#but None of them are allocishet

[mildlyinterestedcreature]

My Headcanoned labels for the doctors (no none of them are allocishet obviously) classic edition

[1: heteroflexible genderfluid, 2: queer demiboy, 3: gay greyromantic, 4: rainbow because I have no clue what’s going on with that dude, 5: aroace, 6: gay aromantic, 7: non-binary asexual, 8: aroace]

[transfrogrified-in-the-void]

Stop telling me he's a narcissist.

My abuser is a narcissist. These two terms used to describe him, abuser and narcissist, are entirely separate from each other.

The immediate, intentional, and extended harm that I suffered at his hands was not a cause of his narcissism. The amount of control he loved to wield over me is not a symptom of his mental state, but rather a reaction to losing control of someone else.

The panic and paranoia he gave me about my friends wasnt a want to be the most important person I thought about. He wanted me to be alone and afraid and easily manipulated, because that gave him power.

My grooming by his hands was simply a belief that he, an allocishet man, was deserved sex. My eventual detransition was an intentional conversion tactic, because he would never have sex with a filthy tranny. These are his actions as an abuser, not a narcissist.

In all honesty, his narcissism has always been incredibly separate from his abuse. His genuine belief that his pragmatics and lack of education made him a smarter, more well read person than his friends and family was a symptom. His deconstruction of arguments on the basis that he knew more than his opponent was a symptom. The way he couldnt cope with the thought that maybe he doesn't know everything, or that he might not be the best at something, or that people don't like being around him, is a symptom.

There are other symptoms of his narcissism that, because I do not like divulging traumas without explicit permission (and I am no contact with him), I cannot and will not say.

I do not believe my abuser's narcissism is the reason he's a bad person, either. The same way his abuse of me was because he's an abuser.

My abuser is a bad person because he uses people's secrets to destroy their relationships. He takes enjoyment from making people upset or feel stupid. His choice in partner only supports this.

My abuser's girlfriend's favorite thing to do is make people feel bad about themselves. She loves to call people [r slur] and faggot (in the intonation of a slur) because it makes them feel bad. My abuser supports this. Because he is a bad person.

None of this has anything to do with his narcissism. If he didn't abuse me, and if he wasn't a bad person, the narcissism would still exist. Because that's how he is. Without his narcissism, I still would have been abused.

Stop telling me that my abuse exists because of his narcissism. Stop telling me his cruelty towards others is because he's a narcissist. He abused me because he could, and because it was easy. He is cruel because he likes to be. He is a narcissist because of childhood trauma. These things are different.

So stop telling me he's a narcissist. I know. He's also an abuser.

[lesbian-boyfag]

intro post finally

‼️IMPORTANT‼️: this is a sideblog. i follow/like with my main. please do not spread my main around. feel free to follow/interact with me on my main but i will NOT be posting anything overly nsfw there. if you do interact with me on there do not expect anything sexual. my main is pg 13.

- Neon, 19, he/him preferably but any pronouns (including neos, except she/her) are fine. masc/neutral honorifics and terms are preferred but fem ones are ok (depending on kink/my headspace)

- nonbinary transmasc whatever you wanna call it. none gender with left boy. pre everything but hoping to start t soon (next spring!!)

- sapphic lesbian bi whatever you wanna call it. only romantically attracted to women but will fuck anyone (excluding cishet men)

-t4t preferred

- switch (switch/sub to gorgeous women and dom to pretty boys)

DNI: allocishets, christians, minors, typical dni criteria(all the -ists and -phobes) and anyone who doesn’t understand the difference between a kink and real life

‼️CISHET MEN! if we do interact you will NOT be the dominant person in that scenario! i don’t date men and when i do sleep with them they’re the ones bending‼️

kinks: intox/forced intox, forcefem/forcemasc (being nb means i get to do both🤭), fauxcest(with limits), ageplay (with limits), pee (NO drinking), humiliation (giving), praise(receiving), bondage(giving), LIGHT spanking, public play (with limits)

kinks i find hot but don’t personally engage or participate in: cnc, somno, and most kinds of dubious or non consensual kinks, fantasy beastiality, detrans kinks, hypno, edging, free use

hard limits: scat, blood play, race play, irl beastiality, feederism/starvation, heavy impact play

anatomical terms: in ok a mix of both ‘female’ and ‘male’ terms so any is fine. i reeaaallyy love mixing terms w stuff like ‘boytits’ or ‘boypussy’ so those are good too

(it’s fine to interact if you’re into any of my limits, but don’t get mad if i block/unfollow if things get too intense for me to handle. don’t involve me in these kinks either, i will block you.)

asks and dms are very welcome but ill only talk to people im mutuals with/familiar with. pls don’t dm me expecting me to want to talk to a stranger.

this post will be edited frequently to add/remove relevant info

[topherbuttz]

Yeah actually I don't feel like bothering people on this so I'm making my own post.

Shut the fuck UP you disgusting pig. Trans Liberation is The People's Liberation and until we live in a world where we are seen as equivalent to a cis person I can and will threaten the lives of bigots around me. Are you so comfortable you're willing to roll over and allow them to legislate our existence out of the world???

Let me make one thing clear to you, since I do know you struggle with putting together basic concepts, Jeffrey:

Bigots will not be happy until we are dead. I am not allowed to simply LIVE in any way that will be tolerable for them. Even if I stay in my 'lane' (being a 'girl') I am not ever going to meet the standard of allocishetnormativity they want me to. None of us will. Hell, even allocishets don't meet their impossible standards, the bar will always be changing.

So you can either stand on the side of justice and use your fists to bring equality like the rest of us, or fold your hands in your lap like a good little queer while they shoot you dead.

@xxxbloodskiesdarkwaterxxx

[green-enby]

Wonderfully put. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Hopefully, I don't derail…

Last Pride I went to, I gave a very similar speech on aroallomisia—I'm just sick and tired of the presentability politics within a community of people that should be used, by now, to getting hate no matter what they do. Don't you know bowing your head down to the oppressors, trying to assimilate, doesn't actually solve anything?

