#it always comes down to that damn social anxiety doesn't it

[neverendingford]

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[wing-ed-thing]

Best Friend Headcanons with Izuku Midoriya

Tags: No Reader Pronouns, Classmate!Reader, Interpersonal Conflict

𓆃 Overall a solid friend who's gentle, considerate, and supportive of anything you could ever set your mind to, but your friendship will require a lot of work if it's reaching anything past surface level.

𓆃 Because, make no mistake, Izuku is a very good friend, but your relationship will either always be surface level or he'll become one of your very best friends for your lifetime.

𓆃 It's very easy to befriend Izuku in the first place. It takes less than one meaningful interaction to put you on his radar, and especially in group settings, time spent together doing activities is enough to naturally draw you close.

𓆃 Even if you weren't necessarily Izuku's friend in the first place, if Iida invites you both to his place for studying one week and Ochako invites everyone out to BBQ the next week, you're basically friends by proxy.

𓆃 Because Izuku doesn't care too much about the barrier between classmate/acquaintance and being friends. He'll most definitely care if you care, but that certainly doesn't stop him from awkwardly raving about your quirk or costume or other notable trait that's unique to you.

𓆃 Social anxiety be damned; he's curious!

𓆃 It also doesn't hurt that he's extremely easy to match energies with.

𓆃 And that's one of the most endearing parts of having Izuku as a friend, especially if you also have niche hobbies or special interests. Izuku is always eager to learn and spend meaningful social time.

𓆃 The hour doesn't matter; Izuku is always down to sit for any length of time in the common area at odd hours to chat or just share space.

𓆃 He's also surprisingly down for most anything short of criminal activity or rule breaking. Although, it does take some convincing.

𓆃 You and the rest of your friend group will want to grab fast food at an odd hour and it takes at least a half hour of warming Izuku up to the idea and talk him out of sticking too strictly to his sleep routine.

𓆃 The key is that you have to drop hints about it throughout the day to warm him up. You have the best record by far when it comes to convincing Izuku to take spontaneous trips or do spontaneous projects.

𓆃 (You convinced him to do a snack run in 5 minutes flat.)

𓆃 One fantastic thing about Izuku is that he never makes you feel like you're bothering him and always makes it abundantly clear that he wants to spend time with you no matter how mundane the activity is.

𓆃 He loves running errands to the point that somethings he'll run errands for you... and this is where you might run into some issues.

𓆃 For all of his overthinking, Izuku sure likes to assume. He likes to assume your needs; he likes to assume when conversations are over (even if you're bringing something serious up to him and you really need to talk it all the way through); and most egregiously, he often assumes your feelings.

𓆃 Izuku reads into everything, and there are times when the amount of reassurance he needs is excessive. And the worst of it is that he won't even ask if you're mad or annoyed or whatever negative emotion he's afraid of you having.

𓆃 He'll just be avoiding you for a few days and it's up to you to ask if anything is wrong with him.

𓆃 Or the times he comes to you, his way of asking can be presumptuous and sometimes even insulting.

𓆃 "I know you were outperformed by Komori in the last match-ups, and you're super angry— I mean, it's no wonder because, with her new support items, the matchup was super one-sided from the beginning, so I understand why you're feeling really useless and weak right now..." and he'll say all that without you having even said a word.

𓆃 This can inadvertently turn things that are occupying your brain space into issues with him. He'll express regret that he didn't help you more with your strategy— even if you didn't even ask him for help in the first place— and suddenly the conversation about feeling bummed about your loss has turned into comforting Izuku.

𓆃 And any kind of direct conversation leads to him trying to overcompensate. No matter how calm or peaceful you are in bringing up issues between the two of you, you can almost certainly count on him saying, "I'll never do it ever again," "I can't believe I've been such a bad friend," and "You don't deserve to have to deal with someone like me."

𓆃 While he's not trying to be manipulative, his words most definitely come off as such. And it comes from an inability to take things he's done wrong in stride.

𓆃 And this isn't to mention if you do something that bothers him. He'll ignore that and plan on taking it to his grave, not realizing that there's been an awkward resentment or tension building up that will inevitably burst.

𓆃 Although, make no mistake, Izuku isn't some passive guy who will take the hits as they come without a word. If he's not passive-aggressive in his anger toward you, he's not afraid to let everything he's been stewing in explode on you all at once, and those unfiltered thoughts can be nasty.

𓆃 For someone so well-spoken in most other parts of his life, Izuku doesn't know how to split the different between passive-aggressive avoidance and direct, emotional sputtering when it comes to his interpersonal conflict communication.

𓆃 The moment emotions get tied up in everything is the moment Izuku implodes.

𓆃 He'll never tell you that he felt left out of something or that something you've been saying has been rubbing him the wrong way, but he expects you to pick up on that without ever mentioning it to you.

𓆃 Depending on the level of issues you have with each other, you're going to have one serious conversation that makes or breaks your entire friendship. Because for how skittish and people-pleasing Midoriya is, he's surprisingly high maintenance.

𓆃 He expects, on some level, that everyone thinks like he does and is as thorough as he is. Izuku doesn't like having direct conversations about issues, so he doesn't until it's too late.

𓆃 And truly, isn't that how it goes when direct communication isn't within your wheelhouse?

𓆃 That's your main obstacle because it's truly bound to happen. But if you care about each other enough and choose to listen with open hearts and minds, you'll have made a friend for life.

Thank you to all who liked, reblogged, followed, and supported. Your support means so much and is greatly appreciated.

[strawb3rry-acid]

Being König's S/O

Just my own personal takes here ♡

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◐ König definitely has a tough shell to crack. He's most likely a fairly isolated man, and has some pretty damn high walls due to his past with being bullied as a child. A relationship with him would require some form of deep rooted friendship at first, and a lot of patience. I wouldn't say he's rude too people not close to him, I think he's pretty cordial and fair, but he can unintentionally come off as standoffish due to his quietness, intimidating appearance, etc.

◐ It'd probably take him quite awhile too confess, and you might have too take the reins with that one. He wants to make sure he's absolutely certain of his feeling's beforehand. He's also terrified of you rejecting him, and possibly laughing at him though he logically knows that wouldn't happen. If he were to confess, it'd either be a thoroughly planned confession he's worked on for quite some time with carefully planned word's, or a mutter underneath his breath when he thought you were out of earshot.

◐ Even if you've dropped several hints before getting in a relationship with him, he'd be shocked if you confess. Probably gets fairly embarrassed, and locks up for a second. Of course he's not embarrassed because of you, he's just easily embarrassed in general. You'd get a hushed confession in return once it sinks in after a few moments of very awkward silence.

◐ Lot's of longing, affectionate stares. He most likely doesn't even realize he's doing it most of the time, and will beat himself up internally for coming off as a creep unless you've already been in a relationship for awhile. He just can't seem to take his eye's off of you, as you're the most precious thing in the world to him.

◐ He's a very attentive, good listener, and remember's even the most minor of details about you as well as the thing's you ramble about. Even the thing's that seem meaningless too you, mean the most to him.

◐ Likely struggles with communication, and properly expressing his feeling's because he feels embarrassed about them at times, specifically his social anxiety (which is a key factor in his difficulties communicating.) I think he's more likely to isolate himself for a bit (not for an absurd amount of time) to clear his head, then pretend everything is fine. He will talk about it if pushed in the right direction though, it just may take some time.

◐ He strikes me as someone who struggles to admit that they're wrong. He tends to be (lovingly) a stubborn ass at times.

◐ Some thing's are limited, or completely off limits due to his social anxiety. Give him a push, but not a shove that heavily crosses out of his comfort zone. Definitely prefers dates where it's just the two of you in your home, instead of venturing out. He'll do it if you truly want too, he'll make accommodations to your needs too of course, but it's not something he'd like to do often.

◐ Speaking of his social anxiety, there's time's where it'll get bad enough too the point where he'll need quite a bit of alone time to calm down, and will not be social with anyone as it'll only make it worse. This unfortunately includes you as well. I don't think his social anxiety would go away around the people he's close to, especially since it's mentioned as being severe(I speak as someone with severe social anxiety.) It won't chain him down like it does around stranger's, but it's still there, and will act up at times. Don't worry though, he'll come back after he's had time to calm down. He'll always come back to you after all.

