#i love run on a (un)normal amount

[xiyade]

rewatching run on is insane!!! you’re telling me seongyeom was flirting with her right from the police station but none of us realized it because we weren’t used to him??? 

[yoonbroom]

SEVENTEEN FIC RECS

a list of seventeen fics I really enjoyed! pls go and show these amazing authors some love <3 also if there wasn't a summary on the fic I just included a little paragraph or the request! now onto the recs ↓

CHOI SEUNGCHEOL

HELLO TUTORIAL - @97-liners

oneshot, fluff, college au, frat au

it’s your final year of college, and you’ve been elected president of your sorority. this is all great and fine, but as the semester goes on, you find yourself having repeated run-ins with the president of the fraternity next door in a series of unfortunate coincidences (that might not actually be coincidences, as you come to discover). or: in which you’re trying to deal with your crush on seungcheol in a normal way, but the meddling kids are making it harder than it needs to be.

FRACTURED PARENTING, PT.2 - @berriesandjunnie

oneshot angst, fluff, idol au, separated parents au, enemies to lovers

parenting can be an emotional rollercoaster when you’re far from divorced and the flames are far from dying.

YOON JEONGHAN

UNTITLED - @userjuyo

drabble, fluff, est relationship

"i just know than jeonghan would tease his s/o a lot, but whenever they went “hannie :(“ he would literally MELT like he’d just be like “okay sweetheart i’m sorry 🥺” and the members would be like ????? BC HE WON’T LET THEM LIVE but it’s his baby so &lt;;3"

UNTITLED - @wqnwoos

drabble, fluff, est relationship

“what if crabs think that fish can fly?” your question is whispered into the darkness of your bedroom — you gazing at the ceiling thoughtfully, while jeonghan curls up beside you.

OF RAINY NIGHTS AND ROSES - @chenfleur

oneshot, angst, fluff, idol au, est relationship

In the heat of the moment, Jeonghan grows careless with his words. Now, he has to bear the weight of saying things he didn't mean.

DAISIES - @viastro

oneshot, angst, fluff, strangers to lovers

the best type of revenge is to hurt the person that means the most to them. aka, in which jeonghan is in charge of making you fall in love with him, just to break your heart. 

JOSHUA HONG

BEST FRIENDS BROTHER - @chocosvt

oneshot, fluff, angst, smut, best friends brother

joshua happens to be your best friend’s older brother. he’s pretty, and he’s got a lot of cool details about him that you pay a concerning amount of attention to, but he’s just a friend (if you could even call it that). still, what does he think of you, anyway? that is—if he thinks of you.

IT TAKES TWO - @/berriesandjunnie

oneshot, fluff, idol au, parent au, est relationship

a family is a little scary when your partner has over millions of fans.

UNTITLED - @/wqnwoos

drabble, fluff, est relationship

"it feels like the sky has only just welcomed the sun when joshua tries to get up to leave."

WEN JUNHUI

HEAVEN COULDN'T WAIT FOR YOU - @/berriesandjunnie

oneshot, angst, idol au

i just couldn’t stand to see you leaving but heaven couldn’t wait for you.

HAPPY ENDING - @junkissed

one shot, angst, fluff, marriage, est relationship

a pointless argument escalates until both of you need some space, but it couldn't come at a worse time.

KWON SOONYOUNG

LET ME TRY AGAIN - @papermatisse

oneshot, angst, fluff, exes to lovers, parent au

Soonyoung had never wanted to live a restrained capitalistic life, forced to work a tiresome 9 to 5, paying taxes until the day he dies. Though in exchange to pursue the other option, that being devotion to a career, he had to pay an unfathomably large price—he had to abandon everything and everyone he's ever loved. can he fit himself back into his former life? one that's changed more than he can possibly imagine? could the ones he loved forgive him for his wrongdoings? could he get the second chance he wants so desperately?

(UN)TRADITIONAL - @neonun-au

oneshot, fluff, wedding au, est relationship

"The digital clock on the hotel night stand flashes the next minute as it passes. A re-run of Law & Order: SVU drones on in the background as you sit at the edge of the bed, staring sleeplessly at your wedding dress hanging on the back of the closet door. "

VOWELS AND VERACITY - @hansolmates

oneshot, fluff, angst, smut, teacher au, single parent

after a blind date that makes you feel like a giddy teenager all over again, you’re forced to grow up and take a chance when you realize that special someone is your daughter’s kindergarten teacher.

BE SWEET - @heartkyeom

oneshot, fluff, angst, smut, royalty, arranged marriage, enemies to lovers

“Why are you here?” Your tone is resolute, not allowing for even an inch of resistance. “That’s what we need to talk about. We’re getting married,” He lifts the corner of his mouth. You let out a laugh that is nowhere near polite, in fact, you’re nearly cackling at the prospect of this idea. It’s simply so outlandish, so fantastical that every time you look at his face it seems more unfathomable.

JEON WONWOO

FOR THE BOOKS - @trblsvt

oneshot, fluff, teacher au, est relationship

wonwoo's students seemed intent on matching him up with a fellow teacher. he didn't really want to stop them, it was too funny for him to break up their fun. plus, he didn't mind the certain someone he was being "set up" with.

HOW TO FALL - @because-of-a-friend

oneshot, fluff, angst, idol au

"hi!! <3 i love ur acc and i was wondering if you'd be able to write an imagine where you're besties with joshua and he invites you to meet the rest of seventeen for the first time and you instantly fall for wonwoo? maybe some angst but overall fluff? thank you!! no rush!! i love your work!!!"

UNTITLED - @/97-liners

oneshot, fluff, royalty au, friends to lovers, childhood friends

"a royalty au where you’re the heir to the throne and wonwoo is your shy (and lowkey bumbling) royal advisor…. he’s smart and always has his head stuck in a book but he’s also painfully awkward and clueless to how deeply in love with him you are. until your parents decide it’s time for you to get married. and suddenly you’re inundated by suitor after suitor, and wonwoo is quizzing them on their credentials and doubting their suitability for you, this one makes brash political decisions, this one spends too freely, this one has no tact for diplomacy. until one day, you turn to him and ask, “you’ve hated every single one of them. who, then, do you think i should marry?” and wonwoo blushes red and presses his lips together."

SCANDAL, PT.2, PT.3, PT.4- @fantasyescapes17

series, angst, fluff, enemies to lovers, regency au

this is part of an extensive series that includes other members! you can check it out ⤳ here

The Viscount's sister with an enormous dowry, beauty and unmistakable talent- you began the London season as the most desired woman in any room. But Jeon Wonwoo (a man who would rather hide in the library than dance at a ball) is beyond your comprehension. Curiosity might have killed the cat, but it embroiled you into a scandal with a man you could never love.

MEET CUTE OF THE CENTURY - @lovelyhan

oneshot, fluff, angst, smut, idol au, strangers to lovers

the last thing you expected when you volunteered at your city’s local animal shelter is to meet the hottest cat person in the world. now if only he’d just adopt one of them so you’d stop ogling him every time he drops by.

MARRIAGE - @yikesmary

drabble, fluff, parent au, est relationship

where wonwoo’s nightmare is coming true.

BIRTHDAY SURPRISE - @/yikesmary

oneshot, fluff, parent au, est relationship

where you and nari try to make breakfast and a cake before wonwoo wakes up… if only your daughter knew what the word “surprise” meant.

LEE JIHOON

GUITAR STRING - @leejungchans

oneshot, fluff, angst, royalty au

"“Take me away.” Jihoon’s elegant fingers, previously plucking at his guitar strings, freeze at your words. The soothing, lullaby-like chords he had been playing echo into the inky darkness, carried away by the chilly night breeze."

