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quarterdollar · 11 months ago

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crem looooreeee 4 5 13 and 15 for you!!

LATE AF REPLY i was sickie im sorrey. i'm better neow

4. What is their impression of Gulool Ja Ja? Do they agree with his method of cultivating leadership?

Crem latches on to any kindly older parental figure regardless of their status, so he liked Gulool Ja Ja immediately and thought he was a really sweet and cool old guy. Instant good vibes. As for leadership, Crem's borne witness to so many Doomed Regimes at this point that the relatively torment- and murder-free governing style that Tuliyollal employs is a very welcome change of pace. He's not a politician and doesn't like to think about things in a whole lot of detail so he never thought to ask any deeper questions about the problems Turali may face day to day or in their past etc. He was just like "Everyone seems so happy, good job!"

5. How do they feel about Wuk Lamat looking up to them as a mentor figure? Did this attitude change as the story progressed?

Crem is really humble and sheepish about the fact that he's The Warrior Of Light, Legendary Hero and downplays his combat skills and relative strength because he'd rather be seen as an artist. So Wuk Lamat looking up to him as a fighter/leader when coming to Sharlayan was a little awkward. He'd rather just be her buddy! And they did strike up a good equal partnership once DT actually started and goofed around a lot. Since WL doesn't like titles and formalities either they quickly resolved to just be good friends on even footing.

He's always telling her his word on adventuring shouldn't ever be final, but if she wants to learn any of the following 43 and counting instruments, he can absolutely help with that :)

It was later, after Zoraal Ja died and Wuk Lamat was experiencing conflicting emotions over it, that Crem stepped up with some guidance. Emotions are his thing and he's seen a lot of loss of lives both good And bad, so he had some words of wisdom and Sagely Advice for someone experiencing that situation for the first time.

13. What was their initial impression of Cahciua?

"'Fussy little bun bun'? *snicker* *poorly-stifled giggling*"

Crem thought it was hilarious that Erenville wound up so entirely different from his mom and delighted in teasing him with her. They got along great at first.

A little while after their first meeting with Cahciua where she explained what Oblivion was, it dawned on Crem that it seemed like she was hiding something, and he was more suspicious of her from then on.

15. What was their experience like in Living Memory?

ALL OVER THE PLACE LOL It was Whiplash Central until it got Just Bad. Every zone was full of wonder and fun and amusement and Cool Distractions that Crem delighted in exploring. Except then also he had to strip off all the veneer bit by bit to reveal the sobering reality underneath. The ongoing mismatch between people who LOOK living and breathing and emotional and the utter lack of his Echo picking up any life or emotions at all. Knowing immediately that what was done had to be done but still not enjoying any second of the work.

Krile's meeting with her parents was the hardest for him. All of the journey with her, Crem had really identified with her struggle as an orphaned Lalafell who had 0 connections to her blood family or past. But then suddenly she gets closure, knowledge of where she came from, and even her birth name, leaving Crem feeling as out of place as ever. Even more uncomfortable, he gets to hold on to the key that he knows HIS ancestors were responsible for, but he has zero emotional connection to it, so now he gets to be Reminded Of Being An Orphan every time he looks at it. There may have been a world where that key is the biggest deal ever to him, but this isn't that one and he's left exactly as rootless as he started.

I think a lot of Cremdementhe is defined by A Void at the center of him where some semblance of family should be. He never knew his birth parents nor his first adoptive parent, and no one ever stepped up afterwards to fill the role. So Living Memory was ultimately pretty hard for him. Not that he's told this to anyone other than Meteion and he likely won't because that would feel weepy and selfish and it's not like anyone can do anything about it anyway!!!

#replies #ask games #quarter plays ffxiv #cremdementhe mintcoin #dawntrail spoilers #7.0 spoilers #WOW I HAD A LOT TO SAY ABT LIVING MEMORY LOL......MY BOY GOING THRU ITTTT

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pet-genius · 4 years ago

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Prompt: Short fic of Severus's Happiest Memory with his Father

For @lordseverusweasley

Severus looked up at the Enchanted Ceiling, needlessly. He knew when the full moon was - he could never forget, nowadays. Still, he felt reassured by the moon’s presence, which guaranteed his pursuers would be at least one short. Perfect. He would have only one chance.

He snuck out of the dorm and into the Potions classroom where vials of Veritaserum stood by the windowsill - the 7th year NEWT students’ extra-credit project.

Severus counted only five vials. Three were much too cloudy (you could only ever get half-truths and obfuscations out of this if anyone would be dimwitted enough to drink it), and of the remaining two, one smelled of fucking anise. Veritaserum had to be as clear as water and as smooth as vodka. He held the only vial that met his exacting demands up to the moonlight and when the rays did not break, he knew this vial, at least, had been brewed properly. And these are NEWT students. Disgraceful. He needed only three drops, and he thanked "Selwyn, L." as he filled a dropper with the truth serum.

Severus needed some advice, and he had no idea whom else to ask. Wizards these days all had their own ideas about the Death Eaters and nobody knew the full truth, so Severus decided to ask the Muggle just this once, and if he would talk to Tobias, he had to make sure Tobias would at least speak his true mind.

***

“Tea, dad?” Severus offered, uncharacteristically polite, after Eileen had retired to the bedroom. It seemed a waste to dose Tobias Snape of all people, the ruthlessly brusque man to whom that which hurt was true. But there just had to be something underneath the layers of gruff, some sage wisdom he might pass on to his only son.

“Dad?”

“Yeah?”

“Why do you have to be such an insufferable arsehole all the time?” Severus had planned to ask his father if he thought Severus ought to take Lucius up on his offer to introduce him to some proper Death Eaters, or maybe con his way into the House of Lords and wait for the Ministry of Magic to arrest him for interfering with Muggle politics, instead. But Severus knew the impulse to answer the question would override the reflex to elbow Severus in the ribs. L. Selwyn could brew.

“I’m scared, Severus.”

Severus did a double-take. “Scared - what the fuck are you scared of?”

Tobias laughed, and coughed. He was a smoker. “I’m a middle-aged mill worker with a liver about to give up on ‘im and I’ve a wife and a son who don’t live on the same planet as me for all the talk of wands and curses and you think it’s not scary? Knowing your lot exists and can do whatever you like to us - and in a year or two, you’ll be too old to want to come ‘ere and Leen won’t have a reason to stay? You don’t think that’s scary?”

Severus knew scary. He knew the fear that could make a teenager devise magic to cut through Dark creatures’ skin, and he knew the fear that made him so adept at ducking and holding his tongue even when he wanted to yell out “fuck you” and doing everything perfectly because only fools could not, and fools could only learn from the fist. Tobias couldn’t be lying, but there had to be more to it. “But why didn’t you ever say that instead of being such a-“

“Women don’t like a man that’s scared. They prefer being scared to having to coddle their men like babies. I might have only been as far as Birmingham but I know it’s the same all over the world.”

Severus thought back and tried to find a counter-example, but he came up empty.

“I knew since you were a wee baby that you’d be off to that school with all sorts of curses and plants that could choke you and werewolves” – Severus shuddered – “that you’d be in a castle like Eton and you’re from here, and your dad working at a mill. I had to make you tough, didn’t I. And now you hate me. But I don’t care, I know you’re strong and that’s what matters. You’re not a coward.”

A warmth spread inside Severus – he had no idea how much he needed to hear this, after everything that’d happened. “Dad, if you had a chance to join this group that had real power but they distrusted people like you and you had to abandon your family, and Lily says she hates them –“

Shit. I said Lily. Have I drugged myself?

“That bird will never fly to you in a million years,” Tobias laughed. “Not unless you have money.”

“So what would you do, dad?”

“Me? Look around you, boy. Are you sure you want to be like me? I would stay with me family even if it made me wish I was dead.”

