#SHE HAS HSI BODY

[aleclightofmylifewoodbane]

GUYS IT IS NOT GOJOVER

SHOKO HAS GOJOS BODY

[luvvyouforever]

exclusively yours - sdv harvey x reader!

-> synopsis: harvey realizes some things about himself and one of those is that he can't stand it when other people look at what's his.

-> warning: NSFW MDNI MDNI MDNI SMUT! jealous harvey mhm. a touch of dom harvey what can i say. slight shane slander nothing too mean. a bit wordy. you've been warned.

-> a/n: i hope you all enjoy! i wrote this whenever i had time free over the course of a week when i should be doing homework.

there's a rare fire in his eyes that night at the stardrop saloon. he's not sure what it is that he's feeling in the pit of his stomach, but he knows for certain that he doesn't like the way shane's eyes rake over your flower dance dress that you had been wearing since this morning when you danced with the doctor, and not shane.

he's reminding himself of the ring on your finger, the farm that you live in together, the bouquets you've gifted him, the necklace that took ages to procure because the weather had to be just right. and yet, none of that is easing the jealousy threatening to bubble up over the surface.

the lust in shane's gaze becomes even more apparent as the crowd dwindles. he's talking to you and harvey can barely make out the words coming out of his mouth, but then there's a touch to your elbow that was well-timed to come after a joke you just made, and now harvey is striding over, wrapping a tight arm around your shoulders to stare at shane.

"what was so funny?" he asks and the interested inflection in his tone is entirely fake. "i know my wife has such a keen sense of humor, doesn't she?" you don't miss the emphasis he puts on 'wife.'

shane's grown awkward now, and he shifts hsi weight from one foot to the next. he's been caught and there's nothing much he can do to salvage this situation. "yeah, uh, she just made a joke about summer. nothing serious. sorry," he stumbles out.

"mhm, yeah. so, we'll see you around?" harvey says which effectively ends the conversation and forces shane back into the booth he was originally sitting down in. with a breath of relaxation, he turns to you with a different kind of fire in his eyes. one that makes you shiver with palpable excitement. "ready to go home?"

you nod and his hand moves from your shoulder down to the small of your back to give you just a slight push away from prying eyes and out the door of the saloon.

neither of you speak on the way home and it feels like even the nature around you is holding its breath in anticipation of what will happen when the door to your farmhouse swings open. the farmhouse becomes visible in the distance and there's a sudden weakness in your legs. subconciously, both you and harvey pick up speed until you find yourself speed-walking to the front door.

he wastes no time in pulling keys from his pocket and unlocking the door and, ever the gentleman, letting you go in first.

once he shuts the door behind him, his hand immediately finds the small of your back again and you feel your body inch closer to the bedroom. anticipation grows and grows until your back is leaning against the doorframe of the bedroom and harvey's stature is looming over yours.

this is new, this is unexplored, this is uncharted territory. harvey had never once been anything other than unadulterated sweetness in the bedroom. he cared about your pleasure, your comfort, and your enjoyment more than anything. but now there was something calling to him to give into this urge building in the pit of his stomach.

harvey's hand crawls from its position by his side, up the curves of your stomach, then stops at the base of your head. a soft gesture tilts your chin upwards so you're looking directly into his brown eyes. you feel small underneath his intense gaze, but it's certainly not a bad feeling.

"you know," he begins with a breath, "i've never considered myself a jealous person." you bite your lip in anticipation, feeling warmth grow from your core and radiate outwards. "but...the way shane was looking at you tonight...i think we just need a small reminder about who you belong with."

there was so much intensity behind his words despite them coming out in a soft drawl. you could have buckled right there on the doorframe but his body was caging you in so that there was no way you'd fall.

with a breath and a swallow, your hand travels from your side to his waist. "then remind me," you tease.

harvey's eyes darken and something about this excited you to no end. his strong hands bring you close to his chest and his lips hurriedly meet yours. they intertwine in a mess, teeth clashing, tongues bumping, but it sets your entire body alight. with ease, harvey inches you away from the doorframe and to the bed where you fall down onto the soft mattress. the white dress on your body falls around your waist, revealing the underwear you had on.

then, harvey growled. like truly, really growled as if something had took over him in these few seconds. he had been suppressing this urge to be with you intensely for fear of hurting you or embarrassing himself. but he's spurred on by your moans and the heat he feels radiating from between your legs.

after making out so roughly that your lips are left feeling numb, harvey's hands travel down your body, stopping at the hem of your underwear. with a strong tug, he pulls you to the edge of the bed and sits on his knees in front of you. he'd regret placing so much pressure on his aging knees in the morning, but that didn't matter now. what mattered now was making you cum to the point that you are unable to think of another man but him.

without much warning, harvey's mouth met your core. you threw your head back to the bed, letting out a moan that made you glad you lived so far from any other person. he was like a man possessed, seeking some salvation in the wetness growing and growing in between your legs.

he pulled away, but not for long as his fingers gripped the hem of your underwear and slid them down your thighs, calfs, and off your feet. for a second, he sat on his knees, marveling at your pleasure and whispered, "you must really like this, huh?"

his voice was laced with lust and darkness. before you could even respond, his mouth met your middle again and every part of your body lurched forward, in awe of the pleasure he was giving you. there was a coil in the pit of your stomach that was growing, wounding around itself, tightening with every stroke of harvey's tongue against you.

"harv! fuck!" you managed to choke out. you could feel his lips tilt upward in a smile, and just when you thought there was no possible way it could get better than this, his finger teased at your hole before plunging in. harvey's anatomical knowledge guided his finger upward, curling up to the spot that sends you reeling.

his name was a prayer on your lips as that coil tightened till the point you think it might snap. you could no longer hold it when harvey added in a second finger, curling both upwards and creating a pressure that pulled the coil till it all fell apart. you were a mess, hair sprawled on the comforter, dress halfway up your body, wetness dripping from harvey's fingers.

he leans back on his knees, eyes blown wide with lust. his lips glisten and his carefully groomed hair and mustache are destroyed. he's breathing heavily, but he didn't stop his frenzy there. with rushed movements, he tugs off his tie, his button down, his undershirt till there was nothing adorning his body.

"need this off," he mumbles, pulling at the hem of your dress. you come out of your daze to rise up and slide the dress off your body. "jesus...," he whispers. he rises from his spot on the floor and gestures for you to scoot up to the bed. slowly, his body comes over yours and once again you become caged in his grip and his scent. "do i tell you that you're beautiful enough? because if i don't i need some sense slapped into me."

heat floods in your cheeks at his words. harvey, ever the kind gentleman, was a whole other person entirely. for a second, you wonder if you could tease more possessiveness out of him. he was already delirious with pleasure. what could a little more hurt?

"i'm glad you think so too, dr. harvey. shane really thinks i'm the best looking person in this whole town," you say with a smirk tilting your lips upward.

that fire reignites in his eyes again. in seconds, his hands come to your wrists and you feel pinned against the bed. his chest is rising and falling with intensity.

"if i hear another man's name on your lips tonight, you're getting it," he threatens.

and, because you can, you push him further. "shane. alex. sam. sebastian. lew-"

in a renewed sense of dominance, harvey clamps his hand over your mouth, effectively cutting you off. "i don't think you'll be able to talk when i'm done with you," he says, voice just slightly above a whisper.

"prove it," you whisper back.

harvey smiles with something sinister lurking beneath the service. he stands from the bed, eyes never leaving yours and tugs off his belt, then his pants. with no flourish, his length comes out, irresistibly hard from the night's activities. he climbs back on top of you, settling his center in front of yours. he's barely touching your core but it's sending you arching upwards.

"i don't think shane could manage making you feel this good, you know?" he teases your entrance. "i mean, if you'd like to try, go ahead, but you'll come back to me crying because he can't make you cum like this." slowly, he slides himself in. you let out an unearthly moan that is met with his own grunts. "you're all mine. no one else's." he fully enters you then, hitting as far back as he could manage.

he drags himself out, then slowly enters back in. it's torturous. horrible. so awfully frustrating.

"please, harv. more!" you beg. he kept up his slow pace, barely budging. "need you more." you sound just as pathetic as you feel.

"can shane make you feel this good?" he asks.

so that's what he wanted from you. "no!" you plead.

"are you all mine, then?"

"yes, all yours!"

"exclusively mine?"

"exclusively yours!"

at those final words, harvey fucks into you again with a quicker, rougher pace. this was what you needed more than air. your hands fly to his arms where your nails dig into the skin there. he would wake up with marks that remind him of the night, but maybe that was your purpose in doing so.

harvey is stretching you out in the most perfect of ways and the closeness of his body to yours sends shivers all over you. his hands are desperately clinging to every part of your exposed skin and his chest rises quickly in attempts to catch his breath. nothing could stop him from his actions right now. all he can focus on is the way you feel so tight around him, the way you're moaning his name, and the way he has to hold in his orgasm until you've came all over him.

which isn't too far away. it's building with every deep, powerful thrust he makes. he's hitting spots inside of you that he hadn't before. it's blissful, filthy, and perfect. in the middle of your ecstacy, you make a note to draw out harvey's jealous side more.

"fuck," he grunts out. it's so strange to hear such filthy language coming from your husband who balked any time you said swear words. "you're so fucking tight for me, huh?"

his dirty words pull out a loud moan from you which seemed to spur harvey on even further. his thrusts lost their rhythm and his breath became rapid. he was close and so were you. with urgent moves, you wrap your legs around his waist which sends his length inside of you as deep as it can go. your eyes meet with a silent agreement.

your moans mingle together, filling the room with lewd noises. your name is repeated over and over again until the moment you both feel that release toppling over the edge, filling your bodies head to toe with pure bliss. his body doesn't still, but instead he returns to the slow pace he began with, pumping his cum deep inside you.

after some breaths and stilled movements, he pulls out with a slick noise and falls to your side. his arms open up in a silent request for you to lay on his chest and you oblige. the bed is destroyed, your bodies are sweaty, and there's certainly something leaking out of you onto the sheets. but sheets can be washed, beds can be made, and showers can be had.

all that matters is that you were exclusively his, and shane could never make you feel like that.

[koiiiji]

I am curious what is your opinion on this idea. During the second affiliate arc. Y/n or reader go to rescue Sinu as he was their lover. Sinu sees Y/N or reader and becomes possessive of them even if he forgot about them as hsi body has this need to protect them.

hiii

really interesting idea tbh, especially bc i like yandere scenarios. its kinda hard to imagine Sinu being yandere, its more like he can became really attached, like a lost puppy, and at the same time struggling with his blackouts in memory due to drugs that Mitsuki gave him.

so i can imagine really twisted thing where Sinu’s memory is totally fucked up and at one moment he is really clingy bf who missed reader, maybe even a little possessive, not letting her out of his embrace, and the same second his mind is switching and mixing with past things Mitsuki convinced him and sweet embrace turns into suffocating grip and maybe even choking. when he will get back to his senses he will unceasingly cry, say sorry, hug reader — even if she pulls away, Sinu anyway will forcefully hug her — he will babble nonstop about how sorry he is and that he didn't want to.

little do reader know is that with time these seizures become more and more frequent and Sinu slowly starts to losing his mind again, but this time it is the result of his own mind, unconditional love and past trauma, which making situation wven worse.

