#it feels so pathetic to even say that but i am t i r e d of being alone

[niallandtommo]

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[doumadono]

(Since I am a bitch 😈😈😈)

I have a request!

NSFW alphabet with our "beloved" Enji Todoroki!!!!!! 😏🔥

MASTERLIST

A - aftercare If you're just a casual fling or someone he met randomly at a bar, the chances of him sticking around are quite slim. However, if he's genuinely invested in the relationship, there will come a point where he reveals his caring side. Seeing you upset because of his initial emotional distance triggers a sense of guilt within him, and he eventually relents, saying, "Alright, let's cuddle."

B - body part He loves your ass, tempted to give it a playful pat or some appreciative glances, all while trying to not make the impression that he's a pervert

C - cum Enji usually pulls out and cums on your ass, or just jacks off to it but sometimes he'll grab your throat and push you on your knees to cum on your face. "Yeah, babe, take it, take it! See how fucking beautiful you look with my cum all over your face?"

D - dirty secret Endeavor's hidden desire is for you to pleasure yourself with toys while he watches, jacking off

E - experience He has a wealth of experience, and I mean a substantial amount of it. This guy truly knows what he's doing

F - favorite position His favourite position is doggy style, he feels so powerful and in control while you're on all fours, whimpering pathetically for him. He loves taking you from behind and pulling on your hair, making you scream his name. "You like it when I fuck you into submission like this? I bet you do, slut."

G - goofy He's extremely serious and doesn't welcome humor in the bedroom

H - hair Enji doesn't bother to shave but he's naturally well-tamed with body hair

I - intimacy The most intimate act for him is to press your foreheads together as he thrusts inside you at merciless pace

J - jack off In rare occasions, he might indulge in self-pleasure, but this only occurs when you haven't been together for a few weeks or so

K - kinks Breeding kink - he's definitely into feral/animalistic sex since he's so aggressive

Power play - that goes without saying

Master/slave play - Todoroki finds it very arousing when you're serving him sexually and he can order you around. "Suck my cock like a good little servant and you'll get to cum."

L - location Bed or shower - Endeavor strongly dislikes dealing with messes in locations where it's not convenient to clean up the filth easily

M - motivation Intentionally arousing him, only to appear disinterested afterward. He'll absolutely destroy you and abuse all of your holes afterward, but it's worth it. "You fucking tease, I should just pound you until your fucking cunt is sore."

N - no Anything that places him in a submissive position is something he's not particularly fond of - Endeavor's an aggressive top, and even trying to bottom would hurt his ego

O - oral He definitely prefers to receive it - he gives only if he feels like it

P - pace Fast and rough. That's it!

Q - quickie He’s down for quickies. Enji prefers proper sex, but he won’t say no to a nice quickie

R - risks He won’t take risks, ever. He wouldn't even consider anything that could potentially harm either of you. His past experiences have made him exceedingly cautious when it comes to taking risks of any kind

S - stamina He can go for a few rounds at the most, meaning you're having the most earth shattering orgasms of your life coming you way

T - toys He thinks you don’t need a vibrator when you have him, and he’s goddamn right!

U - unfair He likes to tease way too much, and he will do it at the worst possible moments. Sometimes you’ll be having dinner with some of the other heroes, and he’ll start to finger you under the table, just like that 🤷

V - volume Endeavor can get pretty loud, he doesn’t care about noise complaints. He does a lot of growling, groaning and dirty talk

W - wildcard He will come up with the most pathetic reasons to bend you over his knee and punish you

X - x-ray He's very thick, very long and very veiny. 8-9 inches when fully hard

Y - yearning His sex drive is undeniably high. He prefers to engage in sexual activity at least every other day. Occasionally, he can't contain himself and pins you against the nearest surface, having his way with you

Z - zzz It takes him a little while to fall asleep, so normally you’ll be the first to be asleep

[aesthetictanuki]

Okay, so I'm replaying some other PB book and Cas came back to clobber me with thoughts on them, sooo ✌️😐 I have some opinions on what people expressed abt ID and Harlow. Not personal, that's why I am not using the reblog button- I just want to give my two cents (also seeing ppl, in my eyes, misinterpreting one of my fixations hurts physically, but that's u n r e l a t e d)

S O:

1. I saw some ppl expressing negative feelings towards the ID book ending- specifically the turning. And I don't know if I am fully on board with disliking it myself.

I do get that it being non con might be a no-go to many. But idk.

I am most likely biased, as someone who has been dreaming about being "anyone, but myself" tbh. But more importantly: the MC was about to greet the Grim Reaper. And then you have two, still very young and impulsive vampires, with someone who literally gave them hope and a reason to live basically, looking at them about to die. So they made the choice they both thought (and which honestly WAS) the only way for MC to see another day. I get why it might bother others, I just think there's more below the surface.

2. Cas killing that girl in the first chapter and their feelings around all of this. I hadn't been sure how to feel about it, but I gave it some thought. Take it as a headcannon or just a theory, since barely anything is relieved about their past, as of now.

So, I gathered what I know:

Cas hated their life before turning. To the point of losing hope for the future, not caring about themselves, not seeing much point in life pretty much (until MC showed up).

They claim that vampires are their genuine family. They highlight how they care for each other "more than most biological families would".

The above is important while mentioning that they felt weak and alone before as well, until turning and MC moving in.

All of that painted me an important picture (but again, it's just my theory) that perhaps, Cas didn't really have actual friends, but even more, I think when you look closely, it seems that their biological family failed them as well...

When the MC expressed their feelings, simply saying "thank you for being a part of my life" and we see Cas crying while stating that no one else told them that before.

When they cling onto the Venandi coven almost no matter what, because Venandi is their family, real family. Yet, unlike Gabe, they never mention their human family. It's never "I was alone, maybe except my parents" or "despite having a home, not having friends sucked". It is "I was alone. I was weak. I had no one."

So I think, considering the above, it adds to Cas' character that their vampire family that gave them security, friends, home and safety means so much that they would do anything for them. They have known them for decades if I remember correctly, but Cas is still impulsive and, imo, drunk off of not being weak. Being able to get rid of anything and anyone that endangers them and those close.

Because maybe, after finally feeling like others want them, like they finally belong somewhere, they are willing to spill the blood. Because they went through so much misery that the only way you can get their family is out of Harlow's cold, dead hands.

Also I think their hatered for humans comes more from hatered for their past self. That whenever they see any human, they only see themselves that they hoped to burrow (from that convo outside the hospital with "how about we don't talk? It makes it hard to forget" deal). That weak and pathetic human Cas Harlow that wasn't able to fight for themselves, wasn't able to get any friends, that felt like such a failure that no one around them could muster this "thank you for existing" type of sentence that made them cry at the school lab.

All of this would add to the fact that being a vampire meant getting out of that pit of despair they seemed to be in. As they stated a time or two, being a vampire means being alive. Being turned is being born again.

It meant killing human Harlow- human disappointed by other humans, by themselves, by the world, with a clear mental baggage to match-and welcoming vampire Harlow.

A vampire that will do anything it takes to, this time, preserve everything that gives them even an ounce of happiness.

[maya-malfoy1012]

So... Episode 3 of The Devil Judge... let's get into it! I wrote a page of notes, this episode had a lot to offer. But before we get into it, let's just recap on the ending of episode 2... cauuussseeee

I was watching the UST confrontation, thinking they were going to bang against the windows. I'm minding my own business, just admiring the cinematography - as they had bisexual lighting throughout -

(I can only watch it in the worst quality lol)

Then shit blew up! And they're saving each other like all angsty vampy boyfriends do.

(he should have carried him bridal style... just sayin')

Then we get into episode 3. Which has all of the marks of every Forced Proximity Yaoi story ever! Even includes non-consensual touching and one character (usually the younger) not being allowed to leave or move around their surroundings freely... which is... fun. "It's not like I want to do it" sure, Jan. (also, they keep mentioning their age gap, I think they're into it.....)

This leads to Gaon's Belle arc of discovering what's in the west wing. (The house's decor is super... not my taste). The Nanny/mother step-in character reminds me of Bae Hae Sun's character in Hotel De Luna (Choi Seo Hee). Daddy Bandit is super possessive over his new twink, even going as far as almost shouting "ARE YOU DATING?" to Soo Hyun. super suss. Sun A thinks she's hot. She really had her "step on me, Mummy" glow up and I respect that. Kyung Hee is surrounded by idiotic men BUT that does lead us to her house which is Han Ki Hwan's house!!! I was so happy when I saw it then I felt so sad because... it's where the rich boys go to get emotionally (sometimes physically) abused by their parent. This house is also featured in Stranger and every time there was a scene in THE living room, I kept saying out loud: "that's where Han Joo Won got his heart broken" or "some very sad things happened here" or "NOOO joo won... DONG SIIIIIKKK"... I am pathetic and annoying. (Also, I think the derelict sight is the same location where they shot Lee Sang Yeob's death scene) I will say I like the way TDJ is handling the dystopia themes. It feels very realistic and it isn't too glamourised, which a lot of movies/TV shows do. So, that's a really nice aspect of the show. The court scene is actually kind of funny (not in a bad way)

Trauma Bandit's backstory is definitely a child abuse 101 storyline, even includes a shitty reason for his awful treatment. (the dad is a right twat). I haven't paid too much attention to the older brother storyline but if he and Gaon are related, I'll be pissed. It's an odd thing to include considering Daddy Bandit and Gaon are going to fuck. There's no doubt in my mind that they're going to have sex. And even if we don't see it, it's still happening! Oh, and... just because you're traumatised, it doesn't give you the right to murder people, Daddy Bandit. Anyway, speak soon!! :)

[cue circus music]

episode 02 ending & episode 3. ah yes, the banes of my existence (:

I was watching the UST confrontation, thinking they were going to bang against the windows.

HELPP the UST was blasting through the roof. I honestly loved how they introduced two female leads, starting off with the implication that they're the very possible romantic counterparts and then dunked the whole show into homoerotism and UST.

just admiring the cinematography - as they had bisexual lighting throughout -

listen, the cinematography? it was out of the fucking world. honestly perspective changes, camera tilts that captures imbalance (whether emotional or power) and the f r a m e s. honestly so capturing.

the b i s e x u a l l i g h t i n g (screams)

(I can only watch it in the worst quality lol)

oof help is it netflix 😭

Then shit blew up! And they're saving each other like all angsty vampy boyfriends do.

KJERDXEFKDCX ANGSTY VAMPY BOYFRIENDS Yohan looks very much like some modern Count Dracula --its the bow me thinks

(he should have carried him bridal style... just sayin')

dsjksjdjk perhaps because gaon's taller than him and trauma bandit's but a smol man

Which has all of the marks of every Forced Proximity Yaoi story ever!

the way i did not realise that until now. ohmygod

Even includes non-consensual touching and one character (usually the younger) not being allowed to leave or move around their surroundings freely... which is... fun.

I also do think that the Nurse/Patient trope (which I'm basing off of Back to The Future, but for all I know could be absolutely rare af) is depicted here. Usually in the trope, the nurse and patient are shown to be more susceptible to have feelings due to sympathy and forced proximity (+ if the patient has some incredibly heroic/awing reason for being injured). I think Beauty and the Beast, you've mentioned Gaon's Bella Arc, also features the nurse/patient trope when the Prince/Beast gets attacked trying to save Bella from the wolves.

It is interesting though, that it should be Gaon who's injured and nursed back to life when we have Yohan, who's the primary choice for the Beast/Prince.

(also, they keep mentioning their age gap, I think they're into it.....)

at this point, watching TDJ is just a progression of kink reveals lmao

This leads to Gaon's Belle arc of discovering what's in the west wing. (The house's decor is super... not my taste).

Continuing from before, it's quite interesting that their dynamics are not set in stone. They frequently exchange roles, albeit most of the time it's not prominent.

Also, if we set apart the BATB trope, Gaon's totally the knight in shining armor even if Daddy Bandit denies it (the house.... it's something alright)

The Nanny/mother step-in character reminds me of Bae Hae Sun's character in Hotel De Luna (Choi Seo Hee).

ah i havent really watched Hotel De Luna, i'm putting it off becuz i heard that there's some real sad stuff but I can see the similarities in their character presentation

Daddy Bandit is super possessive over his new twink, even going as far as almost shouting "ARE YOU DATING?" to Soo Hyun. super suss.

my dude's just totally in over his head thinking he's very chill but just a walking talking emotional disaster

on a serious note though, i think he's more than aware of soohyun's friendship with gaon and it was a deliberate poke to dissuade her (or perhaps, in an emotionally/possessive sense to sting her?)

Sun A thinks she's hot. She really had her "step on me, Mummy" glow up and I respect that.

Jung Sun Ah is just a total badass and if I ever meet her I would run far far away 😂

...her house which is Han Ki Hwan's house!!! I was so happy when I saw it then I felt so sad because... it's where the rich boys go to get emotionally (sometimes physically) abused by their parent.

WAIT HELP I DID NOT NOTICE THAT IREFDJKSDJK tbf i was more focused in practicing imaginary archery on han kihwan

"that's where Han Joo Won got his heart broken" or "some very sad things happened here" or "NOOO joo won... DONG SIIIIIKKK"... I am pathetic and annoying.

EJDKEISDJK LMAO "some very sad things happened here" -- some miserable real estate agent of an haunted house, probably

"I am pathetic and annoying" ah yes the self realisation /t no but i have had this same exact thought when i paused the show for the zillionth time to explain the significance of the fucking rain to my friend

Also, I think the derelict sight is the same location where they shot Lee Sang Yeob's death scene

oooh interesting, i wonder how many shooting locations BE and TDJ share hmm

I will say I like the way TDJ is handling the dystopia themes. It feels very realistic and it isn't too glamourised, which a lot of movies/TV shows do. So, that's a really nice aspect of the show.

right?? i honestly adore that it's pretty much covering the escalating socio-political and economic crisis under the dystopian theme? it also feels very much a commentary on the contemporary issues of the world. along with that, in episode one there's a shot with the word "utopia" that reminded me of this book (i haven't read it but i know of the premise) "The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas". It talks of an utopian society that has built itself upon the suffering of a single child. For the society to prosper the child must be suffer. To my knowledge, the Snowpiercer (the film) and BTS's "Spring Day" are based on it thematically.

The court scene is actually kind of funny (not in a bad way)

yeah no i fucking cackled at that scene

Trauma Bandit's backstory is definitely a child abuse 101 storyline, even includes a shitty reason for his awful treatment. (the dad is a right twat)

the dad's a right bastard

but if he and Gaon are related, I'll be pissed.

