've left your kid without support for potentially months or years, and that's pretty bad compared to having them go to a fun adult program like a summer camp every day for a month while you recover.

Finally: there are more programs for schizophrenia support than you think. Even in my rural bumfuck town of 3000, we have two (2) different programs, including a year round day program that operates 5 days a week and takes walk ins.

Your coworker does not have to take care of his daughter alone. Support exists.

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Episode 12: Doors!

And here we are at the end of the line. Thank you to all who continued to tag spoilers and shout out to those who were actually patient enough to wait week to week. I tried, but caved almost immediately, who would have guessed? (everyone. everyone guessed.)

I remember feeling strange watching this episode because I felt like tonally it was so off of everything else that we had been presented with. While there have always been comedic moments in the show, I felt like episode 12 really leaned in to the comedy in a way that was slightly jarring because they were still wrapping some things up. Just my opinion, I think what would have worked better for me structurally is if we took the medical stuff out, had Qian and Yuan kiss at the beginning of episode 11, Qian had balked, they have sex at the end of episode 11, and we open episode 12 with the morning after scene, and we move the time skip to when Lili gets pregnant so that isn’t twenty-three and having to give up her career ambitions. And then the more consistently comedic tone of episode 12 would have made more sense to me. 

REGARDLESS, I did very much love how they handled the pregnancy reveal and the tension between the comedy and the sincerity in the scene. So I really want to talk about it. 

Qian enters the house, announcing his presence and then stopping almost immediately in the doorway looking around in surprise because he very much did not expect the house to be dark and empty. He calls up the stairs after Yuan and Lili and remarks to himself “what’s going on? They asked me to get groceries.” and I do not think it is an accident that the way Qian enters and interacts with this empty space feels paternalistic, the parent calling up the stairs after their children in case they didn’t hear them the first time. 

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He looks down at the table, and you can see the moment the sonogram photos catches his eye with the urgency in his movement to get all the bags he’s carrying off of him so he can pick the photo up. He studies the photo, and you can see the internal monologue on Chris’ face as Qian fully clues in to what he’s seeing and what it means. Mouth slightly agape, eyes slightly widening, but moving around in time with his thoughts. And initially I laughed at this moment because I thought that everyone knew Qian’s reaction would be rough and had fled the house to give him some time to cool off. 

He pulls his phone out of his pocket and heads up the stairs while dialing Yuan so that he’s killing two birds with one stone. It is notable to me, the decisions they make in the direction of this scene because despite Qian already having figured out that that sonogram is likely Lili’s, it is not Lili that he seeks out to deal with it. It is Yuan. Because when he heads up the stairs he’s also not walking up to Lili’s door, he stops and looks at Yuan’s. 

But Lili is hiding in there, because misdirection to throw Qian off his rhythm seemed like the best way to interrupt any building emotions. Yuan hears Qian’s footsteps stop and comes out of Lili’s room before Qian has a chance to knock or flat out enter Yuan’s room. This is all around the strategic move. They are going to have to talk about it with Qian eventually, so it might as well be now, and Qian historically has a much different reaction to Yuan than he does with the rest of his little family, so they are sending in the big guns first, to try to get ahead of the reaction they expect from Qian. If Yuan knows and can calm him down, maybe the conversation will go a bit smoother. 

I love that it cuts immediately to a shot of Lili pressed up against Yuan’s door, listening intently so she can analyze the situation and determine when it might be best to make her presence known. “Why were you in Xiao Bao’s room?” Lili hears Qian ask through the door.  “What’s the meaning of this?” we cut back to the hallway, where Qian is, rather calmly showing the sonogram photo to Yuan. 

So far, Qian is being quite cool about this. No big emotions, no yelling about the photo. Yuan sucks in a deep breath, as he prepares himself to deliver the news. “You saw it.” he says, as if this is something Qian stumbled upon rather than something they all intentionally left for him to find. “Well…” he tries, Yuan tries to start explaining, but there is some hesitation in his voice. Not out of fear, but just because he doesn’t quite have the right words to say what needs to be said. And he isn’t meeting Qian’s eye.  

Lili steps out of Yuan’s room, before Yuan has a chance to get the words out. Which I appreciate, I don’t think Yuan should be the one to tell Qian that Lili is pregnant. Qian initially turns his head towards the movement and then as Lili steps out fully Qian slowly turns his entire body towards his sister, softening his body language as he goes. The hand holding the sonogram photo drops to his side, the hand holding his cellphone moves, fingers curled lightly, to put his phone in his pocket. 

“You…you’re going to be an uncle.” Lili says in a quiet voice, and initially she cannot look at Qian. When she tries to start the sentence, she is looking at the ground, and it is only as she gets about halfway through the announcement that she finally casts her eyes upward to look at Qian. Neither Yuan nor Lili brave enough to Say The Thing aloud if they have to look at Qian, his presence is known but cannot be initially acknowledged if they are going to be brave enough to tell him this. They saw what happened when he found out San Pang was dating his sister, what would he do when he found out San Pang had gotten his little sister pregnant?

Qian casts his eyes downward, towards the photo in his hand, then back up and to the side, away from Lili’s face taking in a big breath and giving himself the time he needs to process his feelings and find the appropriate reaction. Because there is no way he doesn’t know why Yuan and Lili were afraid to tell him about this, and there is no way he wants to do that to his sister. Lili is dissociating a little bit, staring off into a middle ground, before she hands her head again. We see how tense Qian is in that moment, his back is ramrod straight, his hands are curled in to light fists, blinking a ton as he takes in a breath, Yuan in the background looks between his brother and his sister, holding his breath because he doesn’t know what is going to happen, and standing in such a way that he would actually be able to grab Qian before he could notice if needed. 