[heissenn]

𝗧𝗪𝗜𝗟𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 jinhsi x fem! reader the story of two children, of a thief and a magistrate. and how two worlds, contrasting each other like heaven and soil, collide and mold into one.

TAGS: fluff. 2k words. in celebration of jinhsi rerun. dedicated to all jinhsi stans out there.

your small body felt smaller under the towering racks and piles of supplies, the numerous shelves brimming with bread, cheese and spices felt endless and for a moment you thought about how many winters it would take to empty even one. however, there’s no time to pick and choose, you’re more than aware your presence is not welcomed here and time’s running out.

three loaves of bread. your hand grabs another one without any second thought, another loaf could spell your survival through the upcoming winter. your eyes land on the selection of meat: chicken, deer, pig. they join the bread and cheeses in your worn out sack. you reach out to a basket of freshly picked fruits on the table that was a little too tall for you. but before you can sack them, bright light surges behind you suddenly and your body automatically flew to swiftly hide before your mid could process what was happening.

the light moves closer, growing brighter and wider with each step. the smell of metal and dust fills you as take cover in a cabinet filled with cooking utensils but you kill any signs of breathing just like any other time you’ve been caught.

there were no sounds of footsteps and if it weren’t for the light, you wouldn’t have thought there were anybody else beside you. the grip on your small knife tightens and you swing just in time when the cabinet door is forcefully opened. but the tip of your cheap blade unfortunately met the air as your arm was caught by a gentle, soft yet forceful hand.

your ragged breaths come to a halt when you realize a girl your age stands before you. normally, you would’ve given more thought as to why a child is loitering the kitchen of the mt. firmament city hall but you had more pressing matters to worry about. you put more weight into your arm at an attempt to free yourself from her vices or to slash at her, whichever works. but her grip was too powerful for someone so petite.

a shadow crosses your face and your features form into a grim expression. you’ve never been caught before and you were certainly not about be caught now especially by a child like you. your breaths that you tried so hard to calm slowly spill from your throat and became the only sound in the vast kitchen. the light grows strong and only then did you realize it wasn’t blinding white but yellow and golden.

there was only one in the city hall that could emit powerful golden light who was around your age, even a peasant like you have heard of her. “the magistrate” your young brain couldn’t catch up to the fact that the future magistrate of jinzhou is standing before you. and she just caught you stealing.

“future. right now i’m just hsi,” she corrects you. “you must be the thief that has been plaguing the city hall these past few days.” the small smile she directed was kind and you think it suited her innocent features, you think she looked more like a playmate rather than the future leader of your country.

the white eyes that peered at you brimmed with too much curiosity one should have when addressing an intruder. she didn’t look mad even though your other arm is heavy with carrying the sack filled with foods you stole from her. “look, i’ll leave this sack and all the stolen goods just don’t tell on me,” you bargain but the desperation in your voice made it sound like a plead.

“why do you steal? it is against the law, there are harsh punishments waiting for thieves like you,” she asks as if you were a puzzle she couldn’t make anything of.

even with your prepubescent mind you think it made sense that she couldn’t comprehend your actions. she has been sheltered her whole life, what would she know about the unforgiving coldness that bites your skin during winters or the merciless gangs that lurk in the shadow of the streets or the countless deaths you’ve witnessed just because they didn’t have enough to live. it wasn’t her fault she wasn’t exposed to the unkind experiences that haunt you every day.

but it still filled you with rage, that someone as old as you can lead a life so different from yours.

“life is very different outside these walls, princess,” you bite at her. and to her, your sudden anger must be misplaced and confusing. but her hands that were free from callouses or her skin that was clean of any mud or bruises further proves the contrasting worlds you both live in. “you’d know if you actually come out of this little shelter of yours.”

you cast your head down after your little tantrum. hsi’s hold weakened and you took it as your chance to yank it out of her grip. you waste no time pointing your knife at her but she didn’t look the least bit threatened. “keep the sack, then,” she voices.

“i’ll let you go and speak not a word to anyone.” the light surrounding the both of you glows a brighter. “but do not let me catch you twice.” and you took it as your cue to flee into the night where the horrors of reality awaits you.

‘princess’

the word echoes through hsi’s head. she’d heard of ‘magistrate’, ‘young madam’, and many other variations but never ‘princess’.

it felt unnatural to be called something that exists only in stories. unnatural like the name ‘jinhsi’. a heavy name she would bear when she gets appointed the title of magistrate.

princess don’t get chosen; they were born in royalty. they also don’t have sentinels to guide them.

the future magistrate wonders if princess have playmates. were they allowed to chase butterflies? dance in the rain?

hsi finds herself wanting to meet you again despite being the one to threaten you if you ever show your face again. the nights where her feet leads her to the kitchen increases. and so does her burning curiosity. she had never seen a kid her age before. nor had she met a thief before. nor a young thief.

hsi walks up the grand staircase after another rendezvous in the kitchen, it isn’t good for young girls to miss sleep. especially if they have lessons about trade and policy to listen to the next day.

there were only several steps left until she reaches the corridor to her bedroom when she heard a ruckus outside. she leans on her tippy toes over the huge window that showcase the city below to get a better look.

her eyes widen just a little when a small figure carrying a familiar old sack entered her vision. her sight was pinned on you that she didn’t realize you were chased down by enforcers. and it seemed that you didn’t as well as you were struck by a flying object. hsi’s hands grip the windowsills as she watch you tumble. you picked yourself up before you could hit the ground and although wobbly you continue to run from the men chasing you.

hsi peeled herself away from the scene and bolts down the staircase she just climbed before she could understand what she was doing. she had a brief realization that it was her first time sneaking out but the thought was pushed further in her mind when the chilly air pricked her skin as she opens the small door reserved for servants.

she could've turned back, forget what she had seen and tuck herself back to bed. she should’ve. but the young hsi didn’t

instead, she ran toward your direction.

you ran.

until the men behind you were replaced by endless tall trees that casts spooky shadows under the moonlight.

you pant as you lean your back against a sturdy trunk. the sack lays secure in your hold and you open it to check if the item you ventured out for was still there. your eyes landed on a box. it looked too simple to be the cause of an entire ruckus.

medicine.

your fingertips touch the simple woodwork to open it but the sound of a twig splitting echoed through the thick forest. the sack in your hands is closed and slung in your back in one swift motion. you climb the tree and settle on the lowest branch.

the shadow of a figure comes closer. and with it comes a light colored in a shade of gold you’ve had the chance of seeing up close before. confusion settles in your stomach.

soon, your suspicions were confirmed as hsi treads the woods ever so silently.

‘was she here to catch you and deliver you to the men after you?’ the thought flashed for a second but it seemed unlikely. an important figure such as her wouldn’t be doing things outside her post. then, did she come here in her volition? maybe she is just out for a walk and her actions didn’t concern even a little. but, a walk at this hour?

before you can think about her actions any further, the subject of your thoughts turned her head up and white eyes met yours sharply, leaving with no choice but to meet her at the ground.

“to what do i owe the pleasure, princess?” you ask as you dust yourself while approaching her closer.

“what did you steal this time?” her forehead had the littlest of crease and you would’ve thought she looked cute if it weren’t for the situation.

“did you really come all the way here to ask that, princess? you could’ve just asked the enforcers. im sure they’d be more than happy to answer,” you say as you walk around her in circles, wearing a small smile that you hope masks the tension you feel.

her sight remains on you and her white eyes moves with every step you take. it looked so slivery and silky under the moonlight you were sure it can replace the moon above.

hsi opens her mouth to reply but before any sound leaves your mouth, a loud rumble shook the ground. leaves fells from tree and birds stirred from their nests. the smile on your face turned sour. you turn to the girl beside you, “looks like playtime is over.”

too much confrontation within a day. and all of them with faces you did not want to meet. a sigh leaves your lips as you grab hsi’s hand and ran towards the opposite direction of the roar.

“wha-”

“tacet discords are coming. we have to hurry,” you cut her off as prominent fear and panic coats your voice. times likes these makes you realize how juvenile you are; it makes you want to hug your trembling body and to hide behind someone else.

you and hsi ran as fast you can until you see a familiar cave. you point at the small and seemingly insignificant opening. “there, that’s our base.” your hand squeezed hers as the ground moves again. you’ve flee far enough but safety is not ensured as long as you were outside.

you both headed towards the entrance of the cave in haste.

hsi didn’t know what she was expecting but she knew it wasn’t this.

“big sister!”

a handful of kids younger than her run towards you. you pick one of them up and you ruffle the hair of another. “miss me?” she heard you say beside her. repku never came as the kids’ attention suddenly turned to her.

“you brought a friend!”

“who is she? is she gonna be joining us from now?”

“wow, her clothes are fancy.”

comments were thrown at her all at once and hsi felt a little hot under all the gazes. she smiled at them in return and looked to you for help. you just giggle at the scenery in front of you and did nothing to pull them away from the overwhelmed magistrate.

“no. she’ll just be staying with us for tonight.” hsi noticed that your smile seemed more genuine and your expression was softer than your usual grin. she thinks softness looks good on you.

“why don’t you guys play with her while i have to go do something?” you suggest and before you walk away you turn to her one more time. “have fun, princess. don’t worry they don’t bite. i think”

hsi watches as you saunter off somewhere else and disappear from her sight, leaving her with kids looking up at her with shining eyes. the smile she gave them was warmer than the fire that was crackling at the middle of the cave.

“are you big sister’s playmate? that’s great! she doesn’t have anyone to play with other than us.” a little kid who looks no younger than nine tugs at hsi’s hand. and she didn’t have the heart to deny the statement when all the other kids started celebrating so she said, “i am.”

“she always takes care of us but never herself.” she heard from someone beside her. another one adds, “yeah, so take care of her for us!”

the future magistrate knew then that she chose right following you. now, she has confirmation that you are more than what meets the eye, the gut feeling that filled her during that fateful encounter in the kitchen.

after a few moments of answering the children’s whims and wishes, hsi felt like her cheek could burst from smiling. it felt like a piece in her childhood puzzle has been found. the happiness that comes from children playing with other children.

she wanders around and it didn’t take long to find you hunched over a body laying on a stack of hay. it took her a few seconds of hesitation to finally approach you.

“were the medications for her?” she asks as silent and as soft as she could as her eyes fix on the sleeping little girl. “yes. its gotten worse but the things i brought should be enough.”

the crack in your juvenile voice made her realize that you were just a kid like her, like them. but responsibilities and experience does not care for one’s age. she knows that.

suddenly, you stand up and face her and under the crackling embers of the torches lining the walls, she sees a glimpse of tears drying on your cheeks.

“we’re a few hours from sunrise. you need to get back to the town hall before they notice you’re gone.” you grab her hand, cold yet soft. hsi had to swallow a refusal, you were right but she couldn’t help but want to stay for a little longer.

both of you walk through the forest again, this time no monster disturbed you and no conversation was shared. hsi went home that day with a deeper understanding of the person that was you and a hooter curiosity.

it would be years till her curiosity was sated.

she didn’t meet you the next day or day after that, or the weeks and months. you weren’t there when she had to leave hongzhen. and you weren’t there when she became jinhsi as well.

jinhsi fights the monsters hurling at her, her energy was already depleted even before coming here but she felt dried up now. but she couldn’t give up, the road stretches on far ahead and juè is waiting for her.

she parried one strike but another is coming from her back. she unleashes her resonance ability but the hordes did not falter one bit, more were still coming behind them. jinhsi fell to her knees, her head felt like a balloon being emptied of air.

but before she could hit the ground, a slash cut the hoard in half.