◐ Not a big fan of PDA. Once again, nothing against you, it's just that he doesn't like to draw attention too himself. Simple displays of affection are fine in public most day's, but it's limited. An exception to this is when you're being harassed, then he doesn't mind PDA in the slightest as his protective instincts kick in. Despite this, he's all over you in private.

◐ You're likely the only other person that helps him cope with his social anxiety, which is something he's deeply grateful for.

◐ Prefers too express thing's through physical affection, act's of service, and quality time. He's never had many people in his life, and deeply cherishes not only you, but the time you two spend together like he'll never get it again.

◐ Congrats, you now have a designated driver, bag holder, lifter, and human ladder! He prefers to do most thing's, and take care of you. He's also a big show off when it comes to his strength, and will absolutely jump at any opportunity too help you when it comes to grabbing thing's high up, and carrying heavy thing's. That top shelf at the grocery store will no longer be a problem, yay! However, it's a bit of a double edged sword because he will purposely put thing's high up so you'll ask him for help.

◐ He's loyal too a fault, and is a very helpful, protective affectionate lover. He may have issue's putting his feeling's in word's most of the time, but you'll damn sure know that he loves you. This man will do absolutely anything for you, and he proves that any chance he gets. He may be distant, and intimidating at first glance, but once you take the time to dig deeper he's a very loving man who absolutely adores you. Once you've got him, you've got him. He's very appreciative that you've put in the time and effort too get to know him, accept him, and see who he is without even the slightest hint of judgement.

[2-dsimp]

I know Fredrico is pretty tall, but I can't help but imagine him with a short darling (like 5'2" or shorter) who is surprisingly strong as he clings to them constantly to the point where his y/n is always carrying him around on their back.

Like, since he is use to being alone i can imagine his social battery gets drained easily, so his darling notices when he needs to go home and will just, nudge him to wrap his arms around them and wrap up what it is they are doing and talke Fredrico home.

It would be funny if Fredrico just hangs upside down around his darling when they carry him,so like when they need to go shopping and has to drag Fredrico with them since he doesn't like y/n going out people will just see a guy hanging upside down as he's being carried by his partner who is a foot shorter than him as he glares and hisses at anyone who tries to get too close.

To sum it up, I feel like Fredrico would like to be carried by his darling/will only go out if his darling carries him around.

『Featuring your Yandere Devilbat who’s got separation anxiety』

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Frederico: “mate w-where are you going? Y-your not l-leaving me, right? I-is there somebody else you’re seeing besides me?!“

You couldn’t get 5 seconds of peace until you feel the Devilbat hovering over you like a damn drone. Monitoring every tiny thing that you were doing which was getting ready to go to the store to get some more groceries. As he little soft chuffs of distress escaped from his fanged lips from seeing you try and pocket your wallet.

Y/n: “No, Rico for the last bajillion time I told you I was going to the store and that if you wanted to come get ready at 12pm. You’re not ready so I take it that you don’t wanna go—“

Fredrico: ”I-I’ll go…but I really really hate it whenever you leave our c-cave. I don’t want anyone to l-look at you, or t-touch you, or speak to you. You’re my mate not theirs. Maybe it’d be best to find a way to keep you here with me permanently .”

Your Devilbat whispered the last sentence in utter contemplation as the whites in his eyes flickered to a bright fushia before it returned to normal. As he curled himself in on your short frame acting like a dreary wet blanket with a pathetic expression on his face.

Fredrico absolutely despised going outside especially with the looks the both of you would get. Namely, you, for even being with such a tall abnormal devilbat which made his heckles rise. Whilst he actively snapped his jaws and hissed at anyone who looked/got too close for comfort (7ft distance) to his mate.

Overall whether you carried him or not he’d still go out of an obligation to make sure his darling isn’t going no where. But before that Fredrico will mark you up and scent you indefinitely making sure that you’re coated in his musky scent. And of course he’ll always cling onto you, sinking his greedy claws anywhere on your body. Just sticking to you like glue from the getgo from behind, the side, the front, diagonally, etc.

[mod-kyoko]

hello :) i loved your latest byakuya hc post so much 😭 it seems so accurate ykwim

so... could i req byakuya nagito and kokichi w an s/o who's quite closed off about everything (trust issues yk) and has social anxiety? thanks <3

accuracy is something really important to me when i'm writing so if you think it was accurate then i'm so glad

and i'm so excited for a nagito request i haven't gotten one in a while

byakuya, nagito, kokichi with a socially anxious s/o

byakuya is not the type to nag you to tell him what's going on

he's such a "sit in comfortable silence" type of guy

because of your social anxiety, combined with his general aversion to people, the two of you don't go out often

he is perfectly content with you entertaining each other in your own home

but some times you can't avoid going out. errands and all that jazz

and usually he would go by himself and let you stay home, but this time he really needed your help with what he was doing

he knows how being around lots of people affects you, and while he can't relate, he can sort of imagine how it feels. you're afraid of people, he is annoyed by them. so you both kind of have something in common: you love avoiding social situations

anyway, when you're in public he always makes sure to stand near you and never lets the two of you get separated

if you were to end up separated, he would internally panic

one of the only times he ever experiences genuine anxiety: when you are left alone in a stressful environment

it took a long time to get you to open up to him. not that he was trying, he preferred to let it happen naturally so it was genuine.

and he is so glad you did because now he knows what kind of situations to avoid, and he is perfectly content with being a social hermit

nagito likes(?) being around certain people generally, but he also doesn't mind being alone, so wherever you go, he goes, and if you want to be a hermit, he wants to be a hermit

it was actually really easy for you to open up to him purely because he is so self-deprecating that there was no way he would judge you for anything

from time to time he will encourage you to go out and face your fear because yknow, it's the hopeful thing to do. then he'll apologize because you probably don't want advice from a lowlife like him (his words not mine)

anyway, when you two go out he's never afraid to hold your hand or bring you close to him

(i think nagito is so old fashioned in the way that he feels modern flirting and stuff can be too offensive or disrespectful so he likes to court ppl he is attracted to. we need to bring back courting pls)

so in public he generally has his hand on the small of your back, or intertwined in yours, wherever you want it to be

he's so damn intuitive. if he ever notices you are uncomfortable in a certain environment (and he will always notice), he will find a way to get out of there

kokichi is a very free spirit, you can't tie him down

he's always ready to go out and do things

being around people is his thing, he's hella extroverted

so he's always begging you to do things with him, and he just can't grasp how you are so anxious around people

he asked you why because he was genuinely trying to understand, and at first you wouldn't really talk about it, so he gave up

it might seem like he's annoyed about it sometimes, but he's just adjusting to being with someone who lives a lifestyle so different to his

eventually he will come around. and, like nagito, he will encourage you to go out and fight off that social anxiety

he often invites friends over so you can socialize in a comfortable environment and get used to the presence of others

when you two go out and you worry you're being stared at, he'll purposely do silly things to embarrass himself and take the attention off you. he's such a goof

and if he notices you're getting uncomfortable, he will get you out of there, find someplace quiet, and make sure you're okay. he'll also give you a ton of kisses!

and if for some reason any person is ever bothering you more than usual, he'll weird them out by barking or some shit so they'll go away (he would literally do this don't tell me he wouldn't)

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bro damn byakuya's got my heart rn

i used to write kokichi well but it's been forever since i played the game so now i barely remember what he's like. looks like i got homework to do augh

-mod kyoko

[yoyokslut]

Dress.

Mason Mount x singer reader

Word count: 4461 words.

Summarize: He must like you for you.

A/n: ummm I got carried away again. Hope you like it @ithinkimokeei 🫶🏻

Your friend was throwing a party at her house tonight, she wanted to cheer you up and thought a gathering was a good idea.

"But I don't wanna go," you said pouting through the phone although she couldn't see you.

