#just enjoying myself and enjoying creating

[unhingedromione]

I'm not going to go line by line and point out how wrong, nonsensical, and hypocritical I think you've been. We're two tired asf trans people who are just trying to survive in a world that wants us dead. What is the point of making both of us more tired? I'm just going to end with this: you don't seem to understand or care to understand that my survival AS A TRANS PERSON depends heavily NOT ON JKR's IP — which y'all keep fixating on — but the COMMUNITY her IP has brought together. If you're too triggered by HP to understand where I am coming from, I get that. I highly recommend you liberally block any and all HP related tags to make tumblr a safer space for you. I am only using one trans tag because I am sick of YOU LOT making it UNSAFE for us — many of whom are queer/trans — to peacefully enjoy our barbies in our highly insular community. My narrative is also a trans one, and it is valid, even if it diverges from the mainstream trans narrative. The transformative content I'm creating alongside others in this deeply anti-capitalist COMMUNITY is THE BEST WAY I am able to:

heal from lifelong trauma

imagine alternate realities for myself and society

affirm my gender identity in a context that makes it unsafe for me to visibly be trans/gender-nonconforming and

refill my cup after years of burnout fighting for the liberation for Black, Brown, poor, disabled, and queer/trans people, so that I can keep fighting for our rights.

I am deeply sorry for the ways in which your rights have been stripped away in the UK — it's not that different from the state of trans rights in the US, so I understand the fucking pain on a visceral level. But I am not going to stop doing what I need for survival because some angry and hurt trans person on the other side of the pond has the erroneous impression that me playing with my fictional barbies in my anti-capitalist, deeply trans-inclusive dollhouse with my awesome friends has any tangible impact on JKR's dollars and how she uses them. The vast majority of us entrenched in the fandom don't spend money on official merch — the only consumption our fanworks inspire is the free consumption of more fanworks (oh and fan artist merch that 100% funds the artists). So, if all HP fan creators stopped creating content today, it would have — at most — a negligible impact on official HP-related sales. Moreover, we'd be a lot more successful convincing fan creators to outspend JKR's donations than to leave this fandom. Because being in this fandom is a matter of healing, connection, and community. It is about survival. If you care to understand why, I'd be happy to elaborate. If you don't, I'd like to redirect you to my original point: please leave us the fuck alone, and we will do the same. You resist your way, and we will resist in ours.

As a trans person, I am never, ever, ever giving up Harry Potter. And our fandom isn't going anywhere. Fucking deal with it.

Around this time last year, when JKR made some stupid comment (totally forgetting which one, there's just been so many at this point), I wrote a defense of Harry Potter fans' decision to remain in the fandom that essentially boiled down to this: giving up this fandom means giving up our people. In the wake of JKR's horrendous role in the anti-scientific UK Supreme Court ruling conflating sex with gender, this sentiment remains exactly the same.

I don't begrudge any HP fan who can no longer engage with JKR's IP due to this vile development. But I remain loud and proud in my support of the ✨community✨ that Harry Potter has brought together. As I mentioned in my last post, this community is not only full of the funniest, nicest, cleverest, and most creative people I've ever met in my life, but it is also the most diverse I have ever been a part of — and as an extrovert and community organizer who has lived in four different countries and speaks three languages, I have met a shit ton of people and been a part of lots of communities, significantly more than the average person. You are out of your mind if you think I am going to turn my back on the community that has been so critical to my survival as a queer, brown, neurodivergent, depressed, burnt out, poor Muslim femme in this capitalist, fascist hellscape. Day in and day out, my friends and I are pushing forward some of the most powerful narratives about queer, trans, and colonial liberation that society has to offer, which will have ripple effects on media and pop culture in the time to come (as is the nature of fandom). Nothing JKR can do or say will take that away from us. Nothing.

So to everyone who wants to claim that we're being transphobic for FREELY engaging with JKR's IP and doing things with it that would make her combust — that we're transphobic for wanting to keep this beautiful, generous community in tact — I not so kindly ask you to fuck off and leave us the fuck alone. You resist your way, and we will continue to resist in ours.

[miss-may-i]

Changes I'm Making to This Blog

Hello, hello. It has been a while. After finishing the latest season of Miss May I, and Tumblr flagging posts for no reason, I just really needed a break from Tumblr. It also gave me a lot of time to think about what I want for this blog going forward. First and foremost, I will say this blog will remain a Simblr at heart. However, with that said, I would also like to use this more as a personal writing blog. Miss May I is not only the title of my Sims story, but also the pen name I use for my published writings. I will confirm that when Miss May I returns, it will be a reboot.

