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luvv-maxx · 7 months

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|: Call of Duty HC 🫶 :|

Note : This is my first post, other than the intro post, so Don’t get all mad if I misspell anything or I have a certain HC you don’t agree with. 💕

Characters mentioned : John price, Simon Riley, John Mactavish, Kyle Garrick, Kate Laswell, Nikolai, Alex Keller, and Farrah Karim ‼️💕 the sillies

John Price-

Greatest and most stressed father of the year award.

💥 silly Quokka smile💥

Y’know those iq ads that show the older you are, the less you know? He gets so offended by that so he tries playing it to show he isn’t dumb, but gets pissed when they just aren’t interactive and send him to the download page.

He’s an animal dude, he can rock with any animal you put him next to. But I am guessing, personally, that he was like obsessed with black bears specifically. Nobody knew why. He just found them cool and amazing as a kid, and still does.

He has that old dad cough that sounds like he’s dying of influenza. AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON HIS SNOR—

You know how some dads hug and sway you and themselves as you hug? He does that. He got that treatment when he was younger, it conditioned onto him. When he first did it to Simon, MF was confused as shit and gave the most horrendous and judgmental side eye after they finished the hug.

speaking of the others, They will get spooked like cats when Price suddenly sneezes like a bazooka or coughs like he just smoked 20 packs of cigarettes at once. Especially Kyle, he most definitely had a heart attack the first time he heard Price cough twice in a row thinking he was dying.

Supportive ahh bisexual dad.💕🥺

Gives off “Hey Gay, I’m Dad!” Jokes if you came out to him.

Simon “Ghost” Riley

I both Can and can’t see why people simp for this man.

sure, He makes booktok people horny af for his mask and deep British accent, his tattoos, the fact he could break their neck in one morsel of strength but would decide not to if he knew them, etc etc.

but that’s most likely from trauma, both unresolved and buried down or spoken about like jokes but gets angered when someone jokes about it. (Both is me. I’m those examples. Yippeee ‼️)

breakfast. He isn’t picky but he is. Beans? Fuck that shit, Burn. BURN. However, the most darkest and traumatic tasting coffee ever grounded from the pits of hell itself just made for the traumatized Masked man? Sure. Call it a cup of FUCKING JOE.

Though he doesn’t sneeze or cough like Price does, He sleeps dying influenza patient Victorian man style. First time he and Soap were forced to sleep together, Soap woke up miraculously early, thought he died and cried there for 20 minutes before Ghost woke up all tired like he was hibernating.

I think he loves Riley for not only is she just adorable and a great dog, She is the best thing to have when dealing with snakes.

He was fixated on one animal when he was younger. Motherfucking Raccoons. He found them so hilarious and goofy as a kid, he now fell in love with a man who is the human embodiment and reincarnation of the raccoon king.

One pet peeve Ghost has is when someone smacks their lips. No matter what, you smack your lips, he smacks you too. He’s that badass mum that goes “Keep smacking them lips, I’ll smack you.” While cracking his knuckles viscously.

Traumatized gay man. 😔💪

John “Soap” Mactavish :

Listen, He likes bubble baths. That’s a pretty well known fact. But.. Have you ever considered.. He may try doing Romantic dates in a bath tub? He’ll do those corny but sweet rose petal trails to a bathtub filled with bubbles and rubber ducks with a goddamn rose in his mouth seductively.

anyways, hope your happy with that visual. He most definitely does the continuous bumping his wrists together, not knowing he’s saying ‘hard sex’ in ASL. (I did this multiple times, both before and after. It’s unconsciously stuck to me. I fear myself only.)

If he ever visited England to see his boyfriend Lieutenant, Ghost, nobody could fucking understand him. But when Ghost visits Soap, Everybody sounds so fucking confusing to Ghost that he just walked out into a forest for a lap. Like when people read a cringy sentence and have to put their phones down, walk around their house two or three times, before going back.

He makes fun of Kyle whenever Helicopters are mentioned in a convo, just like making puns to piss him off.

“ Oi Gaz, do ye like the band ‘The fall out boys’? ” while giggling like a mean middle school girl. 😔✊

He likes frogs. Did as a kid, still does now. But the catch is, He cannot go towards one if his entire life was on the line. Like, He finds them cute but nearly pisses himself when They jump towards him.

silly little bisexual ‼️😊

Kyle “Gaz” Garrick:

So. You wanna hear my head canons of my Husband? /Jkjk—

I could imagine this dude was judgmental as a kid, full on mama’s Boy conversation with his mama like “ Let me guess, Aunt Stephanie said this! She is always talking crap about you, Mama, but I don’t see dad coming home with a new hickey every weekend. “

when someone goes low, he goes the lowEST.

I like to think he has a sister or two who influenced him on skincare, periods (for if he pulls anyone with period hauntings), and how to style various hairstyles just so his sisters didn’t have to pay a shit ton of money for the same hairstyle.

Do any of you guys just.. think this man bakes? Just baking when he’s bored or stressed. No thoughts. Just cookies.

He loved otters as a kid, but now finds Pallas cats better.

trust that he has heard tea from nearly every country that even agents don’t know about.

Bisexual. Leaning more towards mlm but nonetheless free-styling .

Kate Laswell :

the queen. The majesty. The LESBIAN MUM.

I like to imagine her wife is the ultimate mastermind, Like Kate is just the boss of tf141 but instantly does any bidding her wife asks her to do.

She’d be a great aunt, Mum would be even better.

I bet she met her wife in either a serene area like a flower shop or a bloodlust filled chaos like the battlefield. Two ways this could go. No in-between. Retired lesbian medic, Or Flowershop owner.

Kate seemed like the girl to like Penguins for not only their cuteness but their habitats , their diet, their life, and everything about them.

Would I be wrong to say that she most definitely got a piercing when she was a teen but took it out some time later?

She’d be a great friend to have, she’d be the one who’d order for you if you’re nervous.

You cannot FUCKING. DENY. That she has a border collie with a sweet name like Dolly

She has a wide range of music, but Music from Dolly Parton inspires her. Just imagine it.

a canonical lesbian with immense sarcasm.

Alex Keller :

Mmm the white man. /jk

He seems like he’d be the average uncle. I actually have an uncle that looks sorta like him, but balding brown hair and is named Corey.

He most definitely had a golden retriever or Siberian husky as a kid, some dog breed that’s hella energetic.

i can imagine how Any dog interaction he has now, they always try at least once to steal his leg like fetch.

He regretfully wore old spice when he was a teen but thankfully stopped after smelling himself.

He seemed to have played baseball as a kid. He just gives off that vibe.

He most definitely mispronounces easy af words on accident when distracted.

speaking of that, he seems to be a baking when stress kind of dude but also, if he did that, he’d pause halfway through cause he got distracted then forgets what he was doing. The only reminder being the burning kitchen after thirty minutes of distractions.

Silly little pansexual ‼️💕

Farah Karim

would i be wrong to headcannon that she would be the best muffin maker? Like even better than Gaz and Laswell.

She is so pretty ‼️

her favorite animal once was hedgehogs but now it’s lionesses. A massive change but both great animals.

I bet when she was a kid that she would threaten to bite people, and when in fights, actually did bite people. Worth it. (i have done this before as a kid. Proud af)

She would rock those black a leopard print sunglasses mums wear to beaches. Just think of it.

I wanna think that she had once owned those rabid chihuahuas and called the dog something sweet and unsuspecting like “Mr. sprinkles” for the fun and hell of it.

silly little demiromantic bisexual 🫶💕‼️

#call of duty #cod mw2 #cod mwii #cod #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #john price #farah karim #alex keller #kyle gaz garrick #kate laswell #headcanon #headcannons #my headcanons #silly stuff #silly post

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nysocboy · 3 months

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Glamorous: Be as femme as you wanna be, especially when you are surrounded by mega-hunks

Glamorous, on Netflix: Make-up obsessed Marco gets a dream job at a glamour firm, starts a journey of self-discovery, and falls in love with a man. The episode descriptions use "he/him" pronouns, but Marco is played by -- and based on the experiences of -- trans actress Miss Benny. So maybe he'll be coming out as trans at some point.

Scene 1: Marco awakens. He's a boy with a femme girl hairstyle and a room decorated with pictures of high-heel shoes. Asking himself if "the struggle to be a grown-up is realer than real," he puts on his frilly pink gown and heads for the makeup table -- well, more like a makeup warehouse, puts on his face, and starts talking to his internet followers: "I am a makeup artist and beauty industry professional who works with all the major brands, including Glamorous by Madolyn." Looks like he's already pretty self-discovered.

But in real life, he has a part-time job behind the make-up counter at a department store, he has minimal followers, and his Mom, whom he claims "helps with my content," could not be less interested. But does that stop the dynamo make-up artist? Nope. "We're going places!"

Scene 2: Mom has called in some favors and enrolled Marco in a paralegal training program. Do you need to call in favors for that? Can't anyone enroll? "But Mom, I already have a job!" "It doesn't pay anything. You're 22 years old: start taking your life seriously, and start paying me rent!" Settle, dude. You know how many famous make-up artists there are out there?

Scene 3: At the mall, Marco sees his idol, Madolyn, looking at a display of her own products. She explains that she's doing important research in her customers' buying habits. It's not just about the make-up, dude. "I'm a customer!" "Ok, let's see what you got. Give me a makeover."

Marco goes to work, while criticizing his idol's make-up! Smooth move, dude. It's not selling. Customers consider it safe and banal. They want fantasy. "When I do my makeup in the morning, I want magic! I want to feel like a star!"

Madolyn is mesmerized. No one has criticized her for 20 years. "You have some important things to say about makeup. Want a job?"

Scene 4: Marco going to work in a glass-and-steel skyscraper. At least he gets to wear his high heels and a totally femme hairstyle. The first assistant, Venetia, introduces him to Madolyn's son Chad (Zayne Phillips, top photo), who is in a meeting while running on a treadmill....with his shirt off....um, his muscles gleaming....um...does he need a personal assistant?

"Is this the superstar Mom hired from the mall?" Chad asks. Superstar? I thought he was just opinionated. Then he criticized Marco for wearing heels: "I'm gay, but I'm not...gay." The word you're looking for is "femme," as in the Grindr ads: "No femmes, no fats."

Next on the tour: Product Design, and another gay guy, Ben (Michael Hsu Rosen, left), who trips all over his tongue while trying ineptly to flirt. "He gets like this when he's excited," his coworker explains. "I don't get like anything when I'm excited, which I'm not," he stammers. "But I could be." Dude, are you talking about your penis?

Next up: Social Media Influencer Alyssa, and her assistant Nowhere, a 1960s hippie. "I'm an influencer, too!" Marco exclaims. "Yes, but you just have 1,000 followers, and half of them are bots."

Finally Madolyn's office, with all of her awards, magazine covers, mirrors, and make-up. I'm getting flashbacks to Wilhemina Slater on Ugly Betty. except Madolyn seems much nicer. Marco the Dope criticizes her again: "You seem very...comfortable!" "I beg your pardon? I take chances! I'm cutting-edge!"

Scene 5: Marco telling his followers about his first week, sugar-coating the slapstick mishaps that we see in a montage. The First Assistant Venetia discusses with her friend: "He's flopping like a Katy Perry single." "Good -- then our jobs are secure. If he were doing a good job, we'd have to sabotage him."

Left: Michael Rosen's rear

Scene 6:Madolyn criticizing Super Hunk Chad's ideas for the new line. "This is exactly what we send to Sephora every year. We need to be bold -- take chances."

Chad: "Or we could just sell the company to World-Famous Make-Up Company and be rich(er). You could even stay on as Creative Director, and I could do something besides sell...ugh...makeup." Chad's going to be the Big Bad.

More mega-hunks after the break

Scene 7: Marco has the job of picking up the super-important product prototypes and bringing them to the office for the Big Presentation. He gets into the wrong Uber, and complains to the real passenger, a very muscular Straight Guy (Graham Parkhurst), who takes an Uber to the gym every day, about his various job mishaps. Straight Guy consoles him.

Whoops, he left the very important prototypes in the Uber. There's no way to track them down, since he got in the wrong Uber. Wait -- wouldn't the Uber driver have turned them in at the company office? Madolyn wants to forgive him, but Super-muscular Chad insists on firing him.

Scene 8: Ben, the coworker with the huge crush on Marco, talks to his friend: "Now that he's fired, I could ask him out, but I won't because it would be weird and creepy. But just in case, do you have his number?" This is definitely like Ugly Betty, where every straight guy working in an office full of supermodels fell instantly in love with the "ugly" girl. Well, not Daniel, but they had a "will they or won't they" thing going on for several years.

Meanwhile, Mom tells Marco to fight to get his job back. The Straight Guy probably picked up the prototypes. You know what gym he goes to, and the time of day: go find him!

Left: Straight Guy butt

Scene 9: Pretending to be a rich white guy, Marco buys a gym membership, with the proviso that he can back out if he's dissatisfied. Girl, high heels to the gym? He pretends to work out forever, but Straight Guy never shows up, so he hits the locker room (actually, a lot of semi-private dressing rooms). And there he is, dawdling at the mirror, wearing only a towel!

Straight Guy gazes at Marco like he's a pork chop. "I...um...left something in the Uber yesterday." "I've got something for you right here." He fumbles with his towel. Psych! He's actually heading to his locker to retrieve the prototypes.

"And, by the way, I'm not straight. And here's my number. Bye." He takes off his towel, flashes his butt, and heads for the showers.

Scene 9: Everyone stares as super-fired Marco marches through the office and into Madolyn's meeting to present the prototypes. Chad scoffs, but Madolyn wants to hear his speech: "I'm not perfect. I'm bad at math, the oldest movie I've seen is Titanic, and I don't know who Cher is. But I can learn. I can grow. The question is, can you?" He then criticizes the prototypes as garbage. Madolyn is impressed; he's re-hired If you want him to advise you on make-up, hire him as a consultant, not a gopher.

Chad scoffs. "Curses! Foiled again!"

Left: Nick Fink, who appears in the cast list but is not in this episodeScene 10: His first job: fetching coffee and a Vogue for Madolyn and First Assistant Venetia. Uh-oh, he's sharing an elevator with Ben, the guy with the major crush on him! He fumbles and stutters until Marco takes pity and asks him out. Ben melts in ecstasy, then catches himself: "Um..yeah, I guess that'd be cool. Hit me up."

Cut to First Assistant Venetia running into Chad in the bathroom. Venetia is worried that he'll take her job, and Chad, that he'll tank the company with his newfangled ideas. They come up with a plan to "ruin that twink." The end.

Beefcake: Chad and Parker (Straight Guy), plus a few gym hunks.

LGBTQ Characters: Marco, Chad, Parker, Ben, and -- well, just about everyone.

Femme: No one is bothered in the least by Marco's femme gender presentation. In fact, it appears to be something of a turn-on to the more masculine-presenting guys.

Make-Up: There are a lot of "make-up is the most important thing in the world" manifestos, but we don't actually learn much about make-up. Why is Madolyn's brand outdated? What the heck is a gondola? At least in Ugly Betty, we were told the difference between bad and good fashion.

