#like REALLY? you guys are doing that again? leave that shit behind in 2014 where it belongs đ
so wild to me as someone who has been involved in online fandom for 15+ years seeing now a generation of young fans who have had queer rep in their mainstream media for pretty much their whole lives and are so used to audience/creator interaction on socials that they go into new media with the GENUINE ACTIVE EXPECTATION that their favourite noncanon queer ship will either be acknowledged or become canon if it's popular enough online
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amnesia // bucky barnes
Summary:Â During a fight in Madripoor you get hit in the head resulting in forgetting the last ten years of your life. And most important, your boyfriend.
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Word count: 1.4k
Warnings:Â TFATWS SPOILERS, memory loss, zemo is a dick, sad bucky, angst
A/N: As always, remember English is not my first language. Also, thanks to @bob-kaneâ for proofreading this!
divider by @firefly-graphicsâ
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He didnât leave your side, not  even for a second. Worry was eating him alive. You had been unconscious for a while now. Some asshole had hit your head pretty bad, and  they couldnât risk take you to a hospital to check if everything was alright.
You were still in Madripoor, so Sharon suggested taking you to her place. You were lying on her bed. Bucky had been beside you the whole time, his flesh hand holding yours .
âAre we even sure  sheâs gonna wake up?â thatâs the worst thing Zemo could ask.
âIf you donât shut up, you will be the one not waking up to see tomorrow,â When it came about you, you were Buckyâs number one priority, the rest of the world didnât matter. And he will definitely kill Zemo if he dared to say something like that again.
Youâll wake up. You had to.
He was right.
You opened your eyes and blinked. The first thing  you noticed was the throbbing pain in your head. It was worse than waking up from a hangover. As you tried to raise your hand to wipe the sleep from your eyes, you realized someone was holding it. Stretching your sore body, you turned your head to examine your surroundings. Your vision was blurry and you could barely make out  three vague shapes moving in the corner attested.
âY/N?â Although your vision was still hazy you distinguished the figure of your friend approaching you.
âSharon?â
At the sound of your voice, the hand holding yours released it, allowing you to wipe your eyes in an attempt to see things more clearly.
âWhat happened?â your voice was sore, you were still confused
âSome dickhead knocked you out,â Sam walked cautiously towards you
âHow are you feeling?â You turned your head to find the source of the voice, at your left you saw a dark-haired man with blue eyes.
âLike I have been hit in the head,â the man chuckled, if you still had your sense of humor that was a good signal. âWhere am I?â
âMy apartment,â You narrowed at the response of your friend, you took  a look at the room. This wasnât Sharonâs place.
âWhatâs wrong?â Sam asked when he saw the confusion on your face
âYou had moved and I donât remember?â
Sam, Sharon, and the man with blue eyes shared a concerning look.
âY/N, we are not in Brooklyn. We are in Madripoor,â
âWhere?â What kind of name was that for a town. Pretty sure they didnât have a lot of tourism.
The man that had remained in the corner laughed. âSeems she had a resetâ
At this the blue-eyed guy exhaled deeply and went towards him, grabbing him by his shirt âOne more comment, and I swear Iâd kill you,â rage and anger were dripping from  his mouth.
âY/N,â Sharon called you with a soft voice, you averted your gaze from the two men to your friend, âDo you know what day is it today?â
You looked at her confused, not knowing why she would ask such a question. âFriday?â you answered her question, not too sure.
âYear?â she insisted.
â2014,â now you were very sure about this.
Your friends shared concerned looks. âDo you know who this is?â Sam asked, pointing at  the blue-eyed guy. You shook your head. âAre you sure?â
âI would remember a pretty face like that, Sammy,â but the truth is, that you didnât.
âWhat about him?â He pointed to the man in the corner.
You scrunch your nose âNot my type,â
âHey!,â the man seemed offended by your answer âFor your information, I have a private jet,â he tried to impress you.
âI donât care,â you simply said
âY/N,â you felt the hand of your friend on your shoulder âItâs not 2014. Weâre in 2024â
When you saw people get amnesia in the movies they always made it romantic, but this didnât feel like that. You couldnât recall anything from the last ten years of your life. You were unable to deal with the intensity of your emotions. You felt lost, you didnât feel at home.
It was a lot to process, Sharon had been branded an enemy of the States, Steve was gone and now there was a new Captain America parading around, Tony and Natasha were deadâŠ.
âWhat about him?â you pointed with your head to the guy who claimed to have a private jet.
âThese dickheads broke him out of prison,â
But Sam didnât like the answer Sharon gave you, so he quickly clarified âHe broke him out of prison,â he pointed at his friend âNot meâ
You looked at the blue-eyed man âAnd who are you?â
Bucky felt a shard in the guts. That question really hurt him. You completely forgot about him. Your mind had erased every piece of him. You were his biggest support and now he had lost you.
âSteveâs friend. Bucky.â Sharon explained, âSteve talked to us about him, remember?â
You did remember. And you also remember Steve telling you how he fell off the train and died. âWasnât he dead?â You were confused.
âHe survived. And HYDRA captured him.â
Your eyes widened. âThey captured you?â He only nodded, his gaze fixed on the ground. âWhat did they do to you?â
Sam cleared his throat. âLetâs not talk about that now,â You didnât press, knowing that it wouldnât be an easy topic for him to talk about. âHow are you feeling?â
âIf we ignore the fact that I don't remember the last ten years of my life, pretty good, actually.â
âWe have to go back to New York,â Bucky suggested  âA doctor should see youâ
âThat would  be  best,â Sharon agreed.
Although you wanted her to come with you, you knew she couldnât, Â not until Sam got her the pardon he promised. At least, that's what they told you.
âItâs going to be a long flight,â The ex-prisoner was the first in walking out of the room.
âI donât like him,â you muttered
âMe neither,â Sam concurred.
Sam was sleeping in his seat, Bucky was looking through the window and the other guy was nowhere to be found, not that you cared. You were flying back to the States, with some luck you would see a good doctor and maybe youâd get your memories back.
âYou okay?â you sat next to the blue-eyed guy, he averted his gaze to you when he noticed your presence.
âYeah,â
âYou donât seem okay,â
âYouâre the one who had been hit in the head. How can I be the one who doesnât look okay?â
âTouchĂ©,â you laughed, and he gave you a half-smile in return. But you could see how his eyes hold sadness behind them. âWhen did we meet?â
He paused for a second, thinking if he should answer your question or if this was something you should remember on your own. But considering they already told you some of the things that had happened this last ten years, your question wasnât that much of a deal. âIn Bucharest. In 2015.â
âThat was before the sign of the Accords happened, right?â he nodded âWhat team was I on?â
He chuckled, âWhich one do you think you were in?â
You made a pensive look that made him smile. This time it reached his eyes, and you couldnât help the thought of how beautiful he was. âWell, I have always been loyal to Steve, but I have to say that the idea of  going against Tony scares the shit outta me,â
You donât know when it happened, you kept talking for a while before you eventually fell asleep on his shoulder. He brushed the air off your face and caressed your cheek gently, not wanting to wake you up.
âYou know itâs not the end if she doesnât remember you, right?â Zemo sat in front of him âAt least sheâs alive,â
âIt would be the end, for me,â yes you were alive and he was thankful for that but everything that you had shared wasnât there anymore. He was a complete stranger to you. You didnât remember all the nights you stayed up by his side when he had a nightmare, you didnât remember your time in Wakanda together, you didnât remember all the stories he had told you about the forties, you didnât remember staying up until morning  talking about your future, about building a family together, you didnât remember all the times you made love, you didnât remember him.
âShe fell in love with you once, she can do it againâ
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Pedro Pascal and Lena Headey
Head to head interview
Hunger Magazine, Issue 6. Released December 28, 2014. Photoshoot October 15, 2013.
Thirteen million. That's the number of people, on average, who tuned into each episode of the third season of Game of Thrones. Among them was Chilean actor Pedro Pascal, who was as enthralled by the sex and slaughter as the rest of us. But little did he know that within a few months he'd be pitching up on the shores of Belfast to join the cast as Oberyn Martell, affectionately known as the Red Viper. Sound ominous? It is. The Red Viper is GoTs newest anti-hero, âsexy and charming but driven by hateâ. Sounds like he'll be right at home.
Pedro, on the other hand, though he looks good on paper, wasn't the obvious choice for the role. Expecting a big name to ride into Kingâs Landing, the show's fans took to forums to express their concerns as soon as the news broke. So is he worried? Like hell he is. âThe fans had the part cast in their minds already. They knew who they wanted and it certainly was not me. But I'm not stupid, | presumed that people were going to say âwho the fuck is this guyâ. Since I anticipated the reaction it didn't throw me off.â
âThere are so many different ways to go into battle with yourself when you're trying to get a job. I felt a certain amount of pressure because I wanted to make everyone happy. The fan base is so specific and, as a fan myself, I understand the relationship that they have with the show. The Red Viper is the best part I've ever played, and in season four shocks come at the most unexpected times. You might think you know, but you have no idea,â he explains.
Looks like the Red Viper could be in line to fill a Walter-White-sized-hole in television, but to test the theory we pit Pascal against Lena Headey, aka the Queen. Because if you can come away from Cersei unscathed, you can handle anything.
LH: So, Pedro, you come into Game of Thrones in season four, playing a pretty major character. Does that fill you with joy or dread?
PP: I'd say it fills me with joy because itâs a really fucking fun part. Heâs a badass. He comes up against a lot of the main characters in the show. I'm very aware of the show. I watch it like a fan.
LH: Were you a fan before you arrived in Belfast?
PP: Yeah, I was a proper fan. I was caught up in the drama of it before I even auditioned for the part. I was already up to speed.
LH: I remember meeting you and thinking, âhe fucking loves the showâ.
PP: I kissed your ass.
LH: Well, it worked. We're friends now.
PP: I was like a tourist visiting the set, and yet I had to act with you and be in a scene with the characters that I had such a specific association with already.
LH: So youâre saying itâs boring?
PP: No, it wasnât boring at all. It was extremely, relentlessly surreal.
LH: And who were your favourite characters up until that point?
PP: Not you.
LH: I realise that!
PP: There are too many characters to have a favourite, but I was fascinated by the Lannisters because they're so frightening. They scared me and then you would come in and pull sympathy from your audience somehow, and I found that rather fascinating. The Northerners were so easy to like or get behind, but it was quite something to see people sympathise with a Lannister, after you made people see things from their perspective.
LH: Speaking of being slightly ambiguous as a character, you come in as a major player and a very well-loved character in the eyes of people who read the books, and heâs somewhat of an anti-hero. Did you base him on anyone?
PP: What does an anti-hero mean exactly?
LH: It means he doesn't wear deodorant, doesn't it? [Laughs]. Someone you shouldn't champion, but you do, like Walter White in Breaking Bad.
PP: No, | didnât really base him on anyone.
LH: Did you take anything from classic movies that you thought you could use and spin to your advantage playing the Red Viper?
PP: God, thatâs a good question. I probably did subconsciously. Now I feel under the spotlight because I need to think of somebody, and I have so many in my mind! I think thatâs something that is happening a lot in TV today: the anti-heroes are central to these television shows, and people are really getting behind them, even though they're not necessarily the most moral characters. So I'd say that âve become more familiar with the character who's obviously very flawed but gets you on their side â you have complicated feelings about them. But I think I saw the story too much from this character's perspective to perceive any flaws.
LH: He has some.
PP: I know, from the outside. But I don't see any of them. What are his flaws?
LH: His flaws? He's a dirty bastard!
PP: Why is he a dirty bastard? He likes to fucking fight, for sure.
LH: Back to you as an actor. You've done it for a long time and, as we all know, the path is not always golden, and sometimes you think, âfuck itâ and you want to leave it and do something else. Have there been moments where you wanted to give up?
PP: Yes, there have been moments where I came very close to giving up. But I never had anything to fall back on. I think you can understand that.
LH: Because were stupid?
PP: We're stupid.
LH: I can't even make pizza!
PP: We donât have any other skills.
LH: None at all!
PP: And thatâs the odd conundrum. You get to a point where you think, âThis isnât going to happen. This isnât sustainable. I'm too exhausted, and it can't be good for me.â There were moments where I truly did try to formulate an idea of what I'd do. I thought I'd go back to school, start pre-med again and go to medical school or something like that.
LH: But that didn't happen, you just thought about it?
PP: Yes, I'd have thoughts, but it was still fantasy really. But at the time it felt like a practical life plan. Do you know what I mean?
LH: Yeah of course, you need to pay the fucking rent.
PP: Exactly. You just try to escape from the chaos of what you're feeling by trying to create order in your life. Order seems like a solution to save you from the pain of acting!
LH: It's a mental pain. Who was the first person you called when you got the role?