I have not been happy with my Miss May I story for a while, mostly because I posted parts as I created them, rather than having a whole plot scripted out, making the parts, editing, and improving. That is how I approach my more professional writings, and when Miss May I started, it was meant to be a casual break from that. However, that is not how my creative mind works. I feel like my storytelling abilities have greatly improved since the creation of Miss May I, and that is something I would like to show off, and something I hope you, as a reader, can greatly enjoy and appreciate. Some of the more prominent storylines will be returning, as well as some newer ones.

Furthermore, like I said, I would like this blog to also be interwoven with my writing outside of Tumblr. I'm going to be starting a blog series called A Day in the Life of an Aspiring Author Trying to be More Productive. Sounds pretty self explanatory. It's going to be a record of holding myself accountable, while also sharing some writing outside of The Sims.

Last but not least, I would also like to announce that my debut novel, WHAT'S YOUR NAME? will be adapted into a Sims story. So for those of you who who did not get a copy of my book, or did not read it, here is the opportunity for you to enjoy the story.

Thank you if you've made it this far, and happy Simming.

Signed,

[eyecan02]

Wanted to Spread Some Positivity in the Charlastor Community

I see that Anti negativity has been making its rounds. A part from the usual bullshit, it seems now they're bringing up old toxic Charlastor behavior from 5 years ago. No one is saying that their behavior toward Viv wasn't shitty, but a large part of that particular group of Charlastors either fucked off or took a long look in the mirror.

It's almost like there's such a thing called growth. Something it seems Antis know nothing about because instead of just focusing on enjoying their own ship, they choose to tear down other ships, Charlastor in particular.

The ironic thing is the current Antis, RadioApple in particular, have becomes the new toxic Charlastors from 2020. They've become the very thing that they hate most- the thing they try to convince everyone is what we are. I wouldn't be surprised if Viv ended up blocking the RadioApple tag as a result.

Charlastor is no longer blocked as evidenced by the Charlastor art Viv occasionally likes. I've seen her "like" several ships and her liking Charlastor is not gonna make them canon any more than RadioApple will become canon- something the RadioApples/Antis cannot grasp.

They're out there losing their shit because Viv had Alastor and Charlie stickers on her luggage right next to Stolitz stickers. Is she not allowed to represent her main characters? Basically, the Antis are going to end up performing the greatest magic trick mankind has ever seen- the trash is going to take itself out.

They are only creating more trouble for themselves. Eventually, their behavior is gonna cause Viv to block their tag and a lot of them are gonna end up leaving the fandom, especially once they realize any "RadioApple" merch is merely ship bait. I hope this gives you guys some peace of mind.

So that's why I want to say that I understand RadioApples and other Antis are frustrating to deal with to say the least. It can be easy to rise to the bait. I've done it myself once before but also I tend to use only charlastor, radiobelle, musical shipping and alastor x charlie as my usual tags to avoid Anti conflict.

I never cross tag with HH, Hazbin Hotel or even with another ship, and that's helped me keep the Antis at bay for a year and a half until one recently invited themselves into the comment section of one of my posts that were clearly not meant for their ship.

It makes me sad to see people wanting to leave the Charlastor fandom/social media because of the Antis constant bullying. That's why I implore you to just use those tags that I listed above from now on, block all the antis and try not to engage in their bullshit if you can avoid it. If any of you have an Anti Block list, please actively share them so the less we all have to deal with them the better.

You owe it to yourself to brain rot over Charlastor with the rest of us as you should. Draw the art, write the fanfic, write the analysis. We will all eagerly engage with that and support each other while we wait for S2.

Charlastor may not be as big of a ship as it once was but our numbers are steadily growing, I've even seen our ship win some shipping polls here and there so that's just one more good sign for our ship.

All RadioApples/Antis are doing is gaining lots of bad karma for their rudeness and bullying. Just watch, they're gonna end up hardly getting any "ship fuel" and end up having to resort once again to stealing Charlastor scenes and replacing Charlie with Luci.

For them to steal and redraw those scenes means they can see the romantic tension and are actively choosing to ignore it, more so if a couple of innocent stickers on Vivs luggage are enough to make them lose their shit.

