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roses-and-elixir · 2 years

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The best thing I got out of therapy was learning the importance to immerse yourself in activities you enjoy doing, to make you feel better. Also learning to appreciate the small things and slow living. But also how to overcome your problem(s) by making a plan on how to deal with it in baby steps. That way you’re not pushing yourself too much that you become overwhelmed, but at the same time you’re pushing yourself a little to help build up the courage. It’s been a slow progress to reach the end goal but it’s worth it once you get to that point.

#alhamdulillah #im so grateful i am where i am #i was crying nearly every night in pain - both physically and emotionally 2 years ago #i used to have really bad nightmares and bruxism as a result #my sleep would be so bad and i used to wake up crying sm #its so so so nice not crying anymore #its so nice to have a daily routine i have learnt to love and appreciate #its so nice to just not experience pain #and i feel like my sleep hygienes gotten so much better - maybe its from exhaustion from trying to do a lot in a day #but im not gonna complain - at one point i wasnt sleeping at all or even scared to sleep #personal #i kind of feel like this is the best my life will probably get lol #the most peace i will feel #but its ok ive learnt good coping mechanisms and strategies to deal with issuds #issues #i will try to face whatever problems i have thrown at me InshaAllah #have Allah too to turn to

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kokomini9 · 29 days

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can't trust the words behind the fangs 🐍🎭 a doodle with my take on his mask :3c

#sampo koski #sampo #honkai star rail #hsr fanart #hsr #hsr sampo #eats him like a starved man #the snake fangs and the poison drips ugh pls i love idsgjfdhkjdg #its unfinished in so many places but idc anymore TAKE HE #WOE SAMPO UPON YE IM TIRED #he's probably going to have like a full face mask but the half mask is nice #like u can still see his mouth but you cant trust what he says #and then his eyes are covered in that forever laugh giggle eye expression #the poison drips and gems from his fangs and tears #laughing? crying? who knows!#im kissing and punching him violently #schedules this at 2am eodfhkjdhjdhgkfh

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bl00doodle · 1 year

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#my art #tryignt o do sm shit help i wanma draw and finish things so baddd #the brown sketches r me crying @ the phrase 'to be loved is to be changed' i wanna make a sad emo angsty comic abt shadows loss and pain an #still endong up with a happy life bc. 🧍‍♂️ fuck i want that for myself too #THE 2NDD... MY SKY PIRATE GRANDMA MARIA AU 🫶🫶🫶🫶 basically shes super inspired by dola from castle in thsky lol #shes putting makeup on shad bc hes going on his first date ever....#in his 50yr immortal ish ageless life hes going on a date and maria will damn sure make sure hes gonna have a nice one #ehehehe guess whos hes going on a date w....👁👁(obvious)#uhhhh the cat is just older blaze leik burnin blaze inspired by her concept art #one of her hair styles is like fire and im like. thats fuckin cool!!#sHE GETS STRIPED AND GETS FWUFFY WHEN SHES OLDER bc i think its kyut 🫶#makes her related to big the cat ehehehe alt dimension shit or smhtn idk im not thinking anymore #oh fuck i forgot to tag the charas #sonic the hedgehog #maria robotnik #eggman #shadow the hedgehog #blaze the cat #amy rose #sonic chao #uhhh it uink thqts it #sowowiwjekwo #sowwy its a mess

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risoria · 3 months

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posting him because if he can make one person smile today, its worth it

#there is this lovely man from gaza at the marches with his sister (?) and family and he has pet rurik a few times #and at the march three weeks ago he saw him walking behind him and exclaimed ’oh i know this dog!’ as in #’oh this dog is my friend’#i just started crying immediately #i couldnt even continue shouting the slogans for a good while #we’re all human you know #its literally that simple but people dont understand?#sorry but isnt that why we’re all here on this earth? pets included?#if he can make only one person smile; good #i dont really feel like smiling anymore but i wish it for other people #last week he told me he used to have a white dog but it got shot #thats the reality for some people and yet whats the difference between us?#geography #personal #this is from last week. there were ten times the usual crowd because it was a joint protest for different cities #it was so nice

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indigopoptart · 25 days

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man i love the people im surrounded with. how did this happen. youre all so lovely😭

