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[hyac1nthus]

@gotstabbedbyapen silly Hya! He has caught a fish ::3

[cloudcountry]

SUMMARY: you fall asleep on isaac's shoulder while he's working.

WARNINGS: none!!! :D

COMMENTS: ASGHFDHSAGD THIS IS MY FIRST TIME WRITING FOR IKEVAMP!!!!! i literally adore isaac sosososososo much he is so cute :((( I HOPE I WROTE HIM WELL!!!! :D

OH YEA tagging @dove-da-birb because i think you said you wante dto be tagged ahgsdhas

The weight of their head on Isaac’s shoulder snaps him out of the concentrated trance he’d found himself in. He turns his head, slowly and with bated breath, and feels his cheeks flush bright red at the sight that greets him. Sure enough, they’d fallen asleep on him. He should probably wake them up, he thinks, but as they breathe softly and their chest rises and falls and he watches, he’s not thinking much at all.

He couldn’t understand why they’d insisted on accompanying him for his late-night research session when they had other things to do. There was no reason to do so since he’d gotten by completely fine on his own, but they hadn’t backed down. Isaac was notoriously weak to them anyways—anyone in the mansion knew he would have said yes no matter what. They had a way of making him feel calm, like his existence wasn’t torture, like he didn’t constantly make mistakes and misunderstand the people around him.

They were quite the paradox. They laid themselves out to him like an open book, and yet he couldn’t read much of the words. Over the weeks they’d known each other, he’d learned how, but most of the pages were filled with jumbled words he didn’t understand and beautiful pictures he couldn’t interpret. And yet they were never a cruel teacher. They were the most patient person he’d ever met, guiding his hands across the gold-lined pages and helping him sound out the words that lead him through the paths of their heart. Sometimes, the words he found helped him find the way through his own heart. It was undoubtedly a beautiful thing, and although it was void of the equations he’d depended on his whole life, Isaac found himself less frightened by the day.

They would never hurt him. They treated him far too gently for that. Always there with a kind word and a nod when he began to ramble, always there to tell his housemates to knock it off with their teasing but often teasing him themselves, always there to hold his hand and ask him if he needed a hug at the end of the day. They prepared him tea on nights when he couldn’t sleep, too focused on his research and knowing he’d pass out at his desk and wake up with a blanket draped across his shoulders. There would be a little note scribbled out resting on top of his stack of papers, signed with their name and letting him know that they’d be bringing him breakfast in the late morning.

He wishes he had the courage to do the same for them. It was one of the many things about them he found adorable and one of the many things he would never admit to thinking about them.

“Do you think of me the way I think of you?” he murmurs to them, although they are fast asleep. Of course, they do not answer.

The ticking of the watch he fixed just for them echoes in the silence he leaves.

“If I asked you to stay...if I was selfish enough to ask that of you...would you comply? Would you fulfill my wish?” Isaac’s voice is impossibly softer, the yearning in his aching heart betrayed by the wobbling of his words.

They don't belong here. He knows this. They belong back in their world, where they have a family and friends and a life. He isn’t a natural part of who they are, even if he wishes he could grow to be. He wants to be part of what they want so badly, but that’s not possible. He’d only hurt them. And even if they say they trust him over and over, he does not trust himself. They are precious to him, someone he wants to protect more than anything—and to lose them now would destroy him.

His eyes flick back to his forgotten work, and he sighs. Raking his hand through his hair, he picks back up his pen and starts to write again. Their head on his shoulder burns through his shirt. He can feel their warmth. His hand shakes as it scribbles out an equation, and his cheeks still burn a fiery red. He’s gnawing on his bottom lip and bouncing his leg so fiercely he almost bangs his knee on the wood, but he doesn’t stop.

Do they have any idea how serious this is? Isaac could lose control of his hunger at any moment and hurt them just like he did before. His eyes flicker to their hand, and even though the bandages are gone, he still feels that stab of guilt. How do they feel safe enough with him to fall asleep near him? Even if it wasn’t on purpose, they should have left the second they were feeling tired. They should have bid him goodnight and patted his shoulder like they always did when they said goodbye and left him to his own devices. And yet they did not, because they are the strangest phenomenon he’s ever witnessed.

He loves them. He loves them like they strung up all the stars he loves to study in the sky, he loves them like they’re the only person he’ll ever know this well, he loves them like they’re the only person who would ever care for him even though they’d insist they’re not. He loves them like they’re everything and he knows there’s no way he could tell them that. He’s not good with words. He’s not good with affection.

And he is certainly not good with love.

Isaac turns back to them in what he wholeheartedly believes is a moment of weakness because they smell so nice and they look so at peace and—

They whisper his name.

A soft “Isaac” leaves their lips, and he stiffens at the sound. His face burns hotter now, his leg bounces more, his heart is pounding in his ears and his blood is rushing through his veins and—

He whips his head back towards his paper, intent on focusing on his work, only to see loopy scribbles of their name on his notes.

Gah, he needs to control himself.

Even when he wasn’t thinking, his body still yearned for them. How traitorous his hands were.

[midorisudachi]

“The Inquisitor And Her Commander”

As some of you may have noticed, I am a huge fan of the Dragon Age games, especially Dragon Age Inquisition. Last year, I had planned on drawing all the main [playable] characters up until Dragon Age Day (which took place on December 4th), but I just didn’t have time to draw more than three characters (the Inquisitor, Solas, & Varric…please check them out in my gallery) due to being busy with work and other things. I’ll eventually draw the other characters when I gather more motivation to do so.

For now, please enjoy this piece. I hope everybody likes this. I worked very hard on this artwork. It took longer than usual to create, due to all the small details, the poses, & the armour. (Armour is not easy to draw for me!) For those of you who are DAI fans, you may recognize the flowers: Crystal Grace on the bottom and Andraste’s Grace on the top. I know Andraste’s Grace is not in DAI, but I thought it would be pretty to add to the artwork (since it technically exists in the Thedas world).

 My OC Inquisitor is named Bryony Trevelyan. She is actually my 2nd Inquisitor character, the first one having been an elf (which I may draw someday). I had been playing DAI for the 3rd time, a few months ago, as a male character (since I wanted him to be in a romance with Dorian, so yes, my male Inquisitor is gay), but I stopped for a bit since I am playing Skyrim at the moment (with updates & mods). Anyway, back on the main subject: I drew Inquisitor Bryony Trevelyan in the Armor of the Dragon Hunter outfit (from the Jaws of Hakkon DLC), which I had altered the colours by tinting it with Veil Quartz. I based her crown from concept art for DAI. So much armour in the game! Which I love, especially since the DA games don’t give female characters the stereotypical skimpy outfits…I love that I get to make my female characters wear bad-ass armour.

Cullen Rutherford is such an adorable and slightly awkward character around my Inquisitor. I knew I had to romance him right away, because his looks are the type of man I am attracted to in real life. (I’m not going to lie…in the game, he’s hot for a video game character. Ha ha!) I’ve always enjoyed the flirting in the DA games when it comes to the relationships. The best scene was right before their first kiss, when Cullen got interrupted by a member of the Inquisition, and then got mad about it. Ha ha. I liked when my Inquisitor asked Cullen, “The day you kissed me on the battlements…how long had you wanted to do that?” And Cullen replied (with a laugh), “Longer that I should admit.” Awwwww.

I also liked the part in the Winter Palace, when all these people were flirting with Cullen, and one asked him, “Are you married, Commander?” And Cullen replied, “Not yet, but I am…already taken.” Double awwww, because a loyal man is so dreamy. :3 I actually had Bryony & Cullen get married in the last DLC. :3 They adopt a Mabari (dog), too!

