#i never cared much about traditional celebrities either. i just watched a lot of youtube commentary videos

[shoechoe]

recently i've noticed that i've pretty much completely stopped caring about youtuber drama. that's probably for the best

[thegallicwitch]

Hello, wild ones! I’m Mako, a druid and home witch (which is what I call my blend of green and kitchen witchcraft) and a follower of the Gaulish pantheon and culture. I’m French, I identify as agender (they/them) and I have a physical disability that severely impacts my walking. I frequently use crutches, as well as a wheelchair, I take strong painkillers and medical morphine to manage the chronic pain that comes with the territory and I’m bedridden several times a month. All of that has an impact on my practice and that’s why I’m well-versed in pain spells and rituals, as well as studying herbalism and beginning to work as a natural healer, because I know debilitating pain all too well.

I follow the traditions and knowledge of my country and the witches of my community. I have so much to learn still, and I want to share French witchcraft practices with the rest of the world and bring a piece of the world back into my practice. I hope you’ll follow along with me. I thought, to start things out, I’d fill a few questions from the Witchy Tag and tag a few of my favorite tumblr witches so you can get to know me and hopefully I can meet a few of you this way! 

If you’d like to find me elsewhere, I’m The Gallic Witch everywhere. I have an Instagram for daily practices, rituals and the like, a TikTok for more specific magickal projects and herbalism, and a youtube channel where I share in depth rituals and spells, talk about the Gaulish culture and deities, discuss the community here in France and what I’ve been taught, etc. I also have an Instagram for the Gaulish-inspired tarot deck I’m creating, the Tarot of Belisama, which you can find here as I share sneak-peeks and cards as I draw them. I hope to see you there soon! BELISAMA BLESS YOU ✨

1. what kind of witch are you?

I am a home witch, mainly, which is what I call being both a green witch and a kitchen witch. In a way, I suppose I’m mostly a French witch, given that my craft and practice is heavily influenced by local tradition and knowledge.

But in my daily practice, I follow the Druidic Path and I’m working with the Gaulish way of life and beliefs.

2. how did you discover your path?

My grandmother was a botanist, so when I was little, she would take my sister and me on long hikes and show us all the plants, one by one, teaching us the latin names and their medical properties. I took to it instantly, but distanced myself when she passed away in a misguided attempt at healing. I grew up around women in my community who would brew herbal remedies, cook you a cream or a poultrice for your break outs or your sprained ankle, people who could take away the fire from a burn or long day in the sun just with a hovering of the hand. Little by little, I learned from them, learned the way of the French witches who work for the community and not for themselves. I admired them, still do, but never thought I could be one of them, as what I was being initiated in was much closer to herbalism and being a Druid than a witch. Then I found Annie’s youtube channel, THE GREEN WITCH, and I just watched and watched, without being able to stop. I felt such a connection with her videos and her path, so I did my research, and finally started seriously studying magic, for about a year, before I even dared calling myself a witch. I wanted to have the knowledge to back that up, you know? And two years after, here I am, with knowledge and some more confident, branching out from my Druidic path and adding witchcraft to my practice for a year now!

3. how long have you been practicing?

If you count the Druidic/herbalism stuff, for roughly half of my life, so like then years, but witchcraft proper, two years.

4. what path/tradition do you follow?

Druidic teachings and Gaulish tradition/deities & French witchcraft, mainly herbalism. I consider myself a healer and a Druid even before being a witch. I want to make a living out of healing people. I follow the tradition of rural France, somewhere between the communities of the Black Mountain, the land Corbières-Minervois and Burgundy.

5. are you solitary or do you have a coven?

Currently solitary but I hope to find and join a Druidic circle one day.

7. do/would you teach and practice witchcraft to your children?

I don’t want children, but on principle, yes, absolutely. I think it’s an essential part of teaching them about the world and giving them the tools to be self-sufficient and healers too.

8. do you have a patron/matron deity?

I don’t use the words patron and matron because they don’t represent or apply to my believes, but purely from their meaning, they would be Belisama, Epona and Brig (or Brigid, she has different names depending on the Celtic nation you’re a part of).

9. favorite pantheon?

Egyptian. All the way. But it’s more of a remnant of childhood than what my faith aligns with today.

10. favorite goddess?

Hard one. Either Epona or Damona from the Gaulish pantheon or 嫦娥.

11. favorite god?

Thot, the scribe from the Egyptian.

12 and 13 are skipped since I don’t believe in astrology.

15. thoughts on the afterlife?

I believe in reincarnation like all Gauls but I don’t believe in Heaven or an afterlife as in, a place you end up after your life.

17. are you out of the broom closet? if so, how do your friends/family feel about your path?

I hate that expression with a passion. I’m LGBTQ+, and I find it incredibly offensive. In regards to the question itself, my family and friends do know I practice witchcraft, and no one cares. My sister and friends are very supportive, they actively want my opinion or my help depending on the circumstances. My mom finds it interesting, but she’s more into me being a healer, since my grandmother was her mom. She helps a lot with the herbalism side, and teaches me things and we do our mixes together. Even my dad who’s not interested, drinks my herbal teas and doesn’t mind me putting talismans and protection charms all over our home, smudging and doing spells and rituals.

19. do you have an altar?

I do, yes. Not just one, in fact. I have a main one for spells and rituals and just, general practice. I have one for my Ancestors and deities. And I have a portable one that I use to mix my herbal teas and make my remedies, as well as do divination.

20. what’s a spell that you’ve done?

Lately? A money spell for my mom.

22. favorite pagan holiday that you celebrate?

I love Chandeleur, the French version of Imbolc. And because spring is my favorite season and the best time of the year for me mentally and physically, I also adore Beltane.

26. favorite witch websites?

Absolutely WITCH UNIVERSITY. I learned a lot of things there. Also Wildera, a fellow French pagan. And I follow a lot of witches and celtic pagans on tumblr and tiktok, learning a lot from them.

29. favorite season?

Spring and Winter, in equal parts.

30. favorite herb?

Lavender. Or maybe rosemary.

31. favorite gem?

Amethyst. And lapis-lazuli.

38. your grimoire.

The original question was about a book of shadow but I’m not a wiccan and I don’t use that term, so here’s my grimoire. I handmade it, from stitching the pages to crafting the cover, bookmark and decorations. I love it, I put so much intention and love into it.

39. your tarot deck(s) (or one you want).

The first picture is of my first tarot deck and still my favourite, the Dishonored deck. It’s the one I use the most, still.

The second is the Prism Tarot, which is the last deck I bought (now four decks in total) and has been a project I’ve followed since it was still being drawn, up to supporting the kickstarter and becoming good friends with the creator, Liz, as I started making my own tarot deck. I highly recommend it, it’s an amazing piece of a art and an amazing magickal tool.

And I’m gonna tag some of my favourite tumblr witches in case they haven’t done this before:  @heatherwitch @grandmaveitch @gardenfoxywitch @herbwicc @greenwitchofwonderland @a-green-witch @boiledwheatblog  @thatsunflowerwitch @kitchenwitchtingss @queerkitchenwitch​ @coffeewitchcafe​ @servantofthefates​

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #416

“don’t pray for me when you’re the one to blame  /  don’t think of me when you go up in flames”

Does your town/area have a farmer’s market? Do you ever buy your vegetables there rather than grocery store? Not close enough for us to actually go there for groceries, no. If you had a significant other and somehow got a chance to kiss your celebrity crush, would you still go for it? Well no, given Mark's been in a serious relationship for like six years, and I'd feel disloyal to my partner. I can just dream about it, ha ha. Do you tend to be attracted to people that are more similar to you in interests and mannerisms or do you tend to be attracted to someone opposite/complementing to you? I tend to be drawn to people I'm more similar to. What is a talent that a lot of other people desire or value but you really don’t care to have (e.g., singing, etc.)? *shrug* If someone asks you to hang out, but for some reason you’re just feeling lazy/don’t want to go anywhere, do you ignore them, make up an excuse, or just tell them the honest truth? Tbh, odds are I'm making up an excuse. Would you like to meet an alien? That would depend on its motives. It might have wisdom to share, or it may be nefarious, in which case I don't wanna meet it obviously. If so, would you trust them enough to go back with them to their planet? That's a no no matter how it acts. Trust issues, my friend. And that's with humans. What do you think is at the end of space. It's kinda science that space is infinite... Do you like D&D or Magic: The Gathering the most? I've never played D&D because I know I would be way, way too awkward to actually do it. M:TG is fun, though. What is your favorite Disney movie? TLKKKKK. What’s your favorite book series? Wings of Fire tops the list right now, but Warriors will always have a very special place in my heart. What’s something you wish they’d build in your neighborhood? Idk. Do you usually keep ponytail holders around your wrist? No. I don't even wear my hair in a ponytail because it's too short. Sunny D or orange juice? Orange juice. I have to be in a very specific mood for Sunny D. Can you snap out of a bad mood fast? Nooooo, unless something drastically good happens. How can a person tell if you’re mad or annoyed? My face will probably give it away, mixed with me being short and snippy or more awkward than normal because I'm trying to not be a bother. What’s something you enjoy that’s outside your age level? Certain TV shows. When your friends come and hang out at your house, what do you get up to? The only friend I have that I hang out with once in a blue moon is Girt, and we'd usually play board games or watch TV. Do you think it’s ignorant for people to have unprotected sex when they’re not ready for a child? Yes. Like yes, I'm pro-choice so won't look down on someone getting an abortion, but I still think you should be willing to act to prevent things from getting to that point where that procedure is chosen. For it or against it, abortion is a serious decision and should be treated as such. What were your favourite things to do as a child? My favorite thing had to be video games, specifically Spyro, and I also adored Webkinz and Neopets on the computer. I also loved playing make-believe with my toys like every other kid. I loved watching Dad play video games, too. I've also been a drawing fiend since I was very little. If you were shopping with your best friend, and they picked an outfit that was completely unflattering, would you tell them? I honestly don't know if I would. Her being comfortable and happy in it is what matters, anyway. Do you prefer using air-con or having the windows down when you’re driving on a hot day? Team A/C for sure. I hate the feeling of wind just slapping the hell outta your face and making a nest out of your hair. Can you ever manage to finish three courses when you go out to eat at restaurants? No. What would you say your favourite farm animal is? Pigs! They are so incredibly misunderstood. They're very intelligent, CLEAN (I know, can you believe it?), silly, and happy animals that I just adore. Is your ex currently in a relationship and if yes, how do you feel about that? Idk if "the" ex is with anyone, and it's for the better I don't, probably. Which one of your friends should be a stand-up comedian? Girt. Is your mom a better driver or your dad? Oh yeah. Dad tailgates like a motherfucker. What's your least favorite genre of music? Either rap or country, idk. Do you like poems? I do. Do you enjoy drawing? I have a love-hate relationship with it. I LOVE when something comes out the way I wanted it to, but if it doesn't, I feel very disappointed in myself and bash it into my head that I could do better. Do you even have any drawing talent? So I'm told. Have you ever seen The Sound of Music? Yes, in elementary school's music class. Ever seen Beetlejuice? If so, did you enjoy it? Oh yes, that was one of Jason's favorites. I liked it. How do you deal with oppressive heat? Complain, sweat my ass off, do anything I can to cool off that doesn't involve taking clothes off. What’s one thing that people definitely CAN’T count on you for? To remember pretty much anything whatsoever. What about something they definitely can count on you for? An ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on. How do you feel about your handwriting? I like it. Is there a store that bothers you immensely for some reason (people who shop there irritate you or the employees who work there are rude, etc.)? Uhhhh I don't think so. What’s something you complain about frequently? If I'm hot, or my legs hurting. If you’re home alone and someone knocks on the door, what do you do? Ignore it. I'm not answering. What’s one book that you have read that will stick with you forever? Johnny Got His Gun by Dalton Trumbo. It's an anti-war pacifism novel, which is something I'm very much passionate about. Would you ever get one of those old school “mom” tattoos with the heart? No. I know with certainty I want a tribute to my mom when she passes, but definitely not that design. Are you a Giants fan? I don't care for sports, but the NYG always make me think of Jason's dad, who is like, obsessed with them. So I guess I feel a bit of warmness towards them just for memory's sake. Last time you went pumpkin picking? Never. Do you prefer eating corn straight off the cob or corn already taken off the cob? I think corn on the cob tastes better with all the butter and spices you can put on it, but I do enjoy off the cob too because it's just so much cleaner. Would you want your family to go on Wife Swap? Well, I live with my mom and she's divorced, so... I don't have to worry about this. How old is your current e-mail address? God, I've had it since I was a kid. Last time you conversed with someone in a language other than English? Not since taking a test for German in high school. Last video you favorited on YouTube? Oh my god, it was this video from my favorite reptile channel (Snake Discovery) of them taking their pet tegu to the park. She clearly had SO much fun. Now mind you I very rarely favorite things, so yeah, I adored the video. Do you like chocolate with coconut filling? Noooo, I'm not a coconut fan at all. What was the first thing you ate today? Mom made bacon, yuuuuum. Do you know how to play Mahjong? No. Mom loves it, though. Do you have any skirts longer than knee-length? I don't own any skirts. What’s the farthest you’ve gone with someone you weren’t dating? Just flirting. Ever had a promise ring? No. What about one of those “I’ll wait until marriage” rings (I think they’re called purity rings or something)? They're called abstinence rings, and yes, in HS. Funny how looking back I was definitely breaking that vow while I wore it lmao. What is the shortest time you’ve heard of people being together before getting married? My late grandma and her second husband got married SO fast. Like they were together for probably a couple months (maybe less?), then boom, the news came that they were engaged. Are any of your friends currently pregnant? Facebook friends, yes, which are mostly composed of old friends and acquaintances from school. One poor girl very recently got into a bad wreck, but thank goodness she and her unborn daughter are okay. Have you ever played golf? I loved playing putt-putt when I was younger, and then Jason and I once had a mini-golf date. It was really cute. When was the last time you waxed anything on your body, if ever? It's been some years since I used to wax my eyebrows. Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes. A minor one, but still. Can you honestly say you love the last person you kissed? Yep. Are you smiling in your Facebook profile picture? Yeah. Would you ever go on Fear Factor? Noooo. I would NEVER get past day #2 where they tend to do the disgusting shit, and I'm way too out of shape to do the wild stuff they do. What colour was the last mask you wore? Blue. Can any of your friends sing well? Which one has the nicest singing voice? Oh yes, Sara has an absolutely beautiful voice. When was the last time you had a nightmare? I had two last night, actually. I have this habit of taking my APAP mask off in the middle of the night because it's a nuisance, and I never remember doing so. When I do that, I'm much more prone to have nightmares because the mask helps my sleep apnea, which causes my nightmares/terrors. Where do you see yourself in ten years? I do NOT want to imagine this. It's either going to be beautiful or a fucking catastrophe, of that I'm sure. Does your family have traditions? Just pretty ordinary holiday ones. Have you ever met anyone half-way famous? Tez is famous, as far as I'm concerned. :') I also have some musician friends trying to make it, but idk how far they've actually gotten in the industry. Is there a celebrity that you are related to? No, just ancestors. Would you call your last relationship a mistake? Definitely not. Would you ever take up a job in photography? Ugh... that's the fucking dream. But I'm massively losing hope. Do you throw out your assignments once you’ve gotten them back? When I was in school, it depended on whether it would serve as good study material or not. Who was the last person you messaged on Facebook? My old friend Jenna messaged me a few days back just to say she was thinking about me and wished me well, which I really appreciated. Of course I messaged her back wishing her the same and all. Have you ever developed a crush on someone the first day you met them? Don't believe so, no. Do you have any friends who never shut up about their boyfriend/girlfriend? Well, I used to. She vanished. Have you ever showered with a member of the opposite sex? No. Don't want to. I want to be alone when I shower.