What are you trying to prove by saying "I still feel Pure Love, just like you! I'm not a sex-obsessed freak!". Don't you know all the work the queer community has done to dismantle sex-negativity? Are you really gonna shit on all the decades of activism that have been carried out? How could you disrespect your predecessors like that?

Why do you even WANT to be "like them", when all they've done is treat your identity like a mental illness or a threat, take your rights, and treat you like shit, even if you give in to their every request to be "one of the good ones"? Do you seriously think they don't secretly think ALL ounces of queerness are deplorable?

Don't you know if you succeed in pushing the aros out, it will never end? I think alloro queers do this because they think it will gain conformant society's favour and grant them rights, but trust me it won't. Once they kick the aros out, they'll come for every other facet of our community, trans and intersex people, and yes, even the bis, until it's back to just the L and the G, and then it all crumbles, because queerphobia can never be satiated. I'm not being catastrophic. People don't realize they're playing the same game as queerphobes when they do inter-community discrimination and exclusion.

"Love is Love" only succeeds in climbing the first step of the ladder (and not even that well) by dismantling heteronormativity, but essentially recreates something identical to it in the form of amatonormativity. That's not what we're supposed to fight for. Wake up. Love is Love is a TERRIBLE slogan. How about "Empower Everyone To Be Themselves Unapologetically"? (Something shorter would be better I know, lol. Curious to see any better slogans you know of!)

I personally like to call the attitude I described above "being a pick-me queer". It helps me to see in like this—I mean, don't we all hate being perceived as a pick-me in general? Maybe this will help people out of their internalized queerphobia. It certainly did with me. (Also, seriously watch the video "Shrek is queer culture and here's why". That was my wake-up call.)

I wish the queer community of all things would be as wary of falling for pick-me rhetoric as the general population is. We've all been looked at like freaks for as long as we've been out, and no matter what you do as a queer person, if you have lots of sex, if you have none, again, it's never gonna be good enough for conformant society.

Instead of fighting the aroallos (or any other minority within the minority), put all that energy outwards. Fight alongside them. Listen to them, like you want to be listened to by perisex allocishets. Respect them, even if you don't understand. We're stronger together.

People are now calling aros homophobic for saying "love loses" and disliking the phrase "love is love"

I don't dislike the phrase "love is love" because I'm aro and I hate the concept of love and I want to trample on queer joy and I don't understand the meaning behind love is love.

I dislike the phrase "love is love" because I don't believe that minorities should have to say "we're just like you!" In order to be accepted. I dislike it because it doesn't apply to all queer people, (including bisexuals, gays, lesbians, etc) but people treat it like it does. I dislike it because it's a product of a sex-negative society that deems queer people to be disgusting sex pests and instead of going "that's fucked up because there's nothing wrong with sex" people go "that's fucked up because we're not like those dirty disgusting predators who want sex without romance (coughalloaroscough)". I dislike it because arophobia is rampant in the queer community and people will throw us under the bus for points and have. (Stonewall UK posted a tweet acknowledging aros during aro week and other queer people called us predators and implied we were cishet invaders) I dislike it because the word love is shoved onto aros and whenever we say "please don't" people just redefine it to force it on us. I dislike it because there are better alternatives. I dislike it because rainbow capitalism has taken it over. I dislike it because it just feels a bit overused and cliche at this point. I dislike it for plenty of reasons, from legitimate to petty. Because I'm a person, not an evil aro who wants to destroy the queer community.

Aros, for a very long time, have had the word love used against us as a tool for our oppression. (Yes, love can be used to oppress people) And a lot of aros are sick of not being represented in queer spaces. The community puts so much emphasis on romantic love in an effort to not be the stereotypical sex obsessed queer but that leaves out aros. And people will be like "it's to uplift gays, bis, and lesbians" but there are aromantic gays, bis, and lesbians! I'm an aromantic bisexual person! I am directly harmed by the whole "we're not dirty sex pests, we can love (romantically) just like you!"

I, and many other aros, dislike the phrase love is love because it leaves us behind in the dirt. We often feel like the dirty side of queerness that no one wants to acknowledge. Saying "queer love is real love" isn't a bad thing, but having that be the one and only thing queer people ever talk about leaves out a portion of the community and we're allowed to talk about it.

"Love is love" doesn't represent me as a bisexual aromantic person. Not everything has to represent or include me but it would be nice if just one thing did. My version of queer joy is not represented by love is love and I just want a fucking alternative that does include it!

[Don't tag as ace/aroace or derail]

[rose-fall]

Q&A

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General

Q: Why are they furries?

A: ‘Cause I want them to be. I’m a furry and I enjoy drawing anthro characters. I know them being anthros have nothing to do with the story, lore, or symbolism at all but I don’t really care.

Q: Why are there two blogs? Why not just post the pages on this one?

A: I post the pages on a separate blog, @rose-fall-comic, for organization purposes. It’s easier to navigate the comic there than it would be on this blog. The pages have their own tagging system and I don’t want to add a whole bunch more tags to my tag guide just for volume navigation alone, so I feel it’s just best to keep them all in one place instead.

Other Permissions

Q: Are headcanons regarding the characters ok?

A: It depends. I don’t want anyone having headcanons that changes a character’s gender or orientation (since none of my characters are allocishet) or headcanons that removes a character’s transness or disability. However, I am fine with trans headcanons of characters that aren’t canonically trans (as long as the gender itself isn’t changed) and headcanons that give a character a disability they aren’t confirmed to have (as long as its disability-positive, none of that “this character is an awful person so they must have [insert demonized mental disability]” bullshit). I also ask to not spread headcanons as though they are fact.

Questions That Will Be Ignored

Q: Can you draw this or that for me?

A: I’m not taking requests. I’ll make posts whenever I’m feeling up for it though. But those times will be temporary and they won’t occur often.

Q: What would this character look like in a certain media’s world? / How would this character fit in a certain media’s world?

A: I don’t like trying to translate my characters into worlds they weren’t made for. So you won’t be getting any answers to these kinds of questions. The same goes for whenever I’m open for requests too, I won’t take any requests that are like “draw so-and-so as if they were in this one media’s world”.