Dude (gender neutral) I was flabbergasted when they went "Oh Yohan's big brother actually looks exactly like Gaon :D" like??? During Ep 1 flashbacks, I honestly expected them to go with an amnesiac route (where Gaon forgets about Yohan) or maybe "found comfort/helped each other during this tragedy for one day and then became nameless strangers again" route but noooo they had to go with the "ah yes this possible romantic option who is is identical to mc's brother" i blame the bloody censor

There's no doubt in my mind that they're going to have sex. And even if we don't see it, it's still happening!

there's so much off-screen gaps that the possibility of it not happening is lower than zero

Oh, and... just because you're traumatised, it doesn't give you the right to murder people, Daddy Bandit.

Man's just so morally tilted lmao, but ahem, I heard that you liked morally grey characters [blinks]

I really enjoyed this update heh, your brain is just. galaxy and i can't wait to see more of your thoughts hehe

[theghostofblackbunnymask]

May I request yandere alphabet for Jschlatt? 🙌🏾🧎🏾‍♀️

Author's note- Ram man🐏 I'm not back from writing, I just realized I've been having this done for a hot minute and never posted it.

Warnings- Physical abuse, Alcohol, Degradation, Lack of freedom, forced kissing, humiliation, Jealously, death mentioned

Yandere Schlatt Alphabet

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

Schlatt isn't really affectionate, and lord he doesn't want you to touch him, only he can touch you and don't you fucking touch him.

Schlatt shows his affection through gifts, he would give you jewelry and beautiful clothes.

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

Ha! Like he would actually kill someone with his own hands, he'd most likely hire Punz to kill whoever needed to be taken care of.

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

Two words: Field Day

This man would mock and degrade you, talking about how easy it was and how weak you are.

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

A lot of things.

Forcing you to be on stage with him, even if you don't want to.

Forcing you to sit on the floor next to his chair while he held a leash that was connected to a collar you wore.

Making you watch public executions, especially the ones of your love ones.

Making you kiss him (Drunk and not drunk)

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

Schlatt isn't vulnerable around you, he keeps his guard up at all times and would not hesitate to beat you if you try to catch him lacking or just want to fight him.

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

Amused but pissed. He would be amused and let you continue until he gets bored, then he would smack you and tell you to never pull something like that again and that you were just his personal toy, nothing else.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

He would enjoy watching you try to escape, you really think you could escape THE PRESIDENT?! HA! He would get you back once you think you're safe.

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

Schlatt yelling, insulting and degrading you in public, the night before he got WAY too drunk and was still drunk the next morning. So when he did a speech, he got this sudden boost of anger and directed it towards you, yelling and insulting you, and may have slapped you too. The citizens would be petrified and Quackity and George would not be surprised at all, since they're used to it, but they would comfort you after. Whenever you walk on the streets of Manburg, people look at you with sympathetic eyes and some even straight up say they're sorry for your situation.

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

Being president of Manberg, living in a mansion full of alcohol and you being his perfect little partner.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

Schlatt gets jealous really easily. So whenever you talk to Quackity when he's around, he'll tell Big Q to fuck off and then he'll lock you in a cold basement with you wearing nothing but your undergarments.

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

He acts the same way he acts with the public and with his workers, cruel. He doesn't care about you or your emotions, as long as you're with him and your alive, he doesn't care.

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

Schlatt would first give you presents and money so you start to like him, and then he'd start to invite you to parties only for officials and higher ranked people.

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

No not really.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

It varies on how effective it is.

If you listen and obey better with Mental punishments, he'll use those most of the time.

If you listen and obey better with emotional based punishments, he'll mostly use those.

If you listen and obey better with physical punishments, then he'll use those most of the time.

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Freedom, Freedom of speech, and the freedom to wear whatever you want.

You're not allowed to speak your own opinion, or even talk in general. He doesn't want to hear your voice so you better just sit/stand there and be an alive doll.

You can't wear whatever you want, he doesn't care if you fight back, you're going to wear what he gave you and you're going to enjoy it.

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

Schlatt can only be patient for so long.

Frustrate him and your in for a beating, so you better run and hide.

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

If you were to die, Schlatt wouled just drink his pain away, his alcohol addiction would get so much worse.

If you were to successfully escape, you better never show your face again until Schlatt dies, because he would have a manhunt after you.

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

No and no.

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

Nothing really, he just thought you were hot and he just wanted to have you.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

If you were to scream, he would just laugh at you before calling you pathetic.

If you were to cry he would either ask who made you cry or he would just let you cry.

If you were to isolate yourself, he'd drag you everywhere, you think you can escape him?

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

Letting you fight for his own amusement.

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

His alcohol addiction.

If he's so drunk that he's soft, take that chance and RUN! He won't chase after you since he's loopy.

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

Yeah, quite often actually.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

Schlatt isn't a worshiper, but he really does want you to love him, so he would get you lots of gifts and maybe even take you to places you like if you're well behaved.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

2 months.

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

Yeah, but only as a last resort.

[jiminrings]

mayhaps 👉👈 a valentine special with the homebound couple? Where Yoongi is scattered brain as to what gift he should get for y/n (he really doesn't know how and what gift to givE y/n) and it's not like he forgot about valentine's day, no, he's been preparing for it for long (boy messed up once and he doesn't want to mess up agAin-) and he still doesn't know what gift to give y/n??? Cause??? He literally have her one new gift each day for a week and also he wanTs it to be special because y/n deserves everything— whereas y/n completely forgets about valentine's day and :') Yoongi's low-key hurt but won't say it-

yeS, just an idea- is this too specific tho?

homebound: valentine special

pairing: yoongi x y/n

wordcount: 4k

glimpse: this time, yoongi’s the one who unintentionally gets stood up — and on valentine’s day too!! >:(

read homebound here!!

notes: babe you’ve sent this request in back in january and it was just tOO good to pass up so here i am :D writing a valentine special a month early :D

there has got to be a glitch in the system

yoongi’s system is flawless wITHOUT a single hitch

he has the same drive as  t h r e e  full and cold cans of monster energy when he’s in the tracks

sure he crashes to sleep just as hard but that is not the point

yoongi can sniff out inconsistencies and partly, it majorly has something to do with him being book-smart AND street-smart!!! if he wasn’t zooming past other cars for a living then he totally would’ve taken up psychology

he can also plan things really good and he’s never failed at it actually.,., he’s too competent to even half-ass anything

one time it was jimin’s birthday and yoongi professes that he’s his only favorite crew chief <3 even if he’s the only crew chief he’s ever had <3

that alone must’ve been enough for jimin’s next three birthdays but anyways of course yoongs doesn’t stop at that!!!

he gives him a surprise birthday bash in a rooftop that overlooks the whole city in which u could see the stars and fireworks that spell out his name

not to mention that EVERYONE invited to the party is required to wear a black suit and jimin would stroll up as the only one in a wine-red suit :D

it seems oddly too specific and the fact that yoongi GETS what’s in his crew chief’s mind is just amazing

something about the abruptness and warmth of the situation..,.

also not to mention the endless opportunities for photos and then puns and then enough material for his crew chief to feel like the motherfucking boss that he is..,.,

yoongi specifically hired someone to fly a drone and take overhead pictures in which the people are just walking diagonally in their boring old black suits, and there’s jIMIN standing right dab in the middle in his outstanding red suit (you were the one who found then bought it for him as a gift) looking UP and then smoldering at the camera with his hands in his pockets

:D

for the record :D jimin has that framed in his house :D

see??? yoongi has such a notorious track record for being good in what he does, and that includes planning

aight aight he humbly thinks that it’s not wrong to tap into his god complex every once in awhile but holy shit mAYBE he’s omnipotent

but right now?

as in right now?

yoongi thinks that there’s a glitch in the system

:O

maybe HE’S the glitch

he is a pathetic speck of dust in the universe

he’s a sim that’s been rendering for the past hour and can never be moved away from walking into the wall no matter how many times you reset

for once, yoongi is absolutely clueless.

he thinks he’s screaming into the void but now it’s spiraled into what if HE’S the void

it’s february 1st!!!

it’s the first day of february, right?

uh-huh and what is the day after february 1?

february 2, of course!!!

how about twelve days after that

......

WHAT’S YOONGI SUPPOSED TO GET YOU FOR VALENTINE’S????????????????

it’s a little dent to his ego but he just swallowed his pride to ask jungkook what you’d like

they’re progressing as best friends anyway but of jungkook would never let yoongi live down his asshole phase when he gets tOO comfortable <3

yoongi once pointed at a zit that was forming on your cheek bc you were nearing your period

jungkook does poke fun at u and ur zits he’d have to give you pimple patches for, but that dOESN’T mean yoongi can do it too >:(

“hey! remember when you were an asshole and blamed y/n-...”

they’re clearly not hostile towards each other, that’s for sure

yoongi allows the boy to hug him every once in a while but that’s mostly because he needs good rep with your best friend that you’re attached to the hip to

that’s what exactly perplexes yoongi rn

he aaked jungkook for help and he straight-up just LAUGHED at him

“what’s so funny about my frustrations huh???”

kook actually looks like he’s gonna pass out lmao

his cheeks are all hot and red and his eyes are just begging to tear up

“why would you ask me what to get y/n for valentine’s??”

“because you’re her best friend?????”

he couldn’t be any more confused because why does koo find that as a surprise

he should actually be happy because he’s here bEGGING for a clue

“exactly! i’m y/n’s best friend, not boyfriend.”

yoongi squints at that

....

..... isn’t that established enough?

jungkook just snorts at how he looks clueless, snagging another chicken nugget that his hyung’s bought to butter him up

“that takes away the whole essence of the gift, don’t you think?” he starts, tilting his head to see if yoongs is catching his drift

<3 he’s not <3

“you’re allowing me to think of myself as y/n’s boyfriend to get a present?”

oh

yoongi’s face falls

he’s totally underestimated jungkook’s ability to catch onto moral dilemmas

“or are you making me think as is? wouldn’t that equate to a boy-friend gift iNSTEAD of a boyfriend gift?”

holy shit

yoongi, in fact, doesn’t have all bases covered.

when it comes to something as supposedly easy as this, he is definitely not in the drift

he’s not in pole position for this one!!!

he probably isn’t even placed all the way to the back!!!

he’s most likely outside the arena!!!! :D

he is certainly MILES away and not in a good way

jungkook claps him in the back twice, snagging his meal before yoongi even gets the idea to take it back

“you’re all alone in this one, man :D”

for a change, jungkook’s the one who shoos yoongi out 

he’s literally just STANDING there dumbfounded and on top of that, he just looks like a character that isn’t done loading yet

literally what else could he buy for you when he’s utilized all his gift ideas for the past week??

it’s to his own accord that he spoils you but now he’s just empty thinking about a special one

maybe his excessive knowledge about movies n shows could come in handy!! after all he’s spent hours watching them when he’s in queue to drive

even jimin used that to his advantage for yoongi to get gold flawlessly and would risk getting his hand bitten to turn off the TV

the most driven yoongi would ever be (before the time that his girlfriend just happened to be his pit crew member and blows him a kiss telepathically) was when he’s in a cliffhanger and he gets snatched up

he NEEDS to know if ji eun-tak removes the sword from kim shin’s chest!!! it’s literally a life or death moment and it makes yoongi zOOM past everyone

alright think

uh he could buy you a star??

you’re just “naming” an entity that belongs to the cosmos and totally nOT to some random people with like a hundred dollars to spare

that’d be so fucking dumb

it could be a bit more personal??

no nvm you already have the key to his apartment

and just last week, he gave you his perfume!! and the week before that, yoongi handed you all his tracksuits that he didn’t wear anymore

what’s something that’s sentimental and not as quick-lived as flowers.,,.

something that just pricks you by the neck and would leave you no choice but to let his valentine’s gift live in your mind rent-free for the rest of your life.,.,.

oh

hmmm

wait a second :D

yoongi’s been buzzing non-stop and he always has to physically clamp his mouth shut just to keep himself from spoiling his gift early-on

“yoongs omg look at this gingerbread h-...”

“BABE I’LL BE RIGHT BACK YEAH?? GOTTA GO TO THE BATHROOM”

you aren’t that suspicious of his behavior but you’ll take it anyway, being particularly amused at his new attitude of jumping two feet into the air at the random things that you say

in fact, yoongi’s so excited that he’s woke up at 5 in the morning with nO alarm at all and without the need to scoff at every single thing

he doesn’t even act like this for his official schedule ://

he’s gonna pour in his time for breakfast because of course that would put you in a good mood!!!! nuh-uh he’s not just gonna pour cereal for you into a bowl and call it a day

it’s  (っ◔◡◔)っ ♥ valentine's ♥  day and he’ll assume the role of the boyfriend who outperforms himself every time

yoongi’s whipped up like five of your favorites for breakfast and he was jUST about to load it into this caddy that he’s specifically bought for this day (the top parts dismantles to a tray which is sO cool) and take it into your room when-

... when you’re already awake?

and leaving your room dressed in what’s definitely not his shirt and most probably your errand clothes????

he’s not quite catching on here

and neither are you lmao

yoongi gets a fat kiss on his cheek and that’s about it, leaning into more so you’d kiss him again but you uh.,. you don’t do that?

“....... good morning i guess????”

he physically gets motion sickness just by looking at you fetch things around to throw into your bag hurriedly and he has YEARS of racing under his belt pls

he feels hesitant to ask, really, hiding the miniscule and the minor yet sTILL hurting burn by the base of his thumb behind his back, voice turning low in question

“where are you going?”

you’re a lil concerned because yoongi never got this soft-spoken, but u just chalk it up to the fact that he woke up before you instead of the other way around

“gonna buy us a new couch,” you only falter for a little, grabbing the keys to your car that he squints at

“i can drive you there,” he offers and more-on pleads to spend a little more time with you, but you dismiss him with a hand

“it’s okay!! i know you don’t like shopping that much anyway, so you could just go rest back here :D”

that is true

maybe partially true

....

alright starting now that is a big fat LIE 

“no, no, it’s okay!! if you don’t — you can take my car instead if you don’t want me... to come with?”

he pauses a little unsurely, giving you an offer that would atleast comfort him in his own ways

yoongi legitimately owns a row of parking spots by the garage to accommodate his little collection!! just take one with you and that way he’ll feel that he’s with you

all of them have receivers for comms and maybe that way, you could tell him on the way to the store why you’re LEAVING him to buy a couch so early in the morning of this particular day

“bringing your lamborghini to a furniture store doesn’t sound like the best idea, no?”

you cheekily reply back, holding his forearms together to look up at him playfully and he softens quickly

ok maybe he’s not that frustrated anymore

yoongi once again (and pathetically) oFFERS his black card to you, an eager smile on your face when you shake your head no because YOU’LL buy the couch alright

he still feels a little dejected when you kiss him goodbye with a skip on your step, his multiple dishes for breakfast long-forgotten

no worries!!

this is just a lil hiccup!! nothing a little water couldn’t fix :D

he wants to look at the positive side of you leaving and not even greeting him a happy valentine’s day!! there needs to be a silver lining pls

maybe this was your plan all along!!!! purposely forgetting what today is!!!

that’s probably a lot of fun :D 

oH OKAY OKAY maybe that translates to couch sex???

uhhh you’re gonna have a giggly n romantic dinner at the couch later??

instead of regular stuffing, the couch’s actually filled with presents???

maybe it’s a signal?? couch dOES have the same amount of letters and sounds alot like coo-

what if it’s a couch but like...  