"You're gonna have a nice time I promise, girl. It's time you start socializing again with the world," she joked.

It was almost a year since everyone seemed to turned against you, everyone called you a liar about a stupid rumour and even though you defended yourself on all platforms and gave your version of the story, no one believed it... Except for your true friends and family.

"I don't know, I don't think I'm ready, Sophie," you said doubtful.

"Pretty please, do it for me, I'll be by your side... Like always," you smiled, it was true, she was a real friend.

"Fine, you win, just because I love you,"

"I'll be waiting for you, now go get ready," she said hanging up.

-

You opted for a black short sleeved dress with a pair of heels, did your makeup as quickly as you could and head up to your friends'.

«Only bought this dress so you could take it off» just got to your head, sometimes random lyrics would pop up and you would either record/write them in your phone or paper.

You pulled up at Sophie's and texted her since you saw a lot of people at her house, and your social anxiety was creeping in.

you: hey, I'm outside your house:)

Sophie: was expecting this message, coming for ya:)

you: okay, thank you<3

"Hey, sweetie, you wanna come in by the backyard door, don't you?" she said hugging you. This was an old habit you had, every time you texted her when you got there, she knew it meant your social anxiety was there, and needed a couple of minutes to calm down and try to interact with people.

After entering the house, you hid yourself in the kitchen trying to mentalize yourself before chatting. A few time passed and you started walking around talking to people you knew, about their lives and what they've been up to, until you saw him.

Tall, brunette, brown eyed guy with a buzz cut, he was wearing a black hoodie, jeans and white nike sneakers.

Flashback when you met me

Your buzz cut

«Damn, he's so ho- shit he's looking at me too» he catched you eyeing him and smiled at you while you blushed and broke eye contact.

"His name is Mason Mount," you turned around looking at Sophie with forrowed brows as if asking how do you know?

"Chelsea footballer and one of my boyfriend's friends,"

"Oh" you said looking at him again.

"I can introduce you to him if you want-"

"No!" you said cutting her off.

"Why not? He looks nice," she said shrugging.

"What if he doesn't wanna talk to me? I bet he's aware about my reputation," you said looking away from him "I don't think he wants to be involved with someone like me,"

"But, what if he wants to know you by you and not what the media says? You're a great person, remember what we learned with all of this? Fuck social media and haters, you are amazing, sweetie," you smiled and hugged her.

"You're always so nice to me, always there for me thank you for not leaving me. It makes me think you like me," you joked.

"Well, I don't have other friends so," she raised her brows and you laughed "Let me know if you change your mind about him," you nodded and head outside.

Standing there arms crossed just admiring at the sky, the stars and the moon.

"Hey," you heard an unfamiliar voice.

You turned around and there he was, standing next to you with a beautiful smile on his face.

"Hey," you said smiling back.

"Too much people for your liking?"

"Definitely, but I'll get used to it again, I hope,"

"Well to be fair, I feel like there's too much people in there too," he nodded.

"You seem like that kind of person who likes to be in crowded rooms tho," you smiled.

"Yeah I do but sometimes it gets a little too much,"

"I agree,"

"I like your hair, this colour suits you," he said tugging it behind your ear.

And my hair bleached

"Thank you, although I don't think I'd bleach it again. I like yours, it suits you as well," you wanted to touch it, but hesitated whether he would be okay or not, he grabbed your hand and rubbed it softly against his hair.

"Thank you, although I don't think I'd do buzz cut again," he said quoting you and you both chuckled "Listen um, I saw you a couple of minutes ago and I think you're pretty and I was wondering if it's okay with you, would you like to go on a date with me?" he rubbed the back of his head nervously.

"You really wanna go on a date with me?" you asked frowning.

"Yes, why not?" he frowned this time.

"Have you not be reading what's on internet? I don't think so, because otherwise you wouldn't even be talking to me," you said lowering your head.

"Yes I have read some stuff, but I don't wanna know you throughout them, I wanna like you for you. You probably already have friends and family by your side, if you allow me, I can be one too, I don't think you ever did something wrong or bad, they just twisted everything and make you see like the bad one. I think you're nice and a good person and if you let me, I know I'll find it out by myself,"

Even in my worst times

You could see the best of me

"I really appreciate everything you said, thank you for not believing in that, I think you really earned that date," you winked.

"You won't regret it, I promise, would you give me your number?"

"Sure," you said pulling out your phone.

"Oh and I'm Mason by the way," he introduced himself formally.

"I'm Y/n,"

"Y/n, it's pretty, like you," he winked.

Say my name and everything just stops

[blueclownsworld]

Hello :)

Do you write platonic?

If you do could you please write a father Aizawa in which he and his daughter fighted over some stupid thing and she ended up admiting something she thought she would never tell him? And then how he reacts over it?

(Maybe that she is of the lgtb+ or that she is dating someone she shouldnt because is older or something else)

Thanks :)

author's note: hiii !! yes, i do write platonic. more on my other account, but here as well ! ( aaaa also I loved writing this, hopefully you like it tooo )

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"I am going to go to the mall", you state and stare at your father with unwavering determination. "You can't control my social life."

Aizawa sighs deeply and rubs the space between his eyebrows before answering sternly "I am not controlling your social life, I am simply telling you that you're cleaning your room first. And if I may remind you, this task of yours was supposed to be done three days ago."

You roll your eyes at him, crossing your arms. Aizawa could be so stubborn when he wanted to be, and you were no different.

"Look, it. doesn't. matter", you spell out to him, only annoying him further with your attitude. "The room isn't going to rotten during the couple of hours I spend at the mall."

"Yes, but this is a rule we established ages ago. Your duties come first, then friends", your father reminds and gives you a stern look with his tired eyes.

"Duties, duties and duties. It's all you talk about these days", you mutter and continue "What happened to 'Hey, how was your day?' 'Is there anything you'd like to talk about?' or 'Would you like to spend time with me?' ? Now it's just 'Did you clean your room like you promised to?' 'Your grades have dropped, pay more attention' and 'Do your damn duties, kid'."

Aizawa's eyebrows furrow at your words and he pauses to think. It was true that lately there had been this strange distance between the two of you, caused by multiple different factors coming together into a mess.

"You're focused on the wrong things, this is why I never told you about my girlfriend!" you finally yell the words that had been fighting to get out for a long time already.

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For a long minute both of you just stare at each other with widened eyes, it was hard to determine which one of you were more shocked by your words.

Eventually your father clears his throat and decides to break the silence "..You have a girlfriend?" His tone was no longer harsh or annoyed, just purely curious.

You contemplate your answer for a moment before nodding "Yes, I have. I was planning to go to the mall with her."

"Why didn't you tell me? Was I truly that distanced from you?" he questioned, still not accusing or blaming you for anything. Only a hint of hurt was visible in his voice as he started to realise the true depth of the distance between you two.

"I.. I wasn't sure how you would react", you explain and fidget with your sleeve due to slight anxiety. He seemed very understanding at the moment, yet you couldn't help but to feel worried. "And it's just- you're far away."

'Far away.'

Those words truly crushed his heart. Being a parent was never easy, especially when the child grew older and started taking distance to their parent. It was hard to determine how long distance was natural and how long wasn't, yet now it hit him. You two were too far away.

"I'm so sorry", Aizawa whispers softly and takes your hands in his, meeting your eyes with gentle and loving ones. "I never meant to make you feel this way nor take distance. Know that I'll always do my best to support you, and you liking girls won't change that either."

You squeeze his hands tightly and try to hold back the invetable tears before he pulls you close and and allows you to cry on his shoulder while he caresses your hair to help you calm down again.

~

There were no words fitting for the moment, nor were they needed. You stayed in his arms for a long while before you two had an actual conversation, were you truly listened to each other and promised to work on the emotional distance. After that conversation you weren't hesistant to tell him things anymore, and you were reassured of his care for you.

