#but also that’s cringe and the fandoms so bad i don’t wanna get judged or blocked by my friends

[misfitmawzz]

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[catgirlfranklin]

being deeply ashamed about things you enjoy is really shitty actually

[carpisuns]

New anon, but I saw the last one and I have some thoughts. Specifically, I have been obsessing over ml for the last month or so, and I’ve only seen three episodes, and they were the three released before crocoduel. And you know what? I wasn’t that into it, it wasn’t bad it just wasn’t half as engaging as fanon and fanworks have been for me.

I’ve also done this with the Magicians, Supernatural, and a couple others. I think the reason that this works, for some people, is because it is a more familiar and in many ways, easier way to discover and become attached to new material and new characters. Fan writers and artists are coming from a place of love for their source material (no matter what issues they may have with it) and that bleeds out into their work. Time is spent developing the characters and their feelings, their relationships, in ways that canon so often can’t or isn’t allowed to, and reading that, it’s very easy to fall in love with new characters very quickly. There’s also common AUs and dynamics that make it much easier to start something new.

And also: comfort characters. So many fans find common ground with characters and further project onto them, particularly in fanfic. And because of that it’s often easier to identify with a fan’s interpretation of a character than it is to identify with the canon’s, since you have these more deeply explored feelings and relationships based on a combination of canon and the personal experiences of the fan writer. Also, with these kinds of fics it’s extremely emotionally affirming since for someone who doesn’t have much of any connection with the source material, it feels like the original, even if you’re reading a large body of work by a lot of different people. And I’m so used to fanfic as a substitute for the emotional work and character development that shows/movies/books don’t have room for or aren’t willing to get into, that approaching a fandom as it’s own original piece of media in a way, feels very comforting.

That’s my perspective on it anyways, and why I do this. I do think it is a good thing to engage with the canon to an extent, even if it’s just watching a few clips (how I found ml) but I also don’t think you need any real connection or knowledge of it to be deeply invested in the fandom. Sorry, this got very long.

you know, i totally get being on, like, the fringe of fandoms and interacting with fanon to an extent without a proper investment in canon (I have a couple fandoms like that), but i honestly just can't imagine becoming super invested in a fandom when I am not invested in the source material...maybe that's just a difference between you and me, idk.

but also, i gotta admit that i'm struggling a bit to understand the reason. you yourself pointed out that fan work is enjoyable because the creator's love for canon bleeds into it. and isn't that the reason that you would want to give canon a real chance? obviously there is fan content made out of spite lol (and sadly a fair amount in this fandom), but to me most fan content is like a love letter to canon. like, "i adore this thing so much that it inspired me to create and share with other people who adore it." and what better recommendation is there than that?? i would think people would wanna familiarize themselves with canon in order to better enjoy fanon(?)

i completely understand your point about fan content delving further into characterization and relationships where canon hasn't/can't, and that is such a big appeal of fanfic/fanart. but i don't feel like that's a reason to not engage with canon? on the contrary, i feel like you are missing something important in your understanding and appreciation of that wonderful exploration if you haven't experienced firsthand the foundation that canon set. and maybe that missing thing is just your personal interpretation of a character/dynamic.

for example, i could say, "adrien agreste is this, this, and this and he would do this but not this." and of course i will think im right because my characterization is always perfect 😌sakjdfaldjks but someone else might have a slightly different interpretation, and someone else will have another interpretation, and when you mush all those individual takes on a character together, you will get a good sense of who they are, but you still don't have the Original™️ to draw your own interpretation from. idk, to me it sounds like basing your opinion of chocolate ice cream on what other people are saying about it without ever trying it yourself? ajsldakljf maybe that's an oversimplification but i do think that without experiencing it for yourself, your understanding will always be kind of incomplete.

idk, i big agree with everything you said about why fan content is special, but everything that is a point in fanon's favor is not a knock on canon. to me fan content feels pretty inseparable from canon, so it just doesn't compute to me to take canon out of the equation? then we would have nothing.

i feel like it's almost kinda trendy nowadays to be like, "oh this show actually sucks lmao but the fanon and AUs are good." like it's shameful to actually...enjoy source material? 😭 i mean i completely understand that miraculous ladybug is not gonna be everyone's cup of tea and that's fine! but if you truly enjoy the fan content that much i encourage you to give canon a real shot. it's not that surprising to me that you watched 3 recent episodes and didn't vibe that much, since you haven't seen the 3 seasons of buildup that lead to them. miraculous has a neat way of tying a bunch of things together so if you aren't familiar with all of it, you're probably missing out.

personally my love for miraculous was kind of a slowburn at first. i only started watching the show because my sister and i made a deal that forced me to watch the first few eps lol. and i didn't really vibe either. but there must have been enough of a spark there for me to keep watching bc for some reason i did and the more i watched the more i fell in love with it until it became the thing that occupies my brain more than anything else. i started with canon and then got into fanon, but it could easily go the other way too. and if you're already invested in the story and characters, i have to imagine it would be much easier to push past the initial cringe of "this is a show about a couple of teen furries rated TV-Y7 on netflix" lol and give anything you don't vibe with the benefit of the doubt.

again, to be clear, i'm not trying to judge or gatekeep here! i'm just saying this because i genuinely LOVE miraculous. it's my favorite show. that's why i make things for it. that's why i have this blog. i want people to watch it. so maybe, pwetty pwease, try watching the show you like so much? 🥺👉👈

(source bc i was too lazy to make my own so i stole this from twitter)

[equizona]

Ohhhhh I saw that you're in the Fnaf and Obey me fandom! So I had an idea, Imagine the Brothers finding out that the MC used to work as a security guard at Five Nights At Freddy's(you can choose which fnaf, it literally could be fnaf 1, fnaf 2, fnaf 3 or whatever) anyways even if you dont do this idea(since the idea just pops out of no way and it sounds cringe) I still hope you have a good day! byeeee

Y E S! Cross-fandom requests are always the best requests lmao. I hope you find this to your liking! <3

Brothers with a former fnaf security guard.

[OBEY ME!] [G-N][H-CANONS]

He'll act like he doesn't care much, but honestly?

Ghost-possed animal robot suits?

What the hell happened?

He'll also be very confused because you are willing to work in a place that can kill you for so little money?

Along with the fact you go with Mammon's schemes without a second thought?

Are you okay? Does he need to seek a psychiatrist?

He'll subtly hint at you seeing one, but will ultimately leave the choice to you.

After all, he's there to take care of you from now on.

He ain't judging.

Sure, he wouldn't take a job offering so little money, but he can totally understand where you come from.

Money is amazing, no matter the amount.

The more the better though.

He will be curious on whether he can sell the animatronics or not though.

Mabye see if you can work yourself up to own the company and become rich on it?

Honesty, he has like fifty plans on how to become rich on your story.

Oh my God?

Isn't that kind of like a video game?

The dude will want to get hired, emediantly.

It'll probably the most exciting thing besides you and his anime/games.

Wanna work the night with him?

No?

Please?🥺

He does not understand the fact you might have trauma.

At all.

It sounds like so much fun? How could you possibly have trauma against it?

Who wouldn't want to be put in that scenario?

Will do his best to figure out how the animatronics became haunted.

I think he would like Bonnie lol.

Probably the most understanding over the fact you might have trauma from such an experience.

Like Lucifer, why would you take such a dangerous job for so little money??!

Doesn't understand it, at all.

He'll get you a nice book, and a warm drink of your choice and sit down and cuddle with you.

He'll read for you, no worries.

But he would be very interested in how the suits got haunted?

He'll find it to be a very intresting subject, and if you are okay with talking about it, he will defiantly be asking all sorts of questions.

He'll be pretty worried.

Not over the nearly dying, or haunted suits.

Nope.

He'll be stressed over you taking the night shift.

God, why?! Don't you know you need to sleep during the night? So your body and skin stays perfect?

You should be taking better care of youself!

Will of course, make sure you sleep on a good schedule from now on.

He can't have you missing your beauty sleep after all.

You worked at a pizza place?!

How cool is that!?

Honesty, he'll ignore everything but the fact you worked at a food place.

You could eat all you wanted to eat, right?

No? You were busy trying to not die?

Now he feels slightly bad, but still.

Now he's hungry.

He'll drag you to get food with him.

To cheer you up, and feed his hunger.

Win-win.

He'll actually start away from pizza, to the best of his ability.

He wants you to be happy, so he'll do his best.

A night shift?

A shift, you have to work, at night?

Dear lord, do not get him involved. Ever.

He can't imagine working during the day,let alone the night.

Actually, he can't imagine working at all.

Anyways, he won't understand.

He already killed you, so what's the problem with a bunch of animatronics trying to kill you?

It's fine, right?

He won't get why it might bother you so much, until someone like Satan explains it to him.

He'll hug you extra tight from 12am to 6am.

