#i hate this real life

[randoofan0m]

something happened today and i just needed to get it out.

TW: death, mention of suicide and car crash

i live in an isolated place. its small, no more than 20,000 people, and quiet and an everybody-knows-everybody type of community. last night a junior in high school die in a car accident with his mom in the car who did manage to survive.

i didnt know this kid, but i know he played basketball and was on 3 teams, him mom was well-known and apart of a local native tribe. he has a little sister in kindergarten and a brother who's only a freshman.

he passed around 10 o'clock last night on November 14th and everyone found out as early as 6am this morning.

i found out and spent a good chunk of my morning sobbing, but i never knew this kid except in passing and i feel like an intruder. he was my cousins' friend and a close family member to another one of my friends. he was well know and a good guy.

almost half of the high school was dismissed but they didn't let kids go home by driving themselves and didn't want any of them to be home alone resulting in carpooling and kids staying over at each other's house which was a good call i believe.

his mothers tribe is hosting a bonfire for him that'll go on for 24 hours and the high school has, since this morning, hosted an area for their teachers and students to talk and write letters to his family. i want to go and write but i feel like an intruder.

i didnt know him like my cousin did, or the basketball team, or his family. i want to say things to him but i don't know anything but his name.

stories on instagram and facebook and whatever are being shared and posted and for once im glad I've been off of those platforms for a while.

this is terrifying. i dont drive as everything is within walking distance, but my cousin starts driving in a few months and so many kids i know will start soon too. we're support to be a "safe" place. nothing big is supposed to happen here, its supposed to be a paradise and a place that only is active in the summer. im scared to go down where he died and im scared to the store his parents own.

i want to write a letter to him, to his family, but im so scared of what to say. i don't know what to say.

two people dead in 1 year in this isolated community. they were not even 6 months apart. a teacher who killed herself and a student who died in an accident and a friend of one of my friend's mom drank himself to death last night as well.

its scary and i hate this so much.

he was not even 18.

ive heard so much and i cannot stop thinking about him. he seemed like such a good kid with such a good family. im glad the school is doing everything they can to help with the memorials and reaching out to the families. im so grateful for the local tribe for honoring him.

i wish this never happened and o could make everybody feel better bur i cant. i wish i could stop crying but i cant.

rest in peace, W.S. and if there is an afterlife i hope you're with the people you love and are well cared for.

[yaolmao]

simp

[theygender]

The more I learn about judaism the more I wonder where tf christianity got all its bad shit. Why is divorce a sin in christianity when judaism has recognized the right to divorce for nearly a millennia and has codified religious laws for it. Why does christianity consider sex to be dirty (to the point where puritans considered it a sin to enjoy having sex with your own spouse) when in judaism it's considered holy and it's a literal mitzvah to have sex with your spouse on the sabbath. Why does christianity consider it a sign that you're faithless if you question your religion when in judaism that's considered an essential part to developing your faith. I'm probably stating the obvious here but I still can't get over the fact that there's no historical basis to any of this shit before christianity started, it's like christians just said "hey guys what if we took the torah and built a new religion around it but this time it was actively hostile to human life"

[hinamie]

there's no furbish word for dilf :( sad :(

[canigohomenoow]

[somerandomdudelmao]

Me walking around w my super epic Marble Sky shirt, Marble Sky phone case, Marble Sky pants, Marble Sky socks, and Marble Sky jacket /j:

And everything is Sculptor themed haha

[royaltea000]

Every letter addressed to Jonah Magnus just sounds like several men of good high standing who he’s tricked into giving him their knowledge money and affections realizing that they’ve fallen for a succubus but they can’t find it in them to hate him too hard- like do you know what I mean??? I know it’s just the old timey way of speaking but every statement just sounds like “please my evil twink, I beseech you!” Like this is why I can only imagine him as like very Dorian Gray-esque in my head. Please someone tell me I’m not crazy for thinking this that’s literally their evil bbg that’s sucked them for all they’re worth and thrown em away

[brownsugabbt]

i hate house md because immediately in s2 they’re like. i know the patient is flatlining right now. but here’s house and wilson fighting in the middle of the street like they’re in a mid budget rom com talking about how they need each other. this definitely won’t look gay at all out of context 😃

like. imagine just walking home after a long days work and seeing your cunty neighbor fighting ‘how to lose a guy in 10 days’ style with his boy best friend in front of your door bruh.

[lazylittledragon]

first makeup test for orin!! don't look at the wig i couldn't be bothered to glue it down

[anna-scribbles]

what a shame, i can see it all now that we’re through

- firearm by lizzy mcalpine

(chapter 5 of call it even is making me feel bonkers insane. thank u @sha-nwa)

[orbch]

logan sanders my baby daddy

[kkoct-ik]

i dont think i will ever forgive what the internet did to DID because please explain to me how "your sense of self is so torn apart you think youre multiple people" turned into "youre actually multiple people"

do you understand what i mean? please understand what i mean

[puppyeared]

beep beep im a sheep

speeddraw below the cut (audio warning)

song: "Cult of Dionysis" by The Orion Experience

[static-scribblez]

Remember these two?

This is them now. Feel old yet?

[hkryu]

Please wake up and experience this summer dream I made for you and me

[retellingthehobbit]

(Link here) Picture me with a conspiracy stringboard, a copy of the Unfinished Tales, and several essays about how LOTR/The Hobbit are meant to be flawed translations of ancient texts written by biased authors, and gesturing wildly as I explain how we can reinterpret The Hobbit as a funky little gay metaphor actually. we can do it. I believe