#and guess what bis only marry men

[sapphicdessi]

At least I have a study to back up what I’m saying. If you look at the numbers even accounting for trans wouldn’t flip it to bisexuals dating mostly the opposite sex it still remains close to 50/50.

Now go ahead and show me a study that states bisexuals are mostly with the opposite sex that isn’t a decade old with a tiny sample size. Lbr we all know you won’t because you can’t. Science denying dumbass continues to be accurate.

you're mad about the stats from what 2016 or so that say bis are 80 percent with the opposite sex and this is from 2019 lmao. your european stat? your SOURCE is from homophobic queerio liberal tras who think trans women are women and that NB is a thing. how desperately stupid are you? radfem bis and tra bis are both homophobic clowns. you're all liars. looks like the science denying idiot is you. I can grab any snip of it and show you what utter garbage this "stat" is, did you even read it troon lover?

[firewasabeast]

prompt: im not gay, but my husband is.

(I loved those scenes in 911 and lonestar where they only wanted the straight white guy to work on them, so I think it would be funny happening with married, bi buck!)

“No, I don't want you touching me.”

They'd been sent on a call to a woman's residence. She had fallen in her driveway on the way to her car. From the moment they pulled up, trouble had started. She didn't want Hen touching her, wouldn't accept help from Chimney, and the second she spotted Diaz on Eddie's uniform she stopped him.

“Well, you're a straight, white man, Bobby,” Chimney said with a smile. “You wanna take the lead?”

“Wait,” Eddie put his hands on his hip, “do interracial relationships matter to you too?” he asked the woman. “Because, if so, Bobby's out.”

She looked around at everyone in a panic. “You!” she exclaimed when her eyes met Buck's. “You can do it, right?!”

“Yes, I am capable of placing a splint on your leg,” he said with no enthusiasm as Hen handed over the splint.

He bent down to get started but she held her arm out to stop him. “You're normal, right? You're not married to someone,” she glanced up at Bobby, “different, are you? Not gay or anything?”

“Oh, no ma'am, I'm not gay,” Buck assured her, before adding with a flash of his ring, “my husband is though.”

“Y- Your what?”

“My husband.”

“So you are gay?”

“Ma'am, please don't get him started,” Hen begged. “He will not shut up once he gets going.”

“There are actually some people that believe bisexuality doesn't exist,” Buck began, waving a finger to emphasize his point. The groans from the rest of the 118 didn't detour him. “It has been proven to cause mental health issues for people who identify as such, and in extreme cases-”

“Okay, okay,” Bobby interrupted, patting Buck's back a couple of times to get him to stop. “This lady is very clearly “in distress” and we should be focused on helping her.” He stared over at the woman, “If she'll let any of us.”

“Can't you call another team or something? One that isn't filled with minorities and heathens?”

“The 112?” Hen suggested.

Eddie shook his head. “All women crew today.” He looked down at the lady, “I'm guessing you wouldn't like that?”

“They're just not as capable as men,” she whined.

“143?” Chimney asked.

Buck stood back up. “With Captain Garcia?”

“No!” She yelled.

“217?” Eddie offered.

Buck perked up at that. He smiled at the lady on the ground. “You'd get to meet my husband!” he exclaimed. “He's working ground ops today. I could call him, give him a heads up?” He bent back down to the woman's level. “He is the gay one though.”

The woman groaned before pushing herself up and grabbing her purse, jerking away at Buck's attempt to help. “You know what? I'm just gonna take myself to the hospital,” she said as she started to hobble away.

“Say hello to Dr. Cohen for us,” Bobby said, sending her off with a wave. She let out one more angry yelp before getting into her car and slamming the door.

*****

Tommy had gotten home about an hour before Buck, already dressed in a white button down shirt tucked into black dress pants for dinner reservations they had that night.

When he heard the sounds of Buck's car door shutting, he headed to the front door and opened it, leaning against the doorway with his arms crossed over his chest.

“Hey you,” he said with a smile.

Buck smiled back, dropping his duffel the second he reached the porch. He immediately wrapped himself around Tommy, surprising him with a kiss that elicited a moan from him.

“I got to call you my husband at work today,” Buck explained between kisses as Tommy gripped his waist. He led Tommy backward into the house, kicking the door shut behind him. “Twice.”

Tommy breathed out a laugh, pulling back just enough to look into Buck's eyes. “This was your first shift back after our honeymoon,” he reminded him. “So you lasted, what, twelve hours into your workday before mentioning me?”

Buck shook his head. “It was our first call of the day,” he informed him. “More like two hours.”

Tommy hummed, running his hands up and down Buck's waist. “Your whole team owes me double then,” he said before pressing a gentle kiss to Buck's lips.

It was Buck's turn to pull back this time. “What are you talking about?”

“They were taking bets on how long it would take for you to mention you were married. I said it'd be less than twelve hours, and you'd mention it more than once. Wait-” He paused, then gave Buck's waist a squeeze, “did you mention bisexual erasure?”

Buck sighed, his shoulders slumping. “It's an important topic, Tommy!”

Tommy simply smiled. “I hit the jackpot, Babe.”

“You placed bets on me?” Buck asked with his eyebrows furrowed.

“Mhm,” Tommy replied. He shrugged. “I won like five hundred dollars.”

Buck's eyes darkened at that. In one quick motion, he turned them and shoved Tommy against the door, pawing at his shirt to get it untucked. “That's so hot,” he moaned, smashing his mouth against Tommy's in a sloppy kiss.

They never did make their dinner reservations.

[sudenlyanime]

Taigen’s love confession NEEDS to come before he finds out Mizu is a woman.

Listen. I have given this a lot of thought and the more I think about it, the more I’m sure. When looking at Mizu and Mikio’s marriage, we can see how Mikio was in to the idea of a strong woman only so far as he was still stronger than her. This is clear when Mikio insists that he wants to “see all of [mizu]” and insists that they spar; Mikio doesn’t unsheath his blade even though Mizu tell him not to hold back. He assumes he is stronger than her and when this is proven false, like the beta bitch he is, he bails.

But with Taigen it’s different. Mizu and Taigen’s relationship has been a power struggle from the start. Taigen wasn’t introduced to Mizu as a woman or a wife. Taigen has always seen Mizu as a swordsman first. And when the hostility between the two starts to cool, it is because of their mutual admiration of the other’s skill. Mizu’s strength and boldness are what win Taigen over in the first place.

We also see a very important juxtapose between when Mizu pins Mikio to the ground and when she pins Taigen to the ground. In the first instance, Mikio pushes Mizu off him and calls her a monster. He feels put off and emasculated by being overpowered. In the Mizu/Taigen scene, however, once Mizu has Taigen pinned, he stares, awestruck, into Mizu’s eyes and gets a raging hard on. Instead of feeling emasculated, Taigen get so aroused that he has a full blown bi awakening.

So we know that Taigen is different to Mikio in that he is attracted to Mizu BECAUSE she can kick his ass, not in spite of it. But Mizu has been burned before. Badly. So if Taigen were to confess his feelings and tell Mizu that her strength is what he adores most about her, she’d be like, “right, sure, heard that one before.” And that’s why Taigen needs to confess his feelings BEFORE he finds out what’s in Mizu’s pants.

In my daydreaming about a Migen love confession, I find myself reminded of this quote. How Mikio was like the exotic bird collector. He only liked the idea of Mizu knowing her way around a sword so long as at the end of the day, he can still put her back into the caged-in roll of the house wife.

Taigen is also guilty of this with Akemi. I sure there is still no small amount of attraction and love between them, but I think Taigen pursues Akemi mostly out of the personal fable he has written about himself; the poor fisherman’s son who raises himself up to be the star of his Dojo and then marries a princess. He might not have wanted to cage Akemi as much as other men would have, but he still sees her as the exotic bird. The prize. And thats why I can’t ship them.

But with Mizu it’s different. Taigen even admits that Mizu is a better fighter than him. He KNOWS he could never cage her and by the end on the first season he strops trying, opting to stand beside her instead of against her (“it’s your fight, so it’s mine” 😭) So when he does confess his feelings, he has to do is as one man to another and make it clear to Mizu that her strength is what he loves most and that he would never want her to be anything less then the superior swordsman she is.

Only then will Mizu have a chance of believing that Taigen wants to be with her, not to subdue her into a wifely role, but to stand beside her in all her greatness. If Taigen’s confession were to come after he finds out she’s a woman, Mizu might just think, “oh, NOW you want to be with me, cause you think just because I’m a woman I’ll eventually submit to you.” Mizu needs to know she is loved AS SHE IS.

Also, I just think it would be HILLARIOUS if Taigen confesses, and Mizu is like, “ well then….. I guess I should let you know…” and then Taigen spends the rest of the episode with his mind fucking BLOWN and complaining that he has spent the last several months coming to terms with the fact that he is attracted to another man only to find out the man he is attracted to is a woman! He goes through a whole bi awakening for nothing!

[ukeyyyo]

Some headcanons with Bi-Han (relationships)

A/N: This is my first time writing something like this.I was just bored at night, so don’t judge me, please 🫠

- He’s cold at first, it’s quite hard to earn his respect and love. It will for sure take you lots of time.

- But once he will realize your feelings…He will still doubt it. This feeling is kinda forbidden for him, so he won’t really know how to deal with it.

- That’s why he may start avoiding you, sometimes even be mad for you for no reason. Maybe for making him feel weak and vulnerable.

- To be honest, I can’t even imagine how he would confess his feelings. It’s really hard to think about that lol.

- But i think that it could happen this way : he would be annoyed (either for this feelings or someone might have tried to flirt with you and he was really jealous or both) and then when you two were alone he confessed his feelings out of anger lol.

- When you wanted to hear it again because you didn’t really believe it, he would probably say something like “what you heard.“

- I’m not sure if he would spend time on talking about all of this, since his clan and his duty are always the top priority for him.

- So I think that you two would only talk about it when you have a training or when you’re on a mission.

- Since he’s not familiar with all of these things, surely everything will go really slow. you have to be patient, really.

- But i’m sure that your patience will be worthy of it.

- Since he’s also traditional, first he will make sure to analyze your relationships and then think if you two could be a couple and if you’re worthy of being his consort.

- When he’s confident about his decision, he will propose to you. but not in a romantic way. You know how men in series randomly propose to their s/o, like “We should get married”?. So it would be like that, I guess. he would say something like “I’ve been thinking our relationship over.And I have made a decision that we should get married. Our clan needs an heir so I need a wife.”

- It wouldn’t have sounded good if you didn’t love him, but since you love him you’ll for sure accept it.

- Your wedding ceremony would be really traditional. And beautiful too.

- You know, I have another cute headcanon. Imagine they had maids in their palace and one of them was an old lady, who worked here before his mother died and their mother also loved this maid, because when Bi-Han’s parents just got married this old lady would always treat Bi-Han’s mother nicely and give advices. Plus, she also helped her to take care of her kids. So when Bi-Han’s mother got married she wore a kua headset. It was really beautiful and it was carefully stored. So the old lady offered Bi-Han to give it to you as a special gift.