Won't let you be alone, telling you that since he's there, nothing can hurt you.

[lara635kookie]

Ranking the best The 39 Clues books(First season because the other ones just aren't canon in my mind).

SPOILER ALERT!

If you're a Clue Hunter and is reading this post, when you finish it reblog it and do your ranking of The First Season books(please I need to know I'm not alone on this fandom)(Please someone tell me I didn't get to this fandom too late). Also this is only my opinion. If you think different feel free to share your thoughts(respectly). So let's go:

My Personal Favorites:

10-Beyond The Grave(Book Four written by Jude Watson):

Honestly this book is overall good and I really wanted to go Egypt but that's only in this place because Ian and Natalie don't show up in person, they're only mentioned by Amy and Dan sometimes. It may seem like a stupid reason but Ian and Natalie were the biggest enemies of Amy and Dan, arch-enemies since the two understand themselves by person and their appearances have always been so iconic, the chases, the talks, the fights, the teasing so the fact they weren't in this book just didn't feel right. The Cahills and the Kabras have a lot of chemistry, both as enemies and as much something more(if you get me, lovers cough cough), and the Kabras have been sorely missed in this book(at least by me).

9-The Emperor's Code(Book Eight written by Gordon Korman):

I don't know compared to the other ones, this one just look kinda forgettable. Maybe because Amy and Dan spend a good part of this book apart. But of course the story has its good moments which are when Dan gives an autograph for a girl (D. Cahill is priceless), when Dan tells the Wizards that he is a Madrigal (as we say in Brazil: Iconic, Memorable and Timeless) (Dan was very amazing in this book, if you disagree, disagree in silence) and when Amy saves Ian(aka Love of her life) from falling off Mount Everest.

8-The Viper's Nest(Book Seven written by Peter Lerangis):

I love that one but the other ones are just better. I like the ending with Isabel(and everyone) thinking that the Clue was Diamond and It wasn't. I also like the scenes with Kurt because I wanted Ian to meet him and Kurt make Ian jealous of Amy(don't judge my dreams). Another thing that I really like is the history. I really like studying history and I learnt so much about Shaka Zulu. And was also with that book that I realized that Isabel had arrived to stay and that she would be the Main Villain in the end somehow. Maybe That's another reason why I don't like much The Emperor's Code:Isabel didn't show up and I thought she would appear in all the other books after In Too Deep. Natalie on Storm Warning said that Isabel didn't trust Ian and her to handle the Hunt without Isabel anymore since Russia so that just doesn't make sense. Maybe she didn't appearead to give Cora Wizard the spotlight but anyway let's continue.

7-The Black Circle(Book Five written by Patrick Carman):

I love this one so much. Probably because in this book we see that Ian is also in love with Amy. On Book three he seemed to like her but then he and Natalie let Amy, Dan and Alistair locked on the cave and we only see Amy Side of this story. Her sadness. But we didn't know if Ian was sorry, if he regreted his actions. And when they come back on this book we see Ian still likes Amy and the fandom goes crazy. I mean even if you are a Jamy/Carian shipper or shipps another shipp you probably shipped Amyan before because they were the only promising couple on the series(at least on series one). Back to the book I Love The Holts defeating the Kabras and Amy and Dan doing an Alliance with Hamilton(Dan envying Hamilton for driving a Kamaz will be Forever iconic). Also this book was when I realized Irina wasn't bad. I didn't like her in the other books and I didn't notice much of her but everything changed on this book and I started to love her. * sad sigh * Moving on!

6-The Maze of Bones(Book One written by Rick Riordan):

Uncle Rick(we call him like that on Brazil, in portuguese is Tio Rick) did a really great job on this one. For a series that has several authors writing, the beginning is very important and it is a great responsibility for the first author because those who will write later have to understand what you wanted to convey in the beginning to make a coherent continuation. Rick Riordan did it flawlessly. We can identify ourselves in the characters and we get really connected to the plot, the history, the riddles about Benjamin Franklin and after finishing the book we wanna know more about what happens next. So Rick Riordan absolutely slayed this introduction and no one can tell me otherwise.

5-One False Note(Book Two written by Gordon Korman):

This book is just unforgivable. I love this with all my soul. Probably because It talks about Mozart and his history and I really love arts. Also because the writing of this book is so satisfactory and so well done. I mean I really thought Fidelio Racco was a real person. What I also love about that book is the fact that every character get to shine. Amy and Dan are the Main characters but the appearences of all the other characters are really remarkable so yeah That's it. Deserves this spot on the Top 5 for sure.

4-In Too Deep(Book Six written by Jude Watson):

Going now to the four horsemen of the apocalypse from the best books of The 39 Clues. In Too Deep It's just something so perfect It's inexplicable. Something I don't like much about In Too Deep is that when Isabel was fighting to Irina and Ian and Natalie were watching Natalie was like:Irina is going to get Shoot on the head, That's gonna be so good. Like she wanted Isabel to do this, like she would be disappointed if she didn't, like she was used to seeing this type of thing. Then, In Storm Warning she was soft like:Not blood. It's so repulsive(several authors series problem but the series is good anyway). About that book I love the start, I love the middle, I love the apex and If It wasn't for Irina's death in the end this would probably be even higher than already is. Why Irina, Jude? Also:Why Pony? Why Erasmus? Why McIntyre? Why Alistair? Why Lester? Why Natalie? Why Evan? Why everyone? Why not Jake or Cara? Back to the story Jude Watson is Just a genius for transforming a dream(or a nightmare) in Isabel Kabra and adding her to the book. I don't wanna cry today so I'm just going for the next one.

3-The Sword Thief(Book Three written by Peter Lerangis):

If this book was a part The Plastics of Mean Girls, The Sword Thief would be Karen Smith of The 39 Clues, because let's face it:Amy and Dan were really dumb of accepting an alliance with Alistair and the Kabras. Principally with the Kabras. I mean they already were kinda used to temporary alliances with Alistair but not Ian and Natalie but they should have expected that It would have been bad on the end. I mean yes they needed Ian's coin to open the cave to find the clue but they look so surprised when Ian and Natalie leaves them on the cave and they shouldn't because that was obvious that they were going to betray them in the final. So they should have accepted the alliance but being more distant to the Kabras and preparing themselves in case they try something(which was obvious they would). But at the same time, I'm glad they didn't because AMYAN IS JUST MY ENTIRE LIFE(And even a little bit of Danatalie this book is Just a masterpiece). Just like In Too Deep, I love everything about that book, except the end. And I am a Kpop fan(not the cringe obssessed type) and I really like to study about North and South Korea and their history but South Korea's caves just left me depressed. I'm gonna cry so let's change the subject.

2-Storm Warning(Book Nine written by Linda Sue Park):

I love everything about this book. Literally everything. The start, the middle, the apex and the end. I love this book mainly because Natalie got the spotlight that she deserved. I don't know why I like Natalie so much since the start. Maybe because when I started Reading the books I was eleven, just like her. And Maybe because she was pretty, rich, savage and sassy wich I always wanted to be. But there is something more that I don't know how to explain that is really relatable about Natalie even with my reality being too different from hers and this book was the confirmation I needed that Natalie would be my favorite character Forever. I Also like it because it happened on Bahamas and Jamaica(two places I really want to go in the future) and It got a lot of revelations and twists in the end(wich I love more than everything on a book). If Storm Warning was a person and slapped my face I would probably say:Thanks, Could you do that again?

1-Into The Gauntlet(Book Ten written by Margaret Peterson Haddix):

I usually don't like the endings of books because I'm sad that it's over and as all the other books were good I usually demand a lot from the endings, even more than the beginnings (for me the final impression is the one that stays, not the first). I generally like the endings but I've never looked at a ending book and said: This one overcomes all the other books. I normally like more the start or the middle books. But man Into The Gauntlet caught me off guard. DoD is already a trash ending, comparing to Into The Gauntlet, DoD(fanfiction-forced-canon) seems even worse(if That's even possible). Everything about that book It's just top-notch, high quality, god tier, flawlessly perfect. Stan Haddix. We believe in Into The Gauntlet Supremacy.

It's going to have a part 2. Bye.

[whumperooni]

any tips on becoming a better writer/more comfortable with smut writing? I write small things on my blog here and there but I wanna write in more detail and just do better in general and like I dunno how to not make it sound forced or cringey (plus Im kinda demure when it comes to this kinda stuff and I wanna force myself out of that shy little shell)

Oooh, this is a good question and one that I’m not quite sure how to answer.

In my previous fandom, I didn’t start out writing smut. I was pretty shy myself and really worried that I would get called out or judged or something. But then I found other people writing it and I kind of just...slowly went for it. Went from hot and heavy makeouts to foursomes and bloodplay and all kinds of filthy things ♡

I think you shouldn’t force yourself too hard. Small things at first and then try to move to more Lewd things. Reading the works of smut writers you admire can help- you can kind of mentally take notes of how they pace things, their descriptors and what you think will work for *you.*

Like, obviously don’t copy them! But you can definitely draw inspiration from them.