“welcome back, princess.”

[peanutheaddd]

favorite dog man book?

Oh anon. Ohhhhhh anon. You cant make me choose. Staring solemnly at the sunset. i cant . they all have their good parts.

id say top three are tale of three kitties, for whom the ball rolls, and mothering heights . unfortuantely cant rank within that list i think id explode .

stupid baka rant about every book below cut bc im fucking NEURODIVGERNEEE NNTTTTTTT FUCKKKKKKKKKK

ig book 1 and 2 wouldnt rank very high js bc theyre js silly. i love them obviously but it doenst even compare to the other books bc theyre js So compelling. theyre more lighthearted and thats ok w me . i like them bc dog man gets a lot of attention hehe ^_^ i love that guy

I Love tale of two kitties. i thnk its one of the most insightful books into petey and dms character along with obviously introducing lil petey as a character. tale of two kitties is one of the most influential books in my brain when im characterizing petey specificlaly but def dm as well. it just. realy perfeclty shows how petey doesnt have an onchalant bone in his body which is So important for how i personally characterize him. and it realy shows dms selflessness and how he took to fatherhood like a fish to water like . its just. So good in that aspect. drawing these parallels ig between them .

lord of the fleas has one of my fave petey moments of all time (lil petey saying wait you love me? and petey staring at him and saying PAY ATTENTION!) . also the book where he fully embraces father hood THANK GOD. dog man and cat kid was So fucking hard to read because petey was Such a piece of shit LMFAOOOOOOOO . 😭😭😭😭😭i was gen grimacing my way through the book

brawl of the wild has a special place in my heart bc its like the One book that actually addresses dog mans . identity crisis. peteys struggle here and him thinking hell always be bad is also very compelling. its also intersting bc he and dog man are both going through the same arc of having inner conflicts about ones own identity . i mostly like it for the rare dog man focus tho

for whom the ball rolls is easily one of my faves . Again for the dog man tidbit LMFAOOOOOOOOO. i love my goat i fear. specifically him jumping on petey when he comes to hsi house to get lil petey . lit that one scene inspired me to write a whole ass fic LMFAOOOOOOOOO . also has one of my fave petey scenes (lil petey says u love me ? and petey responds WELL DUHHHH. also the scene where lil petey says you abandoned me once. and i forgave you! and grampa breaks smth and petey just. Holds him. I could probably write an essay on this scene i fear.) and obviously its the book that made the detey coparenting dynamic explicit GOD BLESS. also has my Fave ending sequence of all time . (petey telling lil petey that the world could never be a bad place bc hes in it Like are you fucking kidding me? I hate you petey the cat. fuck my life)

fetch 22 had some funny parts (petey saying WE ARE NOT VISITING GRAMPA! and the next ch splash page is titled VISITING GRAMPA) also lil petey messing around w grampa AS HE SHOULD. also the petey washing flip e rama LMFAOOOOOOOO . ofher than that it was js ok 2 me. it felt similar to book 1 and 2 smth more lighthearted. i think the molly arc was So good. the part where she moves the single branch was awesome. i think the message is great.

grime and punishment was Incredibly important for navigating peteys grief .its all pretty much just . written there in the book tho like its pretty obvious so idk what more i can say about it .

Mothering heights. Oh mothering heights. My fucking life bro. My fucking life. dont even get me fucking started. i wrote literally a whole paragraph about mothering heights in someones rb tags once. the EXPLICIT petey and grace parallels. petey giving lil petey and molly their stupid snack and drinks even tho theyre driving him nuts which Really drives home how much hes changed since the beginning of the series. obviously had the awesome criticism of the us justice system DAV PILKEY WIN. really just driving home this idea that petey never Wanted to be a criminal . So important for his character . the grace and lil petey and petey paralleles. Fuck. fuckkkkkkkkkkk M y. life. and obviously the peteys lab getting destroyed and him + lil petey moving in w dog man event. This books ending has inspired So many Awesome fucking fics. the number of fics ive read where the premise is after mothering heights where peteys living with dm WHAT WOULD I DO WO THIS EVENT DAWGGGGG

20k fleas was chill i think the best part was just again criticism of the us justice system which i fe HHHEAVYYYYYYY . other than that it was ok . i think it focused too much on the fleas for my liking Lmfao.

scarlet shedder was So fucking yaoi. LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO gayest fucking dm book i genuniely was staring at my svreen in horror MUTLIPLE times bc i was actually like dav pilkey Has to be doing this on purpose . i get that a lot of peteys actions were motivated primarily by lil petey and not dm but if he hated him even close to the amt he did at the beginning of the series he would Not have sacrificed ss much as he did. But even thenthere are still events where . their actions are completely unrealted to lil petey but still SOOOOOO FUCKING. CARING !?!?!?!!??! dog man getting sentenced and petey getting mad on his behalf like. Bro what ? You cant be fucking serious. Do you have a crush on him. IDIOT. HIS STUPID ASS. also petey getting dm out of the jail truck and dm is smiling SOOOOOOO FUCKING WIDE when he sees petey like BRO YOU CAAAANNOOOOTTT BE FOR REAL GENUINELY. most yaoiful book in the entire fuckign series gen hoooo my god.

[gutz3rfryer]

TEAM RWBY IDEAS

some ideas i have for my rewritten version of RWBY MAIDENS Maidens can only control environments and the weather. Also they can change their surroundings, from a high tech hallway to a red maple forest (like an illusion). (so no sword making or whatever just purely environmental) - team rwby becoming the Maidens a. Ruby becomes the Spring maiden (can control flora and wind) b. Weiss becomes the Winter maiden (can create snow storms and ice powers) c. Blake becomes the Fall maiden (tornados and clouds/rain) d. Yang becomes the Summer maiden (heatwaves and thunderstorms) Maidens can used their combined powers to make combos, Fall and Winter making it hail or Fall and Summer making a dessert storm. YANG Technically she shouldve graduated at this point, however she chooses not to, after finding out that Oz invited Ruby (15) to train at Beacon Academy, she managed to convince Oz to let her redo her senior year at the academy to support Ruby. JAUNE the Jaune we know will be put in the bully team from the 1st vol, my version would be more of an androgynous-femme presenting guy BLAKE & RUBY they can make their own little book club :) BLAKE & WEISS I think Blake would stand up for Weiss (and the other way around), especially if Jacques would come to visit Beacon, after finding out that Weiss went to Beacon instead of Atlas Academy. Before Jacques would be able to hit Weiss, Blake would step in and put him in hsi place. BEACON, HAVEN, SHADE & ATLAS ACADEMY DRESS CODE Most strict in dress (1 being most strict to 4 least strict about it/only cares about results) 1. Atlas (has to wear assigned uniform, miss a tie or want to wear pants instead of a skirt? get expelled scrub (also the most discriminatory school)) 2. Shade 3. Haven 4. Beacon (''male student wears a skirt? ok and?'') Beacon Academy ''Dress Code'' Honestly they dont care if you bribe a fashion student or get a tailor to make a longer skirt or flared pants, as long that it has the Beacon Academy Pattern™️ and ''wearing'' the tie, anything goes

ADAM (vs YANG & BLAKE) Making him more obsessive and weird by wearing Blake's tail (which he cut of before she escaped) as a belt. Also making him more Bull than original, because to this day i still dont see what makes him a Faunus. Like the black colored horns are cute but those can be easily mistaken for colored hair. Fall of Beacon (Adam vs Yang & Blake Round 1) Same story but instead of Yang immediately being defeated after getting her arm cut off, she powers through and uses her firey semblance the stop the bleeding in her arm, while Blake keeps up the good fight. After the bleeding stops Yang steps back into the ring to give Adam a burn scar. After losing too much blood Yang caves in while tries to keep her on her feet. Adam also takes Yangs severed arm Comm Tower (Adam vs Yang & Blake Round 2) Adam teases Yang by throwing her severed arm at her, but shrugs it off and tells him he can keep it. QROW & RAVEN Instead of turning into normal looking Ravens/Crows, they turn into a Nevermore look alike. Originally a power given by Oz, now turned curse by Salem. Both Qrow and Raven now constantly have to fight for control with their Grimm halves. Qrow has partially given up, hence the drinking, so his hands look like bird claws and his body is covered in feathers. Raven keeps her distance to avoid hurting anyone. Unbeknownst to them Salem is using their eyes to spy on Oz. SALEM/White Fang im not sure of this idea but instead of the White Fang (which will be renamed to something else) being a equal rights group, they're followers of Salem, the False Goddess, who gives promises that by serving her, they can save their world/make their world better. And that the Grimm exist to ''get rid of the bad people/sinners'' However i think there is a sort of White Fang group but only in Atlas where the most hate crimes, slavery and discrimination happens. As SDC and other companies in Atlas use Faunus for entertainment (for example Bull fighting for Adam) or for slavery. Yes that would imply that Blake was once a follower of Salem's, but turned around after the train incident. TEAM STRQ this might be the worst idea but hear me out. Team STRQ was a polyamorous quad. (in this version Raven and Qrow are >NOT< related) After Summer's death (at assuming Salem's hand), there was a lot of trust issues after, considering neither Qrow nor Raven told Tai what actually happened, and they slowly drifted apart but they all stayed in touch or checked up on the kids and Tai, Qrow would visit more often, while Raven stayed away for their (R&Y) safety. Raven and Qrow keep butting heads cuz they blame eachother for Summer's death/not saving her, but deep down they still care for eachother. Both Ruby and Yang are their kids (its Remnant they can like make kids in a tube or something). Yang has Qrow's alcohol problems (they sometimes drink together) Ruby has or had Raven's selflessness well thats all the ideas i have, nothing solid, just seeing what sticks to the wall. Admittedly the STRQ one might be a bit out there, considering Qrow and Raven are well known as siblings, and yes its weird as fuck idea to have them being/or were together as a couple. But if you remove the context of them being siblings, and see them having arguments, they argue as if they're a divorced couple. Also Qrow is more of a dad than Tai, protecting the gang when they're going on a trip, when Ruby is 15-16 yrs old (in the actual show). And generally being there for the gang. Even before Vol 4 Tai didnt even visit once, but was able to send Zwei. Qrow stayed the whole time, hanging out with Ruby and Yang but i dont remember in vol 1-3 Ruby or Yang ever calling Tai, y'know their dad? But again these are all ideas, nothing solid, just me rambling about RWBY stuff, uh uhm.... are these good ideas? most likely not feedback and criticism is appreciated :) my team rwby redesign v

[forestshadow-wolf]

What if Soap and ghost were on a mission that turned south. Not because of the unpredicted gun fight. Or because the target tried to run.

Cw: Main Character Death

No they were almost always prepared for those kinds of complications. Almost expected them. It was very rare that things went to perfectly to plan, and it was almost disappointing when it didn't happen.

What they weren't prepared for was a botched opportunity to aquire some new intel.

It wasn't that they couldn't download the intel. They both always had a flash drive on them for just in case scenarios, like this one. It wasn't even that the intel was fucked... well, kinda...

