#just... going through it
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feeling sort of anxious and sensitive tonight. i want to talk about it, and ask the crowd/my followers/my mutuals a question.
i have been in college for six years. when i graduate next year, that'll mean i'll have been in college for seven.
some of this was my fault. academic mistakes are easy to make, especially when the american education system is so confusing to navigate.
and some of it was intentional. i was afraid to grow up, to move on. so i took my sweet time. that will end. next summer, i'll graduate with a bachelor's in english.
which means that *this* summer, will be my last official one as a student. i won't be pursuing grad school next year, or probably any time within the next five years. so this is it. the summer after this one will involve the grand job hunt, and moving out of my college town. and doing the Big Things.
so. my question. put yourself in my shoes for a moment. if this was going to be your last summer, how would you spend it? you're young, you've got decent transport, the budget isn't huge, but you can definitely plan well, and a few larger day trips or events are possible without damaging the bank account too much.
what would you do?
because i haven't the faintest clue how to use the opportunities i have.
#personal#yes i am actually looking for suggestions/gen#just... going through it#and trying to plan#i can't waste this last summer rotting in my apartment#but decisions are hard for someone with my brain#i really have a hard time making decisions without someone else's imput/gen#(one of my greatest flaws let's be real)#(my parents did not train me to think for myself and i hate them for it)#(but anyway)#reply! send something into my inbox!#please
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can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024
#ramble#if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands#you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things#some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible#the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think#i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex#this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!!#how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about#yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian#you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate
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“Normal” test results are not the relief people think they are. When you wake up in pain and continue to be in pain for hours every day and your tests come back normal you don’t stop being in pain.
#chronic pain#I guess#cripplepunk#crip punk#<— correct me if that’s overstepping#what do I tag this with#I obviously didn’t get a diagnosis#personal but I’m also really scared of needles#and having to go through the fear and pain and crying and screaming#for nothing#doesn’t feel good#people tell me it’s not “nothing#but I know exactly what I did before the tests#which is nothing!!#and I didn’t have to go through that pain for that!!!#also å few months ago I genuinely thought it was completely normal#later I realised that spending hours each morning warming up my hands to feel usable might be more pain and stiffness than other people#experienced#I genuinely didn’t expect all of my friends to say they didn’t feel ANY pain at all#and now I’m just hyper aware of how not normal this is#and I’m still in pain#and now I’m not gonna get any help other than a “try heat therapy from the doctor#which is what I was already doing#like no im not crying cause I’m not sick#it would be great if I wasn’t sick#but clearly something’s wrong
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Existential Nihilism Squad™
#atla#avatar the last airbender#atla fanart#atla art#ozai's angels#dangerous ladies#azula art#azula fanart#atla azula#princess azula#azula#ty lee atla#ty lee fanart#ty lee#mai fanart#mai art#atla mai#mai#ba sing se#the beach episode#atla meme#ozais angels#fire nation#Now you know why they get along so well#It's the existential nihilism of it all#Not existential crisis! Those are Zuko's specialty#“I'm never happy” “Think about our place in the universe” *yells to the universe* “You've never held back before” *drops into a moral coma*#he's really going through it#Meanwhile these three bad ladies are just ✨vibing✨ through it#existing is exhausting
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blah blah blah colour theory but jayce went from piltover’s pure and golden boy dressed in white to being in mourning black for all that he’s lost (“my partner died in that room”)…
#rambles#arcane#arcane season 2#jayce talis#jayvik#jayvik if you squint#he’s not playing a part anymore! he’s just going through it!#may also be the first time he’s dressing as himself as cued by the rolled up sleeves (letting down defenses/armour)
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Watching my first watch through of SPN ever. I’m on season 9 and as someone who has been on tumblr since ancient times but didn’t actually get in to it, I think everyone DOWNPLAYED how crazy Destiel is. How did veterans survive that….. It’s just. What. What am I watching. Why does Deans voice get SOFT when he talks to Cas particularly??? Why did Dean ditch Sam to watch Cas at the supermarket???? I think because of the meme I was convinced it was cas who was the one obviously in love but. No. It’s Dean. And it’s embarrassing for him. This is crazy but Destiel fans weren’t crazy y’all were on to something all this time…..