My Grade: It's rather fun watching a boy be as femme as he wants to be with no kickback, and the hunks competing for his attention are stunning. I'm just worried that the office-politics plotlines will be a bit old-fashioned. A-

#Glamorous #Miss Benny #Zayne Phillips

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adultswim2021 · 7 months

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Superjail #9: “Dream Machine” | November 23, 2008 - 11:45PM | S01E08

Everyone say hello to Superjail! This episode is a fun one, and I consider it “nice” as well. In this one, the Warden starts having a very scary nightmare that the inmates are going to overthrow the prison. So, he decides to attach his Wonderful Wubulous dream machine to all the inmates' heads in order to monitor their psyches. The Warden goes crazier and crazier, in part due to the mischievous twins being bad with it. The episode more-or-less devolves into a big old wacky dream-world battle, with dreams within-dreams, animation style changes (at least one, anyway!) and a fun ending that I couldn’t believe I forgot all about.

The Warden’s suspicions extend to his staff, featuring a memorable moment where he looks at Jailbot’s dreams, who just wishes he were human and that the Warden was his dad. Right? That’s what happens, I think. I didn’t take very good notes for this episode and then I forgot I didn’t actually finish this write-up, so I’m going off the dome for this, one day later. Anyway, Jailbot’s dream is in CGI. Jarred dreams he’s a big guy and that the Warden is little. …A little GAY that is! THE TWO DUDES KISS! Cool!! Alice’s dreams that the Warden is a bug and says “quit bugging me”. Alice's lines are a part of the show that I routinely forget to talk about as being good. Allow that last sentence to get me off the hook about that for a while.

The Dream Machine is based on The 5,000 Fingers of Dr. T and the Women, a film I remember watching during the pandemic. It was a time when I literally would watch 2-4 movies in a single day, and I remember very little from it other than the iconic costumes and sets that I actually remember from before I saw the movie, when I'd randomly come across stills for the movie and think "that movie looks great. I should watch it", so it’s almost like I never watched it.

There’s probably a second-or-third-hand Luis Buñuel reference I could have jammed in here somewhere. Did you know that every time a person has a dream that is revealed to be inside of another dream it’s a reference to The Discreet Charm of the Bourgeoisie? Probably not really, but every time it happens in a movie, somebody on IMDB will edit the trivia section (under “connections”) saying it’s an intentional reference to this. At this moment, nobody has done this for the Superjail episode “Dream Machine”. Please don't!

This is a fun one, but I regretted not doing druuuuuuuuugs for it. I should have eaten one of those dollar bills covered in fentanyl that cops love so much. I wish I drank a big thing of poison for this episode. It would’ve been so badass.

MAIL BAG

@snusuwiwjs writes:

Have you read any of the Space Ghost comics released from 1997 to 2001? I found them to be pretty good, especially the one where Space Ghost and Brak get invited to an awards show.

I haven't, but I MIGHT! I think I have a couple. Every single comic book ever made is easily findable online, so maybe I'll give those a look soon, and MAYBE I will refer to them in some context during my next SPACE GHOST WEEK.

It is probably nice of me to remind everyone that when this calendar year of Adult Swim reviews is over, I will be tackling the 1999 episodes of Space Ghost, then when I finish 2009 I'll probably do the GameTap episodes. Haven't figured out what I'll do after that, but maybe it'll be nice?

#adult swim #adultswim2021 #superjail

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dearweirdme · 9 months

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i would agree about certain jikook behaviors being normal 'bro' things if i thought they were straight guys. straights dudes do shit like this all the time, that i agree with. but i don't think neither jk or jimin are straight, and tkkrs especially agree on the jk part. so how (and why) would a gay man do things with his bro that are normally done to/with a partner? especially if that partner is another member of their group and a close friend of theirs?

the only instances of 'hickeys' tkk have are made up theories by tkkrs, one of them was at an award show in 2016, which imo is as unprofessional as the j-14 interview theory jkkrs made. a lot of the 'weird' things jikook do are deemed as weird because those members are gay to a lot of people. even if you don't think they're dating each other, ain't no way they're dating other men that aren't each other. how would jimin explain to his boyfriend that he sucked jungkook's neck? what type of boyfriend would be okay seeing jimin's ear get sucked on stage by his bandmate? why would jungkook even suck jimin's ear or flaunt a 'bite' on his neck by a man who isn't his boyfriend, especially when he's a grown man who knows it looks like a hickey and WILL be interpreted as one by his and jimin's shippers, which he KNOWS they exist. do they not care about their partners feelings? do they have no consideration at all? can't they just act normal like the other members do with each other? cause they're the only two who do shit like this and they only do it WITH each other.

Hi anon!

I’d say two queer men are just as capable of being just friends as two people of the opposite sex and as two people of the same sex who are heterosexual. Platonic bonds do exist amongst queer persons you know. How on earth are bisexual persons to interact with each other according to you? Can they never be play-flirty or bantering?

A lot of the things that are considered ‘weird’ are only considered weird by Jkkrs. I don’t think those are weird and many agree with me. Tae knows those two men way better than you and everyone else in fandom judging them. So when he sees Jk and Jimin interact he knows it’s just banter. Jk and Jimin explained what happened with the bite, it’s not their fault Jkkrs don’t believe their logical, easily given explanation.

#straws

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seasurfacefullofclouds1 · 1 year

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"Harry’s conservative and Zionist politics get scrubbed away and no one talks about it. But get him impromptu, and he says some truly dumb, unfortunate shit. Zarries honestly think Zayn would tolerate this man? Especially with a daughter who has Palestinian ancestry? "

You said something so clever right there, i don't wanna get political i'm not palestinian i don't wanna speak over palestinian people but it's interesting to look at how his team and his fans, cause let's be honest it's both, work so hard into shutting down every person who tries to expose him for who he really is, they did the same with the black lives matter mess, and do the same everytime a discussion about him taking advantage of the lgbt community is brought in. I saw some fans claiming to be black,palestinian, part of the lgbt community defending him with their lives, the thing is even if they truly are part of these categories still doens't justify styles behaviour, one person can't speak for a whole community. Back when i still stupidly supported him as a queer person i felt hurt and offended by his way of dealing with queastions and using the lgbt community but i got treated poorly by his fans saying i was exagerating, i was playing the victim role but seeing one of my favs treat so badly a community i'm part of was disappointing, still i never told other lgbts fans how they should feel. It does seem tho, most of queer people who aren't his fans despise him and think of him as someone taking advantage of us and not as an ally or a part of the community, most palestinian who aren't his fans hate him. I used to hope he will get exposed for who he really is but i gave up on that it'll probably never happen and even if it does it will really change anything? His fans know of all of that and still decide to ignore and suppress everyone who tries to speak about it. At this point i only really want his fans to stop using other people to clean his image. Do zarries really think zayn likes styles? Yes cause they have to, cause if zayn who's half palestinian and who used his voice so many time about these issues loves styles that means he's a good person, he's not a zionist he's just a poor dude who got misunderstood, do larries,zarries,xarries ecc really think of styles as gay/bi? Yes, cause they have to, cause if he is/was in a relationship with one of these men he can't take advantege of a community since he's part of it.

They go as far as saying he's a feminist cause he posted a story about abortion (lmao) and how he truly is a good boyfriend and the women he dates are the problem after all he's one of taylor best exes cause why would he be bad if she still says hi to him during award shows? Everything is so fucking stupid honestly

Tbh i'm not even frustrated anymore at him for being undeserving of being a big name a lot of rich succesful people are just as shitty or even shittier than him and are thriving in life, that's the way it is. Even when it comes to his morals i'm convinced he has none, when you stand for nothing you fall for everything, that's why it's so easy for him to give up everything for money. I'm just still a little frustrated, at him for using minorities he's not part of to build his image and lift his career and at his fans for using other people who were betrayed and ostracized by him in order to clean his mess.

Said that i won't bother you anymore with this topic i really don't want to waste any of our time with that man and his fans. Thank you for listening

Harry’s fans are very good at ad hominem attacks of critics, a classic diversion tactic. They will tell actual transgender fans that they’re transphobic (!!) if they think Harry isn’t identifying as a transgender individual.

Narcissists diffuse criticism through diversion, dismissal, and denial. Harry’s fans use all of these tactics to take criticism away from him. Go to the big Larrie or Harrie blogs and you’ll see these tactics on every single answer defending Harry. “You’re listening to Rads.” “That never happened. I’m sure the critics have it wrong.” “It’s the people on his team.”

We end up with a mannequin who is perfect but all surface, no depth, and not human.

(Just a correction. Zayn’s father is Pakistani but born in the UK, not Palestinian.)

#harry styles

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casspurrjoybellbittner · 27 days

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Taming Arrogance - Chapter 15

*Warning Adult Content*

A cacophony of chatter fills the silence, overpowering the smooth jazz filtering from the unseen speakers.

With sunglasses fixed to the front of my face, I approach the bar with eyes forward.

Always eyes forward.

The richness of male voices are everywhere, never broken by the slightest, feminine whisper.

Francisco's is far busier than it was last night but I should have expected that coming into a bar on a Friday night.

I settle into the second to last bar stool and prop my elbows onto the marble countertop.

Multiple bartenders lean towards their eager customers, learning their orders with practiced memory.

My gaze bounces from one to another until I locate my reason for coming here.

Cade lifts a bottle of Grey Goose high into the air and drains a good amount into a martini glass.

He sets it down and reaches for the next bottle, his every movement as fluid and graceful as the very liquid splashing into its new glass container.

He's confident when he makes drinks, he's confident in his work.

It reminds me of Blake.

Blake and his many loyal employees.

Blake and his imperturbable work ethic and unshakable composure as he takes that first step into work day.

I imagine Blake's normally poised, masculine torso leaning across the table to whisper something into Phil's ear.

The movement would be relaxed and effortless, no doubt.

That's how Blake moves, though, his sureness so potent that it borderlines seduction, day in and day out.

Blake and his date with that stupid, fucking Phil.

My teeth begin to ache from my jaw working itself tighter and tighter.

Fucking Phil.

I mean, don't get me wrong.

I don't want Blake for myself.

Really, I don't.

There's just something about Phil that makes my skin crawl.

The dude is a leech, possessive and wasn't he the one that didn't want commitment in the first place?

Right.

So he's a hypocrite, too.

Add that to the list.

"Well, well well. Callum. I didn't think I'd see you again. Especially not in here," the friendly voice pulls me out of my moment clutched within fury's talons.

I glance up at Cade and he smiles.

His hair is slicked back today, a sleeker appearance than the slightly disheveled look he was sporting yesterday.

"I was thirsty," I mutter.

"And he's not the boss of me."

I don't have to go into any greater detail.

Based on the slight altercation that occurred here last night, Cade is all too aware of who I'm referring to.

He chuckles and leans across the bar, just as he did for his last customer only minutes ago.

"Alright then handsome, what can I get for you?"

I scoff and roll my eyes in disgust.

"You're an idiot."

Cade smirks and shrugs.

"Hey, that's how we're trained to do it. Plus, it's proven to be an excellent tactic in earning a few extra tips."

"That's pathetic."

"My bank account would beg to differ but what'll you have? Shot? Beer?"

"I'll take a Jack n' Coke."

Cade nods and gives me one of his practiced, award-winning smiles.

"Coming right up."

My back is rigid as I wait for my drink.

I don't know what's making me more nervous, waiting for a guy to come up and hit on me or wondering if Blake will make another unexpected visit.

I can almost feel him coming up behind me, the heat of his chest bumping up against my back and his heady scent overpowering my senses.

I know, I know.

It makes me sound gay as hell but that's just him.

His presence begs attention and focus without trying.

Add to that his air of genuine confidence, intelligence and charm.

I mean, let's call a spade a spade.

The man is a walking addiction.

Well, to most people.

I'd like to think I'm immune to his appeal.

My groin twitches as I become lost in deeper 'Blake' thoughts and I grimace realizing maybe I'm not as immune to him as I'd like to think I am.

"One Jack n' Coke. On the house."

I laugh humorlessly and start digging into my jean pocket to pull out my wallet.

"Now, now, remember what Sir Asshole said about that."

"As someone very wise said to me only minutes ago, he's not the boss of me."

I slap a ten dollar bill on the table and shake my head.

"He'll have no issue coming in here and buying out this bar and firing you in seconds flat. Just take the money."

Cade's smile falters.

My words seem to surface his memory of Blake's final warning to him.

He flushes and takes the bill off the table, stuffing it into his barista apron.

"So should I expect another movie-like entrance from your boss this evening?"

"Highly doubt it."

I take a sip of my drink, puckering my lips as the richness of the Jack Daniels slides over my taste buds.

"He's out with..." I stop short before calling him 'fag-tard Phil.'

As much as it's a fitting name, I have a feeling using such colorful language in a place like this will do far more unintentional harm than good.

I take another sip of my drink and try again through gritted teeth.

"He's out with his boyfriend."

Cade raises is brow.

"Boyfriend, huh? That's an unexpected twist."

"Mmph."

"Is it serious?"

"How the hell should I know?"

Cade watches me as I sip my drink.

His thoughtful eyes dance over my features, evaluating my state of mind based on my facial expression.

I try to keep a straight face,but I can feel a scowl forming.

I set my drink down onto the marble.

It clatters noisily.

The heavy brown liquid sloshes from side to side, an alcoholic ocean churning with the changing tides.

I run a hand through my hair and smooth it down again when I'm done.

Cade's gaze never leaves me.

He doesn't seem to be too concerned with getting back to his other customers and the thought of him bypassing potential tips to talk to me is, flattering.

I guess.

"I can't decide if I want to be that man's advocate or not," Cade chuckles under his breath. "He's a real dick."

"Got that right."

I grab my glass again, lifting it into the air in a 'cheers' gesture before gulping it down.

"But it's impossible to deny that he's into you," Cade counters, rubbing at the barely-formed stubble lining his lower jaw.

"To put it lightly."

"He's not into me. He has a boyfriend and I'm not gay."

Cade grabs another mini-can of coke and the bottle of Jack Daniels.

He brings them both to my glass, tipping them over to refill my drink.

The liquid slips over the ice cubes like an alcoholic waterfall.

I hastily grab it up again when it's filled to the top.

"Cheers."

"Better slow down," Cade remarks, tossing the empty can of Coca-Cola into the recycling bin.

"I have a feeling if boss man catches you down here sloshed again, it won't end well."

"I told you. He's out with his boyfriend and..." my snappy comment is cut short when my cell-phone vibrates in my pocket once, twice and then three times.

It has a different feel to it than a phone call, so I pull it out with hopeful fingers to see who is texting me.

Blake Benson: Where are you?

Blake Benson: If you are with that bartender again.

Blake Benson: I'm coming to get you. Be ready.

My stomach quivers.

He knows I'm here and he doesn't seem too thrilled about it.

I wonder what he'd do if he had me alone right now.

Would he force me to kiss him again?

A tremulous shiver rolls down my spine.