Your own personal fantasies and experiences can provide inspiration as well! Don’t be afraid to use them!

If you’re up for it, I’d also say read some published erotica. Some of it is bad and some of it is So Fucking Good- reading them and forming your own opinion on what comes off as top tier a1 shit and what comes off as cringe can help you think of what you want to avoid in your works.

But, honestly, everyone comes off as forced and cringey sometimes. You gotta just keep writing and practicing! Not everything is going to be perfect and flow just like you want! Just keep chugging along!

[scottstiles]

i knew the spn fandom collectively sucked j*nsen a*kles dick but i never realized it was this bad like i've seen a million posts rapturously defending his acting during the cas confession scene and maybe 2 posts praising misha. these people need to put some respect on misha collins. 😠

hi friend. i’m not entirely sure you’re in the right place for an ask like this, but um... well.. are you asking for my opinion? i know i’ve made a fuckton of destiel gifsets in the last couple weeks but i’m a newbie to this fandom, and not even a percentage of a percent of 0.00000001% invested in the ship or the show as i ever was in teen wolf BUT i have been watching on my own for many years and i do have an opinion about acting (idk if i’ve mentioned it but i started off in theater for undergrad and it’s all i ever really wanted to do tho i never did it....so it kinda mutated into nit picky criticism if u get my drift). ... . POINT BEING. okay. so ... i do enjoy both of their acting in a general way- jensen’s soapy teen drama past is clear but he’s rounded out dean so well over the years that it all fits seamlessly anyway cuz who can separate the two... and though it works 98% of the time, he is a bit predictable. watching almost 9 seasons in under a month does offer some perspective ngl (also i think ive probably seen more posts denigrating his acting than praising it, but i guess i follow different people than you...)....

but i feel like misha has developed differently as an actor and his style has changed in various ways over the years, but i never really sat back and took stock of it until that scene last week because like... i mean.... ugh. i don’t wanna upset you but. i didn’t like it. it kinda looked like they used the wrong eyedrops? it was hard for me to concentrate cuz i was a bit distracted by those giant puddles on his face at first. stripping down the monologue though, it kinda felt..well.. you know what actually? maybe it was just the bad writing. I’ve always enjoyed his acting. he does deserve praise. i just... yea. i was cringing a bit the whole time :/ we really really shouldn’t judge those acting choices though, because as we can see thanks to this ask- it’s all in the eye of the beholder. you thought he did an amazing job. i’m sure lots of other people do too. myself i’m straddling the middle opinion (if i watch it a few more times, which i will because i have yet to gif it, my opinion may- nay probably will- change), and yea i’ve also seen posts making fun of him or leaving out his well-earned kudos, but i try not to involve myself in that kinda drama anymore (esp since i’m not really in this fandom and only started blogging about the show recently because i wanted to gif it). in general i always enjoy both of their acting, and i agree they both deserve praise and respect for doing their best with the script they’re given. i think i just kinda wish the whole thing was presented better. like. there coulda been WAY better buildup withIN the episode. and the season. for it all to come down to this outburst? cas shoulda been on the literal verge for awhile. i know the majority of the fandom has seen it for a long time, but as an outsider and someone who hasn’t ever been in fandom or really ever shipped them (despite watching all 15 seasons multiple times over the years), it did seem carelessly written into the script. which is just unfair for both the actors and their characters.

[emotionalcello-makefanfics]

A Place to Go (DamiJay Fic for Fictober)

Prompt number: 1. “It will be fun, trust me.” 

Fandom : DCU/Batman. No powers AU

Rating: General Audience

Warnings/Tags: None/ Slice of life, fluff, kinda platonic

Summary : Damian is in Jason’s home because Damian doesn’t want to go to his. The two just talk, along the way, Damian shared something he never would even to a friend, more or less to Jason. Jason, the stranger, just went along.

Word count : 1k

Click link to read on AO3

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 Damian laid in a bed that’s not his. Sitting on the edge of the bed beside him, is the owner of the bed and the room he’s in, Jason. Both still in their work attire. Damian in a black suit and trousers, red shirt and patterned green tie. His leather briefcase is somewhere in the room. Jason is in a wifebeater after taking off the top half of his jumpsuit and his tool belt is somewhere along with Damian’s briefcase. The muscles of Jason’s arms are intimidating, sparking dubious interest and envy withing Damian’s gut.

The lights are dim, it doesn’t hurt Damian’s eye as he lay on his back on the springy creaky bed.

“How many times does this make it?” The younger, Damian, asked to the ominously stained ceiling.

“Twice,” Jason answers lazily, perching his elbows on his thigh as his face lay on his palm.

“Already two times too many.”

“Well, you can’t blame me for that.”

“Of course I can, what you’re doing is completely unnecessary and a breach of my privacy.”

Jason rolled his eyes to his brain, “Me? Loose your tight tie. The two times you’re here all I know is that you’re a pain in the ass and a broke back for puffing your chest so much.”

“My back is perfectly straight!” Damian disavowed.

“Yeah no doubt about that, but that’s not what I saw on the subway today.”

Damian shuts his mouth and as his eyes look away to the window on the other side of the bed, he has no intention to answer that.

“I thought I saw you riding some fancy tesla, and now I’ve seen you there twice-”

“I’m sick of you interfering with my business, stop it.”

“Look, I didn’t force you to do anything. I didn’t even touch you. You willingly followed me here and lay down on my bed voluntarily. You can leave anytime you want.”

Damian stays silent, still looking towards the window with his hand folded over his chest.

“I’m not kicking you out,” Jason established after seeing Damian pouting, “You can stay here as long as you want.”

“A bit too generous for someone you barely know. What’s your price?”

“Information,” Jason smirked as he finally looked at Damian in the eyes, who’s already regretted asking him, but he complies anyway. “Tell me why you’re really standing there at the edge of the waiting line.”

“Contrary to your suspicion, I was not about to jump into the train tracks.”

“Okay, so? What were you doing staring emptily into the train tracks while the tip of your shoes almost brushed against the trains?” Jason is, of course, exaggerating, but it’s what Jason saw and Damian rolled his eyes at the man’s antics.

Breathing shallowly, Damian looks down at his fumbling hands, “I was thinking of a place where I could go.”

“One of those places is not home?”

“No.”

“A friend’s place?”

“Don’t have anyone like that.”

“Motels?”

Damian cringed, “I don’t like what you’re implying.”

“Hey, I don’t judge.” Jason raises his palms, “Everyone has needs, and it’s legal here.”

“I don’t pay people to have sex with me,” Damian states, feeling baffled that he needs to state that.

“What about the unpaid one though?” Jason wiggled his eyebrows.

“None.”

Jason continues to look at him, for a few seconds he doesn’t seem like he has anything to say, so does Damian. The two stay in silence as they try to figure the other out. At this point, Damian is just stalling until he finally gathered the will to get up and go back to the family mansion that he bet is empty. Or worse, his mother will be there, demanding him to talk about how well the company is going, and she will demand good news. The last thing Damian wants when he comes home is talk about the family business again and again.

Jason, on the other hand, has no one like that and he’s completely fine with that. Life has been blissful since he cut off his toxic family, and his close friends have been closer to family for him. What he’s thinking so hard about now, is what a person like Damian would need.

“You drink?” Jason finally asked.

“Occasionally.”

“Cool, wanna go to a bar?”

“I’m not in a party mood,” Damian scowls.

“It’s not a club. A bar, dude. Don’t tell me you’ve never gone to one,” Jason says incredulously, looking pitifully at the baby in a suit on his bed. Damian glares at the bulky man.

“I’m too busy working to go to places like that,” Damian rebuked.

“That excuse is not making you look any less pitiful man.” Jason chuckled but quickly shuts up seeing Damian glaring at him. “I know a chill bar, we’ll just drink beer, eat cheap fried food and maybe play pool. We don’t even need to talk about anything personal, just talk about anything else you want, or not at all, whatever, how about it?”

That actually tempt Damian. The weight of his responsibilities suddenly come to make itself known.

“And why would you do that for me? We’re strangers.”

Jason shrugged his shoulder, “I know that look on your face, I’ve been there. And believe me, all you need is a break. Just let go of the burden and responsibilities for a while and relax. You’ll come back to the problem with a clearer head and you’ll be fine,” Jason coaxed, and it’s working.

“It helps that you’re cute too,” Jason adds marvelously with his charming smile. The smile cancels the compliment that Damian received as an insult. He worked hard to be perceived as a grown adult despite his cursed babyface. Though, Damian would also have to admit that the man is very much his type.