#istg tumblr is the BEST place to find people #all my current online friends who im close asf with are people i found on here #my girl my besties hell even some of my mutuals i dont talk to bruh #almost all of em were found on here #who knew life would turn like this bro. who knew #its grateful hours rn stfu idc #like yall. i cannot put into words how much you mean to me #im finally getting out of a mental rut thats lasted me a few months (school related) (school just ended)#and the fact YALL STAYED BY ME???#its small nd yall r gonna be like dub miguel. friends do that #but i aint never had that #like the past three years around this same time i have lost people important to me and lost core support systems over and over and over #and it feels nice that im better enough/healed enough #and surrounded by people who truly care for me #that thats not the case anymore. its so liberating and god does it make me want to cry tears of gratefulness that this is my life now #i am loved in so many ways that i cannot even recount right now.#sorry maternity classes gang (group chat) im gonna lovedump later on you tonight probably #man. mann.#this is my life #like #/pos #thats so lovely man.#wanna namedrop yall so bad bc people deserve to know you all and deserve to know how beautiful and loving you are #but ik i shouldnt for privacy😭#ily all tho #even if we aint talk much ur presence is always appreciated by me #sorry sorry ill shut up now😭#indigo speaks #yapping

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skunkes · 9 months

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guess who was not in the right emotional state to finish watching lars and the real girl

#what a lovely movie....#talkys #i obviously related a lot to him and his mannerisms. and such. among all the rest of it.#augh. something about watching him kiss bianca at the end before it happens #something about that being so familiar! a movie about loneliness.#a movie about loneliness... watching loneliness acted out while i act out loneliness.#the way that i can so physically feels how lars feels both in his relationship with bianca but also the moments where he wants More.#it burns...relatable but hurt to watch in the sense that he finds resolution and im staring at the credits sitting hollow #really funny too that he had that way out of things with bianca...bc i have a similar Out set up with al...#if one day i dont need him anymore...#augh....what a nice movie...#it hurts so bad but its a wonderful movie...#i like how everyone support him...! made me cry #the way ryan gosling talks in this movie is the exact way i talk to my siblings sometimes too.#when i feel small. and very much like their little brother who is 15; 12; + 9 years younger than them. AUGH.#hurts it hurts it hurts. good movie what a nice movie

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tibli · 6 months

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this past week has just. not been very good to me tbh

#had a really scary health issue over the weekend #have classwork due every sunday #my bosses are usually rlly nice to me #but today they kind of like. dogpiled me for listening to music at work when i didnt realize it would be an issue #bc it helps me focus and work faster #and one of them said that was 'bullshit'#and kinda made me out to be inattentive and unfocused when they make more mistakes than i do #and i already felt kinda shitty today bc im having car trouble AGAIN so i was doing my damnedest not to cry at fucking work #then i came home and my parents kept hounding me abt sleeping in the living room since my bed isnt fully built yet #and bc of the health thing im not taking my adhd medicine anymore #which has made focusing THAT MUCH HARDER for me #i just feel like it cant ever be just one thing at a time #its always a bunch of shit at once #im gonna be honest i know all this shit sounds stupid as hell and none of it matters in anyway #but that sure isnt stopping the ideations lmao!!!!#tibtalks

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newfeeling77 · 7 months

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i wish i had gotten properly medicated n therapized earlier 1. bc it hasnt even started yet i had one therapy appointment and i wont be feeling the effects of medication for another month and a half and 2. im already feeling regretful of the time i wasted these past few months being depressed. not unhappy just apathetic and frustrated. bc objectively im having a good time n learning new things and making friends like its a really good semester but i havent been able to enjoy it bc im currently incapable of enjoying anything. i can appreciate things, i can acknowledge the positive aspects of my life but they dont give me any positive feelings. instead im just angry or overwhelmed all the time

#at least im not anxious.#it felt nice to hear the therapist say shes not worried about anxiety levels n wants to focus on my trauma and depression #bc i really am mostly free of generalized anxiety. and social anxiety.#like im not having panic attacks n im carefree to a fault #more of my pain now comes from shame about something i did bc i wasn’t feeling anxious enough and did or said something odd or upsetting #but not to a point i should be crying n hating myself you know. i guess its a sort of anxiety to worry so much how you come off to ppl n if #youve upset them etc #but i dont really feel that constant stress and fear anymore its cool #now i just need to get the positive emotions going again n i truly believe i will be unstoppable itll be crazy