Would he punish me by doing, other things?

Sexual things?

I swallow hard, the Jack Daniels still lingering at the base of my throat.

The thought of being in a room alone with Blake makes my head spin.

Maybe it's the alcohol talking but the idea of pissing him off so that he'll touch me, is kind of hot.

I quickly text back.

Callum Greene: Don't bother. I won't be here.

Blake's response is instantaneous.

Blake Benson: You will remain where you are until I come and get you.

Callum Greene: Go fuck your boyfriend and leave me alone.

I glare at my cell-phone and shove it back into my pocket.

Cade's eyes are still on me, his smile slipping as he studies my features once again.

"Trouble in paradise?" he asks.

"I need to leave."

"The bar?"

"Yeah. I need to go."

"You going back to the hotel or...?"

I grit my teeth, staring down at the few bubbles popping up on the surface of my drink.

"I don't have anywhere else to go."

Cade glances around and then lowers his head towards me.

"I'm off in ten minutes. If you head to the back, I'll pick you up and we can go somewhere else. We can even go to my place if you want."

I jerk my head away.

Is he... does he... is he hitting on me?

At first the proposition confuses me, makes me uncomfortable even but then I remember Blake.

Blake and his annoying boyfriend, fag-tard Phil and a Cheshire grin spreads across my lips.

I can feel my pocket vibrating again, Blake's unread text seeming to burn a hole through my denim jeans.

I give Cade a nod of consent.

"Sounds like a plan. I'm in."

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Oh, just wanted to share, I here decided to watch monsuno on tv when my parents were at home, and they decided to see what I watch, and it was so akward mostly because of Klipse's weird gay energy especially in moments with Jeredy, and when Hargrave is on the screen it feels like that meme "Yametekudasai-!". And they dont remember turning on tv for me to watch that show, and they were like "THIS is what you were watching as a kid?WTF". Same with some other movies/cartoon, my mom loves transformers, and so do I, but I had watched Transformers Prime, and it had good graphic and violence at first episodes, even minutes, and mom was just like "😨If I knew I wouldnt let you to watch it". I've watched it when I was around... wait, I'm 20,and it was 2013... When I was 7.

Also, there is such series as Lucifer, it's weird series cause there was moment when I just turned on tv with that thing and there were two muscular half naked dudes, one with beard, and one who is not said "daddy please, give me money" and bearded said "no son". It was akward, so I never watched it again, haha.

Other is, Arthur and miniputs when shamans were draining water from kid to shrink him, and they just covered him with ropes and began to tighten up to water would go from his body. He was screaming for stop but they did not. And he asked for it by himself, to became miniput.

I’m kinda had a childhood where my parents like let me watch anything. Blood anime scenes, ghost possessions and folklore, martial art, psychological and intelligent people, and tons of violence. Idk if they just let me watch it because I was mostly a ‘good’ kid, but like they never did anything to stop me from watching them. It was only up until I got older and closer to an adult age that they finally wanted me to watch something ‘age appropriate’ and not a ‘children’s show’ in their eyes, but like if they actually had looked at what they let me watch, they would have known why I wanted to be a boxer or martial artist as a child, and why I started getting smart enough to become valedictorian. And one of those show was of course, Monsuno and Six was the reason I passed my AP English class and exam to get the valedictorian role, and that really is important to me because I was the dumbest student when I comes to English up until I wanted to make a story about Six.

(Thank you again Six. We earned all those English awards.)

Thankfully, my parents finally understood that the shows I watch effect my mental health because of what I learn from watching the shows and just let me enjoy whatever I want to watch. Again, thank you Six and also to my animes, especially Dragon Ball Z and Super for the fact they had Vegeta and Trunks to show me how to have confidence in myself and how to be smart in science class.

Also, when you said Lucifer, did you mean the show about Lucifer Morningstar? The Devil who moved to LA and started helping the LAPD and ended falling for one of the detectives? I watched that the entire way! Didn’t really like the last season, but it was a good show. I made an OC named Eric who was inspired by the Lucifer show, and his acrylic painting got third place in the art show. I didn’t saw that one coming since Eric’s painting was done in one or two nights, but like good for him.

I don’t know the last one, but that sounds crazy for a child to watch. But then again, I watched Power Rangers and still do to this day, and boy, those guys know how to not hold a punch.

Funny fact: I made a slight fan art of Vrak from Power Rangers Megaforce, and he also won second place in the art show in 2022, but I had another art piece in the same category as Vrak and she won first place. The reason this is funny is that my first place art piece has a name, Emma, and Vrak was beaten by a Ranger named Emma so basically Vrak lost to another Emma. Also, Vrak’s the reason I’m like good in psychology, so ‘children’s shows’ are good for people!

#monsuno #anon ask

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Anonymous requested: Could I request willex fake dating au, maybe the boys are trying to get Alex a boyfriend and so he asks Willie to fake date him to get the boys off his back or something please!

Anon, I love fake dating AUs, I’m beyond glad that you suggested this. Plus with willex I think fake dating is very in character, especially for Alex. I had a lot of fun writing this one, thank you for your request! I’m sorry it took me so long to get round to writing it, but to make up for it I’ve made it longer than most of my other fics.

A Dream Come True

Alex had to hand it to them – when Luke and Reggie wanted something, they really pushed for it. Normally it would be one of the many things he loved about the two of them. Determination, perseverance, resilience, all good qualities. And when they put their minds towards something useful like booking Julie and the Phantoms a gig or dragging Willie out of the washing machine when he got stuck in it playing hide and seek, they were definitely useful to have around. So usually, Alex loved their pushiness.

He just didn’t like it when it was aimed at him. Even less so when they were trying (for the umpteenth time that month) to get him a boyfriend.

And the worst part was that this time Alex had run out of excuses.

For reasons Alex simply couldn’t fathom, Luke and Reggie had been obsessed with the idea of finding him a boyfriend for some weeks now. Reggie had downloaded several dating apps and entered all of Alex’s information, and every time Alex saw him the first thing Reggie would do was reel off a list of several candidates he’d deemed worthy. Luke, ever the technophobe (or rather just terrible with technology), had taken a more natural approach and spent countless hours wandering the streets of Hollywood for someone who was, in his words, ‘the sort of guy who would make Alex lose his goddamn mind’.

It wasn’t that Alex didn’t appreciate them trying to make him happy – he found it sweet, if a little weird – it was just that he knew nobody they found would ever be right. He knew what he was looking for, he knew what he wanted, and he didn’t think that Luke and Reggie could get it for him.

The first time they had tried to send him on a date Alex had faked a cold and pulled out at the last minute. The second time he had “accidentally” shown up to the wrong location and missed the entire thing. The third time he simply hadn’t gone – instead, he turned off all the lights in his house, locked all the doors and windows, and hid, so when he didn’t show up and Luke and Reggie came over looking for him they assumed he was out. The fourth time and most recent time he had pretended to fall asleep when they told him about it.

Alex wasn’t the most creative of people and he had pretty much exhausted all of his go-to date-dodging tactics. So the fifth time his friends tried to set him up, he completely panicked.

“So I was doing my usual lap of Sunset Boulevard this morning,” Luke said in lieu of a greeting the moment he walked into Julie’s garage. “And Alex, dude, bro, you will not believe the guy I saw.”

“Good morning to you to,” Alex said flatly.

Luke wrinkled his nose like the greeting confused him, but then saw Julie setting up her mic in the corner. A bright smile grew on his face as he was distracted and for a moment Alex thought he might have been lucky enough to get out of the conversation. But a moment later, Reggie entered the studio and also decided that greetings weren’t a necessity.

“Luke! Did you tell Alex about the guy yet?”

Julie snickered (she found the whole thing much funnier than Alex did and he most certainly did not appreciate it) and for a moment more Luke continued to just look at her, absolutely besotted, but then he came to his senses and all of a sudden his excited smile was directed at Alex.

“Right, that. So I ran into him outside the Orpheum, so he’s probably a music guy,” Luke gushed, winking in a way that Alex supposed was meant to be suggestive. “We had a little chat and he told me he’s training as a teacher and is also looking for someone to settle down with.”

“Sometimes I worry about you,” Alex said, laying a gentle hand on Luke’s arm. “You’re getting forgetful. I’m not looking to settle down with anyone.”

Rolling his eyes dramatically, Luke shrugged Alex’s arm off and instead planted his own hands firmly on Alex’s shoulders, shaking him a little. “Maybe not, but that might change when you meet this guy.”

“I doubt it. What’s his name?”

“Oscar. Maybe Oliver. Orville? I don’t know, but it definitely began with an ‘o’.”

“He sounds memorable,” Alex deadpanned. “I’m sure we’ll have a great time together.”

Reggie gasped excitedly. “So you’ll meet up with him then?”

“No,” Alex said firmly.

Julie giggled again (and once again Luke looked at her, dazzled). “Why not, Alex? You sounded so enthusiastic about him!”

“Very funny,” he returned. “I’m not meeting him.”

“Why not?” Luke whined, dragging the words out like a frustrated toddler. “You always do this! Reg and I try to set you up with people but you always say you don’t want to. Are we missing something?”

Alex could see the cogs whirring in Reggie’s mind before his face lit up and he triumphantly guessed, “Or are we missing someone?”

If anyone had asked, Alex wouldn’t have been able to give a reason for what he said next. It was completely untrue, a wild statement made under extreme pressure in the face of an emergency. Perhaps it was a bad decision, but he had run out of excuses to not meet people and he was getting desperate. He hadn’t had time to consider it.

Alex said, “Yes.”

Reggie’s jaw dropped, Julie dropped her microphone, and Luke dropped whatever respect he had left for Alex’s personal boundaries. He launched himself at Alex, tackling him to the floor in what he assumed was supposed to be a hug, and Alex was fairly certain that Luke was crying with happiness.

“Dude!” he shouted (though it was rather muffled since he had his face buried in Alex’s shirt). “That’s awesome news! Reggie and I can stop searching! I didn’t think you’d be able to find someone yourself, bro.”

“Thanks for having so much confidence in me,” Alex said flatly as he extricated himself from Luke’s vice grip and hoisted himself to his feet.

“You’re welcome,” Luke said as he wiped his eyes (yes, he was actually crying happy tears).

Julie had her arms crossed in front of her chest, looking half-puzzled and half-affronted. “You’re seeing someone? And you didn’t tell me? The only one of your friends who is even a little bit good at keeping a secret?”

“Hey,” Reggie interrupted, “I’m good at keeping secrets!”

“Reggie, honey, I love you but at Christmas you told everyone what you’d bought them as soon as you’d bought it.”

Reggie looked like he wanted to defend himself but couldn’t. “I was excited to see everyone’s reactions…”

Rolling her eyes fondly, Julie turned back to Alex. “Anyway – why didn’t you tell me?”

While he was a terrible liar, Alex just so happened to be a very good actor. In high school he’d got the lead role in the school play two years in a row, but whenever someone asked him if he was gay (before he had come out) he would often panic and pretend to faint to get out of the situation. Though he was technically telling a lie here, he decided it would be the prime opportunity to employ some of the improvisational skills he had worked on with Carrie back in their theatre club.

“It was all very new,” he explained, “we weren’t sure if it was going to go anywhere and we didn’t want to tell everyone until we were sure.”

It was only at this point that Alex realised he was digging a very deep hole for himself and it was most certainly too late to climb out of it now.

“When do we get to meet him?” Reggie asked excitedly.

“You already have,” Alex replied.

A little voice in the back of his mind was saying, shut up, you absolute idiot, what the hell are you playing at? Perhaps stupidly, he drowned that voice out.

Looking dumbfounded, Luke clutched Alex’s shoulders again. “We have? Who is it?”

The little voice got louder – don’t say it, Alex, I’m begging you not to say it, it’s like you’re actively trying to ruin your own life, you absolute–

“Willie.”

In eery synchrony, Luke, Julie, and Reggie all looked to each other with identical expressions of shock and bewilderment and then turned back to Alex with furrowed brows.

“Willie?” they all chorused.

Alex pursed his lips and rocked on the balls of his feet, suddenly regretting every decision he’d made that had brought him to this point in his life. “Yep.”

“I thought your thing with him finished like six months ago?” Julie said.

“Well, there wasn’t really much of a thing to finish,” Reggie reasoned, “just Alex’s pining from afar that had lasted for like four years–”

“Yes, thank you, Reginald,” Alex interrupted. It wasn’t that Reggie was wrong, Alex just didn’t like how right he was. “And yeah, it did… I guess. But then we were hanging out together a few months ago and it was really nice and we started doing it more often and eventually he asked me on a date.”

Alex was overly aware that every word he had just said was an utter lie. Firstly, he had never really got over Willie – Willie wasn’t the sort of person you could just forget or move on from, even though Alex had never actually dated him. Secondly, Alex and Willie hadn’t actually hung out together alone in quite a while. Willie had been busy with their blossoming art career, going to different presentations and awards shows, trying to make a name for himself; Alex, on the other hand, had been doing his best to avoid dating anyone. And thirdly, Willie had never once asked Alex on a date.

He knew he should have backtracked, told them the truth, but he was in far too deep.

“This has been going on for a few months?” Luke said incredulously. “How have you kept it from us that long? Dude, you just let Reggie and I spend literally all our free time trying to find you a boyfriend!”

“I never asked you to do that.”

“You could have told us to stop,” Reggie said.

“I did,” Alex returned. “Several times.”

Julie raised her hands placatingly. “Okay, okay. That’s not important right now. What’s important is that Alex and Willie are finally together. Are you sure they’ll be alright with you telling us while he’s not here?”

Alex shrugged, trying to act like he wasn’t too sure (which was easy because he’d never been less sure of anything at any time in his life). “Umm… well… we haven’t really talked about it much, but… you know, I’m sure he won’t mind too much. I’ll tell them tonight.”

Julie smiled warmly. “Well, I’m happy for you in any case. It’s nice that you’ve finally got what you wanted for so long.”

“Amen to that,” Luke said, finally picking up his guitar. Alex had all but forgotten they were supposed to be practising instead of talking about his very fake relationship with Willie which Willie didn’t even know about. “And Reg and I can finally stop looking for someone.”

“Could’ve stopped before you’d even started,” Alex said, sitting down behind his drumkit, “but alright.”

He knew that sooner or later he would have to tell Willie what he’d done and he was absolutely dreading it. Willie was a very chill person and Alex knew they’d probably find it funny more than anything, but it was still a daunting prospect. But for now, he focused himself on his drums, hammering out all of that excess anxiety, and forgetting the absolute nightmare he’d created for himself just for a little bit.

It was nearing one o’clock in the morning and Alex was very much not ready to go to sleep. For one thing, he was still wearing his clothes instead of pyjamas, and for another he was pacing his room like a caged lion with anxiety and had been doing so for almost three hours. He was trying to build up the courage to call Willie and let him know what had gone on, but he was so nervous that he wasn’t sure he’d even be able to string a sentence together if Willie picked up the phone.

