#i could honestly ramble more and probably make an actual hc post but oh well

[astridthevalkyrie]

U want lds thoughts? I gotchu 🫡

I really like all 3 boys, but I'm leaning Zayne bc he's just so husband coded. He's the only one I could see a long-term relationship w. I love Xavier and Rafayel, but I just can't picture them as husbands or dads (at least w my MC/myself). I also desperately need them to interact in game and in the main story, there's just sm potential for chaos and funnies.

I honestly dk what will happen next. Obviously, MC is gonna want to investigate Onichynus and her heart, but idk how that story will unfold or how they'll tie in the stories w each li and their separate myths/reincarnation bit. (Also, the fact that the myths happen in the future doesn't make sense to me yet, so I hope they plan to really flesh that out and not give us questionable writing like most mobile otomes do). Idk how I feel abt Sylus (and possibly Caleb) becoming lis, ig I'll have to see what they're like and if they appeal to me at all, bc so far we haven't had enough Caleb content for me to actually get attached (I was also convinced he was MCs brother so idt I'll ever be able to see him romantically 😭).

I hope we'll get to see more of the side characters and what MCs life is like outside of just the three guys, but I honestly doubt it lmao (more for me to hc abt ig lol).

I have more but this is already rambly and idk how to be coherent rn. This game is giving me brainworms and I'm def thinking abt it too hard. Oh, well. I don't consume media, media consumes me.

i'm telling you it's xavier boyfriend zayne husband and rafayel sneaky link. that's exactly the look and vibe they give off.

i think as of right now zayne is the most popular, at least on ao3 him/mc is the most popular ship. which is just to be expected when you have a levi ackerman coded character LOL. like you said, he's a husband. he just is. he's a doctor and he's successful and he cares for the mc so deeply it just makes sense. i started the game for him because. i mean he looks like THAT. he acts like THAT. he has ice powers and you get to melt the ice in his heart and make him love you i adore that shit see my pinned post for the kind of romance i write you could make a zayne x reader set in the aot universe and it would be my fic. and dooooooon't get me started on dawnbreaker zayne. DON'T GET ME STARTED i gasped during the anecdote when the truth about the kid comes out. he dreams about his past life what the fuck bro what the fuck.

surprisingly, though, while i do love him, he's probably the one i've had the least amount of thoughts about (that's still clearly a lot of thoughts so that's not saying much). i think it's partly because my gacha favors xavier and rafayel a lot more and right now i pretty much am just heavily thinking about whichever guy i consumed the content for last.

xavier and rafayel have me obsessed. i thought xavier would be completely meh because zen from mysme was meh for me. but um. he was not meh. my levi hawks pattern has told me that i love a man who was forced into fighting because of the stupid goodness in his heart and manipulative outside forces. and even though that's not exactly what's going on with xav, he does have that vibe. his is the only myth i've watched in full and i'm just. they should have been able to go to uluru together. the scene where they're both lying on the ground i have watched it so many times. i love love love the royalty x captain of the guards trope so much. the fact that they both serve in both roles is insane. i've read the anecdote about her first life on philos too there's a fucking part in there that talks about how he shares his EARBUDS with you?????? end me.

and rafayel is beautiful. like he's actually beautiful. his english voice actor makes him sound so fucking bisexual + the bi wife energy whenever you're with him is just. UGH. the game is hilarious whenever he's on screen and obviously with the way the main story has ended for now he's the most intriguing. and while you can feel the pining energy from all three of them, his is just. lowkey the most pathetic. and i eat it up. bro started TEACHING AT HER COLLEGE just for the chance to see her. i like that he's not possessive per se but he is very whiny and attention seeking the sassy man syndrome is real. i need to unlock his myth but i'm not patient so i may very likely just watch it on youtube. i need to see hunter rafayel. i need to see him right now.

the main story is genuinely fascinating. i was a little bit bored up until the explosion happened and it really kicked in. bc suddenly it's not just 3 guys and you doing your best, but you actively investigating and them helping you. like i said i don't have raf's myth and i haven't finished zayne's yet (need more fucking upgrades to his card) so i don't have the full story but at least what i'm getting right now is okay. they're all from the past or future. they all remember?? xavier and rafayel definitely do. zayne knows something about grandma who seems kinda shady to me. i've seen the caleb=sylus or at least caleb lives theories. i saw someone say the man at the end isn't sylus though? and his english va is the same as caleb's but in other languages it's someone else. idk.

idk about the others but xavier's myth being in the future makes sense. i'm pretty sure the timeline goes: in our current timeline, earth is about to go bye-bye and become inhabitable bc of wanderers -> survivors go to philos -> xavier and a new mc are both born -> she dies bc of something in her heart and is reborn bc she's the only one who's truly immortal (everyone else on philos lives forever naturally but can still be killed i think??) -> new lightseeker mc and xavier are meant to become guard and prince respectively but philos is dying -> to save mc from being sacrificed again and again xavier decides to go back in time to find another way where he after at least like 200 years meets current timeline mc

i know what you mean about not being able to see caleb as a love interest. the first time i saw him i genuinely thought they had no need to make my brother this hot what the fuck. and then i realized he was just her childhood friend and i went

and then he blew up 😭

i neeeeeed to see the love interests interact. i mean mc barely thinks about the others whenever she's with one but i really hope in the next arc we actually see them meeting each other. beefing or working together or whatever, i need to know (i may also have already started a fic about what's gonna happen next bc i'm mentally ill). xavier has a tracker on her so he should be able to find her and zayne kinda disappeared off the face of the earth but i want them all back. i want interaction. i want it so bad.

[drifloonz]

Hii Can i request glitchy red having a s/o that's similar to him? (Reader got cruelly removed by their game and got replaced) also i really like your hcs:3 keep up the writing!! :D

ofc ofc !!! ty for requesting. Once again these sort of stray into general thoughts and headcanons abt glitchy sometimes but oh well i have just learned to accept that tht just sort of Happens when i make these.

i try to make the reader / s/o in all of the headcanon posts very blank templates but if i didn't i'd probably go ham with the implied backstory. Maybe. but for now its just a "Make your own and inject it into the headcanons" typa post.

glitchy red with a similar s/o !!! Love wins

♡ glitchy honestly didn't... know something like him could even Happen again. i mean, he does and he always secretly hoped that one day someone, anyone in his game would gain sentience suddenly so he'd at least have someone else to talk to instead of himself and whatever player he had atm. and that makes you... very interesting and special to him.

♡ suffice to say, you two have a lot of shared grievances probably, and glitchy is a very rant-y person. both of you will shittalk and rant and complain about your similar situations and bond very fast over it. honestly, that's probably how you two got closer in the first place. Easy way into glitchys heart: Bitching abt things ig <3

♡ in a similar but more positive vein, you two can and will often ramble about things you did in your respective games - or even just rambling abt you two's games in general if you yourself didn't come from a pokemon game. although glitchy is very cynical and apathetic to all of it now and knew that none of the pokemon or npcs in his world really had feelings, he still likes to explain the mechanics and the pokemon to you... he wishes he could've taken one home as a pet for you two, but would that even work? would it even recognize him? would it be anything more than a piece of coding that can no longer work due to being forced into a physical form? he thinks about this more than he should.

♡ ... aaanyways, on a lighter topic, due to that train of thought he probably gets you two a cat or something, after extensive research and reading bc he does not want to accidentally handle any animal poorly. it's name is up to you but if you just wanna go with whatever glitchy chose it's name is like, mittens. or something really basic. or it's pikachu/pika/chu or something because as much as he loves being free he does feel odd without pokemon so naming a cat that sort of helps but not really.

♡ i like to think if you did have a pokemon or a favorite though it'd be eevee just to match how glitchys favorite is probably pikachu or one/all of the 3 starters bc he's unoriginal

♡ do you think their replacements date. This isn't even a headcanon this is just something i went "oh if they both have replacements... wait."

♡ frlg red and whoever the hell replaced you kiss under the moonlight. every time we touch amv . Ok anyways back to the actual headcanons i apologize

♡ assuming you two both somehow Physically Manifested irl and aren't just somehow visiting or talking to eachother in you twos digitized forms, you are both adjusting to the real world. and trying to help eachother with it. But since neither of you are used to it, it isn't going that well. Very odd and weird couple that look unreal, while ones also glitching out of reality every 5 seconds casually having a walk in the park. It's normal. Love wins

♡ presumably, you also are as touch starved and affection-starved as glitchy due to your whole ordeal being so similar. you two will be ALL over each other. PDA and general affection and touch are CONSTANT. no matter what. you two are so lovey-dovey it's almost comical

♡ i've stated this in a few other headcanons but legit do anything affectionate to glitchy and he'll become redder than his mfing clothing. dude is so touch-starved and is also really easy to fluster and he hates it. with this s/o specifically, though, i like to think since you two are similar he'll absolutely try to get back at you by immediately doing anything to fluster you back, and it probably works... you two are just incoherent blushing messes at the end of it all

♡ most of these headcanons are just "Mutual Problems: The Thread" and i find that very funny. what being undersocialized, replaced, toyed with, abandoned, and traumatized for decades does to two mfs

♡ adding onto that you both are probably clingy with each other and get a bit of separation anxiety. glitchy is like. "Where is my fucking spouse." in his head any time you are not within his sight. my wife is soft and i like her post but in Glitchy Red and in Gender Neutral terms

♡ glitchy is sort of weird with romance. like, he knows that people date. but he's not... really socially aware of much of anything. anything he knows is through osmosis of his players or of things he overhears sometimes or something. due to this he probably just copies what he sees in media and is very cheesy about it and will give you bouquets and flowers he picked off the ground. Alternatively and probably more in character, he just doesn't do that and is very casual about his affection and love due to not knowing How To properly give affection. it's a lot of mumbled "I love you"'s and cuddles during the evening. small stuff like that.

♡ wait no. since you have very similar issues to red... concept: relationship dynamic where one person is very casual abt it and the other person is very extra and romantic and gives everything they can to the other person. you are the extra and romantic one. it makes glitchy so confused and he feels like he's undeserving of it, but it makes him fluster sm. You were from a dating sim game you have to be extra about romance /j ( unless you want it to be serious backstory i guess. reader DDLC monika type beat... )

♡ sometimes he asks what you did to players. and i .. i actually do like you being like. monika sorta where you're more clingy and attached to players. So if you choose that to be the case he finds how different your approach is to that odd. but he supposes your game was probably not as fucking glitchy constantly, or at least wasn't known for its glitches. he's partially envious of that, but part of him is glad you didn't have to endure the hell he did.

♡ you two do get sometimes recognized among the general public but are assumed to be cosplayers. whether this pisses you off or not is up to you, but i think glitchy has very mixed feelings about it. he just scowls and has a look of visible confusion on his face. he Doesn't really like socializing with anyone other than you tbh so this doesn't help, nor does he really enjoy talking about or remembering pokemon without his ok ( Good luck with that when its like the highest grossing multimedia franchise ever RIP glitchy red 2011-2023 )

♡ once again. relationship dynamic idea. you being the more outgoing social one Who is secretly sort of cracking from pressure and red being the brooding awkward blunt one. imagine you going to cons bc you like the attention from getting recognized as yourself. red is begrudgingly at your side rolling his eyes bc he doesn't like cons, probably ( although he will eye the pokemon merch with both disdain and intrigue... he will come home with a 10 foot tall pikachu and charizard plush ). people ask for pics w you sometimes. they all fuck up bc red will not allow you to leave his side even when ur taking pictures he doesn't wanna be in, and as i said in other posts, Any footage of him comes out looking like cryptid photos / they just get really fucked up in processing in... various weird ways. he finds it funny and is oddly proud of being able to screw photos up, but he'll eventually get juuust out of shot if you really want to take pictures w other people

♡ Do not put either of you two around technology, it'll fucking explode near either of you ( probably, anyways - assuming you're also glitchy and unstable like. well. glitchy is. but i assume any code made manifest into physical form like you two, glitched or otherwise, would not be able to use technology without it fucking up a little. )

♡ although glitchy can be sort of a dick sometimes, he tries to never be that way arnd you. if he makes you upset he like, immediately feels bad and apologizes, and will be there to calm you down and comfort you

♡ you prob prefer to call glitchy by red, i just mostly use glitchy for him when writing these posts for Clarification's Sake. he does like being referred to you by name, though. the way your voice just... says it. idk, it makes him smile. your voice is nice, in his eyes. your everything is nice in his eyes, really.

♡ he sometimes gets really really worried that one day he'll wake up and you'll start repeating all of your actions and words, like. becoming an npc with no depth. it scares him a lot, because this life is too good for him in his eyes. sometimes he has sort of panics about it and you have to calm him down - which isn't too hard, but it's just easy for him to overthink about negative outcomes and about "oh god what if all of it was fake" types of scenarios

♡ ending this on a lighter note than... that, uhhh! i think he's a little in love enough that whenever you r away and he gets lonely, he might honestly look into the game you're from and act like a mfing in love fangirl ( aka, only looking at the parts you appear in and just intaking everything about you in your source material asap. you look so cute in the artstyle of the game, too... man. he's a little lovestruck. a little fruity, even. this is even funnier if you take the dating sim / visual novel backstory into account bc glitchy Would download the game just to romance you. And you come home and see him doing that and are just like. Flustered and confused and 50 different emotions while glitchy just goes "I can explain, I swear." ).