ｍｅｔａｐｈｏｒｉｃａｌｌｙ

that’s it tHAT’S the spirit!!

yoongi doesn’t even know why he’s worrying about all these things because frankly, he knows you enough to know that you wouldn’t forget

you don’t like being behind on things either which is why he shouldn’t underestimate you

you always have tricks up your sleeve and yoongi knows that your first valentine’s as a couple wouldn’t end up in sad tears :))

uh

on second thought

maybe this day is gonna end in sad tears

knowing you, you’ve probably done your research on the couches themselves bEFORE you went to the store

 maybe you’d be over about two hours maximum

okay maybe the store’s packed and they’re looking through their stocks? ok three hours maximum maybe

perhaps there was someone who bought all the couches and you’re waiting for a restock?? alright…. four hours maximum

you’ve forgotten about your boyfriend and the fact that it’s valentine’s day… nine hours maximum

yoongi’s just so sad

he is a blob of anguish personified and he’s cold and alone

he feels so unlike himself and he feels bad

so unlike himself, that he doesn’t even pick up his phone the moment it rings with a notification

maybe it’s best that he’s just lyinG there on bed with his face down 

he feels as useless like the extra chips that would be ignored in a camping trip because everyone overestimated the amount that they’d be eating

yoongi feels like he’s the equivalent of the crumbs left by the bottom of the toaster

: (

his head perks up immediately when he hears the door open though, quickly rearranging himself in the bed to seem more natural and definitely nOT going thru the temptation of hibernation

“yoon- oh! good news, they say it’ll get delivered by tomorrow!!”

you tell him like it’s no big deal because after hours outside, the couch ISN’T you

you take your part in squeezing into the sheets, yoongi quickly placing himself to where your shoulder meets your clavicle and takes refuge there

you seem so unbuzzed and unbothered and he’s the polar opposite

he feels impssibly tINY that even the vulnerability he feels shows up thru his voice

“baby?” 

“hm?” you reply as quick, absent-mindedly running your hand through his hair with your eyes glued on the show in front of you

“what do you think about valentine’s?”

okay that’s a sudden squestion??

his bottom lip’s tucked, taking note of the way you snort playfully and don’t even think twice about what you say next

“valentine’s? i think it’s pretty pointless to be honest lmao”

you do kINDA view it that way

you just feel that it’s become an excuse to be the only one (1) acceptable day to make someone feel loved ?? sir there are literally 364 more

realistically thinking, it’s just a random day that’s been given meaning and it seems like something that’s MEANT to be only reserved for that day

it’s the same as new year resolutions!!!! you’re motivated oNLY by the calendar date itself and not by the fact that uhhhh you could lit rally do it any other day

you’re explaining softly, even tilting to a yawn because your feet are tired because of last minute errands until you hear it

yoongi’s tearing up to your chest and he’s not even hiding it

his sobs are soft and could be barely heard and that’s what makes it hurt even more

“what?? w-why are you crying???”

you spring up almost immediately, but yoongi’s head only pins you down because as much as he’s crying, he doesn’t want you to go

this is his greatest fear and he doesn’t want it to be realized

“a-are you — are you b-breaking up with me?”

...

......

“what? no, yoongi!”

you almost yell at him with sO much certainty that his eyes widen, head tilting because you sound more sure than ever

how could he even think THAT ??

“you didn’t let me finish!!”

:O

yoongi considerably pales bc there’s more to that??

you weren’t done stepping all over valentine’s day??

dear god pLEASE NO

you surprise him once again when you hold his face firmly, cheeks squished together with an intimidating loving stare

“but despite all that, you make me want to celebrate valentine’s with you.”

oh

that sounds better

“you changed my perspective, y’know?” you make quick work of wiping his tears away with the pads of your thumbs, quietly laughing under your breath because you didn’t expect that he’d take it this way. “would willingly subject myself to capitalism, just for you babe!!!”

yoongi breaks into a goofy smile at that, melting just as quick as he cried and leaned more to your touch bc after all that, he just wants to be hELD

“i’ll treat you real good tomorrow.”

you promise sincerely, pressing a playfully wet kiss right on the middle of his forehead, “it’s hearts day tomorrow, right??”

lmao

now THIS is embarrassing

he tries not to laugh, pursing his lips because his breathing’s shaky with trying to keep it stable

“actually uhm.,.,, valentine’s is actually today.”

you practically LAUNCH yoongi away from you, fishing for your phone by the nightstand in panic

WHAT???????

ok that clearly reads february 14

“i’m so sorry,” you apologize again and again, burying yourself in yoongi’s neck with how ashamed you feel but he just can’t hELP asking

“s’okay,” he mumbles, massaging your nape gently in small circles before he whispers, “did you get me anything?”

except for your blunder about the date and not grasping the concept of time, you luckily did NOT fuck up yoongi’s gift :D

he’s being tugged down so you could whisper, partly to also hide your cheeks that are warm just by thinking how you even came up with it

“couch sex.”

yoongi heartily gIGGLES because that just confirms his assumptions, a nice contrast to his tear-stained cheeks

“o-oh and polaroid nudes!! :D”

his eyes BULGED out that he looked like an overfed goldfish for a sec

he did not expect that but he is definitely not opposed to that

“me? d-did you get me something?”

you feel a lil shy to even ask but he takes it in stride because of coURSE he did for his best love!!!

he was BORN for this question

he nudges you so you’d lie on a pillow, going out to retrieve something very quickly when he comes back with a manila envelope in his hands, definitely piquing your interest

it’s something he’s thought about intricately and he just feels so sure of it

“y-yoongs?”

it’s a plot of land

an actual, very real, certificate saying that there’s this plot of land titled underneath your name and yoongi’s 

“you can do whatever you want with it.”

he means that wholly

you could turn it into a kim kradle franchise!! you’re an all-rounder anyway and if the guys would want anyone to expand their business, it’d be you

could be turned into an establishment!! the two of you ate somewhere called that ramen place one time and you’ve considered that your zenith

it’s land for whatever you want it to be

it’s free real estate under your name and his and it’s this realization that shakes you to your core

yoongi’s too pleasantly soothed with your response that he instantly notices the moment your nose scrunches, this time being your turn to cry

“what about a house?”

your voice is croaky and he makes sure to fORCE you to blow your nose and he won’t let you continue until you do just that

“built from the ground up. doesn’t have to be finished within half a year or however long the tv says it should take,” you gulp down the water he hands you, lip trembling into an ugly sob

“we’ll have a big garage for you, okay?”

yoongi cackles at your plans, touched at the same time because this is happening

“then we’ll spend all the rest of our valentine’s there.”

his eyes once again pOP and he’ll go back to crying again 

the two of you prolly look ridiculous crying and holding each other, flicking his forehead when he starts to spiral again

“calm down lover boy, we’ll feel it when the time’s right!!”

he eagerly nods at that, more than eagerly pushing you out of the bed so you could get changed 

yoongi loves you but you will NOT cuddle him while wearing outside clothes ://

“can’t wait for tomorrow.”

“couch sex? or the polaroids? or the new pair of shoes i hid under the bed??”

AHHHHHH

maybe all of the above. probably all tomorrows with you

:)

yoongi snorts, pressing yet another warm kiss to you

he’s about to sleep when you move closer, whispering for the last time for the night

“i’ll let you know just in case but my eXACT ring size is-...”

[giowritess]

— prompt & trope list  —

p r o m p t & trope l i s t  —   m a s t e r l i s t

 — under the cut you have a compilation of prompts and tropes I’ve created and found here on Tumblr and internet. 

— don’t forget to check my fandoms post to see who and what I write for!

TROPES

1. Christmas

2. New Year

3. Valentine’s Day

4. Mother’s Day

5. Father’s Day

6. Wedding

7. Arranged marriage

8. Babysitter

9. Coffee shop

10. Book store

11. Fake dating/marriage

12. Forbidden love

13. Pet store

14. Parent

15. Teacher

16. Flower shop

17. Locked in a room

18. Bed sharing

19. Stranded due to weather

20. Next door neighbors

21. Bakery

FLUFF/GENERAL/ROMANCE

1. You seem like a bad boy/girl/person type. 2. Oh my god, did you just say that out loud? 3. You expecting someone? 4.Do you need a place to stay for tonight? 5. Look at us, we’re basically a couple already. 6. Compliments won’t pay my drinks. 7. Maybe, just maybe, if I get a free drink I might consider talking to you. 8. That won’t work. Try again. 9. You couldn’t handle me even if I came with instructions. 10. Do you trust me? 11. Can I kiss you? 12. It’s lonely here without you. 13. Is that my shirt? 14. You own my heart. 15. We’re more than friends and you know it! 16. I don’t wanna sleep alone tonight. 17. It was you the whole time. 18. I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretending they’re you. 19. I’m not going anywhere. 20. You make me want things I can’t have. 21. Steal the blankets again and I’ll put my cold feet on you. 22. You’re in love with her. 23. I don’t know if I want to kiss you or shove you off a bridge. 24. Are you even listening to me?! 25. I didn’t think you could get any less romantic. 26. You make everyday worth living. 27. You’ve shown me what love feels like. 28. You’ve always felt like home. 29. I can’t imagine a world/life without you. 30. I am home. 31. I’m right where I belong. 32. Can’t you stay a little longer? 33. You’re the only one I wanna wake up next to. 34. You make me want to be better. 35. I think I’m in love with you, and that scares the crap out of me. 36. I think you’re just afraid to be happy. 37. Why haven’t you kissed me already? 38. You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. 39. I can’t stay away from you. 40. I’m better when I’m with you. 41. I tried my best not to feel anything for you, but I failed. 42. I don’t want to be alone right now.  43. I don’t trust myself around you. 44. I don’t think anyone’s ever said that to me before. 45. Can we just lie here for a moment? 46. I’ve never hated you. You just... make me feel things I don’t understand. 47. If you don’t tell me to stop, I’m going to kiss you. 48. I could get used to waking up next to you, actually. 49. Please, don’t cry. I can’t stand to see you cry. 50. You’re a terrible liar. 51. You’re the only person I want to be with tonight. 52. You’re not going anywhere. 53. You were always good for me. 54. You’re more than just a one night stand. 55. I’ve been falling in love with you since the first day we met.

ANGST & SAD

1. I can’t stand the thought of you. 2. Don’t fuck this up. 3. How stupid do you think I am? 4. You broke my heart and all you can say is sorry? 5. Don’t you dare to leave me. Not now. 6. I’m dying. There’s nothing you can do about it. 7. I’m not gonna lie. This isn’t how I planned for this to go down. 8. I can’t do the things you do. 9. I might never get another chance to say this. 10. Tell me I’m wrong. 11. How much of that did you hear? 12. I thought I could trust you. 13. Are you just going to leave me here? 14. Don’t. I don’t have to hear your pathetic excuses anymore. 15. You knew about this all along, didn’t you? 16. I still believe there’s a good person in you. 17. It was necessary. 18. I’m sorry this had to go down like this. 19. What the hell is wrong with you?! 20. Is that how little you think of me? 21. I’m too sober for this shit. 22. It’s not that easy. 23. You’re more than that. 24. She’s hot, but she’s evil. 25. Well, behaved women rarely make history, do they? 26. That’s not what I meant and you know it. 27. I have to tell you something. 28. Why am I not surprised? 29. She’s not yours. 30. There’s no us. There never was. 31. I made a mistake. 32. Please, don’t walk out that door. 33. When were you going to tell me? 34. The worst thing is, that even after all of that, I’m still in love with you. 35. Would you just shut up and listen to me for two goddamn seconds? 36. If i asked you to stay, would you? 37. I don’t know who you are anymore. 38. I trusted you. 39. Hang on. You’re gonna be okay. Keep breathing. 40. You crossed a line. 41. There’s no turning back from this. 42. I needed you, and you weren’t there.

SMUT — 18+

1. Don’t make me take you home and punish you. 2. I’ve never wanted anyone to fuck me this badly. 3. You’re more than just a one night stand. 4. Like what you see? 5. Try to stay quiet, understand? 6. We’re in public, you know. 7. I really don’t care. You still look hot and i’m trying not to kiss/fuck you senseless right now. 8. Are you sure? Once we start, i might not be able to stop. 9. Make me. 10. Stop teasing me so much. 11. You’re in trouble now. 12. First one to make a noise loses. 13. Mine. 14. Behave. 15. What did you just say? 16. Come here. 17. Watch me. 18. If you interrupt me one more time, so help me god. 19. If you insist. 20. Could he make you feel as good as i do? 21. You make a sound and its game over. 22. If i have to stop what i’m doing, you wont be able to walk for the next week. 23. I haven’t even touched you and you’re already this wet. 24. C’mere, you can sit on my lap until i’m done working. 25. What? Does that feel good? 26. If we get caught i’m blaming you. 27. We have to be quiet. 28. Tell me again. 29. Say it. 30. If you don’t like my teasing, then why are you moaning? 31. I’m gonna fuck you so hard that you forget you ever even met that asshole. 32. You better shut that pretty little mouth before i put it to work, doll. 33. I really want to kiss you right now. 34. Then do it. 35. You’re not taking me to bed. Ever. 36. Who said it had to be on the bed? 37. She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but i bet behind closed doors she’s latex and whips. 38. Ah, he’s playing hard-to-get. Thats cute. 39. Don’t fucking touch what is not yours. 40. I’m not sure if its a sexual thing or not. 41. There’s people here. 42. I don’t care what you do,  just fuck me. 43. Fuck you. 44. I’m not going to touch you unless you beg. 45. You can’t tease me like that and expect not to be punished. 46. I’m gonna strangle you. 47. Is that a promise? 48. You look a bit tied up, want me to come back later? 49. Stop distracting me. 50. I know for a fact that you can be a hell of a lot louder than that. 51. Saddle up doll. 52. What are you doing in my bed?! 53. If you're going to act like a little brat then I'm going to treat you like a little brat. 54. You'd better be quiet or everyone's going to know what a naughty little slut you are. 55. Look at you, I've only started using my fingers and you're already shaking. 56. I can't wait to be on my knees for you later. 57. Oh honey, you know, you really shouldn't tease me. 58. If you keep making those sounds I'm not going to be able to stop myself. 59. Such a needy little thing, aren't you? 60. You better watch your fucking mouth. 61. I love the way you look with my fingers inside you. 62. Wanna see what I'm wearing underneath all this? 63. I wonder what your girlfriend/boyfriend would do if they knew what you were doing right now. 64. Do you know how beautiful you are? It's truly distracting. 65. If you leave the house wearing that then the second you get back home I'm going to bend you over that bed. 66. I'm gonna fuck you in front of the mirror, I want you to see how pretty you look when you're spreading your legs for me. 67. Let me show you what happens to little brats who don't follow the rules. 68. You know, there wasn't a single thing to eat in the kitchen until you walked in.