PP: My sister.
LH: Does she watch the show?
PP: Yes, she does.
LH: Pedro Pascal... or Pablo as I called you when I had too much wine, which was deeply insulting.
PP: Even family members have done that to me! Do I look more like a Pablo? Because it happens with about ninety-five percent of the people I meet.
LH: No, I think Iâm just an ignorant drunk person.
PP: No, you were an ignorant drunk person that night is what you're saying.
LH: And now Iâm educated.
PP: [Whispers] But | want you to call me Pablo.
LH: Ok, Pablo! When you first arrived on set in Northern Ireland, what was your feeling showing up to a bunch of British actors? Did it feel different to doing an American project?
PP: Yes, but I loved it. It wasnât intimidating. I found it surreal because Iâd watched and loved the show. I hadn't had the opportunity to work on something that I was really familiar with before, so it was overwhelming. But it was far more delightful than intimidating. Also you guys were really cool. Everyone was friendly.
LH: Oh, thatâs just fake.
PP: Well, you guys were good at it!
LH: We know Game of Thrones is very popular obviously. Do you have any thoughts, or fears, about what this is going to bring you in terms of exposure?
PP: I have hope.
LH: Oh, God. I donât mean to shatter that, but give it up.
PP: I donât know really. Itâs all been filmed, and now I'm back to my normal routine, so I haven't really thought about it. I remember when we finished filming and we were on our way to the airport, you asked me, âHow does it feel you're all done?â and I couldn't really answer.
LH: You were quite emotional that day.
PP: I was very emotional because Iâd had such an amazing time doing the part. Also just being there immersed in the experience... You described it to me best. You told me how I'd be feeling.
LH: We don't know your character's backstory when you enter the show, and you have some rather brutal scenes. Anyone who has read the books will know what Iâm talking about.
PP: My character comes in, he stirs a bunch of shit up, and then he makes this fucking enormous exit. Now can | ask you a question?
LH: What is it? Iâm not going to sleep with you. Give it up.
PP: Oh, come on! This has gone to shit and itâs your fault, so good luck to whoever has to edit it! But anyway, sometimes I'd hang out with the cast members and we'd go to dinner and they would get stopped constantly. There was no denying who they played because they were so recognisable, but you got away with it because you have this beautiful blonde wig on in the show, and in real life you are...
LH: Grey?
PP: {Laughs] No! You have beautiful chestnut hair! Is it liberating to not be recognised the way some of the other cast members are?
LH: Yes, it is liberating.
PP: Liberating being able to walk down an alley in Dubrovnik without being stopped?
LH: Yes, except sometimes | get recognised in the weirdest places. A woman was emptying my bag at Heathrow Airport's security gates and just went, âAre you the Queen?â while rummaging through my underwear. It was so fucking weird.
PP: It seems they're more respectful to you?
LH: Because they're frightened. Wait until they meet the Viper.
PP: Well, that covers it.
LH: I think we're going to get our own show out of this, you know
Interested in learning more about Pedro? Check out Pedro Pascal Unofficial on Pinterest!
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FATWS One Shot #4 - Best Girls, Good Guys, Hand Art, Joy Rides
Word Count: 1922
Warnings: Cursing, Implied PTSD, Mention of IED, Motorcycle Ride Without Helmets
Setting/Characters: Captain America: The Winter Soldier in 2014; Reader, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson, Samâs therapy group, Lady at the Front Desk, Mentions of Peggy Carter and Riley
A/N: Hereâs number 4! Like I said in the previous One Shot, Iâm hoping to get TWS One Shots done today and tomorrow. Um, I donât have a lot to say this time since I unloaded pretty much everything in the last One Shot. So, I guess thatâs all!
This isnât betaâd, as usual, so please excuse any mistakes! Be kind to yourselves and others! Enjoy this part, thank you for reading, and stay tuned!
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âHow is she?â
Steve nodded, taking the helmet he insisted on keeping for you in the compartment under his seat out and handing it over. What a hypocrite. âSheâs fine. I guess. SheâŠforgot. We were in the middle of a conversation and sheâŠforgot I was alive.â
You gave his shoulder a squeeze. âAlzheimerâs is a scary thing. Iâm sorry. It must be hard seeing your best girl go through that.â He froze, his wide eyes scanning you. You ignored his gaze, giving him the helmet back. You really hoped it didnât come out as sad and spiteful as you meant it. You didnât want to despise her, you really didnât. You couldnât. You had too much respect for her. She did help build the organization you worked for. You just hated the position you found yourself in. âWeâre just going to the VA. Itâs not too far. Iâll be fine.â
âNo, honey. I donât want you getting hurt-â
âI wonât, Steve.â You pushed back. âIâve done it before in a lot more dangerous places than the streets of DC. Plus, I trust you. You wouldnât let me get hurt, would you?â
His lips turned up slightly, his head shaking just enough. âNo. No, I wouldnât. Hop on, then.â He jerked his head to his bike, putting the helmet away before sitting down with you following his lead. You pressed against him, an arm around his waist, thighs squeezing his hips lightly. âReady?â
âMhmm.â You hummed, setting your chin on his shoulder.
The bike roared to life underneath you before you took off. You were never worried when Steve drove. Sometimes he liked going fast when you two go for a drive through backroads of Virginia for a weekend, camping underneath the stars. But when you were in DC, he cruised, fast enough that you could get pulled over for doing ten over, but slow enough that you didnât have to shout over the rush of the wind combing through your hair.
He usually talked to you while driving, but he was quiet this time. You turned your head to study him. His jaw ticked ever so often, his eyebrows furrowed and those pink lips turned down.
You didnât want to distract him, but you couldnât help but lift your free hand, tracing his jaw from his chin to his ear before pressing soft circles into the hinge of his jaw with your thumb. âAre you okay? Did I upset you?â
âNo. No, youâre perfect, honey.â He reassured quickly, moving around a car, side eyeing you for just a second. âIâve justâŠthereâs a lot on my mind. A lot I need to figure out.â
You nodded. âIf you ever need me. Iâm here.â
He grinned, taking your hand in one of his to press a kiss to the knuckles, eyes not leaving the road. âI know.â
âTell me more about this Sam Wilson guy.â
Steve chuckled before telling you about his run the day prior and how he lapped Wilson a few times and their conversation afterwards. He was just finishing up when he parked in the parking garage of the VA, âand then Natasha drove up saying she was looking for a fossil she was supposed to pick up.â
âA fossil.â You snorted. âIâm gonna have to use that.â
He gave you a playful glare as you swung your leg around and stood up. Catching your jaw between his fingers, he chuckled when he squished your cheeks together. âCall me a fossil, honey, and Iâll tell Fury the only way Iâm doing missions is if you donât.â
You gasped, shaking your head. âYou âouldnâ!â You slurred out, trying to talk with your lips pursed.
He gave a little giggle, gently making your head move up and down in a nod. âOh yes I would.â He pecked your nose, letting go of your cheeks. âCâmon, dame.â You blinked after him as he started towards the elevators with long strides.
âYouâre an ass, you know that?â
He smirked at you over his shoulder as you jogged to catch up, holding his hand out behind him. âCâmon. You know Iâd never do that to ya.â
Narrowing your eyes, you snatched his hand and huffed. âWellâŠyeah. But still.â
Another chuckle left his lips, pulling you closer to his side as you pressed the button for the elevator, leaving a kiss on your head. You fell into comfortable silence after that, Steveâs thumb tracing patterns on your hand while you waited for the elevator to ding.
When it finally did, Steve had a pen pulled out and, as you entered the elevator, he pulled your hand up closer to his face, lifting the writing utensil to the back of your palm.
You didnât say anything, merely looking around the elevator after pushing the level you were going to. It was something you found that calmed Steve; drawing. So whenever he was bored or anxious, you let him draw on your hand. He used to ask, but he stopped after you told him youâd never say no.
The elevator dinged and the doors open, causing Steve to stop inking up your skin and drop your still linked hands down to your sides, shoving his pen in his pocket. You looked down at the partial flower and leaves wrapping around your wrist, smiling affectionately. He really was a good artist.
The lady at the front desk told you where to go when you asked for Sam Wilson, which Steve did rather eagerly, making you laugh. He had told you about Samâs want to impress her when he came in. Apparently he was with a group, but she said it was okay for you to go in as long as you didnât disrupt anything. Steve thanked her, before following her directions down the hall and around the corner.
You heard them before you saw them. A woman was talking, telling a story of how she got pulled over the previous week. Steve leaned against a column to the side of the room, out of the way, putting his hands in his pockets. You let his hand go to allow him to do so, linking your arm with his and holding his wrist with your free hand.
âI swervedâŠto miss a plastic bag. I thought it was an IED.â
You watched Steveâs reactions through the rest of the session. It wasnât much longer - maybe ten minutes - before it ended. You had tried to convince him to go to one of these when he first got out of the ice, but he refused.
âIâve already got you, honey. Thatâs all I need.â
And, yes, he did have you; your assignment was literally helping him with that stuff. But you still thought heâd benefit from it. Especially now since you had started going back on your own assignments. Maybe heâd start going to Wilsonâs.
After the meeting, you and Steve walked up to the veteran who had just finished his farewells and started cleaning up the table at the front with brochures and things. âLook who it is. The running man. And whoâs this pretty lady?â
You smiled, sticking out your hand, your name leaving your lips in an introduction. âSam Wilson.â He shook your hand with a grin of his own. âNice to meet you, cher.â
âYou too, Sam.â
âWe caught the last few minutes.â Steve stated, leaning on the wall again, keeping his arm linked with yours. âItâs pretty intense.â
You listened sadly as Sam told you two about his wingman, Riley, but you didnât pity him. You knew what it was like to lose people and you hated the pity you received from others. You were glad to see he wasnât beating himself up over it, even allowing himself to smile as the conversation shifted to his retirement. Steve was right; he did seem like a good guy.Â
âAre you thinking about getting out?â
You glanced up at Steve as he answered âno.â You saw the hesitation in his eyes that flickered to you, before he met Samâs again. âI donât know.â Hearing Steve admit that he didnât know what he wanted made your heartache. You wanted him to be happy, and the fact that he didnât know what made him happy caused you to grip his arm tighter.
You, Sam, and Steve talked a bit longer, getting to know each other a little better. You even did the unthinkable and told him you worked for SHIELD when he asked how you two knew each other. Steve raised an amused eyebrow as your eyes widened, your hand slapping over your mouth.
âHoly shit. I canât believe I just told you that. You canât tell anyone.â
Sam laughed, shaking his head. âDonât worry. My lips are sealed.â
You finally said bye when Sam mentioned needing to get back to work. Walking back towards the elevators, Steve chuckled and nudged you. âYou warmed up to him quickly.â
âHa ha.â You rolled your eyes, your face landing in your hands. âOh my God. Iâve never told anyone that. Ever.â
âI told you. Heâs a good person. Easy to talk to.â
âYeahâŠspeaking of,â you tilted your head up to him as you stepped into the elevator, the doors closing behind you. âDo you want to get out?â
His Adamâs apple bobbed when he swallowed thickly. âThatâs not what I said. I justâŠI donât really knowâŠwhat to do.â
You pouted a little, tilting your head. âWhat would youâve done in the 40âs? After the war?â
âI dunno.â He shuffled on his feet. âBe a lab rat.â
âSteven-â
âForget it. Forget I said anything.â Your frown deepened, your arms crossing over your chest. âPlease donât.â He said softly, hands coming up to cup your cheeks, one thumb smoothing out your forehead while the other ran over your pouty lips. âDonât be upset.â
You sighed, shaking your head. âIâm not. I, justâŠworry.â
He placed his lips to your forehead, hands slipping to your waist to pull you closer. âWell donât.â
Your hands mimicked his previous position, holding his face, thumb brushing under his eyes. Your eyes caught sight of the barely started design on your hand, and your lips pursed thoughtfully.Â
âWhat?â
âDrawing makes you happy.â He blinked at your words, confusion in those ocean eyes of his. âYou said you donât know what makes you happy. Drawing does. And youâre really good at it. You could be an artist or something. Like a tattoo artist. Iâd go to you. I mean, look at this!â You showed him your hand. âItâs not even halfway done and you did it with a crappy dollar store penâ
He gave you a small smile. âI appreciate that, honey, but I donât think I could do that day in and day out.â
âEven with new customers coming in every day, asking for different designs in different places?â
Giving a chuckle, he leaned into your palm, kissing it. âYou really want me to think about this donât you?â
You scoffed. âDuh!â
He shook his head, ducking down to press his lips to your cheek, before laying his forehead on your shoulder. âIâm okay right now.â
âAre you?â
âMhmm.â He hummed, arms wrapping around you. âBecause I have you. And you make me happy, honey.â
You hugged him back, face pressing into his neck. You were glad you made him happy. And as long as you made him happy, youâd keep this relationship the way it was. Even if that meant youâd never be his best girl. âYou make me happy too, bubs.â
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https://lady-ha-ha.tumblr.com/post/160715688748/is-that-comic-before-the-reboot-and-which-one-is
(I have not read this comic) Is this true? (if so, ivy deserves someone better).