They'd agreed that soap would grab the intel, ghost would start taking the target back to the exfil location, and wait for soap there. Easy enough, right?

He shucked the protection of his gloves, in favor of the dexterity he needed for the touch screen. Turns out grabbing intel was not so easy if said intel is bugged to detonate a bomb underneath the warehouse as soon as the download starts... there's a distinct *CLICK* and soap has half a second to think 'well I'm fucked'

And then he's opening his eyes to dust and debris bathed in the orange light of fire. There's something that digs into his back, right between his shoulder blades. His head rings. Or maybe that's his radio.

One hand paws at his radio, as he uses his other hand to push himself up. Both attempts in vain. His radio toned in his ear, and while he did manage to get standing it for only for about half a second before he collapsed. He released the button on his radio. Still it crackled unintelligibly.

Thank god he decided to look into electrical wiring for setting up a new model of charges because after a minute and a lot of fiddling, his radio garbled something half understandable.

"-NNY! HOW COPY? JOHNNY! HOW! COPY!"

"Ah'm alive. Warehouse blew."

"I know. You injured?"

"Aye, can't hold m'legs under me. How'd you get the target to confess to the bomb?" It felt like his head was swimming.

"I didn't. It was the giant bloody mushroom cloud. Don't. Move. I'm comin' for ya."

Oh. Yeah, that made more sense, huh.

"Aye, I'll wait fer ya, L.T."

Ghost asked him questions the whole while, keeping him awake. Soap questioned him back, ever the opportunist, to find out more about the man.

"Ghost." He says abruptly cutting off whatever ghost had been saying, as soon as his eyes fluttered opened. "Ah think... ah think ah'm losin' time."

He heard ghost curse under his breath, and his breathing pick up. "Stay awake, Johnny. You hear? Keep talkin' to me. Tell me-.. tell me 'bout your sister. How's she doin'."

"That's a new one. Never had anyone tell me ta keep flappin' my gums..." he coughs wetly, "Hey- is it supposed to be hard to breathe? That's not normal, right?"

Ghost goes really quiet on hsi end of the line then. And then he speaks up, really softly. "Johnny?"

"Yeah, L.T?"

"Liten to me very carefully. Have you been impaled?"

Soap looks down at himself. It's hard to breathe, but he's got nothing poking out of him, so, "no?"

Ghost curses again.

Oh. Hey was the fire that close before? Shouldn't ge be hot, not shivering his fuckin' balls off? Something's... thats... Something's definitely wrong. His eyelids threaten to fall closed.

Wait! No. He's supposed to stay awake. That's what ghost said... he thinks... right? You're not supposed to fall asleep. He learned that in basic didn't he? Why was it so hard to think? Maybe it was the shivering? Wait, but there was fire. He should be hot. He should be trying to get away from it... but he was so tired? He should sleep if he's tired, right? Listen to his body and all that.

Wait! But ghost said!

"Can you talk to me, L.T? 'M tired..."

"JOHNNY! Stay awake! You hear?" The volume of the garbled words startles soap awake again.

"Talk? W'na 'ear yer voice.." he slurs

Ghost answers him appropriately... he thinks. The voice is soothing. He could fall asleep to that voice so easily...

When ghost finds soap he's not breathing, his pulse is faint, and fire is creeping ever closer. He starts rescue breaths immediately. Next come the chest compressions. He feels something snap underneath his hands. He keeps going. Med-evac should be here by now he thinks.

PLEASE! JOHNNY, PLEASE!

he doesn't wake up. His pulse fades weaker and weaker.

He still has time. He still has time. He still has time. He. Still. Has. Time.

He's not losing him. He's not losing him He's not losing him. HE IS NOT LOSING HIM!

Oh... but the medical team pulls him away. He fights back. They drag him out of the building. He watches as they carry soaps lifeless body out through fire.

They don't even start chest compression again. They just lay him down in a body bag and zip it up

A gutteral, heart-wrenching scream rips through the air. It's him. He knows it's him. But he can't feel it. Can't hear it. Not really anyway. He screams, pushes, curses, shoves. Anything to bring Johnny back.

Johnny does not come back.

He collapses. They have to drag both him and Johnny the body back to the helo.

That's it. That's how it ends.

Nothing quiet and soft like they both hoped for. Nothing brilliant or spectacular. Not even taking the life of an enemy or saving a comrade's life. Just...

The autopsy report said a punctured lung.

The explosion must've broken his ribs. His best guess it that it punctured his lung when he'd tried to get up tjat first time. Then fluid began to fill his lungs. And neither of them knew. Not until it was too late anyway. Soap had gone into shock, and Ghost hadn't been able to get there fast enough. They said they didn't know how he survived so long with the filled lung.

But ghost knows. He stayed to talk to simon. Just for a little longer.

That's the only consolation he gets as he fills out the mission report. That soap's hear stopped beating to the sound of his voice. He'd always said simon had a lovely voice, he wasn't sure if he believed that but soap seemed to think so.

But what now... what... happens... now...

This was supposed to be like 2.5 sentences but it grew legs and ran away from me

[chiefbasementcreator]

Prompt

Daisy was hanging out on the beach with her boyfriend Luigi and her best friend Peach, when Link walks over and starts flirting with her in a sexual way, even taking off her bikini top and throwing it away. She is all for it with how she is acting towards him. Luigi wants to interrupt this, but Peach will stop him since he needs to "let them cook".

"I'm right here! And this is a public beach!"Luigi protests in annoyance.

Sure, he knows Daisy is a huge flirt that loves showing off her body, and she has said many times that Link is more of a man than Luigi is, and that even if she loves Luigi, there's nothing she won't do for Link, but stil... having it happen in public like that is humiliating for him. He even tries to approach them, only to feel a hand around hsi wrist and Peach holding him back.

"Let them flirt, don't you think they're hot like that?" she says, and Luigi has to admit that Daisy is ridiculously sexy like that, topless and flaunting her body for others.

Even when Link gets bolder, and starts outright groping Daisy's massive breasts, and Daisy moan sluttily from it, Luiigi is still held back by Peach, while Link hums in pleasure and compliments Daisy on her amazing body and how good the tan looks on her, and how much better it would be if she didn't have tan lines, so she should get in the sun as naked as possible. Daisy even cooes in replies, joking that she might request some "special sunscreen", if she is going to do that topless.

"Well, i'm sure Luigi would be happy to give you his, right?" Link smirks, and Daisy takes the bet with only a tiny apologetic smile towards her official boyfriend.

"Oh, his is nice... but nowhere near what a girl with curves like me needs, you know? And i saw how great Zelda's tan was, so i would love to use yours, Link~" Daisy moans, rubbing herself against the handsome swordsman, her breasts squished against his torso as Link's hand reaches down ot her ass.

"We could od this right now, in front of everyone." Link grins, and Daisy is all too hppy to shake her body for him, to let him grope and fondle her (and soon fuck and cover her in cum).

[journeytothewestresearch]

I have had this doubt

I understand that in the book there is a lot of mention of gods and demons (or evil spirits I think), such as the bull demon king, scorpion demoness, white bone demon, the great yellow eyebrow king (I think that's his name and one of the few demons that really caused Sun Wukong a lot of trouble), among many others

But my question is... How do the different types of demons arise there? (Of course, except for the ones that are gods and immortals that were expelled/exiled from heaven, I understand that's one way, right?)

🤔

Yes, being expelled from heaven is one way to become a demon. This article explains how having a place within the cosmic hierarchy (i.e. a position in heaven) is what normally separates a god from a demon.

Most of the demons in JTTW are animals who became spirits through Daoist spiritual practices. Sun Wukong is a prime example of this.

Then you have the kind that were simply born into demonhood. The White Bone Spirit falls into this category. Chapter 27 explains:

In this mountain there was indeed a monster-spirit, who was disturbed by the Great Sage Sun's departure. Treading dark wind, she came through the clouds and found the elder sitting on the ground. "What luck! What luck!" she said, unable to contain her delight. "For several years my relatives have been talking about a Tang Monk from the Land of the East going to fetch the Great Vehicle (emphasis added). He is actually the incarnation of the Gold Cicada, and he has the original body that has gone through the process of self-cultivation during ten previous existences. If a man eats a piece of his flesh, his age will be immeasurably lengthened. So, this monk has at last arrived today!" (Wu & Yu, vol. 2, p. 17) 果然這山上有一個妖精，孫大聖去時，驚動那怪。他在雲端裡踏著陰風，看見長老坐在地下，就不勝歡喜道：「造化，造化。幾年家人都講東土的唐和尚取大乘，他本是金蟬子化身，十世修行的原體，有人吃他一塊肉，長壽長生。真個今日到了。」

Source:

Wu, C., & Yu, A. C. (2012). The Journey to the West (Vols. 1-4) (Rev. ed.). Chicago, Illinois: University of Chicago Press.

[belit0]

Can please do Warrior by beth Crowley, I feel like this song would fit Indra and hsi wife, where the wife has powerful ablities and she wants him to help her.

I don't know if you've heard of the song before so but the lyrics match Indra and his wife so much, well mostly his wife

"You fascinated me

Cloaked in shadows and secrecy

The beauty of a broken angel

I ventured carefully

Afraid of what you thought I'd be

But pretty soon I was entangled

You take me by the hand

I question who I am

Teach me how to fight

I'll show you how to win

You're my mortal flaw

And I'm your fatal sin

Let me feel the sting

The pain

The burn

Under my skin

Put me to the test

I'll prove that I'm strong

Won't let myself believe

That what we feel is wrong

I finally see what

You knew was inside me

All along

That behind this soft exterior

Lies a warrior

My memory refused

To separate the lies from truth

And search the past

My mind created

I kept on pushing through

Standing resolute which you

In equal measure

Loved and hated

Teach me how to fight

I'll show you how to win

You're my mortal flaw

And I'm your fatal sin

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Let me feel the sting

The pain

The burn

Under my skin

Put me to the test

I'll prove that I'm strong

Won't let myself believe

That what we feel is wrong

I finally see what

You knew was inside me

All along

That behind this soft exterior

Lies a warrior

Lies a warrior

Take me by the hand

I'm sure of who I am

Teach me how to fight

Ohhhh

The pictures come to life

Wake in the dead of night

Open my eyes

I must be dreaming

Clutch my pillow tight

Brace myself for the fight

I've heard that seeing

Is believing."

In fact, I took the lyrics quite literally, and made Indra into one of my favorite aus: fallen angel + witch reader.

"You fascinated me, cloaked in shadows and secrecy, the beauty of a broken angel." (Y/N) remembers, reliving the fateful night when she saw him fall from the sky. A ball of fire and burnt wings shot from the clouds with overwhelming speed, in the middle of the darkness, lighting up the sky with a hellish red color.

At the time, she did not understand what was happening, approaching the place where she saw that object impact after its monumental descent from heaven, encountering an image both enchanting and terrifying.

An angel, with charred wings and only a few black feathers remaining on his back, laid unconscious inside the crater he created when falling from that height. His skin smoldering with burns and the destruction of his wings felt like a terrible premonition.

Why would an angel be cast out of paradise?

"I ventured carefully, afraid of what you thought I'd be, but pretty soon I was entangled" Memories of how she helped him, how she saved him from a frightening fate of torturous death, keep coming to her mind, as Indra watches her with curious red eyes and broken wings still shining on his back, black feathers strewn all over the ground.