[the-last-cuddlebender]

I straight up check your profile daily for the southern raiders analysis you’re working on. 👀👀 where IS IT 😩

bRUH I am so excited to drop this analysis you have no idea (It’s creeping up to 22k+ I am gonna cryyyyyyyyyyyy). The only problem is that my TSR analysis and “Moon theory” are so incredibly hard to structure and articulate. I’m happy you’re so excited for it, though!!! Truly, it’s an honor. I’ll give you a taste of my madness and what’s to come, but be warned: it may be a bit hard to follow because TSR (from how I’ve come to understand it) is about the vagueness of beginnings, endings, and cycles, so there isn’t really a starting point for me to begin with. (So it may seem a tad bit like a ramble in some points that I haven’t fleshed out yet/am summarizing for this ask)

This analysis has me on trails like THIS brilliant nonsense, and I am 1000000000% here for it:

Roku: “The spirit's name is Koh, but he is very dangerous. They call him The Face Stealer.”

Katara: “We’re going to find the man who took my mother from me.”...“That’s him. That’s the monster.”

Lion Turtle: “To bend another's energy, your own spirit must be unbendable, or you will be corrupted and destroyed.”

Roku: “When you speak with him, you must be very careful to show no emotion at all. Not the slightest expression, or he will steal your face.”

Hama: “Congratulations, Katara. You’re a bloodbender.”

(If Katara had killed Yon Rha, she would be giving up her identity--her face. Not only would she have become a killer, but she would be killing what made her Katara)

Aang: “Let your anger out, and then let it go. Forgive him.”

Forgive him--approach him for what he is, not the faces your memories or your heart are having him wear. See him for the pathetic man he is in that moment right in front of you.

Aang’s forgiveness is seeing someone for the sum of their parts. It’s judging them and seeing through into their very soul, just like the Firebending Masters saw through Zuko being the Crown Prince and Aang being the Avatar. That meant nothing to the Masters. What did matter to them was who the boys were right there, right then, right in front of them.

“Why should I hold a grudge against you for something you did in a past life? After all, you’re a different person, now. You’ve come to me with a new face.”

But anyways...

If I can give no other take-away from my analysis and moon theory, it’s that Yin and Yang are not two entities; they are three. I think the fandom’s misunderstanding of it may be why the discourse on TSR (and Aang, Katara, and Zuko) is so black and white (pun intended lol). 

“But Yin and Yang are obviously two things. Don’t you know the symbol?” I hear some people already saying.

Wrong, sir.

It has never been just Yin and Yang. Yin and Yang have never existed as just two things.

They are Yin and Yang and Wu Wei.

(Aunt Wu has her name for a reason, and she has the mark of the wise in her hair for a reason, too...AND she is at odds with Sokka in The Fortuneteller for a reason, too!!!...but that’s for the analysis😉)

Balance isn’t good triumphing over evil. Balance is good and evil. Balance is standing on the flow between two opposites--it’s the compliment that connects them. (The koi fish live in an oasis for a reason.)

I’ll explain what Wu Wei is later in the full analysis (like many things in here), but here’s some of my evidences and proofs for the “Yin Yang trio”:

The Tibetan “Wheel of Dharma”

(I’ll also explain the Wheel and Dharma and etc. later because it has everything to do with Koh and the moon) Long story short, the wheel and its spokes are representative of the 8 steps to enlightenment and the cycle of rebirth. 

Look at the hub of the wheel. It’s a swirl made of 3 parts.

It is also a white lotus

Here’s the colored version of the wheel (as an alter):

Recognize the colors?

BLUE, WHITE (or gold, depending), & RED

These are the “THREE TREASURES” OR JEWELS.

They symbolize DHARMA, BUDDHA, & SANGHA respectively. 

KATARA, AANG, & ZUKO

water, air, & fire

T H R E E

Bato: “Ice dodging is a ceremonial test of wisdom, bravery, and trust.

Bato: “The spirits of water bear witness to these marks...”

Why does Bato say spirit(s) plural? The Ocean and the Moon are only two spirits. The Ocean can’t be two things. Right?

WRONG

Yue: “The legends say the Moon was the first waterbender. Our ancestors saw how it pushed and pulled the tides and learned how to do it themselves.”

The Moon--singular. The Tides--plural (push and pull)

Lion Turtle: “In the era before the Avatar, we bent not the elements, but the energy within our senses.”

The moon pushing and pulling the tide is the moon bending the energy of its world. 

Katara finding balance between “being too weak to do it” or “strong enough not to” is her bending the energy within herself.

It’s two solutions written as a question but said as a statement.

Yue: “Our ancestors saw how it pushed and pulled the tides and learned how to do it themselves”

THE SOUTHERN RAIDERS IS ABOUT AANG AND ZUKO LEARNING FROM KATARA. Katara had already learned from Aang and Zuko all leading up to TSR. That was her studying. TSR was her test.

TSR is Zuko’s and Aang’s studying. Sozin’s Comet is their test.

Bato: “For Sokka, the Mark of the Wise. The same mark your father earned. For Katara, the Mark of the Brave. Your courage inspires us. And for Aang, the Mark of the Trusted. You are now an honorary member of the Water Tribe.”

Aang - Wise (”you’re pretty wise for a kid”)

Katara - Brave (the same mark her mother earned)

Zuko - Trusted (”I was the first person to trust you”)

Sokka - Bato ("I am to have no part in this--you pass or fail on your own.”)

Yin and Yang are nothing without their dance. The Avatar and the Firelord mean nothing if they don’t have a world to rebuild.

The valley means nothing if there isn’t anyone to live in it.

Fighting is useless if there isn’t someone to fight for, otherwise it is “selfish and stupid”

Katara had to have a reason to return from Yon Rha. She needed to have Aang waiting for her. If she didn’t have a reason to stay, then she wouldn’t have a reason to go.

To have a reason to sleep, a person has to have a reason to wake up.

Katara: “Aang. He just took his glider and disappeared. He has this ridiculous notion that he has to save the world alone; that it's all his responsibility.”

Hakoda: “Maybe that's his way of being brave.”

(Bato: “For Katara, the Mark of the Brave. Your courage inspires us.”)

Katara: “It's not brave! It's selfish and stupid! We could be helping him! And I know the world needs him, but doesn't he know how much we need him, too? How can he just leave us behind?!”

(It was, in fact, not easy for Aang to ‘do nothing’)

Katara: “I understand why you left. I really do, and I know that you had to go, so why do I still feel this way? I'm so sad and angry...and hurt.”

Hakoda: “I love you more than anything. You and your brother are my entire world. I thought about you every day when I was gone, and every night when I went to sleep, I would lie awake missing you so much it would ache.”

(AND YUE IS ONE OF THE ONES TO SAVE AANG IN THE OCEAN FOR A REASON)

Thinking and missing: a matter of mind (who) and heart (want). 

Iroh: “Who are you? And what do you want?”

Sokka: “We need to go back. I wanna see Dad, but helping Aang is where we're needed the most.”

Mai: “I love Zuko more than I fear you.”

BUT YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT THE MOON FOR A HOT SECOND???

I’LL TELL YOU ABOUT THE MOON

I’LL TELL YOU ABOUT 2 MOONS

OH

OH REALLY???

OH REALLY, ZUKO

A FEW HOURS YOU SAY?

THEN TELL ME, ZUKO

WHY IS THE SUN GOING UP

WHEN IT IS THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT A FEW HOURS LATER

AND KATARA IS SLEEPING SO YOU CAN’T TELL ME IT’S BECAUSE YOU RISE WITH THE SUN OTHERWISE SHE’D BE WIDE AWAKE DURING THE FULL MOON THAT SHE USES TO BLOODBEND NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES LATER

THIS, MY FRIENDS, IS A HARVEST MOON

WHICH IS THE LAST FULL MOON OF THE SUMMER 

(and looks off color when it rises/falls because of the angle of the rise/fall in the atmosphere...it’s normal once overhead)

AND SYMOLIZES HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF

“We’re going to find the MAN who took my mother from me.”

“That’s him. That’s the MONSTER.”

8 spokes on the wheel

Katara was 8 when Kya was killed

8 steps to enlightenment (the “Eightfold Path”)

8 phases of the moon

8 faces of Koh

“One of your previous incarnations tried to slay me! Be it 8 or 9 hundred years ago” (but time is an illusion, so hundreds mean nothing)

THE OTHER TWO MOONS THAT ARE CONSUMING MY EVERY WAKING MOMENT???:

1.) The WOLF MOON--the first full moon of the new year (a love between the wolf and the moon in the harshest winters...connection is kindof obvious lmao)

2.) THE THUNDER MOON

The Thunder Moon is the full moon of July. It is also known as the Buck Moon--for when young buck regrow their antlers.

Yue: “My hair turned white.”

Zuko: *cuts and re-grows his hair*

Aang: “I have hair?”

The Thunder Moon--the full moon of July--is also the beginning of a certain Buddhist holiday.

DHARMA DAY

WHICH CELEBRATES THE BEGINING OF BUDDHISM AND THE FIRST OF THE 8 STEPS (the first spoke of the Dharma Wheel) TOWARDS ENLIGHTENMENT

AVATAR IS ALL ABOUT CYCLES

THE SOUTHERN RAIDERS IS ALL ABOUT BREAKING THEM

I haven’t even touched Jung, Koh, Hinduism, and Buddhism yet

or the fact that Katara and Kya are the only characters in the entire series to wear moons on their clothing and that, together, they form an actual lunar phenomenon

or why the spirit oasis isn’t a complete circle

or the fact that this thing that Aang is told to chase is just like Whaletail Island:

or how important the Great Divide and the Solstice are

AND I’M JUST GETTING STARTED

BECAUSE EVERYTHING IN THE SOUTHERN RAIDERS--RIGHT DOWN TO THE SOUND DESIGN--IS ABSOLUTELY MONUMENTAL IN UNDERSTANDING THE SHOW, ITS MESSAGE, ENERGYBENDING, AND LITERALLY EVERYTHING ELSE

TLDR: Idk how the heck I’m going to arrange or articulate this analysis because it is WILD. Be warned: There is literally no exact beginning and ending to this analysis because the whole point of Yin and Yang is that is has no beginning or ending (...kindof...), so you’ll have to bear with me once I’m done editing it into something that’s somewhat coherent.

These are just SOME of the things I’ve been able to answer with my moon theory and analysis of The Southern Raiders as it currently stands:

Why “letting go” isn’t really letting go (as we understand it...see: Aang’s confrontation with Koh)

Why Lake Laogai and the Spirit World are symbolically the same thing.

Zuko’s advice to the bullfrog is actually a summary of the show, energybending, the origin of bending, and the definition of Aang’s “forgiveness” I stg

Why “Sokka’s instincts” are the reason Katara yells at Sokka

Believe it or not, every time Katara mentions her mother, it is at specific times for specific reasons.

^^^same thing for the moon, lack of moon, moon positioning, etc.

Katara’s mother’s necklace is more important than we realize.

Who the faces of Koh are and WHY they are there.

The true meaning of Jet’s sacrifice.

Why Jet’s episode about the dam explains the entirety of TSR as it pertains to Katara (all the way down to the little girl who runs to get her doll after the dam breaks)

Why Katara actually DID forgive Yon Rha, and the fact that she doesn’t even know it is proof that she did

^^^^^Aang’s definition of forgiveness is completely misunderstood by the fandom, and the way he “forgives” is sososo much deeper than “moving on”, and it is DEFINATELY by no means “doing  nothing” or “excusing” past actions.

The importance of lightning, Zuko, Aang, and Katara.

The absolutely monumental and not nearly talked about importance of Jeong-Jeong like holy crap.

How Katara and Azula are just as much of a Yin and Yang as Zuko and Aang but not in the way we think they are

Why Koh has the Blue Spirit’s face

Why Koh DOESN’T have the Painted Lady’s face.

Who Ni-Ni from Katara’s campfire story in The Puppetmaster is 

How and why Iroh was able to learn firebending from the Masters even though he didn’t have a partner. 

How/Why Azula had her breakdown and why she saw her mother in the mirror

Why “Leaves from the Vine” and “Four Seasons” are the same song, explain Azula’s downfall, and explain the Yin and Yang of TSR.

Why Katara and Sokka are so often mistaken for parental figures.

Why Aang’s flashbacks to the Air Nomads are so important in understanding TSR.

Why Toph and Suki disappear after the campfire in TSR.

How Hakoda, Gyatso, and Kya are all connected.

Why it is so dang important that Azula shows up in the beginning of TSR.

The importance of the Spirit Oasis.

Energybending, healing with waterbending, Aang’s trauma, and Zuko’s scar.

Why Zuko gives Katara the exact opposite advise in TSR that he gave her in the catacombs. 

How everything could be predicted and read by the moon.

WHY YIN AND YANG ARE THREE THINGS AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THREE THINGS.

HOW ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL OF THIS TIES BACK TO THE MOON AND BUDDHIST BELIEFS--AND YEAH THE MOON AND BUDDHISM AND HINDUISM ARE MORE CONNECTED IN ATLA THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE.

AND HOW IT LEADS INTO OUR MODERN UNDERSTANDING OF THE SELF--BECAUSE JUNG TOOK GREAT INFLUENCE IN HIS DEVELOPING THEORY OF THE CONSCIOUS AND THE SUBCONSCIOUS FROM THE HINDU/BUDDHIST RELIGIONS 

^^^^AND ALSO THE THEORY OF THE SHADOW AND THE PERSONA 

The ocean is a deep, dark, unknown place with a lot of hidden monsters (like Yon Rah). Katara needed a light to find her monster, but she also needed somewhere she could breathe when she came back up for air.

If she didn’t have both Zuko and Aang, Katara would have drowned. 

I wasn’t kidding when I said this was a thesis, and what I’ve said and listed here isn’t even all that I have.

btw This all does line up on the traditional Yin Yang symbol we know and see in the show, but I don’t have enough space here for that lmao. That’ll be in the analysis

I hope you enjoyed this little taste, my friend, because I need to sit down for a hot second before my brain leaks out of my ears. Sorry for the ramble. I promise the analysis isn’t like this lol. This is just me trying to summarize as best as I can. 

***Disclaimer: My points are always subject to change since I am still researching. These are the facts as I’ve found and applied them to the evidences I’ve noted from in the show. I’m always open for friendly discussion or any directions to better sources on Buddhism/Tao/Jung!***

[winterstorm032802]

Trauma

Tw: Panic attack

Nora: *walking around Camp Broken Glass* ...