Q: What are your thoughts on *insert other webcomic name*?

A: I won’t answer these kinds of questions and any similar because they are not Rose Fall related. If you want to see the kind of webcomics I like - and suggest new ones to me - you can do so here: @ausi-supports-webcomics

Q: *insert what is essentially roleplay*

A: Just don’t try to roleplay in my inbox lol. If you wanna interact with my characters to an extent, you can do so at the ask blog, @ask-rose-fall. (note: askblog is not currently ready to be active yet)

Q: *insert what is essentially venting*

A: We are both strangers to each other. I’d prefer you didn’t vent in my inbox. Please talk with a professional or someone you trust if you’re feeling unsafe. If by any chance I do answer, the post will be private.

[autistickirstenlarson]

All my American Girl OCs

Héloise Cormier, an Acadian French girl in 1765, coping with her father’s death, who has recently moved to New Orleans, LA and loves animals, sewing, and playing the fiddle.

Reina Mendes, a Sephardi Jewish girl in 1834 Savannah, GA who dreams of traveling via steamboat across the country but struggles with the expected gender roles of the day.

Aoife Callaghan, an Irish girl who immigrates to Boston, MA during the Great Famine in 1846 who loves helping others and caring for children.

Minna Hoffmann, a German girl in 1889 Johnstown, PA, who has recently survived America’s deadliest flood and loves to play the piano.

Etta Mae Bradley, a half-Black and half-Mexican girl in Amarillo, TX in 1894 who wants to be a teacher but also loves helping on her family farm.

Francesca Vitale, a recent Italian immigrant in 1920 Pittsburgh, PA, who uses baking to cope with her mother’s death and father’s union hardships.

Honoka Oishi, a Japanese girl in 1949 who loves softball and helping in her family’s restaurant in Portland, OR’s, Japantown.

Chela Suarez, a recent arrival from Havana in 1962 Miami, FL, who finds pride in comic books and her Cuban heritage during the beginnings of one of the most tumultuous decades in US history.

Karine Bedrosian, an Armenian girl whose cousin was recently drafted in the Vietnam war, who dreams of being a poet and peace advocate in 1971 Chicago, IL.

[caspianthegeek]

Something's been turning over in my head over the last few days about Good Omens and queer representation. I keep seeing calls for it to be more explicit, that it's not good enough, that Neil of all people is fearful of making it absolutely queer.

None of this is true. The fact that it's been embraced by marginalized people who state "this is like me" should be all that's needed for others who it does not represent to back down and respect that. It's not their lane to declare what is representation for someone else.

And Neil, of all people, gives no fucks for what others think in regards to adding queer characters to media and has been doing so for a very long time.

What got to me though was what does explicit look like. A first time coming out story? That's not what Good Omens is. These are adults, let them simply exist in a queer way. Talking to each other about it? Why? Aziraphale and Crowley don't need to explain anything to each other. They both know the other loves them in every way fathomable to the pair, and what else matters? They literally stopped Armageddon and risked everything just to be together. Human gender perceptions that change every few hundred years? Crowley will take all the genders and do as he wants with them, knowing that it's so very temporary.

And that led me to being queer to those outside your inner circle, and it was an oh moment for me. Do you... do you think that they should be loudly out? There's nothing wrong with being loudly out of course. The people who have the privilege to be out do so much good in the world simply by existing and many of them do far more than that.

As someone who is out in every way that matters to me though: It's completely exhausting.

Even getting people to gender me correctly is an uphill battle that sometimes I choose to fight and sometimes I realize "I am going to see this person one time in my life, and I am tired." I have absolutely corrected CEOs that earn more than I will ever earn in my life because they have the ability to elicit change if pushed. It's important and I choose that battle. I don't ask the clerk at the store to gender me correctly. I just thank them and go about my day.

I did a fic on this topic for the first Our Side Zine, but coming out is a process that never ends and takes an ongoing mental toll.

And it was so delightful to see characters on screen who were allowed to simply be. Not to need to defend who they are or who they love beyond the obvious Heaven/Hell struggles. It's a shining moment of rest. And the reminder that you, too, can just exist. You don't need to constantly label yourself or explain yourself. And it's okay if you haven't found a label (or never do).

It is one reason why this representation is so important. One explanation as to why so many of us are upset when we see people dismissing it. I don't think it's any accident that many of the people I see defending Good Omens as sufficient queer rep are older LGBTQIA+ people who have dealt with the exhaustion of existing for so long. Who have learned when to fight their battles and to delight in those who know us for who we are.

It is nothing new, but it does break my heart to see us now needing to fight within our own community yet again to assert that we are enough.

I hope that the people stating Good Omens should be more explicit have their hearts in the right place. I also need them to know that they're doing real harm to actual queer people. That I've spent the last month consoling those who are hurt and needing to be consoled in return at times.

I need the people who think that Good Omens is not enough to really consider if this is the battle they want to fight, knowing that they're littering the battlefield with injured LGBTQIA+ people. You're not insulting the allocishets. They don't care, they've never cared. None of us should concern ourselves with them, because ultimately their opinion doesn't matter. There's enough in the world about them, this is ours.

Or was it never about the nonbinary, ace, and aro communities at all? Was it about seeing what you wanted in media and being upset that some of us got this piece of representation?

What I understand least of all in this is coming into someone else's house and declaring it not sufficient to fit your needs. Not everything is about you. That's okay. It doesn't need to be. Maybe look within yourself to find a piece of happiness for the absolute joy that some others within the queer community have found rather than trying to tear it from them.

[bookwyrminspiration]

hello i brought up the terrible cultural representstion in keeper to my parents and they said it was probably the publisher pushing for it. dyou have any thoughts? you seemed like the best person to ask about this

I don't know if I'm the best person, but I can certain share some thoughts about it. I'm assuming by cultural representation you're referring to the lack of diverse characters--and subpar representation/inclusion of the few characters who are diverse? (this is a bit long, so warning)

While I doubt it was the only thing, it is likely publishing affected the diversity; this was a book pitched and sold in the early 2010s in an industry dominated by white women--I found an article from 2016 saying about 79% of publishing staff are white. The same survey in 2019 found 76% were white, so while I can't find one more recent at the moment, it's safe to say it's still a very white-dominated industry.