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[estel-eruantien]

“Please kiss me.” + Shattered Grid; Ziggy/Dillon (because this just feels right)~

Ziggy didn’t think he was capable of being quiet, let alone completely silent. He tried, he really did – but Dillon squeezing his thighs while sucking his cock made it pretty damn impossible. He was whimpering and he knew he was – he tried to be quieter, even with Dillon’s warning hum against his skin. 

He and Dillon had been out with the others, trying to socialize while everyone got their upgrades from Doctor K, and suddenly he was here, in a dark room, pants pulled down, with Dillon everywhere. Normally he was the touchy-feely one of the two, but not this time.

With an obscene pop, Dillon slid off of Ziggy’s cock and rose up the thin body, throwing the green and black leather jacket to the side before Ziggy could protest. One hand was under the boy’s ass, lifting him up and forcing him to wrap his bare legs around the larger man. The other came up his green shirt, teasing his chest and pinching his nipples. 

At that, Ziggy did moan aloud, quickly being shushed by Dillon, who removed his hand from underneath the green’s shirt. “Do you want every ranger in this universe to hear you?” He hissed, then bit Ziggy’s neck, sucking hard on the same spot. This earned him more whines, muffled from behind his hand. He might have to shut Ziggy up more often, he thought, his dick hard at the strained sounds. 

Releasing the squirrelly ranger’s mouth, Dillon quickly cut off any comments as he demanded, “Bite down on my jacket. Now.” His tone left no room for discussion. Ziggy did as he was told, awkwardly taking the shoulder of Dillon’s jacket into his mouth, head laying into the bigger man. Dillon used this as a chance to shift the boy’s weight so that one arm now secured him in place as the one at his ass began to ease him open. 

As predicted, Ziggy squealed into the leather. Dillon squeezed him, whispering, “Shut up, even Drakkon will hear you.” He kept going, stretching him further before slipping out to slide out of his own pants. 

The anticipation was killing Ziggy, clutching tightly to Dillon’s broad shoulders. Somehow he was still whimpering, even with leather between his teeth, face buried in hot black ranger. He could feel the rustle of fabric against his thighs and Dillon’s warmth entered him achingly slow. He groaned. He couldn’t help it. He thought Dillon did too, but he couldn’t be sure of anything at the moment.  All he could focus on was feeling Dillon everywhere, all over him. 

The pressure built for both of them as they moved together. Ziggy released the jacket to kiss and bite along Dillon’s neck, just as he liked to do to the green ranger. With the treatment he received when they first got in here, Ziggy knew he wasn’t going to last long. 

“D-Dil–”

“Come for me, Zig.” Dillon ordered, pushing himself deeper. He leaned his forehead against Ziggy’s, taking in his little gasps and moans. 

“Please kiss me.” Ziggy begged, eyes wide and desperate. How could Dillon say no? 

Their lips met as passionately as the rest of their bodies had been that night, greedy and needy, but full of love and promise. It didn’t matter how bad things got in this war. Yes, they were scared, but they were together. They would fight alongside each other and protect each other just as they always did. 

And once they finished, cleaned up, and collected themselves, they would go back out and mingle with the other rangers. Ziggy wanted to, and Dillon, well, Dillon couldn’t say no to Ziggy.

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Okay, listen, I can explain - I started to write something completely different and it felt much more complicated, so I may have to write a larger thing for thissss buuuuuuuuuuut I was thinking this could be when all the rangers are socializing and stuff when Doctor K gets teleported to the main dimension? And Dillon is having anxiety about being surrounded by a bunch of rangers and people he doesn't know and just wants to feel Ziggy.

I literally just reread that whole part in Shattered Grid so I could find a good point for this! But I also need to branch out and have some fun with the Coinless 'verse other than just what we see in the storyline, so I may try something else out soon :)

[reilleclan-blog]

The unfortunate truth is the most creative ppl are the ppl sitting on these social media apps sharing a piece of themselves to the world. But they'll never get the "engagement" they deserve and the unfortunate truth is we may never see any "fruits of our labor". U can be the most talented person but if u don't get lucky with likes or maybe know ppl that can help with engagement it may feel like nobody cares. Or is that just me.

I don't mind sharing myself I got no one to really share with but damn I go from having engagement to none just like that. All I want to do is share maybe the apps don't like I post so frequently but I just don't care. I want to share that's what social media shit used to be about.

It just sometimes gets me down in the dumps when I think "wow I put my whole pussy lip in this shot" and then 7 ppl like it on tiktok or zero on other apps lol. Yes im still a creative and no likes and reblogs "shouldn't matter" but it doesn't change the fact that some of this "likes and reblogs" is sometimes the only thing ppl have. When the real world tears me down im on here. Either trying to find community or solace with ppl that have the same interests but I can't even do that. (And no I'm not saying I'm the bell of the ball when it comes to photography but I just am proud of myself at times but when I'm proud of a shot or video it goes no where. Not surprising it starts feeling a bit defeating)

Also having "clout" and likes is literally flat out luck and I'm just wondering when will I be as lucky is all. I could make this longer about how genuine creatives constantly think of suicide b/c ppl don't care for their art/never given a chance to make something like with a budget. But uhhh idk

Another thing, whyyyyy is it when the most creative person in the world will still be so insecure of their work. It's just a bit funny to me. I see mostly that in women since I am a woman im also talking a bit about myself. I'll take a shot I think "damn I never took something like that" but when I look thru my camera roll I'm like "nobody's gonna care, it's ass" why do i do that to myself :/ anxieties insecurities always in my brain even when i know im growing creatively as a person. I still pull myself down. It's frustrating

[thinkingofausername]

Simon "Ghost" Riley - An Analysis

(aka hcs I've come across and loved as well as some of my own)

Author's note: This is just a self-indulgent speculation I wanted to get out of my system since I've been downright obsessed with this man and I really wanna make content about him. I've been trying to gather hcs that make most sense and are believable but we obviously may still disagree. Keep the pitchforks at bay :)

TW: domestic abuse, torture, SA, drinking, murder, drugs, mental health/illness, being buried alive, PTSD

Stretch marks. There's no way he wouldn't have them. Imagine kissing them 😥

He either looks like his mother and it hurts or he looks like his father and he hates it.

Touch starved and touch aversed at the same time. He craves gentleness, but he's never had it.

He would never be aggressive or abusive, in a relationship or in bed. The man had a traumatic childhood full of abuse and his new home would be peaceful and safe. Not to shame anyone but there's no way he would bring aggression or bondage or pain to sex after he's been tortured and raped

He wouldn't get drunk to the point of losing control or passing out. On a similar note I imagine being delirious from illness or blood loss would be terrifying for him. The vulnerability would mentally bring him back to a time when he was defenseless.

I love him with my whole heart and I know deep down he would be a protective and loyal and gentle lover but there would be hardships. He's hardly been loved or even perceived as a person and he would definitely struggle and run away and find himself lost.

Paranoia and overprotective tendencies bordering on control. I'm sorry but he literally had his whole family murdered - he will be on edge. He's also a lieutenant so being in control is the norm for him.

Hardcore anti-drug advocate. No one dear to him is going anywhere near drugs again.

Great listener and he remembers every damn detail. Very perceptive.

Silent gifts and favors as a way of apologizing. Mans would avoid talking about feelings for as long as he could.

Ghost and Simon are two different people. He has to separate work from home.

Quick cold shower guy. Terrible at self-care.

Probably pretty blemished skin. Not a shocker after wearing the same dirty cloth over your face for literal years.

God it would be divine pampering him. Massaging, washing, TLC all over the place. He literally wouldn't know what to do with himself. Stiff as a rock at first but he would be a puddle of bewilderment and worship and gratitude and pure love by the end.

I expect him to like bitter things and be bad at cooking since he's all rough and tough and he's only needed survival and the bare minimum for a long time but it's nice to imagine him unexpectedly having a sweet tooth or baking.

He'd spend a lot of his leave in the gym I wager. He probably can't be still and in silence for long before his thoughts start haunting him.

Definitely experiences sensory overload.

Social anxiety? I imagine he doesn't like crowds or attention thrown at him.

Claustrophobic. There's no way he's not after being buried alive.

Major trust issues. It would take a damn long while for anyone to get close to him.

