#and ask that I be removed from insurance if at all possible

[tj-crochets]

Hey y’all! I hadn’t mentioned it by name because I wasn’t sure if it was regional or not, but I found out it’s not regional so: Aetna is the worst insurance company. It sucks! Avoid it if you can. All my insurance issues have been because of Aetna. Aetna refuses to pay for my maintenance inhaler or my rescue inhaler, and refused to pay for a holter monitor for me when I’ve had tachycardia issues for a full decade. A heart monitor my doctor ordered to check if I had major electrical issues because if I did I’d need a pacemaker to prevent severe cardiac complications (I don’t have those issues, for the record).

[gatun-gatunesco]

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[doobea]

✰⋆⁺★DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC ─ CHOSO KAMO

synopsis: you're positive that your roommate is a witch. or warlock? wizard? whatever the correct term is.

contents: fluff, gn!reader, reader is a human who can't see cursed spirits, roommate!choso, slight AU where Choso pretends to be a college student but is actually a sorcerer wc: 2K a/n: hello i am somewhat alive... i think? this has been sitting in my drafts for a while idk

You're not a superstitious person by nature, but there are just some things that you can't help but notice whenever Choso's in the same room.

One: Aside from coming home and smelling like he’s just crawled out of the city sewer like ten times, Choso brings back a lot of weird… vintage accessories — and this is just you being nice, okay?

Sometimes it’s straight up weapons, like swords and medieval looking armor. Other times it’s eerie looking talismans and charms that feel strangely alive whenever you go into his room. And, today, he comes back with a fucking urn of something. You could’ve sworn you heard the jar straight up hiss when you stared at it too long.

He’s not making anything that smells, though, which you’re thankful for.

“Choso,” you call out your roommate’s name and cautiously peer into the kitchen, where he’s currently cooking the damn thing on the stove top. 

“Yeah?” Choso’s back is facing you, the sleeves of his sweater are rolled up to his elbows, and some rock tunes are playing in the background as he’s stirring whatever concoction that’s in the urn with, thankfully, his own utensils. “Did you need something?”

You originally moved to a bigger place when you landed a job out of college. It’s located in the middle of the city, so naturally you found an apartment that’s about a fifteen minute subway ride away, but being in the city meant crazy expenses. Roommate forums are currently extremely popular and not totally sketchy by any means, so that’s how Choso, a PhD candidate, ended up moving into your two bedroom apartment. 

Oh, and he totally justifies all the weird little knick knacks as part of his thesis. You’re definitely going to ask him about it whenever he finishes that up. 

And, weirdly enough, even after six months of living together, there’s an unspoken agreement between the two of you to avoid questions about family members and distant pasts. There are also untouchable topics, like on days where Choso comes back bloody knuckled and bruised, and you kinda respect his boundaries. You do. Because, whether he's actually a PhD student, his personal life is beyond your concern.

You did, however, once asked if you could do a taste test on a similar… DIY recipe Choso created, back in the earlier days when you just thought Choso was weird, and his eyes went wide, a little bit terrified, and shot down your offer immediately. He also made you pinky promise him to never, ever consume or touch anything that he brings home that looks remotely out of place, as he would put it.

But, recently, he isn’t even making an effort to hide these things away.

“I’ll be done with the stove soon, if you need it.” Choso adds when you’re taking a moment too long to reply. He removes the wooden ladle and it’s practically soaked in all red. Whatever’s in that urn… it can’t be just simple tomato sauce. 

The answer dies in your throat as you’re reminded that your health insurance would probably not cover whatever might happen if you offer to watch him… cook? If that’s even what he’s doing.

“Yeah,” you breathe out. “I’m planning to make some noodles tonight, if you want any.” You’re saying this with as little precaution as possible, not trying to offend him because, hey, at the end of the day Choso could be running a research experiment that could also be life changing. At least, that’s what you try and convince yourself.

He turns his head at this and nods with a tired smile, dark bags evident. “That’d be nice,” Choso continues to stir, almost stuck in a trance, before adding, “By the way, have you seen my—”

“Weird glowy talisman with the monkey in the middle? Yeah, somehow it got moved to the coat closet this time,” you say with a casual shrug.

It’s a bit amusing to know that you’ve gotten used to all the accessories he’s brought back. You don’t bother questioning how some of these things also keep getting misplaced around the apartment. Maybe your roommate has a sleepwalking condition, too?

“Oh, I’ve been looking for that everywhere since this morning! Thanks, it’s actually for—”

“Your thesis?” A loud snort slips out when his face drops and flushes a shade darker. 

“Right, yeah, thesis—totally not anything else….”

Two: Choso’s relatives are definitely not human. Not like you, at least.

There were a few rare times where Choso would come home with someone other than himself. The first time it happened, you nearly pooped yourself from the sight alone. Your roommate stumbled back nearly shirtless, clothes almost in rags, bruises marred every visible inch of his body, and he was unconscious while leaning onto a younger man who was in similar condition.

You nearly fought with a complete stranger, who was equally acting as weird as Choso, about calling the police and sending your roommate to a hospital for treatment instead of resting on the thrifted IKEA couch you got off a shitty marketplace forum. 

The man, who introduced himself as Yuuji, refused and even threw a couple of bribes your way to keep quiet about the whole thing. And, while you never really suspected whether your roommate is secretly affiliated with gangs, you were honestly so close to breaking your lease and finding another place, maybe another job, somewhere far away so you don’t have to deal with whatever Choso goes through.

Choso makes a brief comment after that event, something along the lines of ‘needing to clean up after work’ and ‘sorry, our centrifuge malfunctioned’. You seriously begin to start questioning the academic integrity behind everything at this point. Just what kind of thesis is he working on?

In the end, you two don’t talk about it and you barely see Yuuji after that — well, until tonight. 

Yuuji happened to be around the area, showing up to your apartment in a similar, but not too extreme, condition as last time you’ve remembered. Less scratches, minimal tear to his clothes, but still managing to throw half ass bribes your way to ‘keep things quiet’, which earned him an earful from Choso. And, from that conversation, it turns out that Yuuji and him are half brothers. Outside of how they interact with each other, you really can’t see the resemblance at all. 

Somehow, despite all of this, you feel slightly better compared to the first time when Yuuji arrived. Whatever they’re doing, it must be kinda safe, since they still have their brain cells intact. 

“I hope you still have extras,” Yuuji muffles out as he scoops up another mouthful of noodles from his already overflowing bowl. Choso’s currently fighting the urge to wipe Yuuji’s sauce painted cheeks clean, you can easily tell by the deep furrow on his face. 

“Yuuji,” you’re trying so hard to not sound rude when you say this, and point at the empty container on the stove top. “You’ve already gone through four servings and the bread sticks, I don’t even have enough in the fridge for lunch tomorrow.” Seriously, does this guy have an infinite stomach?

Not to mention, the bruises and cuts from his cheeks earlier have all entirely faded away by the time you finished setting the dining table. Yuuji’s superhuman strength and tenacity alone is something suspicious, too. It was the fact that Yuuji effortlessly lifted up the couch with one hand when his phone slid under or the fact that he drank from Choso’s weird concoction earlier and is still thriving.

Choso, too. Because he also did a fucking taste test and you could’ve sworn on your life that the strange broth started to bend whenever he hovered his fingers over it. He’s always had a distinct smell of blood, and there’s always a vibe of something not-right about him.

Yeah, there’s no way in hell that they’re both human. 

And, if they are, you’re going to eat your shorts.

But that’s besides the point.

“Did you actually?” Choso blinks a few times. 

The younger male makes a strangled noise, most likely out of the fact he lost track of just how many portions he consumed, and flashes you an apologetic smile behind all of his tomato smeared lips. “Sorry… I’ll make it up to you later?”

Though, despite the non-human traits that both of them show, you can’t deny that they’re pleasant to be around. Right now, Yuuji is definitely radiating golden retriever energy right now with his pouting lips and big pleading eyes. How can anyone say no to that?

Choso has helped you out every now and then with weird blessings and strange hand movements that somehow always gets rid of cramps on your shoulders. That’s gotta be witchcraft in itself. Oh, and he always takes out the trash, that’s a bonus to have. 

“Just bring dinner over next time,” you suggest, which earns you a strange look from your roommate across the table. Oh, wait, wouldn’t that be crossing personal boundaries? “Or you can just do delivery, it doesn’t really—”

“No, it’s fine,” Choso spits out, stirring the remaining noodles on his plate back and forth with his fork. He has a strange expression on his face that you can’t quite make out. “I don’t mind.”

Three: Choso can see things that you can’t. And you kinda prefer to keep it that way.

You should probably be used to these things by now. There’s certain odd occurrences that come hand-in-hand when rooming with Choso. The most alarming one you can possibly think of is the strange mumblings you would hear sometimes from his room. It’s… well been apparent to you since day one but, again, not really your business to pry.

Tonight has been a strange string of events and you’ve never seen Choso so… comfortable showing you a glimpse of his personal life. 

You’re not sure what prompted you to join Choso on his walk with Yuuji to the train station late at night. You should be in bed, getting ready for work tomorrow, not out accompanying your not-so-human roommate and his brother. It’s nearly midnight and you need to catch the train earlier than usual because of a stupid work conference and not get yourself into weird supernatural events. What if next time they both mark a demon summoning circle in the bathroom, or you get home to ghouls in your kitchen, or—

“Something bothering you?”

You scream, and promptly hit the nearest object near you out of fear, which happened to be Choso, but he stops your fist with his palm as if it were a paper airplane. 

“Hey,” he softly calls out your name and eyes you, creeping closer until his shoulders are bumping into yours. “Stay still for a second…”

“W-What?” You swallow around a dry tongue, laughing nervously at the lack of distance. 

But Choso has an unreadable look in his eyes, like he’s focused on something else, a look he always puts on whenever he’s anxious and peering out the apartment windows many times at night. Waiting for the right moment for… something. Then, after a long, stretching pause, he raises his arms and pulls you into a tight embrace that leaves you with more questions than anything else.

“Um, h-hello?!”

“It’ll be over in just a second,” Choso says, still deep in focus.

But you notice how intimate the position is. Your chests are nearly pressed together, your foreheads are, and you can absolutely smell the remnants of dinner from his mouth. Eventually, Choso shifts away and untangles himself from you, wiping his fingers off on the bottom of his shirt. He looks content with himself, hands on his hips.