He had accepted the woman's help, had accepted to be healed by her magic, had accepted what he felt in his chest every time those delicate hands ran over his skin. (Y/N) saved him, body and soul, and promised to help him with his evil purposes.

He would retrieve his power with her help, go back to heaven, and take revenge.

"Every time you take me by the hand I question who I am..." The angel whispers, unsure of what the woman causes in his heart, overwhelmed by the mess she leaves in his mind. Never having felt anything for anyone, Indra has no idea what sentiments are, how one deal with them, or how humans cope. He had come into her arms a few months ago, and from the beginning, allowed her to breach him, to tear through his being with her mortal qualities.

"Teach me how to fight, I'll show you how to win my love." (Y/N) pleaded, time after time, trying to absorb even a little of her beloved's power, to gain some of his wisdom, of his teachings, of the sorcery he has to offer. The angel had become her love, her mate, a celestial being and a human united by unexplainable bonds, ties that should not exist, and the woman set out to devote all her heart and soul to her man's cause, to help him with his plan.

"You're my mortal flaw, and I'm your fatal sin... Let me feel the sting, the pain, the burn under my skin. Put me to the test, I'll prove that I'm strong, won't let myself believe that what we feel is wrong. I finally see what you knew was inside me all along." She implores, between whispers and demands. Knowing that once her beloved regains his wings, once his feathers heal and his power is restored, he'll be headed for a fight to the death with whoever kicked him out of heaven.

She needs to stand by his side and support him when it happens.

"Behind this soft exterior, lies a warrior." Between caresses and soft touches he had mentioned, hiding their naked bodies under charred black wings, appreciating the wondrous magic within (Y/N), giving an accurate telling and narration about the potential he himself recognized in her.

"My memory refused, to separate the lies from truth, search the past my mind created. I can't imagine without you, Indra, let me join your cause, let me be by your side through it. I'll keep on pushing through, standing resolute, which you in equal measure love and hate, I know. Every time you take me by the hand, I'm seeing who I am." Her words are a silent plea, an attempt to get to the bottom of her beloved, to make him understand how much she needs to support him in this, to accompany him, to make sure his battle is successful and he finishes his personal mission alive.

Months ago she found the love of her life lying under a disaster of his own creation, submerged in a crater of earth and on the verge of death. She can't lose him now, not so soon.

"The pictures come to life when I hear you speak like that, wake in the dead of night I open my eyes and... Yes, I must be dreaming. I'll clutch my pillow tight, brace myself for the fight, I've heard that seeing is believing. You're the most beautiful dream I never had (Y/N)." The angel whispers, and the woman thinks she sees tears in his eyes before he turns his face away, avoiding eye contact.

Indra seems determined to wage his battle alone, to face combat unaided, but she will not allow it. She will fight tooth and nail to make her beloved understand she cannot exist without him, that she does not wish to live in a reality where her angel no longer is, and she will not allow him to end up in the hands of those who mercilessly threw him to earth.

(Y/N) will fight for him, whether he wants it or not.

[mystoriesmylives]

Bad Days

AN: Dedicate this to @eyecandyeoz since this was part of an ask.

TW: Depression

The Trio get bad days sometimes.

Maul usually isolates himself, snarling to himself and the room trembles from the force.

Onora is the only one brave enough to go near him. She sit next to him and wait it out, feeling the vibrations of the force from her seat. In 30 minutes, he leans against her shoulder. In 30 more minutes, his head is on her lap. His horn scratch her a little, but she ignores as she gently rubs the space between them. Maul will growl out whats been bothering, his body starting to relax under her ministrations.

Thrawn is both the hardest and easiest person to guess when he is having a bad day.

Thrawn will act like his usual self, but to people who know him will notice he is stiffer then usually and his comments come out more wary.

Onora usually brings him a cup of peppermint tea to calm his nerves and offers a shoulder massage. She then speaks to him in cheunh, asking about his day and whats bothering him. With the massage and talking without the language barrier made the chiss relax and kissed her hands in gratitude.

Onora was the one who was constantly in caretaker mode, so they were completely unprepared when Onora has a bad day.

She missed work fro 4 days, no calls to either of them. They went to her apartment with apprehension, both of their minds going through worst case scenarios.

When they entered, everything looked fine until they noticed her massifs whining at her bathroom door, deep scratches on the door.

They walked into a sad sight.

Onora was laying curled up in the bath tub, wearing nothing but a tank-top and her panties. She looked utterly miserable, her eyes looking far away with dry tear tracks on her face.

The two men quietly went to her side, trying to assess what was wrong.

“Dear heart, what happened?” Maul asked frantically, hsi eyes going over her body for injuries. She didn't respond, giving out a hiccup.

“Visahot...” Thrawn asked softly, his hand going through her hair, which he noticed was very tangled, “What happened?”

“Its too heavy.” she whispered.

“What is?”

“Living...existing...whatever.” she whispered, “It just...too hard. I just feel so tired.”

Both men glanced at each other, both wondering just what put her in this state.

“Let us take you out first, Onora” Maul said, grabbing her arm, and gently lifting her, Thrawn taking the other and lifting as well.

Thrawn lead her to her bedroom as Maul went to the kitchen, making her peppermint tea.

It always helped her relax.

Thrawn wrapped her up in one of her fluffy blankets as he sat her on the bed, her massifs running to her and putting their heads int heir masters lap. Maul came in and sat next to her, a cup of steaming tea in his hands. He grimaced that her facial expression hasn't changed, even as she took a sip of her tea.

After some gentle coaxing, she finally spoke.

Turns out Onora is a recovering alcoholic.

She has been sober for 4 years and it was the anniversary of her last bottle. She has been particularly stressed out with work and a holo-call from her younger brother made her spiral. She desperately wanted a drink and was isolating herself, feeling her shame and cravings weigh down on her.

She says all this with shame in her voice, stating that she didn't want to reveal this part of her past ot them.

Maul pokes her in the ribs, saying it was foolish she kept that to herself, especially when they take her out so much and she is exposed to alcohol.

Thrawn agreed as he rubbed her hand.

“You care for us, my darling.” Thrawn crooned, “You show such devotion to us, despite the men we are. Did you really think we would not do the same for you? That we will think of you so little?”

Onora look at Thrawn and then looked at Maul, who also nodded. She burst into loud sobs, rubbing her eyes frantically. Her lovers held her close, letting her cry out her pain, grateful they are here for her.

@gran-maul-seizure @justalittletomato @herbalinz-of-yesteryear @amorfista @nik-barinova @nobody-expects-the-inquisitorius @a-dorin @stardustbee @kimageddon @eliszelis @kotic-kryptid

[ebenana]

[ID: Gwydion(he/she/they) in her tiefling form, completely purple with three spiraling horns; two smaller horns are on each side of her temple and a longer horn in the center. He also has long pointed ears and golden eyes. He has a white afro on the center of his head and black cornrows going down the sides of his head. They have blue eye shadow and a smirking expression, one eyebrow lowered and the other raised. He is posed with his body twisted; one leg extended backwards. His left arm is extended forward and her back, her thumb, middle, and pointer finger extended and the other two fingers folded inwards. There is a sharp golden claw at the end of each finger. The base of his tail is on the left and curls to the right, which has black, fluffy, and textured hair at the end. Her tail, chest, and arms are covered with old scars. Her blue and gold outfit shows off golden claws and a bare chest, with a sash around the waist fastened with a gold hexagon. The coat hangs past his kneed and obscures his white and gold pants and boots. He is also wearing hsi dragon eye polymorph necklace, which has white and gold straps and a golden eye with blue details around the core. END ID. ]

[pomodoriyum]

gonna watch terror ep 10. hope it doesnt hollow out my soul!!

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something wrong with me since i literally can only focus on des voeux right now…hes hauling…..

love how stiffly every1 is moving. scurvy <3

HI GOODSIR <3

hickeys all. ‘oh how funny the past is’

crozier: ‘fuck off’

also. why. is francis all bloody. the hell happened?

‘he took a stumble’ welllll. maybe. im choosing to believe he said something abt hartnell and de voeux hit him bc his other option was throwinf up

also des voeux fiddling with his shirtsleeves. x2

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NEDWARD WANTS TO RESCUE FRANCIS. I KNOW IT AINT GONNA HAPPEN BUT OUGH

ohhhh edward little you poor fucking bastard. good job dundy ig

oh my god crozier is going to think edward abandoned him. christ

goodsirrrrr <3 also he looks GAUNT good job costumers !!

hes bleeding from the scalp….

memory moment. god that hurts so bad. awesoem

hi manson. thank you francis for being nice to him

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oh my god it was a PLANNED murder. i thought goodsir did that in a fit of desperation not in cold fucking blood. oooohhhh goodsir how you are fascinating and fun

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bye jopson. so sorry about that

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hockey ‘first of the officers i enlisted’ fhkdfnfkfl i wouldnt exactly call what you did ‘enlisting’ but yeah this fits under reinvention sure

how much of hickeys commentary to francis here is something he also is telling himself? versus how he’s trying to hurt crozier in the same ways crozier has hurt him (flogging, obvs, but from hickeys pov also probably leading them there in the first place, nevermind franklin)

‘surpassingly lonely man’ YEAH HE IS!!!!

^^ face you make when you totally didnt realize how true your foils’ opinions on you are (on another note, the casting people did such a good job findinglike normal ass lookign people for this show???)

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oh, diggle is *shaking* with terror. oh, my

GOODSIR NAURRRRRR NOT THE MASS MURDER SUICIDE NOOOOOOOOOO

preparinf hsi own body for discovery (if not burial) is soooooooooo

ok mroe to do list. 1. identify the various plants and animals he hallucinated. theyve GOT to be important for interpretation

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everyone is so wobbly like a baby deer

des voeux deadpan sarcastic delivery. so meannnnn (but i imagine hes extremely unable to imagine killing oneself sinces. hes (like hickey) willing to do just about anything to survive)

HODGEPODGE CHAIR MOMENTS. LOVE the artfully placed tins

yuckyyyyy

love how des voeux was the first to reach for it too yucky yucky.

TOZER DOWN that was probably the greatest literal flop ive seen. armitage reaching for him…de voeux’s little jerking head motion back. and whathisface in the back freaking out

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“hes sick from what he eats” OUGHHEHE HEH and goodsirs trap closes in

des voeux has been fantasizing about eatinf that bear for literal years now lmao

aw manson. ouchies

awww their tummies hurt. and they are being brave about it

hickey is. absolutely reeling from the poison and the lead in his brain omg. hes delirious

also looove how much regret he packs into that speech. tryinf to start fresh by. what, murderinf someone? and then youre stuck in a place that will kill you?? yeah

oh thwy are all about to lose it. des voeux is actively having a panic attack or so.

