#idk. idgaf anymore bro

[my-thirteenth-reason]

first we got our social studies results - i got 12/15, A1 AND THEN the next period we got our amath results - 8/30, F9 LMFAO imagine how fast my mood pummeled HAHAHAHA

[starlooove]

Call me jaded bitter and black but I’ll never care about the nuances of the police fill in on tv. Like we already have to deal with the ‘my dad is a cop :(‘ or ‘my broke brother joined the military’ irl why the fuck am I wasting my brain power on Caitlyn or vi. Like we know materialistically the authority of being a cop can get u what u want faster and that emotionally u either need strict routine with an outlet for ur violence or ur so used to it that u have to be a cop. I still fucking hate u tho like idc about how sad u are about being privileged and I said cop fill in but it’s really every kind of that character on tv like Zuko esque sorry I genuinely have less empathy for you than I do for other people idc

[cofigelly]

ೀ SIX EYES

——————————————————————————pairing; college au!gojo satoru x reader

synopsis; you couldn’t help but notice a pair of wandering eyes during your 10am lecture

word count; ~2k words

contents; sfw, f!reader, no curses au, rich college student gojo, cocky/playful gojo, six eye/infinity references

notes; THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A QUICK LIL DRABBLE IDK WHAT HAPPENED? i <3 run ons and sentence fragments apparently

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the first thing you noticed about him were his eyes.

well, technically, his eyes noticed you first.

in the midst of your monday 10am lecture (known for its lengthy, soul-wrenching talks about finance), you felt his sharp gaze pierce straight into your soul. it was a brief, quick glance — but it was an intentional glance, nonetheless.

you simply brushed it off. it must’ve been him zoning out, or maybe your mind was playing tricks on you. that was until you caught him repeating the same habit again. and again. over the course of the next three weeks.

that same, hungry gaze, taking in every intricacy of your features. a look that felt like it set your entire body on fire, despite the icy blue hue his pupils reflected each time you returned a glance. his stare would only last a few seconds at most, but something about it felt so intense, so overbearing— it made hold your breath each time.

in all honesty, you didn't mind the attention. in fact, you kind of reveled in it — a handsome, 6'3 guy always ogling at you every lecture. it even had you thinking that maybe he was into you?

but that was at first. as more weeks passed, the more your ego shrank. 'is there something on my face,' you wondered, patting at your cheeks to search for some sort of makeup residue or food crumb, 'do i look stupid?' the large, echoey lecture hall felt evermore revealing as you struggled to find a way to shrink into your plastic-clad seat. but you couldn't hide, not from a stare like that.

paranoia getting the best of you, you slide your phone out of your pocket as you send a hasty text to your best friend, “bro who is this guy? he keeps staring at me EVERY lecture,” you send a 0.5x photo, clearly taken from afar.

just as quickly, your friend responds, “NO FUCKIN WAY is that gojo???” “who the fuck is gojo?”

you could almost feel her attitude burst through the text bubbles, “bro… GOJO. his family is literally loaded?? did you not see his dad surpass bill gates on the global ranking of billionaires?” that text takes you a little by surprise, alternating your eyes between him and the message upon your screen. “okay maybe it’s starting to sound familiar, but still. what’s he doing cosplaying as a broke college kid in my finance class?” you sigh as you continue to tap on your screen, “idgaf that he’s loaded it’s pissing me off that he’s staring at me like 🧿🫦🧿 every lecture.”

your friend reacts with a quick “haha” to your text before responding, “idk man maybe you just caught the attention of the richest guy on campus ;)”

you decided you’ve had enough after reading that text. you’re not about to feed your delusions this early on a monday morning. you’ll admit, he’s a good —no, stunning— looking guy, but you have no time to babysit a boy who was never taught that staring was rude. not to mention, this boy isn't even in the same tax bracket as you. 

brushing it off yet another time, you let out a deep sigh as you flip the page, copying your professor’s notes on the board.

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

a whole month has passed and this gojo guy is growing more and more cocky with his stolen glances. he's not even trying to hide it anymore.

this fateful wednesday, as you walk into class, he immediately locks onto you. his bright blue orbs follow you from the door to your row, not releasing his gaze in the slightest after you settle into your seat. your grit your teeth in annoyance as you flip through your notebook pages. who does this guy think he is? it’s been a month and he hasn’t even procured the balls to say a single word to you. yet, he’s feasting on you like you’re his final meal on death row. 

the second the class is excused, you immediately beeline towards his seat — stopping in front of his leaning frame while he packs his bag. “dude, what the hell is your problem,” scowling at him as you approach, “i’ve seen you stare at me for weeks now and it’s getting straight creepy."

his ears perk at the sound of your voice, haphazardly zipping up the final pocket of his backpack. when he looks up, his eyes glint with a hint of mischief as he scrunches his nose in a grin — a grin that’s somehow even cockier than his stare.

“i’m just taking in the view, princess,” he jeers, delight in his tone. 

you stare at him incredulously as you take his confession in. so he really has been staring at you? “for one, i’m not your princess," you scoff at his clear disregard of your concern, "second, you might want to think again before you decide to stare at me one more damn time.”

he hums amusingly, shaking his foot in a steady rhythm, “you’re right. i might think about it again.” his grin is even wider now, “why, what are you going to do about it?”

“—look, i don’t know what you’re getting at,” your eyebrows furrow deeper, “but if you keep this shit up, this won’t be the last time you hear from me.”

briskly, you swing around, completely ignoring his bickers as you head straight out the hallway door. 

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

to gojo, everything you said on wednesday was music to his ears.

he strolled into the next lecture, on monday, with the same shit-eating grin on his face. ‘this wont be the last time he hears from you?' god, he hopes that was true. it made him wonder why he didn’t just stare at you harder in the first place.

everything about you captivated gojo satoru.

from the first day of lecture, he was already mesmerized — by the wafting scent of your cologne as you walked past his row, the way your head cocked to the side whenever you thought through a problem set, the distant clicks as you tapped the end of your pencil against your arm nervously.

he simply couldn’t help but steal that initial glance. he also couldn’t help but steal another one the lecture after.

and another. and another.

he knew he was getting ahead of himself, being so selfish with his dangerous stares, but you just had that effect on him. an effect that he's never experienced with anyone else. he bit back his pride when he couldn’t even approach you first, as he normally did with his prior interests.

there was just something so serene, so heavenly about you. he almost wanted to leave you undisturbed, opting to observe you from afar — not wanting to disrupt his delicate masterpiece from behind the red rope at the museum.

but the day you approached him changed everything. ‘how can someone so innocent have such a mouth on her,’ he chuckles to himself, taking his ipad and apple pencil out of his backpack before laying them flat on the table.

you were completely unlike his initial impression of you, much to his amusement. he prefers it this way —actually— he likes a girl who has a bit of a bite. besides, he finally has an excuse to talk to you and do what he knows best: get under your skin. metaphorically (and literally).

he glances at the door as he hears the familiar clanking of your keychain against your water bottle, more excited for the lecture than he's ever been before.

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there is no fucking way.

gojo satoru is now sitting in the seat directly next to your unassigned assigned seat in this 300-person lecture hall. the entire classroom is almost packed too. how early did he have to be to even get that seat? why is he in that seat? your thoughts are cut off as he waves his hand at you, muttering a short "yoohoo~," ushering you to sit next to him.

hell no. you still have no idea what he's playing at. is he stalking you? does he have some sort of ulterior motive? what if his scary billionaire family kills you, a dirty plebeian, for sitting so close to their perfect, trust fund baby?

you immediately switch gears, practically running away to find a new seat, catching a glimpse of his pout in the corner of your eye. you ignore him and situate yourself in the very front row, directly in front of the professor's podium. you let out a deep exhale as you unpack your notebook when you hear a loud shuffle next to you.

this guy has no shame.

gojo, in all his glory, happily claims the empty seat next to you —unloading the entire apple store (or so it feels like) onto the desk. "good choice, doll. more leg room up here," he stretches his long, lanky legs before crossing them — making sure his knee briefly makes contact with yours.