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hauntedpotat · 6 days

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I love finding out there's yet another small thing wrong with me 👍

#not like a diagnosis or something just like. how my brain has been wired #when stuff has never been an option for me in the past i just dont think about it anymore even if it is an option now #even stuff that has never been told to me #like i was working on a project and i didnt have enough felt to make it so i just went “well that sucks” and did something else instead #and then my mom comes in like an hour into my improvisation and im telling her this #and shes like “we could have gone to the store? you shouldve asked”#and it just never crossed my mind as an option #because i have been trying so hard not to inconvenience people my entire life that going to the store became something that we planned to do #and it was either on the way to/from something or explicitly planned for a day and time #so ive never considered just. going spontaneously #esp to get something unimportant #so it was just immediately vetoed by my brain because 'oh youre busy you dont have time for that trips to the store take too long'#so thats nice #i dont know what to do with myself now #i love finding out more about how pleasing everyone in my life has affected me #<<sarcasm #aaaand thats why im now crying!#this is fun #potat rambles #vent post #tw vent #<kinda? its just venty tags #idk being safe with it

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zoppzoop · 12 days

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GAAHAHHHHH

#venting in the tags #maybe its just past darkness and the Bad Thoughts which i shouldnt listen to are clouding my brain too much #but i feel so fucking weird and inadequate over everything rn #im unable to work on drawings as i usually would have and its kinda plaguing everything which it should like yeah i love drawing but #i cant let just one aspect of me ruin everything. right? the fact that i havent been able to draw as well as i usually can should make me #feel sick to the stomach and unsure about everything i do but it happening and i hate it.#plus i got the ipad id saved up from the comms to buy and its fun and nice and all and maybe i just need more practice with it but i feel #like im not able to draw on it even more? and i spent the whole day trying to get used to it but its just not as good?? and then when i went #back to the no screen wacom i couldnt get a hang of it becuase idek its just not happening #and also the fucking art block wants me dead i swear i want to draw so bad and i have so many ideas but the moment i start anything its just #crumbles down into nothingness and i hate everything i do and gods fuck i want to cry but i can because there are people at home and #usually im a big 'crybaby' when im at home but i dont fucjing wanna be like that anymore like i can handly my shit myself im fine.#i dont need to just fuckinf cry abiut it becuase thats not gonna fox anything but also i feel like crying might just make me feel better #but then id have to hear shit from my family and i know theyre just teasing in a /pos way but i dont wanna fucking deal with that #plus my brother iust talking to him os annoying sometimes like he talks about things so condescendingly and fucking hel dude shut #the fuck up i dont need you telling me that my art is something people can 'just do' and the fact that i was able to get the ipad #'basically for free since i got that money from the little drawings i make' as if they dont fucking mean anything to you like #shut the fucking fuck up dude i worked hard on those and even though i dont like my own shit sometimes i still fucking work hard on those #fuck you you bitch #i think a lot of things are just piling up and i need to sleep #tomorrow will be a new dawn and a fresh start and maybe ill hate myself less #ps. note to anyone reading the tags #im fine i just needed to yell out and express my frustration a bit. some sleep will help surely.

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ofalltheginjoints · 2 years

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#my fatal flaw is actually that i will never actually give anyone consequences for treating me like shit #like. you could stab me and i’d probably apologize to you #i got an uber bc i really didn’t want to wait 45min for the bus (plus the hour bus ride)#and like i literally hadn’t even buckled my seatbelt before the driver started complaining to me about how he’s losing so much money on #this trip and how lyft is screwing him over and that i should tip him $10 for his troubles and like.#i asked him if he wanted me to get out and find another one and he just kept avoiding the question #while still telling me how much this trip was costing him and quite literally making me feel like shit for requesting the ride #and i ended up changing the drop off location to somewhere that was like. closer bc i just didn’t want to be in the car anymore #and after i did that he was still going #like. i’m sitting in the back of his car on the fucking highway getting berated bc i just wanted to fucking go home after work #and you know what i did?#gave him 5 stars and 25% tip bc ‘well he shouldn’t lose his job just bc i had a bad experience’#but now im sitting here at a mall waiting for my mom to come pick me up and trying not to cry #and i wish i would’ve like. given a truthful ride review or just skipped it bc like #no i don’t want him to lose his job and if i give him one star he possibly could #but also that guy was literally being a massive dick to me and i literally tipped him for it.#i want to be a nice person always but like. i think sometimes me being nice is just letting ppl do whatever the want and being complacent #and i fucking hate it #after like a while of him going on i stopped him and was like #hey man i get its tough and i feel for you but it’s not my fault and i really don’t feel like talking rn #so im gonna put my headphones in #and this motherfucker goes ‘umm ok i mean thats kind of awkward but ok’#LIKE YOU DIDNT MAKE IT AWKWARD THE MOMENT I GOT IN YOUR CAR #expect maybe im overreacting?????????#anyway. um everything is bad and terrible rn and i just wanna go home but ive still got an hour before my mom gets off work :)#if you actually read all of this i 1) am so sorry and 2) literally love u and also im sorry

