#becuase these people have helped me become the person i am today

[kazbrekkerfast]

Shout-out to my physics teacher who, instead of revising for our exam on Monday like he intended, spent our lesson today teaching us how to juggle it was probably the most fun I've had in school in a long time and it felt very much like a core memory was being made

[the-writers-corner-inc]

Troubleshooting Tuesday!

I'm here with questions and answers for you. Questions that might lead to solving plotholes, or just help you make your character 3D.

Today's troubleshooting for you!

Do you get confused about whether your WIP should have multiple POVs, or just one first-person view maybe you should go on a completely different path and do the third person??

Here is a little something that might help you. (Spoiler for Silent Patient)

Decide whether you want the readers to feel your characters' emotions. One of the main reasons why authors choose the first person is that they want readers to feel the emotions that the character is feeling. Eg Cruel Prince

But then some say it might become monotonous and boring so you go with multiple pov's, this includes first person pov's of many different characters. But then again if there are pros there are cons too. Multiple POVs mean that it might get crowded and difficult to understand, as you might have heard, books have finite pages and unless you want a book that looks like your English dictionary you're gonna have to sacrifice the amount of time the reader gets to have with your characters. Eg Six of Crows

Or if you wanna risk it all and go with the well-walked path of third-person POV then that has its advantages too. First and foremost and it might just be my opinion, most of the time it rules out the possibility of an unreliable narrator. Books like Silent Patient are the best example to explain what I mean. You get a broader perspective on what exactly is happening in a scene, for example, your characters are in a shopping mall - in first person you usually have a specific thing your character is focusing on and unless they are Sherlock Holmes or Byomkesh Bakshi it would be quite uncanny writing about the clerk cleaning the shelves and the workers gossiping about their latest boss, and might unnecessarily lengthen your book without giving it any real content, whereas in TPP you can easily slide this in.

On the other hand, there are some problems you may face, which make it difficult for readers to understand what is actually going on in a character's head, or what their opinions are on certain topics. Of course, these aren't the only problems and not the only pros, but they give an insight into the facts.

Now I know I may not be the first person to cover this topic, in fact, I don't even think I come in the top 100 people but as someone who struggles quite a bit becuase of this, I tried to make it as comprehensive and compact as I could. It might not look so, but trust me I've seen so many of these and they are NOT short, I tried to condense it as much as I could and added in some points that I think others might relate to and find help from. Let me know if is missed something and if I should add more to it, writers know the best for writers and no one else. (I of course didn't add the elephant that is "second person" even I am scared and confused as to what the hell it even means so if someone knows kindly help a youngster out)

Lastly, @1indigoisles , apology accepted and arse laughed off. Although whatever is said is absolutely true, from "what Troubleshooting Tuesday means" to "this grp is my baby" you're paying child support and there is nothing you can do about it.

[ijustmightdieinbuffalo]

I’m ready to leave some things behind

I took my nose rings out today. I’m letting my septum piercing close. It’s the end of my somewhat rebellious early twenties era of needing to prove that I’m different and edgy and cool through self expression. I don’t feel the need to show who I am through brute force anymore.

The projections put upon me don’t serve a purpose anymore. If you take time to dig deep you’ll find out that I am more complex than three pieces of rose gold jewelry shoved into my nose.

Plus, it was hard to breathe and I had to get the crusties out constantly which was annoying. It also began to feel juvenile. I see so many more decorative and intricate pieces on others I admire but for myself I’m seeking refinement.

I want quiet luxury and peace. I think that doing this symbolically with the eclipses in mind really helped me do something I’ve been holding back on, which is the fear of letting go. Who cares if the hole closes up and I change my mind. I can go back. It can be pierced again. I can Marie Kondo just about anything.

And I want to make the distinction between the choices I make of planting roots and not being “impulsive” while struggling with endless indecision on even the simplest of things. I just need to make more choices and stick to them.

So what if I have a crush on Frank. He either likes me back or he doesn’t. There will be another person whose path I will cross. I can’t control how I feel at this moment. But the endless introspection of “do I like this man” or “am I just looking for a distraction” is redundant.

I like people becuase I am a lover. I love his soft spoken voice, the way he yells when he’s frustrated and the meticulousness he has about how things should be presented at work. You can tell he loves what he does. There’s a quiet relentlessness about what he cares about and he will slave over it. He cares about his employees and genuinely may be the best manager I’ve ever had in my life. And there is absolutely nothing hotter than that.

It may be uncomfortable if I say something. But I also don’t really have to do anything about it. I can just let it ride. I don’t have to squeeze the excitement out of it too fast. I can just let it linger until it either fades, shatters, or becomes real.

I have a sneaking suspicion that there is something mutual based on the amount of eye contact I feel from him. I think he knows that he wields this power and magnetism. He uses it very acutely. I think he even knows that I like him. I think it’s unspoken. I think I like that it’s unspoken. The mystery is exciting and maybe it’s also a distraction for him.

Either way it’s human and it feels really nice to have while I try to figure out what I need to do. I’m learning to love myself a bit deeper. I still don’t feel completely safe to be loved all the way unless I’m perfect. But that’s another defense mechanism. That I can’t be loved unless I’m perfect. Unless my house is always clean and there’s no hair on my shirt. Unless my teeth are straight and white and I’m not dealing with any normal body odors. Unless my credit card debt is gone and I’m ready to start a business or buy a house.

There’s still a lot to learn and process. But I can work on changing the things I know are time to let go in order to make room for the new important parts of me. I can continue to show up for myself and build routines around physical mental and financial things that serve me day to day and add up at the end. I already am beginning to do that.

I need to dig deeper in an authentic way to myself and right now that feels like changing up everything about how I present myself. Maybe it will change who comes into my life. But I also know I don’t know how to accept love wholly and truly. So I guess for now having a crush is probably best.

[still-a-morosexual-help]

As someone who sometimes enjoys angst a lot of people use it as a way to cope with things in their life.

For me I like mc angst sometimes becuase I sometimes feel like I'm not allowed to be sad, I sometimes feel like my depression must be fake somehow becuase my life isn't bad enough to warrant me having depression even though I know that's not how it works.

Replacing mc with myself in angst on my bad days can make me feel, idk, validated for being the way I am sometimes?

And when its not mc or reader and its a character angst, reading something that makes me feel sad can also make feel like I actually have reason for being sad in the moment.

It can be a way to get out that sadness that im feeling in the moment in a way that doesn't involve me, in a way that doesn't involve self-deprecation.

Just thought I'd explain why some people enjoy angst, I know not all angst readers are like me but ice seen quite a few who are!

Hi! That's totally understandable! And I'm really happy you're able to use MC as a way to help with what you're feeling! And you said you already know this & you probably won't really care about hearing this from a stranger and ik (from personal experience) how hard it can be to believe it or even if you realistically know it's true how you can sometimes have a hard time accepting it but I want to say it out loud for anyone who needs to hear it today (& maybe a little bit for me too):

you don't have to fill a quota for your depression to be valid. It doesn't always need an actual reason to affect you and it's real because the things it's making you feel are real. Pls take care of yourselves💕

-

Back to the angst thing...

I'm not sure where I said I don't like or enjoy angst tbh....cause I read a lot of it myself too....

Hell, I write it too. I wrote some for MC & Mammon though I gave them all soft, mushy endings cause I can't stand to keep them hurting and I wrote darker, angsty ones before I got into OM! Not all of them are tagged as angst but they do all fall into the category and I always write them as a way to de-stress?? As a way to let it all out when things have been bad? I usually make the fics darker than what I'm feeling, I think as a way to make my own problems/feelings seem smaller

I don't really do self-inserts but when I'm feeling miserable I tend to read about fictional characters hurting so I can have a good cry about them instead of thinking about my own problems/feelings

Though sometimes it won't even depend on my mood and I'm just craving it for no reason

Usually I opt for angst with a happy ending but there are times when I prefer it to end sadly? Usually though, I only prefer fics that end sadly that are below 5k words, cause if I'm investing anymore time in a fic then I want a happy ending... (yes yes given that I have a 6.7k fic that ends in character death with a 2.7k alternate pov for that fic I am being a hypocrite)

Somehow, while I (somewhat rarely - only when I want to cry) read fics with a sad ending I completely avoid fics with bittersweet endings cause I can't handle that uncertainty

I don't really read OM! angst though, but I do come up with with angsty scenarios/headcanons relating to OM! when I'm at my lowest points. Nothing better than hurting Mammon to forget about the real world, have a long cry and then become emotionally numb for the next 24 hours :D

So yeah, I definitely understand where you're coming from when you say angst helps people cope with life & I do really enjoy it too

hope you have a good day nonnie♡

[futurewriter2000]

If we are not this, then what are we? - pt. 9

A/N: I didn’t expect this to be like this but I’m glad it did because it makes more sense in my head now, I connected the A, B and F. Hahaha. 

XX

James was laying down on his bed with an icepack on his face. He didn’t say a word since he had laid down. 

He was tired.

He had a headache.

He and Sirius had just been beaten up by Hufflepuffs. It was a big ego bruiser. 

Sirius was already asleep, since he already took a few painkillers too much and maybe his snores were exactly the cause to keep James awake. 

‘ “And the only slag I see is the abused, little puppy I see.” ‘ - The memory echoed in his mind. Why would he say that to you?  He shut his eyes but the scene continued to resolve in front of him. Whether he opened them and stare at the ceiling or shut them close so hard that the headache only got worse, he could still see you hurt. It was if he could physically see the scars he caused you. 

It wasn’t just the fact he said it but he feels it- he feels so much tightness inside his body when he thinks of last night; because he cannot remember anything and it feels like that today, the happily you walked to him, smiled, started a normal conversation before he turned it into chaos, the more he thinks something happened between the two of you at that party. 

Did something happen? 

He didn’t say anything stupid, did he? Or said something as if he loved you... because he didn’t. 

James opened his eyes wide and hugged the small red pillow in his arms. He burried his face into it and shut his eyes. 

‘ I don’t love her.’ he told himself before his stomach started spinning inside of him. ‘I am not in love with her! We bicker all the time! She hates me. I hate her. And what happened today? She went all mellowdramatic on me. Just because I told her that her boyfriend is nothing but a man whore- which he is. I do not know what she sees on him. She doesn’t know the guy as I do-  and she couldn’t stop shouting, knowing I have a headache and that I really wasn’t in the mood.’ he turned on the other side and opened his eyes. ‘She knows when to poke me and she thought she would win an argument yesterday just because I was hungover.’ he turned back on the other side and felt a smirk appear on his lips. ‘ Well, joke’s on her because...’ 

He thought back on the whole morning and just felt his eyes tear up. He could feel the tightness in his chest as he continued to hear the awful words he spat at you. He knew if the tightness grew... he wouldn’t be able to hold it in anymore.  He brought the pillow up to his nose and took a deep breath in. As soon as he did, he could remember you, your childhood, your laugh and your tears. Every year replayed in his head like a movie and he? He cried.

He couldn’t keep it inside himself anymore. 

He tried to ignore it. 

“I don’t love her.” he kept saying, sobbing into the the pillow before crouching over and continuing to wipe his nose into it. 

‘Even if you wouldn’t love her, you still shouldn’t have acted the way you did.’ - someone in his head whispered and he could feel the pressure in his shadow expand to his full head.

He couldn’t hold it in. He kept trying to push it down but the more that he tried, the more it came up. 

“Why do I have to fuck up everything!” he bawled, not even caring if he woke up the poor, drooling Sirius next to him. “Why do I fuck up everything that I love?”

All he felt at this moment was a wish to be alone. No Sirius, not anybody... he just wished to be alone. 

---

You walked into Astronomy class and saw him sitting behind your desk, alone. You felt your feet melt into the ground until you couldn’t move. 

There was something inside of you that just screamed something wasn’t right. 

“Come on.” Will took a hold of your hand and pulled you to his desk. 

All four James, Sirius, Will and Will’s best friend Davie were called to the office because of the fight. Will explained the reasons why but tried to leave you out of it as much as he could. James was quiet from what Will told you, as well as Davie, who stepped on Will’s side. Sirius, however, did not leave you out and that was why you were called to Slughorn’s office this afternoon. 

The professor entered the class and looked at all five of you. “Glad to see the three of you decided to keep your distance from each other. Wouldn’t want another disrespectful assult in my class.” he glared at you, then Will and later at James, who only turned his head to the empty seat beside him. 

‘I wish I knew what he was thinking...’ - you caught yourself say in your mind before looking forward and ignoring that same thought. 

He hurt you.

He disrespected you. 

He embarassed you. 

Why do you still care? 

But your eyes couldn’t stop glancing at him from time to time. He held his head with his palms, massaging the sides of it and ruffling the hair on top. 

He usually did that when he had a migrane and usually, they could get quite bad. 

Again, why do you still care? 

‘I don’t.’ - you answered yourself, shaking your head and trying to focus on the class. 

“Professor?” James raised his hand and leaned back on his chair. 

“Yes, Potter?” 

“Can I go to Madam Pomfrey? I’m really not feeling quite chipper this morning.” 

Chipper. He used that word every time when he had a migrane and the two of you couldn’t hang out because of it. It must have stucked and he must have realized it as well, since he hated the word chipper and he glanced over his shoulder to see you. 

His eyes were completely swollen. The glasses might have helped to disguise it but you couldn’t ever not notice James not being himself. 

“I don’t remember you having migranes before, Potter.” the professor whipped his voice. 

“I haven’t had them for years. I used to have them a lot when I was a kid.” James kept looking at the professor. “I don’t even know why I’m asking you this!?” James snapped and stood up. “I am going to be nineteen soon. I surely do not need your permission to get out of class anymore.” he started gathering his stuff.

“Potter! Watch your mouth!” 