- Bi-Han wasn’t sure if it was right at first, because it was his mothers and he thought that it should be kept where it was.However, then he thought that maybe his mother would be happy if her daughter-in-law wore her headset for such a special day.So after that he went to the room where you were preparing for the ceremony.And then he gifted this gorgeous headset to you: “This is my late mother’s headset that she wore for her wedding.The old lady offered me to give it to you.I think you should wear it.” And you would be like “Are you sure, Bi-Han?”. He would nod meaning that he agrees and you would be really happy: “Thanks, I will cherish it. It really is a special gift.”

- When you wore it…Bi-Han would for a second see his mother in you. His parents had a portrait from their wedding but it was put in a dusty box…Honestly if he wasn’t capable of holding and controlling his feelings, I think he would actually cry.

- I’m 100% sure that Bi-Han is mama’s boy. He had a special bond with his mother :(

[genderkoolaid]

I'm sorry but you people have demeaned the word lesbian so badly... the LITERAL definition of a lesbian is a NON-MAN who likes NON-MEN. How is that so fucking hard to understand? Not you specifically, but people like you have made it into something it's not; the whole "bi lesbian" and "straight lesbian" shit, saying trans men can date lesbians (which is literally just transphobic), straight up just saying lesbians can date men???? MEN???? DO YOU NOT HEAR YOURSELVES?

And now the whole butch discourse lmao. Sure, maybe in days long past it was a broader term, but today when someone hears the word butch, I can guarantee their minds will jump to a butch lesbian. If y'all want it to be the GBT community so bad then just say so

Also I can guarantee that you were one of the mfs laughing at lesbians who used he/him or he/they pronouns back in 2020 lmao performative ass bitch

Definitions of words do not descend from Heaven straight from the lips of God. We make them up! So I simply disagree with your definition of lesbian, as do many others. Personally, I enjoy the definition of "queer love/desire for women." For one, it centers lesbianism around women, instead of centering it around the exclusion of men. And two, "non-men loving non-men" is a definition which utterly erases nonbinary people. If an agender person is dating a neutrois person, they are not lesbians- or gay men- simply because y'all cannot get your head out of your binary asses for five seconds. "Non-men loving non-men" is a definition that attempts to be nonbinary-inclusive but only succeeds in making nonbinary & genderqueer identities palatable for radical feminism and political lesbianism. Honestly, I would prefer someone who defines lesbian as "woman loving woman" but understands that many people have complex relationships with womanhood while still feeling attached to the label of lesbian, than someone who uses this "NB-inclusive" definition and goes absolutely feral over genderqueers who are Doing It Wrong.

Anyways, speaking of radical feminism: acknowledging male lesbians and mspec lesbians is not "making lesbianism something its not." It is just recognizing the beautiful complexity that has always existed within lesbianism.

The lesbian community- which I'm using to refer to all kinds of communities organized around queer relationships to women & womanhood- has always been a haven for a lot more people than cis women exclusively into other cis women. The idea of sexuality-as-identity is very recent, and the idea of drawing a hard line between people who only like people of the same gender and people who like the same gender and more is also extremely recent. Beyond that, trans men and nonbinary people have always taken shelter under lesbianism. "Butch" in the context of lesbianism has always been a trans* identity, a way for people with a queer gender to find community and safety.

The reason why we have this idea of lesbianism as a strict category with hard borders is..... you guessed it..... radical feminism! And specifically "political lesbianism," which essentially placed woman-only relationships as the only true feminist relationship you could have. "Lesbian" became a political identity because of its focus on woman-woman relationships. But that meant that, for political lesbianism to be acceptable to radical feminism, it needed to conform to radical feminist beliefs about what makes a good feminist. Which meant:

No trans women or fems (because they are too male and probably predators)

No trans men or mascs (because they are too male and also traitors)

No bisexuals (because they are too male by association and are also traitors)

No penetrative sex, or at least no strap ons (because it imitates men)

No kinky sex (see above but with bonus "kink is evil" flavoring)

No butch/femme roles (because they imitate heterosexuality; everyone has to be neutrally androgynous).

I believe that much of modern lesbian discourse comes from trying to marry lingering radfem beliefs with modern attempts at trans-inclusivity. So you adapt the blatant transphobia: now, trans women are allowed in (as long as they are palatable to cis women), because they're women! And nonbinary people can also be allowed in- at first they were woman-aligned, and then later as long as they weren't man-aligned. Being butch/femme is Back In Style, but we have to soothe the gender anxiety that butches cause by assuring everyone that only True Lesbians can be butch, and butches are always women, even if they kind of aren't, but regardless they're definitely not men, because butch has always been a lesbian term (except it hasn't.) The discourse is haunted by the ideas that lesbianism is constantly under attack, more than anyone else, and that lesbian culture is unique and special and must be guarded from (male/-aligned) invaders who are probably also sexual predators.

To say that this is all just "days long pasts" ignores both that, in physical queer spaces there very much still are male lesbians and bi lesbians who are accepted parts of their local communities, and that you only see those days as "long past" because of the impact of radical feminism on lesbianism. The only reason you see these changes as a good thing is because you've swallowed radical feminist ideas without realizing it.

Also, "if you say butch most people will think of butch lesbians" is an extremely silly argument. Literally who fucking cares. If you say "man" there are still a lot of people who will immediately think of exclusively cis men (see: every feminist who says shit like "if men could get pregnant). Does that mean that trans men should just give up their identities because other people don't understand them? You dork?

Anyways. The funniest part of this ask is how damn confident you are that I was apparently hating on he/him lesbians three years ago. Idk how to tell you this but I'm a boygirl gaylesbianbisexual and have identified this way for years. I have been personally terrorized by shitty lesbian identity politics, the same ones you are repeating now, which told me that if I was even 1% male then identifying as a lesbian made me a disgusting predator. Which caused me years of suffering because no matter how hard I tried, I could not ignore my multigenderedness and how that affected my sexuality. Sowwy but you look silly as hell and your argument is bad and you should feel bad </3

[findafight]

On the one-sided harringrove post- I feel it becomes infinitely funnier with bi steve. He likes men, just not Billy. Never Billy.

Oh yeah. When Billy fiiiirst comes to school with his music blaring Steve is head over heels for Nancy, so he might register that the guy with the Camaro and loud music has a good ass, but then billy opens his mouth and Steve is like "oh, no ass can make up for that personality." And continues with his life.

Just. Okay I like to project just a liiiiittle on Steve with him just. Not realizing his attraction to men isn't a straight thing. Like. Of course all straight people feel that way, you just kinda ignore it or don't do anything about it. So Steve is half way between being comfortable in his sexuality and being closeted to himself because buddy used Hawkeye Pierce as the blueprint of straightness.

So Billy is out here, wallowing in self hatred and internalized homophobia, hating Steve and wanting Steve and hating that he wants Steve and wishing Steve would pay attention to him enough for a hate fuck he can cry about later, and it's all very angsty. All the while Steve is just actually completely fine with thinking a dude is hot he's just got standards that include "not racist" "doesn't try to beat up kids" "hasn't made me blackout from head trauma"

Wait. Oh no. I feel an au coming on. Shit. Au where post S2 Robin hears piano coming from the band room after hours and is her curious self going "I must see who is this mysterious genius" and it's Steve. They get to talking and hanging out and all of a sudden Robin thinks they are actually good friends. Best friends. Somehow.

Cue them going to a band party together. Someone spikes their drinks with waayyyy more than they were expecting so they are blasted. Robin has to go pee but does not want to go alone so she drags Steve into the bathroom with her and makes him face away. He's like haha Woah you really had to pee. And she goes shut upppp and washes her hands but sits across from him. Steve smiles at her and gives her his speech about how amazing she is and how glad he is to be her friend (it is like March '85 so he is still not ready to get back out into dating yet). Robin tells him about Tammy. They sing. Someone slams the door open and kicks them out of the bathroom because there's a fuckin line.

They lay on the grass outside and look at the sky. Steve like. Caaaaasually mentions once having thought he was gonna marry Tommy when he was six and then realizing you just didn't do anything about those feelings and Robin's gotta shoot up going WHAT!! WHAAAT? Because it sounded like Steve coming out to her? Right after?? She came out to him??

And Steve is like yeah. Like you don't really have to? Easier to ignore it and flirt with girls who I like or think are hot. And poor Robin's brain is melting she's like please Steve I'm really drunk are you telling me you sometimes want to kiss boys? And he's like yes, obviously, everyone does. Just like everyone also wants to sometimes kiss girls. Except lesbians I guess who only want to kiss girls? And gay guys only want to kiss guy? Yeah that makes sense and straight people don't care but go for the opposite ya know?

Robin is like NO!! And calms down some and says "okay I'm telling you this because you are my friend and you just told me almost the same thing. Steve. I like girls and only like girls. That not a straight thing"

"yeah. You've said."

"but I am ninety nine percent positive that just because you like girls doesn't mean you're straight because you also like boys."

"what"

"yeah dude, I do not think this is a heterosexual experience you're describing. I'm not an expert but. Yeah.

"oh. Huh."

"yep."

"I definitely thought it was."

"your brain is so weird I'm still kind of obsessed with you."

"haha. Honestly I'm kind of obsessed with you. This is wild."

"well. At least I know you're stuck with me."

"ohhh nooooo whatever will I do with my best friend always around..."

ANYWAYS THE ACTUAL POINT OF THIS is not in fact the stobin. It's actually that

Sometime probably in may, when Steve is ready to be on the dating scene again, he gets with Eddie. Robin is happy for him but also so mad because he went from "probably shouldn't act gay even tho everyone feels a little gay sometimes" to "hey Robin what would you say if I said I got a boyfriend?" In less than two months. How does he have straight AND gay game. That's not fair.

Steddie getting together is a non event. Eddie is still like ewww sports and yet somehow he made out with Steve Harrington and the next day Steve asked if he wanted to get milkshakes and throw rocks into the quarry to see the splashes. Eddie must restrain himself from thinking it's a date because he knows it's not but it'd also be the perfect date (Eddie is a simple man)

At the end of the night steve kissed his cheek and says "I had a really great time..."

Eddie just blurted "hey do you want to be my boyfriend?"

To which Steve perks up like "yes! I'd like that!"

And Eddie didn't actually think he'd get that far so he was like "neat!! See you tomorrow!" before slamming the door in Steve's face.

So they're dating and Eddie disparages sports but Steve is like haha aw you don't like watching me play? Which is sooo mean to Eddie because obviously?? He likes?? Watching his boyfriend??? Run around in tiny shorts and sometimes shirtless?? He has to reevaluate some things he supposes.