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Kay, first off both of those people are Jarley shippers so take everything they say with a grain of salt and then some, cause no. that part isn't about how much Harley loves Joker and will always choose him over Ivy. Literally you can tell ops don't know what they're talking about cause her whole thing in those issues is going to kill him for years of graphic abuse but ultimately falls back with him once sheâs face to face with him.
Like wow, congrats on missing the fucking point again but not surprised from people who ship her with The Fucking Joker.
also, ffs, can anyone please have basic comprehension skills and realize that Harley and Ivy are both fucked up sometimes because theyâve got issues and thatâs not comparable to Jokerâs long ass history of graphic and disgusting abuse.
Harley and Ivy are villains, they're not a wholesome cookie cutter, White Picket Fence, super vanilla ship with no bad moments. They're both bad guys with a fuck ton of trauma that they both have to work through, and have done so at this point.Â
Gotham City Sirens was published between 2009 - 2011, Harley and Ivy weren't blatantly romantic at this point nor had they had anywhere near the development that theyâve had at this point.
Like donât go into Harlivy content expecting them to be the perfect wlw rep with no flaws during their arcs from BTAS to current time cause thatâs just not realistic. Theyâre both deeply flawed people whoâve got a fuck ton of trauma that they need to (and have) worked through.Â
I have talked about the BTAS issues here and this post is good at explaining them too.Â
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Harlivy is not and has never been a purely wholesome, goody-goody ship. Theyâre messy, they have issues, and they have bad moments sometimes, but they both worked through their seperate trauma and came out stronger and better because at the end of the day, they care about each other.Â
Harlivy has messy, toxic moments sometimes, but theyâre not, and have never been, abusive. Thereâs a difference between unhealthy moments and a ship being abusive.Â
Thatâs completely different to how Joker acts Constantly, because he does not care that his actions towards Harley are abusive, because he doesnât give a shit about her.Â
He enjoys hurting her. He enjoys ruining her.Â
Jarley has always been intended to be written and shown as a domestically abusive relationship.
This is also the first instance where it's directly referenced that there's something more than platonic between her and Ivy, other than the reference in Batgirl Adventures.Â
Gotham City Sirens is also not connected to any verses.
This didnât happen in the timeline weâre in rn with Harley Quinn (2014)/(2016)/(2021).
Comic timelines and shit are stupid and make everything more confusing and awful and I hate it sdfjdksksdkjsd
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this is gonna be a long post since ops wanna just cut and paste random bits of the issues like jarley stans always do (cause jarley never has good moments that arenât entirely surrounded by him abusing her) Iâm going to show them in full context. *added a keep reading cause it is a lot
(All panels shown are from #15, #18, #19, #20, #21, #23, #24, #25)
So, Harley's entire thing at this point in the GCS comic in that she's been triggered by flashbacks of Joker's abuse and she breaks into Arkham with the intent to kill him.
The entire thing in these issues is showing her smarts and how she knows people's trump cards to get under their skin so she can break into Arkham.Â
Sheâs trained to identify these things in people and she's fucking good at pushing people's buttons.Â
this is also just one of my fav Harley covers so I wanted to show it jsdjksdks
âTrump cards. Everyone has one. Places where the armor we build around ourselves is weakest.âÂ
Sheâs right. And itâs now shown that Harleyâs willing to use those below the belt trump cards if she has to. Â
And frankly, Iâd say this is worse than what she says to Ivy. And Iâm not surprised she did it. She didnât want to, she tried to get him to just open the door -Â
âDonât make me do this, Aaron. There are some secrets that should stay hidden. Things you should never learn about your own life.âÂ
but sheâs also entirely fueled by rage and the desire to kill Joker. She came here for a reason and sheâs not leaving until sheâs done it.
âIâm going to kill you. For everything youâve done to me. All the times youâve made me feel useless and small. For all the times I will never forget. For all the things I can never forgive. All the memories -â
âHello, Harley. Iâve missed you.âÂ
âMemories. Thatâs all I have left. The past is gone and all I have is... memories.Â
Memories.
Memory.Â
Gone.
I guess I too have a trump card.â
âOh, Ivy. You know exactly what my answer is going to be. But youâre hoping youâre wrong, arenât you?â
Sheâs also right about this, they already mentioned this in #18.
âHow did I become the bad guy?â
âYouâre the one choosing a man over her girls.â
âAre you kidding me? You would never say that to Harley, and we both know sheâd dumb us in a flat second if Joker called her.â
âHey! Thatâs not fair-- Actually, thatâs probably true.â
âThe difference is, she canât help it. You can. And sheâs working on it. Youâre not working on it.âÂ
âToo easy, Ivy. Too easy. I know your weak spots. Now I just need to push.â
This is exactly what sheâs been doing since the starting point of this post. Sheâs still in that mindset and she knows she canât beat her on a regular battle field. Neither of them can.Â
âLike I said-- You beat me in any level playing field. But I donât fight on those fields.âÂ
Harleyâs biggest strength as a villain is her ability to completely mentally stall her opponents and learn their weak spots. She wouldnât win against the majority of the Big Bads if she didnât fight on a different field than they are.Â
so, like yeah, out of context what she says to Ivy seems awful and completely screwed up, and it is, but itâs also built up really well and itâs completely in character for her at this point in her fall during these issues.Â
Is what she did fucked? absolutely. Itâs not painted that itâs not.Â
Ivy Literally Goes To Kill Her For It.
In the end of this all three of them are recaptured by Catwoman and Batman and thatâs where weâre starting off at again.Â
âOh, Harley.
The only human Iâve ever called a friend.
To what lengths will I go? Where are my own limits? She is the Strangler fig. And I am the tree, choking underneath.Â
Without me, she could never grow.Â
But without her, I would fall if I grew too tall.âÂ
âWill she ever stand by herself?Â
Will she ever be ready?Â
She is in throes of madness. She sees him, her brain flooding with adrenaline, it makes her excited, nervous, then the feelings start to fade, and she needs more. And more.Â
She sees it as passion. She sees it as love.Â
But itâs not. Itâs addiction. And sheâs relapsing.âÂ
Ivy is well aware of the nature of their relationship. Sheâs not stupid and sheâs been shown already to know that itâs something that takes time. Itâs not a one off break up and itâs over. Thatâs not how abusve relationships work.Â
What do I do?
I could use my pheromones to alter her brain chemistry.
I could leave her behind abandoning her to the wilds of her own mind.
I could kill her right now.
Show her how red Nature can be.
There's one other option.
It would require patience.
Even love.
Maybe I'm more human than I want to admit.
"You have one chance to answer this."
I know, if she agrees, she'll be doing it for revenge. For him.
"She put us behind bars."
But maybe if I get away from this place, if I give her something else to think about. Maybe she can break the cycle. But it has to be her choice.
"I'm going to kill her. Come with me."
So yeah, itâs definitely not a just âHarley hurts her and runs off with Joker and itâs just a plain olâ her choosing him over everyone and thatâs that.âÂ
Jarley shippers love to just reduce all her scenes and arcs down to their âepic loveâ and shit, but thatâs taking away literally everything about her and reducing it down to the 3 panels that theyâre âcuteâ in. Her arc in this part is fucking heartbreaking to read.
And Ivy damn well knows whatâs going on with her. Sheâs smart and sheâs the one thatâs been there throughout all of this. She found her in the park after he shot her out of a rocket.Â
And she knows itâll take time for Harley to get over and through his manipulation, thatâs just how it works with abusive relationships.Â
But sheâs also not forgiving at first, sheâs mad and rightfully so, until she sees the sate of Harleyâs cell and realizes how bad her addiction is at that time.
A lot of the unhealthy moments on Harleyâs side when it comes to them are directly caused from the effects of being in an abusive relationship with Joker. Because sheâs always in this area of her journey in those moments. Sheâs never fully over him or emancipated.Â
And thatâs realistic. Itâs hard sometimes to be friends with someone whoâs in abusive relationships like theirs, having to watch them return to that person time and time again and itâs frustrating after a while.Â
I know from personal experience, itâs really hard to watch someone you care about go back or forgive someone that continues to hurt them.Â
But abuse victims desperately need a support system outside of their abuser. Itâs a crucial part of being able to escape, because when they do try to get out they need someone there or theyâll literally have no where to go but back into their abuserâs arms.
Itâs heartbreaking and itâs really rough for everyone effected, but thatâs just how it is most of the time. Especially in their case, as theyâre not just regular folk dealing with this.Â
If she doesnât have Ivy, Harley has no one else to go to but Joker, on more than just an emotional level.Â
Sheâs lost her job. Her income. Her home. Her livelihood. Her everything.
Most of the time she has no other choice but to return to a life of crime after sheâs released from Arkham because she canât get a job, sheâs a notorious criminal and sheâs got a lot of issues that donât just disappear with a bit of therapy.Â
She has no other choice but to return to Joker because the other alternative is the streets. At least she knows what to expect with him.Â
And thatâs not even getting into the manipulation, gaslighting and degrading abuse that he drills into her constantly.Â
Heâs made her believe sheâs not anything without him. That sheâs not smart or useful or anything.Â
And thatâs why itâs so damn important for her to have a support system and why heâs so damn against Ivy.Â
Because Ivy is the good voice on her shoulder telling her heâs wrong and that she doesnât deserve that.Â
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And on Ivyâs side, sheâs aware she gets very near cutting off all parts of her humanity.Â
Sheâs a plant goddess, sheâs insanely powerful and she feels everything through the green. Frankly, sheâs not even on the same playing field as these villains. Sheâs significanty more powerful than Harley and Joker.Â
Her connection to Harley is what keeps her humanity in tack, because despite everything, she does care about her. She was the first person she let in, the first person Ivy called a friend.Â
The person that was able to get through to her in #14/#15 when she was losing herself. The one that was able to get through to her that the dude was manipulating her.Â
âIvy, I know you think you love this guy... but youâre just gonna end up strapped to his rocket!â
She had to knock her out for the dude to trust her / not attack them anymore. But Harley got through to her by mentioning how they first met in the park when she saved her after Joker shot her off in a rocket.
And Ivy is understandable turned off towards humans considering her origin and trauma around that.Â
Sheâs got a lot of trust issues.
But both of them work through their seperate traumas over the years because their affection for each other is stronger than the issues their trauma has given them.
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and also, sometimes, they just have shit writers. thatâs an issue overall in comic fandoms. Some writers just fucking suck at getting any of the characters right, let alone LGBT characters, whoâre notoriously treated like garbage by DC.Â
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-Second And Third Chance- Tony Stark x Female Reader
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  Kody: favorite dilf- iâm sorry lmao
  Movie/Show: after endgame. but no one is dead because iâm still in denial.