"are you serious right now— bro your entire apple ecosystem is getting onto my side of the desk," you scowl at him once again as you shove his macbook closer to him. "serious about what?" he mocks, that signature smile gleaming down on you.

"whatever this is? are you obsessed with me or something," you mutter the last part under your breath, but he takes note of you rolling your eyes at him. "hmmm," he taps his chin all philosophically, "if anything you're the one obsessed with me."

wow, this guy really is insane. you felt your eyebrow twitch in anger as you jerked your head up, "me obsessed with you? how does that even make any sense—" "you said you noticed me staring for weeks," he muses, still looking straight at you, "but you don't think i noticed you staring back?"

you scoff, "i was simply just returning your gaze; not everything is about you!” “untrue.”

after refusing to make eye contact, you finally meet his eyes. "i'm not gonna play this damn game with you, look—"

you've never seen him this close before. you've never seen anyone this close before, really. in this cramped lecture hall, with its seats compressed like sardines, it felt like he was only mere millimeters away from you. your breath hitched as the air seemed palpable, heavy. he was so close, but it felt like he was untouchable — almost as if an infinite void was cast between you two.

for the first time, he dropped that condescending smirk. he dropped the facade altogether. beyond the icy blue hues, his eyes glistened a shade that he only shows to you, a shade you've never noticed in all those times you two locked eyes. they were powdery blue — the same softness as the edges of the clouds in the sky or the frothy, tidal waves lightly crashing against the beach sand.

it made you wonder if it was physically possible for one person to hold so much power in just their eyes. a power that felt like three whole people, six eyes-worth, were constantly peering into every fiber of your being. except this time, it was intense in a whole different way, completely unlike before. the closest feeling you could think of was a warm oven, fresh after a batch of cookies — an inexplicable warmth in contrast to his icy appearance.

lost in each others' eyes, he parts his lips as if to finally say something—

"i would really appreciate if you two kept your eyes on the board instead of on each other," a voice boomed from the podium in front of you.

you both tense up, quickly spinning your bodies around to face the front as the snickers began to fill the classroom. you completely forgot about how close you were sitting to the professor.

you felt a tinge of heat start on your cheeks, creeping its way up onto the cartilage of your ears. the embarrassment was more than enough to shut you both up for the rest of the period, but you knew.

you knew you wanted to feel this way again.

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final notes; i wrote this in my actual lecture hall instead of taking notes guys😎😎 (i am severely ill)

[angelicdanvers]

BREATHE DEEPER | four.

a charlie bushnell x fem!reader social media fic.

y/n

liked by iamcharliebushnell, levizmiller, dior.n.goodjohn, and others

y/n — australia’s my new fav country

tagged | levizmiller

levizmiller i’m challenging you to another round of pool tonight ↳ y/n bet

iamcharliebushnell when’d you go to australia? 😭 ↳ y/n when u didn’t show up for acai bowls >:( ↳ iamcharliebushnell im sowwy ↳ y/n DONT YOU DARE ↳ iamcharliebushnell okok sorry but thought you'd be in london ↳ y/n soon, yeah :')

levizmiller y/n im gonna poke you ↳ y/n okayy hi ↳ levizmiller let’s get boba ↳ y/n YES

dior.n.goodjohn I MISS U COME BACK TO ME ↳ y/n once my australian chronicles are over i promise i will <3 ↳ dior.n.goodjohn WOOOO

walker.scobell youre pretty! ↳ y/n thanks lil dude!

i.am.andrewalvarez AUSSIEEE ↳ y/n THE SWEET ESCAPE FR

aryansimhadri DID YOU SEE KANGAROOS ↳ y/n NO NOT YET THOUGH I HOPE I DO

dailymail Y/n and Levi? ;)

user omg bf reveal happening??

user2 ive never held my breath this much

“GALILEO’S GALS” — 5 notifications!

chanel’s enemy Y/N

lee lee Y/N

dr dre why am i in this gc

chanel’s enemy because u are

lee lee we’re getting off topic Y/NNN CMERE

↳ hiiiii?

chanel’s enemy HIIII HRU ILY

↳ ILY TOO BAE IM GOOD WBU

chanel’s enemy WE GOOD WE HAVE SOME ?’s THO

↳ oh?

lee lee ARE YOU AND LEVI DATING

dr dre OHH THIS MAKES SENSE YEAH ARE YOU??

↳ nooooo

chanel’s enemy that’s a very interesting no

↳ we’re not but idk

chanel’s enemy what

lee lee girl wdym

↳ we’re not dating but i think he likes me? idk

dr dre do you like him back though???

↳ eh he’s very sweet but i’ve always seen him as a best friend, i don’t think we could be more

lee lee do you want to be more??

↳ i mean, i’d give him a chance if he asked? but it’s not anything i’m particularly into or wanting

chanel’s enemy okay that helps

↳ uhhh why

dr dre well if my sleepy ass remembers correctly, everyone and their mother are wondering if you’re dating

↳ nah that aint possible

lee lee it is, stupid dailymail picked up on it first 💀

↳ my manager’s asleep, no wonder she hasn’t updated me lol oh well idgaf they can think what they want

chanel’s enemy but even walker and charlie are 😭

↳ they’re gonna forget it in t-minus four secs it’s fine

dr dre whatever you say, ma’am but are you sure that ‘cryptic’ caption won’t cause any issues??

↳ uhh andrew you’re scaring me

dr dre what if someone likes you? like like-likes you and knows you and gets hella jealous or doubtful? and not saying charlie does but he was raving about how he might finally get to hang out with you, ONE ON ONE. what if he thinks he can't because he thinks you two are dating?

↳ bro first off ik you don’t like me, neither does aryan and i know its DEFINITELY not walker

lee lee girl he had a celeb crush on you a few years ago dont tell him i told u that

chanel’s enemy LMFAOOOO but no andrew has a point how come you didn’t mention charlie? 🤨

dr dre yeah i was just aboutta say 🤨 especially after my little analysis?

↳ SECONDLY, guys, charlie doesn’t. not one bit and that’s obvious, like he isn’t even in considerations. i understand what he may feel but he has nothing to worry about. he knows i won't ditch him or anything lol (right?) but if anything the only person that’d be a little confused or whatnot is william

chanel’s enemy WHAT?? AS IN WILLIAM FRANKLYN MILLER??

lee lee huh 😃

↳ we dated for a month back when we were 15 or so and realized we were way better off as friends

lee lee why ?