[1989xtaylorsversion]

tana mongeau should not be influencing anyone.

the term “influencer” has been tossed around frivolously for years, and often it’s for people who don’t deserve it. i cringe everytime i call someone an influencer, or worse when they call themselves one. look, i get it. it’s a lot easier to say you’re an influencer than to explain why your mediocre 15 second dance videos on tiktok gave you millions of followers. however, as social media influence grows and more people are dropping out of school or not going at all, in order to pursue the celebrity lifestyle, the list of influencers has expanded. it’s transcended just YouTube, and now you have tiktok stars and instagram models. when you really look at how many people are reaping the benefits of being an influencer, you start to wonder, who actually deserves to wear that title proudly, and who, for lack of a better word, just sucks. one person i believe falls under the latter is miss tana mongeau.

TANA MONGEAU: THE INTRO

tana mongeau is a 22 year old YouTuber who sort of hit mainstream success a few years ago. there’s a chance you’ve heard of her, even if you’re not a regular subscriber, and i wouldn’t blame you if you weren’t. i’ll be straight up and admit that i do not like her, and i’ve felt this way for a long time. i wish i could sit here and write about all the amazing things she’s done to help the world and use her influence for good, but i can’t because it’s simply not true. she’s been famous for years now, and her legacy isn’t made up of positivity, but rather scandals and immaturity. i don’t think tana is an evil mastermind, but i don’t think she is a good person. i think she’s incredibly disrespectful and has got a lot of growing up to do.

 TANA DOESN’T DESERVE HER PLATFORM

tana has a pattern of behavior that we’ve all become accustomed to, meaning she’ll mess up, take forever to issue a half-hearted apology, emphasize the point that she’s learned, grown, and bettered herself, and then go back to business as usual. she likes to harp on the fact that she’s only human, and she makes mistakes. while that is true, not all humans make the same mistakes. tana reminds me a lot of serena van der woodsen from gossip girl. they both claim that with each scandal they come out on the other side a better person, but they don’t. they claim to change, but they don’t. when you make the same mistakes over and over again, you’re not a changed person, you’re simply the same. that’s one of my biggest gripes with tana, because if she actually cared enough, she could self reflect and really learn. but she doesn’t. it smacks of disrespect and immaturity. she makes a lot of bold claims in her apology videos (and she’s got a lot), about how she grew, but where is the growth?? i haven't seen it, have you?

this brings me to my original point, which is why tana doesn’t deserve a platform. i don’t want to write about every horrible thing she’s done in great detail because it’s been done many times, but i’ll briefly mention certain things i believe to be important.

first and foremost, she has an extensive racist past that seems to make a comeback every year. it seems to be an annual tradition for tana to have some racist video, tweet, or remark come back to her present life. her past quite literally catches up to her, and she’s had to apologize for it at least three times (i’ve kind of lost track). it’s ridiculous and problematic, but anyone with a modicum of intelligence can understand that. her recent apology video - which was likely scripted- is a slap in the face to everyone she’s hurt and offended because it took her months to make it, and she couldn’t even be bothered to sift through the blatant contradictions she spewed.

speaking of her apology video, another reason why she was under intense criticism during that time was because she was partying throughout the pandemic. i know, i couldn’t believe it either. or maybe i could because tana is one of the most disrespectful people i’ve ever seen. she partied for months throughout the pandemic in the beginning, and still hangs around large groups of people. newsflash miss mongeau, for some reason children watch you and vociferously defend you online because they’re under your influence. a blue check mark doesn't exempt you from the coronavirus. if you had stayed home and not made yourself look like a clown who doesn’t care about the health of others, maybe you wouldn’t have had to issue your tenth apology. it’s so frustrating watching her act like this knowing she has so much influence and instead of using it for good, she goes out and does this.

my problem with influencers is the fact that they like to pick and choose when they want to be one. when they’re getting positive feedback, fame, and money, they love it. they love having an influence over millions of people, and flexing their success. but, when it comes time to actually do something good for the world, and tweet out some petitions, informational posts, or stand up for the right thing or issue proper apologies for when they inevitably screw up, suddenly they never asked to be an influencer. that’s when they decide that they didn’t ask for that kind of life, so we should just cut them some slack. another newsflash, it doesn’t matter if you asked for it. a lot of people don’t, but a lot of people also realize that they’re in a privileged position to use their power for good, and take on that responsibility. that’s why influencers drive me crazy. they have hundreds of thousands or millions of followers, and they don’t use it for anything other than selfies. 

in my last post i talked about emma macdonald, and i’ll bring her up again, because she’s guilty of doing this as well. she posted about blm once over the summer, and then never again. i understand some people don’t want to bring up politics in everything, but you don’t have to post. a simple ig story would’ve been fine, and still spread the information. she’s just one example out of hundreds, but you get the point. whether you have 200k followers or 2 million, you still have an audience, and people follow you because they like and trust you, which gives you power. so much has happened in this country since may, and so many influencers have stayed silent. if you’re not going to use your huge platform for something meaningful, why do you even have one? it just smacks of performative activism, and it’s not a cute look. 

if you don’t want to be an influencer with loyal fans, and you don’t want the pressure of being a somewhat good example, then don’t expect people to care when you release a trashy single, have an mtv reality show, or when you hold a convention in the name of revenge. yeah, i’m looking at you tana, those are all things you’ve done because you’re an influencer with followers and money.

 OVERALL THOUGHTS

i realize i’m probably ranting, but that’s what people like tana will do to you. she has so much potential, and admittedly, she’s had her good moments. her open conversations about mental health and her rough upbringing is interesting to hear about, and i’m sure it helps people feel less alone. i actually like hearing about her early life because her need for an escape away from her toxic family was the reason she started her channel. those are the relatable moments that attracts people and makes her seem human, not her racist past from when she was 15. i wish she’d actually take time away from being so problematic and seriously self reflect and grow. she’s not getting younger, and her maturity level isn’t catching up with her. the older she gets, the more she acts like a child, and it’s frustrating.

unless she does some serious introspection and betters herself, maybe we should consider leaving tana in 2020.

overall rating:

2/5

[destielstuffandthings]

Champagne Kisses

For @idabbleincrazy <3

Castiel had missed out on a lot of crucial human events during is life. Sure, he was thousands of years old, but being an angel didn’t mean he participated in things like birthdays or holidays. And that was just unacceptable to Dean. Now that Cas was human he was making damn sure Cas was involved with everything human.

Like now- Dean is teaching Castiel about New Years. 

The snow is falling from the night sky and landing softly on the ground outside the bunker while they decorate inside. Dean is reaching up into a corner of the bunker, batting cobwebs out of the way so he can hang a sign that says “Happy New Year!” in gold, glittery writing.

“Dean, I don’t understand,” Castiel grumbles as he holds a rung of the ladder as Dean instructed. “You’re just going to have to take these decorations down in the morning. Why are we putting them up in the first place?”

Biting his tongue and stretching up on his tiptoes, Dean smacked the duct taped corner of the banner against the wall and sighed. “Because, Cas, it’s what humans do.” He looked down and started climbing down the ladder until he was face to face with the ex angel. “And now that you’re human, Sammy ‘n I are going to start celebrating stuff like this.” He looked up at his handwork and smiled.

Castiel tilted his head and looked at the sign. “It’s crooked.”

“Shut up,” Dean said as he smacked the back of his hand against Cas’ chest. He walked over to the bar, grabbing three bottles of champagne as he glanced up at the clock. “Sammy! Five minutes!”

Castiel took the offered bottle and began tearing at the silver wrapping on the neck.

“Don’t open that just yet,” Dean warned with a stern finger. “That cork gets popped after the countdown.”

Sam came jogging into the room with his phone in his hand. “Check it out---that banner is crooked---I found a YouTube channel that’s doing a live countdown!” He propped the phone up on the table and swiped a bottle of champagne out of Deans’ hand. “Excited, Cas?” Sam asked, elbowing him in the arm.

Castiel smiled and nodded. “Yes. I’ve watched countless celebrations throughout the years and I’m happy to finally be part of it.”

“Three minutes!” a woman on the phone announced.

“Got any resolutions?” Dean asked as he picked at the label of his bottle.

Sam ran a hand through his hair and fluffed it up. “Yeah actually. To never cut my hair again.” He grinned wide at his brother

“I’ll shave it while you sleep,” Dean warned. “And that’s not even a resolution. They’re supposed to be things you’ve been wanting to do but never get around to.”

Castiel pulled his eyebrows together. “Why does a new year mean you have to start doing something new? Why can’t you just---start doing it any day you want?”

Dean sighed and rubbed a hand across the back of his neck. “It’s just---it’s tradition, Cas. You got anything you wanna start doin’?”

Castiel looked thoughtful for a moment before a smile spread across his face. “Yes, actually.”

Sam raised his eyebrows. “And? What is it?”

Castiel bit his bottom lip and shook his head. “I’d rather not say it out loud,” he said softly.

“One minute!” the phone reminded.

“I got a few,” Dean offered. “Take better care of Baby, finally clean out the damn fridge, and---” The thought swam in his head like a recurring dream.

“Twenty! Nineteen!”

“And what?” Castiel asked, turning to Dean.

“Sixteen! Fifteen!”

“Yeah, Dean. And?” Sam smirked.

“Ten! Nine! Eight!”

“I uh----” Dean swallowed hard and stared at the phone.

“Seven! Six! Five!”

“Dean?” Castiel asked

“Four! Three! Two! ONE! HAPPY NEW YEAR!”

Sam smiled wide and popped the cork on his bottle. “Happy New Year, guys!” The laughed as the foam poured over his hands onto the floor.

“Happy New Year, Sam,” Castiel smiled, clinking his bottle against Sams. He turned to Dean who was already chugging his drink and watched as it dribbled down his chin.

Dean set his bottle down on the table with a clunk and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. His chest was heaving as he tried to catch his breath.

“Is it customary to drink so much so fast?” Castiel asked with a raised eyebrow.

“Not usually,” Sam chuckled. He held up his bottle and nodded his head. “Well I’m gonna hit the hay guys. G’night. Hope your first New Year as a human will be great, Cas.” He hugged the ex angel and patted his back before shooting his brother a knowing glace and walked out of the room shaking his head.

Castiel pressed the bottle to his lips and took a timid sip. He made a face and sat it down on the table. “This tastes---well I don’t know what it tastes like but I don’t like it.”

Dean huffed a laugh and nodded. “Yeah I’m not a fan of it either, but it’s what people drink to celebrate.” He looked up at Castiel through his lashes and licked his still wet lips. “I didn’t want to say my actual resolution in front of Sam, but I think I’m ready to tell you.”

Castiel stepped closer to Dean and tilted his head. “Are you actually going to shave his head?”

Dean laughed out loud and shook his head. “Nah, he’d kill me. I uh--- the Baby thing was true. I do need to take better care of her. And the fridge? I should make Sam do that. I mean, it’s basically his crappy lettuce and healthy stuff that’s stinkin’ the place up. Do you have any idea how long that wrinkly tomato has been in---”

“Dean,” Castiel closed the distance before laying his hand on Dean’s arm. “You’re rambling.”

Dean took a deep breath as he stood up straight. “Sorry. Yeah, sorry. Uh, okay. I’m just gonna come out and say it.” He looked into his friends eyes and took Cas’ hand off his arm and held it gently. “Cas,--” Dean cleared his throat loudly and pulled his eyebrows together. “Every New Year that I’ve known you I’ve wanted to do this, an’ I chickened out every time. But you’re human now. Things are different. I feel different, and I can’t keep this in anymore.” He licked his lips and smiled briefly at Castiel as he held his hand tighter. “My resolution is to tell you how much you mean to me. You’re the most important person in my life. And I know we’ve had our share of fights and all the bullshit that happened in the past almost drove you away from me, but I don’t want that to happen again. Cas, I love you, and I’m going to prove how much I love you for the rest of our lives.”

Castiel lowered his eyes and smiled as he pulled their entwined hands to his chest. “Dean,” he said quietly. He waited until his friends worried eyes met his own. “That was my resolution, too.”

“Oh thank God,” Dean breathed out before pulling Castiel close. “There’s another tradition on New Years, too.” Dean raised an eyebrow and nodded his head towards the phone still sitting on the table. It was panning through Times Square showing couples kissing in the streets surrounded by confetti and streamers.

Castiel smiled as he leaned in, cupping Dean by the back of the neck and pressed his lips against the other mans.

Dean sighed into the kiss as he felt Cas’ tongue run across his bottom lip. He pulled away gently and rested his head against Cas’ and smiled.

“I take it back,” Castiel whispered as he ran a thumb over Dean’s bottom lip. “I love the taste of champagne.”

[bittybattybunny]

So he's a hungry noodle but with taste? No wonder Hattie convinced him so fast

*sobs on floor* i had a really nice long response typed out and I’m gonna retype it and hope i get it all---

But yeah!!! He was so sick of rotten fish, hunting and the like (hunting takes a LOT of energy and when you are ALREADY hungry as hell it makes it harder. And he could never hunt enough to feel any sort of full) so when this small child who wasn’t afraid of him in the slightest and mostly sassed him, gave him the option of REAL HUMAN FOOD he took the chance.

He’s also kinda a food snob on certain aspects too

This is a snippet from either 9 or 10 (i say that because Im not sure if i can fit everything that needs to happen before hand into the prior chapters)

he gives Eclipse shit for the raw meat thing a lot; because he never wanted to eat meat raw, while she’s over here doing it on whim

“Makes sense.” He nodded, he was still hungry. He frowned, they didn’t have a lot of eggs. And he really didn’t want to eat all of their food. Well. he could. He didn’t care that much.

“What’s wrong?” Eclipse asked, walking in, placing her plate on the floor on top of hattie’s.

“Is that how you wash dishes?” He asked with a grimace.

“No, just a treat for her if she can have it.” She explained, looking at the carton on the counter and the open bacon. She snagged a piece of the raw meat, eating it without much thought, “looks like we need more eggs.” she grabbed a pen writing it on the fridge list.

“What are you doing?!” Snatcher snapped as he processed what had happened.

“What? Adding to the list?” she asked while chewing on the bacon.

“That’s raw!” He reached to take it from her but she dodged around the counter island. He stumbled, whacking his chin on the counter. Crumpling to the floor he glared up, “Are you trying to die young?!”

“If I was going to die young, I would have done it already!” she laughed, swallowing, “it’s fine, it’s smoked!”

“That doesn’t mean cooked!” Snatcher pulled himself off the floor, “how have you not killed your kid?!”

“Mom doesn’t let me eat it raw. She always heats it in the pan. You’ve had her cooking before.” Hattie pointed out as she grabbed the floor plates to put in the sink.

“You’re mad! Both of you!” He snapped as he leaned on the counter. He rubbed his side from his fall, “Honestly! It shouldn’t take I, the Subcon Snatcher! To tell you to cook your food!”

“You really like announcing that huh?” Eclipse rolled her eyes as she reached for another slice only to get slapped away, “Stingy!” she pouted, rubbing her hand.

“It’s my name!” He frowned, fangs sticking out of his lips, as he curled them back in disgust, “I ate raw, half rotten fish and human corpses for 200 years, I’m not going to watch someone who has the option of actual decent food eat something raw!”

“You know some meat is meant to be raw.” Eclipse laughed loudly. It almost sounded like a bark as she did, “Specifically some fish!” She snickered, “Well then. Let's do that!” She clapped, “We can get sushi for dinner!”

“Ooooo.” Hattie grinned, “I bet he’ll like that!” She clapped with her mother excited, “We should get him extra wasabi!”

Eclipse wrinkled her nose, “Why? It’s so spicy...”

“He liked my hot sauce.” Hattie beamed, “So I think he’ll like wasabi too! Or candied ginger maybe?”

“I just want to taste things again. Strong things.” He couldn’t help a small smile himself, getting caught up in the girls excitement, “So what is sushi? Or wasabi?”

Eclipse grinned, squinting as her mouth pushed her cheeks up as she stuck her tongue out, “If I tell you, you’ll say no. So we’ll wait for dinner.”