Keeper is published by Simon & Schuster, and I found a few various sources talking about them, but nothing significant enough to override what I've already cited (which applies to them as well). You can check out this site citing a few employee statistics about them, if you're curious.

If you look through the people Shannon thanks in the acknowledgments of her books--Like Laura Rennert, Lara Perkins, Taryn Fagerness, etc.--the people she's working with and surrounded by appear to be predominantly white women (though I didn't look up every single name, and I'm specifically focusing on book 1 right now), and the thing about agents and editors and all the like is that they'll be much more incentivized to work with/sell/buy a book that they connect to emotionally, which in this case is white stories.

The same applies to authors, which I think is another aspect of the supbar diveristy. Shannon's--as far as I know--an abled allocishet non-hispanic white American woman. Authors like to write stories they connect to and see themselves in (which isn't inherently a bad thing), and for her that means stories with straight, cis, abled white characters and heavy American influence. And this story is scouted and enjoyed by white agents/editors/publishers/etc. (I don't know enough about them to truly discuss their identities, I'm coming to conclusions based on suggestive evidence, but may be wrong).

I can't tell you what's going on in their heads, but it's entirely possible that the lack of diversity wasn't a conscious choice, but rather something that none of them prioritized or noticed. Publishers appear to have some sort of diversity "quota" as well, not going beyond it. This opinion piece briefly mentions it amongst the rest of its discussion, how white publishers at Simon & Schuster questioned whether they needed to bid to publish a black author when they already had another. This is, however, one anecdotal instance and may not be representative. My point in including it is to be aware of what the scene may be and how, even though Shannon is white and therefore more likely to be published, a story with increased diversity may not be seen as necessary or be pushed for. Instead, the diversity in their company can come from other authors. So unless Shannon makes that conscious effort herself, she won't be punished for the lack.

That all discusses this from the perspective of including diversity. There's also the matter of the diversity that is there, which has been dissected and commented on by people far more knowledgeable than me. The two are related, and there are likely similar causes.

Once again, Shannon doesn't have the personal experience or knowledge of the various characters/backgrounds she includes. And her editors/publishers likely don't either, which may explain in part what we see in the books. I don't know whether keeper has sensitivity readers or not, but if there aren't any that could also contribute.

Improvements have been made with time--there are more characters of color than when we started--but that doesn't make these improvements without fault. So I think she is making an effort, but it's falling short. And if the prior observation about how they can meet their diversity quota with other authors continues here, there may not be significant push from her publishers/editors etc. to truly focus on quality diverse representation. They're committed to her story at this point and won't stop her, but they don't need her to do much, perhaps? And Shannon has, to an extent, backed herself into a corner because so much of her story was established without diversity early on, and there's only so much she can add later--we see now how the cast is started to get very crowded and complicated with all its additions, and her focus is on Sophie regardless.

There's a lot going on and I'm only touching the tip of the iceberg--and I am not an expert or professional of any kind, so take my observations and hypotheses with a grain of salt--but based on what i know, publishers likely do play a factor. But Shannon herself plays a role as well; the fact of the matter is the story she wrote isn't very diverse. And it was appealing to certain publishers, because the industry is abled straight white woman dominated. So there is a lack of representation, and the representation there feeds into stereotypes and generally isn't good.

No one cause can be blamed, but instead the intersection of various reasons contribute to the diversity issues--that's my conclusion, but don't just take it from me. Think about it for yourself and listen to others as well. I don't quite know where I'm going with all this, but hopefully some of this satisfies your questioning

If not or if anyone would like to discuss it further--including correcting me on anything I may have missed or insensitively said--my inbox is always open.

[bubbelpop2]

If i hear one more person call the mlm flag the “toothpaste flag” I’m gonna fucking go nuts fr. literally shut up.

Symbols of history are important. It’s important to know the meaning behind the modern gay flag and the pink stripe original flag. It’s important to know what they stood for and why they exist.

the gay flag is the rainbow flag. anyone of any gender is allowed to use it, so long as you aren’t straight. men, women, and non binary people have been using it since it was created. it’s for everyone.

The pink stripe on the old flag stood for sex. Because the first thing homophobic people think of when they think of gay people is how much they want to shame gay sex and make it taboo.

the pink stripe was only removed to make printing the flag less expensive.

You need to learn about stonewall. You need to learn about the black drag queens and trans women that gave us the foundation for our freedom by throwing molotov cocktails at cops.

you need to learn that there are hundreds of identities and orientations you’ve never heard about. you need to learn that, to queer elders, terms and flags might mean different things.

you need to learn that anyone can label themselves how they want

you need to know that cops are not your friend. they have oppressed you and your kind since their creation. and they will CONTINUE to do so.

the absolute MOST important thing to learn, is that queer is a sexual identity, a gender identity, and a political alignment. If you are not allocishet, then you are queer. The only thing that matters is that you are queer. That makes you belong, no matter how you identify. You belong, period.

But knowing that doesn’t give you an excuse to bitch at people who use new flags or who use their own flags :/ zero excuse. None. At all. With that being said, let me ad:

Lesbians have their own personal flag. They can use the rainbow gay flag, and they can use the lesbian flag.

Gay men have the rainbow flag. And now they ALSO have the MLM flag.

Anyone of any gender can call themselves gay. But gay men don’t have a word that is explicitly for them, in the way that lesbians do.

“gay” is an umbrella term. the rainbow flag is an umbrella flag. These are important aspects of the flag that need to be respected and preserved. These are not bad things.

The point is, people like using the mlm flag. they like using the mlm label. They like it. It makes them feel specifically and comfortably identified. the mlm flag is also inclusive to non binary people, just like the lesbian flag is.

So why on earth would you ridicule something that’s important to people? I’m a gay man. I like using the mlm flag. It’s important to me. It’s mine. It will continue to be mine. Stop disrespecting a symbol of my identity, you’re literally just being a fucking dick.