Our ship is often called "overrated" and "generic" and I implore you to look at that kind of talk from another angle. You know what's another word for overrated and generic- it's popular. :) The word is popular.

The bad boy x good girl ship never dies. I'm almost willing to bet that that's one of the reasons Charlastor got so much content and WILL continue to get more content. Also, whether the Antis like it or not, let me say it again- Charlie and Alastor are the MAIN characters. Not Charlie and Vaggie. Not Alastor and Luci. Alastor and Charlie are the ones running the show and moving the story forward.

The truth is that RadiaApples and other Antis are really truly threatened by Charlastor. They are actually scared that Charlastor could become canon. Let them be threatened. I'd feel salty too if my ship (though I wouldn't act out in a toxic way over it) didn't have real ship fuel.

So don't let them ruin your day or your interest in this ship! Love the ship and talk about the ship and engage in the Charlastor community as much as you'd like. One thing those noisy Antis can't stand is being ignored so give them just that.

Let their toxic delulu brains talk to the wall while you continue to enjoy yourself. Not just to spite them but because Charlastor deserves to be celebrated. It's so special, charming, magical and I think it's exactly what a lot of us needed.

Me for sure because I hadn't been a part of a fandom in a long time and there was something with just the right amount of kick to the Charlastor flavor that made me want to join- I even got back into writing fanfiction because of it.

I had retired from fanfiction many years ago but the Charlastor ship was so special that it literally revived my love for writing and I've gotten to talk to so many wonderful Charlastor fans. And I hope all of you continue to enjoy the ship and I hope you choose to concentrate more on the positive side of our fandom.

Once again, our numbers are growing. You're not alone. Fuck the Antis and for every Anti you may encounter hopefully only once in a blue moon (with only charlastor related tags), may you gain 3-5 new Charlastor friends. :)

[bellestalesoffiction]

Baked with Love- Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: Bucky enjoys books, he's found a new place that makes him feel a bit more at home

Warnings: none. Fluff

A/N: wrote this over a few days, its not much but a nice little fluff piece, enjoy 💛 dividers from @firefly-graphics

The bell above the door sounded. The warmth of low chatter, soft melodic tunes and the smells of baked goods washed over Bucky as he stepped into his favorite book shop and bakery, Sinful Sweets.

The owner smiled and chatted with those at the display counter, motioning them to the register, catching Bucky in her peripheral as she turned. Her laugh like music to his ears as she offered a happy wave. Bucky offered a small bashful wave back before ducking into the bookstore half of the space. The weight of the modern world melted off his shoulders as he slowly made his way around the shelves, flesh fingers dancing along the worn spines of the large selection of new and second hand books.

The shop was divided in 2, the bakery when you first walk in, small wooden tables with cozy mismatched chairs lined the left wall with bathrooms at the back and the door to the kitchen along the right wall right behind the counter and display case that housed fresh baked cookies, cupcakes and other delicious treats themed around books and deserts from those stories. At the end of the counter was the register and  along that wall, near the giant window housing the shops name, was a gap in the wall with curtains pulled aside and a neon sign above that flashed the word 'BOOKS' in bright blue lights so you knew what you were going to find. Tucked away in the side room, lined with shelves, floor to ceiling and a few tables, were what seemed to be endless copies of both new and second hand books filled stories of all kind.

It was a kind of place you could get lost in.

There were a couple chairs scattered in the square space for folks to stop and enjoy a story. There were no windows, no register in this space, just calm. Bucky had spent hours in one of the armchairs before, only venturing out to the bakery for a hot chocolate and muffin before retreating back into the mess of stories.

Bucky had also taken to conversations with the shops owner, Y/N, exchanging thoughts on classics like the Hobbit or getting recommendations on newer series, to ease him back into the world. This place had become a quiet sanctuary, a place where he could breath and just be Bucky and not 'James' or 'Sargent Barnes' or 'Soldat' or 'The Winter Solider'. Even in therapy (with that God awful woman), this was one place he avoided talking about, she was one he didn't bring up. The owner,  with her bright welcoming smile and melodic laughter that made you want to join in even if whatever it was she laughed at wasn't as funny as she thought, was a breath of fresh air.