I love DAI too much. :D It’s such a fun game with the most gorgeous graphics (especially on the Xbox Series X).

Drawn with Sakura Pigma Micron pens, then coloured in with a mixture of Copic Markers & Ohuhu Markers. I used Koi Watercolours for the background. White accents done with both a gel pen and white watercolour. Gold acrylic was used for the Inquisition Symbol & the lines, which the scanner absolutely murders...the gold is such a pretty, shimmery metallic in real life. The light green around my art was done in Photoshop Elements.

Dragon Age Inquisition © Bioware & Electronic Arts

Fan artwork © Jacqueline E. McNeese

[artfromsaturn]

Saturn’s Free CSP Brush Recommendations, CS Asset Store Edition

I may sell brushes now, but I still love me some free brushes & love to share them with people.  These are a bunch of cool brushes made by other people that you can use to build up a nice library of tools without having to spend any cash on, perfect if you’re new to CSP or are on a budget.  If you do download these, be sure to like them & give some love to the artist if you enjoy them. :D

How to find: type in the Content ID or Ctrl/Command + C & P (copy and paste shortcuts) into the Clip Studio asset store on the Clip Studio application.  I’ll add a link as a preview but copying & pasting the content ID is easiest.  I have automatic translation ON, so sorry if you read some weird names.   Feel free to reblog this with your own suggestions, there’s many brushes out there I missed. :D  Check defsiarte’s suggestions too, and if you want to see my recommendations for stuff on Gumroad/DA & other places, check this tag.

Large Packs

“An analogue art supply" - 1813808 Huge pack of everything, including acrylic, oil, watercolor, marker, pen, & pencil.  I like the markers and sometimes use the acrylics too.

Crm's Toolbox, Watercolors, Markers, & other treasures

Fantastic use of texture and some cute effects pens.  The artist has posted everything from quality painting & drawing pens to quality glitter pens for writing.

The Old Default Assets - 1842027 & 1841759 These aren’t pictured, but if you ever see an older tutorial or video showcasing some default brushes you never had, it’s because CSP reworked its default tools around version 1.9.  Fortunately they rerelased them so anyone can redownload them. The old ones are still good to use, they’re just not included.

Painters - With Texture

Thiccpaint - 1707517 Never leave home without it.  I riot if I don’t have them on my computer..  They have the right combination of texture, shape, & blend with great handling and great variety.

Icyannyou's Momo Sets - user:Icyannyou Super cute packs that give a lovely painterly look.  The Storybook pack is fantastic, and even if you don't draw cute you can still use these painters & blenders to give your artwork character. :)

Thick Coating Brush Set - 1683127 I like these for background work, but it's a big pack of thick textured painters with good handling & neat effects.

Marredae's Brushes - user:Marredae This artist has a knack for textured brushes.  Very high rec, fantastic library of wet & dry painting/rendering tools.

Roro Oil - 1820057 Rompi is another user I enjoy the stuff of, and I'll recommend a few more brushes from them in other categories by the time this post is done.  Check 'em out!

Suika chalk -  1760304 Very useful rough chalk.  Sometimes, that’s all you need!

Sprongle -  1935694 A simple round brush with a nice rough tip.  Slightly rough without being too rough, great for quick paintings.

Johnnie halloween pack & Brokenhearted brushes... - 1876075 & 1938786, user:EnjieLemon EnjieLemon has some nice brushes in general, but some are paid for.  Still worth checking out due to their cheap clippy price (and clippy can be obtained for free).  The Brokenhearted brushes have a nice texture.  The Halloween pack includes a cute pumpkin stamp along with some easy to use chalk, oil, & watercolor brushes.  Compact and easy to use!

“Watercolor marker and texture set” - 1682349 There's a reason this set is one of the most downloaded on the asset store.  It's one of the best looking watercolor replicas out there, and even if you don't use the brushes, you can likely still find a use for the textures.  Great for soft coloring.

Grunge Brushes, Soft | Heavy | Complex Brushes & Xenomorphius' stuff in general -  user:xenomorphius Xeno drops some cool natural looking brushes out every so often for painting, inking, and dry media.  Please check 'em out!  The grunge brushes create a fun, grungy look like it says on the pack, & the soft/heavy/complex set can be used for painting as well as lining.  

Oil-h5 trial -  1976418 These brushes are hard to explain.  They work with the dual brush setting, & push around a layer of paint on top of your regular paint, creating a cool, streaky look.  They're a hidden gem.

MYNQZO brushes - 1993875 A pretty darn good set for painting.  I really love rough brush 2, it's great for sketching & rendering.

Painting, non-textured 

(basic rounds & other shapes for smooth rendering)

Kiminie71's Brush Set -  1728687 4 simple rounds that are great for rendering!   https://assets.clip-studio.com/en-us/detail?id=1728687

CHIMAKA Set -  1747974 Heavy drag paint that highlights well & applies thickly.  Great for bold shading.

Choms Paint -  1910936 It just gets me.  No further elaboration.

Honeypen<3 -  1786787 Fits great in my paint hand.  Very slidey & blends like intended!

Wet flat marker -  1917678 Super blending brush, gives super soft edges to paint.  Blends great.

oil mushblendiw -  1918739 Another simple & easy to use roundbrush.

Paint - 1760641 This plainly named brush is a triangle brush that goes between heavy & light with pressure.  The creator, Puppsicle, also sells some neat brushes on Ko-Fi if you enjoy this brush.

"The Scarlet Knot Brush Set 2" - 1916125 I use the watercolor of thought out of this set, but they're all pretty good & easy to use. https://assets.clip-studio.com/en-us/detail?id=1916125

Sunday - 1825825 A round brush with a watercolor border that gives a nice, sketchy feeling. https://assets.clip-studio.com/en-us/detail?id=1825825

Marker Brushes

Marker Texture Brush -1809506 A very nice subtly textured brush.  Has a nice instructional guide on how to get the best results with it. :D

Mirre's Marker set - 1749822 Another good brush with a subtle texture.  Comes with its own blender!

Woody Marker & Pencil set - 1772987 I also love the pencil in this pack.  Nice woody feel, feel free to turn off multiply.

Pencils & Sketchers

SU-Cream Pencil - 1761353 no wonder its popular.  Can be used for lineart, sketching, and coloring, this versatile brush delivers a great smooth look with a gentle textured end finish on pressure.

Write BoruPenP - 1753435 Probably the best ballpoint pen on Clip.  Please check out Pharan's things, I love them.😊

“Pencil-like Brush for Lineart” - 1692270 Ok this is kind of a weird way to recommend something.  It's SUPPOSED to be a pencil but I use it like a paintbrush with the opacity & density on pressure control, & another copy with blending turned on.  Whatever you use it for, you're sure to get a good result!

Grease pencil/china marker - 1774978 Chunky brush for chunky sketching needs.

Muda muda muda - 1715496 A pretty darn good dark pencil.

REDSketch soft - 1907313 just a nice sketcher!  Good for shading too.

MUGZ BRUSH - 1861032 A set of dry chalk & brushes.  Gives a fun messy look when used!

T Spade Pencil - 1769208 A pencil that looks great for lineart as well as sketches.  Good taper.

Magipencil 2 - 1755940 Utterly good for textured and smooth lineart.  These pens get me.  Can’t recommend them enough. :)

Pens & Inkers

G-pen 6 - 1767809 A generic name but a good Gpen with character.  Organic without sacrificing too much smoothness.

"Flat thick pen" - 1826131 I call it the card games pen.  I think you can see why.  Solid at high pressure, a little bit of texture at low pressure, and pretty great for sharp angles.