WE'LL BE OK - @atinykidult

drabble, angst, fluff, idol au, est relationship

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you” for hurt!Jihoon

LIVE - @wondernus

oneshot, fluff, idol au, est relationship

having just finished composing a song a few hours ago, jihoon starts a live on his phone to sing to those who are feeling a little lonely at night. little does he know, your sleeping figure could be seen in the corner of his little livestream, causing his fans to go crazy.

MWHA - @cheolism

oneshot, fluff, est relationship

three times you said "mwah" at the end of a kiss and one time jihoon said it back

IM DATING WOOZI - @jihoonotes

oneshot, fluff, smau, est relationship, idol au

y/n is in a public relationship w/ woozi of SVTZ and decides to make a twitter acc to support jihoon, but SVTZ fans seem to think they're delusional.

JIHOON'S PUPPY - @rubyreduji

oneshot, angst, fluff, college au

jihoon can’t seem to shake the puppy dog who keeps following him around or the teasing he gets for it

HEARTSTRINGS - @wavelikewhat

oneshot, fluff, strangers to lovers, idol au

You help Jihoon meet an unexpected deadline for a song and he wonders why he can’t stop thinking about you. Luckily his members nudge him toward the answer.

LEE SEOKMIN

WARM ME UP ! - @ponkwan

drabble, fluff, est relationship

the one where you’re on your third date with seokmin.

KIM MNGYU

HOT OR COLD? - @jjuniehao

oneshot, fluff, est relationship

when looking for something on his phone, you find an email you didn’t expect…

BOYFRIEND PHOTOS - @babyleostuff

oneshot, fluff, est relationship, idol au

a sunny date spent with your precious boyfriend

XU MINGHAO

THE LETTER - @toruro

oneshot, fluff, angst, smut, brothers best friend, childhood friends to lovers, idol au

in which you’re jun's little sister and have been pining for a man so close yet so out of reach for ages. now, years later, when you see minghao all grown up, famous, and still making your heart flutter, you're not so sure what to do about your not-so-little crush.

BOO SEUNGKWAN

A BEAUTIFUL LIFE - @sungbeam

oneshot, fluff, childhood friends, est relationship

Boo Seungkwan asked you to marry him beneath the shade of an orange tree.

CHWE VERNON

ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE - @suhnshinehaos

series, fluff, angst, childhood friends to lovers, arranged marriage, smau

the one where you get into an arranged marriage with your childhood best friend vernon, but neither of you seem to mind that much

UNTITLED - @/wqnwoos

drabble, fluff, est relationship, idol au

“vernon, we need to talk.”

OR, WOULD YOU RATHER IT BE ME? - @thepixelelf

oneshot, fluff, childhood friends to lovers, college au, soulmate au

A detested soulmark, a friendship over a decade in the making, and an unexpected proposal from one friend to another… what could possibly go wrong?

LEE CHAN

SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE - @/berriesandjunnie

oneshot, fluff, est relationship, parent au, idol au

no matter what stage in life you’re at, or after all these years, you can count on his hyungs to still treat him the same.

08:23 AM - @wheeboo

drabble, fluff, est relationship, idol au

in which chan is late to dance practice.

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[a-random-weeb]

Hello! Can I request yandere chuuya with a fem reader he accidentally broke and now he’s trying so hard to un break her by letting her go outside and go shopping but little does he know she’s Been normal the whole time and it was all just an act so she tries escaping by chuuya catches her?

omg yes I love this idea. Tysm for the oneshot prompt btw!

Ok, this is kind of cringe but I had a lot of fun writing so fuck it

I hope you like it as much as I do

Warnings: Yandere, physical abuse, mentions of isolation, slight nsfw mention. I wanted to make it fluffy at the end, so you can read the end if you want or settle for when he beats you. let me know if I missed anything

Disclaimer: this fic is not romantisising Yandere behavior, it is fanfiction. If any of this is happening in real life, seek help, it's not romantic even if it's great in fanfiction.

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He didn't mean for this. He didn't mean for the punishment to go THAT far, and he certainly didn't mean to break you. Yet here you were, after all that screaming and crying you held an emotionless look on you're face, and he hated it.

He drags you outside, normally you're not allowed out of your room unless he's by your side, then you can wander the house, but you haven't been outside the penthouse for the last year! You were excited, but you had to maintain the façode of being broken.

When Chuuya sees that nothing has changed about the look on your face a wave of sadness washes over him. He missed how cheerful you used to be, how you would giggle over every dumb thing he did, how you were always so positive. Sure, sometimes his punishments were a little harsh, but you had a lot of fun together too! He racks his brain for anything he could do to get you back to your old self, then he comes up with what he hopes to be a good idea. He should take you shopping, girls like shopping don't they? Well he'll have to hope.

You both arrive at the mall, a fun place to spend your life savings. Lucky for you, Chuuya was rich, so you could spend as much as you wanted! The relief in Chuuyas eyes at the slight excitement in yours was adorable. Though, that excitement is gone as quick as it came, leaving him disappointed.

You almost slipped up! You were too excited at the thought of running around shopping you almost let your gaurd down! You desperately hope he didn't notice. As much as you would love to spend his money, running around like a little kid, but unfortunately (and fortunately) it was the perfect time to escape. You slip into the crowd while in the food court the second he looks away. Running to the nearest exit, strategically avoiding his gaze.

You guess you didn't do well enough, because when you bolt outside, you feel two strong arms wrap around you from behind. You look up in horror to see an angry chihuahua Chuuya glaring daggers at you, but... There is also a look of hurt in his eyes

"Why the hell did you try to escape huh?! To hurt me by pretending to be broken, only to hurt me more after I allowed you outside!! It'll be a long time before you ever go outside again. We're going home. Now." He tightly grabs your wrist, not caring about the amount of pain he's causing you, or how much you beg for him to forgive you. He throws you in the backseat of his car, slamming the door before driving the two of you home.

The night is certainly a long one, he's very rough despite you crying and begging, throwing you in the floor of the bedroom, fucking you and beating you til you pass out.

The next morning he felt bad about actions that night, and feels you've had enough punishment, so he'll cuddle you and pamper you. You get breakfast in bed and nothing but cuddles, apologies and words of praise, though, he still believes you deserved what came to you last night. He know you probably won't try to escape again after the hell he put you through, and even though he feels bad, he does not regret it...

[chrisevansonly]

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧: 𝐋𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐊𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐜 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𝐒𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬: the day has finally come, and as a parent, you’ve never felt this amount of nerves before in your life…

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: mentions of anxiety, but other than that, fluff and cute family moments

𝐀/𝐍: AHHH here is chapter 7! You’ll notice there is a time skip as Matteo is now 7 years old, i did this because i don’t anticipate this series being SUPER long, so i hope that’s okay and you enjoy, im sorry if it’s bad, my writing has been bothering me lately🫶🏻

𝐖𝐂: 1K

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There was no pep talk, family meeting or even conversation that could prepare you for today. Matteo had been restless all-night waiting for today, and now as you watched him with Charles and Arthur checking over his custom kart, a recent gift from his uncle Max, you couldn’t stop the slight smile that tugged at your lips. Matteo was looking more and more like Charles every day that passed, there were each others twins.