To Bucky, she was something that should be protected at all costs, hidden away. His slice of peace could be just that, peaceful, untainted by everything that burdens him. Even if he wished there could be more to it than just passing debates on which cookie was better chocolate chip or sugar cookies, or debates on if second breakfast and elevensys should be a thing, he wouldnt dare try, it would bring her too close and shatter the illusion he created where he was just a person and not something out of the history books.

As the day waned on and people dwindled, Bucky found himself gravitating closer and closer back to the bakery. With a quick survey of the room, seeing two women with a baby having coffee and a student in the back corner, he chose to emerge from hiding in his stories, a worn copy of the Hobbit in hand.

"There you are," a warm voice washed over him, "I thought I was gonna have to come drag you from the trenches myself."

She teased him gently, she could tell he had been through something. He didn't know if she knew exactly what he had been through, but she knew to tread lightly.

"Find anything new and exciting this time?" She smiled softly at him.

Bucky shrugged and held up his copy of The Hobbit, "Nothing new, but an older copy of the Hobbit closer to what I remember having as a kid"

"I'm glad you found that," she smiled warmly at him, eyes wrinkling at the corners from joy, her face softening and flushing slightly as she continues, "tell you what, bring back the last copy you found or a book to swap this with and be my guinea pig for the next batch of cookies and we'll call it square"

Bucky blinked at her, wasn't she losing out on a sale? He nodded slowly realizing the student had packed up and left in a hurry and the women were getting ready to leave, making him the last person in the shop.

"Besides, I like having you around." She called over her shoulder before disappearing to the back.

Bucky smiled to himself, yeah, this is definitely his slice of peace, and he's not giving this up anytime soon.

~1 year later~

Y/N wiped down the counters of her little shop. Her favorite customer had stopped coming in a month ago. There was a whole fiasco uptown with the terror group the GRC called the Flag Smashers and Sam Wilson, formerly the Falcon, had been dubbed the new Captain America. She remembered watching fron her cramped apartment above her shop, spotting a familiar face in the background, metal arm out in the open making her realize the crush she had on the quiet man had been on Sargent Bucky Barnes, the Winter Solider. Where this may have terrified some, it only added to her want to help that man heal whatever it was that broke him and feed him as many baked goods as he would let her.

With a sigh and a roll of her shoulders to stretch her stiff muscles, Y/N made her way to the front door to flick off the open sign, stopping mid step and raising her head as the bell above the door sounded.

"Got any of those famous chocolate chips doll?"

A smile graced her face and her shoulders slumped as a breath fell out of her lungs sounding like a laugh, "of course I do," she responded softly, "but why don't you come sit while I make a fresh batch and tell me what you've been up too Bucky"

Bucky smiled sheepishly and moved towards her quickly, taking her hands in his before she could turn away, looking down at her. Y/N flushed and squeezed his hands sucking in a breath leaning back to blink up at him, swallowing hard, heart racing.

"I will tell you everything you wanna know, but first off I got a question for you doll"

Y/N nodded and flushed further, feeling the heat creeping up her neck and ears, "Y-yes?"

"Have dinner with me?"

[highprincessofthenightcourt]

I honestly completely agree with this.

Feyre deserved to get the chance to forget her past and be able to live her life with the people that truly value and love her. She deserved to get the chance to try and heal herself from yet another horrible experience such as the war, instead of still working on helping her sisters. She deserved to enjoy this family that she finally had, instead of still being in constant worry about people who she didn’t matter to. She earned having that magical part of the world to herself, to feel safe and loved and happy.

From a Feyre stan perspective, I can understand Elain’s presence in her world, she wasn’t abusive to Feyre like her other sister was. I think that maybe having Elain around can even be good for her—from the way she’s admitted to her mistakes and tried to be there for Feyre whenever she could, I think Elain is forgivable. However, I will never accept the way ACOSF is written as a redemption arc for a character that continues to be cruel to those who are kind to her and yet is expected to be regarded as a warrior or hero.

I think that it was a horrible writing choice to make Feyre tolerate having someone like that around, especially given how she continues to be hurtful towards Feyre and her family. I don’t think Feyre from her own trilogy would have ever put up with that and I don’t think anybody should put up with narcissistic abuse.

