#ftmsteverogers

[give-me-love-carol]

Ok, this semester’s exams are officially over, so I finally got some time to spend on AO3. To begin my “fanficthon”, here’s a list of my…

DESTIEL FANFICS RECS

• ACCORDING TO ALL KNOWN LAWS OF LIFE by sobsicles

• A TURN OF EARTH by microcomets

• FAMOUS LAST WORDS by GatesKeeper

• FENARIO by ftmsteverogers

• OH SOONER OR LATER IT ALL COMES DOWN TO FAITH by sobsicles

• ROMANTIC THEORY by 2street2car

• EPILOGUE by Jayne L

• BUILD A HOME by domesticadventures

• ALL THE WAY by cadignan, Guu

• CONVENIENT HUSBANDS by Annie D

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Celebrating 10 Years of CA:TWS — A Stucky Rec List

Rec list for the CA:TWS 10th Anniversary Event @catws-anniversary (thank you so much for organizing this event! 💙) | Prompt: Memories

10 years, huh? 10 years of Captain America: The Winter Soldier. 10 years of what many—myself included—still consider to be the best MCU movie ever made.

But also 10 years of post-TWS fanfiction. 10 years of Bucky Barnes Recovering and Steve Rogers' Sadness Errands; of Up All Night to Get Bucky and Revenge Road Trips; of Winter Soldier Trauma Umbrellas and Everybody Needing A Goddamn Hug; of Good Bros and Soft Epilogues. 10 years and tens of thousands of Steve/Bucky fics later, here we are.

So, to mark the occasion, let's take a trip down memory lane and celebrate the movie and the stories it inspired: One fic from each year since it all began:

There's really only one rule here: All fics are set before, during, or after the events of CA:TWS and/or reimagine its plot in interesting ways. Naturally, many of the fics on this list are post-TWS canon divergent, but I tried to go for a nice variety of length, genre, and popularity to keep it interesting. Speaking of popularity, this is very much not intended as a round-up of ‘most popular fics of each year’ because—and I say this with all the love and respect in my heart for those stories and their authors—nobody needs a rec list for that, and I believe in spreading the love. Here we go:

Poltergeists by enemyofrome | 17K, T

Author's summary: When the helicarriers blow up and the Winter Soldier goes on the run, he takes Steve with him. He's got a name written in Morse code on the inside of his arm, a ton of questions he doesn't know how to ask, and now, a new handler with absolutely zero sense of self-preservation to contend with. Life is hard. In which Bucky tries to figure out whether he's a human being, Steve does everything he can to keep from losing him again, and there are lots of explosions.

Starting off with one of the best versions of the 'Bucky didn't leave Steve, he took him with him after the Potomac' fics that were (and still are!) so popular post-TWS. This one stands out because of its fantastic beginning, its interesting take on how Bucky was broken and remade into the Winter Soldier, and because it allows both characters to be messy. It's a popular fanon trope that it's Steve who brings out a ruthless, almost vicious streak in Bucky, but here it's emphasized that this is very much a mutual thing. Just like Bucky, who's often afforded the "excuse" of still figuring out how to be a person again, Steve gets to be difficult here—without ever turning him into a stubborn asshole. They're both traumatized, and they're both allowed to show it and to lash out, including at each other. Also, this fic will give you capital-F Feelings about morse codes and apples. Believe me.

sleepwalk back to the battle site by ftmsteverogers | 22K, T

Author's summary: “I’m going to track down every HYDRA agent that’s left,” Bucky says, buckling his gun deftly to his belt. “And then I’m going to kill them.” “Oh,” Steve says. “Come with me?” Bucky asks, dangerous hands tucked into his pockets.

A classic post-TWS fic that picks up right after the movie ends. Equal parts Revenge Roadtrip, Bucky Barnes recovering, and Steve Rogers being in urgent need of a good hug. This starts out intensely melancholic—Steve's despair and helplessness are palpable and there's a scene involving a drinking glass that still brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. Halfway through, the story changes pace and becomes much more action-heavy, but it still manages to allow space for the quiet, intimate moments between Steve and Bucky. They have both become sharp and deadly men, but they're also allowed to be soft with each other. Their coming together feels sweet and inevitable. I also really enjoyed the Steve characterization here. His absolute conviction that Bucky is still Bucky at his very core and always will be, but also his emotional and intellectual flexibility to adapt to this still-new-to-him, changed version of Bucky rang very true to me.   

Surveillance by Sproings, 7K in 2 parts, G

Author's summary: If there are ears everywhere, that means it's somebody's job to listen. I hate my job.

Do you ever think about how SHIELD bugged Steves DC apartment and how horrible that was, but also...you're kind of curious what they might have overheard? Do you ever wonder about the people who listened in on his sad, lonely life? Well, here you go. An outsider POV fic told "through the ears" of an unnamed SHIELD agent assigned to spy on the private life of a man who doesn't really have much of one. The story begins just before IM3 and takes us all the way through the events of CA:TWS and beyond. It's clever, original and told with great empathy for both the subject under surveillance and the person carrying out that surveillance—who increasingly questions its purpose. Here's a small snippet to give you an idea of the fic's style:

He got a phone call, once. He put it on speaker, too, which was very exciting for me at the time. It was from an archivist at the Smithsonian. They seemed really surprised that he answered his own phone calls. The two of them talked for a long time about an exhibit the museum was planning. A very long time. As if one of them was starstruck, and the other was desperate for any kind of human interaction.

What Gets You Through by velleities | 12K, M

Author's summary: For Steve, getting through each day is a process – one he’s currently failing at spectacularly. Feeling out of place in this brave new world, he hopes to find a home in Bucky, and looks for him with everything he’s got. But Bucky doesn’t want to be found, and when he does touch base with Steve, he never sticks around for long. Bucky has embraced the modern age, leaving Steve lagging behind – or so Steve believes, until Bucky shows him otherwise.