And then he shakes his head, quieting all the parts of himself that want to be angry about this and his lips turn up in a tearful smile as he reaches out to pull his sister in to a hug. Yuan collapses against the wall with a huge sigh of relief. Over Lili’s shoulder we see Qian bite his lip like he’s trying not to cry as he slides a hand upward to cup Lili’s head, patting her. Lili closes her eyes in to the hug, and Qian doesn’t let go. Instead he deepens the hug by resting his head on her shoulder. And when he does let go he looks at her almost immediately and rubs her arms briefly trying to comfort her. Lili is already looking at him before he’s fully pulled back from the hug. 

“Xiao Bao,” he begins and oh my god y’all Tammy is able to make the smallest little sound in the back of her throat as Lili’s response. That shit killed me, cause Lili knows she’s safe with her brothers there, but she’s still trying not to cry about the pregnancy news or about the gentle way that Qian is treating her here. “Let me ask you something. Are you ready for this?” his forehead knits together as he asks the question “huh?”

Lili feels so small the way that she nods her head and gives another little sound in agreement, she’s stopped looking at Qian again, casting her eyes downward.

“Have you thought this through?” 

“Mm.” she confirms again, still not saying anything. 

“Didn’t you want to be a model? What are you going to do about it if you have a baby?” and while Qian has been able to have a very successful career, it is the beginning of a reminder of Qian’s positionality in this story, Qian has given up a lot in or to care for his baby sister. 

Lili does not give him an answer.

“Having a baby is not easy. It’s a lifetime commitment.” and this is where my heart started to twist, because this is Qian speaking from experience, as a child who took on too much responsibility far too early in his life. Qian for all intents and purposes was a teen parent, who had not parents to help him ease the burden of raising his little sister much less when he adopted Yuan and gave himself another mouth to feed. Lili is only 23, she is so young, she has her whole life ahead of her and here she is pregnant and willing to put aside her dreams in order to have and raise this baby. 

Like Qian was. 

“You have to think it through.”

Tammy makes these little jaw movements when Lili nods again, confirms with another little “mm.” that she knows this, that she has and is thinking it through. 

Yuan sighs again, he’s just been watching the back of Qian’s head and sighing in relief when he knows that they are through a part of the conversation where Qian might have been set off. 

Qian looks down, closes his eyes for a second, this is the book end to his question of his sister. He needs to take just a second to collect himself a little more and transition in to the other important questions. 

“What about San Pang? Is he going to take responsibility?” 

“Yes,” Lili finally speaks, her voice thick with tears. For me, it is important that she actually speaks here, because everyone in that hallway knows what Qian’s initial reaction to finding out that San Pang was fucking his sister was, so Lili needs to make it absolutely clear to Qian that San Pang is taking responsibility. 

Qian moves his jaw a little bit in a way that feel accepting of that answer, which is coupled with a tiny head nod from Qian as well. 

“Will he marry you?”

“Yes.” Lili says even closer to the brink of tears. 

I love this little moment, because both Qian and Yuan have a very similar response to this answer, they are out of sync with it, but they both nod in almost the same way. Because it is important to remind the audience that these are Lili’s brothers (Qian and Yuan), not Lili’s dad (Qian) and Lili’s brother (Yuan).

Qian’s jaw moves around a lot after this answer, because he is taking in a shaky breath. He’s about to cry and you can hear it in the way he asks “Will he take care of you for life?” 

“Yes.” 

Qian takes in the world’s biggest and most important breath and finally stops looking at his sister, Lili has given him every single answer he has needed to hear in order to make himself be okay with the fact that she is pregnant. 

This is such an interesting scene for me because I think it perfectly encapsulates Qian’s role in the family. The way they set this scene up positions Qian as the parent learning that their child is pregnant from how Qian enters the home, to the questions that he asks Lili, to the warnings that he gives her about how difficult it is to raise a child. But the brotherliness of things is there as well, we are reminded he’s Lili’s brother when she says he’ll be an uncle, Lili’s little vocal inflections, the way Lili nods her head, the way she engages with Qian’s hug all make her feel small to me. A reminder that this is Qian’s little sister. 

And that distinction is cemented in the next part of this scene. 

“Ge.” Lili says, and Qian turns back to look at her, so that she knows he is fully and wholly engaged in this conversation with her. “Promise me. Promise me you won’t be mad at San Pang.”

Qian swallows hard. Qian and Yuan take in a sharp breath at exactly the same time when she says it. He casts his eyes down, breathes out, swallows hard again, and then looks back up at his sister. 

“Alright. I promise.”

Yuan’s entire body relaxes, that boy has been on alert this entire conversation, and it is only when Qian promises Lili that he won’t be mad that Yuan is finally able to breathe normally again. Placing a hand on Qian’s shoulder and giving it a supportive and grateful squeeze. 

AND THEN MY FAVORITE PART HAPPENS 

“You…you promised.” San Pang says exiting Qian’s fucking room. The disrespect. True best friend behavior. 

What I love about this moment from Chris’ perspective is the face that he makes at the end of his promise to Lili is exactly the same as the face he is making when San Pang makes his presence known. But there is something that shifts somewhere in the way that he stares, in the setting of his jaw where the rage is so so visible on him. 

“You won’t be mad at me.” A sharp intake of breath from Qian to that line, and then he hands Lili her sonogram photo, at which point San Pang should really have started running because absolutely nothing good could come of WEI QIAN having both his hands free. San Pang tries to stay in the support camp with the rest of them, patting Qian on the back in almost exactly the same place as where Yuan is holding his shoulder and smiling like a doofus. “You’re going to be an uncle.” 

Man read the room, your bestie has taken his sister’s hands gently in his own and has started to move them up to her ears. RUN! RUN FOR YOUR LIFE! 

Qian sets his jaw and before anyone has a chance to react he turns and lunges for San Pang’s throat with his bare hands. As I said, this show has (mostly) been successful at managing the balance between comedy and drama, and it is really nice to have a little moment of reprieve from the emotionally intense conversation between Qian and Lili with a little attempted murder in a moment that must have been very very fun for the actors to film. 

