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cephalonheadquarters · 4 days

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Finally....Refs have been remade and relationships have been charted...

Height comparisons & icons alone under cut

And....I know arty fighty is a ways away but.... :3

also feel free to ask about them if u want i like talking....

#All of this took So. Freaking. LONG. and im super excited(AND TERRIFIED)to share. Please enjoy. Please *anime girl crying gif*#Ignore the second chart having 2 paragraphs of gay. Ignore. Ignore. Ignore. Ignore. I'm going to have a heart attack. GOODBYE FOREVER #Sorry I feel like melo and diesel swear too much Probably bc the others dont. Chamelo if he was written by vivziepop:#splatoon #splatoon oc #oc #chamelo fláje #valerie adorabilufu #diesel fintasma #asker scalefin #Wait also. I got scared itd be annoying repetition but iwanted to add that val is also objecto...she got a favorite mannequin...#And smth about diesels gender Its been on my mind for a While but idk how to explain it Hes just kinda whatever #I was also gonna put the leather flag on diesels ref cause like. That is a part of him but i got really nervous Sorry #my art

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saltpepperbeard · 5 months

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✨January 1st Moodboard✨ 😍💖🤡

#OFMD #Our Flag Means Death #OFMD Season 3 #The Art of Clownery #...SJDKHSDJKLS WE'RE SO BACK BAYBEEEE WE'RE SO BACK #clownery at its ~*~Finest~*~#oooooo max you want to validate us so so bad oooooooooo #you want to let the gays win so so bad ooOOOoOOOooo #YOU WANT TO PUT SOME BACKING BEHIND ALL OF THESE SEEMINGLY SUSPICIOUS INSTA CAPTIONS SO SO BAD OOOOOOOOOO #please max im crying rn #i just want to see ed and stede get married #is that SO WRONG #IS THAT TRULY TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR

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cheeriochat · 22 days

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Hmmmm DMC headcannons 3!!!!

This one's a bit wordy

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• Dante and Vergil are the type of twins that when they are close by, are touching in any way possible. Sitting together? Dante is leaning on Vergil. Standing together? Vergil has his arm resting on Dantes shoulder. Walking together? They keep bashing into eachothers side. They can spend time apart (obviously) but when they are close there is always some form of contact.

• Nero felt phantom pains where his hand used to be, but when his arm grew back they kind of just became ordinary pains. He wasn't sure if it was a side affect of growing a whole ass arm back or something but he was happy when they went away.

• I kind of think Kyrie would have depression. I mean she went through a lot and lost her parents and brother but she lived, so I feel like she would have survivors guilt but due to constantly being busy she wouldn't really have the time to process it. It's a sad headcannon but I feel like it just seems right :(((

• On a bit of a lighter note, I feel like Kyrie would have a good support system though. I mean she has Nero obviously, but also I think she would have Lady, Trish and Dante there for her and eventually Vergil too.

• Talking about Trish, Lady and Dante. I feel like Lady and Trish would go shopping Bayonetta 2 style, and have Dante carry all their stuff around. (He gets compensated for his work when they stop at a Cafe and he gets a parfait, although he doesnt mind helping his friends)

• Nero has a huge sweet tooth, but because of the kids, he can't keep anything to satisfy his need for sugar around long enough. Vergil likes to buy him sweet stuff though as a form of peace offering. He's found Nero likes Lemon Sherbets, Sour patch kids, and controversially, Liquorice.

• Vergil likes Hotpot and Shabu Shabu. I don't know, I just feel this in my soul.

• Dante is jealous that Vergil gets a tail and he doesn't. Vergil is jealous Dante's horns are fancier than his. They are both content with the wings that they have. (Also vergil has long skinny fangs with sharp teeth and Dante has wider, stubbier (but still as equally sharp) fangs with more "human" teeth)

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tianhai03 · 2 years

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before i go to bed, here’s a couple of colorings C submitted in the past few days!