^^guy who looks like hes about to cry

tozer is probably handling this best tbh

interestinf that hickey conceptualizes tuunbaq as part of its own empire. because empire is the only way he can parse and understand the world

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HODGSON NOOOOOO

love how tozer just accepts hickeys sawinf his own tongue out. hes like ‘not my business rn’

great job hickey. really youve outdone yourself this time

really hard to tell apart tuunbaqs/croziers/hickeys noises. also francis why the hell did you approach that situation

symbolic that francis lands the final blow. of courses. and hickey’s corpse between his thighs….🤌 (well. almost. he’s using his foot on hickey’s shoulder, literally stepping on him, which is so yummy in terms of themes)

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SILNAAAAA. love how shes awash in warm colors

bye des voeux. your little gasping sobs hurt. baaad way to go

SILNAAAAAAAA

whos strap is francis holding??

also i find it interestinf that he’s the one she chooses to keep alive/save? more to think about on this

HIS HAND OUCHIES

HER FACE WHEN SHE SEES GOODSIR. OH MY GODDDDDDD it is incredibly impactful bc shes normally so stoic. auugh

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francis having a normal one i see (i love it when characters experience delirium)

verrry interesting in who he named, there

love his new hat also. hes like a mate now. not a captain any more

??? is thatthe fucking passage???? or a dif camp?? hm.

EDWARDDDDDD

“close” yeah thats what i thought. ‘close is the worst thing in the world’ HEEHEE YEAH SURE ISSSS

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i dont have access to subtitles atm so i will not know till later eveything they discuss and say. but. i miss silna already :(

francis i know youre freaking out but like. dont harass them youve done enogh

great ending shot. really makes him look like a doll.

wow what. a great show. im. a little wrecked about it

[twilightichor]

■ ■ ■ 𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐋𝐄𝐃𝐆𝐄.

𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐄𝐒: Vidyadhara (occasionally rumored that she's human). 𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓: Imaginary. 𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐇: Finality. 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍: Humanity. 𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍: [Subjected to plotting convenience and limited to] Xianzhou ship of choice for the most time. Any other world once she leaves to return to her homeworld until she finds it. 𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐒: (Lesser Elder) Lumina Crescentia —limited to Xianzhou—.

■ ■ ■ 𝐈𝐍 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘...

𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐄𝐒: Long-living being with draconic traces. 𝐄𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑: Permanence. 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍: Still humanity. Nevertheless, there lies an unspoken complicity with the Stellaron Hunters.

■ ■ ■ 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐄𝐖.

Despite what common folk may believe, Hsi wasn't born a Vidyadhara nor in any of the Alliance ships. In reality, she was born as a short-living human, meant to die before reaching one century of old. Born in Solaris-3's Hongzhen, she passed shortly after a Tacit Discord outbreak. Her cries prior to her death resonated with Jué and so it went to the baby's encounter, but it was too late. Be it because it was guilt-ridden for not making it in time to save something special to it or because it has seen a future where she would be both its savior and that of Jinzhou, it resuscitated her. Nevertheless, that not only supposed a temporal disruption but a distortion in the fabric of space that provoked her disappearance from her homeworld and fateful apparition in one of the Xianzhou's ships.

When she was found, she had protruding horns on her head and iridescent scales on different parts of her body— both signs of interest on the Preceptors' end to nurture her as a Lesser Elder, for her unknown circumstances and still ongoing study of the extent of her powers. Despite being aware that she isn't a pure Vidyadhara, as years passed by she exhibited favorable traits that throws a light of reminiscence upon her of the long deceased Long, but also those of being a High Elder herself.

In a show of gratitude for taking her in as well as love for the people, she remains as a helpful force subdued to the interests of the Preceptors. While cognizant of this fact, her own interest lies on the guidance of the people as fate's prophetess. That is, until her own desire to meet the dragon (Jué) in her dreams that attempted to interact with her for so many years grows and grows, leading ultimately to her leave to find her homeworld by following growing reverberations the closer she gets.

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End-to-end encrypted Messages and calls are secured with end-to-end encryption. Only people in this chat can read, listen to or share them. Learn more 26 May 2025, 14:25 You sent i can't just coantct polcie.. i have no igts lfei deintity ..nwo he wants to ebat em abotut he tea !!!!!!!!!! eh ahs ltos of fun palyign with em detsorying ym lfei and eh ebats me !!!!!!!!! ebucase is ay ssoem truth and he enjoys being a liar !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 26 May 2025, 14:46 You sent i wrote like this eevrywhee to eevryone i found to be my friend online… and this contineud to eb my relaity ..a false elaity caused y their behavior abotu me .. is how i can ahve these ain thigns hoe and dientiy..a aplce wherei a as "body" . and hwo they do the legal registration.and now i dont' have that card and i enrvr been abel to sue tis dentity .to have a life.. beuase of thiss ituation.. he is always on em to lie and play his st !!!!! he is detsorying m y thigns and totuing me .. yes he did that to ym body .. and iw as alays havign a weak body unable to ake effort.. btu i don't get ok food ,wash… sleep !!!! air light ..is limtied living !!!! and ia lready wrote these … now about he eta ..he put that on potatoes.. eysterday when ia hd no tea .. and now he destroeyd my tea and i put new water to make .. and afetr i left .. he came to sceam that boils "20 min" that is a lie.. and iw as annoeyd and i ahd to sa that eh destroeyd my tea … and she was sleping and cae tot ake hi .. is hwo i lvie witht hem..she si my victima nd eh ebats me .. is abotu me "Screaming" .. i can't lvie "with the" i live udenr them .. now is th age i ahve and lfie .. they wre always thatst on me .. and was them to god .. i ahev tor espect ..really this .. he si always doing that .he is not in jail..there he would nto ahve to wok at the roof and shelter.. family gave him a ruiend hosue and left hi to be "owner" on it !!!!! and why am i hsi daughetr ?? beucase goed put e in her stoamch ?? iw a sntotin ehr stomach .. this is a lie !!! ic ant' have lfie.. i can ahve shame and their kdis !!!!!! i lveid shame udenr cousin beign on me !!!!! 26 May 2025, 15:03

26 May 2025, 15:03 You sent how is ehe.. eaning and this ruin si dangerous really.. this is liek teyahve ti anaged to diw with e in . they go sht as aprents .. for me.. especailly in how they do this parent job for me !!! jail lfie is betetr for them than this hosue.. but is liek they got this job to ..ruin my lfie as "parents" .. !!!! that was like an organsation to put me to the fate prostituoona nd they jsut llitid me from goign eslewhee !! they ahd to ebhave about e and dot he job on e .. to force e in the lfie thignt heyw ant !! these etahcers at math.. ins chool.. they we really whroes and .. iw as getting low numebrs !!! and i reembr soe played with me.. i was always having numebr 7 on ym etsts at ore cousres . they wanted to do what with me??to show to people .. the enmy theyshould beat ? helpign toehrs to ahve sueriro lfei and dientity .. for ebating me . thatw as their eward . i ahd these rpoblems first .. to decide where i can go in life . so ..seeing tehse whoes playign royals.. why am i ehre ?? ebause ia m nto their sex games !!! and iw as tlaking and careful .. btu iw as isoalted and ebaten by the unknwon public havign soem theatre to play about me !!! and they wre stupid unale tot alk btut hey can live like humans .. and this has to eb the punsihemnts for me in hwo these whroes ae helped .. i can't have life .. i get soem tarsh in the rpotectiont hey must have . 26 May 2025, 15:22 You sent is rain …..raining … their behavior is like a reflection to give em the explanation, answe why am i ehre.. ebucase that's how evryoen rpefers to have me and fr me.. they put me at hima nd supprot him..and he is doing the perosnal job on yn person 26 May 2025, 15:40 You sent seriously that iw as rpeaying to god to sto these cirmes and give em the living supprot in life.. btu god was not ??? iw as the clown to praya t god fo that really… beucase they wre ..theatre playing .. they ahd it arnaged .. to be like that . and at 18 .. i emained locked isndie this hsoeu unable to ahve life out… god … gave em toher girls and kids.. to deseve that … int he cirme done to me.. then my rigts wre liek soemthign desevd by someone else.. andthey wre lying, acting .. ove ym rights .. and that cut it !!! arranging my situation …. 26 May 2025, 16:03

26 May 2025, 16:03 You sent so here i am body in the aplce whre their lfei and evrything is .. arnaged for them .. they ahd em in the middle in what happened.. iw as living udenr theirs .. and theyw re doing thate nmy job on me..and i could nto ahve things "right" ..there was no thign for e.. is their proeprty and they have my eprson .. they creating jobs ..eprosnal jobs for me … andi could nto haveeprosnal thing for life !!! now is ee appeared that to customize chat .. iw as tired of that blue .. i ahd eh chat opened and sued to change tehse to see how it looks … i was not really daring to get in soemthign unknown .. i was staying in my corner .a.dn they were knowing and doing that job on me .. so being in this hsoue .. was really so absue and .. i was just not having tehse things .. btu ia hd to go scool liek toehr kdis and i had to aendure lto of … at hoe and school too . and is like .. ilvied a punishment … being alive for the ..in theirs … at an age i stated crying abotu my apost and age .. ebcause thatw as restecrting my rpesent and didn't allow em to go and get .. how i got .. how iw as rteated and got peopela nd thigns .. is focing me to life scenario. i could nto choose … that's the pwoer theyhave .. to chosoe the child to have .. to ut where and fo what . and iw as so young living like that ..a nd she was that luxury whore .. my name and .. bron afetr me expriencign adult life .. whiel iw as sjut a kid treated so hee .. already … you ae retated like this when youa re poro adult..when youa re child..you ahve rights to be sponsoriesed ?? men repfer girls who have mommy to rceate their lfeistyle !!! and they said that "she si ature"a nda llt hat .. ebuase momym ceate lfei for her not making eh cry and use in ehr peosnal lfie !!!!! i used to ..dot hat to tienract with stanegrs i found online liek i am their friend o fan .. i sued to eb social friendly.. and my lfei was really .. war !!!!! theyahd the hsotile attitude but they ahd thigns arrnaged fo their life… they wre on mine . and maybe i would not eb soc areful working like a god mommy..if i could do this eprosnal job on ym own room and body !!!!! i was iventning y own room when i was child..a nd hwo ia dvanced..dreaming my own city !!!!!! 26 May 2025, 16:20 You sent is a tricky situation..i lvie liek a cirianl in jail.. and is their life.. i have no vaiants go otu of their life.. so i elaiseed thati lvied a face ere ..and i didn't have it possible to jsut live otu of this … so all the time their lies and agmes … on me.. and as person.. i am .. this !!! role they behave and say !!!!!! 26 May 2025, 16:43 You sent i lvied forced in thsi role with them. haing me int heir lfei and doing an enmy job on mine .. and i could nto ceate tehse thigns i need as eprson .. is this rpoblem happening in how i can have/get them . 26 May 2025, 17:00