But James didn’t much care for what anybody said because his migrane kept increasing by every passing second. The light was only making everything worse and he stumbled across the classroom, holding himself up by the chairs and the desks. “Shit- sorry- pardon me-” he kept saying to anybody he bumped into. He hit his toe into the foot of the desk and cursed under his breath. “Bloody- urghhh!” he grit his teeth, feeling Sirius take his arm and help him up. 

“I got you, mate.” said Sirius and tried to lift him up. 

James kept his eyes half-closed due to the light but was thankful for Sirius who was there to pick him up as he was falling down. He smiled at him just before locking his eyes with you as they passed your desk. 

He could see something inside of them... almost as you were worried for him but he quickly looked away becuase of his guilty conscience. 

You hate him. Period. 

He knew he messed up. There was no chance anymore that the two of you could ever reconcile and burry the hatchet.

What he forgot to remember wasn’t only the night of your kiss but also the fact that you were a person who cared so much more than she should. Even when people stomped on her, beat her down, made her feel the worst of herself, she could never do the same. 

That’s who you were. You were that person who could never be cruel to anybody, no matter how much they have hurt her. 

And at situations like this, you felt most naive. 

---

James was laying in bed, his head thrown back as the tears kept coming out of his eyes.

 It hurt. He almost forgot how much these migranes hurt but as soon as Madam Pomfrey came to the rescue, she numbed the pain and let James rest. 

Sirius hasn’t left his side. He sat by and waited for his best mate to get well. His eyes kept watering, his leg kept jumping. 

What was happening to him? What was happening to James?

“You look like I died or something.” James smiled at him as Sirius quickly looked up at him, smiling. 

“Just planning to take your spot in the Chaser postion- become the only bachelor in Hogwarts.” he joked and James laughed with him. “How are you mate?” 

“Like someone threw a boulder at me.” 

“Your eyes are completely swollen. Do you think it was an allergy or something?”

James thought of the night he spent on crying but quickly shook the feeling off. “Yeah... maybe... I dunno.”

Sirius knew he was lying to him. He heard him cry all night but he couldn’t bring himself to do anything about it. He didn’t know how to approach someone as much as James did. He wanted to try but he just couldn’t. He didn’t know how to. That was James’ area of expertise. 

“Well, Potter. That must have been quite a terrible migrane but it also must have been quite the party.” she looked up at him with a smirk as James flushed red. 

“I- uhm- I don’t know what you are talking about, Madam Pomfrey.”  James spoke loud and clear. 

“I don’t like liars, Potter.” she scolded him. “Whatever you wished not to remember, you should deal with it like Muggle, not take a rememberance potion like an ungraduated witchcraft student.” she continued to scold meanwhile James and Sirius only exchanged a confused look. 

“A rememberance potion?”

“Madam Pomfrey, we barely passed Potions. “

“Doesn’t mean you can’t make someone else make it for you.” she continued to say.

“Are you saying it caused a migrane?” James asked, leaning forward as he remembered the night he forgot and the morning that followed. 

“I’m saying that it was a memory that became powerfully connected to your emotions. However horrible, erasing a memory that powerful can be more dangerous than just a migrane. It could end in you losing all your memories but becuase it was a poorly made potion, that did not happen. Those can usually just cause irritation, aggression, nasusa, complex of emotions and migranes. Reckon, from what I heard Potter, that it might have been a great possibility for your outburst yesterday and your migrane today. I think, whoever made this potion-” she looked suspiciously at them before giving James two compress, dipped camille tea, on his eyes. ” This is for the swelling but as I was saying; whoever made this potion must have mixed the linden root with the pine root- which is the impossible to do since those are two completely different roots...” she kept talking to herself, moving away from the boys who kept staring at her. 

Sirius looked at James, who was lying flat on his back with two compress on each of his eye. “Pads... someone tried to erase my memory.” he said seriously but heard a laughter beside him.  “Pads! I’m serious!”

“It’s hard to take you seriously when you look like a woman on her spa treatment.” he continued to laugh as James sat up and threw the camille tea dipped compress out of his way, glaring at him. 

“Something happened that night, Pads! And someone doesn’t want me to remember it!” 

[the-fiction-witch]

Darth Duck

REAL LIFE SCANDAL COUPLE: TBS X REAER RATING: FUNNY + SUGGESTIVE

"Welcome... everyone to another Episode of Thomas and Y/n have taken to much of something and are now going to do something that's probably a bad idea" Y/n smiled as she sat in a mesh dress with a bright red and black bra and Thomas sat at the table beside her drinking vodka shirtless

"Welcome to drunk food reviewing"

"Not what we are doing?"

"Aren't we?"

"No Thomas"

"Ohhh... what are we doing?"

"Read the board Thomas"

"I can't... its over there. Read it to me y/n" he sighed laying on her shoulder

"We are doing the video we have to age restrict? remember Thomas?"

"Ooooooooohhhh the sexy video?"

"Yes, the sexy video, that's why you don't have a shirt on"

"... Did I remove my shirt? or did you do that?"

"You did that"

"They why don't I remember."

"Because of the state you are in sugar cube" she laughs kissing his head and patting his hair

"Can we get nuggets when we are done filming?" he whispered

"we have Nuggets? there on there way with the food bicycle man"

"Hurry Up food Man! I want tiny chicken  shapes!" he complained

"I should probably get to the point?"

"Why? Sally will edit for us"

"We can't rely on sally"

"why not? I love sally, she had a great..... face"

"Does she? Incase you can't notice. We are half drunk and also... kinda stoned. Maybe a little tiny bit"

"You're stoned! I'm just drunk!"

"We have had... between us. Three bottles of wine. a bottle of whiskey and half a bottle of vodka. and then like a teaspoon of weed"

"I think it was like a cup of weed"

"it was a small pot, i smoke it because Thomas brought it back for me from his holiday in Holland, He did not smoke any, However he was in the room when I did. so I think you have like a baby contact high" she says "don't do drugs kids... but we are adults. ish. Kinda. Legally we are adults."

"I know you are but what am I?"

"This is the issue is that Thomas is a weird childish person anyway, and then you get him drunk and he becomes like six but a six year old who just read what all the swear words are, and when he's high... yeah this is what happens he just becomes like a weird whatever this is"

"Fight me bittch! I am the king!"

"Yes Thomas, yes you are" she laughs cuddling him "You wanna know what we are doing today? Or do you wanna sober up a little bit?"

"Tiny sober? while you explain the thing we are doing" he says leaving a moment

"We are reviewing weird sex toys I found online, Now if I sound way more together thats because I didn't drink as much becuase... I didn't want a repeat of the Barbie cake incident. and also because I think I have way more of a tolerance then Thomas does" she says as Thomas returned with a coffee "Better now?"

"Yes"

"Its the weed, that if fucking you up right now. it just makes me really calm and slow... you just fucking go off the bloody walls"

"Yes it is. so. show me the first sexy thing"

"I am the first sexy thing"

"Yes you are, you are very sexy, May I nuzzle with the boobs?"

"No"

"But I wanna"

"But you can't we are filming right now Thomas"

"But! Boob!"

"No boobs for you"

"Fine... I'll grope my own boobs" He sighed groping his own chest

"I think you are still too out of it to function"

"Im functioning, I have great tits"

"You do, you want the first toy or not?"

"Yes! bing it to me"

"Here you go" Y/n said putting  a rubber duck on the table she clicked a button and this yellow duck began to vibrate across the table

"Who is this for? Becuase... I cannot stick my dick in it. and as far as I was aware that is the point of most male sex toys"

"Sticking your dick in it?"

"Sticking my dick in it" he says "To be fair I put my dick alot of places I probably shouldn't" he says looking at the toy

"You do. Like your ex girlfriend" she giggled

"Ooohhh that was a low blow"

"I assume for girls becuase... vibration"

"Guys like vibration too"

"Yeah but.. I think its for ladies Or just in general as a vibrator" she says "Rate this out of One to five climaxes?"

"Two, Its meh"

"I'd say three, just is nothing else because it amuses me"

"Like your exboyfreind"

"Bitch..." she sighed "Would you rather have thids duck then your rubber duck upstairs?"

"No, Becuase my ruber duck is amazing"

"Is he?"

"Yes! How dare you insult My duck" He says getting up a moment and when he returned he had a little bath duck dressed like Vader "He is darth Duck." "Darth Duck?"

"Yes. He murdered a group of eggs because of his brain washing and now has a deathboat that goes around destroying ponds"

"So you would rather have a tiny sith duck in your bathtub then this vibrating guy?"

"Yes I would"

"Okay... he comes home with me then"

"what's next?"

"This is an Egg Massager"

"I am Aware of these"

"Ohh are you?"

"I use to have on of these" "DId you? like seriously?"

"Yeah, its way smaller and easier to hide then like a full fleshlight, even like the fleshlights where its just the jelly plastic are hard to hide, hard to store, hard to clean, hard to travel with. so yes I got one of these and it is amazing! its not to big, not to small so it breaks, you can turn it inside out to clean it" He explained

"Thats on the internet now thomas"

"I know. I have crossed a line just being in this fucking video"

"so lets just say fuck it and jump over it?"

"The line has been crossed so Lets just run with it"

"Is this what a virgina feels like to men?" she asks sticking her fingers in it

"A little bit. as much as any male sex toy does. I have yet to stick my dick in a sex toy and actuly feels like a virgina. but thats not really the point. Its like I imagine vibrators and such like aren't really meant to feel like getting fucked. but you know if they feel like a dick then great"

"I get that yeah... this is like fourty pounds though?"

"Its worth it I think. As a man"

"How many orgasms out of five?"

"Four and a half orgasms"

"Better then your ex girlfreind?"

".... yes"

" this product is thomas aproved"

"Few sex toys recive that"

"Yeah becuse your boring and don't want sexy toys"

"I like sex toys. but I would rather just... have sex"

"okay so like not mastabation toys like partner toys?"

"Yeah" "Like handcuffs, lube, maybe like one of those vibes for men and ladies?"

"Yeah, more like that. I hope my ex doesn't find this video"

"Ohh she's gonna be mad at you"

"Also... My future children. If you are watching this and I birthed you please do not watch this"

"You birthed them? when did you grow a womb?"

"Yesterday"

"Moving on! you want some lube thomas?"

"Hit me with the lube"

"Here you go, its... strawberry flavoured" she says "You like strawberries thomas"

"I do, But I don't get the point"

"The point of lube?"

"No the point of it being flavoured" He says "I don't get that"

"Its for like... if I was for jerking you off and i needed lube I could use this and then after jerking you off for a while I could suck your dick and it would be strawberry flavoured"

"Or I guess... for eating out also? for the same reason"

"yeah for that. I hope there arent just people like eating lube. If so... Get help Because thats a problem" she says putting some on her arm and licking it "Its not bad, tastes like... strawberry chew its"

"Gimme" he says putting some on his hand "Okay frist it looses points for being bad lube"

"what?"

"This is shit lube y/n"

"How... how can you tell that?"

"rub it between your fingers, Now good lube you should be able to separate your hands and it should get stringy like it reaches between your hands"

"Like slime?"

"Yes like slime" he says "or put some on your hand good lube you should put your hand upside down and it shouldn't move it should stay on your hands"

"You have alot of lube kwnollage"

"I do." he says before having a lick of the lube "Where are you getting strawberry chew its? it tastes like strawberry cough syrup" He sighed "Do we have to do anymore? Can I go to bed?"

[minalent]

A trip to the head of a depressed person

Hello. 

I don’t post much, rather not at all, but sometimes I feel like I really wanna say something to the whole world.

Today, I would wanna show you how it looks like in a head of a depressed person. I mean, there are tons of books of studies and researches from different psychologists anf psychiatrists about depressed people, yet I believe that if you don’t go through anything yourself, you don’t really know what it really is like (I’m not only talking about the depression - I wish any of you wouldn’t have to go through depression or any mental illness ever! -, I am talking generally - if you have never swum in the sea, you don’t know how it feels, e.g., and no matter how many people tell you how it feels like, you haven’t experienced it yourself).

Sorry for such a long start. 

I would like to tell you about things you (maybe) didn’t know about depressed people. I’ll use myself as the example, so the things I am saying, I might not be speaking for everyone, but for the most, of us I believe. 

1) We are very sensitive.

You know, being depressed doesn’t really mean you are crying every minute every day for the rest of your life - we also have good days, when we are quite happy and funny and having fun. And boom, then even one word, one silly word other people see as nothing else but a bunch of letters, can send us to an absolute Hell. Because behind most of the words, we might see some other meaning, meaning that is hidden to others. 

For example - someone tells me that they had awesome day with their sibling. Yes, I am happy for them, that they had great time and fun - but on the other hand, my head starts working, and it works like this:

First, there is some problem that I have in my mind - bad childhood, not having something, or on the other hand, there is something I have and I don’t want to, - there is something settled in my brain, and it’s waiting to strike and hurt me.

Then, some of my trigger words or topics is said, and the little “soldiers”, that are serving these problems and mental issues awake, they start feeding onto this word. And as they are feeding, they grow bigger and bigger and bigger and then, any word or sentece or topic, even if it’s not any trigger, becomes one. Since then, the soldiers feed on every word that is being said, and then absolutely everything just makes us panic attack worse and worse and worse. 

It takes some time and comfort to be taken away, to defeat the soldier, but still, the problem is buried in my head, and it’s waiting there to strike again any time.

E.g.:

Someone: I had great great time with my siblings! Me: Awesome, I’m glad you enjoyed it! (I mean it honestly, I’m happy for them.) My brain: Yeah, but you don’t have any siblings to share your time or happiness with. You are alone. And you will never have ones. Impossible. 