Haggiben_Lineart_Color - 1770988 A nice triangle liner.

Gabu Pen - 1894713 Very slightly rough pen on one side, another nice triangle-like liner.

Aeridus - user:Aeridis All 3 of their pens give a nice result.

Pilot Pen - 1895049 A great IRL brush now a digital one!

Fude set - 1726964 & 1759205 Heavy, beautiful ink!  The creator has some more good ink pens too, take a look. :D  

Dimi - 1763877 It's a ga,l with a knife and a nice calligraphy pen.  Can't ask for more. Turn on >particles "change with brush size" in settings to keep the shape without chaning.  

New Cali A nice set of Calligraphy brushes.  They have smooth transitions between big and small.  

Blend, Fill, & Erase

Noise and texture blur - 1842730 If you want a more painterly look to your blur, get these!  They said they're supposed to be turned from free to paid, but the artist hasn't come back and done it yet.  Will they do it?  I'm not sure. :0

Textured Blending & Blurs - 1904941 & 1971444 They're actually made by me, my apologies, but it's hard to find textured blenders by themselves.  Most are included in a set or are something you have to pay for, so I released a few free stand alone ones due to it.  Normal solid round blenders & blurs are easier to find & even easier to create yourself! https://assets.clip-studio.com/en-us/detail?id=1904941 https://assets.clip-studio.com/en-us/detail?id=1971444

Unhelpful Eraser - 1798605 The terrible hard eraser that you had in school becomes digital.  Download it as a tribute.

Quick Lasso Fill -  1978471 Fills up a lasso'ed area.

Random Color Fill - 1707873 Picks random spaces to fill.  The picture in the demonstration shows it better than I can describe.

Scratchy Coloring - 1845677 A fun scratchy brush that can fill areas up.

Quick Lasso Eraser - 1875033 This and the next brush are both @pharan​ ‘s again.  This does the same as the lasso fill, but erases as you can tell.

Erase along Edge - 1800143 An eraser that takes advantage of reference layers.  The description explains it in detail.

"Create Solid-irregularity set" aka adding texture to black solid ink patches - 1768052 These distress the paper, making it look more textured.  Easier to look at than to explain, click the link for more!

Mirre Cross Hatch Brush Set - 1972956 I love the look the spaced lines give.  Fantastic set.

Overlap Hatching (…"a texan"???) - 1712720 One of the most popular Clip Studio Hatchers for a reason, easy to apply hatchers that you can just keep adding to for a sparse or dense look.

Dust hatching brush - 1966237 Simple light hatcher with dust particles around it for a dusty feeling.

Cross-hatching Blur - 1684830

I actually recommend all of  user:もの区 ‘s stuff they have posted for crosshatching.  There’s a whole bunch of great free brushes there for anyone who enjoy hatching!

“Rough and Solid” - 1874629 A ribbon brush that makes good borders.

“Coarse Solid Erase” - 1872105 For those who like to fill an area, then erase the light parts away.

chaos brushes - 1569895 A great marbler.  

"Dirty cross hatching_monochrome" - 1727346 A nice, thick, analogue hatch.  SB has some great material in general, but most needs clippy.

Creepy Lines 1 & 2 - 1405766 & 1707236 Get some spooky lines into your art!

Simple Retro Halftone - 1802041 A small set that's easy to use to add some halftone texture.

retro halftone brushes - 1852027 A larger yet still easy to use set with more specific brushes to use for each color.

Mar's Halftones -  1949506 A set with a lot of fun patterns!  Check out SpiralPuzzle's stuff in general, they post some unique brushes.

Pixel Art

Pixel Brushes by tsiox - (small) 1971800 & (large) 1969097 THE Clip Studio pixel set.  Has a ton of tools & textures to use.  The small set is better for slower internet connections & if you don't want all the patterns.

Studio Screen Tones - 1803496 If you like Flipnote studios or need more dithers, get this!

Pixel Foliage Brushes - 1883082 I apologize for promoting my own assets again, but I promise they're useful if you're doing anything with grass, trees, or bushes! ;w; My basic set - 1910804 Another lighter set with a few noise brushes that are useful at tiny size.  Did my best not to overlap with tsiox’s set while covering the basics.

Bonus: two blending pixel brush sets.   Mao Pixel (1779745) & Scummy Pixel(1782455). They’re not for exact pixel art, they’re more for playing around with & painting. :)

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↬[Fandom(s)]•⊰ {Obey Me! || Moriarty the Patriot || Jujutsu Kaisen || Bungou Stray Dogs}࿐

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[A]ctivities: What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

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[B]eauty: What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

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[C]omfort: How would they help their s/o when they feel down/ have a panic attack etc.?

⇒ [Bungou Stray Dogs]🍓

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[D]reams: How they picture their future with their s/o?

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[E]qual: Are they the dominate one in the relationship, or rather passive?

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[F]ight: Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

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[G]ratitude: How grateful are they in general?Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

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[H]onesty: Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

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[I]nspiration: Did their s/o changed them somehow, or the other way around? Like, trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

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[J]ealousy: How jealous do they get? What do they do when they're jealous?

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[K]isses: What are they kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you ? Where do they like to be kissed?

⇒ [Obey me!: Part 1 || Part 2]🍓

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[L]ove Confession: How would they confess to their s/o?

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[M]ornings: How are mornings spent with them?

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[N]ights: How are nights spent with them?

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[O]pen: When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?

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[P]DA: Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with they're s/o infront of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. When others are watching?

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[Q]uirk: Random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship?

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[R]omance: How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliche or rather creative?

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[S]ecurity: How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?

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[T]ry: How much effort would they put into dates , anniversaries, gifts and everyday tasks?

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[U]nderstanding: How good do they know their s/o? Are they empathetic?

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[V]alue: How important is the relationship to them? What is its worth in comparison to other things in their life?

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[W]ild card: A random fluff headcanon.

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[X]OXO: Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

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[Y]earning: How will they cope when they're missing their s/o?

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[Z]eal: Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

⇒ [Bungou Stray Dogs]🍓

[lifeinpoetry]

Free/Inexpensive/Small Press (Mostly Poetry) Books (2022/11/14)

Free Ebooks

From A to Z by Etel Adnan

A Spell for Living by Keisha-Gaye Anderson

This Body I Have Tried to Write by Ja’net Danielo

Criptiques, ed. Caitlin Wood

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[seokjinsonlyone]

btw i love how accurately you depict each member cuz 99% of bloggers here make bts seem like discord daddies 😭

but who do you think in bts would be the scariest in an argument with their partner?