He knew he would just have to bite the bullet. He couldn’t put it off forever or it would end in disaster. For the thousandth time he reminded himself that Willie was the kindest, funniest, most good-natured person he knew and that he had nothing to be scared of when it came to telling them that he had made a massive, probably damning mistake. Willie would be fine with it, Alex knew.

Before he could dwell on it a second longer, Alex dialled Willie’s number and let it ring.

It only rang twice before Willie picked up. Even though it was late, Alex had known Willie would pick up (the guy hardly slept at all) and he fought the urge to tell him to go to bed.

“Morning,” Willie said chirpily.

Alex checked the time and blinked in surprise; he hadn’t realise how long he’d been pacing for.

“Yeah, I guess it is,” he said. “How come you’re still awake?”

“Mario Kart,” they replied. Alex could practically hear Willie’s smile – suddenly there were butterflies in his already anxious stomach and they certainly weren’t helping. “Why are you still awake? I thought your bedtime was half nine.”

“It hasn’t been in two years and you know that,” Alex said. Willie giggled brightly which teased a smile out of Alex. “I, uh… I actually need to talk to you about something that happened today.”

Just get on with it, he told himself, don’t drag it out.

“Oh?” Willie said. “What is it? You sound nervous – do you need me to come over?”

“No,” Alex told him, “it’s late – or maybe early. Either way, you don’t need to come all the way to my place just so I can tell you this.”

“It sounds serious.”

“It might be,” Alex admitted. “It depends on how you take it.”

There was a brief silence on the other end and for a moment Alex wondered if Willie had decided to end the conversation, but then they said, “Alright, let me just pause the game.”

Another short pause as Willie stopped mid-race. Alex took the opportunity to collect himself, shake out his nerves. It would be fine. Willie would be fine with it.

“Okay,” he said a moment later. “I’m back. What’s going on, hotdog?”

Alex scratched awkwardly at the back of his neck, suddenly unsure where to start.

“Okay,” he began uncertainly. “Well… Luke and Reg have been trying to set me up with someone for a while now and I’ve been trying to avoid it as much as I can. I’ve sort of run out of excuses and you know how difficult it is for me to say no to them.”

Willie hummed knowingly. “Like with the Great Cactus Robbery of 2019.”

Alex winced at the memory – he hadn’t realised cactus spikes hurt quite that much, but he’d gone through with a lot that night for Luke and Reggie’s sake.

“Don’t remind me,” he said witheringly. “Anyway, you know what I’m talking about then. They told me about another guy earlier today and I really needed another excuse to give them. I tried just point-blank telling them no, but then they started asking questions and…”

“And?” Willie prompted.

“I told them I was seeing someone,” Alex said. There was silence on the other end. “I told them I was seeing you.”

After a moment or two (that felt like an eternity) Willie burst out laughing. Alex sighed, affronted, but he supposed it was one of the better reactions he could have got. At least Willie wasn’t angry at him.

“Why?” Willie wheezed between laughs. “Was that seriously the first thing that came to your mind?”

“Yes,” Alex grumbled. “I was under a lot of pressure. You were the obvious choice.”

They giggled happily and Alex realised just how true those words had been – whether he liked it or not, Willie would always be the obvious choice for him.

“Well, I’m flattered,” they told him, blatantly trying to contain their giggles. “Thank you for thinking of me, hotdog.”

“You’re welcome,” Alex said. “But I’m sorry about it too. I’ve created an absolute mess and dragged you into it, so I understand if you’re angry at me.”

“Does it sound like I’m angry at you?”

“No?”

“That’s because I’m not,” Willie said kindly. “I get it, man, you just panicked. No big deal. Besides, we can ride this out easily.”

Alex blinked. “We can?”

“Sure, man, it’ll be fun. We’ll pretend to date for a few weeks, have a friendly breakup, and then everything can go back to normal.”

“You’re sure?” Alex checked. This hadn’t been what he was expecting – he’d thought Willie would say it didn’t matter but he needed to come clean. He hadn’t been expecting the offer of dating.

Fake dating, said that irritating little voice in his head. It’s not real. Don’t let yourself forget that.

“Of course I’m sure,” they said. “I mean, it’s totally cool if you don’t want to, but surely it’ll be easier than backtracking completely with the others. And it’ll get Reggie and Luke off your back for a little while longer.”

He considered it, weighing up the pros and cons. On one hand, he’d get to date Willie at last, something he’d wanted to do since he met him. It would give them more of a chance to hang out together, Luke and Reggie would stop pestering him, and it was always fun to harmlessly mess with his friends. On the other hand, he wasn’t sure his sentimental little heart could stand getting to date Willie and then having him taken away even if that was the arrangement from the very start.

But it was a sacrifice he was willing to make.

“Alright,” he said resolutely. “I’m in.”

“Cool,” Willie returned happily. “Shall we meet tomorrow to discuss, you know, like, boundaries and stuff like that?”

“Sounds great. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

He heard Willie press play on his game, the unmistakable sound of an item box being broken on Mario Kart.

“See you tomorrow, Alex,” Willie said. “Or maybe now we’re dating I should be calling you ‘babe’ or something.”

If that made Alex’s heart flutter, he wouldn’t say anything about it. “We’ll go over pet names tomorrow. Goodnight, Willie.”

“Goodnight, babe.”

As Alex put his phone down and launched himself into bed (still fully clothed but suddenly far too tired to even consider getting changed) he thought to himself that there probably couldn’t have been a better outcome.

Alex had expected the meeting with Willie to feel awkward and weirdly formal, but it was completely the opposite. Both of them were in high spirits the whole time, jokingly holding hands and making heart eyes at each other, laughing every time one of them used a particularly ridiculous pet name for the other. (When Alex had called Willie ‘sugarpoops’ he had thought they might die from laughing.)

But the meeting was productive too. They set some effective boundaries – any touching was allowed, just not too intimate; kissing was fine, but only to prove a point; and just for the fun of it they agreed they had to act like the most sickeningly in-love couple the world had ever known. Alex didn’t really care if that would give the whole thing away, it seemed like a bit of fun and it would be useful when it came to reminding himself that none of this was actually real.

That bit, he had to admit, still stung.

He and Willie had arranged to meet Luke, Reggie, and Julie at the studio that afternoon, so spent the day together beforehand. Just to try and get into the swing of things, they treated their morning together as a mini date. Alex took Willie to minigolf, then they went to an ice cream parlour, and after that Willie tried to teach Alex how to skateboard for fifteen minutes before Alex got too nervous and gave up. It was fun and Alex tried not to think about the fact that this was the reality he was missing out on – if he imagined he was just hanging out with Willie as a friend, which in a way he was, then it was just about bearable.

They arrived outside the studio together and they could hear the other band members’ voices already inside. Alex’s stomach started squirming nervously which he thought was weird. He didn’t actually have anything to be nervous about – he and Willie weren’t really dating.

But still, he was starting to feel a little bit queasy and was seriously considering just running away.

Then he felt Willie’s hand slip into his and their fingers lace together. He looked down at them and saw that he had a kind, soft smile on his face, gently encouraging.

“Ready to be my boyfriend, sweetheart?” Willie asked teasingly.

The nerves didn’t disappear, but Alex found it a lot easier to ignore them after that.

“Always,” he said. “Let’s do this.”

Without another moment’s hesitation, Alex pushed open the studio door and led Willie inside. Julie, Luke, and Reggie all hushed immediately and looked at the couple like they’d been caught red-handed. If their guilty expressions were anything to go by, they had been talking about Alex and Willie before they had walked in. He could only guess as to what they had been saying, but at that point Alex hardly thought it mattered.

It was showtime.

“Hey guys,” he said, grinning broadly. “What are you talking about?”

The three all responded at the same time but with wildly different answers.

“That gig next week,” blurted Luke.

“I lost my favourite hairclip,” Julie explained.

“I’m thinking of buying a horse,” Reggie told them.

Alex and Willie looked at each other, trying to hide their amusement.

“Anyway,” Julie said, “doesn’t matter what we were talking about! Because you’re here now, both of you! And you’re dating!”

Without warning, Willie giggled brightly and attached himself to Alex like a koala to a tree. Alex laughed and threw his arms around Willie, holding them tightly, pressing a firm kiss to the top of their head.

“I feels so good to finally have it out in the open,” Willie gushed, gazing at Alex with pure adoration in his eyes. “Right, sugarplum?”

Alex gently rubbed the tip of his nose against Willie’s, fighting the urge to laugh. “Of course, my little cheesecake.”

Out of the corner of his eye, Alex could see his friends’ expressions – he had to close his eyes so he wouldn’t be able to see them, otherwise he definitely would have broken character and started laughing so hard he couldn’t breathe. Luke looked utterly horrified, like the display of affection was disgusting; Julie was staring at the two of them wide-eyed, her face flushed red, looking like she would rather be anywhere else; and Reggie just looked baffled.

After a while, Julie cleared her throat and the couple turned to look at her innocently.

“So,” she said, “we’ve heard Alex’s version of the story, but Willie – how did… all this happen?”

Willie linked his arm through Alex’s marched the two of them over to the couch and sat Alex down, then sat primly on his lap, laying their head against Alex’s shoulder. “I’m so glad you asked.”

“I’m not,” Luke muttered, “this is weird.”

Julie kicked his shin and he shut his mouth.

“I had been watching Alex from afar ever since we met, but I didn’t think a cool, handsome drummer could ever care about someone like me. I was convinced we would only ever be friends. But then we hung out together and I saw all these different sides to his personality – he’s so caring and soft, you know, and he means everything he says. Alex isn’t like anyone I’ve ever met. So I decided to just go for it, ask him out, admit how I feel.”

Alex stroked a hand through Willie’s hair, eyes fixed on him. “Since then we’ve never looked back. And we never will.”

“Oh, my darling!” Willie exclaimed, throwing themself at Alex and pressing a kiss to his lips.

It certainly wasn’t how Alex had envisioned his first kiss with Willie going (and he had envisioned a great many different versions of it) but in a strange way it felt just right. Sure, they weren’t dating, but they were hanging out together, having fun, being in each other’s company and loving every second of it. Maybe the circumstances weren’t exactly what Alex wanted, but the love they held for one another was still there, nothing could take that away.

So maybe it wasn’t the best decision he’d ever made, but Alex let himself get lost in the kiss. He didn’t know how many times he’d get to do this in his life, so he figured it was better to make the most of it. He blocked out the fact that his friends were right there (a sure sign that he wasn’t thinking straight – absently he knew that he would be very embarrassed by this when it was all over) and just focused on Willie.

And he was sure he wasn’t imagining the fact that Willie seemed to be enjoying it just as much.

When Julie eventually cleared her throat again, they separated. But Alex couldn’t take his eyes off Willie. He knew he wasn’t imagining what he’d felt in that kiss – like sparks had flown between them, forcing their dynamic into something much more than friendly banter and an inside joke. Willie’s eyes were glassy and he was breathing heavily, scanning Alex’s face for something, though Alex didn’t know what. All he knew was that the kiss had pushed the boundaries they had spent all morning setting and if he wasn’t more careful he would lose himself to this silly little charade.

The five of them spent the rest of the afternoon and evening just talking to each other. Willie stayed firmly planted in Alex’s lap and they both used the occasional cutesy nickname for each other, but it seemed as if both of them had silently made the decision to tone things down a little bit. Luke seemed relieved about it at least – for all the heart eyes he made at Julie he certainly seemed uncomfortable at the affection Alex and Willie had shown. It was probably because Alex hardly ever showed love like that in front of people.

But god, he wanted to do it all again.

Luckily, it didn’t seem like any of their friends suspected Alex and Willie of lying to them. By the time they were all on their way home – Alex and Willie walking away hand in hand – nobody had brought up the fact that it could all be fake.

“That went well,” Willie said as they walked along the seafront, heading back to his place. The cold night breeze lifted their hair and Alex couldn’t keep his eyes off them, not when they were looking so beautiful.

“Yeah,” he said, watching the way the amber glow of the streetlamps danced in Willie’s eyes. “It did.”

“Have you thought about how long we’re going to do this for?” Willie asked. Alex was sure he heard nervousness in Willie’s tone, maybe mingled with hope.

He shrugged. “A few weeks maybe. Unless you had something else in mind.”

“No, no, that’s fine, man.” They had arrived at Willie’s apartment building and stopped just outside of it. “I’ll see you tomorrow then?”

“Yeah,” Alex said, smiling smally. “See you tomorrow.”

He didn’t know what he was thinking – he had expected a goodnight kiss from Willie, but instead he was left alone in the cold as Willie let go of his hand and hurried into the building. Alex was suddenly reminded again that it was all fake, that he shouldn’t have expected kisses when they were alone.

It hurt though. He knew that kiss earlier had been more than just top-notch acting.

He fell asleep that night, still thinking about it, the memory replaying on a loop in his mind. In one way or another, Willie was going to drive him crazy.

The next two weeks flew by. Alex found himself hanging out just with Willie more and more often, playing Mario Kart together at Willie’s insistence, going on more dates that weren’t actually dates, or even just video-chatting each other while doing their own separate things to enjoy the company.

After that first day as a “couple”, Alex was sure Willie’s confidence had been knocked. For the next few days they withdrew himself from Alex and Alex didn’t know if he’d done something wrong or if it was just something on Willie’s mind. Still, he let Willie work through it, and a few days later he was back to normal, clinging to Alex like a barnacle to a ship, calling him every pet name under the sun.

And still their friends were none the wiser.

The end of their time as a couple came all too quickly. Alex walked Willie back to his apartment again, a heaviness in his heart. He didn’t know how an actual breakup felt, but he was willing to bet that a breakup would be less painful than whatever this was. No part of him wanted to give this up, whatever silly little thing was going on between him and Willie – it was fun, it was freeing, it gave Alex a light feeling in his chest and made him so happy he thought he might burst at any moment. He didn’t want to give any of it up.

But still he walked Willie to his door.

They stood facing each other, hands interlinked between them, sad smiles on each of their faces. Alex tried to memorise every detail on Willie’s face as if it was the last time he would see them.

“This has been fun,” he said eventually, his voice low, quiet in the night air.

“You can say that again,” Willie agreed. “I loved being your boyfriend.”

“I loved being your boyfriend.”

Something flickered in Willie’s eyes, an expression gone too quickly for Alex to name, but it was quickly forgotten because a moment later Willie stood up on his tiptoes and kissed Alex.

It wasn’t like any of the other kisses they had shared in the past few weeks. There was nothing over-the-top and exaggerated about it, it wasn’t just a stunt they pulled to fool their friends. It was slow and soft and Alex felt the rest of his body go fuzzy and numb as all he could concentrate on was Willie’s lips on his.

An eternity later, Willie pulled away, his eyes scanning Alex’s face.

Alex swallowed heavily and said, “I thought we could only kiss each other to prove a point.”

Willie nodded. “Did I not get my point across very well? Do I need to kiss you again?”

Alex almost laughed but something stopped him. “Just… just explain it to me first. So I don’t get the wrong idea.”

“I loved being your boyfriend,” Willie said. “You enjoyed being my boyfriend. So… why should we stop?”