↳ idk i think i was just jealous of lily 😭 but anyways we’ve been just friends since and i’m completely happy with that. i don't see him romantically anymore, yeah he’s hot but like nah. but yeah if he was confused, it's probably because i was best friends with levi when we dated too and might question if he was the cause of our split?? AGAIN THATS IF HE OVERTHINKS IT

dr dre i feel like i’m reading an autobiographical analysis you definitely are fond towards “millers”

↳ ur welcome <333 and NO i am not

chanel’s enemy okok so we got several people who’d be jealous

↳ WHAT WDYM SEVERAL I ONLY LISTED ONE

lee lee ain’t no way you’re ignoring charlie

↳ DUDES I REALLY DONT THINK HE LIKES ME

dr dre but there could be a possibility? just don’t rule him out

↳ bro he doesn't like me 😭 but yeah trust me everything’s gonna be okay again i dont like anyone and no one likes me, and we'll make sure it's obvious i'm single in case anyone does though that may take a while... ANYWAYS

lee lee suuuuure you should hang out with charlie btw

↳ idk why but im scared to 😭

lee lee but you need to he misses you a lot yk

↳ doesn’t change the fact that im SCARED

lee lee WHY WOULD YOU BE SCARED ITS JUST CHARLIE

↳ IDK I JUST DONT WANNA SEEM STUPID OR UNATTRACTIVE AND SHIT

lee lee HE FLIRTS WITH YOU ALL THE TIME AND MESSES UP JUST AS MUCH, YOURE NOT THE EMBARRASSING ONE HERE

↳ DUDE I KNOW I CAN BE AND I DONT WANNA DRIVE HIM AWAY

dr dre sure you and levi hang out and are sweet and shit but BRO the teeth rotting sugar is you and charlie in your damn COMMENTS

↳ ITS NOT THAT BAD, IS IT?? 😭 GOD I HOPE CHARLIE DOESNT THINK OF ME ANY DIFFERENTLY

chanel’s enemy i think u like charlie, miss girl

↳ NO

dr dre nah, they’d be cute together, even charlie said so himself

chanel’s enemy you dumbass

dr dre uhhh ANYWAYS said too much im gonna sleep again love youse

lee lee BRO yeah night babes <3

chanel’s enemy LOVE U BAE GN

↳ what the duck STUPID AUTOCORRECT WHAT THE FUCK AINT NO WAY YALL JUST DIPPED fine ily guys too </3 BUT DONT THINK IM LETTING THAT GO EASILY ugh what do you guys mean 😭 aint no way thats true OKOK YK WHAT BYE!! FOR REAL THIS TIME

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thank you so much for all your love and support, it really means the world to me. y/n's beginning to find out certain things, wonder where things will go from here 🤔

as always, i will continue updating the taglist :)

i love you and am so proud of you, stay safe and drink water <3

[ausern4me]

I LOVED THAT EPISODE IT WAS HYSTERICAL

this is gunna be a longggg post

this scene made me question things. WHOS GUNNA BE HOST NEXT SEASON?! AND LIKE I FEAR AFTER THIS SEASON WE WILL SEE NO MORE TREVOR OR DEREK!!?!?! I NEED TREVOR AND DEREK IDC. JUST DEREK STOP BEING AN ASS AND MAKE IT UP TO YOUR BESTIE.

I feel like Krystal and oliver might be a better match than derek and krystal???? (mainly cuz trevek LMFAO)

SHIP SHIP SHIP SHIP

BESTIES FOR LIFE

JKDJSHAKFJWEWUHEWIFUKJF THIS MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD WTF ALEC YOUR SO FUNNY I DONT HATE YOU ANYMORE

(i changed the last bit at the top) I DONT HATE YOU. JUST LOOK AT HIS LIL BOWTIE LMFAOOO

EVEN MY LIL POOKS LOVES IT

#LOVESICK

AH YES THE JELOUSY

HE CANT COPE </3

THATS RIGHT, SNAP AT THAT BITCH

YOU SHOULD KNOW YOU FUCKED UP

TREVEK CLIP AYYYY

just yeah... ALEC I CAN SEE YOU CARE ABOUT HIM

THE HURT IN THIS MANS EYES

WOW

I HATE YOU RYIA GRRRR

I never liked you but now I HATE YOU

HOW FUCKING DARE YOU DO THAT TO JAKE

bros just passed out on the floor

old man yaoi

eh dont really like either/ have no strong feelings towards

Dont really like gabby tbh, never have done (idk why)

SORRY IM GLAD SHES GONE

RAKAKAKAKAKAAKAKAK ALEC YOUR SO FUNNY

the way his face drops after he sees connor isnt happy HE CARES ABOUT THIS MAN

IDGAF WHAT ANYONE SAYS JAKE IN HIS LIL SLEEPING BAG IS CUTE AF

HE WILL ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER 1 ALONGSIDE TREVOR

awh connor <3

Anywayyy i need ally out next episode. I NEED HER GONE. I NEED HER GONZO

if i could have it my way, ally goes, riya goes, then idc maybe like alec?

BUT IF ANY OF THESE WIN ILL BE OK: jake, alec, aiden, connor, grett

ryia dosent diserve the win, shes a bitch.

IF ALLY OR RYIA WIN IM GUNNA RUN.

thank you and goodbye

LMFAO

[nikatyler]

Zeph 1.0

Almost there…yes I closed the game so I could get the 69 hours played screenshot…almost got it! 😅

I'm such a stupid 13yo at heart

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did i mention i love him

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Oof besties I think it's Moonrise time

Moonrise time over because ya girl is going to work tomorrow and it's getting late 🥲 but I so didn't want to quit the game today ugh

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Need to incorporate "let's not do anything hilarious" into my vocabulary because it's the biggest realest mood

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no way he approved lmao

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oh... OH

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forevermore? as in you and me forevermore? don't read the last page but i stay when it's hard or it's wrong or we're making mistakes omg a taylor swift reference!! 🤭🤭

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Zeph is looking so good in their new armor 😩

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Oh I'm gonna be reloading this fight a million times huh

(x)

THIS WAS SO INTENSE WTF

Dude never thought I'd say this but Shadowheart carried this battle. I'm going to bed in game and irl because two intense battles back to back are too much for my anxiety 😭

This game is gonna wreck me isn't it

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So in the battle I had yesterday, Jaheira was killed, but I thought, well, it would be a shame to leave her stuff behind and she doesn't need it anymore, might as well take it…now I loaded the game again and notice she's there in just her underwear 😭 I'm sorry 😭😭

Yes I loot everyone and everything shamelessly, I learned from the best 🤭

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hole hehe

hole not hehe this is disgusting jfc

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"I could fix him" "I could make him worse" well I personally hope that *he* will make *me* worse

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We're not gonna talk about this party kill Nailed it! Took me three tries though 😂

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THIS GODDAMN PUZZLE I SWEAR TO GOD

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Big brain time

The f u c k?

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well i may have a few ideas how to use this one 🫢

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Well. I think I'll be starting act 3 tomorrow? 😬

(I'm excited but also nervous. Oh man this is exactly why I've never played this kind of games before 😂)

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I think I fucked up…I was going to do the crèche and the mountain pass stuff later but I can't anymore, I completely skipped it 😭 without too many spoilers, are there going to be bad consequences maybe?

I could pull up an older save but I've done so many other things already…I'm not sure if I want to replay them at the moment 🥲 Think I might just have to leave it for my second playthrough but it sucks that I completely skipped such a big part

And I know at some point it told me some things wouldn't be available if I continue but I didn't think it would be this 😭 I need clearer instructions y'all, I'm a dummy

This is ridiculous but I'm about to cry bc I missed such a huge part, I think I might go back to an older save and just redo everything idk 🥲 idk what to do 😭 overthinking this too much

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"magnificent bastard" is a wonderful gender tbh

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dude i'm not some fucking pokémon 💀

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oh god i love him 💀 is he wrong though?

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she's serving too much cnt to handle i'm afraid

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A fellow clown hater! 🤩

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ohhh i was looking forward to this line 😂

omg Zeph really went "so aren't you worried about that old master of yours? yeah? anyway wanna smash tonight?"

KJLFGKSJFGKLJL BRO??????? the fuck did i do to you

hello ?????????? ????? ??????? ???????? ??????? no genuinely i don't know what i did/did not do 💀 idgaf I'm handing his ass to Cazador

me and Zeph both rn

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delivery not guaranteed? that's so Česká pošta coded

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bears in the closet you say? what was halsin doing in your closet? 🫢

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not me actually accidentally making Zeph jump off of a very tall something

and right after the second short rest and the idiot took so much damage 💀

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Oh we're playing Among Us now, how fun!