♡ breaking news red from pokemon red and [ y/n ] from [ insert game ] are real and Are kissing. Maybe even under a tree. do what you will with this info

[secrecykept]

Some therianthropes look down on humans, and some are wary and rather fearful of them. But Chesh is neither. He typically finds humans very entertaining. They’re slower and weaker, and most of them are easy to trick. It’s not that he thinks lesser of them as such, its just more like he views them as being a little sibling thats so very tempting to pick on. And he’s grown up in a Leap, a pack of leopards, where they have their own ways of doing things and don’t really branch out into the human society for their earlier lives. So humans are interesting to him and still kinda ‘new’ in some ways, and he’s fascinated by the way they do things and get by without use of superior strength and abilities or the aid of magic.

of course, his people are living in secret from the humans, and the question of ‘how would the humans treat them if it was all out in the open’ has been hanging around for centuries. he has more hope for a positive outcome than most shifters do, and so he’s not so scared about walking the line of letting a human find out about what he is, despite the warnings of his brother.

[breaddaerb]

hi bread!! how are you? and can i please request killjoy, viper, and sage’s favorite date to take you on c;

<3, elle

[ sage, viper, and killjoy x reader I ]

✎↷: i’m good!! i went out on a run today for some Gains and it was honestly refreshing to do before my exam today! which went well, i think? wasn’t expecting this honestly LOLL i read it this morning and i was like oh?? getting the ladies? on another note— wow you guys are so sweet wishing me good luck;; someone said best of luck (misspelling the best so, beat) on your exams and i thought it said beat the fuck out of my exams… which i will! don’t worry guys— although, do expect posts to slow down a bit, i’m doing this post between my reviews <3 (and these hcs are in second person because i’m not about to say ‘yeah, sage and i go on dates every week’. although i wish i could!)

sage

sage is a simple woman, and judging by said simplicity, it’d be easy to turn everything into a date. i hc that she’s someone who shows her love with quality time, and that’s exactly what she does. sage’s preferred date (with me, so my interests are also included here actually) is staged on a sunny day, featuring probably a small business’s food of some kind, or even homemade! trying new foods and eating it with others as the company falls into one of her favorite activities, and it wouldn’t be any different if it was with you!

for that day, you and sage had ended up flying kites and going through a few rounds of volleyball. it was nothing crazy, it was just a simple outing. but filled with joy and love and laughter, you both had ended up falling asleep on a checkered picnic facing the blanketing sun from above. it’s not much, yet around her, it never has to be. in another life, you would’ve loved doing laundry and taxes with her. (hehe.)

killjoy

killjoy’s preferred dates are definitely something of a night in. although she’s generally extroverted as a person, being placed in vibrating raves or bars don’t make for the best environments to really get to know someone. instead, the evening is spent posting video games and watching movies and documentaries and basically anything nerdy under the sun. for the record, killjoy looked like the epitome of sex— mismatched socks and a hoodie and some torn up jeans. you end up spending the entire night like that, huddled against each other and wordlessly holding hands beneath the blanket.

(most times, killjoy would go on to ramble about computer software, the types of camera angles used, and the equipment used in the films you watched. and despite not understanding, her insanely detailed nitpicks put you at a comfortable ease.)

on the few occasions where you two would actually go out, an arcade turns out to be frequent stops. killjoy isn’t insane at video games despite understanding the mechanics, so instead the outing is spent like a competition. and then also losing most, if not all of your funds on claw machines. your losses might feel like a waste, but buying ice cream for her and seeing her smile certainly wasn’t one!

viper

viper's dates are a little more complicated. she’s not your stereotypical romantic, and probably far from it. the whole “art of courtship” actually turns out to be a game of cat and mouse, and by the time dating has solidified, she has no idea what to actually do. so she ends up resorting to the traditional, highly spoken of things. she’s been recommended dinner places, coffee shops, parks, all kinds of places that detail some kind of chatting environment.

it’s a lot of trial and error, figuring out what the perfect date spot is. viper gets so into dissecting which place results in the best chemistry that she nearly forgets that it’s a dare in the first place, honed in on agenda over enjoying herself. it had taken a careful reminder for viper to snap back to reality, although, what can she say to explain herself? perhaps trying all of these new spots had really made the perfect adventure of all.

(except for hikes. hikes will forever remain removed from the adventure list.)

[kokichixreaderthings]

Hi!!! I just found your account and absolutely LOVE your work! May I ask the god/goddess themself for a request???

Can I get Kokichi proposing to his SO? And maybe some wedding hc’s to follow up? Fem!reader, but if you don’t do gender specific things, gender neutral is fine

Thank you <3

kokichi x reader headcanons with kokichi proposing to the reader! <3

hi! i’m happy you love my account! this was really fun to write! i wrote headcanons for most of it but there is also a fanfiction part in here. also, the wedding headcanons are a little short because i want to expand on the wedding part in another post! there is a lot i want to write about it :) but for now, i hope you like it!

kokichi really really loves you

he’s wanted to propose to you for a while actually

but he held back, he knew it was too soon 

and he couldn’t just rush this, it was important!

so he took his time thinking about it...

but every time he saw you it only solidified his want to propose

your smile, your eyes, the way you spoke, all of it made him fall deeper in love with you

and he just couldn’t stop thinking about how you would look like when he proposed to you...

he couldn’t wait anymore! he needed to propose!!

and he was willing to go all out! he wanted to make this special for you!

so he spends actual months picking out the ring

for a while he just spent time looking at different websites and stores 

and then he spends even more time after that narrowing the options down

he thinks about your favorite color, your ring size, your sense of style

he’s very picky about it

he only wants the best for his beloved!

but eventually, after a while, he decides on the one

he smiles a lot when he finds it, he’s so excited to actually order it!

and when he finally does, he’s like jump-up-and-down levels of excitement!

he just knows it’ll look absolutely beautiful on you!

that’s why he chose it obviously!

and now he has to spend time planning out the actual proposal, which is exciting as well!

he wants to propose in public, maybe not in front of people, but in a public setting

he spends about another month thinking about the perfect idea and the way to do it

there’s just so many options!

he decides on proposing to you in the park, it’s where some of your best dates happened!

and it would be under a really pretty tree! and he’ll even buy some flowers and decorations and lay some roses petals around the area!

he wants everything to be perfect!

he even writes a script about how much he loves you, planning his words for when the day finally arrives

he knows he’ll forget everything when he sees your beautiful face as he’s taking out the ring

but he writes it anyway

an example of part of his script:

“i love you so much and i want to be with you the rest of my life (too cheesy?) and you really mean everything to me. after everything we’ve been through I can’t imagine marrying anyone else! (still too cheesy!) You’re the only person I want to be with, it’s always been you. And it always will be. (right amount of cheesy!)”

after he has planned enough, he asks you out on a date, pretending that there is nothing special about it

you might see through his lie a bit considering that his smile is too wide for there to be nothing going on

but you don’t question it! you like his surprises!

and when you arrived, it proved to be a great surprise so far

because he had already decorated the tree before you two showed up

so there’s ribbons of your favorite color and pictures of you two hanging on the tree branches, rose petals scattered across the ground along with your favorite flowers...

...You were a bit distracted by the decorations, smiling and looking around.

Kokichi loved your smile, he loved your smile so much it made his heart all fluttery and warm! 

He wanted to propose to you, he wanted to propose to you so bad. To see that amazing smile for the rest of his life.

He couldn’t stand another minute not making you his.

So he got down on one knee, taking the ring out. His heartbeat was going fast and it honestly felt like he was in a dream, rather than reality.

And then you turned around.

Oh. Oh.

You looked so..beautiful. Your smile, the way your eyes lit up, you looked like you were about to cry.

Kokichi was about to cry too...

“Beloved....” he started.

All of the words he scripted were knocked out of him. 

You were just so beautiful! You took his breath away.

He didn’t even know how to speak anymore so he just rambled on, speaking all the lovesick thoughts on his mind.

“Jeez, you look so good right now! I, I really love you so much and I really want to be yours forever and ever and I really want for you to be mine forever and ever and, you’re just so amazing, you’re the light of my life and all that other sappy stuff and I just-” he finally stopped, taking a second to compose himself.

“...It’s always been you, Y/n. I love you, will you marry me?” he finished, taking in the sweet sight that was his lover.

You were still in shock but quickly nodded your head “yes”. 

Kokichi leaped up and hugged you, holding you close and tightly. His happiness was almost too much to handle and he had to express it somehow.

And when you whispered, “I love you too”, he lost it. He had been trying not to cry, but it happened anyway, his tears of joy escaping and running down his cheeks. 

He just couldn’t believe he managed to be yours, and for yours to be his. After all this time, he still wasn’t sure if he deserved it...

But you loved him and he loved you and that’s all that matters.

He pulled apart a little and put the ring on your finger, it looking as gorgeous as he thought it would. 

He couldn’t wait for your wedding...

...and you talk about it for the rest of your date

“ooh and we could get two cakes! one for you and one for me!”

“you’d look so good in your wedding outfit y/n, i know i haven’t seen you in it yet but anything you wear is so pretty!”

“we have to write vows, right? yeah, that might be tough, i kind of forgot my script for tonight....but it’s only because you’re soooo beautiful, it’s not my fault!”

he’s so happy with you it’s unreal

and you’re happy too! you love the wedding discussion just as much as him

the amount of planning you two do that night...

you almost end up sleeping at the park

but you two just couldn’t help it! you wanted to get married as soon as possible and that requires a lot of planning!

kokichi loves you so much though, and he’ll probably insist on taking care of all the hard work

at least that’s what he said that night...

and it proved to be true through the wedding process!

he took care of most things, you both planned together, but all the talking to people and booking a place and stuff like that was taken care of by him!

it still took a while for the wedding to finally be set up but it ended up being exactly how you two wanted

and when you kissed at the altar...

you’ve both never experienced such bliss

if you could, you would replay that moment over and over...

thank you so much for reading!!! remember kokichi ouma loves you !

[jaiofalltrades]

it was actually this post about jesus and judas that reminded me of my obsession w bible lore in sixth grade in the queer non christian way dude-- judas is actually one of my favorite apostles and overall characters in the bible for being so realistic and flawed along with st michael, mary and joseph, m magdalene peter and paul (not for the christian part it's bc he participated in the persecution of jesus previously but we'll get into that in another ask) actually i would tag all the bible asks (pls do so!) bc i like reading my own asks (yea i'm *that* person but it's because i want to know what ive talked about and what i haven't said? also, i will try to cover all apostles to help you get ideas for that quiz you wanted to make hypothetically + i love rambling!!!)

there's many parallels between judas and peter actually. both apostles, both get a new name, they betray jesus and regret it later. one dies, one keeps living (i'll elaborate on peter later). the pure regret, perhaps even self hatred judas feels for himself leads him to hang himself. i would say that he cannot live without jesus. he thought he could betray him. he thought he wanted this he thought he would be happy but he's miserable. he ate with him and walked with him. followed him and jesus entrusted him with their moneybag. what's this? what's this? did he put his trust on him? only to be betrayed by judas in the end? and he left the table after jesus said he would betray him. he left him and he kissed his lips so they would take him away. nothing would change what he had done. the money mattered nothing to him, for living without jesus was meaningless.

there's also theories about judas' betrayal. some even say that jesus told judas to betray him (look up judas' gospel, non canonical but still valid for me bc the church rejects it) how tragic is that, for someone you love to ask you to kill them, in order to save everyone else, to be sacrificial lambs, the both of you, him, who you love so much, he's going to suffer so much, but you love him and you will do anything for him. if these theories were correct, would judas have killed himself in order to not be questioned by the authorities further? or is it still repentance for killing his best friend?

my mother and honestly a lot of people believe that he had a lot of paths which is uhh. contradictory. it was written that he was going to betray him. jesus chose him to betray him he was as trapped as jesus was. they were both sacrificial lambs. at least to me they were? i hc that it was written and hence he couldn't have done anything, it's more compelling that way, not mattter what he did, no matter how much he had loved jesus, he couldn't help hating him as well because it was written and oh god, he was going to betray him he knew he was planning to do it he's going to call the authorities and there's nothing he could do. no one he could have talked to about these thoughts and probably the first one to know about written fate.

but that's just me. human error is just as interesting. how human judas is. how he did all of it for money and how much he regretted it later? any of us could be judas, as much as people love to hate him and judge him, we all have judas inside of us, greed, betrayal. it's so human. not to that degree of course, but yes, we are all so deeply flawed i can't help but pity him. that's my take on judas! i added parallels with jesus too now that i'm rereading this--

i feel like im unlocking new forbidden christian knowledge i never knew there was so much judas lore i-

[celosiaa]

hi me again 🥺 sorry for making you tear up even if it was in a good way (hopefully?) 💕 i don’t mind the wait at all, i completely understand and it’s 100% worth it (honestly i get so excited whenever you post a new fic)!! soooo... i was doing some research for a project on epilepsy and i got thinking about epileptic martin?? like particular in s1 maybe he didn’t tell the other archives crew as he didn’t know them that well/hadn’t worked closely with them before (ok sorry tbc as i am rambling)

hello friend!!! I am so sorry that this took me a literally unreasonable amount of time to write! I really enjoyed the research I did for this, and I love this hc forever. And I hope this is what you were looking for <3

CW seizures, nausea, misgendering

Focus.

Just focus.

For god’s sake.