Get away from them you bastard!

It seems our time is up

If you see anyone, please tell them I'm here!

Hey! You're one of us, come help!

Get behind!

...

...

T R Y T O L I V E

Nora: *falls to one knee, her hand covering some of her face as she let's out a shaky breath* (What's going on with me? Why can't I stand?)

Voices murmur around Nora, the black shapes of people surround her and voices call out from around

You're pathetic

For whom do you fight?

Fly away Meteion

The Light is too much for one to bear

A smile better suits a hero

You are nothing

Nora: *holds herself as the feeling of suffocation fills her being* (Stop!) *collapses, the voices fading*

~

???: ...e...up

???: ...us?

Nora: *gasps as she sits up, then begins to cough violently*

Alphinaud: *pats her back softly* Nora. It's Alphinaud and Alisaie here

Nora: *looks at Alphinaud slightly confused* What happened?

Alisaie: You were beginning to panic, we took you into a empty room so you can rest and no longer be surrounded by others

Nora: *looks at her hand* ...I don't feel good

Alphinaud: It's okay *rubs her back* That's alright

Nora: Everything... came rushing back in an instant *clenches her hands* It felt like I was suffocating..! E-Everything was so loud and painful...

Alphinaud: Shh shh, take it easy now. No need to recall so swiftly, take it one at a time now

Nora: I don't understand why this is happening? It never did before, no matter how tough things became

Alisaie & Alphinaud: *glance at each other*

Alphinaud: Nora. All those times after we fought and fretted over the affairs of others. You scarcely took a moment to yourself and mayhaps those traumatic experiences are catching up

Alisaie: Now that the Final Days are gone and a big moment of peace has been returned, it could be that now your mind is playing catch-up, the part of your mind that never took time to process the strain you were put through

Nora: No... I'm fine you guys *smiles weakly* I'm sure I may just be tired

Alphinaud: Nora. You can't keep stuffing it away into the depths of your mind like this, it's okay to feel this. Everyone should come to terms with their experiences, some you have done, but the ones that haunt you, you yourself have neglected

Nora: *tries to smile, eyes tearing up* I-- I'm sorry

Alisaie: Why are you saying sorry?

Nora: I don't know... *cries* I don't know, what else am I to do if not carry this burden and protect the World?

Alisaie: Back at Ultima Thule, we didn't want that for you, no one does but you have fixated on this belief that you must be carrying that pain. You seem to forget we're here for you

Nora: ... *rests her head on Alphinaud's shoulder and holds Alisaie's hand* I'm happy that this battle is over, but a part of me wonders what I'm worth if I'm not there

Alphinaud: Then we can be there to remind you that you're worth so much, even if you don't fight. Your presence is worth so much to everyone

Nora: May I rest a bit longer?

Alisaie: *smiles softly* Sweet dreams

Alphinaud: We'll be here

Nora: *closes her eyes* Thank you

[43sparrows]

d e s e r v e d - {Five x Reader AU}

WARNINGS: drunkenness, language

Word Count: 2,416

Note: r e j e c t but from Five’s perspective! Come scream at me in my inbox 

When Five comes back, there's a series of post-it notes next to the key rack written in Vanya's loose script. Call Y/N back. 

The next post-it is stuck to the first. Y/N called again & asked when you'd be back. Said it's not an emergency, but she does need you? Of course Vanya was confused by that. The code shouldn't be too hard to crack, but sometimes her wellmeaning-ness gets in the way of her astuteness. 

The last post-it is beside the first two: Out with Allison + Klaus at Don Pablo's. Come if you can!

It's a tempting offer after the day he's had. He loves Don Pablo's margaritas, and even if he doesn't want to put up with Klaus' nonsense or Allison's fans, he does love his siblings. 

But Y/N always calls him back when he needs her to. She deserves the same.

Before he can dial her number in, the flashing red light of the answering machine catches his attention. There are six messages.

Hey, it's Y/N again. I'm so sorry for calling too much. I just...I changed my mind if you want to come over. You don't have to, but I'll be here. All night. Bye. 

Hi. It's Y/N. I, um, I would love your company right now. Or like soon. Or you know, as soon as you're available. Unless you don't want--don't want to. That's cool too. Um, ok, sorry again for calling so much, bye.

In the next voicemail, he hears music in the background. Hi. I'm not trying to be needy. Everything's just shit, and you're not. So thanks for not being shit, and call me back. Or just come over. Whichever. Both. No, the second one. K, thanks, byeee.

The music is slightly louder, but her voice is even closer to the phone, almost muffled. Hi, hey, so, I just...I wish...I'm probably stupid, but I think I...yeah, no, nevermind, I'm stupid. Ok, byeeeeee.

The next voicemail starts out in the middle of her sentence. Or rather, lyric. -- thing that got me trippin' This one thing your soul made me feel it It's this one thing you did oh, oh-- Oh, shit. She giggles. It's your voicemail. Sorryyyyyy-- She cuts off then.

This song is softer, and her voice is more slurred than even the last message. What the fuck am I doing. What the fuck am I even doing? Look if you're with someone else, that's ok. It's ok. I get it. Ok? I get it. I'm sorry to keep calling. I don't know. I--I'm sorry. I hope you guys are happy together. You deserve to be happy. I just--fuck. There's a pause before she hangs up, and in the pause he catches the lyric: We'll be playmates and lovers, and share our secret worlds.

Margaritas will have to wait. 

He's in her living room in the next second, and he's never seen her like this. The voicemails were one thing--the range of emotions and descent into intoxication--but she's thrown a one person party, and it's one of the most goddamn pathetic things he's ever seen. He hates it. 

"Y/N?" he asks, and she falls off the fucking couch in her effort to turn around. 

"Five?" she asks, as if surprised to see him there. As if she hadn't called him eight times just to make sure he came. He nods. Her mood seems to have changed from the last voicemail at least, but this still seems all wrong. As wrong as it felt earlier to see her come to do the door with smudged mascara and a tight voice. 

"What are you doing?"

She doesn't respond right away, her face still screwed up in confusion. 

"Dancing. What are you doing?" She stands then, wobbly on her legs. She's never been the most graceful person, but if Five had to guess, he'd blame this on the assortment of empty bottles on her coffee table. There's too many of them and they're way too big. He can't tell if he should be impressed or concerned, so he settles on an emotion somewhere between the two.  

"You called me," he reminds, picking up a bottle of Tennessee honey whiskey. One of the two bottles that still has any liquor left in it. He wonders if he should drink this now or find a way to hide it from her. "Eight times. Did you drink all of these?" 

She scoffs, but seeing as she's drunker than he's ever seen her, he's not sure he deserves the derision. Scratch that, he's certain he doesn't deserve the derision. "No, they were mostly empty."

This makes him feel a bit better, but he's not completely sure he believes her. Instead, he does what he does best and runs some quick calculations in his head. Either she started before he stopped by earlier or in the past six hours she's done nothing but sit and drink. An uncomfortable feeling springs up in his chest at the thought of her turning him away so she can drink alone on her couch. He should have pushed her earlier on the lie. This isn't about work. She hates her job, he knows that, but not this much. There's something more.

"Are you going to tell me what's really going on now?" Five asks, facing her. She's silent for a moment before nodding. He thinks that she must be worse off than he thought when she begins searching around the newspapers on the floor, throwing page after page back down before finally thrusting a paper in his hands. It's an engagement announcement, which makes no sense until he begins to read and a lightbulb comes on when he reaches the names. "Your ex?"

She nods, bouncing with anticipation or maybe to the music. It's hard to tell. "He's getting married," she sings at him, and he winces at the offkey tune. His eyes fall back on the picture, and he takes in the bleached white smile, the girl's hand on the ex's chest flashing a ring too big and flashy to say anything but insecure. 

"Statistically, it'll only last eight years," Five says, his eyes returning to Y/N. She's attempting to lip sync with the song that's playing but is about two seconds behind the actual verse. There's an all too familiar twinge of anger in his chest. She's a complete mess over another man. 

Objectively this should only be a problem because he has enough messes to deal with between his siblings--he doesn't need her on the list too. But he'd be lying if that was the only reason he was angry. He'd be lying if that was a reason he was angry at all. She shouldn't be so upset by this. People get engaged. This guy dumped her. He didn't deserve this. It was over between them. 

He wonders if she held out hope of going back to him. He wonders if he's been nothing more than a distraction for her. 

He wonders why that idea bothers him. 

"You're still...in love with him?" he guesses, and a chorus of no's fall from her lips. The amount of protest is suspicious, but there's fire in her eyes as she moves towards him and grabs his arm. She stops then, squeezing his tricep, and he wonders if she's about to admit something. He doesn't know what he'll do if she does. 

"Y/N," he prompts, and she looks up at him with big eyes. Fuck. 

"I just wish I had something to shove in his face," she says. Fuck. 

"Something to show him how wrong he was about me. You know?" Fuck. 

"I'm fucking future material," she asserts, shaking her hands in his face. And then she retreats with a sigh, grabbing a hold of the only other bottle with liquid in it. "But it looks like he was right. The fucker was right. I'm a reject." 

She thinks she's a reject. 

She thinks she deserves this.

He snatches the bottle away from her before she even has the chance to take a sip.

"Hey," she shouts, grabbing at him, and Five turns away from her to finish it off before she can get to it.  She doesn't need any more alcohol, and he doesn't need any more truth. "Asshole," she grumbles. He's been on the receiving end of that word his entire life, but this is the first time he actually feels like one.

"You didn't need it," he tells her, placing the bottle back on the table before turning his back to her. He should get out of here. He should tell her to take a shower, drink some water, and go to bed. But instead, he's walking to her bedroom door. Because he can't leave. When he calls, she comes. Every time. She doesn't ask questions, doesn't push. She's steady. A constant. She deserves the same. She deserves more than this pathetic pity party. 

"Are you coming or not?" he asks her, and then she's moving towards him with alarming speed considering her present state, but not quite enough to make it into the bedroom at the same time as him. Instead, he finds himself alone for the moment, looking around the room he's so familiar with. The work clothes thrown at the closet door, the scattering of papers and chargers and books and pens on her desk. The seven goddamn candles, all at various heights and always lit whenever she's home. It's a fire hazard, but she refuses to let go of the habit. None of them are lit now, though. 

There's a large thudding sound outside the door, and he already knows what he'll find. Sure enough, she's on the floor, pants tangled in her legs, flailing with all of the dignity of Klaus. He sighs, walking back over to her, slightly relieved when she frees herself before he has to deal with being kicked for trying to help her.

Years of rescuing hostages and dragging around his brothers makes it easy for him to sling her over his shoulders. Thankfully she's allowing herself to be carried and not scared half of her mind which makes the journey significantly easier from the last time he had to do this to someone.

It's a bit of a process to fling back the covers so he can put her in bed. It ends with her more falling onto the mattress as opposed to being placed down, but he's thrown her on a bed enough times that she doesn't seem to mind the slight bounce as she hits the mattress. 

As she settles herself in, he starts cramming all of the stupid pillows he's normally tossing onto the floor behind her back so that she doesn't die. He feels a bit like Vanya, which has that bittersweet feeling blooming in his chest once more.

He's about to tuck the edge of the blanket under the mattress when she sits up slightly and pulls him in, bringing his lips to hers. She tastes like whiskey, but sweeter. There's no burn as her lips move against his with a surprising amount of dexterity. For a fleeting second, Five wonders if he can get secondhand tipsy from her kiss because it must be the alcohol that's causing the spinning feeling of intoxication in his head. 

He knows that's not it though. He knows he should pull away. There's a reason he stopped kissing her after their third time together. Why he only lets himself get tastes of her skin. But her tongue is slipping into his mouth, and she's drawing him in, pulling him closer to her. His whole body is practically buzzing to follow her lead, and it takes every inch of his willpower to pull himself  away from her and back out of her grasp. 

Her brow furrows in confusion as she drops back into the bed, her head hitting the pillow. "Youdon'wan'meei'er," she mumbles, and it's hardly more than sounds, but he understands.

"No. Not tonight," he says as he pushes the comforter between her mattress and boxspring. She sucks her teeth, turning away from him as he stands. Her eyes are closed, and there's still the small crease between her eyes. He shoves his hands in his pockets but keeps his eyes glued on her, and he can't bring himself to move until he sees the comforter rise and fall with her breath.

It would be irresponsible to leave her alone like this. He should stay at least until her roommate gets home. She deserves that much. 

Outside of the room, music is still blaring, so he walks out to turn it off. It takes a few minutes of searching to find her phone buried in the cushions so he can pause the playlist. When he comes back in, she curled up on her side, facing the edge of the bed. It makes him feel a bit better.

Five wanders over to her bookshelf, scanning the shelves before plucking out One Hundred Years of Solitude and then settles down on the other side of her pillow wall and cracks open the book. 

Her roommate still isn't back by 5 am, and Five is over halfway through the novel and almost an entire carafe of coffee down. He shuts the book slowly, turning to look at her. She's hardly moved since he put her in bed aside from the steady rise and fall of her breathing. If anything was going to happen, it probably already would have. 

Quietly, he stands up from the bed, returning the book to its space on the shelf. He exits the room into the still apartment, shutting off the lights as he goes. When he enters the kitchen, his eyes land on the mostly empty coffee pot. 

He should clean that. 

Instead, he dumps it out and sets up a new pot, making a calculated guess on when she will wake up. The aspirin is conveniently located next to the bags of coffee, and he takes that down as well, along with a clearly handmade mug that screams Y/N. 

He glances around the kitchen one last time before switching off the light and heading out to find the living room lightswitch. It's as he passes the coffee table that he pauses, his eyes falling on the page of the newspaper she threw at him hours ago. He takes it up, flicks off the light, and goes home. 

[amxranthiine]

e t h e r e a l (ron weasley x poc!reader)

ethereal (adj.) extremely delicate light, not of this world Pronouns: She/her

Request: Hiiiii! Can I request a Ron weasley x sweet smart reader (if you do POC can she be black?) and she’s a slytherin and friends with a lot of people and has a huge crush on Ron and she’s pretty sarcastic when she needs to be and hermoine is jealous of her because Ron really likes reader and she’s really pretty and smart and Ron plans on confessing to her but hermoine confronts reader trying to tell her she’s not good enough for Ron but reader is headstrong and doesn’t care cuz she loves ron to much and Hermoine and Ron get into an argument about it with her telling him she loves him but he doesn’t feel the same way and asks reader out later she says yes and hermoine is heartbroken(I’m sorry that’s so long I get pretty detailed😭)

A/n: Ahhhh! My first request!! Thank you so much for requesting this darling! Set in third year, the reader is a Slytherin. I’m so sorry if this isn’t what you wanted, I struggled with her being sweet. I had to make it a little angsty, sorry about that! 2.3k words of solid chaos, please enjoy!