Snatcher does most of the cooking for the family as well! He loves having CONTROL over his own food! Because it’s the first time he has been able to really do that. As a Prince he often only got to eat his food once it was cold as it had to be poison tested first. He begged Estelle to teach him to cook so he could have something warm now and then. (that’s why he even knows how to cook) He also finds it super fun to experiment with cooking; and his family’s smiles at his food becomes something he’s proud of! he loves cooking as a fun outlet.

He also loses his mind at Thanksgiving and Xmas because of the sheer volume of food and the fact he’s actually allowed to just. Keep eating as much as he wants. (Snatcher turned human again around mid October) It was one of the first times in a long time he was able to actually feel full. Not to mention the excitement of the whole family being there (DJ and Connie, Connie’s Daughters and spouses, his other grandkids, DJ’s brothers and sisters--) He was exhausted by the end but he was also really happy.

Plus once they figured out his birthday from him (His birthday is October 31st btw) Eclipse went out of her way to get a big ass cake with multiple flavor tiers and various frostings and toppings (nothing with chocolate though as she wanted to eat some cake too) to figure what kind to get him the next year (they found out his birthday around Hattie’s on January 17th. For the record Eclipse’s birthday is July 8th)

He wound up deciding he really enjoyed the ginger carrot cake with cream cheese frosting. So it becomes the tradition for his birthday.

He also cried when she brought him the big cake, because it was about getting what HE wanted for HIS birthday. It was the first time he was involved in his own birthday choices (and he was 26 when he became a leviathan---) and it wasn’t made to be a big party or something. She and Hattie were just trying to celebrate HIM and making it another year!

he also forms a good bond with C.C. because he feeds her often to keep her from biting him when he’s a leviathan.

Hattie at one point also tried to get him to do a MukBang Channel on youtube because of how much he always eats but he vetoed that fast.

He also has a really bad issue with junk food. it’s easy to eat so he tends to eat a lot of it. Eclipse forces him to do a lot of house chores because it eats the food budget a lot. They aren’t struggling persay but. She’s also a big eater (huge ass wolf stomach in a 5′11″ woman) so having two huge eaters really costs in food. Also he’s always hungry because his body is trying to fight the curse always. When he’s human he slowly gets better because his curse isn’t as strong; and he does semi split his curse later so it gets even lesser. he still eats like no one’s business though.

[spacebell]

a bit of an update/I need to vent

now that January is over I’m thinking back on how I felt the last few months of 2020 and this first bit of the new year. So Christmas and New Years celebrations did not hit that hard this time and for a lot of reasons. My dad’s side of the family couldn’t come to visit (because of corona and my cousin was working and she couldn’t ask for a few days off and my aunt and uncle wouldn’t let her stay home alone) and neither did my brother. We had a curfew to avoid big crowds and we got my cat on Christmas Eve and we couldn’t bring him to my aunt’s house because they have a dog and we couldn’t leave him alone in the house because he was so small. Oh and also, my dad wasn’t really in the mood and we were missing my brother and it was just overall weird. So I didn’t feel bad that I already felt very anxious and not in the mood to party, so no guilt.

My cat has been such a godsend, he has helped me so so so much. Whenever I’m feeling like shit for whatever reason, he either snuggles with me, or I play with him or he’s just doing his thing and just being adorable and it gives me so much serotonin.

I started a new semester of my masters degree and I love the classes I’m taking but sometimes I don’t have the energy to do anything so I procrastinate and get anxious but eventually almost everything works out but it’s exhausting. Also, I think I might have adhd or something along those lines. I know how dangerous it can be to self diagnose but when you see this traits/things people with adhd do over and over again and you do them to it can’t be a coincidence. I know that there are some symptoms that overlap with anxiety so that’s why I’m not sure. Plus the image people have with adhd is a 6 year old boy who can’t stay still for a second and who is failing every class. I’m a 23 year old woman who has had above average grades throughout my academic career and I I’m very lazy. But there are somethings that I see and I’m like “hmmm maybe I do have that, or maybe it’s my anxiety acting up.” Either way, I don’t know and right now I can’t see a therapist to try and work that out so I’m trying to do my best.

I sort of accepted the fact that I’m bi and that Iprobably will be doubting myself for the rest of my life and that’s ok. Sexuality is a spectrum and I don’t have to explain myself to anyone.

I have this urge to just run away and maybe never come back. I’ve talked about this with my parents and one time I jokingly told my mom that I wanted to live in a farm in the mountains and raise sheep and she was like “whatever makes you happy, I’m with you,” and I almost started crying. My parents know, mostly my mom, that I don’t feel like I can be myself here so they keep pushing me to look for opportunities for me to leave and go somewhere I can feel at peace. And I also realized something while watching a video of this youtuber/twitch streamer that I just love, RTgame (he’s a variety streamer, he plays a lot of different video games and his videos and streams are so much fun, even if I don’t play the game I enjoy his content so much) he made a video a couple of days ago about anxiety and just existential dread and how he has been dealing with that (I highly recommend it, he’s a sweetheart) and he’s only 2 years older than me. And he said that when he got the opportunity to live in Japan he took it and how it felt like running away for his anxiety. And oh boy, that’s how I feel but at the same time yeah I want to go to place where I feel a little bit better. So when talking to my parents about going back to my and my brother’s apartment I get a bit anxious, but when I talk to them about going abroad to Europe or Canada or some other place I feel very very excited and I just want to leave right away. And maybe it’s because I get to start from scratch, I don’t have the obligation to visit any relatives that make me feel like crap, I get to be me and let people get to know me. It’s not like my parents or my brother make feel like crap, not really. My parents are doing their very best and I have a great relationship with them where we talk about a lot of things and they have realized times where they were wrong and times where maybe they could have done better. And we talk a lot and I love it. My brother is the best too, he’s not as idealistic or as much of a dreamer as me, but he gets me when I talk to him about leaving.

My extended family is a different story, they are overall nice people, they might be a little bit too traditional and conservative (not necessarily politically) for my liking. And i say this because i have friends and ive heard stories about how their parents are really emotionally abusive and not great people, but my family is not like that. They are very judgemental, sometimes intolerant and not very open minded, and im also talking about most of my cousins (i think that my brother and i are the most open minded of the lot). Also, as a very latinamerican family, they are very nosy (im so thankful that my parents respect our privacy and when we tell them not to share some things they dont do it) and they get mad whenever we don’t share stuff. Also there’s this saying or belief that we have to love our family no matter what and I do not agree at all. They can be shitty people sometimes, very nosy and generally want to give their opinion without even caring if I asked or not. I value privacy a lot, so I don’t ask nosy questions and I expect my boundaries to be respected.

TLDR: I’m feeling much better but I still feel very weird and out of place but that’s ok, progress is not linear and I have to patient with myself

[zephyrthejester]

Three Years Blog Anniversary!

Well, would you look at that. In the blink of an eye, an entire year has gone by! It has now been a grand total of three years since I started up this liveblog, and ever since, it's been a whirlwind of an adventure that has introduced me to amazing shows, amazing games, and above all, amazing people! As has become tradition, it's time for us to gather 'round by the fire, bundle up in blankets, sip some hot cocoa, and reminisce about the shenanigans we got up to in the year 2019.

You know the drill! Click "Keep Reading" to see the rest! Let's go!

January kicked off with the closing episodes to Steven Universe's fifth season, and what a finale it was! In true SU nature, it managed to be wholesome, funny, terrifying, and sad all at once! Not to mention the finale episode specifically, which was rife with both fan service and a breath-taking final confrontation. It even prompted me to type up three whole Addendum posts just so I could get all my thoughts out there. Intermingling with these episodes were some rather poignant and touching episodes of RWBY's 6th Volume, which saw some great plot advancements for some of my favorite characters. And of course, there was one liveblog session early on dedicated to Fate/Stay Night, a series I began back in 2018. And that would end up being the last I'd liveblog about it. Following the technical difficulties of the Visual Novel crashing at an important moment, I lost much of my motivation to keep going at it, putting Fate/Stay Night on the bench... For now. But more on Fate/Stay Night later.

Then came February! Where I proceeded to do absolutely nothing at all. For 42 days, I fell into a pretty bad funk that I called depression, at the time. Well! I must be in a better mental space right now, because until it came time to make this post, I forgot all about it! Moving past the shame I felt for wordlessly abandoning my blog and discord community for over a month, come March I pressed right into a brand new liveblog: Kill la Kill! A frenetic, frantic, freaky series that serves as the spiritual sequel to what was, once upon a time, my favorite anime ever: Gurren Lagann. I was immediately charmed by it's absurdist humor and over-the-top everything. However, it wasn't long before I succumbed to my greatest flaw. I'm exceptionally picky about what I liveblog, and sadly, Kill la Kill didn't tick the boxes that needed to be ticked for me to stick with it. I eventually dropped the series after only three episodes.

Needless to say, I was getting desperate to reinvigorate my lost momentum. It was then and there, at the tail end of March, that I introduced the most significant change to my brand ever: Liveblogging itself was being benched in favor of a fanciful second attempt at running my video game focused Youtube Channel! While I would certainly continue to liveblog new episodes of shows I had previously caught up with, my efforts would be redoubled and focused upon something I hoped would shake things up for me. I put in the effort of buying a new, fancy, high-tech microphone, and set about to new projects!

First up was a tense and troublesome self-imposed-challenge: A playthrough of Resident Evil 2 Remake on its hardest difficulty, with the added stipulation that I can never access the item storage box! My knowledge and skills of that game were put to the test as I skirted by the dangerous zombies and mutants while carrying only the bare essentials on my person. That series lasted 7 videos, plus a Highlight Reel, over about a week. My new microphone really brought out my screams of terror. Yes.

Immediately following the conclusion of the REmake 2 challenge run in early April, a new series debuted: A blind let's play of Subnautica! A simply incredible sci-fi survival game set on a planet that's nearly entirely an ocean... But much to my surprise, it was secretly a horror game all along. Spanning 18 episodes + a highlight reel between April 5th and May 23rd, we descended ever deeper into the abyss, deciphered alien riddles, fled from toothy leviathan-class predators, established a lovely home base, and had a great ol' time overall. A truly remarkable game with a surprisingly good story, for its genre, and it left me eagerly looking forward to making a Let's Play of its sequel: Below Zero.

Simultaneously, beginning on April 10th, I embarked upon yet another adventure that was of such a large scope, I made my channel's primary time slot dedicated to it. The Phoenix Wright Trilogy! A collection of the first three Visual Novels in a wonderful, wonderful series about the titular attorney at law. It wasn't long before I fell in love with this series, big time. It had everything! Immensely satisfying mysteries for me to solve, memorable and lovable characters, great pacing, and it knew how to keep things fresh and interesting. Although I started out the Let's Play by saying I wouldn't read everything aloud, that proved to be a lie. As of now, the series is a whopping 78 videos long (I do expect it to reach 100 before all is said and done), and I have given voice to roughly 50 unique characters so far. The series really helped awaken my Let's Play chops by improving my speech, vocal clarity, and focus. Swapping between my first video ever (for Legend of Grimrock II) and the most recent Phoenix Wright video is a real night-and-day difference! Overall, it's very safe to say that the series has stolen my heart. Unmatched hype, dizzying plot twists, and delightful shenanigans burst from the seams, truly. The Let's Play is currently ongoing, though the end is within sight...

As the Let's Plays of Subnautica and Phoenix Wright Trilogy progressed, so too did the production quality of my videos. I got a better grip on editing, improving the design of my video thumbnails and taking more care to edit out needless and dull moments of gameplay. I even introduced a brief and stylish video intro, which was my avatar appearing over a dark background before it faded off into gameplay. That would be the image up above! However, as we move into 2020, I’ve begun to feel that it could do with a slight improvement... Wink wink!

Following the end of Subnautica came a new Let's Play involving yet another sci-fi horror game: Prey! Spanning 25 videos + a highlight reel between June 3rd and November 19th, it immediately gripped me with its stunning attention to detail, marvelously crafted environments, and boundlessly creative gameplay. It was a pleasure to explore the varied regions of the Talos One space station, blasting aliens, uncovering secrets, untangling the connections between the employees there, and making some seriously difficult moral choices. A truly impressive video game that's just begging for a second playthrough on my own time at some point.

July 20th saw the beginning of new activity on my blog. In a spur-of-the-moment decision that I didn't think out too well, I brazenly announced out of nowhere that I would be doing a re-watch of Steven Universe! I proceeded to liveblog the first 11 episodes of Steven Universe over a week, lovingly looking back at the series' origins, calling out moments of foreshadowing, and analyzing everything with the lens of all my knowledge about the show. And then... Nothing! Just as soon as it began, the project was dropped. I had hoped it would rekindle my interest in Liveblogging (outside of new episodes of SU and RWBY), but I had no such luck. You know I'm burnt out when even Steven Universe, my favorite thing ever, can't help...

By September 3rd, the Steven Universe Movie had finally released! Over a hype-as-hell two days, I liveblogged the entire film. It truly was Steven Universe at its absolute best! Touching, sincere, unexpected, and rife with some stellar songs that are STILL stuck in my head. It proved that the Crewniverse hadn't lost its spark since the conclusion of the original series.

November 5th was my 25th birthday! My family celebrated by all going out for an amazing sushi dinner. Good times! Sometimes, it's really hard for me to grasp that I'm actually 25... I'm a kid at heart, really! Or maybe it's that I'm a social recluse who enjoys watching anime a little too much. Regardless, I feel no shame!

November 10th saw the debut of RWBY Volume 7, and so far it has been an exceptionally strong season. I've long maintained the opinion that the show gets better and better every season, and Volume 7 has given me no reason to doubt that. One episode in particular became my second favorite in the series, right behind a certain one from Volume 6! I'm really enjoying how the characters, new and old, are playing off each other this go around, and the fights and art direction have been no slouch either. This season's a looker! I'm really looking forward to seeing how it ends.

Hot on the heels of the ending Let's Play of Prey, I immediately started up a new series on November 20th... Chrono Trigger! A legendary and widely loved JRPG from the SNES era of gaming that I had somehow gone all my life without playing. Better late than never to fix a mistake like that! I eagerly dived in and nearly immediately understood why it's heralded as an all-time great. The series is currently 13 episodes long, and each one is an endless stream of me being hyped and giddy. I’m already excited to record more!

December 8th saw the debut of Steven Universe Future, a very special epilogue series that's sure to tie a nice bow on the franchise as a whole. As of this post, I have liveblogged the first 8 episodes, and it's fair to say that while it's not holding back in giving the audience exactly what it wants, it's also doing something very unexpected and very, very interesting with Steven himself. Only time will tell how it all ends and whether every remaining mystery will be answered, but so far I have been more than satisfied with it.

And that brings us to the present! Wow, it felt like a lot less happened this year than you would think, huh? No, it's been jam packed with new adventures! I think I am very content with how the year has gone, and I hope you are as well. We'll be striding into the year 2020 with more Steven Universe, more RWBY, more Phoenix Wright, and more Chrono Trigger! Plus, it may very well be that we'll see the return of Made in Abyss and Madoka Magica, both of which (I believe) are getting continuation movies in 2020. I may or may not be entirely wrong about this. Forgive me if I am...

In the near future, the Phoenix Wright Trilogy will be followed up by a Let's Play of Fate/Stay Night! Indeed, the canceled Liveblog will be reborn in youtube video form! And following Chrono Trigger, well... It's mostly up in the air, though I do have a few good ideas. In particular, I recently got a Virtual Reality system set up... Wink wink!

So that's really all there is to it! Cheers, lads! Cheers to a good year, and cheers to the next year being even better! To our good health, our unbreakable friendships, and all the stupid bullshit we’ll get into together! 2020 has arrived!