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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"#AND IF I SAID I GOT UP AND PACED MY KITCHEN FOR LIKE TEN MINUTESVLKAJVL" <- MANY HAVE REPORTED THIS.

The mods are kind of amusing to me because at least one is loosely inspired by my art (this one), yet I Cannot Stand the modder who was the first to do it and whom I know for a fact based his mod on my art lmao

I was thinking of Y7Jo with eyeliner this morning too! Because for RGGJo, he has intense dark circles to begin with, and the upward swoop at the ends of his eyes can't be replicated in 3D without makeup. So eyeliner--siren eyes like Tsutsumi's on that cover especially--really helps maintain the drama.

I think Y7Jo should be allowed to be DRAMATIC. I think Y7Jo should be allowed to be PRETTY. Therefore I approve. Because Masato must get the Emo Gene from somewhere, right... and much like with Dead Souls Daigo, Arakawa can help, surely...

OH BUT THAT ART’S SO NICE THOUGH HOLD ON the hatching and colors are so so gorgeous and i love the texture of the hair- nevermindthe snakeskin detail on his lapels... obsessed actually

youre right on dramatic Y7jo tho- i think masato has the right to two Dramatic dads, its only fair..

#snap chats #TRAGIC about one of the moddera being someone you dont like tho thats gotta suck 😭😭#reminding myself to scavenge through your blog later for your art if youve posted anymore cause your styles SO nice and beautiful..#oh but pivoting on Nice And Beautiful this topics gonna end up remindig me of old comics and old ideas ive done/had #still crying at the visual of the arakawa family like you have three goth/dark-apparel dramatic blokes and then. Ichi.#im on a walk rn i cant put all my thoughts together BUT I AM HAVING THEM #there are connections to be made here its like a cork board in my head #i wonder if jo ever asked arakawa about his stageplay days... can we get a segway into arakawa doing light makeup for him then....#MUCH to think about on my walk.....

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toastsnaffler · 8 months

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I have an interview tmr for a possible teaching assistant job. but I realllyyyy really don't want to fucking go

#the interviewer is rly nice ive spoken to him already its not like nerves or anything #I dont rly wanna go into teaching but I do have experience so I'm getting interest from recruiters.. I need a job and the pay is alright #the main thing is that background checks are so comprehensive + they want 3 references and I. dont have that many lmao #but its non negotiable cuz anything involving kids or vulnerable ppl has rly high standards. understandably ofc #so I need to email a couple ppl from my degree to ask if they would be willing to give me a ref but I REAAAALLLLY dont want tooooo #bc I fucking dropped out of my masters this year and didnt tell my tutor beforehand. so its just rly fucking awkward to ask NOW #like I feel kinda physically sick just trying to draft this email theres smth rly humiliating abt it. man im gonna cry again #but I have to do it bc this interview is tomorrow and I need to submit the form w references before then ive been putting it off #ugdhfhcbncjhfjfbfbfh. and even if my tutor is cool w it I still only have 2 refs so I need to find a third and just. mannn #i have a massive adhd block w filling out forms too fucking hate this shit what if I just cancelled the interview ahahahahahahhha #its like a physical fucking pressure preventing me doing anything abt it i hope i get hit by a bus so its not my problem anymore whatever #.vent #fucking hell. whatever im gonna go make lunch

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weenhands · 1 year

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i wanna die im sorry gerard i let you down but this gender stuff is kicking my ass