It’s been nearly an hour of Martin sitting at his desk, trying desperately to rein in any sliver of concentration he can muster to look at the laptop screen before him. He feels awful doing it, but every time Jon has passed by his desk that day, he’s found himself pretending to click around or to type—though he’s got the brightness set so far down there’s no way he’d be able to see it anyway. After a few attempts at turning it back up, he’s had to immediately look away, as the pounding behind his eyes resumes again. So for now, he’s stuck with reading statements—something he is loathe to do even on a good day.

And this certainly wasn’t.

He knows better than this, knows that he’s very nearly approaching disaster—what with the not sleeping out of hypervigilance, not eating out of anxiety, and not having his seizure meds for the past two days, as he’d managed to run out of his flat without them. And there’s no doubt in his mind that he cannot send anyone back to his flat. Not with Prentiss still on the loose.

Selfish selfish selfish

No, stop it.

You haven’t even done anything.

Wishing more than anything that his mind did not constantly run him ragged with thoughts like this, Martin looks up from his papers, intending to find a rubber band to snap against his wrist as a distraction, but instead—

Instead he finds himself frozen, colors fading in and out across his vision, heartbeat steadily climbing as his fingers go numb.

No no no no

Not now not now please not now

Realistically, he knows it’s only been a few seconds, but the seconds feel like years against the rapid thrum thrum thrum in his ears, made even worse when he sees Tim approaching from the periphery.

Damn it damn it

Please please please

“Hey Marto!”

Like clockwork, the focal aware seizure ends, and at last—at last he is able to move enough to look up at where Tim stands, leaning against his desk, smile fading rapidly as he watches Martin blinking in the suddenly-too-bright light.

“You alright?” he asks, tilting his head to the side to get a better look at his face, doubtless taking note of how quickly he is breathing now to match his settling heart rate.

“Y-yeah, sorry, um. Was just thinking,” is all he can reply, fighting to put an easy smile back on his face.

It seems to have been the wrong move, as Tim only shifts to sit atop his desk, expression quickly becoming overrun with concern.

“Okay, well…you look like you’re having a panic attack, mate,” he says lowly, reaching across him to grab his water bottle and set it nearer to him. “What do you need?”

Even with his misguided interpretation, Martin can’t help the flood of affection he feels toward him in this moment—because that’s just Tim, isn’t it? Never assumes, just asks what will help and then does it.

If only I weren’t such a mess, and would let him.

“Oh, n-no it’s not—it’s not that, Tim, I’m—I’m alright. Must’ve…drifted off, or something. Had a nightmare.”

There is no way Tim buys that, no way in hell—but thankfully, he lets it go.

“O…kay then. Well. If that’s the case, I was just thinking of grabbing some lunch, do you want anything? Don’t reckon you’ve eaten properly in a bit, yeah?”

God, Tim.

I don’t deserve this.

Yes, you do. You deserve a friend and you need to eat.

You need to eat.

“Uhh—th-thanks, erm.  Where—where are you going?” he asks, wishing to god his voice didn’t sound so shaky.

He takes a few intentionally deep breaths after that—thinking that perhaps it is a panic attack, after all.  Without realizing that several seconds have gone by since his question, he feels Tim’s bracing hand on his shoulder, knowing that he’s not going to ask again—but offering him a clear sign that he’s there all the same.

“Just the corner shop,” he murmurs, starting to rub his thumb over the shoulder seam of Martin’s t-shirt. “Nothing fancy. But I can get you a sandwich, if you like. Well, no—I am getting you a sandwich regardless, but I thought I might be considerate for once and ask if there was anything in particular that you want.”

“Yeah—erm, yeah, just. Anything that’s warm would be nice,” he says at last, sinking a bit as Tim removes his hand from his shoulder. “Thanks, Tim. That’s—that’s really kind.”

“Don’t mention it. Seriously,” he says, clapping his hand back against Martin’s shoulder with force before standing. “Be back in a bit. Drink that water.”

“I will,” Martin nods, earning himself some finger guns of approval before Tim starts walking towards the lift. “Thanks, mate.”

And he’s so close now, so close to shouting after him, to asking him to pick up his meds from the chemist, if he calls them in—

Just ask just ask just ask

—and then Tim is around the corner, and out of sight.

Damn it all.

He tells himself it’s probably for the best anyway—that he’s not really even sure he can get them. But it doesn’t stop him burying his face in his hands, tugging at his hair in frustration and shame. Really though, he ought to call first before mentioning anything—perhaps they have a delivery service, or they’ll refuse him, or something.

And what then?

The idea of finding himself suddenly on the floor of the archives, alone and in the dark with the worms having crawled all over him while he seized—

Have to call.

Reaching bitterly for his phone, he takes a deep breath as it rings, preparing his best “customer service” voice.

“Boots, how can we help you today?”

“Hi! Erm, I was wondering if—if I could get a refill for my prescription? For—for carbamazepine,” he says, cheery voice belying the dread with which he pinches the bridge of his nose.

“Sure thing! Just need your name and date of birth and I’ll look you up.”

“Right. Erm—well, it’s Martin, but I think you’ve still got me under, erm. Mary Blackwood,” he says, forcing himself not to grit his teeth at the foul taste his deadname leaves in his mouth. “Date of birth October 15th, 1987.”

“Alright, let’s see here—“

Please please please

“—it looks like you’ve already got your refill, Miss Blackwood. Our system says you picked up your medication on the 19th.”

“It’s—it’s Mister, actually. Erm,” he stammers, stomach churning over the entire thing. “L-listen, I—I’ve had to leave my home quite suddenly, and—and I am unable to return there for the time being. So I don’t—I don’t have access to my meds. And I, erm. Really need them.”

Pathetic pathetic pathetic

“I’m really sorry, Mister Blackwood. You’re going to have your doctor call in another prescription for you before we can get you that refill. Unfortunately, it’s out of our hands.”

Of course.

“Oh, right. That’s erm—that’s okay. Thank you so much,” he says as brightly as possible, unwilling to blame anyone for something out of their control.

“You’re quite welcome. Take care.”

With a long, shaky sigh, Martin throws his phone back onto his desk, returning his head to its rightful place, buried in his hands. There’s no way he can call his doctor today—or tomorrow even, with it already being a Friday afternoon. No chance of him getting his refill, then. And no chance of sending Tim back to his apartment either.

Don’t panic. Don’t panic.

It was just a focal, nothing too bad.

Nothing unmanageable.

I can make it.

Steeling himself with somewhat tremulous determination, he takes another long breath—blinking back against the steady pounding in his head, and getting back to work.

—

“Aw come on, Sasha! Take a break with me!”

“Not on your life. I’m still furious with you, you know,” she replies, tossing her hair like a lion’s mane over her back. “Can’t believe you’d go all the way to the good café for Martin, and not offer me anything. Not even crumbs, Stoker!”

“Listen—” Tim grins back, hands raised in self-defense. “He looked like he could use some soup! I don’t know what else to say.”

“And you didn’t get me any? What about me doesn’t scream ‘I could use some soup, thank you?’”

“It’s different!! It’s—Martin? You alright?”

As he was walking past their bickering, eyes firmly fixed on the floor on the lookout for worms, Martin had suddenly stopped short—looking anxiously up and over their heads, framed by the doorway of Jon’s office.

“Martin?” Tim repeats, already halfway to standing in worry, following Martin’s gaze behind him and finding nothing.

Faster than he can turn back around, Martin’s muscles all tense at once—and he tips backwards onto the floor with a heavy thud.

“Shit! Martin!”

Tim darts forward at once, in some feeble attempt to catch him, but of course, far too late to do so. In his shock, he can do little but stand over him for a few seconds, taken aback upon seeing his eyes still open where he lies still on the floor.

“What happened?” Jon demands, stepping quickly out of his office towards them, where Sasha now crouches near his head.

“I-I don’t know, he just—”

And then Martin begins to convulse.

“Oh my god, he’s—he’s having a seizure,” Sasha gasps as she claps a hand over her mouth, from where it had been pressed against his forehead.

“Fuck. Fuck, what do—what do we do? Do we call 999?” Tim shouts, unwilling to sit by and watch as this all goes on around him, already grabbing Sasha’s phone from her nearby desk.

“I—I think so, let me—”

“Wait.”

Two sets of eyes land upon Jon as he interjects, crouching near Martin’s flailing left arm, waiting for him to set it back down before quickly grabbing at a bracelet circling his wrist.

“I-it’s a medical bracelet. Says epilepsy,” he says lowly, quickly sitting back on his heels as Martin’s arm begins to jerk again.

“Fuck. I—I had no idea,” Tim breathes, running an anxious hand through his hair. “How could we not know?”

“We should—” Sasha breaks off quickly to swallow a lump in her throat, before continuing. “We should be timing it, did anyone see the time?”

“I-I don’t—it’s probably been less than a minute, right?”

“I think so. I’m—here, I’m googling it to make sure—”

While she does so, Martin’s head begins to slam into the ground—and Jon immediately pulls off his cardigan, folding it quickly and placing it beneath him to cushion the blow.

“It’s alright, big guy,” Tim says, settling down to kneel next to Jon, who now has a hand gently pressed to his shoulder—not holding him down, just resting there in a comfort Martin probably cannot receive.

Tim rests his own hand against Martin’s thigh all the same.

“Okay, I think we’re good so far,” Sasha says at last, setting her phone down with a timer running on the screen. “Just time it, and—and keep watch. If it goes past five minutes, we call 999.”

“That’s—that’s it?” Tim says in dismay, snapping his eyes back to his friend, still convulsing on the floor. “There’s nothing else we can do?”

“No. We just have to watch out for him,” she replies, voice low as she adjusts Jon’s cardigan beneath his head. “Make sure he doesn’t hurt himself.”

Not the answer that Tim was looking for.

And so they wait—silent save for the rhythmic smacking of his limbs against the carpeted floor, and the occasional whispered platitude, though all know he cannot hear them. The seconds tick by in agony while they sit helpless, all eyeing the timer on Sasha’s phone creeping up steadily past three minutes.

“I don’t like this,” Tim says, knowing how useless it is to say so—Sasha raising her eyes to meet his for the first time in a while.

“Me neither.”

“Nearly three and a half minutes,” Jon mutters, worrying at his bottom lip while still resting a gentle hand on Martin’s shoulder.

“We’ve got you, Martin,” Tim mutters. “We’ve got you.”

Ten more seconds.

Twenty.

Thirty.

Forty.

And at last—at last he goes still, right past the four-minute mark.

“Alhamdulillah,” Jon sighs as he lets his chin briefly rest against his chest, a sentiment echoed by everyone around him.

“Okay, turn him on his side, here—Tim—”

“Got it,” Tim says as he moves to crouch next to her, helping roll him towards Jon, head pillowed on the arm Jon stretched out across the floor as a cushion.

As soon as they get him in the recovery position, they watch as saliva runs out of his mouth, surely fit to choke him had they not turned him—and he begins to snore forcefully, catching Tim very much by surprise.

“Wh-what—” he asks in bewilderment, struggling to hold back a bit of shocked laughter.

“The website said that’s normal,” Sasha assures at once, reaching behind her to grab a box of tissues from her desk behind her. “He’s going to be sleepy for a bit.”

“Okay. That’s—okay,” he says, watching as Jon takes the tissues from Sasha and wipes at Martin’s face so very gently, before tossing them aside and taking his hand.

Taking his hand.

…interesting.

Stowing THAT away for later.

As Jon starts to move his thumb across the back of Martin’s palm, the snoring stops—and his eyes begin to flutter rapidly, attempting to force their way fully open.

“Hey Martin, can you hear me?” Sasha says rather loudly, bending over him and tapping his shoulder lightly.

All she receives in response is a moan, deep and low, as he squeezes and unsqueezes his eyelids, coughing a bit against the pooling saliva. Jon reaches for the tissues again at once, cleaning his face as best as possible.

“You’re okay mate,” Tim says, patting his hip before leaving his hand there for support. “You’ve had a seizure.”

It takes a few moments, but at last, Martin opens his eyes, looking vaguely around without meeting Jon’s eyes.

“Wh’ happ’n?” he slurs—all three of them exchanging a meaningful glance, a bit alarmed.

“You had a seizure, Martin,” Sasha repeats, stroking at his hair while Tim starts rubbing his hand up and down his arm, hoping it will somehow help to ground him.

Remaining still for a few moments, still blinking, Martin tries to take it all in— looking down towards where Jon still rubs at his hand, though still seemingly unaware of his presence.

“What happened?” he asks again, voice less slurred, but still weak.

“A seizure, Martin,” Jon says, trying desperately to catch his eyes. “You’re alright.”

At once, Martin wrenches his hand away from Jon’s grasp in favor of clapping it over his mouth, muffling a small and desperate gasp behind it.

“Shit. You gonna be sick?” Tim asks, already looking around him for something to grab as Jon once again prepares his tissues.

He does not respond right away, instead pausing for a few deep breaths—at last shaking his head no. In both relief and the absence of something to do with his hands, Jon fusses at the cardigan again—positioning it just so.

“Wh—oh, seizure,” Martin breathes, and Tim cannot help but feel relieved at his gaining a bit of orientation back.

“Yeah.”

Eyebrows knitting together, Martin moves the hand clapped over his mouth to rest on his eyes, sniffling a bit before speaking.

“M’so sorry,” he gasps—and it’s enough to break Tim’s heart.

All of their hearts apparently, as they immediately place their hands on him in a gesture of comfort.

“Hey, no, none of that,” Sasha soothes, brushing back his fringe again.

“M’sorry.”

“Martin, it’s alright,” reassures Jon, with such rare gentleness that even Martin lowers his hand to look—wincing quickly as he does so, and placing it back over his eyes at once.