[purplesurveys]

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Do you get allergies in the spring? No, I don’t have any allergies nor do we have spring. What is your biggest pet peeve? I have a number of ~big pet peeves but one I can think of in particular right now are people who are constantly late to everywhere they have to be. That, and unresponsive groupmates when it comes to schoolwork. What is one thing you want to do before you die? See Beyoncé in concert. She’s my only favorite artist left that I haven’t seen put on a show yet. What is your favorite primary color? Blue. What movie, that is currently in theaters, do you want to watch? I haven’t been outside in weeks but I’m pretty sure there aren’t any operating cinemas at the moment.

Who do you look up to? Out of all the people I know, Andrew. He’s been through some tough waves, but it’s never destroyed his soul and he’s never used it as an excuse to be cruel to everyone. I have a lot of love and respect for him. What is your favorite brand of bottled water? As much as possible I avoid bottled water but if it’s the only available option, I tend to look for Summit because it tastes the purest out of the cheaper brands I know. Are you a healthy person? I honestly don’t know if I’m constantly well because I live healthily without being aware of it or because my immune system is just simply crazy defensive. I guess I can call myself healthy in a sense that I rarely get ill and I’ve never had any serious health issues; but I'm not healthy in that I maintain a certain diet or go to the gym. If you were to write a story, what would it be about? I’d write a biography on someone because it combines two of my interests – journalism and non-fiction. What color is your toothbrush? It’s maroon with some white accents on it. What is your favorite movie about? Two for the Road is about a couple who re-examines their many years as a married couple, with the film using their road trips and various cars to symbolize the different stages in their relationship. Good Will Hunting is a story of a young man who has had a very difficult life and eventually has to confront his past and himself in order to move on to his future. I guess I really like movies with introspective characters. Do your fingernails grow fast? They kinda do, yeah. When was the last time you got out of your home? March 10th. Have you ever played with fire? No, I’m scared of fire. Do you like poptarts? Only one flavor, chocolate fudge. I’m sure I would like more if I got to try more flavors, but they only ship like 5 flavors to the Philippines – strawberry (which I’ll obviously never like), cookies and cream (too sweet), s’mores (also too sweet), brown sugar cinnamon (boring), and chocolate fudge. What’s a distinct memory you remember from your childhood? I remember playing the Wii for hours on the first day our dad bought one for us and going to school the next day feeling completely sore.   Is marriage in your future? Yes. Do you like color pencils or crayons better? I love both but as I’ve gotten older, I’ve come to enjoy colored pencils more. Have you ever played Badminton? Yes, I owned a set before and I’d ask the househelp to play with me outside our house when I was younger. Do you like to wear plain clothing or creative, colorful clothing? Plain clothing but in various colors. I refuse to wear anything printed (at least in most cases cause I do own a few printed pieces, like a jumpsuit that I own). What is your favorite thing about each season? I like our dry season because then I get to wear all the tank tops, tiny halter tops, sleeveless tops, and shorts that I want, and I feel prettiest in those clothes. I like the wet season obviously for the rain and thunderstorms, which is my favorite kind of weather. Would you ever consider running for president? No, I’m insanely incapable. What color is the sky right now? I don’t feel like looking out but it’s midnight so it’s likely to be a very dark blue. What is your all-time favorite day of the year? Whenever Wrestlemania is on a certain year. Is March one of your favorite seasons? Idk about seasons but it’s not really a remarkable month for me. February is typically a very hectic month what with Valentine’s Day, mine and Gabie’s anniversary, and my org’s traditional month-long anniversary celebration, so March is actually that time where we finally get to heave a contented sigh and sit back after working and spending so hard and so much. Did you know that the flu is an infection of the respiratory tract? I don’t feel like fact-checking rn but one thing’s for sure, I’ve definitely been hearing these words in the news more these days lmao. Do you enjoy star-gazing? Cloud-watching? I like to stargaze. Cloudwatching not so much. Do you write little reminders to yourself? Only if I desperately need to be reminded, sure. Describe to me the happiest day of your life. I don’t think I’ve had it yet, but the one that’s the throne right now is the day I saw Paramore in 2018. Would you want a pet iguana? I wouldn’t know how to care for it properly so I’d rather give the chance to someone who does. Are you afraid of spiders? We have tiny spiders here so not really. They’re easy to shoo away. What website do you visit most often? Twitter, Facebook, YouTube, Reddit, Tumblr. In that order. Exactly how many days have you been alive? According to Google, 8,041. What do you do on rainy days? It varies but I like taking a nap, fixing myself a cup of coffee, watching a video or a show to relax, or listening to music that would pair well with the rain. What color is your bedroom floor? Brown, as is the entire floor for the second floor. Are you an organized person? In some contexts. I like making spreadsheets and cleaning up our plates and utensils to help out our server when we’re done eating at a restaurant; but I also can’t keep the inside of my car clean to save my life. Do you use corny pick-up lines? No. How thick is your hair? Very thick. I already touched on this on a previous survey but my hair is difficult to handle, especially if someone’s planning a hairdo on me that needs a lot of bobby pins. What do you look like in the morning? Messy, and more recently my bangs have gotten so long that they cover my eyes now which makes for a shaggier/lazier look most mornings. Are you allergic to anything? What? Nope. Who is your favorite person? My girlfriend. How did you spend your last birthday? We had cheesecake and in the afternoon, Angela surprised me by having a box of sushi delivered to my house. Otherwise, we stayed home. Do you like chapstick? I don’t need to use it, so I don’t really have an opinion. If you were the last person on earth, what would you do? Break into Forbes Park and go inside all the houses lol. Do you know how to knit/crochet? Nope. Do you enjoy windy days? Sure, I like them. When was the last time you went to an amusement park? I don’t remember when our trip to Singapore was but it was either 2012 or 2013.

[antiadvil]

We’re Getting Married!

PG13, 2.8k

video title: We’re Getting Married! uploaded: December 8, 2019 by AmazingPhil Description: We talk about our relationship with each other, our audience, and appropriate creator/audience boundaries. Sorry we couldn’t find a wedding venue that would fit three million people!

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A/N: *** indicates a jump cut. this is filmed in Phil’s bedroom bc in an imagined universe with joint content I can fulfill all my nostalgic fantasies oh also warning for discussion of the vday video if you're not into that

“Hey guys! Today I’m here with a very special surprise guest-”

Dan’s voice interrupted Phil from off camera. "Are you not going to put me in the thumbnail?"

Phil laughed. "I mean, probably."

"So I'm not much of a surprise."

"I guess not. Anyway, we have a special announcement-"

"Phil. They read the title. Why do your video intros always assume no one reads your titles?"

"Hey! I haven't decided what I’m going to title it yet."

Dan came into frame and flopped onto the bed with him. "Sure you haven't. You know exactly what will get this video the maximum number of clicks, you goddamn-"

Phil threw his hand over Dan’s mouth. “Stop.”

He yanked it back almost immediately. “Did you just lick me?”

Dan smiled. “Maybe.”

“You’re disgusting. I’m going to go wash my hands with bleach,” Phil said, climbing off of his bed.

“Can you bring me a glass of water?” Dan called after him. “I’m thirsty.”

Phil called something back. It was entirely bleeped out.

***

“Count of three,” Phil said. “One, two, three-”

“We’re getting married!” Dan’s normally large hand gestures were carefully constrained by the glass of water in his right hand.

“Some of you are probably confused-” Phil said.

“Some of you are probably hyperventilating,” Dan interrupted, “And I’d like to say that while you’re valid, get a life that is not vicariously lived through our relationship. Please.”

“So let’s do a bit of background first,” Phil finished. “So I think most of you who follow us know that Dan and I met on the internet in 2009 and then we met up later the same year, which is when we filmed the first Phil is not on fire.”

“What you probably know if you watched my coming out video is that the whole time, we were super gay for each other,” Dan added. “What I didn’t really get into is that we’re still super gay for each other.”

“Wait, we are?”

Dan shrugged, setting his water on Phil’s nightstand. “I mean, I’m still super gay for you.”

Phil frowned. “I don’t know if I’d describe it that way.”

“Well, this is awkward,” Dan muttered.

“Anyway, we’ve been dating ever since then, and we thought we’d give a quick little recap of our relationship for those of you who just got here. So, I already mentioned that we met in 2009-”

“Obligatory disclaimer, we don’t endorse travelling a hundred and fifty miles to meet a guy who’s four years older than you that you met on the internet, even if you were the one who stalked him first.”

“Hey!” Phil laughed.

“But anyway,” Dan continued, “Phil and I met in a public place before going to his house and it turned out he wasn’t an axe murderer, so everything was fine.”

“What would you have done if I was?” Phil asked.

“You know, that’s a really great question. I maybe should have thought a little bit more about that.”

“So, we’re not even five minutes into the video and the biggest takeaway is that you should never have come to meet me?”

Dan nodded. “Our entire relationship was a mistake. I’m sorry, everyone, time to go home.”

“So poor life choices aside, we met in 2009, filmed Phil is not on fire, and just generally hung out a lot.”

“Hung out is one word for what we spent most of our time doing, but since this is Phil’s channel, let’s leave it at that.” Dan winked.

“Hey!”

Dan rolled his eyes. “Look me in the eye and tell me that is not what we spent most of our time together doing.”

“That is not what we spent most of our time doing.”

“Okay then, if you say so-”

“I do-” Phil insisted.

“Then we’ll leave it at that. We visited a lot, but, full disclosure, long distance sucks, which was a big factor in my decision to attend uni in Manchester. You probably already know how that went down.” Dan rolled his eyes.

“Apart from the uni part, though, it was really nice being so close by, so we moved in together in 2011.”

“And then there was what you will probably know as the Valentine’s day video,” Dan said with a grimace.

“Dan and I don’t really feel comfortable discussing the details of that whole thing because that video was very personal to us.”

Dan smiled in Phil’s direction. “I still have a copy.”

“But seriously, if you’re not me or Dan, I’d really appreciate it if you’d remove any copies you’ve posted on the internet and delete any copies you may have saved, out of respect for our privacy.”

“Believe me, I know nothing I can say will make that video disappear. My entire life is just proof that anything you put on the internet is permanent. And there’s nothing anyone can do about it now, but I want people to understand that all the speculation about my sexuality that came up when that video resurfaced really hurt me. Don’t do that. Seriously. If you think a celebrity or a YouTuber or whoever is hiding their sexuality, just let them. You don’t know what’s happening in their lives, and honestly, you’re not entitled to, either.”

Phil nodded. “Also, that was a really hard time for us as a couple as well as personally. I don’t think a lot of people realize the pressure being constantly under a microscope has on a relationship, which is one of the reasons we chose not to share our relationship and why we still don’t feel comfortable sharing everything about it.”

“Which is fine! Neither of us are ashamed of our relationship. We’re not hiding anything. We just aren’t really looking forward to reading newspaper headlines about our relationship, which really doesn’t seem like it should be news. Like, it’s our relationship, not the entire world’s relationship,” Dan explained.

“Really, it seems so weird to us that people even care about it. Like, it’s flattering and all, don’t get me wrong, but it was also a bit scary at first when we weren’t out.”

“It’s like, remember in my coming out video how I mentioned that when that guy said I gave off a bi vibe it really scared me? Having strangers on the internet tell me that my relationship with Phil was obvious was scary when even my parents didn’t know. The shipping was fine. It was mostly the speculation that was scary.”

“But we made it.” Phil put his hand on Dan’s leg and smiled.

Dan smiled back, almost forgetting the camera in the room. “God, there were some days I thought we wouldn’t. But we did. And I love you.”

Phil smiled even wider and swiped at his eyes.

Dan’s smile grew to a smirk. “Are you crying? Oh my god, you are such a dork.”

“Your mum’s a dork,” Phil muttered.

Dan reached for his phone. “I’m telling her you said that.”

“No!” Phil threw his shoulder into Dan’s chest, sending him sprawling against Phil’s bed.

Dan laughed. “Ow. Hey, Siri, call Mu-”

Phil put his hand over Dan’s mouth. “Stop.”

Dan’s phone chirped from the other side of the bed. “Okay. Calling Mum.”

Dan scrambled to reach it. “Oh shit, oh fuck, should I hang up?”

“Dan! You can’t call your mum and then hang up on her.”

“Shut up, rat, this is your fau- Oh, hey, Mum!”

“Hi!” Phil said.

“Oh, hello, Dan! And Phil. Is everything alright?”

“You need to call your mum more often, Dan, if every time she picks up she asks if something’s wrong,” Phil said.

Dan’s mum laughed. 

“Shut up, Phil. No, Mum, nothing’s wrong, just wanted to catch up.”

***

“So, I’m never jokingly asking Siri to call anyone ever again,” Dan said.

“Why? Was calling your mum that horrible?” Phil laughed.

“Shut up, Phil. That was your fault.” 

“Does your mum watch your videos?” Phil asked.

“Not really.”

“I’m sending her a link to this one.”

“I hate you,” Dan said quietly.

“You too.”

***

"Now, Phil, we've been dating for a pretty long time." 

Phil shrugged. "Only like ten years.”

"So, Phil, why did we wait so long for this?"

Phil nodded. "Well, first of all, it wasn't legal for a pretty long time."

"Right. Civil partnerships were a thing in 2004, but I'm lame and traditional, and same sex marriage was only legalized in 2014. That's half of our relationship, for some perspective."

"And, fun fact," Phil added, "Same sex marriage is still illegal in Northern Ireland."

Dan frowned. "That was not a fun fact. That was a very sad fact."

"But it's a true fact," Phil protested.

"Moving on, again!" Dan said. "I also wanted my family to be there, and, well, I'm a mess who didn't even come out to them until like six months ago."

Phil patted Dan's shoulder comfortingly. "You're not a mess."

Dan stared at the camera. "I'm a mess."

"Okay, fine. You're a little bit of a mess."

Dan turned to Phil in mock outrage. “You think I’m a mess?”

“No! I-”

Dan turned back to the camera. “You heard it here, folks. Phil is judging me because I took my time coming out. Phil hates closeted people.”

Phil glared at him. “I’m never agreeing with you ever again.”

“This relationship is off to a great start!”

***

“So back to the original question! Why now, Dan?”

“Well, Phil, now that I’m out to my family we can have a proper wedding, and now that we’re out to our viewers we don’t have to worry about one of our own personal stalkers finding our marriage records.” 

“Also, marriage does come with a lot of cool perks,” Phil added.

“Gotta get those sweet, sweet tax benefits.”

“And that sweet, sweet, societal recognition of our relationship.”

“Also, it makes buying a house and general joint property ownership way simpler, which will make it a lot easier to take all of Phil’s subscribers in the inevitable divorce.”

Phil laughed. “What?”

Dan blinked. “Sorry, I didn’t say anything. Did you hear something?”

“Well, I thought I heard you say you were going to divorce me and take my subscribers.”

Dan shook his head, his expression deeply offended. “Why would I say that? Who would do such a thing?”

Phil stared solemnly at the camera. “Gaslighting is a form of abuse.”

“Thank you for the PSA, Phil.”

“Just documenting the abuse I’m currently suffering under so that I can take all your subscribers in the divorce,” Phil said.

Dan frowned. “Okay, I wasn’t going to say anything, but you sounded really serious just then so I now feel the need to clarify that I am not abusing Phil and also, domestic violence is not funny.”

Phil laughed. “No actual abuse.”

Dan sighed. “We’re terrible people, aren’t we?”

“I mean, we’re not terrible people.”

Dan laughed. “We’re just bad people, with terrible senses of humor. That’s so much better.”

“We can edit it out if-” Phil started.

“I mean, it’s your channel-” Dan said.

They stared at each other for a moment before shrugging in unison. “Whatever,” they said, still in unison.

***

“So, Phil, what’s changing for our viewers?” Dan asked.

“Literally nothing. We’ll be taking a short break from uploading-”

“Which I do all the time! So I doubt you’ll even notice.”

“But we’re not going to change the types of videos we upload. This isn’t a relationship channel.”

Dan winked. “As much as you might want it to be.” 

“Seriously, though. We’re not even changing our names. Nothing’s changing,” Phil assured the camera.