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I fear this will be another full night of playing...not a good idea considering we're going on a family trip tomorrow but eh whatever

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We did it again besties, let's hope I'll get my sleep schedule back on track before I return to work 😂

But it was definitely worth it, I had so much fun playing today. Aside from essentially being dumped but I'm gonna clown and hope all will be well (no spoilers pls)…I promise I will be normal and not actually irl cry about it 🫢😂

Gotta love that rejection hypersensitivity that kicks in no matter what 🤩 real person, fictional, who cares, it hurts 🤩 (no really I'm okay, I'm exaggerating, you know me)

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Next time I go "hehehe I won't sleep tonight, it's gaming time", stop me please. I'm not built for this

And daylight savings are kicking in today? fk me rip my sleep schedule

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hehe god i wish

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oop

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I'm getting overwhelmed with all the quests jfc 😭 can we just skip to the part where I romance the vampire again

I also (and this is me overthinking again) can't help but feel like I'm playing the game wrong and that I'm ruining everything as I go and we will not reach a nice ending 💀

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WHY IS HE NOT WEARING MUCH KDAFJLAJKDFLKJ WHAT'S GOING ON I HATE THIS

What the actual f u c k was that

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[dearweirdme]

That seojoon voice thing has got me thinking that the others aren't as oblivious to tkk as they try to show. They try and pretend that they don't see anything but they just remain in denial when they can't prove that what tkkrs are claiming can be true. I've seen the radio silence from everyone when tae spilled that jk sings "to find you" for him. They were so quick to brush it under the rug as if singing love songs to your bro is just a bro thing. This live was all the proof anyone would need to know that they are definitely not "bros". If I miss my friend, I am not going to sulk and listen to sad songs, that's something that I'd do for my partner. No matter how close you are with your friends, you don't go straight to them after a long ass work trip.

They didn't hear anyone before but then they were celebrating coz it was seojoon? This feels so weird to me coz it's not just jikkrs but ot7s and esp kths. Why are they so desperate to prove that tkk can't be together? Why deny it and call us names when even they heard it? Yesterday I saw a post with that tkk pic from jk's listening party and the amount of "loving brothers" comments under it could have given bh editors a run for their money. They call us delulu but aren't they blatantly ignoring their bond (even if just friends) and being delulus? When jk liked that tkk tiktok, there were many ot7s who were getting worked up coz they didn't want tkkrs to see it. But ever since the ms announcement jikkrs have been having a field day with the most disrespectful and gross military jokes about jikk but not one person except for tkkrs and jjks are calling them out on it. That tiktok is also a sort of a big deal, atleast to me it is coz there's very obvious tkk flirting going on in it. There's no way jk hasn't come across such tiktoks before. There are so many jikk tiktoks as well but he chose to like this one knowing fully well that every like of his is noticed by everyone.

Idk what'll happen in the next 18 months but I am sure of one thing, tkk are and will forever remain brothers. We are gross fetishizers coz we see them as more than friends. Well they are welcome to call us what they want coz IDGAF anymore 😑

Hi anon!

Ah, Taekook is a touchy topic always. In fairness, there’s some pretty wild Tkkrs out there who take things a bit too far. Combine that with some people actually thinking Tkkrs ruined Tae and Jk’s friendship back then and you’ve got a whole mess on its own.

But, I think it’s not for nothing that Tkk is still the biggest ship. There is a connection between Tae and Jk that just shines through.

The weirdest thing straw-wise for me was when after Tae’s missing-jk-lives it was silence from Jkkrs for days (maybe a week even) from Jkkrs. And that’s really something because normally they don’t even need an excuse to come to me in my asks. Like actually nothing for days!! And it cannot be that they missed it, or found it insignificant or too delusional to comment… because normally I just have to say one small thing and they come flying in. I don’t know what their mindset was around then, but they were a bit stunned perhaps 😂

Them being called bro’s/palls/friends isn’t bad. It’s safe. I know we Tkkrs take some hits because of that, but in the end I’d rather be called an idiot a hundred times if that keeps them safe.

[fruitpunchjollyrancher]

my shitty treatise on "ants from up there" and gale dekarios

this is the gale album of all time. and i WILL elaborate. (also warning im only posting this because i have been obsessed with this fucking album and gale for a WEEK and need it out of my brain. im probably not going to explain too many lyrics and i get nervous expressing my ideas because tbf to me it seems quite obvious but ofc i can explain, assuming anybody reads this post)

"Concorde" immediately stood out to me like oh this is so gale. i dont even think i need to explain how gale this is. the rest of the song is super gale too, i just don't want to include screenshots of the entire song

"Bread Song" has a LOT of worship imagery and also below alluding to appearing fine but rlly inside he is not well <3

oh my god. "Good Will Hunting". the mentorship but also wanting her to depend on him a little but it's unfeasible, weaving a whole life in his head that can never be because mystra will never see him as an equal... also the pre-chorus 👍 i am so well

"Haldern"... i literally dont know how to explain my feelings about this song in relation to gale pls someone tell me u see the vision

"The Place Where He Inserted the Blade" is more headcanon/my interpretation but im just gonna focus on the parts that i think everyone can agree on. first 2 lines arent super applicable to mystra but ig i can rationalize it as her being detached from the world/not rlly participating (i.e. why didnt mystra just stop the absolute herself (im aware its because ao doesn't like it when they meddle, im smoking that true forgotten realms pack trust me)). but the MAIN part of this song that is so gale to me is the vines breaking bones, bones heal, our school friends sign our cast on the playground, my body is yours. like holy shit being a chosen of mystra is a huge fucking deal and despite the pain it can cause (that he doesnt even notice because "tied me up slow with your vine stuff / it takes a few years") but it's definitely encouraged among wizards/mages in any circles he was in and by elminster ("we tell all our school friends / and they sign our cast in the playground"), then of course the last line breaks my heart. rest of the song is also rlly fucking good please listen to this album.

"Snow Globes" has more religious imagery but tbh i dont know precisely how i feel about it in relation to gale so im just gonna skip it

"Basketball Shoes" shows a more hopeful future but still #suffering because thats just how it is. concorde being mystra/his relationship to her tears his life to shreds, defines his life, leaving him with nothing. keeps seeing her everywhere (wizard stuff, his damn earring, he's always saying "by mystra" like bro you're intersecting at the market town on purpose atp (i get it)). i interpret the part after that line break (idk why genius doesnt just say its a different verse, don't quote me on this idk anything about music theory) as post-game where he's still Not Great but it's better and moving on, there is a future. doesn't look to mystra anymore (throughout album especially in good will hunting and bread song the s/o is mentioned through headphones, wifi passwords, phone calls, so "never look at our phones anymore" means he isn't thinking of her anymore or trying to curry her favor).

alsoooo should mention that i didn't include the part of "The Place Where He Inserted the Blade" that mentions a lunch metaphor in relation to panic attacks and possible cheating so the "feelin kinda normal with a packed lunch" is doubly meaningful, he isn't freaking out while making lunch anymore

this verse is tav (or whoever u romance as gale origin idgaf)/gale as he is trying to find a new object of devotion in his romance. "the clamp" could be many things, from reminders of mystra to all his perceived inadequacies to lost opportunity to become a god w/ the crown of karsus.

third section of the song im kind of undecided on w/ gale like we got the religious imagery again, could interpret "generous loan/crippling interest" as mystra's deal for him to return the crown of karsus in exchange for no orb. but yea idk yet

and that is the entire album (- chaos space marine, i didn't really think of anything related to gale when listening to it but it's still a great song, PLEASE listen to this album). so yeah if im horribly wrong on any of my takes be sure to send me hatemail k thanks bye

[brine-in-my-eyes]

it is so fucking hard to have ocs that are meant to be tough IDGAF exterior but with really fucked up backstories becuz bro i need this guy crying and sobbing and on her knees with just so much weight pouring out infront of the only person who's ever shown them kindness and uhmm idk what im talking abt anymore cuz i blacked out near the end

[hazardtoons-interaction]

ykno what. i rlly wanna answer these but i dont really have many ppl who are actively following me. so i will just answer all 100 homestuck questions

When did you first get into Homestuck? in grade 7. i was about 13.