Alex felt his head spin. Somehow the nightmare he’d created for himself all those weeks ago was turning into a dream come true.

“You mean that?” he asked. “Tell me you mean that, Willie, please.”

“I mean it,” Willie said resolutely. “I’ve felt this way about you for too long just to let it go. If you want me then I want you. I want to date you, Alex. For real.”

Alex kissed him again, short but sweet.

“Is that a yes?” Willie asked, giggling.

“There’s no other answer I could have ever given.”

Even though they remained boyfriends (real ones this time), Alex and Willie decided to drop the over-the-top, lovey-dovey stuff. It was fun, but it wasn’t them. Instead, they chose to fill every second together with quiet declarations of love, casual dates, soft kisses, nothing that wasn’t real.

But they never did tell Luke, Reggie, and Julie how much of it had been fake.

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I want to know everything about your Father Brown OC!

Omgggg

Okay so to preface, I am trans-masc, pansexual and polyamorus, (lmao I would NOT make it in the fifties 😂) so OC is too.

Basically, he meets Sullivan in London, post-Kembleford, and they become good friends, possibly lovers, but definitely falling for each other.

Then one day OC gets the absolute shit beaten out of him, either for being gay or trans, and since he has now been outed, he needs to get out of London. And he could use some clean country air and quiet while he recovers, so Sullivan actually offers to take him out to Kembleford until he's healed, and he says yes.

So they move to Kembleford and are living together at least at the start so Sullivan can keep an eye on him and help him out bc seriously he was almost beaten to death, dude's got broken ribs, left arm fractured, right wrist sprained, his face is so messed up and swollen at the moment that he can only open his right eye like half way, the other is too black, nose is probably broken, and he's definitely having nightmares. So. He's not really able to be on his own rn.

Father Brown and part of the gang run into Sullivan while he's out buying something and are obviously quite shocked to see him, especially since he pretty much showed up out of nowhere. He explains (some of) the situation to them, and they ask if there's anything they can do to help them out. Sullivan is about to say no, but has a thought, and mentions to Mrs. McCarthy that his friend is actually a baker by trade and absolutely suffering with not being able to make desserts for himself for a while, and she promises to bring them over some Award Winning Strawberry Scones, (they bring way more than that, lmao.) And so part of the gang come over later on and bring them stuff to help out and meet OC, and they seem to like him a lot. He's intrigued to meet the infamous meddling Priest, as well as some of the others that's he's heard quite a bit about from Sullivan. He also feels kind of bad about having to lie to them about why he was hurt so badly, (it's a small town and he's really not looking to out himself in front of a bunch of Catholics, even tho they seem lovely,) saying that he'd gotten in the middle of several guys trying to take advantage of a couple of lovely young women trying to have a nice night out. This is not way too much of a stretch bc this is absolutely something he'd do anyway, "My brother's always joking about how I've got a heart bigger than my brain."

So that's how he meets a few of them, and others in the gang end up visiting over time as they all pitch in where they can while he gets back on his feet. Once he's back to being able to do most things on his own Sullivan goes back to working with the police, (high key bc he thinks Mallory is not suited to running them,) and OC ends up hanging out a lot with Sid and Bunty, and thus, ending up embroiled in the shenanigans and solving of murders and such. (Lmao, at some point either Sid or Bunty end up asking how someone as nice and fun as OC ends up such good friends with a working stiff like Sullivan. OC laughs and lets them in on a secret in that "under about six layers of tough outer shells he built up to protect himself, he's actually a pretty sweet guy." But says no more, bc they are absolutely Just Friends.)

Over time we learn more about OC, like how his Mom died giving birth to him, and he and his brother took after their Mom so much that their Father couldn't stand them, (he was also VERY displeased with his 'daughter' acting too much like a boy, etc.) He became an alcoholic and gambled away most of their money, and at 9 and 12 respectively, OC and his brother literally ran away with a circus.

The Circus was like a family and as many of them were in the Circus bc they were 'Freaks' themselves, they let OC live as a boy and were fine and supportive of both he and his brother not being straight. (Brother is Gay AF.) They lived with the Circus for like 12 years, during which they became an acrobat/gymnast-y act, OC became a tiger tamer, (loved the tigers to death, treated them with so much love. [PSA: This was the 1950s, and things we're different, tigers are not pets, and should not be kept for things like circuses, we know better now, do not do that.]) They also picked up a lot of other skills and types of performing.

Eventually around maybe 18 and 21 they left and settled in London so Brother could study to be a Doctor. (Idk if he actually goes to medical school, bc money, but he definitely trains with them for years.) and OC becomes an apprentice at a Bakery.

Once healed up completely and between all of the trouble and murders of Kembleford, OC ends up working for the Bakery in town, eventually inheriting it as the elderly owner is happy to retire now that he finally has someone to pass it on to.

Due to their many and varied skills, OC comes in handy pretty often in cases and just around town in general. I think at some point brother and his boyfriend move into town as well, (posing as brothers so people don't question them living together. Yikes, but Gays gotta do what they gotta do in that world.)

And while Sullivan is absolutely the initial romantic partner, they might end up seeing Sid, (and possibly Bunty,) as well too. (An open and honest poly thing, no cheating involved.) Also they end up doing a fair amount of flirting with Flambeau as well bc they are both Pan disasters.

In the end the gang do all find out about him being trans and pan, and still take him into their crazy little family. (Doing their best to help cover for him as well, bc this is 1950-something, and other than his brother having pulled off a pretty successful top surgery on him, there's no testosterone or anything, and he's quite short, so he struggles to pass sometimes.)

Also I torture him a bit extra by having him, (and his brother,) be raised as Catholic but having given it up when they couldn't handle being called sinners and abominations anymore, and working with Father Brown definitely makes them feel guilty about leaving sometimes.

Oh, and he's like 27-28ish. And he adores animals. (He takes the spiders out of the house for Sullivan bc he's secretly very scared of them, and he has to go remove any snakes or lizards Mrs McCarty finds in her garden, even tho he keeps trying to tell her that they're helping control pests that would otherwise be eating her plants.) Also he is definitely not Neurotypical. Probably ADHD, as well as like anxiety and depression, etc. Which is part of the reason Sullivan took to him quicker than he does most people, bc he understands a lot of what Sullivan goes through with his Autism. (Idk who the originator of Autistic Sullivan is, but I owe you my life, I love him so much.) He's also super open with his emotions, (as much as he can be,) and is super sweet and friendly and comforting, so he's not only fantastic during meltdowns, but has actually worked with Sullivan a fair bit on reading some social cues and trying to be more sensitive when talking to upset people, and such. Also helps him learn to talk about his feelings more and helps him unwind a bit over all. (Sid and Bunty helped with that too.)

Uhhhhh so yeah.

That's what I've got.

Thanks for reading all of this, I think I've been typing for like an hour. XD

#Father Brown #father brown fandom #Father Brown OC #OC #Original Character #OC Bio #Thanks for asking!

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i-imade-a-thing · 3 years

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Amphibia: Thai Feud & Adventures in Catsitting Details

Ok these 2 episodes are really fun and chill to watch! Seeing how each of Anne's parents interact with the Plantars are really interesting! I also like how they're researching about a way back to Amphibia in the background while they're doing their shenanigans. Anyways, here's some details I noticed while watching the episodes!

Thai Feud

The counter in the background include coffee beans, green tea, cereal, bowls, and coconut milk

Polly put her hands together while saying thank you (guess hop pop or anne taught her well!)

Sprig's shirt have pikachu

The list on the fridge include "La Kroy" and ham

Their new wifi password is "Boonc-1567"

In Hop Til You Drop they needed to buy oat milk and eggs, which is present in the fridge in this episode

Sprig breathe fire after eating spicy food, just like in Best Fronds

A cup with butterfly pattern can also be seen (Mrs. Boonchuy like butterfly)

There's also box of onions and ramen in the background

The dvd "Starzgate" is a reference to "Stargate", and the dvd "Quantum Hop" is a reference to "Quantum Leap"

In this entire episode, Ranat(thai wooden xylophone) is played in the background

They have order from GrubDub (reference to Grubhub), To-go, online, and Ub-r (reference to Uber)

There's a Buddha statue, candles, and incense in the background

A box with the named 99 Rancher(market they went to in New Normal) can be seen in the background

Ned is wearing Romance Academy 7 shirt, a reference to Gravity Falls

Ned seems to really like noodles

The restaurant also have certificates in the background, one for restaurant certificates and others for award?

Pad Ka Pao is a dish where they mainly mix Thai Basil, chilis, and meat together, and Kao Pad is basically fried rice

Their restaurant is open from 10:00 to 11:00

Their special menu are crab fried rice and tom kha gai (coconut milk, tom yam ingredients, and chicken)

Thai on the Go restaurant menu include Chicken Satay for $10, rice bowl for $12, pad thai, boba tea, and egg roll for $1, also free wontons!

Laundry place in the background is name "Laundry Plus"

There's also a paper that said "File Your Taxes :)" at Tax place

"I know what you're doing and I get why" *look at hopping mall*

NED IS LISTENING TO "WELCOME TO AMPHIBIA" HOLY COW

Sticky notes in the background include: "Check lights", "clean stove", "wash hands", and "order 1 pad thai"

Keyblade from Kingdom Hearts is seen with other car keys

Super Wario Kart is a reference to Super Mario Kart

Guy Fieri Boglehead is seen above steering wheel

Mae is EMBODIMENT OF ASIAN PARENT, waiting for other people to leave and when moment is right, scold you (personal experience lol)

Adventures in Catsitting Details

This picture is probably taken when they first decided to take Domino in

"I'm sorta family now so..." continuity from Thai Feud

The color cousin Stanley used is called "Plantar Orange"

The phone said the time is 11:24

Domino 2 is mentioned

Both the bus stop and the bus itself have advertisement for "Suspicious Island 2, 2 SUS"

Domino still look agitate in this scene

The mom from Hop til you drop and Emily(she also appeared in Hop til you drop and Thai Feud) can be seen on the bus

One of the dude on scooter is wearing ear pod

Some of the store they passed by include "Sushi Dump" and "Mister Washy"

The little dance they did is reference to Kirby's dance

The artist lady from Hop til you drop is seen in the pet shop

Shiba Inu, Pitbull terrier, and chuhuhua....all meme dog lol

The phone now said its 1:00

There's a sign that said "Slime Burger" in the background

Also there's a "Found" poster with 2 or 3 figures....

In the Shawarma store, the soda dispenser dispense soda called "Mtn. Don't", a reference to Mountain Dew

Karen joke lol

There's a 20% off sale in one of the menu

Catering poster can also be seen

Mr. Boonchuy's scooter license plate is "H5B9K"

And that's Thai Feud and Adventures in Catsitting! Both of these are fun episodes and seeing how each of Anne's parent react to the Plantar is really cool, especially when Mr. Boonchuy tell the Plantar they don't own them anything.

#amphibia #amphibia details #thai feud #adventure in catsitting

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itsclydebitches · 3 years

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(WLW anon) I really don’t like the “bad rep is better then none at all”. I hate that. We should want good rep, because bad rep has been used time and time again by homophobes as to say we shouldn’t get representation. To me it’s not “gay can have the same flaws as het”, it’s “fix the flaws in the het”. Also I know Renora being independent was a good, I was just saying in comparison BB. Also, yes, they were separated, but also didn’t stop thinking about each other. Especially bad with Yang.

Indulge me for a moment because I want to take a trip down memory lane and list some—just some—of the queer rep that has been important to me over the years:

Ellen comes out both as herself and as her character… years later, she’s a hated millionaire who is criticized for how she treats her staff

The wildly influential Buffy gives us two women entering a loving relationship… except then Tara is killed off, Willow goes evil for a time, and Buffy comes under fire for Joss Whedon’s everything

The beloved and respectable headmaster of one of the most popular book series ever published is revealed to be gay… except it doesn’t count because it wasn’t in the text and now all of Harry Potter is cancelled because JKR is transphobic

Kurt is an unambiguously gay teen in a hugely popular TV series, acting as one of the first overt representations a generation has seen… except he’s way too stereotypical and Glee is a joke now

Orange is the New Black gives us a number of queer women, including one of our first trans characters… but isn’t it problematic that they’re all criminals?

Brooklyn Nine-Nine hosts an out gay captain and gives us a bisexual coming out story that resonated with many, myself included… except now we’re supposed to hate all the characters on principle because they’re cops

Korra and Asami walk off into the spiritual sunset together… but they never kiss or anything, so that doesn’t count either

Steven Universe gives us a queer relationship and a wedding… but it’s an issue that this is just a kid’s show and, really, does it count when the rep is embodied by space rocks whose entire species only creates a single gender? Feels like a cop-out

Same with Good Omens. Yeah, Crowley and Aziraphale clearly love each other… but you never see them kiss or declare their intentions. It’s great ace rep though! Unless you want to level the criticism that asexual characters are always nonhuman

A character intended to be a minor guest becomes a show staple and eventually declares his love for one of the two main characters… except then Castiel immediately dies, Dean doesn’t respond, and they never meet on screen again

I finished Queen’s Gambit the other day and the main character had a one-night stand with a woman! … but everyone is talking about how bisexuality is used to represent her lowest point, so that’s bad too

I could go on for literal pages. Some of these arguments I agree with (Dumbledore), others I’ve pushed back against quite strongly (Crowley and Aziraphale), but all of them are valid criticisms depending on what part of the queer community you’re in and what your expectations are. My point here is that it’s all “bad rep.” I mean that seriously. If anyone reading this is scrambling for the comment section to say why [insert media title here] is actually fantastic rep, I guarantee that someone disagrees. Or if they don’t, give it some time. Just wait until the characterization becomes offensively outdated, or another part of the story ruins the relationship, or it comes out that the author did something truly horrific, or the terminology changes and it’s labeled as “problematic” now… just wait. At some point, any rep we feel is good rep now will be criticized, cancelled, and dragged through the mud. The rep that I personally haven’t seen much push-back against—like the beloved Captain Jack Harkness in Doctor Who, or Schitts Creek that just won a ton of awards—is wrapped up in the criticism, “So it’s all just about able-bodied, cis, (mostly) white dudes, huh? :/” Even the argument that queer characters need to be written by queer authors doesn’t hold up. I absolutely adored Sense8. “Wow, a gay main character in a loving relationship with another gay man, both of whom enter a loving poly relationship with a woman, another lesbian trans main character who marries the love of her life on screen, an entire cast arguably queer due to them sharing orgy scenes centered around the emotional intimacy they share, everyone survives, and this was written by two trans women! Great, right?” Well, not according to the wealth of opinions explaining how Sense8 is horrible rep, actually. Every piece of rep we’ve got is either currently flawed or will become flawed in the future.

So what do we do with that?