Tall, confident, looking like he’s looking for trouble, but actually kind-hearted. Yes, Damian likes bad boys with a heart of gold, but he’s not gonna admit that, not at least until the tenth date.

Damian doesn’t seem as defensive as he was. His shoulders slumped as he looks at Jason’s eased face. At that moment, the room brightens up, and Damian feels more comfortable in his skin. For the first time in forever, Damian takes a deep breath and sighed the weight in his heart.

“That does sound nice.” Damian sits up and slings his legs beside Jason’s, “I’m Damian.”

Jason smiled, “I’m Jason, nice to finally know your name.”

[italkaboutbooks]

An in depth review of Aurora Rising//Part 2

If you haven’t already, read part one here.

So welcome to the second part of my ramblings about this novel. Last time, I talked about how chapters 18-24 were some of the most confusing and infuriating chapters I have ever read, and how I hated that.

I’m actually going to complain about it a little bit more in...

Pacing!

Aurora Rising’s pacing is...questionable at best. Bad at worst.

So the novel is split into three parts. You know how some novels have specific parts like part 1 and part 2? That’s used in Aurora Rising. Immediately, the three act structure comes to mind. I understand that it may be used for movies more but hear me out.

The basics of structure and pacing is that, by the end of the second act, you’re nearing the climax. Basically, the story should be increasing in tension, because the antagonist is usually at its most powerful at this point.

Aurora Rising doesn’t do that. Or maybe it just failed me and not you for some reason. But if you remember the end of part 2 aka chapters 18-24, you would know that the characters succeed. And what that success does, is lower the tension. Because the heroes won the battle and they’re feeling pretty confident. That doesn’t raise the stakes in my opinion. I feel like if Auri actually was taken, then there would be stronger stakes, but the pacing failed in that regard. So it’s another big complaint from me.

There’s nothing really remarkable about plot of pacing for me to comment on. So let’s go to the next part.

Characters

For this section, I am simply going to rank the main cast aka the squad, and tell you my thoughts about them. 7 being my least favourite character and 1 being my favourite. I’ll talk about their relationships which each other in a separate section.

7. Zila

Zila doesn’t have a personality. She is the stereotypical “smart” person in the group that doesn’t express emotion. Or in this case, has none. She’s a robot. She has no interests, no motivations, and we’re not given a backstory. She has nothing. I personally believe that the authors didn’t even care about her. They just added her there to be smart. That is all. She shows a smidgen of an arc near the end, but it’s not even the bare minimum. I wished the authors actually put effort into Zila because it’s obvious that they didn’t.

6. Tyler Jones

Tyler Jones is the definition of the bland white boy. He is one of the worst protagonists I have ever seen in a book. Why does he suck so much in my eyes? Because he’s perfect. He’s handsome, he’s good at everything, everyone likes him, and even if they don’t like him, they at least respect him. He never makes any mistakes, doesn’t have any flaws, and has dimples. He is infuriating.

Personally, I like flawed characters. That’s what makes characters and stories interesting. If you give me a character who essentially wins every battle, I will think that they are the most bland and boring person in existence. Your characters need flaws, especially your protagonist! Remember chapters 18-24? Yeah, another complaint about that part is making them succeed just makes Tyler more of a Mary Sue.

Also there’s a scene in chapter 12 where Tyler says he doesn’t want to kill a Terran because he’s a Terran and acts like killing his own kind is unheard of. ....Aurora has a lot of explaining to do for you buddy.

Tyler gets the second worst ranking because at least he is allowed to experience emotions, and the authors tried to give him an arc. (But does Tyler really have an arc? Because I didn’t see it.)

5. Cat

I have mixed feelings about Cat. I talked before about the arc that I thought she was going to have. And the arc she gets...well it’s kind of disappointing.

Cat’s character seems to be that she’s in love with Tyler (for some reason) but he rejected her and now she’s just trying to cope with it but doesn’t do it well. She dies, but dies knowing that Tyler actually loved her all along and I don’t really like it. But at the same time, I do?

See, when I read the ending of the book, I was sad. Cat died and I was sad because of that. I’ll give the book merit for that, (especially since I’ve been slandering it.) It made me care about a character’s death. But at the same time, I don’t like that Cat’s arc was essentially her getting over a man. It feels cheap to me. My idea for her arc was her learning to listen to others opinions more and make her more loyal, which is not dependent on a man. So I don’t straight up hate Cat, but I would make a lot of changes to her character and arc.

And also she’s kind of annoying. She’s says bloody way too often and I thought the authors did that so she could be “unique.” Apparently Cat’s Aussie...somehow. I’m so sorry to Australians everywhere, I’m sure you all don’t talk like Cat.

4. Scarlet Jones

I don’t really like Scarlet all that much, but I like her more than Cat. Here’s the thing: she’s immediately better than Tyler because she actually has flaws. Which I like. She cares about her friends and the squad members. She’s a sweetheart, and I like that. Her motivations are understandable in a way, but I also relate to them which kind of makes me hate her.

Also she does some questionable things that don’t make me hate her, they just confuse me, and creep me out. For starters, she has a list of all her exes. I don’t wanna judge her because I really don’t hate her, but that’s creepy. Also there’s a scene where she drugs two guys for their uniforms, and she takes them to a hotel room, and leaves her bra there, along with some kiss marks, to give to illusion that she had sex with them. She said something along the lines of “Gotta leave some evidence.”

First of all, that’s not how you commit a crime. (For legal reasons, this is a joke.) When you commit a crime, you make sure that there’s no evidence so that you don’t get caught. Second, leaving signs that these guys had sex with you tells them that they had sex with you under the influence. They didn’t give their consent, meaning you’re making them think that you raped them. And when you think about how males usually are the ones to drug and rape females, it just becomes even more questionable.

I also need to point out the fact that her name is Scarlet, and she has red hair. Wow. Amazing. So original. Aside from that though, she’s okay.

3. Kallis 🥉

Kal is a good character. He got the number three spot and I think he deserves it. I liked reading his POV chapters the most. It shows how he’s trying to hold back from his instincts to kill because that’s how he was raised. He’s a tsundere in ways. Cold and harsh on the outside, but deep down, he does care about the greater good. We don’t really get a warm side to him in the first book, but it’s there, I promise.

2. Aurora 🥈

Auri is baby, okay? She’s had to deal with loosing her family and life in one day. Even less than that. She had to deal with visions and hallucinations and new powers of telekinesis in a very short time. Home girl was going through some crap. But through all of that, she still manages to be a sweet girl. She’s never mean to the others, except for irritation at Kal. She tries her best to stay optimistic, and I think she went through the best arc in the group. (Although it’s kind of on the nose.) I love Auri and I think she deserves all the love.

1. Finian 🥇

Finian De Steel? Did you mean, the best character is Aurora Rising?

I love Fin with my entire heart. He is literally the best. He is so funny and snarky and easily has the best lines. But he’s also the most sympathetic in my opinion, along with Auri. You learn about his past and how people tend to treat him differently because he’s disabled, and how he has a hard time connecting with others despite wanting a connection with others so badly.

He’s a great character. I also think they represented his disability pretty well. He has an exosuit which makes him move, but it’s not treated as a cure. The suit gets damaged which affects Fin’s mobility, and he experiences pain because of it. So I think they did a good job with that. And he’s just awesome in general.

I understand that the humour in this book is pretty juvenile. However, some of Fin’s lines actually made me laugh and smile, and I usually don’t laugh or smile much. Humour is subjective and I’m not going to stand here and act like mine is the best. My sense of humour is bad puns and inside jokes between my family so...it was fine for me. Granted, Fin was the only character who actually was good at humour, so there.

Character Relationships

Yes, I think that this needs a section of its own.

Let’s start simple. Tyler and Scarlet. They’re both twins, with Scarlet being the older by like a minute. I think they were written pretty well as siblings, except for the fact that Scarlet calls Tyler her “baby brother” in her internal dialogue/narration including spoken dialogue. Siblings don’t call each other that, I promise you. As someone who has a sibling, reading fictional characters call each other that makes me cringe so much.

Then there’s Kal and Auri, who are essentially “soulmates” in a way by the end of the book. They aren’t canon or anything, it’s just extremely obvious that they’re endgame. Kal told Auri that she was essentially her mate and that they were fated to be together. Some people saw it as some Wolf alpha shiz, I saw it more as soulmates personally. I don’t think that they’re a bad pairing, it’s kind of cute sometimes. But to me, they don’t feel like two people who have feelings for each other. It just feels like a pairing that is usually a popular ship in fandoms.

The best way for me to describe it to you is this. When I see Kal and Auri together, I don’t think, “Oh these two characters have great chemistry. They could be romantic partners.” No, I think, “I feel like fans of this book ship them really hard.”

So in a way, their relationship may be cute, but it doesn’t feel real, because I’ll always see it as something the fans created and not the actual authors, which doesn’t even make sense to me. I’m not even trying to hate on shippers, this pairing just confuses me.