All while this is happening Billy is still on his Greatest Homoerotic Rivals shtick with Steve. Eddie notices and is like to dude...what is with Billy? And Steve just sighs. Says Billy is weird and obsessed with him and glares all the time. It's a whole thing. Billy is pissed because what is Steve, his epic rival, doing hanging around some random band geek, his sister's bitchass friends, and maybe the local dealer.

Alright. Grad happens. Yay Steve! Poor Eddie. They go to some party , hang out with people, sell some drugs, etc. Billy is unfortunately also at this party, and is like. Lazer eyes boring into Steve's back. Very annoying. At some point, he sees Steve slip away and is like this is my chance so he follows him.

Howmever he comes across Steve, his epic and totally heterosexual rival, making out with Eddie the freak Munson.

And listen this is a scary thing to be caught inna town like Hawkins, but that's not the point of this post.

So Billy goes "what the hell?"

They turn around. Billy is still spluttering.

"what are you-why would you-- with him?!" He says.

Steve raises his eyebrows, alllll cocky confidence. He smirks a bit. Drawls. "Well, yeah. I like cock, billy. Just not yours."

Because the point of this post is that Steve is a bitch.

Thank you.

[vinziel]

I guess I'm BI then?

John Dory x FTM reader

A/N: For all my trans homies out there. You matter and you are valid. This will be in a diff universe from A Bitter Reunion.

You dated and married John Dory before you realized who you were and transitioned, when you came out to John Dory he supported you and still continued to date you, you even got surgeries to make you look like a man (You also may or may not have gotten surgery to get a dick also, which you may or may not have used to fuck John, considering you already used to peg him). Now John Dory never realized that you transitioning meant he was BI now considering he was married to a man, and he never gave it much though, he was just too busy loving you, now this all happened way before John Dory got back with his brothers, and when you did meet his brothers you never cared to bring up you were trans since it didn't really matter, they already thought you were a man anyways.

While you were out doing whatever, John Dory and his brothers were bonding, just chilling in Branch's bunker and they were on the topic of man loving man, since Floyd recently came out as gay to them, they were talking about their own personal preferences, Bruce saying "Oh I've dated men, way before I met Brandy, so I'm into men and women" Clay said "I've never really dated, I'm not sure if I want to yet or if I'll ever want to" Branch then says "Well I've only ever dated Poppy, I haven't tried dating men before" John Dory then said "Same" after John Dory said that everyone turned their heads to him "Aren't you married to a man?" Clay asked "Well yeah I am, he's trans, we dated and got married before he knew who he was" "Doesn't that mean you're bi? And HAVE dated a man before?" Clay continued, John Dory thought for a second and said "Oooh, makes sense. I never really gave it much thought" The brothers stare in disbelief for a second before continuing on with talking

After that whole ordeal once you returned back to Rohnda, John Dory began talking to you about his time with his brothers, and you were just listening, looking at him like a lovestrucked teenager, then John Dory mentions "And I just now realized that I'm Bi, since you transitioned" You then snapped out of it and blinked "What? You mean to tell me after almost 7 years since I transitioned you never once thought about the fact you were married to a man now?" You asked in disbeliefed, John Dory then laughed, saying "I guess I was too busy loving you" You laugh as well responding "That's sweet" You two then share a kiss "You're a bit of a moron huh?" You teased, grinning "I am yes, but hey I'm your moron" John Dory says smirking, you laugh "I guess that's true" You respond, giving John Dory another kiss which he reciprocated. Ending the day on a positive note.

A/N: PLEASE tell me if anything I wrote in this fic is offensive in any way to trans people. I will gladly change it. I'm not too aware on what's offensive to trans people and for that I apologize in advance

[scribble-brain-aced]

for pride month, i have:

a list of how the hazbin hotel had their gay awakening. (or lesbian, or bi, or trans, or aroace, pan, etc)

Charlie: she watched Sleeping Beauty, the year after it came out. she looked at Snow White and thought “wow, she’s so pretty.. but also Price Florian.. wait.” because this was in 1938, she didn’t know what bisexuality was, but she knew and accepted her feelings, because it wasn’t a big deal to her. in the 1970s, she found the label for it— bisexuality— and thought “OH THERE’S A NAME FOR THIS, YAY!” and that was that.

Vaggie: when she was still alive, in 2010, a friend sent her a photo of a genderbent character from some TV show, and her first thought was “oh, okay, i see why everyone’s in love with them now. …wait.” she spent the next 20 minutes looking up female versions of characters and realizing “oh. OH THAT EXPLAINS SO MUCH” (based on my own story)

Angel: honestly, he can’t really say. he just kinda knew from the beginning that men were just hot, and he’d marry a guy if he could. molly just assumed he meant “yeah, men are just better than women” and went along with it, even though she personally thought both were radiantly beautiful. (she found out what pansexual meant in 1972.)

Husk: he has no idea. if asked, he just shrugs and goes “any hole is a goal, i couldn’t care less.” at one point, Angel just shoved a poster at him, Husk read it and was like “oh. i guess that’s me.” pretty chill reaction, just continued his normal day, but kept thinking “okay, wow, that’s ME.”

Sir Pentious: he just thought all people liked both men and women, but because of societal rules and whatever, they had to wait until they had a crush on the opposite gender. ..what do you mean thats not what being straight is. (he only found out what bisexuality was after he came to the Hotel and Charlie had a bi flag pin. he asked her what country that was, and she had to sit him down to explain the concept of LGBTQ+, and no, it is ABSOLUTELY NOT a mental illness, wtf, you’re fine, buddy, go be happy.)

Alastor: post-season 1, like three people separately wished him a happy asexual awareness week and he was so confused, he asked Angel to look up ‘a sexual’ on his phone because he couldn’t find anything at the library. (he was looking at the outdated library in cannibal town.) he read the definition, and locked himself in his room for the rest of the day. if anybody heard muffled screaming and somehow-happy-sounding swearing, nobody mentioned it.

Vox: pfft, what? no, he’s not gay! he’s perfectly straight! is it gay to say that men are just as good at women? …Val, what do you MEAN ‘no but yes’? (Valentino explained the entire history of LGBTQ+, stressing bisexuality. Vox just said “okay, okay, hear me out.. there’s a whole month for them, right? their whole thing is rainbows? what if we paint all of our logos rainbow-colored? they’d buy it!” Valentino gave up, because Vox just COULD NOT comprehend what he was trying to say. but he keeps sending bisexual memes to Vox.)

Valentino: he just always knew. come on, everyone’s hot, unless they aren’t. even better if they can be exploited. that’s all there is to it.

Velvette: pfft, she grew up with social media, she’s known about this shit since she was a kid. fuck love, fuck fucking, she’d rather pester Vox into making cheesy garlic bread. the guy’s a bitch, but he makes good cheesy garlic bread.

Baxter: back before he and sir pentious became bitter enemies, they were both talking about.. whatever. at one point, they got on the topic of clothing, and Baxter— then Bella— griped that he hated how dresses felt. too heavy, too annoying, and it made him feel sick, anyway. suits were just better, not just because they’re lighter. man, he wished he were a boy. pentious asked if he wanted to be a boy in general, not just for the suits, and after a moment, Baxter excused himself quickly to go find something in his library, shooing Pentious out of the house. a couple days later, he came out, transitioned, all that. the only reason he doesn’t cut off his light-lure thingy is because it’s useful. other than that, he avoids looking at it as much as possible.

[nemaria]

you put in the tags in touchstarved that the fic was full of unpopular opinions, but I didn't really notice anything? so I was just curious what parts in particular you were thinking of as unpopular!

Thank you for the ask and sorry for the delay! I've debated whether or not to post this tbh, but personally I get so excited when I see other people post about their unpopular headcanons that I share - I figure if even one person feels the same about this post it'll be worth the risk!

So here are the ones I included in Touchstarved that I can recall:

Characterizing Mu Qing as...softer, I guess? Especially in dialogue.

I think a lot of the perception of him being an asshole comes from us seeing him through XL's perspective, since XL is still kind of pissed with him for most of the story. But if you look at what MQ actually says in the books, there are fewer sharp lines than you'd think, and in general he's more sassy than bitchy, imo!

Hua Cheng growing to genuinely like/care about FXMQ outside of respecting XL's affection for them (however reluctantly)

Mu Qing being a night owl who prefers to stay up late and sleep in late if he can, and Feng Xin preferring going to bed early and getting up early

Mu Qing not being interested in jewelry (though I love the idea of him wearing a matching earring once they are married 🥺)

Mu Qing being older than Feng Xin (if only by a month)

Fengqing going hard on the PDA after they get together

And finally, likely the most controversial one:

Feng Xin not being attracted to women

If you know me, you know I absolutely love a good bi headcanon (I'm bi myself!), but when it comes to Feng Xin...I just can't see it lol. The entire time I was reading TGCF (before I even really shipped FQ!) I was so convinced he only liked men that the Cuocuo reveal almost made me spit out my drink.

I do think he did love Jian Lan a lot!! But I feel like he was going through some serious comphet and didn't realize that it was more platonic than he assumed at the time until much later.

In Touchstarved he's definitely demi also, which certainly didn't help him figure things out any faster. But I think that's somewhat more common of a headcanon!

( obligatory disclaimer: absolutely nothing against any headcanons that contradict any of this! this is just how I write them, that's all. pls be kind! )

[jentasticart]

ok but I'm actually starting to get pissed off and annoyed with this weird family dynamic stuff they're doing in mk1 just to try to stop the gay ships that's been around for a while now.

like subscorp (Kuai x Hanzo), bitomas, subsmoke (Kuai x Tomas. I'm not too much of a fan of this ship but I'll mention it anyway) and shaoko, idk if there's anything else but lmk if I missed anything I guess.

but Imma mainly talk about my main ship here; bitomas.

I would like to add that I'm not a proshipper in any way cus fuck that shit. so don't frame me as one.

this is the only recent game where they're both in it together but they make them step bros yet I've seen people make mk1 subscorp and no one is really complaining about it and it gets a bunch of likes, which is WORSE than mk1 bitomas because it's ACTUAL incest. mk1 bitomas isn't incest, they're not related to each other in any way. they're not even the same race.

but yk what's not fucking fair? THAT THE SUBSMOKE SHIP IS MORE ACCEPTED THAN BITOMAS THAT THE ACTUAL VOICE ACTORS SHIP IT FFS

BI FUCKING DISMISSES IT, HE DOESN'T SEE HIM AS A DAMN BROTHER

BUT IN SUBSMOKE THEY ACTUALLY DO ADDRESS EACH OTHER AS BROTHERS, HOW CAN ONE BE ACCEPTED MORE THAN THE OTHER WHEN IT'S THE SAME DAMN THING

this is literally how I'm feeling rn about this

two people who ARE NOT related to each other in any damn way is NOT incest, doesn't matter if they grew up together or not.

so if two people were dating before and their parents got together and married, then those two people shouldn't be together anymore cus they would be step siblings? that's fucking stupid and you guys know it.

in a way they're doing the stupid thing like how some people think liulao is, yk the whole "they're cousins/brothers" but they're not, it was confirmed they're not but people don't wanna do their damn research.

all nrs cares about is the straight pairings and lesbian ones cus they don't get as much backlash as two men being together.