That’s where my “I’d rather have bad rep than no rep at all” comes in. For me, that’s not waving the white flag. That’s not an oath that I won’t expect better rep in the future (I do) or that I won’t criticize the rep we get (BOY DO I), but rather just an acknowledgement of reality. The vast majority—if not the entirety—of rep is “bad rep” in one way or another, but I’d still rather have it than nothing at all. Because I’ve lived just long enough and studied media just enough to know what nothing looked like. It was watching all queer characters meet untimely deaths. Before that it was watching queer characters be derided and treated as jokes. Before that it was nothing but coding, where queer characters didn’t exist except in our own headcanons and interpretations. Obviously “bad rep” covers a very large range of issues and “They haven’t even confirmed this relationship yet” is a bigger issue than “This queer character embodies one or two, mild stereotypes,” but ultimately I’d take any of it over nothing at all. And enjoying what we’ve currently got doesn’t mean I’m willing to settle for it indefinitely.

To use an iffy analogy, imagine there’s a factory. This factory makes plates. So. Many. Plates. Big plates, small plates, plain plates, decorative plates, plates for every possible occasion in your life—and everyone with a steak for dinner is pleased as punch. You though? You’ve got soup. You need a bowl. Your entire life you’ve been struggling to eat your soup off a plate (it doesn’t work) and listening to friends and family claim that the plate with a slightly raised edge could be a bowl if you squint (it’s not). To say it’s frustrating is an understatement.

But then, one day, the factory starts producing bowls too. Hurray! Except as soon as you get your hands on one, you’re told you really shouldn’t be using it, let alone praising it. Look at the state of that bowl! It’s cracked right down the middle, ugly as hell, shoddily made all around… you’re not really going to settle for that, are you? And no, you obviously still want the factory to produce better bowls, but at the same time, this is a bowl. You’ve never gotten one before and you can finally enjoy your meal, even if the soup leaks at times. Sometimes a lot. But you’re still feeling better about your meal than you ever have before. And what you then begin to realize is that lots of the plates are a mess too. They also have cracks, they’re also ugly, many are also shoddily made. The difference is that the factory is producing so many plates at such a rapid pace that every steak eater is able to get by. One plate breaks completely? You’ve got a thousand fallbacks. Don’t like the look of this one? A thousand other options. You disagree about what “shoddily made” means? Luckily there are enough plates that everyone can find what they prefer! But the bowls… there’s only a few. Some are really expensive. Others are only available for a limited time before they suddenly disappear. Your bowl breaks and you have to wait months, years sometimes, to get another one. You’re constantly told to go buy this one obscure bowl no one else has heard about and yeah, you like it... but you’d also like to buy one of the bowls everyone is already enjoying. You find yourself looking at the plates and thinking, “I’d like that. I’d like to have so many options that the flaws, while still a problem, are much more bearable.” You’re still going to demand that the factory get its shit together, you’re still going to (rightly) complain about the awful quality of your bowl… but it’s still nice to have a bowl, period. There are still things you like about it, even if it’s a mess: the color, the size, the beauty of the shape of it. Its potential. You’re still pleased you have something to enjoy and that helps serve the need you’re looking to fill, even if that something is imperfect.

That’s “bad rep is better than no rep.” To bring this very long response back to Blake/Yang, I don’t think their problems negate their benefits. Is their relationship currently non-canonical and filled with a number of writing issues everyone has a right to be angry about? Yup. I express that anger a great deal. Are they still half of a team on a very popular show that is (presumably) set to be canonized as queer? Yup. I’d much rather live in a world where big shows like RWBY try to include queer rep and fail in a multitude of ways—with the expectation and hope that they’ll continue to improve—rather than in a world where authors a) don’t care or b) are too scared to try. Because that’s where a “good rep or no rep” stance leads. The danger isn’t homophobes because they’re, well, homophobes. It doesn’t matter if the rep is good or not, they hate it on principle. But if queer authors writing for other queer identities, or allies writing queer identities, or even queer authors writing their own experiences (like in Sense8) continually come under non-stop fire for their attempts… there’s a good chance that many people won’t ever try. We’re already seeing that here on tumblr with young authors admitting that they wouldn’t touch [insert topic here] with a ten-foot pole because just look at what happens when you get it wrong. And authors will get things wrong because authors are fallible people forever unlearning their own ignorance. So though it might sound strange coming from a blog that has turned into such a RWBY critical space, I am glad that RWBY’s queer rep exists, despite all the frustrations that I share about it. I think a RWBY with various types of ��bad” queer rep is better than a RWBY with no queer rep at all, particularly when “bad” or “good” is so intensely subjective. There’s a middle ground between passively accepting whatever we’re given, and tearing into rep with such ferocity that we end up rejecting it all. There’s a space where we can be critical of rep and embrace the parts that work for us, simultaneously.

I hope and expect the het rep will get better too, but… that’s never going to happen instantly. To quote RWBY, there’s no magic wand we can wave to fix all our problems. Rather, it will take slow, plodding, meandering, lifetimes’ worth of work to see that change occur and I personally don’t want to spend the one life I have waiting for that perfect rep to show up. Because it’s unlikely that it will. While we work, I’d rather find the good in what rep we’ve already got.

#rwby #queer #mymetas #Anonymous

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watched all of the untamed / cql in two weeks after my friend 1 told me abt mdzs a hundred years ago and my friends 2 and 3 tried to get me into cql for like two whole years and there are.

feelings.

very first scene is a very dramatic death in the middle of nightmare battle on sith planet land . i will forget abt it in the next tenish episodes and then will be very surprised when it becomes Extremely Painful

anyway magic flying gays and possession and human sacrifice! we are off to a great start

in retrospect, chaos goblin wei wuxian must have had a blast pretending to be so cRaZy and be as disruptive as he could as mo xuanyu lbr

listen. why is fire always evil coded. cant a magic clan wear red, black and orange and have flame motif while being wholesome?

For Legal Reasons These Are Not Zombies

i wish the politics of the sect were a bit clearer, especially at the beggining when the wen clan had sm power, was wen ruohan the chief cultivator? is that why they were so slow in responding to the attacks? im v confused by the pre yiling patriarch politics

fighting in the roof by the moonlight as way of flirtiiiiiiing. as i understand this is a wuxia/xianxia trope and honestly...... thank u for ur service

slight bullying and being a nuisance in general, as a way of flirting we love to see it

wwx: if i drink on the rooftop, thats not inside the cloud recesses! hmmm check and mate :D lwj: i will fuck u up so help me god wwx: :0

i lov them

through hell or high water (quite literally) wei wuxian rem ains a trashfire gremlin till the end and i love him with my whole heart

in the pt subs wei wuxian calls jiang cheng a stubborn duck and i dearly wish that had come back

my opinions on almost every character goes from love to hate u - Hmm Me Like U - BABY. ILY. and i am Very Pleased w that. its been a while since i loved such a complete cast so much i think

no really. i WONT go into a detailed rant abt what i love about each of these characters and each of their relationships to each other. but i COULD.

some lan disciples in the loudest whisper ever: YEAH THATS THE JIN BASTARD MENG YAO HEARD THE GOT SUPER HUMILIATED BY HIS DAD LOL SURE HOPE HE DOESNT TAKE SLIGHTS TO HIS CHARACTER TO HEART

lan xichen, immediately: i must Love him

being into problematic ppl is in the Lan genetics, we come to realize

wen qing deserves so many awards for so many things but not snapping and just stabbing wen chao is at the top

that scene at lan qirens class where wwx talks about using resentful energy to fight a violent spirit. exquisite.

It establishes Good Student lan wangji, wei wuxian as curious and questioning and not afraid of taboo, lwj sees that wwx is not, in fact, a dumb ass hes just a Dumbass, shows us the audience (esp. a western audience) how shocking the idea of disrupting the dead/dying and controlling resentful energy actually is, the theoretical foreshadow arguing, everyone else like ‘shUT UP’, “and how could you ensure that the resentful energy would obey you and not hurt other?” “well i havent thought that far” and of course, lan qiren just straight up lobbing a hard object at wwx head,. chefs kiss

fellas is it gay to bother the hot rule obessessed nerd from ur school and make drawings of him with flowers in his hair and then hide gay porn in his book to antagonize him and ask him to hold ur hand and be ur friend and talk to him all the time and get him drunk and give him bunnies bc you know he likes them and give him a lantern and always want his attention and dedicate yourself to getting him to smile-

and after all of that wwx rly said oh i Admire him, aksd like yeah we all were there in high school buddy

i have Learned. caves = gay.

accidental marriage +beint physically tied together with the sacred married ribbon+ gay panic+foreshadowing+bunnies! in the cave (1)

the story abt lan yi and baoshan sanren tho. i would like to see it

early days wen bros pull my heart strings like a guqin

EVERYTHING about the lantern scene; disaster hets jiang yanli and jin zixuan; how wwx made lwj a bunny lantern. how soft and touched lwj was. wwx gleefully pointing out he was smiling and lwj IMMEDIATELY PULLING HIW SWORD ON HIM LMAO. tragically foreshadowy promises to do right by pepople, living without regrets. lwjs 'oh no do i love him??' face. just. all of it.

i have it on good acc that in the novel lwj is explicitly Repressed Gay Panicked Big Horny which is delightful and rly Adds to the performance

baby lwj is really just conceal dont feel dont let them know u have EMOTIONS (derogatory)

jiang cheng rly went "why dont.u go play with HIM if u like him so much"

jc and wwx have big BIG annoying sibling energy dont think too hard abt it or youll cry

lotus pier is soo pretty :((((((((((((((((

up until episode 13 you could think this could be a magical ancient chinese gays pride n prejudice w swords and shenanigans ................youre just not prepared for the game of thrones of it all

seriously ha ha ha i cried so much w this show my eyes genuinely swelled up . like. physically. fun timez fun timez

that being said, its hilarious that wen xu goes to cloud recesses like 'come out or ill kill all these hostages' and then DOESNT WAIT FOR AN ASWER AND KILLS THEM ALL IMMEDIATELY. do u know how blackmail works sir

would like to make it recorded that from day one i was like 'CALL A GODDAMN CULTIVATION G20 THIS ASSHOLE SECT IS LITERALLY MASSACRING YALL!!' and it took them like 3 or 4 massacres to do anything and they STILL sent their heirs into their territory LIKE

when wwx cites the gusu lan rules to wen chao tho. that rebel/attention whore/cutie pie 'look lan zhan i DID memorize the rules after all' ‘also a big fuck you to the wen sect :D :D’ sweet spot that scene achieves . delicious

all the cultivator young masters being petty af even though they are practically prisoners at the cave is hilarious and i love them

hurt and comfort + gay mistunderstandings + watsonian gay declaration music + accidental evil acquisition! at the cave (2)

its like where do i start? the fact theyre both trapped and kind of heavily injured inside an isolated cave with a murder turtle? wwx gay panicking lwj into coughing up bad blood? lwj being jealous as wwx babbles abt mianmian? telling him he shouldnt play with people and wwx saying he never played him? wwx going Oh. I See what is happening. YOU like mianmian, and lwj absolute done face ??? (iconic) wwx touching the sacred married ribbon Again? the telepathic communication? the sword? WEI WUXIAN ASKING LAN WANGJI TO SING TO HIM AS HE IS PASSING OUT AND LWJ SINGING HIM. THE SONG. HE WROTE. FOR WWX. AND THAT HE CALLED. THEIR SHIP NAME????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

they are SO insufferable pleeeeease

in the words of my friend 1 : “CQL is so gay we were all amazed how it got past the censors Ofc unfortunately it can't be novel level gay But they did their best And we love them for it”

in the theme of songs THIS OST. WUJI HAS BEEN LIVING IN MY MIND RENT FREE SINCE I FIRST HEARD IT the whole ost is so so sO beautiful.

the costuming in this is also soooo exquisite. the embroidery? the fabrics? the details? how every sect and clan has a distinct style and architecture? (also ik they based each off of dif periods in chinese history which is REALLY fucking cool) just chefs kiss

the direction too!. i enjoy the unusual camera movements and i think they give it that Vibe, also their composition is PARTICULARLY good when it comes to telling the subtext through position of camera/position of character (like nhs off to the side in scenes he at first glance doesnt need to be/ how lwj is often centered when hes Jealous Yearning at wwx being affectionate w other ppl, wwx return from burial mounds etc)

ik madam yu is like Badass Milf Check and shes not getting any mom of the year awards but im delighted at how messy she is. IMAGINE that woman on tiktok

you better have enjoyed gay cave (2) bc its Just Pain from here on out!

jiang fengmian and madame yu win the Most Dramatic Way to show they do care about each other, actually ..... ever :)

i thought jiang yanli jiang cheng and wei wuxian forcing themselves to escape yunmeng barely holding on after their parents are killed was going to be the height of pain in this show. ha.

the family dynamics in general on this showwwww, both blood/ adopted/ found families, brotherly bonds and lifelong friendships just. rly. truly. fucked me up. theyre all so important and complicated and well rounded and beautiful and tragic

and beyond being a Win For the Gays im so glad the relationships w wwx and jiang yanli/ wen qing were NOT changed from platonic bc they are so much better like that imo. like maybe if we didnt Live In A Society it wouldnt be so, but the fact wwx and others can love and value them so much and theres nothing romantic or sexual abt it is like. so refreshing. especially @ jyl, with the way he and jc are overprotective of her and shes such a nurturing/care taker figure for them, it would just not vibe as well if they made it romantic

i love that this is a story abt Wei Wuxian, the Yiling Patriarch aka Actual Satan/Boogey Man/Village With/Public Enemy Number One , my dude is literally a necromancer who only dresses in black and has evil smokey black tendrils wafting out of him, but the really edgy one is still jiang cheng, pastel purple fashion icon

and speaking of best/worst siblings wei wuxian and jiang cheng *immediately starts crying*

The Golden Core Transfer i just. no thots only tears

wen qing and wen ning putting themselves in so much danger just.... to help them. wn saving jc from wen chao. wq finding a way to get wwx to transfer his core. like thinking about the monumental work these two did to help wwx and jyl and jc... jyl trying so fucking hard to be strong and keep on moving and giver her little brothers comfort after losing everything... jiang cheng. losing his parents and his home and his ability to do anything abt it and his complete desperation and lack of self worth and turning on them with agression when he didnt realize all that they did for him ... hhhhhhhhhhhhh

me, pointing at the whole cast “i just LOVE them mom!!!”

its sad tho, that BARELY ANY of the women have like.... actual important conversations let alone relationships with each other at all in the story. and like wq and jyl have stayed at the same place for extended periods of time, where wq actively took care of her TWICE, and still! not one measly convo, nothing! ................ .𝓌ₕᵧ

everyone in this show need a good sip of Self Worth and Stop Sacrificing Yourself juice

ngl the sword flying looks very dumb

“a-cheng, please bring a-xian back.” “i will, i promise.” ;-;

the whole calling each other by the More Intimate Version of the name, first as teasing and later as true intimacy. mmmhmmm yes

untamed where everythings the same but wwx evil flute song is eoeo

related that scene when wwx comes back from the burial mounds for the first time w demonic cultivation and he acts all formal and calls lwj hanguang-jun and keeps being evasive and distant and mean and soooooo................. facetious

and how hes kind of desperately trying to keep intense lwj at bay (A FIRST) and avoiding actually talking to either of them and its all tension ughhh and then he MOCKS his and lwjs relationship, he jokes w him in this like... mean echo of their usual ~banter~ oof

and like!!! uncertain but so relieved jc who just HUGS him w no reservations for once and its not like he isnt just as worried as lwj abt wwx and what hes doing, but he chooses in that moment to enjoy getting him back first and mmhmMMMmMm yes (maybe my favorite scene in the whole show? MAYBE SO. )

highkey hurt me but also. i might be into mean wwx. i will take no criticism.