Sometimes, when I’m in a very good mood, even the trigger words are like “Okay, let’s move on...,” but if you’re already like half-broken, it’s just a fuel for the panic attack. 

2) We are excusing a lot more. 

For most people, it’s very annoying, and to be honest, I get it.

But that is also part of the problem. 

I may be apologizing for even small things, like falling asleep during a day and letting someone on ‘Seen’ (accidentally) or saying something I consider to be rude or wrong (but the other person doesn’t, it’s just me) - and then I start apologizing. Becuase I feel like I somehow hurt or offended or something else the person and I wanna say ‘Sorry, I didn’t mean it!’ - but mostly, because it’s just in my brain, the other person doesn’t get why I am apologizing.

So I apologize few times, and they start to get angry (usually), so I start apologizing even more, because I don’t want to lose them because of being so annoying or so, and they get angrier and angrier, and so on. 

It’s kind of an equality: the more I apologize, the angrier they usually get, and the angrier they usually get, the more I apologize, and so on and on. 

Usually it ends them being pissedd off at me and just stopping the conversation for some time or completely, unfortunately. 

So please, if you have a friend with this problem - don’t yell at them for being annoying, just try to assure them that it’s really okay and there is nothing to apologize for (which make take some time, but the truth is, yeah, we take a lot of time).

3) We might be jealous/sad because of our loved ones’ inactivity.

We usually tend to have one or two really close ones, and if they’re not spending time with us, we might get either jealous that they’re spending time with someone else (not every time), or on the other hand sad, that they’re spending time with someone else, that they don’t need us or like us anymore (not every time).

It’s not like we want to be pissed off at someone becuase of being jealous or sad because of someone that they are not paying attention to us at the moment, it’s just something in our brain that switches the thinking and we start to be rude/panicking. 

We might take a lot of time, and a lot of assurance and everything, but on the other hand, if we truly love you, we will give you our love back thousand times. We are usually very loyal becuase we appreaciate our loved ones because there is not a lot of them, but we love them even more then. 

4) We might see some things differently than the others.

This time is at receiving what the other one is saying, we take it differently than they mean it, or the emotions get in as well. 

E.g.:

Expectation: 

Me: I love you (friendship, normal relationship, doesn’t matter) Someone: Aw, I love you too. 

! Say it only if you really mean it - if not, just send an emoji or say “you’re great friend” or something, but don’t lie to us and also don’t be too hard (I know it’s difficult, sorry). !

Reality (sometimes):

Me: I love you (friendship, relationship, doesn’t matter) Someone: I know *insert emoji here*

I mean, there’s nothing wrong about it, but some of us may get it like we are a sure thing for that person or it just feels weird or so (personal opinion).

Yeah, we may take it as a joke, it matters on the situation, but sometimes it just pops up in our head and our brain is working with that. 

5) We usually are self-destructive.

When in a bad state, we tend to be self-destructive. Cutting is not the only way how to hurt yourself - punching the wall, scratching our skin bloody, not sleeping or eating at all, etc. 

Mostly it’s not like we really wanna physically hurt ourselves, I believe it’s more like a way how to escape the mental pain we are going through at the moment. We hurt ourselves becuase the physical pain, even when it’s horrible, is easier to bear and to heal than the mental one. 

We are hurting ourselves to not to be hurt that much by our brain and thoughts - that’s the way I see it, opinions might be different. 

6) We might be lying about our state. 

! It’s not like we would wanna lie to our friends, it’s because of these reasons: !

- we don’t want to talk about it, it might be too personal or too harming and we just wanna forget it 

- we feel like we are annoying the other ones with our problems, that they have a life happily ever after, and we are ruining it, or ruining their morning or moment, so we keep it to ourselves, so they don’t have to worry about us or something (usually, the don’t in fact, it’s just our feeling that we are annoying them)

- we are afraid to talk about it with our closest ones becuase we are afraid it would hurt or offend that person, that they could take it personally, and we don’t want to lose them 

etc. 

7) We tend to be indecisive. 

Most of the times, we just can’t decide. Or we are so devastated at the moment that we don’t care at all, or we don’t want to hurt/offend the other person, so we just agree to them. It depends on our mood, or at least for me, personally.

Good mood - quite decisive, even joking about being indecisive Bad mood - indecisive/not caring/agreeing to the other person’s opinion 

~

That’s all for today I believe, thank you for reading all the way down here, it must have been exhausting, sorry, and I hope it will give you a new point of view. 

I hope it will help the people who have depressed person around them, to understand them better and maybe even change a bit some behaviour, to help them fight - thank you, we appreaciate being here for us so much!

I also hope that it will help the depressed people themselves - that you know that you’re not alone in this, and out there are people to help us fighting against our deepest fears and biggest demons. 

Always keep fighting. - Jared Padalecki

[bookworm-fantrash]

My Suicide Attempt

May 8th, 2018 I made an attempt to kill myself.

Today is September 23rd, 2019 (2:31AM if you want to be really specific).

I realized tonight, that I am truly grateful to have failed. Last year has been a long messy ride, well actually, my whole life has sort of been a long messy ride. I lived so much of that ride in a horribly heavy suffocating dark cloud.

I don’t have any wise life-changing advice or simple solutions. I only have my own experiences that I hope can inspire or help some of you.

I don’t regret my attempt. It got me the help I truly needed and got me where I am today. But, I am so unbelievably thankful I failed. If I had succeeded, I would have not got to experience how much I can grow and blossom without my trigger around. I would have not got to experience so many small but meaningful experiences, from meeting certain people in mental hospitals, to going on my first date. I would not have got to be by one of my best friends side as she finally gets the opportunity to become the amazing mother she has always been met to be. I would not have had the oppotunity to see a whole new life brought into my family. There are so many things I would have missed out on and I thank God I have been able to be here.

I wish it had not gotten to the point where it did. I wish I asked for help. I wish I used my last bit of energy to scream for help instead of doing what I did. I am no longer angry at myself for causing the ripple effect of hurt and pain, because I understand I myself was coming from a place of agony and I am only human. My point is, if anyone reading this ever gets to that same point I did, I would tell you to scream. Scream for help, scream as loud as if your life depended on it because it does. Someone will hear you, someone will come, and you will get help.

It’s been such a long journey for me personally and I know it is not something that simply ends and I have had such amazing reasources and support.

So many diverse factors came into play to get me to the place I am today, so I cannot give all the credit to one thing. I cannot say “Oh, yea, my depression got cured because I’m on 100mg of Zoloft now!” or even “Seven years of therapy finally paid off!” Because it was so much more than that.

But, the most important (not the only) person I have to thank is honestly myself. I love myself and who I’ve become and I’ve become stronger caring for myself and developing into the person I always aspired to be.

I still have so many complicated stressors in my life right now, but I’ve learned so much and I’ve grown so much that I can handle it now.

I understand being in that specific dark mindset and having that last straw snapped. I understand so much of that pain. And, for the longest time my brain could not fathom another way I could I coped with it. Now, I finally see, that I should have screamed. I should have screamed for help and my brother would have heard me and come and I would have gotten the help I needed. Because, if I had succeeded, I would have died with the horrible depressed misconseption on life.

Life is messy and complicated and full of suffering. But, it is also full of light and love. There is no person who can live life being consistently happy, becuase there will always been hard parts. But, I’ve learned to accept them and embrace them and use them as an opportunity to grow even more.

I am so glad I failed.

If you’re feeling this far down the hole, please, don’t give up. Use that last bit of strength to scream. Because, there is so much ahead of you in store, and you matter to so many people, including yourself. Get help. Forgive yourself. Please, just please, don’t give up.

[caffeinated-chaos-bean]

As he dismissed Silver Chariot and set the Arrow aside, Polnareff’s train of thought was interrupted as the sound of hasty footsteps came closer. He jerked his head upward as the door flew open, a disgruntled woman storming up to him.

“K...K-Kikumi!” He certainly was not expecting to see her, not here in Italy.

The elven woman has her fists clenched, a stern look about her face. “So this is what you’ve been up to?!”

Polnareff was still a bit shocked to see his wife standing before him, and it took a moment for him to register what she was saying to him.

“When will this end, Polnareff?” The woman pleaded, anger ever preset in her tone. “You already crippled yourself trying to find these Arrows with Jotaro, what’s next?”

“A-Ah.... well, uhm....” Polnareff knew how his wife could be. When something truly upset her, it was wise to think over his responses carefully.

“You contacted a group of people, didn’t you?”

Polnareff looked up. “How did... you know that?”

Kikumi’s brow furrowed. “Becuase our son is here in Italy, too. He’s the one who told me.”

“Liam... is here with you?” Polnareff was truly surprised. “How does he know I contacted Bucciarati’s gang?”

“So you’re not even going to hide the fact they are, in fact, a gang? Mob bosses, capos, and all?” Kikumi scoffed. “I hope you realize that our son is now mixed up in their dealings?”

The Frenchman’s eyes widened. “H-He’s with Bucciarati and the others? WHen did this happen? What’s he doing with them?”

“Oh how nice of you to ask,” Kikumi began, faking her happiness towards his inquiry. “He’s out there helping them take down other mafioso and assassin members in your behalf becuase he doesn’t want anything worse to happen to you! He’s risking his life so that you don’t have to throw your’s away!!”

“W-Well, then he could lead them here! I was hoping to let them know of the Arrow’s abilities in person and help them bring us all closer to taking down Diavolo!” Polnareff was about to let his usual self come though until he saw the look on his wife’s face. His grin soon fell flat. “W-What’s that look for...?”

“You want him to bring those mobsters to you!?” Kikumi’s voice almost cracked as she shouted, utterly shocked by his statement. “Polnareff, he’s only thirteen!!! He’s barely old enough to go on school trips without a parent chaperon! And yet you think that Liam bringing thugs and their ilk here is of use to you!?”

For the first time in quite a while, Polnareff let his frustration show. His brow narrowed and he gave the elf a stern look. “Yes. I do.I understand that you don’t approve of me going after the Arrows, but it needs to be done in order for them to not fall into the wrong hands. Diavolo is a very broken individual with an immensely strong stand to boot. Do you want to go through a similar situation as we did in Egypt should he gain control of the Arrow!?”

“This has nothing to do with Dio!! Dio’s done and over with, we’re in the here and now!! Our son could be killed by another gang leader or his underlings! He’s going to become a target if Diavolo finds out he’s your son!!”

Polnareff gritted his teeth. “Stand users attract other stand users, Kikumi. You know that. If Liam wants to help, let him. He may be thirteen, but there are people only two or three years older than he is who are going to benefit from his help. He heals with his stand, and if given the chance to practice with that ability he could aid Bucciarati’s gang defeat Diavolo. Do you want him to not have experience defending himself when and if it came to that!?”

Kikumi’s frustration was coming to a head. She didn’t know whether to scream or cry, but one thing was for sure; tears were coming. Whether they were of worry or anger, however, she did not know. “He’s just a boy...!!!”

“And he’s also with Dio’s son! He’s just a boy, too! He’s only two years older than our Liam is, and he’s holding his own and proving to be a very useful asset to Bucciarati. They’re all just boys if you simply look at age...”

“So you’d just let him risk his life like that?” Kikumi said, her voice shaking. “Put himself into harm’s way and a target at his back?”

“He’s a born stand user, Kikumi...” Polnareff wasn’t about to argue with her in this state. He understood her concerns, but he also knew that Liam ad potential and was now acting towards it. “He’s trying to do what he can to ease your stress. He knows you don’t want to lose me, and that he doesn’t want to lose either of us, so he’s taking it upon himself to help figure things out and get this whole mess of a situation over with. I applaud him for it, dear. And he’s with people who have a strong sense of family, even if it may not be by blood. He’s going to be protected. And if Bucciarati’s gang fails in that regard, I am sure to step in. But you need to left him do this, otherwise he’ll only continue to do so behind your back and without your approval.”

Kikumi stood there, silent. She knew he was right, but as a mother she didn’t want to lose her only child becuase of a situation that was started by her husband and their old friend. She was at a loss for words, and she could feel her frustration turn to tears as her body began to shake and her watery eyes began to leak.

“He’ll be safe, I promise.”

Kikumi stood there and nervously wiped away her tears and looked to her husband. “Y-You’d better be r-right about that...”

WOW...

Now that that long story is done, lemme just say that I spent two days working on this screenshot redraw and all day today (10/20) trying to figure out where their feelsy confrontation would go. I rewrote it multiple times, so hopefully its alright on this final attempt. Otherwise I have no idea where else it could have gone, becuase Kikumi is very protective of Liam and she definitely was worried and frustrated that Polnareff went off by himself to find the Arrows, thinking of the worst and that she’d lose those she loved once again.

Anyhow, I hope you like it!!

[one-of-us-must-be-crazy]

18 and/or 19! :D

things you said when we were the happiest we ever were

this ended up going off the rails but enjoy the meandering diversion. 

It hasn’t been so long that she’s deluded herself into thinking that she knows him completely, it’ll take a lifetime to do that, and she hopes that’s how long they’ll have, but she knows him enough to understand that his eloquence is limited when he’s on emotional overload. She doesn’t know if it’s his personality, or if it’s just the stress of feeling on a mind that wasn’t built to handle the weight of things like fear, joy, anger, and love.

“You are…an angel?”

“Did you mean that to sound like a question?”

“Did you mean that to sound like a question?” she doesn’t get it either, anniversary at the beach resorts on Mars was only marginally less tourist-infested than their home satellite had become, but his model was retired three years ago, and while he once hid well in plain sight, second-hand retired office synths with his face, voice, his everything-but-heart, were walking around, purchased by families and young career people eager to look professional. They’ve seen three with his face this trip alone.

Still, they’ve both wanted to see Mars for so long, and Amanda was finally feeling up to travel having healed through the damage on her body and mind after her and Zula’s most recent crusade against the hellspawn ‘bugs.’