You’re not sure what the hell just happened, but now that weird mind haze from earlier is slowly fading away, and you’re realizing that being hugged by your weird roommate feels way too good.

“Are you like… Merlin or something?”

Yeah, you’re positive that he’s some sort of wizard at this point.

© 2023 DOOBEA. do not copy any of my writing and translate/repost.

[the-greatest-fool]

I basically only post and read posts in my bubble aside from occasionally scrolling through Real Tumblr, but people’s takes about US politics on this website are fucking unbelievable. They talk about our government as if it didn’t save us from a pandemic-induced financial collapse, pump trillions of dollars into public works, not to mention substantially invest and rein in pharmaceuticals, and is instead some sort of ultra-neoliberal-corporate kitty shooting machine.

Like let’s be for real. Do they…know what the government does? How it works? Do you know what a conservative is? Do you know what an authoritarian is?

Because a system of government whose citizens are all lucky it has had continuous peaceful transfer of power for centuries could very well have its greatest norm violated—that those who reject its legitimacy must be rejected—and we don’t blink an eye.

Because the first major investment against climate change, coupled with life saving investments into healthcare, cancer research, and drug costs could be shredded by indiscriminate fiscal conservatives who don’t care if we die in forest fires, cancer from pollution, lose insurance because we’re jobless, or, apparently, all die in a fricking plague.

Because a foreign policy establishment that had finally reversed two decades of foreign intervention in favor of a normalization strategy aimed at reducing American foot presence, drone strikes, and indiscriminate killings is about to be replaced by the whims of a man who dropped the “mother of all bombs” on the Middle East, gave American soldiers up to Russian bounty hunters, extorted a foreign leader for political favors and arguably indirectedly resulted in that country being BRUTALLY INVADED BY AN IMPERIAL NEIGHBOR, is in the pockets of CCP-funded billionaires, and WANTS TO “FINISH THE JOB” IN GAZA.

Because a President who is against family separations and promotes a path for DREAMERs and more legal immigration and rights for unodcumented people could be replaced by a man who wants to separate families, PUT UNDOCUMENTED PEOPLE IN CONCENTRATION CAMPS, RESTRICT EVEN LEGAL IMMIGRATION, ESPECIALLY THAT OF MUSLIMS, AND SHOOT MIGRANTS.

Because a President who stopped a repeat of the Great Recession and the painful decade that followed it with strong fiscal stimulus which CUT CHILD POVERTY IN HALF BEFORE CONSERVATIVES MADE IT EXPIRE, then managed to cut deficits and presided over a decline in inflation, resulting in record high real wages (aka taking into account inflation) for workers is going to be replaced by a President who wants to TARIFF ALL FOREIGN GOODS by 15%, CUT TAXES FOR THE FILTHY RICH AND THE TAX ENFORCEMENT TO STOP THEM, INCREASE CHILD POVERTY AND UNINSUREDNESS by cutting gov’t programs, and HURT UNIONS which by every measure will lead to lower wages, higher prices, and more poverty and starvation.

Because a President who has pledged to sign a bill codifying Roe v. Wade (which has yet to be possible in recent memory, whatever these kids say), who enshrined the right to marry someone of the same sex or different race, who supports the Equality Act which would enshrine LGBTQ protections into the law, could be replaced by THE MAN WHO REMOVED AMERICA’S RIGHT TO ABORTION, whose Christian nationalist supporters want to END SEXUAL FREEDOM as we know it including TARGETING IVF AND BIRTH CONTROL, who wants to reverse LGBTQ discrimination law in favor of Christian bigots who hate queer and trans people, and who demonizes that community to win political support.

Ask yourself if you really think there’s no difference between the two. Ask yourself if a reasonable person given these facts would choose the latter. Ask yourself why you see so much propagandizing against the reasonable choice. Ask yourself why so many people seem to have opinions on this when they “don’t even go here”.

Maybe I’m just preaching to the choir here. Maybe people who say this inane stuff wouldn’t vote anyways. Maybe somehow we’re screwed anyways. Maybe people will stupidly vote third party and we’re fucked. Maybe this will get me attacked.

I don’t care anymore. If I have to see one more fucking post acting like we live under the fucking Evil Empire while a SELF PROCLAIMED DICTATOR is about to end the best streak of decent governance I’ve ever seen in a while, I just can’t anymore.

[baki-tiene-un-simp]

Characters Hanayama, Yujiro (medically? He can see people's health), Baki + maybe Kureha? Hedkanon on how the reader was fine at first, but then their stomach got sick and they didn't know from what. The guys take them to Kurekha for a checkup, who was more or less free and they find out that the doctors left one of the medical instruments in the reader after the last surgery (Yujiro examines them with his eyesight, he's probably surprised? He takes the reader to Kureha).

Situation: Your S/O suffers complications after surgery / Su S/O sufre complicaciones tras una cirugía.

Characters: Baki Hanma, Kaoru Hanayama, Kureha Shinogi and Yujiro Hanma.

Baki Hanma.

He's in anguish when you start to slow down, I swear you look paler with each passing day, is it really just a tummy ache?

He can't stay calm despite your insistence that he pay you no attention, you can't even stand up on your own without doubling over in pain.

He drags you to the hospital, he had been so stubborn not to be treated in the past, but now it's different. Now it is Baki who is in the opposite place, now he is the one who suffers seeing his partner suffer, he must do something.

Kureha is quick to help them and asks for an abdominal X-ray to see what the problem is, Baki is nervous, why can't he come with you and why does he have to stay in the waiting room?

Baki is so alarmed when Kureha says that you have a surgical instrument lodged in your abdomen, apparently it's a blunt object, but being in a complex place it can't stay there any longer.

The Hanma clenches his fists when you remember even while doped on strong painkillers, mention that your doctors performed surgery on you by accident, something about your instructions getting mixed up with another patient who needed a gallbladder removal.

Baki is anxious after you enter the operating room, he is starting to get delirious, his brain has absurd thoughts that are supported by worry.

He can only breathe easy when you get out of danger, he wants to hold you close, but he holds on to let you heal properly. He is holding your hand and won't let go.

Kaoru Hanayama.

Perhaps the second fastest acting, as soon as you start having pain is when Hanayama rushes you to the hospital.

His men patrolling the entire corridor where you are taking a consultation to avoid any inconvenience, you explain to Kureha that you have had persistent pain in your lower abdomen that is increasing every day.

Since you admit that the pain is still tolerable, Kureha will simply check on you. He palpates the area, but superficially he can't say anything out of place. He indicates an X-ray to clear up doubts.

He speaks with concern when the results come back and questions if you've had any previous surgery. You say yes, it was a minor surgery that was done very quickly, in the words of your regular doctor.

Kureha explains that your doctors left a surgical tool inside your abdomen when they closed after the operation was finished and that was what was causing the pain. Before you or Kaoru can react, he reassures them, he says how it can be fixed and that it's an advantage that you came to get help as quickly as possible.

Kaoru wants the procedure done as soon as possible, he will pay whatever it takes, he might even refuse you to try to use your health insurance; he doesn't mind paying any amount of money as long as you're okay.

Your doctors will be visited by Kaoru's men, I just want to add.

Almost like Kaoru is waiting right by the door of the operating room, he wants to see you as soon as the surgery is over, he wants to make sure you're okay and out of danger.

Kureha Shinogi.

He is talking about the deterioration of the professionalism of doctors, how little interest must you have in your work and in your patient for things like that to happen? It's just ridiculous, are medical schools giving away degrees? I could be in a bad mood all day because of it.

He's complaining loudly, but he's seriously worried. He is just looking for a viable way out, but intrusive thoughts and negative scenarios assail him.

Is it really safe to open a wound that hasn't healed yet? What if it gets infected when they remove the stitches from the previous operation? It would be troublesome, but leaving the instrument there is more troublesome.

He is only hot-headed, but returns to his rational self after calming down. You'll be fine, you're in his hands and he wouldn't let anything bad happen.

The grudge he feels for his colleague, who performed the surgery on you, doesn't go away as quickly as one would hope. Kureha is professional, very professional, but he won't forget this.

He wants to be the one to handle the extraction, he just wants to make sure it's okay, and besides, he needs to get rid of that nagging little voice that tells him that others won't be able to deal with this like he can. It may seem like it's his pride talking about him, but no, it's anxiety.

He does not back down despite the refusals, and since he is the splendid doctor Kureha Shinogi, there is no other way than to allow him to assist during the operation. It's not what he wants, but he reluctantly agrees, at least he'll be around in case something happens.

In the end everything worked out, you're fine, he's fine and that little voice is gone.

Yujiro Hanma.

He may notice how lethargic you have become, slower, and more sensitive to pain in your lower belly. He doesn't mention it because he always complains to you about how "insensitive" it becomes when he tells you that you are weak for not taking pain.

Honestly, he is annoyed that a simple pain can take away your strength and mobility, he believes that you make a fuss over nothing.

He can see that something is wrong, a jagged anomaly that's in the wrong place, something that simply shouldn't be there. But he's an idiot and he's convinced that you're just a crybaby.

He complains all the way about how wasteful it is to go to the doctor, yet he is the one who is dragging you to the hospital to be treated.

"It's either this or lock you out of the house so I don't have to listen to you complain," he shrugs and replies with a frown.

He is capable of throwing you on top of the first stretcher he sees when entering the hospital, walk a few steps behind him to avoid this, he is a man of his word.

He'll probably disappear for as long as you're in the OR, though the doctors insist they felt like they were being watched all the time, like someone was pointing at their foreheads to pull the trigger at the slightest mistake.

He picks you up from the hospital, he hopes you get well soon, not good wishes.

Versión en español.

Baki Hanma.

Está angustiado cuando empiezas a ser más lento, juraría que te ves más pálido con cada día que pasa, ¿realmente es solo un dolor de vientre?

No puede estar tranquilo a pesar de tus insistencias de que no te preste atención, ni siquiera puedes pararte por tú cuenta sin doblarte sobre ti mismo a causa del dolor.

Te arrastra al hospital, él había sido tan obstinado a no ser tratado en el pasado, pero ahora es diferente. Ahora es Baki quien está en el lugar contrario, ahora es él quien sufre al ver a su pareja sufrir, debe hacer algo.

Kureha es rápido en ayudarles y pide que te hagan una radiografía abdominal para ver cuál es el problema, Baki está nervioso, ¿por qué no puede acompañarte y por qué debe quedarse en la sala de espera?