lan zhans sad eyes tho :(((((((((

on one hand i wish we could have seen what happened at the burial mounds but on the other the timeskip adds so much flair to his return so im hnnn

also i love that hes been missing for 3 months reappears kinda melancholic and bloodthirsty and knowing malign tricks and jc is like 'so. are u sad bc of lan wangji'

when ur bae survived the war but he thinks ur evil/ might be evil so you cant kiss :///

hmmm talking at the rooftop under the moonlight not mentioning everything that stands between usssss

they are the two jades of lan and we’ll be the two heroes of yunmeng is the type of line u dont even need to know whats gonna happen to know thats gonna be sad

when they fight wen ruoshan at the nightless city i thought that was the battle we see at the first ep and its not and its so easy and theyre all like ‘yayy we won go wwx!’ i was just. SCREAMS WHAT is gonna HAPPEN

so like. post burial mounds/sunshot campaign pre yiling patriarch wwx is like. ultra arrogant, ultra mocking, peak lil shit and it gave me e v e r y t h i n g i wanted

even tho having the wen prisoners at the targets at phoenix mountain and still having wwx and jzx shooting the arrows was???? so.... tone deaf

wwx: fucking w demonic energy jyl: he has never done anything wrong in his life, ever <3 <3 (mood)

the parallels between meng yao/wei wuxian (and even xue yang a bit?) are Seen and they are Valid

wwx post burial mounds: can yall SHUT UP abt the goddamn sword (suibian left the chat)

LIKE truly, we talk abt the angst and yearning with wangxian. but what abt wwx and suibian. xianbian / xianqing angst and comfort 100k

take a shot everytime someone coughs up blood

zidian is simply the coolest spiritual weapon rip to suibian and chenqing and bichen and sendou and baixa........ but tis the truth

cons: everyones families died in a nightmare war! everyones homes burned to the ground! everyone is traumatized! pros: everyone gets cooler clothes and weapons!!

wen ning and a-yuan and yanli bestest babes squad dont touch me rn

everyone: brooding and fighting wq and jyl: why dont you try some acupunture/drinking some soup and calm down huh? how abt that bitch??

showing the battle/massacre at the nightless city first was genius actually bc then everytime we have a cute scene w yunmeng bros and theyre like 'we'll be together forever! uwu' youre like oh. oh no. oh no no no.

justice vs lawfulness vs means and ends 👁

jc: stay in the right path and practice the art of the sword wx: yeah thats not gonna happen chief

my reaction to wwx renouncing to the sect politics to help the wens was just that elmo burning gif in succession

the dramatic rain. wen qing desperately calling out to wen ning. the ghosts/puppets killing the guards. how terrifying wn actually was while wwx was controlling him :( lwj goeing after him to try and stop him and then he just; he Sees him and understands him even if he cant actually do anything about it other than let them go.

“there must be somewhere in this earth we can go to :(((((((((”

"IF I HAVE TO FIGHT THEM, I'D RATHER IT BE YOU. DYING BY YOUR HANDS WOULD AT LEAST BE WORTH IT." oh my god oh my god oh my goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooddddddd

also lwjs umbrella is white w black smoke.. . . nice

yiling patriarch / demonic farming burial mounds settlement is like one of my favorite concepts. they an "EVIL" FARMING COMMUNITY LED BY THE VILLAGE WITCH COME ON

they planted TURNIPS and LOTUS FLOWERS and ONE (1) baby and made lanterns and a common hall :(((((((

wen qing and wei wuxian, baddest bitches and genius science best friends i absolutely LOVED to see it. they rly went ‘is anyone gonna sibling/project partner that’ and didnt wait for an answer

both wwx and jyl getting lotus ponds at the burial mounds and in lanling bc they miss lotus pier ;;;;;;;w

;;;;; wish jyl had actually gone into the burial mounds. we were robbed of jyl and wq meeting again and jyl meeting a-yuan and seeing the settlement and the homes and all ;w; at least jc did go, stab wounds and broken arms and all

wwx like... having thrown his whole life away to help the wens (yeah the sect leaders and jin guangshan in particular wanting his stygian tiger amulet was an Element but still) and not.... necessarily regretting it, but grappling with all of the consequences of it... becoming moody and drepressed at times, missing his family and lotus pier and his friends and probably simply missing being around people and causing trouble, extrovert that he is, lashing out at the wens and at a-yuan, just in general the whole messiness of that experience

the way the resentful energy does affect his temperament is rly nice bc its not too in your face,(i mean outside of the Shaky Hands of Rage) but like he clearly has a much lesser control on his anger and impulsivity (tall order) than both before bm and after hes ressurected

on that note A-YUAN BABIEST BABY BOY BEST BOY

lan zhan being like oh hey there wei ying fancy meeting u and our son here. just passing by u know how it is hmmmmMm and then PLOT TWIST having defied orders to go see him and being punished for it. oof;;

they habent seen each other in like? a year? and now theyre tgt 10 seconds and are already parenting a child together

also lwj rly kneels down in the snow way too much to be healthy

wwx: calm down guyssss i wont lose control of demonic cultivation omgggg . spoiler alert: he loses control of demonic cultivation

did u enjoy cute children? good bc now the Real Pain Begins

jiang yanli and jin zixuan rly out there APROPRIATING both disaster gays AND bury ur gays huh ;w;

i KNEW jin lings birthday was gonna fuck something up but the GASP that left my body when wwx lost control of wn and killed jin zixuan .. . .

im sorry and thank you aaaaAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaAAAAaAAAAA

when wen ning and wen qing were telling wwx their plan i was saying NO NO NO NO NO NO out loud in despair

also can we talk abt how wq is definetely talking about only the both of them surrending themselves but then? everyone else just surrenders w them? IT MAKES NO SENSE LIKE WHY WOULD THEY what would be the Point

sometimes there are some pretty gaping jumps in logic and continuity that are just like ? ?

wwx: oh so when you try to murder me its justified but when i survive through dark magic and murder all of you its a "war crime"

unsurprisingly, his most feral, most spiraling moment talking to the sect leaders on the roof and attacking them and even fighting lan zhan is among my favorite scenes... its like, so painful to watch but also so thrilling (and maybe my wen bbs dying arose some resentful energy in me what can i say)

and its JUST, all they ever wanted was to do good but then... war. and trauma. and hubris.

jiang cheng on the ground clearly thorn between what to do and feel is a Mood, lets just say

i was already crying when jyl showed up, but if i wasnt-

i suffered SO MUCH through this series trying to figure out WHY jc would kill wwx. and when i understood. its somehow not as bad as i thought and also MUCH MUCH WORSE

a look into my group chat during the last flashback episodes:

SO ANYWAY. after the BLOOD BATH and RIPPING YOUR HEART OUT and FEEDING IT TO YOU the untamed goes ‘ayy back to the present!! tu du dud ud du’

literally it ends a quarter into an episode and then KEEPS GOING i had to pause and stare blankly at the ceiling for an hour

babie cultivators and detective soulmates . i do need some cute after All of That

(not that the pain is over LOL)

lwj is significantly less emotionally repressed in the present and its delightful. hes just ALL IN with wwx. and not just in the ‘i would and have killed various men and risked my reputation for you’ but also ‘ur tired here have a drink i brought it up cause i know u like it and it want you to be happy, always’

“when everyone praised me and wanted my power, you were the only one that challenged me. now that everyone hates me and wants me dead, youre the only one that stands by my side.” hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

and just filling in the blanks how lan zhan searched for him. for all of those 16 years he searched for him and was punished for it and raised a-yuan, the only survivor of the burial mounds settlement, as his own in gusu......

and jiang cheng. being the tough love uncle . having raised the yunmeng jiang clan from the rubble all alone, his whole family dead, some of it on the blame of his own brother, his siblings, his closest friends gone.......and only jin ling there needing his guidance.

THE PARALLEL BETWEEN JIN LING BEING A LIFELINE FOR JIANG CHENG AND A-YUAN FOR LAN WANGJI AFTER THE BATTLE AT THE NIGHTLESS CITY

great now i made myself sad

and like . the fact! that lwj and jc dislike each other!!. jc projects blame onto him for wwx both “leaving” him and indirectly causing their families deaths and when hes so consumed by it he makes wwx an enemy, lwj is there now? trying to protect him?? and lwj, who can never understand the pain that wwx , indirectly or not put jc through, but who was right there when jc tried to kill him and will never allow him to hurt wwx again. and how they like. in a way project blame of their tragedies onto each other while dealing with some type of survivor guilt and in their own way still loving wwx through it all??? amd in way its kind of fundamentally selfish but also tragically understandable? and like when u put it against the fact that after he disappears during the sunshot campaign they were looking for him together and fought together??

JUST. THE CHARACTERS. AND THE RELATIONSHIPS IN THIS. MAN. UGH. GOD.

and like i think thats what makes it so good? its such a sad and painful and violent story, edgy even, but its compelling bc at the center of it there are all of these relationships and different types of love and hope and. :( i love it

enough crying lets talk abt wwx sleeping at the jingshi with lwj and wearing his under garment for a minute 🙏

jin ling just has that Was Raised by JC energy tho lmao i love him

babie cultivator squad is the perfect ammount of cute and comedic relief while still bearing the weight? of the narrative in a way, both from sizhui and jin lings existences, and also. like. how do i put this. they feel hopeful? they were born after a war, they came of age at a time of relative peace, they dont hold on so closely to the resentments of their parents/father figures, they are specifically shown as more accepting and open minded. and its like.... Hope for the future

one of the ?? things i love the most is the fact that the main cast are often in situations where theyre hunted/running but they like. never wear disguises... just going around in their gorgeous expensive clan clothes and hair ornaments and distinctive spiritual weapons.... maybe w a straw hat on, just for kicks

wwx teacher 🥺🥺🥺

so this is why its called Yi City Misery huh

a-qing is such. an icon. im so sad. my girl even knew to leave xys dumb self rotting by the road but no one listens to her thats why theyre all dead or sad

her and xue yang measuring each other up was so entertaining lmao

its the funniest thing when hes like. HERES MY SAD STORY. FOR WHY IM A SADISTIC MURDERER. I BROKE MY HAND ONCE.

like ok someone broke his hand in a horrible way, and like Poverty, i get it but also like.......... that lost the brunt of a proper sob story like, 50 sadistic murders ago bby

and i love that xingchen does not entertain that for a second hes like ‘not ?????? good enough???’ and the best thing is he wasnt even like 'u hadto be the bigger person' or sth but ' well then break that dudes hand back, rip his arm off for i care, what do the rest of us have to do w anything???”

anjo sensato :(

xue yang is like..... the sexy sadistic evil version of a himbo..... a meanbo...

the fucked upness of xy’s feelings for xxc/ xxc and sl feelings for each other... like my dude literally gave his bf HIS EYES. and xy getting so attached to xxc .... the fucked up fake domesticity.... having him hurt sl..... then desperately trying to bring him back ...................... oof

song lan........... literally had his eyes AND tongue removed, his bfs eyes put in place, was almost killed, turned into a puppet by his bf unknowingly, manipulated by xy, sees his bf killing himself in despair.... and STILL finds the strenght to get up from there, and keep on traveling and helping people and attempting to fix xxcs soul.......... like, my man. damn.

wangxian looking at songxiao and seeing an Actually more painful parallel for themselves. ft. that Color Coding.

THE A-YUAN/SIZHUI REVEAL PUNCHED ME IN THE HEART but in a good way for a change

should have know that he would be the Best Boy the cute one w all the braincells

the butterfly AND the bunny lantern. i see how it is

u know is very convenient that no one can see the stark black veins on wen nings neck, ever

BAT WEN NING

wns face when lwj comes into wwx room like ‘:0 omg did u two finally get your shit together? good for you master wei good for u’

(they didnt) (yet)

DISASTER DRUNK LWJ. JUST. THRUST SOME CHICKENS TO SHOW UR RESSURECTED BAE THAT U LOVE THEM.

i have absolutely no idea WHY they gave lwj the same punishment for fighting his own sect/allies to protect the burial mounds as when they got drunk on cloud recess class days.... like? its such a ... emotional continuity error again

also is lwj gonna get an actual friend besides wwx , ever

mianmian marrying and having a family and a cute life after saying FUCK U AND UR SYSTEM TOO in a much less unhinged and dramatic way than wwx......... fills me w joy

also lol the idea that like. her husband not knowing that shes friends w satan/the boogey man/the village witch is hilarious

i love nie mingjue bc hes the resident Though Guy but also the most dramatic bitch in this show and thats Saying Something

jin ling cant have one uneventful relative can he

the fact that everyone present already knew “mo xuanyu” was wwx at the stairs is so funny, their faces are like ‘oh............ wow. that. sure is a development. shock”

in the tradition of extremely loud whispers wwx tells lwj with twelve guards standing like one meter away from them: HEY PSH LAN ZHAN PRETEND IM FORCING YOU TO STAY W ME DO IT

oh my god oh my god

the absolute Yearning on his face when he leaves wwx and a-yuan at the burial mounds and refuses to stay for dinner was already Enough but the fact?? they brought it back?? to this declaration of love?? their expressions??????? strike me dead right now just go ahead

lFor Legal Reasons We Cant Kiss but we will have a very sappy declaration of love and trust and look at each other in way that is the actualization of 💞💘💗💖💓💘💞💗💖💘💗💖💕💞

also icb all the sect leaders and guards are standing there watching them say they like like each other with a dozen swords pointing at their neck

i enjoyed the depiction of the fickle public perception and how easily it can be used to scapegoat people. when the sect leaders turn on jgy and wwx knows thats its more for convenience than anything else...

poor lxc is literally like 'oh so when YOUR problematic boyfriend gets called evil its a misunderstanding but when its MY problematic bf-'

ok like i cant get over nmj let jgy play a song that messed with his temperament at all, like maN u KNEW he might be shady wth

wwx: “hey dont say anything bad abt lan zhan hes not an arrogant dick, thats just his face.