How quickly did you finish reading the comic? a few months maybe!

How many times have you read HS? ive read HS proper twice, and the epilogues too many to count.

Ever made your own chumhandle? many times... i think my first one was gentlemanlyTerror. my one now would probably be hazardouslyToony or something

Ever made a trollsona? dozens!!

Ever made a kidsona? yeah a couple

Ever cosplayed a HS character? yes!!! my first one was terezi (it was SOOO bad. i literally mixed white face paint with eyeshadow, taped red see-though paper onto my old glasses, and made horns out of paper), then my second one was horuss, that i spent a lot of effort on, and then last year i went to a con as jake :3

Ever bought HS merch? yeah i have lots!! i have a lot of merch you cant get anymore. posters and stuff. i also have the jake shirt and the vodka mutuni plush. and i also have charms.

Ever made an MSPFA? i attempted to. only got a few pages in though...

Ever drank Faygo? they dont sell it in my country

Favorite Alpha kid? jane, surprisingly. jake is just the character who is Me.

Favorite Alpha troll? aranea by fucking far.

Favorite Alpha character overall? calliope!!!!!!!! CALLIOPEEE!!!!

Least favorite Alpha kid? dick rider

Least favorite Alpha troll? i hate most of them but the racial stereotype ones i guess would be the worst

Least favorite Alpha character overall? i honestly dont even know

Favorite Beta kid? ROSEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Favorite Beta troll? terezi and vriska!!

Favorite Beta character overall? ummm allof the ones i just mentioned

Least favorite Beta kid? i like all of them. but i guess i spend the least amount of time thinking about dave so him

Least favorite Beta troll? GAMZEE. GAMZEE.

Least favorite Beta character overall? gamzee.

Favorite guardian? ..................bro strider

Least favorite guardian? um? alpha john i guess idk

Favorite Alternian ancestor? mindfang MIND. FANG. !!! theres something so wrong with her <3

Least favorite Alternian ancestor? whatever the fuck the sollux one is idgaf about him

Favorite carapacian? aimless renegade he holds suuuch a special place in my heart

Least favorite carapacian? Ms. Paint

Favorite Friendsim character? tyzias <3 <3 She is sooo . so hot. so arelynera and elwurd. also dammek! i love dammek

Least favorite Friendsim character? tirona i want her dead

Favorite sprite? gcattavrossprite and jasprosesprite

Least favorite sprite? umm the aradia frog one

Favorite pale ship? i like pale davekat. okay? i get it. i know. stfu

Favorite pitch ship? janerezi LMAO

Favorite flushed ship? JUNEREZI!!! JUNEREZZIIIIIIII!!!!! also callijane or calliroxy. i dont really like cotton candy im sory. i also like rosemary a lot

Favorite ashen ship? karkat c3< vriska and kanaya but in a really fucked up way

Favorite vacillating ship? .vriskan

OTP? junerezi :3

NOTP? absolutely dirkjake i hate dirkjake

BROTP? tavros and jake!!

Character you’d choose to be your moirail? if im allowed to choose hiveswap characters, bronya. if not, porrim.

Character you’d choose to be your kismesis? aranea ooough...

Character you’d choose to be your matesprit? i dont want to date ANY OF(tyzias.)

Character you’d choose to be your auspistice? ALL OF THEM ARE TERRIBLE AT IT

Character you’d vacillate quadrants with? jane crocker. get over here kiss me on my mouth

Character you’d be best friends with? jade.pls :3

Patron troll? Are you happy with them? tavros 😭also YES I AM! hed be annoying as heck though.

Zodiac troll? Are you happy with them? karkat.NOT HAPPY.. though i like to pretend im a libra so terezi.

One character you didn’t like at first, but like now? i didnt really like rose i thought she was boring but now shes like my fav ever

One character you liked at first, but don’t like now? dirk......... i used to jokingly hate him but now i seriously dont like him!!!!!

One ship you didn’t like at first, but like now? i used to be Meh on vriskan. i like it a lot now (in a studying u under a microscope not an i think its healthy way)

One ship you liked at first, but don’t like now? confession guys i used to be a dirkjaker

Alpha kids or Beta kids? i have to pick alpha kids since i think about them constantly but i like the beta kids more universally.

Alpha trolls or Beta trolls? BETA who tf chooses ALPHA trolls

Beforus or Alternia? alternia? we barely even see beforus

Derse or Prospit? #pissmoongang

The Felt or The Midnight Crew? the midnight crew absolutely

Grimdark or Crocker Tier? crocker tier i love the concept of it

Red team or blue team? red team i barely care ab anyone on blue (apart from neppers)

Meat or candy? i love both!!! meat and candy epilogues are both good in their own ways.

Trolls, humans, carapaces, or cherubs? cherubs

Have you played Hiveswap? Do you like it? I LOVE HIVESWAP!!!! its so fun!!!

Have you played Friendsim? Do you like it? i played a few of the routes. its alright

Have you played Pesterquest? Do you like it? i played it as it was coming out. its on my steam! i hate it.

Have you read the Epilogues? Do you like them? 😁😁😁you must be new here (I LOVE THEM i have a physical copy)

Have you read HS2? Do you like it? i hated it

Have you read SBAHJ? Do you like it? i have read every single one.its okay!

Classpect you identify with currently? page of hope :p

Classpects you’ve identified with before? - seer of light - seer of hope

Do you like your God Tier outfit? HELP MEEEE yeah its. it sure is an outfit

Do you like bloodswaps? Do you have a favorite? its whatever

Do you like kidswaps? Do you have a favorite? as someone who likes underswap, its odd to me how much i hate kidswaps? like its a huge pet peeve of mine in hs fandom

Do you like speciesswaps? Do you have a favorite? Mehh.

Do you use quadrants IRL? i used to! i dont anymore lol

Do you like celebrating 4/13? yeah!!! definitely

Do you use Pesterchum, MxRP, CheRP, or other HSRP platforms i DO have pesterchum yeah

Favorite Homestuck act? act6

Favorite Homestuck moment? tricky one but one has to be the johnrezi scene in the meat epilogues where (SPOILERS) john dies Favorite Homestuck panel? this one is pretty great

Favorite Homestuck flash? iiiim a member of the mid nigh t creww

Favorite Homestuck soundtrack? beyond canon. its fucking beautiful

Favorite Broadway Homestuck song? fucking. um. look its karkalicious okay what more could you want. i picked the obvious one etc etc

Favorite Homestuck fansong? okay this isnt really a fansong but everyone please listen to The Leaving from beyond canon its beautiful

Favorite Homestuck fics? house of dirk hands down!!!! its so funny and awesome i want it to update so bad. apart from that, godfeels.

