#it was gonna be spec

[tevanbuckley]

I’m actually living for the idea of buck struggling the most with gerrard, because obviously his treatment of hen, chim and eddie will be just as bad if not worse, but they’ve been dealing with the gerrard’s of the world literally their entire lives. And as depressing as it may be, bigotry is something you do get used to experiencing.

meanwhile buck is having to revaluate his place in the world, and how the world sees him, in his 30s. As much as we joke he speedran his bisexual awakening, I think it makes sense that dealing with someone like gerrard for the first time will knock him on his ass a bit.

[saltedbiscuiit]

I preordered the new bsd wan figures and tried to draw their expressions lol

[thegayestdiaz]

if chris does end up leaving to stay with his grandparents for the summer it’s basically a guarantee to me that buck is going to all but move into eddie’s house, because i know that man would not want to be anywhere else but at eddie’s side for the whole three months to comfort him and make sure he’s not alone

[doctorsiren]

I’m still in the process, but I’m making progress

[alchemistc]

I've already written this a million times between fic I've posted, tag rants, and my notes app, but now I'm thinking again about Buck and Tommy first meeting and:

Howie pulls away from the hug a few seconds too soon for Tommy's liking. It's been a long time since he's seen him in person, since before the car crash, before the stabbing, before all the fucked up shit that's happened to the 118 since he left, and he was maybe hoping for - more.

The LAFD are a bunch of fucking gossips and he's heard his fair share about them all, names passed vaguely around in group chats and ladder bars, stories blown even more out of proportion than all the actual miraculous survival stories. The two guys Howie gestures at with thumbs over his shoulders both look familiar, and he's already trying to place their stories before Howie introduces them. Brown hair-brown eyes-killer jawline gives him a twisted grin as Howie introduces him as Eddie, and he reaches across to shake Tommy's hand, firm and even. Tommy can tell before the handshake is over that he'd served.

That's Diaz. He'd texted Howie the night the kid had been buried fucking alive and somehow lived to tell the tale. He can't quite pull the memory, but Tommy's pretty sure he'd been the one at the 118 who'd been targeted by that crazy sniper, too.

The other one, bright eyed and staring around like a kid in a candy shop, looking like he might vibrate right out of his skin - shocks of bronze in his hair from the overhead lights and eyes cast silver-blue in the twilight, jolts when Howie reaches back and up to smack at his chest, standing at attention and catching Tommy's eye as Howie introduces him as Buck.

Jesus fucking Christ

Tommy's gonna die tonight.

Between Howie's sporadic communication and all the gossip, Tommy knows about Buck. Kid's a magnet for a shit storm. And Tommy's about to fly them straight into one.

"Uh, h-hi," he says, cheeks rounding as he leans in with a devastating smile, hand extended.

Tommy feels like he's been hit by a fucking truck.

"You, uh - call me Evan," he says, and all the air sort of whooshes out of Tommy's lungs at once as he shakes Tommy's extended hand.

Oh.

This is a bad idea. Capital B capital I bad. Tommy can't tell which one of them is extending the handshake too long, but he's actually kind of hoping Howie will fucking say something about it, make Buck-- Evan -- let go.

"He's gonna need that hand back, Evan," Howie says, an inflection on the name that Tommy won't understand for a good few months.

He ducks his head bashfully, shakes up, down, one more time, before he lets go, and Tommy can feel his own gaze chasing the silver-blue sparks of his irises as they dip out of view. Shit. Fuck.

This is fine. Tommy's worked with plenty of attractive guys. He's worked with plenty of guys he's felt a spark with, right out the gate. He's a fucking professional. He's flown out of enemy gunfire, into firestorms fed by 80 mile-per-hour winds. This is fine.

From what he remembers of the early days at Harbor, when he'd kept up better with Howie, this Buck guy isn't even in the wheelhouse of men who'd be interested, anyway. So. That's that.

"Nice to meet you, Evan," Tommy says, and doesn't miss the pursed lips and raised brows shared between Diaz and Howie when Evan's face lights up like a Roman candle, head tipping back up at an angle and his smile wide wide wide -- too wide for the suicide mission they're about to undertake.

Christ.

"You too, Tommy," Evan says, and Tommy sticks his hands in the pockets of his flight suit to keep from doing something insane like press his fingertips into the pink-swatched skin over his brow that might be a birthmark.