“How are you feeling?” A voice caught your attention from beside you, when you turned you saw Lorenzo had gotten back from finishing up all the paperwork

“Anxious…but seeing him so excited, it helps to keep those feelings aside”

“Maman felt the same when Charles and Arthur started as well, he’ll do great though, I just know it”

Never was there a doubt in your mind that your little boy would be amazing, you couldn’t wait to see him go out onto the track and race his heart out. Matteo was tenacious, he always had been, you see it at the track with Charles when he wants to help and sit in on meetings, and you see it now, helping his uncle and father make sure his kart is ready to go.

“Maman, es-tu prête à me regarder piloter mon kart!?”

Matteo was quick to run up to you, race suit on, helmet in hand, his eyes wide and bright with excitement 

“Oui petit prince, tu seras incoryable, je le sais!”

“Merci Maman!”

Leaning down you smiled, kissing his cheeks gently, bringing a hand up to fix his hair, Charles coming over to get his helmet done up and ready 

“Be careful and be safe okay my love? I don’t want anything to happen to you”

Matteo nodded 

“Maman don’t be scared, you shouldn’t be worried!”

“Matteo laisse maman s’inquiéter, ça montre qu’elle tient à toi, ce n’est pas une mauvaise chose, n’est-ce pas..”

The young boy looked up at his father and nodded, still learning that it was okay to show feelings and emotions. Ever since he’d turned five, there had been a few issues with hiding and being scared to talk about how he was feeling, so the three of you had been working together to remember that 

“Oui, c’est normal, je suis désolé maman”

Cooing gently at Matteo you pressed another kiss to his cheek 

“C’est bon bébé, amintenant va finir de te preparer avec ton oncle Arthur.”

Watching him run back to Arthur by his kart you stood to hug Charles, his hands rubbing up and down your back soothingly 

“He’ll be okay baby”

“I know.. I just-”

Charles nods, always knowing exactly what you’re thinking and where your thoughts are going, he’d always been extremely good at reading you 

“I understand, I’ll be with you the whole time, he’ll be great my love I just know it”

If you didn’t choose to think of the positive and agree with your husband, you think you’d spin out and think of every single worst possible option that could happen today, so you settled to agree and held Charles close as you both watched Matteo get into the kart and head out for his warm up lap.

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The last lap of the race came faster than you anticipated, Matteo had fought hard and raced clean throughout the entirety of the competition, your hands were holding onto Charles’s arm almost in a death grip, but he was doing the exact same, especially when you saw him come around the last corner, in second, but pushing for first.

“Vas-y bébé, vas-y bébé!!”

You found yourself yelling, heart pounding out of your chest 

“Poussez Matteo, poussez-le, attrapez-la!” 

Charles yelled from beside you, both of you inching closer towards the barricade of the track, and moments later, Matteo pulled out and flew past the first-place kart, just in time to cross for the number one position. The feeling of pure elation spreading throughout you instantly, overshadowing the anxiety you felt before. 

Matteo had won his first karting race. 

“He did it, Char he did it!!” 

Charles couldn’t have taken you into his arms faster than he did in this moment, holding you tightly to him, never wanting to let you go, only pulling back after a few minutes to wipe his eyes gently 

“Oh my love, you’re crying!”

Bringing your hands up to wipe at his tears softly he smiled, leaning into your touch 

“I’m just so proud of him…and-and so thankful for you, for everything.”

Butterflied erupted in your chest as you leaned forward and press a kiss to his lips

“I love you so much, forever.”

“Forever.” He answered back softly, both of you snapping our of your little bubble when Matteo ran to you both screaming in happiness

“I won papa!!”

Stepping back in time for Charles to catch him as he jumped into his arms hugging him tightly. The three of you would have to head towards the podium within the next few minutes for Matteo to receive his trophy, but for right now, this was absolutely perfect. No one could take this moment away from your family, and knowing his grandma, uncles and your close friends were waiting just around the corner, made this moment even more special. 

Right here right now, as the three of you stood at the track, you knew this was where Matteo was meant to be, he wanted to be just like his father, and just like him he’d be. 

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@goldenalbon @goldenmclaren@a1leexxa@treehouse-mouse @therealcap@wintfleur @lovrsm

english translations:

Maman, es-tu prête à me regarder piloter mon kart!? - Mom are you read to watch me drive my kart?

Oui petit prince, tu seras incoryable, je le sais - Yes little prince, you'll be incrediblem I know it

Merci Maman - Thank you mom

Matteo laisse maman s’inquiéter, ça montre qu’elle tient à toi, ce n’est pas une mauvaise chose, n’est-ce pas.. - Matteo, let mom worry, it shows she cares about you, that's not a bad thing right?

Oui, c’est normal, je suis désolé maman - Yes, it's normal im sorry mom

C’est bon bébé, va finir de te preparer avec ton oncle Arthur - It's okay baby, go finish getting ready with your uncle Arthur

Vas-y bébé, vas-y bébé - Go baby, go baby

Poussez Matteo, poussez-le, attrapez-la - Push Matteo, push go get him!

[freyito]

Can write bi-han and syzoth x stressed reader like with what you did wuth Johnny and kenshi please? But the reader is usually a soft and kind person, who's on the verge of a mental breakdown? 😓

lowkey need this AGAIN and who better than these two. livin la vida loca (i am under immense pressure and will break soon el oh el) ANYWAYS...

cw: gn reader, just fluff, not proofread

ʙɪ-ʜᴀɴ & ꜱʏᴢᴏᴛʜ + ᴀ ꜱᴛʀᴇꜱꜱᴇᴅ ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ

Bi-Han

Bi-Han normally keeps his distance when you are stressed. He does not mean to leave your side, no, he simply wants you to have space if you need it. Seeing as he normally seeks out space and isolation when he is stressed, he kind of applies this to you, as well.

But, oh, how he has misjudged this situation. You look at him with such a broken spirit, your normally warm eyes are now dull. It's enough to make a grown man cry. Your once inviting presence has now become a void, it feels like he has lost a piece of his heart.

So, he's on the move. Not a moment after he notices that look in your eye, he sweeps you off your feet and whisks you away to the bedroom. He does not allow you time to protest. You are tucked in quickly, and he is gone, once more.

You can only lay there in disbelief. Bi-Han finds it hard to show proper, genuine affection for you in front of anyone. Simply knowing that the Lin Kuei understand that you are his is enough. Hell, sometimes it's a battle to hold his hand in public. So for him to carry you, bridal style, to your room? Damn.

He returns, with a plate of green tea. Freshly made. In a short amount of time. His ever-present scowl may betray his feelings for you, but he is going to try anything and everything within his power to relieve your stress. He starts out with the little things, the tea, then a nice and firm massage, maybe even a walk if you so wish.

Bi-Han leaves all that grandmaster, sub-zero, earthrealm's defender talk at the door, as well. He's quite sweet with you- as he often is behind closed doors. This time, however, he's... warm. He speaks with such an understanding and genuine worry for you, and he holds you close all night long.

Syzoth

Syzoth can sense your stress, even before you become aware of it. I'd say it's inhuman, but... He's a bit conflicted, actually. Suddenly, his precious light has dimmed, and you are sulking around. He's still iffy on the human condition specifically, so he doesn't quite know if you want space or if you want cuddles.

He follows his heart, however. He does not want you to be alone, and his heart breaks for you. So he wraps himself around you at the earliest opportunity, running his hands through his hair and even... giggling.

He may not have much he can give you, like tea or something. But he knows a nice long, scaly embrace normally helps him level out. And it works. Sort of. Syzoth loves to just hold and hold and hold you. There are times where he has to be pried off of you. Not that you mind.