This post-TWS fic revolves around five encounters in liminal spaces, and each time Bucky has pieced himself back together again just a little more. Despite their increasingly longer and more honest conversations, and Bucky's incremental progress, he always disappears again, leaving Steve to grapple with his heartbreak. There are quietly gorgeous moments in this fic (the bus and the church in particular were my personal favorites) as well as wonderfully crafted characterizations. Bucky is initially portrayed as somewhat feral in some ways yet surprisingly well-adjusted in others, and I love that Steve can't help but be a little annoyed at that. However, it quickly becomes clear that, in good old Bucky Barnes fashion, much of it is really just a front put up for Steve's benefit...

A Real Boy by itsnotbleak | 5K, T

Author's summary: It took the Winter Soldier three weeks to remember that human beings needed to sleep and eat. It took Steve far too long to realise the Winter Soldier was sleeping in his bed.

A wonderful, short-but-doesn't-feel-like-it fic (in the very best way) set immediately after CA:TWS, in which Bucky secretly and then soon not so secretly visits Steve in his apartment. Follow along as Bucky Barnes argues with his brain about sandwich toppings, the importance of a good night's sleep, and the necessity of personal hygiene. Also: how to best go about becoming a real boy (again). And who the hell is that Bucky guy anway? This is as soft and sweet a Bucky recovery fic as you're ever going to find. It's funny but not silly; sad in a way that all of these stories inherently are—because, well, these are some tragic boys—but not super angsty or depressing. A beautiful story with a lovely, hopeful ending.

Savage God by PottersPink | 36K, M

Author's summary (abbr.): Past, present, future, Steve knows Bucky Barnes. It’s why he recognized him when he found him in that alley in April of 1942, even though Bucky was older, stronger, wearier; he called himself The Asset, and had a metal fucking arm. He flinched when Steve tried to touch him, and when Steve told him he loved him, his first response was to ask why. Seventy years later, Steve wakes up in the twenty-first century, and he doesn’t know whether to be heartbroken or hopeful when some of the things Bucky revealed to him in 1942 start falling into place.

An absolutely riveting AU that will have you on the edge of your seat the whole time. I'm itching to talk about it more but I cannot since it would mean spoiling the hell out of it. What I can say is that it's a very intriguing and clever exploration of what would happen if Steve knew about the future but without really knowing any of the details. How would it change the events of CA:TFA and CA:TWS, and how would it change Steve himself? I so very much appreciate this characterization of Steve as smart, competent, and unwavering with a hefty dose of no fucks left to give. This fic features some really nifty time travel and plotting, great action sequences and a very satisfying ending where certain people get their much-deserved comeuppance. Plus: Bonus Shrinkyclinks (kind of)!

Charlie Lock by seapigeon | 105K, M (hard M)

Author's summary (abbr.): The Winter Soldier knows that sometimes, in order to make the kill, you must destroy what the Target lives for. Steve Rogers knows that he can't fight his captors. If he fights, they'll kill Bucky. But the price of his life is steep. Tony Stark has nothing left to live for, but he's needed. So all these miserable motherfuckers better stay alive, too. Clint Barton never expected to be a leader. But a leader he is, and no one else is going to die on his watch. --- A story in which the first wave of Project Insight succeeds, and the Avengers must pick up the pieces and find a way to stop Hydra from completing its work with Zola's algorithm.

This is not only the longest fic on this list, but also the angstiest one—by a mile, so please heed the tags. It's dark, disturbing, and brutal. However, it is neither relentless misery porn nor is it shocking for shock's sake, where everything is magically forgotten and/or healed the moment Steve and Bucky start kissing. Instead, the author puts these characters into an absolutely horrifying situation and then slowly, gently guides them out of it and into the light.

It's a Stucky fic but it's also a multi-POV ensemble piece featuring all the Avengers and other familiar faces. If you are someone who'll always be a little bitter about the unfulfilled promise of an Avengers found family, then this is for you. In this AU, they do not only fight together, but grow together in every way. They truly become a team, not just co-workers barely tolerating each other. The story takes its time exploring the characters and the group dynamics. Steve and Bucky are definitely at the center of the narrative but there is space here for every member of the team to grieve and adjust to the new reality and to find at least some measure of healing. It's a story about the meaning and the consequences of revenge, about hope and resilience, and about love in all its many forms. It also has one of the most satisfying title drops that will have you pump your fist in triumph when it happens. It's a tough read, but ultimately a very rewarding one.

SPELEVINK by Ginny_Potter | 10K, G

Author's summary: Bucky’s back. He’s leaving me messages through IKEA plushies, Steve texts Sam. jesus christ, rogers, Sam texts back. Or, Bucky lives in an IKEA Tiny Apartment, Steve is a dancing monkey once again, and somehow they find their way back to each other.

This is an absolute DELIGHT of a fic that will have you alternately laughing out loud and crying quietly into your SVARTFIBBLA blanket (super-soft, recycled polyester, 47x63"). It's ‘crack treated seriously’ at its very best and a clear homage to the fandom classic Infinite Coffee… (that’s not a dig or a spoiler, the author says so in the author’s note).

Now if you know me, you’ll know that angst o’clock is my happy hour and I’m usually not very into these heavy-on the-humor quasi-absurdist fics (because I’m super special and not like all the other girls, obviously). But. I LOVED this story so, so much. It’s such a fun read—even when it makes you cry—and it really became one of those ‘huh, I guess I’m into this after all’ moments of joyful (self)discovery via fanfic for me. I never thought a pair of oven mitts could move me like that, and I'll never be able to walk into an IKEA again without muttering "F******!" under my breath (iykyk). Absolutely fantastic.

a handful of dust by RecoveringTheSatellites | 20K, M

Author's summary: Steve looks for Bucky for a long time. But the thing is that Bucky doesn't get found, Bucky finds. Bucky always finds Steve. This takes a hard left after the Potomac and stumbles through the dark a lot after. Take a bit of running, the occasional synaptic misfire, the resurfacing of old memories, a dash or two of PTSD, and (eventually) a nice dose of action, stir, and serve over some unresolved issues.