[thepetrichorcollective]

Decepticons, Transform and Rise!

Hi! welcome to the blog, we're The Petrichor Collective.

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our dni:

(pro) endo/Nontraumagenics systems

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believe in "narc abuse"

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radincluse/radexcluse/radqueer or "gold star lesbian"

proship/anti-anti

anti-kin, anti-irl, anti-therian, anti-other/nonhuman

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disrespect triggers or purposefully upset others

or support any of the above

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are bodily under 14 or over 24.

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about us: We are a DID, autistic, dyslexic, psychotic system with npd, bpd and a bunch of other things.

collectively:

Blue/Stoat/Tawny, They/He/It/Rain/Storm/Cloud, Nonbinary, TransMasc, AroAce, Queer, Queerplatinic, Xenogender.

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white, 19, severely anemic, disabled, currently a cane user.

frequent fronters:

Tai/Vapour+, host, they/neos - #admin vapour

vax, cohost/caretaker/protector, 22, he/him - #admin vax

eris/eros+, cohost/protector, symptom holder, she/he/neos - #admin e

molly, caretaker, any prns - #admin molly/#admin mollymauk

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jesse, caretaker, late 30's, he/him - #admin jesse

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drawing

animals (bats/bunnies/cats/foxes/birds)

stars

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tbu

[notabled-noodle]

I spent an hour teaching allocishets about identities that they denied the existence of. They asked me to. So I did. And then they claimed none of them existed. Sometimes I really hate straight people

oh my.

that is shitty behaviour. good on you for giving it a go in the explaining and really that’s the best you can do. give it a red hot crack and then hope people aren’t dicks

[kodicraft]

I for one would LOVE to see your cyberpunk rant.

(btw i appreciate a lot the fact you would encourage me to post about this /gen)

Alright, here goes.

I'm gonna start by reiterating the initial things I said when I "announced" this, I stated that big budget alien (as in, sci-fi with a focus on non-human space lifeforms, think Star Wars or Avatar as opposed to something like Interstellar) and Cyberpunk stories tend to be a big waste of a really great concept due to prudery, anthrocentrism (I'll be defining this word I made up later) and occasionally racism.

I think both alien and cyberpunk stories tend to suffer from these issues but they appear in very different ways, so I'll talk first about cyberpunk and then about alien stories.

Cyberpunk is a genre that hinges on great technological progress, people now have cybernetic enhancements, everything is an electronic device and everything is interconnected on the internet. While "cyberpunk" was first claimed by a futuristic sci-fi story, cyberpunk as we know it was popularized by Cyberpunk 2013 (and its sequels). It decides to take a much greater look at the social and political consequences of this technological progress which arguably made it very attractive back in 1988. Nowadays more than ever, its setting and story can be used as a direct parallel to the present time and it's clear that it's still a very popular genre thanks to games such as Cyberpunk 2077, arguably one of the most anticipated video games in the last few years.

Obviously, when you have something as large as "technological progress" as a critical plot point, you can take it in lots of creative directions! You can say a lot about the world by displaying current or potential abstract issues with a concrete image like body augmentations.

In 2020, quarantine forced a large majority of the world to work from home, entirely dependent on their electronic devices for working and ultimately being able to live. This can be directly compared to electronic enhancements in cyberpunk stories. These are electronic devices that can allow people to work and socialize in entirely new ways, however they are made by corporations, often closed source, and very expensive. Cyberpunk stories can take these fundamental concepts they have and put them in convincing stories to be able to comment on the real world and create an immersive universe. These are incredibly powerful tools for conveying your world and making it interesting.

Do big budget cyberpunk stories do this though? Rarely, if ever! In Cyberpunk 2077, augmentations are never questioned. They have none of the flaws of a real electronic device and are instead just an excuse for abilities and the occasional plot armor. What sucks even more is the fact that in order to convey their world, these stories rely on extremely fucking stupid tropes.

Sex work, god I fucking hate sex work in cyberpunk stories. It's always literally just used to "show how bad things are". If you know me, you know I genuinely respect sex work and that I believe it is unfairly stigmatized and separated from other types of work. Obviously, the white allocishet male does not care because he is a prude and immediately correlates seeing a prostitute with a sign that society is crumbling.

I hate how prevalent sex work is as a cyberpunk trope, it's shoved in the face of the person consuming the work because the writers couldn't find a genuine way to use all of the tools their genre allows them to have in order to convey the depth of their fictional society. It's a crutch for bad writers, and quite frankly really insulting to sex work. Like please, these people have consumed porn in the past, of course they have, do they really lack the thought process to realize that it's a very important part of society and that it simply existing isn't a dystopian feature?

Sex work can definitely be used in good ways, don't get me wrong. I will always love works that genuinely normalize or comment on the stigmatization of sex work, but big budget cyberpunk stories written by prudes don't do that.

Same goes for gender stuff too, like are you gonna tell me that in this world full of electronic prosthetics and enhancements literally nobody is openly non-binary, transgender augmentations aren't literally everywhere? That's an incredibly unconvincing aspect of these stories that's entirely due to the fact that the writers are so goddamn close-minded and probably all cishets.

This is also the part where racism comes into play. I'll be more brief about this because it's not nearly as common as the other two criticisms I have at least in my experience, but it's worth remembering that cyberpunk is a very occident-centric genre mostly written and consumed by whites. Part of the appeal (to some, not to me) of cyberpunk is its "exoticism", how "different" it is from the present (which as I already stated is not true, but again, this is only the case to some people). Obviously, when you're a white writer with an immense toolkit of creative tools, what do you do? Fucking base yourself on asian culture.

Oh my fucking god.

The stereotypes of "Japanese" and "Chinese" culture are fucking filthy. It genuinely feels sometimes in these stories like the world is governed by weebs. I can understand that "Japanese culture" is very different from the Occident in a lot of ways that can be interesting to explore, it's genuinely uncomfortable as fuck when characters are literally just stereotypical anime men and women. Playing through Cyberpunk 2077 with its stupid-ass focus on this futuristic Chinatown felt like I was visiting a Chinese town as told by a American conservative.