[idkwhatimdoingbutslay]

VI AND EKKO !?!?!?! EMO VI IN THE RING!!!?!?!?!? EKKO IN PILTOVER!?!?!?! CAIT IN THREE DIFFERENT OUTFITS?!!!?! EXPLOSIONS ALL OVER PILTOVER !?!?!?! JINX IN A NEW FIT !?!?!?!? AMBESSA FIGHTING WAR !?!?!?!? SINGED !?!?!?! WARWICK !?!?!?!?

[chronicowboy]

the nice part of my brain: renaissance painting ☺️

the cruel part of my brain: the last supper, leonardo da vinci 😕

[misterapril]

[sunlitmcgee]

platonically down bad. platonically thirsty. platonically lovestruck. platonically simping. platonically acting unwise.

edit: hi to all the 1,000+ people who liked and rb'd this post. I have a kofi. that is all.

[filurig]

some stuff involving non sapient creatures in pareidolia, first image is some animals that tomtar have domesticated, second is a remake of gloson, which is a vätte but is, contrary to most other ones ive made, not a sophont and is instead domesticated by trolls. more info below the cut...

ive already talked about the tomteget in another post, so i wont go into detail about them here, but the one shown in the picture is gullmar's goat (and he is there as well as ucan see). tomtar also keep a domesticated breed of wolverine and ermine, used for some different purposes - wolverines more as guarding/herding animals and ermines to hunt. tomtar don't actually tend to hunt a lot of large prey at all, and what they do hunt is sort of limited as a lot of game birds are sacred to them due to folklore (basically ptarmigans, corvids, grouses, capercailles and things in those veins..). therefore despite how small ermines are they can hunt most of the quarry they prefer such as hares, ducks etc - especially bcs the tomte variety of ermine is bred to be a bit larger and more robust. they can also just be kept as companion animals for many tomtar. wolverines meanwhile serve well as guarding and herding animals due to their size and strength. there is a notable regiment of wolverine fighters in the midlands front - where interested tomtar are trained for combat utilizing the power of the wolverine - the one pictured though is a regular herding/guarding animal though. there are probably some smaller tomte hunting groups that try to go for bigger game with them such as wolves etc. but its definitely pretty unusual. tomteget goats are basically universal across tomte cultures, but the tomte wolverines and ermines are a bit more limited, more occuring in northern cultures historically. although as time goes on they have been spread further south, especially as the midlands front was established and increased the communicative network between different disparate tomte societies. 2. this is just a remake of the gloson from that older post bcs i wasnt really happy with the design - its a laaaaarge animal but didnt really feel like it proportionally bcs i stuck too closely to the normal eu swine proportions... things are mostly the same about them though. the orange parts of the horns glow!

[tevanbuckley]

this might be controversial, but man am i becoming increasingly convinced that buddie trutherism* is just not (and probably never has been) a very healthy way to engage with this show. *to be clear, by this i don't mean shipping buddie, or hoping it'll be canon, or thinking that it could be, i mean the completely unshakeable belief that it is absolutely going to happen (and to a lesser extent that it's always been the plan).

every single piece of evidence for buddie is evidence of a potential, often very compelling potential, but there is really nothing to suggest some big six season plan or any plan at all.

i'm sure a lot of these ppl (maybe even most) aren't bad, or doing anything out of malice. however, i do think having a large chunk of the fandom make post after post, week after week, season after season going "don't worry guys, buddie's definitely happening because of x, y or z," has helped create the current environment. where ppl have spent so long in a bubble where buddie's been presented as the only reasonable outcome, that they can't conceive of the idea they might've been wrong.

atp a lot of buddie meta isn't a queer reading of the show/relationship it's just straight up lies. no tommy isn't a miserable hater who never smiles at his bf, nor is he a predatory freak preying on sweet baby bi buck, and no eddie wasn't jealous at the wedding, no buck didn't realise he was in love with eddie when he came out to him. truly, after a decade in different fandoms, I don't think i've ever seen shipping goggles this bad.

again i don't think the ppl making meta/analysis about things that genuinely have some queer subtext to them are bad or doing anything wrong. but, when a narrative that you're contributing to is feeding into this much wider ecosystem that's influencing others to harass ppl and peddle homophobic dog whistles in an attempt to bridge the gap between their fanon and canon, at what point do you step back and go, "you know what, i don't think it's responsible for me to feed into this anymore."

and i worry that even the people who aren't hurting others with this kind of engagement, are gonna end up hurting themselves in the long run.