to me, I feel like the maknae line would be scary if you made them angry enough like imagine jk swole tatted ass yelling at you and having you backed into a corner idk

listeeeennnn as sexy as they can be sometimes, me and the tannies just go back way too far to only see them in that occasional state of being like… i’ve seen jimin kick himself out of a chair and hobi play celine dion out his nostril on a recorder like u just gotta be fr from time to time 🫡 that being said

i don’t think jk would be the scariest like he may be big nd buff but he’s still a baby our kookoo baby star candy angel prince puppy would get more upset than anything in an argument like i can see him just getting really exasperated if he was tryna explain himself to you but you won’t hearing or believing him like he’ll be more ready to cry than anything like he’s just so accustomed to being our baby light bulb funky little pop star golden maknae that he’s just used to sitting there and taking it so i really believe that in an argument he wouldn’t be that aggressive however i do think that if you pushed him hard enough he would get loud wit you for a second just to shut you up before you make him reach his limit. scary meter: [5/10]

you know who i do think is really scary tho? hobi 😳. he may be all smiles and giggles and sunshine but when you piss him off the dark clouds roll in fr 😬 like say the wrong thing on the right day and you gon be in for something treacherous keep in mind this the same man that threw a banana at jungkook like the last time i heard of throwing a banana at someone was in mario kart now i can’t really see him raising his voice but he WILL back u into a corner like i have a clear vision of him red in the face gritting his teeth spewing straight up venom if y’all get into it real bad. scary meter: [9/10]

now when you think about a bangtan fight it seem like jimin always at the scene of the crime. u got the mandu incident, the time him nd jungkook got into it nd ended up hugging in the rain, on burn the stage when tae nd seokjinnie was having it out he was scolding them afterwards like he just always there for a tussle. so when i imagine fighting with jimin i can just see you popping off on him saying this and that and him talking over you saying this and that until you say sumn crazy and he gon tell you to watch your mouth, get fed up and tell you to leave him alone and don’t call him or something, and then try to storm out (and that’s when you grab his wrist before he makes it out the room and kiss him on da mouf and let him push you up against a wall and y’all make up 😏 way before y’all come to an agreement). scary meter: [6/10]

i think if you were to fight with seokjin i can’t say for surely that it would be super scary but by NO MEANS will it be a pretty sight to see. like we know he like to run his mouth so if y’all fighting he gon get to talking fast neck and ears gonna be red and whatever he saying to you it’s gonna be MEAN if you push him there he will raise his voice but i think that’s about it like your feelings gonna be super hurt at the end of it bc he know exactly which buttons to push but if you’re ever scared it’s gonna be bc you think he leaving bc one thing about seokjin is he not afraid to cut a person off. scary meter: [4/10]

yoongi wouldn’t hurt a fly nor would he give the impression that he would hurt a fly like yeah he's agust d and we’ve seen that the inner rage does exist but he the embodiment of the pen is mightier than the sword like if anything his anger runs cold like you can go ahead with the fussing and fighting and yelling crying carrying on but he not wit da dramatics you can talk to him or you can go somewhere he not doing all that so would he be scary in an argument? nah. scary meter: [3/10]

joonie is a big buff man real tall and muscly but that’s not what makes him scary bc as big and buff as he is he is equally kind and gentle but there's a definite streak of unrefined aggression that lives within him and if you ever tapped into that it'd be bad bc it's like he holds back so much that when the flood gates open you will drown like downturned eyebrows nose scrunched up red in the face volume at 100 he's gesturing wildly got you backed in the corner ya know the WORKS but i do think it'd be a real quick burst tho like he's gonna absolutely lose it for all of a minute before regaining control of his emotions and he'd apologize for talking to you like that immediately. scary meter: [7/10]

hands down 100% tae is the scariest member to fight with like i'm specifically thinking of that time that rumor was being spread and he went on weverse saying he wish he could like stab the reporters with needles or something like that like if at all possible DO NOT piss him off because he is just so firm in all his beliefs and convictions like he is not backing down and i think he is also the most dramatic so if you take him there he's going to make the most of it like it'd be a steady build up him just continuously getting more and more upset until he's stomping around yelling at you like there's slamming doors and harsh words i wouldn't put it above him to punch a hole in the wall depending on the severity of the situation just like he is naawwwttt the one. scary meter: [10/10]

a/n: AGAIN SO SORRY FOR HOW LONG IT TOOK ME TO RESPOND TO THIS forgive me 🥺🤲 ALSO LISTEN can not say for surely how firm MY beliefs in this take are bc like i just am not intimidated by people like they just aren't scary to me unless they carrying a gun that's the only time i be scared 💀

[soukokumychildren]

Scarf

So I uh, got inspired by @carrotkicks (or, @ccarrot, since I don't know which is used more often) posts about Beast Chuuya (Link 1, Link 2 and Link 3), and I decided to write about it! Hopefully its as angsty as I want it to be. Enjoy! :D

He sat in front of a mahogany desk with nothing but a pen and a few stacks of paper to occupy him. He looked over to a portrait that was set near the edge of the desk, but only briefly glancing at it. He tried to ignore the want to look back at it again, a man that used to be his age with his arms wrapped around the redhead, both laughing in the photo. Days like this, he rarely left his seat. Some would say he was practically glued to it, having to fix all the messes that Da—...the last Port Mafia leader had left before he…alledgedly committed suicide.

Just endless silence. Suffocating silence. He tried not to get distracted by the fact the only person that he ever cared about used to sit in this very seat up until a few days ago.

Nobody will ever know this pain, he thinks, determined and stubborn, despite all the 3 billion people on the planet, or atleast, roughly, they would never account to the grief that Chuuya was suffering. He never felt more alone. Standing by himself, barely holding an organization together, with nobody to truly support him other than the man that had died just recently. He dropped the pen. His arms were shaking again. Chuuya pushed the chair back and grasped at his scarf, a pounding headache making his way into his brain. He’d been ignoring the fatigue that had been hovering around him so he could focus on work. I’m fine. He tells himself, scooting the chair back forward, and placing the pen neatly beside the paper in its own holder so it wouldn’t accidentally leave ink blotches. “He doesn’t matter anymore.” Chuuya said it aloud, but it didn’t feel more wrong to announce those words. Chuuya tried to distract himself, closing his eyes briefly. The pounding headache eased when he did. It also renewed the exhaustion he’d been fighting for hours, and this time it made sure to sink its teeth in and not let go. The redhead wavered in his seat, pushing the paper away and crossing his arms, resting his head snugly across them. Just a few minutes, he convinced himself. And I’ll get back to work. Were his last thoughts, before he drifted into a deep, weighty sleep. *     *     *

The door creaked open. I slipped in. Easing the door shut behind me I lock eyes with the sleeping shape of the Port Mafia Boss. I grin. There couldn’t have been a more perfect time. I quickly cross the room and end up at his desk, making sure not to accidentally let my shadow pass over him, since the small change in temperature could startle him awake. Many say that taking Chuuya-san’s scarf was an impossible task. You’d die trying. But I wasn’t so sure. Just catch him off guard, and he wouldn’t be able to stop you. Slowly, I brought my hand to the blood-red fabric, tracing it with my finger, and carefully hooking it under some folded layers. I gave it a gentle tug, and the Boss shuddered, stirring but not waking.

So I continue. Unraveling it from his neck was a little bit of a task on its own without startling him awake. But I somehow manage. I hold the fabric tight in my hands, grinning from ear to ear psychaotically. Goodnight, Chuuya-san. I think. You won’t be finding this for a while.

*     *     * A knock on the door woke Chuuya up with a start, his head snapping upward and swaying for a moment. His immediate reaction was to respond with an authoritative, “Come in.”, despite it sounding a bit softer than he meant to.

He realized it was a bit cold, but disregarded that fact as Atsushi came in, carrying a bundle of papers, looking at the sheets cradled in his arms. “I’m sorry for the interruption, boss, I know your busy, but I need a little help with…” When Atsushi met eyes with Chuuya, he broke off. The door closed behind him. “Oh…um.” Atsushi blinked like a deer in headlights. “What?” Chuuya asked, trying to focus his hazy mind back into its natural order, eyes sticking together as if held by duct tape.