This even combines with the prostitution point from earlier! White men fetishizing Asian women is nothing new but it's just way too fucking present in these big budget cyberpunk stories. Since the teams in big corporations are so heavily stacked against women and POC, it's clear why that's so often the case.

The last point that I cited was the "anthrocentrism", now, that's a term I coined myself because I couldn't find a preexisting word that said what I mean.

Anthrocentrism refers to a tendency in writing fictional non-human characters as just humans with "differences" shoehorned in. Think anthropomorphic two-legged aliens that breathe that are mammals or androids with mechanical blood that need to eat something (but oooo it cant be human food!!!). This is just a design route I hate a lot, humans aren't the center of the world and real beings aren't just humans but different. These anthrocentric characters tend to have very surface-level differences from humans that are made into big important plot points just to try to show how different they are, which really just brings attention to how they're not that different at all. I think Avatar is a very good example of that: Avatars are literally just bigger stronger humans with blue skin, a cat nose and a tail. They are mammals, they still breathe, eat, hunt, have societies with birth rituals, death rituals, hierarchies, etc. That fucking sucks so bad, these aliens are more similar to humans than 99% of creatures on Earth.

But I'm not talking about aliens yet, anthrocentrism tends to be apparent in big budget cyberpunk stories through artificial intelligence! For some fucking reason, these AIs are designed to be limited in very similar ways to humans. They don't benefit from multithreaded thoughts or snapshots or clusters or even internet connectivity. These are all features of computers that can be incredibly interesting for an AI but their implications are deep, you can't just multithread a human mind, you need to design a mind from scratch to support features like these, and obviously clever design is too damn hard for our poor close-minded big budget writers. I like how Portal decides to do this with GlaDOS. GlaDOS is a backed up human mind, while she gets access to controls for the facility and a highly advanced processor, she isn't fully artificial. Her human limitations make sense and are convincing.

In Cyberpunk 2077, Delamain is just an AI that drives cars. It has a human face n shit, but it's just a driver. Does it have anything that makes it different from humans fundamentally? Nope, its only differences from human characters is the fact it talks very formally and doesn't have a physical form. This is such a goddamn waste of a perfectly good idea because the writers can't be fucked to write a non-human character without it just being a human with surface level changes.

You can make the excuse "humans made it so it makes sense that it would resemble humans" but like when has that ever happened in real life? Literally what piece of technology around you has been designed to resemble humans? Our technology is an interface between the human world and a mathematical abstract world. Why don't we have characters that are the other way around? Why don't we have mathematical abstract characters that need interfaces to interact with the real world? That would be so cool! Strange non-human entities that program their own interfaces so the human at the monitor notices their presence, trying to learn human language based on their natlang processing code in order to communicate. That would be so fucking cool!

Let's go back to Avatar because I still have more to bitch about. The anthrocentrism in the series doesn't end at the design of the characters. Next time you watch one of the movies, pay attention to the breasts of "female" Aliens. Just admire the fucking lengths the artists went through because female nipples can't be shown on screen. They still want their aliens to look tribal and primitive for some reason but no nipples, not allowed. I think that it should say a lot about how these characters are just different humans that the prudery of the executives forces their clothes to behave so awkwardly. Star Wars for instance does a little better on this front but quite frankly most aliens that aren't based on humans are nothing but one-time side characters, which is possibly more insulting than them not being there in the first place as it shows that the writers only value human-like characters.

Why???? There are so many animals on earth and you pick fucking humans??????? Motherfucker there are creatures on god's green earth you could convince the whole of the internet are aliens from how they look and behave but you decide to make them anthropomorphic breathing mammals? With custom biology you can create such interesting characters with particular abilities and a unique culture that's so different from the real world that it truly feels like seeing another world, another convincing world that could have been ours.

The racism shows here again. I think we can all immediately identify the issues with displaying any non-human societies as "tribal" with "primitive" technology unless they're the bad guys. To white close-minded humans, that's what non-humans are.

Also, considering the fact that these writers aren't really making a creative and unique biology this is a bit of a moot point, but really, no alien reproduction? Are humans such prudes that we can't even imagine a reproduction process that isn't unacceptable to show to children? You are creating Aliens, fictional creatures, you have full absolute control over the biology and sociology of these creatures, you are literally god itself but you still drop an integral part of who they are just because it's too sexy.

Now, I do recognize that this is not always because of close-minded white neurotypical allocishet male writers, sometimes it's because of close-minded white neurotypical allocishet male executives! Either way, at some point in these high budget creations there is someone who doesn't understand their own humanity, who doesn't understand what humanity is or means, who can't put themselves in the boots of someone who isn't a white neurotypical allocishet male, and because of how the world is right now, that person is the weakest link and makes the chain break.

Smaller budget stories are just so much better, usually they are written by people doing it out of real passion, smaller groups with lots of creative cohesion, and usually people with a way better grip on reality.

I myself am currently writing my own sci-fi story, and am paying attention to how my setting can be used to comment on the present while creating an engaging fictional world. I've experimented with creating custom species and cultures in the past and if you know me you know I ain't no prude. I'll post it here once I'm done, this way if I'm a hypocrite I can be fairly judged for it.

Ok that's it for my rant, again thanks for feeding the fire that is my spiteful soul.

[gay-otlc]

Keepers Of The Chaos (3)

Summary: Tam, Linh, Dex, Keefe, Biana, and Fitz are part of the tiny fandom for Keeper of the Chaos, and Tam and Linh’s podcast convinces some of their other friends to watch it as well. The group finds themselves strangely invested in this show, where students at Tumblr High School who work together to write about an elf named Sophia, cause incomprehensible chaos, and fight their rival Pinterest High School.

Content warnings: Cursing, religion (Jewish Vackers), and Amsterdam (just in case, I know that was stressful for some people).

Word count: 1621

Notes: Most of the episodes are just events stolen from Lynn's roundup, Dex's memes are here

(Read on AO3)

The life of an amateur meme maker on dumbles dot com was a strange one, that was for sure. After finishing xyr favorite show- Ze-Ra: Monaerchs of Powhir- for the third time, Dex had searched for another show to fill the void in xyr soul. Biana recommended this show called "Keepers of the Chaos" and described it to xem. Xe was doubtful at first, but after watching the first episode, xe was hooked.