26 May 2025, 17:00 You sent ..i looka round and at msyelf.. in litid codnition really.. what si ehre and how ic ans ee msyelf .. and how they do my idenification in how they behave about me .. is wrong and fake … so i looka round when uiw rite like this .. is an entire lfie of st.. how thigsn wre and not .. to feel that beign the dirty uanbelt oe scape the siery and sht image .unabel to choose .. forced in .. so dienitty and life !!! so i could nto have eprosnal thing to own tot ouch to knwo hwo ti si to eb human feeling .free and having it possible !!!! god seeing e what i wanetd ,d oing ??? god was always an enmy wrong .. !!!! it was peopel ahvign ti arnaged for them and behavign about me .. !!! i was aleady someone .. they wre dienfiying ..iw a snto choosing ym own .. ownign was for other epople.. and it happend that iw as adult and i had kdis to be boss !!!!! parents.. wre nto doing reosucres for me.. were doing poblems for me !!!! theyw re liek a kid to put me in jail.. this was goign reversed.. kdis have soe rigths and thigsn ae revsred for me..they sjut send me there and that's my fate life !!!! thisis liek iw aietd to eb so old.. and i didnt' exprience livign until now .. i worked too much but my situation is a workaplce already .. that has ruels and st !!!! beign ehre iw as liek ina wokaplce .. living !!!! and my escape is nto psosible ebcuase idont' get salry nro vacancy !!!! iahve to rpdocue salry for smeylf .. when thsi is the wokaplce … i can have . si ebause thye want me to wash dishes , cook and serev ehr body .. theyw ant e to work on ehr body ..they dont' allow em to be the body … !!!!! and they can have me liek this.. ic an't have it possible to be life .. putting on toher females all the goods tuff..and whatic an ahev is these relatvies tot how soem sht at me .. they lvie a seriosu theatre on me !!! is a wa aranegd so .. tricky !!!! they sjtu wint he war and enjoy their own life .. and they wre stealing that good i ahd .. is liek tehse 2 ahve me.. udner cotnol for tohers to take it fom me.. and si an ntire life !!!!! it was their cotnrol.. hwo they wre doigna ctions in conatct and conenction with me .. they wre having me foced captive in st theyw anted .. and this moment when i can't jsut have it psosible tio teleprot to regisater and otbain it now for me and sue ti to run away .then si soemthign ugly to "run frontmy poor daddy whos mtu ahve my body" … is hwo eh is..playign poro and sht .. as daddy .. then other peoeple exist to supprot and help him in keeping me .. they coe at em tot ake that to eat me and daddy si the "judge" to decide .. whatsi for me !!!!! theya hd my eprson and.. was thei lfie on me .. and ie xprienced thata lways athe bad luck, lsoer.. problems.. fights.. .. and same st … behavior and saying !!!!!! i wrote alot..so this time will show me if you open essages ??? 26 May 2025, 17:25

26 May 2025, 17:25 You sent ..now si really alte.. is an entire lfie.. theatw as hwo they did my image ..and now what a i as eprson ?? i was nto free and no human .. i was udenr cotnrol.. so i guess ebucase the situationw a saranegd to ahve me isndie it.. in this .. like this .. ptu on my life. rruling it . and thatw as an eenmy on em always ahvign to brign soeone lse to "deefat" me . and thatw a shwo ie xisted .. udenr tehse bosses.. in cicu s they wre ebhaving . 26 May 2025, 17:42 You sent it wa snot even my situationa nd self.. i would find smeylf elsewhere in soemthign else.. but they cotnroleld y image .. and that fooled also me !!!! so whio woudl knew me ,s ee me..and wanetd to do asoethign with me..their base was that image i had .. that wasa the abd luck put on me..how oother epoeplw re tlaking abotu e was false ..and that infleunced peopel who don't know my eprson .. to do soemthign "else" to me .. how others wre talking about me.. i ahd ana ge..beign audlt unabelt o go find soe en and live liek a woman.. and these kdis had fun with all that game on me !!! so i xprienced being the kid .. unable to gow !!!!! is ebucase of them.. hwo they enjoy havign thigns.. they ae sued to sueprior people.. and thigns. and they ahd em poor sloer… big down for them !!!! int hsis ituation iw a snto abel toe xprience being a human a persona a woman an adult… is how lfie is .. the scenario .. how they do it .. they play fake havign tehse roles .. and coanctt with me .. in hwo they ebhave fo this role..thye rpeetnd thati ana small kid ..and priovoke me to show i am dult.. ind oing this "job" for them .. it wa sore possible to lsoe so uch lfietime in thei tehate than to get right thign and eprson .. to mvoe otu fo thiss ht… i lived punsihemnts .. beign always tated so by someone .. 26 May 2025, 21:53

26 May 2025, 21:53 You sent so back at story in your inbox.. when iwsaw these age 40 in uvenirsities i thought thei programme was so long .. and now i wodner if you speied on me and saw all these leis theyw re telling me and you wre aware abotu it.. me ebign confused and tricked in st ?? is aw tehm sueprios as their lfei was really so good .. making them olookg good on me .. .. at the sae age .. i guess you we free adult and iw as till kid .. i slot that age and it was liek iw a s recuepating the "aege" .. . nwo this si what i lsot.. iw as nto abel to knwo and ptu ym body int he right palce for my age and life .. so i geuss if was abotu wauiting soemthign was ntot hats chool thing .. nwo si whata nnoys me..is liek i chsoe to get old beign absued by this man .. liek a kstupid kid .. no.. si hwo i am tetaed he can ahve me "kid" ,…is hwo ige t tor espect and i can't be .. this is liek i a ehre to eb kileld and the cirme is nto done beucase ia a live .. the situation si cotninuing.. ai am emnainigna small kid uanbelt og ow.. gow.. is covered int hese type of leis and aangaments .. and atthatage iw as not abel to choose y school and pofession eally.. that sht was relaity .. they ahd my big body they absued me touchign vioelcne and all that .. tricks.. dievrsion ..they wre mroe people .. mixing roles and behaving .. they ahd fun witht hat .. on me !! it was lieka goup of enemeis unteid to do the cime on me.. and they can ahve my lfie taken int heir category and group .. ius naing alot … so i needed education .. btut hey can sjut ahve an diea proejcta nd ltos of monyf reedomt ot ravela nd enjyo lfei and ahve ltos of epoepl to suppot them..why ?? ebcuase that's the god rule to treat bodies.. is liek y body was ptu erhe as trophy for tehse ifenior eopel to enjoy ti like this !!!! and amde my lfie ifnerior .. theya mde shame fo me .. and then i am ntio abel to rceate lfei ina llt hsi circus i lvie ehre !!! si their lfie happening … fom me.. and ia m sjut a clown .. onlien iw as ptuting ym eyes int hgisn i enjoeyd but ym real lfeiu was nto going there.. has chanegd hwo i feel abotu ti.s.eeing these eopel whoc an ahve that and i am what ?? the shame they dont' desrve !!! is loiek i ahve tow atch tehse sex whores havigns ex ebing rich .. and eb their slave vigin .. uexpctuign soem trash amn to fuck me .. and be happy "god thank you" … !! … they can thank to god .. but whyd id god helepd their body to be respected and protected and dersve humans ?? all the time i ahd these 2 on em to do that .. and si liek thatw as what you repfered .. on ym body !! is liek they helped you witht his .. and ic ant' sjut ask ytm brith certficiatre .. really .. the child si nto reqiuetsing brith cettficiatein so fraud .. firstly i am the clown ebaten so much .. and aletr i discoevr the alughign whroe ui serevd ..a ll ym work and effot.. is taken by the whroe ine rh deintity .. !!!!!! at that age youw e havigns ex frea duklt..and iw as in school with kids smaller than me .. they ahd sex and money .. i ahd a dady to paly with ym sleep and absue my body liek them !!! is liek i chsoe to eb their body .. is what they can be ifor polcie !!!!!!! 26 May 2025, 22:12

26 May 2025, 22:12 You sent and now i look at soe odl tumbl blogs.. wondering where was i .. so isnide ehre all the time .. i didn't exprience living enough as a human .. i lvied so fienriro anda lways their game on me .. now is uspettign that iw as ntoa bel to go ine al apcles and lvei real lfie..was so litneid at this point .. is uspettign how i slot y youth beign ehre .. like this ..in thsis cenario.ebucas eis hwo ia m treated.. is soe epoeple on em to ebhave lfo thsi cenrio about my eprson .. and there was no way for em to ahve the jbo iw anetd the life.. to gain liek a human and live .. i sued to eb feelign hrorible allt he tie..wearign the garbage and ebing the skeleton tired and dizzy..i remembr that was comaping ti liek i was udenr dugs but withotu that ..my lfei codnitionw as so abd .. i awas already in so abd relationships and aplce.. unabel to get asoethign else.. beign forced int his scenrioa nd image they behave !!!!! so i think about it .. iw as not goign inre al lfei..iw as ehre .. devloping worlds inside my ehad ..uanbelt o lvei like a human i ama god.. i am virgin slave !!!!! is liek iw ait for soe tash men to harass me and is houdl eb thanking to god for sending me soeone etow ant sex .. i didont' want oto eb mentla roudn emtnals… my afce was always lookign terrible in photos.. and now i wodenr if thee was a tick on the cames to edit my face !!!!! 26 May 2025, 22:28 You sent and i don't want to eb the kid fo fathers … is liek i ahd to wait for them to bring em their kdsi to show that i a the ebst god mommy ..unabel to have my own lfie ..ebcuase it msut be apid to what kid he amde when iw as hre liekt his.. really you woudl get yourself otu fo sos ht ??no.. you woudl boey and cry so much ?? you would nto eb brat to cy abotu it ????? ..and really i ahd momy tot alk toe hr abotu e beign her belly !!!!! she was aluhgign at me.. so i developed dieas.. abotus he smokign and that was the reason for my body rpoblems !!!! i was bigegr and totued kept so .. poor baby !!!!! the rule.they ahd to be liekt hat ebcuase ia m their child beucase ia m ehe .. and i coudl nto reject this scenario .. !!!! now is uspetting and this si eory for me .. !! bucase that was what was happening .. no mriacel to fofer me keya nd clotehs and a chance to be otu .. jsut some mreos ht boys liek himt o play the same game !!!!!! this si liek i waietd all ym lfe to knwo my age whiel spending my time with kdis duenr mine !!!!!! they really ahd that enmy behavior and i emaiend their clown !!!! these hwores .. work at heir own bodies and enjoy life .. i get the job to srev evroene sle who smtu live and lfei is nto for me !!!! i am the punsiehd loser ina llt he leis and fake plaeyd by evryone ..they can ahve life over mine !! beign ehr why .. to be poro body for evroon tot ake what they want fro me ..and owe ntohing !!!! liek i woer soemthign to evryoen sle !!!! and i dont' evrn knwo allt hse celbities who ekwn em an mcoked me in hwo they palyed witht he media admiring them !!!!! i ahd other type of peopel..some kdsi to shwo suepriotiy !!! ands he sdesrevd sex ebucase momym bought beauty for ehr ..a nd her daddy wantd ehr to be hapy.. i ahve a daddy to want to supet me and eh cna ahve me in so fraudulent life !!!!! 27 May 2025, 15:03