I'd literally die to hear him laugh but I'm not sure what would it take to get him to do that. A huffing sound could be understood as a hidden snort and amusement but that's as far as it goes for a while.

He isolates a lot but I think it would do him good to have company and not sink into intrusive thoughts.

Obsessed with tasks and being busy.

On the field he's purposefully terrifying and brutal and feared but he'd never want to be feared by his partner. He'd want them to feel safe with him.

Price called him "son" once and he absolutely wanted to cry.

He'd have a hard time getting used to someone waiting for him at home. He always saw himself dying on the field.

His father scared him with animals but I really want to imagine him liking animals regardless. A dog would be loyal and silent and simple company.

He'd definitely prefer a partner who can defend themself or he'd teach them if they can't.

Crooked nose. He had to have been punched a lot in his life.

Chronic pain. His body's been through hell and he's covered in scars. Cold weather probably makes it worse.

Nightmares, obviously, we all agree on that. It just shows that he still cares and carries a lot of unresolved hurt and grief with him.

Vengeful as hell. Violence is the answer and it's in bold letters.

It's cute imagining him with kids but I think he'd have no idea what to do since he's never witnessed a normal and healthy child environment.

The biggest dilemma I've got is whether love would save or destroy him. He's been through a life of solitude and pain and it's amazing how many of us want to write him a happy end but the walls around him are sturdy and once they're broken and he basks in sunlight the person who's set him free could be taken from him like all others and then there would really be no way back.

[mahalshairyballs]

Some Jake stuff coming from my interpretation of him.

I might have mentioned these things before but I don't think I made any posts meta about them.

It will be separated into two main points : Emotions and Physical Touch

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Emotiooons

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Jake has *a lot* of emotions. But he has learned to hide them. Not by being stoic, he was far from it, but by looking to the outside world like he was well balanced he was also far from that.

To people interacting with him he was social, nice, even polite, warm, flirty, charming, he joked around, smiled more than Marc did (Marc your dark humor needs to come back!). He was just a joy to be around. No need to wonder what Frenchie saw in him.

With Layla it was a bit different since she lived with them. She saw him a bit more grumpy, snappy and contrarian (mostly when Jake fronted right after talking to Marc...). But she still had no idea how he really felt and what Steven and Marc had to deal with.

Inside Jake was boiling with emotions, sometimes totally opposite to what he was showing. He had been training himself a lot to do that, to 'pretend', to show whatever feelings he wanted to show, he'd perfected it.

Jake had to do something like that since almost day one, at least since Marc left their home. Because of what Jake's been through, every time he took control of the body - whether consciously or not, whether it was warranted or not - he was in a heightened state of alert. In a constant fight or flight mode - so in other words panic.

It took him a lot of time and a lot of work, but he managed to not always feel like that every time he fronted - especially when there were no imminent threats he had to deal with. This resulted in him having great control on his stress level, and how he showed his emotions (but didn't change how he really felt). Just existing didn't make him feel high anxiety anymore, but there were some things that could bring that anxiety back (see the 2nd main subject of this post below).

Which in turn made him the best at manipulating being social out of the three. It also made him an excellent liar. So much so that Matt (Daredevil) had the hardest time reading him. His heartbeat barely even changed - changed so minutely - when he lied that even Matt had a hard time noticing it (while Steven's heartbeat accelerated even when he was telling the truth ahah anxiety...)

Even when he killed, he didn't show any intense emotions. I used the word 'going bersek' as a shorthand one time before, but that's not accurate at all. Jake doesn't do that. He might feel anger or hate or whatever else, but he'll just show ruthless, surgical efficiency while doing the kill. And he could talk about the weather with you just after having killed someone.

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In their innerspace it's waaay more difficult for Jake to hide or show something else to what he's really feeling. Their innerspace is like where their 'soul' coexist, so they're all pretty much open books there.

So when Steven once said to someone that Jake was 'very emotional, petty, immature, easy to anger, a lot to deal with'

Layla & Jean-Paul : He is ???

This was not their experience with him at all.

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Jake and Marc were both quick to anger in their innerspace and quick to blame the other for anything. When they interacted tension could rise pretty damn fast. So Marc and Jake fought a lot in their innerspace. Jake and Steven did too initially, but it calmed down pretty quickly and they mostly got along well. So Steven found himself often in the middle of their fight like this :

(Without the blood and without Khonshu lmao)

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Jake didn't mind doing small talk, he actually did it a lot. Surface level, flirty conversations were almost his specialty by now. Both because he couldn't bond with someone long enough to do more and because it helped him get what he wanted out of people. He flirted without intent other than manipulating people all the time. So here you could see how he could evolve into being the intel collector for the system, just like he is in the comics.

He didn't know how to deepen relationships however, he never had the chance to, and he didn't really want to by now. He didn't want to share anything personal or show his real emotions. He was inexperienced with that and didn't know what to expect. He didn't even know if he could love (he definitely can, but his feeling of love is in itself quite different, it's almost painful).

If he did open up though, he'd talk about most of the fucked up things he lived through in a very casual way. He had weird priorities and views of the world. He could be upset by small things but then brush off very awful things. I think there was a meme like that once. The meme enumerated three things, the first two weren't that bad while the third one was significantly worse than the first two but said as if it were equally bad (or was it a trope? ). That's Jake. He would be the kind to do that.

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The only emotions you'd see him show outwardly when he felt them would be emotions that he was unfamiliar with. There's not a lot of those but there's a few, like love (or jealousy...). They would show in his behavior and body language because he wouldn't be able to deal with them. Being new to him, he hadn't practiced dealing with them and/or dissimulating them under another emotion. So maybe he'd look like he was feeling that emotion, but he'd mostly look lost or anxious...and then he'd leave control of the body to Marc or Steven.

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Physical touch

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Jake didn't like being touched, it made him very uneasy and brought his panic anxiety back.

However short or innocent the contact was, he wouldn't like it.

Especially if the touch was supposed to be good and innocent. It also didn't matter if it was under or above clothes, it felt the same to him.

Because :

1) he wasn't familiar with those feelings, both the physical sensations and what they did to his emotions. He didn't know what to do about it, how to react to it. So it made him uneasy and dislike the interaction.

2) he was used to all touches being painfull (except during sex*). Whether it was in his childhood, or later fronting to defend the body, while Marc was a boxer or in the army, or a mercenary, or Moon Knight. That's all Jake knew. So when the touches weren't painfull, his brain still thought it was going to be, any time now. So it prepared him by giving him this very intense anxiety, like a very loud alarm bell in his head.

As a cab/limo driver, he didn't have to be touched by anybody, and Khonshu couldn't touch him. So right then he was living his best life.

Jake wasn't making a big deal out of it either, like for everything else. If an SO tried to hold his hand, give him a hug or cuddle he'd find an excuse to get away from that physical contact as soon as possible. He usually pretended that he had to go somewhere to then put more distance between them, or subtly brushed away the hand on him. If the person did it again or insisted however, they'd get that direct rebuff.

It could be hard for some people who needed physical affection to be Jake's partner. For Duchamp, they were in a strange position. Jake was flirty, funny, teasing him, he was there for him and generous and helpful, but he never ever tried to touch him in their day-to-day life together. Not even a small casual touch on the shoulder, or a hug or anything. The only time Frenchie felt like he could touch him was when they had sex.

Jake never wanted to just make out, or cuddle while watching a movie. He did, however, do one thing. He gave little kisses. Dry closed mouth kisses of a few seconds, that he could do. And he did that often enough to show affection.

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* The one major exception to that was during sex. Mostly because those touches were context specific and Jake usually concentrated on his dick and pleasuring his partners. So he managed to ignore or to deal better with these touches. The touches usually didn't last that long and it was mostly people gripping him or things like that so it was fine.

It made him a really good lover though. He had no problem touching other people, with his hands, with his mouth, with his cock, and he liked doing it. So he was very attentive to other people's body. He didn't really do foreplay either, except when he could treat his partners like that (ask Layla...).