By bigger pet peeve is that the authors seem to want to pair up every other character, because by the end of the book, Fin and Scarlet seem to crush on each other. It’s really annoying when people think that romance is the end game.

I’ve also read reviews where the readers were upset at how heteronormative the couple pairings were. And I agree with them. While reading the book, I always thought Fin was gay. To me, he was coded as gay or bi. Also, there’s a scene where Tyler kisses Kal because a guard was about to catch them. Seeing how the book was released in 2019, I can see how LGBTQ+ readers were disappointed that their identities were used as a really cheap way for the characters to get out of a situation, and not give them actual representation.

(Personally, I wouldn’t mind if Tyler got caught, maybe then he could actually have consequences for his actions.)

But you see, these relationships are okay to me. Not perfect. Definitely room for improvement, but they don’t upset me. But the found family, aka the whole squad, disappointed me. Not enough to make me not want to get the sequel, but enough to make me write about it.

You see, what I was expecting was enemies to friends. Nobody wants to be in this squad, so they constantly argue and mess up their mission because of it. After some near death experiences and real stakes, they start to become friends until they actually see each other as family in a way.

But we don’t get that. At least, I didn’t feel like we got that. Because this found family feels forced to me.

Despite them not liking each other, they don’t argue. They give each other insulting banter, but that doesn’t count as actual differences of opinions. We’re not even shown them disagreeing with each other. We’re told in one of Auri’s chapters, but that’s not enough for me. And it doesn’t correlate with the fact that they didn’t fail a mission. Technically yes, they failed the first one, but because the GIA came to stop it, it didn’t feel like a failure to me. And that was their only failure. They did everything else right, despite them being so different, and hating each other and etc.

The one time we actually got a real disagreement was in chapter 18, and we already know how I feel about chapter 18.

So yeah, their found family is cute and all, but I feel like it could’ve flowed more naturally, so that it would make sense. I remember Kristoff comparing this book to Guardians of the Galaxy on goodreads, which I feel like is insulting to GotG. Because in GotG the characters actually hate each other and go to jail because the first thing they did when they met was fight. So yeah, GotG did it better in my opinion.

And that’s enough for part 2. I can’t believe I have to make a third part, but hopefully it will be the last. If you read this far, thank you. You should consider following me because I might want to do more in-depth reviews like this.

Part 3

[wodrueckts]

what makes u uncomfortable about it? I can see why ppl make fun of it bc it was cringe but also idk why someone decided to go back and find that older comment and spark this whole thing at the same time (bc I don’t think it was recent when it was found)

Oof that’s quite the can of worms tbh and has many layers lol and idk if i’ll be able to properly articulate my thoughts about this which is why i’ve had this ask in my inbox for 2 days now and am only replying now when it’s alread pretty much irrelevant lol

anyway, so some of the reasons why the ‘10 *fire emoji* thing makes me PERSONALLY a bit uncomfortable are

the fact that it reminds me that he posted that in the first place which is exactly the kinda stuff i DON’T want to know about actors lol

the fact that someone found that and felt the need to post abt it on tumblr where it then sparked some discourse (and it just kind of feels like an invasion of privacy even if it was ‘public information’ or whatever)

the fact that it then became a meme (one that i myself personally in my very own opinion find a bit ‘cringy’ all by itself)

the fact that i now know that the cast - or at least lukas - know about it and every reminder that any of the cast know ANYTHING of what’s going on in fandom makes me want to delete my blog anyway and this is that feeling x100

and of course no fandom has ever heard of moderation so now i’m constantly confronted with that thing everywhere and have to relive all the emotions the above mentioned things elicit in me lol

but also all of this kind of encapsulates the kind of attitude the fandom has towards the cast, and especially michelangelo and lukas (it’s always the evak actors lol tho tbf this is a different situation than with the other ones), which in general makes me a little uncomfortable sometimes, not really bc it’s BAD per se (tho it could get there) but just because it’s the kind of stuff i personally don’t really like.

and that is, that people just… care so much abt whatever the actors are doing or saying and feel the need to comment on, judge, discuss, analyze, meme-ify literally everything they find out abt them.

And for the two of them that results on two different things:

for michelangelo it usually leads to “““bullying“““. I’m using so many quotation marks bc i KNOW it’s not that deep, it’s just fun and games and out of fondness and honestly i doubt michelangelo gives a shit abt any of it, like he seems like he doesn’t really care about the fandom in general anyway (and good for him tbh lol)

but on paper it’s still a bunch of strangers on the internet making fun of an 18 year old kid - and sometimes even his appearance or his fashion sense or whatever - that they don’t know. and it’s just the kind of “soft bullying“ you’d do to friend, yes, but… he’s not our friend. we barely know him and he doesn’t know us at all. and even 'friendly bullying’, without the necessary understanding and trust between everyone involved, is, at the end of the day, not so different from regular bullying.

and again, i doubt michelangelo gives a fuck or even knows abt any of it (besides the things other ppl show him) so it’s not that i feel bad for him personally specifically, like 'oh leave that poor boy alone~!!’, or that i think i need to protect him or whatever. it’s just that i’m not really a big fan of this kind of thing in general, like on principle lol.

and for lukas it’s kind of similar but also kind of the opposite lol. in the way he’s always put on some kind of pedestal and is seen as some kind of almost superhuman LGBT icon and every little thing he says or does is reproduced a hundred times and gets analyzed and meme-ifyed and not seldom taken out of context or misinterpreted and then that gets reproduced a hundred more times. like at this point he must feel like he has to be really careful abt what he says or even what kind of face he makes or else it might become A Thing in a way he never intended. he’s so nice to care about the fandom so much and to put himself out there like this but the fandom sometimes is just a bit much i feel like.

so i guess my wish would be for people to just… chill a little lol. concentrate more on the show andcharacters and less on the actors. 

 but at the same time i know it’sprobably just me who feels like this lol and tbh it’s mostly based onmy own personal hang-ups. and i know it’s just what fandom does and not that deep andpeople just want to have fun, which is fine, and i don’t even wannatell anyone what to do or not to do. at the end of the day it’s myown problem lol. 

you do you, guys. 

and for context of what kind ofperson i am so you know how serious or not serious to take whatever isay: i’m the kind of person who gets a lil uncomfortable by everyonein fandom calling michelangelo “michi“ bc in my head i’m like'you don’t know him like that’ lol and i wouldn’t call anyone i don’tpersonally know by their nickname unless i didn’t know any other namefor them or it’s the name they officially go by. make of that what you will lol

[alfafilly]

Ok, so some of you might have seen this long chain of nonsense @arpeggio-the-parrot and I were posting a couple weeks ago. Most people I assume didn’t really get what it was about, but who really gets the two of us amirite?

Now, a short history: I’ve been a lover of the Sly series since the games were released because I am an ancient hare of the double decade-n-some and fondly remember crushing on our parrot asshole when I was 12 years old or so. Why? Dude, I don’t know. I’ve always loved him and the series, but there was a loooong period of my online existence where I shunned away all fandoms (since like 2009 or so) because I thought they were a “waste of time”. I am an artist with an array of original works, including a webcomic, and for years I thought it fruitless to indulge in fanart or fan communities because I could be spending that time on original content.

That all changed when I replayed the Sly series and fell back in love with the stupid asshole bird in 2017. Things changed in my mind, and I realized ya know what? Screw that noise. I’m gonna be a cringefest if I wanna be and I’m gonna draw some birb. In the process of doing so, I ran across the only existing (at the time) other lover of the obscure squawking turd: @arpeggio-the-parrot a.k.a. Peregrine.

Peregrine and I became instant friends because of our shared interest in tiny evil avians. In the year of our lord 2019 the stars aligned and Peregrine was gifted the opportunity to conveniently travel near to my location of existence and us two birdfuckers GOT TO MEET UP in real fucking life, dudes.

And thus, the stretch of posts documenting our short time together being bird loving idiots along with my partner StupidShepherd who tolerated our shenanigans and judged and kinkshamed us silently (and not-so-silently). It was GREAT. And we are already planning BirdWives Adventures #2 and #3 in which chaos will rain down from the heavens and children will scream.

Anyway, so that happened. As I reflect on it, I become truly amazed at this world we live in now, where two people who are in love with a fictional parrot from a video game from the 2000′s who appeared for literally like idk 10 minutes total can actually come together in the physical plane and cause shenanigans. We played the game together and swooned over birbs. There is video proof. It’s there. Wow. We are ridiculous.