Baki se alarma tanto cuando Kureha dice que tienes un instrumento quirúrgico alojado en el abdomen, al parecer es un objeto sin filo, pero al encontrarse en un lugar complejo no puede quedarse allí por más tiempo.

El Hanma aprieta los puños cuando haces memoria aun al estar dopado por fuertes calmantes, mencionas que tus médicos te hicieron una cirugía por accidente, algo sobre que tus indicaciones se mezclaron con el de otro paciente que necesitaba una extracción de vesícula biliar.

Baki está ansioso después de que entras al quirófano, está empezando a delirar, su cerebro tiene pensamientos absurdos que son apoyados por la preocupación.

Solo puede respirar tranquilo cuando sales de peligro, quiere sostenerte cerca, pero se aguanta para dejar que te recuperes debidamente. Está sosteniendo tu mano y no la soltará.

Kaoru Hanayama.

Quizá el segundo que actúa más rápido, tan pronto como empiezas a tener dolor es cuando Hanayama se apresura a llevarte al hospital.

Sus hombres patrullando todo el pasillo en donde estás tomando consulta para evitar cualquier inconveniente, le explicas a Kureha que has tenido un insistente dolor en el abdomen bajo que cada día va en aumento.

Como admites que el dolor todavía es tolerable, Kureha simplemente te revisara. Él palpa el área, pero superficialmente no puede notar nada fuera de lugar. Indica una radiografía para salir de dudas.

Habla con preocupación cuando los resultados llegan y cuestiona si has tenido alguna cirugía previa. Dices que sí, era una cirugía menor que se realizó muy rápido, en palabras de tu doctor habitual.

Kureha explica que tus doctores dejaron una herramienta quirúrgica dentro de tu abdomen cuando cerraron tras finalizar la operación y eso era lo que te generaba el dolor. Antes de que Kaoru o tú puedan reaccionar, los tranquiliza, dice como puede solucionarse y que es una ventaja que hayan venido a buscar ayuda lo más rápido posible.

Kaoru quiere que el procedimiento se lleve a cabo lo antes posible, pagara lo que sea necesario, podría rechazar incluso que trates de usar tu seguro médico; no le importa pagar cualquier suma de dinero con tal de que estés bien.

Tus doctores recibirán la visita de los hombres de Kaoru, solo quiero agregar.

Casi que Kaoru espera justo junto a la puerta del quirófano, quiere verte tan pronto como la cirugía termine, quiere asegurarse de que estés bien y fuera de peligro.

Kureha Shinogi.

Está hablando sobre el deterioro del profesionalismo de los doctores, ¿Qué tan poco interés debes tener en tu trabajo y en tu paciente como para que cosas así sucedan? Simplemente es ridículo, ¿acaso las escuelas de medicina están regalando los títulos? Podría estar de mal humor durante todo el día por ello.

Se está quejando en voz alta, pero está seriamente preocupado. Solo está buscando una salida viable, pero los pensamientos intrusivos y escenarios negativos lo asaltan.

¿Es realmente seguro abrir una herida que todavía no sana? ¿Qué tal si se infecta cuando quiten los puntos de la operación anterior? Sería problemático, pero dejar el instrumento allí lo es más.

Solo tiene la cabeza caliente, pero vuelve a su racional yo después de calmarse. Estarás bien, estas en sus manos y él no dejaría que nada malo sucediera.

El rencor que siente por su colega, quien te realizo la cirugía, no desaparece tan rápido como cualquiera esperaría. Kureha es profesional, muy profesional, pero esto no lo piensa olvidar.

Quiere ser quien se ocupe de la extracción, solo quiere cerciorarse de que esté bien y, además, necesita deshacerse de esa insistente vocecita que le dice que los demás no podrán lidiar con esto como él. Puede parecer que es su orgullo hablando, pero no, es la ansiedad.

No retrocede a pesar de las negativas, y como es el espléndido doctor Kureha Shinogi, no hay de otro que permitirle asistir durante la operación. No es lo que él quiere, pero acepta a regañadientes, al menos estará cerca por si algo pasa

Al final todo salió bien, estás bien, él está bien y esa vocecita se fue.

Yujiro Hanma.

Él puede notar lo aletargado que te has vuelto, más lento y más sensible ante el dolor que experimentas en tu vientre bajo. No lo menciona porque siempre te queja de lo "insensible" que llega a ser cuando te dice que eres débil al no aguantar el dolor.

Sinceramente, le molesta que un simple dolor pueda quitarte la fuerza y la movilidad, cree que haces un escándalo por nada.

Él puede ver que algo va mal, una anomalía irregular que está en un lugar incorrecto, algo que no debería estar allí simplemente. Pero es un idiota y está convencido que solo eres un bebé llorón.

Se queja todo el camino sobre como es un desperdicio ir al doctor, sin embargo, es él quien te está arrastrando al hospital para que seas tratado.

"Es esto o dejarte fuera de casa para no tener que escucharte mientras te quejas" levanta los hombros y responde con el ceño fruncido.

Es capaz de lanzarte encima de la primera camilla que vea al entrar al hospital, camina unos pocos pasos por detrás de él para evitar esto, es un hombre de palabra.

Probablemente desaparezca durante todo el tiempo que estés en el quirófano, aunque los doctores insiste en que sentía que eran observados todo el tiempo, como si alguien estuviera apuntando a sus frentes para jalar el gatillo ante el más mínimo error.

Te recoge del hospital, espera que te recuperes pronto, no son buenos deseos.

[lol-jackles]

Hello, I’m sorry if this gets a bit long. I’ll try to edit it down once I’m done

So, I’m not saying this to downplay its importance to fans or Jared’s truly wanting to help people, but Jared was also very smart to come out with the Always Keep Fighting campaign, no? I could be talking out of my ass I this, because I wasn’t in the fandom at the time, but as well as being brave to share his anxiety/depression with fans, it also seems smart to share it on his own terms before it could be used against him. I think I’ve read on your blog that actors with MHI are often considered a liability to a production because if they “lose it” or walk off of the project, the higher ups are screwed. But, by Jared volunteering his personal information to the huge SPN fan base (and I assume some amount of press coverage), isn’t this a good way the give himself a bit of insurance? If his bosses are starting to think he looks expendable, they can’t now act on any desire to get rid of him without him or even his fans being able to turn around and call them out for discrimination.

I’m not saying these thoughts were the reason for AKF but do you think Jared had the foresight to sort of protect himself with the campaign as well, or was it all risk for him?.

I’m asking this because I read your recent response on possible reasons Jensen isn’t as sought after as Jared post SPN, despite being the clear favourite of some crew on the show.

Jared must have an amazing reputation to overcome the possible mental health stigma, and the fact that some SPN crew seem to blatantly favour Jensen (Wanek, Phil Segricia, Bib Singer, etc).

On a side note: who on the production crew do you think favoured, or even just backed Jared over Jensen? Or treated them equally even?

Okay, this was a lot. But I’d be interested in seeing your insight on any of this (I know you’ll pick what you would prefer to focus on) because from what I can tell, you really do have a pretty good read on what was likely going on behind the scenes.

I think you’re on the right track because it was also my first gut reaction the moment the Variety article came out. For Jared to come out when his career is still hot is pretty telling, normally actor don’t admit to mental illness until their career is drying up.  It’s one less thing he has to hide and therefore one less leverage others BTS can’t use against or hold over him.   

"I wasn’t in the fandom at the time"

During the early season there were rumors circulating that Jared was always late to the set. My first thought was, "They're setting him up to have a difficult reputation". It's producer tactic 101, put out fake news that the actor is a diva who is always late and if the actor doesn't toe the line, escalate it to "difficult actor" so that the studio is not the bad guy if the actor suddenly leaves. 7 years later we find out that Jared was looking to break his contract, so the producer(s) were preparing to make him the fall guy. Once Jared stayed on, the "late to the set" rumor immediately evaporated.

I bring this up because it ties into our speculation that Jared's decision to out himself for mental illness was at least partly motivated by removing a leverage against him BTS.

It was also the right time because he proved that as the principal lead of the longest continuous genre series in America, he's not a risk because filming schedule was never disrupted, which costs a lot of money. Even when he had a breakdown on set in season 3, he still finished out the season. His subsequent breakdown after season 10 could have derailed that, but he returned for season 11 and again lead the show through it's rating resurgence. Impressed, CBS arrived two years later at his doorstep with a holding deal.

"On a side note: who on the production crew do you think favoured, or even just backed Jared over Jensen?"

My immediate thought was Jeremy Carver. He was not in favor of the season 10 Dean-centric arc that Robert Singer and Jensen were angling for, and even tried to head off their campaign during Comic Con prior to season 9. His wife is currently the showrunner of Walker. There's also writer Adam Glass, I'm not sure why but he just vibed being all about Jared.

ETA: thanks to others' reminder, I would also add Sera Gamble. I can't believe I didn't immediatley thought of her as she's one of my favorite writers.