And now, Syzoth absolutely refuses to leave your arms. It's actually so much of a struggle that it gets your mind off of things. Now, your new goal is to escape your boyfriends loving embrace. He thinks it's a game. Well, he makes you think he thinks it is. He's relatively playful when it comes to times of stress.

He doesn't much care that your stuck on an un-comfy bedroll. Your in his arms, and your hurting, and he's going to make it better. Just so happens that this was the place he found you. Once you stop struggling to get out of his embrace, he runs his hands through your hair, sometimes scratching your scalp. He peppers your face in kisses periodically, as well.

And once Syzoth is so sure your all tuckered out from that fighting and lovin', he loosens up. Just a little. Enough for you to sleep comfortably. But he's still by your side. All night, all day. He doesn't let you leave the bedroll except maybe to eat and drink, amongst other things. And even then, he's following you around. His pinky intertwined with yours. He doesn't let up until he is absolutely SURE you're in a much better mood.

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[teencopandthesourwolf]

Darling one <3 my prompt word is "tummy ache" which is alarmingly fitting right now.

hope this helps, boo!

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It's early, too early for daylight.

Derek opens his other eye and assesses the situation: puffs of air on the back of his neck, too abrupt for normal breathing. 

Beside him, Stiles doesn't so much shift as jerks a little, as if he's trying not to move any more than that small amount. 

"Hey, you doing okay?" Derek whispers.

Beacon Hills sheriff might have an inkling that Derek has been climbing though Stiles's perpetually open window for the past two years or so—in the daytime. But Derek is positive he doesn't know about the sleeping-with-his-only-son part that has been happening for the last few months. Because Derek is still alive.

So. Whispering it is.

Silence.

Then a pitiful, drawn out groan. 

"Stiles?" 

More groans. Then a croaked, "I'm dying."

Derek is on Stiles in a millisecond. "What is it? What's wrong? Stiles? What's—" and his hands are flying over every inch of the kid. 

"Shit, Der, I'm not really dying," Stiles whispers back, batting Derek away. 

Derek wouldn't need to be looking at Stiles to know the face he's pulling.

"Ugh, feels like it though. My tummy hurts so fucking bad right now. I can't get comfy, I can't get back to sleep and I hate everything and everyone and I would honestly be perfectly okay with passing over to the other side, now. Like. RIP me. Swear to God, Der, the afterlife never sounded so good." 

Derek rolls his eyes. His very human boyfriend is so very fucking dramatic. 

Boyfriend.

Thinking about him and Stiles like that still makes Derek's stomach flip like he's fourteen again. Even when he's smooshed up right next to him in bed. He wonders if that will ever change and immediately doesn't think it will. 

Derek peers down through the gloom at a pained looking Stiles, then instinctively flicks his eyes to the numbers glowing a dim blue on Stiles's alarm clock. 

4:32

Stiles is about to say something but Derek quickly silences him with a hand placed across his mouth, essentially gagging him. 

Just when Stiles looks as if might sink his teeth into Derek's fingers, there's an ominous creak on the landing, and they both simultaneously stop breathing. 

Thud. Trickle. Drip, drip, drip. Flush. Running water. Creak. 

The town's sheriff is nothing if not habitual.

After another moment, Derek removes his hand but puts a finger to Stiles's lips to tell him to stay quiet. Then he strokes Stiles's cheekbone as he shifts a bit in the bed, until he can place his other hand gently on Stiles abdomen.

Derek now focuses all of his thoughts and senses on Stiles, until there's only Stiles, everything Stiles is. Until he's aware of Stiles's pain. Until he is Stiles's pain. Derek's face twists a little with what is a really nasty, sharp feeling but looks up to thankfully see Stiles's features smoothing out as the hurt drains from his body. 

"Dude," Stiles whispers, before his eyes widen and he's slapping his own hand over his mouth—his dad could still be awake. 

Derek un-grits his teeth and cracks his neck, removing his touch from Stiles and flexing his hand a few times as the pain in his arm starts to fizzle away. 

Better? Derek asks silently with raised brows. 

Stiles grins so big it makes Derek's heart thump harder in his chest. 

Dude! Best. Boyfriend. Ever! Stiles mouths back, in such an exaggerated manner Derek's pretty sure even a person who speaks no English could tell what he said. 

Given the current hushed situation, Derek supposes he'll let the dreaded 'dude' slide.

(Realising for the first time that he's completely head-over-heels in love with this adorable idiot has absolutely nothing at all to do with it).

[14dayswithyou]

hi hiii! I loveeee your blog sm I just wanted to say <33 And also I was just wondering — I’m not sure if you’re familiar with MHA, so if you’re not then dw about this^^ but if the main cast had quirks, then what types do you think they would have? + Do you think they’d go into pro hero work? I was thinking about it for renren and i felt like a quirk similar to toga would make sense (turning into people with their blood = changing his appearance/personality for angel?), but i wanted to hear ur thoughts!!

✦゜ANSWERED: I've never heard of MHA in my life (I've been married to mr Shigaraki Crusty Ass Tomura himself since the moment he showed up in the manga <3)

Ren "Quirkless", but pretends to be one of Pro Hero Haruko's biggest fans to appeal to you. But if you have a quirk/are are pro hero as well, then he'll devote his entire life to you instead.

[REDACTED] Glitch quirk. He's able to manipulate a small area around himself into whatever he wants — including himself and anyone caught inside it. Doesn't align himself with heroes or villains, but has the morals of the latter.

Moth Also quirkless, but dedicates most of their free time to running the #1 fanblog for Pro Hero Haruko. They'd love to work for his agency if it were possible, even as an intern.

Violet Prediction quirk. She can see the next 60 seconds of someone's future — but only if they inhale the scent coming from the flowers growing around her figure. A pro hero that's currently ranked #9.

Elanor (Un)lucky quirk. Something bad happens to her at the expense of giving someone else good luck. Usually involves small things like tripping over her feet or tearing her hero costume. Currently a sidekick to an unnamed pro hero in the hundreds.

Conan "Quirkless", but only because someone needs to run a library and it's definitely not going to be Teo. He won't admit to being something of a vigilante in his younger days.

Jae Water quirk. Anything he touches turns into a liquid form, which he can manipulate and control at will. It all goes back to normal after a certain amount of time though. An aspiring pro hero after Teo (unintentionally) saved his life when he was younger.

Leo Blood quirk. He can use his own blood to create bladed weapons or heal others even if they're not compatible. Became a pro hero alongside Jae and Teo, and is currently ranked #23 due to his selfless and protective nature.

Teo Glock quirk lmao. Calls himself "Hotshot" and goes around manifesting illegal firearms from thin air. He only made the top 10 because of his looks, flirtatious personality, and because he's a nepo baby whose parents were the #2 and #4 heroes.

[quitealotofsodapop]

Wukong empezó a desesperarse cuando empezó a engordar, debió llevar siglos de llevar una dieta insalubre sin consecuencias para que un ''huevo'' cambiara todo de forma drástica, pero sin embargo ahora es la almohada peluda favorita de todos (?

translated via Google:

"Wukong began to despair when he began to gain weight, it must have taken centuries of eating an unhealthy diet without consequences for an ''egg'' to change everything drastically, but nevertheless now it is everyone's favorite furry pillow (?"

Monkeys in the wild see being fat as kinda desirable. Since fat = healthy and better able to last out lean times.

But with all his human influence; I can see Wukong initally being confused and a little dismayed that he's gaining weight for the first time in literal millennia eating the way he always does. This monkey eats literal baskets of fruit and bags of chips at a time, and he's not burning off energy at the same rate anymore.