The Sly Cooper fandom has truly been amazing. I mean. It’s fully of weirdos like us but y’all have been exponentially supportive, along with my friends who aren’t in the fandom at all but support this bad romance. It’s become a jokey meme at this point, yes, but you’re still supportive and it makes me cry happy tears inside my crusty soul. You. Tolerate MY cringe. OUR cringe. I can’t believe it. The Tumblr community especially has embraced us BirdFuckers and tolerated our shenanigans. You are great and fantastic and I love all of you. Even those of you who hate Arpeggio because it’s okay, it just means more for us.

I just wanted to share this special event with you all. It was fantastic and wonderful and you all are fantastic and wonderful. And Peregrine is a great friend who is wonderful, even past the mutual desire to fuck a sexy bird man. I’m so happy to have met her and to be pals with her! I am also happy to be here and to bring you cringe content! There will be more.

Tired of Arpeggio? Too fuckin’ bad, bitch, this shit is only just beginning.

[gabbyzvolt25]

Again I might give it a try if I get the okay, and I’m reading people’s thoughts on the epilogue just to see like. The general consensus on how bad it is and tbh I have a whole lotta cents. More than just 2 cents even. I wanna say now this is much less about my thoughts on the epilogue itself, because well. Yeah. It’s a lot more my reactions to other people’s commentary. Wow, guess this is technically meta, huh? Commentary about other ppl’s commentary. Anyway, I’ll put it below the cut bcuz I didn’t have an established tag for this kinda bullshit and it’s long and I want to spare my followers who don’t care, are upset also, or want to just not scroll for 5 years of having to deal with it all.

So, people who are going “the point is to make fun of bad fanon” or “people can change and things can be dark or gritty” kinda. I feel like there’s the deal with. Just because things are meta or parodies doesn’t mean they are inherently good. You can do those things very poorly.

Also I’ve seen people go “people just wanted a happy ending where everything is perfect” actually I expected John, Rose, Dave, and Jade to all get ‘killed’ or something in the fight with Caliborn as shown in Caliborn’s masterpiece. I expected there to be something sad, actually. Like you’d get people really depressed at that as an ending, really. Hell. Terezi coming back empty handed without Vriska. Ways to make a sad ending that, reasonably, would probably be the most ‘realistic’ ending from what we see in canon. An ending that might give some sort of closure, in the simplest way. I wasn’t expecting something seemingly large and convoluted. Yeah character’s change but also when it seems to go “what characters can I antagonize in an ooc fashion today” it’s much different.

And you know. I don’t know if my fear is completely warranted, but know that even hearing about Lanque’s freindsim route being oof for people- and I must mention I was relatively okay with it- I’ve NEVER actually been SCARED to read/watch/etc something related to Homestuck. This is the first I’ve heard that made me go “maybe I shouldn’t read this.” And that’s pretty telling. Now I know I’m generally pretty sensitive and shit and yeah it’s like that, but from what I hear it seems to make things dark and gritty for the sake of it. And as someone who is perfectly capable of making content and AUs where I consider fucked up shit happening, paired with my tendency to like characters that fall under ‘murderboy’ tropes, I’d say I can bear with dark shit when it’s presented well or at least within a level that doesn’t seem to just be fueling a fire. Even using dark shit to make a point- even a very important and valid one (looking at all the gritty pessimistic novels High School gave me) can be too much for enjoyment. Also I feel like this is something to note, since I just got thinking about it making this post, but I hear people saying “it’s as bad as Homestuck is” and well. Okay. I’d believe you if it weren’t for DIEHARD FANS who know how Homestuck is, and have seen the content in Homestuck that’s been upsetting, expressing their utter disappointment with the epilogue and how it handles topics. I’m not even looking at the people who don’t like Homestuck and have been searching for a reason all along to decimate any fans of it. I’m talking people who would tell you just days ago that they love Homestuck in its entirety and even with its flaws they can find enjoyment in it and other related content being appalled at the epilogues.

All in all, I haven’t read it and won’t unless I know I’m actually safe to read it, so I’m not the most suited to give accurate commentary on how subjects were handled within them, but I know some of the discussion within the fandom currently can be a source of concern for me. I usually avoid posting lots about fandom stuff, not necessarily because cringe or whatever, but generally nothing gets me super worried or concerned to the point of feeling the need to. I do know some of the people who liked it going “people should appreciate things” or “things are dark sometimes!” should maybe evaluate why so many of the fanbase seems upset with it. Maybe you like bad endings or gritty content and I’m not going to use this post to judge, but know that Homestuck, while still occasionally dark, was relatively lighthearted. I know a dude who legit just read Homestuck because it was funny. Liked it at it’s best when it was early on and making fun of point and click games and mechanics. Perhaps you liked it, but for a story so full of grief of loss people expected that hardship to work towards something good. So many works of fiction are so very pessimistic, and to get at least one story with at least a bittersweet ending- maybe not completely happy, but something bittersweet- is great. And when Collide and Act 7 sorta came around and were kinda decent, and even to some extent the snaps weren’t terribly bad, people could accept that the kids found a light at the end of the tunnel. A lot of people use fiction and stories as an escape, and lots of times much like they’d wish for themselves in reality people want characters to EARN something from their suffering. Even if the point is to be “too angsty” or “too ‘happy’” (I hear that isn’t even “happy” either, really. But I guess it’d be the “happiest” possible by whatever twisted standards the writers thought of) that doesn’t necessarily make it a good point. Even if the point is to not be satisfactory that doesn’t make it a good point. Or rather. Even if these points end up being alright points to make, they aren’t necessarily good executions.

I want to say one last time, because I’ve rambled a lot and typed this mess out in a very scattered way and lost track of what all I put in here:

If you liked the epilogues. Good on you I suppose, but don’t judge those who find them out of place; especially listen when people put thought into why. Hell, even consider why those who can’t even find the courage to read them are afraid when surely they’ve read the rest of Homestuck and potentially parts of Hiveswap and Friendsim that are upsetting.

[nichetales-archived]

About Me As A Writer

Tagged by @shitabukenjirou ~ <3 

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean? Foxyena and FoxyenaArts is my name for all platforms. It makes me easy for commissioners to find, and dates back to my years doing furry art commissions, which is also where the name originates. 

2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (bookmarks/subscriptions/hits/kudos).

Well, the most hits & kudos is Skipping Practice with nearly 17k hits and ~630 kudos, but Courtship of the Owl has the most subscriptions and bookmarks. 

3. What is your AO3 profile icon, and why did you choose it?

The same as the one I use here. I tend to only use one icon for all sites at once, and I love Matsukawa + glasses and smoking aesthetic so~ 

4. Do you have any regular/favourite commenters?

I do! I don’t know most of their tumblr usernames, but there certainly are a few lovely people I am always excited to see comments from. 

5. Is there a fanfic that you keep going back to read again and again?

Honestly, there’s a few. I reread fics a lot, but my favorite that I find myself always coming back to is  Lust and Lies by DeathBelle aka @worthlesspride. 

6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked?

I currently have 253 bookmarks and 223 subscriptions. 

7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most?

I don’t have a particular AU. I have ~50 fics in progress and aside from those in a series, they vary from Transhumanism/Cyborg AU to cute lil’ Coffee Shop AU. I actually try really hard to have variety. 

8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total? (you can view this on the stats page)

348 Subscriptions and 525 Bookmarks

9. Is there something you’d like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!)

I have a TenSemi fic titled Human Juice that is literally nothing but all of my kinks out in the open and I’m so sorry for anyone who chooses to read that whenever I release it. It has everything from Erotic Electrostimulation to Blood Play and more. So much more. If you wanna know more about it, feel free to ask I guess lol.

10. Is there anything you would like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc.

Fluff and just.. happy things. I thrive on painful/angsty/poetic forms of writing and I struggle with just letting them be happy for once. 

11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often?

Both! Right now my posted works are mostly popular ships for main ship, but I have dozens of fics in the works for rare pairs like MatsuKuro, GoshiShira, SemiSuga, OiYama, and more. Courtship of the Owl even has Komori/Konoha in it. 

12. How many stories have you posted on AO3 to this day (finished and unfinished)?

Only 9, but that is about to change real soon ‘cause Avery here has no self control and can’t write just one fic at once apparently. 

13. How many stories do you have saved in/with your writing program?

63 total. 7 of them are for YOI, and the rest are all Haikyuu!!

14. Do you write down story ideas, or just keep them in your head?

I write down all of them. My process actually starts with coming up with a title and creating a premise and theme around the title of the fic. 

15. Have you ever co-authored a story?

Yessir! I have co-authored 2 works with @tettsuroo, though one is not complete yet. 

16. How did you discover AO3?

I honestly don’t remember. 

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on AO3?

Absolutely not. 

18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers?

nnnnoooo? 

19. Was there an author who inspired or encouraged you to write?

Several, but most notably was @worthlesspride, @tettsuroo, and @kaiyouchan.

20. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author?

Learn from other authors. Pay attention to what you like about their works and learn from your peers. Don’t be afraid to reach out, make friends, and create a network of support around you. Learn from others, but always be you. 