Yuan wrangles Qian downstairs and calms him down and eventually Lili and San Pang make their way downstairs as well, with Lili coming to kneel at Qian’s feet. I am not culturally competent enough to talk about the significance of the kneeling, so I won’t. But I will talk about the conversation that Qian and Lili have. 

“You raised me.” Lili says, still kneeling, still not making eye contact with Qian despite the fact that his eyes are trained on her. She worries her lip for a split second, looks him in the eye, and continues “Normally, you are my big brother.” 

The camera cuts to Qian’s face “You’re like a father when you provide for this family. You’re like a mother when you nag.” 

Qian is the one to break eye contact this time, sucking in a breath, and looking around aimlessly for a second as the power and weight of Lili’s words hit him. Qian looks back to his sister and smiles softly, “Get up and talk, OK?” he raises his eyebrows in a question “Hmm?” And he is so soft with her, this scene nearly brought me to tears because this is the first time Qian is hearing someone say this to his face. 

Yuan has spent so much of his time in his relationship with Qian acknowledging that Qian has been taking care of Lili and him, but is always following that up with a plea for Qian to understand that he doesn’t have to do that anymore. But Lili isn’t trying to change the nature of her relationship to Qian, and we as an audience already saw her acknowledging everything that Qian has done, all that he has suffered, but she said those things about Qian and not to Qian. So this is the first time that Qian is hearing how his sister regards him in the context of her upbringing. 

“Your hair is all messed up from kneeling,” Qian says, and tries to flatten the stray hairs of her bangs in such a tender act of love and care and gentleness. Qian is capable of not being mad, but he just needs some processing time. San Pang showing up immediately was not their smartest move because it didn’t give Qian time to process. But Qian has vented his frustrations now and he is capable of being calm and caring. 

(^this little hair fixing moment is my favorite of the entire episode by the way.)

This is a story about Qian and Yuan, and as such we rarely get to see interactions between Qian and Lili. I am glad a moment like this exists because I do think it is important to establish that Qian has always and will always care for Lili in the biggest and the smallest of ways. 

“Xiao Bao, I’m not against you.” He takes a long pause, his breath goes shaky. “It hurts me to think about it,” his nostrils flare “and I can’t bear to see you go through that. You’re too young. You’re only 23.” Such a heartbreaking line when you think about how Qian was roughly ten years younger than that when he started caring for Lili by himself. Qian’s voice starts to break. “You still have a lot to do, dreams to follow, and places you want to go. Don’t you?” Qian asks, and throughout that entire sentence, Lili is nodding softly, once again refusing eye contact. 

She nods again, a confirmation that she does have things she wants to do, aspirations she wants to follow, places she wants to go. 

“That’s why I’m afraid.” Another pause “I’m afraid you’ll end up like our mother.” 

Let’s stop here for a second to acknowledge that Qian is using his words, using them well, and actually being vulnerable with his sister here. I appreciate this parallel to the alleyway scene in Episode 11 where Qian admits to Yuan that he is worried about turning into his mother. “Getting pregnant, then getting married, and leading an unhappy life.” 

Camera cuts to a close up of Lili’s face, as she takes in a big breath and swallows hard. “Ge,” she looks Qian in the eye now “because of you, I’ve always been well-protected.” She beckons San Pang over. “But because of San Pang, I’ve learned that in this world, there are people who are willing to wholeheartedly care for you besides family.” cut to Zhiyuan “Just like Zhiyuan does for you.” 

I don’t want to break down the body language of that part of the scene because that isn’t where my focus was. My focus was on Lili’s lines. In the acknowledgement that Qian has done so much for her, at the acknowledgement that Qian has protected her. While I have my qualms about the pregnancy plotline, especially because it is not in the original novel. I do have to say that I think it serves as this beautiful point of symbolism. 

Because Qian took on so much burden to keep his sister, his family safe, Lili is not afraid of being a parent. Because she had a really good example in front of her for her entire life. It hasn’t been perfect, but Qian has played the role of father, mother, and brother to Lili and to Yuan for a significant portion of their lives. Qian may be afraid of Lili turning in to their mother, but that is because he is not able to see the forest through the trees, he is not able to see that there is nothing to worry about because Lili had strong role models, incredible support, lots of love. 

Lili is ready to be a parent because of Qian. Qian broke the cycle of violence that they were born in to and as such this baby will be born with so so so much love and support in their life. And that is just so touching to me. The idea that after all this time, after over a decade of Qian holding the world on his shoulders, after over a decade of the pain, the debt, the fuckload of work, Qian has succeeded in protecting his sister from the horrors of the world, and broken the cycle of trauma for the next generation.

And I really hope that Qian knows that.

[asha-mage]

Assorted Thoughts From Forcing My Friends to Watch all of WoT as a birthday gift, Season 2 Edition-

When taken as a whole unit, the show actually completely conveys what's happening with Lan's bond from the jump, it's just that several characters are incorrect or working with incorrect information- as was often the case in the books. Lan thinks he's just been blocked out, but in reality Moiraine has released his bond entirely (as she floated she might do to Alanna back in season 1) and you can see the moment he realizes this in episode 2, when saddling the horses- he realizes that he didn't sense the Fade and what that means, and then Moiriane realizes he has realized.

The show in general is a lot more subtle, and a lot more willing to delve into the idea that often characters are just...wrong, or uninformed, or lying, without holding the audience's hand to explain that fact then I think people give it credit for- which is very in line with Jordan's ethos. For example, Ishamael's telling of Perrin 'the more wolf you become the more you are mine' is a blatant manipulation attempt to scare him into being afraid of his Wolfbrother powers and Perrin, who is going through hell, just buys it- and that makes sense he's already wrestling his own anger issues and fear. He doesn't question why Ishamael would tell him this, or what the effect would be (i.e not trusting the wolves, and thus maybe making himself more vulnerable to the Shadow) he just accepts it because it plays into his existing fears and biases about himself.