“So... what do you think I should do?”

“I think that if life gives you an opportunity you need to grab it with both hands - or just your left if your name’s Rob Masterson, ‘course (Rob had won a claim against the mill and joked about how they’d paid him more to learn how to wank with the other hand than they did to work. Severus wished Rob’s tongue had been cut off). Do what you need to do. Snape men don’t get a lot of opportunities.”

The effect was about to wear off. Severus surprised himself again.

“Dad, do you love me?”

“I knew you were a bloody poof, gon’ win me bet with Rob. Yes. Get out of here before I knock your teeth out, lad.”

The next morning, Severus wrote to Lucius Malfoy.

#snapedom #snape fic #snape content #snape fandom #snape fanfiction #snape love #severus snape #young snape #pro snape

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nitewrighter · 4 years ago

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Does Hanzo ever find out what Genji went through/what he was like during Blackwatch? If so, how does he react?

I think he does eventually, like... Genji lets him know that he was in a very difficult physical and emotional place with Blackwatch, and Hanzo’s able to pick up from Mercy that “Okay no, I don’t think you understand, it was really bad”--but she’s also fairly light on the details mostly for Genji’s sake like “Hey, I’m not going to tell you any more than Genji was comfortable with telling you.” And Zenyatta hangs back for the same reasons, and also he wasn’t there so he doesn’t want to distort the details from what Genji’s told him. So the one person Hanzo can actually get the full story from... is McCree.

Also this fic references the first meeting fic so yeah!

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“Well?” Hanzo had one elbow resting on the bar. Music was faintly playing but it blended in with the humming murmur of the other patrons. Snowflakes were buffeting the glass of the windowpanes just outside and both of them had shrugged off their heavier coats. The bar itself had a homey, lived-in quality to it. Not dirty, but with a definite age to it that seemed to lend a further brightness to the bodies gliding through it and chatting. The icy Andean wind had heightened the redness of Hanzo’s nose and cheeks well before any alcohol had. It contrasted against the cold discernment of his dark brown eyes.

“I’m gonna answer your question with a question--” McCree started.

“Which isn’t an answer--”

McCree leaned back in his bar seat, folding his arms across himself. He almost looked sagely. “Are you asking this because you genuinely think it will help you get a gauge on your shit and move forward, or are you freaking out because things are going more okay than you think you deserve and feel a need to kick yourself square in the Rocky Mountain oysters?”

“Rocky Mountain--?”

“It’s this fried--I’m talking about--” McCree sighed and sipped his whiskey, “I’m saying you’re doing... you’re doing really well, Hanzo. You’re touching base with the team, reachin’ out, you seem to be sleeping and eating better, hell, you’re clutch on missions, but now you’re asking about this, and it worries me.”

“Why should it worry you?” Hanzo’s eyes narrowed.

“Because--y’know... I care about you. You’re a part of this team and I care about you... in a..” McCree cleared his throat, “Team-y way. And... you were stuck in a dark lonely place and I ain’t itchin’ to give you the means to go back there. ”

“But you can understand that the fact that I don’t have the full story distresses me more, can you not?” said Hanzo, “As well as the fact that knowing the more the truth of it is obscured with me, the worse I can assume the situation was.”

McCree scratched at his beard, frowning. “Yeah... yeah I can understand it--but I can also understand Mercy and Zen not spillin’ the beans on Genji’s account.”

“Mm...” Hanzo glanced off and sipped his own drink.

McCree twisted his glass slowly, “Then again, sometimes I think Reyes brought me on the team to begin with because I have a pretty high success rate with the whole, ‘Beg forgiveness before asking permission’ rate.”

Ana called you a charmer, the words almost slipped out of Hanzo but he wasn’t sure how they would land, so he held them in. Instead, Hanzo only mildly gestured at the bartender to refill McCree’s glass.

“Don’t think you’re getting it just because you’re gettin’ me drunk. It ain’t exactly a pretty story,” said McCree.

“I’m prepared,” said Hanzo.

McCree studied him a few moments longer, one hand still wrapped around his glass and one corner of his mouth pulled up with indecision before he closed his eyes and exhaled. “All right,” he said, “If only to keep you from kicking your own ass over what you don’t know.”

“I want you to start at the beginning,” said Hanzo, his stare steady.

“Well t’be fair, Blackwatch was casin’ Hanamura for months, even before your old man passed--er---my condolences--”

Hanzo snorted a little. “It’s... fine,” he said a bit awkwardly. He was more disarmed than really upset at the idea that McCree may have been far better versed in the activities of the Shimada Clan than he had really anticipated.

“Gérard, that is, our UN Attaché, had this whole thing about ‘pulling everything out to the light,’---And the fella was good at it. Could sniff out paper trails and track down dirty money like no other. The initial plan was to get Genji on possession charges and drag the whole clan out behind him. Your old man’s passin’--again, condolences--threw the whole schedule off though. And then we received additional intel that the Shimada dragons might be more.... uh... what’s the word for ‘unusual’ but it’s like... more business-y unusual?”

Hanzo shrugged.

“Un... Im... Uhhh.... Anomalous! That’s the word! Might be more anomalous than we thought and ‘warranting further investigation’ or whatever,” McCree seemed to be easing into the story now, plucking up details from debriefings, “SEP and all its affiliates had been more or less shut down post-Crisis, but there were still worries about human experimentation... strange abilities, and the like. And the dragon stories had been floating around your family for decades, but only when things got destabilized did we consider they might be more than stories. Then we got word that the wheels had been set in motion that the clan would kill Genji before we could get our hands on him--Arrest mission became extraction mission, and extraction mission became rescue mission. The time frame was so sudden we had to bring the Doc along because we thought she would be our best chance at saving him--She wasn’t in Blackwatch, you understand. Wasn’t too keen on undermining the Japanese government either. But... it turns out bringing her along was the right choice.”

Hanzo seemed to be maintaining a veneer of calm, but there was an unmistakeable new undercurrent of tension in his movements and expression as he sipped his own drink.

“You know what he looked like when you left him,” said McCree, “Do you really want me to go into the details there?”

“Yes,” said Hanzo.

McCree huffed and took another gulp of whiskey. The burn of alcohol rasped the first few words of his next sentence. “So it was me, Reyes, the Doc, and a handful of Blackwatch extraction medics touching down in Hanamura that night. Apparently the Shimada clan’s forces were decentralized from the castle. We infiltrated the castle grounds. Found a handful of your security already dead. Took out one more... left his body with the others. Didn’t have time to run a full investigation, or lock anything down. Finding Genji was the top priority. And we found him. Three limbs gone. Puddle of his own blood. Looked midway between... someone had dropped him in a garbage disposal but at the same time... not right--just... gone. The limbs were gone. The wounds were too clean but still bleedin’ out.”

Hanzo’s knuckles curled in, white and shaking as he took a steadying breath. “Consumed,” Hanzo said quietly, “The dragon consumed them.”

“I can stop--” McCree started.

“Finish what you start, Cowboy,” Hanzo’s voice was steady.

McCree swallowed. “I’d seen some fucked up shit under Reyes, but this... yeah, it was new. I kind of froze up, not quite scared, but just trying to make sense of it. But then I snapped out of it as the Doc rushed to him first. I had a vantage point in case other castle security showed up. Reyes was at the opening to that big-ass balcony so he could flag down our evac. So uh, what you need to understand here is that we uh... we actually had very little solid intel as to what the Shimada dragons were capable of.”

“...but I had left the scene well before this,” said Hanzo, trying to puzzle out the timeline of his own fleeing the castle grounds.

“Yeah it... wasn’t your dragon we saw,” said McCree, “See, the Doc, she had to do this... staff... defibrillation thing? I didn’t get a good look at it but Genji, he uh...started thrashin’ and this light sprang out of him. Bright green. Never seen anything like it. He was screaming. Next thing I know he’s grabbing Mercy’s neck.”