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so I got a little hc/story for y'all:

sometime after the brothers' dad takes Tomas in, Tomas falls for Bi and his whole idolization for Bi is a coverup to try to hide his crush on him from Bi and Kuai. yes he gets close with Kuai as in best friends but he feels this is something he should keep to himself for now.

Bi wasn't actually always mean to Tomas, at some points he might have been cold to him sometimes but that's just Bi, just cus he was cold to him, doesn't mean he didn't care for him.

but then at some point Bi-Han fell for Tomas, probably starting in his teen years, but since he didn't know how to express it or deal with it, he acts how he acts towards him like how he does in mk1. it's because he never felt this way before towards anyone, let alone a guy. so he pretty much acts kinda like a tsundere in a way. keep in mind, even before this, Bi still didn't see Tomas as his brother and Tomas obviously didn't see him that way either cus of his crush on him.

all those years their feelings for each other got stronger and stronger, which made Bi more cold to Tomas, which was the time he told him that line in that one scene in mk1 about him not being brothers or Lin Kuei.

but after the betrayal of Bi-Han, while Kuai and Tomas were making the Shirai Ryu, Tomas snuck back to the Lin Kuei at night to see Bi-Han.

they fought because Bi started it, he did think Tomas was there to kill him or was there for some revenge but all Tomas wanted to do was talk. after the fight, Tomas managed to get Bi to stop.

they talked for awhile, Tomas asking the question as to why Bi-Han did all of this in the first place, why he was cold to him, why he got so much colder after all the years. Bi was hesitant to tell him, especially now since he thinks its too late to let him know the truth, he probably ruined all chances he had with him now.

but he did tell him anyway, he told him the truth, everything. from the very beginning to now. Tomas wasn't expecting this, he didn't think Bi felt the same way towards him but was he really telling the truth about the other stuff?

Bi-Han backed away after he told him, he understood that he might not believe his words anymore. Tomas stayed silent on Bi's bed, thinking, before he spoke and told him that he should tell Kuai this truth even if Kuai might not believe it.

he paused for a moment before he spoke, agreeing with Tomas. he then called him to Bi's bed, Bi was hesitant because he wasn't sure of it, he didn't know if he should.

after a few minutes, Bi joined him in bed and Tomas held him, confessing his love to him too, even after everything, he still has the same love for him like the first time he fell for him.

they wind up being together in secret for months as Tomas helped Kuai with the clan. during that time, Bi did told the truth to Kuai too and apologized for it. Kuai is a bit hesitant to forgive him right now but he will consider it. he will still work on his own clan as it still feels like the right thing to do.

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so ye if you don't like it, plz just block me, cus Imma ship them since others are shipping mk1 subsmoke with little problems, I'm starting to not care at this point because of it but I will put tags you can block in those posts to not see it

[gaydragontournament]

ROUND 1: PART 1

Propaganda under cut

Qibli

● Qibli is queer, due to the fact that he has a crush on a female dragon, Moonwatcher, and eventually becomes her Boyfriend, while also thinking that a male dragon, Winter, is “handsome” and looks “gorgeous”, even joking about marrying Winter one day within his own book. The author, Tui., also stated that the love triangle between Qibli, Moonwatcher, and Winter could go either way, implying that Qibli is Queer and/or could possibly be Bi, Pan, Poly, or Omni.

Dan Heng/Dan Feng

● (Former)High Elder of a race of Dragon people. Closely associated with another man, sharing a pair of telepathic bracers with him, commiting a grave sin with his help, dreaming of him, being described as once being closest to him, destined for reunion with him, and both having inverted colour palettes. The original Chinese text has a 'typo' that hasn't been fixed implying they were engaged, and mentions Dan Feng fantasising about this other man sweating mid battle. Theres also something about them doing stuff in a boat I think. Dan Heng only has faint memories of their past, but seems to care for these memories, even going so far as to pull the classic 'what did you do to him' after finding he was hurt. Another character claims he stares longingly at the spear made for him by this man. Even if their relationship went to complete hell the game is pretty clear about them being important to each other.

Also the CPR scene at the start of the game., wherein Dan Heng attempts to give the player chatacter CPR incorrectly. I guess he heard kiss of life and didn't question it? He also has a Fan Club and many men find him beautiful.

●About how he's a dragon:

Imbibitor Lunae is the title used by the Vidyadhara High Elder, successor of the Azure Dragon (Vidyadhara are long-life humanoid species with draconic features)

About why he's gay/gay-coded:

In his past life as Dan Feng he would often drink together with Yingxing (now known as Blade) under the moon and they even shared a pair of matching bracers made from flowing coral gold and the leather of unknown beasts. The bracers are told to share a telepathic connection and be able to feel each other's warmth. The two have also been depicted (in official artworks) wearing these bracers many times along with a matching pair of red earrings on opposite ears and matching teal jade clasps that have been said in game texts to be given between lovers to find in their next lives.

Currently, the two are enemies. Blade used to chase Dan Heng across spaceships and annihilate each one he boards on, and each time they fought Dan Heng would stab Blade with the Cloud Piercer to kill him knowing he cannot die.

Even though Dan Heng wants nothing to do with his past self (Dan Feng), he still carries items that are associated with Blade (Yingxing) on him, such as the bracer, Cloud Piercer (the weapon Blade made for him), and his jade pendant.

[ambrosiagourmet]

Okay, I'm trying to firm up some thoughts about heteronormativity for the world of dunmeshi. We don't see any explicit homophobia (afaik???), and it's a little hard to separate real life heteronormativity from the potential in-universe kind, BUT there are a lot of the markers of gender roles and prejudices that often come with this stuff, and I want to dissect some of them.

DISCLAIMER I am painting with a broad brush here just to summarize what I've observed/what we know. Obviously all these races/cultures are going to have a variety of different subcultures within them and opinions/norms/laws/etc can vary a lot. No group is a monolith etc etc but this is a high level look at stuff.

Also I'd prefer people only reblog this if they are participating in the convo/adding something. This is for my reference and I'd rather it not spread much, at the moment. Thanks for understanding!

So... Laios and Falin had arranged marriages to a girl and boy, respectively, along with there being a slew of other prejudices they grew up around, so that's a glimpse into the tall-men culture in the northern continent.

There are a lot of different cultures in the archipelago but at very least the Nakamoto clan currently works in what looks like a patriarchal structure, though all of Shuro's siblings are male so I guess we don't technically know if women can inherit? Hien kind of assumes that she and Shuro might end up romantically involved in a sort of "well that's how it works" way which is fairly heteronormative so I think its fair to say that on a baseline level that assumption is present there.

Since Otta is judged more for dating short-life races than for dating women, it seems like maybe elven culture is more flexible. HOWEVER they are such a Power Structure TM and the noble houses care so fucking much about lineage and status that I have trouble believing that it's completely free of problems. Probably at least the nobility is expected to fit in heterosexual molds? Idk. They do look more androgenous and overall feminine than the other races, so that could also contribute to more fluidity. Of note here also is that in addition to a canon lesbian in Otta, Lycion also is Extremely Transgender. Though also of note: these people are the criminals in the group. So.

I don't know that there's as much info to work off of for the gnomes, dwarves, and half-foot cultures.

Dwarves have very strong family ties, which COULD lean towards heteronormativity but doesn't necessarily have to. Some dwarven women in dwarven cultures let their facial hair grow out - it's not necessarily super common, but it's much more likely to happen there than in a place like the Island. I lean towards thinking that they are more flexible, and maybe it varies from family to family how much there is an expectation of heterosexuality. Like the elves, they are more androgynous than most of the other races, AND one of our other major mostly canon queer characters (beloved bi Namari) is dwarven.

No idea about gnomes. The most prominent gnomes we see are the married Flokes and Holm. Holm's sister seems to have a bit of a thing for Kabru, so that's a couple of points towards Heterosexual Gnomes, but hardly anything definitive. They also live alongside dwarves so I imagine that if the dwarves are flexible they probably aren't significantly more strict about stuff. Also!! Kiki is the last of what I'd label the Mostly Canon queer characters, and she and Kaka were raised by gnomes! So that does seem to fit the "more overtly queer characters have ties to less heteronormative seeming cultures".

Again, no real idea about half-foot stuff. Chilchuck got married young and was a teen dad. Two of his kids seem very Interested In Men, the third gives big lesbian vibes. All of these things seem like they could be as much just orientation as anything socially enforced. I do think it's notable though that, while Flertem and Puckpatti are explicitly and loudly Into Men, Meijack is just quiet and gives off Vibes.

Ummmm yeah orcs (at least the ones we see) also have hierarchies based around polygyny so that's them.

YEAH that's most of what I can pull together currently? I'd love to hear other people's thoughts on interpreting all this, and if there are any lore details I missed!

Generally speaking I'm inclined to believe that heteronormativity exists as a baseline undercurrent in a lot of regions and cultures, and is more enforced in places that are either A) dominated by hierarchies (eg elven noble families) or B) insular and xenophobic in a variety of ways (eg Laios and Falin's hometown).

[motifenjoyer]

akane kurashiki is (not) allocishet: an analysis

[pt: akane kurashiki is (not) allocishet: an analysis. end pt].

okay so we’ve been meaning to write this for a while but havent bc we’ve been focusing on other projects. slight disclaimer if u dont agree w this hc thats fine, just dont be a dick just bc it interferes w ur own interpretation . we all have our own ways of reading the text so. Yeah!! lets get started

so i just wanna say akane is a character i resonate with in a lot of ways, and a lot of what im going to say comes from my and others’ experiences. ur identities and experiences r def gonna affect how u view a piece of work right? 

so when i played through the series in 2023, i initially viewed akane as everyone else did: she’s in love with junpei, and even hced her as bi like most of the fandom. but the more i studied the source material, the more i felt thats not rlly the case?? esp after ztd, like im sorry but i cannot buy the idea that both junpei or akane wanna marry each other. junpei is for another day but in terms of akane i wanna talk abt the idea that she may be aromantic. 

immersing myself in the fandom, a lot of ppl’s first impressions of akane’s june persona is that she was initially gonna be this ditzy girl next door who only serves as a love interest for junpei. ofc that ended up not being the case, but i see ppl say that they only rlly cared for akane after finding out she’s zero. which imo is such a missed opportunity for analysis.

as june, akane interacts with the world through tropes. the first thing she does when we’re introduced to her is fall on junpei. and overall is seen as this nervous girl who wouldn’t harm anyone. she flirts w junpei throughout the game, yadda yadda yadda. when it comes to her identity as zero, she desperately wants a perfect ending where she can be with junpei. its guesswork as to which aspects are true of akane, but i personally see these traits as smth she thinks “kanny” would do. 

[id: screenshot from 999’s script, black text on a white background that reads:

“Junpei: Well, I dunno. Anything. I mean, you're hiding it. How would I know?