#spn#destiel#Live-blogging as I watch. I don’t know why I haven’t posted my thoughts yet but here they are#queerbaiting is questionable because if you are particularly writing to cater to a queer audience but not ‘go through with it’#that’s just accidental queercoding#thoughts with lemon#supernatural
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as i grow older and age in fandom especially, i have waning patience for 2012 style fandom wars. i don't have time for the type of person who goes "why is this the 2nd top ship on ao3 when it bugs me", i don't have the energy to be friends with people who go "i specifically expressed dislike for this ship and people still write it?" and i have absolutely no time for someone who goes "this very personal trauma i have projected onto this random character and ship should be recognized and agreed by everyone else, otherwise they're bad people"
#idk man im just tired#ao3#fandom#i recognise that there is an age to have this type of discourse poison your brain and i have all the sympathy i can if you're going through#it but at the same time i don't have the patience for it sorry#it's one of the main reasons why fandom has become a chore for me#meow speaks
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"consuming media" is such an overstatement. at best I'm sipping it
#not *savoring* it#just sipping it#slowly and lackadaisically and absently mindedly taking a bit here a bit there#no rush. I'll watch one or two episodes now. and finish the season circa 2029#(it might even have a whole new season by then)#listen my goal is not to get “caught up”#my goal is to get through 15% of the narrative and enjoy it! it's fun! it's good stuff! i really like where this is going!#and then i firget about it for 2 years and have to rewatch everything I've seen#and then i get to the 30% point and yeah wow! this is fun! i enjoyed that! time for a little break#and then another 2 years pass and i forget about it and have to rewatch from the b
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here's list of Palestinians who have reached out to me, please donate if you can
posted august 23rd 2024
@ahmed-mohammed1 vetted here €4,935/€30,000
@hadeelmekki vetted here €15,295/€35,000
@mohiy-gaza vetted here $17,546/$31,000
@yazanfamilly vetted here €10,695/€50,000
@olagaza vetted here (line 205) $29,723/$50,000
@ahmedalnabeeh11 vetted here €23,008/€30,000
@save-mohamed-family vetted here (line 192) $9,946/$50,000
@wafaaresh6 vetted here €28,300/€100,000
@atalah-mohammed vetted here €12,735/€82,000
@abdullahgaza vetted here (line 81) €81,851/€120,000
@save-ahmed-family1 €1,023/€20,000
@asmaayyad vetted here €11,646/€45,000
@bisanalbalawi18 vetted here €37,551/€50,000
@ezzaldeens-blog €297/€20,000
@yousefjehad3 vetted here (line 255) $3,487/$15,000
@hanaa-yousef vetted here (line 246) £11,071/£20,000
@noor-alanqar vetted here €20,427/€40,000
@mahmoud-1995 vetted here $11,709/$50,000
@sabahfamily £7,570/£50,000
@fatma--gaza vetted here €5,530/€20,000
@nisreensuhail vetted here €1,984/€50,000
@sameer-family vetted here $2,259/$50,000
@abdelmutei €10,718/€25,000
@safaabed8 vetted here €28,261/€90,000
@kareem-family vetted here €7,252/€20,000
@ahmedhelllis vetted here €10,473/€80,000
@asmaamajed2 vetted here $3,570/$50,000
@shimaajoj2 €3,302/€50,000
@nourfamily1989 vetted here $14,240/$90,000
#this took me a few days to go through just because my inbox is. fucking horrible right now#not all of them have been officially vetted but im gonna be so real id rather a scammer get a few dollars than know someone is suffering#because they havent been able to be vetted#free palestine
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FNAF Afton siblings talk about their dreams
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#dave afton#evan afton#nightmare fredbear#elizabeth afton#fnaf 4#Afton family#it’s kinda funny to think about that Elizabeth was just living her best life#like both her brothers will get haunted by nightmares#but her???? literally just vibing#she dreams of bubbles and lollipops#she likes to dance and sing#cc going through it though#battling for weeks trying to sleep#thought he doesn’t wanna freak Liz out explaining his dreams#so he keeps it to himself
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see you in court, buddy
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#never thought my 2018-2020 mcu film phase would ever return and yet here we are#i cant believe i just got into them when they're going through their divorce arc fml#sambucky#sam wilson#bucky barnes#matt murdock#thunderbolts#mcu#marvel#meme#my art
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Dick : Jasons been more, relaxed lately. It's unsettling.