Warnings: Bullying? Light swearing? Angst, then a bit of *fluff*, one f-bomb.

Summary: The reader is a POC Slytherin, who is in love with her friend, Ron Weasley. After an awful day, and a run in with his obsessed best friend, can she win the love she desires? (I’m so bad at summaries I’m sorry)

⁺˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚⁺‧͙⁺˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚⁺‧͙⁺˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚⁺‧͙ Y/n’s POV “What on Earth are you looking at, L/n?” A voice says to my left. A voice that belonged to Draco Malfoy. I snap out of my lovesick gaze and clear my throat, trying desperately not to blush. I had been staring at my longtime crush and friend, Ron Weasley, for the past five minutes. I thought I was being subtle, not that that matters anyway. Ron barely acknowledges my presence and Malfoy notices everything.  I would have been more scared if it were Granger who had caught me. Merlin knows she hates me for no reason at all, other than the fact that, you know, my robes are green instead of red. Oh, and she knows I like Ron. Bloody brilliant. Her catching my heart eyes would send me flying straight off the Astronomy Tower. She would be the one pushing me. It’s not that Hermione is a bad person, per say. It’s just, she’s a little... Possessive when it comes to her friends. Ron, specifically. She hates Slytherins with a passion solely because of Malfoy and his bag of rats, which is understandable. I just don’t understand why we’re hated for being cunning and ambitious, not all of us are dabbling in the dark arts! Malfoy pinched my dark skin, “I asked you a question, blood traitor.” Of course, because I’m friend with Muggleborns and Half-bloods, that automatically makes a traitor. Almost as bad as actually being a Muggleborn. Recoiling slightly, I lie. “I wasn’t looking at anything, Malfoy. I was merely thinking about the Potions essay that’s due on Wednesday.” On the outside, I may have looked annoyed, which I kind of was. But on the inside, I was trembling like a terrified doe. Merlin, why couldn’t he mind his own business? Playing with a strand of my dark hair, I sighed in exasperation. Malfoy snorts from beside me, “That’s a lie and you know it. Everyone knows you could rival that Mudblood Granger with how smart you are.” He spits out Hermione’s name as if it’s poison. I blush at the compliment (at least, I think it was a compliment) and look down and my hands. My green nail-polish contrasted nicely against my chocolate skin and Slytherin robes.  Inhaling sharply, I take a leap of faith and glance over at the Gryffindor table, only to find the man of the hour already looking in my direction with anger and hurt written all over his face. He then looked to my left, where the blonde ferret was sitting, and his hurt turned to fury. If looks could kill, Malfoy would be cremated in a second, just from the look Ron was giving him. My heart jumped to my throat, and I could feel my pulse everywhere. Why is he giving him that look? Why is he angry with me? What did I do?  Draco noticed my attention was no longer fully on him, and followed my eyes to the redhead. A look of realization crosses his face, and suddenly, he’s cackling. “Him? L/n, are you mentally deficient? He’s a Weasley! A blood traitor! He’s friends with Potter!” His words have a sense of venom to them, even if he’s laughing. I glared at him with cold eyes, “Listen, love, I have no reason to dislike Potter, unlike you. I also have no reason to dislike Ron, in fact I quite enjoy his presence. So, if you would please drop the matter and go on with your life, I would be thankful.” Malfoy’s face morphed into one of anger and disbelief. Sure, we may be friends, but I don’t deal with his crap just because he’s rich and a Malfoy. Luckily, or unluckily, Pansy Parkinson saved me from his wrath. “Yeah, okay Y/n, you’ve been in love with him since first year, everyone can see it!” She snorts, and the entire Slytherin table erupts into giggles. “That is, everyone but the Weasel,” She adds on. My face is as red as Ron’s hair and I feel my eyes tear up. Was it true? Did everyone know? I look around the room for a second, only to see Hermione glaring at me with a raised brow. I look away quickly. Malfoy is practically wheezing from how hard he’s laughing, “Honestly, Y/n, do you really think you have a chance with him? He and Granger practically eloped the day we got here! You would be crazy to think you actually stood-” He stops talking when I stand up, tears streaming down my face. “You can burn in hell, all of you.” I whisper, my voice breaking. Everyone suddenly has a look of guilt on their faces, and I look at Ron one last time. I can tell he’s concerned, but I don’t need him. “Wait, Y/n, it was just a joke!” “Merlin, she’s so dramatic.” “Y/n, where are you going? We were just kidding!” I hear yells and shouts from the Slytherin table as I sprint out of the Great Hall. But what really got to me, was the one thing I heard from the dreaded Gryffindor table. “Look at her, pathetic isn’t she? She can’t even take a joke! Ronald wher-” Bloody Granger. Bloody Malfoy. I turn the corner and slump against the wall, sliding onto the ground with my legs straight out in front of me. I struggle to breathe, the sobs are coming out too harshly. I was a liked person in my year, with plenty of friends. At this moment, though, it seemed as if everyone hated me. I tried to muffle the sound of my cries with my hand, but to no avail.  “Y/n! Are you alright?” I eyes dash to the sound of the familiar voice, and quickly wipe my eyes when I see Ron running towards me. “Y-Yeah...” I mutter, “I’m fine.” My lungs hurt from holding back my cries, my lips quivering from the familiar sting in my throat. Ron sat down beside me, my eyes meeting everything but his own. “You’ve always been a bad liar,” he chuckles slightly. I could feel the blood rush to my cheeks. “Have not,” I mumble. As much as I craved his presence, I was not in the mood for games. I looked down at my hands, something that was quickly becoming a nervous habit. Luckily he must have sensed that I didn’t want to talk about what just happened, and stayed silent for what seemed like eternity. Ron examined me for a moment, he was nervous, just like me. I didn’t know what he had to be nervous about, it wasn’t like he liked me as anything more than a friend... “Y/n...” He whispered, I hummed in acknowledgment, looking at him. “I-I just want to say,” He stuttered, “I don’t care that you’re a Slytherin. I know that may seem impossible because I’m a Weasley, and a Gryffindor, but...” He trailed off and took a deep breath, “ I-I care about you...” My head shot up so fast, I’m surprised I didn’t get whiplash. My heart was thumping against my ribcage harder than ever, and my stomach felt weak. “R-Ron?” I whispered, not wanting to believe my ears or what my brain was trying to desperately to tell me. He likes you, you idiot! Why can’t you see it?  He bit his lip and closed his eyes, something I would have found absolutely adorable if I wasn’t about to faint. “Y/n, I-” “Ronald!” Yelled a high pitched voice. My heart (and spirits) dropped and I sighed. Here we go. “Where have you been? We’re going to be late!” Hermione yelled. “Coming, ‘Mione,” Ron called after her. He looked at me apologetically, though he also looked... pained? “Ronald! Stop talking to the snake and hurry up!” She shouted again, and my rage levels increased drastically with those few words. Ron squeezed my hand to try and calm me, or to stop me from pulling out his best friend’s hair. “Bloody hell, woman! I’m coming!” He turned to me, “Bye, Y/n, see you later.” With a small wave, he was off. It was later that night, I was walking back to the dungeons after hours in the library, writing my Potions essay. Humming a tune I don’t remember the name off, I was slightly spaced out as I strolled along the familiar corridors. What wasn’t familiar, though, was the wand at my neck. Hermione-fucking-Granger was standing right in front of me in all her brilliant glory. Her perfect defensive stance with her wand right in my face. “Hello, Hermione,” I say, trying to stay calm. She scoffs, a disgusted look painted on her face. “Don’t ‘hello, Hermione,’ me L/n,” She practically spits. I shrug, and try to move around her. “Okay, then goodnight, Granger.”  She still blocks my path. “What’s going on with you and Ron?” There is an edge to her voice that tells me there are no right answers. I am genuinely confused and befuddled, “Nothing is going on between Ron and I?” I state, though it sounds more like a question. What on Earth made her think that someone was going on between Ron and I? I mean... I wouldn’t complain if something was going on, but alas; absolutely nothing. I suppose that answer only made her angrier; “That’s bullshit.” “Is it?” I question, trying to push her buttons. She scoffs again and pushes her wand closer to my face, “Ron is mine. Not yours, mine. Stay away from him, or you’ll regret it.” I was raging at this point, but I couldn’t say anything... harsh to her, because Merlin forbid anything happen to the Brightest Witch of our year. So, instead of potentially harming my crushes obsessed best friend, I settled with, “Yeah, okay, whatever Hermione. Can I leave now?” Seemingly satisfied with my answer, she steps aside and watches as I walk away. “I’ll be watching you, L/n,” She says, trying to threaten me. I just snort. “I’m counting on it, Granger,” I call back and pranced away. Internally I was screaming, what would she do to me? Why is she so obsessed with him? Is she so jealous that she feels the need to threaten any girl that even comes close to her precious Ronald? Yes, she is.  The next few days, I avoided Ron like the plague. He knew I was avoiding him, too. Anytime he was within fifteen feet of me, I turned around and practically ran the opposite direction. It didn’t help that Granger had such a smug smirk on her face whenever I saw her. All I wanted to do was shove my middle finger in her face and call it a wand.  It was getting increasingly difficult to ignore Ron, and I didn’t know how much longer I could keep up with it. The longing stares when no one was watching, to the daydreams of what we could be during class- I couldn’t stay away. One night, I was- once again- walking back to the Slytherin common after hours in the library. Only, it wasn’t a wand in my face that made me pause. No, it was the distinct sound of arguing around the corner. Curious, I tip-toed towards the noise, trying to be as quiet as possible. Which was hard because of the echoing halls of Hogwarts, but somehow I wasn’t caught. “Why would you do that, Hermione?!” A very familiar voice yelled. “Because, Ronald, she’s a Slytherin!” Hermione yelled back. “That cannot be the only reason! She’s the nicest Slytherin there is! You don’t own me, ‘Mione! You have no right to decide things like that!” Ron was fuming, I could tell just by the sound of his voice. Somehow, I knew they were talking about me. I was the only Slytherin Ron could tolerate. “Fine, you want to know the reason? I love you, Ron! She was getting in the way!” Merlin, I really should stop listening before I start crying. “Getting in the way of what?!” “Us!” “There is no ‘us,’ Hermione! I don’t love you, I love Y/n! And you deliberately sought her out... And threatened her?! Bloody hell, you’re completely mental!” Ron was practically screaming at this point, he was so mad. I was completely shocked, he loved me? He loved me?! Am I dreaming? Apparently my gasp was louder than I thought, because both Ron and Hermione turned in my direction. Well, shit, I can’t run now. “You love me...?” I whisper. My mind couldn’t wrap itself around that fact. My tummy was swarmed with butterflies, my feet tingled and my hands were completely numb. I couldn’t believe it. Ron just stared at me, mouth opening and closing like a fish. “I-... I... Urm... Y-eah.. I do,” I could have laughed at his attempt to speak, but I was completely dumbfounded. Not trusting my voice, I raced over to him. Wrapping my arms around his neck, I pulled him into a kiss. This kiss... it was something ethereal. It was slow and passionate, but full of love and desire. There was nothing else like it. Our mouths moved in sync for what seemed like forever. I didn’t want it to end. His hands traveled from my waist to my face, cupping my cheeks gently as he towered over me. Alas; all good things must come to an end. Unfortunately we have lungs that feel the need to burn when you don’t breathe. Pulling apart slowly, I smile at him, genuinely smile. His cheeks are almost as red as his robes, and his hair ruffled from my hands running through it. “I take it you love me too?” He asks, smiling just as wide as I am. I nod, and giggles flow out of my mouth from how happy I am. He looks like he’s in a daze, “Bloody hell, Y/n, you’re brilliant.”  “Y/n L/n, will you be my girlfriend?” He doesn’t leave my embrace as he asks this. I gasp, “Yes! Merlin, yes!” Jumping into his arms at lightning speed. A quiet cry is heard from the right of us, and we look over to see Hermione, a hand over her mouth and tear stains on her cheeks. Ron shrugs, “Sorry, ‘Mione!”

[love-toxin]

PLEASE tsung nsfw alphabet i am on my knees begging

your wish is my command ✨

A = Aftercare

Tsung loves aftercare, though that doesn’t mean he’s always the best at it. Sometimes he’s too overbearing, or hugs you too tight after something more intense, but for the most part he’s very sweet and will dote on you hand and foot. 

B = Body Part

He thinks his hands are the most impressive part of him, which isn’t saying much. In truth, it’s just one of the few things about him that he doesn’t think are ugly or useless, since he’s got skilled fingers and strong muscles that have built up over the years. He likes your smile the most, whether it’s because it arouses him in the moment or not. 

C = Cum

His cum is pearly and oddly not that bitter, though it tends to spurt out in globs that make quite the mess if he doesn’t aim quite right. He loves it the most when you let him do it all over your face, and the expressions you make when he dirties your beautiful skin--and even when you whine about him getting it in your hair. 

D = Dirty Secret

If you’re sharing a bed, then there’s very little chance that you’ll be undisturbed while you sleep. Whether he takes pictures of you, talks to you, or gets himself off using your hand or your mouth if he thinks he can risk it, you’ll be at the mercy of Tsung’s desires the moment you close your eyes. 

E = Experience

He hasn’t really got any. He’s had crushes and a girlfriend or two when he was young, but he’s been out of the dating scene for most of his life and has never really had a steady, long-term relationship before. And with his parents being the way they are, he’s never gotten to choose who he’s dated, which makes being with you all the more exciting for him. 

F = Favourite Position

Any position where he can be ridden is preferable, though it’s embarrassing for him to admit and he probably won’t mention it the first few times you have sex. But he likes it when you have the control, and you can choose to pin his wrists down and make him do as you wish if you like, which is definitely a fantasy he adores but keeps entirely to himself. 

G = Goofy

It’s not his natural go-to, but he can be pretty silly if the moment presents itself. If something happens to break the mood or you get a little giggly, he’ll let any seriousness slide by and tease you a bit or crack a little joke just to make you laugh. 

H = Hair

He’s got a bit of hair, but it’s nowhere near enough to need more than a trim every so often. He doesn’t even really have leg or arm or chest hair, so what he does have is so thin and wiry that it barely even counts. 

I = Intimacy

He always tries to be romantic, selfless, and loving, and that certainly extends to your intimate times. If he isn't pleasing you right he wants to know, and if you're not in the mood after awhile he wants to know that, too. Your bedroom is an open line of communication, which Tsung takes great pride in. 

J = Jack Off

He’ll masturbate about once or twice a week when you’re together, mostly just on occasions when you’re apart or you’re sleeping and he doesn’t want to wake you--if he’s just obsessing over you from afar, though, he could do it anywhere from 1-3 times a day depending on how often he’s thinking of you. 

K = Kinks

He likes to partake in voyeurism, orgasm denial, forced orgasms,  panty sniffing, somnophilia, and dominant/submissive dynamics. 