Hanzo flinched with some alertness. “What?”

“I mean--first instinct, I’m saying to Reyes, ‘Boss, I got a shot’--like, I know the mission was asset acquisition, but light show or not I wasn’t about to let him kill Angela, but then she hollers out ‘Don’t shoot him!’ And I’m stuck there looking to Reyes like, ‘You’re gonna override that, right?’ And... and Reyes was so calm... I--I could see him doing the math. Breaking people down to resources... breaking their deaths down to trade-offs...”

“You... thought you had to shoot Genji--” Hanzo’s brow was crinkling.

“If Reyes gave me the word,” McCree shrugged, then itched at the brim of his hat, “I never thought someone would hesitate on saving the doc like he was doing right there, though. But.... then she said something to Genji. Never asked what it was, but it seemed to calm him down before he passed out.”

“And you’re saying he grabbed her neck when they first met,” Hanzo’s eyes were narrowed, “But they’re...”

“Well, he was only half-conscious and in this full-on survival mode and she had just... jammed a huge amount of biotic-whatever into his chest. He didn’t know if she was helping or trying to... y’know it was like those times you nearly punched me in the face when I was trying to wake you up from those night terrors.”

“I’m sorry for that,” said Hanzo.

“Psh. If I had a nickel for every time someone took a swing at me out of some kind of traumatic reflex...” he smiled to try and make this seem more lighthearted than it actually was, but Hanzo seemed to still be processing everything, so McCree cleared his throat. “Word of advice, though, don’t make any ‘I guess you’re into that’ jokes with the doc,” he said with a nervous laugh, “No it uh... it took them both a while. I mean, there was this thing there, definitely, but yeah, they were both neck-deep in a whole bunch of shit for a while before they really acknowledged anything.”

“Did Genji take a swing at you?” asked Hanzo.

“Not outside of a Blackwatch sparring ring,” said McCree, “But Jesus, he was scary on the training floor. Still is, sometimes.” McCree paused for a few seconds. “He was obsessed with killing you, y’know. Taking down the whole clan and killing you. Every mission where he got a sniff of you, every mission he thought you might be there and you weren’t, he’d come back snarling.”

Hanzo blinked a few times and glanced down. He knew it made sense, given the idea of justice their family had ingrained in them, but there was still an odd sting to the idea. But I’m his brother, he thought, but then he thought, But that didn’t stop me.

McCree seemed to take Hanzo’s silence as permission to go on. “ I’d try to distract him... try to get his head out of his ass sometimes, but a lot of the time... you see any living thing in a state like that, all you can do is give it space. Genji did give us a decent amount of intel on the Shimada clan’s bigger operations... but when it came to actually getting in there... he was always the first one on the ground. As you can imagine, it was personal for him. There were a handful of bullshit ‘stakeouts’ in Japan where Genji would ditch me... I knew Reyes wasn’t telling me the whole story, then again, it wasn’t my job to know the whole story.” McCree sipped his drink. “Doesn’t mean I didn’t know what he was doing, though.”

“...killing heads of the clan,” Hanzo said quietly.

“Can’t exactly confirm or deny that but... yeah,” said McCree. A prickle of alarm seemed to go through him. “Look, I don’t want to kick off any more brother-killing fuckery--”

“You’re not, Jesse,” Hanzo’s voice was subdued, “I was the right hand of the clan... and the destruction wrought by Genji was, if anything, a product of my own actions.”

“Also his actions--He was fucking nightmare--I mean I liked him, but he was a fucking nightmare, sometimes. Lashed out--like... you didn’t really think of him as giving a shit about you with all that seething over the Shimada clan--- but then he’d know how to say something that hurts, and he knows exactly how it hurts, and you wouldn’t know if he learned how to hurt that bad from your family or just because he was hurtin’ that bad and---” McCree seemed to catch the alarmed look in Hanzo’s eyes, then took a steadying breath before sipping his drink again, “Look... this stuff... it’s all in the past. And he is a lot better now. And he is one of my best friends. Kind of wild how someone who hurt you that deeply can be a best friend like that, but... that’s kind of how life works. Kind of how this shit works when you don’t know if you’re coming back from that next mission. We’re all fucked up here. It’s about learning to take the fucked up parts of yourself and trying to make it into something that helps the people that mean something to you. ”

“The people that mean something to me...” Hanzo repeated quietly. He remembered McCree’s words from his second night on the watchpoint. ‘We’re all just background noise to you. You’re just here so you can stop kicking your own ass after Genji.’ Then he remembered Genji’s words. ‘Well... you’ve been traveling the world for a decade... has there... been anyone? Anyone special? Anyone you loved?’

“...I feel like I’ve let that part of me atrophy,” Hanzo said quietly. Answering Genji’s question, not McCree’s words.

“Atrophy?” McCree repeated.

“When you don’t use a muscle for a long time and... it ceases to be able to functi--”

“I know what ‘Atrophy’ means--” McCree wasn’t making eye contact, “You let... caring about other people... atrophy,” he parsed, trying to trace out Hanzo’s thought process.

“Mm,” Hanzo took a sip of his own drink, “So while I was wandering in grief, Genji was consumed by pain and rage.”

“Which... he’s told you,” said McCree.

“Well, yes, but he didn’t go into details,” said Hanzo, “I know, this might be difficult or painful to talk about, but I really do appreciate getting a more complete picture of what happened to him after my actions.”

McCree tilted his own glass back and forth on the bar counter, letting the whiskey rock around the interior.“I know, but...don’t heap all this on yourself. Reyes always said he wanted the cockroach motherfuckers, and he was more than happy to let Genji snap and swear and lash out and burn the house down because that suited Blackwatch’s agenda better than, I dunno, therapy? Only when we got benched after the Venice incident did he yank in Genji’s leash, because hey, it turned out having a PTSD cyborg tearin’ around the base cussin’ people out wasn’t a good look for Blackwatch.”

Hanzo huffed a little. There was an odd comfort in that. But then he paused, running over the course of McCree’s words in his mind. “...you keep bringing up Reyes,” Hanzo said, fixing his eyes on McCree.

“Sorry--I--I know this should be about Genji,” said McCree.

“No it... it gives some perspective,” said Hanzo, “You trusted Reyes, didn’t you?”

McCree’s mouth tightened for a few seconds before he drew in a short breath through his nostrils. “Yeah... yeah, I did. He just... I mean I’d keep telling myself I was my own person, that I did things with my own style, but so did he. So like... whether it’s ‘your own style’ from fuckin’ Santa Fe or Los Angeles... is there really that much of a difference? If you still picture yourself in their boots, give or take a decade or so?”

“Hm,” Hanzo was thoughtful at this, “I imagined myself in my father’s position so long that when everything came apart and I found myself wandering the world, dodging the clan’s assassins I felt... like a stranger.”

“Kind of liked being a stranger,” said McCree with slight shrug, “Stranger’s from nowhere. Got nothing to prove.... guess it probably hits different if you got a whole... magical crime lord prince destiny thing, huh?”

“The dragon is not magical,” said Hanzo flatly, but a smile was tugging at his lips.

“Debatable,” said McCree, “First of all: It’s a dragon.”

Hanzo snorted and a quiet pause passed between them. Not uncomfortable, but definitely tired, letting McCree’s words and all the pain and memory that came with them drift and dissipate into the warm air of the bar.

“...I could tell you more if you want,” said McCree, after a few beats. “I do have funnier stories... wasn’t all... ‘he was fucked up.’ And--Genji did seem to be getting better-ish towards the end there, once they put him on Tracer’s strike team... but by then Overwatch itself was coming apart.” He snorted. “I guess that’s kind of a running theme with this stuff.”

“I appreciate the offer,” said Hanzo with a slight chuckle. He paused. “Tracer’s strike team?”

