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butchfalin · 10 months

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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tariah23 · 8 months

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Oh…. Well, it’s over for Crunchyroll I guess

#Crunchyroll #piracy #funimation #money hungry ass streaming service #rambling #I’ve never paid for a streaming service in my life thank god #I appreciated using others accounts but I personally cannot see myself paying this much for a service if I had the funds 😭!#get back to pirating kings!!!#anime has always been one of the easiest forms of media to pirate anyway so y’all got this #CR is definitely not worth paying for though #CR is certainly not worth paying this much for even if it’s a yearly one time fee #capitalism #the fact that CR has always had pretty bad quality as a streaming service anyway #it buffers every time you pause or rewind anything

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months

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License to Kitty.

#dungeon meshi #izutsumi #marcille donato #chilchuk tims #I still stand by my tags on the Izutsumi character study piece I did in January - but I will repeat myself on a few lines here:#I *really* love this character. I love that all of the dungeon meshi crew are complicated and have difficult to love components.#But Izutsumi is a particular kind of hard to love. I foresee a lot of people being turned off by her abrasiveness and lack of teamwork.#She is very self-centered and openly goes against what the party agrees on.#She's a picky eater in a story that is 50% about eating good and healthy food!#It is in part about her growth but admittedly even *then* she remains rather true to her self-centeredness.#Even though she isn't as nice or funny or compassionate as the others...Izutsumi is still someone worth loving.#Even the more difficult people are someone worth loving.#And those people in turn are people who have something and someone they love.#She may be a girlcat but she is the most human of them all.#I hope that if you are an anime only watcher and are feeling put off by her at the moment; you'll give her a chance.#By the way: *yes* I worked very hard to draw that skateboard pose. It was worth it.#EDIT: HAPPY 500th POST OF POORLY-DRAW-MDZS!!! What a comic to commemorate the milestone with!

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ohcarolina · 6 months

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and there's so much stuff in my head that just makes it all so clear. like right now he's putting our son to bed and he's just arguing with him... never a nice word to his literal flesh and blood, he only ever cares about me in an extremely uncomfortable hyperfixated way. and i remember when he proposed i hated every second of it, i felt so awkward and i actually had like a rage in my gut... and then i said yes because i'm a dumb bitch who could never say no. i know this all sounds really horrible reading it from an outside pov...

#personal #i am literally shattered #for myself though #i would really just like to cry #also for myself #he has kept me locked up in a golden cage for 7 years #i can't believe i lived like this #just today i got home 10 minutes late from work #and he texted after 5 minutes #asking where i was #and then he was pissed off all day #and just thinking about the way he constantly forces physical contact even when #i sometimes scream at him to please let me go #i can't believe that saturday was the first time i was 'allowed' to party in 7 years #i can't believe any of it #and now i have to stay with him #while i start laying out my exit strategy #fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

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introvert-time-art · 1 year

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"being trans is a choice" do you honestly think i would CHOOSE to get gender euphoria from wearing knee-length basketball shorts?? that's humiliating

#nonbinary #trans #transmasc #transmasculine #transgender #i look like adam sandler and feel like myself thats so embarrassing #thank god it's not exclusively basketball shorts though #i would look a fool all the time

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chloesimaginationthings · 22 days

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New FNAF clown Jackie from secret of the Mimic!!

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #michael afton #fnaf jackie #circus baby #Ennard #the mimic #paper pals #fnaf eleanor #sister location #fazbear frights #secret of the mimic #ALL THE stuff coming out from PAX is so cool #I wish I was there to peep it myself BUT maybe next time pff #ALL THE secret of the mimic info is super neat #it has a demo there it seems it does take place in the 70s #IN a toy factory btw #but the biggest drop is of course Jackie #the animatronic that was in the SOTM trailer #now having a fully realized design #she’s like a jack in the box! her arms can extent #obviously I had to draw Jackie immediately #I LOVE her design #she joins all the other fnaf clowns in the series ❤️#rip to Michael and the other fnaf protagonists though pff #I’m super curious how Jackie plays into everything but I can’t wait #love the silly clown girl ❤️❤️❤️

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gatoburr0 · 3 months

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I HATE how this turned out WITH A PASSION.