He mentions his weight gain to Macaque, who just laughs and points out: "You're not running around lifting mountains anymore. Plus you're likely gaining sympathetic baby weight from The Egg. It's normal."

After a small adjustments to the amount of junk food he eats; Wukong starts to embrace his new Dad Bod since it feels so natural to him! He feels so much softer and fluffier than before! No wonder Tang loves hugging Pigsy so much!

Then he learns that it's called "Dad bod"!? He gets so excited/euphoric cus "Yes! I'm a dad! This feels so right!" Lets the kids (+Macaque) rest their heads on his stomach/thighs cus he doesn't mind being a pillow for them. Also? Perfect scaffolding for holding a wiggly baby monkey.

He's the first to comfort Macaque when they're feeling uncomfy about their own body changes. Why wouldn't Wukong love his Plums no matter what shape they are? The second a random rude person dares make a comment about Macaque "letting himself go"; Wukong is there in seconds flat to defend his mate's honor.

Also he secretly loves it cus it means him and Macaque are really starting to "get fat on fruit" together like they had planned so long ago. <3

[knoxs2nd]

i looove how parent/child love is handled in umineko, and the differences between everyone's perceptions of how to show their love, and how to view other people's loves

krauss was always told he had to become a suitable heir by kinzo and was raised accordingly, even though he really didn't want to. krauss shows his love for jessica by being more hands-off, unlike his own childhood, and even encouraging "un-heir-like" hobbies like her boxing.

natsuhi was given away by her family in a marriage she didn't want. she shows her love for jessica by being strict and controlling. natsuhi wants jessica to always feel that she supported and cared about her future and success, and to never feel "given away" without a second thought.

meanwhile, jessica sees natsuhi's "love" as stifling and has to deal with it by running away to school and hiding her true self from her mother. while they don't go deeply into jessica and krauss's relationship, the vibe i get is that she gets along better with him.

compare that to lion, who thrived with the strict parenting style and always recognized how natsuhi loved and cared for them. as an alt!yasu, what matters to them is having family/unconditional love in the first place and not necessarily how that love manifests.

eva was always told she would never amount to anything, and to stop trying so hard. so she shows her love for george by telling him he'll amount to great things, and to always try his hardest. she will always support his journey. hideyoshi lost his whole family so he shows his love by always striving to be friendly with others, and to always bring positivity to other's lives, because being together with family is the most important thing. so he steps away from strict parenting and lets eva handle it.

and we know about george's feelings on eva's love for him, even though he, just like jessica, recognizes that their mothers love them. however, he admires his father and wants to be just like him!

rudolf got ignored and had to carve out his own place in the world - and it wasn't with his family. he loves battler by letting him do his own thing, so much so he lets battler leave the family register. if being away from them will make battler happier, then rudolf'll accept it.

meanwhile, battler has a complicated relationship with rudolf whose parenting style makes him think rudolf doesn't actually have any familial feelings at all, and resents him for it. he adores asumu though, who was outwardly kind and loving to him!

battler even forgives rudolf and agrees to return to the ushiromiya family when he realizes that rudolf actually DOES love his family, after spending so many years convinced rudolf never actually cared after all

and rosa...also ignored, but also bullied to kingdom come by her siblings for being "stupid." so she sees maria, who's also susceptible to being bullied, and tries to make her into being someone who would NOT be bullied. who could be "normal."

maria though...she's the only one who can actually see rosa's love for what it is, though, past all the layers of abuse, control, and trauma, that the other ushiromiya cousins struggled so deeply with. so she resolves to love her mama, regardless...

[childotkw]

Alright so I just read your post about new dawn au. You gotta stop. How am I supposed to live laugh love without this masterpiece? New dawn and ruination have taken over my brain. And I know you can’t write both at the same time and pace *cries*

Anyways, I was thinking that new dawn Lucerys and Aemond would definitely be a bit touched in the head? Unhinged. I mean, they do come from a time when taking someone’s head out because they pissed you off is completely normal, so you can’t tell me they aren’t a bit crazy by modern society’s standards.

This also means they are unafraid and more than willing to do whatever it takes to keep those baby dragons safe. Besides each other, those dragons are the last of their old home, of Old Valyria, of their blood and their House. Lucerys and Aemond will protect those dragons no matter the cost.

I would also like to come forward and offer this idea: they are both filthy rich because over the years, as they realized that yes, apparently they are stuck in this reincarnation thing, they’ve both decided (separately of course) to leave hidden caches and spots full of money and riches that only become more valuable as time passes, so by the time they find those dragon eggs, they have amassed enough money to rival the Targaryen’s coffers from all those years ago.

So now you have two unhinged people, with morals that the UN would definitely not approve of (and would get them in jail or in a psychiatric ward), fucking dragons that only they can control (which for the common folk must be terrifying, specially since they probably thought they weren’t even real?) and enough money to do virtually anything.

Oh, and they are most definitely gay.

Can't stop 😂 you all just have to suffer as my brain flits about like a hummingbird haha

Aemond and Luke are absolutely unhinged in new dawn. They're both used to updating their morals depending on the current whims of the society they're in - but they are also perfectly capable of backsliding whenever the mood calls for it. Things were so much simpler when they could just challenge someone to a duel when they insulted you, or feed them to your dragon for betraying you.

Once the baby dragons start crawling all over them though, they completely shed the thin layer of morality they've been upholding in this time period. They are definitely not murder-shy in this AU.

Also, love the suggestion that they have little stashes of wealth hidden away all over that they just collect occasionally, grow the amount, and then put it back for their next life. It's genius.

Both of them being rich, with a lot of their wealth not actually digital or sitting in a bank, when they finally get the dragons is just the advantage they need to avoid detection just that little bit longer when they're on the run.

And they do be gay, my dear. Unapologetically 😂

[camusscigarette]

Violets for Roses:

Chapter IV: Dead poets society, where in words, philosophies and coffee, you shall find me.

Pairing: Bedelia/Hannibal

TW: Mentions of abortion and so, some guns as well.

"Let's get you to the bathroom. A nice bath will do the trick" He whispered ever so softly, his hand running through her limp curls.

"I don't feel like it" She croaked out, her eyes glassy with tears she refused to shed.

"Well, I'm proposing to take care of you." He said with a chuckle, lifting her up in his arms as he carried her towards her master bathroom.

Settling her onto the toilet seat, he turned towards her bath and opened the faucet, testing the warmth of the water before he adjusted it to the desired temperature and then turned towards her cabinet. He knew Bedelia liked skincare more than anything, so he grabbed her most used of body oils, pomegranate and gardenia and some baath salts before adding the required amount into the water.

When it reached the perfect level, he closed the faucet and helped her get into the bath, easing her body back against the porcelain as their eyes met and he smiled at her. "Relax" He whispered, his thumb caressing her jawline. "It's just a bath" He reassured her. "Just to wash away the remains of the nightmare".

It was just a bath. Just a refreshing, warm and relaxing bath. But her eyes only saw him as this dark creature, eyes filled with a lust for blood, the very blood that stains her ledger red. She'll give him a taste of it. Soon maybe, who knows? The Avengers are falling apart. It won't take long to figure out the whole truth.

°•୨♡୧•°

"Good Morning, Béatrice. I hope you've had a lovely start of the day" Bedelia told her patient, as the younger woman took a seat infront of her.

"I dreamt of my mother" Her patient said dryly and Bedelia cleared her throat, grabbed her notebook and indicated with her hand for the younger woman to carry on.