[chaoparty]

i'd been putting off making this post because i've genuinely been anxious & really nervous about it, but things are getting more real as time goes on and i've just gotta bite the bullet >< so guys, we don't normally do this, but.. we really need to ask for some financial help. near the beginning of the year, pawmie (my fiance & business partner) had been experiencing some pretty bad jaw pain.  fast forward a dentist appointment and they found what was thought to be a cyst in their jaw due to how their wisdom tooth was growing in wrong. after multiple doctor visits, they concluded it was a noncancerous, but aggressive tumor. after a lot of fear and anxiety and more specialist visits, we've finally got a surgery (one of possibly more) to remove it. this will require them losing that side of their jaw, and getting metal in its place. they've never had any sort of surgery before, and needless to say we're both pretty scared, but we've got a lot of emotional support from friends and family who're helping us through it, and they mean the world to us!!! (and that includes everyone who supports us here & other places, it really really means a lot!) however, being this is a rather complicated issue, it's coming with a lot of medical costs.. we only recently got pawmie on some form of insurance and while they're covering the surgery itself (I'M ALMOST POSITIVE) , there's been a plethora of things they won't cover that are really imperative for pawmie's health. the biggest reason i've been on such an adopt posting kick is because we're slowly working up funds to take care of all of this. of course it's not our only means but, to put it gently, we're just really in a very tight spot financially for a lot of reasons, but we're doing our best ><. and that brings me to why i'm making this post... i'm doing everything i can right now to at least get us somewhere but to an extent we just can't manage this all on our own.   i truly sincerely hate asking for help in this way, but at this point and i hate to say it, we're a little desperate. ideally, i want to try to raise $5000 to help cover medical costs, transportation, medicine, and groceries that we'll be needing for their recovery. however this is a lot a lot a looot of money and i by no means expect or am asking for large donations, i also want to offer something back be it art or customs. we also have a kofi where as a member you can see when we upload personal art, adopt previews (that you can claim before they get posted here to toyhouse at a cheaper price!), we have plenty of free content for members to download and use like bases for adopts, coding, etc.   i'm also making a direct donation commissions section on our kofi where i'll be offering art/redesigns/customs/etc for certain amounts of donation, https://ko-fi.com/plushpon/commissions

[starreyeyedfantasies]

Diluc Yandere Alphabet

Word Count: 1.6k

Letters Included: A-Z

Affection: Diluc will restrain himself in the beginning. After all, he is somewhat self aware that his level of adoration towards you is at least a little abnormal. The most you’ll get in the beginning is a brush of your hands when passing you your drink at the bar, or him delicately looking over your hands if you’ve hurt yourself. Later on, once you’ve reciprocated his love, he’ll be much more touchy. He needs the reassurance that you’re still there, that you still love him. He doesn’t know what he’d do if he lost that.

Blood: Could never hurt you. He would rather have his vision burn him to death than lay a finger on you. Other people though? They might have something to fear. Anyone who hurts you, upsets you or even stares at you for too long is going to soon be crossed off of a long list of names.

Cruelty: Very gentle. Even later on, when you’ve fallen for him he still treats you as delicately as possible. He’s scared that he could hurt you if he’s too rough. He treats other people fairly normal, though he can be a tad bit rude to anyone who talks to you for too long. He’d much rather be the one you pay attention to.

Delusional: One of the ones who’s most grounded in reality. He knows his behavior is abnormal. He knows that if you knew what he’s done you’d be likely to hate him. He knows that he could scare you away with how deep his devotion runs. That’s why he’ll make sure you never know what he’s done to keep you safe and happy. He can’t lose you, no matter what.

Exposed: Vulnerable in the sense that he takes any comment or criticism to heart. Anything you dislike has to be rectified. Don’t like something on the Angel’s Share’s menu? It’s removed and something you’d prefer is added in it’s place. Would you rather he wear his hair different? Dress in a less stuffy way? He’ll immediately change it. However, he tries his best to insure you’ll never see the worst side of him. His violence against others? His sense of self hatred? If it’s up to him, you’ll never know about it.

Fight: He does everything to make sure he never gets in a fight with you. The only way I see it ever happening is if you insisted on hanging around Kaeya. He knows that he’ll only hurt you. He knows that he’ll only lie to you. He knows that Kaeya isn’t to be trusted. It’s the only friendship he’d ever truly object to enough that he’ll have an argument with you about it.

Game: He adores spending every moment he can with you. He’s less likely to initiate any quality time before you start a relationship, out of fear of rejection or bothering you. Afterwards however? He is very excited to do so. He likes to have dates at the Angel’s Share, or take you on walks around the Dawn Winery’s vineyard at night; when the crystalflies shine the brightest. He also loves to read to you at night, when he can finally take a break from his busy life. He’d love to do anything you suggested as well! He’d be incredibly concerned if you could get hurt doing it though.

Heaven: Your best experience with him would be one of those walks around the Dawn Winery at night. The smell of fresh grapes wafting through the air, and the soft, dreamy light the crystalflies emitted would lend the night a tranquil air. His soft smile as you rambled about your life was the highlight. It was the night he asked you if he could be yours.

Ideals: He plans on being there for you forever. His greatest fear may be you hating him, but that still won’t stop him from being there for you. Even if he has to do it from the shadows, he will ensure your life is as good as it could possibly be. It would hurt him more than anything, but if you can only be happy by loving someone else, he’ll even let your relationship with them blossom. As long as you’re happy and safe, he can survive,

Jealousy: Very jealous. Doesn’t act on it in a malicious way unless they’re a danger to you emotionally or physically, It does tear him up inside,. It’s much more manageable if you’re in a relationship with him though.

Knowledgeable: Memorizes your every like and dislike. He’ll even keep lists on the subject. Instructs the maids exactly what to make you when you visit, as well as exactly what colour and fabric the sheets and duvet should be if you stay the night. You don’t even have to tell him most of it, he’s perceptive (and obsessive) enough to know.

Love Letters: Has no idea how to start a relationship. It’s almost comedic how nervous he is about it. He’ll wait until you have a very strong friendship to ask you about anything romantic. The only thing that could spur him to act quicker was if he had competition. Very loving once a relationship starts.

Malleable: Easy enough to manipulate, in the sense that he’ll do whatever you want. You don’t have to skirt around asking him to do something. You could ask him to kill someone and he’d do it no questions asked, so he really doesn’t understand why you’d need to try to manipulate him into doing something in the first place.

Naughty: His worst behavior is straight up stalking you, or killing people who oppose you. He doesn’t take pleasure in it, he simply needs to keep you safe. He also tends to be avoidant. If he’s upset he’ll rarely talk to you about what’s wrong, instead repressing it in an effort to not burden you. This turns normal problems he faces into serious insecurities. He’s much more likely to fix this problem instead of the former.

Obsession: Very obsessed. Most thoughts revolve around you. He still fights as the Darknight Hero, and he still hates the Fatui for his late father, of course. However, you’ve quickly become just as important to him as both of those aspects of his life. Your happiness is his biggest motivator to keep living.

Patience: Incredibly patient. He’s willing to wait as long as you need before starting a relationship. He can even live with it never happening, so long as you live a safe and happy life. That’s what’s most important to him, even if you never love him back. However, that doesn’t stop the pain that stems from you not loving him. The longer he waits the worse the pain gets.

Quit: Never stops loving you. you could tell him you despise him, that you wish you never met him, and he’d still devote himself to you. He could give up on you ever returning his affections though. If you make it clear enough that you don’t love him, he won’t bother you. He’ll just ensure your happiness from the shadows instead.

Regret: He regrets almost everything in his life. Including some of what he’s done in devotion to you. He doesn’t blame you of course, you didn’t do anything wrong. He’s the one who’s done terrible things. He regrets invading your privacy, he regrets potentially scaring you, he regrets not being good enough for you, etc. Of course, that doesn’t stop him from continuing everything he regrets. He does it for the greater good; your happiness.

Stalking: The worst stalker. Follows you home, follows you on your adventures, follows you everywhere. All from the shadows, so that you don’t get uncomfortable, so that you don’t hate him. He only lets up once you start a relationship, and that’s only because he knows you’re even more likely to notice him.

Tears: Doesn’t cry. He’s way too emotionally constipated for that. Your tears send him into a panic. He’s not great at comforting you, but he’ll do everything he can to make you feel better. He slowly gets better as your relationship progresses. He’d hate himself if he ever made you cry.

Unique: Again, probably one of the worst stalkers, as outlined in the stalking section. However, I also think he has an extreme amount of self hatred as well. The only other Genshin yandere that could rival him in those aspects is Xiao.

Vice: He is very willing to do anything you ask. Ask you shall receive. Whether it’s as simple as his hand to hold, or as expensive as imported gems from Liyue, it’s yours. And again, if you asked him to kill, he wouldn’t even hesitate. After all, a good lover gets his beloved anything they ask for.

Wild Card: He’s very willing to be a normal, rich husband if you asked. He’d give it all up, hunting the Fatui and Abyss, the winery, even his grudge with the Knights; if it meant that you’d genuinely love him. If that’s the only way you could ever be happy, so be it.

Xoanon: He doesn’t think you’re a God or anything. However, he does feel that you are inherently above him. To him, you’re everything good in the world; everything he should aspire to protect.

Yearning: Wants you to love him more than anything else. It doesn’t matter how fickle it is, the idea of you loving him is better than anything else. It erases most of his pain, and any pain left is dulled. You’re his everything.

Zeal: Extremely devoted to you. He reveres you. You are everything good in his life, and the one true person he is dedicated to. He doesn’t need you to notice it either. Every smile that stretches across your face is enough for him to keep breathing.

[handeaux]

Cincinnati’s Clean-Up Campaigns Remind Us That Our Ancestors Lived Like Pigs

If you had family in Cincinnati a century ago, I have bad news for you: They wallowed in garbage. It wasn’t entirely Grandma’s and Grandpa’s fault. The City of Cincinnati took a long time to figure out trash collection. Back around 1910, for example, the city sanitation wagons picked up only two kinds of refuse – ashes and garbage. Ashes were the remnants of the fuel burned in stoves and furnaces. Garbage had a very specific definition, as set forth in the 1909 Building Code:

“The word ‘garbage’ shall be held to include all refuse of animal, fish or vegetable matter which has been used for food for man, and all refuse animal, fish or vegetable matter which was intended to be so used.”

The average household also accumulated stacks of paper and piles of rags – no paper towels back then! – and the Rag Man hauled this stuff away for sale to the local paper mills.

That left several miscellaneous categories of rubbish or trash that no one had any interest in: broken bottles and crockery, old wooden barrels, scrap lumber, anything metallic like tin cans or buttons, bricks and stones, tree branches, and so on. All of this junk just piled up in the backyard or basement or both.

In the early 1900s, a few progressive organizations tried to organize city-wide clean-up campaigns to eliminate all the junk from residential backyards. In addition to aesthetic concerns, there was a strong financial incentive for hauling away this trash. Cincinnati’s fire-insurance underwriters applauded [Cincinnati Enquirer 5 January 1906] a report demonstrating that a 1905 clean-up effort had resulted in 200 fewer fires than were recorded in the previous year. Insurers actually lowered rates for the downtown businesses after clean-up campaigns and Captain Jack Conway of the Cincinnati Salvage Corps requested regular campaigns to remove trash:

“He advocates the ‘clean up’ campaign be continued with unabated vigor until all rubbish is removed from cellars, old waste from under benches, &c., which are the most prolific source of fires.”