Xe used to not have many friends at xyr school, so xe did what every neurodivergent queer teen would do- made an account on dumbles dot com. People seemed to like xem- or at least, they liked dizznee-plus's memes and edits of Ze-Ra characters. Even after Dex befriended xyr squish, Fitz, thons sister, Biana, and aer girlfriend, Sophie, xe continued making content on dumbles. Around that time, the Ze-Ra fandom started dying off, and xyr memes started getting fewer note

In a sudden, two am burst of inspiration, Dex made edits of some of xyr favorite characters, like Ref, Akki, and Rose, with their respective pride flags (all of them bi) over them, and captioned it "we must be gay." The post blew up, or at least, what could be considered blowing up in Keeper of the Chaos's tiny fandom, and that was how Dex found xyr calling as an amateur meme/edit maker for KOTC.

History had been repeating itself, with the KOTC fandom starting to die off, until it was revived by an announcement from creator Saturn Nolastname- a season two would be released soon. Frantically, Dex made a meme about season one episode two, with the car salesman meme. Xe edited "chaos keepers" onto the car salesman, "the rarelynoticed" on the car, and "this bad boy can fit so many stripper outfits into it."

That had been... an interesting episode, to say the least. The chaos keepers had been talking about the antagonists of "Sophie and the Dark Duck"- a rebel group called the Rarelynoticed. In the information packet they'd been given, it was confirmed that the Rarelynoticed wore black cloaks and armbands, but no other clothes had been mentioned. Somehow, the chaos keepers came to the conclusion that the Rarelynoticed really wore neon pink leotards and green stripper heels, then drew this idea.

Needless to say, the Tumblr staff did not let them write that into the book. Nor did Lynn, the unofficially chosen leader of the group. Unfortunately for her, this didn't stop the chaos keepers from drawing more of these- or the fandom from making a ton of memes. In addition to the car salesman meme, a post with Drake saying no to "wearing normal fucking villain outfits" and yes to "leotards and stripper heels" gained popularity within the small fandom.

Though nothing could match the absolute shock of seeing the Rarelynoticed stripper outfit for the first time, Dex decided to rewatch the episode anyway- it was funny to see the chaos keepers freak out, and maybe xe could get some good screen captures. The good Saturn Nolastname indulged xem, and xe captured an excellent scene of most of the chaos keepers either laughing or screaming at the Rarelynoticed stripper outfits, with Kimber- one of xyr favorites- sitting on the side, explaining to Juno and Kaitee why Bianca Cracker was bisexual.

Xe went over to dumbles, posted the picture, added an image description, and captioned it "Live photo of me not caring when my friends talk about sex/romance." Xe chuckled to xemself- this really was how it felt to be aroace. Xe tagged it as aromantic and asexual as well, since dumbles added flag colors. Smiling, xe went to go check xyr notifications.

Xyr jaw dropped when xe saw that @lordofthesnuggles- Fitzroy (Dex didn't know thons middle name) Vacker thonself had liked and reblogged all three of xyr memes, even adding compliments in the tags! Xe'd had a bit of a platonic crush on Fitz for... a really long time, but xe always felt too awkward to talk to thon, so it was nice to see that thon appreciated xyr humor.

Feeling energized- and excited to procrastinate on xyr math homework- Dex went to watch the next episode: Dark Duck Is Jewish Now. Being Jewish xemself, this was a really funny episode to xem.

Lynn had been writing a sort of spinoff- it would be called fanfiction, but it was for her own story- about some of the Dark Duck characters celebrating Christmas, and added a throwaway line about Bianca and Finn Cracker celebrating Hanukkah. Then, her fiance, Shai, had taken that idea and run with it, writing a list of ideas about what would happen if the Cracker family was Jewish. Hir friend Sam had jumped on the idea, and soon they had abandoned writing the actual Dark Duck in favor of writing a story about Jewish Dark Duck characters. Some of the other Jewish chaos keepers, like Ref and Cat, helped out.

To be honest, it kind of surprised Dex that no one had made a joke about the Jewish Crackers just being matzah, so xe supposed xe would have to be the first.

Xe posted that observation, quickly getting a like from Fitz- which made xem smile. After a few minutes, Dex posted another meme: Shai and Sam standing in front of a door with a sign that read "elves don't have religion," and them saying "This sign won't stop me, because I can't read!"

It was accurate.

While that episode was great for Jewish representation, and funny, the Banana Noir episode was just plain weird.

It focused less on the Dark Duck than most of the other episodes, and was more about the crazy interactions of the chaos keepers. The episode was named for Banana Noir, who was really Cat Noir, but in a banana suit. Banana Noir was the son of Mellie, who looked like a shark, and Nora, who had platonically married faer. The mothers tried to arrange a marriage between him and Akki, who loved the side characters of the Dark Duck series. However, Akki wanted to marry Amelia. After a lot of shit that basically no one understood, Banana Noir's attempts were thwarted, and Lynn officiated the wedding between Akki and Amelia.

Yeah, Dex had no idea what the fuck was going on either. Xe'd watched an episode of Twins of the Chaos and a youtube video by arsonpog analyzing the Banana Noir chronicles, as it had been dubbed by the chaos keepers, and both expert opinions seemed to agree that Saturn Nolastname and the rest of the writers had probably been on crack when they made that episode.

The next episode made slightly more sense, though it was a low bar. After taking a break from the "official" Dark Duck story, the chaos keepers began collectively writing a Cinderella story about the characters Sophia and Bianca. People weren't allowed to be queer in the official story, but the chaos keepers still wanted to have fun with their obviously gay characters.

Even to the viewers of the show, who only received secondhand information about the Dark Duck characters, knew there was no way any of them, let alone all of them, were allocishet. The exact identities weren't entirely clear- when Dex had made edits of the characters' official art and xyr headcanons for their pride flags, a few people had disagreed- but both the chaos keepers and the fandom knew that despite what Shannon said, Sophia and Bianca were in love, and their Cinderella story should have made it in to the official Dark Duck story.

