#but he CANNOT admit it

[bougiebutchbitch]

oh my god he’s so fucking annoying

[lefttoesucker]

When you're a traumatized dead man but all your teammates see you as is a loser emo edgelord 😔

Few months later:

The mug reference for those who don't know

The existence of this mug is haunting me since middle school

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

saw @chez-cinnamon's absolutely BANGER butterfly!Howdy design and couldn't resist! two fluffy flutterbyes <3 solidarity

[drac-kool-aid]

Seward's bone deep desire to run away from the asylum is not exactly surprising. There have been a lot of really good meta posts about how the return of Van Helsing into his life is the turning point where we see the caring and good side of him and how we can interpret his life as a student in Amersterdam as one of freedom and happiness. How he is part of the tragedy of manners, how strict social expectations allow Dracula to persist, and how they only exacerbate the unhappiness of the characters.

And I think the tragedy of Seward is that, really, he should not be the head of an asylum. It's a job that brings him no joy, and he's BAD at it. We can all recognize that if your first reaction to going back to work is "What if I just leave it all." That isn't a healthy work environment.

Now, in the modern day, the ability to pick and choose a work environment, even to leave one that is damaging your mental health, is a privilege. (IT SHOULDNT BE, but it is). And, although it is definitely reaching crisis levels in modern times, major changes in your career have almost always been difficult (unless you are really rich, or a particular brand of academic in the 17th-18th century, or both).

Seward can't just leave and become a surgeon. To give up the lofty position of "Head of an Asylum" would be unthinkable in the 1890s, especially for a reason like "Being here is basically turning me into the Joker." Like, how would Seward explain that in polite society? Would they accept that reasoning? Would they create salacious gossip if they didn't? Can Seward leave his position without losing a great amount of social capital?

Probably not.

His rise to head of an asylum, as many have pointed out, was meteoric, to say the least. It has afforded him status and respect and also left him deeply, deeply fucked up. And he can't leave!

I think his desperate attempts to quantify Renfield's behaviors into a new mental illness are telling in this regard. Maybe he is too used to having to meet some sort of expectation, and now he thinks this is the logical next step (It's NOT, but I digress). The feeling of having to keep performing above expectations, grasping at straws to do so, and subsequently burning oneself out (as well as others around you) and engaging in unethical practices? Idk. It sounds like something that would happen today. (tbh there are probably a ton of Sewards out there today, as there are still systemic problems within the mental health system that allow for the dehumanizing and abuse of patients).

It doesn't excuse his behavior. Nothing he does to Renfield is excusable, but I think it does explain some of the *why*. He isn't just cruel for cruelty's sake.

So, tldr I guess: I think reading Seward as someone who got stuck on a career path that he realized was unfufilling and that he ends up hating. Social conventions restrict him from just quitting without and a (socially acceptable) good reason to do so, and a lifetime of being regarded as one of the smartest people in the room means he can not allow himself to fail. Unfortunately, this also means he can not admit when his actions or his ideas are wrong when it comes to his job.

(But he can show that uncertainty FOR Lucy, and TO Arthur and Van Helsing, which speaks his trust and love for them)

[lunar-wandering]

i literally cannot believe that the Wanderer went from nearly becoming a god to living in what's basically a college romcom. good for him tbh even if he hates every second of it-

[sasswonfp]

In honor of my own two day migrane i made batman suffer alongside with me. shit i do on accident while under the influence of migranes. ALT desc provided

[caluette]

the truth

[fowlblue]

hail to the king, baby

(i love this terrible man)

[modmad]

hi Mod! i hope you're doing well lately!

this might be a lil' weird to ask but, if RGB had a car, which one would it be? (i highly doubt he would even drive one but just to know lmao)

Robin Reliant. one of those three wheeled fuckers that always turned over while going around corners. just for the sheer comedy of it

[kenobihater]

sorry, he's allergic to SOUP? no wonder he thinks he's destined for infinite sadness, i'd believe that too if my immune system thwarted me from slurpin down a nice hearty bowl of soup 😭

[homoeroticgrappling]

GCWrestling sold out tonight in Rochester. Watch MDKHAUSEN Vs VIF on FiteTV app.

[owlsie-hoot]

Missing Tristan // additional PBS scene for 4.3

[randomwriteronline]

Oh btw. Things that make me insane:

this Entire Fucking Chapter never fails to have me going absolutely rabid with happiness but specifically i did distinctly remember that Kopaka smiled in this occasion - not smirked, smiled, which is something that i dont think he does often especially in the first few books. On my first read I wholly believed he would have turned around and thrown something directly at Pohatu's head while yelling at him but no, he hears his voice and his first reaction is Pure Unbridled Joy

He was so relieved he literally forgot that hes the cold distant one and actually expressed an uncompromisingly positive feeling of care. I choose to believe he smiled so honestly that he was literally radiant. Like looking directly at the sun. Blinded everybody in a twenty five km radius for one singular hot second.

And then of course he went SHIT WAIT MY COOL DISTANT GUY PERSONA

[blighted-lights]

i keep putting off finishing the actual meta post i have in my drafts for ravage, but i think this scene specifically is so interesting to me. ravage has absolutely no reason to give a fuck about nightbeat or getaway (offscreen), but chose to protect them against the ticks. this is the issue directly after getaway openly says he distrusts ravage and had the "ravage detector" made. i cannot stop thinking about it.

and not just defending nightbeat but ravage actively gets between him and the personality ticks. he starts off behind nightbeat and then moves in front of him to protect him.

keeping in mind that this is how getaway and nightbeat reacted to ravage's distress prior

no actual concern for ravage, just a quip and curiosity before they follow him. their reactions vs ravage's protection of them. i cannot stop thinking about it.

[mrgaretcarter]

[birchlogz]

even grandpappies deserve to be someone's babygirl sometimes