Honestly, the second paragraph up there perfectly sums up the story. It's a good ol' fashioned Bucky recovery fic with some angst, some action, and a whole lot of healing and devotion. Steve and Bucky get to be very sappy about each other, but also extremely Badass Battle Boyfriends™ when somebody threatens their hard-won happiness. Both are allowed to be messy, unstable, and very co-dependent.

This was the first time this author played in the Stucky sandbox and I mean it 100% as a compliment when I say that you can tell. This is someone with "fresh legs" diving headfirst and very deep into the Stucky trope pool and they're doing it with great relish and enthusiam. The result is a story that rejects some of the tried and true conventions of the post-TWS fanfic canon and lovingly embraces others, but that is definitely aware of and in dialogue with the body of work that came before it. Also, it's just a really fun read that gives these two the very soft ending they deserve.

Everybody is Supposed to be Dead by pollutedstar | 22K, M

Author's summary: In 1944, Bucky Barnes falls off a train into the Alps, missing and presumed dead. Months later, Steve Rogers nosedives a plane into the arctic. In 2010, the Winter Soldier project is uncovered by S.H.I.E.L.D., and Bucky Barnes is found alive. Three years later, Steve Rogers’ frozen body is found in the ocean.

A really interesting AU and a fascinating exploration of what could’ve been; the impact it would’ve had on the events and characters if Bucky had been the one to be “found” first. How would it affect Steve to come back into a world where he isn’t quite so lonely and adrift, and where he does have the relief and reassurance of having Bucky by his side and at his back? How would that have changed the way he acted and reacted to this strange new world and the people and organizations trying to recruit him to their cause even though the ice hasn't even completely melted off his body yet?

There are a lot of astute and precise observations about characters like Tony, Natasha, and Clint in this story, and on top of that, it offers up some very compelling insights into Steve's conflicted and difficult relationship with his role as Captain America.

it's never over (hey orpheus) by romcommie | 12K WIP, 2/?, M

Author's summary: He remembers a song first and then everything else follows, burying him below. Or, Bucky Barnes pieces a life back together with a few choice verses, some duct tape and seventy years worth of spite. Steve Rogers tries very hard to relearn there's a life to be lived in the first place.

Ok, listen up, people! This is a WIP and there are only 2 chapters posted so far, but I haven't felt this absolutely bonkers excited about a post-CA:TWS fic in a long while. We're talking frothing at the mouth here. I have such a massive crush on this fic, it's a bit embarrassing, really. It's one of those fics where you know after just a few paragraphs that you're in very good, very competent hands. The wealth of historical and cultural detail; the way the story shifts/flips/flickers back and forth between time, perspective and narrative levels; the Bucky voice—it's all so well done! I'm so insanely excited to see where the author takes this!

ENJOY!

[casdeans-pie]

hi, was wondering if you have any post/finale destiel fic recs? i think ive read some of the classics(on labour, the end and after, sobsicles) but im always looking for me. preferably not loong(100k+) fics bcuz i have no time, but idm. thanks either way <3

Oooh I love a good fix it - good request!!

I do indeed have a few...

Keep Your Love Alive by dothraki_shieldmaiden and FriendofCarlotta ....... satisfying and fun - I really enjoy time loops and Empty rescues

Doors Unlocked And Open by sidewinder ....... I loooove this idea of where they end up as a continuation - it's interesting!

Being Led Home by someonetoanyone ....... I literally cried happy tears at this one it's just so nice for them to have what they deserve post-canon.

Fenario by ftmsteverogers ....... lake house fluff! Post canon domesticity!

Hope you find something you enjoy there !! <3

[profoundbondfanfic]

hello! I love this blog so much - as a new spn fan (and tumblr user) it’s a great source for good fics to read, so thank you so much for this blog!

If you do take (possibly) more specific requests for recommendations, I was wondering if you knew of any fanfics where it’s cas-centric and involves him realizing/coming to terms with his feelings for dean? I’ve read a lot of (esp post-canon) fics where it follows dean’s journey with this, but not as much with cas, especially within the context of canon. Thank you, and best wishes for this blog!!

Hey! First of all, thanks so much for the kind words, we're glad you're enjoying our blog.

Here are a few fics that fit this. We included both AUs and Canon from Cas' POV with him realizing/coming to terms with his feelings for Dean.

Canon:

Better Off by caelum_writes (Teen and Up, 7k words)

As an angel Castiel never had to think about what to wear. As a man who struggles with deep self-loathing, Dean never had to think about the idea of anyone loving him.

between sex and death and trying to keep the kitchen clean by ftmsteverogers (Explicit, 13k words)

"I don't get you," Dean spits. "I don't get what you want. Just — just tell me. I'm a big boy, I can take it." "I did tell you!" Castiel exclaims. "I told you, and then I died!"

