#i mean i am gonna starve

[the-mechanisms-system]

my brain be like “hey u know what would be funny? lets hit him where it hurts right when he is vulnerable (asleep)” fr like what is with my dreams coming for my throat lately lmao goddamn please chill. i do not need a refresher course on the fact that my biofuck does not love me thanks can we please just dream about obama or smth like a normal person

[biblically-accurate-soup]

“if you are trying to be a phd candidate in a social science field why the fuck are you studying math for fun” because i’m quirky and hot. next question.

[bo0zey]

anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

[piningpercussionist]

(Not an rp ask)

What is your opinion on chau x kim? I'm not a shipper of it myself but I heard it was a proship since knives is 17 but also I saw she was 18 in the comic so I'm not sure where to stand on it honestly. But I'd like to hear your opinion about it !! Sorry if this is a bit of a random ask (ーー;

You're completely fine!! Do not even worry about it.

So, yeah- When Scott first meets Knives, and I'm not entirely sure how much time passes between then and when they start dating, it was *literally* her seventeenth birthday, as I am reminding myself reading back over these panels presently. And then at the start of book six, the first time we see (real, non-dream,) Knives, she has apparently been eighteen for a week!

Now, I'm going to preface with a little something before I go further into this: I am totally fine answering this ask and others like it I think! but, I will note, I do get like a (not fun) physical sensation in my chest- partly anxiety (lol) but also something else I think- thinking about them like 95% of the time- it's gotta be like. Handled The Right Way, if that makes sense. Let's get into it.

So, first off, I'm just gonna re: some of the stuff relative to this I've posted here before- both nonrp and rp, since I use RP to develop my read on Kim and shed some light on how I see things I guess!

These clips come from this ask (and reblog) here!

This rp ask here, which is simply too difficult for me to get in a good screenshot I feel, so I recommend just checking it and the tags for it out- I will share my Bonus Commentary reply though:

This ask as well! Tags less pressing, but still provide a little insight.

And this is probably a dumb inclusion if I really want to make a pseudonym to post fics under, but. I have posted my (very early) thoughts on the SPTO sparks scene to AO3 before, so- (and before going into this- I did remember that Julie and Gideon have that sparks scene after the fact!)

And here's the Barely Anything Lines hinting at the ship that I had in that fic that I used to justify that blurb, while we're here:

I think I've gone over my feelings a little bit in the discord as well, and there might even be more rp stuff relative to it, but I'm not going to go back and get any of that honestly- at least, not right now, or unless requested, since I don't really feel like it's necessary, if it does exist. This gives a pretty good glimpse in I'd say- especially that second to last one there.

So. Yeah.

Used to ship it; have expanded my horizons since then. I don't really want to knock it because like... for some people this is a legitimate life experience for them- one that might have even turned out well, miraculously. And there also a lot of minors in this fandom evidently, so like, any other baby gays out there just wanting to Project for a minute? I feel that. Sincerely I do. It's not the wisest choice but better to read fanfiction about it than go out and actually make out with a 23 year old, Gods forbid. (Genuinely felt sick thinking about that; fucking gross. Any minors out there: Please Make Good Choices. Look out for yourselves. Begging you. There are too many freaks in this world- I promise you whoever you're thinking of probably isn't the magical exception.)

But there are definitely things to consider about them that are very interesting to me, still, so like. I'm in this weird state of conflict; I don't know if it's just me being like "it happened, you can't escape it" or having been desensitized/some sort of Brainwashed by how many times I had to use Knives in the game to quick heal- maybe something else but I just don't feel like flaying myself open like that unprompted for just anyone- but like. Oh man.

Sorry, gathering/writing this that feeling like went away but came circling back for this last bit, it seems. Which makes sense I guess. I feel like I'm setting myself up for a Pyre right now eugh shfsgkjfhjg

I dunno. I'm not gonna lie and pretend like I know it to be some big formative ship for me in my early teen years, but it was kind of important in finally coming around to realizing how queer I was, I think. My memories of the time are fuzzy, but it would have been one of the things- there were likely larger ones, my current obsession could be recoloring my past here so I'm trying to acknowledge that.

But there is like. A dynamic that is posited by them that is also one I'm a really big sucker for. More so now than I was then, so I find myself grinding my teeth about that a fair bit at times.

I definitely still really like it as something unrequited no matter what I think; I like the idea of Knives having a really big crush on Kim, genuinely. I think it's cute and funny as hell for how uncomfortable it would make Kim, who's just trying so hard not to be a fucking creep while this ray of sunshine hangs off her- something she absolutely does not deserve (in her eyes.)

I'm obviously more partial to Kim resisting any advances made at her, but I can understand so, so badly why someone might be attracted to the idea of Knives managing to thaw some of Kim's frigidity with that. Ugh.

If they work for me, I think they'd have to work for me after Knives is gone at college for a bit. Kim would need to know Knives for longer than she knew her as a minor- and they'd have to be FRIENDS in that time, quite strictly. Kim would need to not feel (intensely, because frankly, she would unavoidably feel this way at least a little no matter what,) like she was a fucking groomer going into it, basically. I don't know what I think past that.

You know, I'll put my feelings like this: with the exception of a fic I saw recommended to someone that intrigued me, I have managed to resist reading any/many fics featuring them, despite it being a large majority of the wlw Kim fics that exist, and also kinda just Kim fics generally. It's kind of Insane, especially considering how much Kimona SCREAM at you from the pages of the comic itself- but I digress....

I've been working on this for like over an hour now I think so I really should cut myself off. I am like,, too hungry and mildly stoned to be rambling off about this maybe. If you want more concise/specific thoughts, I recommend prompting! I can try and channel the responses easier with a bit more direction, maybe?