The Cincinnati Woman’s Club led the charge in 1907 and talked Mayor Edward J. Dempsey into supporting a thorough spring cleaning for the downtown area. The mayor asked residents to haul all that backyard and basement debris out to the curb on one fine day in June. Problem was, all of the city’s street-cleaning wagons were already committed to hauling ashes and garbage that day. It was only when Mayor Dempsey talked the very reluctant Street Repair Department into donating their 40 wagons that the campaign was made possible. Even a fleet that large was not enough to handle the accumulated detritus. According to the Cincinnati Post [10 June 1907]:

“As the Cincinnati Street-cleaning Department has not enough teams and men to clean up all that district in one day, the Woman’s Club, for which the city is making the experiment, has appealed to all firms and corporations and all individuals having wagons and teams to assist in the work Wednesday, June 12. That is the day upon which all the hauling will be done.”

Annual “house cleaning days” gathered enough support to continue for several years, but the Woman’s Club had other initiatives to support and leadership for the campaign transferred to the Chamber of Commerce, which super-sized the operation. For the 1914 campaign, the Chamber set aside several weeks in the spring for the clean-up, followed by a city-wide inspection. The Chamber paid for 100,000 lapel buttons promoting the effort and printed 250,000 circulars informing residents how to participate.

The Chamber even coughed up a $25 prize for the best “Clean Up and Paint Up” song. The winning lyrics were composed by Dr. Stephen E. Slocum, professor of applied mathematics at the University of Cincinnati, whose words were set to music by Walter H. Aiken, director of music for the Cincinnati Public Schools. The local schools stepped up to promote the clean-up campaign, not only by distributing brochures and flyers, but by planting gardens in most of the city’s schoolyards.

In addition to aesthetics and fire safety, the 1914 campaign encouraged sanitary measures to stop the spread of flies. At a time when the majority of vehicles on Cincinnati’s roads were horse-drawn, manure piled up all through the city, supporting an infestation of flies unimaginable today.

After weeks of encouraging residents to tidy up their properties, the Chamber coordinated a city-wide inspection to document compliance and results. According to the annual report, some citizens were none to happy about having their domestic habits evaluated:

“There were some people with a misconception of the meaning of personal liberty who refused to allow inspection of their premises and some preferred not to aid in a general ‘clean up’ for fear it would be only spasmodic and not result in permanent good.”

Despite scattered opposition, the Chamber bragged that the 1914 campaign resulted in a $600,000 reduction in fire loss, from $1.3 million in 1913 to less than $800,000 in 1914. Nearly 8,000 wagonloads of trash were hauled out of residential areas. That success led to an even more ambitious campaign plan for 1915. In fact, the Chamber may have become a victim of its own success. A report suggests that few of the campaign’s ambitious goals were achieved in 1915, although the results were still impressive.

At the conclusion of the 1915 clean-up period, the Chamber coordinated city-wide inspections. More than 42,000 premises received a visit, with 30,000 earning a clean certification. The remaining 12,000 properties appalled the inspectors, who identified nearly 35,000 defects ranging from unsecured garbage and ash cans to obstructed fire escapes to overflowing privy vaults and unsanitary toilets to open manure piles.

More than 300 buildings were found in such deplorable condition that they were ordered razed. The city located nearly 1,300 illegally maintained backyard outhouses and ordered them replaced with flush toilets that could still be located in the backyard if preferred!

Thanks to the generosity of the Mabley & Carew Company, clean-up participants planted more than 84,000 trees on Cincinnati’s barren hillsides.

While congratulating itself on a job well done, the Chamber dinged the city administration for outdated and ineffective procedures for removing garbage and other refuse:

“The city has made no step forward for the disposal of its waste, except garbage, since its first log cabin was built in January 1789. As the population has increased, the dumps have grown in size and become nearer to built up residence sections. This has resulted in strenuous complaints from time to time, and the elimination of those dumps against which pressure has become too strong to be resisted by city officials.”

Alas, with the city administration still under the thumb of the Boss Cox machine, city officials could resist any level of public pressure without even breaking a sweat.

[callistosystems]

Severe tooth decay, Call for help.

Over the past several years I've had to deal with steadily worsening tooth decay and tooth damage. I live and grew up in poverty and haven't had dental insurance for as long as I can remember, so I could never afford to get any of the problems fixed and they've piled up to the point where now I have no choice but to go for emergency dental work. The only thing that has stopped me up to this point was that I wasn't in pain. That's changed. Two of my more damaged teeth have become abscessed, and others are at risk. I'll go into more detail below but I would recommend avoiding that segment if you're squeamish about dental issues. I've been prescribed antibiotics and painkillers, and I'm going to have emergency dental work done. I'm looking at at least 3 pulled, more likely 4. I will stress: I DO NOT HAVE DENTAL INSURANCE. I will be forced to take this on as medical debt, while I'm unemployed and between concrete homes. I'm making the decision to ask for help if anyone is able to provide it. I'll be accepting donations to help put a dent in the bill, my paypal email is "Calabel831@gmail.com". Any amount helps, everything I receive will be used exclusively to reduce the bill I'll be forced to pay. If you have the time I would appreciate if you could reblog this to help get the word out. (CW: Tooth decay and Damage described in detail. Don't read past this point if that bothers you.) The full extent of the damage to my teeth is much more severe than a couple of infected ones, but for the most part it can be put off. Right now I'm worried about the ones that have broken or split open deeper than the enamel, exposing the inside of the tooth itself. I have three, possibly four teeth that are damaged to this extent. My upper right canine and upper right back molar are two of them. These two are the infected ones, and the ones causing me pain. My bottom back left molar is split open with half of the cap missing and the inside exposed, this one was broken by my wisdom tooth, both of which have fully grown in. It's probably at the greatest risk of infection out of the rest of my teeth. My upper back left molar is in a similar state, but not as damaged. Aside from those most of my front teeth are severely crooked and many of them have extreme enamel damage, one of them has lost it's entire front facing surface, and the inside of these teeth under the enamel has turned completely black. These will probably all either need to be pulled or require root canals for the ones I intend to keep, but that can wait just a bit longer until I'm in a better living situation. My upper canines, including the infected one, have been shunted up into and are sticking out of the front of my gums. Both are going to wind up being removed eventually, as well as my lower right canine which is severely decayed. My lower left is in decent shape and I'll probably be able to keep it. If there's any doubt or skepticism that this is as bad as it sounds, I would be more than happy to provide images if they're requested of me. I would ask that those stay private, I'm extremely self-conscious about this issue. TL;DR I need thousands of dollars worth of dental surgery. Some of it is severe enough to be threatening to my health or even life and I need help to pay for the medical bills.

[psychewritesbs]

I have to say, it's disheartening to keep seeing the Megumi slander on the internet and the way they don't give credit to where credit is due. I especially dislike that people think Megumi is so weak-willed just because he can't regain control of his body against Sukuna and compares him to Yuji, a result of Kenjaku's experiment, who was designed to be a cage for Sukuna. It's definitely not just a matter of will power.

Did they honestly just forget that despite Megumi being broken over finding out Tsumiki's gone he still managed to interfere with Sukuna's cursed energy output? Definitely putting up a fight? Did they miss that Sukuna had to take a dip in the Bath of Evil just to further sink Megumi's soul to ensure he wouldn't be interfering as much? But even then, he still had to go and kill Tsumiki for further insurance. Like, this is a normal kid (as compared to a specially-made vessel) we're talking about. His body wasn't made to host Sukuna and yet even Sukuna recognizes that Megumi have the potential to suppress him as well. Heck, Megumi even surviving being possessed is already a miracle in and of itself. So I think in terms of will power and strength of the soul all of these ought to account for something.

I'm so sorry if I ranted. I've missed my boy and the odds of him being x'ed rising each chapter is making me bristle whenever I see people shitting on him (I really got to remove myself from the toxic spaces for a while). But onto my ask, on the possibility that Megumi's coming back, do you think he'll overcome Sukuna alone or will he get help? Personally I really want him to breakout on his own. That would be such a nice F U to Sukuna. And I want my boy to take back the mastery of the 10S. The recent chap leak (that I couldn't avoid for the life of me) revealing Sukuna's motives with the 10S and Maho gives me a bit of hope that Gege has yet to show us the full extent of this technique. And there's still Chimera Shadow Garden. I'd like to think Gege would be kind enough to give us a pay off for the deliberate progression of Megumi's character and abilities. Essentially another Origin of Blind Obedience pay off. Cause my boy deserve it so much 😭.

HOLA anon!

Preach.

Rant away anon. This is what jjk Confessions Sunday not on a Sunday is for 😂. Even if I disagree with some of what I am sent, I always try to make it a point to understand where others are coming from. Otherwise Squishy calls me out on it ;)

Onto your question under the cut...

So I totally get how bromantic it is for Yuji to save Megumi. I do. It's an absolutely beautiful statement about the love these two have for each other.

With my recent realization that jjk is about... dun dun dun... DEATH, came a deeper understanding about how Gege is executing on this theme.

What I mean by this is that Yuji, Megumi and Nobara (the entire cast, really) have a shared experience of what it is like to face death as part of their everyday experience.

I know, I am late to the party. I can be dense like that.

Anyways... I think it's important that we agree on what it means to face your mortality. Most especially if you are young.

Spoken from experience, when you are young, unless you have had a brush with death or some sort of debilitating illness, death isn't something you think will happen to you.

When you are young, death is some foreign concept that happens to others. Never you.

Now, I'm not necessarily advocating that people contemplate death, but, also spoken from experience, there is a paradoxical truth about death that deepens the experience of the self--and that is that becoming aware of your mortality, if approached with the right mindset, becomes an invitation to live life more fully and with more intention.

So I imagine Yuji, Megumi, and Nobara, due to being the only 1st years, have developed a much deeper, unspoken bond than they would have with many of the other people in their lives.

That said, Megumi asking to be saved is such a desperate but beautiful expression of his vulnerability, which we hardly ever get to see by the way.

Not only that, it's bromantic af, mate! Ship or no ship, asking to be saved has deep implications on a soulful level.

To this point, Kiri by Monoral, the Ergo Proxy op, is one of my favorite songs ever because it captures the essence of love as a religious and aspirational experience in which someone asks to be saved.

But saved from what?

What does salvation even mean?

Come and save me

I am kind of obsessed with this theme of redemption as of late because Gege is framing Sukuna as a religious figure redeeming and releasing characters from their existential woes.

Which is kind of what Megumi is asking of Yuji in asking to be saved.

Like in the lyrics to the song, Megumi is metaphorically saying "I need you to 'refill my place' and to 'complete my fate'. Come and save me".