#art #fanart #my art #original art #splatoon #splatoon art #splatoon fanart #Splatoon fan art #I’m stressed #Splatoon Marie #Marie splatoon #Marie #marie cuttlefish #Splatoon Marie fanart #squid sisters #hypno Marie #hypnomask marie? bc Callie is hypnoshades idunno ugh #I’m gonna rip my eyes out with a spoon this is so awful I HATE THE CLOTHES #I COULDVE DONE BETTER #one thing I do love though is my art style and more especially the shading part #ugh eating my shading #I’m noticing that I didn’t shade some parts lmfao but it’s part of my charm #some things are better left unfinished <3 because I have adhddddd #oni masks oni masks oni masks oni mask oni teeth oni teeth teeth teeth teeth teeth teeth teeth teeth teeth teeth te #don’t ask me why I’m so obsessed with teeth I do not know myself. I just am.#labeling this as ‘something I did when I was bored after having a crisis’ because those are usually not that good.

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egophiliac · 2 months

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he did it! 🐍 and it only took...uhhh...well, there probably could've been less punches, but why hold back!

PUNCHES FOR EVERYONE

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 9 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 9 spoilers #snakes #ONE MORE DOWN #oh my god happy jamil was SO scary and yet adorable all at once #i want real jamil to see him and just be utterly disgusted #and yet he got nothing on the return of everyone's favorite twst character: WEIRD RHYTHMIC ELEPHANT #oh weird rhythmic elephant what would we do without you #me kicking my stupid little feet as jamil wakes up through sheer force of kalim though #he was SO happy for jamil and SO ready to just go along with everything. my sweet boy.#jamil getting so flustered by him that he's just shocked back into reality #and the SLAPFIGHT #silver being like 'they need this' and doing his one smile animation as kalim and jamil are pulling on each other's hair and going YOU SMEL #mmm yes delicious #also this is probably nothing but #but...they brought up the whole thing with azul having dirt on crowley again #the thing that was briefly alluded to in episode 4 and never mentioned ever again?!#i had JUST finally convinced myself that i was reading too much into it and it was just azul playing along with jamil's plan #but now they've mentioned it again and i'm going to be all BUT WHAT DOES IT MEEEEEAAAAN for another three years about it #is it a meaningless reference to that one scene?! is it absolutely ridiculous foreshadowing?! am i ever going to be validated?!#I HAVE TO KNOW

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notbrucewayne48 · 9 months

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"aphobia doesn't exist"

bitch literally not that long ago an aroace youtuber animator was insulted by almost half of its community for being it

#i did some research about it and found out that the problem was principally that she had previous experience in the romantic area #so people just didn't take her seriously and said she was lying #even though she stated multiple times that she wasn't comfortable in those situations #now things are more calmed but damn #mind your own bussiness #i believe she knows more about herself than you #sorry if i offended you with this comment but i hate how aro/ace/aroace people are always left behind #insulted and rejected because they “dont know what they are talking about”#or because they “just have to wait for the right person”#or because they are “psychopaths and they are missing something”#i love that animator and she helped me realise a lot about myself #and now that i know the context i think i will start making a list and killing aphobes one by one #aromantic #arospec #asexual #aroace #acespec

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bacchuschucklefuck · 2 days

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couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

#calne ca #hatsune miku #VOCALOID #cw: body horror #<- And I Fucking Mean That We Are Not Fucking Around Today #well we are. as in I drew this as a fuckaround treat for myself #but the body horror tag is the most warranted its ever been on this blog #ask to tag #I am as ever on my journey to make calne ca Worse. her OG version is too cool. even the crab ver is too cool #I need her to be worse to look at. I am also getting myself into to mood to test my hand at boarding a pmv for my friend's cover #I think my thought for this was ''I should try and give her a more insectoid bodyplan''#which in this mostly means gently three-part body and six limbs (my favourite amount of limbs to draw rn)#actually almost gave her eight but didnt like how that silhouette came out so I mermaided her uh. abdomen I guess #though maybe next time I do this I should push that idea more. the head and torso are still very distinct for one unified part #I feel like one of my old attempts was onto something with like. a more horizontal body plan... well! live and learn etc #happy late mid autumn I guess. I should play with touys about it... I miss model kits. mayhaps...