If you wanted to treat him, or 'worship his body', or anything like that, he'd politely decline the offer, usually changing the focus on the partner.

Let me make it clear though that Jake only appears to be promiscuous out of necessity but he wasn't really. Sex was the best way he found to have physical intimacy with someone. He didn't need to be particularly close to the person, could do it quickly - since he couldn't front for long - and could get his physical intimacy needs met there.

He also didn't do French kissing, and he was fine with pillow talks...as long as there was a reasonable distance between him and the partner on the bed.

With Layla, he initially didn't even take the chance. He kept sleeping in the spare bedroom, even after she knew who he was and got to know him.

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Jake knew he could learn to get used to the nice touches, like he got used to live without being in panic mode. He didn't see the benefit in doing that however. Controlling his panic mode had been a necessity, because he felt like that just by being. The panic he felt when someone touched him however could be stopped by simply...stopping that contact. It was easier than enduring countless of high-anxiety inducing interactions just so his body could be used to them. And since he wasn't familiar with what 'nice' touches actually felt like, he didn't miss them.

He didn't think he needed those for a fulfilling relationship. He saw though, that Frenchie really missed doing that kind of thing with his partner...

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Steven doesn't mind touches all that much for someone on the spectrum. He actually really liked touches...but only with people he was really close to. He had two modes 'ew no touchy' and 'let me be all over you all the time'.

Marc has no issues with touches. It's surprisingly one of the few things he has no issues about. He liked touches well enough, he could be tender and physically affectionate when he wanted to be - and he usually did.

This is also why Matt and Jake would make a good fit. Matt is also super-sensitive to touches (for a different reason : his super-senses) so he'd understand Jake's boundaries there.

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Bonus: relationship with Khonshu

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Out of the three of them, it's definitely Jake who has a better relationship with Khonshu and who doesn't need to be as manipulated as Marc was.

There were many ways in which Jake's relationship with Khonshu could be important to him.

Khonshu acknowledged him without telling the others. Khonshu might've been the first other person to actually call him Jake. It definitely had an effect on Jake. Gave him respect for the ol' bird at least.

Khonshu didn't probe him about things Jake didn't feel like talking about. Khonshu didn't care about the Marc system's traumas, he already knew everything that was in their head anyway, so he never brought it up with Jake and Jake was appreciative of that.

Khonshu is immaterial in our dimension so he couldn't touch Jake. Jake was glad for that.

Khonshu trusted his skills, and appreciated him for who he was.

And Jake truly believed in what Khonshu was doing. He also wanted revenge, didn't mind killing or hurting people to protect others. He wanted to defeat the bad guys.

Marc might also have wanted revenge, an outlet for his rage, but the killings took more of a toll on him than it did Jake.

So if Steven & Marc try to convince Jake to break things off with Khonshu....eeeeeeh, they might encounter some strong opposition.

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Tl;dr - So this is how I managed to combine both of the main portrayals of comics!Jake with what we got of MCU!Jake while still making sense character-wise, tadaaaaa : D

Thank you, thank you !

Have a nice Jake-filled day everyone!

[chaoticorganizedmess]

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MHA C*ckwarming Headcanons [Part 2]

Ft: Todoroki, Shinsou, Midoriya & Shigaraki [18+]

[Part 1]

Todoroki Shouto:

This man did it just because he'd never done it before.

Todoroki wasn't always in the know about how to be social.🤷‍♂️

So when you two become a thing he'd love nothing more than to learn to satisfy you.

Temperature play is one of the first things he'll try (for obvious reasons), but it's your suggestion to cockwarm him.

It was a night he got home late. Hero work can be daunting alot of times, after all.

You know he's tired and can see how exhausted his body is (well, most of his body except for his growing hard on), but he's kissing you along your neck and giving you his all.

You suggest he get undressed and comfy and you'd sit on his lap and cockwarm him.

He reluctantly agrees, wondering how that could be pleasurable for you.

It ends up being an erotic and intimate moment between you two.

Which is now one if your favorite memories to share, and recreate often.

Shinsou Hitoshi:

This guy does it 'cause he's damn exhausted.

You had a long day in the field today, and Toshi got home even later than you.

Your man's always tired, but the big give away with how bad the day went was the droop of his shoulders as he trudged into your shared home.

He wanted to just relax with you.

Indulging in you has always taken the edge off, but you both were worn out.

So you guys came up with this idea.

It's the best of both worlds. He can warm up and ease tension and still be one with you without all the work.

The two of you got comfortable and you had him sit in bed up against the headboard.

As you sat on his lap, impaled on him, you faced him and rubbed as many kinks out of his shoulders as you could.

To your surprise (and yet not surprising still), it was only a little bit before you realized Shinsou had fallen asleep.💤

Midoriya Izuku:

Everyone knows this guy can be a bundle of nervous energy.😵‍💫

You were classmates in UA and now Heroes in the field together.

You're each other's first loves; first serious relationships.

So when you two become an item things don't progress at lightning speed.

When the discussion finally comes about starting your sex life he's a blushing, sweaty mess.

He's starts his rambling as he goes on and on about his performance anxieties and what not.

You shush him with a finger to his lips and assure him you have a way to ease into things.

You help him take his pants off, and it doesn't take much to get him hard.

(You find he's well-endowed and are glad you're going to be able to sit and get accommodated first.)

So you slink down onto him and begin to cockwarm him.

It helps to relax him and ease any anxiety away before you guys try anything.

You feel so good on the inside he can hardly find the strength to wait for long.

(That's if he doesn't cum simply sitting inside you.)

Shigaraki Tomura:

He's doing it for his own liking.

You're needy and he had business with the League for most of the night. So he wasn't around.

At the moment you're even out of luck 'cause he's catching up on his gaming.

He can't stop in the middle to fuck you like you want.

(He really wants it too but he's got a rep to protect.)

(Plus he really can't stop his game at the moment.)

So he has you cockwarm him until he hits another save point. (Some games they're few and far between, ya know.)🎮

Of course you suggest you just ride him, but that'd be too distracting he says.

Plus he doesn't want you gaining more XP than him. That just wouldn't be fair.

There's a reason he's Player One. So you're gonna be a good little Player 2 and sit patiently on his cock until he's good and ready to fuck you.

[kaija-rayne-author]

I finished Baldur's Gate 3 and immediately started another playthrough. Modded this time.

My polyam mod is definitely working and I'm apparently incapable of disappointing Karlach. So I guess I have a 5 way vs a 4. I was gonna Romance just the chaotic and evil leaning characters this go round.

Why do I have a feeling she's gonna end up hating this durge character of mine cause they're non-resistant? So, uh, probably gonna get my heart broken.

I've also been lovingly blessed with the flu because some selfish assholes seem to think giving immunocompromised people viruses is a great gift. /s (There are millions of immunocompromised people since covid, and even depression or anxiety makes you immunocompromised. I'm not a rare bird in that sense. If you're old or pregnant you're also immunocompromised. Surprise!)

I've been morbidly sick for 9 days and while it's slowly easing off, it's average that it takes me 6 weeks to fully kick influenza.

And our vaccinations were scheduled for this week. Because only older folks could get them before then.

I've watched Vox Machina during the days I could basically just stare at something, and gods, I really love it. Looking forward to the next season.

Hollyweird is finally figuring out D&D! It only took them, what, 30 plus years and gods know how many awful attempts at shows and movies?

Anyone know of anything else like it? I've seen the d&d movie, uh, 3x, and loved that too. (Yes, I'm aware of what critical role is, I have absolutely zero interest in watching them. Books, games, movies/shows, those I can enjoy, but watching someone else I don't know play a game I could be playing doesn't work for me.)

Anyway, sorry for the radio silence. I was sewing like a fiend for eldest's costume for Halloween. Partner has had both a major back surgery and a major mouth surgery just before getting sick. Then the kids and I got sick. The coughing is totally doing a great thing for partner's staples.

Yes, we asked the doc for tamiflu. No she didn't give it to us. And her secretary was a snarky ass about it. As if I ask for very much from them at all. Not impressed tbh. If I ask for something from my doc it's because I've researched it and feel it's actually necessary. I was pre-med ffs, and have medical adjacent degrees. I'm far from the regular person when it comes to things like that.