I would love to see the real Feyre throughout Elain’s book as she builds a bond with her, I miss her so much. Though, at this point I have started to believe that SJM has lost her ability to create good content and I might give up and just convince myself ACOTAR is a trilogy and move on lol.

i'm not going to lie, as a feyre stan, i never wanted her sisters to turn fae and live in velaris with her. i see feyre's position in the storyline (an ethereal, eternal being, with gifts beyond her comprehension, the most powerful high lord in history as her mate, nyx and the IC) as a reward for everything she had to endure in the first book, and that includes nesta and elain. them being gifted the same things she has feels like they are getting rewarded for the bad things they've done, and it takes away from the payoff feyre got. specially giving them each a bat boy for mates, two characters that were meant to be the brothers feyre never had, now they'll prioritize her sisters over her, and that will never sit right with me. nesta and elain did nothing to earn becoming fae, they did nothing to earn being mated to cassian and azriel (argue with the wall about e/lu/ ci/en), they did nothing to earn their gifts and positions in velaris.

on another note, i also feel like keeping her sisters around, specially nesta, is keeping feyre from growing as a character, because she still allows nesta to walk all over her, to disrespect her and her mate, to talk down to her, all things which feyre should have grown out of after becoming fae.

but like, it happened. it's already written. so i can only hope sjm doesn't screw feyre over even more in her next book, and actually gives elain a good redemption arc and works on her relationship with feyre more than she did nesta's. i hope azriel and feyre's friendship is showed blossoming in his book, and that feyre is thriving despite everything else. she is still the main character, and she should not be robbed of that title.

[cicidarkarts]

Hey everyone. I don't normally make posts like this.

I've decided that I want to take a break from social media. Recently, I've had a lot of bad experiences in the yume community—doubles that I've compared myself to, people blocking me seemingly at random when I thought we were friends, and just a general feeling of inadequacy, disconnect, and being unwanted.

It's taken a toll on my mental health. Poor sleep. Not eating. High stress.

I'm thinking I'll be gone for a couple of weeks. I don't want to be gone forever, because I've also had a ton of good experiences in the community as well, and really enjoy connecting with other yumeshippers—doing art trades, and writing love letters. Just been going through a rough patch and I think it's best I step away for a while. You know, reconnect with the joys of creating, simply be with Matthew and indulge in our relationship, and enjoy time with very close friends and family. I'll still be on my personal Discord & servers with close friends, I'll still be creating Matthew art (just not posting for a bit), and I still love my mooties 🖤🖤 Thank you all for reading this and understanding. I really do appreciate that 🖤🖤🖤 If you're my mootie and you're still reading this, please add me to your tag list so I don't miss anything while I'm gone! For art & writing. Doesn't matter if we've interacted once or 50 times, I want to be on your tag list! I don't have the energy right now to reach out, unfortunately. Barely had the energy to type this up and be coherent as it's making me feel ill. So please, if you have a tag list, I want to be on it. Thank you 🖤🖤

[scartale-an-undertale-au]

"This story is just for that reader"

here's my piece i have created for the ORV fanart contest (was posted on my twitter yesterday so i posted it on time! no worries). it was kinda finished in a rush (i wanted to fix a few things and change others) but turned out that the time i thought that the contest would finish was the incorrect time T-T so i had much less time than i had thought but i am honestly so proud of myself since it's been almost two years since i had picked up my drawing pad (honestly, i had lost drive to draw and then the war began so i had lost all motivation to create at all, i barely wrote as well). i'm surprised i still remembered how to draw XD

enjoy~

p.s. spoilers for the epilogue

[alxandergoth]

I've been rereading the Holland legacy from the start and noticed that you only started to incorporate story posts when Charlie was a teenager. I was curious what inspired you to start? I'm having so much fun reading it all again! You do such a good job making dialogue feel natural and giving your characters distinct voices. Could you talk about your process in writing and creating those scenes and how you balance them with gameplay?

hey, thank u sm glad ur loving it!! the reason i started to incorporate storytelling into my gameplay again is bc i actually became unemployed when i started playing teen charlie so i all of a sudden had a bunch of time on my hands and needed something to keep myself busy and i've always enjoyed creative writing so this seemed like the perfect outlet for me at the time and it just kinda spiraled from there as i became more attached to my sims as i wrote them!

as for my process i'll do my best i always find it hard to explain things so i apologise if this seems all over the place!

i actually got a lot of inspo from previous storytelling i've included in my older legacies (if anyone's been here a while philip x jett & bradie x blue from my goth legacy heavily inspired the storyline and direction i took with charlie x eli and i'm a sucker for a best friends to lovers story). as for balancing with gameplay i always try to keep it more on the gameplay side or else i find myself getting stressed out because i'm putting pressure on myself to tell a story instead of actually playing my game.