L = Location

He likes doing it in the shower. The cleanup is easy and the hot water cascading down his skin is a nice change, though he just has to get used to avoiding accidents by slipping or moving you up too fast. 

M = Motivation

Watching you sleep is a huge turn-on for him, as guilty as he feels admitting it. The sight of you all tuckered out and peaceful as you cuddle into your pillow makes him want to do unspeakable things to you--things that might make you sick to your stomach if you ever found out. 

N = No

He won't hit, cut, burn, or bruise you intentionally during sex. Anything that causes you harm, even if he might be tempted by it outside of the bedroom, won't even be considered by him while you're sharing an intimate moment. He just doesn't think there's a place for it during such a vulnerable time together. 

O = Oral

He likes being forced to go down on you, especially if you're shoving his head down yourself and getting on his case if he doesn't use his tongue properly. But sucking him off is just as enjoyable, if not moreso when he gets to see how sweet and sweaty you look trying to deepthroat his pathetic, oversensitive cock.

P = Pace

He usually starts off fast, but slows it down to try and savour it until he starts approaching the end. By the time you're ready to cum, he'll have abandoned his attempts to take it all in and let his hips do the talking for him. 

Q = Quickie

He likes them, surprisingly. It’s less the act itself that he finds so appealing, but more the fact that he has someone he loves that he can do it with. Besides, getting so hot and bothered that neither of you can stay your lust enough to wait is extremely appealing even to the stiffest people, so he’ll be eager to indulge whenever you have an inkling towards it. 

R = Risk

He's willing to try something new if you are, and he can take a lot before he hits his limit. Whether it involves physical pain or emotional strain, his resilience is high enough that you can dare to try a lot of things if you want to introduce them into the bedroom. 

S = Stamina

He's got enough stamina that he can manage the exertion of a few rounds, but after that he'll be toast until he can have some rest or even take a nap in between. Just give him time to recharge, and he'll last for a long time. 

T = Toys

Despite wanting a fleshlight to aid his unquenchable fantasies about you, he's never been brave enough to buy one. But he'd be okay with you owning some or buying them for the bedroom, as long as they're not too intimidating for someone like him. 

U = Unfair

He doesn’t tease you too much because he just likes to focus on your pleasure, and whether what he’s doing is exciting you in the ways that he hopes for. If he practices beforehand and the mood is right, he might be a little more teasing than he normally would, but for the most part it doesn’t happen very often. 

V = Volume

He's quiet in the sense that he's not a screamer or an especially loud moaner, but he whines and begs a lot which can grow into a steady stream of babbling that you won't be able to stop. Lucky for you, he won't mind all that much if you decide to gag him to keep your business to yourselves--and maybe you can tie up his wrists to the bedframe, too, just to add the icing on top. 

W = Wildcard

The first real, precious treasure that he’ll have added to his shrine will be a pair of your underwear. He’ll have laid them out on a silken cloth below the photos he’s pasted up of you, and though he’ll force himself not to use them and risk getting cum all over the fabric, he’ll make it a ritual to bring them to his face and sniff them before he starts his day. If he’s especially lonely or misses you, he’ll even test the boundaries with a gentle lick against the little wet spot you’ve left in them. 

X = X-Ray

He’s about 6 inches long, a bit on the thicker side but not by much. Since he doesn’t have too much hair down there, it’s easy to see how pale his skin is compared to how red and flushed his cock looks, especially towards the tip that feels hot to the touch. He curves up a little, too. 

Y = Yearning

His drive is pretty solid. He can at least handle a session once a day, but if you can egg him on and keep him going then he can probably keep up a few more times for a couple days before he gets worn out. 

Z = Zzz

He can stay awake for a fairly long while after having sex the first time, and he'll often wait until you fall asleep before he follows close behind. He likes to make sure that you're comfortable and cozy before he dares to let his guard down. 

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Ok, so, I've been trying for too much to think what Pokémon represents best the IkeVap boys and?? I'm clueless H e l p Like maybe Theo could be a Lucario, Nappy an Arcanine, Moz a Glaceon, but honestly? I Do Not Know And I'm Not Sure™️

Truly, I have never been more understood than in this moment 😂😂 I love Pokémon, so it was fun to do this! I just hope I don’t disappoint~

That being said bc I have absolutely no reading comprehension despite appearances, I originally just made a kind of compilation of the Pokémon I thought they would have (if it’s a legendary Pokémon, maybe they’re just Good Bros^TM at least). But given that much of my selections were made on the basis of similarities between each suitor and the pokémon listed, I decided to just add and bold the one that I felt best embodied each character c:

Enjoy~💖💖💖

(Also I am hugely into Pokémon so I have no qualms getting requests like this; go for it y’all)

Comte: Ninetales (Alolan): thought to be immortal, treated like a deity but really just wants to be left alone with its own kind sometimes Alakazam Froslass Zoroark Milotic Celebi Rapidash (Galar) Reshiram Delphox Bonus: has a shiny Gardevoir he brings to balls with him sometimes, and she is very lovely uwu

Napoleon: Braviary: fights for its allies until the bitter end, very committed to justice and protecting those who need it Arcanine Lucario Rayquaza Rapidash (Kanto) Rhydon Skarmory Bonus: He keeps a Falinks bc "march on you funky little Pokémon”

Mozart: Meloetta: ability to create music that moves one to emotion Rowlett (HE’S A DAPPER LITTLE GENTLEMAN WITH A BOWTIE OFC MOZART LOVES IT) Primarina Suicune Jigglypuff

Leonardo (he literally just finds cats and babies and takes them home, this is what my instincts say and I trust them. Also has a Machoke for when he needs help with more intensive work): Cubone: do y’all really need an explanation for this one. [Okay bc I don’t want to be obnoxious, for any of you that might be unaware, Cubone is known as “The Lonely Pokémon.” It essentially wears the skull of its dead mother and weeps for its loss. The reason I chose it for Leonardo is that, at least to me, 99% of his characterization and vibe just screams “abandoned/neglected child” imo] Luxray Litten Espurr Silvally Machoke

Arthur: Mandibuzz: power complex about preying on the weak Lumineon: attracts attention from potential mates, but also risks attention from predators/enemies from the gaudy display

Isaac: Applin: hidey apple child that has yet to tap into his strength (you will be a dragon type one day) Quilava Magneton Lanturn Togedemaru Metagross Bonus: Minior bc he is a child of the stars

Vincent: Smeargle: art Swablu: it’s baby. he baby. [okay but like fr Swablu loves people and coos at them and its all around adorable and even sits on people’s heads like a little cloud hat for fun. tell me that isn’t Vincent energy.] Poipole [if anybody has seen the anime, it’s basically a tiny agent of chaos that loves to paint on anything and everything; I feel like Vincent would find it endearing] Sunflora Lycanroc(Midday)  Zigzagoon Zacian Ho-oh

Theodorus: Scrafty: I think of this Pokémon bc it is strong and takes great pride in protecting loved ones “This Pokémon may be rude, but/While mostly known for having the temperament of an aggressive ruffian, it takes very good care of its family, its friends, and its turf.” This you, Theo? Lycanroc(Dusk) Nidoking Zangoose Zamazenta Yamper Tyranitar

Jeanne: Golurk: functions to protect people Absol: considered a bad omen/harbinger, even though it appears to forewarn humanity--it doesn’t cause calamity Pawniard Gallade Marowak (Alolan) Aegislash Umbreon (Shiny) Sirfetch’d Corviknight Spectrier

Dazai: Mr.Mime: clown Corsola (Galar) Confagrigus Lapras  Piplup Ninetales (Kanto) Pidove Slowking Rotom (specifically acquired via painstaking means just to harass Isaac)

Shakespeare: Mimikyu: nananananana spyman Buneary Seviper Chatot Liepard Bannette

Sebastian: Indeedee: male version of this Pokémon act as a valet, and are known for their poise and helpfulness Greninja Ampharos Polteageist Wooloo Combee Bellossom (I hc that he acquired a Bellossom for the sole intention of thwarting rain whenever possible, mostly for Dazai and Jeanne’s sake. It doesn’t always work, but it can also serve to lighten rainfall)

Vlad: Zekrom: seeks to create a world constructed in the name of ideals Hydreigon: perhaps closer to his true nature, incredibly powerful and rampages indiscriminately Dragapult Charizard X Haxorus(Shiny) Gengar Krookodile Scolipede Spiritomb Roserade (Why can’t I stop imagining him as one of those annoying Dragon Tamer trainers on Victory Road, where I just whip out Ice Beam and level every single one of his Pokémon. Sir I have no interest in your erroneous preconceptions of strength, I have an Elite Four to d e s t r o y)

Charles: Mawile: very pretty but big murder Crobat Skitty Dreepy

Faust: Oranguru: will not abide inexperienced trainers (aka imbeciles or people he deems empty/pathetic) but also creates medicine for other Pokémon Mewtwo Eevee --> Espeon Noctowl (Shiny)

[xpao-bearx]

Part 1 HERE

NOTE: OMG I really wasn't expecting for the previous first part of Heavenly Sins to blow up as it did, but I just wanted to give a huuuge THANK YOU to all of you amazing folks!! 🥰🥰🥰 Your support truly means so fooken much to trashy ol' meh and y'all are the reason I am writing this story series in the first place :')

I do have my ideas, but I still don't know much yet of what to do or even how long (or short) this story will get. So, if you would continue to give me your mindblowing support, it would seriously mean the W O R L D.

I do, however, very much enjoy writing Negan in particular so far. He's one of my absolute fave characters ever and JEFFREY DEAN FUCKIN' MORGAN NEED I SAY MOAR?!? 🥵💕💕

But this second part will be focusing a bit more on our beloved sheriff Ricky boi! Of course, Daryl will also get some much deserved love and attention tho I think he will appear in the story a lil later on.

Also, if you ever feel compelled, you are more than welcome to take some inspo from this story and make your own imagines and such! I'd love to see 'em, so please tag me 😁

P.S. There won't always be long ass notes like this, only if I wanna say something or bring up whatever is important. Also, if you wanna be tagged on any new/future story parts, then just tell moi and I will dedicate the latest one to the people who wanted to be tagged!

DEDICATED TO: The wonderful @buttercandy16 💖

"Heavenly Sins"

Part 2

After your little spiel, you haven't spoken to Negan since then. But on the way home after church, you passed by his house and found him tinkering away on his motorcycle (which you previously learned he interestingly named Lucille) in the garage. Not being able to help yourself, you paused in your tracks and just curiously watched him for a while.

His leather jacket was off, revealing a plain white t-shirt. The shirt was quite tight, and you noted how it perfectly hugged the taut muscles of his chest. Your eyes then slowly trailed to his toned arms, adorned by tattoos you wished you had a better look at. He stopped briefly, placing his tools down before grabbing the hem of his shirt and wiping the sweat on his forehead.

You didn't even think twice as your eyes dropped, hyperfocused on his abs. He wasn't the buffest guy out there, but he was lean and fit and--to put it bluntly--hot. A part of you screamed bloody murder to get a grip on yourself, to just turn your stiff body around and proceed on home. But another part completely squashed down those protests without even a fight; as if your pathetic excuse of a resolve wasn't even meant in the first place.

"Take a goddamn picture, darlin'. It'll last longer."

Your head snapped up, meeting the tantalizing hazel stare of Negan. His lips were curled in a smug smirk, and nevermore in your entire life have you wanted to both slap and kiss someone so badly.

But you only clicked your tongue, shooting him a sharp glare before (at last!) turning and walking away as you hid your blush. In the distance, his amused chuckle begrudgingly sounded like the sweetest fucking music to your ears.

♡♡♡

You woke up at 7:05 a.m. like you typically did the next morning, Monday. It was the dawn of a new week, and while most people dreaded it you actually didn't mind it so much. You had your job to thank for that.

Sure, it wasn't always easy, but it was worth it in the end. You loved teaching and spending time with the children, and you were even more ecstatic since you knew Judith was going to be at the daycare.

As you finished eating breakfast and preparing for the day, you grabbed your bag then went out the door. You opted to walk again today, the weather far too beautiful to miss plus the daycare really wasn't that far away.

Eventually arriving at your destination, you approached the daycare building's doors with a little spring in your step. Once inside, a young woman with her blonde hair high in a ponytail smiled and waved.

"Hi, Y/N! Goodmorning!" Beth Greene greeted energetically.

"Morning, Beth." You chuckled, the girl's radiant smile infectious. You've known Beth for some time now, especially since the Greenes were one of the oldest families in Alexandria and they were well respected. But you got along best with Beth, you thought she was the friendliest and she was also the latest hire of the daycare.

Stashing your bag away in your personal locker, you fixed yourself up a bit before getting your nametag and sticking it on your top. Looking up at the wall clock, you read that it was 7:50 a.m. Perfect, just in time for the kids' drop-offs.

You waited outside with Beth and the rest of the daycare workers, until finally the parents started rolling in. It was the usual; some of the children were wailing, snot snivelling down their nose as their embarrassed parents tried to tug them away from clinging onto their legs. You could only offer a sympathetic smile as you tried to help, while other children were much more relaxed and didn't even spare a second glance at their parents as they were dropped off.

"Well, that's about all of them." Beth piped up.

"Wait, we're still waiting for Judith." You said, searching for the toddler. "Rick said she'd be here."

Beth checked her watch, her brows creasing a little in worry. "That's odd. Sheriff Grimes is never late when he's dropping Judith off."

Just as she said that, there was a honk that disrupted the peace. You and Beth both spotted a crying Judith being held by Lori, the woman appearing utterly exhausted before her eyes locked with yours and didn't waste another second dashing towards you.

"Please don't run when you're holding Judith. Also, no honking is allowed on the premises." It was hard for you to keep the malice out of your voice, but you mentally gave yourself a pat on the back since you miraculously managed to not make it sound the worst it could get.

Lori raised a brow at you, but only handed Judith over to you. Judith immediately quieted down when she saw it was you, you cooing gently at her as she giggled and snuggled up comfortably against your chest.

"Rick will be picking her up later." Was all Lori said, pressing a quick peck on Judith's curly little head before parting ways. As Lori rushed back to the car, you saw Shane in the driver's seat shamelessly attack her neck with fervent kisses and you couldn't restrain an eyeroll.

"Fucking bitch..." You grumbled.

"Uh-oh. Bad!" Judith giggled again, clapping her hands gleefully.

"Right, right. Bad. Don't copy me, okay?" You laughed, completely forgetting about your aggravation as you rubbed your nose with Judith's and went inside.

♡♡♡

The rest of the day rolled along splendidly. No one threw a tantrum and for the most part, all the kids properly shared the wide assortment of toys and even did their activities orderly and on time. So, you decided to indulge them with a small yet much sought after reward.

Painting.

When it comes down to children, painting can be utter chaos. But you figured since they were being so good, you'd allow it. At the daycare you worked in, painting was quite a rare occurrence and that only solidified how much the kids adored it.