Favorite Homestuck fanartists? meeee:3/j . no jk my fav artist who does hs fanart is @hal9000fanboy . i also LOVE @deathbycatgirl 's homestuck art, its all so unique and the characters are drawn in such a cool scrungey way im wrapping them into a ball

Favorite Homestuck AU? Demonstuck, Kingdomstuck, etc.? i havent heard those names in so long hearing "kingdomstuck" was like a shot to the heart. amino group chats

Favorite hemocaste? teal! and indigo and jade

Favorite typing quirk? i love kuprams from hiveswaps bc its 4chan greentyping

Favorite MSPFA? deadbert bc my friend made it idfk

What would your strife specibus be? scarfkind mb

What would your lusus be? sparkledog

What caste do you feel you’d belong to, regardless of your zodiac? teal

What characters do you relate most to? JAKE ENGLISH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One unpopular HS opinion you have? dirkjake is abusive and dirk is a bad person and also cis. and gamzee isnt redeemable

One popular HS opinion you agree with? jane is Fucking gay!

[erectedingold]

Life Update

Writing this on my phone, think i might rn getting a little sick 😓

but lots going on rn, started school & tbh as i get older i realize school ain’t that bad bro! im so thankful for my classes & i dropped a science class cause fuck science i hate that shit SO MUCH. but when i was doing that i mentioned in my email to my guidance counselor the college im wanting to go to & she says to me “you probably won’t get in your gpa isn’t there & your SAT scores aren’t there as well, maybe check out *college*”

first of don’t talk to me like that. i know academically i am far from great but my talent & ambition outweighs ALL of that. never tell an artist they can’t go to an art school they deadass don’t even have math classes there dude like who tf do you think you are? i know my talent & what i can & cannot do so don’t doubt me ever again bitch LMAO. second don’t tell me where YOU think i should go. like please. i am being so fr don’t ever tell me where i belong because ill go where i want. so watch yourself the next time you talk to me.

that whole interaction ruined my day. my whole life i’ve been doubted but i know who i am & what i can do.

but i wrote my essay & it’s amazing, & now im gonna get 2 letters of recommendation from my teachers. one from my english teacher & the other from my business teacher. then i got 2 open responses i need to write for & then i can send my applications. if i don’t get into this school im applying for in boston idk what ima do tbh, im applying to one in NY & one in NYC but like fuck bro i’d rather one here in boston especially when i have friends here. also applying to one in california 😴

but back to school, i think the older i get the more i realize how EASY shit is, my math is easy, my english is easy, intro to psychology easy, history is a joke, & my related class is easy. it’s just managing time in the class room like damn it makes me annoyed that my senior year of high school i don’t have anxiety with school anymore 😭 is what it is though that just makes this year easier for me 🙏

my new film is dropping tomorrow i’m really nervous for it i’ll be honest idk why, im afraid of it getting NO views but also it doesn’t matter it’s my art & im proud of it 😴 it don’t matter what anyone thinks because i do it for me 🤷 i make art because creating makes me feel alive. that’s what i do it for, i make because its second nature to me, it’s like breathing i don’t think about to at all it comes so naturally to me & im truly blessed to have my brain this way.

i hope everyone who views it can feel the passion though 🙏

I’m also not taking any disrespect anymore, i’ve been on my journaling shit & some more self development. i’m going to start reading more because i want to be a better writer & also expose myself to more challenging material. i’ve been watching more international films which has been on my list for a while, subtitles aren’t that scary guys! enjoy the art made around the world never let a language barrier stop you from that.

but also finally just more self discovery on my end & solidifying my boundaries whether people like it or not because i will NOT allow myself to be disrespected in my one life. idgaf if it’s just “jokes” because my perception is my reality & if your joke is disrespectful then shut the fuck up 🤷 i also won’t be giving my energy to people who don’t match or or appreciate me. you don’t deserve me. there some people who i show nothing but kindness & give the biggest helping hand to when needed & i don’t get that energy back so guess what im not trying anymore because you’re not worth my time. simple as that.

i’m not going to give pieces of myself to people who no longer deserve it. i know that i always have good intentions & share my kindness always & i will no longer allow myself to be a doormat. people have mistaken my kindness for weakness & i won’t let them mistake it anymore.

i don’t have to have everyone like me or respect me so boom if you don’t get out of my life i don’t need you because when i look in the mirror i love myself & respect myself & that’s all i need. as long as you have yourself you have somebody.

i’m also cutting out some bad habits that i started that have been damaging to myself. i deserve better because i love me.

i am proud of me & who i’m becoming. ive been making big changes this year & im telling you 2025 will be the year of diego. im manifesting it.

but yeah i’ve been getting closer with my dawg nathan much respect & love to him always. amazing & talented filmmaker who is my best friend dude & im happy me & him have gotten closer recently. we both got broken up with around the same time & we’ve talked like everyday since dude, the universe has plans for us. we’re gonna be great i can feel it.

&& speaking of universe that’s another thing. the universe has a plan for everyone including you reading 🙏 if you feel lost something will happen to bring you onto the right track of self discovery & self love. keep going even when it’s hard because the reward will be great. i have full trust that everything i manifest will come to life & i’ll reach all my goals.

thank you for reading this blog post, lots of changes in my life & i am human & experiencing & living & breathing & feeling emotions. thankful for my mind.

- Diego Muñoz

[haiihellooo]

I know I talk too much, but I had to get this out, because, like I said, I have nothing better to do. Okay, so, first of all I CAN'T TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE!! I don't know why so many things piss me off, like, to the point where I'll be like "I won't think about this tonight" and it keeps me up all night. Idk if this is some childish shit or I'm genuinely gonna burst a blood vessel. Some stupid fucker says something online and I HAVE to respond. Misunderstandings piss me off so much, and with that, I will name shit that's been pissing me off lately. 1. The comic Lydia situation- I LOVE comic Lydia to death, and I'm sure the two people who, yearly, accidentally click on my posts know that too, but these DUMBASS bitches don't know that. Every FUCKING time I see a post about comic Lydia, it's some braindead idiot saying the same thing we've seen a million times. YES, SHE LICKED CARL'S EYE! WE FUCKING GET IT! "I can't believe Lydia would do that 🥺" If it's so traumatizing, DON'T.READ.THE.COMICS! Another thing is how Lydia was 16 and Carl was 13. I've already established that I ONLY ship TV!Carl X Comic!Lydia/TV!+Comic!Carl (whatever fucking fusion I created) X Comic!Lydia, but people be saying shit like "OMG, LYDIA'S SUCH A CREEPY CREEPER FOR THAT 😭😭!" Bffr, bitch, this girl has been to hell and back, AND was taught so much bullshit. 1. That childhood didn't exist, 2. That people could do WHATEVER the hell they want to her, and 3. That she was an animal. What the fuck do you expect? Lollipops and daisies? Open your eyes, brotha. For some reason, people are saying that Lydia SA'd Carl and trauma dumped on him about her situation at camp. Really? That's what we're going with? Dude, she was TAUGHT to DO these THINGS! Holy CRAPPPPAPAPAP!! 2. The SHOW Lydia situation- This girl makes me want to peel the skin off of my nonexistent balls. People will sympathize for TV Lydia SO much! "She didn't deserve what she went through!!" Be so fr. TV Lydia didn't even scratch the surface of what comic Lydia went through. Sure, she was in a shitty situation too, but girl got TWO boyfriends AND two father figures. Comic Lydia got slapped in the fucking face by her mom, and, in the end, didn't even get to be with Carl. Wtf is this? And people say: "Well, she got bullied." I'm not sure being bullied is worse than being r-worded and nearly killed to spite your mother. I see all these FUCKING "TV Lydia >>> Comic Lydia" shit. What did this girl do? They make her seem like a monster for doing WHAT SHE WAS TAUGHT! If someone tells you "Hey, y'know red means go and green means stop" from the time you're 10, I bet you'd get hit by a fucking 18 wheeler. Another thing, that bitch was ANNOYING! Jesus Christ, I don't wanna sound one-sided but HOLY CRAP! Nothing against Cassady, but "WAAA, MY MAMA HATES ME!" Girl, stop. The Chandler Riggs situation- Stfu about this horse shit. It never happened. Kys. Free my man Chandler 💪 Empty fanbase- I can't do it. I can't fucking do it. I have to keep recycling the same comic Lydia images over and over and OVER AGAIN! There's hardly ANY fanart of her, hardly ANY edits, and the ONLY time I see anything with her "Me reacting to Lydia licking Carl's eye 🤓" These pussy baby bitches, bro. I'm literally alone here. Whenever I try to defend my point online, some overweight person behind a computer SHITS on my FUCKING point, leaving me looking like a damn idiot. All because I'm saying you shouldn't label a kid as a creep because she's scared. But NOOOOOOOOOO, one person says something and the fucking hivemind begins. I'm here with my SCRAPS of comic Lydia content. My SHITASS DRAWINGS, all because people, for some reason, want this girl dead. And with that, I will stfu. Idgaf. Suck my ass. Show Lydia sucks ass, (not) respectfully. I will defend comic Lydia 'til this earth blows. My girl deserves better. If comic Lydia has one fan, it's me. If she has zero fans, I'm dead. And, yes, I will keep being dramatic and rant about dumb shit I read online.