#the bg for the baby twins one is very simple but i like it :)#devil may cry #dante(dmc)#vergil(dmc)#fan's colorings #from now on its ramblings for C again so you guys can stop reading <3 #hey C!! please dont feel like youre bothering me with your submissions; youre not at all!#i would keep posting your stuff individually but i just think it'll be a little better to post them in batches thats all #i dont want you to feel pressured into doing more but i dont want you to feel bad for doing too much either #i just want you to have fun doing it; submit it whenever you feel like it; and i'll post them eventually i promise #im really sorry if what i said last time made you feel like i was annoyed with you; i swear i wasnt!#i genuinely do enjoy looking at what you do it's always fun to see what kinda things people can do when inspired by stuff ive made #if you wanna take a break thats totally fine! i'll be here to post your submissions whenever youre ready again #also; your dad's words are very kind!! please thank him for me!!!#i'll be off to bed now; please take care :)#allyart

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unmanageably · 4 months

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im off the thought that most of these warriors losses are due to coaching decisions (wrong lineups) and bad luck (injuries, dray out so no defense, random nba players turning into steph curry on the 3 line— grizzlies 3rd unit hitting TWENTY 3s on them today????) but today’s loss was just so indefensible and bad that its actually hilarious. the silly and stupid and pathetic 18 turnovers, icing out klay completely— just no one at all on the warriors trying to find him i mean 5 attempts until the 4th quarter are you serious— and then sitting steph and trying to run a “save us klay” lineup with 6 minutes left in the 4th when he’s ice cold due to your own offense choices its just very very hilarious. TJD butter fingers and Podz too many attempts not enough shots and a shit ton of fouling lol not their best game but i also think theyre just rookies and honestly have put a lot on their shoulders due to just. everything thats happened this year lol.

there’s things out of our control that we could be mad about (our lack of calls as usual and the 5v8 i mean the amount of FTA the grizzlies got esp considering we got to the paint more than they did so thats just ridiculous lol) but at the end of the day they didnt play hard enough and severely underestimated the grizzlies due to their injuries which was just. so so pathetic like whatever this loss the warriors truly did this to themselves

#when your own team gives u the ick 🕊️#i think its funny how most people didnt even care to be mad anymore cuz theyre just so over this shit like omg #this team is so ass guys im crying #honestly not a big fan of podz at all and the way he’s playing has irritated me but i can still acknowledge that he’s just a rookie and #they ask way too much of him sometimes with these lineups i understand we’re plagued with injuries but draymond is back please stop giving #him ballhandling and playmaking duties when he cant find anyone for shit its ridic #klay thing really pissed me off but whatever we move #defense was… better but still sucked lol #at this point while i love and care for many of these players deeply this is just so unfixable get rid of everyone rebuild around the core #while theres still time and they still have a chance #i do think its funny how quick people are to point figures at the core being the problem when it is just so so far from the truth #rly just want them to rebuild around them and prove everyone wrong one more time #then i promise ill shut up forever lol. goddd i wont ask for anything else!!!!

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early-october-skies · 14 days

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Me when we don't speak anymore by bears in trees

#lizzierants #had a sudden unplanned job interview today. i wanted to cry the whole time but managed to keep it together and now the anxiety has suddenly #caught up to me and it feels BAD the sudden thought of that what if my friends just dont actually like me and they like me purely because #theyre worried for what would become of me if they stopped being friends with me when purely of course id be fine eventually but i worry #that cause im on antidepressants people just think im automatically suicidal when something bad goes wrong which is not the case im doing #good i dont want to die but what if all my friends hate me what if this whole time i have loved them so so much and they just tolerate me #someday my friends will die and i had that i hate that someday we wont be friends even if its decades in the future i love all of them with #my heart that sometimes i feel it is overfilling i love them i love them and what am i without them i am everything i have ever loved i am #overthinking however i cannot stop this what if my own best friend is avoiding me? why am i thinking this? what evidence do i have to back #this up? nothing only for the fact my own brain feels as though i love people too much and they are uncomfortable with it i feel awful wtf #i have learned to keep my emotions from people because i dont want them to worry. i dont want people to do something or not do something bec #ause they think it will upset me i want people do do as they please i want to be open for my friends to share their issues i want to help #and im sitting here wirrying if they hate me so i turn here to shout in the void because the only person i know irl who follows me on here #most likely doesnt read these tags and if you are please ingore this i misjudged your terrible attention span also i love you very much #anyway a few weeks ago i realised my worst fear is no longer death. but the death of my friendship with my beloved friend. and thats fucking #terrifying prospect however if they were to be like yo i dont like you anymore id respect that decision and id be okay because their happine #is the most important thing to me and thats okay but i couldnt bare with the fact that they feel like they had to be ffiends with me because #they have to. i hate the prospect of them feeling trapped in a friendship theh dont want to be in. all the while i feel i cannot communicate #this to anyone because how would i go about it im very anxious i am shaking i am having a bad time very bad time actually im going to start #crying but its okay <3 crying is good for stress and health and its been a while since ive cried so maybe this will help me feel better <3 #i will heal and ill be okay <3