[princessamericachavez]

The whole “Eddie pretends not to remember Buck during the shooting” is giving serious “The shooting was Eddie’s oh moment” vibes which, in turn is making me insane.

The implications of Eddie being aware of his feelings for Buck during s5 and s6 are driving me up the walls. They recontextualize everything:

Eddie’s reaction when Buck teased him about getting serious with Ana

The look during the pool game

Eddie’s panic attacks

Eddie’s reluctance to tell Buck about it

Buck being the one who tells him not to ‘stick it out’ if he isn’t in love

Eddie leaving the 118

The look he gave Buck from across the bar when he felt outside the 118 and chose not to join them

Eddie jumping dispatch chain of command to talk down the car bomb

You’re the guy who wants to fix things

Buck showing up during his breakdown

Eddie opening up to him

Buck looking after Chris so he can go to therapy

The equine therapy intervention

Their reunion during May Day

The kitchen/couch scene

“What are you offering?”

“You mean your last two girlfriends came with couches”

Him and Chim sharing a look and trying to take Buck and Hen for breakfast

Buck where the hell are you going???

The donor thing!!!!!

THE LIGHTNING

Can you hear me?????

Do more!

The hospital

Everything about 6x12

If it turns out that Eddie was AWARE of his own feelings for Buck through all that I’m going to absolutely yeet myself into the fucking sun

Edit: I CANNOT BELIEVE I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT THIS WOULD MEAN EDDIE KNEW HE LOVED BUCK DURING THE “It would’ve been better for him if I was the one that got shot” AND DURING THE WILL THING!!!!

[watchyourbuck]

dreams unwind the freefall

buddie | 2,3k | general

“You’ll be okay,” Buck mutters after a while, and Eddie makes to pull back, putting his hands on Buck’s arms to steady himself. He’s about to ask whether he means it when he stops completely.

Their faces are only inches apart, and Eddie can feel Buck’s breath on his lips. He unconsciously matches Buck’s breathing.

A few loose tears fall down his cheeks and into the crevices of his mouth. His tongue darts out to dissolve them almost surreptitiously, and his eyes trace Buck’s face. He looks so… pretty. So him. So Buck.

“Eddie?”

OR: 7x10 spec fic. The Diaz Parents take Christopher. Buck and Eddie are left to deal with the mess. (Includes a hug and a kiss that may ruin everything - or not.)

Read on ao3

[octolingplush]

even though i’m aroace i will continue to be feral about fictional characters because

1. i thought people were joking so i went along with it

2. if anything, i am committed to the bit

[sibylsleaves]

This might be controversial, but my established buddie headcanon is that their sex life is pretty transformative for both of them over time. It's starts out pretty standard fare until Eddie stumbles upon Buck's stash of sex toys. They experiment and Eddie gets curious to branch out and explore things he's always repressed. Buck, on the other hand, gets gobsmacked by how emotional he gets during sex sometimes, when he's mostly viewed it as a fun/horny activity in the past.

honestly yeah i do feel like you're onto something that sex with eddie is the first time buck has ever allowed himself to feel truly emotional/vulnerable during sex, like. i believe he could have had emotional sex with abby, but that it would've been more about HER emotions than his (esp after her mother died). with taylor idk i feel like their sex life was probably more just fun/horny since that's kinda how they started out and taylor doesn't strike me as an emotional eye-contact-heavy missionary sex kind of girl. and he hasn't been with anyone else where he got to that "in love" emotional stage with.

so yeah, i completely agree with this take. i think he's completely not expecting just how emotional it gets (i am definitely a buck cries during sex with eddie at LEAST once truther) and it just. completely bowls his over. like did you guys KNOW sex could be like this????? he is DYING to tell people how amazing and life-changing it is and Maddie is like. can you please tell LITERALLY anyone else. Chim is like yeah count me out. Bobby is like. sorry actually i think i lost all my hearing. temporarily. hen is already on the other side of the fire station.

Buck is like Eddie no one wants to hear how amazing sex with you is 🥺☹️ Eddie's like, well, I do.

[sapphsquid]

Always thought this page was really cute so I colored it