21. Do you plot out your stories, or do you just figure it out as you go?

I’ve done both. Courtship of the Owl has a 22 page outline detailing everything that happens in it, while Petals of Pining never had an outline at all. One-shots normally don’t get outlines either. Just lengthy, detailed multi-chapters that have complex plots and subtle details/foreshadowing. 

22. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do?

Yes, I have. Someone who I had read and commented on their work supportively commented on one of mine; they disagreed with the ending I wrote and tried to “fix” it, telling me what should have happened and ending the comment saying something similar to “now all is right with your world”.  I simply commented stating I had revoked any and all support/comments/bookmarks of their work and that I didn’t want to associate with someone who thought that was appropriate behavior. 

23. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (action, smut, etc..)

I struggle with scene transitions sometimes. How does one get from point A to point B... 

24. What story(s) are you working on now?

You Can See My List of Current Projects Here But Courtship of the Owl and my Secret Santa ficlet + art is my primary focus atm. That list is roughly in priority order. Roughly.

25. Do you plan your next project(s) before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?

I mean... have you seen my Current Projects list? 

26. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself?

Mm not really. I try to at least work on something daily, though. The amount may vary depending on how strenuous my job was that day or if I had time to be on the computer or if I was writing on my phone. 

27. Do you think you’ve improved as a writer since you first started?

Sometimes I wanna vomit when I read work that I wrote only a few months ago so I would assume so, yes. 

28. What is your favorite story that you’ve written?

Demons Wear Contacts.  It’s not released yet, but it’s a Demon!Matsukawa MatsuHana fic. I’ve never had so much fun writing before. The fic is in Makki’s perspective, and will be my next multichapter fic after Courtship of the Owl is done. 

29. What is your least favorite story that you’ve written?

My early works, especially the YOI ones. I had never really written before and while I’ve still only been writing for about a year now, they make me cringe so hard. I’ve been thinking about orphaning them, honestly. 

30. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years?

Probably doing the same thing I am now, maybe for a new fandom.  I hope to do more zines though. I’ve quite enjoyed those. 

31. What is the easiest thing about writing?

For me, it’s sensations. I love writing what people feel, the emotions, the sensations of touch, taste, see, etc. Or planning. I’m really good at plannin’ stuff. 

32. What is the hardest thing about writing?

Finding the time and energy to dedicate to doing it. Also writing fluff. I’m so bad at writing happy things, you guys. 

33. Why do you write?

It’s something I enjoy, and it’s another way I can be part of a community, a network of people who enjoy what I do and I can build friendships with. 

Tagging: @tettsuroo, @worthlesspride, @madamemalfoy21, @hajiiwa, @rhealmobsidi, @quinnlocke, @crown-of-winterthorne, @aizawa-shoutas, @mystictrashheap

[peculiar-shardscape]

It is recommended you do NOT read this post. This is a vent post, and I don’t want anyone to be involved with it. Please do not share this post, or tell other people about it unless it’s really necessary. Unless you’re a close friend, please do not confront me about this post.

Sometimes I wanna start a project which then starts a new fandom but then I’m scared that the fandom will become toxic and terrifying just by the experiences I went through with my favourite fandoms and it holds me back from actually doing what I want to do because of all the ideas I have in my head but I’m just too afraid of being popular as well because then that means I have too many eyes watching me and I feel like every second of me is being judged. It’s so scary to me and I just can’t get myself to do what I want to publicly.

I had to mute several servers for a while because of how great their impact was on me. I’ve been so afraid of revealing myself nowadays because for all the time I’ve been in those said servers, I’ve been judged for literally everything I’ve done, and somehow so many people can list out so many of my flaws. I’ve been so stressed out, because of how toxic the servers have been, and all the drama involved within. I want to feel safe, but I also want to be more open about myself, but I can’t because of my fear of people losing interest in me and just... Leaving me out to die, I guess???

I’m terrified for myself. My most favourite fandom just so happens to be the worst fandom I’ve ever been, and I know so little people who are actually decent and accepting to me. I’ve been in server drama 3 times since I joined this fandom, one involving her, one involving the devs of that one game, and now this fucking main server where it’s all just drama and fucking shit people who cringe at everything and say how stupid things are. I’ve developed so much ptsd and trust issues, mainly by her, but also by the entire community itself. I only feel safe in only 2 of the servers I’m in, out of more than 10 servers. Every other server fucking traumatises me, and I feel so unwelcome and out of place.

I revamped my insanity!au, but a part of me is too afraid of getting either too much attention or not enough support, and I’m so afraid of my future. I actually started working on the au BEFORE the drama, and now I’m just too afraid to even continue it at this point. I finished a page just yesterday, but now I can’t even bring myself to even draw on my computer. The Insanity!au was actually the biggest project I actually started, and I don’t want to let it go down to waste, however, after all the hell I’ve been through, I’m too scared to even decide when the deadline will be. I have my friends supporting me, but I’m just so scared about the fact I’m one hell of a lost cause and they’ll end up losing interest in me eventually.

You know, there was a time where I was barely easy to trigger. Anything really triggering never bothered me. But after she took everything away from me, I can’t even handle even seeing her name. Her name is an adjective too for the hell of it. So I always hear or see “oops, I’m really _______” or “oh, how ______ am I” and so on and... I know it’s just a fucking word. I know it has nothing to do with her. But every time I hear or see it, it fucking stresses me out to the point I can’t think straight. It reminds me of the horrible shit that happened to me. All the things she blamed me for. I lost two good friends because of her. She manipulated me to do what she wanted. She guilt tripped me. And even worse, if anyone asked, she was more than willing to tell the story of what I did. My reputation was extremely fucked and I’m so afraid that it’ll happen again.

Thanks to all that’s happened to me, I feel like a bad guy. I feel like it was all my fault. Everything that happened. And I’ve been too afraid to say anything because I’m scared they’ll abandon me. They’ll say I’m “being too sensitive” or “trying to guilt trip them” or any of that. I’m too afraid to be open because of what happened to me. I’ve cried so many times because of all this. I was antagonised, and you know what? It probably is true. Maybe I really am a bad person. Maybe I shouldn’t be participating in these sorts of things. But you know what? I’ve tried so hard, so much, just to help people. I hate joining in on drama, but I’m the type of person who tries to help in any opportunities I get.

If something bad happens, I try to fix it. If I screw up, I try to make up for it. But it only ends up with me being the fucking center of attention. It’s my fault. Everything that happens? It’s all my responsibility. I broke people’s hearts, I tore people’s trusts, I ruined my ability to give myself a good reputation. I don’t know how to change myself. I’ve tried so hard to be a good person, but every time, it always comes back to haunt me. The time when I was the antagonist behind everything. She made people avoid me. She made them cut ties with me. She made me the “entire reason why the fandom is bad.” I could be over exaggerating, but what the hell does that change? Thanks to her, nobody would believe me if I tried to stand up for myself. I’m the demon of the fandom. That’s why she sent me out. That’s why I stopped participating in new praf servers. She says I hurt people, and I probably do. That’s why I stopped trying.

I stopped trying. I’ve given up. I can no longer handle the pain that’s been put on me. I’m most likely going to be less active. Once I finish all my requests, I’m most likely going to close my ask box down. I can’t say for sure, I don’t know if I’ll recover by the time. If I do, then I guess it’s luck. If I don’t, it’s not a surprise. I’ve lost the ability to care. If I’m the real bad guy of this fandom, I might as well just stop fucking existing at this point. There’s no point in me fixing my reputation anymore. It’s fucked enough as it is and I’ll only make it worse.

I hate this fucking fandom. Or even so, I hate myself most for even doing the shit I’ve done.

[novocaine-sea]

About Me As a Writer

Tagged by @foxyena Thank you so much!!

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean? My tumblr username obviously comes from Aizawa from BNHA. He’s one of my favorite characters and he’s voiced by one of my favorite seiyuu’s, Junichi Suwabe. My old username novocaine-sea (which is novocaine_sea on AO3) came from a song by the band Senses Fail! The lyrics go “I wanna drown in a sea filled with novocaine” I had that username from my bandom days and couldn’t part with it

2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (bookmarks/subscriptions/hits/kudos).

Fruitless has the most of all of these things, over 200 bookmarks, 726 kudos, almost 9000 hits and 100 subs! But as for active fics Side Effects is the second best with 90 subs!

3. What is your AO3 profile icon, and why did you choose it?

My AO3 icon is a sleeping Bakugou cap from the anime bc he looks like such an angel I love him so much

4. Do you have any regular/favourite commenters?

Yes!! My fav commenters are @vairenna, @emotabek and @mirikiri93 but i also love every single person who comments on my stories anyway because they’re all so lovely and supportive and I cherish every single one of them

5. Is there a fanfic that you keep going back to read again and again?

Right now I’ve been going back and reading Feathers Are the Least of These by mousapelli (I’m unsure if they have a tumblr account). It’s a Tokoyami x Deku fic and it’s really wonderful I love it a lot.