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p2iimon · 4 days

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drawing more furry fnaf art. yknow just to keep you posted. i love posting in the tags sorry these ones got away from me

#sammy is a brown bear (like freddy). his mom is white like funtime freddy #then crying child is blue (like bon bon. and to go with lizzies bonnet pink) (theyre not twins in my au but they definitely act like it. so #its like cute.) mrs. afton is blue violet (rockstar bonnie) bc i was running out of colors. i had already assigned her blue anyway.#max is black bc i seriously ran out of rabbit colors. or! no wait shadow bonnie. thats totally the inspo and not i had made his ears black #already. i think thats literally every rabbit color available. the afton family is pretty big. ig vanny. who would go with vanessa. obvi bu #shes not in my au. or at least not an afton. and therefore not a rabbit. if she was though shed be white.#and if you havent seen any previously drawn ones henry and william are yellow (obviously. they already have fursonas. theyre the reason #everyone else gets one. LOL) micheals purple like classic bonnie (who... is purple even if it was then retconned. hes purple. look at #withered bonnie. i hate ppl who say its just lighting. thats a lie by big blue bonnie. he was literally purple and then he changed his mind #like i said lizzie is pink like bonnet. and then charlie is black like lefty. because duhh.#DONT ask me about how this shit works okay. the rabbit dated the rabbit and the bear dated the bear. bc thats what happened. theres not #here. the bears got divorced. and the rabbits. the yellow rabbit and bear are fucking #no um. i like willry but i think if they were really fucking. i just think things would go differently. henry's gay in my au i dont think i #he actually had a man to fuck he'd manage to have children. its not who he is to me. will is bi but he obv thinks henry is some exception t #him being perfectly normal and straight. everyone wants to fuck their business partner. otherwise youd do it yourself #ig they can fuck after. i hate when people do these boring aus where henry and william never get married and william isnt a murderer and so #like what? theres nothing? just a couple of guys? if im looking for fics where theyre fucking im not looking for a fic where everything is #nice and clean. be serious. can we at least have some angst about it being the 70s or are you too much of a bitch for that too #anyway.....#simons spouting #simons fnaf au #OH also if anyone reads this whats the stance on this stupid idea i have where sammy pretends he has a thing for michael to annoy max. bc.#their parents had a thing for eachother. and sammy and max have a more familial relationship. and michael and charlie have a familial #relationship. but michael and sammy have barely met and do not at all. is it pushing it? i was thinking yknow from sammys perspective that'#'his sons' dad but! like you can fuck your sons dad. that's not weird. unless thats the way youre phrasing it i guess LOL. but i guess #michael would be like. thats 'my sisters' brother. and that is not someone you fuck*. BUT this isnt michaels perspective its sammy being #annoying. and from sammys perspective that is NOT his sister and there for NOT his sisters brother. *also im pretty sure this is subjective #if youre just friends. yknow. the ethics of sammy using this to bother max is not on the table because i think he deserves to be a #a bit of an ass. anyway LMAOO fkdglfg. let me know if youd like ive got anon asks on. please dont judge me for not knowing this.

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suntraitor · 1 month

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im sorry mom and dad, i know i messed up bad

#scp 166 #dr clef #50th fucking drawing of me in jacks necklace bc guess what #im sad about it again!!!#i remember 035 being pissed when he saw us after what i did and i remember kondraki trying to talk to us and i remember how much-#shame jack felt #im sorry jack #im sorry dad #i did what i had to do #lyrics are from parents by anna clending #vent #sorry to vent on main and in the scp tag guys #i will do it again #PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS ME//RI I HATE BEING CALLED THAT NAME SO FUCKING MUCH #i honestly just need to cry it out but i wanted to draw #someone talk to me about my memories i promise its not all traumatic #like fr one minute im making flower crowns for my friends and the next im killing myself for the ''greater good''#fuck the foundation #and fuck you too jack but i forgive you #epon.txt #traitor art #or whatever the fuck our art tag is #might post more vent art later but t b h i just wanna sleep i oddly miss my cell. i miss cain and able #i miss my brothers ^

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undermostcorgi · 2 months

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this piece is actually gonna take me forever it is hands down thee most ambitious thing i have EVER tried to draw but i really like how these lines have turned out so far and its gonna be a while before i can post it so have a teaser because i love you!!!!!! :3