27 May 2025, 15:03 You sent i didnt' want to put pc on btu i have to ask.. why did these men mock e with whroes globally really??why wasn't ig etting encessities as human to live too ??? obivously why..tehse men di a job for tehse whreos they lvoe..but why catching e so ?? the crime was covered and usntoppable.. beuacse of sht theyw r ceating on me.. tehy wre catchign em ind elcarations, and then amde these scandals .. comaprisions and fitting the alw when iw as their victim .. it was ehr aprenst .. she was ebating ame and got all that lfei as a erward fo that. what i wished thigns and people.. i cotnineud to e int hsif raud with ehr apnest ebating me too … it was ehr apnets on em to do the jbot ot alk and chosoe my iameg and aplce.. they wre havign em fo ehr dientioyso eys they rbought em to school and .. iw a sbeaten robbed raped.a.nd aprenst wre taking care of my victim mentlaity and behavior suppoting them .. they wre finishing me..she was helepd to eb out and live.. so iw as writing tot hataunt .. i ahd nowhere sle to serach ym dientiya nd they always id that.poutting that in ehr life .. i expcted ehr to recate ym docuemnts and palce .. so iw as makign this galaxy a virtual galaxya nd i was rcetaigna coutnry focused on symbol x… and then musak staretd that circus with twitter..why ??? why ae these men stating circus afetr me ??? they lauigh at me .. nwo i ahve to be dying of jelousy abotu food,. evryoen got easy money toa fford luxury products to amke the conoym of egrmany usa .. theys ell mvoeis and cars !!! and my good and ahrdowrk cannto eb paid ebcuase i am animal at owners ehre !!!!! is aw tehse nws abotu food..saying soemthign liek .. not gettign ti int he future !!! they had to consume it .. before e .. and i am jsut erased anihilated ina llt ehse whroes !!!!!!! teh boy fo me ..si some sht boy to alugh at em with these whores playign "unable to have the relatiosnhip with emntal me" !!!!! and ic ant' sjut eject hima nd find someoen else.. ica nt' be the human the female the ault.. they can ahve em ptu ina llt hsic ircus … their favorite clwon !!! and ir ememrb abotut ehse gispeis i wote that alst eyar theyw re re makign thsi buildiing afetr neighbo lefta nd .. he said they did soethigna t the roof.. theywreecatign circus ehre liek he was my partenr and iw as tlaking to him .. in whatiw rote on ym blog exopectigns oemoent o do ym dientityt hing ?? i can sjut tlak to polcie ??they tlak to polce and ptu me wheer they want to ahve me .. !!!!!! they got me udenr sht theyd eclae !!! trhey wrere tehioevs and kilelrs happy playignt heatre on ym liuving !!! these gipsies appeared .. when iw as in school to eba orund weith this circus ..s oi geuss emil ptut hem on em to keep me "hsioattge in lies" and "worked" god helepd them .. i am the slave in rpsion.. ina coutnry of whoes helepd byg od !! 27 May 2025, 15:23

27 May 2025, 15:23 You sent theya re thsi type of eenmy to own em for having e around .. and then ic ant afford enogunh to eb a free human and have my own coapny and space for atcivities !!!!! theya re in my waya s boss to enjoy abusing me.. and i am condemned at thsi god !!! tehse sites like tumblr i remembr i was seachign citie.s.iw was nto abel to sjut mvoe msyelf to lvie ina city have a lfei all that .. is opent my lfeitie being a slave in rpiuson ehe .. and is nto my exagration..is theirs !!!is hwo theye xagerate and limit .. in how thye do ti about me !!!! so thee wre no popualr posts witht ags i was seraching .. tehse with many "notes" … and i ahd to seach the city ..when ise arched city i noticed there appear ltos of aericans and i blcoked them tos top them fo appeaing ther.e. i was blockign tlos of accoutns to stop them.. and tehse gifas that appear when i open dashboard..and i geuss ia m the sloer who cannto afford pc peices !!!! i cshould nto eb online ..i can't affod living.. ehre i am servign like a bot slave !!!!! and my lfeir emaiend litied at nobody wanst to help me .. they tlak the "helop" i need and do sht on me !!! it was nto psycholgo what i neede..iaa dh tlos of work but ym lfei was limteid at this sht with these 2 .. there was nobody to idenfiy this as a crie done byt hem to e and suppot me in living .. to recate my own .. i sjut didn't ahave the anterial fo msyelf.. so i think and that is hwo is hould eb aware ..is hould nto eb onlien ebcuas ei cann't affod all thsi ametrial .. i was ehre like a an onlien slave for these kdis .. and ia m the cirmianl tu be in jail for srevignt hem?? for asswearign at themir sht games !!!!!! i get jsut a kid to annoy me .. and ic an ahev ana rmy of kids like hint o eb their omy .. that wa shwo iw as retated by god..w ehn thes epoeopel wre around me .. and i wa snto getting enough to live !!!!!!! ig to too mcuh to be so annoyed !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my wok si jsut taken by the amdin havignt o mock me with soe lttle whroes like holle !!!!!!!!!!!! 27 May 2025, 17:41

27 May 2025, 17:41 You sent if i dont ptu ti ehre i forget si too mcuh for paper and ia lready messed my rpojects wiht all this .. i am ehre to clena dirt int heir lfei, they bring dirt for me.. i am tried of this slave job i have ehre.. my body cannto do this job anymore ..iaa ms uffocated and dead !!!!!!!!!! i didnt' live i worked like a slave in cleanign cretaing … life i can't have for syelf !!!!!!! i became old anda ware .. ia ma clwon i am a slave .. withotu dentiy in sht situation they rcated for me.. wong denfication they enjoy playing about me !!!!!!! mayeb id dint' write this..they kileld pig in ym face when i was ltitle ehre int his yard and i dont' emembr if there were othe relatives .. o kids !!!!!! i emembr when i awas ltitle tehse women ahd fun alughign alot smiling and .. had thats tupid behavo !!!!! tehy wre obivosuly aware that was nto their daughetr ?? they ewre trafficants i suppsoe.. getting ltitle girls in brith certficates arrnaged !!!!! btut hese girls got lfie and moenya nd freedo. thye had e like a slave punsiehd in rpsion ehe .. theyw e finsihing me isnide !!!! i got enemy to eb hsi lfie !!!!! in ymc ase the boy/person si nto ptu in ajil.. is put on em to paly sht.. to do ym deinfication witht hats ht .. is socialising with toher peopelsa yign sht.. ufrom ym poitn fo veiw thee was no boy nobody for me aound .. i was ltiemdi aspace at their cicus. being with soems ht boy actign .. rpeetdnign eh lvoes me petending i want sex wiht him .. it was nto sjut sweaing, he was havignt hat ncie tlak … tehse we peopela round me .. doing that .. and iw as very aaffceted eotioanlyl abotu hwo their behaviro was goign … i ahd to make jsutice for msyelf by cotnrollign their behavuiro abut theye njoeyd sayign sht thatw as making em tremble and cry alot !!!!! and then thsi modlovian playign iorrstistible love .. he absued me evrbally ..jsut like tehse here !!!!! asame sht . thya e annoyign with allt hats ht saying .. and iw as rally litmeid … .. polce si tienrested where else i can go to cut it .. they want me jaield.. that's hwo they aranegd allwoed absue.. when my body is put for it !!!!!! when iw as yougn id dint' feel so hrorible ebcause i didnt' ahve so uch ahte and enemy.. thatw as what has grown .. feel so hoible abotue vrythign and evryone .. ebcuase they saporead the hate ,t heya re free to go and affrod lvoe !!! then ia m froecd in soem sht ..amsked as lvoe and necessities !!!!!!!!! 27 May 2025, 18:01

27 May 2025, 18:01 You sent so in ym case they ahve my bodyduenr control.. they control the space and didenfiction.. they touch em in theate they paly they ahve it all .. and mine si liteid at them touching it all !!!!!! iw as thinking that mayeb i didn't write.. these people.. with rigts.. their bodies ae not touched by the "jailed".. theya e in an aea where tehir body si safe .. so in ym case.. my bodyw as touched !!!! udner touching !!!!! .. i dont' knwot hsi word in english . btut hese peoople woemn decalring ape si liek they ifnrom abotu havign sex and delcae it a crime..they ahve polce and media to ecate the scandal with them !!!! in ym cas ei didnt' benefit as a human .. nto getting these reosucres to live .. i got peopel tot ouch me..and rights not for me .. !!!! the boy is a stanegr palyign boyfiend .. he ahs the situatioan rrnaged so ic ant' avoid him .. !!!! 27 May 2025, 18:17 You sent so the elsson for me ..eprosnally and secret .. toher peopela r entoa llwod to knwo.a.nywaysi get beaten for revealing it !!!!! beign associated witht hesepeopel ia lready a .. is eenmy seriosu relationship to own me anda llt hat wrong .. they can do it..is for me and that's my life..jsut isnide it and "related" to … more of the st !!!!!! anand nobody ebelives it happens they all play the st on me !!!!!! ic an have just kids to be thir mommy.. sueprios to ebat me.. ifneriros tot ake profit from me !!! all evry good and fixed so well !!!!!! at the limit !! and i ifnroemd that ..thsi luxury i see at reza pahlvia nd hsi family..photos.. i get dizzy seeign that .. !!! and i ahve to eb the tarsh feeling it .. uanbel to get smeylf human !!!! all ym lfie ..the kid captive in msiery .. !!!!! thatw as decided.. alreay when iw as liek thsi sidnei and she was the lxury out !!!!! Wed 00:31

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Reading Journal #10

In the class we had on the Thursday before we went on spring break, I remember picking out different pedagogies that had stuck out to us and ones we would want to use in our future classrooms. Of the three I chose, the top one for me was community-based pedagogies. As I reflected on the readings for this week, specifically the powerful narratives from Aydé Enríquez-Loya and Kendall Leon’s "Chicanx/Latinx Rhetorics as Methodology for Writing Program Design at HSIs" and Isabel Baca's poignant testimony "Hispanic-Serving or Not: La Lucha Sigue in Academia," I could feel how important community was in each of these articles not only in educational advancement but also in the personal and collective empowerment seen throughout. So, if you couldn't tell already, I will dive into the community and its power within us.   

Enríquez-Loya and Leon place a great deal of emphasis on how crucial the role of Chicanx/Latinx rhetoric is in being a transformative methodology as it “centralize[s] Chicanx rhetoric in the design of writing programs,” as it creates inclusive and supportive environments that work to disrupt the traditional educational binaries and borders we are so used to seeing in everyday education (213). I liked their assertion because I learned the necessity for this program and curriculum as they truly reflect the cultural realities relating to their student bodies, and they are not some token gestures that seem authentic but are just at the end of the genuine in themselves. This method is based on community elegance because of the acknowledgment of the students and their lived experiences and the use of those experiences to strengthen the pedagogical approaches. They articulate it even more beautifully through Anzaldúa’s concept of Conocimiento, a pedagogical shift in which there is a “developing a critical and decolonized consciousness that moves from rupturing to fragmentation to connecting, assembling and rebuilding” (213).   

While reading Baca’s testimony, I was given a painful window to look through into the lived reality of navigating academia as a Latina scholar at an HSI. I was born with a large amount of privilege, being born a white woman into a middle-class family, so I don’t know what it is like, nor will I ever know what it is like to experience what Baca has gone through. However, through her experience, she highlights a supportive community's important role in helping to challenge and dismantle institutional racism. This supportive community would consist of BIPOC allies and white accomplices like myself. For me, I have never understood why just based on someone’s skin tone, culture, or heritage makes them less than another, so I will always fight for everyone to be placed on an equal playing field and be given the equity they deserve. Through Baca’s lens, she places community-based pedagogies as not just an educational choice but as one of the essential acts of resistance and survival with academia that resonated with me. We must build communities where BIPOC scholars can share stories of "healing, triumph, recovery, resiliency, and strength" (Baca 74). While these spaces may not have a place for me in them, that does not matter because, at the end of the day, I would not understand. These two works offered me new insights into how there are needs for communities that don't include me, but I can still offer a hand in helping to offer them support.