Big uh oh
problem…. Read if you care?
Is this about trouble getting back on the band wagon? lol no, but yeah I haven’t gotten back on. Unfortunately.
BUT BUT BUT… I’m moving back home from my uni apartment and my mom came down to help take back things ANNNDDD… I made the STUPID mistake of not wearing baggy clothes. I thought because this past week I’ve been eating so much, I was all bloated and some gained weight. (Which I prob have like 2-3lbs)
Well I was wrong. First thing she said to me was “you’ve lost weight… ?!?!?” And then her face was something I’ve never seen before. Anger, sadness, frustration, concern… she said “this is the worst I’ve seen you Anna.. you are looking extremely an0rezic!!?”
Ew. The A word. I mean valid. My bmi last time I weighed myself was like 16. BUT. Gross. I hate that word. She wouldn’t let it go, and a family friend came with her and she was like “yeah anna… I notice too” OOPS. fuck it was so embarrassing.
She also found my laxatives which was the icing on the cake.. because allegedly she said she was An0 when she was a kid so she knows the “tricks” She also tried forcing me on the scale. My oh my what a mess today.
So yeah. In summary my mom is REALLLLLLLY concerned as hell and hypothetically “getting me help” this summer. So if I go MIA. Yeah. Or t worded for this post. Either or, that’s why. I am truly scared for what’s bout to come tbh.
ALSO DONT MIND MY DIRTY HOUSE, as I said I’m moving out. So chaos.
-Anna K
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since we all appear to be talking about izzy 'calling the police' on stede id like to offer my silly little two cents:
its not like the navy wasn't actively looking for him anyway??????
at most, izzys actions sped up badminton catching up with stede, but its made very clear that badminton wanted Stede dead well before this, and was willing to use whatever he could to find him- whos to say jackie wouldnt have cut a deal on her own? that any other pirate thats seen them being unsubtle in a port wouldn't take the opportunity to make a quick buck over a guy who is Nobody and holds no influence that could lead to any consequences for them?
in reality izzy is probably the only person who would receive negative repercussions to selling out stede, given his personal connection with ed- any other pirate would probably have gotten away unscathed, anonymous. they likely wouldnt have even been present like izzy was. izzy had personal stakes, anyone else would have taken the money and ran
the way i see it, with or without izzy the events of episode 10 probably would have happened in some degree, izzy just expedited the timeline
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i think my favourite detail from the blue beetle movie was teds tech being built out of clunky late-80/early-90s tech it actually makes me so happy
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This Years Thoughts On Reading. tbh
the past year i read a lot more than i had in quite some time. to be fair, i didn't finish most of the books i started, didn't start most of the books i want to read, and spent most of my time wasting time on social media still (i don't know why i can't stop doing this. i don't even enjoy it past a certain point). i didn't do well in my university classes. but for a really long time i've found it very difficult to read at all, even to read fiction. i read a lot of fiction (by my standards) this year, especially historical fiction set in ancient rome (though i also read some other good books, favorites among which are probably queer by william burroughs, night side of the river by jeannette winterson, and invisible cities by italo calvino. i also read quite a few short stories and a bit of poetry), i read or started /some/ nonfiction, i read or started /some/ ancient literature, and i had a poem and a short story published in my university's poetry journal and newspaper respectively...
but, really, i feel a little in over my head. i don't really feel like i can do this, by which i mean i still don't think i'm trying hard enough at university. i feel behind everyone else, despite the fact that since i've transferred to a different university having done 2 years before, i still have this and another year before i graduate. even though most of the people in my year will be 2 years younger than me i feel like i am behind them (did i mention that i did badly on my exams last year?)
especially before university i was never a particularly good student, honestly (i was like. a C average, though in my 3rd and 4th years of high school i started to try a little harder) and i think i spend a lot of time now fruitlessly wishing that i had tried harder and taken more of an interest in things. i still wish i tried harder. i still wish that passion was enough to fuel me to actually focus on filling out my historical reading. i wish i just didn't feel so stupid sometimes, honestly. sometimes i'll open a book that's a bit dense or technical and it just makes me feel like the biggest idiot in the world. i wish i was better at articulating my thoughts. i also wish i understood literary analysis or criticism. in a lot of ways now i feel dumber than i was a few years ago, and i don't know why.
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i just need to know does anyone else feel like briony from atonement is autistic?? like dgmw i really do get why people dont like her, but that doesnt mean she cant be autistic,,, its like its the way shes gets so caught up in her own thoughts that she fails to recognize other possibilities, like obviously thats not something exclusive to or definitively a part of autism, but i just i feel i definitely do that too,, oh also just adding in there her pride in being tidy and her need for control, and like people always describe her as "pretentious" and "entitled" but like idk i dont see it, like the part where she gets somewhat upset at finding out the twins are wearing her socks, its like idk cecilia didnt ask or let her know that she was letting the twins borrow briony's socks, even though its something small, to someone like briony who seems to value her stuff, i could imagine it would be off putting to find someone had taken/used it without at least letting her have a say in it, like i cant say for sure that she wouldve let them wear the socks if she was asked, but maybe she couldve pointed them to a pair she was more okay with loaning out, like idk, i know in the grand scheme of things and of the story the socks dont matter but i just keep thinking of it,, but also idk i at least have some respect for her because she doesnt try to shift the blame onto anyone else, she even says herself “She would never be able to console herself that she was pressured or bullied. She never was, She trapped herself, she marched into the labyrinth of her own construction, and was too young, too awestruck, too keen to please, to insist on making her own way back.”
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I twisted my ankle in front of a store today, people actually were concerned enough to ask if I was fine. I almost FELL right on top of a toddler. I can't go out of my room without embarrassing myself for 15 minutes. Now I can't sleep because it hurts enough to be annoying. Spare me from my suffering this new years eve by depositing $100 in me account.
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because i am always always ALWAYS anxious that someone is gonna interpret something i say in bad faith i made that anti-transmasculinity post bc there was a minute or two on tumblr and twitter where trans men were the Embarassing Cringe Queers Du Jour and people were like 'lol trans men dont even face any sort of discrimination outside of garden variety transphobia' which is patently fuckin untrue and im very tired of being called a 'pussy' and a 'whiner' because people do not take me seriously as a man unless its to claim im a predator or violent so. theres that
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U should write about the robots in ur head
suns and pebbles are so fucked in the head it’s insane. when i first played spearmaster and it was revealed that suns did The Thing i was SO flabbergasted i was literally losing my mind over it for WEEKS i was like WHY THEY DO ALL THAT 🗣🗣🗣 and now almost half a year later i still do not understand. but i’m thinking about it again. thinking about them both even
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marvel should hire me to write bc i'd pull the funniest thing on earth where i am wiping his catholic slate CLEAN and i would explcitily have him go ehhhh i've never really been religious me and my dad went some easters and christmases and attended a few services outside of that but that stopped by the time i was around 10 and my dad just kinda gave up on it because he didn't particularly want to go by that point either. and even then we hadn't gone every year for easter and christmas in that time frame. and then we never bring that shit up again in the story. he is only catholic in the sense he went a few times and it's the only church experience he knew and his dad probably grew up going to church more in his youth being dragged in by his family but he never felt particularly compelled to go back to it once he moved out on his own. catholic only in the fact that his family was irish catholic but his dad is a lapsed catholic who did not give a fuuuuuck
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