#my art #dnd oc #velzannek #friend oc #sketch #not really a sketch but it is very incomplete lol #YES THIS IS BASED ON THE DUNGEON MESHI INTRO THING WHERE THE BOYS AND GIRLS ARE REACHING UP ITS SO CUTE #took reference poses from both halves of that and am mashing them together to fit our dnd characters fdhsjkds #im having a lot of fun with this but holy shit it is so much work #six characters...... woof!#ive never done a full group pose thing before so this is interesting. very very hard but very fun #ive also never actually drawn any of these characters other than velzannek lmao so this is a fun learning experience for that as well #also yes i was too lazy to draw yoralia's other hand lol it will be covered by shrikes head anyway #ALSO THIS CANVAS IS SO FUCKING BIG DSHKFJSDAJHKD #i havent even finished all of the lines and firealpaca is crying every time i open the file. big green loading bar at the bottom and all #PLEASE DONT LET THIS FILE DESTROY MY PC OR GET CORRUPTED OR ANYTHING OH MY FUCKING GOD #also if you saw the one i posted before this no you didnt #i changed some small things lol

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cherryhrat · 1 year

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Im ashamed to say im back on my naruto shit

Hes my son your honor, hes just a little guy

Id die for him

#naruto #help i cant believe im about the hyper fixate on naruto for the 4th time #watching the first show reminds me of everything wrong with boruto especially art and animation wise #god I fucking hate boruto #anyways naruto so silly i love him so much #thinking about team 7 found family....#thinking about if sakura was well written...#so much potential.. wasted :c #I hc that shes actually not a boy crazy idiot and simply has a crush like a normal person and that she ACTUALLY HAS MUSCLES BC YA KNOW #HER WHOLE FUCKING THING IS STRENGTH CHARACTER DESIGNERS WERE YOU HIGH????#and I hc that she was actually used well in fight scenes like the one against puppet guy and she didn't cry for naruto to solve everything #and that she didnt fuck with his feelings in that one episode when she 'confessed' to get him to go home #and that sasuke wasnt a lame piece of edgy shit and was a better written antagonist #and that naruto didnt have an absolutely unhealthy obsession with him #sorry but people who ship naruto and sasuke are gross #its already abusive and unhealthy as all get out and now you want to add r o m a n c e???#im sure narutos crush on sakura got weird too #oh yeah like when he transformed into sasuke to trick her into kissing him #naruto writers be normal about romance for once please #shikamaru and temari and naruto and hinata were pretty good #idk personally I ship naruto and gaara and naruto and shikamaru #oops im rambling in the tags what can I say I fucking love naruto and have a lot of opinions on it

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vinegar-doppio-official · 5 months

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I spent such a significant portion of my life wanting to die and anxiously waiting for the moment it would finally happen that now that i no longer want to die and i feel like I want to live, i remember i might just die anyway and i instantly start fucking sobbing

#like nooooo not now bitch please #developed a shiny new fear of dropping dead as if wishing so much for it would make it come true just way too late #i know its dumb but i get so scared #negative #depression #i also get these equally random anxiety attacks about my boyfriend unaliving that render me absolutely unable to function unless i cry my #eyes out or the cat bites the shit out of me for wailing cause he hates the sound #like im so scared of my new decent life devoid of suicidal ideation ENDING suddenly that i just panic i panic so bad #its insane and i havent told anyone except my therapist about it and all she did was smile and nod like ah thats good like bitch no help me

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silhouettecrow · 10 months

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365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 216

Adjective: Pink

Noun: Peach

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Pink: of a color intermediate between red and white, as of coral or salmon; (of wine) rosé; (informal) (often derogatory) having or showing left-wing tendencies; of or associated with gay people

Peach: a round stone fruit with juicy yellow flesh and downy pinkish-yellow skin; a pinkish-yellow color like that of a peach; the Chinese tree that bears peaches; (informal) an exceptionally good or attractive person or thing