[maiverie]

NO BC I ALSO SAW SOMEONE MAKE THE TRIAGE JOURNAL PAGE SPREAD???? AND U PUTTING IT AS YOUR HEADER, THAT WAS SO SWEET OF THEM

AND APPARENTLY IT WAS BITE ME'S LAST PERFOMANCE :(( I DONT WANT THIS ERA TO END BRO , WHATS YOUR FAV BSIDE ???

SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN TOMMOROW KMS , AND IM SO UNPREPARED. LIKE 7 HOURS FOR WHAT ??? LEARNING ABOUT A CHICKENS BUM ??? HOWS UNI THO ?????

AND IM BEYOND EXCITED FOR BITE BY BITE !!!

YESSSSS THEY DID 😭😭😭😭

ITS SO CUTE RIGHT??? 😭😭😭 sobbing @.hee-in (ecil) was the one who made it!!! 🥹🥹💝💞💘 THE LITTLE TEXT BUBBLES N SHIT LIKE STOPP

and omg i realise that too 😭😭😭 SOBSS IM GNA MISS THIS CB SM 😭😭 worth the 10 month wait and a part of me will probably die while waiting for the next one but that’s okay :’)) ASLO MY FAVE BSIDE FROM THE ALBUM IS CHACONNE !!!!! WBU HEHEHE

OMG SCHOOL TMR 🤢 U SHOULD SLEEP EARLY AAAAA i hope it doesn’t start. too early for u 😭 and omg actually i just submitted my last assignment but it went so so so shit so i’m like panicking 😍 but it’s okay bc idk if idgaf anymore 😭

AND AAA THANK U SM IM SUPER EXCITED FOR UR FICS TOO!!! what are u working on these days hehe

[feuqueerfire]

History 3: Make Our Days Count

I don’t actually know much about what this is about except the ending (I’m gonna watch till ep 9 I think) and I think this is high school + one of the mains is some kind of delinquent? 

Ep 1 (Nov 13) 

Haoting the class hero in rebelliousness 

Haoting’s girlfriend so pretty. i haven’t heard of a cheating plot, so I assume they break up?

wait are they getting frisky in the nurse’s office lol 

dang they really went for it

lol I like that we get to see Haoting’s dynamic with his family

are this gym people a second couple? I forget those exist sometimes

Sometimes the subs are missing for a sentence or two and it greatly annoys me, should I try to see if the Viki version is free with VPN. aghhh Switzerland does have free MODC but it’s like no you’re using VPN, so you can’t watch

Ep 2 (Nov 13)

The drama with the girl is kinda interesting like she’s Haoting’s gf, Haoting’s ambivalent towards her so she starts liking Shi-gu

second couple older guy being like “he’s at the age to like something quickly and move on quickly” about his younger love interest, okay, i like that

lmfaoo not the 2nd couple younger guy (i keep forgetting his name rip) going to surprise his crush but seeing him with Shi-gu and being upset

Ep 3 (Nov 13)

lmfao Shigu so funny, he got harassed by two guys in the same friend group for trying to 1) steal his older male crush and 2) steal his current girlfriend. whole time Shigu doesn’t like either lmfao

huh [BoXiang?] just kissed Chigang randomly like that? agh

What did Hiaoting write on Shigu’s desk

loll now that Shigu told her he doesn’t like her, the gf went back to Haoting 

lmfaooo Boxiang tryna get Haoting to apologize to Chigang on his behalf but Haoting’s first like loll wait you fr like a guy? and then after pointed out who it is, he’s like wait he’s kinda old? 

wait Boxiang has a little mushroom that gives him luck/strength/smth? 

bro Boxiang’s giving me such a headache, do I skip their storyline...

also I think Boxiang’s name means Sun or smth, the subs refer to him as such

Ep 4 (Nov 14)

Haoting preventing Shigu from taking an exam... death

y’know when Shigu was running to school I was like wow... running across on street with cars coming... and now Haoting actually saving Shigu from getting run over by a motorcycle... they really were foreshadowing this to hell and back (although idk who actually even dies)

i just don’t care about the side couple agh, so sad because I love an age gap w younger seme 

bro BoXiang (Sun) is so annoying, idgaf about this side couple

Ep 5 (Nov 14)

lmfao not Haoting literally having dreamy thoughts about Shigu while watching him sleep at the nurse’s office

loll it’s cute that Haoting’s asking Sun about how he feels about Shigu and how to know if he likes a boy

aslkd;fj the little mushroom was referring to their dick?

Haoting’s wildass methods of confirming and then confessing his feelings

lmfao I’m dead at Haoting buying food for Shigu and doing pushups as he waits for him at the nurse’s office, whole time Haoting has a gf

Ep 6 (Nov 14)

I’m so done with Haoting, why is he getting overly worked up and accidentally outing his friend Sun Bo aghh

I’m kinda skipping through Sun Bo and Chigang but some of their convo during that confession is interesting

Haoting tryna convince Shigu to eat his lunchbox lol kinda cute in its ridiculousness + the “hmm if we 2 guys start going out, won’t the pressure be too much? but to make an enemy of the world feels pretty nice” lol

Haoting is so fucking hotheaded, I can’t do this anymore. Just straight up punching a guy at the bar because he was touching Shigu but I’m pretty sure it’s just his employer or smth

fuckkk seeing Shigu kneeling in front of Haoting and begging to be left alone and confessing that he has no fucking money I’m so askdlfj

I was supposed to either go to sleep or watch 20 mins of one of my lectures but I guess I’ll watch ep 7

Ep 7 (Nov 14)

for sure going to sleep after this 

Aw, some brother sister bonding even though it feels unearned to heart the sister talk about Haoting’s good qualities and praise him

bro Haoting breaking up with his gf (only good thing he’s done so far) and her crying face D: oh noo so cute and pitiful. i’m just soooo susceptible to girls who are pretty but unfaithful (Ploy in Love Mechanics, the gf here)

it’s so tiring to just have either Sun or Haoting get angry or impulsive and do something that makes it bad for themselves, their love interest, or each other. like haoting rlly just started yelling in the middle of chigang’s cafe even though he was literally regretting being cocky and inconsiderate last night after doing smth similar at shigu’s workplace like i’m so done

am i supposed to be happy for Sun Bo and Chigang like idcccc

Ep 8 (Nov 15)

soft ‘i don’t like men, i just like him’ trope

loll Haoting’s friends reading yaoi to understand things better

okay acc i can forgive the ‘i don’t like men, i just like him’ soft trope here bc it’s not acc saying that? before he was more like ‘i only like him rn so i don’t like men’ and with the friends supporting Sun for liking men, Haoting said he also likes men