“Well, she and Winston probably got more stories there than I do,” said McCree, “And maybe the doc, if it’s in good faith.” He sipped his drink. “You’re welcome to run off to try and ask them about it.”

“I think... this is enough for now,” said Hanzo. After a few beats he said, “You’re not... all background noise to me.”

“What?” said McCree.

“That... you said that on the second night,” said Hanzo, “It’s... it’s not that I don’t value life, or other people--I’m just... it’s been a very long time since I’ve worked with other people, since I’ve talked to other people on a regular basis like this, since I’ve stayed in one place this long, and...” he trailed off, then took a sip of his own drink with some resolve, “I’m afraid,” he said, letting those words sit in the air for a few seconds, “I’m afraid of lending my abilities to another organization that’s used people to hurt other people and then tossed them aside. When your only connection to other people for most of your life was this twisted blood loyalty...” Hanzo trailed off.

“I’m scared of makin’ the same mistakes too, for what it’s worth,” said McCree, “I don’t think fear like that ever goes away.”

“Redemption’s a bitch?” said Hanzo with a slight smile.

McCree broke into chuckles. “You should swear more often. I feel like that’ll help.”

“You’ve sworn plenty for the both of us, tonight,” said Hanzo crisply, sipping his own drink.

“Still, I’m gonna make it a mission to get a ‘fuck’ out of you,” said McCree and Hanzo choked and sputtered. “I didn’t mean it like that! You know what I mean!” McCree was laughing as Hanzo’s attention was split between choking and laughing and desperately looking around for a napkin after spitting his drink. The bartender swooped by with a napkin and the laughs boiled down into chuckles as Hanzo cleaned up a bit. There was another pause then, that same settling of understanding.

“Thank you,” Hanzo said after a few beats.

“You already thanked me--don’t know what’s worth thanking about saying ‘hey your brother was fucked up and so were we.’”

“Honesty. I appreciate honesty.”

McCree smiled and then shrugged.“Hey--y’know, for all the shit I give you,” McCree started and trailed off, “What I said that night about... all of us being background noise... I know that.. that wasn’t really fair. You really didn’t know any of us and, y’know, as far as the general public is concerned, we’re a whole bunch of mercenary weirdoes doing vigilante shit.”

“And Genji was the only person here I knew, and was really...” Hanzo sighed, “I suppose, I fixed him in my mind to be my last chance at humanity--and made myself out to be a monster to all of you in pursuing that.”

“Well... you’re doing better, I can tell you that much. And... y’know folks are warming up to you.”

“Except Angela,” said Hanzo, with a weary smile.

“She needs time on that... I wouldn’t try to force it,” said McCree, “Baby steps and all that.”

Hanzo huffed a little.

“Hey,” McCree lifted his glass, “To baby steps and runnin’ the hell away from all our old role models.”

“Indeed,” Hanzo clinked his glass against Genji’s. Both sipped their drinks and another pause passed over them. Hanzo felt McCree’s eyes on him and looked over at him.l

“Hey just so we’re clear,” McCree’s chin was in his hand, “I didn’t accidentally kick off some huge new bloody vengeance thing by telling you all this, right?”

“You did not,” said Hanzo with a wry smile.

“Oh thank god.”

#mchanzo #gency

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vecna-official · 4 years ago

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hey so you seem more experienced with dnd, and im rather new, i have a quick question, could i theoretically stay invisible as a warlock forever? (as long as i neither attack nor get attacked) at level 3 i can get the invisibility spell and i can hold concentration during a short rest, i am definitely not going to use this to torment my dm if it turns out i can, trust me

Honestly it’s up to your DM as to whether or not you can. The DM decides if something is sufficient to break concentration, and personally I’d rule that you get no benefits from the short rest if you’re preoccupied with concentrating on a spell. There’s a Sage Advice that says it’s doable but SA isn’t the end all be all of rules interpretations.

Even if you could do it, you couldn’t do anything while invisible because you have to spend the full duration resting in one spot if you wand to maintain permanent invisibility (and also you’d flicker into existence for 6 seconds every hour).

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mrs-nate-humphrey · 4 years ago

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Hi I just had a great idea:

What if instead of taking chip wiskers on a Sail-Around-the-World, Get-Over-Blair summer adventure (bc chip can get rekt!) Nate takes Dan instead??? and they fuck and fall in love of course

here you go, jess! your wish is my command & all that. maybe i'll make this into a proper fic when i don't feel like a zombie with a running nose.

vanessa breaks up w/ dan before she leaves for haiti. dan is taking it pretty badly, nate thinks dan must be torn up about it/ missing her / heartbroken etc etc.

blair's got her own clusterfuck of chip stuff to handle (clusterchuck?) and serena's helping with that, jenny's got her own stuff to handle, etc etc, so dan's entire support system boils down to just nate, naturally

nate's like "oh yeah i can handle this i too was once heartbroken over vanessa"

but then dan sort of gets very drunk and talks about how if the one person who's loved him longest and loved him best and known him better than anyone else couldn't stand him what does that say about him, dan? is he just that unlovable? and nate's heart hurts

nate tries for sage advice such as "sometimes being best friends doesn't translate to being romantically compatible, man. i know she loved you, but her not being in love with you doesn't say anything about you" but it slides off dan like water off a duck's back

so nate decides to take dan on a vacation. take his mind off stuff.

dan thinks it'll be lowkey so he agrees.

it is............not lowkey.

they sail for a bit and dan hates it, hates the feeling of being at sea, doesn't feel comfortable on a rickety sailboat, etc etc, but dan loves seeing how at ease nate is - and that's enough for dan to put his anxiety away for a bit

(sorry, i just have a big headcanon of dan being terrified of like. sailboats or cruise ships or whatever. seeing all that ocean all around him and knowing he can't leave freaks him out imo.)

one week in nate realises that dan is essentially putting up a brave front & then there are a few airline tickets and a lot of backpacking

"didn't know i was honeymooning with serena," dan says, and nate smacks his arm and gives him a look

dan doesn't understand foreign currency and nate's terrifyingly good at conversion rates. nate's also better at picking up snippets of the local language, wherever they are, while dan just. blinks and opens his tourist guidebook and stumbles through the "do you speak english?" phrases every single time

(dan thinks it's hot. that nate knows all this. that nate is just Wired in a way that makes him so good at adapting/navigating all this.)

( nate thinks dan's adorable. when he scowls at the maps and loiters in souvenir shops and blinks dazedly when people talk to him in a language he doesn't understand, looking at nate wide-eyed in a silent plea for help. it cracks nate up, but it also makes him want to hold dan in his arms and kiss the top of his head. whoops.)

anyway! back to plot.