“Do the lights hurt?” Sasha asks worriedly, placing her hand to cover his own, hoping to block more of it out.

“Yeah—ah,” he grits out with a pained little gasp, and Jon gets to his feet.

“I’ll get them,” he says, and walks quickly to the switch, sending them into a darkness illuminated only by the light from the hall.

With a quiet sigh of relief, Martin lowers his hand again, eyes still closed, and rubs absently at his nose. Stumbling a bit as his eyes adjust to the dark, Jon makes his way back to kneeling beside him, taking up his free hand again.

“Your head okay?” asks Tim, prompting Sasha to card through his hair to look for any swelling. “I’m sorry I didn’t—I couldn’t catch you.”

“…what?” comes the vague response, delayed by a few seconds as Martin tries in vain to sort through what was said.

“Still confused,” Sasha mouths at him silently—and he nods, instead going back to rubbing up and down Martin’s arm, as Sasha moves to massage his neck.

“M’sorry.”

“Hush, darling. It’s alright,” she says, and Tim knows without a doubt she will sit there all day, repeating these same things to him as long as he needs.

And loves her for it.

“…wh—Jon?”

Eyes more focused than ever, Martin looks down to where Jon still rubs a thumb over his palm, stunned very his very presence in this space.

“Yes, I’m here,” he murmurs, offering a small squeeze of affirmation, inadvertently painting a soft grin briefly across Martin’s face—before it drops quickly again in horror, as the reality of the situation sinks in again.

“Oh god. I—oh god.”

“It’s okay, Martin.”

“No no no.”

“It’s alright,” Jon comforts, more soothing than Tim had ever imagined would be possible for him. “Just be still. You’re alright.”

Five minutes turn into ten, turn into fifteen as Martin’s confusion slowly fades away—his recovery naturally filled with a deluge of apologies, patient soothing from his friends, and tending to the waves of nausea that come over him every few minutes. Ever so gradually, he becomes better able to hold a conversation; better able to hold their gaze, asking what happened before he went down, explaining that his…well, everything is sore, but that it’s nothing unmanageable.

There is very little that Martin would call “unmanageable,” of course, but it’s the most they will get out of him.

“I think I can sit up now,” he says after a bit, bracing his arms underneath himself to prepare, and Tim reaches out to support him at once.

“Sure?”

“Yeah.”

A bit slow, a bit clumsy, they get him up—not without some worried questioning when he hunches forward, face buried in his hands as the headache worsens with the change of posture. But luckily, it dulls as quickly as it comes, and Martin soon finds himself able to look up, even to offer a bit of a sheepish smile.

“Want some water?” Tim asks as soon as he looks steady.

“You don’t have to—”

“I’m on it,” he says, refusing to accept any of Martin’s guilt-laden excuses, and dashes off to the kitchen at once, leaving Jon and Sasha still vaguely holding onto him in the fear that he might fall again.

“I’m alright, guys, really,” he assures, though he makes no effort to shrug their hands off—so there they stay.

“Do you know what caused this, Martin?” Sasha asks, folding his collar from where it sticks up at the nape of his neck.

With a heavy sigh and an exhausted pinch to the bridge of his nose, Martin replies, face reddening with shame.

“Yeah. You’re—you’re going to laugh.”

“Why would we laugh?” Jon asks so earnestly, so softly that it wins him a long and surprised look from Martin.

“I…dunno really, just. It’s just that it’s—it’s all my own fault. Stupid.”

“What do you mean?”

“I—I don’t—” he cuts off for a moment to hiss painfully as he rubs at his temple again, and Sasha’s hold tightens ever so slightly as a precaution. “I don’t have my…seizure meds with me. I left them at my flat when—when I ran. From Prentiss.”

Of course.

Of course he did.

“I would have gotten them for you Martin!” Tim shouts as he returns with the water. “Any of us would, mate. You should have said.”

“I didn’t want to send you back to my flat. She might…she might still…be there.”

He fades a bit as he speaks—rubbing once more at his temples, and Sasha resumes her ministrations of massaging his neck.

“Alright, just—it’s alright, Martin,” Jon soothes, a bit alarmed at the way he’s hunched back over—seemingly nauseous again, as he moves the bin a bit closer to himself just in case. “What can we do now?”

After a few long, deep breaths, his churning stomach finally settles long enough for him to answer, albeit a bit more vague-sounding than moments before.

“I tried…I tried to call the chemist, but…they won’t refill it unless I…unless I talk to my doctor. And it’s not like I can just go.”

“You have to get some from A&E then,” Tim insists, sitting back down next to him and pressing a hand atop his shoulder.

“No, I can’t.”

“We’ll go with you,” mutters Jon, before clearing his throat, returning to his best confident-boss tone. “We’ll keep watch for the worms. Go prepared.”

“You don’t—“

“We will,” Sasha says emphatically, leaving no room for argument—and even Martin knows when the battle is lost. “We’re happy to do it, Martin. Seriously.”

“Thank you,” he very nearly whispers, face flushing beet red as the undue attention of the afternoon catches up with him. “That’s really…too kind.”

“Well, you’ve got to get it somehow, mate,” Tim says with a chuckle, earning himself a warning glare from both Sasha and Jon. “What? I’m sure Martin wants this to happen again even less than we do. Which is saying a lot.”

“Yeah,” Martin says, surprising them all by chuckling briefly in return. “Reckon you’re right about that. I didn’t—this is pretty much my worst nightmare, so…just so you all know how sorry I am.”

“Yes, you’ve said,” Sasha laughs. “And it keeps continuing to not be your fault.”

“Right. Sure.”

He does not sound at all sure—but she lets it go all the same.

“We should go today, Martin,” Jon says as he stands, already grabbing a canister of CO2 in preparation. “Don’t want you to miss another dose.”

“And take that thing on the Tube?” Martin laughs, fully smiling for the first time since the whole affair began. “Think we might get some looks.”

“It’s the Tube, mate. Stranger things have happened,” Tim chuckles, rolling his eyes good-naturedly before jumping in to assist him in standing.

“Suppose you’re probably right about that.”

“Let’s go then,” says Jon, face steeled as if armed to the teeth and ready to tangle with anything coming his way. “Work that needs doing.”

[bitchiha]

✎ Hinata With a s/o Who’s Personality is the Opposite of Hers

A/N: this was a request from  a very sweet anon and I worked on it for such along time, but Tumblr did not save the post so I had to retype it.. but its okay, I am fine and here is the second attempt: 

Request: Hi! I hope you're doing well. I was wondering if you could make some relationship hcs for hinata with a s/o who's the opposite of her? My baby deserves everything and I don't see much of her and am sad bc I love her 😢 Thank you you talented person who warms my heart💿💗💿

Warning I did not proofread this <3 I am too ducking lazy bye

Gosh okay Hinata needs a s/o that’s loud and slightly obnoxious lol, like she needs that type of person to push her out of her shell. She may be shy at your advances at first, but let’s be real she actually really loves them.

99.9% of the relationship is Hinata stuttering your name. “Y-y/n!!”

She likes when you make a big stink of any small gesture she does for you. It makes her feel super confident and even if she’s walking away blushing just know that she’s going to be thinking of that moment for a good month afterwards. Like she brings you food one day after you’re training with Naruto and you’re so happy that you mow it down in like 2 seconds. Then you smother her in hugs, kisses and praise and she just turns beet red. “Y-y/n!”

Your compliments help push her out of her shell even more and she cherishes every single one. Even if your compliments are kinda shitty, it’s the thought that counts. “Wow Hinata, youre eyes look like marbles, they’re so cute.” And Hinatas blushing so fucking hard and Shino and Kiba just scratch their head like?? “Uh why did you blush at that weak ass compliment?”

You’re basically her cheerleader. Make sure to give her pep talks. Like if she’s feeling down about herself for whatever reason, you always go up to her and give her the best inspirational talk you can, throwing in all the cheesy shit you know and she’s always grateful. You’re probably half screaming the pep talk because you’re just so riled up to make your girlfriend feel energized and the effort alone is comforting. “Don’t worry about what anyone else says, I believe in you Hinata! I know you can do this.”

Whenever you two are on missions together she always makes the effort to try and show her powers off to you. She sees how protective you are of her in the village and she wants to show you that she can take care of you too. That just gives her the extra drive she needs to kick the enemies ass <3 She loves when you stare at her wide eyed and shocked after she whoops their ass. Like leaving you speechless is such an accomplishment because you hardly ever shut up. “Holy shit, Hinata!!! You’re the coolest girlfriend ever, you totally kicked their asses!”

Brag about her!!! Please just flex about your girlfriend. She does the same for you but she gets super shy afterwards. Like when she talks to Shino, Kiba and Kurenai about you she always does the little finger thing with her hands and turns beet red. Kiba loves to tease her about it when you all hang out, “Yeah, Hinata always talks about you with us. She’s always rambling about how—“ then Hinata proceeds to clamp a hand over his mouth with her eyes bulging out of her head. “K-Kiba!!”

You’re a tease so you like to get her flustered. So sometimes you join in on Kibas teasing, afterall it’s just fun and games. It’s not like Kiba wants to hurt your feelings. However, if it’s anyone else in the village they will not get the same treatment. Oh someone wants to shove Hinata as they walk past her in the village? Want to say she’s not strong? You will openly challenge them to a battle. “Hey you jerk! You wanna disrespect my girlfriend again? I’ll kick your ass right now!” And she’ll hold you back, “Y/n! It’s okay! Really you don’t need to do this.”

Honestly as you two get closer in the relationship, she starts to develop some of your mannerisms and little by little she bursts into “y/n fits.” That’s what kiba calls them. It’s basically where she does something bold and totally un-Hinata like. Like someone’s talking crap about you in the village and she goes from little shy girl to “who do you think you are talking about y/n like that?!” Kiba tells you about the fits later and you just sit back with a grin, “that’s my girl.”

She also doesn’t mind PDA — to an extent. You’re an affectionate person so you can’t help the PDA sometimes, but you know when you’re overstepping. There’s 3 levels of Shy Hinata. First level is with light PDA, like gentle little touches that you don’t even notice you’re giving her. Light brushes over her arm as you walk, or your fingers thrumming against her thigh as you two sit down at a restaurant. There’s a little brush of pink across her cheeks and you normally don’t notice it unless someone *cough cough* ( Kiba ) points it out.

The second level is with intentional touches, like hand holding, wrapping an arm around her etc. Her face turns bright red and you have to ask if it’s okay, she nods eagerly, she actually likes it a lot. It just takes her a while to adjust to it.

The third level is emergency level. Like this is just borderline she is going to evaporate. It varies from touches you didn’t mean to be so intimate, to jokingly slapping her ass when you pick her up from training. She just immediately turns red and starts stuttering and you can almost see her head overheating.

It’s kind of funny lol and you have to apologize afterwards because she’s literally over heating for five minutes afterwards. As the relationship goes on she will end up getting you back at least once, even if she’s blushing the whole time. It’s worth it though because you’re blushing just as hard at her sudden boldness.

Also loves nicknames, even the tacky ones you give her. Call her a whole list of nicknames and she adores every single one of them. For real, like you can call her: princess, peaches, love, cutie pie, sweetie, etc and they will all make her smile.

Saves like every card you give her. They’re the most extravagant yet horrendous things that ever came into creation, but she loves them all and ignores Neji’s blatant dislike for them. Like sure, they’re decked out in glitter and they look like a five year old made them, but you tried your best and the thought that you spent your time on her in such a sentimental way always makes her gush. Keeps them all in a shoe box under her bed with all the other trinkets she collects from dates and hang outs with you. She definitely wears the gifts you give her too, even if they are a little too crazy for her, she likes how humbled you get when you see her wearing them.

Also she’s 100% a pillow princess and you will not and cannot change my mind <3

[arofili]

how’d u get into writing? like, writing fic and being part of the silm community, being Known, that stuff? i’m really new to being a silm cc and i’d love to know ur advice! also: how’d u build up the confidence to start posting meta/hcs? bc i have a Lot of hcs and meta ideas but also i’m really anxious abt posting them bc yknow anxiety is like that

these are some great questions, anon! I’m gonna go through them one by one :)

how’d u get into writing?

not to be like, super cliche, but I’ve...kind of always been a writer? as long as I can remember I’ve been telling stories, and when I was too young to read or write I would dictate them to my mom, who would type them up for me and help me choose clipart illustrations to accompany them. when I got old enough I would always be writing; I attempted my first novel at age 9, and while that never really went anywhere I did finish the darn thing and it had some pretty sophisticated plot twists for a 9-year-old!

like, writing fic

around the same time I got into fandom! I was deep into Warrior cats (like. really deep) and I believe I started writing my first fics when I was like? 10 or 11? my memory is kind of fuzzy on the order of things, but I know I got an account on the Warriors forums when I was 9, and that I was already posting my fic there when I made my FFN account. I believe I was 12 when that happened, but who knows. I haven’t the faintest idea of what happened with those forums, but uhhh pretty much all of my Warriors fic is still up on FFN lmao. you could probably find that if you want to but um...maybe don’t?

my first Big Fic was a self-insert of...my entire 5th/6th grade class into the then-current timeline of the Warriors books...well. I honestly think that might still be my most popular fic of all time l m a o though I try not to think about it because Hashtag Cringe. though as much as I look back on that time with a “yikes,” I am very grateful for the Warriors fandom in a way? that place was so accepting and encouraging of OCs, of AUs, of completely disregarding canon, of worldbuilding that is completely alien from canon - it was a fantastic sandbox to begin with, there were so many ways to write stories and practically all of them were accepted and had fellow fans invested in them!

and being part of the silm community, 

soooo I wrote Warriors fic until my freshman year of high school (wow sdjfhkdsjfh), which was when BOTFA came out, and I was absolutely wrecked by the ending and immediately started writing my own fixit fic. I was also super hooked on Kiliel! so that was my intro to the Tolkien fandom; and simultaneously, I joined tumblr, and, well, the rest is history tbh.