Uuuugh. Why can't people do others the simple gods damned courtesy of masking?

During the year most everyone was masking, everyone was healthier. Flu numbers were lower than they ever had been, cold viruses were low too. Why the fuck would anyone want to not mask after that example?

I'm historically sensitive to influenza for some reason. It takes me down hard and keeps me down for weeks. But even I didn't get the flu that year.

Why is knowingly getting others ill with your germs even remotely socially acceptable? Why?

Oh, right, 'muh feelings'. I have a panic attack every time I mask, and I still mask religiously every time I leave the house. I'm still always freaking sick because of other people's selfishness.

As a historian, I'll just say that this period of history will be judged incredibly harshly.

[og-danny-dorito]

One of two matchups I wanted to ask about

Fandom: Demon Slayer

Preference: SFW AND NSFW

Zodiac: Pisces

Pronouns: She/Her and They/Them

Sexuality: Bisexual

Hobbies: Singing, Reading, Playing video games, making Loom band chains, and most recently, baking cookies, bread, and cakes.

Appearance: I’m a bit more on the chubbier side, 5’4 and have very short curly black hair. I usually wear glasses for being near sighted but forget to wear them all the time. I have dark brown eyes and I’m curvy. Have scars around my chest from two reduction surgeries

Personality Traits: Extremely Empathetic, Loyal, Hard headed, Sensitive

Facts about myself: I tend to put others way before myself, to the point I don’t care for myself as much. I have ADHD and Social Anxiety Disorder, and I come from a family of Brazilians and Porto Rican’s. I tend to have a soft spot for children and end up being an unintentional babysitter/older sister type. Rhythm games are a big part of my life and Greek mythology is a big thing for me. Turned stress eating to stress baking to try and help with weight loss.

ofc! sorry these took such a long time, im actively working on the other one set you sent!!

𝙸 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑… 𝙶𝚒𝚢𝚞 𝚃𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚘𝚔𝚊!

𝚃𝚆: explicit sexual content in the 'NSFW' area [minors do not interact]

𝙲𝚆: explicit sexual content; cockwarming, head-giving

𝚂𝙵𝚆:

it took me a minute but it think giyuu would match best with you!!

he's on the quieter side and so he has a really calming effect on people, and i think he'd be really nice to be around considering he does a good job at quieting the noise in your head that can get overwhelming from time to time

he isn't very vocal about it, but when he loves he loves hard. he'd give up the whole world for you if you asked it of him

he texts you a lot throughout the day to get him through it, mostly about things that remind him of you (like if he sees a shirt or a pin that he thinks you'll like he'll send a picture and ask if you want it)

makes a genuine effort to make sure you're okay even though he kind of already has a sixth sense for it?? you cant get anything past this dude srsly 💀💀💀

no but seriously if you're having a rough day and you tell him you're "fine" even though you know damn well you're not, he'll go along with it but make a conscious effort to take care of you

he'll make dinner for the night, draw a bath for you, put on some of your favorite shows for you to watch in bed together, and even offer to wash your hair and body for you to help you decompress

like i said he's a pretty quiet lover, so he doesn't voice how much he cares for you and that could pose to be a point of confusion if you rely a lot on verbal affirmation

of course he tells you he loves you, but he relies more on acts of service to show his affection for you rather than words of affirmation

in fact, he'll only really be able to tell you after being in the relationship for 5 months, and even then he seems almost scared to say it

the fact of the matter is that giyuu's had to deal with loosing people close to him his entire life, and so admitting that he cares for you so deeply is difficult for him to admit both to himself and to you

he's scared of loosing you, and so he tries his best to make sure he shows that he loves you even if he has a hard time saying it

but he gets better at it with time since he becomes more comfortable with it the more he speaks about it. plus that and you naturally make him feel safe considering how accepting you are of him

he genuinely thinks you're something special, and very rarely feels like he deserves you

god forbid anyone be rude to you because he does not tolerate people being rude to the people he cares about

he isn't violent or anything even if he considers it for a brief moment, but he will stare them down and be uh... less than polite

OH and also. he likes that you're shorter than him. he thinks it's cute :]

doesn't take pictures often but when he does he always likes to make sure that he's as close to you as possible?? its weird cause he's not very physically affectionate but when you're taking pictures he has to physically be on top of you since he "doesn't want anyone on instagram thinking you're not taken"

what?? he knows you're attractive and he doesn't want any idiot thinking they can take you. its partially cause he's scared that you'll find out you can do way better one day and leave him but also because he's weirdly protective over you

i kinda think that he wouldn't want kids but after seeing you interact with them he'd change his mind LMAO

also don't worry about the social anxiety, he fucking hates crowds too and usually picks out dates that avoid high-traffic scenarios anyway. usually if ya'll are caught in a packed area he'll squeeze your hand to confirm if you're alright though, and if you answer negatively he gets both of ya'll out of there as soon as possible since he knows how crushing it can be

isn't good at interacting with people that much though RIP

will share a lot of your interests with you!! he personally likes to cook even though he's not good at it, so ya'll probably spend a lot of time baking together since he wants to learn and uses it as an excuse to hang out with you (even though he doesn't rlly need one 💀)

𝙽𝚂𝙵𝚆:

GOES FERAL FOR THE CHUB

NO SHUT UP I KNOW IT FOR A FACT you cant tell me im wrong i know im not

its not a fetish thing he just likes having something to grab

knows you're kinda insecure too so he makes it a point to absolutely worship you

in fact, when you're having sex it's usually very heartfelt and passionate, and if you're not half-delirious from him eating you out prior then you'll be bale to notice him peppering kisses over your face, your scars, your folds, everything

oh yeah he loves to eat you out btw

giyuu is VERY aware that he's a lot more physically strong than you, and while he's not forceful he does use it to his advantage by pushing you down when you move too much

he's very soft, but he's firm about his demands of you and makes sure to punish you accordingly. you jut your hips up while he's going down on you? then he'll stop for a while and watch you beg for him to continue, barely touching your aching sex until you apologize and promise to not do it again

REALLY likes cockwarming. for some reason he has this weird fascination with watching you struggle to keep your composure, and having your tight heat around him while he goes about his business while you struggle not to move almost tempts him to give in to what you so desperately want out of him

usually takes things very slow since he likes to savor every moment with you, but if one of you is having a particularly hard day he's more than happy to "relieve some stress" by fucking the bad day out of you

tends to put your pleasure before his own since he likes to service you and make sure you're well taken care of, but its mainly because he gets really flustered when you take control??

its hard to explain but he gets really turned on seeing you take control from him, calling the shots and making him a stuttery mess

in fact, he probably makes the most noise when he's on bottom, but he usually covers it up with his hands or a pillow or something so he doesn't give away how worked up he is since it makes him feel weak

he cherishes that he can feel weak with you though, and sex with him is usually very passionate and love-filled considering he's putting his soul into this special event with you

aftercare is usually very sensual too, with him either wiping you down completely with a washcloth and giving you some water or offering to take a bath/shower together and offering you water (cause hydration is important)

[ 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚔 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙵𝚘𝚛 𝚁𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐! 𝚂𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚝 𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚜𝚔 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚞𝚙 𝚘𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚠𝚗 :) ]

[msommers]

10, 18, 33 for elena and riya!

ty alana kees kees kess // 40 oc development questions

How open is your oc to trying new things? Are they the adventurous sort, or would they rather stay in their comfort zone? Why?

ELENA — i'd like to say that she's adventurous because she deserves the fun (all she does is work and then stay in her house lmfao), but i know in my heart that she's set up camp in that comfort zone of hers. it's because she already has to test the boundaries of her comfort regularly vis-à-vis certain social interactions, so once she's finished with that she likes to retreat to what she knows and feels secure in. most open to trying new foods, but nothing too wild or far removed from what she usually has. more amenable to trying new things if she's close to someone who is bringing up the idea(s) tbh. if she trusts them with everything else than she believes they'll have her best interest at heart and have faith in their thinking she'll enjoy something.