It was Olivia and Viola who insisted that the two go home. They were done. The oil-black creatures they hunted down based on whispers and rumors were nowhere to be seen, and all they found in their place were genuine bugs, infestations that the crew could handle without the extra two sets of hands.

Ripley was as open with their relationship in public as Samuels was comfortable being, which normally wasn’t much, not since his face became recognizable. Some weeks he’d limit shaving and wear his glasses more often; it made him less noticeable, but both he and his partner preferred him clean-faced and he always thought the glasses looked absurd on him.

“You know that I don’t care what you look like,” Amanda had said, leaning against the bathroom doorframe, eight hours until departure, watching him destroy weeks worth of disguise. Mentally, she was picturing how much better an array of her privately planned activities on this trip would be with the bristly itch of his beard in the way but still…

“And I don’t like having this mess on my face,”

“But people will notice. People will stare,”

“Amy, we have fought too many beasts, I have been impaled twice, I have assisted a woman I don’t know stitch your organs back into your abdominal cavity, we watched a----..... forgive me if I do not give a fuck what some Earthen tourist thinks of us,” he rinsed the head of the clipper under the faucet and set it aside. He could clean up while she slept and before he finished repacking her suitcase with things they actually needed as opposed to what her idea of ‘necessities’ were 

“They’ll probably assume we’re spacer trash or Lunar snobs anyway.”

“If you’re comfortable with strangers assuming the worst about us,” he turns and gently takes her face in his hand, “then so am I.”

Now she looked less than stellar, make-up from dinner washed off, her hair damp around her shoulders, and an ugly hotel robe around herself. She figured he must have meant ‘angel’ becuase the towel was white, but honestly it was a long day and they had their over-eager fun the night before carrying on this morning too, and she knew that Samuels was often more eager for physical romance than he ever let on, but she’s tired. 

“Aren’t you exhausted?” she asked.

“Mentally, I’ve experienced enough tedium in the endless circle of stress than I care to deal with. Physically….if you aren’t exhausted I’m willing to finish what we started this morning.”

“Tomorrow,” she said, flopping onto the couch, her lover reclined on the bed across from her. He dog-ears his page of the mass-market novel he got in the giftshop of the Bradbury museum, and sets it aside. 

“Good…becuase today was–a lot,”

two men across the terrace from them watch intently, and they’ve already told off a handful of gawkers, and just as many distasteful glares left ignored, but this is different, the man with strawberry blond hair looks almost in awe, his companion confused.

“Have a problem?” Amanda hissed at them as they walked by. The attention pissed her off, but the fact that it depressed her partner (husband, she always corrects herself, legal or not)? That made her angry.

“No, we’re sorry we–” the darker one looked for help from the blond; a conversation in silent eye contact was exchanged, and his companion, his boyfriend took his hand and looked between the other couple.

“We didn’t think we’d ever meet anyone like us.”

“Those boys were nice.”

“I think we made their whole trip,” Amanda had told them of her friends, loosely of course, forgoing the fact that they were all pirates and poachers in the eyes of interstellar law: that they personally knew two other couples that were, like them. The two young men spent half the afternoon talking with them, asking questions, opinions on the laws an current controversy of the week in the robotics industry.

“And I like to think there are more like us…And more who recognized us, but said nothing,”

“This hasn’t gone as badly as it could have,” she added, out of habit reaching for her datapad to see who bothered to send her message—

“Chris it passed.” 

“It–” 

There was no question of what “it” was, the law regarding synthetic citizenship had been tossed around and attempted to be underwritten in various bills over the past years, and estimates for it’s eventual passing were measured in decades, years, not months, but here, in some strange bedroom hundreds of thousands of miles.

“Limited citizenship on Terra and immediate Terra-bound colonies–that would mean Mars,” she read wanting to read more but also wanting to set it down as the reality sunk in. She thought of the two men from earlier, probably thinking the same things, the same shock. 

Christopher got off the bed and kneeled in front of her, taking the datapad from her hands and dropping it on the floor in favor of holding her hands himself.

“Chris?”

“Marry me. Marry me, tonight, tomorrow–as soon as we can, legally and on the books, under our real names before someone outlaws it.”

Amanda nods.

“Tomorrow morning, first thing–I don’t think anywhere at this hour could do it–” it’s not as important to her, it never was, but this means the universe to him and she’d kill for him.

He reverently kissed her the backs of her hands before pulling her up, hugging her tight, her mind less clear than his, a million questions and thoughts she couldn’t just file backwards in favor of focusing on the moment, but she tried, his smile never wider and eyes never more human.

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Midterm Assignment

When I signed up for a woman and sexuality class, I thought the class material would be very similar to a gender studies class, but as the semester has continued, I have learned how diverse and complex sexuality is. Feminism is a topic that was introduced at the beginning of the semester and was a topic I connected with on a personal level. Before this class, I did not think much about what an activist is and what it is that they advocate for. In this class, we defined feminism as the government, finical, and social equality for both genders. We have identified a feminist as a person who advocates for feminism. I think it is essential to have been educated on feminism in the world we live in today. In the workforce, I believe that equality and diversity are aspects that almost all companies strive to have in their work environment and values. Having knowledge of what feminism is, is vital in everyday life becuase it can remind everyone of the influential activists before our time who fought for essential movements such as the feminist movement and the women's suffrage movement. It is necessary that both women and men stay reminded of the changes that activists before us created so that everyone can continue to fight for them every day and continue to bring equality to both genders in all aspects of life. I think feminism is applicable to my life as a student because, as a female student, I am more susceptible to the discrimination women face in the school. In the workforce, women face many challenges with equality and stereotypes, which is why it is crucial to understand feminism. In the future, I hope to have a career in human resources. In any job position, women have the potential of facing pay gaps in regard to gender. On average, women get paid about 80% of the dollar compared to the amount men make for the same job position. Being aware of the pay gap and gender inequality is vital for one to understand so they can fight against those odds and stand up for equality in the workplace. In my future career, I hope to fight against pay gaps and inequality becuase women are capable of doing the same things as men and deserve the same treatment. 

 Another exciting and essential topic we learned about in module one was gender socialization. In today's society, I think it is imperative to care about gender socialization, and if one is a parent, ensuring that they teach their children about what gender socialization means. As we learned in module one, we are socialized from birth to act in specific ways, and these activities only become more set in stone as we grow older and go through life. As a student, I think gender socialization affects my everyday life as a female student becuase of what is expected of me. A stereotype of female students is that girls are more likely to be more organized and more thoughtful about their school work. When I am around other students female or male, I feel the need to prove to them that I am an organized and thoughtful student becuase I do not want to experience the backlash of not living up to those expectations. Another fact about gender socialization is what is expected of one change over time, according to one's social position. For instance, over the summer, I was an intern for a company called Addepar. Although it was scorching over the summer, I was expected to follow a strict dress code that was specifically for women in the office. Since it was summer, they did not want women wearing "inappropriate" attire to work, such as dresses, shorts, and shirts. The dress code was put into place because it is expected that women cover-up in the office so they do not distract other employees and wear appropriate attire to work. The male dress code was much less restrictive on what they could wear in the office compared to the female dress code. Another example of gender socialization is that females are supposed to be teachers, and males are supposed to do other job positions. I think gender socialization is applicable to my future career because, based on what job position I have when I am older, I will face certain expectations that I am supposed to follow through with. Depending on what Job I have in the future, I may have specific clothes or a particular look, I am supposed to dress like based on people's expectations. In the future, when I have children of my own, it will be essential for me to teach them about gender socialization and so that they have a more open mind and do not comply with society's gender stereotypes.  

Gender Identity is also a concept I believe is important to understand for all aspects of life. In today's society, especially people are more honest and have more freedom to speak out about who they are. Gender identity is applicable to my life as a student because establishing respect and knowledge about the different identities one can identify as helps build stronger connections with my peers around me. Understanding the differences between a cisgender, transgender, and a non-binary person can help me as a student take away any assumptions and judgments of who my classmates and overall help me work better with my peers. In my future career path understanding, gender identity can ensure I am respecting the boundaries of my fellow coworkers. Gender identities such as transgender help remind people that gender is fluid, and even though one may be born one gender, they are not held down to the social norms of that identity.  

Stereotype threats are another topic that I think is crucial to understand in the world we live in today. One example of a stereotype threat that is applicable to my life as a student is being susceptible to negative stereotypes surrounding me that could potentially encourage me to fall into these stereotypes. If I believe a certain stereotype, it can affect my performance on tests, quizzes, and overall work ethic in school. In my future career path, I can use this knowledge of stereotype threats to help not get affected by what people think about a specific job title or task. Not taking stereotypes so seriously and taking things in as I learn with help create a better work environment for me whenever I go.  

[i-dont-want-your-hysteria]

PSA- How It All Went Down On February 10th

Today is the one year anniversary of when I got into Def Leppard, and how everything on this blog came to be becuase of today. Below is the entire story of how I came across Leppard, and how this blog came about. 

Happy one year!

Let me get one thing clear- I definitely grew up on Def Leppard in one way or another.

My dad’s been a huge fan since ‘83, so of course, I heard their music growing up. However, I didn’t exactly know it was them that I was hearing- I just always heard their name from my dad. I kept my own taste in music, and never paid attention to them (since I didn’t exactly know who they were).

So, the road to my current state of Leppard-loving actually began at the beginning of my sophomore year (fall 2016). For some reason I "rediscovered" Sugar (as in I never knew the title or the artist of it but always heard it as a kid) and started listening to it a lot. A lot.

During my sophomore year, I transitioned my music taste into classic rock. I don’t remember how this happened, but it was for the best.

 At the end of my sophomore year, I "rediscovered" Animal (same scenario) and started listening to it a lot, but never listened to any other song by them voluntarily. 

In the summer following this (summer 2017), whenever we burned a fire on our deck, we would always play Weird Al/ Electric Amish (stuff like that) when we were out there late at night. Eventually, one night in July, I was out of ideas of what to play so I asked my dad (a huge DL fan) what I should put on and of course he simply says "Def Leppard." I asked him what song and said to just pick one, so I thought, “oh god I don't really know any of their songs and I don’t know what he likes, what should I pick? Okay, I’ll pick one I don’t know. Let's just pick the first one that comes up that I don't know" and it just so happens that that one was Hysteria, and I put it on and immediately my dad goes "Ahh.. you had to pick this one...” and tilts his head back, looking up at the sky.

He then told me the story of the first time it was played for the rest of the band (which isn’t 100% true, but this is just what he knew) he said that one of the guitarists (it was actually Phil and Sav) played what they had so far for the rest of the band around a campfire like we were doing (which turned out to be some of Sav and Phil's Irish friends).

But it felt really cool being out there with this song playing, and it was the first time I had ever heard it, too. Hysteria was my favorite song within a week. But, still, I could probably only name 3 or 4 DL songs at this point (I apparently did know more, but none by name). Those 3 or 4 DL songs kinda defined that summer for me, funny enough.

October of 2017: I don't exactly know how it happened, (I think I heard it on the radio) but I rediscovered Photograph (I actually knew this one by name) and became OBSESSED WITH IT FOR ALL OF NOVEMBER. Making music videos in my head, writing it into my NaNoWriMo novel, listening to it whenever I could, just wow- I love it. That's when it became my favorite song of all time (and it still is- tied with Hysteria).

It's January of 2018 now, and I'm still cooing over Photograph and Sugar and Hysteria and Animal, then January 14th, 2018 comes around- I almost meet Rick by accident, then a week or so later I'm watching the Metal Mayhem block on MTVC...

A video ends, it fades to black, and then suddenly I hear that "pck......" pluck of a string that echoes away and my heart jumps- “IT'S PHOTOGRAPH OHMYGODOHMYGOD...!!” 

It occurred to me right then and there that I had never seen the music video before (or even considered that there may have been one)

It had ALSO occurred to me that I had never once actually looked at a picture of the band. I'd never seen their faces. 

So I’ve got a favorite song I’ve been obsessed with for a solid two months, I discover its music video, and look at the band who sings it for the first time- and who starts singing my absolute favorite song of all time but an absolutely daSHING young man in a Union Jack tank top and a white scarf.

And then he hit me out of nowhere and I actually said to myself "God... the lead singer's actually kinda cute... like... really cute..." followed by an "oh no" shortly after because I knew I'd eventually fall madly in love with this simply adorable man who sings my favorite song, and I’d remember that that is what started it all (but that's not what started it all. It was simply an “I’ve been down this road before and this is typically how it starts.” I was more shocked than anything that my dad’s favorite band had a pretty cute lead singer- like how was that possible?) I was now, however, teetering on the edge of falling into an obsession... anything could set me off. 

And it finally did- on February 10th, 2018. My dad was taking me to a drama club rehearsal, and Bringin On the Heartbreak came on the radio. My dad turned it up and went "Yes! Old Leppard!" and at the chorus I went "WHAT'S THIS SONG CALLED I THINK I'VE HEARD IT BEFORE"

It was just the chorus I remembered, not exact words, but it just sounded all familiar, the melody of their forces, the screaming of the words, I'm pretty sure I heard it a really long time ago. And thus, it had begun. I went home, I found it on our iCloud and downloaded it.

Then I remembered my dad saying something when he was drunk about how "I nEED ROCK. LIKE ROCK. I'M TALKING LIKE- PYROMANIA. TWICE."

So I thought "I really really like a small handfull of Def Leppard’s songs. I think I should listen to them more. I'll listen to Pyromania- twice." (I’d heard of the album beforehand but never listened to it- or had I?). So I did one day. I listened to it. Twice. And BOOM; there were at least 4 songs on there right off the bat I most definitely recognized. Turns out I did know a ton of songs by Def Leppard- I just didn’t know it was them.