He's saying "we're not heroes" but at the same time elevates Yuji to the role of one who can redeem.

It really is as simple as Megumi asking for help on a surface level, and as complex and deep as asking for salvation on a soulful level.

After all, as I said in a previous ask, when Megumi asked for salvation, he had recently learned Tsumiki has to take part in the Culling Game, meaning Megumi is likely feeling insecure and anxious.

"Come and save me, I am at the lowest I could ever be."

Now, I LOVE that Megumi is asking to be saved because, in doing so, he's showing character growth, you know, that one thing people say he doesn't have. For one, he's asking for help, and second, he's showing vulnerability, which I will never get tired of saying he normally suppresses.

So anyways, all of that to say that, the problem with this mentality is that, even if it means Megumi has grown, it absolves him of responsibility for himself.

He's basically saying "here you go Itadori, your character archetype is Pisces, the redeemer, so here are my existential burdens, go die on the cross for me".

Ok, not exactly. I am exaggerating to get a point across.

My point is that, in asking Yuji to save him, Megumi is absolving himself of the responsibility to develop the qualities he admires in Yuji or to acknowledge said qualities in himself.

In retrospect, there's something about how Megumi having no qualms scoring 100 points is really about how he's willing to tarnish his soul and become irredeemable for the sake of saving Tsumiki.

And isn't it ironic that Megumi is on quest, just like a Knight, to uphold and protect the ideals of a Sleeping Beauty and yet he himself needs saving?

I am having a hard time verbalizing the paradox here, but Tsumiki's death is SO deeply symbolic.

idk, I don't feel like I'm doing this answer justice because I feel like I can go deeper with this because there's also something at the core of this idea about how Megumi is giving up on himself by waiting to be saved.

Which is relatable af.

What I am trying to say is that if he gets saved in the sense that other people yank Sukuna out of him or wtv... then Megumi didn't learn his lesson, and that just means it is prone to happen again.

If Gege decides to go for the bromantic outcome, I am sure he'll show us the train of thought he took to get there. Maybe there is a way for Megumi to be saved AND for him to take responsibility for himself.

Whatever the case, like you dear anon, I need him to stop feeling sorry for himself, to stop doubting himself, to see himself as good enough, and to take back his agency and take back his life. Because in doing so, Megumi is taking responsibility for himself.

Something like that 😂.

Thanks for the Megumi-love anon!

[damann133]

Hi I'm Hakim B.,

* Update *

I have been able to find placement in a homeless program 🙌🏾 ... As such I have removed the funding info from this post. Thank you any & All support!

In July (2023) I experienced a severe impact to my vision. This resulted in immediate loss of ability to work.

Since I've also lost my home, among other things. I am actively looking for shelter (through programs here in AZ) , in the mean time I am making due with what I can.

My ask is for support to get shelter, currently I see it costs $55 (after fees & tax) a night at a few different places.

Any amount of time off of the street is appreciated and valued.

I will edit (if possible) or remove this post and post an update once I have found placement in a shelter.

*if interested*

A bit more about my situation.

I do not intend on staying homeless.

I appreciate any and all consideration and support.

My sight is being treated, with hopes of being repaired. I have been able to secure Nutrition assistance & Health insurance through the state.

I am keeping hope that I will be able to return to work in the near future. It is a waiting game on being cleared for surgery.

Best Regards,

Hakim B.

[happyhealthycats]

I'm bringing home a pair of 4 month old kittens on Wednesday (21/2) and I'm so nervous.

I think I've got everything they need; shallow bowls to avoid whisker fatigue, litter boxes with removable hoods, roomy carriers, three different types of scratcher, puzzle feeders, quick release collars, *so many* toys, beds and blankets.

But I still feel so unprepared. This'll be the first time I've been solely responsible for anyone and I'm so scared I'll mess up. I want these boys to be the happiest, most well-taken-care-of cats in the world, but I struggle to take care of myself as it is and I'm terrified I'll hurt or neglect them unintentionally.

I'm sorry for rambling but basically what I want to ask is, is there anything I've forgotten for them? Is there any important advice you can think of?

First thing's first - Take a minute to relax! I know it's easier said than done, but you're doing a GREAT thing by bringing two cats into your home. It's a big step, sure, but it's very rewarding! Keep this in mind - Every single cat is unique with different needs. You can buy every single toy on the wall and bring home the one cat that will absolutely not touch any of the types of toys you got them. When they first get home, their job is to grow confident in their new surroundings and be there for each other, and to continue to eat and to their business and other healthy cat-behaviors. It's also time for them to learn the rules of the home, right? I don't mean actual rules, but think about it - "Why is the human going to bed? Why are they staying here instead of going home after turning off the lights?" They have to get used to a whole new way of life, and it can be stressful! So this is why a lot of folks warn about cats being skittish/shy/scared right after coming home. Some cats go on litter box strikes. Some go on food strikes. It's all part of getting to know each other. So following that idea, you want to learn about your new friends! Watch them play, watch them interact. Give them a variety of options so you can see what they prefer, and it already sounds like you've got that covered! You may find that the cats don't like the litter you picked out, or the food you got. It's important not to see it as a failure, but as a learning experience. I WILL give you some basic advice that I wish more folks would give - have an emergency plan in case someone gets sick or eats something they're not supposed to. Know your emergency vet number - or put it on your fridge. You don't need to have a stack of cash, things like Care Credit exist for this very reason, but don't put off thinking about 'what if's when you're in a good headspace to do so. This would be a good time to look into pet insurance, and honestly I'd say it's worth checking out as an option if it's something you can swing financially. Get some blood work on their files at the vet as soon as you're able, just so you have a baseline to refer to in the future. Find your veterinarian now if you haven't already! Shelter vets and rescue vets are fantastic and do amazing work, but you want the vet who will continue seeing the animal into the future to get more familiar with your pet sooner rather than later. Vets can also have great resources for you at a new pet appointment. All in all, watch and learn from each other and you're going to give those cats the very best life they could have possibly hoped for.

[theretirementstory]

Bonjour tout le monde it’s 5c at the moment brrr! Hopefully it will warm up by this afternoon.

Do you ever get to Sunday and wonder where the week has gone and more importantly what you have done with the week? This is one of the reasons why I do this blog, it’s because I often think I have done nothing but when I look back I realise that you may have done a great deal.

I was happy to receive my “convocation” for my appointment with the oncologist, it is for Friday 23rd. Although I am pleased to have the appointment it coincides with my knitting group which is a little sad. I have my taxi booked and fingers crossed I am not there for hours and hours.

Yet another little “hitch” with regard to water and this time it wasn’t just hot water it was a lack of any water! Anyway I asked the plumber to call and it was found that the tap was full of limescale. We got it all sorted, a new tap and waste for the bathroom and I am a happy bunny again.

It’s coming around to the renewal of my house insurance, which is currently held with a company in Poitou-Charentes. I have been very happy with the insurer I chose in town for my other policies so I have asked them to give me a quote. It was promptly done and so I should soon be insured in a “one stop shop” in town.

My American friend rang me from the states, where she is currently having treatment. She asked if I could go to her home and photograph her garden. Imagine my surprise when there were two men at her home (one a workman) they said come in and look at the rear garden too. Then the workman took me round the ground floor asking me to take photos of the work he is doing in the kitchen. What a pleasant surprise that was not only for me but also for my friend.

Yesterday, a friend in the UK messaged to tell me that her grandson had put in an appearance early that morning. He was not full term, actually only 26 weeks, so here is hoping that his mum and him get through these days and weeks. Quite a surprise and a worry I would imagine too.

Let’s have a look at my choice of songs for this week. They go quite a way back, the first song taken from an album which my sister had long before we even had our first Dansette record player. It’s music I remember hearing, even though my age hadn’t attained double figures, I still love the tracks today as much as at that time. So taken from the album “Aftermath” by the Rolling Stones released in 1966 is the track “Under My Thumb”.

The second song is from 1971, the first single for this band. The band featured the super talented Roy Wood, along with Jeff Lynne and Bev Bevan who had been part of the group “The Move”. The song was so totally different to anything else at that time it was “10538 Overture”. Both groups have had some amazing songs and it can be hard to choose a favourite but these songs have always had a place in my heart.

I sometimes feel I am a little boring about my garden, ok so it’s not everyone’s idea of a beautiful place but believe me I do the best I can do to have some colour out there. Two years ago I planted up a planter and I loved that so much. I decided to change the compost, remove any dead plants and replant any others. I had bought a pack which turned out to be 10 primulas not 8 as I first thought. They had been in the supermarket too long, were dry as a bone and a lot of them looked dead! However, looks can be deceptive and a quick “snip” to remove brown and broken leaves found that they were pot bound and in need of a very big drink. I rejuvenated the planter and put the remaining primulas into the “potager” hoping to help them improve. I want to lay cardboard in the rear garden and “re-home” the primulas and the violas that self seeded last year. This morning I was so upset as I saw that “something”, possibly a cat, had dug up three of the primulas in order to use the potager as a toilet. It has also been using the high planter as a toilet, last year I grew beetroot, lettuce, radish and spring onions in that planter. It’s very disappointing and I even felt “what is the point” in growing stuff if some animal is going to keep messing in the earth. However, it does give me a lot of pleasure seeing my plants growing so should I fight back?

I really must send another email to my friends in Bristol. I haven’t heard from them since the beginning of the year and it’s not like them to be in touch.

Monique is still not well and will be seeing the oncologist on Monday 26th. It’s a couple of weeks since I have seen Anie too, time flies!

“The Photographer” had a weeks holiday from work last week as it was his daughters “half term” from school. On Monday he took his two children (aged 5.5 and 2.5 years) on the train to London. He stayed with his Aunt and Uncle and had planned visits with the children to the zoo and the Natural History Museum. The children had a wonderful time, so did “The Photographer” but he was exhausted by the time he got home on Thursday. The children returned to their Mum on Friday and we excited about going, obviously they had a lot to tell her. Yesterday, he was at Scarborough AFC taking photos of their game.

“The Trainee Solicitor” and “Ex-Graduate” have finished work now for a well earned week of rest and relaxation. They are heading to the Yorkshire Dales for some good country air, a little walking and perhaps a lot of reading!

Sorry just had a little break, it was time for tea and cornflakes 😉.