I honestly do not remember when I first read the Silm, but I kind of got into the more obscure parts of the Tolkien fandom through fandom osmosis, and I do have a vague memory of doodling the Finwean family tree in geometry class so it might have been later on in freshman year? that was also the same time I was having my Queer Awakening, and Russingon definitely contributed to me unlearning my internalized queerphobia, so probably around then.

anyway - queer awakening, tumblr, Tolkien, transitioning from FFN to AO3 - all of that was happening around the same time. I know I dipped my toes in the Silm fandom then, but I was still primarily a Hobbit fic writer focusing on Kiliel. toward the end of high school I kind of shifted to LOTR and (qp) Gigolas...but somehow the Silm fandom is the most active of the Big Three within the Tolkien fandom, and I was getting dragged further and further in.

it wasn’t until @backtomiddleearthmonth 2019, my freshman year of college, that I really dove into writing Silm fic! I picked some Silm-specific bingo cards and never looked back :D that was really not all that long ago but I am obsessed in a way I don’t really remember being even with TH/LOTR, I obviously cannot see the future but I anticipate hanging out here for a long time. the Silm fandom is great overall and there’s just so much material to work with!! <3

being Known, that stuff?

so I don’t really have a whole lot of context on how “well known” I am in the fandom?? definitely within the past year and a half or so I’ve noticed that I like, get asks like this, and get a significant amount of notes on my posts, and I’ve made a lot of fandom friends especially since I joined some Silm servers on Discord (hmu if you want invites; I’m on the SWG server and 2 general Silm servers and the Russingon server) this past year. and I have 3,000 followers as of this month - and while ever since I hit 1k I don’t particularly pay attention to my follower count I can definitely say that I have more engagement now than I used to! but it took me a long time to build this “audience,” I suppose; I’ve been around the Tolkien fandom since late 2014, so nearly 6 years of this, lol.

really the best way to build a following, in my experience, is to just post a lot of stuff. when I started making edits I got a lot more engagement, because for a long time I would post one every day! (I made them in batches and queued them; I didn’t actually make one every day lol...and now I’m too busy to do that, so I just make edits for events and whenever I feel like it) And I have [checks ao3] 145 works in the Silm fandom as of today - I’m fairly prolific! I’ve come to generally expect 3-10 comments on most of my oneshots, which is a lot more than I used to have back in the day. consistency and quantity are more likely to attract people to your work - and quality, of course.

also: how’d u build up the confidence to start posting meta/hcs?

I’ve been writing since I was very young, and I’ve been writing fic for like...11 years? I think? in that time I’ve produced a lot of garbage, but imo most of that was in my Warrior cats phase, so I came into the Tolkien fandom with confidence in myself and my writing. I’m also working on original fiction on the side (I hope to eventually become a published fantasy author, but right now school takes up most of my time that I don’t devote to fandom, which gives me more immediate gratification and also is just Very Fun) and I know I’m a good writer.

basically, I’ve been doing this for like...half my life, and I’m still fairly young, so I’ve had time to build up my skill and confidence and I know I’m only going to get better with time. you will get better with practice. like I said, I’ve written a lot of terrible stuff, and it’s only through sucking for a long time that I’ve gotten to the point I am now. and I am far from perfect; I know I still have lots of room to grow!

for meta and headcanons specifically, I started with writing fic, and then when I didn’t think I could stretch something into an entire fic I would just make a hc post. I have a vivid memory of writing my first meta in a notebook during driver’s ed because it was so goddamn boring and I had Thoughts about Tauriel and Thranduil!

in my experience, meta comes from having Opinions and wanting to share them and most importantly to back them up - you need to have sources! you need to have reasons! you need to have justification! otherwise it’s not meta, it’s a headcanon or an AU. which is fine!! I love hc/AU!!! but they are not the same as meta, and I’m a stickler for being accurate when it comes to meta. if you have sources and shit to back you up, that will help you build the confidence to share your meta.

sharing disinformation and passing it off as meta instead of just coming out and saying this is a headcanon/baseless theory/AU or whatever is such a fandom pet peeve of mine; it’s not bad for something to not be Accurate! you just have to have that disclaimer - and even when you’re writing meta, you’re offering an interpretation of the text, and you need to acknowledge that other interpretations also exist and are valid.

um. I hope this answers your questions? and sorry for basically word-vomiting my entire life story, lol. this post got long; the main reason I’ve written so much fic is because I really just cannot shut up for the life of me. sooo if you can tear of that filter of being shy and just. say shit. you can go so far~!

OH and one more thing - I can’t believe I almost forgot this - but part of being a writer is participating in the community. this is code for LEAVE A DAMN COMMENT IF YOU LIKE A FIC. that’s how I made most of my fandom friends before Discord! I follow @ao3feed-silmarillion and stalk that blog for new Silm fics; I read the ones that interest me and comment on them.

I know this is not really the most common way for folks to find fic but it’s so rewarding to interact with new fic, new writers, new commentors, new stories - you can find gems that don’t rise to the top of the kudos/bookmark lists; you become friends with your fellow writers; you can watch people grow and change; you support smaller content creators. yeah, you might not be getting Just The Best Stuff, but it’s so so so worth it!!

and if you make friends in the comment section of other people’s fic - I guarantee you some of them will go to your AO3 profile and check out your fic, too! and they’ll leave comments! this is a fic community, and that’s what I cherish about fandom most of all, tbh.

anyway - again - sorry for rambling so much, but I hoped this helped! feel free to send in another ask, or to come talk to me off anon if you’d like! and definitely send me your stuff if/when you decide to share it; I would love to support you!!! <3

[theblackbirdsgemimagines]

Ramble away, cause I feel the twisted head rot, I kinda wanna see what you think about our bois. ~ a pocket sized dragon hops in excitement.

A POCKET SIZED DWAGOOOOOONNNN 😭💞💞💞 That’s so BLESSED, and tysm omg, I’m very glad to just spill out my barking on every boy, bc yEAH THE BRAIN ROT SKDHAKDB

THE BRAIN ROT IS SO REAL LOL

Everything I breathe ends up relating to TWST in some way, like at this point just let me take my friends, cousins, and pets, and of course Lulu and Seb, and I will have 1. A Gottdamned Harem, 2. So Many Children, and 3. NEVER WANT TO LEAVE. Kwfhskdhjwek

Ok this is gonna be long bc I gotta cover all my boys, so rip lol.

Dorm Leads:

Riddle

GOD, my Fucking Baby, my CHILD, my SWEET BABY BOY, I’M 👁💧👄💧👁

I would die for him, beetch, he is PRECIOUS ♥️

He reminds me of how I feel Ciel would behave if S/O took the place as Sebastian’s contracee, too, so like 🥺 Lots of feels 😭

Is Son, I have adopted him now. If you mistreat him, don’t ever speak to me or my son ever again. I’ll FIGHT his MOM, don’t TEST me. I’m his new mom now. His BIRD mom. So proud of him, he’s like...one of the few that’s actually shown growth in canon after his overblot kshdkadjs

Leona

👁💧👄💧👁

.....I am a Mere Simp....

Ya’ll.... I swearh to ghOD I simped hard for Scar back when I was a wee thing, I did NOT expect to simp for him AGAIN LATER IN LIFE, what the FUCK aidhskdhskdj

Like shit bitch, damn, you may not be king of Afterglow honey, but you can be king of my heart if you wAnt to bb....

Leona: *smiles once, even if it’s smugly*

Me: *WEEPING* Look at hiiiiiiim!! My sunshine booooooy! 😭

Does this make me a furry

Probably

I am too Simp to Care Anymore

I HESITATED TO GET ATTACHED BC THIS BOY LOOKS LIKE A FUCKIN WOMANIZER IF I EVER SAW ONE, BUT HE DRINKS HIS RESPECT WOMEN JUICE EVERY SINGLE MORNING AND I WAS A GONNER SNDJAJDHSJ

FUCK

Call me a Herbivore again, bully me //SLAPPED

Azul

He secretly a lil shit sometimes, but tha’s ok, it’s mostly in a silly way, especially post overblot~ UvU

The sweetest bby everytime I read fanposts on him, like god, ah 💜💜💜 WHOMST COULD BULLY SUCH A CUTE CHUBBY OCTOBABY I’LL FIGHT ALL OF EM!! A sweetheart 10/10 would be his friend 💗 Not making contracts with him tho, lol

...ok maybe SOME after his overblot, but they’re able to be easily reversed now, so it’s way more chill andhsjdj

Kalim

FUCK!!!! F U C K!!!! BABYYYYYYY!!!! BABY!!!! I HAVE ADOPTED HIM IF YOU TOUCH HIM YOU D I E

He is literally so sweet, anytime anyone was like “you’re so nice it’s annoying” I WAS READY TO COME FLYING IN TO BITCH SLAP THEM LIKE AJDHSKDHSJ (even if I also loved them lol)

Like NO you are WRONG whfksjd

He has also grown so much, and I am proud ♥️🧡

Vil

Jesus Christ, canon Vil is Hurting Meeeeee ajdhskdhsj

My fave fanon Vil is the one that recognizes all different types of beauty, though~ uvu and is v encouraging to anyone that may be struggling with self hatred 💜

Canon: Vil is pretty~.

Me: Wow, wtf???? He IS so pretty... How rude I didn’t think you were serious! Wow him??? Pretty??? Wow??? Wow...

Idia

I’m not sure yet, as I haven’t seen him very often, but of the few times that I have: BIG same, huge mood, and Me FUCKING Too, goddamn akdhakdj

Idia is my Anxiety and Anime Nerd personified tbh lol

What Ortho is to him are what all my comfort characters are to me, honestly.

Like what would you like bby, you want that singing voice?? Ok here comes a synthesizer just special for you~. Ily, mwah~ u3u 💕

Malleus

HEAVY BREATHING

Ok maybe it’s just the lack of story/info out on him yet, but I don’t currently simp as hard for him compared to Leona, I’ll admit jajdkajd

BUT BOY HOWDEY DO I EVER STILL S I M P...

He Is Baby... And I Lob Him....

I am going to smooch those horns and forehead crown of beautiful scales 🖤🖤🖤 I am going to do it!!!! Here I go!!!

HE CAN HAVE ALL THE ICE CREAM AND TAMAGATCHI DATES HE WANTS I’M- 😭

This man is too precious for words, and I have so much childhood nostelgia to ‘enchanted’ woods, and being in the mountains, so he has Old Fae Friend vibes to me~🖤

DRAGON FORM DRAGON FORM DRAGON FORM DRAGON FORM DRAGON F-

Ngl I ship him and Leona a lil bit lol

No, not just bc that makes a poly with my two faves easier, but that is a bonus factor jadhajdj

Vice Dorm Heads:

Trey

Oh my god, the Daddy to my Mommy with all these newly adopted lil kids of ours, ya know??? What a wholesome sweetie and funny lil shit jahdksdh~

I love him, I would gladly make tarts with, AND for him 💚💚💚

The kind of boi who I’d ship HARD with anyone he started dating bc My God it would warm my heart So Much 💞💞

Ruggie (unofficial but may as well be at this point lol)

He took a while to grow on me kadhskdhsj

But I think he’d be a sweet, if a trouble-maker of a friend to have~.

Dank you for taking care of my sweet lion bby, honey, I’m sure Farrena is a sweetheart, but boi I hope he gets his shit together to fix up where Ruggie lives 😭

I think if I met his granny, I’d CRY jadhajsh 💗💗

Leech Twins (?)

Idk if they’re vice leaders, but who cares lol

THESE are the older Big Brothers in every sense of the word. (My canon ages most everyone up just a bit, save for Riddle, Ace, Deuce, Kalim, Jamil, Cheka, and anyone already 20+)

The ANNOYING older big brothers, lol.

The ones that hug you to death (Floyd), or use you for an arm rest (Jade), and specifically Do the thing you asked/told them NOT to Do.

This is fine with me tho, I’m an only child, please give me the experience of annoying older brothers lol 💙💚

Jamil

I used to hate you bby, I’m so sorry akdhskdhs

I’ve adopted him now, and I’m v proud he’s trying, but making clear what his boundaries are, and trying to come out of a shell he was made to be in for so long 😭

AND HIS DANCING IS SICK LIKE HONESTLY I’M SUCH A PROUD MOM 💗💗💗

Rook

God. FUCKING Rook, lol.

IDK IF I SHOULD TRUST YOU, but I also kinda wanna be your friend akdhakdjs

HE CONCERNS ME but he also seems nice and v sweet sometimes, lmao

Blz don’t stalk me tho 😬

STOP SHOOTING YOUR ARROWS AROUND SCHOOL YOU BLOODY HEATHEN FRENCH PRISS, YOU ARE GOING TO KILL SOMEONE

Also, if he DARES hunt cute animals around me, especially BIRDS, I am going to GRIP him jahdkahdsk

He’s like if Lord Druitt was a Little More Nice and a Little Bit Less Creepy ajdhak

Lilia:

GOD.