June: You mean, like...the number of men I've dated?

Junpei's heart stumbled over itself.

June: Do you want to know?

He had to admit, he was a little curious.

June: Don't worry.

She smiled at him.

June: Only 18...

!?

June: ...Times 0.

June: Yeah... I guess I just haven't met Mr. Right yet…”

“Number of men” is highlighted in green. End id].

of course, bc of her tumultuous childhood and how she didn’t have many friends, she never rlly had experience w dating. but not much suggests she would beyond her own words.

[id: screenshot from 999’s script, black text on a white background that reads:

“Kanny: You...meant a lot to me...when we were kids...

Kanny: I've liked you...for a long time, Junpei... A really...long...time..”

“Liked” is highlighted in green. End id]. 

.

[id: screenshot from 999’s script, black text on a white background that reads:

“"Okay..."

My voice shook as I answered.

It was hot in the room. It felt like my heart was on fire.

6 minutes or not, my heart burned with my feelings for him.

…”

“burned” is highlighted in green. End id]. 

but actions speak louder than words, and she doesn’t go far beyond flirting and declarations of love. in ztd, she doesn’t even make these advances even when she’s trying to lighten the mood or make things right with junpei. the only time being when she speaks with carlos in the pantry. 

[id: a log of dialogue from zero time dilemma which reads: 

akane: if it was because of me somehow… then this time i need to rush to his aid. that’s what i’ve decided anyway.

carlos: you really like junpei, don’t you?

akane: wh-what in the world are you saying, carlos?! 

carlos: i’m out of my depth when it comes to romance.

end id].

[id: a log of dialogue from zero time dilemma which reads: 

carlos: did you bake heart-shaped cookies full of love for your darling junpei?

akane: oh carlos… would you please stop teasing me… 

june is meant to be seen as the ideal japanese woman, and since performance/identity is a huge part of her character, it wouldn’t be a stretch to say that she’s performing heterosexuality/amatonormativity, by extension femininity (but that’s an analysis for another day). 

akane is also slotted into the role of a mother figure for kyle just as sigma with the role of father. i can’t help but think of the scene in little shop of horrors (1986), audrey sings abt a stable and “ideal” middle class life. i remember watching it thinking it was odd, given that im aro and am not interested in settling down or emulating cishet middle class values. but my friend, who is poor just like audrey and akane, told me that it’s a common occurrence for poor ppl to think this way. to want a sense of stability even if it’s stereotypical. i feel like this applies to akane as well. i also hc her with bpd, and instability is a common symptom for us, so it makes sense for her to see junpei as a beacon of such, of normalcy. he’s rlly the only normal part of her childhood. she wants him to fix her lol . 

[id: screenshot from virtue’s last reward which reads: 

“i pleaded with her to leave, but she quietly shook her head. there was someone very special to her, she told me. he had saved her life once, and she felt her death would help to repay that favor.” end id].

and while we do see oldkane/vlrkane reminisce abt her life w junpei thru kyle, the passcode being jumpydolls, i feel like thats less abt love and more abt the fact that shes lonely, which a lot of ppl mistake that like. love can fix that.. when it rlly cant. not to mention what i said earlier

akane and junpei rarely make physical contact beyond junpei holding her in his arms and hugging. you can of course be a couple and not be that physically affectionate, but junpei is the only one initiating this. also like?? not even an “i love you” when you haven’t seen each other in nine years???????

[id: cg from nine hours nine persons nine doors. junpei holds akane’s shoulder with a worried expression. Akane has her eyes closed. End id].

[id: screenshot of zero time dilemma. junpei hugs akane near the basketball court in the lounge. akane wears a wedding ring on her right hand. end id].

[id: screenshot from zero time dilemma. junpei holds a ring in his right hand. white text on the bottom reads, “well, remember back in elementary school your dream was to wear a ring?” end id].

this is actually a common experience for aros who dont realize aromanticism is even an option. i remember when i was a kid, i’d have daydreams of getting married and dating ppl but when the opportunity actually came, i was uncomfortable and rejected it. 

i feel like junpei’s proposal and akane’s acceptance were reckless of both of them, and probably not even signs of true feelings. junpei’s arc is abt regaining agency, and akane’s is abt control (hashtag cinematic parallels), so it makes sense this would happen. both wish they could return to their childhoods, hence their emotionally immature attitudes + tendency to reminisce abt the past (junpei is counterphobic to this though and eventually gets over it in vlr’s timeline, though akane continues to act this way going forward). poor decision making is a sign of trauma after all. 

i mentioned how akane (and junpei but again. Another story for another day) subverts gendered expectations w her personality. aro ppl (as well as lesbians if u wanna go for a lesbian akane reading) tend to feel disconnected from their agab bc yk we arent straight and like a cishet woman liking a man is a sign of womanhood according to Society............ so like what if ur a girl who likes girls? or doesnt like anyone??? what does that make u??? (again, this could either be a trans reading or a lesbian reading)

anyway my point is. i think its more interesting to read akane’s interest in junpei as her wanting stability and a normal life, esp given that she is traumatized and was once poor. i feel like fluffy junepei fanworks make their dynamic very one-note and lack what makes their dynamic intriguing. but hey!! thats just my opinion as an aro person and how i prefer to interpret it 

[phoenixexho]

9-1-1 Fic WIP

Lena laughed, “Maybe you’re just gay.”

“Ha ha. But I’m being serious here. I don’t know what my issue is. I mean she’s the perfect woman for me.” He dodge out of the way of one of her incoming punches.

“I never met her but she’s fucking gorgeous. Like insanely so. You lost big time.”

“Gee thanks, you really know how to make a guy feel better.” He landed a particularly hard kick to her side knocking her balance for a moment. “Yeah, she’s pretty.” He said, stepping back out of her space. “Her and Chris got along so well, I feel bad for taking her away from him.”

“You feel bad about your son not being able to see your ex? Not about the breakup?”

“Ugh I don’t know Lena.”

She raised an eyebrow.

“I do feel bad about the breakup. I miss her, but I was having panic attacks. Like every time I thought about a future with her I just…”

He shook his head, squaring back up. Lena hesitantly matched his stance, she probably wanted to stop and have this conversation. But that was one thing he loved about Lena, she wasn’t the touchy feely type, if he didn’t want to talk about feelings with her, he didn’t have to.

“Maybe I’m just not over Shannon. Being with Ana didn’t ever feel as comfortable as being with her. I don’t expect all my relationships to feel the same, I’m pretty sure it’s normal for them not to but that would sort of make sense.”

Lena scoffed, “What do you mean you're ‘pretty sure that’s normal’?” her tone lightheartedly mocking.

“Ana was only my second girlfriend” He admitted, suddenly a bit embarrassed.

“Shit, dude. You married your first girlfriend ever?” She sounded shocked.

He shrugged, “I got her pregnant. Not like I had much of a choice.”

“So you didn’t want to marry her?”

“I- I probably wouldn’t’ve married her if she didn’t get pregnant, no. But I loved her. I loved her a lot. And I think she might have been the only one I ever could marry. I don’t know that I’ll ever find someone I feel that comfortable around again.”

“Marriage isn’t about comfort, it’s about love.”

“Yeah, but you can’t marry someone you have panic attacks over a future with either. There’s gotta be comfort too.”

“Usually comfort comes with love.”

“Yeah. Well I don’t think I loved her either if I’m honest with myself.”

Lena didn’t say anything.

Eddie sighed, “Look, I don’t understand it so don’t expect an explanation. But I just kept waiting for the feelings to come and they never did. I mean, she’s everything I’ve been looking for, she’s so good with Chris and yet I never felt a thing for her.”

“Why’d you ask her out then?”

“I just said? She’s everything I’ve been looking for and she was interested in me. Why wouldn’t I have?”

He couldn't quite read Lena’s expression, something akin to pity in her eyes, “Why’d you ask Shannon out?”

He cocked his head at her, “Uhh I didn’t. She asked me out. We were best friends. I loved her before we even went on our first date. Not really something I can re-create. I know love takes time, it did with Shannon, that time just passed before we dated.”

“Sure, yeah. Why didn’t you ask her out then?”

He shrugged, “Never thought about it. I didn’t really put my feelings into context until she asked I guess.”

“You don’t have to question your feelings like that when you actually have a crush on someone.”

“Lena, what are you trying to say? I loved her. I have never doubted that for a second. I loved being married to her.”

“The marriage you spent running away because you didn’t want it?”

“I was a kid, I wasn’t ready, and I lost her by the time I finally was ready.”

“And I am sorry for that. But…god please don’t kill me for saying this. Are you sure your love for her was romantic?”

“Lena, she was my wife.”

“That’s not an answer.”

“It should be!”

“Look, Eddie, I’m trying to help. So just like, hear me out a second. For a long time I thought I liked men, I came out as bi before I realized I’m a lesbian. Society has these expectations of us. Especially for women, but knowing the bit I do about the way you grew up, you can probably relate more than a majority of men. We’re expected to fit inside this box, we grow up hearing what our relationships are supposed to look like and it gets hard to separate what you’re ‘supposed’ to want from what you actually want. But when I really sat down to think about it, I just liked the idea of being with a man, the way it made me seem ‘normal’ to an outsider. It wasn’t an easy realization but I am so much happier now that I’m not trying to be something I’m not.”

“Lena...”

“I’m not saying I know better than you do. I just want you to consider it.”

“I’m not- I thought you were joking?”

“I was, but then you started talking and it sounded familiar.”

“Well you’re wrong.”

“Okay.” She didn’t look like she believed him but dropped it anyway.

[fantasiacafecat]

I noticed I didn't post any LGBTQ+ stuff or any Skyrim modded Follower content in more than a week. So why not make both right now?

Lgbtq+ headcanons with the Dovahkrew

These are Sexuality and romantic orientations not gender orientation headcanons. Sorry. These are also MY headcanons so if they don't match up with your headcanons it's not personal so please don't get mad at me. I am curious to see your headcanons as well though.

Inigo- Heteroflexible. He is most definitely interested in women and I always head canon that after the events of Skyrim he does settle down with the woman of his dreams who just happens to own a sweet roll shop. But I also feel like he would definitely point out a man's beauty. He seems like a very comfortable in his Sexuality kind of guy.

Lucien- Questioning Asexual Biromantic. He seems more interested in knowledge and learning other things than a relationship. And if someone did ask about his orientations then I feel like he wouldn't be able to answer that because he doesn't really try to experiment with romance of any kind.

Kaidan- Bisexual with maybe a fem preference (including feminine or men). I also see him as Pansexual because honestly I don't think he really cares about what gender his lover is.

Auri- Sapphic or Lesbian. I mean her creator basically made it Canon that she Prefers women.

Rumarin- Panflux 100%. Gender doesn't get in the way when it comes to any type of attraction to one another.