Dean Winchester and the Belly Button Piercing by Trenchcoat_Paradigm (Explicit, 34k words)

Dean Winchester was 23 when he got his belly button pierced. It was during a time in his life when everything felt like it was in turmoil (long before he even really knew what his life being in turmoil truly meant). He never intended to go out and get any piercings—his father would have never allowed it. For 20-something years it had been his best-kept secret… that was until one fateful night when a hunt went wrong and his best friend had to swoop in and help patch him up, catching an eyeful of his elusive secret. Castiel’s infatuation with his best friend took a dangerous turn that night (not that he wasn’t already treading treacherous waters with his feelings towards the man). He had already known that Dean had a piercing, but he had no idea it was still functional, and equally had no idea that a piece of jewellery, Dean’s own slice of quiet rebellion, would have such a profound effect on him. Now Castiel can’t help but want him and his fading grace is doing very little in hiding his… indiscretions. The idea of it slowly drove him insane. And what makes it worse… Castiel was certain Dean was doing it on purpose.

restless by vipjuly (Explicit, 4k words)

Kissing Dean feels not only right, it feels important, like them kissing is another one of the events Chuck intended to come to fruition when he first created the earth and all its people.

sunflower by unicornpoe (Teen and Up, 4k words)

Castiel comes home on a Sunday.

The Black Trench Coat by Yool_chan (Explicit, 22k words)

When Dean found out Castiel was working with Crowley to open Purgatory, he had no choice but to leave the angel in the ring of fire with nothing less than a broken heart. But instead of plotting against his friend, Dean takes a literal sense of fire vs fire. He decides to kill Castiel with love. Or that story where Dean convinces Castiel to look into their future to see if Castiel's plan against Raphael succeeds, only to find the world in chaos and an angel donning a black trenchcoat emerges to take Dean away.

The Law of Equivalent Exchange by awed_frog (Mature, 60k words)

“And what’s the point of it?” “Of love? There isn’t one. Loving is its own purpose.”

until the end and after by Philyra912 (Explicit, 27k words)

A year ago, the world didn't end. Now it's summer and the cicadas are buzzing, and something is changing. Something is going to give.

AU:

Dean Winchester, Straight Shooter by triedunture (Explicit, 15k words)

Dean Winchester, star of StraightShooter.com, is a gay-for-pay porn star with a huge following. Cas Novak signs on to do a scene with him, even though he dislikes "straight" porn stars on principle. But Dean is more complicated than he first appears, and after inadvertently learning his secrets, Cas finds himself falling for him.

For Evermore by casblackfeathers (Explicit, 110k words)

There's no place like home. This was a line Castiel used to know by heart when he was a kid, watching The Wizard of Oz and believing fairytales were real. At thirty-one years old, he isn't a kid anymore, and it has been twelve years since he has known what home feels like. Twelve years. That's when his world had come crashing down and he had left his hometown, Holly Springs, with the broken pieces of what he once was to build a new life in San Francisco. But as circumstances force him to come back to the only place he swore he would never return to, Castiel is finally forced to face everything he once knew and loved. Especially when said everything is made of spring-green eyes and a stardust of freckles, wrapped in all the memories Castiel was not able to erase from his heart. After twelve years, Dean is as mesmerizing as Castiel remembers, but the scars of what was broken still run as deeply as the marrow of his bones, and Castiel will do everything he can to protect himself. After all, his favorite movie also taught him that 'until hearts can be made unbreakable,' he can’t listen to his own.

Have Love, Will Travel by squeemonster (Explicit, 94k words)

Castiel Novak is a reclusive writer with a childhood so tragic it's left him terrified to leave his home—until his overbearing brother, Gabriel, drags him out for a night on the town full of booze and strip clubs, and he encounters Dean Winchester, a mesmerizing and mysterious stripper with secrets of his own. Both men find themselves inexplicably drawn to each other, and soon Dean's private dances for Castiel become much more, as both men confess their troubles and find solace in each other's company. But neither can seem to find the courage to take their relationship further than the intimacy of the club's VIP Room—and just when Dean's own brother gives him the excuse he needs to finally admit his feelings, Dean discovers something that brings it all crumbling down. Will they find a way past their demons and their trust issues, and back to each other?

Satin and Sawdust by Ltleflrt (Explicit, 159k words)

When Castiel moves out of Jimmy's house and into his own place for the first time, he saves money on buying a home by investing in a Fixer-Upper. He knows nothing about how to fix the many problems the house has, but he figures he's smart enough to figure it out. Unfortunately it's not too long before he learns that he's way in over his head. Thankfully his new neighbor Dean is a handyman, and agrees to help him out. He knows Dean has a bit of a crush on him, but he's not taking advantage of it, really. Dean's a great guy, and quickly becomes a good friend. But a flash of satin under Dean's toolbelt changes everything.

Smoke In the Mirror by letters_of_stars (Mature, 52k words)

It begins with the flier hung in the library: art model needed for thesis project, will pay. Castiel figures it's an easy way to make some extra money, but modeling for Dean Winchester ends up complicating his life far beyond anything he could have imagined.

The Prodigal Bond by vipjuly (Explicit, 68k words)

In exchange for conjugal visits, Dean Winchester gives FBI Supervisory Special Agent Castiel Novak all the dirt he needs to bring down national crime rings. It's a tit-for-tat situation; primal, animalistic, and probably ten kinds of illegal. When a case is revealed to be closer to Castiel than what he considers safe, he and Dean must work together to make sure that Crowley goes down for good. Will Castiel be able to keep Dean at arm's length, or will the charming convict finally get what he's been asking for all along? What lengths will Castiel go to... at Dean's behest?

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what is ftmsteverogers

Ao3 author, wrote a post canon destiel fic I read for the first time this week that is kind of a play by play of Most Common Destiel Reunion Miscommunications (which to be clear I loved, I just had never seen them laid out in a fan fiction before, because I don’t read fanfiction). Also wrote fenario which was the biiiiiiig one. colloquially referred to as “lake house fic”. Also one I’d never read that I’m reading now and is laying out a lot of fanon that still knocks around today

[kvothes]

Fic rec ask game, Supernatural #s 1 &7!

a fic that lives in your brain rent free: the galveston series by lunarriviera!! i discovered it early in reading spn fic and it felt so so different from everything else i was finding, it's angsty but so good

a fic that uses a trope you love: the trope is amnesia and the fic is between sex and death and trying to keep the kitchen clean by ftmsteverogers of COURSE

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Summary: In which Mary Winchester shoots the yellow-eyed demon while he inhabits John Winchester's body to drip blood into Sam's mouth. With a cursed child on her hip and another clutching her hand, Mary lies to the cops about her dead husband and abandons the white picket fence life she's been building since she married. Her plan is simple - keep her children safe at all costs while hunting her revenge on the creature that took everything from her. The first step is seeking refuge at Ellen Harvelle's Roadhouse.