  Summary: (Backstory included) Being the fiancee of Tony Stark was all you could dream of, but not everyone is perfect and Tony is certainly no saint. Even with Thanos being gone, Tony is still obsessing on how to keep you safe from other worldly beings, but due to his own ignorance ends up losing you all by himself.Â
  Possible Triggers / Warnings: angst with fluff ending, cursing, Tony being Tony, F.R.I.D.A.Y and Wanda being your besties lmao,Â
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  you wondered how you were ever came across such a man. Narcissistic, arrogant, just completely full of himself in every way possible. You had met the infamous Tony Stark at a shield ball/party so long ago. He was charming, youâll admit, but you were fully aware of his playboy status.Â
  you wore a long black off the shoulder dress that started skin tight at the top and flowy at the bottom, also sporting a slit down the side of the dress. Some said hi and gave you compliments on your outfit. You wanted to find Fury so you could talk to him as he was the only person you really knew.Â
  walking along the floor a woman holding a platter of drinks offered you one and you gladly accepted it. You spotted Fury a few tables away, talking amongst Natasha Romanoff and Steve Rogers. Once you made it over, you slipped yourself into a empty seat.Â
  Fury noticed you first and patted your shoulder âDidnât think these parties were your scene Agent L/nâ he spoke with his usual formality. You hummed into the glass of wine as you took a sip âThey are not, but i needed a reason to drinkâ you admitted, earning a chuckle from Natasha.Â
  you then took the time to look at both of them and smile âNatasha Steve. Still doing the whole saving the world thing?â you say. Steve cracks a smile and nods once âThe world canât seem to give us a breakâ he says. A chuckle bubbled in your throat âNot that you would take it though, right cap?â
  you four spent a good thirty minutes talking about the usual, until Maria Hill showed up then you got to talking about new missions that he Fury only trusted you all with. You were like Fury third in command. Someone Maria had recommended if something would have ever happened to her.Â
  not to long Natasha and Steve had left the party earlier then expected, but they were always in the rush. You, Fury, and Maria were now standing next to the table. Mariaâs phone rang and she slipped it from her bag and pressed the green button âYes?...Give me ten minutesâÂ
  she hung it up and put it back in her bag. Fury looked at her with a questioning stare âIâm going to assume Romanoff or Rogers were on the end of that line. Would the rest of us be needed?â he asked. Maria shook her head âNo. Just a minor problem. Iâll call if it escalatesâ
  Fury nods once and gestures with his head to the exit, dismissing her. They were so loyal to each other. Maria then sends you a polite smile before exiting the ballroom. You placed your cup on the table were you all resided minutes ago âShould we be concerned?â you ask.Â
  he shakes his head âTheyâll be fine. I like to come in at the end anyway, makes me alluringâ he says, making you stifle a bit of laughter. âRightâ you agreed not really wanting to dwell in that subject. Only seconds later is when an unfamiliar voice spoke âNickâ
  both you and Fury turn around and see the nice tailored suit belonging to the less nice man of Tony Stark. Fury cracks a small grin and holds his hand out âStark, fashionably lateâ he points out. Tony grabs his hand and shakes it âWell if i wasnât iâd be stuck looking like you losers.â
  did this grown man just call you both losers? Okay then. You folded your arms over your chest, not really paying much attention to there very testosterone filled conversation. Tony eyes removed themselves from Fury and looked at you âand who is this?â he asked.Â
  you removed your eyes from the people walking past you and looked towards the billionaire â This is Agent L/n. works alongside Agent Hill and myselfâ Fury explains. You give Tony a polite nod âItâs Y/n L/nâ you say. Tony grins and went to say something more when Fury coughed.Â
  âIâm going to use the bathroom. Tony donât be weirdâ he spoke before leaving you both by your lonesome. Great. âMay i offer you another drink?â he asked and you shook your head âI already had one and i have to be alert at all times. Itâs in the job description. Very fine printâ
  âSounds like you need a vacation or a xanaxâ he makes a face, earning a small smile from you âMaybe, but i like my job too muchâ you reply. Tony steps to the side and gestures with his hand for you to walk. You didnât see much wrong with that, just a friendly stroll. Why not.Â
  you step in forward and Tony lifts his arm up a bit for you to link yours. âWhat a charmerâ you thought before slipping your arm through his. YOu both began to walk slowly through the ballroom âSo what does your significant other think about how much you work?â he asked.Â
  âvery slickâ âI don't have a boyfriend or girlfriend at the moment. Tried dating on the job, but no one really understands how much working here changes you in a wayâ you explained, Tony nodding along with your answer. Being an Agent had its perks and downfalls.Â
  âWhy did you get into this line of work, if you donât mind me asking?â Tony questions. It was strange seeing him be so genuine with his wording, the complete opposite of what Fury, Steve, Natasha, or Maria had to say about him. It was pleasant. Â
  you gulp, a few choice memories deciding to flood your mind âI worked CIA with my sister for awhile. Our whole family was worked in some form of Government job. Then the 2012 attack happened and we were told to stand down. Me and my sister were stubborn so we didnâtâ
  you inhale deeply and managed to keep your formal smile upon your face despite the urge to down another glass of wine and call it a night âNo one knew about aliens back then, but we wanted to help people in any way we could. In hindsight it was very stupid of usâ
  your mind began to wander to something else, the smile fading from your face and be replaced with a blank stare. For an expression so neutral it would be hard to tell that you were reliving a terrible memory. Crashing, a blood curdling scream, your pleas, and a then silence.
  Tony looked at you once you had stopped talking abruptly and used his free hand to pat your shoulder. You broke out of whatever horrific trance you were in âSorry, zoned out- anyway my sister ended up passing, i was charged with treason funny enough, but Fury convinced them to drop the chargesâ
  Tony chose to ignore the brief daze you were in for your own sake and you two continued your stroll. The night ended with more talking and much needed laughter. He also offered you a ride home and you gladly took him up on that. It was really nice.Â
  when you got to your house he asked you on a date to a very nice restaurant near your place. You accepted even though your brain was telling you not to. On the day of the date you ended up being called in and canceled. He said he understood and that you could reschedule anytime.Â
  you never did go on that dateÂ
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  just like most things it only happened once and you figured that was that. Spending a couple magical hours talking to Tony Stark would be any girls dream and just like dreams you awoke to reality. You had a job and had many other important things to do beside fantasize about a billionaire.Â
  that was until Hydra took over Shield in 2014, you and Fury faked your deaths. Tony actually went to your funeral, wearing sunglasses and standing away from everybody. It was pretty sad, but you had a job to do. fury actually came back, but you stayed in hiding.
  then in 2015 when Ultron was a the main problem and you were itchy to bash some robots skulls in- wait they donât have skulls. Whatever, Fury wouldnât get involved. Then Sokovia became a giant plane and Fury caved. After a year of doing grunt work you could finally fight.Â
  all the staff, including you loaded up a helicarrier. You made your way to the command center where Fury and Maria resided âAh Agent Y/n. Glad that you could join us. Already suited up i see?â Fury points to your all black outfit and mask.Â
  shrugging, you walked towards the front âIâve been âdeadâ for a year, cut me some slack for being excitedâ you say. Fury nods, agreeing with your statement before facing forward. âSet a course to Sokovia and making it fastâ Maria announced.
  and with that, you were off
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 Maria hacked into the Avengers coms and connected Furyâs, yourâs, and her own. âWhere else am i gonna get a view like this?â a woman said through your earpiece. You instantly recognize it as Nat. You missed her so much, god you couldnât wait to talk to her again.Â
  âGlad you like the view Romanoff. Itâs about to get betterâ Fury spoke, folding his arms behind his back, interlocking his hands. The helicarrier started to raise above Sokovia. Holy shit this is high. As you ascended you were able to see Nat and Steve standing together. Nat cut her hair, it looks pretty.
  rest of the staff began to enter the command room and set up âNice right? Pulled her out of mothballs with a couple old friends. Sheâs dusty, but sheâll doâ he spoke. âFury you son of a bitchâ Steve said right back. Did he just curse? That had to be Ultron.Â
  âWoah, you kiss your mother with that mouth?â Fury said with a fake surprised tone. His comment made you chuckle a bit since he had a foul mouth. Hypocrisy am i right? âAltitude is 18,000 and climbingâ Maria spoke, typing away on her keyboard like desk.Â
  another guy spoke up from behind you âLifeboats secure to deploy, disengage in three...two...take them out â he clicked one final button and sat back. You felt the helicarrier rumble beneath you, which meant the lifeboats were being sent to the ground.
  oh shit. You were supposed to be on one of those. âShit!â you yell before running out the command room. You raced down the stairs and made your way to the deck. You watched as a lifeboat flew right below. This is such a bad idea. Your doing it anyway.
  taking a couple steps back, you mentally prepare yourself before running as fast as you could. As you touch the edge you jump and launch yourself off the helicarrier. The lifeboat came closer to you until your shoulder collided with it. You hissed and slowly pushed yourself up âDamn- thatâs gonna stingâ
  âDid you just jump off the helicarrier?â Fury says through the coms
  âWho did?â Steve spoke
  âOh you know, backup-â Fury replies before Maria cut in âSir we have multiple bogeys on our starboard flankâ she spoke and indeed when you looked up you saw a bunch of Iron man suits flying above. Oh shit. âShow them what he gotâ he replied back.Â
  you reach down and pull both guns out the holsters that were on both of your thighs âIt feels good to be backâ you said to yourself. You heard something fly above you that wasnât a Bogey and saw War Machine- Rhodey blasting through a bunch of them. Heâs pretty cool.
  just as you were about to bask in the moment a Bogey landed on the lifeboat and came charging at you. It swung and you ducked just in time, lifting your foot to kick it in the chest. As it stumbled back you raised your gun and shot it straight in the head.
  the literal lights behind its glass âeyesâ flickered until it shut off and it fell to the ground. âIt better not be that easy to kill the actual Iron Manâ you spoke. âAnd your not gonna find outâ a voice spoke. You turn around and see Tony in his suit, with his arm raised, ready to attack you.Â
  you raise your hands âWoah- What the hell Stark!â you shout. Oh shit- you had a mask. âIâm on your sideâ you add. Tony tilts his head âReally, prove itâ he says. You slowly move your hand. as to not startle him and slowly pull the mas down from your face âHey Tonyâ
  he visibly tensed up. His mask retracting back into his face. Still has handsome as ever. He reaches up with both arms and takes off his helmet, dropping it to the side. âSo is faking your death a Shield initiation thing or you just really didnât want to go out with me?â he asked.Â
  you cracked a smile and dropped your arms to your sides âI told you work gets in the wayâ you said. He went to say something when four Bogeys landed on the lifeboat. Damn you couldnât let any on until you landed. Tony groaned dramatically and shot one in the chest, causing it to fall off the ship. Â
  âNo. See regular work doesnât involve faking your death. I went to your funeral you know?â he says. You drop off and push off the seat and onto the Bogey, wrapping your thighs around its head. You push the barrel of the gun against the top of its head and shot âI know. I was there!â you shout.
  âOh thatâs just great. You saw me all vulnerable and tearyâ he says with a scoff. what was happening right now. You drop to the ground and the Bogey grabs your leg, pulling you back. You shot it in the arm and it lets go âI actually didnât know you cried. Thatâs kind of cute thoughâ
  you shoot the Bogey in the head and stand up on your feet. Just as you are about to take a step, a metal arm wraps around your neck, pulling you back. Oh yeah there was four. You went to reach behind as Tony shot through itâs head. The grip around your neck was released and you pushed itâs corpse off.
  âYour welcomeâ Tony spoke, he still sounded snappy. âYour such a baby Tony. What can i do to make you stop moping?â you ask, putting one of your guns into the holster. You look behind you as the lifeboats pull up next to Sokovia âOne date after all this. So i can show you what you missed of courseâ
  you crack a smile, pulling your hood off your head. You raise your hand and hold up one finger âOne date. Thatâs itâ you say and he nods along âThat works for meâ he replies before picking up his helmet. He puts it on his head âBut youâll come back for moreâ he says as his face is covered by metal once more.
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  present
  you ended up did going on that date with Tony and he was right, there would be multiple date and girts until he finally asked you to be in a relationship. It was any big grand gesture that you expected from him, it was simple and sweet. It took him three years for him to propose in 2018.
  but he was always one to wait.Â
  the second battle with Thanos, but everyone seemed to be somewhat recovering, but Tony wasnât himself anymore. You already knew he was a workaholic, but it had never been this bad. Heâd stay up all night working on new tech. Security, suit adjustments, anything.Â
  when it first started happening you chalked it up to his response to trauma. One night you suggested heâd go to therapist. Just one session and if he thought it would work then he could continue and vise versa. Tony ended up shooting down the idea with a couple harsh words.Â
  it was strange to see him yell at you because he had never done before. It was like you were talking to an entirely different person. It scared you to be honest, but you loved him. A whole year after Thanos had gone by and he was just falling deeper and deeper into his work and less into you.
  âFriday, is Tony awake?â you spoke, pouring coffee into a black mug. You place it on the silver tray and grab the light beige cardigan off the counter, slipping it over your white sports bra. âYes Miss. Would you like me to inform him your coming down to the lab?â Friday asked.