they hang out in cheap hotels or service apartments and dan begins to teach nate how to cook and they fly kites in meadows and go on treks and it's such an absorbing experience

they spend anywhere between 3- 9 days in one location before moving

every single day is so Full and Whole it feels like a whole week of events. but it's just one fulfilling day

then one day they're snowed in somewhere on the mountains

and both of them have... a really good time. and dan has this lightbulb moment of... oh. it's not Abroad that's bringing meaning to my life, it's not these activities or the change of pace or anything else. it's nate. it's being able to be with nate like this

nate, naturally, is having the same sort of revelation

dan wants to act on it but he's scared to blow what is the best friendship in his life at this time, and he knows natie is coming off a heartbreak w/ serena and he doesn't want to be a rebound

but nate is the one to initiate it, touching dan's chin with gentle fingers and going, "hey, we can ignore this and never talk about this again if you’d prefer that but i really want to kiss you"

so of course, they kiss

they kiss, and then they almost do the deed too but then they both stop, because dan's like "wait you're my best friend i can't risk you Not being my best friend tomorrow when it's over"

they talk about it in an emotionally mature way & talk about their exes + their expectations of being in a relationship & just "you're my best friend but it's become so much more than that lately"

they don't fuck but they go to bed holding each other, as boyfriends

when the summer ends, they both return to NY a lot more tanned, with a lot more souvenirs, and more genuine smiles

chuck gets pissy with nate about taking "humdrum humphrey on a honeymoon" and nate hits him in the face (im sorry, i love the chuck/nate/dan love triangle too much, i have no excuse)

nate moves in with dan, vanessa shows up to visit and check in on dan and they have a heart-to-heart (turns out after her internship in hiati, v popped over to california because ruby's band was on tour there, etc, and vanessa bumped into olivia of all people, and. apparently they're dating now and she wants dan to hear it from her, directly, and she hopes he's okay with that - with his ex gfs dating each other - and dan's like 'yeah as long as you're happy. speaking of finding your exes in a gay relationship, uh, me and nate....' & of course, v is extremely thrilled by this update)

blairena fucked in paris and will continue to fuck on return to NY but there's definitely a lot of angst because blair expects serena to dump her for one of the boys and serena thinks blair doesn't like her / is pushing her towards the boys because "what happens in paris stays in paris" but they're both definitely in love. and they miscommunicate BUT they work it out. classic fanfic stuff.

and. three days before college begins there's a knock on the door of the loft and when nate opens the door, he's greeted by a heavily pregnant georgina.

"what the fuck are you doing here?" / "i could ask you the same question. and don't cuss around the unborn baby, archibald." / "...."

dan, of course, walks in now, and he's like, "there's no such thing as an unborn baby, if you mean fetus, you should say that, because -"

and then he looks at who's at the door and he's like. "uh. georgie. long time no see, what?"

georgie grins like satan. "he's yours"

"yeah, nate is my boyfriend," dan says distractedly, and then blinks, stares at georgina, and at nate, and back at georgina again. "do you - do you mean, the kid?"

/end

#long post #prompt #jessica tag #date #i hope this makes sense #dan x nate #nate x dan #for the hell of it im gonna put this into the #my writing #& also into the #gg rewrite #tags

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commander-titania · 4 years ago

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I have notifications for u turned on bc i love ur content so much so when i see u start reblogging things again i go “SHE LIVES!!!” and i’m so happy you’re back!

sending u all the love 💕 i know depression’s hard but you can get through this!!!

Yeah uhh full disclosure about what’s going on with me rn;

Im losing my job today because the store I’m working at is closing and today’s the final day of it being open. I’m probably never going to find an employer who is as understanding and respectful of my mental health and needs as this place has been and I’m devastated to lose it.

And to top that off I’m actually kind of hesitant to start posting here again because of how volatile the tumblr gw2 community has gotten lately (again) and I’m not really itching to open myself up to that right now.

Uhhh sagely advice to top this ramble off is to never join a guild off of tumblr with people you’ve never interacted with. Shit can and will go south fast and it is so not worth your time and energy. This has happened to me twice now??? And I’m tired lol

#I’m turning 25 and I’m like.... grandpa mode #tags drag of cigarette #I’ve seen Braham whitewashed so many times #the things I’ve seen #the horrors......

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wickedpact · 5 years ago

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okay back to the regency au, i was thinking very vaguely about this and you saying the word “suitor” only brought the thought further into my mind- perhaps word gets... around of the mysterious charming young man who (very politely) turns down any woman who tries to get his attention. and perhaps there is.... a fellow who perhaps, catches word of this and he’s a little 👀 (i can’t decide if he’s a young hopeful gay or perhaps he’s a lil older, not like Old Old, obviously, but maybe he thinks he has a little experience and could help this 20 something man who clearly isn’t interested in women...) but i’m just. this man tries to... court nicolò (obviously a lot more privately than the women) and nicky just... has a full moment of Head Empty No Thoughts and maybe the man takes that as a sign of him being scared and tries to comfort him and nicky just. starts hysterically laughing when his brain turns back on- which he maybe feels a little bad about later. (“i just started laughing in his face joe!! no no. stop laughing joe this isn’t funny. it was so incredibly rude! i feel terrible. i can never face him again.”) and he does, again, politely turn this man down just like all of the women. but he does give the man some Sage Old Gay Advice. which maybe is a little startling to this guy. - 2ta

ASDGJK PLEAS I WAS THINKING SOMETHING SIMILAR!!! this one Nice Victorian Gay just Immediately pegging nicky as a Insecure Gay.

nicky. ‘gay since before this guy was born’ nicky. ‘gay before gay was a thing' nicky. ‘practically helped invent love' nicky. ‘in the longest relationship in human history (thats also gay) ' nicky. BUT HE CANT SAY ANY OF THAT so he’s just like. ‘i’ll.. pass. thank u. im honored.’ SDFGHJKL

AND JOE LAUGHING AT NICKY FOR LAUGHING AT THE GUY

joe: Oh No poor nicolo, breaking hearts wherever he goes

nicky: No!!

joe: he just cant help every man and woman in existence from falling in love with him!!

nicky, shaking joe’s shoulders: NOOO!!!!

& afterwards joe is still wheezing quietly and nicky’s like ‘thats it. i dont love Anyone except annabelle now'

andy: what about me

nicky: and also andy

booker:

nicky: and also booker

booker: (:

NO WAIT AND THEN WHEN ANDY AND NICKY ARE MAKING THEIR HASTY ESCAPE THEY PASS BY THE NICE VICTORIAN GAY and nicky stops, blood spattered, holding a lamb, following a feral woman in victorian finery with a sword, and he’s like... man i should explain my rudeness to this poor guy considering that our cover’s blown and i can now. so hes just . ‘sorry i’m in a relationship with monsieur al kaysani. i love him very much and our love has transcended many lifetimes. this lamb is our daughter now. know that despite the danger that may come for people like us expressing love it is always worth the price’ (in cryptid fashion)

and andy’s like NICOLO HURRY UP and nickys adds ‘and she’s not even my sister!’. and then he runs after her leaving the Nice Victorian Gay like

#2thoughts anon #the regency con au

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stitchlesswitch · 4 years ago

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Hey, im just beginning my journey , and im not sure where to begin lol, as ironic as it sounds. im doing this for many personal reasons and i believe this is the path for me. So the question, any tips on how to begin? Can you help point me in the right direction? thank you for your time <3

oh boy. well, as you can imagine, there’s no one right answer. There are very few wrong ways to start. There’s no universal practice of witchcraft. Some of what I list below will speak to you, and some of it won’t--go with what feels right. Don’t just ask me--I’m pretty green around the gills myself. Every witch will give you a different answer. It helps that this question has been asked and answered many times. It’s a pretty common question, so it shouldn’t be too difficult to find on witchblr either through popular witch blogs or in the tags.

It kinda depends on why you started. For example, if you started because you wanted to understand yourself better, then I would recommend you start with astrology--begin with understanding your sun, moon, and rising signs and work your way up to reading your birth chart. If you started because you want “answers” to the general mysteries of what’s going on and why, I’d recommend you start with tarot and divination. So on, and so forth.

Here are some general starters for you

Consider this to be an appetizer menu:

Terminology and Basic Tools of Witchcraft (including types of witchcraft and mythology)

Cleansing

Correspondences

Energy work

Shadow work

Sigils

Astrology

Divination (I’d recommend starting with Tarot and pendulum readings)

Crystals

Protection Magic

This should be more than enough to get you started. I ordered it from what I consider to be Most Important Basics to gradually more complex. Once you’ve got a firm grasp on protection magic, you can move on to other types and spells jars.

Important:

I have really great resources on each subject, but linking all of them is a Ton of work. Reblog with a couple of specific subjects--ones that either really speak to you or youre having a lot of trouble with--and I’ll reblog with the specific resources for those specific subjects. Sorry, I’m lazy.