Author: @sodomitecastiel

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spn fix-it fic rec list

everything is terrifying here are some post-canon fix-it fics I like

song of songs by piesexuality

between sex and death and trying to keep the kitchen clean by ftmsteverogers

Sometimes you’ll find that I’m out of my mind by @chapeldean

Remember us in life by @agoodsoldier

in present tenses by focacciabread

Waveform Frequency by leverdrift

Command Me to Be Well by prosopopeya

[themculibrary]

Transgender Steve Rogers Masterlist

After the dust settles (ao3) - PTSDAnxiety N/R, 17k

Summary: Steve, a 19-year-old super soldier, reveals his genius skills, from designing tech and tailoring to outsmarting S.H.I.E.L.D. and crafting perfect gear for the Avengers. His past includes overcoming trauma, being trans, and protecting others. As he bonds with the team, Steve’s brilliance and pettiness leave them awestruck.

Five Times Steve Rogers Felt Different, and One Time He Realized Why (ao3) - LunchLich T, 2k

Summary: Alternatively, the times Steve doesn't quite feel right in the role given to him at birth, and the time he finds comfort in realizing he can break out of it.

Girls/Girls/Boys (ao3) - orphan_account steve/bucky T, 3k

Summary: All of Steve Rogers's life he never felt like he fit in his skin. It wasn't because he was small and frail, he didn't mind too much about that. He was uncomfortable being a male but of course he would never tell anyone that. He tried not to think about it and focused more worrying about his health, his ma, and other people.

I Do What He Does (Just Slower) (ao3) - Sidney Sussex (SidneySussex) T, 4k

Summary: Growing up isn’t going exactly the way Steve thought it would. But there’s more than one way to skin a cat.]

LIES (ao3) - magnumopustron steve/howard M, 7k

Summary: Howard Stark has always had a hard time admitting when he’s wrong about something. Steve has a hard time letting go of things that aren’t good for him.

Not Asking for Much (ao3) - Sucrosesanction steve/tony G, 1k

Summary: It’s as simple as telling someone your name.

seasons change (but people don’t) (ao3) - ftmsteverogers steve/bucky E, 2k

Summary: “If there’s a girl I’m meant to be mourning, I want to know,” Bucky persists, as though Steve hasn’t had a close brush with asphyxiation right before his eyes. His foot twitches against Steve’s under the table.

“There wasn’t a girl,” Steve coughs. “Why…?”

Bucky’s gaze is sharp and discerning as his eyes flick back and forth between Steve’s.

“There was,” he says, right hand gripping the counter behind him in a white-knuckled grasp. “A girl. A small blonde girl.”

Something About Dancing (ao3) - AtemusLotus steve/sam T, 1k

Summary: Stephanie Rogers just moved from Brooklyn to D.C. and has met the man of her dreams in a local cop Sam Wilson.

Steve Rogers Is Not a Woman (ao3) - orphan_account T, 10k

Summary: Steve Rogers was not a woman, no matter what anybody else said, or what his body looked like. (Trans-man Steve.)

Steve's Little Secret (ao3) - TheBananasaurus steve/bucky E, 16k

Summary: Despite growing up together, and even sharing an experimental first-kiss as young boys, Steve and Bucky kept a few things - like their mutual feelings - from each other. There were just certain things not acceptable, what with the time period, and their Irish-Catholic upbringing.

Steve, however... has a little secret that really isn't all that little. As if it weren't enough being skinny as a rail and frail as a leaf in autumn, he's also what he considers a freak of nature. How could he possibly ever tell his best friend something like that?

Sugar and Spice (ao3) - blakefancier steve/bucky E, 3k

Summary: It started with a box of women’s clothing that the last occupants of their apartment had left behind. Bucky remembered picking up a pair of panties and throwing them at Steve and saying, “Go on, Rogers, these look about your size.”

That’s My Man (ao3) - ACometAppears steve/bucky M, 3k

Summary: In 1941, Steve begs Bucky to help him get fighting fit so he can enlist.

In 2015, Steve orders something from the Avengers R&D department that Natasha delivers to him.

Think About It (ao3) - i_buchanan steve/bucky E, 7k

Summary: The idea of hurting Bucky almost felt mean at this point. He supposed that under normal circumstances that wouldn’t be much of a problem, but the two of them had never experienced normal circumstances in their entire lives.

Or, Steve is the biggest softy who still wants to push his boyfriend around a little bit

White Noise of Love (ao3) - BurdenedWithPointlessPurpose steve/thor T, 4k

Summary: Learning to focus on himself, Steve struggles with it sometimes. One time specifically so far which involves an older blond graduate hell bent on pursuing him. Apparently, nothing matters to Thor, as long as he is himself. An odd concept to understand as he focuses on the concept of love, until he finally realizes they together they can be the same thing.

[builtempires]

end of year fic rec 💌

i usually do this on twitter but i felt like doing a post instead of a thread this time! i mainly had four ship obsessions this year as you will see below. all of these are complete works!