ME ON THE OTHER HAND"

the cultivators as wwx is poking holes in their narrative is literally *nazaré meme*

"wei wuxian-!" "what did i break your leg, too?" not to be problematic but i laughed so hard

not as hard as "you dont have the rank to talk to me " tho

i Enjoy that, over the course of story, wwx sees that... theres nothing truly to Do, but move on. he saw how his arrogance and his mistakes hurt others, and hes trying to fix what he can, but he already did die for his mistakes and there are things he cant fix and that's. just how it is. even towards jgy, the narrative doesn't go gleefully and completely with "lets make THEM pay bc theyre the big bad" bc its not that simple, and it wouldn't lead anywhere but more pain...

re him and jiang cheng and the wens and kinda. isnt that what nhs did? scheming to displace jgy out of revenge more than any justice and doing so in the most painful way?

idk if that actually makes sense im truly just babbling

i thought the scene at the lotus pond would be CUTE but the context was PAIN again

jiang cheng finding out about his golden core and his conflict with wwx at the guanyin temple .... destroyed me but in a nice way kinda.... same way it destroys him look at his face oh god

and. the fact??? he sacrificed himself for wwx?? first?? and he'll probably never tell anyone much less wwx???? keeps me up at night

i havent decided if the neckbreak transition between jgy does sth super Evil or does he he does OR Does He yes he does O R does heeeee is sth i dislike or not

jin guangyao and wei wuxians most interesting parallel is that... theyve both seen 'hmm hey this system is fucked up' and wwx went 'so fuck it all i will renounce it and challenge it' and jgy went 'so fuck it i will use all of it to my advantage and manipulate it to my goals and whims'

the fact jgys mom was actually great and he loved her and his whole issue w it was more than simply being ashamed of being a bastard kinda got me ngl

never trust a dude with a fan.

nhs and jgy: the first rule to a convoluted and decades spanning violent revenge plot is to have fun and be yourself!

when a-yuan finally FINALLY remembers ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;-;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; wen ning has someone in his family back and a-yuan has someone to talk abt his wen family and wwx has him back bc he survived and lwj raised him anD HES THEIR SON. THEYRE MARRIED AND HAVE A SON. UGH.

and theyre allowed to heal. everyone is allowed to try and recover and be happy

netflix put all of the 3 endings on top of each other and it looks kinda weird actually BUT I DONT EVEN MIND :’’’’’’’’’)

the gasp that left me when lwj says ‘wei ying’ and wwx turns.........

there was also a screen with ‘thank you mxtx for creating these characters, we hope their wishes come true’ and i might. have cried then too. maybe.

that was . a ride. as is proven by this behemot of a ramble clearly i just really needed and Outlet. i am currently trying to convince dumb monkey brain to not consume the other medias of mdzs immediately bc i REALLY need to like. live. a life. and take care of real responsibilities. *longest oh boi ever*

#m.#ANYWAY #ENOUGH TALKING #THIS IS SO LONG #LOL #but whatever this is MY performative journaling i do what i want #rambling impressions abt what i watch is a thing i do now? apparently??#cql #untamed #the untamed #fun fact that chat is named 'k keeps on babbling abt the untamed' and it STILL wasnt enough #also it took me 15 episodes to realize lwj was yibo #IT WAS V SHOCKING #i did not recognize him at a l l #but in retrospect he WAS the perfect choice

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theyarebothgunshot · 3 years

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I’ve thought about sending this message like 100 times and I’ve always backed out but. We’re mutuals and I appreciate seeing u in my notes I love reading ur posts they make me go :))) but if I’m being COMPLETELY honest I can’t be a full-on cockles truther because like… Isn’t Jensen religious? Like. I grew up religious. And I’m not saying that religious people can’t be gay/poly/[gunshots]/whatever, but that’s truly the one wall that I cannot get over when it comes to fully believing it. Like. Don’t get me wrong they are SO weird together they do not act like Normal Straight Dudes Who Are Really Great Pals but for some reason (probably my own religious trauma and hesitancy about my own sexuality) it’s hard to me to like really believe because of that. Does that make sense???? I dunno why I’m even telling u this. I guess I just wonder if you have any thoughts on this at all tbh. Like seriously no hate to genuine tinhatters (as long as u arent weird about it like SOME PPL are. Because to be honest a lot of cockles truthers are so over the top about it like I just like to look at it on tumblr but it makes me feel weird when ppl bring it to twitter like THEY COULD SEE THAT and if they ARE something you’re essentially outing someone BUT I DIGRESS) anyways. I dunno. I guess i just wondered if u had thoughts on the Jensen being religious thing. Sorry this got so long winded MMVMGNGMGN 🔮🔮

ahhh im so so curious about who you are but if we're mutuals i am sure i feel the same way about you!! <333

yes he was raised very religious. and in the beginning of his career he talked about that quite a lot (i remember him accepting an award and thanking the lord or something like this), but recently? i haven't seen him be that vocal about it. i mean when he made his thank you post in january, he didn't mention anything religious.

i think he still believes probably, but i also think that there is a good chance his faith/religion played a huge part in his selfdoubt when it comes to his sexuality, especially because his family is religious as well.

i think regardless of if his parents would know about it, religion would always play a part in this. but like. i don't think religion would stop a man from going for who he loves, even if it took him a long time to come to terms with it.

#and i agree please keep it all on tumblr #sometimes i feel bad about my blog because i know people could easily breach containment #but i neeeeed an outlet fr fr otherwise id go stir crazy #so im glad i have you guys <3

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heretherebedork · 3 years

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And the Battle de gay royale continues! "Uke Edition"

Now who among here excretes the most uke energy? A gaybie? A soft uke? Ukes who are totally babies that need protection and love of course. And the contestants aree:

King vs. Pun

Mon vs. Meen

Pi vs. Duen

Tine vs. Chon

Jin vs. Arthit

Kao (DBK) vs. Third

Knock vs. Bunn

Pao vs. Ake

Sun vs. Puth

Mes vs. Adachi

Boss vs. Mark (En of Love)

Bar vs. Pra-Ram (En of Love)

Wad vs. Day (SOTUS S)

Wayo (2moons) vs. Wayu (Gen Y)

Kit (2moons) vs. Beam

Kit (Gen Y) vs. Ray (Close Friend)

Zon vs. Mekhin (Close Friend)

Typhoon (Close Friend) vs. Pharm

Team vs. In

Gene vs. Tian

Muren vs. ShuYi

ShiGu vs. XingSi

Fiat vs. Moo Joom

Two vs. Chon

Type (2gether) vs. Ni

KiWan (Ryu's Wedding) vs. SangHa (Mr. Heart)

Yeon Woo (Color Rush) vs. Tae Joo (Eyes Linger)

Karl (GSP) vs. Cairo (Gameboys)

Sky (My Day) vs. Phai (Gen Y)

Blue vs. Tutor

Pete (LBC) vs. Can

Hin (Chance to Love) vs. Book (MIT)

Sheng Zhe (Right or Wrong) vs. Zhi Gang (MODC)

Chol vs. Tri

Shao Fei vs. Zhao Zi

Yu Hao (HIStory CTL) vs. Zhen Wen (CTL)

Yi Chen (Obsessed) vs. Zhen Xuan (WBL)

Goodluck!

King vs. Pun

I am going with King because... because King. Because he's soft and nosy and adorable and he's got just the right balance of uke energy and extrovert energy and I love him for it.

Mon vs. Meen

Did you see Mon's teddy bear? Mon is the ultimate uke. He has medals to being an uke. Like, Meen is adorable and all but Mon? Mon has taken first prize by miles.

Pi vs. Duen

Uh. Uhhhhh. Do I have to chose? Going with Duen because, frankly, Pi doesn't have a lot of uke energy for me. Not a negative, fyi. He's just kind of... middle roads for me. Yeah, he's supposed to be a tsundere uke. But I feel like he could go either way with his tsundereness.

Tine vs. Chon

Dude, Chon had to win this. He's out! He knows what he wants! And he wants to be an uke, 100%. No questions.

Jin vs. Arthit

Whyyyyy. They exude such similar energy and I love them both and I don't know how to choooooose. I think I have to go with Arthit because Arthit feels more... gentle and soft than Jin does. Might that change? Yes. But I think Jin is more playboy than Arthit's awkward shyness.

Kao (DBK) vs. Third

Third is like Mon. He's got medals in ukeness. Every tear is an award. Kao's got a bit going for him but nothing compared to Third. Third is ultimate.

Knock vs. Bunn

They're both vers. No one wins because neither one is an uke. They're both characters that could go either way with their partners and we're very proud of them for that.

Pao vs. Ake

I'm going to go Pao for for a strong reason but because he's just a little softer and a little gentler, especially as Pae with his glasses? Yeah. Yeah, he gets a tiny leg up.

Sun vs. Puth

Sun is the seme so Puth wins this one. Although I would definitely lean towards Puth being a bit more vers than straight (lol) up uke he's closer than Sun imo.

Mes vs. Adachi

Adachi always wiiiins. Like, I'm sorry, he always wins. But in this case he's also much shyer and softer than Mes and definitely gets taken care of more, which I consider to be part of the uke characterization. Being taken of is very important.

Boss vs. Mark (En of Love)

Gotta go Boss because... he's so soft. And little. And adorable and clingy. Mark is also pretty uke, no denials, but he's just not quite... what Boss is. The little bit of uke energy that Boss has, Mark lacks a little bit.

Bar vs. Pra-Ram (En of Love)

Yeah, Bar wins this. Not least because Tossara is basically my favorite show ever and the scene where Bar leans over Gun in bed and whispers about missing him sings in my heart at all times. But also because Bar sits in Gun's lap SO happily and Pra-Ram strikes me as less... soft, clingy uke and more brat uke? And I like the soft-clingy more.

Wad vs. Day (SOTUS S)

Despite Wad's unfinished story (sadness) I am going to give this to him over Day. Now that's partially because when I watched SOTUS S I only half-watched the Day storyline and I should probably give him another chance... but for now, I give it to Wad because he was tsundere and he deserved an actual storyline and I miss him.

Wayo (2moons) vs. Wayu (Gen Y)

Yu wins out of sheer desperation. Like, at least Yo functioned as a person. Yu just absolutely fell apart and basically didn't exist as a person any longer after Pha broke up with him. And that's the most uke thing anyone can do!

Kit (2moons) vs. Beam

I'm gonna give this to Beam because it's Kit from 2moons and NOT 2moons2. Kit from 2moons2 would win this over Beam but Beam wins over Kit from 2moons. Beam is the headstrong uke and he's a very good example of one, honestly.

Kit (Gen Y) vs. Ray (Close Friend)

As much as I adore Kit in Gen Y, I think Ray has more uke energy than him. They're both definitely ukes, no denials. But Ray just has that desperate, slightly needy, slightly clingy energy to him that I associate with ukes that Kit doesn't really have.

Zon vs. Mekhin (Close Friend)

I gotta give this to Zon. Zon is so puppy-uke it almost hurts sometimes. He's adorable and tiny and so, so bouncy but also so, so needy and I just... he's up there with Third and Mon in terms of ultimate uke.

Typhoon (Close Friend) vs. Pharm

Pharm wins. I feel worse for Typhoon because I kind of hated that his feelings were entirely disregarded but... Pharm is still just an absolute uke at heart and soul. He just wants to be take care of and loved and held and he might be strong but he needs space to be weak as well and he's just the best.

Team vs. In

Love Team, seriously do! But In is the ultimate cheeky uke and he's adorable about it and I love him so much. In wins just about everything, he's another one of my favorite characters.

Gene vs. Tian

This was an immensely painful choice. But I had to go with Gene. I feel like Tian and Phupha had such a strong and non stereotypical relationship that I just want to give it to Gene, who's definitely got more uke energy than Tian did. Yes, Tian needed more care... but Gene had more of the needy energy to him. It's hard to define but that's the best I can do.

Muren vs. ShuYi

AUGHH. What an impossible choice! They're both the good kind of uke that I adore and I just... look, I haven't done this before but this is a tied win. They both win. There are no losers. They're both fantastic ukes for their semes.

ShiGu vs. XingSi

Cheeky uke for the win! XingSi rules from the bottom and he gets this award 100%. YongJie had no idea what he was getting into with this boy and he learned fast.

Fiat vs. Moo Joom

I cannot pick Moo Joom because he is literally a cat. Fiat is also just a great needy, clingy, desperate little uke no denials so I do adore him. But also... cat.

Two vs. Chon

I'm going with Chon. Two doesn't lack uke energy but Chon has it in abundance.

Type (2gether) vs. Ni

I'm going with Type just because I feel like AiNi is a totally equal relationship with give/take and not really an ukeseme dynamic where Man and Type definitely had more of that energy. Especially with Type and Man wanting to take care of him and Type obviously wanting to be taken care of.

KiWan (Ryu's Wedding) vs. SangHa (Mr. Heart)

Sangha, yo. Cheeky, needy uke energy all wrapped up in a bright eyed puppy? Yes please.

Yeon Woo (Color Rush) vs. Tae Joo (Eyes Linger)

Yeon Woo just so perfectly into that. Tae Joo is close, no denials, but Color Rush feels much more old-school yaoi than WYEL ever did so I gotta give it to them. Yeon Woo just has that need to be cared for and that absolutely all-encompassing need to be with Yoo Han that pushes him into the win.

Karl (GSP) vs. Cairo (Gameboys)

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CHOSE? Ughhh. I'm going Cairo because I have to. I have to. I can't choose Karl because I love him but he's just not the uke energy all over the way Cairo has. Love them both, though, so much.

Sky (My Day) vs. Phai (Gen Y)

The belt around the wrists wins this for Sky, no hesitation. That make out scene wins EVERYTHING. Also, he's just got that right uke energy without it being overwhelming the way it is with Mon and Pharm and such. It's a bit lighter but still very much there.

Blue vs. Tutor

Tutor is a vers. Tutor is not an uke. So Blue gets this regardless. But he's also an uke and adorable and I with they'd do a side story show with his plot that got ruined by COVID because I wanna know how it ended.

Pete (LBC) vs. Can

Pete is another gold medal uke. Like, just look at the boy! Gold medals all around. He's up in the winner's circle, beloved by all. Can can't come close. Sorry, Can, love you.

Hin (Chance to Love) vs. Book (MIR)

This was another closer one. But I really think Book is slightly more uke than Hin was. Now, very minorly. They've both got that needy energy and that softness and everything. But Book just nudges it over the edge a biiit more than Hin does.

Sheng Zhe (Right or Wrong) vs. Zhi Gang (MODC)

MY BABY BOY. Yeah, Sheng Zhe has to win this on the basis of him being MY BABY and one of my favorite characters. But also his softness, his caring, his cooking, his love of children... he's just so cute and so sweet.

Chol vs. Tri

Hey! Tri is a seme for the twins! So Chol wins instantly. Also, Chol's entire character is tsundere uke turned puppy uke and there is nothing else to him so... he wins?

Shao Fei vs. Zhao Zi

Ugh, another hard one. But, yes, I'm going with ZZ on this because we're specifically looking at uke energy and ZZ just radiates that. He's soft and small and the sad hugging scenes are SO GOOD.

Yu Hao (HIStory CTL) vs. Zhen Wen (CTL)

Gotta go with Yu Hao on this one. The way he looks over the volleyball when they're studying? He wins. That single look beats out almost anything.

Yi Chen (Obsessed) vs. Zhen Xuan (WBL)

Have y'all looked at Yi Chen? He's ultimate uke. He tries to avoid love at all costs and still instantly just turns into this tiny caretaking uke when he's given a chance. Plus, when he had glasses in his first life? TINIEST BOY EVER.

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