Anvare also raises this point really well when she gives her 'ask yourself- is it true?' speech to Moiraine. Moiraine is operating at that point under a lot of assumptions that aren't true- not just that Lanfear is going to hurt or capture Rand, but also that she really was stilled, that she can't trust Lan with her fears and doubts, that her presence is a threat to Barthanes and Anvare (when really Barthanes's presence is a threat to her)- and this moment, is meant to cast doubt not just on that, but on a lot of the assumptions the audience has likely been making too, which characters their taking at face value and which characters their thinking off through the lens of their own biases.

Continuing the trend of Moiraine displaying many of the bad coping mechanisms that will later dog Rand/Rand will internalize from her- @ofthebrownajah pointed out recently Rand's consistent issues with food and eating, which made it stick out to me how frequently in the show Moiraine has a similar problem. People repeatedly try to reach out to Moiraine via food/encouraging her to take care of herself, and she repeatedly rejects them. Lan's attempt to get her to come down for dinner, then to bring dinner to her in her rooms, Barthanes's sandwich, tea with Anvare- Moiraine has her walls raised so high she rejects this basic form of self-care and attempt to reach out hand in hand. This is especially notably because their is a repeated emphasis on food this season. Every major character gets at least one scene eating or drinking this season (Egwene and Elayne doing bootleg, Rand grabbing flatbread on his way to work, Mat with Liandrin's honey cakes, Nynaeve preparing dinner in the arches world, Lan sharing dinner with Alanna's family at her farm) but even Moiraine's eventual forced tea with Anvare goes deliberately unshown.

On rewatch I think that, while I really really love the moment where Renna and Seta are left to the mercy of their own culture by Nynaeve and Egwene in the books, the moment of Egwene killing Renna just makes the most narrative sense for the show- and I think will be a change that they are going to walk out through it's consequences.

The point of that sequence in the book is that Nynaeve understands that Egwene's bloodlust and anger are valid- but that the fact of killing will not help her in the long run. "It's okay to hate them. They deserve it. It's not okay to let them make you like them." I suspect, especially given how thoughtful the show has been about violence and death (and how clearly hollow the experience of actually killing Renna is for Egwene) that the show will take the plank of 'she deserved to die- but killing her did not undo everything you went through or heal you'. Which, again makes sense both Egwene's oncoming Aiel arc, and the fact that the books do spend a lot of time focusing on Egwene working through the trauma of her captivity.

The arches are another thing I've come around on after initial trepidation about their changes. I think each manages to still cut at the heart of Nynaeve's character arc and her struggles. The last one was my biggest concern, the shift from Nynaeve deliberately rejecting a perfect life with Lan for the sake of going back for the other Emond's Fielders to Nynaeve going back after realizing that such a life lived with Lan, as much as it might give her joy for a time, would still be hollow in the end. She can't turn her back on the struggles of the world and her friends without consequence- she can't just go back to life in the Two Rivers. She has to keep fighting for what she loves.

I think the choice itself also works when put in the context of the steady removal of Nynaeve's charges one by one. She thinks Rand is dead (and is probably blaming herself for his death as pops up in her interaction with Tam), Mat ran off, and Perrin is safe with the Shinearans. Her main charge left is Egwene- and hering that she's not helping Egwene but hurting her, overshadowing her- removes the final reason she really had for being at the White Tower, staying on the adventure. If the people she left home to save don't need her- then why is she there?

I continue to really think people are over hyping how bad the show supposedly makes Siuan look- my friends despite being largely uninitiated in the book series immediately groked that Siuan and Moiraine where just doing what they felt was right, in a complicated situation. They both are trying to save the world, and they love each other- but the world is more important.

Moiraine also brings a lot of the trouble on herself by not telling Siuan she was stilled and damaging the trust between them- leaving that detail out is the first crack in Siuan's ability to trust Moiraine still be honest with her, her partner in all this, and then her seeming to have either lied or regained that power, right at the moment she's allied with Lanfear, is the final blow any hope they where still standing together.

Despite stopping frequently to talk at even minor moments, we ran through almost the entire finale without pausing and then collectively all just sat there speechless. Man is the battle of Falme and everything around it so good.

Quote one of my friends re: Moghiden "Oh she's a little freak."

Also shout out to Lanfear for making one of my MLM friends doubt his sexuality with her 'short hair pirate t shirt look'.

That entire scene in the dream world bedroom cased a collective meltdown and one of my other friends to say 'oh I see why you where insane about this'

The effects continue to be killer throughout the season and god I can't wait to see season 3.

[httpsdana]

𝐔𝐧𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐓𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬~𝐀 𝐅𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐚𝐧 𝐓𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐬 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐢 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐩𝐭 𝟏𝟒

summary: Barça players and talented footballers. Souls meet and sparks fly. But there's always a twist when it comes to love isn't there?

pairing: Ferran Torres x Gonzalez!Reader

warnings: cursing, slight age gap, angst

previous part

Everything was messed up. y/n's performance hasn't been as consistent as before, causing her to losing her spot in the starting lineup.

Pedri was avoiding Ferran in every possible way. He wouldn't celebrate with him after a goal. He wouldn't hug him when being subbed off. He doesn't even look at him at training.

And the fans have begun to notice it. You see sad edits of Ferran and Pedri, and how they don't seem to hang out as before.

Pedri was also not speaking to y/n. They haven't talked since the incident and always avoid family meetings. They haven't had a proper dinner with their parents for almost 2 months now.

It's always y/n and Fernando or Pedri and Fernando. Never the three of them. But they tried their best to avoid this conversation with their parents.

"hey love" Ferran said, when y/n appeared behind the door of her apartment.

"hey babe" she said back, giving him a small kiss before pulling him with her to the living room.

She sat him down and laid her head on his lap. She let out a sigh, closing her eyes as Ferran started to run his fingers through her hair.

"everything alright amor?" he asked, noticing her unpleasant expression.

"I can't stand this anymore Fer" she sighed, opening her eyes to look up at him.

He sighed too, tangling her hair with his finger.