So, here’s the thing about magic. Think about it like being an artist--whether it it’s a painter, a writer, a dancer, a singer--it doesn’t matter. You can be Technically perfect. Understand Everything. BUT, if you don’t have this certain kind of, soul, this certain kind of pizzaz, it Lacks something. Same goes for magic. You can have all the perfect ingredients, but it’s not enough. You need something we call “Intent.” And it sounds simple enough, to have meaning behind what you say and do. But it’s tricky to master. And it’s just not something that can be taught.

Also, here are some additional freebies;

some free tips that I had to learn the hard way.

a FUNNEL will be your Most Important Tool.

Spellwork is MESSY. Do it on top of a Fireproof tray to avoid ruining your tables. Have water nearby. Have all your ingredients out before you start.

it’s Magic not MagicK; the K came from some racist douchebag

Emoji spells; some witches use em, some don’t. It really doesn’t matter. But stay away from the douchebags who write extremely long posts as to how emoji spells aren’t “real” magic--they just like to feel superior, and they aren’t.

if you’re not Native American, you cannot smudge. Period. Full Stop. you’re just smoke cleansing, and that’s okay.

Here is the general consensus on the use of sage

Anyone can be a witch.

Witchcraft is not a religion. Wicca is a religion. Stay away from people who are like “magic comes from the vagina” -- trust me, they’re out there.

keep all personal information to yourself.

no one here knows my real name, nor what I look like. At best they can guess my gender, my ethnicity, my country, and my age range. I don’t even post my sun, moon, or rising signs, let alone my birth chart. Why? Because it makes it easy for other witches to curse you. Now you might be thinking, well I don’t intend to cause trouble or stir up drama, I don’t need to worry about that! Two different witches *tried* to curse me because I called out their racism. No one is immune from being able to curse, and no one is immune from being cursed.

Appropriation. Be cognizant of it.

I highly recommend you look into traditional forms of magic from *your* culture. Don’t assume that magic from other cultures is automatically open to you. Before you buy witchcraft books, research and make sure the author is not guilty of writing about cultural practices that do not belong to them. It’s a big problem

I am 98% certain that the following information was compiled by @thesigilwitch

Advice for Navigating the Witchcraft / Pagan Community (an ask)

Becoming a Witch (an ask)

Beginner Witchcraft

Beginner Witchcraft Resources Masterpost

Books and Resources (Paganism, Witchcraft and More)

For a Beginner (an ask)

FAQ

Frequently Asked Questions

Getting Started

Guide to Witching

How Do You Even Begin?

“I’m Interested in Witchcraft, Where Do I Start?”

Introduction to Magic

Limited Witchcraft Masterpost

Masterpost of Masterposts

Miss Mango’s Secular Witchcraft Tumblr Resource Masterpost

The Newbie Witch - What Others Often Don’t Tell You About Beginning the Practice

So…You Wanna Be a Witch?

St.’s Short and Sweet Guide to (Not Asking Her) How to Get Started in Witchcraft and Magic

Subtle Magical Practice

Theory and Practice (a masterpost)

Tips for Beginner Witches (an ask)

Tips for Beginners (an ask)

Tips for Extremely New Beginners (an ask)

Tips For Those Who Are Considering Witchcraft

Welcome to Witchcraft - A Post for Beginners

Witchcraft 101

Witchcraft Resources Galore

Witchling Tips

Witchtips’ Rebloggable “Frequently Asked Questions” - Part I

#asked #answered #baby witch #beginner witchcraft #witchcraft 101

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opaljm · 4 years ago

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Describe your relationship with your moots as bts (platonic) ships, (Eg: @mootsurl - the namjoon to my tae) and tell us why! Pass it along!

omg this seems fun okay!

jinkook - @namkive

Reni is older than me we don't have that five year age difference though 😌. We've literally known each other since like I wanna say 2006 and one time she wrote a bts fanfic of her own life and she made me Jungkook it's so funny. Actually the fic was sad but we're choosing to ignore that 💀💀 But also Reni always says that Seokjin is her role model and spirit person. They are very aligned tbh. We def bicker like Jinkook and @vivian146 calls us out on it all the time! 😔

jikook - @vivian146

my bestie!!! no seriously viv is my best friend not only on this forsaken app but also real life and it's been like over 6? years now? even though im older she's the jimin in this relationship because of her temper lol! 😗✌️you are me and i am youuu and like jimin reminds jungkook he was born in busan first i will always remind you i turned you into an army because i refused to shut up about bts 🤪🤪

yoonmin - @chateautae

sammy and i bicker like yoonmin but if you talk smack about either of us in front of the other we will end you. she is jimin in this and i am yoongi because she is a birthday fairy and the only one that didn't hate on my birthday unlike @hantaev lolol and yoongi and i are not only pisces but have very similar personalities just like she and jimin do. 🥰🥰🥰

vmin - @jamaisjoons

sol and i always are like !!! "one mind one chakra" and "twin flames" it's crazy how we're always on the same wavelength and our minds are always in sync. also i recently found out we're basically the same age cuz she has a fall birthday and i have a winter birthday. just like vmin lol 😂

taegi - @taegularities

rid is soooo cool! im basically tae fanboying over yoongi with the way i fangirl over her. rid is my wise sage that knows everything and is so talented and needs to be appreciated at all times and i will always do that job lol. 🥺🥰🥰

namseok - @jimidol

CATIEEEEEE my angelllll. I feel like Catie and I have the quiet time but super meaningful type of friendship that 94 line have with each other. it's not always gonna be the most vocal friendship but we will always show up for each other. and like i said she is an angel to me. 😇

2seok - @fitaelity

lololol safira and i are such headassses when we get together rippp 💀💀💀. our friendship can only truly be described as chaotic. safira is the seokjin in this scenario because she acts afraid of me at times lmaooo. as she should tbh 🙄😌🤪. also im literally hoseok turning down seokjin's requests to go out drinking by how often i tell safira i don't want to facetime. (i am a texter first and foremost). 🥴

minjoon vs. vmon - @hantaev

hadi likes to say we're minjoon because she sees me as namjoon and tbh i would see myself as namjoon in our relationship too. but depending on the day... and if hadi's chosing to be more... ahem... chaotic or not she's jimin versus taehyung. when hadi and i have our deep talks and she seeks advice from me or we talk about our ideas and plans she's def jimin... when she's doing something that has my eyebrows raising im in full namjoon judging mood and calling her dumb like how joon called tae dumb and ice skated away from him when he fell in the rink LMAOOOO 😩🤡🤠

namkook - @ladyartemesia

i am starstruck and enthralled by you like jungkook is with namjoon. you are such an inspiration and so talented i really admire you and alsoooo you're so smart and funny truly mr. kim namjoon esque 🥰😘

#ask game #mutuals #tagging game

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dessarious · 5 years ago

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Misconceptions, Miscommunication, and Misinformation Pt84

Sorry for the erratic updates. The heats been making it near impossible to think about anything besides ice cream and sleep. :) Stress at work isn’t helping either but hopefully things will calm down soon.

Inspired by @ozmav Maribat AU

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As they neared the front of the bakery Damian heard shouting. He shared a look with Luka as Drake continued ahead of them. He knew that voice. He’d been on the receiving end of it a couple times at this point. He had to wonder who was the current target of Sabine Cheng’s wrath. When Drake opened the door, Damian realized she was yelling in Mandrin but it was a dialect he wasn’t familiar with so he could only make out parts of it. The word ‘ungrateful’ made an appearance more than once.

Of all the things he’d expected, Sabine yelling at Marinette while Chloe was practically crawling into the wall to stay out of it wasn’t it. Normally she’d be going into protection mode. When he opened his mouth to interrupt Chloe shook her head violently at him. Marinette had her head down but he could still see part of her expression. She didn’t look scared or worried, more resigned. Chloe motioned them over to where she was, and Sabine didn’t even acknowledge their existence.