“But in case it wasn’t clear, here are some FAQs.”

Phil pulled out a stack of notecards and put on his best announcer voice. “Are we invited?”

Dan smiled. “No.”

Phil flipped to the next card. “Kiss!”

“That’s not a question, but somehow, the answer is still no.”

Phil laughed. “I think a photo of us kissing would actually break the internet.”

Dan shrugged. “Really, we’re just being kind to your internet providers.”

“Lester-Howell or Howell-Lester?”

“We already answered that, Phil. You really need to screen these questions better, especially since you wrote them.”

“Answer it anyway,” Phil pleaded.

Dan sighed heavily. “Neither. I would never saddle my child with two last names.”

“Child?” Phil turned to the camera with an exaggerated gasp.

Dan smiled. “That’s all you’re getting. Let the fanfiction writing begin.”

Phil paused. “Wait, so whose last name-”

“Honestly, I was just joking because neither of us are changing our names, but if you want to have a Dan versus Phil to see who gets to name our child-”

“I’m good.”

“That’s what I thought.”

Phil turned to the next card. “Wedding photos?”

“Is that a question or a demand? Please don’t hack my hard drive.”

“Top or bottom?”

“There is no way anyone actually thinks we’ll answer that.”

“Probably not.” Phil flipped again. “And last, but definitely not least, why are we telling our viewers?”

“Well, I think it’s safe to say that we’re telling a lot more people than our viewers. But I never had any healthy models for queer relationships when I was a kid, and if I can provide that, I don’t see why not.” Dan’s voice was surprisingly serious.

“Think of us like your parents,” Phil added. “We’re here to show you how healthy relationships work, but we’re not here to show you everything. Partly because we need some privacy and partly because that would be gross.”

Dan was wincing as soon as he heard the word “parents.” “Phil, Phil, please stop. Do not encourage our audience to think of us as their parents. Did you learn nothing from our tumblr tag? Please never say those words again.”

“Fine, I’ll edit them out.”

Dan shook his head. “You said it, Phil. You can’t escape it.”

“Okay, well, at least give another response so I can decide if I want to keep it in,” Phil persuaded, in the soft, natural, voice he normally saved for off camera.

Dan gave an exaggerated sigh. “Honestly, hiding a relationship is just so much work. Especially a marriage. And you guys are total stalkers. Like seriously. Get a life. Please.”

“That’s better! And much more fitting with who our audience is.”

“Phil, I’m the one who gets to insult our fans. You’re the one who says we love them and appreciate them.”

“We do!” Phil insisted.

“Do we?” Dan asked skeptically.

“Yes.” Phil laughed, staring at Dan in disbelief.

“Kidding,” Dan muttered, flashing a smile at the camera. “Please buy my merch.”

Phil sighed. “Danielhowellshop.com?”

Dan smiled. “Also, while you’re at it, check out my good friend Phil’s merch at amazingphilshop.com!”

Phil stared straight at the camera. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

“You know what, we’re such close friends that we also have a joint merch shop, danandphilshop.com. You could begin there, Phil.”

“Is it too early for a divorce?” Phil asked.

“Yes. You’re stuck with me.”

“Am I really?”

“Just think about the tax benefits. Take a deep breath, close your eyes, and remember how much money you’re going to save by marrying me.”

Phil shook his head. “It’s not worth it.”

Dan pouted.

***

“For more videos like this-”

“Phil. We’re never making another video like this again.”

“For more videos not like this, click on my face to subscribe to my channel, click on Dan’s face to subscribe to his channel-”

“I have plans to actually upload a video this year-”

“And for our joint channel, click here.” Phil raised their joined hands.

“Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to edit this video, upload it, and disconnect my internet for at least a month.”

Dan turned to Phil. “That’s not a bad idea, actually. I’m not sure I want to open tumblr for the next six years.”

Phil cringed. “Me neither. Guys, please try not to go too crazy. I lost friends over the protip incident of 2016.”

Dan shuddered. “So many people refuse to talk to us now. I’m not even joking.”

“We appreciate the support!” Phil insisted.

“Just like, maybe on our videos instead of completely random ones,” Dan suggested.

Phil nodded. “Anyway, if you liked this video, please give it a thumbs up, or leave a comment. Like I said, Dan and I will be taking a short break from YouTube and social media for the wedding and honeymoon, but we’ll be back soon with plenty of content.”

“I don’t want to see any of your conspiracy theories about how we’re leaving YouTube out there, I promise it’ll only be like a month.”

“And that’s the normal amount of time between two Dan videos,” Phil interjected, “So-”

“Hey! I said I would upload this year.”

Phil smiled. “Never said you wouldn’t.”

***

“Count of three again?” Dan asked.

Phil nodded. “Three, two, one-”

“Goodbye!”

[wickedwyrmsa]

💘 + mox and matt cus it's not but i wanted to see how you think it'd go

            –––––– HEADCANONS MEME: DATING EDITION!! ––––––

where  they   first   met   and   how

i like to believe that jon and matt first met in the alley behind a bar. matt kinda scared and jon just happy that he gets to creep someone out. just imagine mox waiting between sentences just to answer with a loud BOO which almost sends matt off his feet, aww.

how   long   their   ‘flirting’   phase   was   before   feelings   got   involved

at least half a year. jon is slow. even if matt was quicker he would be too stupid to pick up on it untilmatt literally tells him. but i can see jon tryin to flirt in his own funny way even though he isn’t sure yet whether he has developed romantic feelings for matt. 

who   fell   for   who   first   ( if   applicable )

probably matt. idk why but i really see him trying to hit on mox who’s too blind to see what’s happening. especially because he wouldn’t think a cute and nice dude could have a serious interest in him. 

where   their   first   date   was   and   what   it   was   like

probably in the same alley as their first meeting went down hahahaha jon would try to make it romantic by lighting a candle while they just sit on the cold concrete and talk for hours.

who   asks   who   out   and   how   ( with   a   sign?   spelled   out   on   a   cake?   just   a   simple   ‘will   you   go   out   with   me’? )

OMG i’m not sure jon would be the first but generally jon asking matt on a date would be so AWKWARD??!?! ‘dude lets hang out like… you and i. alone. i’ll invite you or some sht.’

who   proposes   first

jon. once he feels secure and wanted in a relationship, he will get more comfortable and eventually take manners into his own hands. 

if   they   keep   /   kept   their   relationship   secret   or   let   everyone   know   right   away

jon being jon it would probably be a secret. he doesn’t like people sniffing around in his private life. knowing matt though, it’s not impossible that he’d drop hints on their youtube show.

where   the   proposal   happens   and   how   ( kiss   cam   at   a   baseball   game?   on   a   hillside   surrounded   by   ducks?   at   a   disney   park? )

mister mox is a very simple man. probably just on the couch in the living room or maybe in the garden. ‘babe our relationship is great. i love you. we’re getting married. go buy a suit.’ 

if   they   adopt   any   pets   together

MORE DOGS!!!!!

who’s   more   dominant

………………….. mox :/ a big angry man (with more soft moments than he cares to admit)

where   their   first   kiss   was   and   what   it   was   like

oh! matt and jon, drunk on the toilet at a party after some aew show, celebrating their wins and cELEBRATING THAT THEY FINALLY ADMIT TO THEIR FEELINGS!!

if   they   have   any   matching   couples   stuff   ( mugs?   sweaters?   pillowcases? )

omg jon loves to pretend he’s the big bad guy but secretly he will bring back matching pajamas fOR SURE because he loves a comfy flannel pajama and he might get them matching phone cases (possibly with a picture of them printed on it, in the hope of hating his phone a little less when he sees matt everytime that he uses it).

who   holds   the   umbrella   when   it   rains

they switch. arms get tired if you have to hold the damn thing all the time. 

where   their   usual   ‘date   spot’   is   ( if   applicable )

either the bar where they first kissed or maybe they will find a chill restaurant, like a diner, nothing fancy at all, just a place where they can eat some burgers and laugh about dumb sht.

who’s   more   protective

i want to say they’d both go out of their way to protect the other!

how   long   it   is   before   they   sleep   together   ( can   be   as   in   ‘had   sex’   or   as   in   ‘shared   a   bed’ )

had sex? probably the night when they kissed too. sharing a bed though… that will be even after they admitted to their feelings. 

if   they   argue   about   anything

all the time but never about serious things. it usually ends in playfulness.

who   leaves   more   marks   ( lipstick,   hickeys,   scratchmarks   etc. )

neither. love marks are for teens. 

who   steals   whose   clothes   and   how   often

jon ends up wearing matt’s clothes all the time mainly because he’s the sniff-and-wear type of guy not caring what exactly he has on. so i see it happening that he always ends up wearing his boyfriends shirts and hoodies until matt asks him where all his clothes went. then he tired to be more careful for a day until things go back to normal.

how   they   cuddle   ( spooning?   facing   each   other? )

jon laying on top of matt, ignoring the fact that he probably crushes his lungs because he needs the physical contact and spooning isn’t good enough. 

what   their   favourite   nonsexual   activity   is

WRESTLING

how   long   they   stay   mad   at   each   other

maybe like.. 2 minutes before someone makes a stupid joke.

what   their   usual   coffee   /   tea   orders   are

jon drinks his coffee black. matt with too much sugar but no milk! but both of them are suckers for energy drinks more than anything else. coffee is only served in the mornings. 

if   they   ever   have   any   children   together

nah. only dog kids. jon is a bit scared of being a real dad. he doesn’t want to be a dad who’s never there. 

if   they   have   any   special   pet   names   for   each   other

nothing out of the ordinary. jon will use babe a wHOLE LOT and he just takes what matt is willing to give. maybe matt would be the type to name him something more rare like……. i honestly don’t know. something that jon would never expect for sure. causes a big laugh too the first time that it is used!

if   they   ever   split   up   and   /   or   get   back   together

their relationship is solid. jon is the all or nothing type of person. if they ever broke up it would be a break up for good!

what   their   shared   living   space   is   like   ( messy?   clean?   what   kind   of   decor? )

hm.. jon doesn’t love cleaning and because they have limited time together between work he’d probably hire a cleaning lady once or twice a week to keep an order in the house. they’re both down to earth men. lots of wood furniture and a huge garden are absolutely necessary. a home gym with a ring would be cool and something i can see both of them wanting! they’re probably the kind of couple who gets up in the middle of the night because one of the had an idea for a new move and they want to try it. 

what   their   first   christmas   /  hanukkah   /  etc   as  a   couple   was   like

since mox doesn’t have a lot of family left that he still talks to, he’d invite his mom and his siters over to celebrate together with the jackson family probably!

what   their   names   are   in   each   other’s   phones

in jon’s phone matt will just be matt because he was happy he managed to save the number in the first place and doesn’t know how to change the name anymore. but i see matt taking his phone to change it eventually because he wants the status!!!!!!!!! and matt will save jon as ‘my man’ just to make sure EVERYONE who dares to look at his phone screen when it lights up KNOWS

if   they   have   any   ‘couple   traditions’   ( buying   a   new   mug   for   their   collection   every   year?   baking   every   friday   evening? )

wednesday night is reserved for a wrestling marathon. they love watching the old wrestlemanias together and love studying japanese shows from the early 2000. also they ALWAYS go to bed together because they both hate sleeping along and it’s tradition that every year they start the BBQ season with a little garden party to which only the two of them are invited. 

who   falls   asleep   first   and   who   wakes   up   first

jon falls asleep last. he’s always overthinking some stupid stuff like who really is behind the iluminati and how god had the idea of creating the desert, just random stuff that keeps him up while matt already snores next to him. but because dreams aren’t always amazing to him, he also gets up first. matt sleeps in. long enough that on some days jon wakes him because he’s hungry and wants them to have breakfast. 

who’s   the   big   spoon   /   little   spoon

BIG SWITCH ENERGY!!!!! 

who   hogs   the   bathroom

matt will hammer his fists wound if he tries to get jon off the toilet. he brings his tablet there and watches wrestling match after wrestling match while taking care of business. 

who   kills   the   spiders   /   takes   them   outside

no spiders in the house. the dogs take care of that. if there was one jon wouldn’t mind killing it but matt tries to make him take it outside. 

[hitodama89]

Okay I said in the tags of the recent art piece that I wouldn’t talk about the stupid Youtube drama but I literally can’t sleep if I don’t vent somewhere, so bear with me! Though of course feel free to skip, too.

So, if someone has somehow managed to miss the whole ordeal, it’s about a gaming Youtuber named Jared, his now ex-wife Heidi and many of their friends caught in the crossfire. From irl perspective it is pretty standard stuff: the couple is divorcing, the ex-wife is accusing the ex-husband of cheating, being overall a manipulative asshole and even stuff like asking nudes from his underage fans. So yeah, all sorts of messy and nasty.

These things happen, there’s nothing new to that. But there are two things why all of this really upsets me. First of all, everything is very public. It has been horrible to watch how even the couple’s friends have been hearing about all of this first time in Twitter and, like normal people they are, reacting strongly to all sorts of claims flying around. It’s literally like watching a bad family fight in real time. The second point is why I haven’t been able to just tune it out and not follow the happenings: these people are the closest to “celebrities I admire” I’ve ever had. I’ve never cared about traditional celebrities the slightest, singers and actors ans such, but these people and their work I have followed weekly for so, so many years. Jared was once sharing the place of my favorite Youtuber with his friend Austin, who seems to be also pretty distraught over this. They and their whole gaming community has always been the most wholesome corner of Youtube I’ve ever come across. They’ve been the guys I’ve watched whenever I’ve needed some funny, light hearted feel-good type of stuff in my life.

I of course have no way of knowing what is the final thruth of this all. But as much as it pains me to admit it... I could actually see Jared being guilty of the things he has been accused of. It’s mostly (though it isn’t the only reason) because of the most stupid thing ever, which is why I really god damn hope this is not the one and only post of mine that somehow goes viral. =‘) It’s because of his Undertale playthrough. I KNOW! It’s exactly as idiotic as it sounds like! It is also the reason why he was dropped from my ultimate favorites back in the day.

So, what could’ve been so bad about a one little playthrough among dozens of others he has done? It’s... Hard to explain. He didn’t like the game which is absolutely fine! I’m not the rabid fan who hates people because of their opinions, god no. (I’m not that huge fan of Undertale to begin with!) But his attitude during that playthrough was just... Chilling. I couldn’t watch it all the way through and seeing someone I had looked up to until that point like that was disturbing. It felt like he would’ve wanted to be doing literally anything else than playing the game, and like he was blaiming his watchers for his bad time, too. I remember thinking to myself: “wow, feels exactly like when I’ve been talking about my interests to someone and then I realize they look like they would literally pay me million dollars just to make me shut up RIGHT NOW”.  And the feeling was indeed so strong that I had to drop the series due to getting close to a fucking panic attack.

So yeah, it is stupid, it is just one incident (though there were a couple others later, but they weren’t as bad as this first one) and it has ultimately absolutely nothing to do with anything. I’m not even trying to make any sort of point here; like I said in the beginning, I just needed to vent this out. It’s 4 am here right now. I am really darn sad that this is happening, and I need to sleep.

[EDIT]

It’s been some time since I wrote this now, but I just had to dig it up in order to update my thoughts; I just couldn’t leave it to that note. A lot of evidence has been dug up since the first days of that disaster, and the conclusion seems to be... “It’s complicated”. Thank god it looks like at least the nudes to kids -claims are shaky at best and more than likely complete bogus. The cheating part on the other hand seems to be a question of viewpoint. Tl;dr Jared had told Heidi that he wanted a divorce, but Heidi didn’t agree to that and wanted to continue trying to make things work out. So were they together at that point? Tbh I think there is no one ultimate truth behind that. It’s in such a deeply gray area that I don’t think either party is ultimately right or wrong in their interpretation.