#sorry for being late again #at this point i dont know if i need to say why cos its almost always the same reason: accidentally falling asleep #which is the case this time #as for what happened today i met with our executive director for quite a few reasons #but pretty much the main one was for me to talk to her about how my supervisor has been treating me as of late #(specifically the past couple of months but especially this past week)#cos making me cry once and nearly making me cry another time right as im about to head to court for a hearing with a client is fucked up #and not at all how we should be treating each other (especially supervisors to their subordinates) at a domestic violence agency #and it seems like my supervisor is being so passive aggressive and outright mean to me because my coworker got fired #(shes shown favouritism toward that coworker)#(and im worried she thinks i got him fired when i was only one of many people to bring up to our executive director)#(the ways in which he was harming clients and doing things that are prohibited in our employee handbook)#but my conversation with our executive director went extremely well and made me feel validated and heard and safe/comfy #when it comes to the prompt i know it seems a little redundant or too straightforward #but there is something about it that strikes me as it being mystical or almost cottagecore in a way #it is very aesthetically pleasing to me and the feeling i get from it is nice #i just have absolutely no idea what to write about still #so im hoping something comes to me in due time #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least

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nt3000s · 10 months

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im so lucky to know so many people in my life to have met so many people in my life that are just life saving ill never not feel lucky people are so beautiful and kind and talented and funny and have so much worth everyone ive ever met anyone in my life i have ever touched i just cant believe it ill never be able to understand it how important everyone is how much i love people the degree to whihc i love people and everyone i have ever met ill just never ever be able to express the depth of how important it is to me it might be the most important part of my entire life. i just need people to know how much i love them im desperate for it to be known how important everyone ive ever met is to me. all of my friends everyone whos ever been kind to me and whoever ive been kind to it will never be lost on me how important it is. and i feel so lucky to be graced i guess by my friends. i cant imagine the life i would live without every event every person who ive ever crossed. i would never sacrifice anything to not be where i am now because of the people i know and have known. the people i know and talk to everyday or the people i see in a notification or pass by. i cant overstate your importance to me. i cant overstate how important i want people to feel. i want people to see themselves how i see them. i can not overstate your importance to me and i love you. im so lucky ill never be able to take it

#i just want ti go to sleep but i cant my sleep schedule has been so miserably depressing me #not that badly. i cherish every moment i have with the people around me and i cherish how lucky i am to be surrounded by such unbe #lievable people. i am happy everyday because people love me.#this will never be lost on me. the importance of it. the importance you all have will never ever be lost on me. your worth as a human being #you are so kind. you are so talented. you are loved by people because you are seen by people that way. i will never lose this #im miserably desperate for everyone i know to feel loved or to know that i love them. nothing will ever ever ever in my whole fucking life #ever be more important to me #nothing in my fucking life will ever be more important than that. please know how much you mean to this. to everything #i dont know what changed but i cry so often now and every single time my thoughts wander to how deeply i feel about this #im just sobbing and sobbing and im like. i love the people that care for me. i love the people i care for #i know when i stop crying or when the day rolls over i get to talk to everyone again. and i feel so lucky. i feel so desperate to explain it #how. much. it. means. to me. How badly i mean this and everything I say.#i dont fucking care if yoire my mutual from fandom or someone who random followed because my blog was funny #someone i talked to once or twice. you mean so much. i swear to god. ill never be mpre genuine or more serious. i guess #thats very kind of you to do that. or like my posts or anything. youre very kind for that. you mean alot to me.#i just dont want to fall asleep when the sun rises and wake up with a few hours to talk to people before im alone #i really hate it right now. and my neutral state has genuinely just been on the brink of crying. like if i sit still too long i just sob #thats genuinely how i have been for the past few days #and thats not the fault of anyone its just how my brain has been treating me #but whdn i get like this i just remember how lucky i feel about everything. like the depth of my feelings #you really just have to trust me when i say like how forever sincere and deep snd monumental it is to me. like please understand the depth #of when i say i love you. dear god i love everyone ive ever met i love you. please please please please understand how desperate i am #i will never ever feel more strongly about anything. i cant imagine it #i have to make this exact same fucking post over and over again #i need to keep saying it man #i need people to love themselves like i love them #the degree to which i say the word need #anyway. i love you. i hope you have fun or are happy about something. or draw write something nice. talk to your best friend. something

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lazyheartcomputer · 1 year

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This is a message to all of the haters who hate on my son on a Saturday!Hate my son once more or imma send in the authorities for this tragic scene! WHY DON'T YOU SEE HIM AS A HERO OR SOMETHING YOU REPULSIVE SWINE?! THEN REMEMBER WHY HE'S MY FAVORITE CHARACTER!