“What’s going on?” Drake’s soft question caused Chloe’s eye to twitch.

“Mari poked a sleeping bear and is reaping the rewards. Trust me, no one wants to get in the middle. It’ll just prolong the attack and possibly get you banned from the bakery for an indeterminate amount of time.” She kept her voice quiet and moved her mouth as little as possible. It was obvious she was trying to follow her own advice. Luka just nodded and leaned against the wall to observe. Drake still seemed torn so Damian decided to distract him.

“Why don’t you check over the chair while we wait?” Damian smirked at how quickly Drake jumped on the excuse to not help Marinette. The smirk disappeared when Sabine’s gaze came too close to him. The woman was terrifying and he still had no idea why. He noticed the four new Kwami standing on the other side of the room all looking at the woman in varying forms of awe. He had to wonder if it was because they could understand her or just the fact that she was yelling at the Guardian. Either way, the fact that none of them or Tikki were interfering was a bit telling.

“So do I want to know what triggered this so I can avoid a similar fate?” Chloe rolled her eyes at him.

“Trust me you do not know that woman well enough to cause that reaction. I honestly don’t know what Mari was thinking. I think her frustration at everything is finally surfacing.” Damian frowned as he considered that. Marinette had been extremely upbeat, which wasn’t unusual for her but he hadn’t really thought about the fact that he hadn’t seen her crack. At all. He just assumed she still didn’t feel comfortable being that vulnerable around him. He’d never considered she was keeping up a front in front of everyone still.

“Has she reacted at all?” Chloe let out a deep sigh and he saw what looked like guilt in her expression.

“Not in a way that matters. She’s too busy comforting all of us to have the breakdown she needs.” That certainly sounded like Marinette.

“Not everyone has a full scale breakdown you know.” Chloe just let out a sigh and began rubbing one of her temples.

“She hasn’t cried. She hasn’t gotten angry. She hasn’t talked about how this has affected her or made her feel. She’s been so busy trying to make sure the fallout from Hawkmoth is being taken care of, dealing with the Justice League, and keeping me calm she hasn’t been able to concentrate on herself at all. Add that to the fact that she’s been repressing her emotions for the last two years because the consequences if she didn’t were possibly world ending and it’s a solid bet that when the dam bursts, it’s going to be brutal.”

Damian could only give a non committal hum. Marinette didn’t seem like the type to just have a meltdown but Chloe had known her a lot longer. For all he knew she could have been an emotional wreck before Hawkmoth entered the scene. The way she’d allowed Lila to just destroy her civilian life said that she clearly valued others over herself and given the stories he’d heard about her from before that it had nothing to do with her being Ladybug. She would take care of everyone else and neglect herself and that could easily lead to what Chloe was worried about.

“It’s not just you that she’s keeping calm you know. The only one of us that she hasn’t been careful around to a rather extreme degree is Drake. She’s even been keeping Luka at arms length and that doesn’t normally happen. She feels that we’re all her responsibility so it’s not specifically your fault that she won’t let herself grieve.” Damian saw Luka wince out of the corner of his eye. They’d talked about this but apparently he wasn’t supposed to mention it to other people. Chloe looked like she’d been slapped.

“He’s not saying you’re any less important to Mari. Just that you’re not the only one adding to her stress. You’re the one that’s doing the most to ease her transition and the one she’ll eventually open up to. You’re her center.” Luka’s words didn’t really make sense to Damian, or rather he seemed to be talking on more than one level. Chloe’s tension eased dramatically though, so it was obvious she understood what he meant.

“It just feels like she’s locking more and more away. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to help.” Her voice was filled with frustration. Damian had a feeling that Marinette wasn’t the only one repressing feelings.

“Maybe if you’re honest with her she’ll be honest with you.” Drake and Luka both glared at him but Chloe was frowning to herself in thought.

“I don’t just want to become even more of a problem for her. She needs to feel safe to let go. She won’t do that if she’s worried about me.” Luka sighed and hesitated before responding.

“Damian has a point. She’ll feel safer if she knows that any outburst from her won’t be harder on you. You’re both protecting each other from yourselves but at the same time it’s causing you to lock each other out.”

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ask-october-fox · 5 years ago

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High October,

I've had a really tough... well... four or so years. I found you back in 2018 and having something fun to look forward to each October has helped me get through a lot of those personal hardships. I've been too shy to say hello before this, but if anything, I've had it reiterated so many times lately... that life really is too short... I couldn't let another year go by without saying something so... Thank you, October. Thank you for existing, for being such a pleasant voice in a world full of so much pain and hardship, and for sharing so much with us. Your kindness has never been mandatory, and every year you show up is a selfless blessing. Keep doing all that you do, and we will try our best to pay it forward.

If you have time to answer a question however...

You spend so much of your time and energy here talking us through our problems, celebrating our victories, and soothing us while we are down. Do you have someone you go to, to talk about your problems and stress without judgement? I hope you aren't bottling it up. Does your forest have any wise-sage therapists for spirit guides?

Oh my goodness, it seems this year is throwing a lot of surprises at me, for this is yet another thing I wasnt expecting! First off I would like to thank you so much for your kind words, I cant properly express my feelings, but please know that it really means so much to me. Secondly I would like to offer a small apology as I would have loved to answer this is a more “proper” format but alas...time is not on my side as of right now, and I really felt such a need to answer you before I left, so I hope that you can accept a written answer like this one. To answer your question ..No, I dont really have someone that I cant talk to in such a way, but thats not a problem! In my time of helping other spirits, I have had my fair share of advice and stories from them, so in a way I have just taken a lot of that advice to heart and shared it with all of you! Even Death has offered guidance to me! But I admit that I try not to bother him- he is busy after all! You neednt worry about me spirit, yes my role can be hard, and yes it has its own stresses, but...really its all of you that have come to help me! I was very alone for the first 300 years...very...very alone.. But in a way, helping all of you, has helped me in return! Im glad that I can share my stories with you, and you with me! I may only be here for this month alone, but you all have made me feel more alive than ever before! And for that, I thank you! I honestly dont know if I could have kept doing this without all of you here!

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lieberts · 4 years ago

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tagged by @jidai and @zenien and @dicennio to do these <3 not tagging anyone, but feel free to say i tagged you if you wanna do these

1. MUSIC TAG MEME Rules: Post your first twenty songs in a playlist on shuffle

can’t let you go by adam lambert oh god

the giant’s exit from the majora’s mask ost

sing for absolution by muse

all that we see by the black ryder

offering by black city lights

miss moneypenny by placebo

spusti svetlost na put by kralj čačka

dance of the knights by prokofiev

suspirium by thom yorke

the hills by the weeknd

i don’t like mondays by the boomtown rats

silence by azra

spirit of peace (part 3) by popol vuh

build that wall from the bastion ost

politik by coldplay

jenova from the ffvii ost

akira the wild from the devilman crybaby ost

jazzman by carole king

morning after by ariel pink & weyes blood

modern man by arcade fire

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2. Rules: MAKE A NEW POST, bold what applies to you and tag whoever you want to get to know better.