"I know baby. me too, but what are we supposed to do?" he said. She shrugged, taking a deep breath. Ferran leaned down, pressing a few kisses on her forehead and cheeks.

"can we try to talk to Gavi or maybe Fermin?" y/n suggested, in which Ferran sighed.

"both of them are avoiding me too" he mumbled, making y/n's face drop.

"them too?" she murmured, feeling her eyes tearing up.

"baby don't cry. we'll figure this out please" Ferran said, running his thumb under her eyes to stop her tears from falling.

She sat up, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand.

"maybe you try talking to one of them?" Ferran suggested, making her shrug

"trust me Fermin would love to talk to you" he scoffed, making her look at him confused

"what is that supposed to mean?" she asked, rasing her eyebrows

"that boy obviously has a crush on you. the way he gives you heart eyes the whole time he's around is annoying" Ferran rolled his eyes, making y/n grin slightly.

"are you jealous?" she asked, leaning closer to Ferran. He turned his face away from her, his jaw clenching a bit. She grabbed his chin, kissing him softly, making his face soften a bit.

"unfortunately for him, I'm into older guys not younger ones" she mumbled against Ferran's lips, making him smile down at her

"here take Fermin's number and ask to meet him. he can convince Pedri to talk to one of us. They have been hanging out a lot recently" Ferran said.

He grabbed his phone, searching for Fermin's contact. When he found it he sent it to y/n, before she opened her phone and texted him.

Fermin

hello fermin. this is y/n. how are you doing?

sent at 4:37

"why do you have to ask how he's doing. just tell him to get Pedri to talk to one of us" Ferran complained, making y/n laugh at him

"I'm being polite Fer" she pushed his shoulder, making him pout. She leaned in to kiss him, when her phone dinged, she quickly grabbed it, making Ferran groan.

She opened the message that she received from Fermin.

Fermin

hey y/n! I'm great! how have you been? x

Ferran snatched the phone out of her hand, furrowing his eyebrows at the message

"why the hell did he send it with a kiss?" he said, reading the message again

y/n snatched the phone again.

"what should I tell him? should i ask to meet up with him?" she asked, still looking at her phone

Ferran didn't reply, making y/n look up at him. He had his jaw clenched and his leg was shaking up and down.

"babe?" y/n said, while he hummed in response, not looking at her.

"Ferran" she said more sternly.

"yeah" he mumbled, still not looking at her.

She smiled at him, throwing one of her legs over his thighs, sitting on his lap to make him look at her. She grabbed his face in her hands, forcing him to make eye contact.

"Ferran" she mumbled, looking into his eyes.

He hummed again, glancing down at her lips, before quickly looking up at her eyes.

"you know i love you right?" she said, making him smile a bit. He tried hiding his smile, looking away. She giggled, making him look at her again.

"and i love you too" he said. She smiled, brushing her hand through his hair. She pecked his lips a few times, then grabbed her phone, still sitting on Ferran's lap.

"so what should I tell him?" she asked.

"tell him to meet up, with the both of us" Ferran replied. She nodded and started typing out her message.

Fermin

I'm fine. I was wondering if you can meet up with me and Ferran tomorrow? it's really important

um I'm not really sure about that you know. because of Pedri and stuff...

y/n sighed, showing Ferran the message. "try convincing him, he'll agree eventually" he said.

Fermin

please Fermin. It's really important and it's about Pedri. please

okay fine. we'll just meet up before training at the cafe outside.

thank you so much Fermin. appreciate it

anything for you y/n <3

"he's so annoying" Ferran rolled his eyes, taking y/n's phone and throwing it to the other side of the couch.

y/n laughed, dropping her head on Ferran's shoulder. She sighed, hugging his torso to feel his warmth

"it's gonna be fine darling" he mumbled, kissing the side of head.

•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•

"y/n! hi! Ferran..." Fermin said, first starting excitedly then mumbling Ferran's name.

"Fermin...sit down" Ferran said, motioning his head towards the chair that was facing the couple.

Fermin sat down nervously, swallowing the lump in his throat

"so...you know that me and Ferran are dating" she said, carefully looking at Ferran

Fermin cleared his throat and nodded.

"and that Pedri didn't like it at all and stopped talking to us" she said. Fermin nodded again, already knowing where the conversation is going

"we want you to speak to Pedri and make him talk to us" Ferran said immediately making Fermin sigh

"listen guys. Pedri doesn't like or want me or anyone talking about you two. the second he hears any of your names he gets angry. Once Gavi tried to speak to him about it and he didn't talk to him for the rest of the day" Fermin explained, making the two look at each other.

Ferran saw the disappointment in y/n's eyes. He grabbed her hand, running his thumb over her knuckles.

"maybe try to arrange something with him but instead we go?" Ferran suggested, making y/n look at Fermin quickly.

She saw the uncomfortable look on his face, then he looked at her while she begged him with her eyes. He let out a sigh and nodded

"fine I can do that. Just be here at the same time tomorrow. I'll tell Pedri that me and him will meet here" he said.

y/n smiled widely, making Fermin smile too. Ferran cleared his throat, making Fermin look at him before getting up

"I'll just go now" he said. He gave y/n a hug, and Ferran a handshake before walking out of the cafe.

"see it wasn't that bad. we can talk to Pedri and make him forgive us" Ferran said.

y/n smiled at him, leaning towards him and putting her head on his shoulder.

"I just hope he talks to us again" she said, letting out a sigh.

(last chapter next)

[rrafecameronsslut]

R. C. / Chapter Two

Tags: @sublimepenguinpeach-blog

warnings: profanity, fluff, marking, aggression, maybe a slight kidnapping thing going on.

relationship: short-tempered!rafe x maybank!reader

summary for chapter one if ya missed it! : you were at home waiting for jj to come home, only for him to come home from a beating from some shit kooks—rafe & topper, but you don't know that because jj didn't tell you—you work for the cameron's and when you got to tanneyhill, rafe bossed you into his truck. as you two were driving the truck to the country club to meet up with kelce & topper, the truck broke down. it's hot as hell, your pissed which pisses rafe off so when rafe slips away to call topper you run off.

a/n: rafe has a his season three buzzcut, branding iron will be used on reader

branding iron: consisted of an iron rod with a simple symbol or mark which was heated in a fire.