And of course I looked into them a bit more, hearing about all their popular stuff, listening to all of Hysteria, FINALLY looking up that handsome son of a bitch's name (Joe), finding out that one of the main composers of my favorite song went and died before I was born (Steve), and finding their more popular songs, and listening to all albums soon enough. 

I kept going back to tumblr to find pics of them and such, but there weren’t a lot. There wasn’t much on here at all about them. Whatever I did find, though, I reblogged. I was straight up obsessed within days. That week was crazy for my old tumblr. 

However, at the end of the week, on Feb 18th, only a week after it all began, I accidentally deleted my tumblr account (long story, don’t ask). I was honestly devastated because I had it for almost 4 years and all that history was now gone in the blink of an eye. Within the hour, I restarted and created a new tumblr account. I was lost on here and didn’t know where to begin, or get back on my feet. For one thing, I got my old url back ( @mccoys-killer-queen ) and immediately made my background the same pic of the guys as it was before to kind of trick myself into thinking nothing had changed.

I was wrong, and that was a good thing.

I got back into a fresh new blog, and started going around to people and asking them to spread the word on what happened and to hopefully get most of my followers back.

To this day I don’t remember all of them, and that’s been a good thing so far.

While I was doing this, I started talking to @raised-on-radio (whom I had only become mutuals with about a week earlier), 

“thinking about legit starting a def leppard blog tho” I said in the tags of a post I reblogged. She sent it back to me saying that I totally should (thanks, by the way!). And while I wasn’t totally serious about it at the time, I thanked her for the support so early on.

The next day- literally- the next day (Feb 19th), I messaged her and said that I couldn’t help myself, and made a DL blog (you’re looking at it right now). I’d never had a sideblog before, but within a week, I really enjoyed it (and obviously, I still do). Upon looking at this dead/sleeping fandom on tumblr, I realized right away it needed some sort of revival- to become like other fandoms in the modern day. There was no fanfic (on tumblr at least), there were no memes (oh heLL NO there was not), there wasn’t much circulation of posts, and it just felt dead- which I KNEW it wasn’t. It was very far from it.

Over the next month or so, it seemed now that I was involved with the fandom, it was starting to awaken in some ways. There were people actually posting content, more people were making blogs, memes got involved (I’m taking the credit for that, lmao, it seemed no one else posted memes except me and @stupidpicturesofdefleppard ). I don’t want to say I caused this awakening, but it just seems that it happened around the time I got involved with everything. A divine coincidence.

The year that followed was amazing in so many different ways. In a year, I went from not even looking at a photo of the guys and not even knowing their names, to interacting/having one of them and their official twitter interact with me on Twitter a few times, to meeting one of them in person (and putting my arm around him and having him call me ‘darling’), to having a year long obsession that’s still going strong, to knowing much more songs by them than any other artist, to knowing more facts and history about them than anything else, to being able to recognize them if given the slightest detail, and to being absolutely in love with every member and everything Def Leppard has done (not in that order!)

One year later, here we are! The past 365 days since I first heard Bringin’ On The Heartbreak in my dad’s car has been one hell of a story that’s taken me months to completely type out, and I can’t thank everyone enough for somehow making me gain 364 followers in the past year for something I never thought would get off the ground! If I told myself a year ago that I’d be where I am now, I don’t know what I’d think of it. I’d think it absolutely crazy- which it is!

But I wouldn’t change a thing about the last 365 days, that’s for damn sure. 

Rock on, guys!

[yaboymercury]

Ripping 9 to 5 - Fireman

Gary really should have been focusing more on guiding his class around the fire station but how could he stop himself from getting distracted. That glowingly attractive fireman just kept up showing up in his peripheral vision, around firetrucks and by garage doors. But instead of getting a proper look at the enchanting man, he had to reign interest in the 'senior' fire protection officer to keep his class interested.

Even when he was filtering the kids back onto the bus he couldn't help but feel a tinge of regret that he never got to interact with the man. After waving his students off, all Gary had to do was leave a cheque in the main office of the fire station to pay for the trip and drive home to a bottle of wine in his own car.

Wandering back towards the office Gary couldn't help but actively take a longer route through the station trying to get a look for the cute fireman but to no avail.

But of course being the klutz he is, when bending down to leave the cheque on a table, Gary's ass managed to knock over a large rack of fireman's helmets. Tired and frustrated after a long day Gary quite dramatically sunk to his knees sighing and dragged himself around the floor stacking plastic helmets. The scraping of helmets and his tired state overpowered the sound of footsteps.

"Hey... you need some help down there."

A glimmer of happiness showed itself inside of Gary and he saw a hand being offered to him. Was it him? Looking up from the grubby hand, up the toner arm, to the relatively unzipped fireman's jumpsuit, it was Gary's first proper look at the better-looking-up-close fireman. Probably smiling more than he should be all Gary could murmer was: "Yeah" as he made sure to fully clasp the rugged hand and let himself be pulled up.

Still with a smiling the radiant fireman gave Gary a more quizzical look.

"No offence or anything but who are you?"

Realising that on some level he was technically trespassing, Gary quickly put the helmets on a table and panicked a little to explain himself.

"Oh well, I'm a teacher from the class being shown around today, well they were being shown around, they're gone now, but I'm just dropping off the payment and well I knocked down those helmets, and well then you came" taking a breathe finally and blushing a little "and now you're here, and I should go."

Gary was mortified at how much of a fool he was making himself look. He had to escape sure the man was hot but he didn't have a chance in hell with him. He began shuffling out of the room.

PHHHHHHHHHRALLLP

Was that what Gary thought it was? Turning around he saw the same attractive fireman standing with one leg cocked up and wafting a hand from his ass almost in Gary's direction. Gary understood why quickly when the hot eggy stink hit him making his eyes sting.

"I would apologize, but you were kind of rambling and that's been proven to be my best way of grabbing people's attention."

All Gary could do was stand mouth open in shock at the man's unconventional attention seeking method.

"But yeah you were leaving and well I wanted to chat." He leaned back onto a table relaxing his position and cocked his head and gave Gary and inviting smile like the burst of flatulence never happened.

The fart smelt repulsive, it smelt like pure rotten ass, which may have been why it subconsciously enticed Gary. He wasn't a particularly picky man but he was incredibly into ass, raunchy or clean, and he liked to be able to be comfortable around men. That relaxed yet powerful fart and the incredibly intense asslike pheremones while humiliating on one level, made him even more attracted to the fireman. The fireman who now wanted to talk to him.

Finally collecting himself Gary stumbled back into the office and offered "Well I'm not exactly against chatting, I'm Gary."

Standing up to stand facing Gary, maybe a little more close than what would be considered particularly heterosexual he replied with a quick wink: "Logan"

Pausing for a moment to think Logan stuck his tongue out a little wetting his lips. How could Gary not stare.

"This office is boring as shit, want me to show you a private area?" Again he winked, sending Gary's brain into a frenzy with the innuendo of private area. But he couldn't freak out too much, he'd already tested his luck enough with this man.

"I hope it's going to be more interesting than the tour."

"I promise." And he grabbed Gary's hand a began pulling him through the station laughing. The intimacy and immaturity of it made Gary giddy all he could do was stumble behind holding on to his outstretched arm.

As they weaved in-between trucks and poles. Gary and Logan kept snatching glances at eachother. But also Gary was quite enchanted by Logan's ass now bouncing behind him. Could this man be any more perfect.

Pssssssssssssssssh

Luckily or unluckily for Gary he was downwind from Logan as he released the putrid SBD. It almost made him fall down at the heat of the smell but at least he had a giggling Logan supporting him.

"Oh and by the way just becuase I think you're cute doesn't mean I won't stop farting in front of you." Gary was so starstruck by the compliment that he completely ignored the threat of future flatulence. "Can't handle the fart, can't have the fart." Logan continued chuckling some more.

From back where the two came from Gary heard a shout.

"Fucking hell, really Logan can't you stop for once!"

Logan grinned at the power his lingering SBD had. He shouted back a reply:

"Try and do better next time!"

Giving Logan a confused look Logan still smiling explained.

"Just to inform you're talking to the winner of every fart competition in this here fire department, be impressed, I'll pause for applause..."

"Congratulations." Gary replied half sarcastically and half worried and maybe a little turned on. Well who wouldn't find a groups of competitively farting firemen sexy. At least that's what Gary convinced himself.

Picking up on Gary's sarcasm Logan came to a quick halt making Gary bump into his slightly exposed chest. "Oh I'll get you for that one..." He smiled daringly down at Gary. Again who wouldn't find that sexy.

"Well this is my one..." Logan patted the side of the firetruck they had stopped next to. He opened the door climbing up to the door he held out a hand for Gary "Wanna come in, we can get some privacy?" Who could resist?

Taking Logan's hand once again Gary clambered up into the truck. It was big in the sense that the windscreen was massive and so was the control panel and wheel section on the inside. But when it came to seating it was just two seats quite close together. Neither of them had any complaints.

It also seemed like Logan didn't have any trouble making himself comfortable putting one of hi legs up resting on the wheel and spread the other so it was touching Gary, and his arms were spread out as well one put suggestively around Gary's shoulder. With his arms so outstretched and his suit now slightly more unzipped Logan's armpit stink was also becoming a lot more obvious. Gary didn't mind the fact that he was rapidly learning how generally smelly of a person Logan was.

Hearing a click Gary noticed the door was locked.

"Sorry man it's protocol, yeah protocol."

Gary was sure he was lying, but his survival instinct was being severely beaten by his lust.

"But anyway" Logan started fumbling in the glovebox and pulled out some bars "you want some fibre bars they're good?" He ravenously unwrapped one and practically ate it in one bite.

"Nah I'm good thanks."

"Well more for me then..." and Logan scoffed that bar as well.

Gary was thinking how horny he must be because he was even finding Logan eating the bars sexy. "Wow you sure are fond of those." He leaned closer into Logan.

Logan leaned back into him. "Well I'm sure you can guess why that is. Lifting his leg up.

FRRRRRRRRRRRRRAPPPPPT

The blast rippled against the chair and filled the small truck cabin with a hot eggy stink.

It was a lot and the smell was almost hurting Gary but it came from the proud Gary's ass so it made him unbelievably hard.

"Fuck that's disgusting..."

And he dove on top of Gary and they began to kiss hungrily. The stench clouding them was strong but all it seemed to do was further intoxicate their brains. As they broke apart the fireman unzipped his suit fully exposing his chest and to follow Gary unbuttoned his shirt.

FRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPP

Logan laughed raucously at the power of the blast and began wafting the fabric of the shit so the stink could hit Gary. And it hit him hard. He began rubbing against Logan more furiously.

"If I'm not confused it seems like you might be into my butt bombs, am I correct?"

I'm that moment Gary realised he was, but it didn't bother him so he just leaned into his ear and whispered.

"Well I am if they come from you.."

Smirking Logan said in a slightly more assertive tone "Oh God Gary you have no idea what you just signed up for..."

With that Logan grabbed the back of Gary's head and pushed it down in between his legs and on his crotch.

PHHHHHHHHHRALLLP

PAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRP

BBBBHRRRRRAPPPP

It was a barrage on Gary's nose and the stink was unbearable but the domination just made him even more turned on.

"Why don't you try sniffing it down there, I don't want to stink this place up too much?"

So Gary did using his nose as much as he could but his body was trying to stop him since the stench hurt him so much. But he still tried his best to inhale as much of Logan's ass stink as possible.

"Maybe it's just how bad my gas is but dude I can still smell it up here..." Logan pulled up Gary's head and with his other hand untucked his erect pole of a penis showing it off to the now salivating dirty Gary.

Using his strong arms he lifted Gary back onto his lap "Take off those trousers or I'll rip them off." It was a threat but still said with his charm. In attempt to be playful Gary turned around and leaned on the wheel pointing his ass at Logan letting out a fart of his own.

Pppppprffft

"So why don't you try and rip them off?"

Logan took what seemed to be a sniff of Gary's fart and chuckled.

"Good try but I think you really can't compare" With on hand he ripped off the ass and back of Gary's trousers making him moan in shock and proceeded to pull down the boxers underneath giving them a slap for good measure.

"And somehow that wasn't the biggest rip of today..."

PRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAPTTTT

"I'd say that was." He gave the entranced Gary a grin. The haze of hot gas hit Gary and attacked all parts of him it could. The eggy stink burning his nose and making him cough, and the heat of it making him sweat.

With Logan still having his cock out, Gary having his ass out and a wave of gaseous horniness clouding them, all Gary could do was clamber onto Gary's musky sweaty dick and start bouncing.

But each time Gary's ass slid down Logan's cock it obviously pushed a fart out of him.

PRFFFFFTTTT "Wow Gary that hole of yours is really doing a good job" FRRRAPPP "And I'm surprised a fragile guy like you can keep it up his my strong stink" PHHHHHRT "Really, usually no one could endure this much" BRTTTTTT "But I guess I'm just lucky I found myself a stink slut" PAAAAARAP

Logan with his signature gassy grin pulled Gary's moaning head in for a kiss.

"But now I think it's time for by burning ass to have its chance to speak uninterrupted..."

Moaning wildly Gary started bouncing his ass roughly on Logan again as he let out his most catastrophic blast yet.

PRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRUUUUUUUUSSSSHHHHHH

It was like a powerful windy gas leak filling the trick with a haze of boiling stink. It went on for what seemed like minutes. It's toxicity seemed to pleasure Logan taking deep whiffs of his own stink and moaning, while it completely took over Gary's conscience making his dick quiver as he inhaled the stink making him cum over Logan's chest, Logan soon followed inside Gary.