RIYA — opposite of miss angel there, riya is always down to try new things. constantly chasing new highs and looking for the Next Thing. she's the type of person who can't stick to a single hobby because she jumps around so much, eager to sink her teeth into whatever interest catches her eye. said new things can be anywhere on the scale of safe to dangerous and it usually doesn't take much convincing to have her agreeing to anybody's suggestions, if she's not the one to propose one first.

How does your oc fare in an emergency situation? Do they panic, do they freeze, do they take charge?

ELENA — she doesn't panic all that much when it comes to danger, there's a calmness and confidence in her during those times because she has faith that things will work out if she (and/or companions) use resources smartly. she's the ding dang daughter of pelor, giver of life and beacon of hope, and she strives to present those things herself, especially during emergencies. she isn't the one to turn to for a battle plan, but she's quick to helping others in need and relaying any information she deems important for reaching safety/peace

RIYA — unfortunately because of what a clown she is presently, she's more the type to charge in first and ask questions later. someone else can certainly take charge but she has already thrown herself forward, probably into combat if it's that sort of danger. only time she may panic is during a medical emergency because she has no idea what to do then, she hasn't done any reading and could never grasp that type of magic. she knows how to shoot lightning from her fingertips but couldn't heal a papercut with a gun to her head lmfao

How does your oc’s own perception of themselves compare to how other people see them? Is your oc aware that other people see them differently (if it’s different)?

ELENA — so here’s a thing about elena. i think that in her formative years there was some kind of encounter with somebody where they reacted poorly (not horribly, but they didn’t address it properly) to elena expressing hesitation about some task she was asked to do, and it formed this huge part of her character right then and there with the natural “oh I don’t like making people sad” response combining with “oh I just have to do this and they’ll be happy”. add that on top of all the other general pressures and anxieties of hers that i’ve talked about before, and it’s created this scenario where elena tries to only present The Sunblessed to everybody. because in her mind they want to see the glowing darling who will cure their illnesses, heal their wounds, support those in need, chase down their damn missing cat if that's the emergency of the day—they certainly don’t want to see the lady who gets nervous in crowds, struggles with insecurities and very very rarely thinks about how life could be different. there aren’t very many people who see her differently from how she presents herself because they’ll only see her for small amounts of time here and there, so they truly only see the sweet divine girl happy to be of service, but for the folk who spend time with and get to know her then they’ll start to put some pieces together. ((the pieces being yeah she positively loves what she does but she doesn’t know how to say No and needs to find some fun for herself somewhere.))

RIYA — unfortunately she thinks that she’s a goddess walking the earth and isn’t very subtle about it, everyone and their mama’s know that riya thinks she’s on top of the world and the hottest person in each room she’s in. and i mean like,,,she’s not Entirely wrong. she’s incredibly popular in her social circles (and the circle itself bc duh) and people love her because she is incredibly fun at events or outings and knows how to put on a great show, plus her confidence and teasing can be quite endearing. there are for sure people who aren’t fans though, the folk who find her cockiness grating and wish she’d just go back to the circle where she’s supposed to be. i think that she’s selectively aware of how people view her if i’m honest lmfao. if she cares about a person’s opinion then she’ll be more open to vibechecking their connection to her, but if it’s someone she doesn’t like or considers an enemy then she straight up doesn’t care. doesn’t waste her time considering it.

and this is all without considering how much of a spoiled, pampered brat she’s going to appear as to the grey wardens :)

[bookofchaos]

Week 1 Evaluation of working on Sacred Liminality the comic

This week I overwhelmed myself.

First it started off with excitement!

That snowballed into anxiety.

I let myself get ahead of myself.

I have a lot to learn when it comes to using a digital canvas as a medium. There's even more to learn when it comes to creating comics.

I attempted my first colored piece via cell shading. It's so cool, y'all. But I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo bad at it.

I forgot I needed to use different layers and ended up messing up the piece.

I am still proud of it. It's more than I've ever done! And I definitely learned that I *need* to remember layers are a thing.

I also have so much to remember when it comes to social media.

I have a software I'm using to help me try to keep all of my organization in order... but even so, I'm still having a hell of a time.

Part of this is due to my failing to acknowledge that I require time to set all of this up.

I got plenty done. Two character sketches, one kinda rendered, and a comic strip with 5 panels. Plus, add on setting up and editing multiple different social media platforms to look kinda similar. (Koji, Tumblr, Twitter, Reddit, Imgur, and ComicFury). I even attempted to set up a website. By then, I was way to overwhelmed to get past setting up a basic domain name.

What I've learned is I need to scale back, and I think I'm going to push back the release date. I can put out bad art. That's fine with me. Actually that's one of my goals. Put out bad art. Just put out, honestly. Haha (I'm a sex novel character *wink wink*).

As I revaluate, I think I want to set it up so I have a month to get pages started and inked. This will give me time to also actually practice and learn how to cell shade properly. I also want to do a bit more re-working on the comic page I have. I may post it with this just as a reference for myself of where I started.

I also want time to work on other pieces so I can give my brain a break from working on the comic page. I want to be able to look at it with some freshness before posting. This distance will - hopefully - allow me to critique my art, make changes, and ultimately make it better in the end.

Other things that came up - I'm an anxious bean. I'm horribly scared of what other will think of my work. Like on one hand, I want important people I look up to see it and be like 'Hey, you're a badass,' but I don't want to put out my art because jeezus christ some asshole is gonna say something mean and I'm going to be a bawling sack of tears. (And my run on sentences are strong with this one).

Then there's the lingering issue of feeling like a failure because I am not keeping to my initial time tables I set for myself. Even now I want to cry because it's like 'Fuck, I use to be able to do this.'

Mind you, for reference since many of you know nothing about my life, I am currently thirty. I haven't produced art at a regular rate since high school back in 2008-2011. Because of life, I let my art go. My art is kinda like a time capsule in that way. It still reflects the knowledge my brain and body has of drawing and coloring of a high school student.

While that doesn't bother me because art is just something I can get better at, it does suck when I remember creating as if it was breathing. I would walk into a class, sit down, and doodle or sketch or continue on a project. And it wasn't like I didn't have worries back then. I just could push them to the side. Art would take over, and I'd create.

Now I have to shovel through more of my brain shit before I can start. the process is a bit more stiff. I have to work at doing art... and I know that will change as I progress... but damn man, I'm shaming myself for not having the skills and progress of my 17 year old self.

I've been through worst. This won't stop me of course. I am just in the midst of finding that internal kindness that will help me.

Journaling has always helped. That is part of why I built it into my process. First views and ya know interacting with a creator... All that marketing jazz. But also, like, I kind hope it humanizes me. Maybe someone else will see it and say they've experienced similar. It's always nice to not feel alone.

Creating can be lonely, especially people just starting out on their own. I know I feel alone sometimes. Thankfully, I am strong enough to lean on myself. Haha

I don't really have any special way of ending this other than simple promo stoofs.

Promo Stoofs Ahead

Hey, I'm writing/drawing/promoting a comic.  This will be my personal little experiment using my newest deck of cards. Being a bit high, I was illuminated with such a fantastical idea which I am now bestowing (or cursing) upon the internet. I have no idea at the time of writing this what the plot will be, who will be the main characters, nor what words shall be spoken. Accompanying each tarot inspired panel shall also be optional written pieces connecting each panel via delicately chosen (or incredibly rushed) words for thine eyes to feast upon. Come along and enjoy the chaos as we both discover the next panel together.

As of now the comic won't be dropping until Dec 21st, 2022 or in pagan terms - Yule! I'm hoping to gift - possibly curse - the world with my art (and myself with a well created comic). Anything I release before then will be of course promotional in nature.

(Wheel of the year reference below for anyone new to pagan holidays. Stevie Storck Artist.)

I do have other social media. Check my link tree out as I also will be posting on YouTube concerning connecting spirituality and art.



I really do appreciate you stopping by!

Have a lovely day.

Keep creatin'!