DESTIEL

A Different Kind of Monster by roadtonowhere, xfrancyfranart, 89k

Something in Bodie, California is luring truckers to their deaths and Dean’s on his way to take it out. It’s the first time Bobby’s given him a case and, with Sam at Stanford and his dad off chasing demons, he's finally hunting monsters on his own. When an accidental encounter puts an as-of-yet-unknown monster in the passenger seat of his car, Dean decides to ice him, taking his dad's old adage to heart: a monster is always a monster. Unfortunately, Dean can’t seem to figure out what kind of monster "Castiel" is and he certainly can’t shake him.

something suddenly everywhere by noviembre, 50k

What good is a soldier without a war to fight? -- Dean, adrift without Cas in a world that doesn't remember ending and desperately refusing to believe in the hope Jack offers, stumbles out of hunting and into a life he's absolutely not equipped for -- except for how it might just be the one thing that can keep him together.

Plain Language by thalius, 57k

Charlie sets her beer down hard on the counter, making him flinch. “Are you trying to invent a problem?” she asks incredulously. “What? No, dude, I’m telling you—” “Your boyfriend turned down sex twice, once because you were concussed and your arm was broken, and once because he was about to drive out of state to help your brother,” Charlie summarises, brutal and unrelenting. “And you think that, what? You can never ask him for sex again because of that?”

Dean’s been playing catch-up his entire life, and he’s still figuring out the whole “asking for what I want” thing.

Fenario by ftmsteverogers, 47k

“We did good, Dean,” Sam says. “We got him back.” Dean huffs a hollow laugh, because yeah, that’s always what it’s about, isn’t it? Cas or Sam or Dean getting themselves lost or dead, and then taking turns dragging each other back from the brink. He shrugs, shoving his hands into his pockets. “We got him back, yeah,” he says. Sam nods, watching him. “So now what?”

On Labor by a_good_soldier, 24k

Cas is back from the Empty, and Dean knows how to be grateful.

Four Letter Word For Intercourse by bendingsignpost, 194k

As a grease monkey turned college freshman, Dean's constantly three seconds away from being stressed out of his mind. It hardly helps that he's finally figuring out his sexuality in his thirties. What might help with that stress is a little phone number (and a big credit card bill). If he can't figure out how to be bisexual in person, he can at least give it a go over the phone, right? (It's probably a bad idea, but he really can't help himself.)

LAURENT/DAMEN

Hand in unlovable hand by thickenmyblood, 432k

Damen and Laurent break up. Nicaise brings them back together.

ain't it a gentle sound by cloudings, 18k

A lowly member of Patran royalty seeks reparations after learning of the marriage between Laurent of Vere and Damianos of Akielos, announcing that a betrothal contract between himself and Laurent had been drawn up by the traitor Regent when he was King. It is not gold that he wants to be repaid. He seems to underestimate just how much Damen is still aching for revenge on the Regent — and anyone else who dares attempt to come between them. “It is simple,” he says. “By way of reparations for this betrayal, I ask for one night with the Prince of Vere.”

bells for him by kybelles, 42k

Damen's already unpleasant visit to Arles takes a sour turn when he and Laurent get into an argument.

Concordia by Ccaina03

He’d had hope, after those talks, that when the sting of Olympic loss had faded he and Auguste would be able to salvage something of their old friendship. This doesn’t seem likely now. Sorry I gave you a concussion when I checked you is one thing; sorry I beat you out for the gold medal and then had your little brother wear it while I fucked him is another.

LOUSTAT

the landscape after cruelty by kurtstiel, 6k

Louis clears his throat before he does something unwise like kiss him. “It’s a rainfall shower. Humans have developed a lot of useful things in the last century.” “I like Siri,” Lestat tells him, with a tone of grave importance. “Yeah,” Louis replies, finding himself smiling again. “I know you do.”

Or: In the aftermath of the reunion, Louis takes Lestat back to his hotel.

inertia by chinxe, 9k

Louis gaped at him. “You…do know what it is I’m asking, right?” “But of course,” Lestat sniffed. “You want us to move past this oh-so-casual arrangement we have been cultivating for the past years, n’est-ce pas? You want us to date? Well, Louis, my answer is no.”

Lestat plays hard to get. Louis plays along.

we'll be diamond when the golden days are done by rickybobby, 43k

“Daniel, nothing is going on with me and Lestat.” He scoffs, his violet eyes flashing orange in an instant. “Well, that’s a terrible lie. Are you going to get back together again?” “No,” Louis says, perhaps a bit too forcefully. “We’re just friends. We’re taking it slow. And that’s good. It’s safe. I’m fine.” “Right, ok. Let me summarise: you’re not together, but you talk every day. You still want to fuck him, but you’ve unilaterally decided that you’ll take it slow until some point when you can’t anymore, and you’ve not discussed any of this with him. Is that correct?” Daniel states, ignoring Louis’ hiss of irritation. “That explains everything, actually.” --- Louis is determined to be more honest with himself and Lestat. Daniel tries to help, but for the most part, this only makes things worse.

Fifth Avenue by ohofcourse, 105k

After years of chilly separation, Claudia finds Lestat de Lioncourt, now the resident pianist at the New York Philharmonic, and asks for his help in ending Louis' fraught new relationship. A reinterpretation of the first two seasons of iwtv in a modern setting.

Ten Minutes by Lydia_Eve, 31k

“What say you for the vampire Louis de Pointe du Lac — guilty or not guilty?” “Guilty!” “And the sentence?” “Death!”

Time restarts. Lestat tries to get it right.