Vilja- I really only know her from a video of Inigo dialogue they have together. If I had to make a guess I would say she's straight or Pan, but I'm leading more into Straight.

Sofia- Bi with a big male preference.

Hoth- I really wish there were more videos and content on his commentary in Skyrim because I don't have him, but I'm interested him so much that I'd love to know more about his character. I feel like he doesn't use labels and gender isn't that much of an issue when it comes to love.

Taliesin- Pansexual. I mean come on its THE Talisman.

Gore (aka bby girl)- Questioning Omnisexual. It just feels right to me

Caryalind- I can't remember if rabbit said his sexuality was Demiromantic Asexual. I know he is Ace (or at least on the Ace spectrum) but I can't remember is they anything about being demi. I think he's Demiromantic.

Lucifer- Polysexual but I feel like he does have a male preference though I could be very very wrong. It's so funny because I play with him a lot on Skyrim but barely know anything about him. He holds grudges, he's very secretive (good on him because i would be too if i was in his situation), and he loves argonians. He seems to look up to Xelzaz and Inigo (and in some sense he does seem to be very enthusiastic when first meeting Nebarra until he realizes he doesnt like his personality) a lot which is what fueled my belief that he's maybe Achillean (Sapphic but for masculine terms instead of feminine).

Nebarra- I 100% believe that he refuses to use any labels. I think he might lean toward women a bit more, but that would only be because of how altmer are only raised to make the perfect child, so opposite sex relationships are probably the most common in the Summerset Isles. His fixation with Niranye and past relationship with Camia shows that. He doesn't seem Asexual because he doesn't hide the fact that he does enjoy the idea of doing the naughty naughty. His commentary on Dibella, Dibella Sybil quest, in the Night to Remember he says how he hopes we got to experience the Dibellan arts, and how he jokes about being Lucifer's father just prove that.

Xelzaz- Don't get mad at me, but I think he's straight. He says when hes ready he's like to marry a female argonian, and the only other time he's fallen I love was with another girl. I don't think he's asexual, but I think he definitely isn't very interested in it though we wouldn't really know because he seems very adamant on wanting to keep that part of his life private (as he should I love a king that doesn't feel like he has to tell us his sexual life).

Remiel- Asexual Panromantic. It was already proved Canon that she's Asexual. I had the conversation with her where she tells is she doesn't feel sexual feelings towards someone as she does with romantic feelings (also good on her. Not every relationship needs to have sexual desire in them). She's fallen in love with boys before and didn't seem too mad about being arranged to another man so I don't want to label her as Sapphic. And she does fall in love with you regardless of gender and I haven't seen anything that says she has a preference from the creator so I believe she's panromantic.

Secunda- I really don't know her that much yet as I'm still playing with her. First impressions is telling me panflux though I could be wrong though.

Extra!

Serana- Without the SDA. She always gave me Asexual Biromantic vibes.

Teldryn Sero- Haven't started A serious Teldryn mod yet so I don't know too too much about his personal preferences, but he seems like the type who doesn't really use labels. Though I'm positive he is Bisexual.

Karina- Panromantic Demisexual. It was confirmed by the one who made her @jewelthejaguar742

Arstul- Asexual Omniromantic with a male preference. Talked with @joonjii about it and it's confirmed. However, they also said he could be panromantic with a male preference too but they said my opinion was valid and technically right.

I might post sexuality headcanons for all my dragonborn and follower ocs

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So Close Yet So Far - Mingyu x Reader - Chapter 17 - Red Means Failure

Synopsis: Your college friend, Kim Mingyu, has had a grip on your heart since the first day you met. Over the past few years, as you acquired more friendships and memories, those feelings only grew. However, recently, Mingyu has seemed a bit more distant, at least when it comes to any ideas of romance. It only gets worse when rumors fly that he's off to Japan to receive a marriage proposal! Unsure what to do, you wonder how you can keep Mingyu by your side without jeopardizing your friendship or your growing feelings. You never expected that waking up one drunken morning next to two hot angels would be your ticket into Mingyu's heart.

Genre: Romance, College!AU, Modern Fantasy, Comedy, Angsty

Length: approx. 6k words

Chapter 17 - Red Means Failure

"There has to be something we can do," Minnie said.

"Like what?" Hoshi asked. Kicking one leg over the other, his sharp eyes scanned the people sitting around your apartment. "We can't do anything."

"We can't let him just get married to her," Minnie said. "She fucked over and tricked all of us. That bi-."

"Hey. Name-calling won't solve anything." Seungkwan called out, and Minnie scowled a bit, the curse word sitting half-uttered behind her lips. He turned towards the two men sitting on the couch. "I think they're somehow taking it the hardest."

"What did she say to you that has you in such a state of shock?" Hoshi asked curiously.

Joshua looked over at the three individuals at the table. His eyes fell over to Jihoon, standing over the coffee machine. His back was turned, hands on his hips as he watched the coffee brew. "She said Mingyu and Mina are getting married by Christmas." He looked at Jeonghan, who seemed just as frazzled about everything as he did. He leaned back, pressing a finger against his lip as he chewed on the nail.

Jeonghan and Joshua had gotten you into your bed in hopes that sleep would calm you down. As you settled into bed, the comfort of the blankets made your body relax. Jeonghan and Joshua watched your eyes close, burying into your pillow. The silence was their cue to leave you be, for now, slowly making their way out of the room. Just as they were about to open the door, you commented:

"Mina heard me the night I told Joshua I loved him, thinking it was Mingyu." Joshua gripped the doorknob, both of them turning to face you. You sat up in bed once again, the blanket your soft shield as it wrapped around your shoulders.

"She heard?" Jeonghan asked softly. You nodded, and Joshua rested his shoulder against the door. Guilt caused him unable to look at you as you spoke, the door acting as support for his body.

"I guess so..." you said softly. "And Mingyu believes her. Even when I said that it wasn't true."

Jeonghan smiled. "He'll come to his senses. I think he's going through a lot, right?" You nodded.

"...He might actually love her." You sniffled, shaking your head. "How could I have missed it?" Joshua watched as Jeonghan walked back over to you, gently laying you back down and fixing the blanket at your feet.

"Get some rest. We can figure it out tomorrow." As you were falling asleep, Jeonghan led Joshua out of the room.

Joshua had no idea how to explain this to the others, knowing it would lead to many other questions that he was in no way prepared to answer. He instead shook his head. "She didn't say anything else," he said simply.

Jihoon cut through the tension when he turned towards the group. "Coffee?" he asked. "I feel we all need something to wake ourselves up." Minnie, Seungkwan, and Hoshi lifted their hand in interest, each getting their own cup. He turned to the two on the couch. "What about you guys?"

"Yeah," Jeonghan called, and Joshua nodded. Jihoon walked over and passed them both cups. The steam bubbled up towards their faces, the sensation seemingly soothing their bodies, which were still tense. Their shoulders relaxed, and Joshua immediately put the cup to his lips.

"So, is Mingyu just going to marry her and that's it?" Minnie asked. "That can't be it. Not after everything."

"We can't even get in contact with him," Seungkwan said sadly. "This sucks..." Hoshi nodded in agreement, a pout on his face.

"We can't keep sleeping on this pull-out couch," Joshua said, looking at Jeonghan. "It hurts my back."

"...Wait what?" Minnie asked eyebrow arched at his comment.

Jihoon muttered under his breath: "Oh, for fucks sake." He put his hands on his hips. "Why are all of you the ones down in the dumps? Your friend is in that room crying herself to sleep. She's asleep now, but when she wakes up and remembers that none of this is a dream, she's going to need all of us to have ourselves pulled together!" The pep talk caused a smile to form on Hoshi's face, but he immediately hid it behind the cup of coffee. He watched as Woozi ran a hand through his hair as he turned back to Joshua and Jeonghan, who were still chatting about the pull-out couch. "You guys need to make this right. If you can't do that then maybe you deserve to be stuck here. On the pull-out couch."

Jeonghan looked up at the man standing before them. "We can't break up a marriage, Jihoon." Joshua pointed out. "That actively goes against everything we stand for."

"It does?" Minnie eyed her friends.

"Don't you flirt with her constantly?" Hoshi asked.

Seungkwan added: "Joshua don't you have like a mega crush on her?"

"Who said that?!" Joshua eyed Seungkwan who only offered him an unamused side eye, sipping his drink. "Yeesh...." Joshua turned his head, trying to ignore Jeonghan and Jihoon's stare.

Jihoon sighed. "First off, they're not married yet."

"They're engaged," Jeonghan said.

"I'm starting to understand more why you're stuck here in the first place." Joshua pointed out, cheeks still red. Jihoon scoffed.

Jihoon rubbed his temples to hold back a growing headache. "If you guys don't think you can do that, then allow me to take the lead."

"How?" Jeonghan asked.

"Better question: why?" Joshua added

Jihoon smiled a bit, his long black locks swaying a bit as they grazed his shoulders. "I actually kind of like the both of them." He said simply. "It would suck if he ends up in a miserable marriage."

The sound of you opening your door alerted everyone's attention. You stepped out, eyes still red and puffy from your tidal wave of tears previously. Your face was pale, and you resembled that of a corpse rather than a person.

"Why are you all staring at me?" you asked. Jihoon turned to you and smiled in a way that immediately comforted you.

"We all have to plan outfits for Mingyu's engagement party!"

You were silent for a moment, everyone's breath caught in their throat as they waited for you to respond. "You think I want to go?" You asked softly.

Woozi pursed his lips. "Do you?" He asked.

You looked down at your feet as you thought about the answer. Did you want to see Mina on Mingyu's arm all night, people fawning over their happy future as they remained all smiles? No.

However, you thought back to Mina's statement at the estate: I'm sure he would want you there...

I just want to be with you. Whatever that means, I'll do it.

Mingyu's promise made your heart tighten. You wanted to know if he really meant that now. "...Okay." You said, and Woozi grinned.

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As the group left the apartment, Hoshi found himself lagging. He watched as his friends chatted before him, Minnie and Seungkwan planning to head towards the bus station on their way home, seeming to plan to continue their hang out even after leaving. Among the planning, Hoshi looked to his right, seeing Jihoon put his hands in his pockets. He turned to Minnie, Hoshi, and Seungkwan, smiling. "I'll see you guys, okay?"

"You're not coming, Hyung?" Seungkwan asked. Jihoon shook his head.

"Not this time. Next time, I swear." He looked at Hoshi for just a second, offering a quick wave before he headed down the opposite way. Hoshi's paces slowed, hands in his pockets as he studied Jihoon's back for a moment. A deep breath steadied his body, and he finally turned towards his friends, only to be shocked when they were staring back.

Hoshi's cheeks tinted pink as he scratched the back of his head. "I'm going to."

"Good luck, Hyung." Seungkwan grinned. Hoshi looked at his friends, only to see them motion towards Jihoon, who was heading further and further down the street. Hoshi nodded, turning on his heel and heading towards Jihoon, his pace quickening a bit as they reached the corner.

