#adhd dean

[angelsdean]

the thing abt me and my adhd brain is that i will play the association game with everything ever, just by default. and so there is not one moment in which i do not think of "despair" (spn 15x18) and immediately go, "where were we? oh yes, in the pit of despair" (the princess bride, 1987). and see the thing is, i know dean's mind works exactly the same way, always making quick associations and speaking in references. and well, i just know at some point, post-15x18, he experiences a completely ridiculous moment of grief where he's thinking abt the utter despair he's in, and immediately quotes the princess bride to himself, and then breaks down bawling and laughing at the same time because, well, he made cas watch that one with him too. but also yea, he is figuratively in a pit of despair. and--and cas is trapped in the empty which is also a pit of despair. and someone needs to save him! dean needs to save him! anyways, adhd dean<3

[loveofastarvingdog]

so we already know that dean has a complicated relationship with memories especially when it comes to wretched situations and even more especially when it comes to cas and like. adhd bad-memories-anyway dean... what i’m trying to say is that during the confession scene he’s sick to his stomach. sick to his stomach and scared to death and his mind going a million miles a second and he’s trying to hear everything cas is saying and he’s trying to get his stupid fucking voice to work to say it back to say anything but he can’t and he’s trying to and nothing’s working–

and he’s trying to get it all. he’s trying to sear this moment into his mind forever (it’s my fault how could i have changed it how do i get him to stay how do i keep him god just let me keep him here let me keep him–)

but afterwards.... cas’ words still ringing in his ears... he starts to forget the details. and he’s trying to remember. he doesn't care that it hurts. that it makes him nauseous and sick and makes it hard to breathe in a way that would normally mean a heart attack or panic attack or some divine force strangling him. he just needs to remember he needs to remember he can feel himself forgetting the details he can feel it slipping away he can feel himself losing cas all over again in the way he can’t even clearly remember cas’ last moments on this earth

he tries to remember until the only thing he can’t forget is that cas died because he loved him

[casboobs]

dean thought his ordinary little dude best friend knew about social rules being useless he thought words have no meaning only facts do cas knows that he must

[moonysreid]

ever read a fic and get the sudden urge to comment in all caps about how much you love it?? but you don’t want the writer to think you’re absolutely crazy..

[temporaerthaervaerk]

I just realised that all the media I adore has some level of autistic/neurodivergent coding and it's been that way since I was a child.

And like, oftentimes their different way of perceiving and being in the world is the driving force of the story/and or a crucial element in it.

There’s the canon example of the entire Camp Halfblood (ADHD), where the ADHD is literally what keeps the characters alive.

There's Dean Winchester (ADHD) whose hyperfixations are typically masculine (as well as geeky) and who never sits still, with the added bonus of Castiel (Autism), who Dean just... accepts, in a way I rarely see.

Then there’s the infamous Will Graham (Autism) whose hyperempathy is litterally the focal point of the entire narrative.

We have Haru from Free! (Autism), whose special interest (swimming) is the motivating factor for several other characters.

Reki and Langa from Sk8 the infinity (Autism), who share a special interest and grow a special bond because of it.

There's Sai from Hikaru No Go (Autism), who trancedented time and space to play Go (special interest) and whose special interest sets the story into motion.

We have any version of Sherlock Holmes (AuDHD), who's brilliance I attribute to a mixture of hyperfixations and special interest in crime solving. His conflicts with society and disregard of social norms are a central theme as well.

There's Anne with an E (Autism), who loves words and stories and speaks before she thinks (where all major problems arise due to her lack of understanding for social norms)

We have Pat and Pran from Bad Buddy (ADHD + Autism), like I dunno, I just really felt that vibe.

There's Beth Harmon from Queen's Gambit (Autism) with her special interest in Chess.

And like, the list goes on: Daryl Dixon, Jon Snow, Kotaro from Kotaro Lives Alone, Will Treaty from the Ranger's apprentice, Hal from the same author, Katniss Everdeen, Si-eun from Weak Hero Class 1, etc.

Don't get me wrong I've consumed plenty of stories without characters coded this way, but all the stories that truly resonated with me? Neurodivergent, all of them.

It's probably because the focus on social norms/hierarchy always seemed foreign to me. Eg. I like Skam but it's like a view into a completely foreign world where people function differently.

[everyonethinkstoomuch]

me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic

[mad-as-a-box-of-frogs]

I’m sorry, maybe it’s just the DMT talking from this past weekend, but did I just hear you say that A), you are a mom, and B), the monster we’re hunting is your son??

Carlos Cervantez in Legends of a Mind (1x05): Best of SPN WIN Gals and Nonbinary Pals [21 / ?]

[fandom-addict404]

ok guys can we stop with wincest. i see it all over the supernatural fandom and it’s so deeply disturbing like wtf guys

first off, the closeness of the brothers is because they grew up together on the road only really having themselves, since their father was always gone.

and second, it’s such a toxic part of the fandom and needs to stop.

i love supernatural. anyone who knows me knows i love supernatural. but when i look thru the supernatural tag and i find some “wincest” thing i feel a pit in my stomach bc of how disturbed i am.

i love shipping. it’s fun, it’s cool to analyze it but this is too far and very very toxic.