DEVIL'S MINION

in the deafening polar province called You by shineforthee, 145k

Daniel is sprawled out across the bed, loose-limbed and lazy, somehow filling all the open space it has to offer and leaving Armand to nestle into the gaps. His cheeks are flushed, blood pooling like it knows what comes next. Maybe it does. Armand was reading about classical conditioning the other day. About dogs who become accustomed to getting food when their handler rings a bell. Perhaps Daniel is the dog, Armand’s teeth sharp bells reverberating in his veins. Or perhaps Armand is the dog, Daniel’s blood a song rattling in his ears. He has been a dog before. He runs his tongue along the bow of Daniel’s collarbone, gathers the salt-sweat there and imagines what it tastes like because Daniel does. Armand remembers he loved Daniel, once, and that Daniel loved him. Or a version of them did, at least. It isn't his intention to go back to that, but it's not not his intention, either. Such is the prerogative of an immortal: to hold two contradicting desires simultaneously. If nothing else, it passes the time while he waits for this miserable interview to end.

strange mutations by leavethebes, 11k

Armand’s done it to him once before—gored him through the stomach, gutted him like a fish, snipped his gills off, and drained him right down to the fluttering valves of his heart. Left Daniel little more than a shriveled husk of a person, and somehow Daniel is back here anyway, on his knees in front of Armand and begging for the oblivion that was promised.

eighty proof and a lifetime by doztoevsky, 8k

It’s just - anticlimactic. New York Times Bestselling Blue Balls of a conclusion to the Armand of it all. He can picture the pierced graduate students at his indie bookstore readings now; their dubious, unsatisfied frowns of so, what, he just sat there? And you just left?

give me one good movie kiss and i'll be alright by moonieangel, 7k

The curtains were open, light streaming into the room. Why the hell were the curtains open? Irritated, Daniel drew the pillow over his head. It was promptly yanked away from him. Armand’s face was even closer now, bug eyes so near Daniel swore he could feel the feathery wires of eyelashes flutter against his skin. “We are going now.” “ Now?” Daniel asked. “Why now?” Armand looked very pleased with himself. “I have acquired a job.” (Armand gets hired as an action movie stuntman in a bid to impress Daniel, who doesn't really get the message.)

the sin and this mess we're in by ringfinger, 30k

He’s sitting on a beach he hates, trading shitty jokes with a centuries-old monster whose body count would put Ed Gein to shame and who is almost certainly also plotting to turn him into a flesh lampshade. “Don’t be dramatic,” Armand says, picking up on that thread, “I do wish you’d stop returning to that.”

& its sequel, that city sewer slut's the vibe by ringfinger, 5k

Your agent is undressing me with his eyes. Armand’s voice is soft, a little amused. He wants to know if the underwear matches. Daniel swallows. Armand’s nails scrape at his inner thigh, muted by denim and latex. Well, does it?

a haunting just for company by valkyrisms, 49k

"I know what a breakup looks like," Daniel says. "The better question is, why are you coming to me about it? I'm the one who broke up your little sham." "This is what humans do, don't they?" Armand asks, letting his voice drop. "Crashing on their friends' couches when there's a blip in their romances?" "Except we're not friends. We're actually very much not friends." Daniel shrugs, as if it's all the same to him. "And I can't imagine the great vampire Armand deigning himself to sleep on my fucked-up sofa. That thing's been here since the nineties." "Well," Armand only says. "I saw you have a guest bedroom."

to make tenderness a cleaving cut by earwen_neruda, 8k

Thus spoke the only fledging the vampire Armand will ever sire, after two years of premeditated severance: “I have it on good authority that if you kill me now, Louis will send you flowers.”

Delicate Machinery by LilacTinsel, 21k

In 1973, Armand makes him an offer. Daniel takes it, not knowing it leads him down a spiral that will make them both come apart.

the spiral is unspooling by reedroad, 157k

From 1974 to 1978, Daniel Molloy filmed his day to day life in an attempt to document the horror story he lived with. In 2022, Armand gives him a chance to revisit a documentary unfinished.

flash the camera (you're a star) by exastris_scientia, 10k

Daniel is starting to think he should put a little more thought into the promises he makes in the heat of the moment. He’d qualified it a little, sure, so technically he doesn’t have to do it. And it’s not like he needs the money, not after Louis and Armand had thrown his that’s my whore number comment back in his face by actually paying him ten million fucking dollars. But a promise is a promise, even if it’s one literally no one would expect him to follow through on. Whatever. He said he would, so he will. It might be fun. So he starts an OnlyFans.

let the rock roll by volkswagonblues, 68k

This is bullshit. Daniel has spent two years persistently dialling Armand’s mental phone number in the vampire psychic network, and after two years of getting the equivalent of ‘the number you’re trying to reach no longer exists,’ he bumps into his maker in a dinky little repair shop. In Canada. Smelling like—this is where Daniel must be going crazy, because Armand smelled like a human in there. An unremarkable, blood-filled, regular human, with notes of stale sweat and artificial lemon detergent. Which part of the vampiric telenovela that makes up Daniel’s life is this again? (OR, the fic where Armand shows up again as a human, but Daniel's still a vampire, and then they do role-reversal Devil's Minion nonsense)

[sail-not-drift]

Do you ever think about the dialogue in ftmsteverogers’s fics and feel like your heart is trying to shred through its own connective tissue?

“You fucked me up,” the Soldier repeated, voice breaking. His eyes stung. “You put all this love in me. You put this dead man’s love in me by mistake and I can’t shake it, I gotta love him. He ain’t mine to love, but I gotta love him.” - Siege

[romanticfistfightz]

hiii. so. ive read a LOT of fics. destiel mostly. and if i wanted to give you all my favourites. it would be too much. (its already too much i think) so i just went through the ones that i have saved on my phone in pdfs. i loved reading themm so muchhh . if you want more, just ask!!! or if you want to read something specific. <3333

short:

I CARRY YOUR HEART (I CARRY IT IN MY HEART) by unicornpoe - i know its 25k words but. for me its short. cas in dean . (possesing him. wink wink)

Professional Couple Only by saltyfeathers - dont look at the wordcount. shh. fakedating destiel au.

blessed arrangement by gracecomets (almondrose) - this one IS short! basically what happened when cas was getting dean out of hell. and what if dean remembered that.