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kathaynesart · 5 months

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REPLICA PLAYLIST

MUSIC UNDER CUT

I have been receiving requests for any songs that inspired Replica, so here, have my personal playlist. Sorry it’s not Spotify/Soundcloud but they don’t have some of these songs available so uh… guess you’re stuck with YouTube vids. For fun I'll include my personal titles for them (which might give a few hints of what to expect in the future/end).

Replica Main Theme - “Die for You” by Grabbitz Like Father Like Son Like Brother (Omega and Shelldon) - "As Above So Below" by Alistair Lindsay Mikey's Theme / The 1st Vision - "Suzume no Tojimari" by Nanoka Hara Military (Mad) Dogs / Central Park Colony - "Imperium" by Madeon Shanghai - "Icarus" by Madeon Boom Goes the Donnie-mite (Mikey/Donnie vs the Sweeper) - "The Red Zone" by Mitsuoto Suzuki The Day the Sky Bled Red - "7 Seconds Till the End" by Nobuo Uematsu Going Out Like a Boss (Raph and Leo) - "Agape" by Nicholas Britell Remembering the Right Way (Mikey and Leo) - "The Souls of Many" - by Alistair Lindsay Mystic Hands / The 2nd Vision - "Am I Dreaming" by Metro Boomin x A$AP Book 2 Trailer - "Sea Dragon" by Covet 7 Years Later - "Iron" by Woodkid Leo's Theme / Attack on the Labor Camp - "Ego Death" by Polyphia Omega's Theme - "Touch" by Daft Punk Flat Lines (Omega Alone) - "Die Toteninsel Emptiness" by 1000 Eyes Spear - "Monsters" by Tommee Profitt Final Protocol - "The Kraken" by Katie Dey Rise / Epilogue - "Close in the Distance" by Masayoshi Soken & Tom Mills

I will admit, it's a little embarrassing since you can easily see the patterns of what I've been listening to for the past year or two. I swear I listen to more than just videogame OSTs, these songs just jive well with the story and I often find lyrics distracting when brainstorming scenes. Regardless, the music I listen to is such an important part of my creative process and some of these songs really defined the scenes I now have locked in my head. So I figured it was only fair to give them the credit they're due.

I will continue to add to this playlist, and will note in comic updates when one of these songs is applicable!

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buggachat · 1 year

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deserved

#ml #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #ml paris special #ml paris #ml spoilers #claw noir #shadybug #toxinelle #griffe noire #shadyclaw #toxigriffe #ladynoir #<- kind of?#my art #I TOLD MYSELF I WOULD TAKE A BREAK FROM DRAWING BUT THEN MY INTERNET WENT OUT AND I HAD NOTHING ELSE TO DO #had to use a different application than usual though because capitalism is a scourge so my usual art program doesn't work offline

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catastrxblues · 1 year

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#i have full exam season next week and coming up with the names gave me some extra fun #personally i’m more of a #chemistry #person myself #(though my recent grades are working hard to prove me wrong)#anyways #how does one tag again?#poll #!!#science #stem #science side of tumblr #never mind #nadirants

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eddiestommy · 3 months

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wait so apparently some people get mad if someone else writes fanfiction based on headcanons they shared on tumblr??? so now i got to ask

#if i'm sharing something here is either because i'm not gonna write it myself or don't mind if someone gets inspired by it and writes it #like all the little concepts i've shared come with a blanket permission to take them as prompts if you're inspired by them #but apparently some people see as rude writing something based off someone else's post?? even though they're sharing it publicly...#i get wanting credit for your idea but like if you're sharing publicly people might get inspired and run with it...#anyway!#//hayden

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stuckinapril · 9 months

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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

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tubbytarchia · 9 months

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so ranchers huh

#sorry Im allergic to long posts but hehe uhh I wanted to post it all at once...#rancher duo #team ranchers #trafficshipping #tangotek #jimmy solidarity #double life #double life fanart #trafficblr #they are so soft and I have way too many ideas for art of them by virtue but Im gonna stop myself there #sorry if my human anatomy is awkward anywhere eugh #not terribly confident about my human art but we go all in baby #fuck it we ball as the kids say #in the way I imagine them Tango keeps his flames at bay when around people but does still walk around with his hair casually on fire #he just cant help it when Jimmy's an affectionate dog more than an avian though you know #tubby art

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