"It was the day of our separation, I remember screaming so much that my throat was so sore hours later. There were armed men in my dream. Tearing me away from her" She explained again and Bedelia's eyes furrowed slightly.

"It could be that your mind is tricking you into believing that you were kidnapped from your mother. Are you missing her at all, recently?" Bedelia asked, scribbling down some notes into the pad.

"I am. But I also feel this thirst for..hatred. I hate her but I can't help but miss her. She abandoned me" Béatrice explained as her eyes held a look of sadness in them.

"It is only normal, but as you've told me before, you mother wasn't in a good place. I understand your thirst for her affection more specifically than others, but she wasn't capable of giving it to you. Not in the state she was in."

"Then why have me to begin with?!" Her patient asked with a scoff.

"Sometimes, abortion isn't an option. As terrible as it sounds. Some women are stuck with abusers and are too cowardly to abort themselves, at home. Others do not have the financial abilities to pay for it. And some can not handle the guilt of aborting a fetus" She explained softly, knowing it was a rather, sensitive subject to talk about.

"My mother was a coward" She said bitterly.

"Or maybe a victim" Bedelia whispered.

It earned her a scoff from Béatrice and the ranting began. The girl went on to talk about how the situation had made her feel over the years, how her insecurities and her fears developed furthermore due to her mother's absence and so on.

And as always, Bedelia's mind took it as un échappatoire and began to wander away..

"He took them from me! He took them from me!" Cried the redhead, her body heaving with sobs as an older man and women tried to calm her down.

"Lisichka, you have to calm down. You can not show him how attached you ar—"

"HE TOOK THEM FROM ME! He took them from me and God knows what he's going to do to my babies! My daughters...My Natalya..my Yelena...my babies" The redhead sobbed into her hands, her whole body trembling. She could care less about what he'd do to her when he comes back. She could care less if he'd feed her body to the bears. Could care even less if he'd publicly humiliate her Infront of all the Widows and the Trainees. She wanted her children. Wrong. She needed, her children.

"Can you tell us what happened, Lisichka?" Asked the woman, gently brushing her hands through her short auburn hair.

"He flew us to the base in Siberia. Said something about the British invading the last base, that it was no longer safe." She sniffled. "We got out of the Helicopter and his men snatched the girls from me and pulled me aside. Natalya went into protective mode and stole one of the guns off of the men and began to tell them to back away. I took that as my chance to get them back, so I attacked. But we were outnumbered and next thing I know, Dreykov had a gun to Natalya's head. A GUN! A fucking gun to his own daughter's head!" She hissed angrily, her teeth gritting together. "I fought. I fought them hard as they drugged the girls and flew them elsewhere. I killed some of his men, and I could care less for what kind of punishment he'll have for me. I what my girls back. I have to have them back, Melina. I have to have my babies back" She said, her voice breaking with such desperation.

"I'll try my best to make sure your daughters are okay, Lisichka" Said Alexei, softly, offering her a reassuring smile but even he doubted his own words.

But she didn't trust a word they said. She needed them back. Even if it'll kill her, she'll bring them back to her.

1939. Natalya Alianova Romanova and Yelena Fyodorovna Belova vanished.

°•୨♡୧•°

“NEW! Avengers member, Black Widow also known as Natasha Romanoff leaked all files of the Avengers, leaking also her own and revealing her identity. Who is the real Natasha Romanoff? And what is a Black Widow?”

Hannibal's Ipad dinged as he was busy preparing a meal for the night, in order to pay his dearest therapist a visit.

Unknown to him, that “The Civil War” between the so called heroes, broke out.

[harryissuchalittleshit]

What's your top 10 Harry Potter favorite characters?

Ginny Weasley - like this girl is so fucking badass! Her boyfriend breaks up with her so she dusts herself off and helps run an ARMY! She is the reason why Hogwarts had a resistance during the war! Then after the war she went on to be one of the best Quidditch players of the century!! Be still my beating heart this girl has it all, and on top of everything she had a severally traumatic experience at 11 and has only grown stronger and braver since!

Percy Weasley - the unsung hero of the Weasley family, and I know haters are going to hate, but this man would do anything for his family. He helped with autistic brother, he kept a steady hand in his ADHD brother, he helped teach his dyslexic brother how to read, and he will forever be the brother Ginny turns to for comfort. He sacrificed everything for the people he loves and it meant everything. (Also he is soooo tall and I find that super attractive)

Hermione Granger - at five years old I looked in the mirror with my two oversized front teeth and messy brown hair and thought that I was Hermione because everyone told me I was smart. I dressed up as her three times for Halloween in middle school. I consumed books and studied and just read because I wanted to be Hermione, and she is still and always will be a favorite of mine.

Harry Potter - without him we wouldn’t have the series, but I don’t care about that. Without Harry, I wouldn’t have a pedestal to place Ginny on (lol). I love Harry for his cool and calm demeanor with the perfect amount of sass and (un)observantness. He’s fun to write for and I love his voice and his sense of humor, and he’s never afraid to give some hard advice when needed.

Ron Weasley - do I love character development!!! Ron is such a fun character to write and read, he has so many thoughts and emotions that are fun to explore and I just always enjoy being in his head a little. I think he becomes a wonderful father and grandfather, and he’s the most well rounded individual of the trio.

Rose and Hugo Weasley - does this seem like cheating? Yes! Do I care?? Absolutely not!! I love these two because just like their parents, they have a very clear and well rounded voice and personality, I’ve written so much of them that I feel like we’re just having conversations most days. It’s fun and I love writing for them and giving them a voice they normally don’t get to have.

Draco and Astoria Malfoy - I love character development! I also wrote Draco a redemption arc where he’s a teacher’s aid to a group of preschoolers and he lives with Andromeda for a few years before her tragic death. I write him falling in love with the Muggle world and also Astoria. Speaking of which, Astoria is just a breath of fresh air to the normal Slytherin mentality and attitude. She’s so warm and giving and kind, she doesn’t hide behind walls of her own making, and she’s usually breaking down others. I love the pair of them together, and Scorpius grows up to have such a happy and stable life with them.

Scorpius Malfoy - he’s the perfect child to Astoria and Draco, he has some of Draco’s sass and stubbornness, but all of Astoria’s unyielding kindness and joy. He is such a sweet and good person who is ambitious in his personal and love life. He knows exactly how he wants his life to be and that means Rose Weasley was going to be his bride and mother to their children, and he gets it all at fifteen, a year sooner than he ever imagined.

James and Lily Potter - I was a Jily shipper before I knew what shipping was. I went seeking out jily stories for my first fanfiction experience and that’s led me down the rabbit hole I live in now. I love the voice of truth and honesty that Lily has, just like her son. And I love James serious dedication and overall hope that he also passes down to his son. Knowing James and Lily made me know Harry better, and the love they have is so powerful it’s managed to save the same life three times.

Angelina Johnson - like Ginny, Angelina is fucking badass! She fell in love with her husband at eleven and never felt her love for him waver. She played Quidditch so well that she was recruited for a starting position, but turned it down to go work in the spell damage ward at St. Mungo’s because saving lives means everything to her. She flew missions for the Order during the war and fought in the battle of Hogwarts without getting so much as a hair out of place. She then fell in love again with her husband as they both healed from their losses, she lost a baby and fought to not lose herself, and she almost died having her twins, but still she persisted. Ange is just amazing.