6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked?

I have 830 bookmarks (it’s a mess I had more but went through and deleted a bunch one day, I need to do it again) and I don’t know how to see the exact number of works I’m subscribed to but there are 5 pages worth, though half of them are most likely completed

7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most?

Well I tend to keep coming back to serial killer AUs, are AUs that are particularly blody. I think I have at least one planned for each fandom I’m in, and have already accomplished that with Haikyuu. Though I do wanna write more. 

8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total? (you can view this on the stats page)

I have 145 user subscriptions and 1655 bookmarked

9. Is there something you’d like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!)

I have a, uh, cannibal fic planned? Which I feel like a lot of people wouldn’t be cool with so I’m gonna keep it to myself for now lmao

10. Is there anything you would like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc.

Fluff mostly. I’m not very good at it and i feel like compared to my angst and smut even it comes out really lackluster

11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often?

I really love rarepairs, my favorite pairs are SemiSuga and MatsuAka, but lately I’ve found myself writing IwaOi which is strange bc they’re not even one of my main ships. But I love both rarepairs and popular ships equally!

12. How many stories have you posted on AO3 to this day (finished and unfinished)?

Okay so my AO3 says 56 but I’ve deleted at least 5 or 6 from it so it’s more in the 60s.

13. How many stories do you have saved in/with your writing program?

Oh god I don’t even want to count but I have at least 5 WIPs for Haikyuu, BNHA, and YOI respectively

14. Do you write down story ideas, or just keep them in your head?

I do the bad thing of keeping some of them in my head but I really try to write down a lot of them.

15. Have you ever co-authored a story?

I have not! But I was planning to cowrite something with my friend Erin! I think it would be fun to cowrite with somebody :)

16. How did you discover AO3?

My best friend Faith made me read this one Teen Wolf fic called “DILF” and I’ve been on AO3 ever since!

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on AO3?

Oh no not at all

18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers?

Do fandom authors do that?

19. Was there an author who inspired or encouraged you to write?

A lot but I would credit @thewiselearnfromhistory as my biggest inspiration. Idk where she disappeared off to but she’s a wonderful friend and an amazing writing (she’s ConesofDunshire on AO3)

20. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author?

Write what you want to see. Don’t try and copy other writer’s style; develop your own while reading their works. It’s okay to be inspired by other people’s writing. 

21. Do you plot out your stories, or do you just figure it out as you go?

I’ve done both! I had a really intense outlie for Fruitless but it ended in a way that was not plan. Half of what happened in the fic was not planned until I actually wrote the completed chater. I really thik it’s fun to let the fic take you where it wants to go. Currently I’ve planned out all the chapters of Side Effects but they’ll probably end up being scrapped, at least half of it.

22. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do?

Yes! I have been told that my grammar is awful and the story would have been more readable and enjoyable if I had a “better grasp on my grammar.” I’ve been told that the way I write certain characters is extremely OOC. I’ve been told that characters would never do that because they’re monsters and not kind souls. But the amount of positive comments I’ve gotten outweighs the bad ones tenfold

23. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (action, smut, etc..)

I’m really bad with action scenes but I’ve been writing BNHA which is an action packed series so I’ve been trying to use that as my “training” I guess

24. What story(s) are you working on now?

My biggest priority right now is Side Effects as that is my main work on AO3 right now. But I will return to Untucking and the TodoMomo fic eventually. I am also working on some Kacchako secret Santa stuff!

25. Do you plan your next project(s) before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?

Lmao yes it’s an ISSUE

26. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself?

No but my only goal right now is to finish Side Effects chapter 23 because it’s been giving me issues so that’s my goal every day right now

27. Do you think you’ve improved as a writer since you first started?

Oh my fucking god yes. I read the UshiOi smut that I have posted on AO3 and I cringe SO HARD. My friend told me that,that was their favorite fic of mine (or one of them at least) and I was like why... please....

28. What is your favorite story that you’ve written?

I would say Fruitless, but I also really love Golden. IT evoked a lot of emotion from me and I really love that piece of writing. But also Side Effects. And Wisteria. I can’t pick a favorite

29. What is your least favorite story that you’ve written?

Ahhhh the UshiOi story aforementioned. And anything I’ve deleted from AO3

30. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years?

I hope to still be writing for fandom because I do enjoy it, but I also hope to be writing my own original work and maybe have a short story or two published? I think it would be nice to get into a fandom zine too!

31. What is the easiest thing about writing?

I think putting intense emotions into the characters and everything around them is my strong suit. I love breaking characters down and getting to the root of their problems

32. What is the hardest thing about writing?

Keeping things happy! I always return right back to the angst and I need to fucking relax with it it’s bad

33. Why do you write?

I write for myself, to get my ideas out there, and hopefully write something that other people love and enjoy fully. I write to make friends and to meet people who will inspire me and who I can inspire too. I love the way writing and art in general in fandom connects people. It’s really special :)

Tagging: @hamletsprozac @tenacioustooru @caelestisxyz @tootsonnewts @meimagino @seekingsquake and anybody else who wants to do it! don’t feel pressured

[splashcorgi]

@gingergallifreyan tagged me to do this thing!!!! Thank you so much!!!!! :)

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 people.

Nicknames: I used to shorten my name but now I don’t really do that because I think it’s cringy. So I don’t really have any nicknames. 

Gender: Gurl

Sign: Libra

Height: I like to think I’m 5′4″ but really I’m just 5′3″ and a half. 

Time: 8:57 PM 

Birthday: Cold. It’s always cold. Except for this year. This year wasn’t too bad. 

Favorite Bands: I quite like Fall Out Boy. I can’t claim to be a hardcore fan, but I’ll put some of their songs on when I feel it is necessary (”Last of the Real Ones” is seriously a work of art.) I like the Beatles too, but who doesn’t, ya know? I don’t really listen to one specific band though. I will admit that during the aforementioned cringe phase there was one band that started with “Big” and ended with “Rush” that I won’t even say the name of that I listened to all the time, but I don’t listen to one thing like I did back then.

Solo Artists: Mah boi Stromae, Indila, Kendji Girac, *coughs*taylorswift*coughs*, ya know. Tbh I will listen to whatever fits the mood at the time I start listening. 

Song stuck in my head: “One Last Time/Attends-moi” by Ariana Grande and Kendji Girac

Last show I watched: Stranger Things 2

When did I create this blog: Sometime during the cringe phase at the end of my freshman year so… May 2015? Maybe?

What do I post: David Tennant, Doctor Who, anything else I find funny, intriguing or inspiring. Anything worth posting imo.

What did I last Google: Cal Berkely swimming. Even though I’m a swimmer on the college search, I’m WAAAAYYYYYYYYY to slow to be able to swim at Cal. Even if I was an Olympian, I still live nowhere NEAR Cal. I was just super curious to see how fast their team is this year. They’re fast. 

Other Blogs: I have a David Tennant side blog that I’m thinking about deleting because I never use it anymore. 

Do I get asks: No. I’m kinda too shy to put myself out there. I think I would start rambling and no one would care to read, or judge me. I normally just do these little things when I get tagged and go about my tumblr life. 

Why did I choose this URL: Good question. It was, again, during my cringe phase and this was the username I used all the time. Idk where my fourteen year old self found it or what I did with it, but it’s super cringy.  I’ve tried to figure out how to change it, but I don’t know how! Could anyone lend a hand? How does “splash corgi” sound? Is that even worse?

Following: Anyone who runs a blog that is interested in the same stuff that I am. Simple. 

Followers: 115. Wow, imma be tagging like half my follower count at the end of this!

Average hours of sleep: Well I get home from practice at 11:00 at night (ugh) and that’s when I usually get to bed, and I get up at six. So… seven hours on a normal day. Sometimes less if I have a day full of panic attacks. 

Instrument: 13 years of piano under my belt, 9 years of flute, just picked up the oboe in september, and I sang in the choir in Junior High and just started choir back up again this year. I also had a month-long guitar phase. I sucked, and the guitar is now broken. 

What I am wearing: A swimming tee-shirt and leggings. 

Dream Job: I’m gonna be a double major next year! English Education and French. I wanna be a madame someday! Je veux être une prof de français! 

Favorite Food: Pasta

Last book I read: 23 Minutes in Hell for a project on my biggest fear. Not exactly the most fun project for someone with the anxiety that I have. 

3 favorite fandoms: Doctor Who, David Tennant, Harry Potter. 

I tag: half my follower count

Thank you to @gingergallifreyan for tagging me! You have absolutely no idea how much it means to me that you cared enough to put my url down in your tags. I might just start doing this more often! :)