  âNo thatâs alright. Iâd rather surprise him. Thank you Fridayâ you say and grab the tray off the counter, it had a mug of coffee and a plate of pancakes. You knew he wouldnât have eaten already âJust doing my job Missâ she replies. You smile to yourself. You liked listening to her accent.Â
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  you push open the door with the side of your hip since your hands were full âTony!â you call out, looking around the lab one time. You stop as you see your lovers head pop up behind a machine you were unfamiliar of âY/n? Whatâre you doing up? Itâs lateâ he said, putting down a tablet.
  you roll your eyes and walk over to the big table in the middle, placing the tray down âItâs nine in the morning, loveâ you reply. Was he starting to lose track of time now? This place needed more windows clearly. Tony put on a confused face as he scratched the back of his neck âReally?â
  nodding, you lift up the mug of coffee from the tray and make your way over to Tony. You dodge a few tools laying on the ground and hand him the cup âDrinkâ you say. He takes it from you and brings it to his lips âThanksâ he says. While he drank you studied his face. He looked so exhausted.
  it broke your heart
  âYou look terrible by the wayâ you comment, causing him to crack a small smile. âYou said yes to this face, remember thatâ he retorts. Well he wasnât wrong about that one. âThat is true, seriously i want you out the lab today and into bed. Tomorrow is an important dayâ
  Tony goes silent for a moment and you can tell he was trying really hard to think âTonyâ you said, your voice sounding like a mom who was getting ready to lecture there child for forgetting to do homework. âI know i know- important day. Canât wait for that...dayâ
  you narrowed your eyes âFridayâ you called out. âYes Missâ she replies instantly. âRead me Tonyâs schedule that he set for himself for the weekâ you ask. Tony steps forward, but you take a step back, moving away from him. âThere is nothing on Mr. Starkâs schedule this week MissâÂ
  wow
  moving away from Tony, you walk over to the table âItâs our anniversary tomorrow you assâ you snap at him. Tony sighs and runs his hand over his face âIâve been busy-â âYouâve never forgot it beforeâ your tone was unusually calm, which through Tony off.Â
  âThanos is dead TonyâÂ
  âI know-â
  âThen what are you doing?!â you shout, shocking yourself at the loudness of your own voice. âIâm trying to keep you safe!â he exclaims. Your fist clench. God you loved this man, but you wanted to punch him in the nose âYou know i thought that you would get over this, but i canât take much moreâ
  your words seem to scare Tony a bit, but you continued to speak âItâs been a year Tony. You donât sleep next to me, we barely talk unless itâs me making sure you donât fucking starve to death, we havenât been intimate in god knows how long. Iâm tired of being neglectedâ
  crying for a man was so pathetic, so you reached up and wiped any forming tears away with your thumb. Tony reached his arms out and wrapped them around you. You wanted to push him away, but he hasn't hugged you in so long, so you gave in.Â
  he rubbed the back of your head as you let a few tears fall onto his shirt âIâll stop okay- look i promise iâll get some sleep and will have a whole day together okay?â he says. You were mad and you wanted to scream at him, but you also loved him and wanted to give him a second chance.
  âOkay, but i swear Tony. You screw this up and-â you were cut off by him placing his lips on yours. Damn Stark. You smiled lightly into the kiss and pull away a couple seconds later âand youâll throw me out on my ass i know.â he says.Â
  you ended up making Tony go to sleep in your shared room while you cleaned up his lab and such.Â
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  the anniversary, nightÂ
  you were waiting outside a restaurant since Tony wanted to show up in his car to âswoonâ you wearing a black jumpsuit, it was his favorite color on you You looked at your phone and noticed he was about ten minutes late, but that didnât worry you much since he liked to be fashionably late.Â
  heâd come. He wouldnât risk his last chance.
  would he?
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  after two hours Happy ended up picking you up and taking you back to your home. He apologized for Tony a couple times, but you said it was fine. Once you got home you kicked off your heels at the door. You were kind of running on autopilot just in shock and realization at the same time.
  you knew what you had to do, but at the same time you didnât want to, but it was over. You gave Tony a chance and he blew it. Nine years down the drain in a flash. You just couldnât believe it. Walking down the hall, you wipe your face from the warm tears. Â
  shutting the door to your shared bedroom, you go over to the closet âMiss you seem to be in distress is there anyway i can help?â Friday spoke. For an AI she was very self aware on feelings. âIs Tony awake Friday?â you ask, going over to your closet. âNo Miss, he is asleep in the lab. May i call someone for you?â
  you open the closet and pull out a suitcase you had in there and bring it over to the bed âCall Wandaâ you say as you unzip the suitcase, opening it up and throw it on the bed. âOf course Miss, contacting Wanda Maximoffâ she replies. After a couple seconds you hear her voice.Â
  âY/n? Itâs late, are you alright?â she asked. You had confided in Wanda about your relationship problems with Tony since you were both in a long term relationship. You had also told her about the anniversary thing and Tonyâs last chance. she said if it didnât work out yo could stay at her place.
  âHey Wanda- uh. Yeah i know itâs late but-â you didnât get to finish speaking when Wanda cut you off âAre you crying? Tony didnât come did he? Know what? iâm on way. He better like a car through his windowâ she threatens, you could hear her moving around and the sound of keys. Well damn-
  you began to grab your clothes from your dresser and stuff them in your suitcase âHeâs sleeping, just pull in the front. Iâll send you the gate code okay?â you say, beginning to take off the jumpsuit you were wearing. âFine, but no promises if i see him in the street. Iâll see you soon Y/n, goodbyeâ
  Wanda hung up the phone âFriday-â âI sent Wanda the gate code. Before you leave would you like to leave a message for Mr. Stark?â Friday asked. You grab a dark green sweater and jeans from your dresser and throw them on quickly. You didnât bother to pack the jumpsuit.Â
  you wanted Tony to know why you had left so he could see the consequences of his actions and so that he wouldnât tear the city apart thinking you were kidnapped. âI will, can you record a holographic message?â you ask. âYes Miss, also Wanda will be arriving in 15 minutesâ
  âOkayâ
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  Tony awoke to the sound of his alarm blaring off into his ear âShit. Friday shut that off!â he groans, lifting his head from the table âYes Bossâ she replies and the alarm shuts off. âY/n has left a message for you to listen too. It is very importantâ she adds.
  âPlay itâ he says going to lay his head back down on the table âIt is a holographic message, Bossâ Friday says. Tony begrudgingly lifts his head and leans it on his arm âPlay itâ he repeats. A second later you appeared sitting on the chair at the table with a blue hue around you.Â
  âHey Tonyâ you spoke a half smile on your face. tony would have found comfort in it if he doesnât your puffy eyes and saddened expression. His head lifted on his arm âRemember our anniversary, you know your last chance and all that? Yeah.â you began. Tony sighed mumbling curses under his breath.
   âI care about you, i have since you talked to me at the Shield dance, but i havenât been your first priority in a while and i get it, but you promised when i left Shield that you would always make time for me. I know that Thanos shook you and you wonât admit it, but you need realize that something bad isnât lurking around every cornerâ
  Tony watched as you reached up and rubbed your eyes, the scene tugging on his heartstrings âWe need a break from each other Tony, just for a little while. Iâm going to stay with some friends. Please try to help yourself, get out the lab, clean yourself up, all of that.â
  you pulled something off your ring finger and placed it on the table. Tony looked down and saw the silver ring with three aquamarine stones. He remembered proposing to you with it. You said the color reminded you of his reactor. Weirdly enough your hologram looked up at him and smiled.Â
  âIâll be waitingâ you said and then flickered away âThatâs the end of the message, Bossâ Friday says. Tony slowly picked up the ring off the table. You had recorded the message in hear, talking to his sleeping body. He wished he had woken up.Â
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  three months later
  staying with Wanda was fun, but after a month or so you decided to get your own place. As much as you loved your big house you shared with Tony you bought small cabin well away from the city. It was quiet, it was outdoors and you loved it.Â
  when you and Tony got engaged you ended up retiring from Shield so you could be more at home and help Tony with his work, but now even though you didnât need a job you also didnât like the idea of sitting on your ass. In that night of packing you put your old suit in there while on autopilot.Â
  It took awhile, but you called up Fury and he was more than happy to let you back in âWhat does Stark have to say about all this?â he asked and you just sighed quietly âWhat Tony doesnât know wonât hurt himâ you replied and he didnât ask any more questions after that.Â
  getting back into your old life was pretty easy. All you needed was to get back into your regular exercise regiment that you had been lacking on and you felt more confident than ever. You didnât feel neglected or forgotten, the complete opposite, you felt badass.Â
  one day when you were walking out the store after picking up some groceries you felt eyes on you as you walked along the sidewalk. After years of being an Agent you knew when you were being followed. What was strange was that it felt like someone was watching you from above.
  having a hunch at who it might be you quickly looked up and see a quick blur of red and blue swing away from your vision. Was this kid following you? but why? You duck into an alley way and walk slowly. You hear him drop behind you and follow your steps.Â
  âPeterâ
  âHiâ he replies in nervous tone. You turn around, placing your free hand on your hip âWhy have you been following me all week Peter?â yopu ask. You havenât talked to Peter in months. Did he need something? Peter lifts his arm and grabs the top of his mask, pulling it off of his head.Â
  he was lucky you were in a remote part of the city âMr. Stark told me you werenât together at the momentâ he starts, looking at his feet. âI just wanted to make sure you were doing alrightâ he says and flashes a toothy grin. Aw- wait. âDid Tony ask you to check on me?â
  Peter shook his head âNo. Heâs been busy with setting up the new senteries and therapy- i mean i donât know. I just missed you and i can tell Mr. Stark is trying to change, but i hate to see you both so sad. I couldnât imagine not being with Mjâ he says. This kid was too adorable.Â
  not only that he went out of his way to see how you were doing. Wait- what did he say about Tony âWhat senteries?â you asked, stepping closer to him. Peter started to fidget a bit âUh- i really have to get going-â âPeterâ you said in a demanding tone.Â
  he exhaled deeply, knowing he wasnât getting out of this âMr. Stark has a whole line of senteries to sell to the senator so he can finally retire from being Iron Man. Not fully retire just on a long term vacation- thatâs what he called it.â he spoke. Holy shit- you hoped he had done this for himself
  and you as well- but mostly himself
  a smile creeped onto your face. The most stubborn man you had ever met changed. âWhen does he plan on doing this?â you say to Peter âA dinner party this weekend. I wasnât supposed to say anything until it was done. He was going to do some grand gesture to show you heâs changedâÂ
  you shook your head and placed a hand on Peterâs shoulder âDonât be. For once iâm doing the grand gestureâ
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  saturdayÂ
  after figuring out and planning on when and where you were going to show up you decided to tap into Fridayâs systems and watch most of his speech then find Tony when the time was right, preferably when he was alone. Being with Tony for so long you figured out a way to enter your shared home, undetected.
  once you were in the building you hid away in a spare room that was never used âFriday show me the room Tonyâs inâ you spoke, pulling out your phone âYes Missâ she spoke and on your screen you saw Tony in the dining room. You lift your phone and flick it so its projected off the screen.
  your eyes latched to Tony as soon as it turned on. He looked so different and healthy. It was pleasing to see that he was doing much better. You were also glad he took your advice. A warmth invaded your chest, itâs like you fell in love with him all over again.Â
  gosh how you wanted to run into his arms that very moment.Â
  âSo Stark, why retire now?â the senator asked, taking a sip of wine from the glass he held. Tony seemed to tense up the question, but no one noticed other then you and Tony himself âIf you asked me three months ago i would have told you to go to hell and that i donât need to retireâ
  âand now?â
  âWell back then i had my fiancee and thought i was the king of the world. Then i lost her because of my workaholic nature- also iâm not retiring Iron, Man will still be here for whoever needs him, but i think itâs time i put my future wife first if i want to keep herâ he shrugs his shoulders casually.
  most at the table were stunned into silence before the senator lifted his hand for tony to shake âI guess Tony Stark does have a heartâ he spoke and Tony shook his hand. You felt something warm come down your face and reached to wipe the tears away.
  god- what a charmer. Always knew just what to say.
  âWell this was fun, but my finacee iâve been talking about is actually here on the momentâ he said. Wait what? You looked at the screen as Tonyâs head turned towards the camera, sending you a wink. How the hell did he find out?! Tony grabbed a pen from his pocket and signed the paper.
  âHappy will show you all outâ Tony waved them off before walking out the room âIf you step out the room youâll be able to meet Mr. Stark in the hallwayâ Friday spoke. Oh so she snitched. Betrayal at itâs finest âThanks Fridayâ you spoke before stepping out the room.Â
  as you turned your head you come face to face with your husband to be, except he seemed nervous? âYou look great- well you always look greatâ Tony says, making you form a smile âIâm proud of youâ you say back. Tony reaches up, using this thumb to wipe away a stray tear.Â
  âThat means a lot coming from you. I canât believe i let you slip awayâ his voice got darker, a frown forming. âIâm right hereâ you open your arms out. tony takes the opportunity to wrap his arms around your waist, pulling you flush against him. âBut seriously Tony i will really leave you next timeâ
  he nods âI know i know. You can have the whole house if i doâ he says, making you chuckle. After a moment of staring into each other's eyes, silently making up for lost time. âOh my god Tony Stark if you donât kiss me right now-â you didnât even need to finish before his lips were on yours.Â
  the kiss was desperate and starved for a deeper feeling. Who knew one person could miss another so much? After this, you speculated youâd be stuck to his side like glue for a couple weeks before he say something stupid to piss you off.Â
  Tonyâs hands traveled lower and lower until they gripped the back of your thighs, causing a familiar feeling to bloom within you. He pulls away from your mouth and his lips attach to your neck, leaving hot open mouthed kisses. Zero to one hundred real quick.Â
  âTonyâ you breathed out. You could feel the smirk against the skin of your neck. Horny bastard âTony seriouslyâ you say, a laugh bubbling in your throat. He pulls away and looks at you âIâm trying to seduce you. Why are you interrupting?âÂ
  you shake your head and hook your arms around his neck âI love you, you idiotâ you say, trying to catch your breath. A ego filling grin decorated his face as he pecked your lips âI love you too. Now let me get back to workâ he says and goes back to kissing your neck and his hands worked off your belt.
  yeah- you were in loveÂ
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Hello, I require your infinite wisdom please!! :O So I just finished cowboy bebop and I am so confused like who the fuck was Julia. WHAT was Faye's past. I literally never process tv shows and the bebop was not immune to my stupidity LMAO like... I guess the ending just really confused me, from what I gathered Spike and Vicious were friends? But then they weren't? And Julia dated Vicious but also Spike? And he? Went after Vicious even after Julia had died? I am Confusion. Please help. Thank u...