[collinnmckinley]

Given the content that runs rampant in the tags and some of the comments I've seen left on the reblogs of your gifs, I totally get the stance you have taken. It costs absolutely nothing to not be a fucking weirdo on someone else's posts. Commenting on people's gifs with your daddy kink, questionable age gaps, power inbalances and whatever other sexual fantasies is so incredibly rude and does not respect or consider boundaries. Why should you be grateful someone reblogged from you when they don't even have the courtesy to consider that the comments they're leaving on your posts could be triggering or uncomfortable for you? You can keep your fucking reblog if you can't keep your kink to yourself for long enough to press a damn button. Make your own posts if you want to talk about your fantasies.

I love smut but most of what I see in this fandom is just unhinged borderline sexual violence and nothing more because everyone is getting their ideas from porn and other shitty fanfics normalizing damaging behaviors. Yes, it's fiction. Yes, it's fantasy. But again there is a boundary issue and since people in this fandom think it's okay to leave unwanted sexual comments on other people's posts without any sort of provocation, they obviously don't understand boundaries.

I really like your gifs but another reason I followed you is because it was refreshing to see another fan who is fed up with the current state of the fandom. So yeah, fuck you other anon, "seek God" and good riddance. No one should have to put up with this sort of content getting shoved down their throat.

I love you anon, you truly are a treasure. and I hope everything you ever wanted from wishes to hoping, becomes real and true.

you said it! I enjoy my fair share of smut too, but man, the lack of limitation to what should and should not be written is almost none existing in this fandom. and when you speak up about it, you become the bad guy.

ngl this ask almost made me cry from how warm it made me feel. every time I see someone else share the same thoughts I do, it somehow manages to surprise me all over again. cause the amount of degenerates in this fandom is wild, and when I meet someone who is sane with critical thinking, it makes me feel un-alone.

thank you for following <3

and thank you for really liking my gifs (︶︹︺)🫰

[toughgirlchallenges]

Abby McQueeney Penamonte - Registered Dietitian and Nutrition Coach. Helping women to fuel their bodies, improve their relationship with food, fitness, and body image.

Abby in her own words:

  “I used to be a competitive ultra-runner. I competed in 100-mile mountain races and was pretty decent at it. In 2013 I competed and won (female division) the Grand Slam of Ultra-Running. This is 4 x 100 mile races in a 10 week span.

  But too much endurance + too little calories and carbs= Burnout. Anyone that doesn’t believe burnout or adrenal issues are real is a liar. It’s real and it’s debilitating to your body and mind.

  I was forced to stop running and I eventually found weight-lifting. I tried my best at CrossFit but really gravitated towards heavy lifting and fell in love with Powerlifting. 

  I worked with a Nutrition Coach and spent years reverse dieting to support my body and goals and un-do all the years of damage I did as an endurance athlete. My sole purpose was to lift as much as I possibly could in a weight class sport and I was pretty decent at it. In 2018 I competed in PowerLifting Nationals. At 138 pounds my best squat was 290 pounds, bench 190 pounds, and deadlift 325 pounds.

  I ended up hurting my back while lifting in 2019. I eventually decided to walk away from all competitive sports and focus on living a normal life with food and fitness balance.

  These days my goals include lifting weights to support health and hormones. I want to be fit and strong enough to keep up with Molly-dog and continue hiking some beautiful miles in the Colorado mountains. I enjoy eating all foods and consume over 2300 calories. I strength train for ~ 1 hour x 4-5 days per week. I walk 2.5-3.5 miles every-day with Miss Molly.

  I am happier and confident with my body now than any time before. You don’t need to be extreme or restrict yourself to get results. I follow an all-foods fit approach. As a Registered Dietitian and Nutrition Coach my mission now is to prevent other athletes from making the same mistakes I made. 

  My purpose in life is to serve others (women) and help them fuel their bodies, improve their relationship with food + fitness, and body image.”

  New episodes of the Tough Girl Podcast go live every Tuesday at 7am UK time - Subscribe so you don’t miss a single episode. 

  You can support the mission to increase the amount of female role models in the media by visiting www.patreon.com/toughgirlpodcast.

  Show notes

Who is Abby

Living in Denver, Colorado

Working as a Registered Dietitian and Nutrition Coach

What her early years were like

Being 1 of 4 girls

Being inspired by her older sister and getting involved in running from a young age

Running in college and being a mid range mid pack person

Post college getting into longer distances and finding her calling

Loving the people in the running community

Getting into the longer distances 

Running her first trail ultra and building a solid foundation

Enjoying the mental side of the physical challenge

Why 2013 was her break through year 

Putting in the hard work everyday

Entering the grand slam of ultra running 4x100 mile races and winning (2013)! (the Western States 100 in California, the Vermont 100 Mile Endurance Run in Vermont, the Leadville Trail 100 in Colorado, and the Wasatch Front 100 Mile Endurance Run in Utah.

Post season - and trying to recover

Struggling with insomnia, fatigue, blood sugar levels, being anaemic, and not having a menstrual cycle for 3 years

Trying to run through the symptoms 

Getting support and starting to help herself recover

Adrenal Fatigue - HPA Access Disfunction

Why Abby started strength training 

Having the goal to be as strong as possible

Running following a low carb diet - and following keto

Dr Stacey Simms - ROAR 

Why low carb isn’t the best for women

Needing to step away from competitive sports

Having more balance in her life with regards to food and fitness

Starting her own business

Having balance in her life?!

What a typical week of training looks like

Loving and appreciating rest days

Her philosophy with food now - all foods fit

How to connect with Abby

Final words of advice

Figure out why you are making changes

  Social Media

  Instagram: @abbymcpabby 

  Facebook: @AbbyMcQueeneyPenamonte 

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[fieldofdill]

My first short story

(I was thinking of turning this into a book but didn’t have the motivation)

I knew the world was hiding something from me…

I’ve always been the odd one out, my mother always thought I’d grow out of it.. but she was wrong

As a child I had always had a wild imagination

Time travel, alternative worlds, the divine

These “delusions” started out so peaceful and calming

Soon these worlds become more appealing than reality, and so in my minds cruel attempt at forcing me back into my life, these worlds quickly became of great evil… torturing even…

But I refused to leave

For years and years as these worlds destroyed my sanity I ruined any slim chances I possibly had of a normal life

I pushed everyone who could ever love me away

Except for my mother

Well on June 21st 2034 I was finally released from residential with some very unappealing news

Just three months before my release my mother had died

I had nobody to pick me up

They arranged me a bus ticket on some tacky bus out of the city, but I didn’t take it

I walked all the way to my house, 14 miles.

I knew the way.

When I got to my house, the home which I could only afford with the money I inherited from my once loving grandmother

I could only focus on my books

The books which got me into the residential in the first place

“The relapse of the stars”

My own personal theory

The fire that keeps the universe working,

You see if you remember how fire works, then you would understand that just like a heart beat it pulsates,

gets bigger and smaller every couple of seconds

Stars are huge I assume, and this means they pulsate as well

That means every couple of seconds every star in the universe beats like a heart pulling in trillions of tons of gasses, rock, and metal that keep that thing running

And every couple of second those stars push trillions of tons of toxic un-breathable gasses back out,

These gasses keep getting pushed and pushed like one of those coin machines at the arcade so my question is

Why are we still alive?

Clearly every tree on every planet isn’t enough to replace the trillions of tons of carbon dioxide slowly making its way through space every couple of years

So what is keeping us alive?

The obvious solution is just that there are enough non-toxic gasses to keep things running, but what in this universe is producing them?

All the things in space that produce these life-saving gasses are trillions of light years away, and yet they only produce these gasses as a secondary product, that’s not nearly enough to support what is likely an uncountable amount of life across the universe

So what is making this gas?

