freaked up self harm culture is, having harmed oneself about six times in the last two days in a visible place, intending to do it again so that it looks like it was just once and really bad, then claiming it was in fact once, so that family won't be as concerned
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y'know i don't understand the whole reaching out to your friends when you feel like self harming thing that therapists want you to do because like they can't even help me with that shit themselves. you're supposed to be some kind of psychology professional, ive been talking to people like you since i was like 9 and guess what, im still miserable, i still wanna cut myself. tf is kevin the headshop cashier supposed to say? fucking hell im just so tired
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i was having an okayish mental day today but all of a sudden when i was driving home from work i just started sobbing total breakdown time because i started letting myself think lmao like there is so much i don’t talk about now which is definitely making me worse and definitely bringing out all of my self destructive habits but i’m just like…..tired i’m tired of living in survival mode and feeling like i can’t think straight i’m tired of having nightmares and not sleeping i’m tired of not being able to cut off the person who hurt me for the last 8 years of my life and i’m tired of being alone and feeling lonely but i just can’t do anything i can’t keep up with anything or anyone enough to be a healthy existence in anyones life i’m just so lost and i know i’m in such a bad toxic place and i don’t know when i’m going to figure out anything i have no idea what to do at all but man i’m drowning i really feel like i’m not going to get through this
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im sooo glad I found this razor my arms are literally dripping with blood I love feeling it flow and watching my skin pull apart and soaking my tissues with red. keeping them to stare at, leaving the stains on the blade. I barely care how much I risk infection by not cleaning, I need to see my work and marvel at how much progress I'm making getting rid of the toxins inside me. people will say that this must feel awful but really it only feels good to me
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