Yes the cat has been back and turned the earth in the potager, so I have put more pepper down, plus today, I will put stakes into the earth and let’s see it try to “squat” there!

I tell myself every morning that I will have a walk and do I? Not everyday and actually the days I do go out for that walk are getting fewer and fewer. I had a good walk one day and was spurred on for more of the same but after a shorter walk the following day it has tailed off again! I really must “programme” myself to a walk.

So now I am going to send a message or two to friends, read my book for a short time. Do the normal household jobs, bed making, washing up etc. Start the “walking programme” and generally find something to tell you about next week 😂.

Bon dimanche!

[ljones41]

"LOST" Retrospect: "The Wrong Promise"

Following a re-watch of the "LOST" series finale, (6.17-6.18) "The End", I did this re-write of an old article about a scene between Kate Austen and Claire Littleton:

"LOST" RETROSPECT: "THE WRONG PROMISE"

While going over old "LOST" articles and forums, I had come across a post that asked members how they would have ended the series. After reading several other sites and articles, I had my answer. There were two things I would have changed. I would have included two other original characters in that final scene inside the afterlife church. And I would have removed one line from the transcript for the series finale, (6.17-6.18) "The End".

But I am here to discuss the second change. I wish that showrunners Damon Lindelof and Carlton Cuse had not allowed Kate Austen to promise Claire Littleton that she would help raise the latter’s three-year-old son Aaron after reaching civilization. Following the demise of the Man in Black aka the Smoke Monster, Kate and fellow castaway James "Sawyer" Ford made their escape from the island, while the latter was crumbling. Dr. Jack Shephard and Desmond Hume had unplugged the island's electromagnetic energy in order to make the Smoke Monster mortal. Kate and Sawyer used Desmond's boat Elizabeth to travel to the nearby Hydra Island, where the patched up Ajira 316 plane awaited them. Near the shore of Hydra Island, Kate and Sawyer found Claire, distraught over being abandoned again. Kate convinced Claire to follow her and all three made it aboard the Ajira plane. During the flight away from the island, Claire had expressed her fear of being a bad mother to her son Aaron, whom she had not seen in three years. To reassure Claire, Kate promised to help the former raise her three year-old son. And here is where Lindelof and Cuse made their mistake.

Now, I realize that Kate was simply trying to assure an agitated Claire that everything would be all right, once the latter was reunited with Aaron. Especially since Claire had been stuck on the island for three years and had not seen her son. Yet, a part of me suspected there was more at play. Because as far as I am concerned, Kate’s promise to help raise Aaron struck me as the wrong one to make. Why? It was not possible for her to meet this promise.

In the Season Four episode (4.04) "Eggtown", Kate's attorney had made a deal with prosecutors to allow her to take a probation deal, instead of face more trials over other crimes like insurance fraud and bank robbery. He used Kate's reputation as one of the Oceanic Six - one of the few Oceanic survivors who managed to return to their respective countries back in January 2005 - as a reason they would find it difficult to convict her. Personally, I found this argument ridiculous, but Cuse and Lindelof allowed it to stick. The probation forced Kate to remain in the United States and California for at least ten years. When she had departed Los Angeles on the Ajira Flight 316 in Season Five's (5.06) "316", Kate had broken the terms of her ten-year probation after two years.

According to the show’s canon, the period between "316" and "The End" spanned roughly two weeks. Chances are, Kate had left the country under an assumed name. And since Ajira 316 had been missing for two weeks, I suspect a great deal of publicity would have generated from the plane's return to civilization. I would not be surprised if not long after her return to civilization or U.S. territory - the plane was originally destined for Guam Island, Kate ended up in prison for breaking her probation. And once the authorities also learned she had lied about being Aaron's biological mother, there is a chance they would have prosecuted her for the New Mexico bank robbery and other crimes. Worse, Kate's mother - if she was still alive - might consider testifying against Kate over Wayne Janssen's murder. After all, Kate had never been cleared or convicted for that crime.

Even if Kate had simply decided to follow Claire to Australia, I do not see the chances of her playing a future role in Aaron's life. One might consider the possibility of Kate moving to Australia after serving time in prison for breaking her probation. That is another possibility I do not see happening. Why do I have doubts about both possibilities? I doubt very much that the Australian government would have allowed Kate to re-enter the country. Before Oceanic 815 had departed Sydney, Australia; Kate had entered the country under a false name and as a fugitive from the law. Which means she had entered Australia illegally. I just cannot see the Australian immigration authorities allowing her to set foot on the country's soil again.

Also, why would Claire need Kate’s help in raising Aaron? Kate had left the three year-old in custody of his biological grandmother, Carole Littleton, less than a day before leaving the United States. Ms. Littleton had custody of Aaron by the end of the series. And to be honest, I believe she would be the best person to serve as Aaron’s guardian, considering the tenuous nature of Claire’s mental state in the series finale. I certainly cannot see Ms. Littleton allowing Kate, a criminal who had deliberately kept her grandson away from her for nearly three years, near Aaron while he remained a minor. In fact, I do not even see Claire allowing Kate to be anywhere near Aaron. Hell, I would never allow a child abductor with a series of crimes hovering around her, near my offspring again . . . even if that person had helped me get off the island.

All I can say is . . . what were Carlton Cuse and Damon Lindelof thinking when they had allowed Kate to make that promise to Claire in "The End"? They could have found another way for Kate to ease the young Australian woman’s fears other than with a promise she had very little chance of fulfilling. And for the past thirteen years, many "LOST" fans have automatically believed that Kate had helped Claire raise Aaron. Without Carole Littleton’s help. Now that I think about it . . . what were they thinking?

[randomly-a-fan]

The Deal of the “After” Life-time Pt. 1

Prologue

“So let me get this straight, bitch; you actually want to give up your soul to me, in exchange for your daughter’s legal rights?” Freddy Krueger asked, to non-other than... MJ Voorhees. “If anyone can make Malon a Voorhees thy legal rights, it���s you. Since, I can’t give you my other kidney, since I needed at least one to survive...” MJ trying to explain. “But you’re giving up your life and freedom anyway, despite the fact that you’ll never see Malon, or that fugly thing that you call ‘your husband’.” Freddy laughed. “AT LEAST, my Jason can be with his daughter again! They’ll manage their lives without me.” MJ exclaimed while tearing up.

Freddy smiled to her exclamation towards him, so, he decided to do what she have requested. “I suppose I could make Malon a Voorhees once again... But, are you sure you want to live your eternal-life in the Nightmare Realm... with me?” Freddy asked with a devilish smirk.

Three Weeks Ago   

Malon has been feeling sick because of her throat, so, she’s unable to go to school. Cassandra came over to inspect Malon’s cause. “It appears that Malon’s tonsils were getting bigger, compared to last month’s checkup. She’s going to need a tonsillectomy. Lucky for her, there’s no signs of an adenoid, so, no adenoidectomy.” Cassandra explained to the parents. “You mean I have to go to the hospital again?” Malon asked while tearing up, remembering her first experience from her first time in the hospital. [Link to her story] “Oh, don’t worry Malon, this procedure is going to be a lot different from your last one; there are no needles involved.” Cassandra explained. “She’s right, and besides, the doctors are going to put you right to sleep; that’s called anesthesia. Think of that as... A magic potion that will keep you from feeling the pain during an operation.” MJ said while trying to lighten things up.

However, there is one problem. “The hospital in Haddonfield is low on doctors due to vacation or family emergencies, it’ll take up about three months to get an appointment.” Cassandra explained. “Is there a way to get Malon in as soon as possible?” MJ asked worriedly. “There is, but they’re pretty strict, and may ask for your personal information.” Cassandra informed. “If we don’t get that appointment set up, her tonsils will only get worse if it’s not treated.” Cassandra added. Jason and MJ have been staring at each other for a brief moment, Jason doesn’t want Malon to be in any worse pain, so, he accepts the risk. MJ just wanted Malon to be healthy and better; she turned out alright when she had her tonsils removed, it’s actually quite memorable.

***

Apparently, the Voorhees have to take Malon to Springwood for her tonsillectomy; which for some reason, sounded so familiar. From their first experience at the hospital, it was simple enough to get Malon in without complications. But this time, they have to go through some very personal questions, since they don’t have a birth certificate for Malon, since she was adopted, but they don’t have the legal rights either, so this trip is indeed, very risky.

Jason reassured his wife that the people in Springwood won’t be involved in their lives, since they live in New Jersey, and they’re miles and miles from home. MJ smiled with a sigh in relief; after all, she trusted him with her life. 

It took MJ and Jason two hours to give the doctor the full information they could give, that won’t give too much away about their origins. “Ma’am, sir, we’re going to take care of your daughter, but without medical insurance or her birth certificate, there’s no way how we can make this surgery happen. “Doc, please? Malon doesn’t have a birth certificate because she was adopted; we found her as a baby, so there’s no way on knowing how to get her a birth certificate, if we don’t even know her birth date.” MJ explained, while growing frustrated. “Well, if she was adopted, she should have an adoption form; so, do you, or do you not have an adoption form?” The doctor asked. MJ groaned while pasting her head on the table. Jason rubbed her back to ease her mind, while giving the doctor his answer.

Apparently, Malon was unable to get surgery to have her tonsils removed in Springwood. So, they will have to wait a couple of months to put Malon through surgery in Haddonfield. But a couple of weeks later, Malon hasn’t been feeling herself; she’s having trouble eating and drinking, and she’s not getting any sleep, due to the fact that she can’t breathe very well. Jason let’s Malon sleep in his lap with her head against his chest, so she can sleep while sitting up. However, it doesn’t approve sleep for her either way. When morning came, MJ puts her foot down and called Cassandra. “I don’t care if the doctors were on vacation; call them all, and set this appointment up for Malon in Haddonfield right this minute!” MJ yelled. “MJ, it’s not my place to disrupt their business--” “MALON IS FREAKIN’ SUFFICATING FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, SHE’S NOT EATING GOOD OR GETTING ANY SLEEP, THINK ABOUT THAT.” Then MJ slammed the phone on her.

MJ strained her throat for shouting at Cassandra, she doesn’t even mean to be this demanding; she was just scared for Malon, her only treasure. MJ sobbed on the floor in grief, as she doesn’t know what to do. Jason heard everything from Malon’s room, he understands that she’s angry; he’s angry too, though, he never thought that MJ would be this demanding.