The euphoria they were both in was undescribable but the mixture of the toxicity of Logan's flatulence and exhaustion made Gary pass out in Logan's cum slicked chest.

Finally getting a moment to appreciate his work getting a good whiff, Logan wondering how he was going to explain himself to the crowd of horny firemen standing around his truck.

[emilyprentissisababe]

Hi my lovelies! I've been working on this Jemily college AU fic for awhile now. I'd love feedback! This is the first fic I've written in maybe 10 years, so please be gentile (but constructive if you've got any advice 😊 ). There will probably be 2 more chapters, so let me know if youd like to be tagged.

Thank you so much @books-cats-fandom for helping me with this and putting up with my whining. You're the best ❤. Also thank you to @bi-ssaemilyprentiss and @cicinicole-14 for being willing to read this for me!

There are no warnings. This is complete fluff. _____________________

Emily had a knack for not being able to sleep at night. For some reason all of the days events and tomorrows worries plagued her in the waning hours of darkness. As she laid in bed she couldn't help but feel anxious about what the new day would bring. She had midterms coming up, an eventual graduation, figuring out what to do next, and "real world" problems on the horizon. The main things dominating her thoughts tonight however? Jennifer Jareau. She and JJ had been mutual acquaintances for about a year now. Going to the same parties. Taking the same classes. But in the last three months they've become really close friends. They tell each other just about everything. Em even told her how it was hard for her to grow up moving around and how she had a hard time making friends. JJ told her how she was born prematurely and they doctors thought she wouldnt make it. They usually ended each day talking to each other. It was a nice occurrence for Emily. University life can be quite lonely sometimes.

Her phone lights up. "Speak of the devil". She thinks.

"How many pages should that paper be again?"

Emily looks at the clock. Its 3 AM. No rest for the wicked huh? "Umm, what are you doing awake? We have class at 9 tomorrow. You better be there, seeing your gorgeous face is the only thing that makes that class bearable."

"I've gotta finish this paper. Have you ever known me to skip class? You know me better than that! Wait....what are you doing awake?"

"Just thinking.."

"Thinking about what?"

"What happened today. With Caleb....I can't believe he asked you out, just like that, with all of those people standing there. With me standing there."

"Yeah, I was...taken off guard, that's for sure. I don't like him like that..."

"Then why did you agree to go?"

"Hes a nice guy, and I was so shocked, I just kind of nodded.....hey! I've got an idea, why dont you come with us?"

"Come with you on the date? Um, no thanks Jay, I dont want to be a third wheel."

"Then bring your own date. Theres gotta be SOMEONE you're interested in. "

"Well, there is someone I'm interested in, but I dont know how they feel about me and...idk"

"I'm sure they'll say yes if you ask them. You're so smart, and beautiful, and caring, and did I mention beautiful? Anyone would be lucky to date you."

Emily feels her heart skip a beat. Damn. She really knew how to get to her. "No, I dont think that's the best idea."

"Awww come on! At least tell me who it is!"

"You're getting distracted. Do your paper and get some sleep babe. You've gotta take care of yourself."

"Okay. Okay. Fine. But dont think I'll forget about this conversation. I want answers as to who's stolen your heart, Emily Prentiss."

Emily sighs, smiling into her phone. "Go to sleep. Goodnight ❤"

"Goodnight, lovely ❤"

____________________________________________

The next day Prentiss ran into class a few minutes before it started and was disappointed when all the seats next to JJ were taken.

"You were almost late 😂"

"Sush! You're the one texting in class 🙊"

"Umm, you just texted be back though."

"You're such a brat! 😂"

The professor then passed out a test that took the rest of the period. Emily took longer to complete it and by time she was done, JJ had already left. She wasnt sure why, but she felt a little disappointed when she walked out of the classroom and JJ wasnt there waiting for her. After a moment Emily was able to shake off her disappointment, she needed to go talk to a different professor and if she didnt leave now she would miss her. As she rounded the corner to her professors office she saw a little blonde head peak out from a door across the hall. She couldnt hide the smile that came across her face. Her professor was just on her way out of her office so Emily asked her question quickly and her professor left.

Suddenly JJ was behind her, "hey there." She said with a smirk playing on her lips.

"Hey you."

"How did you do on that test?"

"It was rough right?"

"Oh sush. You always get perfect grades."

"Umm so do you!" Emily said, leaning against the hall wall. JJ didnt say anything and just stared at Emily. After a few moment the blonde reaches over the space separating the two. Emily had been looking down at her boots as JJ gently lifted her chin.

"You're so beautiful." She said as she gently caressed Em's cheek. "And your skin is so soft." Emily blushed a little and then put her hand over JJ's, enjoying the touch. Emily was a little touch starved. Her mother wasnt the most nurturing parent and she hadn't dated anyone in a long time.

"Look at you though. Your eyes are my favorite color. Vast. Clear. Beautiful. Just like you." JJ smiled, making Emily's heart beat just a little bit faster. What was that about? She thought. Just as quickly as it happened, JJ pulled her hand back, leaving that spot on her cheek feeling cold, "oh shit, I'm going to be late! I'll talk to you later!" And with that, the blonde glided away, leaving Em, smiling and gently touching her cheek.

After class had finished that day Em had to go to work and then straight home to do homework. As she lay in bed that night, thinking yet again of Jennifer Jareau. She was notoriously good at overanalyzing everything. Tonight? The cheek caress. Why did she do that? What did it mean? Sure, they have been touchy before, mostly sitting close and brushing against each other, but this? This was so....blatant. This was so new. Emily is wrapped up in these thoughts when she gets a text, "Hey, party this Saturday. I'll go if you go!"

"Wait, you mean the infamous homebody Jennifer Jareau is going to a party this weekend? I'm so there!"

"We'll see who's infamous after this weekend. 😉" another text "you should bring that guy you were telling me about the other night. I need to meet him!"

"You know them better than you think..." Em typed, feeling her heart rate speed up. It was about time she admit to herself that she had feelings for JJ. How is that possible? She'd never had feelings for another woman before....

"Oh come on Em! Just tell me who they are! Maybe I could help them fall in love with you! It's such an easy thing to do! 😉"

Em sighed. It was about time to just admit her feelings. Maybe theyd go away if she just got it over with. Another text, "who is ittt?"

After taking a big breath, she types out, "it's you... " she closes her eyes and presses send. Her heart is beating so loudly she cant hear anything else.

"Oh, Em, I'm flattered. I'm just not in the position to be in a relationship right now...."

"That's okay! It honestly just feels good to get it off of my chest..."

"Babe. This wont affect anything. I promise. I want you to always be able to tell me the truth."

"Okay....good...I'll see you Saturday?"

"Yes! I'll see you Saturday! Be ready for a party!"

____________________________________________

If you've made it this far, thank you ❤ I appreciate you. If I'm being honest, I am writing this for a personal reason to help me deal with something that happened in my real life. So far it has been very cathartic.

I'm tagging @prentissisthebestest @mullinscarousel @unleash-the-doves @unitchiefwives @puke-and-nutballs @emily-prentiss-is-bea @blondeandbrunetteshipper @just-take-a-moment-and-dream @nekocrocs @magnificentperfectionmiracle @sunnysaysbookreviews @soul-disposition @katiealyssa96 @mikan-chan-the-obsess @oakleygartner @feelingsbutnofeelings @ryker-the-pta-mom becuase you all said you'd like to read this when I asked in a previous post. If you dont want to be tagged in the next chapters, just let me know. I'll understand. I hope you enjoyed it :)

[jarr13]

Day 3

So there is good news, I slept and had a repeat of the day before. I only hope this is actually me just getting better and not just a weird burst of slightly doing better. I feel like my days have passed me by and I just lay in the couch half dead. I’m surpisingly exhausted considering not feeling so fatigued today.

I had a conversation with my family as we reminisced about my childhood and life back home. They don’t understand why I dont talk to anyone anymore. I dont keep in touch, I ignore messages, I won’t answer phone calls and I don’t reach out to people even when I want to. The truth is, it has become overwhelming. When you dont have energy to get up and pee, keeping up a conversation becomes a very taxing task. I had inadvertently distanced myself from close ones becuause I have thought about killing myslef almost everyday for the past two years. It would be easier to do so, in my mind, the less im reminded of the people who care about me. I am my worst enermy and mind has consumed who I am. I am very unsure of who I am and what I like, I live on validation from other people. I hate most things about myself and I really tailored my life to be desirable to others. And tbh, it has neber worked becuase I rarely get the validation I want from people. As I child I was never allowed to be just me, I was vert much conditioned to be the best version of whatever is most desireable in society and its just not me. After years of living that way I am lost and shrowded in insecurity. It sucks becuase I have major trust issues and think that people cant like me without some motive. My fear of rejection has prevented me from trying to hard to step outside the box so I shut down. I dont want sympathy from people. People think that just expressing the ways our mind works means that I require some action from others but thats not true. Not for me at least. I am very self-aware and can see these things in my thoughht proces. What I need help with is how to change the parts of personality that are highly dysfunctional.

[letsimportanttreecollection-blog]

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I am a first year student a University, in full time education and I am planning to drop out of University within a month or so. My car insurance does say I am in full time education but when I leave; I will be classed as unemployed. If I leave in January, I am technically unemployed, can I still leave my occupation as full time University student? And how would the insurance company find out? Because to change my occupation title; the insurance company is charging 400. I have 8 months left till my renewal and by then I'll have a job and keep my insurance company updated about the changes in my occupation. What are the consequences that can happen?""

How much is Auto Insurance in Italy?

Hi, im going to be moving to italy with my wife and child to stay there for four years so i will be purchasing a vehicle to get around with, im planning on a car but i want to find out a little more of how much it can cost for insurance on autos over there, both for cars and motorcycles, if its cheaper for motorcycle i will probably just get one car for my wife and get a motorcycle for myself. Any information will be helpful and thanks ahead of time""

How much is insurance for jeeps?

I want to get a jeep cj7 or wrangler, but i have to make sure i can afford the insurance first. Im a 17year old guy in highschool. Are 4by4s more expensive for insurance?""

What does your car insurance company do for you?

If you are not at fault in an accident, what will your insurance company do in order to get your car fixed? How much help will they give you, or are we supposed to settle everything, make the calls etc. with the other carriers insurance. I was hit from behind while I was stopped at a yield sign. The other drivers fault ( a no-brainer). Yet I am getting different information from my agent, the other drivers agent, and even the auto-repair shop !!! Any feedback will help greatly.""

Temporary car insurance question?

In Which condition i can take temporary car insurance? i heard that it cannot be taken as general insurance is it true?

How much would Liability cost on my car?

Im 16 and i just got my license. Me and my dad are gonna go look at a car tomorrow. its a 1999 mitsubishi eclipse GS with 130,000 miles. take in to consideration all of the basic things of a teenager nothing special just an average kid how much would liability in wisconsin cost? all my friends say they pay around 65 a month but than i went to some insurance website and it said some crazy thing like 850 a month... how much for an average 16 year old kid am i gonna pay monthly for liability?""

I am looking at becoming a taxi driver and i am looking for quotes for insurance?

i need to find out how much it would cost me for hire and reward car insurance for the taxi and chauffering service on britians roads and if possible if i am able to pay with weekly payments

What is the least expensive color of car to insure?

I know red is the most expensive. I've heard that white is the least from one person and green is the least from another.

Cheap car insurance for a young driver on a VW Golf?

Where would be able to find the cheapest insurance for my Golf 1.6. I'm 17 years old and I'm going to be a named driver on my dads name (him being the main). The cheapest I can find is 2000. If anyone could find me a good website to find an insurance quote cheaper than that; it would be fantastic! Thanks in anticipation

Moped insurance in texas?

I am looking into getting a 49cc moped and am trying to figure out how much it would cost to insure it. I am a 25 yr old female with a clean driving record if that helps.

Why is my car insurance so expensive?

I'm 17 years old, with no convictions or points on my licence. I passed my test about a week ago, and I cannot get insurance for my VW polo 1.2, 02 plate lower than 10'000!!? What do I do?""

Where can I get some car insurance from?

Insurance for a 1998 ford explore

Does a paid speeding ticket affect auto insurance rates or anything?

Does a paid speeding ticket affect auto insurance rates or anything?

What are the cheapest home owner insurance for oklahoma city?

what are the cheapest home owner insurance for oklahoma city? can someone tell me which company give the cheapest rate and the best coverage please, thank you very much; this is my first time buy a house, if you have any advise please let me know, thanksssssssss a million :)""

Does Pass Plus reduce the insurance rate if the young driver with it is the second driver?

I'm 17 and want to get a second hand car but the insurance is too high. I plan to get the car, put it in my dad's name and then drive it myself. Will that reduce insurance premiums?""

""Is it possible to get insulin for a type 1 diabetic with no insurance, medicare or medicaid?""

My fiance has type 1 diabetes. He gets food stamps, but doesn't qualify for SSI for some reason. He's only 26. I am the only one working, getting minimum wage, and little hours. We can't afford to pay a doctor $100 just for them to tell him he has what he knows what he has, and to get a prescription that cost twice that. It just seems like a vicious cycle we cant get out of.""

""How much would you have to make to own a $50,000 car?""

the question is what would your salary have to be to go to a dealership and buy a brand new car worth $55,000 car not owning a home, or having anyother bills to pay not even a cell phone??? and what would you figure your monthly payment to be, and insurance????""

Is it true that the affordable care act will double the cost of my health insurance to meet the ACA requiremen?

Double premiums and out of pocket cost my health insurance is not from healthcare.gov exchanges

Where can i get the cheapest car insurance with a dui in northern michigan?

Where can i get the cheapest car insurance with a dui in northern michigan?

Car insurance site for 18 year old !!?

does any body no of a decent car insurance for an 18 year old ?

Would insurance cover it?