So all that is left of the original claims is Jared’s manipulative behavior. That I’m sure has some credibility behind it. But then again who even would be such a perfect person that they could act perfectly in an emotionally extremely messy situation? Plus Heidi seems to be quite a personality to deal with, too - and that I don’t base even on any 3rd party accusations on, but her own Tweets that did make me go “of wow, yikes” every once in a while. (She clearly enjoy getting her revenge on Jared way too much.)

So all in all this seems to be just your average nasty divorce after all. The only exceptional part was how this was all handled publicly in a very, very bad manner.

[tygerbug]

Who Reviews

Doctor Who: The Witchfinders, written by Joy Wilkinson. In the history of Doctor Who we've had three stories both written and directed by women. The last was Barbara Clegg's Enlightenment in 1983, an unusual story which stands out from its era and is easily one of the best of the 80s. The Witchfinders is a very solid tale, and you might say it succeeds as a traditional Doctor Who story more than any other this year. I've seen someone on Twitter call it the best so far and I can't concur with that, but this is a good opportunity to look at what's really been happening with Doctor Who this year overall.

Chris Chibnall as showrunner has brought us a Doctor Who which functions better as Genuine Adult Drama (GAD) than the Davies and Moffat eras did. You can feel the influence of Davies, but they've shaved his trademark silliness off the whole thing for a more muted feel to the proceedings. This is paired with an anamorphic desaturated feature-film look to the visuals. At times the series even feels bland and flavorless, but at its best we feel the weight of the adult concepts the TARDIS team are faced with - American racism in "Rosa" and the British-sparked conflict between Muslims and Hindus in "Demons of the Punjab." The Witch trials of the King James era are a weighty, depressing subject, and it seems a little bit of a shame to bring traditional Doctor Who alien monsters into it. To the episode's credit, it goes full horror movie with this. There's some CGI but it's mostly makeup straight out of a zombie film - specifically the Evil Dead series. It feels too scary for kids, and Doctor Who should occasionally feel like that. And oh, let's talk about King James. Russell T. Davies established the traditional of the "celebrity historical" where The Doctor meets a well known historical (or sometimes fictional) personage, often played by a recognizable guest-star actor. So here's Alan Cumming, a big-name actor coming in to play his part as an absolute lark. Openly gay and affecting a comical upper-class Scottish accent of some kind, he's a delight throughout, whether flirting with Ryan or trying to learn The Doctor's secrets. The half-comedic performance does undermine him a bit as a threat, but it's nice to see a guest actor having fun with a part. Cumming is a smart enough actor to never go fully over the top with it, pitching his performance at the right level so that it doesn't break the scene. The three companions have been reliably good, but not in a showy or cartoonish way. They only occasionally get standout moments. There's a lot of humor and energy to Jodie Whittaker's performance as The Doctor, which is not unlike David Tennant's popular Doctor, but it often feels like that energy is muted by everything else around her, as if she's acting in a tank of water. The Witchfinders is the first episode to show The Doctor struggling to get anyone to take her seriously, due to her gender. King James doesn't recognize her as being in charge, and she's sentenced as a witch and drowned. I'm glad an episode dealt with this, but it also speaks to a fundamental, and peculiar, powerlessness inherent to Jodie Whittaker's version of The Doctor. In the 60s-80s series, it was common for The Doctor to be mistrusted by everyone at the beginning of a story, and locked up until he could prove his worth. Jon Pertwee's Doctor spends much of Frontier in Space going from one prison cell to another. The faster-paced post-2005 series rightly dispensed with that as padding they didn't have time for. Psychic Paper was introduced to give The Doctor credentials and credibility at the beginning of a story, along with other tricks often involving the Sonic Screwdriver - which by this point is an all-purpose tool but can also be used for its traditional purpose of opening locks to get The Doctor - and the writer - out of a dead end. The Psychic Paper fails The Doctor in this one, as King James doesn't respect a woman's authority. It was usually easy for The Doctor, as played by Eccleston, Tennant, Smith or Capaldi, to talk his way into a position of authority, and Whittaker's Doctor managed that in her first scene. But increasingly it's become apparent that The Doctor is not doing an amazing job of solving every problem in an episode like an all-powerful God, or kid's TV hero. The Davies and Moffat eras often wanted to show you how amazing and powerful The Doctor is. This Doctor keeps ending up with endings in which some immediate threat has been vanquished, but larger societal problems linger, and people we care about are dead. Last week's episode, Kerblam!, set up an apparently dystopic capitalist future, where an Amazon-like retailer had replaced 90% of employees with automation, and was required by law to keep a 10% human workforce. The employed workers were treated like machines, and were miserable, and the unemployed were apparently living in even greater misery and poverty. The episode couldn't, or wouldn't, imagine an automated future where the unemployed are cared for. Capitalism can't imagine that either. The Doctor sees that misery and doesn't do much to help. She solves the immediate problem that is killing workers, so that the company can keep on running, more or less as it did before. This has been something of a running theme. The Doctor doesn't fix anything for citizens of this galaxy at large. The Doctor can't improve the racism of 20th Century America, only observe it and make sure that Rosa Parks' protest happens as scheduled. You could say the same about the border dispute tearing India apart in 1947. History isn't changed, only observed and mourned, and the role of the colonizing British in creating his situation is not dealt with in any overt way. Grace dies in the course of The Doctor's first adventure. The Doctor feeds the dangerous Pting, calming it for awhile, but sets it loose afterward. We never see The Doctor deal with the giant spiders or, more importantly, the toxic waste that created them. That waste was itself the product of deregulation under the laissez-faire rule of Chris Noth's Robertson, an uber-capitalist narcissist psychopath who is compared to Trump (though not as vile). The Doctor and Ryan are seen to trap the large spiders for a natural death, but what happens after that is not dealt with onscreen. Instead we get this companion team officially joining The Doctor in the TARDIS. In every episode this year, we witness a very messed-up situation, often caused by some intersection of capitalism and racism. But it's not a situation The Doctor can fix by the end of the episode. She can only mitigate the stranger, monster-based elements, the threat that they're facing immediately in the moment. She removes whatever is gumming up the gears of progress so that the actual horrors of the society in question can continue unchallenged. Of course in the more historically-based episodes it's too much to ask that The Doctor Solve Everything, in capital letters. Is she supposed to solve racism? But the more fantasy-based episodes like Kerblam! have much less excuse. It's telling, I think, that these episodes overall are better at dealing with America's failures than Britain's. The Doctor is powerless to deliver a truly happy ending, or even to show she's trying for one, and I wonder if that's intentional or due to a lack of political consciousness on the part of the writers and showrunner. This year on Halloween, the leftist Youtube channel Philosophy Tube did a piece about the horrors of the witch trials, and how they were used to break the power that women had in a feudal agricultural society, including traditional medicine, and how this led to modern capitalism. He covered the same material on Twitter, and I'll link to that here. https://twitter.com/PhilosophyTube/status/953277894813536256 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tmk47kh7fiE "The Witch-Hunt is classic Divide and Rule: paint women as dangerous so the new proletariat are busy fighting 'witches' instead of joining together and fighting the rich. There are massive rollbacks of women's rights … Records were often kept of how much land or money was seized from them, but not how many were murdered." It's an interesting take on just how bloody the transition to an industrial capitalist society was, and how the people and their "old ways" had to be broken for this to happen. It was a means of controlling women's options, and the options of the average worker, something that's still relevant to today's society. In some ways we still live, today, in the cages that the witch-hunters built. Today's politicians like Mike Pence are just witch-hunters in different clothes. And that's something this Doctor Who story doesn't deal with. I've mentioned this, but when the Rosa Parks story was announced, I saw a lot of people on Twitter, who aren't Doctor Who fans, assuming that a Doctor Who take on Rosa Parks would by nature have to be a disgusting exercise in tastelessness. Maybe they thought The Doctor would be taking on some kind of Racism Monster. Apart from introducing The Doctor and a villain into the proceedings, "Rosa," as an episode, was tastefully done. While it didn't show clearly that Rosa Parks planned her protest beforehand, it did show that Parks was an activist who planned her actions alongside others (including Dr. King), which is more than many history books do. But their fears were not unfounded. It's common for pop culture to create extended and elaborate metaphors about bigotry as if they're making some grand statement, but also reinforce that bigotry as somehow justified along with it. In Disney's Zootopia, there are classes of predator and prey animals, and the predators are discriminated against and find it difficult to get ahead in society. This is a metaphor about racism, but it would be entirely justified for a rabbit to be afraid of a fox. In the wild, a "predator" would eat the "prey" animal. If this is truly taken as a metaphor for white racism against black people in America, it's an offensive one. Race is a social construct, and racism as we know it was created to enforce slavery. It established people with dark skin of African descent as an underclass, to exploit in order to grease the wheels of capitalism in the centuries before the Civil War (and afterward, if we're being quite honest). Black people and white people are genetically identical, and without the shadow of slavery (created by the rich to enrich themselves) would have identical rights. Foxes and rabbits are not genetically identical. One is likely to eat the other. In the X-Men series, mutants are feared and shunned by society. They have superpowers from birth, and are genuinely extremely powerful and potentially dangerous. So if the public fears them, that's actually entirely justified. The mutants are different from "normal" humans and could assert their power in very dangerous ways if they wanted. Wolverine is virtually an immortal with knives for hands. Phoenix could easily destroy the earth. The endless comics, TV series and films featuring the X-Men have positioned Xavier and Magneto as the "Dr. King" and "Malcolm X" of their story, in that Xavier wants mutants to have equal rights and is more palatable to the mainstream, while Magneto is "too radical." But this is an offensive metaphor when you break it down. Of course neither Xavier nor Magneto are black Americans. Both Dr. King and Malcolm X were considered extreme radicals in their time, and they agreed on many concepts. Dr. King spoke out for worker's rights generally, and for class consciousness. He was murdered for his beliefs. Magneto has magnet powers and runs a club called "The Brotherhood of Evil Mutants" which seeks to dominate over humanity. He's a bad guy who does bad things and constantly emperils the world in general. Comparing him to a 60s civil rights leader is an offensive metaphor, unless you accept that the X-Men series just wants to touch on the history of bigotry in America as subtext without accepting everything that comes with it, which is fair enough. It's not a history lesson. But like almost all sci-fi stories, it makes no sense without our understanding of how black people and other groups have been marginalized in America, but makes the story about white people instead, like a cartoon fox played by Jason Bateman. The history of slavery, oppression, bigotry, Nazism, fascism, and so on is the subtextual backstory for pretty much all sci-fi media. So many villains are based on the Nazis, but this rarely takes into account the racist ideology behind fascism. Hitler came to power after Germany's economy had collapsed, partly due to the Great War. The average worker was living in hopeless poverty, and either they were going to develop class consciousness and tear down capitalism, asserting their rights as a worker, or they were going to need someone to blame. Hitler gave them someone to blame. He rounded up the socialists, communists and Marxists who were preaching against capitalism. He blamed it all on the Jewish people, who traditionally had been excluded from many professions and were often involved in banking. It was apparently easy to make up conspiracy theories about them Actually Being in Charge of Everything. He rounded up the LGBT people, burned gay and trans literature. He targeted the Romani "gypsies" who had been marginalized for centuries. There was no logical underpinning behind this. There never really is, with racism. Hitler only wanted power, and he saw that the people had lost faith in the world, with capitalism and their government. They were being oppressed by economic depression, and had a general unfocused rage. He used that anger and directed it toward groups that were already marginalized in some way. He distracted the people and consolidated his power by giving them something to hate. He slaughtered six million Jewish people in an apparent bid to wipe an entire religion off the face of the Earth - the religion which gave us Christianity, for that matter. Since the 80s, Capitalism and greed has gone unchecked by any desire to actually help people and have a functioning society. After George W. Bush's trillion-dollar wars for oil, the economy has crashed and not really gotten better. People are noticing. The rich are getting obscenely so, as if they're being gifted the equivalent of a brand new car every few seconds. The poor are begging for scraps. There is a general unfocused rage. Donald Trump, a fake billionaire, has gotten a large chunk of America to blame it on non-white minorities, such as people from Mexico. This is what Hitler did. I've gotten way off topic, but for a reason. The people who burned witches in the 17th century and thereabouts were not actually killing people who had any magical powers. They were murdering their neighbors, and consciously or not it helped the world change. The world's economy was changing. Land was being seized. Power was shifting. People were losing rights and property they had previously been entitled to, as part of a series of steps which led to factory work in the 19th century. They killed women to kill off the old ways. And I'm watching a rather good Doctor Who episode about that, about killing witches to "fight the powers of Satan," and it turns out that in this episode they actually have good reason to be killing off their neighbors, or to fear the powers of Satan, because there's actually some evil alien stuff going on, and it's infecting people and raising people from the dead and it all looks very scary and supernatural. If you're in the mood to be offended it does feel a little like a Witch Trial but with Actual Witchcraft, portraying the witch-hunters as absurd and awful but also somewhat vindicated by the events of the story, not unlike our X-Men and Zootopia examples. So it's a good Doctor Who yarn, but as a metaphor it doesn't even get started. The episode isn't that interested in the larger societal issues at play here, although it does deal with sexism, which covers a lot of that territory in a general sense. It largely focuses on female characters (except for King James), and both the writer and director are women, for the third time in Doctor Who history. And that's been due to sexism. There haven't been a ton of women writing Doctor Who, or directing it (despite the big-name appeal of Tank Girl director Rachel Talalay). And that's a problem. And it's a problem the show has temporarily solved, by hiring women for this week only. The larger cultural problem remains. And the show keeps fighting for diversity, this year. British writer Malorie Blackman OBE handled "Rosa" with real sensitivity. And Vinay Patel handled "Demons of the Punjab" with full awareness of its historical background. Between them they've probably delivered the two best episodes this year. Indeed these have all stood above the episodes credited to Chris Chibnall. The diversity this year has been welcome, as it's resulted in some good television. But like The Doctor's actions in these episodes it's just a band-aid placed over any larger cultural issues. She can stop the problem of the week, but she really can't fix everything. Which is fine. Realistic, even, which fits the tone of this year in general. My question is, does she want to fix everything? Are The Doctor and her writers socially aware enough to use these larger issues responsibly? So far, in terms of social consciousness, this year's Doctor Who raises a lot of questions it can't actually answer. Not in a way which satisfies the kids, or the adults - for different reasons. It's still very good television, and I'll give it points for asking some of these questions in the first place.

[pkmnjesus]

5 years of the PokémonJesus

Before the night comes to a close, I would like to personally reflect on today’s importance (thus the reason for the Takeover queue). It’s been 5 years since I officially became engaged with this fandom that has really became a weekly routine of mine when new episodes come out. This is really just to put my thoughts out there in the blog archive, so I would prefer if no one reblogs this. P J’s beginnings started all the way back with Serebii Forums...