Jason left Malon for a second to see his crying wife. He got down and sat next to her to give her a hug. He knew how much Malon means to her; she means to him too. Jason then picked MJ up and carried her towards Malon’s room. When he put MJ down, Malon walked towards her mom to give her a hug. “I’ll be okay mom... Really.” Malon said in a hoarse tone, before she made a gagging noise. MJ teared up in grief, she didn’t know what to do for her. 

While MJ and Jason try to think, they both heard a door knock. MJ had to let go of her daughter to see who was at the door. When MJ opened the door, she saw that it was the police chief. “May I help you?” MJ asked. “Is this the Voorhees residents?” The chief asked. “Yes... Why you ask?” MJ asked nervously. “Ma’am, we need to take you and Mr. Voorhees to court.” The chief explained. MJ’s jaw dropped. “WHAT, why?” MJ asked in panic.

Jason was listening to the commotion and wanted to see what’s going on. When he saw a few police officers outside his cabin, Jason was feeling the urge to kill them off, but he knew that MJ would not allow it, so he needed to remain calm. “Because you don’t have any legal rights to adopt Malon after, you say: ‘have found her’, we’re placing both of you under arrest for not having an adoption form for the child...” MJ was hyperventilating; the fact that she might lose her daughter AND her husband. “Also... Since Jason Voorhees was known as the psycho-killer over the past years, with you being around him, letting him proceed his deeds, you’re also under violation into being under citizen’s arrest.” The chief explained. “But sir, Jason hasn’t been doing anything wrong, and I’ve made sure that Jason acts more humanely... We don’t have the adoption form because things got complicated--” “Yeah yeah, tell it to the judge, ma’am.” The chief said as he grabbed hold of both her arms from behind. 

That is until Jason stepped in and took the chief’s wrist and dislocated it. “What the fu--” “JASON DON’T. It’s okay, he’s not arresting me, *in her head* at least not yet... *to Jason* The judge just wants to talk to us. We’re going to save Malon.” MJ explained. Jason decided to listen and relocate the chief’s wrist. “Do that, one more time, and I’ll be sure to have the judge double your sentence!” The chief threatened.

Before MJ got into the car, she remembered Malon. “WAIT... Malon’s in there, and she’s sick really badly!” MJ teared up. “We’ve heard about Malon’s case, so don’t worry, we’ll make sure she gets her tonsillectomy before the final sentences.” The chief assures. 

Sadly, MJ has to get a ride without Jason by her side, he needed to go into a police truck. Poor Malon was being transported to a private hospital that will help her cure her tonsils, without her mom or dad being there to support her. 

[Since I have no idea about Courts or laws in the court, I’m skipping the Court scene] 

Apparently, MJ has to speak the full truth, since it’s the law of the court. Jason understands that she needed to be honest with herself, or else she’ll be putting herself in danger if she doesn’t speak the truth. But it doesn’t help with the case.

Jason is sentenced to life in prison, while MJ has no right into raising Malon on her own because of her autism. She is charged for helping Jason through life; since Jason was a criminal, so she could of ended in jail too; however, she’s able to pay her fine on that, but she can’t bail her husband out.

As for Malon, they were going to put her in the orphanage, but luckily, Eric was there to prevent that from happening, so he volunteered to raise Malon as his own. However again, she’s not allowed to see Jason, and she can only see MJ with permission from the law.

***

MJ was crying at her sanctuary house, because she’s all alone, and she lost her family. Thankfully, Aquarius comes by for a visit; she even took the time to take her to prison to see her husband. When MJ saw Jason chained up, it made him look lifeless. Poor MJ wanted to cheer him up, but she’s not allowed to see him up close, but Pennywise has a way. He hacked the security cameras and brain-dumb the security men. “Alright MJ, you got five minutes.” Pennywise said as he opened the door for her. MJ kissed Pennywise by the lips for his attempt to help her see Jason in the flesh up close. Of course, Pennywise nearly gagged when she did that.

Jason lifted his head after hearing someone approaching him. When he saw that it was MJ, he jolted up like as if he was back from the dead. MJ touched Jason’s cheek and felt the dampness from the tears in his eyes. “Oh baby... I’m so sorry...” MJ said as she pasted the side of her head against his chest. Jason lifted her chin to place his hand on her cheek, then rubbed the tear off her eye. He then lay his forehead against hers before kissing her by the nose. All MJ did was kiss him back. “Sweetie... If I could do anything, I’d sell my soul to free you and have Malon back in our lives.” MJ teared up. Jason shook his head after hearing that statement.

Everything got interrupted when Pennywise broke it up. “MJ, we have to go; some of the security guards are gaining consciousness.” Pennywise warned. MJ bawled up with tears before clinging into her husband. Jason knew that MJ needs to leave, or else she’ll be in big trouble with the law, so he made Pennywise drag MJ away from him. “NO... Jason please!” MJ tried to grab his hand, but Jason did not want to hold on to hers, he has to accept his fate. “JASON.” MJ cried. Both Aquarius and Pennywise both wrapped their arms around MJ as they walked out from prison.

Present 

MJ teared up before she gave Freddy the answer. She looked into her photo of her, Jason, and Malon on their Wedding Day. “If I accept, Will Jason be free from prison, AND Malon will have the rights to be a Voorhees?” MJ asked. “I can even make the law enforcements forget about Jason being a criminal, all you got to do is shake on it!” Freddy explained. 

“Alright, but I have three conditions: 

You give me space, 

You will not kill or hurt any of my or my family’s friends,

And I want Jason and Malon to be able to see me in their dreams, so that means, you CAN’T Intervene

Understand?” MJ said.

Freddy chuckled before laying his claw hand on her shoulder. “You’re lucky your cute as fuck. So, I can simply keep my word on these conditions, it’s not like you’ll escape anyway... I made sure of that.” Freddy said with a cheeky grin.

MJ sighed sadly while looking up. “I’ll make the deal, but could you at least let me be with my family one last time?” MJ asked. “Oh, sure! I’ll let you see them... However, I might have to take back what I said about letting you have these conditions granted; I would love for Lily to be my next victim.” Freddy said in a charismatic tone. “NO! Don’t worry about it... I’ll just forget about spending time with them for the final time.” MJ said while tearing up. 

Freddy smiled to MJ’s scared reaction. “That’s much better, well then... Let’s shake on it...” Freddy said before putting out his hand. MJ sadly shook Freddy’s hand while feeling him making a tight grip. MJ screamed in agony, it felt like her bones are shattering. “Well that’s done, NOW... I’ll show you to your new room.” Freddy said as he dragged her through the boiler; which is where MJ will be living behind for the rest of her life. “There’s no getting out, the boiler is always on, unless me or the Shadow Demon were to shut it off... Which hardly happens.” Freddy warned. “Now get some rest... You want to be well rested when Jason or Malon come by.” Freddy added before he leaves the space through the flames. MJ just sits on the edge of the bed while bawling her eyes out on her pillow.

***

Freddy managed to keep his word; Jason being released, and Malon is now officially a Voorhees. “Daddy!” Malon said excitedly in a hoarse tone; she did get her tonsils removed, but her throat hurts a little, including her ears and neck, but she’s all better now. Jason hugged his daughter while crying with happy tears. “Where’s mommy? I want to see her.” Malon asked. Jason lifted his head after hearing her question, where is MJ, does she even know that they’re back together? He’s not worried too much; she could have gone out for a few hours, or probably just hanging out with the Grays. So, he thought of taking his daughter out for a leisurely walk through the woods.

But when it was time for bed, Jason is starting to get a little concerned. MJ is never gone this late at night; she’s always afraid of being out of the dark by herself, he hoped that nothing bad happens to her. He went up to check on Malon, who is sleeping soundly. Then he decided to went out to look for MJ in the woods, and just outside the woods. 

Meanwhile, Malon was having a dream about her mom, as in the agreement with Freddy; Jason and Malon can see MJ in their dreams if they chose to, and of course, Malon chose to be with her mom. Malon didn’t know that she was dreaming, until her mom explained things to her. “You see sweetie, in order for you to become a Voorhees, and for your dad to be out of prison, I have to give up my soul to Freddy.” MJ explained. Malon was shocked, she can’t believe that her mom would go that far. “Does this mean... We’ll never see you again?” Malon asked. MJ nodded sadly as it were her answer. “When you’re awake, yes. But you can see me in your dreams whenever you want; think of it as... one parent works the backshift.” MJ said with enthusiasm, which could not fool her daughter from the slightest. 

Malon looked around the space; it does not look like home for her mom. “Mom, I can tell that you regretted this; we need to find a way to get you out of this deal.” Malon thought. “I’m afraid not; Freddy and I shook on it, nothing can change.” Malon stared crossly at her mom. “Where is he? Let me at ’em!” Malon said while making punching gestures. “Malon, Freddy will crush you like a fire beetle. Besides, part of the conditions I’ve mentioned; you and your dad will dream and decide if you two wanted to see me, and Freddy cannot intervene. So, you’ll never see him again. Which is another good thing; my other condition was that he will not kill or hurt anybody we love or cared for. So, you’re safe from Freddy’s grasp.” MJ explained. Malon sighed from exhaustion, so, she decided to take a breather and hug her mom tight, before morning comes and that her mom goes away.

***

When Malon did wake up, she went up and told her dad what happened. “Dad, I saw mom; she’s trapped in the Nightmare Realm, she sold her soul to Freddy, so you and I can be a family again for all time.” Malon explained. Jason’s undead heart shattered; even though he’s happy to be out of prison, and that Malon is now a Voorhees, he can’t live a full happy life without MJ; his wife. Jason kissed Malon by the head before going out for a few minutes to let out his loud silent anger, while swinging his machete through the woods; slicing down trees and warned out houses and buildings.

Jason then bangs the ground with fury and depression. Malon rushed out after seeing her dad upset. “I’m sorry daddy... If I’ve never needed to have my tonsils removed, we would never be in this mess.” Malon said, as a tear fell out of her eye. Jason looked up at Malon, when he saw the tears in her eyes, he held his daughter into his arms while sobbing in sorrow.

After Malon stopped crying, she spoke to her still-crying dad. “However, mom said that we can visit her in our dreams if we chose to, so... it’s like visiting her on her nightshift.” Malon explained. Jason stopped crying after hearing what his daughter said. So, he got up and rushed home to take a nap so he can see his wife and hopefully rescue her from her hot fate.

To be Continued