Chigang was out of line with the way he spoke to Haoting; should’ve explained the situation and how Haoting can support Shigu, not insinuate that his presence in Shigu’s life can only be negative

Ep 9 (Nov 15)

dang, Shigu waiting for Haoting to show up

bruh, everything became so complicated. hope the gf gets ting-an to confess that he’s the one who mocked up the photo (all this over a pic in front of a gay bar lol)

i love haoting and his sister’s dynamic ahh siblings 

Ep 10 (Nov 15)

Shigu in Haoting’s bedroom

aww Shigu being envious of Haoting’s freedom to do whatever the heck he wants and tearing up thinking of how it would’ve been different for him if his parents didn’t pass away when he was younger

how old is Chigang btw like I’m assuming the high schoolers are 17/18 bc it sounds like they’re in their final year but is Chigang like... 20 or mid-20s

Shigu so cute and smiley around Haoting now

loll I think I’ve seen a bit of a clip of when Shigu comes to Haoting’s house and his parents’ reaction on tiktok before

Wooa, Haoting kissed Shigu

lol Sun and Chigang making out in the bathroom

Ep 11 (Nov 16)

dang the Sun and Chigang scene just continued lol I’m kinda just not into them so i skipped it  

damn haoting is so enviable for being able to just be #2 in terms of grades at school whenever he wants

them messing around like this in Haoting’s living room is making me so nervous like bro what if ppl really are still home + they even talked about not locking the front door

‘damn, they’re really going at it’ i say as i forward through it bc i’m anxious and yep, here the parents are

i will say though, haoting’s shirt baring his shoulders while he’s on shigu’s lap is interesting; it’s a v uke trope 

oh fuck, the parental homophobia. the recent shows i’ve watched have had supportive parents or no homophobia (like LITA, The Eclipse, Star in My Mind) so this is... :’)

once again, i love sibling relationships ah Haoting’s sister being there for him :(

okay mom pls come around quickly and also convince the dad pls

Ep 12 (Nov 16)

sun bo’s cousin giving chigang the safe sex talk (i think? based on the skimming)

oof, that phone call. shigu not speaking

woah shigu coming to ask permission from haoting’s parents, a very seme move, i guess it’s bc taiwan doesn’t really do as much seme/uke so it’s really fun to see the tropes be spread across both characters (as if they’re real people and not archetypes lmfao)

the parents realizing Haoting listens to Shigu... hope this means they’ll allow them to date and not that they’ll 

Ep 13 (Nov 16)

okayyy the parents are gonna talk to yu shigu,i believe in their approval

i was wondering if shigu and chigang-ge hanging out will cause problems bc sun and haoting are fucking impulsive and angry but seems like it went well so far... who knows tho

why the fuck is the side couple getting engaged or smth

Ep 14 (Nov 17)

so haoting and shigu are talking about how they’ll go to college/workforce etc whatever if the parents don’t agree and are planning for “forever” but like... it all feels so serious considering they’ve dated for like 2 days bruh

girl that convo b/w haoting and sun bo about first time... so awkward T.T but endearing too i guess. same with sun bo then inquiring to chigang ge whether that time in the shower had hurt or felt good

Ep 15 (Nov 17)

Haoting just annoys me. he did bad on the placement test and instead of studying keeps wanting ‘rewards’ from Shigu like bruh focus on your fucking studying

this ep really makes me realize how much idgaf about anything

Ep 16 (Nov 17)

i was wondering if they’d make Haoting be unable to get into a national uni but guess not

2 more half-eps left

Ep 17 (Nov 17)

i would maybe care more about this interpersonal turmoil if i cared about the characters but rn i’m just like agh, all this drama over not wanting to have sex? grow up

they kept talking about it raining but am i blind or was it just not raining?

Ep 18 (Nov 17)

lmfao haoting pretending this 18k rent is actually 8k, can he afford this?

the friends coming over is cute

lol now i’ve gotten to witness the crime of the salt

in the beginning i was really annoyed by several characters (esp Haoting and Sun Bo) and after I stopped being annoyed, I also stopped caring oof. Don’t think I’ll think about the show or characters ever again. Also am not gonna watch ep 19/20. I liked the occasional scenes of Haoting and his sister; I am lover of sibling relationships.

I actually didn’t have this show on my to watch list for so long but I added it recently because I thought I’d still really enjoy it as long as I don’t watch the last part but meh. idc

Rating: 5.5/10

[gender-euphowrya]

apparently my liver is super fucking fat ugh

[bungoustraypups]

it’s honestly so funny to me when like. terfs and/or radfems try to claim afab trans people are only trans because patriarchy or whatever makes them “hate being feminine/hate their womanhood” like. bro idk how to tell you, not only do i love being feminine as an effeminate gay man (yknow, the thing a lot of gay cis men are also punished under the patriarchy for because the patriarchy simply views all femininity as bad no matter who is doing it, yes, that includes those “xy males” you keep going on and on about who don’t perform masculinity the way the patriarchy demands it be performed), i also do not hate “my” womanhood because it never existed? i can’t hate being a woman if i never was one and am not one???

even when i thought i was cis that was literally only because i didn’t know there was any other way to identify like. when i thought i was straight, i wasn’t doing it because i really was, it was because firstly i hadn’t realized even yet i was a non-binary man and very much not a woman (in fact i at first thought i was a lesbian! turns out i wasn’t attracted to the women, it was actually specifically masculinity in those women, not even the women themselves), and secondly because i simply hadn’t heard the other terms yet! it wasn’t even that my family wasn’t accepting i just didn’t know any other words because uh yknow that’s. how life works. you don’t know things, and then you learn them, and now you know them! wow! K-12 educations system basics summed up in a single sentence!

i wasn’t brainwashed or convinced by some nonexistant transgender genderist cult or whatever buzzword terfs and/or radfems are using for today’s news cycle. i literally had not met a single trans person in my life when i started identifying as trans! not in real life and not online either! it was a cis person actually who told me, upon hearing what i was feeling and had been feeling for as long as i could remember, that “hey you might wanna look up transgender resources” and i did it on my own!

oh, and guess what? at no point did me being trans, on its own, cause me suffering. i was dysphoric at one point because i had pre menstrual dysphoric disorder, which can affect cis women as well as anyone who is not a cis woman who also menstruates and has that disorder, but once i got the right combination of meds and such, my dysphoria lessened and eventually disappeared, and i don’t have it anymore. (i was on birth control for several years of the hormonal type but i’m not anymore, but even now i still don’t have PMDD symptoms and haven’t in like seven or eight years at least, my periods are also not as bad, but i’m also on like different meds in general from then so maybe some of it is that too idk really but i just don’t have it anymore)

i don’t want to “mutilate” myself or anything, i literally don’t want any surgery at all lmao. aside from general fear of surgery, i like my boobs, they’re fine and not that big a deal and honestly fun to play with too, i don’t want to “chop them off” or w/e, i don’t want a penis, i like the vagina i have, it works just fine and if it ain’t broke don’t fix it lmao, and a penis doesn’t make me any more of a man than your vagina makes you a woman (that is to say, penises don’t make men men and vaginas don’t make women women, no matter what your middle school biology textbook told you). all i really want is testosterone to achieve like... the standard of passing i wanna have, so that if i meet someone new, they won’t automatically assume i’m a woman without asking me and misgender me, which does actually bother me, because it’s disrespectful, not because of anything else. i don’t care about like, forcing anyone to accept me, idgaf if you accept me! you can use my name and correct pronouns without giving a single damn shit about me! it’s about basic human decency and respect and treating each other like human beings because that’s what we are unless yall wanna start claiming trans people aren’t human beings now which. man if you do that i can’t help you anymore LMAO so