"Wo-uh." Hoshi stopped himself when Woozi turned in his direction. He looked shocked to hear his name called. "Woozi..." he finally muttered out. He motioned to the street. "Can I walk this way with you?"

"Sure. I can't stop you." Woozi said. Hoshi quickly caught up, the duo standing at the corner as they waited for the light to change from red to green. Hoshi watched the people on the other side of the street. In hopes of hiding his hands, he kept them in tight balls in his pockets. Woozi looked over. "Where are you heading?"

Hoshi shrugged. "I need to run some errands..." he said, looking away. Woozi chuckled a bit, nodding his head.

"Right," he said. Hoshi looked over at him.

"Do you think it will work?" Hoshi asked. "Whatever it is you're going to plan?"

"It should," Woozi said simply. "Mina's one vindictive bone in her body is so weak it's the easiest to break. That's a good thing."

"You're saying we're going to break her bones?"

"No, Hoshi, come on." Woozi shook his head behind a laugh. An embarrassed smile tilted at the corners of his lips as Woozi continued. "All we need to do is show her how miserable her decision will leave Mingyu. That's what she cares about, she just needs to see it."

"What if she doesn't?" Hoshi asked. Woozi looked at him once again, and Hoshi caught glimpses of that same genuine empathy he had known years prior.

"I won't let that happen," he said. "Not to them."

"Mingyu and -."

"Any of them." Woozi quickly clarified. Hoshi felt his entire body relax, releasing a weight that he didn't know was tied to his shoulders.

Hoshi's amused smile dropped when his stomach rumbled. Coffee didn't seem to be enough to settle his stomach. He looked up at the sky as it began darkening, nighttime fast approaching. "Want to get something to eat?" he asked curiously. Woozi looked over at him. "I still know a lot of pretty good places in the area." The light soon turned green, and Hoshi motioned to him. "Come on."

Woozi stood back for a minute, studying the back of Hoshi's head. He put his hands in his pockets, watching as the taller male strolled across the street. His eyes looked up to the street sign, the green sign signaling that it was ok - it was safe - to simply 'GO'. He didn't know in what context that meant in the moment, so his feet were nervous to move ahead. "Come on!" He called again, making Woozi look up. Instinctively, he began moving his legs, at a quick enough pace to reach Hoshi's side. He watched as Hoshi scanned the area, trying to determine what the best place was. "I think there's a few good burger places nearby. Or should we get pizza?"

Woozi couldn't help but furrow his eyebrows together as he listened to Hoshi rattle off ideas. Not because he was trying to think of places, but because their last real conversation from the airport the week prior replayed in his mind.

I'll only talk to you for the sake of our friend group.

Hearing Hoshi go quiet, Woozi looked over, seeing he was waiting for his own suggestions. Woozi shrugged, nodding: "Burgers sound good."

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Woozi stared out the window of the burger joint, watching the world go by before him. He could hear Hoshi at the register, and he finally mustered the strength to turn and face him. Hoshi was digging in his pocket for his wallet, smiling sweetly at the young teen at the counter who was taking their order. He bit his lip, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms.

I'm regretting this. Woozi thought to himself. He looked over his shoulder again. Maybe I can go while he has his back turned and-. Woozi covered his face. No, bailing is what got you here in the first place, idiot.

"Are you okay?" Woozi looked up, seeing Hoshi settling across from him with a tray of food. He reached for his first, and Woozi hesitantly followed. "I haven't been here in a while. They have great french fries." Woozi watched Hoshi reach for one as he sang its praise, popping one into his mouth. His eyes curled into little crescents and a cat-like smile danced on his face. "Mhm. Still good."

Woozi simply gripped his drink. He was still the exact same, even now.

The duo ate in silence for a few short minutes, Hoshi enjoying his food and Woozi at a loss for what he could even say. He glanced up at Hoshi a few times but looked away when Hoshi threatened to meet his gaze. "Hyung," Hoshi said, and Woozi wanted to curl up and die. He looked over. "How is your uhm..." Hoshi looked around, scanning who was nearby before he finished his question. His arm reached behind him, patting his back. "You know. From the beach."

"Oh." Woozi felt his back throb where his wings lay dormant. "They don't hurt anymore."

"It looks like it hurt when everything happened."

"It did." Woozi bit his burger and covered his mouth. Hoshi set the fry he was about to eat back onto the tray. He leaned forward, studying Woozi.

"Are Shua-Hyung and Jeonghan-Hyung..."

"You know better than to ask me that." Woozi's eyes darted up to him, and Hoshi nodded, biting his lip. It was time to change the topic, and despite Woozi not wanting to open up an old can of worms, it would be easier than sitting within the topic of angels. "I thought you weren't talking to me. Why did you change your mind?"

Hoshi only deepened his frown, pressing his fingers together. "That wasn't nice of me to say..." he said, apologetic eyes staring across the table. Woozi inhaled, shaking his head.

"Nah. I wouldn't blame you." Woozi said simply. "I deserved it with how I handled everything."

"Why did you leave?" Hoshi asked. "I would have understood."

"You saw my wings turn black and start falling off. No sane human would understand."

Hoshi smiled. "You think I'm sane?"

The familiarity of Hoshi's playful comments made Woozi laugh a bit. "Either way, it's not easy to wake up after your wings burn your back and just go 'I fell for a human instead of trying to make a contract with him and just as I was about to confess my feelings was rejected by the same human, therefore damning me out of heaven for eternity and making a complete ass of myself." Hoshi pursed his lips together, the corners turning up a bit.

"You did a pretty good job just now." He said, and Woozi suppressed another laugh. "It was really overwhelming. I didn't know how to handle everything." When he saw Woozi nod, Hoshi only pulled another fry from his container. "But it hurt me more knowing you left, and then never even bothered to contact me again. I thought I did something wrong."

Woozi shook his head. "You didn't. I was the fool." He took a bite of one of his fries, allowing the momentary break of chewing it to keep his mind focused. "This is why I won't let this go to shit. I know what it feels like to fuck up, and I know what it's like to stare the one thing you need to fix it right in the face." Woozi crumpled up his wrapper, turning and tossing it in the nearby trash can. He looked at Hoshi one more time. "I'm sorry I didn't contact you again."

Hoshi's little smile eased some of Woozi's tension in his shoulders, and he allowed them to relax. "I'm sorry I caused you to fuck up everything with my natural charms and cuteness."

"Oh God." Woozi covered his face as he heard Hoshi begin laughing across from him.

"I always knew you were cute, Woozi-Hyung." He said. "Just look at your face."

"Please, stop," Woozi begged, but Hoshi only continued to laugh. Hidden behind his hands, Woozi was unable to control his amused smile. He had found himself tasting heaven once again.

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In the weeks leading up to the engagement party, Mingyu felt more alone than ever. His father and Mina splurged and surprised them with their apartment in the nicest part of Goyang, as it was a nice distance from the school and work while giving the duo some 'privacy'. Mingyu shivered when his father worded his gift like that. He was in the living room, staring up at the ceiling. He could hear Mina in the other room, muffled one-way conversation happening. He couldn't make out what she was saying, but he also could not care less. He knew it was something about their upcoming engagement party. August 27th was closer every day. It felt like a beast, a curse that got closer and closer to him with each day Mina cheerfully checked off the calendar. She had it hung up in the kitchen, and Mingyu was forced to see the date, which she put in a multiple of pink hearts, inch closer and closer every time he woke up.

He had not been able to talk to his friends if they would even want to speak to him after all of this. Mina assured him that they would show up to their party, but he had his doubts. How could they, after their unwavering support for him and you to succeed, smile in his direction with another girl on his arm?

How could he bear to even look at some of them? His mind immediately flashed to the photos Mina had of Joshua and you from the beach house. He could only imagine how the conversation went at the beach house. His fists clenched as the thoughts threatened to come back. An annoyed string of swear words left his lips instead, hoping that would send the thoughts into the air and out of his mind. He closed his eyes, draping one arm over his eyes to keep as much light pollution out of view as possible.

Instead of the beach house, another memory took its place. The campus library is filled with tons of other students walking in and out. In front of him stood Joshua, a bitter and jealous look on his face.

Do you love her or something?!

The face Joshua made right before he collapsed seemed to be answering the same question in real-time. Confusion and shock sat in his widened eyes, lips slightly apart as if to argue something back, yet no words were coming out.

Mingyu did not catch it then, but that expression was all he needed to know that, at the very least, Joshua's feelings for you were 100 percent real. Was every hug, every comment, every playful declaration of love a real attempt at winning your heart?

I should have been more careful. I didn't think I'd end up losing in a love triangle I did not even know I was in. Mingyu covered his face with his hands. Just then, an image of you flashed in his brain, dangling your necklace in your hands just before he reached out to catch it.

Consider it a wedding present.

Mingyu could barely think of your necklace, currently locked in his dresser drawer, without wanting to throw up. I can't believe I ruined everything right after I got it. He thought to himself. Maybe I do deserve to be stuck here. Sitting up, Mingyu looked over at the sound of a door opening. Mina stepped out into view, phone still pressed to his ear. When she turned and caught his gaze, she smiled sweetly. Mingyu nodded his head.

"Perfect. We'll see you then. Thank you so much." She finally hung up on the phone, setting it into her pocket. "I finally got a hold of that pesky flower company. They promised they'll get all of our flowers there on time, and waived the delivery fee for the hassle. Isn't that sweet?"

"Uhm. Yes." Mingyu said simply. He watched as she sat down beside him, letting out an exhausted sigh.

"I can't believe after this we still have an entire wedding to plan for Christmas! I don't think I'll be able to handle it all."

Mingyu fiddled with his fingers, unsure how he wanted to reply if he even should in the first place. Finally, he did. "It'll be here fast."

"I know!" She clasped her hands together. When she finally caught that Mingyu seemed distant, she looked over. "Are you okay?"

Mingyu avoided his gaze. "Yeah." He assured. Mina smiled.

"I was thinking of taking you out for dinner tonight." She said. "My treat, since you've been so upset." Mingyu looked over.

"Do you want me to pretend to be happy? I'll be tired much earlier in the day if I pretend to be happy."

Mina sighed. "Are you still thinking about Joshua and-." Mingyu finally looked at her, serious and still eyes silently encouraging her not to finish her sentence. She pursed her lips together but ultimately decided to continue. "I know it's hard. But I think it's better this way."

"How? My father threatened to expel her because he knows how badly I'm against this." He refused to look at Mina. "Please explain how us being forced into a marriage together because of a threat is the better outcome."

"They'll be happy together and we'll be happy. We have a lot of responsibilities in our companies and they'll only get bigger when we graduate. We're going to help each other in ways only we can."

Mingyu ran a hand through his hair, nodding his head. "You seem to be the only one who thinks that." He finally rose from his seat. Mina got up as well, reaching out and taking Mingyu's hand. He turned to face her, seeing her eyes watering. He sighed, looking away. His free hand reached out and took his other, gently removing her hand from his. He stuck them in his pockets.