And so we begin by Sequesters - bobbyrufus lebanon. like the ep in s14 where john comes back for a sec. so yeah . destiel is there too

Water Under The Bridge by beingforcedtolivebadwriting - season 9. god everytime i read something with ep 3 or 6 in it. i want to die. its so good tho

for the love of a triangle by dothraki_shieldmaiden - college au. cassie/dean/cas . idk if you like cassie but this fic is SO gooddd.

between sex and death and trying to keep the kitchen clean by ftmsteverogers - 15.18 fix it <3

In Case Of Emergency by HeddersTheOwl - season 5 cas meeting season 1 dean.

sweet creature by casiferfans - "And then it clicks. Oh. Oh. Cas was turned on by Dean acting like a pet."

long:

The Law of Equivalent Exchange by awed_frog - INSANE destiel fic thats all i will tell you.

a turn of the earth by microcomets - timetravel kind of again yay. i love this one so much its so good

All Alone In Your Holy Fire by zombiesam - reversefic. hunter cas angel dean you know the drill.

Contingency by Cheerful_Shinigami - season 4 but a little bit different. cas is possesing dean after getting him out of hell. its good trust me

the cost of a thing - quiettewandering. fucked me up. season 9 (cas is human) fakedating with angst.

Immigrant Song by trinityofone - au season6. so GOOD.

Profoundly Different by by amireal, tiamatv - season 4 if cas was a fallen angel. like anna. i love itt

Home Is by Castielslostwings - normalauverse. sandover dean x endverse cas . and they are on a roadtrip together

ghosts that we knew by dothraki_shieldmaiden - hunter cas x hunter dean. but cas is a ghost. yay

Don't by tricia_16 - Catstiel. thats it

Scion of Stars by Aerlalaith - if cas had a kid with that daphne lady. and he didnt know about it until crowley kidnapped him lol

Gnome Place Like Home by teacass (Fushigi) - retired destiel. gnomes. POLISH REF!!!!!!!!!

Into the fire by Northernsparrow - THE greatest fic ever. Its been YEARS and I can't stop thinking about it.

soooo. if you cant find any of them, just ask me for a link.

enjoy <3333

YAYYY okay i found all of them <33 i havent read fics in sooo long last time i read some for dbda but i used to read SO much in middleschool/highschool and then . stopped. cringe tbh i added all of them to my marked for later but also i have fics there i marked for later in 2018 so asdfghm

[cassierobinsons]

between sex and death and trying to keep the kitchen clean by ftmsteverogers

(in response to me asking for cas POV fics)

oh you mean this gem by the ever talented @sodomitecastiel? i read it almost as soon as it dropped, but i'll take this message as a sign to reread asap :)

[autismsam]

adn this

[pinknatural]

HIIIII idk if 15x18 fix its count as the late season stuff ur looking for but some of my faves are: between sex and death and trying to keep the kitchen clean (ftmsteverogers), according to all know laws of life (sobsicles), and my ALL TIME FAVE (not 15x18 fix it and this might not count as late seasons, it’s kinda vague) though the course may change (imogenbynight). They’re pretty well known I think so sorry if u know of them already but 💕💕💕

i’ve def read the sobsicles one and maybe the others but who knows, i’ll check ‘em out !!!

[canondestiel]

girthy list of s15 fix-its for you 🫡

living dying words by fleeceframe (empty rescue)

with us you will ride by eachainn (empty rescue)

eye of the needle by cenotaphy (empty escape)

no more candle in the wind by geeky_page (empty rescue)

caveat emptor by goldenraeofsun (empty rescue)

love languages by tiamatv (empty rescue)

the world at large by cenotaphy (empty rescue)

everything is blue by malmuses (empty rescue)

status quo ante bellum by ilovehowyouletmefall (empty rescue)

tell me we're real by aaron_the_8th_demon (empty rescue)

wishes do come true by malicmalic (empty rescue .. sorta)

requiem in blue by villeve (post empty)

forever by helioturquoise155 (post empty)

fenario by ftmsteverogers (post empty)

being led home by someonetoanyone (post empty)

fools and pilgrims by lagaudiere (post empty)

like real people do by prosopopeya (post empty)

a second grace by sometimeswelose (post empty)

on the sixth day by fleeceframe (post empty)

nothing equals the splendor by rurounihime (post empty)

cursed metaphors by sobsicles (post empty)

on vessels by flightsofangels (post empty)

every thursday (past, present and future) by someonetoanyone (post empty)

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) by unicornpoe (post empty)

know and understand by aaron_the_8th_demon (post empty)

six hundred sundays (and many more) by sobsicles (post empty)

dean's coworkers vs the heteronormative agenda by cowboydeanwinchester (post empty)

take the bones, begin anew by juststandinghere (post empty)

like a comet in the sky, i'll follow you across the universe by super_skam310 (time travel)

psalm 40:2 by unicornpoe (time travel)

told before and told again by voidtetris (time travel)

search for tomorrow on every shore by noviembre (time travel)

sobriety & apple pie & religion, oh my! by rhinestoneangels (time travel)

adam bites the apple by sicsempertyrannis (time travel)

under the same sun by prosopopeya (heaven)

the cry of elisha to elijah by intothesilentland (heaven)

there's still time to change the road you're on by duck_life (heaven)

lose that fearful feeling by vipertooths aka me (heaven)

empty by squirrelofcelestialintent (pre s15 confession)

seek to know you better by ahurston (post alt s15)

+ here's another rec list i did of some of my favorite fics in general if that interests you

just finished supernatural. I'm devastated. please drop fics.

especially canon compliant fix-its I want the same but better stories rn

or the fics that I MUST read like fandom canons (like all the young dudes of harry potter or sansukh of lord of the rings)