"That little fucker."

Rafe's words echoed the empty street, thinking "Probably went into that damned forest." He walks into the forest with a huff, rolling his white button up shirt's sleeves up. "y/n! Come out, if I find you it's not going to be fucking pretty!"

He huffs out as he hears your shoes slapping against forest bed, breaking twigs along the way "Babes, just c'mon and stop. M'not gonna hurt you, just come back!" Rafe grips your shirt collar, wrapping his hand around your throat, making you gasp out.

You struggle against his grip, breaking free to run again only to be tackled into the mud by Rafe "I said stop running." He hisses in your ear, your eye twitching involuntarily.

He grabs a fistful of your hair; making you let out a sharp cry "M'sorry!" You shout, wincing from his aggressiveness. "I- I won't do it again! Please!"

Rafe let's go with a low rumble, "Your going to stay by my side, twenty four seven because of that little trick you pulled, kiss your brother and the Pouges asses goodbye, I can't trust you anymore."

And just like that—Rafe ruined your life before you got the sweet taste of fucking freedom. "No, please!" You whine out, but it was already to late, as for Rafe was already dragging you back to his truck.

Rafe hisses, tossing you inside the truck. He calls a tow-truck to come pick the both of you and his truck up. Quiet 'mhms' and 'alrights' leave Rafe's mouth, making him seem like he didn't blow a gasket and is basically going to hold you hostage, not allowing you to see your family or the Pouges.

When he hangs up, he turns to you, taking a breath "What the hell was that? Do you not realize you work for me, and you go running off because your pissed and hot?" Rafe huffs softly, as you ignore him "Now we're both muddy, so congratulations, y/n." He claps his hands together, in annoyance.

You look down, taking a breath as the imprints where he tried to choke you are turning red, slowly and brightly. "M'sorry.." you whisper out softly "Just, let me see my brother! Please.."

Rafe's glares softens—if there was one thing he would never admit is your one of his soft spots. "Yeah- yeah, no of course, but I'm going to be there the whole time. So don't try shit, then we're leaving and your staying at Tanneyhill."

You let out a whimper, slumping in the passenger seat "Okay, it's the best I can do, for now, anyways." You look down, avoiding his gaze. Rafe growls slightly frustrated by your actions, "Look at me, y/n. Look at me, right now." You look at him, hesitantly.

"Your mine now. So it's about time I get to put my initials on you." He whispers, the possession in his voice unreal.

"Oh-Oh, so like a tattoo?" You look at him, slightly confused. Rafe snickers "Oh, your cute.. but no. A branding iron."

You look at him in shock "Like those things people mar horses with?!" Rafe just gives you a simple nod "Yeah, pretty much, because when someone is going to be mine, their gong to be mine forever." He shrugs nonchalantly.

* * *

When both you and Rafe manage back to Tanneyhill, he takes you to a room; one that was always locked and only Rafe and Ward were allowed to go in.

Rafe leads you to a couch, gesturing for you to lay on your side, he rolls up your left shorts legs up, he walks over to the fire pit were he picks up the branding iron, specially made with his initials; R. C.

You'd heard stories about Rafe threatening girls to make them officially his, but never did it—but here you were, Rafe looming over you with the branding iron placed directly on the side of your left thigh.

You let out a sharp cry as he presses the scolding hot branding onto your thigh, letting a string of curse words out "Fuck this son of a bitch, that hurt you bitch!"

Rafe chuckles softly, moving the branding iron back to the fireplace "M'surprised you haven't broken down in tears, crying about how you want to go home, yet." He looks at the branding on your thigh, a burning indention mark with his initials. It was official, your freedom was gone.

You let out a hiss, "Fuck you!" You curl into a ball of pain. "Oh, I can't fuck you yet. But when I do, your going to be shouting my name for days, because it's the only name your going to remember, ain't that right, baby." He picks you up, bridal style, carrying you to his bedroom

"Sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bitecha." Rafe murmurs into your ear teasingly, kissing your forehead.

Surprisingly, the kiss on the forehead was quite comforting, making you crave his touch again. Though your cravings were strong, you dozed off into a deep slumber.

"Night, y/n Maybank. This is your last two weeks as a Maybank, soon your going to be a Cameron soon. And I can't wait." Rafe whispers into your ear as you look like sleeping beauty.

[bythenarrative]

give us the evil headcanons brother in arms go go go (no pressure)

TexCali angst HCs!

CW for : internalized homophobia, toxic relationships, and transphobia under the cut!

California and Texas have always had a complicated relationship. Due to Texas' internalized homophobia, their romantic relationship is extremely complicated. It fluctuates from romance, to hatred. It is in no means healthy, and they both know it.

Due to Texas being more conservative, he forces the two of them to hide their relationship from the public out of fear of backlash from the rest of the states.

( not angst ) California was the first, and only person that Texas has come out to. With the nickname 'safe space', Texas assumed that he could talk to him after a lot of back and forth debating.

California had BPD ( Borderline Personality Disorder )

Adding onto the last one, California splits on Texas constantly. ( That's just the disorder ) It typically doesn't escalate because California knows how to handle his disorders well, but there will be the eventual time where California just loses it and shouts at Texas. Times like this don't come unwarranted though, there will be an obvious cycle of Texas' neglect and consistent arguments that cause the outbursts.

Texas' internalized homophobia causes him to act out against California. Even in loving moments, he'll find himself pulling away, becoming disgusted with California.

I personally headcanon California as transgender. Texas uses this as an excuse for dating a man because he still sees him as a "woman".

Adding onto that, it obviously has affected California a lot, having his lover not truely see him as a man, and dating him simply because he's transgender.