AND IF I SEE A HATING ASS HATER ON MY CHILD, DON'T TALK TO ME OR MY SON, MY SPECIAL SON WHOM I LOVED DEARLY EVER AGAIN! GTFO, YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE SINCE IT'S MY HOME! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

#im sorry that face broke me into tears #after all that it makes me wanna punch someone who i hate so much! he didn't do anything wrong for this mistreatment!#This is the heat of my enigma #im still not sure #still not over it not yet not yet!#please give the child some hugs and support! please! he needs it!#this is why i loved him so much #his character his desgin and so much more i wanna talk about!#he stole my heart since the series started!#remember that #he's the source of my happiness and loneliness! where did the years gone by to protect his smile? it's just tears...#IF ANYONE MAKES HIM CRY AGAIN I WILL PUNCH THEM IN THE FACE! REMEMBER THAT!#IM HIS SUPPORTER TIL THE VERY END OF MY LIFE!#sorry its just...i need a hug and he needs a hug too..#i never in my whole life see him cry like that #my rant #my thoughts #mha #midoriya izuku #deku #im sorry what they have done to you my child #I'll wrap u up in a sushi roll #and then I'll warm up a bath for you #and after that I'll make your favorite food #finally I'll hold you for comfort until we sleep forever #this tag is long so i want my child to be ok for me and everyone who loves and supports him #i wish he was real #if he was real i wanna tell him my love confessions in a heartwarming way so i can comfort him at times like this #my feelings for him impacted my heart and soul. and it never goes away #i wanna tell him how much i love and support him..

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natandacat · 2 years

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The levels of stress I'm under are medically contraindicated so I'm making myself not be stressed by just embracing the idea of complete failure and powerlessness. Is it working? Mostly. My ability to focus on work is gone tough so that's annoying (I say while procrastinating on homework by writing this)

#just bitching #i can't even have a little beer to relax CMON #medical #i played 15min of cello today #im ecstatic that i can play again but its so frustrating like makes me wants to cry but i cant frustrating #that i cant play more than 15 minutes #i lost all my calluses too #the cello is just so important to me people dont get it #its like if you couldnt like. smile or laugh or cry anymore imagine that it would suck #im not even making art like when id raw or write its literally not even art to me its just me #i hate that i cant play 1h+ a day rn #like i dont need MORE grief like please thats jhst so much grief #i hate being physically disabled it sucks so fucking much #and i have to perform so that my uni doesnt kick me out and i cant speak up about the daily horrible ableism #no matter how demeaning and isolating #love being expendable. love being seen as an acceptable sacrifice #love being told i have nothing to contribute since i cant go to abled spaces that literally threaten my life #love that when i say those spaces dont have to be that life threatening in which case i could evolve in them im literally ignored #eyes shift conversations ends #'thats crazy' they say before dismissing my experience. yeah. it truly is crazy

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silverislander · 2 months

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i know logically in my brain that i have a disorder that makes it hard for me to focus and do work, the symptoms of which are not gonna go away bc other people need/want me to do stuff, and still like. i'm behind on a bunch of shit for school rn and i'm kind of spiralling over it bc WHY IS IT HARD. this is stuff i like doing and that i want to do. and i can't for the life of me fucking do it and the deadlines are coming up and i NEED TO FUCKING GRADUATE so it has to get done

#i have two assignments due for indigenous lit and i havent even read/watched the materials which is fucking shameful ngl #im so disconnected and behind in that class its not even funny. ive been skating by reading part of the books and doing shit last minute #and i feel awful abt that in particular bc i WANT to give it my full attention. i want to learn. this is important and interesting to me #im also a week behind on my essay which terrifies me ngl #im a week OUT from the next deadline and thats not getting met. which begs the question of when im going to be able to submit it #when i asked my prof for extra time he said he trusts me to 'work conscientiously' which. god. thats so kind but i dont do that #theres an assignment next week for book history that i dont have even started and dont understand #and i cant make myself do fucking anything at all i want to fucking cry #why cant my brain work normally please this one time #why cant literally anyone in a position of authority take me seriously that its a problem i am literally begging rn #im tired of being told that im smart so i can do it bc i literally cant anymore! its been getting worse for years!#i Am smart enough to do this but something else is wrong!! please!! im trying so hard and i know its not this difficult for everyone #im only taking 4 courses! i know people taking 5 who arent struggling as much as me w workloads!!#its gonna take me failing for anyone to care and i cannot fail at this point. im almost done #levi.txt #vent tw #and then i also feel bad bc i blame everything on my adhd #but also. it does fucking affect all aspects of my life #and i feel like i complain too much but that simultaneously nobody is getting how hard shit is for me/how im not ok #delete later #im not asking for attention rn im just yelling into the void dw abt it. ill probably feel better in an hour or two

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