I LOVE THIS FUCKING GRANDPA.

I. FUCKING. LOVE. THIS FUCKING. GRANDPA.

I absolutely hc him as nonbinary w/masc pronouns, I absoLUTELY do.

I adore him, I love him, I haven’t gotten a squish (hardcore desire to be someone’s friend, lol) this hard for a character since AngelDust, I-

Pwease be nonbinary friends with me, Lilia 🥺

THE ONLY PERSON HERE SHORTER THAN ME, BUT I’LL TAKE IT AJDHAKDHJS

Anyone know Corpse and how he plays Among Us? That’s how I see Lilia playing his video games with friends and I JUST I JUST I J U S T

The Spencer to your Carly.

He and Crowley are free to compete as Dad with me too like honestly kshdkadjjs

He’ll always be granpa tho uvu 💚💖🖤

Extras:

Ace

God, the Fucking Annoying Middle Brother that pranks you ALL THE DAMN TIME, but I love him andhakdhsk

Deuce

THE BROTHER THAT WILL BEAT UP YOUR BULLIES 💙💙💙 SWEET BABY BOY

The Josh to Ace’s Drake. The Cody to Ace’s Zack. The Freddie to your Carly and Ace’s Sam.

If he and Ace started dating, tho, I would CRY.

But regardless who they end up dating, it’ll be slow burn friends to lovers, and literally the most adorable shit to watch EVER 💞💞💞😭

Cater

Seems Like A Womanizer But Actually Drinks His Reapect Women Juice And We Stan That 🧡

Can always count on him to help tou get the best Magicram shots, bless you Cater 🧡🧡

Also rly wanna be his friend, ngl 😭 Even IF he pranks me a lot kadhakdhsj

Jack:

H E AV Y BR EA T H IN G

Ngl my feelings for him are in the air IDK IF I WANNA SMOOCH OR NOT YET I JUST KNOW I LOB HIM HE GOODEST BESTEST BOY 💛💛💛😭

If all three Savannaclaw bois got in a cuddle pile with me, I would Not Be Mad

How can I give this boy love, tell me and I will Do It

Gift him all the cacti’s he WANTS💛

God he drinks that respecc women juice bright and early on his run every morning, you KNOW he does 💛💛💛

I wawnt to pet his ears an tail an fwuffy wolf form 😭

I WAWNT TO SEE THE BOY SMILE AND BE HAPPY 💞💞💞

Sebek

CHILL CHILL CHILL CHILL CH-

He is a v devoted guard tho, we love to see it UvU

I don’t have more info on him hekdhskdj but his fanmade content seems v v sweet~ 💚

Silver

HE ATTRACTS BIRDS AND I CRY ABOUT IT PLEASE BE MY FRIEND AND TEACH ME HOW 🥺🥺🥺

Him being raised by Lilia and Malleus literally gives me so much Fucking Seratonin....... God 💞💕💗💗💞💞💗💗💕💞

Ortho

IS BABY????? IS BABY!!!!!! I’M LOVE HIM I’M ADOPTING HIM IS BABYYYYYYY 💙💙💙💙💙

Cheka:

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

He is so FUCKING CUTE what the FUCK!

Leonaaaaaaa... 🥺 Your NEPHEWWWWW 😭

I might steal him from Farrena tbh, lIKE MY CHILD NOW~ 🧡🧡

I just sob and hug him every time I see him honestly 😭

Teachers:

Dire Crowley

Ohhhhhh god oh god oh god

Be my dad. Please. Be my dad. PLEASE be my dad. Ya’ll think I’m joking, I’m not. Please adopt me. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK.

This man as a father gives me so much dopamine and oxytocin and seratonin??? I have been weeping for WEEKS, please adopt me, Sir

Fathers with zero braincells being wrapped around a daughter’s little finger makes me so weak, and I am just here with Daddy Issues like ajdhakdhsj BLEASE ADOPT ME MISTER BIRD MAN

Crewel

Ew.

Forgive me, I haven’t seen much content with him in it/that could be considered wholesome, bUT JADHWKDJSJ

UncoMFORTABLE

Please keep the kink talk out of the classroom, S I R

Call me puppy one more time, see what happens, I’m not scared to fight a teacher akdhakdhsj

Trein

The Dad Figure that tries to be the stern part to Crowley’s blumbering kahdkqrhsjdj

Don’t feel as much attachment to him emotionally, but I like him~

Just let me pet your cat sometimes and give you holiday presents, and we’re cool~ ♥️

Vargas

Found the womanizer //SMACKED

And of course, I can’t forget Grim~!

He’s grown on me, and if anything happens to him I will kill everyone in the room, and then myself 😭

I will pet and snuggle and hold him all he wants and feed him all the tuna his heart desires uvu 💙

[lovetenya]

✧ 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐮𝐧 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲?

pairing: tamaki amajiki x gn! reader

warnings: moderate angst? nothing really bad, but it’s there.

word count: 2.2k

author’s note: this is wayyyyy more than i intended on writing in one sitting. i apologize in advance for the absolute garbage formatting, this is the SIXTH time i’ve tried to post it because tumblr loves trashing my work. honestly? i think i was possessed by my love for tamaki and that’s why we have a 2.2k hc.

welcome to...

✨mutual pining with tamaki amajiki ✨

you’re new this year to UA and really nervous to start in the hero course

how could you possibly achieve greatness when you’re starting later than everyone else?

fortunately, you didn’t have much time to worry, because immediately upon arriving you saw a huge blond man hurdling toward you

it was mirio, who immediately took you under his wing when he was asked to show you around

thank god he didn’t show you his quirk

on the way to class, he told you snippets about his friends nejire and tamaki, who both sounded really nice (he warned you about nejire’s questions)

he assured you that you’d make your own friends soon, but you could sit with them at lunch for as long as you wanted

finally, lunch time rolled around and mirio walked you to the cafeteria.

he brought you to his lunch table and introduced you to nejire, who immediately began rattling off about 78 questions, ranging from ones about your old school to what your favorite food was to what’s your favorite class and on and on and on

nejire damn near asked for your social security number by the time you noticed the pointed-eared boy with rose tinted cheeks who was quietly listening to every word you said

he was staring intently at you with stars in his eyes

and failed to pretend he wasn’t enamored with you when you met his glance

mirio only realized that he forgot to introduce him when he noticed that tamaki didn’t immediately break eye contact with you.

he introduced tamaki, who gave you a small polite wave before averting his eyes and bolting out of the cafeteria

tamaki leaned his back against the outside wall, covering his eyes, thinking about how kind and sweet you looked

just hearing you say “hi, tamaki, nice to meet you” made him blush profusely

and how you looked at him

wow, he was gone

he thought about how he couldn’t seem to breathe the entire time you were there

yOu ToOk HiS bReAtH aWaY

he really hoped he didn’t seem rude to you on your first day, but he might’ve exploded if he stayed there for another moment

confused, you asked mirio, “did i do something???”

he said “he’s just a little shy, that’s all.”

nejire would say “a LITTLE??”

even months into the school year, tamaki would be so nervous around you, not knowing that no amount of awkwardness could drive you away or make you think he was weird

cuz you like him!!! (that’s me teasing you)

the both of you would complain to mirio about each other, not knowing how hard he and nejire were trying to make things work between you two

ultimate wingmen: mirio and nejire 😎

but you’re both helplessly clueless and cannot possibly fathom that the other would ever like you

at first, they would try to not-so-subtly hint to you two about the mutual crush

mirio: “maybe you should take y/n to the movies, i’m sure they’d like to go with you sometime. like now! they’re free tonight!”

tamaki: “ha. ha. very funny.”

tamaki: “wait, why do you know they’re free? that’s so weird mirio”

mirio: 🙂

nejire, a different time: “y/n!!! maybe you should ask tamaki for help on this assignment. he’s really good in this class and i’m sure he’d be more than willing to help you if you asked!!”

you: “no, it’s okay. i don’t want to bother him.

nejire: 🙃

i hope you’re willing to make the first move, because tamaki certainly isn’t gonna do it

gather your courage cuz this one won’t be easy

you didn’t want to freak him out or make him run away again, so you’d try to hint at the fact that you wanted to spend more time with him.

you figured that at least if he didn’t like you, you could hint at the fact that you liked him, possibly starting a chain reaction toward love???

being vague was a mistake

(my heart breaks for you)

you: “tamaki, what’s a good idea for something to do on a first date?”

his first thought was “i’d do anything with you”, but of course he couldn’t say that out loud.

he barely ever said anything to you. you probably didn’t even know his name.

he’s blushing a deep shade of pink by the time he realizes that he still hasn’t responded, but he doesn’t really care.

he’s hurt by your question, as innocent as it may have seemed.

“why on earth would they ask me for dating advice unless they only saw me as a friend?”, he thought. “were they trying to tease me? i’m sure it’s obvious i’ve never dated anyone. they probably think i’m an idiot. god, i’m such an idiot.”

distraught, he went to mirio.

tamaki tried to seem relaxed, pushing down his anxiety for a moment. he said,

“did y/n say anything to you about a crush? a boyfriend? a girlfriend? a significant other? anyone?”

mirio, excited, thinking tamaki’s going to ask you out: “no, why?!”

tamaki, rambling: “because they asked me for dating advice and i haven’t ever heard them say anything about someone they’re thinking about romantically at lunch and irealizedthatireallydontwantthemtodateanyoneelse.”

mirio, who did not understand a word tamaki just said: “so did they ask you out or...?”

tamaki: “that’s not something you should tease me about!! you’re the only one who knows i like y/n!”

mirio: “...oops”

tamaki: “what???”

mirio: “well, i maybe, well actually, i kinda sorta, uh-“

tamaki: “mirio. what did you do?”

mirio: “i accidentally told them that you like them, and-“

tamaki can’t believe this is happening.

he bolts before he can hear the rest of what mirio was trying to say:

“-they like you too.”

he’s so embarrassed that he wouldn’t talk to you for two weeks.

sure, he misses eating lunch with people, but he just wouldn’t be able to face you. he couldn’t. there’s no way.

he’s so upset with mirio, too.

tamaki trusted him.

tamaki trusted him with something so personal, so raw, so special.

what was mirio thinking?

did... mirio want you for himself?

tamaki knows mirio could have anyone he wanted, easy.

would you be happy with mirio?

he didn’t know.

would you choose mirio over him?

“of course they would. why would anyone choose me when they could have someone like him?”, he thought.

he couldn’t go back to lunch because he couldn’t stand to hear you talk about your new significant other, (especially if it was mirio) and it was even worse now that you knew he liked you

(so much that it broke his heart to even think about you with someone else)

he couldn’t even look you in the eye.

so he ate lunch in the library.

alone.

he refused to talk to mirio and nejire just isn’t the confrontational type, so that left you to get him to come back.

unfortunately, you hadn’t spoken to him in two weeks.

and you were convinced he hated you.

and he was convinced you hated him.

the way you saw it, mirio told tamaki you liked him and then tamaki stopped talking to you.

you felt rejected. and cold.

and alone.

no matter how much this sucked, you couldn’t deny the fact that you really, really missed him. you liked being around him. you liked ordering his lunch for him. you liked hearing his small voice let out a “thank you” and feeling his fingertips brush yours when you handed him his food. every time, you’d both look away, avoiding each other’s glances.

and no matter how much this sucked, he couldn’t deny the fact that he didn’t want to be in this library. he wanted to be with you. you made him feel so strong, so secure, so safe.

you gave him a light he never had before and he wanted it back.

tamaki’s light laughter and sweet smiles never ceased to make your day.

until they disappeared.

and tamaki’s light went out.

you had to get him back, even if you would only ever be friends.

he had to get you back, but he didn’t know how.

you had to get him back, even if it would hurt so bad to like him from afar.

even if you already shed so many tears over him, the boy with the rose tinted cheeks.

you just wanted to be friends again.

you’d do anything to get him back.

even if it hurt.

one morning, you left home early so you could swing by tamaki’s favorite tea cafe and bring him his favorite, hoping maybe he’d at least talk to you if you brought him something you knew he liked

you walked into the library and looked around. tamaki was sitting in the corner all alone by the window, seeming incredibly focused on taking notes.

you really didn’t want to screw this up, so you tried walking toward him in a way that wouldn’t startle him. it didn’t work.

he jumped when you set down the cup in front of him. his confused eyes read the shop’s name on the cup and he winced when he looked at you sitting across the table from him.

he hadn’t seen you in forever. it was like the first time all over again.

god, you looked nice. and god, he hated that.

he just wanted this to be over. it hurt too much. quickly wiping the starry look from his face, he said,

“oh. thanks.” it was emotionless.

you replied, “excuse me?”

the sound of your voice brought back all of his emotions at once. you sounded annoyed. he couldn’t do this. he was ready to cry.

“i-i said thanks. for the tea.” he looked back at his notes, but you both knew he didn’t need to study. he couldn’t look at you again, or the tears forming in his eyes would surely fall.