Oh BABEY I am so glad you asked! :) Be prepared for a long answer and I apologize in advance for how incoherent it will probably be.
ALSO Please note: this show is fucking complicated. I have watched it all the way through several times a year, every single year, for over a decade now, and I am *STILL* finding new shit every time I watch it. It's packed with symbols, motifs, allusions and underlying themes that are just so rich. It is so extraordinarily well-written that it could give a lot of classic literature a run for its money. I'm literally working on an in depth literary/film analysis my husband lovingly calls my Manifesto on the series right now. SO PLEASE don't beat yourself up about not catching everything on the first go round.
HEY BTW for anyone who hasn't finished the show, please know there will be MANY spoilers ahead!
Anyways ~
1.    Spike / Julia / Vicious:
The information we get on Spike's past, including Vicious and Julia, is pretty limited considering how big of an impact they have on the story. We get our first glimpse in Session 1: Asteroid Blues, then again in Session 5: Ballad of Fallen Angels, Sessions 12 + 13: Jupiter Jazz, and Sessions 25 + 26: Real Folk Blues. I recommend reviewing these episodes for you Julia and Vicious fix.
What we know:
Spike and Vicious were both members of an organized crime syndicate called the Red Dragons, which is roughly analogous to the Yakuza or the Mafia. Their positions in the organization are not clear, but there are some images alluding to them being hitmen, and they likely rose up in the ranks as they were close acquaintances of Mao Yenrai, a Capo of the Red Dragon.
Spike and Vicious were close comrades. Spike taught Vicious everything he knew about fighting, and the two had a deep trust in each other. Which Spike fucked up âŠ.
^^Vicious looks hot asf here
Julia was Vicious' lover/girlfriend. One night in 2068 (three years prior to the time we watch in the Bebop) Spike is injured, presumably from a syndicate-related fight and he passes out in front of her door. She takes him in and nurses him back to health and he SIMPS HARD for her. Weâre all but told he's in LOVE love with her. They start an affair, and Spike tells her he's ready to abandon the whole life - the syndicate, Vicious, Mao, all of it - and they could run away together.
WELL Vicious finds out about this whole affair, and is DOUBLY betrayed because his literal best friend and girlfriend have been having an affair, and tbh I think he was just as jealous of Spike's attentions as he was of Julia's. (Whether or not itâs a sexual thing for Spike ⊠well ⊠I have my own headcanons about that). SO when he finds out they're going to run away together, he gives Julia an ultimatum: you can either kill him, or I'll just kill you both. Spike had written her a letter about meeting him in the graveyard to start their new life together, which she tears up to hide his location from Vicious. (This is the falling ripped up pieces of paper we see in Spike's flash back in Session 5).
^^ r/gifsyoucanhear
**NOTE: There are those who disagree with this view, (looking at you Cowboy Bebop wiki) instead suggesting Vicious and Spike were buds in the past, but then hated each other once they were both considered as potential successors to Mao. That's why Vicious wanted him dead, and he was enlisting Julia (who he didn't necessarily have a romantic connection to) to help kill Spike since he knew Spike loved her. Personally, I think there is plenty of evidence that Vicious also wanted Julia, and in fact was already with her, when Spike started seeing her. If you want me to cite my sources please send an me an ask about it :)
Spike gets the idea, whether by her just not showing up or word around the syndicate being like YO Vicious wants you dead. Despite Vicious' ultimatum to Julia, he was gunna kill Spike either way. SO he sets up an ambush, and SadBoyâą Spike walks intentionally into their trap. Somehow, he doesn't die, though the entire syndicate thinks he did. (Note Annie's reaction to seeing him alive in Session 5). Itâs also implied that this is where he lost his eye.
HIS EYE - possibly the most important symbol in the show so I do have to mention it. In episode 26, he explicitly explains to Faye that one of his eyes only sees the past. (PS this isn't dissimilar to Jet's arm⊠we can get into that another time). Basically, he's constantly living halfway in the past and halfway in the present, and describes the past like a dream he can never wake up from. Because dysfunctional or not - the syndicate WAS his family. (Again - see his relationship with Annie, Mao, and Vicious (prior to Spike's betrayal)). It's his reminder that Julia didn't run away with him, and that he'd left behind that life for her. (He didnât know she was being threatened until the final episode). Basically Spike is hyper-fixated on what he had and what could've been.
Not long after this, Spike starts bounty hunting because like? What else is he going to do. He doesn't care if he lives or dies but if he has to be alive, he may as well be able to eat. He joins up with Jet Black on the Bebop.
TL; DR: Spike stole Vicious' lover, Julia, so Vicious made Julia choose between her killing Spike or Vicious killing them both. She instead went into hiding and Spike thought he'd been stood up. He fake died and got the hell outta dodge.
2.    What was Faye's past?
Ok let me start by saying Faye is my wife and my life. HOWEVER I hated her the first time I watched this show circa age 13 because I thought she was annoying/vain/shallow (also because #internalizedmisogyny lol am I right fam). Good news! She is all those things! But she's also very lonely and scared and an amnesiac and secretly a sweetie and she realizes she loves the crew of the Bebop like family.
SO my wife's backstory:
she was born in the 1990s (#only90skidsremember). There's some debate over her race/nationality, but due to the images of her hanging out in Merlion Park in Singapore, my bet is that she's Singaporean. She comes from a wealthy family with a big house, and we see some utterly *adorable* film of her as a child/young adolescent in Session 18: Speak Like a Child. I cry everytime </3
^^ Holla for the representation
In 2014, circa age 20, she and her parents were going into space when the shuttle they were on had some kind of malfunction/accident and it killed an unknown number of people, including her parents. At the time, the technology didnât exist to be able to save her, so she was put into a cryogenic sleep state. Meanwhile, the Lunar Gate accident occurs, breaking up the moon and causing rock showers on Earth's surface. Most people died, moved to Mars, or settled underground.
She wakes up from her cryogenic sleep in 2068. (Also the year Spike leaves the syndicate.) She's 'woken' by the corrupt Dr. Bacchus who plans on charging her for the years and years of medical debt she's accrued. (See Session 15: My Funny Valentine.) Luckily a lawyer takes interest in her case (Whitney Haggus Matsumoto) and tries to help get rid of her debt. The two fall in love, but turns out Whitney is a Scumbag. He's actually Dr. Bacchus's nephew, and faked his death, writing Faye as the sole inheritor to his will. This means she'll take on all his debts. So baby girl has LOTS of debt at this point.
In the intervening years prior to her joining the Bebop, she gambles, cheats, gains a lot of street smarts, and adopts a very seductive character to get her way. She joins the crew on the Bebop in Session 3: Honky Tonk Women.
TL;DR: Faye is Austin powers
YIKES this is so long I am so sorry. Bitches are obsessed with this show. (I am bitches)
3.    The Ending
Okay I'm going to present this in the way, in my scholarly opinion, would be correct, though there are SO many interpretations other than simply 'Spike died :/".
To understand the plot of the last couple episodes we actually have to go back to Session 5: Mao is instructed* to sign a treaty with a rival syndicate called the White Tigers. (*He's instructed by The Van (Council of identical creepy old men) who are the actual head of the dragon. I think we only see them in Session 26.) Well - Vicious is a Bastard Man and he and his fellow mutineers blow up the White Tiger guys' ship and slit Mao's throat. Before he dies, Mao is like "Gotdamnit if Spike was still here this shit wouldn't have happened." Later in the Cathedral battle, Vicious explains to Spike he killed Mao because Mao 'lost his fangs'. He planned on killing Spike for good her, IMO, so there'd be no rival to take over as Capo for the Dragons.
^^These guys are The Van btw
THEN in Session 25, the Van basically catches Vicious and is like âyou killed Mao and now you have to go to Time Out.â The Van also decides to just kill everyone associated with Vicious, just 2 B safe. That's why there's a big ass shootout at the Loser Bar where Jet and Spike are chilling, drinking, (missing Faye and Ed and Ein lol) and Shin (younger brother to Lin, who's helping Vicious overthrow the Dragon) explains all this to Spike. OH and PS JULIA IS ALIVE AND HERE IS HER LOCATION :). (**Notice Spike's reaction at this point is different than his reaction in Jupiter Jazz when he hears there's a Julia on Calisto. Much less excited⊠hmmâŠ).
SO THEN you know we get some flashbacks of the past as previously explained *and* Julia just happens to run into Faye. She recognizes that Faye is one of Spike's friends from the Bebop (she was keeping tabs on him it seems) and picks her up. Faye doesn't know who Julia is but is like damn bitch I'm a little gay for you. (I mean ⊠that may just be my bi ass projecting, but Faye is REALLY struck with her. Look at how she describes her to Jet, I mean come on.)
 Faye's like, 'we should team up' and Julia says 'no thanks but also tell Spike to meet me at *the place*'. Meanwhile back on the Bebop Spike and Jet are talking and Spike goes on about some dream woman who was his other half. (We assume he means Julia ⊠I have my reasons to doubt this ⊠I have a lot of angry DMs about my opinion here lol but I just do not give a fuck (: I can expand on this in another post or you can refer to the title of my fucking blog haha) Personally, I think Watanabe personally left this specific scene open ended, the same way he does with the ending and various other things.
more like SIMP Spiegel
ANYWAY Faye comes back to the Bebop to tell Spike about Julia, and Jet gets intel from a former cop buddy that there's some shit going down with the Dragons. (Again, the Van is hunting down everyone ever associated with Vicious, including your pal Spike). Bebop is attacked, Faye tells Spike what's up with Julia, and he heads out.
 PAN TO VICIOUS chained up - about to be executed - but what's that!? It's a bird!? It's a pla- no it's just a bird. (With one glowing red eye ⊠hm ⊠reminds me of Spike, also the drug Red Eye. Pls let me know if you have any thoughts on this). Just a bird with a BOMB! Explosion (RIP bird c. 2065 - too soon), Vicious kills the elders, his buddies show up and are ready to go fuck shit up.
this show could not be more of an aesthetic
MMMPhhh okay RAINY CEMETERY. Spike and Julia. She draws a gun, explains why she didn't meet him that day, and then hugs him. Now Spike is not *great* at showing his emotions but he literally just stands there. Maybe it's a stoic expression of how sad he is that he never knew she still cared, when it seemed like she dumped him. Maybe he's finally getting some closure on his past. Maybe the past doesn't mean the same thing it used to. (I'll elaborate later on this).
They go to Annie's to get stocked up on stuff, she lets them know she denied knowing Spike was still alive and hey also the Van was assassinated by Vicious and his guys so. Watch out for that. Then her shop is surrounded by Vicious' guys and she dies :(. Spike and Julia escape to the roof, but she's shot and dies in Spike's arms, and says 'it's all just a dream' :(. (Refer to: Spike living in a dream of the past).
Anyway Jet SAID he wasn't gunna go after Spike but. Jet's parental instincts kick in (oh yeah he was shot in the leg earlier btw) and he goes to Sitting Bull to see if he knows where Spike is. He basically says yeah Spike's about to die somewhere. (I want to do a further analysis on all the Sitting Bull scenes.) Well conveniently Spike returns to the Bebop, eats, tells his story about a tiger-striped cat. (At one point Jet asks if he's going there for her, and Spike is like well she's dead now so whatever). THEN we get to the scene where Faye is like HEY YOU CAN'T GO OFF AND DIE ASSHOLE and he's like ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ I 've been living in the past so I might as well see if I'm living now. (**This will play heavily into my interpretation of the ending). Faye is pissed, shoots the ceiling and he goes off to the syndicate headquarters to fuck shit up.
He basically John Wicks his way through the building, Shin dies, he and Vicious have the big boss battle and whatnot. He kills Vicious and stumbles back out down the stairs and says "Bang!" and collapses. We pan to the sky and see a star fade away.
Well that explains the plot ⊠now here's what I think happened!!! ALSO may I mention, anon - you picked up on something I feel like a lot of people miss out on. Why *did* Spike go back to kill Vicious if Julia was already dead??