My husband was involved in a car accident 2 years ago...the people filed a claim/law suit recently over some 'injuries' (which is BS because he works with this guy and he was no injured), just 2 days before statue of limitation expires. Since my husband's work requires so much traveling, it was pointless for him to keep car/insurance if he never drives, we sold his car so he no longer has car insurance. Now that these people 2 years LATER decided to sue...would his old insurance take care of it since the accident happened while he did have car insurance? And he was driving a friends car at the time...not his own care.""

MICHIGAN NO FAULT INSURANCE?

I was in an accident today and the other person left the scene, cops came and got all of my info... my car is REALLY banged up.... i have michigan no fualt insurance becuase that is all i can afford... a $500 deductible ..what does this mean? how much will my insurance company cover to get my car fixed? thanks""

Best Averaged sized car for a teenager?

So I'm going for my license soon and we're starting to look at cars to get me around. I want something that's pretty easy on gas, reliable, easy on car insurance cost, doesn't cost an arm and a leg but ALSO isn't a tiny car like the Chevy Aveo because most of the people in my family are pretty tall for instance my mom is 5'9 I'm 5'7 /5'8 and my other sisters are also about the same height. I've been thinking about the Prius because I hear it's got some leg room and is easy on gas, but people say that batteries are more harmful than regular ones and all this jazz. Then I thought about the Honda Insight but I heard that the headroom in the back is not comfortable. I was thinking the Hyundai Sonata, but the only model I really like is the 2011 and I don't think the insurance company takes kindly to teenagers driving new cars. I would prefer not too big or long a car like the Toyota Avalon, but it's manageable. Any suggestions?""

New Effington South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57255

New Effington South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57255

""Conservatives, you're always claiming that Obama-care is the reason that insurance costs are increasing, so?""

regarding the 80% increase in insurance premiums, and the 11% increase in the number of Americans who did not have health insurance coverage during the Bush presidency, was that because a magical elf traveled back in time to the year 2000 to tell insurance company executives that Obamacare was coming? Or could it be that insurance premiums have been increasing at an average rate of 8 to 11% per year for about the last 15 years and the increases we've seen in the last few years aren't indicative of costs associated with Obama-care (Which hasn't even been fully implemented yet) and Conservatives are just trying to make political hay out of cost increases that are consistent with established trends?""

How does the insurance company find out about moving violations?

My understanding is that when you get a moving violation (e.g, a speeding ticket), the police or the courts or whoever will notify your insurance company. When your insurance company finds out and finds out about the points that are now on your license, they raise your insurance premium. However, a friend tells me that he's received several speeding tickets, that his insurance company has never found out (meaning no one is notifying his insurance company), and that his premium has therefore never gone up. How is that possible?""

Don't want to renew Virgin car insurance but having problems contacting them?

I recieved a renewal car insurance quote from Virgin which is really high. I have shopped around and decided to buy my insurance elsewhere. The only problem is Virgin automatically renew my car insurance for me unless I tell them not to. The only method that they give to contact them is a phone number. I have been on call waiting for 20 minuted now and still not managed to get through to them. Does anyone know of another way of contacting them as I am worried that my call will never get answered and I will be forced to keep my insurance with them?

Health insurance help?

usually, how much does it cost monthly for health insurance in california, marin county?""

""I'm 17 years old, and I'm going under my parents driver's insurance plan soon for driving, how much is it?""

My parents said I can drive now that I got a job, however I will have to go under their plan, and I'll have to pay the insurance. How much will it be? (:IMPORTANT NOTE: I took $1000 driving classes) So I'm guessing that will reduce the cost? Also I live in the state of PA and my parents are on AllState Insurance. So how much will the insurance be every month if I'm under my parents plan? AFTER I TOOK THOSE DRIVING CLASSES! And how long can I stay under my parents driving insurance? When will I NOT BE ABLE TO stay under my parents driving insurance? Or am I always able to stay under their driving insurance if I want to?""

How much does canadian car insurance cost for a 20yr old male NEW driver for a used CAR or used SUV?

Just give me an estimate for a car or an suv in canada. Just an estimate. I know its different for all cars and suvs but just give me an idea obviously the differences CANNOT be thousands and its gonna be in a certain range. if u can give me a range fine, give me a range im just a new driver and male, 20. these stupid car insurance companies cant even give me that much its not like im going to be paying 9000$ instead of 300$.""

How much does Bmw Insurance costs?

My dad and I will buy a BMW 2006-2008 3 Series he is 45 and he pays for his mazda 3 year 1998 80$ per month, but i wanna know how much will it costs for a BMW..we live in florida and i am 19""

Which Of These Cars Has The Cheapest Insurance ?

For a first time, 17 year old driver ? Vauxhall Corsa Fiat Punto Daewoo Matiz Ford Ka Ford Fiesta Rover 200 Renault Clio Ford Puma Thanks, I will choose a best answer aswell Any help appretiated =)""

Wwhat are the characteristics of disability insurance ?

Wwhat are the characteristics of disability insurance ?

How much will the insurance pay me?

I got a 87 mustang and a truck hit my front bumper. I made a report and i need to wait about for days to pick up the report at the police station. I had a Stalker front bumper by the way. How much y'all thing there going to give me back, because they usually send a check after they inspect the car. They need to buy a $500 Stalker Cervini bumper install it and paint it. It was his fault and his insurance needs to pay, but im just wondering because sometimes insurance companies are pain in th bud!!""

Any idea how much insurance for a new male driver 25 years old?

passed test january 2009, car with smallest engine something like a corsa 1.0 nothing flashy ,just need a quick kind of quote ....split up with partner whos taking me off car insurance....any insurance companies reccomended .cheers emma for a friend xxxx""

How much will my car insurance be?

I live in Dallas Texas, I'm 18 years old, I've had defensive driving school, which I've been told gives you at the most 10% off your rate...i own a 1998 Jeep Grand Cherokee Laredo, in REALLY good condition, car alarm...all the gadgets...but since I'm 18 who would be the best to go with...also I'm seeking FULL Coverage for the first 6 months of driving in Dallas, because people do not know how to drive and I want to make sure I'm covered...any help or advice??? THANX""

""Car insurance, help!!?""

Hi I am 17, soon to be 18 in January! i have not took my test yet but it is very soon, if i pass i am looking to get a citroen c1 or peugeot 107, the maximum i am willing to pay on insurance is 2800, maybe 3000. I cant seem to find a quote reasonable anywhere, i dont know if it is something im doing wrong. I will not be getting the car until my 18th birthday so i would be 18 when the policy starts not 17 if that helps. Would anyone be able to help me???? thanks""

Can I own a car with no insurance?

I'm sixteen and looking to buy a car. I'll have a license in about 4 months, but I want to buy a car first - that way I'm good to go. Is it legal to let my car sit in my garage or driveway for a few months without insurance or plates? I know plenty of people who have had cars before they've had licenses, but I want to make sure I'm not breaking any laws. I live in Connecticut. Thanks!""

Can I buy a used car without insurance?

I'm only 18 and I got accepted for a car loan. It's about $200 a month but I can afford the car insurance rate now. I'm buying the car from a dealership. Can I buy the car then drive it home and let it sit till I get insurance? Or can they deliver the car? If I drive it home rate away wouldn't it be like a test drive for the used car?

Car insurance for husband and wife.?

Recently I went to insure my daughter and her car in the company me and my wife have been insured for some time. I wanted to include myself in her insurance but it went up in premiums a lot and we decided to insure her without me as an additional driver. Before that (last year to be exact) I insured my wife and I was included as a second driver. Basically, I was advised to do so on the basis that it would be cheaper. I heard about this option before and therefore did not check it properly with this company. This time (with my daughter) this option went an opposite way with higher premiums, so I asked them whether I can exclude myself from my wife's insurance as well because my insurance allows me to drive any car, but was told: ...because you are husband and wife, by law you cannot drive her car without being included in her insurance policy whatsoever... I am suspicious about this statement now and feel that I am being cheated. Does anybody know whether this rule exist or is it just the usual salesmen lie? Thank you.""

Ballpark figure on motorcycle insurance?

First please don't tell me to call my insurance agency, that's why I'm on here. I just want an estimate I'm 17, male, it's a 1999 cbr600f4, I don't want full coverage, just liability, I am on excelsior high honor roll at school, I took the msf course, I have had my moorcycle license for a year now, I live in upstate new york. And would be riding leisurely. Any guesses? How much do u pay, how old are you etc. Thanks!""

Insurance on a cbr 600rr for a 20 year old in California?

Ive had my normal license (California) for 3 years and just got my motorcycle license. I am looking to buy a street bike, a sport bike specifically. I've looked at all the sporty bikes from 250 to 1000 and I plan on getting a 600 because I've been riding dirtbikes since I could walk so I know I'd get bored of a 250 but at the same time I know I'd kill myself on a 1000. I have a clean driving record aside from one speeding ticket(wasn't even speeding horribly) and a couple parking tickets. So what I'm ultimately trying to figure out is what the cost of my insurance would be and what insurance provider would give me the best coverage on my bike. I know I plan on getting liability since it is cheaper but any and all insight or examples would be very helpful. *people on yahoo love to hate on questions, so if you're one of those poeple, don't even comment. I know how bikes work and I've ridden them before, just need advice on insurance. Thank you!!""

Fastest accelerating car in the insurance group 1-3?

Hello, I am going to be turning 17 shortly and would like some advise on which car that would be very responsive and quick. My budget for the car itself is 1450 but there could be a bit of flexibility. As I am sure you all know, insurance for new drivers is very high, so I want something in between groups one and three as I believe that is the area that I can afford. Could I also please ask for serious answers. I am not not wanting to drive irresponsibly, if that is a worry to some contributors. Thanks.""

Can i get cheaper car insurance with historical license plates?

can i get cheaper car insurance with historical license plates

CRAZY Insurance Premium! Any way out?

From Toronto, Ontario, I am a 19 y/o male and want my own vehicle. Without paying a crazy insurance rate of $6000+ per year, how can a 3rd vehicle be purchased and licensed under my parent's name (I live with them) having them as the primary driver? The problem is, from what I know, if I am licensed and living at the same address, I will automatically be primary driver of the 3rd vehicle as now there are 3 drivers and 3 vehicles. So what if my parents had 6 cars? There must be some way out..""

How high are insurance rates for a 2009 Mitsubishi Lancer GT?

Its a car with the whole package; mags, sunroof, skirt, spoiler, sound etc. It's a 4 door 2.0L 4 cylinder. I'm wondering how much insurance I'll be paying in comparison to a Hyundai Elantra GL to which I was quote 1300 a year for - yikes! Anyone own this vehicle in Canada? Btw I'm 20, clean record, been driving for 2-3 years (dont even remember honestly).""

Car accident without insurance?

I hit a parked car with a moving truck. My insurance was evoked at the time of the accident and I got a phone call today from the insurance company of the car I hit saying that the ...mostrar mais

What's the Cheapest Car insurance for First Time Driver?

I just wanna have the cheapest car insurance. I dont need the insurance cover anything. just the cheapest! which company would be the best except geico, progressive or Liberty Matual? Something else?""

Am I covered on someone else's insurance?

For example: I am a licensed driver first off. My grandma can't drive very well. Sometimes I take her places if I have time using her truck that has insurance on it. If she is with me every time I drive her somewhere, do I have to be insured? (Louisiana)""

New Effington South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57255

New Effington South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57255

Stopped for no car insurance but we do have insurance car seized not fair?

11.30pm last night pulled over said no insurance.Did not have insurance document in the car,just the license.Because of the time they seized the car because they could not phone the insurance company.Told them only way i can get proof is bank statement as i was 20 miles from home,but that was still not good enough.I have paid insurance by direct debit for the last 2 years and no problems.so i am well cheesed off this has happened. Have produced the lenience at local station,and shown them documents,they phoned the insurance company and have now give released papers to pick up the car.I am very unhappy with this whole situation and now out of pocket. Is there anyway of claiming the costs from police or insurance company,whoever it is to blame,as there is no way i can be liable for something i am paying for,and to pay 30in taxi fares another 20 to get to the car compound and another 170 to release the car.There must be a way i claim this money back as i feel i am in the right.plus have to fight the 200 fine and 6points also totally unfair and messed up situation this is. I just can't except the inconvenience and the costs that i have to pay when i am legit on the road.surely i can claim if anyone knows""

Do insurance companies operate on bank holidays?

I wouldn't mind getting some insurance for my moped tomorrow, but I heard its bank holiday monday...Will this stop me getting through to them?""

Where can i get cheap car insurance?

I keep trying to find a cheap car insurance as a new driver but the cheapest I get is bloody 3000 pounds .

How much should I insure a 2 bedroom condo for?

I want to buy insurance for a 2 bedroom, 1150 square foot condo in Orange County, California. I am interested in knowing how much coverage to buy to cover inside damage due to a catastrophe like a fire for example. I don't care about coverage for personal belongings or outside of the building. I just need to know what it costs to restore the inside walls, floors, etc. in case they are ever destroyed.""

Car accident but driver isnt under my insurance?

Last month my boyfriend and I were driving and someone rear ended my car. I am insured under Mercury insurance and the car is owned under my moms name. My bf has his own insurance but not for my car. We were not at fault but I'm nervous about filing a claim with the insurance company cause he is not under my insurance and was driving my car.. A police report was filed.. But what will happen if I file a claim with Mercury insurance? Will I get charged or fined for letting someone that wasn't on my insurance drive my car? Or can I not file a claim to the other company cause he isn't insured under the car that was damaged ? and if I ask my representative from Mercury what will happen will she report me even if I don't file a claim for letting someone who isn't under our insurance drive the car?

Consequence of lending your car in terms of car insurance?