“C-congradulations?” The boy said, a small smile etched upon his features, and Chuuya squinted at him, the redhead wrapping his arms around himself, shuddering at the cold. “What do you mean, congratulations?” “Well…you stopped wearing it.” Atsushi impatiently bounced from foot to foot, promptly avoiding Chuuya’s eye contact as he looked out the window. “I’m glad you’re not dwelling on him anymore.” Chuuya flinched, but he first had to make sure they were talking about the same man here. “Who’s he?” Atsushi blinked at him, finally meeting his gaze. “Well, Dazai-san, of course.” Chuuya froze, and he suddenly started to feel some sort of crushing presence around him. Immediately he went to grasp at his scarf, starting to feel a traumatic attack ganging up on him, intent on smelling the fabric so he wouldn’t lose it. Except… His hand. Grasped on air. The room dropped several degrees. Atsushi could feel it. Could sense it. Hackles raised, he quickly excused himself in a rush, terrified. While Chuuya didn’t move for several seconds, eyes wide and unblinking. He didn’t breathe. He couldn’t. Harsh, cold claws raked down his spine as he slowly looked down.

Dazai’s scarf. ...Was gone. I was thinking of ending it here XD But if y'all want me to continue until he finds the perpetrator, I'll be happy to :} (I like writing shorts for the life of me I can't stop bhsahghs)

[aurumacadicus]

Hmmmm need more Tony picking up skinny!Steve at the bar because he’s cute and awkward and he likes that in a man only to be fucked within an inch of his life. He is in love with Steve by the end of the night because of his immaculate dick game and the praise Steve whispers into his ear as he coaxes him through yet another orgasm and the way Steve carefully wipes him clean instead of just leaving him to sleep in their mess not that Tony would have actually minded. Steve is gone in the morning and Tony is despondent because he wanted to return the favor and wake Steve up with his mouth and maybe ride him until Steve was just as ruined for everyone else as Tony was and this was why he preferred to be the first to leave in the morning. :(

JARVIS tells him that Steve let a note and Tony scrambles for it and about faints when he reads “got a business meeting with you today so don’t let your ceo know I fucked you stupid.” Oh god. The meeting with the top advertising agency that they’d been trying to get for months and hadn’t managed until the owner had seen they’d started destroying the weapons they’d recollected from illicit sources. Pepper was going to kill him.

(It’s fine, they get the contract, Steve doesn’t even look like he remembers their night of debauchery and Tony is too impressed by his team’s mock-ups to be upset about it, even if he is sad that he can’t ogle Steve in his beautifully tailored suit without Pepper stabbing him with a pen under the table.

They finish up the meeting and everyone’s feeling pretty good about it, Pepper leads them out and Tony is tidying up the conference room until she comes back so they can touch base before he heads down to R&D for a surprise inspection (he likes seeing everyone scramble to hide how many coffee cups they have at their tables) when he hears the door open and close again, and he’s about to babble on about how great the mock-ups were so that Pepper can’t tell he wanted to crawl under the table and suck Steve’s dick when a hand lands on his bruised ass and squeezes until he whimpers.

“Let’s have dinner,” Steve says, and Tony is nodding before it registers that it’s an order and not a request, and it lights up something inside him. “I know this really great diner. Very casual. Dress down. I’ll pick you up at six.”

“Okay,” Tony squeaks, flushing, and then watches as Steve pulls his phone out of his pocket, turns to the door as it opens again and Pepper steps in, asking if he found it.

“Right on the table,” Steve lies casually, gives Tony and Pepper a smile like he didn’t just grab Tony by the ass and ask him out to eat, and breezes out with a cheerful wave.

I’m in trouble, Tony thinks, hoping that Pepper doesn’t notice how flustered he is.)

((“Hey so uuuh, what the fuck?” Tony splutters when Steve shows up to pick him up for dinner. “You were awkward at the bar, not this… tiny, controlling Dom or whatever. What gives.”

“I’m really bad at picking up signals on whether people are making fun of me or if they really want me,” Steve says with a shrug. “Figured you were earnest when we actually made it to your bed. So of course I didn’t hold back when I realized you liked it when I was bossy.”

“I did not,” Tony lies, and Steve just slants him a fond smirk and roll of his eyes. “You are being mean to me. I’m going back up to my penthouse.”

“You liked when I was mean to you last night,” Steve purrs, reaching out to tuck his hand into Tony’s back pocket, and he can’t help the little yelp that escapes his lips as Steve takes the handful of his ass and squeezes, using the grip to lead him over to the doors. “Hope you don’t have any early morning meetings tomorrow. I cleared my schedule.”

It wrankles Tony something terrible, because he’s a brat at heart and he wants Steve to know it. On the other hand, he’s so horny at this point he doesn’t really care, so long as Steve keeps his hands on him. It’s all very confusing.

On the bright side, Tony gets to wake Steve up with his mouth the next day.))

[skeletoninthemelonland]

Olá! boa noite, como vai, starbles?

Eu queria saber se vc poderia mandar as configurações do seu brush que vc usa no medibang pra eu poder tentar recriá-lo no paint tool sai 2, acho que o seu brush é muito fascinante e satisfatório :D

Olá!

Como eu já usei Paint Tool SAI antes, sei que a configuração da caneta vai ser diferente e que os resultados podem não ser os mesmos, especialmente com relação ao estabilizador da caneta e a opacidade por pressão, mesmo assim espero que isso aqui ajude:

Não tenho Paint Tool SAI no meu pc, mas pra achar um formato parecido com a da G Pen, seleciona uma das opções do "Círculo Simples"

[lothirielswandc]

HOMEWRECKER (LOVE + FEAR)

Read on AO3 here!

— E P I L O G U E — 

— L E G I O N   O F   D O O M   H Q —

The ghostly pallor seared his eyes. Holograms hummed around him. They made it easier to pretend Lex wasn't there. 

“You won't let this go, will you?” Lex appeared spectral, bathed in the moonlike shine. An annoying figment of his imagination.

Conner ignored him. He continued to scribble physics formulas across the touchscreen table. That was one of the perks of being Lex’s spawn. The whole brainiac part.

“I can fix everything,” Conner murmured. It was more of a personal assurance than actually talking to Lex.

“Hmph.” Lex stared at the blue text. “I’ll admit, I see the potential. But it’s a total reset. You have to be willing to sacrifice everything to do it.”

Kon kept writing. 

“Not to mention, everyone else would have to start over, too.”

His pen flew across the touchpad, shrieking in protest.

“Which, I suppose, is the point. You and your fixations…you must acquire that from me.”

Conner focused on the hum of the screens. It was doable — with the right technology. It would cost a bajillion dollars, but thankfully Luthor genes were expensive. Kon could make blueprints easy —

Lex’s hand slammed against the table. He leaned over to be eye level with Conner. “Are you listening to me?”

Conner just nodded along. He already knew the warnings that Lex was throwing at him. He didn't care. “I know.” 

Lex looked away with a miffed expression. For a minute there, he almost looked like a father.

Mercy shifted from the shadows of the room. She put a hand on Lex’s arm and he shrugged her off. 

Mercy looked at Conner. Her lips parted like she was about to say something, but then sharply closed them. Her heels clicked as she left the room.

Conner kept writing. He stole a glance every now and then at Lex. Lex stood at the window, looking out. Lots of the headquarters were missing. It was more of a large, abstract art piece of workmen on wooden panels at this point. The drilling sounds from people putting the building back together were annoying. 

They’re still trying to fix the destruction from —

Kon flinched away from the thought. All of his focus went into the small, fluid movements of his hand. 

“I know you were infatuated with my assistant,” Lex said carefully. “But all of this, just for one girl. One dead girl…”

Small snapping sounds caught Conner’s attention. Tiny cracks bloomed across the stylus. Like wounds. Conner laxed his grip. 

That was the lie they sold to lex. Rachel Grey died by the hands of Raven. Ironic. What’s sad was how true it was.

Ray.

The love monster from her head shortly followed whenever Conner thought of her. He shuddered to think of that walking freakshow, but that was all the proof he needed that he was doing the right thing. Love wasn't monstrous. It wasn't supposed to be. 