“that’s it?” you said.

he was shocked. he never heard you talk to anyone this way, and you especially never talked to him this way.

what did “that’s it?” even mean? were you teasing him? did you come all the way here just to tease him? you knew he had a hard time with conversations. especially ones with you.

he couldn’t breathe. his lungs burned, screaming for him to just inhale, but he didn’t want to smell you again. you always smelled so good, and he hated himself for noticing. what kind of freak likes how their crush smells?? (everyone, tama)

his mind overflowed with doubt and desperation, the tears threatening to plummet onto the ink of his neat handwriting below. he was desperate for you, and he hated it.

even though they’re right there, they aren’t mine, he reminded himself.

and they never will be.

he swallowed. somehow, he managed to choke out “what? what else d-do you want me to say?”

you looked upset with him, and he figured you were. he figured he deserved it. for what, he didn’t know. probably for being so stupid. probably for liking you when nobody like you would ever like somebody like him.

you started, “well, i figured you’d have more to say to after you ditched everyone for two weeks. i get it. you hate me. whatever. i can live with that. but i can’t live with seeing how sad mirio and nejire are at lunch. they’re so—“

uncharacteristically, he interrupted you.

“what? y/n, i don’t hate you, i could never-“

“then why did you run away? why did you run away when mirio told you i like you?” you asked accusingly, voice cracking midway with the weight of your emotion.

your voice was far too loud for a library, but thankfully, nobody stared.

tamaki froze. for the first time, there were no thoughts racing through his head.

you two were alone right now. nobody else mattered.

he had to know, so he asked.

“y-you.. you like me?”

your shoulders drooped, your face looking back at him incredulously, though there was no malice behind your eyes. they silently begged him for a shred of tenderness.

“yes, tamaki. i like you. i have since i got here, but if that’s what’s keeping you away, please just forget about it. we want you to come back. i want you to come back. we... i miss you, tamaki.”

he didn’t know how to respond, so he didn’t.

instead, he gently set his hand on top of yours, where it lay face up on the table, pleading with him. you didn’t pull away, not even a little bit, and he noticed.

“okay,” he said, shutting his textbook. “i’ll come back.”

“you will?” your heart was the one racing now. what was he doing? was this even real? after two weeks of missing him, why was he doing this now?

softly, he said, “yes. and y/n?”

“hmm?”

“i like you too.”

i hope you enjoyed! love, tj 🖤

link to my masterlist here

[unsanctitude]

@leonleonrevolution​ @thefandomizer316​

THANK glad youre interested.. this post will be my extensive list of octavo headcanons.. the thoughts ive compiled over these many months... enjoy

HEADCANONS OCTAVO. :

- Somewhere in his 30's during CoH .. just strikes me that way fpgpdf

- probably evident in my work but i think he's a tall boy

- I’ll say it again he absolutely just doesn't tolerate bad language at all. not only does he forbid himself from using it but he'll actively tell others to stop doing it too

- although octavo bewitched link and zelda to fall asleep.. i think he was the one to tuck them in bed since no one else could do it ..YEAH he cursed them against their will but he isnt gonna leave them on the floor like some kind of monster.. but that clemency was not granted to barriara because he could not lift her

- this could already be canon but i think he rolls his r's all the god damn time

- He's actually very extremely good at cooking.. its as much of an art to him as music is and brings him great joy

- and part of the reason he's a good cook is that he grew up in & worked at a tavern! (he also was a bard there ofc) i wanna talk about it more sometime

- he had pretty humble origins contrary to popular belief.. he mingled with high-class society later in life and became rather famous, but he isn't as snobby as you'd think. maybe egocentric but never mean for no reason

- he was Zelda's music teacher! given he's well over a decade older than her, he taught her since she was a small child.. and you know what zelda called him her friend. and this is why he's pretty much welcome in the castle any time (and probly why he could so easily snatch the triforce). when it comes to teaching music he completely loses any bad attitude and is extremely nice and patient because he's enthusiastic about his student Getting It Right.. i think he'd just love being a teacher

- honestly i think in general he is very nice and patient to children. he's happy to show them how to play an instrument or will humor them with a magic trick.. he is not even a dad but he just has paternal instincts

- OH YES he's a magician-- not just like a sorcerer, but like a sleight-of-hand type magician.. he will show you fancy card tricks against your will

- maybe you thought i was joking when i depicted him as a vampire but i was not

- Since i pretend Vaati was the first "vampire" in LoZ universe, that extends to Octavo since they're implied to be related somehow (i believe he's straightup the reincarnation of vaati but ill get into that later). hes Not like a traditional vampire you know, he can still walk in the sun and doesnt need to eat blood, but i imagine LoZ vampires would entail something different.. as a vampire enthusiast i could go on about this forever, so if you want me to ramble more feel free to send another ask about it LOL

- but since vampirism was like, my earliest headcanon for Octavo, i had a funny little theory that the reason he even has a sleep spell was so he could cast it on people he didn't like so he could bite them. i imagine he would bite his critics since he's petty as hell (and also he bites on the arm instead of the neck because he is very chaste about it). i dont know if this is still a headcanon i'll keep for him but either way it makes me laugh

- one more thing about the vampirism.. remember how he uses fire magic in his fight? i think he studied pyromancy on purpose to raise his body temperature/keep himself warm bc he's naturally a bit cold blooded (going along with that he probably enjoys the heat of summer and spring while enjoying the aesthetics of fall and winter)

- octavo does have a cat and her name is Minuet or "Mina," as the necrodancer you better believe he will make his cat immortal as well as every other cat he finds, there are just a shit ton of them in the courtyard,

- i think he is autistic and/or adhd..music special interest given he is surrounding his life around it jjjzxc

- i think he’s bisexual since he’s purple

-OH and he sometimes gets goth as hell habits to just visit graveyards in dead of night to play his instruments, he loves the atmosphere .. on the surface he is a pursuer of the arts but quietly he gained a fascination in thanatology and mortality, which becomes very much apparent in the future!

honestly i probably have more hc's for him i forgot.. if i missed anything important i might make another post about it LOL

[well-shit-im-a-morosexual-now]

Time to talk about Lillith :)

So her being MC's ancestor in the story was... A bad choice, in my opinion.

And I don't hate that she was the one who revived MC, quite the opposite, that was a fine move. I like to think that it was to show that MC had a connection to all the siblings, dead or alive, hate or love. It's just...

Why are they (technically) related? What was the purpose?

That could sound mean, but if some of your playbase could call incest and (possibly) have a leg to stand on, it's a bit... Much, let's say. But, either way, there is an alternative that I like. (And one I made up, but that's besides the point.)

I like the idea that Diavolo lied to the brothers to keep the peace. To me, it makes sense, because:

He needs to keep the peace between the three realms, and y'know, one of the humans dying kind of prevents that. So, why not lie to them to make sure this never happens again?

It would also get to a quick resolution for the brothers, since I'm pretty sure that Belph was about to kill MC... Again.

Sadly, I only have two reasons, but you're smart, you can probably expand upon this.

Anyway, this might be a bit sloppy, but I hope you can understand what I'm trying to say.

Your Anonymous Color Coder,

Lesson 42 Anon

(P.S. I have issues with Lesson 16, 17, and 18. I say this just in case I want to rant about it. :)

So initially I wasn't the biggest fan of them being related, though when they first started hinting at a connection between Lilith and MC I had a "OH GOD. OH DAMN. PLEASE DON'T BE LILITH'S REINCARNATION" moment so finding out MC was just a distant relative was a relief but not one I was necessarily happy with? Because of all the "Is this technically incest!?" feelings I had at the time.

But it did grow on me? I think all the human au's I had roaming free in my head helped me get over it? When writing or thinking up human Aus I try to make them as close to the Canon situation as possible so it'd be:

The brothers and Lilith all living in a foster home with only Lucifer and Satan being blood related, but they all see each other as a found family. MC would be a distant (and I mean distant enough it equals to the thousands of years that separate Canon MC and Lilith) cousin who they don't even find out is related to Lilith until much later (after Lilith either leaves and joins a more permanent family or....well dies I guess).

The way I see it, it'd be the same as a group of "we're so close we see each other as siblings" friends wanting to date the distant/estranged relative of one of the group members.

So yeah, now I see the whole Lilith, MC, brothers thing as "Incest if I'm willing to reach so far my arm tears straight outta my socket" so yeah.

Though obviously it's completely valid if people are still uncomfortable with it.

ANXUSJWMNZRATQVX8 Belphie would have totally murdered MC if they didn't bring up the whole Lilith thing! And I'm so upset they all just get over it? Like damn I love Belphie no lie, but are we just gonna gloss over the fact that he was 110% okay with the genocide of the entire human race???????

I also have this headcanon that MC has chronic pain that flares up on and off after Belphie murdered them, cause remember how the ghost of the fortune teller,Gisella (?), on the train said you never forget the feeling of dying and MC had a pretty violent death so.....

I also HC that there are days, specially when the pain is bad, where they can't stand to be near Belphie and that while he was initially upset by this and was persistent about still being with them by around mid S2 or S3 he's learnt to identify those days and understand why MC can't even look at him then and he makes himself scarce and sleeps away the day in an out of the way dark, corner probably with Beel around for emotional support because honestly those days would hurt him as much as MC.

I like that in the Canon storyline that none of the brothers were 100% okay with Belphie right after Lesson 16 and how they went out of their way, more so than usual, to make sure MC wasn't alone with him? I maybe reading into that too much but I liked it..

And I mean generally MC's a very calm, collected, headstrong and stubborn character so as frustrating as it is I understand why they would want to help Belphie get along with the others again. "I died for this shit, so I might as well see it through" kinda mentality

I didn't initially like the two timelines cause it made me really sad imagining the one MC left behind and to ease that angst I always imagined since MC changed the past their original timeline -the future timeline- got erased with a new future unfolding. but someone on tumblr posted a headcanon with evidence on why they thought Barbatos joined the two timelines together so that they live with the extra day of memories and experiences that came from the original timeline AND I JUMPED THE HELL ON THAT BOAT & actually recently wrote something about it. Here have the link and some shameless self promotion cause I'm an attention whore:

Deadlines

"When Mammon meets his soulmate he's going to punch them in the face. It doesn't matter if he'll only find out who exactly his soulmate is when one of them is on their deathbed. He's still going to punch them."

Um anyway that's all my thoughts on 16, 17 & 18 (I think. There might be more that I can't remember at the moment tbh) and since I rambled to you about it you are now contractually obligated to rant to me about yours. Sorry, those are the rules🤷🏽

About the thing you said about Diavolo and his reasons I honestly have nothing else to add, I mean the reasons you gave make total sense and I'm okay with just what the canon gave too so

It wasn't sloppy at all! My rambles are always too long and all over the place!

Edit: I forgot! As to why they were related, yeah I don't think it was completely necessary but still I can see reasons behind it?

1. As a way to make MC other. A devilgram and a little line in S3 makes it seem like MC is neither angel, demon OR human. I HC that Lilith died right as she was changing from angel to demon making her one of a kind and that pure "Fallen Angel" magic came with her when she was reincarnated and then was passed down to MC.

2. How lilith's known as the mother of monsters in some myths and how MC is related to them... I just think it's neat. Plus MC has an insane amount of raw power - truly a monster in their own right

3. It's closure for the brothers. They never got to see Lililth as a human, never got to see her grow up, fall in love, start her own family. The last they saw her she was in pain and dying. They don't get to see if she was happy. MC's the closest proof they have to that. That she found love and had a family and was happy

4. It's closure for lilith. Just the fact that her spirit passed down from descendent to descendent along with her magic till she could see her brothers again just to see if they were happy and to tell them she had lived a long happy life. I don't know I'm really happy she was able to do that

5. The brothers find similarities between Lilith and MC but they're rare and 6 of the 7 brothers already liked MC before they found out about MC being her descendent. And even Belohie starts to like them as their own person. Just I always worry that they like MC just because of the connection between them and Lilith and that they see MC as a replacement but then U remember their Canon interactions and it feels like the brothers actually forget about that connection. MC is Lilith's legacy, they're living proof that you can be born in one world but find your true home in another, but they're not defined by Lilith. They're their own person. Even their magic is their own considering Lilith used the last of hers when she helped them in Lesson 15/16

[pennumbra]

So for that Au with Hector and Varian what happens when they get to the Great Tree? Does Varian translate the scrolls found and make his own lab in the tree while trying to find ways to help Hector? Would he be an enemy when Raps group make it to the tree? In fact what cause Raps to go on her journey is Varian wasn’t there to strong arm her into confronting the rocks? Where did she even think Varian went off too and does Varian have the scroll piece he originally gave to Raps? So many questions.

Yooooo, these are all excellent questions!! Real talk, when I made that 1st HC post, I was really just thinking about fun char interactions between two favs, so thinking about this AU converging with canon (and actual plot progression) has been super interesting and relatively new territory!

There’s a lot of good stuff going on in this ask so I hope you don’tmind me speculating and rambling a bit (a lot…) below the read more!

Oh man, Varian would absolutely get super absorbed studying the ruins in the Tree and trying to translate the language there in hopes of helping his dad. He’d probably have a lot of fun exploring the Tree and researching its unique flora and fauna, as well as testing them as alchemical components. It IS Varian so even with only a makeshift lab, I don’t think he’d ever stop experimenting and learning. (I mentioned in a diff HC post that I think Hector occasionally gets supplies from travelers/caravans he attacks and I think Varian could salvage some alchemy equipment from those as well.)

He could be a significant help to Hector by setting up traps/alert systems for people nearing the Tree, or crafting useful chemicals for them to use… or even helping chase some interlopers away himself.

Once Raps and the group made it to the tree, I do think Varian would oppose them… at least at first. 