[gothic--vampyre]

"Then why do you write? If you don't enjoy it then what is the goal of the writing?"

Because I used to lose myself in it. For hours on end, I would forget about all the pain I have and all of the problems I have. I used to find joy in hitting that "publish" button. I used to read passages that I was proud of over and over and over again. I loved to connect with other people through my writing.

I used to express myself through my writing. I wrote about the friends I wanted to have, the pain I feel, the isolation of being someone that you don't want to be, but you don't know how to fix yourself and the world just pushes you around without giving you time to truly realize who you are and commit to that.

This was before my ADHD and depression took a more dangerous form. I try to write because I don't want to abandon my story. I try to write because I don't want my characters— the characters that I created as a reflection of parts of me and the challenges I face— to be left hanging, unfinished. I can't bear the thought of killing the part of me that wants to put my imagination and feelings into words of my labour.

I'm an addict desperately trying to get back the feel of how writing used to hit. I don't want to let my challenges win. I want to write, desperately. I think about it every day. Some days, I wake up with the desire to write so much that going back to bed without writing anything makes me feel so so empty. Life is meaningless to me without art in it.

I want to write so bad, but at the same time, I just can't. It feels like there's something wrong with me, but ig it's just severe burnout and ADHD. So yeah, that's why I try.

[fairytaleprincessart]

✨ Just a quick reminder ✨ If you don’t like AI art, simply don’t follow AI artists. Or block us as you see us pop up. Problem solved. This is one of hundreds of messages I get weekly. This person blocked me before I could reply.

I honestly love how people assume I don’t make “real” art just because I use AI as a medium. I started out being a photographer at age like 6. Then drawing and oil painting. I still oil paint daily. I also write music, sing, and create novels. Art isn’t one thing. It’s not confined to canvas, charcoal, or a brush. It’s a vision, and a tool to bring that vision to life.

AI is just that a tool. Is it ethical? That’s up for debate. But as a real artist, I enjoy using it, just like I enjoy painting, writing, and composing. People once said digital art, iPad sketching, and apps like Procreate weren’t “real” either. Now it’s an industry. Creativity evolves.

Prompting well is not easy. I’ve spent nearly four years teaching myself how to prompt, refine, and build scenes that express the fantasy world in my head. It takes time, experimentation, and actual creative vision.

I’m literally out here building a whimsical fairytale world not trying to steal anyone’s job or threaten the climate with sparkly elf gifs.

If you feel that strongly go yell at a corporation, not a small creator with a dream and some aesthetic vibes.

Anyway, my inbox is for kind humans, dreamers, art lovers, people who escape with my blog, and fantasy lovers not keyboard crusaders on a moral high horse. You’re free to block, mute, unfollow, or scroll on by. I promise I won’t cry.

/ End of my rant.

And to the sweet ppl who send me kind messages thank you. You remind me why I keep posting. To the ones who saved a picture and still have it as your phone background for years… you are the best. To those of you who roleplay in the replies to my fantasy pics? You’re the real ones. You keep the magic alive. I love that shit.

🧚‍♀️✨🦋🌙

[salty-wall]

Hey man, do what you've gotta do. I enjoy change fate and look forward to updates but I do that with almost all of your fics. The people bothering you just can't see how banger the rest of your stuff is and if you have to prove a point then go ahead!

You are one of my favorite authors so don't merc your creativity over the wishes of others! Create for yourself and the people who genuinely value your effort will follow, myself included!

God fucking dammit give me a fucking break i should just fucking discontinued change fate at this point i am FUCKING TIRED

[suchscary]

drawing while on antidepressants feels like this

[kalwithatrenchcoat]

Photobomber

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[normcdf]

a zine about being loveless. my experiences may not reflect your experiences ect ect. id in alt and under the cut.

cover text: LOVE-LESS a zine.

cover image: a realistic heart sitting next to someone's arm. a string of fate is tied around one of its fingers.

page one text: The shell! Flesh, bound by worldly law, the supposed expression of what lies beneath.

page one image: a frog sitting on its eggs. there are several black circles containing simple hearts pointing out from various creatures, and one empty black circle.

page two text: Within: viscera combed down to an atom's width, pressed against the warmth of a cage

page two image: a flock of sucks. all but one of them have hearts.