While excerpts of the Cinderella story were quoted in the show, most of it was left unclear, so Biana had taken it upon aerself to write aer own version of it. Dex was expecting an update later  that day, actually, or maybe the next. Ae wasn't always 100% reliable with aer update schedule. Still, Dex looked forward to when it eventually did come.

After the brief calmness from the Sophianca Cinderella episode, season one episode six, Amsterdam, exploded back into chaos. A few of the chaos keepers decided to discuss a fake scene in the book in which crazy shit went down, with the scene supposedly being located in Amsterdam. It had never been written and was never going to be, but everyone discussed it like it was real. Some of the highlights involved all the Dark Duck girls having swords (and the chaos keepers being gay for them), and a speedboat chase scene through the canals. Fitz had a popular theory that the chaos keepers would actually travel to Amsterdam in order to commemorate this crazy part of their lives. Almost as popular as that was a meme Dex made, with a man labeled "chaos keepers discussing amsterdam" and gesturing feverishly to a wall covered in papers and red string.

Of course, episode seven (Dark Duck Disney) was chaotic too. Everything was chaotic with this group, it was in the title. Shannon announced that the winning Dark Duck story would be adapted into a Disney movie. After past experience with terrible book to movie adaptations, the chaos keepers panicked. They panicked so much that it became major news within their school, which until then, had been largely ignoring the chaos keepers. Once the discussion about the movie settled down, they talked a lot about how in awe they were that their Dark Duck shenanigans were trending within the school.

But of course, none of that compared to the last episode of the season...

Dex changed xyr profile picture to include an ominous pair of teal eyes and sighed.

[gendieanonsideblog]

Hello! I'm gonna get better at resoonding quicker I promise !!!!! | Brain can indeed be wonky! Sometimes it is a little silly, adn sometimes it is just mean and rude. I prefer when it's a littel silly. | I like complimenting other people too! It makes me feel warm and fuzzy bc heck yeah!!! That's my friend and they should know how cool they are !!!!! Like you for example, are just such an amazing being! You're always so funny and your taste in gendies is so good !!!! /gen | Yeah, I think sometimes the allocishets get lonely when they're not socialized w/ others, but I don't know for sure! I'm pretty much none of those things, so I just don't rly have the experience y'know? | ashkasdh ty ty!!! I haven't been drawing to much, but when I get something I like I'll be sure to show it to you :D | So, I never realized that I gay paniced when I was younger right? Bc I didn't know I liked girls. But now that I do, I realize I gay panic alot. Like, there's this one thigh high converse girl in my school and she is just- so pretty???? askdasdhkajd, I've barely talked to her outside of math but she is vv pretty and I want to be her friend !!! | Daylight savings happened where I live, and it really messed up my sleep schedule :[. I still wake up at the same time bc alarms but I'm so sleepy and then I have to go :[[ bc I'm sleepy !!!! | I got a good grade on my science test! Other then that nothing much happened. I told my friends that I go by he/they/she/it pronouns today!!! That excludes most of my neopronouns sure, and I don't think anyone heard me but either way that was really cool!!!! -⭐

hey no youre fine !! take your time broskii :D <3 /p /gen same silly brain is best brain :D EXACTLY EXACTLY !! spreading pos is literally what im here for !! everyone should know how great they are they deserve a great life and theyre all so cool in their own special way !! :DD >:3 aww tysm magnus !! ^__^ that means a lot im glad :D im actually gonna start getting gendies done !! my spoon count has been getting better :33 as a non - allocishet yea i dont have any knowledge on how to manage their species /lhj im so excited to see what you come up w !! take your time though !! :3 dude xenie is the only one who could make me gay panic THAT HARD jdlsfjdkf oh my god everytime i think about what happened that one time during a mogay coiner hangout discord vc party , i saw xerbun and KLDFSFJK my brain ,,,, my brain was gone /pos /pos you should maybe give them a note !! or like email them or compliment them !! idk how irl beings work outside discord heheh /gen i usually wake up gay fslkdjfdslkj as in " wow im awake " the next " oh god i have a pretty and amazing and lovable xf ahhHHH /pos " TwT ooo im very proud of you dude !! congrats thats awesome !! :D also congrats for pronoun coming out !! hopefully soon youll be able to reveal your hecking awesome and swaggy neos !! >:3

[intersexfairy]

Finding out you're not intersex when you thought you were does kinda suck though. I suspected I had high testosterone because I had a lot of the symptoms of it (including gender dysphoria, an undocumented but common symptom). When I got my PCOS diagnosis my doctor ran an androgen test and it came back normal and I was like "well shit". I still have all the inconvenience and medical bullshit of PCOS but with none of the solidarity of being intersex.

Intersex people and people with reproductive-related things are still allies! I know it isn’t the same, but we’re still here for you. I don’t think anyone would have a problem with you finding support in the intersex community (unless they’re a gatekeeper, but fuck gatekeepers). In the spaces I’m in, there have been dyadic people who came for support and as far as I can tell it was fine. I obviously can’t speak for all intersex spaces/people though. I’m just one person afterall.

But just like how cis intersex people will find comfort in the trans community when people aren’t being intersexist, non-intersex people with similar experiences to us irt the way the system treats them are welcome to find solace with us too. Inter-group solidarity still exists ^_^

It’s like that in a lot of LGBTQ+ communities afterall, isn’t it? Groups existing in solidarity with each other, helping each other out, building connections & relationships. Not all intersex people identify as LGBTQ+ of course, but intersex people (allocishet or not) have been involved in the community for ages.

The values involved in intersex activism go beyond just us. It’s for everyone to have their body and gender respected regardless of what those two things look like for them. A lot of doctors are very misogynistic & transandrophobic when it comes to PCOS, causing them to mistreat people with it, and that’s a real valid problem that deserves support.

I know PCOS spaces can be very uninviting for some people, esp. LGBTQ+ people. So honestly if you ever need anything, I’m here. I’m diagnosed with PCOS too, even though whether I have it or not is another story.