This theory has been itching at me for quite some time, I truly believe the only explanation is that something or someone is in control, someone beyond our concept of reality

But In truth nothing explains it.

I have ten books about this.

My mother had always told me that I surrounded myself with lies

She would look me in the eyes she as she put her hand on my shoulder and she would say “Tyler, you surround yourself with lies” and I would say “I know mom” and I would keep digging myself into my books

I knew as a man who had spent his whole life warning of the sudden end of the world that it was to never come, at least not in my life.

The world was not doomed to end any sooner then any other.

But with the relapse of the stars it begs an important question

What happens when we run out of those primal gasses which keep us breathing.

The worst fear is that there is a limited amount, upon the loss of that amount perhaps over nonillions of years, the universe would slowly pull itself into an orb, perhaps an orb the size of a marble and explode once again, restarting the universe all over again.

I spent years on my books, and they will never be published, and even if they were…

What’s the point?

That’s when I realized that I was done.

I was done with everything

all the meaningless bullshit I had been wasting my life on, I was a man with no education, no friends, and now no family. I had three things left to my name

A house I didn’t want

A phone I didn’t need

And a car

And so upon a very parch moment of thought I knew what I was going to do and I was going to do it right.

I was going to hop in my car and drive

Drive forever

Drive to no destination.

And when i ran out of gas,

Well I’d figure that out.

[memoirsofaseraph]

Hi baby.

Thank you for your sweet words. And happy October 13th (National confession day). 

It is crazy, how time really flies. Je me souviens tellement précisément de ce jour, how nervous you were. How nervous I was, too. I remember texting bestie on the side being like “What the fuck”, all panicky. Even though I knew it was me. How could I not? Who else could it have been? We were spending almost all of our time together, talking to each other 24/7… it had to be me. And yet, it would not get to my head. 

[Me panicking post-confession: October 13th, 2022] "mais bestie pourquoi il crush sur moi si il veut rien de sérieux" "moi je suis une serious girl" (i actually really wasn’t before you…) "il veut rien de sérieux" "moi aussi je veux rien de sérieux" "fin au début je rigole je fais la meuf" "mais après je deviens obsessed tu me connais pitié" (i knew it was over for me fr) "je veux pas flirt dans le vent bestie" "après je vais faire une fixette et être triste" "mais bestie en plus" "ses délires d’ex là" "je suis une jalouse" "je serais jamais tranquille" "dis-lui que je suis une serious obsessive jalouse ça va le turn off"

The pre-confession is even worse to be honest but I’ll spare you (keeping this for your dms… je refuse que ça reste gravé ici pour toujours).

But yeah, baby, it was really crazy. Even on my part, I would’ve never reacted like that over a crush before you, I would’ve never thought this far. With you, I was automatically like... I’m gonna get more and more attached to him, I’ll want something serious, he’s gonna do something wrong and I’ll be sad. That was really my thought process, baby. Really, I was trying to avoid it because I knew I would end up falling for you. And it was scary as hell. You were so different from everything and anyone I'd known before, everything about you felt so new. You know, I think, to some extent, it’s only natural to want to run away from something good when you’ve been so used to feeling no good, and for so long. J’avais cette routine vraiment nulle d’osciller entre deux relations complètement insignifiantes, qui m’apportaient rien mais qui étaient confortables. Confortables dans le sens où, j’étais habituée à partir et revenir. À jongler entre les deux. Puis je pense aussi que, aussi malsain que ça puisse être, j’aimais bien cette dynamique. I liked knowing I didn’t have to stay, knowing I had someone else to go to if it fell apart, it felt easy. I knew I couldn’t get my heart broken like that. 

Toi… toi. C’était tout l’inverse de ça, t’es venu et t’as complètement chamboulé tous mes plans, toutes mes routines, toutes mes (mauvaises) habitudes. You came along and next thing I knew, I was dropping both of them at the same time. Je le savais peut-être pas moi-même mais mon coeur, lui, l’a tout de suite su. Car indirectement, j’ai tout fait pour me retrouver avec toi, et toi uniquement, sans distraction extérieure ou ex pour venir perturber ce qu’on avait. I wanted so desperately to be alone with you. To be ready for you, somehow. Even before you confessed, before I even knew myself I had a crush on you.

And you’re right, we did nothing normal. Both of us. Que ce soit avant ou pendant, pour ma part. And I’m so glad we worked out. But we had to work right? It couldn't have worked any other way anyway, we had to. We were meant to. Still, I’m so grateful that you stayed, through everything. So eternally grateful for the amount of patience you’ve shown towards me, even when I was really hard to deal with, even when I was unfair to you. I’m so thankful for this, even to this day. I wrote this in another entry but, you really got me out of my shell, in every way. When it came to love, I was really such a wreck. Mais finalement, je sais pas vraiment si j’ai déjà eu le coeur brisé avant toi. Bien sûr, j’ai déjà été blessée et ça m’a causé bien des soucis, trust issues, struggling to open up (…) So many stuff that I had to work on. Mais le coeur brisé? J’étais persuadée que oui, avant. Mais après toi, it didn't feel like it anymore. Rien ne peut égaler la peine que j’ai ressenti pendant ces quelques jours où on ne se parlait plus, le vide dans lequel je me trouvais. And to me, this is what heartbreak feels like. And I’ve never felt that way before; even when I’ve been really hurt, I never got to a point where it was this bad, where I felt like my world was collapsing. I only felt it with you.

When I told you everything about you felt new, I really meant it. Et pourtant, avant ça m’arrivait de partager le même feeling avec plusieurs personnes, c’est une expérience très déroutante d’ailleurs. C’est pour cette raison que, pendant longtemps, j’avais considéré l’option d'être dans une union libre ou whatever, as long as I wasn’t trapped with one person. Maintenant ça me dégoûte, je peux plus l’imaginer du tout et rien que d’y penser me donne le vertige. But at the time, I just felt like love wasn’t so special, like I could find it everywhere but also, nowhere. I’ve never been satisfied with anyone before you. Say, I liked someone, I liked some traits about this person — it could never last. Because I would find someone else who had other traits that I liked but who was, also, lacking some other traits. It was a never-ending cycle, hence why I felt like I could find love everywhere and nowhere at the same time. I’ve never been satisfied with anyone before you. And again, it felt so new with you because, for the first time, I felt so complete. I wasn’t trying to fill someone else’s void with you. I genuinely liked (and loved) everything about you. You were so perfect, and to think that I had this perfect person, that I’ve been looking for forever (but also avoiding), right in front of me... Je sais pas vraiment comment l’expliquer, c’est très complexe comme concept je crois mais tu sais, le fait de tomber d’un coup sur ce que t’as toujours cherché, ce que t’as toujours voulu; ça fait peur, car sur le coup t’as du mal à t’en rendre compte et à l'accepter. Ou en tout cas, c’était comme ça dans mon cas parce que c’était tellement inattendu. I’ve never felt this good, this happy. Et, en même temps, je sais que je ne pourrais jamais souffrir autant avec quelqu’un d’autre, connaître une douleur pareille. I guess that’s what so tricky about real love, you live in complete bliss and happiness while knowing they got the key to your misery the whole time.

That being said, I love you. I cherish everything related to you so deeply, our little milestones, anniversaries. They matter so much, and I’m so happy we get to celebrate everything together. So, so happy that we get to look back on our past happily. I love you, and I’m so proud of this pretty relationship that we have.

Happy one year of Kier and Nereid falling for each other!!!