"Mina, I'm sorry. I can't feel bad for you anymore. That's what got me stuck here in the first place." Mina sank back on the couch as Mingyu simply walked into his room, closing the door behind him. She looked over to the calendar, staring at the pink hearts decorating their engagement party.

This is what is best. Your father said so. He'll come to his senses. Mina thought to herself, gripping her fists tightly in her hands. Just be patient with him. He has a lot going on, and he'll be grateful when you're still by his side at the end.

August 27th really could not come soon enough.

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"So, what's your plan?" Joshua asked. He looked over at Jihoon, who was spinning a beer in his hands. He watched the contents inside spin like a mini twister, before throwing the drink back. Joshua and Jeonghan looked at one another, shaking off the feeling of judgment that flew through their mind before Jihoon spoke.

"Simple." He said. "We make Mina feel guilty."

"...That's it?" Jeonghan asked.

Jihoon rolled his eyes. "No, that's not it." He stated. "She already trusts me, we had a bit of rapport during the vacation on Jeju Island. I know exactly how she feels. I can play to her weaknesses in a way you two won't. Make her feel real guilt over what she's choosing to do."

"...So basically, you're going to act like a devil," Joshua said eyebrows arched in surprise. "Use a human's deepest fear and manipulate them to benefit your own."

Another sip of beer before he spoke. "Is it really that different from what the two of you have been doing?" Woozi grinned when the older angels went silent. "Hehe. See? I knew it."

"It was supposed to be playful." Jeonghan tried to clarify. "Not romantic."

"Doesn't matter," Woozi said. "Not only are you trying to make Mingyu jealous by making him think you two are flirting with her or fighting over her, but it actually kind of happened to end up romantic." Joshua immediately felt guilt wash over him and he covered his face with his hand, groaning into it.

"I'm over it. Please stop bringing it up," he begged.

"I will when you two get back into heaven. Deal?" Woozi poured himself another drink. He watched the duo. "If you want to go on a date with her so badly, take her to the engagement party and make Mingyu think she's moved on." Jeonghan and Joshua stared at their fallen brother for a moment, and he only took this as permission to explain further. "If you take her and make it look like she's moved on, it'll upset Mingyu. If Mina sees him upset, she'll realize he's never going to change his mind. She's not vindictive, she's desperate to prove herself right. She's hurting too, watching the one person she can't have been so close to her yet still out of her reach."

Jeonghan glanced at Joshua when Woozi said this but turned back to the drink in his hands just as quickly to avoid being caught. "So we just need to give her a chance to have a good time."

"Sure."

"What will you do?" Jeonghan asked next.

"If I know the two of them well, Mingyu will probably try to get her alone. We want that. If it happens, I'll try to get Mina to accidentally stumble on them or something. She needs to hear the raw truth from the both of them somehow, and it won't happen if they know she's there."

"You seem pretty confident this will happen the way you think." Jeonghan chuckled. Woozi shrugged.

"If all of this ultimately fails, I'll introduce the two of you to beer." He grinned, and Jeonghan's amused smirk immediately dropped. "Do you think she still has the red dress he loves in her closet?" He asked, throwing yet another drink back.

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"I'm sweating. Can you tell I'm sweating?" You looked behind you, but a set of hands jerked your head forward again.

"Stop moving while I do your hair," Minnie said. "And no, you can't tell."

Jeonghan handed you perfume anyway, and you thanked him. When you looked at the duo, you watched as they stood to the side, chatting to one another. Jeonghan was wearing a loose white shirt instead of a button-up. It was under a fitted black blazer and pair of black dress pants, and he had a little burgundy corsage pinned to his chest. Joshua's hair was slicked back a bit, a few smaller pieces draped in front of his face. He was dressed in a traditional black suit with a crisp burgundy tie that he was fixing as he looked himself over in the mirror. You had to look away, this being the first time since you met them that you were unable to withstand their charms. They would make a statement at the party. "There." Minnie stepped back, and you looked yourself over. Once again you were in your favorite red dress, your hair curled this time and falling around your shoulders. You brushed some away from your ear to check your silver earrings. "Stunning, as always."

"Looking at the entire thing, I feel that this is a bit inappropriate for an engagement party." Your worries were met by a pat on the back from Minnie.

"Nah. You look fine. It's a party, just focus on having fun. Besides, if Mina says anything, then we can paint it like she's jealous. She knows Mingyu loves you in this dress." You sighed.

"That's malicious." You said, and Minnie grinned. When you checked the clock, you felt your heart speed up. "I need some air." You said, the trio watching as you hurried to the balcony, closing the door behind you. Minnie excused herself to the bathroom to finish getting herself ready, and Jeonghan plopped himself on the couch. He seemed pretty calm despite what was about to happen tonight, resting his chin in his hands.

"You can't look nervous, Joshua," Jeonghan commented, alerting his friend's eyes to him. Jeonghan smiled. "Do you think it won't work?"

Joshua shook his head. "I don't know," he said. He put his hands in his pockets. "This is kind of all my fault."

Jeonghan scoffed. "No, it's not. You didn't tell Mina to get Mingyu's father involved, or set their engagement up."

Joshua didn't seem convinced, and Jeonghan tossed a pillow at his friend. When the cushion hit his shoulder, swaying Joshua a bit in his spot, Jeonghan continued to offer a smile. "Just make sure you have a good time tonight. If we have a good time, she'll have a good time. We can do that." Joshua nodded. Jeonghan looked towards the balcony, watching you pace the length of it. Your lips were moving, but the thick glass and screens made it impossible to make out what you were saying. Jeonghan finally rose from the couch, putting his hands in his pockets. He walked towards Joshua, patting him on the shoulder. "I'll go outside and see if I can catch anyone arriving," he said simply. Joshua watched Jeonghan make his way towards the door before his eyes fell back to you on the balcony. He watched as you rested against the railing, back to his, and eyes cast down at the city below. He inhaled a deep breath as he watched you.

You seemed to have the same thought as Jeonghan, watching the street for your friends to all arrive. The cool summer air tickled your arms and cheeks, and you allowed it to soothe you. The background noise of cars and trains moving along the road was your white noise at this moment, a rhythmic tune to help calm your frantically beating heart.

What am I going to do when I see them? You thought to yourself. How can I allow myself to be happy for them when I'm not? You reached a hand up to your neck, but instead of the cool sensation of a cherry blossom charm and heart gem, you only felt your skin, warmth radiating against your fingers. You looked down, lips tugged into a tight frown. Is this the way it was always meant to be? Maybe I've deluded myself for too long.

A sudden unknown noise came from behind you, a screeching sound, and it pulled you from your temporary thoughts. Joshua stepped out, closing the door behind him. He offered you a little smile as you turned to him. "Hi," you said. "Where's Minnie and Jeonghan?"

"Minnie is finishing herself up and Jeonghan went downstairs to see if anyone else got here yet," he said. You nodded, turning back towards the railing. Joshua felt a footstep forward to approach your side, however, he stopped himself, instead pressing his back against the brick wall exterior of your apartment. He watched you for a minute. "I'm sorry." he finally said

His comment caused you to turn yourself to face him. "Hm?" you frowned. "Why?"

Joshua smiled a hint of sadness in it. "I've caused you a lot of problems when I should have been helping."

"You did not." you tried to assure, but Joshua shook his head.

"I did. I'm much stupider than I look, you know." He pursed his lips together. "I allowed this entire misunderstanding to happen because I was complicit and stupid."

You smiled. "Joshua-."

"I have almost completely ruined everything for all of us. You, Mingyu, Jeonghan, me." He sighed. "I knew being on earth for a long time, I would feel a bit more like a human. But it's scary to see just how much it's affected me." You could see the pain in his eyes as he tried to avoid looking at you. Arms crossed over your chest, and you nodded.

"Humans are scary, I guess." You said simply. "Just look at Seungkwan." Joshua laughed at your successful joke, shaking his head. "You have done a lot to help me. Jeonghan too. You both have done so much for me, I'll never be able to repay you." Joshua glanced up, watching as you tucked some hair behind your ear.

"You look nice," Joshua said. He saw your cheeks turn red and he nodded. "It'll get Mingyu's attention when he sees you. Like always." You smoothed out the dress around your hips and smiled. When Joshua saw that flattered smile fall to a frown, he followed you. "What's wrong?"

You glanced at him. "I'm scared," you said softly. "What if it's already too late? He already doesn't trust me anymore. What if I'm not good enough anymore? If I ever was..."

Joshua finally stepped closer. He pulled the little handkerchief from his chest pocket, handing it to you. "Mingyu is crazy about you. Anyone who knows him knows that." He said. "We'll fix this. I promise." You looked up at him, and he continued to offer you a comforting smile. "I can't use my power to calm you down anymore but-." he extended a hand towards you. You looked down, reaching out and taking it. He only offered one little squeeze before pulling his hand back. "I promise it will be fine. Jeonghan and I will be with you all night, so if you need someone to calm you down, I'll at least try." You laughed a bit to yourself, nodding your head.

The sound of the door caused you both to look back into the apartment. Minnie exited the bathroom and Jeonghan returned from outside. "I guess it's almost time." You said. "We should probably go."

"Right," Joshua said. You both stepped back inside and headed out the door. Before you left, you looked at Jeonghan as he fixed his hair in a mirror one last time, before turning to you.

"Do you think this will work?" you asked him. Jeonghan smiled, patting you on the shoulder.

"If not, we're going to need a place to stay for a while."

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Mingyu watched from the window of his hotel room as cars below emptied tons of guests, all of them flocking into the hotel and towards the hall they had rented out for the party. Mingyu looked himself over in the mirror. Usually wearing a suit and attending a party would make him smile. However, he found himself unable to prop up the corners of his lips, even just a little to pretend he was enjoying himself.

He looked out the window once more, and a sight caught his eye. He saw you and your friends on the other side of the street. Jihoon, Hoshi, and Seungkwan were meeting up with you guys, all of you dressed to the nines for the night. He felt his breath catch in his throat when he saw you arrive, quick to hug Hoshi as you all seemed to compliment one another on your outfits. Mingyu watched Seungkwan take your hand, spinning you around while Hoshi did the same for Minnie, seemingly hyping up the girl's attire to the entire friend group. He smiled a bit, wishing that he was by their side enjoying himself. He could sense the comfort and glee from across the street, despite the situation they were finding themselves in for his selfishness.

God, he felt so selfish.

Mingyu fixed the cuffs of his sleeves as he started towards the door. "Let's get this night over with." Opening the door, he stepped into the hall of the hotel. Down the hall, he could hear Mina's door unlock and looked over to see her step out. For a second, when he couldn't see her face, he allowed himself to exist in a world where another face was waiting to look at him with a lovestruck expression because it was the only way he could provide a halfway decent expression at this moment.

"Are you ready?" She asked, turning to him with a smile.

Mingyu did not know how to respond. 

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