‘Let’s just stick with being happy for now.’

That was the real lie. How could Conner make her happy at all, with things the way they were? How could Conner make Raven when it wasn't just Raven anymore? It was Raven and Da — 

No. Conner would only cause her pain now. He was sure of that.

Kon set the deformed stylus down and rubbed at his eyes. “If I could go back — even before then. To the minute we met…”

‘Sorry for crashing your party.’

‘Don’t apologize. I don't mind.’

No, even before then. Save Raven from all the timeline heartache. Terra’s betrayal. Trigon’s invasion. Azarath’s demise. 

If it was to preserve the most beautiful thing Conner had ever seen — Raven’s smile — it was worth it.

Lex turned back to him. His face was twisted…in pain. “I know I’m not the best father figure. But this comes from a place of love. Perhaps…it might be best to move on? I know you won't like that. But personality defects aside, you have good looks. You have manners. People like you. You’re…good. It wouldn't be hard to meet someone else.”

Conner shook his head. This wasn't some stupid crush. He owed Raven everything. She was the first to go out of her way and do something nice for him, no ulterior motive. The first to skate down the halls with him and not complain about scuff marks on the floor. Everything about her calmed his senses and made them all go haywire at the same time. 

And now she probably doesn't even want to see me. The way things are…she doesn't deserve that. It’s better this way. To start over. 

“No. It's the right thing to do.” Conner looked up at the blue screen. S.T.A.R. Labs documents were scrawled across every electronic surface. Detailing one theory.

The Flashpoint.

Clear the board. Start again.

THE TITANS WILL RETURN.

[midorisudachi]

"The Herald of Andraste"

So, have I told you how much I love the Dragon Age series, especially Dragon Age Inquisition? I adore it dearly...to me, it is one of the best games ever made (besides Skyrim and Witcher 3). The details & environments are gorgeous; I could run around forever just admiring the different sceneries/climates. Also, the interactions in the DA games are just the best, and I love how you can create relationships. I recently beat DAI for the 2nd time a couple of weeks ago. I'm always sad when I finish a game, especially one I thoroughly enjoyed. Do you feel that way, too?

My OC for DAI was the female human warrior, from House Trevelyan. I named her Bryony. I always try to make the characters look similar to myself, but I've got such odd features that I can never create a character that looks like *ME*. Of course I had to make Bryony go for Cullen. Cullen is so dreamy. He's hot for a video game character. ;-D I did make Bryony go for Dorian until it was discovered Dorian was gay! (So tempting to create a male character to get the relationship with Dorian. :3 ) But I adored the relationship between Bryony & Cullen. The 2nd time I played the game, I actually had all the DLCs, which are amazing additions to the game and overall storyline. I was stoked when Byrony got to marry Cullen. Made my fangirl self feel tickled to death.

The armour Bryony is wearing is a "heavy armor" schematic I crafted using Stormheart. Stormheart makes for pretty armour with the iridescent blue-pink-purple colours. The sword was a "Strong Brutal Claymore" schematic I used, also with Stormheart, equipped with the "Superb Corrupting Rune". I couldn't figure out how to make that effect as I drew it (it looked more like flames than the actual effect), so I actually "cheated" by using a smoke brush in Photoshop Elements to add to the sword. I drew this entire fan art before I equipped Bryony with that badass "Armour of the Dragon Hunter" (obtained from the Jaws of Hakkon DLC) and the Sulevin Blade.

Every other Monday [starting from today], I will be posting this specific kind of DAI fan art until I finish all 10 playable characters, which means it will be a countdown until Dragon Age Day (December 4th)!

Drawn with Sakura Pigma Micron pens, then coloured in with a mix of Copic Markers & Ohuhu Markers. White accents were done with a gel pen. The Inquisiton symbol, stars, dots, & blooms on the trees were done with a gold Golden Paint acrylics, but the scanner killed the gold and it looks "flat" (in real life, the drawing looks awesome with the super metallic gold). Font done in Photoshop Elements.

Fan artwork © Jacqueline E. McNeese

Dragon Age Inquisition/Trevelyan © Bioware & Electronic Arts

[peachywise]

Lessons in Honesty: part 2

steve harrington x reader

chapter 2  

– other chapters: part 1 ⋆ part 2 ⋆ part 3 ⋆ part 4 ⋆ part 5 ⋆ part 6 ⋆ part 7 ⋆ part 8

– series synopsis: Being Robin Buckley’s younger sibling had always been uneventful, up until she got herself tangled with Steve Harrington. And really, you were happy for her. She deserved friends. What was bothersome was when he got let in on small secrets like your infatuation with Eddie Munson, and decided to take it into his own hands to try and get him to pay attention to you-- by pretending to be your boyfriend.

– notes: hello hello!! thank you so much for all the love on the first chapter of this series. if you haven’t read it, feel free to click the link to part one above!! i love this chapter-- my jokes are stupid, and eddie is fun. no trigger warning that i can think of, so please enjoy!!

read here or on ao3

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"Pipsqueak, catch!"

There was no reason for Eddie to say catch. He had tossed it before he called out, knowing you wouldn't have time. It only resulted in you turning your head at just the right moment for the shirt to smack onto your face. At least it was a soft object. He'd done the same thing with a soda can once, and while you managed to step out of the way, it exploded on you when it landed on the ground.

Gripping the thin cotton shirt, you dropped it on your lap with a slight scowl at the curly-haired boy. Of course, that infectious grin of his that transformed his face from serious indifference to an overwhelming brightness that made you think you had suddenly stroked out couldn't be ignored. You ended up laughing and shaking your head exasperatedly. "Yeah, thanks for that!" You replied, standing up to tug the baseball tee over top of the shirt you were already wearing.

Your other Hellfire shirt had been stained, and it took them a while to get a new one made. And it wasn't from the soda can, by the way. Those stains came out just fine. Instead, the culprit was a leaky pen in the middle of math class. You almost wish it had been because of the soda incident. 

"White's your colour. Innocent, pure— fitting for someone who's never taken a single misstep. Then again, there is a demon on it. Can't be all innocent if you're in the 'satanic' D&D club." One might think this sort of thing sounded flirty given his assessing gaze and smirk, but it was clear it wasn't when it came out of Eddie's mouth. It was just a taunt, a tease, and one he knew would wiggle its way under your skin.

"If you'd have tacked on virginal to that sentence, I would have kicked your ass," you deadpanned.

His smirk stayed the same. "Didn't need to. You just said it for me."

"Whatever," you muttered, fiddling with the strap of your backpack as you readjusted it on your shoulder. Way to be smooth. Argue with him as a means to get his attention. Maybe you felt awkward because you were alone with him in the club room. You barely ever spent any time with Eddie alone. Not for lack of wanting, but what were you going to do? Invite him to watch a movie or something? He'd probably either laugh at you or think you were talking about it in terms of the Hellfire Club, and everyone would tag along anyway. You were shocked enough at lunch when Eddie asked you to meet him here after class. You'd gotten your hopes up about it, thinking of the things he might want to talk to you about in private, out of view of the others.

Turns out it was just because he had your shirt here.

All those hopes got kicked like the little puppy he saw you as.

"You impatient or something?" Eddie continued on, your gaze averting from the scuff on your shoe back up to him again. He was leaning against the table, arms crossed like he intended to stay for a while. Maybe there was something more he wanted to talk to you about.

"Got Harrington waiting for you again?"

Uh.

"What?" You questioned in a voice too high-pitched to be brushed off as casual. You were rooted to your spot on the floor.