[shyshitter]

yea hi he literally thought he was gonna die young bloody and alone but guess what he’s got an angel husband and a god child now so fuck you

[angelsdean]

my poor adhd babygirl is bored out of his mind

[chronic-lee-lizard]

Castiel is me I love him I love him I love his misunderstanding of social cues I love his autistic traits I feel seen

(I want to change my name to Castiel because his name is so cool)

[loveofastarvingdog]

okay while i AM a dean-is-a-control-freak-in-his-kitchen (especially about cleaning it) i do sometimes like to think about dean and cas doing dishes together because their specific brain fuckeries work together <3

cas can’t stand putting his hands in the water or feeling the food and stuff, so he dries and puts the dishes away, and dean gets unbearably bored when drying and putting away so he hand washes <3 (cas does load the dishwasher sometimes but that’s normally if dean has rinsed the dishes already, and they both put the dishes away together from the dishwasher)

[ricky-tiki-tah]

Anyone else notice that especially in the earlier seasons(1-3 specifically for this post), Sam is usually the one talking to the witnesses/authority figures. Doesn’t matter if Dean started the conversation/interrogation, Sam near always finishes them.

Not only that, but officers and others tend to direct their questions more to Sam than Dean. The question is why? In the early seasons like 1-3, Dean may be shorter, but Sam is still noticeably younger than his brother. Is there something about Sam that people trust him to be more mature or what?

On the opposite note, you will rarely see Sam talking to any kid, his area lying more with the teens and young adults. Dean is always talking to the kids, he values their opinions and wants them to feel safe no matter what. This is probably from raising Sam, but it’s also very him. (One example is Lucas in 1x03 Dead in the Water, another is Michael in 1x18 Something Wicked, and again with Ben in 3x02 The Kids Are All Right)

Now, I’m very much onboard with the “both Winchester brothers are autistic” and “ADHDean”, but my question is still, why would the authorities and older suspects talk to Sam instead of Dean? Is it because Sam is so good at masking? Is it because Dean is starting to let his childish side out more now that John isn’t there? Maybe it’s because due to Dean having been selectively mute, Sam had to speak for the both of them growing up and the habit stuck? Could it be because even though both boys are good looking, Sam is more traditionally handsome while Dean is a pretty face? Is there really an answer?

[gunsnpie]

i have this soft early seasons hc that the moment smartphones became A Thing and you could finally take instant HD pictures of anything, sam started taking pictures of everything. a cute dog he saw on the street? snap. an interesting brick layout? snap. a squirrel eating a piece of bread in some park? snap. an ancient, pretty much decaying book in a library? snap.

snap. snap. snap.

and then when he'd get home (by that i mean, dean, at whatever motel room they were crashing in at the time), maybe to find dean making something to eat or cleaning his guns, & he'd go up to him all excited and show him every picture he took, give him small explanations, talk about how amazing it is that the pictures look so smooth and colorful and "just like the real thing, dean!" — and dean would look at all of them, and listen to sammy's explanations (even if he sometimes went on tangents dean couldn't understand), and he'd make comments, definitely tease sam a lil about his nerdyness. it didn't matter how long it took, because seeing his baby brother so happy about something so small just- made his heart hurt, filled him with affection. made dean realize how much he missed it, missed sam going on rants about science, about books, about whatever nerdy sci-fi thing he was into at the time. missed that glint in sam's eyes, the happiness that made him look so alive (missed when life was simpler).

sam smiles as he shows dean a picture of a blossoming flower and all dean can think about is how much he loves this kid.

[justanangryduck]

Stimming stimming stimming

Dean is loud

Playing with his jewellery, listening to loud music, vocal stimms (humming, clicking his tounge, whistling etc), tapping his hands and his fingers and his knuckles on stuff all the time, rocking on his chair

Sam

Probably plays with his hair a lot, not consciously just tucking it behind his ears and ruffling it all the time and stuff like that. Definitely was one of those kids who would spin around and around in one spot for ages and make themselves dizzy to feel the inertia. PACING PACING PACING. Biting his lip and tounge and the inside of his cheek, rubbing his hands up and down his forearms or over his thighs to feel the fabric there.

Let those old men stim

[dragjunkie23]

Sam if his Partner Has ADHD

He would immediately adapt to it because well…have you met Dean Winchester?

Probably won’t recognize it at first because many femmes who have ADHD do not share the same symptoms as masculine

If his partner was masculine, then yeah he’ll know

You’d definitely give him whiplash because you stay so calm under intense pressure (or you try to fake it) yet simple things get you easily upset (emotional dysregulation FTW)

Either way, he’ll do what he can to help you calm down

Probably would also want to talk about it, but if not, he’ll probably hug you and just stay in silence

You’re pretty impulsive like Dean is so Sam is your voice of reason

Will cook foods that cater to your likes and dislikes if you have issues with texture

Help find creative ways to help you get chores done when executive dysfunction kicks in

Or he will get products that help ease it (get a dishwasher so it’s easier to do the dishes for example or a robo vaccum so it’s easier to vaccum the bunker space)

Listens to your latest hyperfixation, finding it adorable when you’re really interested in something no matter how “weird” it is

“I found this cool article about a weird bank heist that was never solved. Wanna hear about it? I wanna know what you think really happened.”

100% helps you remember to TAKE YOUR MEDICINE (if you take it)

Overall, Sam will learn the boundaries and respect them while also helping you get through the day as much as you can.