If I lend my car to my brother or sister, but I have car insurance, will they get a ticket when they drive? The car insurance covers the cost of the damage to the car, so does it matter who is driving it? What is the purpose of having someone as a secondary driver?""

On average how much does it cost a year to drive for a 20yr old in UK?

I'm planning to start driving (im already learning)but I have big plans I want to carry out and been told I won't e able to if I start driving I spend about 120 a month on bus fair already but how much would driving cost? Would it make any difference on insurance if I waited till I was 21?

Can I cancel my car insurance at any time?

I've been with Zurich car insurance for 1 year and 10months, insured on my mums car as named driver. The time has come to get myself a car on my own insurance. We pay the current insurance monthly. There are two months left on the current policy, is there normally any cancellation fee's? If so, ruffly how much should I be looking at? Also.. Would I have any NCB as I was named driver on the policy? Thanks.""

Car Insurance Cost Estimate (UK)?

Iam 21 and 22 this year, i want to know an estimate car insurance cost for any car for a new driver, note i have passed my driving test a few years ago should be around 18, but i didnt really need a car back then. if Sum1 knows roughly how much i should be paying for car insurance please post here. i dont mind having the lowest benefits etc... just want a cheapest price estimate.""

What are your utilities like in Georgia. How much do you pay ? What do you pay for car insurance on a yearly?

What are your utilities like in Georgia. How much do you pay ? What do you pay for car insurance on a yearly?

I am about to be 18 and i wont a gsxr 1000 and im wondering about the price of insurance?

I am wondering the price ranges.

How do I find out my cars auto insurance points rating system?

Insurance companys give cars a rating number to determine if one type of car pays more insurance then the other. Where can I find out what the number of my car would be?

Insurance for an SRT-10?

Hi is there anyone out there (in the UK) who knows of an insurance company that does a good deal on SRT-10 fully comp. I'm struggling to get it under 1200.00 per year, and the one I am going to buy is upgraded to 600BHP as well, so I know I'll pay more for this on top""

What does insurance mean?

Well I'm 16 and I don't know what insurance means : so I heard that louis' bum has insurance? What does that mean

Car Insurance and Registration?

I am a Kansas Resident and have a Kansas Drivers License; however, I am studying in California for the next four years. I am receiving a car from my friend as a gift, but it's already registers at California. What do I do to make it legal for me to drive it?""

""This is the time to renewal of my auto insurance, but do not want to continue the same company.?""

So I purchase a new policy from other company, but my previous insurance company sending me e-mail and mail me, that insurance gap will u cost and it might harm me financially. But as I already purchased new policy and will start as soon as previous one expire. so do I need to worry? ( is the current insurance company doing their job to aware me or they to threat me so I go back to them)""

How much should I expect to pay for car insurance at 37 years? I have a clean record.?

moving out of the city, and I am gonna need to buy a car for my Suburban life!!""

How much would insurance be on a 2001 convertible mustang for a 16 year old?

hey everyone I was wondering what price range i would be looking at for a 2001 convertible mustang. not looking for a exact answer just a ballpark range. I have a 3.00+ gpa male 16 year old no ABS on car convertible thanks all.

""Could $5,000 cover the healthcare insurance premium for a family?""

If McCain's credit becomes reality, doesn't it seem logical that a major healthcare provider would put together an affordable health insurance package for the credit amount and market the heck out of it? Obviously, it won't have all the bells and whistles, but people would be covered. There is the issue of the tax on the premium, but it still seems like a good idea. This link was interesting - it describes both plans clearly: http://money.cnn.com/2008/03/10/news/economy/tully_healthcare.fortune/""

How much do you think my car insurance would be(details inside)?

I am 15, I have taken drivers ed and I have my restricted liscense. I have a 3.8 gpa(I heard you get a discount for that) and I live in Kansas. I am looking at a 1995 Ford Explorer with 168,000 miles. I know you couldn't tell me exactly, but about what do you think my monthly payment would be? Thanks""

Car insurance write off price?

If an insurance company (Admiral) writes off a car thats been in an accident,what percentage of the car do they normally Pay? The car is 10 months old and been owned by us from new?""

Do you need the VIN to purchase insurance?

my husband bought a car at an auction today with his friend, we will have the car tomorrow by 1pm but were hoping to get insurance bought in the morning, do we need the VIN to purchase insurance so he can drive it tomorrow?""

Is it illegal to not have car insurance?

and if it's not illegal, what am i getting confused with?! i always thought it was illegal....? my friend is getting his car and he said it's a crappy car so there isn't any need to insure it. ???""

Driving without a license and no insurance?

I recently got pulled over in GA im from PA for driving without a license and no insurance on my car and i was sent to jail and i bailed out and i go back to court in April and i was wondering if i should waste my time on actually getting an attorney and what exactly you think they'll do to me. And is there anything i can do to go in there and fix the problem like get my license or will it show up in the DMV that i went to jail for not having one? I figured if i could go get my license and my insurance figured out maybe the charges wouldn't be so harsh. Any ideas?

How much would i pay for car insurance?

Im 17 and i had my g2 for about 9 months now. No accidents no tickets no nothing. I'm a good respectful driver. I drive my moms car which is automatic. its a rav 4. my dad has a van and doesn't want to drive manual. I really want to get a car because i like manual and i want to get experience with it. I would like it really soon. If i were to get an older honda civic or toyota corolla manual 5 sp, How much do u think i would pay for primary.""

New Effington South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57255

New Effington South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57255

Can my car insurance company do this?

I called my insurance company yesterday to get a quote for a change of vehicle as I was planning to buy a new car. They said my monthly premium would still stay the same and the quote was only valid till end of the day which is fair enough. They said they give the quote on whatever the insurance rate is at the current time so if i was to call another day it could go up but it shouldn't go up that much. So I went to view the car yesterday evening and decided to buy the car. I called my insurance company today and they said it would cost me an extra 350 to get me insured on the car. So i asked them how could it go from nothing to 350 within a day. They come out with the quote is based on the daily rate of insurance and they cant do nothing about it. I wouldn't have mind if it went up by 100 or so but from nothing to 350 in one day is a big jump. Is there anything I can do?

What is average annual homeowners insurance premium in los angeles?

What is average annual homeowners insurance premium in los angeles?

I have geico auto insurance .I moved to another state and got cheaper insurance.Do i need to provide geico wi?

new insurance company name and info or are they just supposed to cancel my policy .

Young Drivers Car Insurance In London?

Hey there, i live in a area that gets me pretty high quotes for an 18 year old.. Well my dad's purchasing a car and i asked if he could insure me on it too and he agreed to this but i've gotta find a decent insurer first.. I mean i'm getting quotes such as 3,000 a year that's pretty high for a 01 plate corsa.. I was just asking for people with experience on maybe any ways i can reduce this price.. Maybe a really cheap insurer you know? or any help would be appreciated if you know the situation i'm in. Thanks!!""

Do you need social security number to purchase car insurance?

Im a student under student visa here in california, I want to purchase car insurance but dont have a ssn. If you can, which companies will and which will not?""

Where to find a reliable and cheap insurance for my 2008 car?

I'm frustrated with my previous insurance company, it's expensive and unreliable which means most of the time they dont pay my claims. :'(""

How can I find out what auto insurance a company has?

OK. So I use to work for this repossession company and I was hit by an idiot that ran a red light. Anyway after the accident I got a lawyer. I quit there shortly after. Well the insurance card in the tow truck was expired and not the right company . When the company switch insurance they forgot to put the new card in.. well since the drive that hit me did not have insurance the personal injury will be covered by the companies insurance. But the owner will not tell my lawyer the name of the insurance company or anything. And said your gonna have to take me to court. He is a real jerk btw. So does anyone know how I could find out online or something what company they were with at the time of the accident??

What happens if lie to your car insurance company?

So i dented my mother's car by hitting another car. i told my mother it was a hit and run and she told me she was going to have the insurance company take care of it. The dent on the car wasn't that bad but it was pretty noticeable but the car that i hit didn't have any dents, just a few scratches .So the owner of car came out and took a look at her car and she said don't worry about it and thats when she let me go. I was pretty shocked of how she handle the situation. So can the car insurance find out if I'm was lying? i told them that a scooter hit it. The dent almost looks like somebody through a rock at it. The dent doesn't really look like i drove it into a car. its a really small dent with little cracks.""

1992 BMW 850I CALIFORNIA INSURANCE PRICE?

IM 19 YEARS OLD I PAY $115 FOR MY TOYOTA MR2

Cheap Car Insurance for a 20 year old...?

I'm 20 years old I live in Houston, Tx 77045 I have a 2003 Toyota Corolla CE. I never had accidents, or traffice tickets. I need a insurance that will not be so high. Any suggestions? Thanks..""

Am I covered by my dad's liability insurance?

I just got my license, but my dad says I can't drive his car because I don't have insurance. The car itself has liability insurance under his name, but he says I would need liability insurance before I can drive any car, even if it's just once in awhile. That doesn't really make sense to me, to have car insurance even though I don't have my own car... Is he right? If I were to get in an accident in his car would it not be covered by his liability insurance? Thanks in advance.""

How much would it up my car insurance if I started a weekend driving school business?

I currently pay about $700 per car.

Can I be on someone's auto insurance policy if I don't live with them?

I'm 16 and I would have my first car if it wasn't for insurance. I got some quotes and the cheapest one was like 316 a month. Is there any way I can be on my grandparents' policy if they live 60 miles away? I go up there almost every weekend. Also would it be cheaper if I was on their policy versus me having my own? Thanks in advance.

""Where can I find an AFFORDABLE health insurance in Dallas, TX?""

to cover my family; me, wife, 3 kids. without too much deductions. I only know Unicare and BlueCross offers lower rates, but wanted to see if you guys can find something lower than Unicare and BlueCross. Can I apply health insurance internationally like Canada or should I wait until Democrat president to setup an special health insurance plan (I forgot what its called)? Thanks!""

How can a non BC resident be on a car insurance (ICBC)?

BC only has one choice of auto insurance, ICBC (gov't run). And ICBC is not flexible and so expensive. I have a car insurance from ICBC on my car, but they told me that when my boyfriend who has an international driver's license cannot drive my car under my insurance. I thought about renting a car so he can be insured and drive. But ICBC's rental car insurance does not cover non BC residents either. So how people who visit BC from other countries travel and be insured to drive a car??? Any information will be much appreciated. Thanks!""

How does Progressive compare your insurance rates with top companies?

How is that possible? I've applied for Progressive quotes before (and wasn't impressed at all), but how are they able to do that? Insurance companies all have complex formulas that are used to calculate rates using several factors, including driving history, location, credit, household drivers, vehicles, etc. Unless they have robots online that steal competitors' bandwidth and automatically fill out the forms, it doesn't seem possible. If that was the case, you would think other companies would block Progressive from abusing their servers. Any ideas?""

Quick insurance quotes with no personal info?

Hi, I'm doing some research into what I want my first car to be. I've narrowed it down to the original Golf GTI, original Mini Cooper S and the Peugeot 205 GTI. I love all these cars but I need to insure them for a 17year old boy. I am a careful driver but you know how expensive insurance is. I live in the UK and want a quick insurance quote without having to put in all my details such as where I live. Any websites that can let me do this? Thanks!""

""I need short term auto insurance, since i will be on vacation for 45 days in southern california,?

Now my insurance company doesn't cover me in the states

Is there any way of avoiding finance charges on monthly motor insurance ?

Like everyone, I'm strapped for cash and the other half's credit cards are maxxed out. In fact I'm so considered so bad for credit now even a loan shark wouldn't touch me with a bargepole despite having a job and being a discharged bankrupt - however my car insurance is due. Is there any way around the extra charges ? My renewal quote was 258 if payed in one lump, yet searching for monthly payments my cheapest payback is 366 over 12 months. Not that I'd ever accuse the banks of ripping us off. Any idea's ??""

Why do auto insurance company ask for social security number when asking for a quote?

must i give my social security number if i were to purchase a auto policy?

Who is the Blonde looking for better insurance rates in the progressive insurance commercial.?

She works alongside Stephanie Courtney in the progressive insurance company commercials.

Will my Car Rental include insurance?

I'm hiring a car in Texas from Avis, it says it Includes Unlimited mileage, CUSTOMER FAC FEE, TRANSPORTATION FEE, VEH LICENSE FEE, Additional Liability Insurance (ALI), Collision Damage Waiver (CDW) - does this mean I won't have to arrange my own car insurance (I live in the UK) to cover driving the hire car abroad?""

Why is my car insurance so much cheaper than other companies?

i was looking around for auto insurance to see if there was anything cheaper than what im paying now. im a 20 year old male with a 2005 scion tc. i have been driving for about 2 years and currently use state farm. when i first insured my car 2 years ago, i was paying $148/mo. due to a speeding ticket, it has risen to $194/mo. i also have comprehensive and collision with a $500 deductible. $100,000/$300,000 coverage with full glass also. not complaining, i think this is great i looked at nationwide, allstate, geico, and progressive. these companies are supposed to be so great, but progressive quoted me at $485/mo for the same coverage! the other companies where all in that general area. progressives state minimum coverage plan for me was almost $300/mo. why do these other companies cost so much more? im not complaining about mine, obviously im not gonna switch, but i am curious as to the difference in price.""

Can I get the tax for my partners car as insurance will be in my name but the car will be in her name?

Neither of us have a car at the minute but my partners mum wants to buy her a car. The car will obviously be put in her name as it is being bought for her but she can not drive at the minute so I will be taking out the insurance in my name as I will be the main driver but we will need to tax the car can I get the tax for the car even if the car is not in my name but the insurance is in my name?

Polk County Auto Insurance?

Hi, is it true that come this October no auto insurance will be required or is it just another rumor?""

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