In the wild west, they called each other "Tejas" and "Alta". Now, when they are angry with each other, they call each other those names.

During the Californian Gold Rush, the two of them had been separated. California had been with many people during that time, and was used and left as soon as the Gold Rush ended. Now, California is constantly paranoid that Texas will do the same thing.

During the 1920s, the Hollywood era, the two of them were separated again. During this time, California and New York had found themself in a relationship, and bonded over the two of them being actors. Texas would find himself constantly watching the movies that California was in, and when news had spread of New York and California, he had broken his mirror, because he was unable to look at himself.

The two of them watched Brokeback Mountain together when it had first came out, and Texas had found himself overly relating to Ennis Del Mar. But, if anyone had asked him, he watched the movie because it was about cowboys and ranching. He "Wasn't a queer." as he would have said.

Texas cannot show his emotions whatsoever, it all turns to anger. Along with California, his emotions all turn into sadness and jokes to try and play it off.

California cannot accept any help. He knows that he is the "Safe Space" for all of the states. If he asked for help, who was he? He's not allowed to have feelings, it would make everything hard. He finds himself not having anyone to talk to, not even Texas. He bottles things up to the point that the smallest comment sets him off. This happened once during a meeting, when Texas had called him 'safe space', and he shouted at him, telling Texas that he had a name, and it wasn't "Safe Space", nor "Alta", it was California.

When upset, California only speaks Spanish.

[chevelleneech]

I am fully on Tim’s side when it comes to him saying he doesn’t have control over the promo. Almost no director or showrunner has a say in how their production company or network chooses to promote a project, meaning ABC’s marketing team knew Buddie was popular and would work regardless of if they saw the finished episode.

As well, Tim isn’t an editor nor did he direct the episode, so it’s also not completely on him to know what all would be included and what would be axed. That’s just television and film.

That said, the people trying to climb on a high horse and act like Buddie shippers are wrong for demanding fan service be fulfilled and it’s not Tim’s job to give them whatever they want…

Buck is canonically bisexual because Tim gave into fan service. Five seasons of demand, which he recently basically confirmed himself. And that’s not a bad thing. Fans having wanted it for years and Tim deciding to go through with it now is fine, but the way you all are trying to remove that fact from reality is ridiculous.

So to repeat what I’ve said before, multiple times now, the show needs to clean itself up where Buddie is concerned. It needs to clarify what is canon and what’s not, and if Tim is going to say Buck’s been queer coded this whole time, he has to decide how he is going to approach the fact that this now means fans can choose to assume Buck’s been coded as being into Eddie since s2. Because that is almost exclusively where his queer coding comes from.

Meaning, it is no one’s fault but Tim Minear’s that most Buddie shippers are expecting Buddie to happen now. It is not a reach nor leap for shippers who have consistently wanted one thing for years, to except to have the whole thing now that they’ve got half of it. I do think some fans are taking it too far and are being impatient and rude, but at the end of the day, a lot of them aren’t. A lot of them are coming to a logical conclusion, even if they might eventually end up wrong.

And these conclusions are logical specifically because the show runner 1) gave into fan service by making Buck bisexual 2) confirmed Buck’s queer coding started in the very same season he met Eddie. — Which is technically him giving into fan service again, even if it’s something he himself truly believes from a storytelling standpoint.

But as the person who mainly controls the story being told… he is showing one thing in canon while confirming another off screen. Which is not the best thing to be doing.

So I’m curious where they will go with everything, but it’s getting kinda messy.

[charles-leclerc-official]

I still think you’re not giving Daniel and RB their credit and placing too much discredit(?) on Carlos (not that he shouldn’t be completely without accountability). I think RB just nailed the set up this week. Daniel made up a lot of time at the corners. He had better traction coming out of it and saved his battery for the straights. Ruth Buscombe said that RB specifically prioritized the corners while ferrari was more balanced. Because RB is usually slower and way behind Ferrari, isn’t today an even bigger indication that Daniel and RH did something right/better?

Again true. Like Danny was great, and VCARB did really good with the setup.

However Carlos was within DRS and had so many opportunities for that overtake, it's not like Danny got out ahead and created a gap, Carlos was within that gap for a while. Not being able to pull those overtakes isn't due to maybe being lacking in the grip on corners (we didn't see him slide that I'm aware of) so that really isn't the issue.

The matchup between cars was really unusual here. And we can see based on Yuki's placement in qualifying that is probably closer to where Danny would have been if we are going based on car setup. Danny qualified where he did because he 1. put together a good lap and 2. a lot of drivers behind him in better cars messed up their SQ3 laps (Lando being a good example) He really shouldn't have been starting P4, 50% of that is him, but the other 50% is the other drivers really messing up their laps.

If Carlos had been able to overtake him I am pretty sure Danny would have also been overtaken by Oscar.

Overtaking really does come down to skill, and he was within that range, yes defending is too, but like I said Danny wasn't doing anything crazy defending really. He was doing a good job but it wasn't like he was going crazy.

Also there were many laps where he was faster than Danny, it really is on him to overtake there. His overall pace was better and his laps (minus the ones where things were slowed down for all of them on some of those turns) were faster.

Like here his pace was consistently faster in terms of lap time. Danny had it on him only a few laps, but the Ferrari was faster. Like faster by 3 - 5 tenths. Those are laps when he really had the speed and proximity to make the pass.

And then if we want to look at the corners you are referring to we can look at the fastest lap track maps, the first is Carlos vs Danny and the second is Carlos vs Charles, and the third is Charles vs Danny.

So you are right, Carlos was struggling with grip on the corners. But compare it to Charles, Charles was doing better than Carlos and Danny on most of those same corners. It wasn't a Ferrari Vs VCARB problem, it was a Carlos vs VCARB problem.

And just to be sure here is the track map for the fastest laps of both Ferraris and both VCARBS. It's Charles outperforming the VCARBS on the corners. Again so it's not the car setup being unable to take the corners that is the issue here.