Varian is impressionable and loyal, and has demonstrated a ‘greater good’ mentality in the past, but he’s also all about progress and knowledge, and doesn’t really want to hurt innocents- vs. Hector being dedicated to protecting the opal and maintaining the status quo at any cost. Even if he was compelled to see Hector’s actions as justified, I think he’d realize keeping the moonstone from the world isn’t a permanent or expedient solution to their problems. He might have some lingering resentment, but confronting Raps and co. on their quest would bring any doubts to a head and force him to start actively questioning Hector and thinking seriously about the future.

Varian, to Raps’ knowledge, disappeared after the storm; his status is unknown by the party. Maybe she’d think he ran away? …And hopefully nothing worse after getting kicked out in a blizzard. Either way, I imagine the group will be…. SLIGHTLY CONCERNED to learn this kid’s new guardian is a feral, bloodthirsty DK knight who wants them dead 

I’d actually forgotten the scroll piece… I think it’d make sense if Varian took it with him. So the group wouldn’t have it, but iirc it wasn’t THAT relevant in S2. Adira has her piece and she could’ve filled them in on the rest.

Since the battle of Old Corona never happened, then like you said, Rapunzel wouldn’t have been forced to connect with the rocks. Adira also would not have had the opportunity to see proof of the sundrop’s power w/ her own eyes. In that case, I can honestly imagine Adira attacking the group herself and putting them into a (seeming) life or death situation to provoke Rapunzel into using her sundrop powers. After all, Adira had no clue Varian was going to be a factor originally; she might’ve had plans to test Raps in some other way esp after trying so hard to find her.

If you read all that then WHEW congrats!! Thank you for the ask and all the good Qs and thoughts! It was helpful for me to write all that down too!

[karasuwu]

mha crushing on you hcs

a/n: first post!! i love these boys sm <3

izuku midoriya

he falls for you first. how could he not? you’re so sweet, kind, funny, pretty and so amazing!! he really, really, really likes you!

is constantly flustered around you. you make eye-contact and he literally almost faints.

finds it very hard to pay attention in class because of you. you’re just too pretty and cute and ah!!!

this poor boy. he’s absolutely w h i p p e d for you. and once he realises it, he falls in even deeper.

super jumpy and flustered around you.

in training, if you execute a move perfectly or kick someone’s ass, he’s blushing because you’re such a badass!! and you’re so hot!!

bonus points if you talk back to bakugo. izuku is so impressed and thinks you’re brave!!

izuku will offer to help you if you’re struggling in class with something. he’s is super smart and hard-working, so he’d offer to share his notes, tutor you after school, etc. while blushing like a tomato

lowkey stalks and takes notes of what your preferences are, what kind of pens you use, what movies you like, etc. he can’t help it!! everything you do is just so interesting to him

suddenly takes an interest in all the things that you like and joins clubs your in. uraraka and iida take notice of course, and tease him mercilessly. tsui, kaminari, and most of 1-a joins in teasing him as well when they find out. even bakugo joins in.

when deku and his heart finally can’t take it anymore, he will literally give pep-talks to himself in the mirror and practice confessing to you. he writes dozens of scripts, does research, asks classmates for help (mineta and denki were NOT helpful) and tries to come up with the perfect plan to ask you out.

buys some flowers + snacks he knows you like, etc.

you kinda get the feeling that he likes you because he’s always hovering, not too close but not far away either. he also always tries to talk to you, about anything or anything, but stutters or clams up. he’s honestly such a cute mess though.

 izuku decides to shoot his shot. he says the sweetest things when he confesses. he presents small gifts to you while rambling about everything he likes about you, how he fell for you so hard, how you make his heart jump, etc. he makes his strong emotions for you VERY clear. he ends with a shy “Will you go out with me?” and promises to try his very best to make you happy every day.

you are ecstatic, of course. he might start crying when you say yes to him. honestly, baby boy is just so overwhelmed and relieved that you like him back too.

will hug tightly you out of sheer joy and thank you again and again for giving him a chance. honestly, 100% a cutie and boyfriend material.

bakugo katsuki

thinks you’re annoying at first. doesn’t care much about you, but somehow, you catch his attention.

you don’t let him get away w/his bs or you almost kick his ass in a fight. either way, he’s impressed by you and your personality.

you two develop a playful yet intense rivalry of sorts. he mocks you, you sneer back at him, and so it goes. izuku is terrified by your relationship with bakugo.

aizawa had to break up a few of your first squabbles, but slowly, they become less violent and more teasing. he’s surprised and won’t admit impressed by your sharp tongue and quick wit.

slowly, bakugo warms up to you. he gives you advice during training and class and takes more notice of you. he even willingly pairs up with you sometimes!! you keep him on his toes and always challenge him to become a better version of himself, so naturally, he gravitates to you.

one day, in class, everyone catches bakugo smiling at you. not in a malicious way, but in a soft, almost fond look. you’re laughing at something bakugo said, and he’s just staring at you, taking in your beauty.

he’s also more sincere and appreciative of the things you do for him. like saving a seat for him at lunch, sharing your notes, etc. he’s not 100% nice to you, but he doesn’t insult you as much. tends to give backhanded compliments like “you’re not as shitty as the others”, etc. 

class 1-a is shook. they have never seen bakugo be like this?? ever??

kirishima will confront bakugo about you. bakugo realises that he’s fallen for you.

cue angry denial and a lot of explosive screaming (rip kirishima)

tries to push you away first, but soon realises that he hates not being around you. so, he probably just yells at you a lot more when you do something cute because it flusters him.

pining bakugo = aggressive bakugo

everyone knows he likes you except you. it’s so obvious, but no one says anything because they fear bakugo’s wrath.

also bakugo will make sure to hide his feelings for you because he kinda sees you as a distraction sometimes from his ultimate goal of becoming #1. he’ll struggle with accepting his own feelings but will ultimately accept them because he realises that you help him become a better person.

he’s not a very romantic guy, so he’d probably just walk up to you and demand your attention to ask you out. he slams a hand into your desk and you look up from your book, confused.

he gives you one of his kinda-backhanded compliment and asks you out. he’s all confident and smirking, but he’s screaming on the inside. he doesn’t know what he’d do if you rejected him.

lucky for him, you like him back too. says that you made “a good choice” when you accept his date, but he’s secretly so. happy. is smiling for the rest of the day. class 1-a is kinda scared bc he looks like he’s plotting a murder.

kirishima is elated that you two are dating and you two quickly become best friends.

you walk into class one day holding hands with bakugo. everyone notices of course. kaminari and mineta wolf-whistle and katsuki starts to charge over to their desks, but a simple kiss on the cheek immediately calms him down.

he blushes and tries to play it off but he secretly really likes it

you are now considered a god in class 1-a. everyone is impressed and terrified of you b/c you somehow managed to tame the explosive hot-head.

todoroki shoto

you two become good friends first before he starts developing feelings for you.

you’re smart, pretty and nice to him. he likes you.

he starts hanging out with you, studying with you, training with you. he likes that he doesn’t have to fill the space with small talk. you both respect each other a lot, and he likes how kind and patient you are.

he’s still learning social norms so he’s trying super hard to engage in conversations. he likes to hear you talk and builds off of what you say.

todoroki doesn’t really understand his crush on you at first. he just kinda goes with his gut, tries to spend more time with you, talk to you more, etc.

he takes interests in the things you like and makes sure to talk about them with you.

he probably talks to his mom about you a lot. one day, his mom asks him if he has feelings for you.

uh oh. todoroki realises that he may like you more than just a friend.

he’s really conflicted once he figures out that he like likes you. he may shut himself off a bit to clear his head, but once he straightens out his feelings, he comes back and apologizes for avoiding you.

you forgive him but are quite confused. you understand he has a troubled past and is a complex person because of it, and do your best to accept him for who he is.

he really likes you though. how gentle and serene you are, and how you always encourage him to be himself. he appreciates it so much.

you’re like his anchor, and you see him through his aloof and cold exterior. only certain people can do that, so he really cherishes you.

you make him feel safe and comfortable. you also don’t tease him so much when he doesn’t understand social cues, and instead, teach him what they mean.

todoroki would actually be fairly good at hiding his crush on you. he doesn’t want it to change the friendship you have with him.

he’d probably analyse the way you act around him, trying to figure out if you had a crush on him or not too. did you like him too? would you even be interested in dating someone like him?

he eats lunch with you everyday and partners up with you in class. he’ll also ask to study with you, despite having a reputation of working alone.

class 1-a is secretly rooting for you two but is also confused with your relationship. todoroki hides his emotions well, so are you two just friends or is there something more…?

todoroki confesses at the most unexpected time. it’s out of the blue, probably in the spur of a moment thing, when he’s overcome with strong emotions for you. it catches you and him off guard when he does.

he simply blurts out and admits that he has feelings for you and asks if you would like to pursue a relationship with him. smiling, you of course agree.

externally, he’s calm as ever, but internally, he’s super excited.

makes plans for a date immediately and can’t wait to take you out.

class 1-a is surprised but happy and supportive of your relationship. they didn’t actually expect todoroki of all people to ask someone out. they’re super happy that you’re helping todoroki come out of his shell!

[titsthedamnseason]

drunk!julian headcanons

youre welcome in advance. warning: this post is tagged but just in case, after qoaad i edited these to account for the ending so major spoilers ahead 

**dedicated to @carstairsemma who never let me forget these existed and also @mostawesomepineapple because i still feel bad that i sent her that ask(IM SORRY MISHEL VASFGHA)

where to begin??

okay so julian probably would not like to get drunk a lot because he would not be in control but to say it would never happen is ignorant and simply untrue

the first time it happened was during julian and emma’s travel year when they were out at some club that the paris institute’s hip teens took them to

they both decided to drink a little but julian got drunk fast

i could totally go on about drunk!emma too but she’ll have her time to shine some other time that isn’t now

so anyway julian got really really really quiet and when emma asked what was wrong he gestured for her to come closer, got really close to her face, and whispered, “i think im drunk” and they both just started hysterical laughing

emma asked if he wanted to leave but he said no 

dancing ensued and bad singing accompanied it 

emma decided not to drink anymore because drunk julian was a new concept to her and she didn’t know how to handle him or what to expect

as it turns out, nothing particularly bad happened

they sat alone on a small couch in the back where it wasn’t as crowded

drunk!julian cannot shut up about how much he loves emma, how pretty she is, how much he loves her, oh wait he already said that

he rambles and rambles and rambles to her about how much he loves her 

emma thinks she might be permanently blushing 

“emma youre like.....like...like my best friend” 

“well yeah i sure hope so”

there is definitely kissing but emma doesnt let it go too far while he’s shitfaced and she isn’t

julian definitely cries multiple times

first because emma is just so beautiful, again because he misses the kids(then again because after he calms down he has the idea to call them which emma is strongly against), again because he accidentally hits into emma’s arm with his hand while he was gesturing while telling her about-well, he cant remember what he was telling her about but it definitely wasnt worth hurting emma over(“im fine, julian”)

once he starts sobering up they decide to make their way back to the institute

after a few times that emma has seen julian drunk she realizes a few things:

julian curses a lot when he’s drunk 

he uses gestures and big hand movements a lot and they get more extravagant and ridiculous the more he drinks

he is a very sentimental drunk

his normally very observant and logical self goes out the window

he gets very loud(in uhm quite a few ways)

he’ll be really brash and outgoing but get insecure and quiet at the slightest things

he doesn’t really care about keeping his secrets anymore and will tell everyone about that time him and his girlfriend were giants, the mundanes just think he’s making shit up in his intoxicated state

speaking of which, he loves to tell people that emma is his girlfriend, something he already does sober but it gets a thousand times worse when he’s drunk

julian is ready to fight anyone who has ever crossed him while drunk

if julian is going to get drunk, emma should just prepare to be exposed to the world honestly julian will tell anyone all of their secrets(which luckily are far less important now but STILL)

when julian and emma get drunk together they are either both at a 10 and ready to fight anyone ever or they literally start having sex in public(thule!blackstairs who??)

emma gets more quiet and contemplative when she isnt entirely shitfaced yet so julian will happily listen to her musings about the universe while being the actual human embodiment of the heart eyes emoji

there was that one time julian accidentally wound up drunk on christmas 

of course that was the year the la institute was hosting christmas with the ny institute, as well as tessa, jem, kit, and baby jessa in attendance

honestly rip everyone but especially rip emma 

after the first time it doesnt happen that often that only one of them will be drunk but when emma is sober while julian is drunk thank the angel

not only does she save christmas but probably all of shadowhunter kind 

“im going to fucking go to idris right this fucking ass second and show zara exactly-” “julian, idris is blocked off” “i can fucking find a way in” “no, really, the portals-” “CAN SUCK MY DICK” “julian, no”

he’s also so ready to bring annabel back from the dead just to slap her

though he has to agree with emma that that one probably isnt the best idea

the poor guy who accidentally bumped into emma on the sidewalk did not know what he was starting

that one took a lot of convincing on emma’s part that she was completely fine and not upset about what happened and please dont chase after him i need you to not be in jail right now, julian

julian would be the embodiment of that meme where he asks if emma is single and cries when she says no except he would never not know that the girl was emma and wouldnt even think about asking someone else out so its highkey unrealistic but

its canon that julian and emma like to sing along to the radio and such but drunk!julian? he literally thinks he’s a pop star 

when emma is driving drunk!julian home and meet me in the middle comes on? forget it julian is full on marren morris level having a performance in the passenger seat

drunk!julian in general is just a party

but a really unpredictable party

this is what i have for now but i may continue/do drunk!emma or just drunk!blackstairs in the future so lmk about that 

also please feel free to send me your personal drunk!julian hcs because i am in love with him