Tim : Yeah, I've started spiking his water with mood stabilizers.
Dick : What
Tim : I've been thinking of doing it to the wider gotham water supply. Think about the crime rates.
#Im ngl. him disappearing in comics just to reappear and do wacky insane shit feels like hes going through the mother of all manic episodes#jason todd#dick grayson#tim drake#tim does not want to watch Jason put the batsuit on and try to convince some other poor soul to be his robin#red hood#batfam#CORRECT ME IF IM WRONG I DONT HAVE FAMILY / FRIENDS WITH MANIC EPISODES
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my favorite fields of mistria boys 🥰
#fom#fields of mistria#march#balor#art#fanart#not much to tag tbh#i do like march too but balor still takes the cake for me#i know i said that other one was my last fanart but i wanted to doodle march he looks easy to draw#and then balor happened too i cant help it#i just restarted the game im taking it slower this time#i really wish the dragonguard heist plan didnt fall through#cuz i wouldve loved to have isa just go try and grab balors keys#hehe#anyway march is canonically jacked right#not as much as his brother but he has the arms right#appearently balors eyes are brown but i have no idea what color marchs eyes are supposed to be#they just look black#love that the children are always on about balor being so mysterious#so real let me join the dragonguards#the amazing thing to me about balor is that i just did not give a shit about him in the promo art up until i met him in-game#like i saw him in the promos and was like cool whatever ill probably go for march...until i actually met him
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The Michelangelo would absolutely get into a competition on who is the most flexible/gymnastic. But you can't tell me that Rise Mikey wouldn't try to cheat a little just to beat the extremely flexible 2012 Mikey.
2012 Mikey “I’m-a-literal-elastic-rubber-ball- pretending-to-be-a-turtle” Hamato
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Rise Mikey “I-will-eat-poisoned-pizza-puffs-just-to-win-against-you” Hamato
#2012 Mikey would be more flexible#but rise Mikey is competitive and would so try to get his little mitts on pizza puffs#just so he could win#2012 Mikey would be going through the course#while rise Mikey in the background is just trying to keep himself looking as normal as possible#as he is literally melting like wax#tmnt#teenage muntant ninja turtles#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#tmnt crossover#2012 mikey#rise mikey#rottmnt#rottmnt mikey#rise michelangelo#tmnt michelangelo#tmnt mikey#tmnt 2012
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imagine an au where shen yuan transmigrates into a blank slate npc with very little system involvement, traveling around for a while until he's found by yue qingyuan and taken back to the sect because apparently shen qingqiu went missing around his transmigration period and shen yuan looks exactly like him, so it must be him, but then a few weeks later when he's just settled in on the peak and accepted his fate the real shen qingqiu shows up who was just on vacation and everyone forgot.
now there are two shen qingqiu's, one of whom is the real one and the other an amnesiac they gaslighted into believing he is shen qingqiu.
anyway—shen qingqiu has a new didi now!
#sorry this sounded really funny in my head#imagine going on vacation and then coming back to your clone whom your coworkers gaslighted into believing he is you#shen yuan going through a crisis cus he doesnt want to die horribly and then its not even him#also the confusion starts when sy introduces himself as ''shen yuan'' cus to yqy it's just ''shen'' qingqiu + yue qing''yuan'' = shen yuan#yqy: you are shen qingqiu#sy: that doesnt sound right but i dont know enough about myself to dispute it#sqq adopts sy as his new didi cus obvs his coworkers cant be trusted with him#luo binghe is just glad the new shizun can stay#but also imagine being yqy or mqf and telling this guy with amnesia hes sqq and then finding out hes not#and you gaslighted the poor guy into it#hilarious#svsss#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#yue qingyuan#scum villain's self saving system#scum villain
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