"I saw you leaving in his car a couple of days ago," he merely shrugged.

That was the day Steve mentioned that stupid plan about fake dating to get Eddie's attention. You hadn't talked to him since, had honestly just brushed off the whole thing as something completely out of the realm of possibility. But for Eddie to have noticed that? And bring it up? There was no way.

"Yeah, he uh-" you cleared your throat, repeating the term be cool repeatedly in your head as if it might work. "He's friends with my sister." You felt like more words should have been tacked onto the end of that sentence. It barely even answered his question at all. But what else could you say without stupidly rambling about it? It's not like he actually cared or anything like that. He was just asking to make small talk. Probably.

Eddie raised an eyebrow, pushing himself away from the table to saunter closer to you in that loose goofy-ish way he sometimes did. "Ah," he breathed out as if it all made sense. "So you're just like the other kiddos he hangs around with then? Didn't think you needed to be babysat."

Christ. You should have elaborated more.

"No," you reared back, a small frown pulling at your lips at the implication he saw you as some sort of… baby. "I mean, we're like… friends too. Outside of my sister. We hang out." That was a bit (or a lot) of a stretch, but it was closer to the truth than the implication you were like the Hellfire freshmen. You didn't really feel like picking up the nickname 'Henderson 2.0.'

"You hang out?" Eddie said, his question coming from a place that sounded like doubt and not genuine curiosity. He smiled, nodding his head slowly. "Okay. Alright. Didn't take his type as the sort of crowd you'd willingly hang around with, but maybe I pegged you wrong."

"Well, he's got all the good hair products, so," you attempted a joke. You were thankful Eddie let out one chuff of a laugh, his smile growing a bit wider, maybe less distanced.

He moved closer to you and put his hand on your head, mussing up your hair as you swatted his arm and tried to step back. Nothing knocks you down a level than your crush hair ruffling you. "You need them," he joked around, moving away and closer to the door. Eddie gave an exaggerated twist out of the frame, only to lean back in and give you a small salute. "See you later, Pip." And with that, he was gone.

And all you could say to yourself as you stared at the empty space he used to be was a disbelieving and whispered, "holy shit."

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You'd been pacing around your room for a few minutes now, trying to talk yourself out of what you were planning to do. It was getting so bad that you left track marks on your old and faded carpet. Granted, you tended to pace a lot, so it was from years of endless back and forth. That's the price of anxiety.

But hey, this was an anxiety-inducing situation! You were going to agree to fake date Steve. Mentally, it was a lot, especially when you'd been so hell-bent on saying no. It wasn't until you and Eddie's talk today that it all flew out the window. He just had to go and bring up Steve, didn't he? You weren't so naïve to think that it was some sort of jealous reaction on Eddie's part. At least, not in the way you were hoping it was. But it was enough of a reaction that you thought maybe Steve's stupid plan might work in the long run.

Letting out a long sigh to try and release some of that pressure bubbling inside you, you stopped where you were and grabbed your phone, dialling before you had a chance to second-guess yourself.

"What's up, you got Steve at Family Video. How can I help?" Came a bored tone on the other end of the line. You took one more calming breath.

"I'll do it."

All went silent, the only sound a soft humming buzz from the receiver.

"…Rent a video?"

"No!" You raised your voice, though you quickly cleared your throat and settled yourself back down. The last thing you needed was Robin coming in here and asking what you were doing. This was one of the only days she didn't work with Steve, and you got lucky with that. "No, I mean I'll date you. I mean fake date you—whatever. Can I meet you after work?"

"Buckley? Uh, yeah. Yeah, sure," Steve replied in a sort of robotic tone. It sounded like his thoughts hadn't entirely caught up with his mouth. "Why the sudden change of heart?"

"I'll tell you about it later. What time are you off? Nine?"

He must have found something about the interaction funny because he let out one puff of a winded laugh. "Just after. You don't have to walk all the way here. I'll come pick you up—"

"And have Robin see? No. She'd just hop in your car and think you're here for her. I'll see you then."

Steve started to say your name in protest again, but it was too late. You took the phone away from your ear and hung up the line.

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"What's the plan?"

You were being blunt, but it wasn't without reason. It was understandable that your nerves were on edge. You've never done anything like this before. Being stuffed up in this car didn't help with the weird suffocating feeling building up in your lungs. You were barely even looking at him, instead finicking with the seatbelt strap, focusing on ignoring the automatic urge to clip it on anytime you got into a car. You would have preferred talking outside at that picnic bench over there, but Steve complained that it was too cold and said— as if it were his motto— 'get in the damn car.'

"Oh, how was work, you asked?" He jovially said, catching your eye as you turned your attention to him with a blank stare. "Yeah, it was great. I had some guy return an empty E.T. case and told me government officials took it for evidence." Ah. So it was passive aggressiveness. Nice. Still, it deflated some of the nerves you had built up over these past couple of hours of waiting. You visibly relaxed in your seat.

"Pleasantries. How could I forget." You offered back, repressing a tiny smile. "Did he at least seem remorseful about it?"

"Nope. Chucked the thing at me and ran out of the store." Steve continued with a shake of his head. "Idiot forgot I can still find his information on file."

The wonders of technology. You felt bad for laughing, but it was pretty bizarre. It deserved a laugh. "You should call him up and pretend to be the FBI. Tell him you reported him for involving the government in an elaborate lie."

Steve grinned. "I think impersonating the FBI is a federal offence, but I'll keep that in mind."

The smile you'd been trying to fight back won out and morphed into a grin similar to Steve's. Maybe it made some sense why so many girls fawned at his feet in high school. He had a pretty nice smile.

"Alright, so you going to tell me what changed your mind?"

Oh. Right. No distractions. Not that Steve's smile was all that distracting. Really.

"Yeah," you blinked, turning your head away as you let go of the seatbelt and crossing your arms comfortably over your chest. "Eddie brought you up today. I guess he saw me get into your car the last time." Steve's eyebrow quirked at that, but you didn't want him to get any wrong ideas about what that may have meant. "I don't think it was jealousy," you quickly added, sitting up a bit straighter. "At least not in the way I'd hope for. I think it annoys him that Dustin and the guys sometimes hang out with you, and he lumped me in with them or something."

"But he noticed it?" His words prodded you like a joking poke to your side.

"He noticed it," you confirmed lightly, breezily. Not as if you had replayed the scene multiple times in your head since then, trying to dissect Eddie's movements, facial tics, and every single change in his tone of voice.

"Then it seems we've made a deal?" Steve looked at you expectedly, his grin even wider as he held out his hand for what looked to be a fist bump. You rolled your eyes but gave him one anyway.

"Yes, but--" you started, watching him lower his hand with a wary look. Jesus, what the hell was he expecting you to say? That it'd cost him his firstborn? Or worse, all his bottles of hairspray? "We need a plan to go about this. I don't think anyone in their right mind would believe that we just started dating out of the blue. I've only really hung out with you when Robin was around."

Steve nodded his head as you spoke. "You're right," he muttered, a faraway look taking over his features as his brow furrowed in a way that was becoming increasingly familiar to you. His thinking face. And oh, how serious it was.

It only took him a few seconds to snap out of it, and he did by clapping his hands very loudly. So loudly, in fact, that you jumped in your seat and a slight ring buzzed in your ears. You mumbled a soft curse under your breath as you brought a hand up to rub at your temple.

"Then we just tell people we're hanging out at first and progress from there. I'll pick you up sometimes from class, and we'll just chill or go get some food or something. If we're gonna be fake dating, it's probably a good thing we learn more about one another anyway."