2013-2014 (The Pokémon forums Era)

I have been lurking in the fandom as early as the Best Wishes days, and often visit sites like Serebii Forums or tumblr’s Pokémon anime tags around 2011. I usually talk Pokémon online when it comes to the games when battling or trading in certain chat rooms (was really active during the Gen. IV era of games), but never really talked about the anime with. I have been a spectator to the discussion while the BW saga was rolling a long, then I decided on September 26th 2013 (which was the airdate for the final BW! episode in Japan) to create a serebiiforums account under the username PokemonJesus123, just in time for the start of the XY series which I was mad hyped about! I WAS A FAN SINCE DAY 1...some y’all just tagged along in XY&Z NO LOYALTY xD . My serebii profile is still there actually, so you can try to find my old inactive page if you want lol (my avatar was me holding up my 3DS in a cringey way...looking back why tf did I take that photo lol delete later). Coming into 2014, I joined tumblr as well under the url name you see right before you. Never changed it, and probably never will. The origin of this name you ask? You’ll just have to ask me personally for that story 😉 I absolutely joined tumblr out of pure boredom to view and follow blogs I was a fan of. I had no intention of posting whatsoever. Oh, and I made a Twitter account under the P J name too! Follow ME :^)

2014-2015 (Thursday LIVE! tumblr era)

After a couple months of finally creating a tumblr account and actively posting on serebiiforums and bulbagarden, XY episode 50 (the episode where big lips Nini/Nene debuted) was the first EVER Pokémon anime episode I ever posted about in my blog. I was still new the #pokeani tag (funny story, I didn’t really knew what it meant back then besides to tag it lol), but I got as much as around 30-100 notes. Seeing those notes already got excited that it pushed me from making it a weekly thing since I had a livestream to watch it every Thursday night and screen-cap it. My goal from the very beginning was to try to be the first one to post about here, like what the Japanese fans do on Twitter under the #Anipoke tag. Of course, most of my notes came from either an AmourShipping post or a Serena post. I’m not going to lie, I was really a huge Serena fan when the series first started. I rambled a lot too getting hyped for Citron/Clemont episodes because he was probably my favorite character at the time xD

2015-2016 (A growing blog)

This was the era I started to do special long posts in celebration with Pokémon’s 20th anniversary. Around this period is where my blog was in a developing state getting like 2 or 3 followers every week. And trust me, there were A LOT of posts that I regret posting, but I learned to watch my words every week and say the right things (I really try not to trigger anyone here). I took a couple of weeks off when new episodes aired since I was really busy with college, or I wasn’t into XY filler episodes that much. Would usually tune in live when Team Flare was involved or anything with Squishy/Puni-chan (I absolutely ADORED Bonnie/Eureka in this arc), but I didn’t post that much on tumblr...unless if there was like an AmourShipping moment that happened xD. The hype for Gen. VII was already looming, and I kinda got bored from the anime A BIT. When Ash-Greninja came into the picture however, I got excited again! Then the Kalos League happened, and the anticipation of Ash’s journey hit a climax! We all know what happened, and the rest was history...

2016-2017 (GIFmaking era)

So the Sun & Moon anime happened late 2016, and the hype for a new series was within me again! This is when my blog REALLY started to boom, as well as the birth of my Pokémon Discord server PokéTōku. My notes were higher than over compared to what I posted from XY. One possible reason is that a lot of pokeani bloggers from back then weren’t really interested in Sun & Moon (probably because of the animation change), so I was one of few who still stayed for the ride and that really benefited my blog’s exposure. I absolutely loved Lillie’s character development, and I also did not expect myself to enjoy Lana/Suiren’s character so much! Brock & Misty’s was a huge highlight for me as well seeing my childhood come to a modern-day Pokémon series. I was surprised to have popular people reblog my stuff that destroys my notifications per second. I was even flattered when popular pokéblogs such as shelgon, corsolanite, chasekip, and a few others followed me. Back then I really wanted to get a lot of notes, but at this point I just wanted to be myself and post screen-caps that I feel like talking about. The series also motivated me to start making GIFs since I finally had access to Adobe Photoshop through my university’s application benefits. Later in 2017, I graduated from college and it gave me more time to improving my blog. Also, can you believe it took me 3 years to get 1,000 followers? If you asked me from day 1, I would have never expected to get that much since I had no idea about tumblr’s audience.

Everyone here knows that my blog doesn’t really follow “traditional” tumblr methods such as tags or making specific posts and what not (since I’m not really that into the tumblr culture lol...I’m just here for fun doing my own thing), but I hope I’ve brought something different to your dash experience 🙃

2017-2018 (Making friends)

From 1,000 to 2,500+ followers the next year. You’d be surprise how small that still is compared to the other popular Pokéblogs that joined tumblr later than me, but I’m still grateful for that number. My hype for movie 20 was crazy! I’d always make a post about it when a new trailer was out. But just like Sun & Moon, not everyone was looking forward to the AU it produced. The Let’s Go games shared the same fate as well since everyone didn’t want another Kanto, but I always defend the things that deserve a chance! I fairly enjoyed movie 20 though, and was the first movie that I posted screen-caps and GIFs for in this blog, even made an experience post about it watching it in the theaters! What’s MOST important to me during this time was actually interacting with some of my followers...or should I say friends now :) Out of the 5 years I’ve been here (not counting serebiiforum peeps I’ve known since 2013), I only recently talked to some of you around 2017. My interactions with people here have been awesome (for the most part at least lol) from sharing interests, geeking out over the anime, sending memes xD and concerns when P J isn’t feeling P J. You know who you are, and THANK YOU for cheering your boy up in times when I needed it despite not telling you about it <3 Going back to PokéAni hype, my next excitement attack was when they announced the Aether Foundation and Ultra Beasts were getting involved in the main story. It really makes up for no Alola movie...but hey we still got 1 year left, so maybe there’s hope?

Despite the brief breaks I took, P J’s activeness in the fandom has reached its highest when I managed the time to do scheduled posts and even started a few mini-blog series this year. Even during stressful times, I always make it an effort to find time and contribute to the fandom. I honestly don’t care if I get any asks because I know who the real homies are ◉‿◉つ A special shoutout as well to all the people that joined my Discord server through this website. I couldn’t have reached 100+ members without some of your blogs ^_^ And to the lurkers out there (I know some of y’all are creepin’ in the shadows of my blog without liking anything), you may not know it but I love you people too ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ)

Anyway this is just a summary of my journey here so far, and if you’d to hear a more in-depth story on some toxic things I’ve experienced in this fandom just message me. I personally don’t like venting out stuff in public because it just promotes more negativity, and I’m not about that. I will make a separate post on my feelings toward the schedule change maybe next week, and an appreciation post (5th tumblr blogaversary) for my specific followers January 2019. I am still preparing for that because there are so many people (even ones I don’t even talk to) I want to thank ❤ Moving forward into my 6th year, I probably won’t make another post like this anytime soon...but I am very hopeful for the future of the SM series and possible Gen. 8 anime late 2019. I also do plan on making some PokéAni-related stuff in my YouTube channel when the time is right, and have the resources to do projects. Keep your eyes out fam 👀LET’S F’N GO!

[caffeineivore]

Ficcing Friday

Prompter: @ellorgast

Prompt: Nephrite, food pr0n

Characters: Nephrite, Makoto a bit of Kunzite. Hints of Mako-Neph, and Mina-Kunz, maybe. Set around the same time as this.

**

Even on this longest and darkest of winter nights, the bright lights of Manhattan illuminate the street on which the vacant church stands. It had snowed earlier during the day in pretty puffs of white, though now, the curbs run slick and wet with gray slush. Off in the distance, a clock strikes midnight, and almost on cue, the roof hatch opens. 

The stone knight comes completely to life at the last strike of the clock, and almost before his eyes completely blink open, they turn towards where his visitor is shutting the roof hatch behind her. Linden almost never dresses up-- it would not do to attract undue attention while walking into an abandoned church only frequented now by a few vagrants escaping the winter cold. Today is not much of an exception-- her jeans have definitely seen better days, and her boots are already marked with road salt from the snow plows. However, tonight, there are festive sprigs of greenery pinned to her coat lapel and hat. Bright holly berries glow like rubies against dark green wool. 

“My Lady--”

“Linden. Just Linden, tonight.” For all their history, the animosity and accord in equal measure, he insists on using only the courtliest of manners with her, and it’s vexing in a way that she doesn’t care to analyze. Surely, after crossing eight centuries and a wide ocean, they were-- in the common phrase of this day and age and place-- “better than that”. He smiles at that, almost rakishly, and she wonders, not for the first time, if he’d had a smitten sweetheart from the village before their paths had crossed with such utter finality all those years ago. If he had, he’s certainly never made mention of her, but she knows well enough that young, good-looking men in the prime of life seldom lived in solitude. 

“It’s the first big snowfall of the year,” he remarks, apropos of nothing, as she sits down next to him as is their custom, unzips her bag. This time, she brings out not only a thermos, but a plastic ziploc bag, filled with golden-brown gingerbead cookies. 

“Wassail and gingerbread, for Yuletide,” Linden says quietly, pouring out a cup of the hot, spiced drink. It smells like cinnamon and star anise, mead and mulled apple cider. A wry grin crosses her lips as she hands him the cup. “Drink and be well, Sir Nathalán of Stormbrook Keep.”

“You know, you are the one who does not wish to stand on ceremony, milady... I have not been Sir Nathalán in a very long time.” He sips the hot drink, and bestows another grin upon her. “This tastes a great deal better than the wassail from when I was Sir Nathalán. These spices would have been nigh impossible to find, especially in the winter.”

“There’s also the matter of refrigerators, genetically engineered food plants, and FDA standards,” Linden says wryly. At this distance, she can feel the warmth of his breath against tendrils of her hair. It smells like snow and cinnamon sugar, probably would taste the same. She doesn’t choose to test that theory, though, instead busying herself with the bag of cookies. “Here. I made these myself.”

He takes one, bites down, then takes another. “Spectacular,” he pronounces around a mouthful of sugared, spiced dough. “I did not know that you worked in a kitchen.”

“Linden Thorne is a successful food blogger and cookbook author, I’ll have you know.” She pulls an iphone with a floral-patterned case out of a pocket and pushes a few buttons, then allows herself a grin as he watches a youtube video of her making homemade peppermint bark in undisguised fascination. 

“Linden Thorne.” He says the name slowly, as though savoring the way the syllables taste on his tongue. “What would I be called, do you think, in this time and place?”

Linden opens her mouth to speak, to speculate, but any words she might have said die unspoken on her tongue. There is another, powerful presence on the rooftop, and she whirls around, one arm half-shielding Nathalán on fierce primordial instinct. No one comes up on this roof, and the hatch is securely latched still. 

The newcomer is tall, with starshine hair fine and long as a unicorn’s. The black leather trench coat and fine suede boots are not weather-appropriate for a sloping, winter-scarred rooftop, but he seems completely at ease, not at all cold. There is an aura of underlying strength and power beneath his quiet gray gaze, of calm conviction. It takes a moment for Linden to recognize him for what he is.

“Kafziel, Watchman of the Seventh Palace,” the angel intones. His voice is deep and measured, reasonably benevolent, and Linden relaxes fractionally. It was a church, after all. In a way, Kafziel had more of a right to be here than either of them. He did not seem angry, though, that she could tell. (It was awfully difficult to tell a lot of things about angels).

“Linden Thorne,” she returns the introduction with one of her own. “And this is-- was-- Sir Nathalán of Stormbrook Keep.” 

Neither of them explain to the angel about how they came to be there, iele and gargoyle on an icy church roof, but Linden is almost certain that Kafziel already knew. She had not felt any guilt at the time of Nathalán’s infraction and subsequent punishment, but then again, Kafziel’s kin held to a far more rigid code than her sisterhood. 

Strangely, the angel chooses instead to focus on the half-eaten bag of cookies and cooling thermos of wassail still scenting the night air around them. “This is a festive time of year for the mortals, is it not?” 

“Yes. And a triumphant one for you,” Linden returns, without any rancour. A sudden thought occurs to her, and she lets out a faint, single-note laugh before she can stop it. “I’d offer you some homemade gingerbread cookies if I thought you’d be interested. Do you like cookies?”

“I’m fairly sure everyone likes cookies,” Kafziel says reflectively. He takes one, though he seems more interested in turning it over in his hand, feeling the soft, cakey texture of the gingerbread, than eating it right away. A faint smile crosses his lips, an indulgent expression which softens the almost-too-perfect features into something a bit less enthralling and terrifying. “Someone I know is similarly enamoured of all the mortal festivities and traditions of the holidays. She made a point to decorate the busiest hospital emergency room in the city like it’s her home. Though-- I suppose, in a way, it might well be.”

Linden doesn’t have time to wonder about who or what in the world would keep company with someone like Kafziel when Nathalán interjects, in his typically unthinking, foolhardy way, toasting the angel with the rest of the wassail. “Be well, Kafziel, Watchman of the Seventh Palace. Health and a short winter.”

“And the same to you.” The angel, to Linden’s eternal relief, does not seem particularly offended to be conversing with two who celebrated Yuletide rather than Christmas. And perhaps he’d been there, unseen, for a few minutes before she’d felt his presence, because he cocks his head to the side in a manner so stunningly human-like that she blinks. “You may call me Kafziel. And... Sir Nathalán, I think, in this time and place, you’d likely be called Nathan. Nathan Storm.” That brief, faint smile crosses his lips again. “It’s a pleasure to meet you both.”

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #181

"wine is fine, but whiskey’s quicker. suicide is slow with liquor.”