...

actually another thing real quick- I like. Do not know that I could ever feel comfortable, truly, consuming content for them, not knowing if the OP has good intentions. I just Do Not trust people, largely, so that's just like. A little thing. Idk. "Death to the author" or whatever but I am still allowed to feel personally uncomfortable ya know! I don't want them taking my silent observation as like,, passive acceptance in the event that they were. Idk if that makes sense, I need to go eat already, I'm hitting post before i drag this out to TWO hours

[charlottedabookworm]

Ngl, but I really, really, really want Art!Egg to get hugged by like Ser Harwin or Leanor. Just a mentor, maybe pseudo not quite parental figure because let's face it. Aegon is kinda a cesspool of trauma. and I both want him to suffer a bit and get the comfort he deserves

so i tried to write a hug because you're right, egg is a cesspool of trauma and he deserves comfort to go with his suffering. he deserves a hug. he really do

...however.

i tried?

"Well done, Prince Aegon!" His goodbrother cheers, clapping him on the back with enough strength to tip him forwards.

Aegon turns a scowl at the knight. "I lasted five minutes," he mutters, and he knows that it's a feat. He knows that a boy of four and ten lasting five minutes against a blooded knight is a feat to be praised but he isn't just a boy of four and ten. Egg knows he can be better, knows he should be better than he is, but he keeps stumbling over growing limbs and arms that begin to shake too quickly and-

Ser Laenor laughs, bright and loud, and swings an arm over his shoulders as he leans in close. "You almost had me at points," the knight admits easily.

Distantly.

His ears are ringing, the sound of waves and steel nigh drowning all else out. The arm around his shoulders is warm, almost scalding, brands of flame flickering along his skin and he-

"I see why my boys speak so highly of your training," Ser Laenor is saying.

He wants to flinch away.

He can't move.

"...Prince Aegon?"

The arm shifts away, taking the burning-scalding-warmth with it, and a part of him keens for the loss. He wants to run. He wants that arm around his shoulders again and he-

Aegon swallows, marshalling every part of himself that is Arthur Pendragon, King of Camelot, and pretends this is normal. Pretends that his chest isn't aching for Wet Stick and Blue and his girls and the easy touches each of them gives.

He smiles and pretends he isn't going to burst out of his skin.

That he isn't hungry.

(Helaena doesn't like touch and that's fine, he understands. Egg has seen it before and he's proud that when his sister does want touch she'll curl into his side because she trusts him. Aemond doesn't care either way, not now he's growing.

he's not sure Viserys remembers they exist. any of them. Egg is fine with that, given that Rhaenyra has their father's favour and the King treats her like that. but the man has never hugged him in his memory

his mother had stopped once he could walk)

(Aegon hasn't had a touch that wasn't designed to hurt in so long-)

"I'll beat you next time, Ser Laenor," he says, his smile wide. He needs to leave-

His goodbrother stares at him and something dark flickers across his face. He opens his mouth, lifts his arm as if to reach out and-

Aegon doesn't run away.

He just has lessons that he needs to be in, right this moment.

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

So like technically I’m not dating her but yeah I think I do in fact have a girlfriend

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

@ all y'all who yelled at me yesterday:

don't worry, I'll make a proper AU post for the Don't Starve AU eventually!

after I, uh, get a few more things done from my drafts, then I can goof off a little and do some funny little AUs-

[nerdie-faerie]

The audacity of my mum to ask if I've tried a new meal yet as if I would ever try a new meal for anything less than the pain of death

[smulnsander]

my #1 thing that makes me intrested in a man is: is he short(er than me). The second one is: is he shy(er than me)

[hearties-circus]

I!! Hate!! Random!! Hunger spikes!!!

[medicinemane]

You know, capitalism is another one of those words that sadly is like problematic in that it's functionally useless because people just toss it out and then everyone gets so hung up debating the meaning of the word capitalism that the whole point is lost

That's why I don't ever really use it. It doesn't really matter if it's capitalism or if it's cronyism or... whatever, I think it's bad when companies make record profits while prices go up up up

I think there's probably an issue and it probably needs to be solved (and I'm afraid you can't convince me less regulation is a magic bullet)

I like currency and exchanging currency because it seems like a good way of moving goods and labor around, but I also strongly support welfare and think that any group of more than 50 people is probably starting to get corrupt

Don't trust the government, but sure as hell don't trust corps...

I don't know, my original point is that sadly capitalism gets tossed around too much to mean anything anymore... but I just see too many argumentative people online so I'm tossing out my stances to avoid getting side tracked debating what I mean

What I really really mean is just fucking say what you're saying and don't bother saying capitalism cause you'll just make people argue and miss your point

[queercatboyrights]

totally not me having one of the shittiest mental health crisis known to man for like, the last week

[novethegreat]

I may not be the best at it but writing kisses is just so much fun. It's like ah yeah I remember what that was like. Hope I can do it again someday

[spirit-praise-and-beauty]

venting in tags again dont rb

[pancake-syrup]

this isnt going very good i want to eat candy

and ive yet to start packing... hm.

[beeseverywhen]

Earlier I wanted to eat something that was may contain soy and I didn't want to wait. But I was highly suspicious of it not containing soy in the first place (had chocolate on it. Chocolate always has soy) and I had no epi pen with me. So I ate it in the supermarket rationalising that there was a pharmacy next door and they'd have one should I begin to die in the supermarket. Anyway it was fine. No soy in the ice cream. However when I walked past the pharmacy it was closed and like. Had a big metal shutter on it and I felt a bit like when you don't see a car coming till its too late but they do see you and stop just in time