Okay. Okay, yeah, that could work. Better yet—

"We can always set up some weird scenario for whoever to walk in on to make it seem like they've 'discovered' we're more than friendly. It'll probably be the only way Robin believes it given my uh—" How does one say this without making it sound as juvenile as it was. "Infatuation with Eddie." Great. That sounded way more natural.

"Define a weird scenario."

Shit. You'd been so wrapped up in your own ideas that you didn't even notice the odd look Steve was giving you. It was easy to tell where his thoughts had drifted to. You smacked his arm. "I'm not talking about sex, you idiot. I mean kissing and jumping apart or something. Fake kissing. We should make that a rule. I'm okay with hand-holding or hugs, but we should draw a clear line."

"Rules on kissing. Never imagined fake dating could be so romantic," Steve joked.

"If I wanted romance lessons, I'd go somewhere else," you retorted. This was clearly an arrangement of convenience. Nothing more, nothing less.

Steve gave a mock-wounded look. Brat.

"Okay, so hugging and touching or whatever is fine then?"

"If you're comfortable with that?" You realized you never really clarified what he was expecting or willing to do out of this arrangement.

He snorted. "I don't know. I'll have to ask my pastor if it will ruin my relationship with God."

A simple 'yes' would have sufficed just fine.

"We'll just take it as we go, okay? We pre-plan all this shit, and we won't come off natural at all. Robin will try sticking her nose in this anyway, so the more we just behave like ourselves, the less weird it will be," Steve continued.

He was right. It settled your mind enough that you were no longer trying to choreograph specific actions in your head that you could whip out on a dime. However, it was still going to be weird. It was going to be something hard to adjust to. You'd be spending a lot more time with Steve Harrington than you ever thought you would. Maybe you could finally make sense of how the hell your sister and him struck up a friendship in the first place, given how much she complained about him when she first started working at Scoops Ahoy.

"She'll try to kill us, you know." You didn't even need to say who the 'she' was, it was so apparent. The act of keeping something from Robin didn't exactly sit well, but even if you told her the truth about this, it would never work. She'd still pressure Steve about Nancy and then spoil your secret with her inability to keep her mouth shut for more than five seconds at a time. You loved her, but damn was she bad at secret-keeping. Look at how long she lasted before she blabbed your crush on Eddie to Steve.

"She won't kill me. You'll just find my balls cut off in your freezer," Steve grimaced, staring at the lone street lamp outside in silence for a few seconds.

Then you laughed. And he laughed. And everything was right in the world.

"They won't take up much space," you stated with your most innocent smile.

Steve glanced at you. "Thanks, yeah. Very mature of you," he muttered. Still, you saw him fighting back to keep his mouth from grinning wide and laughing again.

As everything within you started to emotionally wind down, you were getting prepared to leave when Steve reached into his pockets for his keys. He asked, "so when's your next club thing? I'll pick you up from that. That way Eddie and the other losers will see."

You watched as he put the keys in the ignition and turned his car on. What the hell? "Uh… Friday. It'll end late at around eight-thirty, or nine?" you replied with confusion, quickly following it up with a "Steve, I'm still in your car," in case he somehow forgot. You wouldn't put it past him.

"I know that," Steve deadpanned, the car lurching forward. "I'm taking you home."

You started to protest, but that demanding paternalistic voice he sometimes had came out clear when he cut you off. "I'll drop you off a block before your house. Robin won't see, so stop flipping out."

You weren't flipping out. Yet. You might have, but there really wasn't much to complain about if you could get out a block before your house. Not that you could really complain about someone offering you a ride home. It was too nice of a gesture. Especially when he didn't have to.

"Thanks, Steve," you replied a little quieter.

Steve peered towards you for a second from the corner of his eye as he shifted in his seat. "You're welcome."

There was a beat of silence.

"I feel bad I never told you that your zipper has been undone this entire time now."

Looking down and back up again with an admittedly impressive speed, Steve slapped his hand hard on his steering wheel. "Oh, come on!" He gave a pissed-off shout as he used the other hand to clumsily pull it back up.

Yikes. It was probably like that his whole shift then, huh?

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A quick guide to Nutty’s blog

Hi, everyone, new and old to this blog.

Been meaning to write this up for some time. Finally just sat down and wrote stuff because it needs to be done since I’ve recently been posting a few more things in one topic and a few less in others.

This blog started off as a fandom blog. It still is. You will see fanfic and art from the amazing Thunderbirds fandom, both mine and others posted here regularly. Along with prompts, discussions, challenges and other shenanigans. Love da Thunderfam.

If you haven’t already worked it out, Virgil is my fav Tracy brother, but love them all really and write them all to varying degrees.

However, I also post art and craft here, so you will see some of that. Some of you may have followed me recently for this reason. If so, welcome!

One handy thing to know is that I’m a librarian and this blog is tagged within an inch of its life. So with a little fiddling with Tumblr, you can follow/block any tags of mine you want to, or don’t want to see.

So here is the key to my blog :D

For the Thunderfam:

Nuttyfic is where you will find all my original posting of my fic (except the very early ones - it took me a bit to clue on that I might want to find my stuff one day.

Nuttyfic reblog is where I reblog my previously published stuff at a whim or because I wanted to at some point. These are all repeats and formatted differently from my new fics. you can block this one if you find them annoying.

thunderbirds fanfiction and thunderbirds fanart are basically what they say. Everyone’s, including mine, blogged, reblogged, whatever. If you are looking for a particular person’s work on my blog, all work reblogged by me has the artist’s name tagged to the post. For example, tracybirds, gaviiadastra, soniabigcheese, thatkidwholikesthunderbirds, etc

Flyboytracy, our amazing gif-maker, I plead guilty to reblogging a lot of their stuff (though likely only a fraction of what they have done - find them at @flyboytracy )

TBDailyDose is my tag for all my screen shots. So if you are looking for art reference, this might be a great place to start. Admittedly, you will discover how often I reuse favourite shots, but there are a lot of headshots in that pile. I really should capture more.

I’ve also tagged for character content - Scott Tracy, Virgil Tracy, John Tracy, Gordon Tracy, Alan Tracy, Grandma Tracy, Kayo Kyrano, Hiram Hackenbacker, Jeff Tracy, Eos, Penelope Creighton Ward, Aloysius Parker.

Bro combos - earth and sky, fishtank, astroturf - not a complete list this one and many more recent than some of the other tags.

There are some relationships tagged as well - virgil/kayo, scott/em, scayo, virgil/brains, gordon/penelope (pen and ink) - if you are not a fan of romance, I’ve have been tagging for that for about the last year, so it can be blocked if you desire.

I have also tagged all my major series, but you are probably better served by visiting my Ao3 account where everything is in order. But since I’m here...Kermadec AU, Supermen AU, Steampunk AU (and Where there be dragons AU), Callisto, Marks and Wings, Warm Rain, Gentle Rain.

And then there are some of the challenges held in Thunderfam - fanartam, fabfivefeb, irrelief, sensorysunday, nuttys fandomversary, fluffember.

Wow, that’s a lot of stuff.

For those of you not into fandom:

nuttybeads - all my crafting, which tends to be mostly beading, but does include crochet and micromacrame as well as whatever else catches my eyes and my wallet :D

nuttyart - admittedly this does include some fanart, mostly Thunderbirds, but from time to time, I do other stuff - like I should be doing :D

I’ve also recently started a palette challenge, for however long it lasts - you can find it tagged nuttypalette.

There will also be geeking out over nature topics and the occasional piece of photography usually of beaches, sunsets or critters.

And that is pretty much it in a nutshell (a very big nut in my case :D)

I hope you enjoy whatever you end up following here.

Nutty

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