Basically, once it became clear that anyone associated with Vicious was being killed, Spike knew they'd hunt him down, and they weren't beneath Kill-Billing their way to him, (i.e. systematically destroying this companions to get to him). And for all his apparent indifference - he really loves his new found family. Jet is literally like an older brother to him. Ed is a little sister. Ein is well ⊠a very good boy. And Faye? Well the relationship is complicated, and I'm not going to get into the 69,420 reasons I ship them here, but I think it is beyond argument that he really does care for her, even if that just in a filial way. He didn't want the syndicates to kill them for their association to him, or in order to get to him. So he did what he had to do to protect them. *AND NO* I am not saying that he didn't love Julia. But it was clear that his desire was no longer to run away with her. I think he genuinely loved and cared about her, but at some point between Jupiter Jazz Pt 2 and now, he accepted that their time together was over. Now he had a new raison d'etre, which is the Bebop.
I think at this point Spike has 'woken up' to reality (as he implied to Faye in their final conversation in episode 26: "Look at these eyes. One of them is a fake, because I lost it in an accident. Since then, I have been seeing the past in one eye, and the present in the other. I had believed that what I saw was not all of reality...I thought I was watching a dream that I would never awaken from. Before I knew it, the dream was all over." (This is from the sub btw I'm too lazy to look up the dub transcript.) He wasn't going there to die, he's going to find out if he's really alive. This line is fucking cool and everything - but it's implications are multitude. I won't go into them all here but basically : what makes him alive now is that he's free from his past. He's alive because he has this new family and protecting them is all he really wants now. Spike was protecting Jet, Faye, Ed, (and Ein) by going and facing the entire syndicate, knowing that their lives would all be in danger.
SO - did Spike die? Well again - Watanabe has purposely and artfully left this open ended. Well, if we're following the symbolism from Sitting Bull, then yeah, the man is as dead as disco, and wouldn't that be a fitting ending? BUT at the same time, Spike always refers to having 'died' before (meaning when he was ambushed by the syndicate, and they all thought he died, and he pretty much did). Don't forget that in  movie (takes places roughly between episodes 22 + 23, and yes, was made AFTER the series but whatever) he like .. DIES dies. He goes to the afterlife and everything. He wakes up to find he's chilling with Sitting Bull, who's like nah it wasn't your time to die yet. So the fact Sitting Bull confirms Spike will die in the final episode, means yeah, Spike is pretty much dead.
BUT -- okay now hear me out -- could this death in the final episode be a death to his previous life? The person he was in the syndicate? Now that he's extinguished the Red Dragons for good, is it not possible that its merely *that* life which has ended? That's the optimist in me saying that, but if it keeps me from staying up all night crying, I guess it'll have to do. Watanabe definitely wants to leave it up to the viewer, so whatever you think, I feel like there's validity to it.
WELL any anon, sorry for the fucking lecture - and believe me, I could've said MUCH, MUCH more - but I enjoyed this question. I always love talking about this show so please all you fuckers feel free to message me or send an ask about anything any time. I am really slow at replying because #life'sAbitch.
Love you all.
SY,SCB <3
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2014!Raph x Reader
Request: How about some fukin uhhhh 2014 raph with a reader he has a crush on? Male reader again w afab or not đđ how boys and reader met can be up to u but the reader gets along well w all of them,, enjoying video games and play fights with them a bit.
A/N: Sorry for the wait @fuck-mcgee !! But hereâs your request <3
Warnings: None really, just male pronouns
  You had known Raphael and his brother for a good year now.  It was thanks because of April O'Neil, your good friend from work, where you were interning.  [ It was because April hadn't been to work for a few days, so you went looking for her, and you may or may not have stumbled into the turtlesâ lair.]
  Yep, you worked with her on Channel 6.
  When you weren't at work, you were mostly in the lair with the four brothers. You found them sweet, in their own ways, but you found one of them you preferred over the others; Raph.
  This was one of the said times you were at the lair, and you were lounging around, making the best of your afternoon by not moving at all, and by also watching Leo and Mikey spare, because it was sort of entertaining.Â
  You were lazily watching, trying not to fall asleep because you haven't moved in a good minute when the couch lurched and an arm was draped across the back of the couch.
  "Hey handsome, didn't know ya were dropping by today." The figure next to you rumbled, making your insides lurch and you were mysteriously wide awake again.
  How you didn't hear Raph approach was a mystery, but now the giant was sitting right next to you.
  Like, right next to you, as in his side was digging into yours. Not like you minded, but your heart was racing.
  It was second nature, but you gently leaned into him and snorted, "Was planning on coming over tomorrow but Mikey texted me and said he wanted someone to watch him beat Leo at sparring so he'd have proof-"Â
  Raph cocks an eyebrow as you turn your head to him, "Mikey asked that ya come over? Damn, babe, if you needed an invitation I could have given ya one."
  Your heart swells at his words and, you grin and playfully punch his arm, "I'm going to hold you to that-" You hesitate for a second before grinning at him, "You want to ditch these two and go do something actually interesting?"
  Before Raph can respond, Mikey pauses, "Angelcheeks, don't leave with him," He pouts, "We can do something together, all of us."
  "Mmm? And what's that?" You ask as you try not to snicker at the furious look on his face as Mikey talked.
  "Video games, c'mon please?" He begged, getting up from his spot next to Leo, "Pleaseeeeeeeeeeee-"
  When you finally cave after another good minute of on and off whining from Mikey, he cheers and runs off, to 'go get Donnie so we can all play together'.
  Once everyone was on the couch and had a controller, you found yourself pressed against Raph, again, as his plastron dug into your arm. Good god, you were sure you would pass away right then and there.
 "Alright, we can start with Mario Cart- and maybe then after that we can play Smash Brothers?" Mikey chirps, and both you and Donnie nod, even though Leo and Raph look less... happy about the current arrangement.
  "Oh come on Raphie, don't you want to play video games with me?" You playfully pout, laying your head on his giant forearm muscle, as you look up with him.Â
  He grunts and gives you a questionable look before sighing, "Of course babe, just not with them." He says the last part a little louder, probably so Mikey could hear.
  You could hear Mikey snicker, "What? So you can have some quiet time with [Y/n], it's sort of obvious with how much time you spend with him that you l"Â
  Raph sends Mikey a death glare before sharply speaking, "Let's just play the damn game."
  Thankfully, no one said anything else as Mario Cart booted up, though you felt like you could choke on how little air was passing through your lungs. Was Mikey about to say that Raph likes you? It couldn't be... You got along with him, and you two were close, that was all...
  There was no way he could like you the way you liked him.Â
  For all you knew, Raph could be straight. There was no way he could like guys.
  "Hey, [Y/n]," Raph rumbles, "Ya alright?"
  He gets closer, ignoring the game for a second to move his face closer to yours, "You're all red, are you feeling sick?"
  You gulp, and shake your head, "No I'm fine... It's just a little stuffy in here."
  That answer seemed to be good with him cause he nods, and turns his attention back to the game, and you have to hold back a sigh.
  Though, after Mikey won game after game, you felt a little woozy, and leaned into Raph, "Raph, can we go to your room? It's... um, too hot in here."
  It was almost automatic that Raph dropped his controller, "Alright babe, let's go-" He rumbles, scooping you up, "I think [Y/n] has come down with something, I'm going to take him into the other room."
  There were protests from Mikey, but they dimmed down the closer you got to Raph's room, and as soon as you two were inside, Raph shuts his door and locks it.
"Ya should nap for a little, you're probably tired." Raph's voice gets quiet, as he sets you on his bed, "So, go nap."
  "Wow, Raphael saying please, wouldn't ever imagine that." You curl up into his blankets, closing your eyes, but a grin tugged at your lips. He didn't get a chance to backtalk as you squint an eye open, "Um, would, you like to cuddle me? Please?"
  Raph snorted, "Me? Cuddle ya? Babe, I'm not the most comfortable to lay on, ya better cuddling a pillow."
  "Please Raphie? For a little bit, and than you can do something else-" You plead, opening both eyes to give him the most pleading look you can give him.
  Raph groans, and slinks into the bed with him, "Fine, but never call me that again..." His voice lowers, "You're lucky I love ya."
  You freeze, every muscle in your body tenses up. "Raph... Could you repeat that? That las... last part?"
  He must not even have realized what he said as he looks to you in what looked like a pure and utter shock.Â
 "Shit bab- [Y/n], ya probably don't feel the same-" He mumbles, shifting away from you, hiding his gaze. His usual behavior shifted to one that seemed a lot more, embarrassed.Â
  "Raphael, look at me." You say softly, reaching out without thinking to cup his cheek, "Could you repeat the last part?"
  There was a pause, and a sigh, before Raph nods, "Erm, what I said was, 'you're lucky I love ya', but ya probably don't like me like that-"
  You have to let out a suprised laugh before you wrap your arm around his neck and you pull yourself into him, "Raph... I love you too, I was just really scared that... you didn't like me like that."
  He blinks, and his demeanor shifts back to his usual one, and his hands cup your sides, "Well, babe, guess I should of known with how flustered ya been getting recently."
  "Shut up-" You groan, "It's your fault I was that red."
 "Mmm, I think ya will have to shut me up, I like teasing ya." He moves you closer to his chest, to where you two are close together, and you can feel his breath on your lips.
  It takes you a minute to process what he said before you hesitantly lean into him, your lips brushing against his. You weren't going to go any closer because you were unsure on how far to take things so you wouldn't make Raph uncomfortable but he made it obvious that he was very, very comfortable as his hands travel to your shirt collar to yank you deeper into the kiss.
  When you two pull back, you can tell your face is red but, Raph doesn't seem to care, "Will ya be my boyfriend babe?"
  "Mmm, let me think about that-" You tease, pretending to think as you shift in his arms, "Of course Raphie-"
  There was a groan behind the door that's mixed up with a Mikey-sounding cheer, "I knew it! Pay up Leo!"
 Raph's the one to turn red now and, he lets out a growl and pulls you closer to him, "Goddamnit Mikey!"
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DadWorth AU: Part 4 (Trials & Tribulations)
Unlike the previous parts, this is mostly just shenanigans since Kay and Miles at this point are starting to work on bettering their relationship after their reunion in Farewell, My Turnabout. So itâs fun and kind of angsty times because Phoenix still falls off a bridge. Miles is present for most of the cases, excluding Stolen, but his appearances mostly take place in the background.
< Part 3 | Part 5 >
Turnabout Memories
Kayâs junior year at Themis starts and the students are given a chance to look into previous cases for a project that they have to do. Kay decides to do the one that inspired her to be an attorney. Or at least, for her to start following Miaâs career. Which if anyone remembers from part 1, was the State v. Wright 2014.
At the time of the case happening, Kay didnât recognize the defendantâs name. But now... Now she knows who it is. So she goes directly to Phoenix to get an explanation. In front of just about everybody.
Today is Embarrass Phoenix Wright Day.
If youâre wondering, Kay is absolutely stunned by the fact that Phoenix ate the necklace. She knew it happened, but itâs only now hitting her that the defendant who swallowed the bottle and the amazing attorney who so far has been the only one to beat Miles and her semi-mentor figure are the same person.
The Stolen Turnabout
With Miles out of the country, Kay (and maybe the boys klavier and sebastian too, Iâm not sure) is dragged down to Lordly Tailor by Maya, and thatâs where things go from there. Sheâs kind of surprised that it was the urn that got stolen, picking up pretty quickly that it wasnât worth that much in the first place. (Though this might be due to her involvement in 2-2, so she knows that it has been broken before.)
Kay stands with Phoenix on the matter of whether or not Ron actually stole the urn. According to her, the guy âcouldnât even pickpocket a blind manâ. Pearl kicks her in the shin before running out of the detention center. Maya and Kay have gotten pretty close to each other because of the events of Farewell, since they were kidnapped and thatâs some strong bonding there. So, Mayaâs hurt by both of them believing in Ronâs innocence, but with Kayâs involvement, she quickly starts to think that they might be right sooner rather than later. Still, since it hurts, Kay takes Mayaâs place temporarily on the first day of investigating.
Things that happen here are Kay starting to steal stuff herself. For example, she swipes the blackmail letter on the first visit to the DeLiteâs apartment. (âkay, weâre defense attorneys. we donât steal.â âbut you take evidence all the time. how is that not the same thing?â â...moving on--â.)Â
Kay canât stand Atmey, especially when he starts rambling on the way he does. She both states that Gumshoeâs a better detective than he is (some of that being bias, but still) and calls him out when he claims that Miles has called Godot the best prosecutor in the country. Miles doesnât even know who he is. Phoenix finds her interactions with him slightly hilarious (itâs a sixteen year old girl tearing an eccentric a-hole a new one, after all.)