Also managing tyres is down to skill, once again this is on the driver. Carlos has had average tyre management in this car, and the car as we have seen is very gentle on the tyres. I'd say his losses are due to the temps not favoring his tyre management, thus more tyre deg.

This really was a skill issue on Carlos' part. He didn't change up the way he attempted to make that pass(we saw him try the same thing multiple times) it's no wonder Danny didn't struggle to defend against it. He should have tried to change up his approach going into the corners on the overtake to catch Danny off guard. Given how many chances he had it really is on him.

And it's also just a difference in the cars, I'm sorry but there really aren't many good excuses when Ferrari is the second best car and it's stuck behind a midfield car. I'd give him more grace if it was a Mclaren or even an Aston, but it's a VCARB, that car is not that good. I don't want to discredit Danny too much because he did drive well, but the reason he finished where he did was because Carlos couldn't overtake and he had a lucky qualifying lap.

And here's the thing, it's okay, everyone has less than optimal showings. I get that, I don't want to be too hard on him, I just lay this out because it is mostly on him.

Like we have to have space for drivers to have bad days and less than stellar performances. I look at things as a whole. And unfortunately this does continue a pattern of him not doing well overtaking in the SF-24. So this isn't just this race either, it was just highlighting a weakness more than anything.

[wombywoo]

Love your art!!! The way you collage and tone stuff is just a feast to the eyes 😩👌🏻🧑🏻‍🍳

I noticed you don’t really draw ghost with a lot of facial scars ect, how do you feel about him being semi heavily (imo) head cannoned w/ a Glasgow smile ect? Or do you have some other scars/injuries you head cannon??

Have a wonderful day!

Hmm..I suppose I haven't given Simon a lot of scars (just the main ones on his forehead/cheek/lip and a few fainter ones around the face) There are vague ideas on how he got these, mostly combat-related....

I've seen a bunch of people draw him with a Glasgow smile and it definitely looks cool! I just don't personally draw him with it because...well, honestly, I can't imagine him receiving that type of injury. Turbo trauma terrible taco tuesday backstory aside, I think it would be a bit...too much for him to have his face obliterated like that, lol (not that I even adhere to the comics 😔✋)

I guess I just prefer him with more subtle facial wounds 🤷‍♀️ Gotta maintain that anglo-saxon bone structure 💅

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[itsclydebitches]

If I'm remembering correctly, I saw a AMA post on Reddit revealing Blake and Ruby were supposed to go into the whale and Nora was supposed to take Yang's place in the argument with Ren. I'm not sure why this change happened - it might have something to do with Penny and Ruby - but its very revealing the writers think their characters' roles in the story are interchangeable, which... I don't like. Regardless, this might explain why certain dialogue (or lack thereof) seems ooc - because it is.

Yeah, I heard something similar. Generally speaking I don't have a problem with the characters switching roles, only in the writers failing to change things as a result of that switch. As you say, they're treated as interchangeable. The problem isn't in the idea of, 'Yang should get mad at Ren and Ruby+Blake should stay at the mansion' (even if, honestly, giving the B Team more to do is a bit of an inherent problem imo) it's in failing to go, 'Okay, if these characters are now doing this, how does the plot and their dialogue change as a result?' To put it in extreme terms, RWBY's the kind of show where they'll originally have a character dress to the nines, then change the plot so that they wind up in grimy, scorched, utterly disgusting rags instead... and still have another character go, "Omg you look so good today!!" with complete seriousness because the change isn't allowed to have a ripple effect. Not even for creative purposes, but just for basic logic.

As a side-note, I'm intrigued by the idea of Nora getting mad at Ren instead. That hypothetically works better for me. 1. We remove some of the fuel that is Yang getting mad at everything all the time, 2. Ren is Nora's teammate and she has far more reason to be emotionally invested in his choices, 3. Having her stick up for Mantle/be anti-Ironwood again would have helped smooth over the odd choice to have her go to Atlas HQ, 4. Nora's whole arc this Volume is (supposedly) finding herself, so giving her a strong opinion/more personality in regards to serious issues is a good thing, 5. If his side was actually treated respectfully, having Ren's differing morals put a potential wedge in their relationship is FAR more compelling/believable to me than, 'You were a very bad friend and teammate off scree. I'm glad you learned to stop voicing your opinions -- that's the bad thing -- but I need space now,' and 6. Having an all JNR disagreement might add more weight and logic to Ren's "You cheated your way into Beacon!" accusation. Meaning, it all might flow better if the team were turning on each other, with Ren feeling ganged up on, so if Nora is going to start criticizing his ethics and potentially stupid choices, he'll do the same to Jaune.

With Yang I'm just like... You trusted Robyn blindly, betrayed the group as a result, are straight up lying right now about how well you've done, and are yelling at a guy you've barely spoken five words to in as many Volumes. I am not convinced by your ethical position here, Yang.

[starswallowingsea]

Jouno doll with pink dress, crochet, acrylic, 2022

A different take on @tunamayuuu 's DTIYS

He is so top heavy I literally couldn't do more than this for photos

[jrueships]

hes so funny to me

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

i think i've finally come to understand why i'm so bad at communicating with friends 👍 at one point or another i've thought i was in love with every single person i've ever been friends with (for the most part, at least) because i don't expect other people to like me. OBVIOUSLY this is not true but platonic feelings are not dissimilar to romantic ones (baseline they're the same: you want to love and be loved by someone) but i always end up realizing that i'm not in love with them, just that they matter to me very much and i wouldn't know what do to w/o their presence in my life. BUT this brings me to facet number 2 of my awful communication skills: i hate it when things Get Real. i find myself retreating any time it seems like Something Could Change in my day-to-day life due to them being around and "forcing" the change. i run away from talking to one of my only irl friends on almost a daily basis bc i dread the idea of having to do anything she might want me to do. i think, at the end of the day, my problem might just be that i don't want to change... ANYWAYS