APPEARANCE I’m an I-need-to-pull-the-driver-seat-all-the-way-in kind of a person // i wear glasses or contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i wear makeup // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how I look // I prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backward

HOBBIES & TALENTS i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic (ehh??) // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand (kind of...... not for long tho)

RELATIONSHIPS i am in a relationship // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long-distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

AESTHETIC i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sunrise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colors // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

MISC i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least one dog // i have a cat ---------

3. THIS OR THAT TAG GAME (1)

4. THIS OR THAT TAG GAME (2)

indoor plants or gardens // cloud-watching or star-gazing // water or fire // paperback or hardcover // running or hiking // sleeping with socks or without socks // fruit or vegetables // hanging plants or succulents // dark wood or light wood // handwritten or typed // instagram or pinterest (both suck and are full of reposts but instagram is seriously bad) // braids or pigtails // books or movies // oceans or meadows // forests or fields // sweet or salty // ice cream or chocolate // hoodies or sweaters // long hair or short hair // piercings or tattoos // summer or winter // boots or sneakers // cars or motorcycles // curls or straight hair // castles or cottages // sunny days or storms // reptiles or birds // disney or nickelodeon // strawberries or watermelon // essays or posters // phones or laptops // glass or stone // dark or light // photos or paintings // circuses or theaters // reading or writing // dogs or cats // poetry or novels // monsters or ghosts // thrift shops or libraries // fiction or non-fiction

5. Post one picture from my camera roll (no new downloads) to sum up my personality!

6. 30 QUESTIONS TAG GAME RULES: Answer 30 questions and tag others

Name/Nickname: jeja, jeca, j, lena Gender: female Star Sign: aries Height: in a surprising turn of events im 167cm not 165 as i initially thought <3 Time: 10:30am Birthday: april 10 Favorite Bands: arcade fire, muse, placebo Favorite Solo Artists: hozier, chelsea wolfe, idk Song stuck in my head: vive la fete by noir desir Last Movie: interview with the vampire Last Show: i have no idea i havent finished a tv show in ages tbh When did I create this blog: i think january 2011? jesus What do I post: anime, art, video games Last thing googled: vive la fete by noir desir to see if i spelled it correctly Other blogs: wessobrunn but its inactive Do I get asks: i get bullied by sen a lot Why I chose my url: because i love the liebert twins from naoki urasawas monster<333 Following: 147 Followers: nah Average hours of sleep: like 7-8 hours? Instruments: none What am I wearing: beige sweatpants and a black hoodie fashion icon jelena Dream job: i dont dream of labor Dream trip: japan, asia in general, central europe Favorite food: too many im not a picky eater Nationality: montenegrin (derogatory) Favorite song: BRUH i dont have one fav song there are too many Last book read: mađarska rečenica by andrej nikolaidis Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: i think it says a lot about the kind of content i consume when i cant think of a single one that would actually be enjoyable to live in...........

#i have a whole folder with liam payne pics like that its very important to me #jtp

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libra-araelty · 6 years ago

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Hello!

My name is Neo. I am a neurodivergent young adult from the United States.

Neurodivergent, you say?

Yes! Neurodivergent means my brain does not function the same way that a typical human does. However that does not stop me from living a normal, everyday life just like everyone else!

I have Asperger’s Syndrome, Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD), Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder (MaDD), and Dyscalculia, all diagnosed. It is also highly suspected that i have Bipolar Disorder and Trichotillomania (TTM), suggested to me by people who have either condition.

Being subject to these conditions, I have quite a few struggles in my daily life. I have sensory issues, so things like uncomfortable clothes and strong scents can make it so I’m unable to function at full capacity. If these sensory issues are pushed further and further, I am at risk of going into a sensory overload or a meltdown. That only happens very rarely for me, though.

My attention span is very flaky, and I have a difficult time staying on one topic for long periods of time. I need constant changing stimuli for me to not burn out while on a task. This ironically contributes to hyperfixation, an intense focus on one particular thing for a period of time. I know, that seems like the opposite of what I said before, but they are linked. See, hyperfixation isn’t exactly something that can be forced. When hyperfocusing, I may not be able to take myself out of that particular focus, and it consumes all my thoughts for however long my brain decides to hyperfixate on it. This contributes to my flaky attention span because instead of being able to force myself to focus on something im supposed to be doing, instead the brain goes “no, you’re going to think about this one thing and we’re going to make it very hard for you to focus on anything BUT this one thing. Special Interests (SI’s) follow a similar, yet more intense pattern. SI’s last much longer, if not lifelong for me. Theyre more prominent and effective on my life than my hyperfixations.

This is where MaDD comes into play. MaDD is a condition that can be adopted and unlearned. The DSM doesn’t recognize it as an official disorder, but it is a condition that exists in many people, especially people with attention or anxiety related contitions. MaDD shares a lot of traits with cases of addiction too, however this one is much easier to take control of and is not exactly harmful. The first word, maladaptive, can be broken in half: Mal and Adaptive. Mal means bad or poor, and adaptive means the ability to adapt. Maladaptive Daydreaming basically means daydreaming that causes poor adaptation skills. MaDDers are typically those who have conditions like Autism, AD(H)D, OCD, General Anxiety, and Dyslexia. Most people adopt the technique of Maladaptive Daydreaming in their childhood or early teens and if not caught early on, can last their entire lives. However, MaDD isn’t essentially a harmful thing. Like I said, it’s easily controlled. You may be asking, “what exactly is it about MaDD that causes poor adaptation? its just daydreaming.” MaDDers daydream at an average of 6 hours minimum a day. These daydreams are intense and easily triggered by everyday things like music, art, friends, even normal emotional events. MaDDers tend to use these dreams as an escape from reality but also a reality of their own, like a lucid dream but for your waking self. The daydreams tend to have intricately woven worlds, stories, chracters, and plots, all feeling just as real to the dreamer as the rest of life itself. MaDDers tend to daydream to escape real situations they may not want to be a part of and sometimes even cancel plans just to continue to daydream.

Why are you telling me all of this? This all seems so personal and insignificant to me.

This is FAR from insignificant to anyone. You may not be Autistic or a MaDDer or even neurodivergent, but I know that as a human being you still have lots of struggles, just like me. Ive told you all about my struggles and you’re probably thinking “wow how pathetic, they cant control their own brain.” Yeah actually, I can. Even if you weren’t thinking that, (which I actually highly doubt anyone was thinking that I just wanted to put an example of worst case scenario) what if I told you that no matter what, no matter who you were or what you were going through, you can still grab hold of yourself and make your life yours? You better believe it, because despite all the conditions I just told you I have, I have taught myself to make my own path in life and not let my struggles decide what my fate is. I believe anything is possible with a little patience and elbow grease, so thats why I have made this blog. It is sorta a combination of a journal, an advice blog, and an inspirational quote blog. I want to be able to share my knowledge of my identity and experiences in order to hopefully inspire someone to get up out of the hole theyre stuck in and make their life their own again! I love the conditions I have, and I use their benefits as my superpowers and dont let the negative aspects of them hold me back. They are a part of me and who I am and I will treat them with just as much love and care as I should treat myself, and hopefully you can treat yourself with the same amount of love too <3

With love,

Neo

P.S.

Heres a couple more fun facts about me!

My biggest special interests are Homestuck, Dragons, and literally just identity in general and have been special to me for almost 5 years now

I love music and my favorite artists are Imagine Dragons, Fall Out Boy, OneRepublic, Vance Joy, hi i’m Case, Of Monsters and Men, and Watsky!

I love to draw and play D&D! I love the character creation and I’m currently working on my own campaign

My personality labels are Sun Libra, Moon Sagittarius, Rising Taurus, INTP-T, 5w4, 541, Ravenclaw, Thunderbird, Seer of Heart, Dersian, True Neutral, Blue-Green Paladin, Firebender, and Skywing Elf

If I were a D&D character I’d be a true neutral forest gnome sorcerer sage who wields a katana and raises dragons

My favorite movies are How To Train Your Dragon (1&2), It, Star Wars, and Pete’s Dragon (2016). My favorite shows are The Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance, The Dragon Prince, Camp Camp, Gravity Falls, Twelve Forever and The Mandalorian

I love making aesthetics and stimboards, my favorite colors are blue violet, cornflower, sapphire, teal, spring green, and bubblegum pink. I love pastel kawaii fashion because of these colors

I either want to become a cartoonist or a counselor as a career, or both and be able to use one to help the other

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