Once the materials were set out, it was a dizzying flurry of excited hands grabbing anything it could latch on to. As the kids went about doing their creative business, you found Judith all alone sitting in the corner playing around with some blocks.

"Whatcha doin' there, Judi?" You asked, sweetly calling out her nickname. "You don't wanna paint?"

"I wanna, but not with papers." She replied, shaking her head.

"Oh? Then where do you wanna paint?"

"I wanna paint on faces, but no one wants me to!"

"If that's the case, then I'd be more than happy to let you paint my face." You smiled.

"Really?!" Judith's whole face lit up, jumping up and wrapping her tiny arms around you as tightly as she could. "Thank youuu!"

You chuckled, ruffling her hair and watching as she happily gathered some paint and brushes.

♡♡♡

It was finally the end of a long day, and your face felt a bit itchy from the paint Judith put on you. But it didn't matter; as long as the little girl was happy, it was the best damn day ever.

You were holding Judith's hand as you waited outside for Rick to pick her up, and once he came up with his car Judith beamed.

"Daddy!"

"Hello, sweetheart. Did you have a nice day?" His face looked tired, his greying beard making him appear slightly older than he really was, but his smile was genuine as he carried Judith in his strong arms.

"The bestest! Y/N lemme paint her face!"

"She did, huh? What did you pai--oh my god."

You bursted into laughter at his reaction, flashing him a toothy grin. "In the words of Judi: You're a pretty tiger! Grr!"

"Now that you mention it, I can see it." Rick joined in your laughter, nodding his head. "Looks like we've got a talented lil artist in our hands!"

"Daddy, I wanna paint your face next! You can be daddy tiger and Y/N can be mommy!" Judith proclaimed.

You and Rick flushed pink at the same exact time, but Rick was quick to clear his throat and change the topic. "A-Anyways, Y/N, how 'bout me and the kids give you a ride? Thank you for today, by the way."

"No problem, and sure! Thanks so much."

As you settled in the passenger's seat, two hands covered your eyes from behind. "Guess who~?"

"Hmm..." You hummed, making a show of thinking. "Are you an elf?"

"No!" The hands were removed, Carl popping his head out from the backseat to look at you as he laughed. "It's me!"

"Oh, sorry! You're just so short, I thought you were an elf." You teased good naturedly.

Carl huffed, sticking his tongue out at you. "Y'know, in a few years, I'll be way taller than you!"

Once Rick was done buckling Judith into her carseat, he took his place in the driver's seat and drove out of the premises. You just talked about anything that came to mind: work, the weather, Alexandria's local shops, etc. To anyone else, maybe it seemed like regular boring conversation. But speaking with Rick was truly one of the highlights of any of your days. He was extremely easy to talk to, and he never failed to cheer you up. And it was obvious Rick was the same. He was allowed to simply be himself around you; to loosen up, momentarily forget about the stress and sometimes even the woes that came along with being the town's upstanding sheriff.

As you were nearing your home, Carl decided to cut in.

"Y/N, can we stay at your house? It's been a while since we had a sleepover." Carl asked, his baby blue eyes identical to Rick's alight with hope.

It wouldn't be the first time Rick and the kids would be staying over. You were very close to the Grimes family, sometimes even almost considering them as your own. You didn't mind it. Since you lived alone, it can get pretty lonely. And having people around surely brightened up the house and made you keep your sanity.

"I don't mind, but you gotta ask your dad." You chuckled.

Carl turned to Rick, pouting and giving his best puppy dog eyes. Rick rolled his eyes, but couldn't suppress an inkling of a smile.

"Yeah, yeah. But let me drop you and Judith off with Y/N first. I'll be back, I just need to get some extra clothes and essentials."

"YAY!" Carl cheered, Judith following suit as they both raised their arms and hollered.

"You're so whipped for them." You laughed, shaking your head as you looked at Rick.

"I ain't denying that." He sighed dramatically, grinning.

[lassieposting]

Hi i havent read the books post-resurrection so im kinda lost on why you dont like phase 2 val? She was easily one of my favourite characters ever, she was flawed (and the books took time to acknowledge them) and relatable and still really admirable (intelligent, brave, loyal) and i really liked her and really appreciated that she wasn’t perfect unlike every other young adult heroines. What went wrong😢😢😢😢

Okay I'm gonna put this under a cut because I very strongly dislike phase 2 val and I know it bugs people who don't feel the same, so. Dead dove dont eat

Okay so first off, phase 1 val and phase 2 val are completely different people. literally. phase 1 val was based on an ex-friend of lardo's who used to apparently be involved pretty heavily in like, editing the books and "she'd react like this" or "val wouldn't say that", and that val she was one of my favourite fictional characters from when book one came out to the release of resurrection. phase 2 val is based on his whiny little girlfriend who likes to start shit with 14yos on twitter, and you can absolutely tell she is no longer the same person. so the long story short of "what went wrong" is "the original irl val's friendship with dirty laundry ended for whatever reason and he decided to retcon her entire personality to suit his gf"

Phase 2 Val, in my opinion:

Weak, like won't even fight back when she gets jumped bc boo fucking hoo she's so awful, bitch get up already, nobody signed up for ur pity party

Whiny. So fucking whiny. All the time. And she's the POV character so it's inescapable.

"Pacifist" but in a really pathetic virtue-signalling kind of way like "Oh, I've done such terrible thiiiiiiiiiiings I'm so awfulllllllllllll look how good I'm trying to be nowwwwwwww pay attention to meeeeeeee" kind of way, it was both boring and a massive eye roll. It's a book about magic and asskicking. Kick some ass. We're here for escapism not "realistic" whining. Yes, irl she'd be a mess. As an author it's his job to strike a balance between the "realism" he wants to portray and making his readers so depressed and done with his heroine that they quit reading, and in my case, he absolutely failed.

Everything must be about her at all times. Skug is having personal problems? Fuck him, they're about her now. Everything is about how it affects her, and her feelings, and be damned to the person actually having the problem. Fucks phase 2 val cain gives about anyone except herself: 0

Bitter and jaded. Which yeah I get why but it's like jesus christ what do we get out of reading about this? It's not even good bitter and jaded where it makes you empathise or admire her strength in adversity or whatever, she's just become a really nasty person with no redeeming features that I could see. Which? Landy outright said she's based on his gf? If your boyfriend is gonna drag ur entire personality through the dirt like that and write "you" as just a collection of incredibly negative traits...yikes.

Really ungrateful about the awesome life she leads? Which bugs me bc I fucking hate mundanity and knowing that all there is to life is fucking working and bad mental health. I would kill to live her life. All she does is moan about it. Like? Quit then. Fuck off back to being a mortal if it's that bad and live the shitty life you wanted to get away from in the first place. That way we'd get no more books, and quite honestly, thank fuck for that. But anyway, she needs to pick one, stick with it, and stop complaining about whatever she chose.

The girl wallows in self pity. And if someone else isn't indulging her enough, she'll wallow harder and louder and more obviously. Yawn.

Her POV is now so depressing to read that Resurrection literally tanked my mental health. I'm not kidding. I fell off the self-harm wagon, the suicidal thoughts came back, reading her dissociating would make me dissociate, I just did not cope whatsoever. Being in her head was just like being in my head during my worst points, and I hate myself, so naturally, I hate her too. Like I get why some people like phase two val. I get that her depression is "realistic" and that trauma does just make some people completely dislikeable and self-pitying, and if people want to read about that, then...sure. you do you, my dudes. But I live that reality, I am that person whose trauma made her a dysfunctional, isolated bitch, and I hate, passionately, having it infest the media I consume to escape.

Essentially if I wanted to engage with a bitter, spiteful, depressed piece of shit in her 20s who pushes everyone away and sucks at everything, I'd live my gd life. Yall see me tryna engage with my real life? Hell nah I'm on tumblr dot com burying my head up the ass of whatever fandom will force my brain to produce some s e r o t o n i n and that is what I need this series for

Also? The dynamic she had with skug in phase one? "Until the end"? "You save me, I save you, that's how we work"? Forget that, it doesn't exist anymore. I stopped reading after Midnight, because she was written like he was a coworker she could barely tolerate. They went from "Lardo confirms on twitter that they talked on the phone a bunch while she was in america and he'd always ask her to come home" to "she comes home and proceeds to blank him for five months while she sits in her fuckin multimillionaire's mansion feeling sorry for herself". Their friendship completely disintegrated, they were totally separated for most of the book, she's written as not giving a single shit about him. She treated him like dirt, and their dynamic basically felt like it was becoming "Local Man With History Of Gravitating Towards Abusive Women Makes Same Terrible Choices For Fifth Time" and? that was the point of no return to me. he supports her unconditionally, no matter what he's going through at the time, he's walked on broken bones to try and get to her when she was in danger, she can tell him anything and he'd never use it against her. I did not, for one second in phase two, believe she felt the same about him. tbh it felt like she could - and wanted to - drop him at the first opportunity and not even feel bad about it, and that's not the dynamic that made me so emotionally attached to phase one. i signed up for "until the end", not whatever bullshit phase two has going on.

Apparently she's "less depressed" now and their relationship is "better" in the books published since midnight, which! might well be true. but I haven't read them and don't intend to, and she's gone from one of my favourite fictional characters ever (which! was impressive! because i almost never bond with the female lead - i normally get attached exclusively to the character i crush on, which would be skug here. val was the first female lead i actually cared about since xena! so im deeply salty about losing her!) to a character i? honestly prefer to pretend doesn't exist. i live in war era dead men/generals crackship land because that way, i don't have to acknowledge her or the fuckin character assassination phase 2 pulled on her.

so yeah, no hate towards phase one val at all. phase one val was awesome and flawed and gave me something to aspire to despite my shitty mental health and trauma, and if she'd kept her original personality she might still have been those things. but the original "real life" val is no longer involved (and doesn't talk to landy at all anymore, apparently), and the val based on landy's insufferable gf? i cannot get behind her at all ever, four for skug and none for phase two val cain bye

(tldr; you're not missing anything by quitting after spx)

[daydreamer-bby]

Good grief... RANT

I can't believe how screwed up my sleep schedule is again. I was totally fine for like almost three weeks and then boom, s t r e s s . Things are changing for me again and I feel exhausted from wrestling with my mind all day and night. I resigned from my officer position at the bank to focus on my health and go back to school. I know I have it in me to do great things and learn at my own pace but man I am just drowning in the mess I've created.

Debt wasn't really a thing for me until this past year when I got shmacked with hella medical bills after a suicide attempt and stay at a rehab facility. Which, by the way, was a wholly traumatic experience and only served to put me in debt and give me more cringey-want-to-kill-myself experiences. I can't find the beginning or end of the tangled up threads that have netted my life. It's all a mess and I feel sorry for my new therapist for having to deal with my pathetic ass lol.

I'd do anything to go back to 2019. I want so badly to get back to a functioning level but I feel like I'm slowly losing an uphill battle against myself. The one short-term/student friendly opportunity I have a chance at actually being able to manage is barely in reach because I can't fucking drive and it's a job that would require a very long commute even for a good driver. Plus, it's at my best friends place of employment so like what if I embarrass her or just can't cut it long enough to even work part-time.

If I think too much, which I cannot help but do, I am frozen. I feel like all the work I put in to my job means nothing now and I feel so foolish for having wanted to plan the rest of my life around it. I used to think I'd come so far and deserve more opportunity to grow in my career but I guess I really was just kidding myself lol. I got all my family members to momentarily eat their words about me basically being a total idiot and failure but here I am again, failing everything good I had going on.

Like this burnout and whatever else I could call it is so much worse than the other times???? Yet I feel reasonably calm through the panicked mental replays of impending financial catastrophes.

What else can I rant about...

Oh so it might be interesting to share why I don't drive.

I'll start this section by saying I have had some good driving experiences. But the majority of time I've spent behind the wheel was horrifying. Because of my personal issues I can't really control where my eyes go. That sounds stupid but it's true. I can't make myself look where I need to, see what I need to, or consistently comprehend what exactly is in my field of vision. My husband has been driving for like 15 years or something and he checks his mirrors constantly and has great awareness. For me, and not even in a generic dissociative way, I can't get my body to cooperate with my mind. It's terrifying. Picture being in a car but having no control over your body or focus. This predisposition to completely checking out from one moment to another is ruining my life. It's been ruining my life. I can't help but panic when I consider how the hell I'm supposed to manage having kids or keeping them safe. And aside from the mind/eye chaos I get so overwhelmed by sensory issues there's just no hope of me being a safe driver. IT ONCE TOOK ME OVER 30 MINUTES TO MOVE MY SISTER'S CAR WHILE SHE SAT NEXT TO ME EATING SPAGHETTI AND LAUGHING AT MY PANIC ATTACK. WE WERE SUPPOSED TO MEET MY MOM AT THE STORE ACROSS THE STREET BUT BEFORE WE COULD SHE WALKED THERE, SHOPPED, THEN WALKED BACK INTO OUR APARTMENT BEFORE I COULD GET TO THE PARKING LOT. MY LIFE IS A GOD DAMNED JOKE YALL.

UGHHHHHHHHH there's so much I've never been able to process.

I hate that I cannot control myself the ways I did for so long. I take a little comfort in reminding myself that I'm doing better than I have been and that I need to be patient and kind to myself but GOOD GOD do I wish I could beat my own ass. I keep asking my husband if we can go kayaking and for what?!?!? I've never been kayaking, I don't have a clue how to kayak. I never thought of it until a few months ago when I saw one in a movie. I hate that I can't stop thinking about kayaking.

I used to be so smart and mentally nimble and kind and innocent and naïve and now I'm just an anxious mess lmao. I can't call it a philosophical choice... I am not voluntarily nihilistic or kind I am literally just THAT stupid and ineffectual.

Mental illness and disabilities own me and I don't even understand them. They were this big, scary, sneaky things for most of my life and then boom I became an adult who can't seem to just get it the fuck together.

I actually just realized in a moment of clarity that I am beginning to spiral so I should take some of the gabapentin my psychiatrist recently prescribed for anxiety.

I've just taken it with lots of ice water so hopefully I can calm tf down LOL.

I can't remember the last time I SH'd frfr, but I know the progress I've made in not mutilating myself isn't that impressive when I do other dumb shit like relapse into bingeing or stay up for days at a time. It's like I can claim some success in not being monstrous to my skin but I find alternative ways of harming myself. And I was sincere about stopping using cannabis but two days in and P U F F F F F .

I just want to be my old self but I guess she's gone and now I have to reinvent my fat ass AGAIN. It's going to take so much more out of me this time but I guess that's for the best since there's so much more chaos in me at this time in my life. Maybe I'll shower now so I can sleep for a little while and be clean to workout tomorrow morning.

Anyway, if you're struggling like me I wish you the best, you sad little bitch.