What’s the farthest you’ve gone with someone? I mean I'm not a virgin? Have you ever said “I love you” to someone and didn’t mean it? I don't believe so. Do your parents usually agree with your partners-of-choice? Yeah. I really don't know how Dad feels about me being with a girl currently, but he likes her personally. How many people do you like right now? (even the slightest bit) Legitimately, just one. My "I don't actually know this celeb but I'd 10/10 marry them" thing is just a joke. Do you believe little kids can fall in love? My guess is not until you reach a certain level of maturity where you can grasp the seriousness of "falling in love." But who really knows. What was the last dream that you can remember? On the morning I'm answering this one, I swear I had like ten or something last night. As time goes on though, they're starting to blur together. The one that stands out most tho is my sis and I became the first Americans (yes, that was a detail) to fully infiltrate a Russian, secret government base without being killed. Look idk either. Have you ever been rickrolled? Maybe? Do you like balogna? Yeah. It was my favorite lunch meat as a kid. Are you supersticious? No. What animals have you ridden? Horses and ponies off the top of my head. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve done to someone you don’t know in public? I don't think I've done anything notable for this. Do you ever stick gum under seats? No, and my opinion of you greatly plummets if you do. Do you live somewhere where it’s completely safe to walk alone at night? I don't think those exist anymore. Have you ever lived with someone who was a total slob? When Dustin pretty much lived in the apartment with us... jc. Would you rather be able to talk to animals or be fluent in every language? Talk to animals. Does your kitchen have a pantry? No. Have you ever interviewed a job applicant at your workplace? N/A Have you ever gone over 3 months without shaving/waxing your legs? I don't shave them anymore unless I fear there's even a tiny chance someone might see them... Thanks, society. Are you high-maintenance? Definitely not. Would you ever consider being a foster parent? Being any kind of parent is off the list for me. What are some things that make others cry, that don’t make you cry at all? Idk, I'm a crybaby. Most sad songs don't, I guess. Are you a very detail-oriented person? Or are you better at seeing the big picture? Definitely the former. Do you have any upcoming plans with friends? lol What kinds of leisure activities did your family do together when you were growing up? Watch TV or sometimes play board games, probs. Occasionally all go in the pool together. Dragons or unicorns? I'm all 'bout dragons, man. Do you wish vampires existed? Um no. Do you sing in front of people you don’t know very well? How about dance? Nope. Have you ever sang/spoke/preformed in front of people on a stage? Sang in church choir and elementary chorus, read my D.A.R.E. report, and was in groups at dance recitals and competitions. Is it more fun or scary to do so? If you haven’t, then what would you think? Eh, it depends on your level of confidence in what you're performing. Like with dance, I was never that nervous as I knew what I was doing. Singing wasn't bad either because I was with others. Now reading aloud, alone, fuck that. I think anything alone would be scary. Would you rather slit your wrists than read Cosmo? I normally delete just plain stupid questions, but I'm leaving this here to hope and pray the author of this question sees me sincerely  and genuinely say fuck you, you goddamn fly-swarmed shitpile with a maturity level surpassed by an infant's. Did you ever like barbies? Do you currently like barbies? They weren't really my thing, but I'd play with them if my sisters or friends wanted me to. What’s your favorite hit song right now? I don't know what the hit songs are right now. What’s your favorite element? (fire, water, air) Out of the traditional four, fire. Have you ever been to a wild party? No. Have you gone through any drastic life-changing experiences? If so, what was the most drastic? Depression and anxiety manifesting was absolutely life-changing, and then when you consider it resulted in PTSD, obviously the break-up was incredibly serious, but it also led towards my gradual recovery. What traits from your father would you like to pass down to your children? Don't want kids, but I'll answer as if I did. If that were the case, I like how he's not one for grudges, is very openly himself, and is super goofy. What is your biggest fault? It probably all boils down to my anxiety and trust issues resulting in me jumping to conclusions. If you could transform into any animal what would it be and why? Probably a snow leopard. Climate I love, super pretty, and I know I'd wanna be a feline anyway. What are the first three things you do when you wake up? Check the time, go to the bathroom, then it varies. Can you remember the first time you ever talked to the person you love/like? Does he/she remember? Ha, sure do, both through text and Skype... I'm sure she remembers the basics at least, too. Would you be able to have a relationship with someone you didn’t find attractive, if they had a nice personality and treated you well? Yeah. Have you ever really liked someone to begin with, then changed your mind about them? Maybe? Does your significant other/crush know about your Tumblr? Does he/she look at it? Yeah, and we follow each other, so. Do you ever feel a desire for sex at inappropriate times? Define "inappropriate?" What was the last thing that one of your parents bought for you? Fast food. Think about your first boyfriend/girlfriend. Did that person make you happy? What went wrong in the relationship? Sure, but just as friends. If you decided to dye your hair, would you choose to go lighter or darker? Lighter. I want more colorful hair. Is there a TV show or movie in which you’re incredibly emotionally attached to the characters? I don't think so "incredibly" since Meerkat Manor. Would you rather arrive super early or super late to class? Early. What’s something really basic that worries or troubles you on a consistent basis? It's a wonder I'm blanking here considering I know there's a load of things. What do you use the internet for the most? YouTube. On a scale of one to ten, how good is your memory? A goddamn one. It's been exceptionally awful lately. Do you worry about money? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YEAH. Do you have any health problems that are unusual for your age? Well, the memory thing, though it's probably just a side effect of my meds or actual ADD. My knees are atrocious, though, and after many, many tests, we still can't figure out what's wrong with them. What’s the longest nap you’ve ever taken? When does it no longer qualify as a nap?  Maybe like... four hours at max? Are you more likely to expect the best or the worst of a situation? The worst. Always. Have you ever said or done something in public that resulted in a stranger’s response? Possibly. How many serious relationships have you been in? Two. Do you think you have a vivid imagination? Very, personally. What was the last song you listened to? "Sick Like Me" by In This Moment. How many hours a day do you spend on Facebook, if any? Not even one. Do you own your favorite film on DVD? Maybe? Idk if we replaced the VHS. Have you ever been so angry that you screamed out of nowhere? On one occasion I basically screeched my lungs out on the porch. What’s your opinion on Nicki Minaj? I guess as a rapper she's good, she's indisputably quick as fuck, but I'm not a fan personally. Do you like having your lip softly bitten when you’re kissing? Oh fuck yes. Have you ever been on a boat? Yeah, when Dad would take me fishing and also on a 5th grade field trip to a horse-inhabited island near one of the lighthouses. We couldn't go to the lighthouse because the water was too rough. Have you ever been hopelessly in love with a celebrity? You can't be "in love" with someone you've never met and don't know personally. Generally speaking, do you like acoustic or original versions of songs better? Hm... tied, I think. What was the last band shirt you wore? Otep. Do you follow any celebrities on Twitter? I use Twitter only for Mark. That is all. What was the last flavor of pudding or yogurt you ate? Chocolate. What was the last thing you bought online, and how about in an actual store? With my own money, online it was Sara's ring I believe, and in a store was a snack. When was the last time you met someone who seemed very unpleasant? Hm. I honestly don't go out and meet people enough to answer this. Does anyone have a romantic interest in you, that you don’t return? Possibly, but it doesn't matter. Have your parents met the person you’re currently interested in? Yeah. What was the last alcoholic drink you tried for the first time? Did you like it? Oh my fucking god, some kind of "fancy" vodka in a margarita. It was disgusting. Are your eyes the same color as your siblings’ eyes? Only my brother. What food(s) have you eaten a lot of recently? Nutrition/meal replacement shakes. Do you use the microwave a lot when it comes to cooking food? Yeah, 'cuz I can't cook. Are you currently trying to get over someone? No. Do you know anyone who’s been on TV? If so, which show? Not to my knowledge. Do you have any lockets with pictures inside? No. Have you ever liked a football player? No. What was the last thing you learned? Some snacks rats can eat. Do you like Chinese food, Mexican food, or American food better? American. I'm very picky with all foreign food, actually. What’s your favorite scent? Freshly-baked bread, coffee, honeydew, lilacs... If you could house any pet, what would it be? Out of all pet options, uh... I suppose a horse or Saint Bernard if I had the means to properly care for them, too. Do you pluck your eyebrows? No. Do you like to swing? YEAH. How about jumping on a trampoline? I would if my knees weren't shit. If you could have any car, what kind would it be? Idk. I'm not educated on cars enough. What’s your favorite fast-food restaurant? I'm a slut for Wendy's. How often do you like to have sex? I'm not in a position where that's ever a thing yet. It wasn't something I thought about with Jason either, but we were pretty regular with sexual affection so we never went very long without, anyway. What’s your definition of weird? I don't care to define it, honestly. "Weird" can be good, bad, neutral... It's too vast a term and super subjective. Do you use shaving cream? That or lotion when I shave my legs. Have you ever personally known any girl who shaved their head? Well, she's an online friend, but I'd count her. Have you ever coughed up blood? I don't believe so. Who was the last person you hugged? My niece or nephew. What’s some of the worst pain you’ve ever felt? Mental: heartbreak and abandonment (both without any obvious prologue), rejection from who I cared about most, as well as deep hopelessness. Physical: having a cyst drained, an internal hemorrhoid, fracturing my wrist, having my tongue piercing redone and more accurately, a severe case of constipation I had as a little kid, an ear infection that made me want to chop it off and all out, a concussion, menstrual cramps before I was put on the pill... What kind of mouse pad do you have? I use a trackpad. What color is your mouse? ^ What’s your favorite dessert food? Ice cream, donuts, or red velvet cake omlllll. What is the closest thing to you right now that is alive? My dog Teddy. Are you an outcast? By the actual definition, no, though I feel it occasionally. Do you exercise? Ugh, no. I'm working on building back up my motivation to do Wii Fit again. What’s your favorite carnival food? (cotton candy, corn dogs, funnel cake) I haven't been to enough and gotten food to know many at all. Are you a very open-minded person? I think I am, and I feel that improves further like, daily. Are you modest? Probably sounds immodest to say, but I know I am. What kind of guys/girls do you usually fall for? Above all else, my consistent weakness seems to be the "weirdos." The ones that really stand out in their uniqueness. Do you skate? No. I mean, I'm capable of rollerblading, but it's not something I do every weekend or something. If you were to make it big with your own band what would it’s name be? Hell if I know. HAHA WAIT. My old username in some places, BulletsxButterflies, was based off my Rock Band band "Bullets And Butterflies" and like can you say #myaesthetic so that'd be pretty cool I suppose. ... Although it was inspired by the song "Bullet With Butterfly Wings" and I don't wanna get sued so like- What’s your favorite kind of pasta? Just normal spaghetti with sauce and meatballs. Would you rather a friend come over to your house or you go over there? I GO OVER THERE. I am a SHIT host and there's nothing to do here anyway. What’s the perfect first date? Go to a sit-down restaurant (doesn't need to be expensive at all), just the two of you, and *talk*. Don't touch your phone, just talk and listen with honest interest in your partner. I think this is especially important if you started dating shortly after meeting, as now that you're together, you really need to get to know each other. If you were good friends prior, you should already be pretty familiar with the other, and then I think things are a bit more flexible. Have you ever had rabies? No. Do you know anyone who ever had to get a rabies shot? *shrugs* Ever eaten deer? Duck? Squirrel? How about lamb? No. Have you ever received a note in your locker? I believe I did in middle school from Aaron? What was the last birthday present you bought for someone? A personalized chameleon mug for my darling. Did you get grounded often as a child? No more than usual, I guess? If you have a car, how much does it take to fill up your gas tank? N/A What’s your favorite album from your favorite music artist? Ozzy's "Black Rain." Every song is absolutely amazing, replayed more times than I ever wanna count, and it was my introduction to metal. Was the last person you held hands with a significant other? No, Aubree took my hand as well as she could to take me to her brother's room. Do you remember the brand of your first cell phone? Uhhhh... Blueberry, maybe? What is your Facebook cover picture? A pink pastel background-type thing. Last video game you played? Shadow of the Colossus. I beat it all over again to start my Time Attack grind, but I'm thinking of waiting til I get the PS4 remake one day to do so. When did you last try a new restaurant? Back when I was up at Sara's again. Does “out of sight, out of mind” work for you? Usually no. Do you have any friends whose birthday is this month? MY BABY If you have a favorite actor/actress, which of their movies is your favorite? For Betty White, idk. Depp, Alice in Wonderland. Are you currently expecting anything to arrive in the mail? No. What is your favorite kind of salad? Just bring me a ship full of Olive Garden's salad and I'll be g. Do you own a tablet of any kind? No. How many minutes is the longest song in your music library? I'm not sure, but off the top of my head, probably "Call of Ktulu" by Metallica. What is a brand name you don’t really care for? Any?? Idc. Do you prefer sleeping in complete silence or with background noise? Not complete silence, but quiet, simple background noise. When was the last time you weighed yourself? Today. As I do almost everyday even tho you're not advised to. Oops. Would you convert to a different religion if your fiancé/fiancée was of a different faith? No. The world is ending, and you can save one group of five people: who would be the five people that you save? Just five ah screw you man. Considering both those I hold close to myself but also people I feel would help recover the world for the better, and also assuming you don't include animals: Sara, Mom, Mark Fischbach, my psychiatrist (he's so fucking knowledgeable on medication that the world does not need to lose all that information), and probably Jane Goodall. Well idk, she's up there in age and may not last very long, but. asjfapwuw this is a hard question, I'm trying to consider who I love personally but also who would be capable of properly rebuilding humanity, or at least give us last six (if I'm alive, too?) a happy end to our lives. What is one thing that you are proud of, that you think lacks praise/lacks appreciation from the people around you? It could be a simple thing; it could be a secret thing. Ummmm... idk. What is the funniest one-liner Tumblr text post you’ve ever read? THERE'S SO MANY What is the absolute hardest thing about staying alive? Staying in a mentally sound place. If you're not okay in your own head, that makes living so, so very hard, and too many people get there. What is a book that has been recognized as ‘great literature’ that you dislike? Why? *shrugs* I enjoyed those I recall reading. Except one I don't remember the name of. Do you believe in the supernatural? Absolutely, 110%. What was the last thing you cried about? Probably my current groundhog day cycle. Are you mad at yourself about anything? Always, sure, but in like, the back of my mind. It doesn't dominate my thoughts. What was the last thing you cooked on the stove? Eggs. What pharmacy do you use? Harris Teeter's. Are you proud of yourself or disappointed in yourself? Both. What do you consider the perfect temperature for winter? ~50 is my preferred temperature always. What does your umbrella look like? I think ours is black? What is something you wanted as a kid but never got? One of those little crane machines with stuffed animals in it. I had one for candy, I think... but apparently that wasn't enough for Young Brittany. What is something you were scared of as a kid? Porcelain dolls. Still make me uncomfortable. Do you like your current driver’s license picture? My permit one is HIDEOUS. What is your favorite Elvis song? "Devil In Disguise." Do you think you could be the next American Idol? Hell no. Do you prefer reading fiction or non-fiction? Fiction, easily. Do you prefer fruity candy canes or peppermint-flavored? I like both, but the former is my fave. Do you eat too much candy? No. If you ever took dance classes, what were your favorite classes? Jazz. Have you ever been bullied because of the things you like? I don't think so? Have you bullied others because they like things you do not? No. Were there any classes you enjoyed because of the teacher? Not "enjoyed," but made them better. Have you ever been a bad friend? I'm sure I have. Has a friend ever replaced you with somebody else? Yup. At least it really feels like it. Have you ever disliked something just because it was popular? Admittedly, I think there were some things when I was newly a teen and developing that "I'm not like others" mentality. Have you ever watched a movie just because it starred an actor you liked? Maybe? What about just because it starred an actor you thought was good-looking? ... I'm deadass tempted to see Aquaman because of this lmfao but I'm not going to. Are there actors/musicians you have met? No. Do you ever judge people based on the music they listen to? Nah. What would you say are your top five bands/artists? Gaaah... I'll try here. Ozzy, Metallica, Otep, Manson, and Korn, maybe? Has anyone ever told you that you were really pretty? Yeah. Do you listen to a wide variety of music? No. Most are some kind of metal and rock, but I do have some really random artists/bands I like, such as Melanie Martinez or Marina and the Diamonds. Did you ever go through a phase when you didn’t want to take medicine? No. Was the last book you read good? Yeah. Do you make grocery lists? I don't do the shopping, so no. Do you have stomach problems? It can be finicky every now and again, especially with "fancy" food. Do you enjoy editing photos? Yes! Peace signs or hearts? Hmmm, idk. I guess it depends on the style. What kind of pie is your favorite? None. Do you have a strong relationship with your parents? I feel very, very few parent-child relationships exist stronger than my mom's and mine. Dad and I are good, too. Do you know your best friend’s middle name? Yeah. Have you ever kissed someone that was high? No. Is your Facebook profile private? Yeah. How many true friends do you have? Like four? Who has your Facebook password? Me and Mom. Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? Pretty much never. Do you believe in aliens? I'm neutral. Do you like pineapple? Yessss. Is there anyone you dislike, that you have to see/speak to regularly? No. Are you living with anyone that isn’t related to you? No, if you don't include pets. How many people would you say you’ve been “in love” with? Two. Which one of your relatives are you most likely to argue/disagree with? MY GRANDMA. How much do you monthly pay for mortgage or rent? If you don’t, how much is your cell-phone bill? N/A What is your favorite grocery store to shop at, and how often do you shop for groceries? Sam's Club got them deals. But I don't do the grocery shopping. How many hours do you work a week? If you don’t work, do you plan on finding a job? If so, when? I'm getting help from vocational rehab now to find a job perfectly appropriate for me. Where did you have your first kiss? What about your last kiss? His bed; airport. When is the next time you will be going out of town? 18th for my therapy appointment. Hour away. What is the last thing you spoke to your father about? Phone bill. Where did you spend Christmas or any other winter holiday? My sister's house. Who in your life causes you the most stress or negative feelings? Myself. Do you like shopping alone? I wouldn't know. Do you have any scratches on your cell phone? A small one. When was the last time you blushed? Idk. Who is one person you met and automatically didn’t like? Most of my sister's exes. Almost all, really. Do you have any video game systems in your room? Which one(s)? Well, the DS is in here. Have you ever done another person’s make-up? Jason's as just a joke. What is one thing you don’t like sharing? My drawings or writings if you're in my "real" life. Online is like... mostly np, but otherwise, don't fucking look. If I share a drink with you too, that means a loooot. Where on your body would you NEVER get a piercing? You know... ~the spot~ Which Adam Sandler movie do you like the most? Idk. Did your parents ever read stories to you before bed? Yes. Would you be considered more of a teacher’s pet or a class clown? I was inadvertently the teacher’s pet like... always. Do you have any family members who are mean to you for no reason? No. Do you have to do any yard work? No. Do you have a nativity scene in your home? Mom will put it up eventually. If you’re a girl, what color is your favorite bra? Navy. Would you rather make a snow angel or snowman? Snowman. What is the best antique shop in your town? *shrugs* Does creating make you happy? YES YES YES YES!!!! Do you have abusive family members? No. What US city would you most like to visit? Idk. What country in the world would you most like to visit? Japan, probably. Or Scotland. Do you have your wedding all planned out in your head? No. Do you sell things online a lot? No. Is there anyone you secretly miss? No. What color are your Christmas lights? On our tree that isn't up yet? Rainbow. Owls or penguins? Owls.