page three text: That masquerades as a person as it tries to escape the unyielding pressure

page three image: a collection of plants. all but one of them have hearts.

page four text: Of absolute nothing.

page four image: two birds. only one has a heart.

page five text: The interior of this body holds no organs. They have been mashed to paste

page five image: ants on an anthill. all but one have hearts.

page six text: To make room for dark matter; the heart, superseded by absence.

page six image: four axolotls. one does not have a heart.

page seven text: The exterior of this body reflects no intent.

page seven image: a dog, a cat, and a hawk. the dog does not have a heart.

page eight text: It writes love poems for the simple joy of mocking them; the plain-sight disguise of human skin.

page eight image: the author's self portrait. it does not have a heart.

[scripted-delusion]

ﾒ𝟶 Udonverse news under cut 𝟶ﾒ

Frankly, I never thought that this new addition to the story would be so well-received. But just two days later, my prompt box is overflowing with transtape requests.

As I’ve mentioned in a few of my comments, I would really enjoy diving deeper into this topic. I would love to write a separate piece where Rio gets the tape, and Agatha helps her apply it for the first time. And as I mentioned before, I don’t have a lot of experience with that, just like Agatha and Rio. So, it looks like we will be sharing the journey of learning and implementing this in life together.

Please give me time to do this right. I don’t want to write something just for the sake of it, simply because it’s a ‘hot topic’. I’m going to approach it as I always do—pouring my heart and soul into it. But this time, it'll take me a bit longer since I’m not just doing research—I'll actually get the tape, learn how to apply it, and experience what it's like to wear it. Only then can I be confident I'll do it justice.

Since many of you have been asking for a Rio-focused piece, I think this is a great chance to write one.

Representation matters because something as simple as a digital image or words on paper can have a profound impact on someone's life.

On the surface, it might look simple—just some random weirdo wrote a fic, piggybacking on evgar’s art. But in reality, this random weirdo tapped into something deep within themselves while writing it, and it's actually a pretty big deal.

I belong to the older bracket of the fandom. Back when I was a teen and learned about my sexuality, the concept of transtape was not even something we could dream of. We didn’t have public fanfiction sources, and there was barely any representation in media. Information on these topics wasn't widely available, and it wasn't safe to discuss most of them openly.

So, growing up, I didn’t have the luxury of learning about myself with the ease that today offers, and as a result, I’m still catching up on some things. Just a few days ago, I hadn't even considered using transtape. I had a vague idea of its existence, but I didn’t realize it was something I'd been missing out on my whole life.

So, here’s a great example of how something as small as fan art, and later the fanfic inspired by it, made an impact.

That being said, I’m happy to inform you that miso is going to have another chapter that will feature Agatha and Rio sharing yet another new, significant experience together.

Full credit goes to @evgar, who came up with this idea, and I’m merely riding the wave of that inspiration.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank Eva for sharing this piece. It made an impact. It helped me. And now I can only hope to channel this right and create something that would, in turn, help somebody else, even if it’s only one person.

Stay tuned!

— S.💜

[P.S. I am not posting this under the agathario tag (for several reasons, including simply not wanting to spam it with personal stuff), putting my faith in the Universe to make it reach the right people😁]

It’s been five days since Sunday. Agatha has had a hectic week, and all she wants is to fall asleep in Rio’s arms.

Join Agatha and Rio on their journey as they discover new things about each other, share unexplored experiences, and create memories together.

I saw evgar’s recent piece, and it stirred so many soft feelings in me that I needed to channel that energy somewhere.

This story is part two of my Udonverse aka Personal Chef AU.

Read it here.

[waterfallofspace]

Feeling sad and lonely? Like you don't have a purpose in life, and no one cares about you?

No more! Starting today, instead of sitting around feeling sad, try Thinking About Your Favourite Fictional Characters Sneezing!

Not sure what to do with your life? Your blorbo stifling an allergy fit!

Lonely and craving human connection? Your lil guy getting induced by a kink!partner!

The days and nights seem to move by in an ever-flowing passage of time that you're just swept along in? They have a sneezy cold and need to be taken care of!

Instead of Sad, try Sneeze instead!

[Available wherever your brain will be merciful and let you dissociate, results may vary, use with caution, side effects may include: h*rny thoughts, snz headcanons, craving more canon snz, and the eventual & inevitable loneliness returning as you realize they are still fictional]