Kayâs able to stand co-counsel for the entirety of this trial due to it taking place completely on a weekend. Which means she also gets to meet Godot. Heâs... To her, heâs flat out weird. Heâs Cyclops with a caffeine addiction. And heâs not able to avoid her snark either.
She gets really happy when they get the Not Guilty verdict on the first day, and her relationship with the Feys gets patched up, too. And then all that goes down the drain when Ron is arrested for murder. More investigation is needed.
When itâs revealed that Ron is actually Mask â DeMasque, Kay feels kind of bad over the remark she made the day before since most of those thefts were kind of impressive to her after she read about them. Thatâs about as much as what happens during the investigation. She really gets into the whole phantom thief stuff, much to Phoenixâs dismay.
When it comes time for the trial, Kay feels so much satisfaction in catching Atmey. She hates him so much. She doesnât, however, like the fact that Godot keeps throwing coffee at the defense team.
I should note that Kay thinks that Godotâs voice sounds familiar, but she canât place why at this time. Itâs been YEARS since the events of Beginnings, and they didnât even interact. Kay just watched the trial and heard him speak. So, that whole mystery is still under wraps for now.
Recipe for the Turnabout
Kay, Klavier and Sebastian are at Wright & Co. when Gumshoe bursts through the door, scaring the crap out of the three of them and Maya in the process. She, much like Phoenix, is confused as heck as to what heâs talking about when he tells them about the phony trial. She can also vouch for what happened and the fake Phoenix. (I have plans for what happened there, i just need to watch/play the game there myself...) So everyone is confused, and this warrants some footwork.
Phoenix Wright ends up being followed by a group of teenagers during his investigation. This has been going on for a while. Heâs accepted it. Itâs part of his life now.
When it comes to Tres Bien, Mayaâs not the only one who gets roped into working there. Through misunderstandings, Kay gets pulled in as well. The guys kind of just run off, leaving the girls in their unfortunate situation for now.
Phoenix is stuck with the boys for the time being, which leads to some pretty fun and interesting interactions, including their reactions to meeting Tigre for the first time. Sebastianâs just confused because Tigre is taller, older and the only thing about Phoenix that he shares is their hair style. Klavier verbally voices this, just going off on how the hell anyone could mistake the two. (and loses his shit at the cardboard badge. from a distance, yeah, but seriously?!)
When they eventually come back to the restaurant, being the stupid teenage boys that they are, Klavier and Sebastian find the situation Kay is in hilarious. Klavier takes a picture of Kay in the Tres Bien outfit because âeveryone needs to see thisâ. (Everyone mostly being Ema, whose in Europe.) Kay tackles him to try and get him to delete the photo, but he doesnât. It becomes Kayâs contact picture in his phone.
whether or not kay continues to work here after the case is still up in the air. her and milesâ financial situation is pretty good, but kayâs also the independent type, so i feel like sheâd want to save her own money for things instead of having to ask for it.
Itâs lucky that at this point the girls are saved from their forced jobs, and Phoenix brings them down to the park, where things go as they do in canon with Maya channeling Mia to get information out of Kudo. Phoenix just kind of pushes Kay behind him while Mia does her thing, because if Miles ever found out he let Kay do something like that, he would never forgive him. It does lead, however, to this interaction here:
âand what have we learned today?â
âtake what you got and exploit the men who think with their di--â
âokay! letâs get back to the investigation, shall we?!â
â...klavier, why are you looking down at your chest?â
âhuh? just thinking.â
listen, klavier doesnât button up his shirt all the way for a reason, and this is why.
Kay gets a bit ticked off that the prosecutor is Godot again (something that the guys predict because she complained about her hair smelling like coffee for days after being in the splash zone of the last trial). Fortunately, she doesnât have to be here since the trial primarily covers school days. However, the Themis Trio does help out with the investigation when theyâre free, taking a look at Blue Screens while Phoenix and Maya handle Tres Bien. They regroup when its time to head to Tender Lender.
Things go pretty much the same from there until the end with the confrontation with Tigre at Tres Bien. Thereâs another change here since Tigre and Armstrong are outnumbered. Phoenix still gets punched, but its not Tigre who grabs the medical papers. Itâs Sebastian in a moment of panic. This basically leads to them playing keep-away with the papers as they try to get out with them and get away from Tigre. It doesnât work out, though, because eventually as the papers are returned to Phoenix and the gang goes to flee, Tigre grabs and pulls an off-guard Kay back. Itâs an exchange -- the papers for the girl. (think that one situation in ablaze but without the threat of getting shot.)
But thatâs not what happens because like in canon, Gumshoe comes to the rescue. And he is more pissed off than before because thatâs his pseudo-niece. Phoenix and the kids run out of there as soon as they can. Later that night, Miles asks about the bruises on Kayâs arm from where Tigre had grabbed her. Sheâs not sure what to say.
Miles gets involved in the background of this case due to Kayâs injury, helping out Gumshoe when it comes to getting the bottle analyzed (and getting assault added to the list of crimes Tigre is charged with.) Both him and Kay are pleased when Tigre gets arrested.
Turnabout Beginnings
We already covered this case in Part 1. Kay was in the audience watching. Primarily, this is mostly skipped aside from Kay mentioning it to Phoenix very earlier on. Iâm talking like... last part early during Reunion. Thinking about that while in the hospital sparks his interest in taking a look at it via Miaâs case files.
Bridge to the Turnabout
With Miles out of the country, Kay is free to kind of do whatever. Because sheâs friends with Maya, Pearl drags her up to Hazakura, partially against Kayâs will because its cold and she hates the cold.
She faintly recognizes Iris because as said before, she sat in on Beginnings. She knows what Dahlia looks like. However, because it was so long ago for her, she doesnât quite remember why. She does play into Larryâs whole artist thing, but refuses to call him Laurice. (âokay... good for you, larry.â âlaurice!â âiâm not calling you that.â)
As for Elise, the most that Kay knows about her is that sheâs an author. Though, unlike Maya, she does take note of how similar she looks to the painting of Misty, as well as Maya and Mia. (maya mustâve noticed some similarities herself, but why she didnât say anything is a mystery to me.)
Kayâs starting to think that this trip might not be so bad... until everything goes to shit when sheâs woken up by a scream. As a result, both she and Phoenix head out to the courtyard and discover Eliseâs body. Unlike Phoenix, however, Kay has her phone on her. Sheâs not able to tell him this, though, because Phoenix is already running to the bridge. She gives chase, trying to catch up.
Things go on as normal. The bridge is on fire, they meet up with Larry. And Phoenix runs across the bridge. He falls. Kay screams.
Kay and Larry both find and pull Phoenix out of the river. Larry calls the police while Kay is trying to calm herself down and keep Phoenix from possibly dying. The only person she can think of to call is Miles. So yes, in this version of the story, Kay handles the phone call to Edgeworth, so things are a bit more well explained on that end. Not entirely, because Kayâs freaking the fuck out, but a bit better.
The police arrive, Iris is arrested and Phoenix is taken to the hospital with Kay riding in the ambulance as well (after some heavy persuasion.) Sheâs at the hospital all night, and is there when Miles arrives. Heâs relieved that sheâs alright, especially after the phone call he received from her last night. Itâs pure luck that Phoenix survived the fall with minimal injury and a cold. Kay calls him stupid in at least seven different ways when theyâre finally let into his room.
Kay is still freaked out over everything that happened the night before, so she sticks by her dadâs side. Sheâs there to straighten out Larry at the detention center and explain the magatama in a bit more detail than a fever-hazy Phoenix since sheâs seen him use it multiple times before. Alon
Basically, Kay is the Maya to Milesâs Phoenix here. Miles doesnât want her to be on the case with him, but she does so anyway. She claims itâs because sheâs the defense attorney in training and she knows more about it than he does since she was there, too. During the investigation, Kay finds out about Pearl and Maya being on the other side of the bridge and gets worried as heck for their safety.
Sheâs also the one who handles getting Franziska to prosecute. Kay lies and says that Phoenix had a pretty big case on his hands that still needed a prosecutor, and Franziska took the bait. Needless to say, Franâs a bit ticked off when she discovers the truth.
But the best part about this is father-daughter standing at the bench together. It is a lot of fun banter between them and Franziska, too. And Kay gets another Larry-Induced headache when he testifies on the stand. Though, due to what happened with Goodbyes, she trusts him to some extent and his trying to figure out what the heck actually happened.
When the trial gets out and Phoenix is back in the saddle, Kay calls him stupid again for investigating while sick. She works in tandem with both him and Miles for this part of the case. Yeah, sheâs part of the investigation team.
Sheâs relieved when they finally find Pearl on the other side of the bridge (Kay gets a small hug from Pearls, have that visual.) She, like everyone else, is confused about why Godot is there. Unlike the others, however, Kay is incredibly close to fighting a man about twice her age when he starts going after Phoenix for his involvement in Miaâs death.
When the earthquake hits, the first thing Kayâs mind goes to is her dad. She races to find Miles first before anything else. Sheâs lived with him since she was ten years old. She knows about his fear of earthquakes.
After discovering the locks on the door, Kay does follow Miles out to the garden. He does get a hug from her, since sheâs not sure what else to do at the time. Compared to last year, it shows that theyâre doing a lot better. Sheâs also there when Phoenix comes by and manages to figure out the Hawthorne connection pretty quickly. She leaks the information to Phoenix, despite Milesâs protests. (âiâm not a prosecutor, so i donât have to keep my mouth shut.â)
When it comes to the trial the next day, Kayâs in the gallery with everyone else since Phoenix claims that he has to do this alone (another thing that Kay calls him stupid for.) Sheâs on the edge of her seat the entire time -- watching as Phoenix unmasks and stands before the spirit of the woman who tried to kill him. And after exercising her from Mayaâs body, Kay claims that sheâs no longer phased by anything weird that happens in court.
Though, she is surprised when Phoenix accuses Godot of the crime. She doesnât like the guy as much as the next person -- heâs a huge jerk -- but what? As the mystery begins to unravel, she starts to see how he got there, sheâs kind of awestruck. She never expected Phoenix to come into his own like this. In the end, though, Godot confesses and things go pretty much the same way as they do in canon.
After all is said and done, Kay promises that sheâll become a defense attorney as great as both Mia Fey and the amazing Phoenix Wright. Phoenix will deny that this ever happened, but he did start to tear up a little upon hearing that. He becomes her mentor after the events of this case. Itâll become an important factor in Kayâs decisions later on that year... right around April.
And thatâs it for the trilogy! There are some more parts that I want to add on, such as the ripples all this has created in the later games -- the investigation games especially.
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"Do you mean spill my theory?" yes!!!
Iâm not going to be light hearted with this one at all because Iâve held in years of resentment solely towards this one human being. Many times in the past I thought that he was a good person, but the more I dived into him the more I realized he wasnât. This is where I began to actually theorize that he has an ulteriorïżŒ motive. Not to mention this: https://t.co/1qqwI8iwa1?amp=1
But letâs go back to my post on Jaqcui.
Roger displays âCWSâ behavior.
Also known as, âcelebrity worship syndrome.â Him working for years in the music industry and even being a CEO of WMG easily gave him access and power to anyone with talent. On his tumblr he was spotted non-stop supporting a 14-15 year old girl (Jaqcui) almost to an asphyxiative point WHILE this girl was on, âThe Voiceâ in 2013. His label 300 was founded in 2012. He saw her, wanted her, and what did he do? He did what he wanted. He got her signed into HIS label in 2014. Under guess what? False Promises.
This girl left his label in 2015/2016.
Guess what happened after that? He knew Epicâs plans. Which means he was watching her like a hawk, as many other people were, because she was going to be a solo act, and then? He came into Camilaâs life. He acts like sheâs his world like an obsessive fan girl, (again âCWSâ behavior.) Supporting her more than her actual fans. Which leads me to my next point.
He is invertly manipulative.
âWith great power comes great responsibility.â
He is a simple and basic manger. He always will be. Camila can get rid of him at any given moment that she wants and he knows that. The thing is she hasnât. This man knows her life like the palm of his hand and that gives him a scary amount of power against her. Unlike Jaqcui, he played his cards right with this one. Gaining her trust. Being around her family like a chameleon. Choosing her fans.
Her âfavoriteâ fans chosen for a reason.
He manages her social media and he choose her fans and her street team. ïżŒHer stans on Twitter do nothing but drag her nameïżŒ into the dirt at every chance they get. They criticize her every move and in fact they do everything else besides support her. Wasnât it weird that âCamilaâsâ Twitter would only ever interact with problematic people? âSheâ never interacted with people that actually gave a shit about her. It was always people that are so desperate for self-validation that got her time of day. This to me was the first of many personal attacks because Camila wanted to fire him.
His job is to protect her image and support her career in the best way possible, but he didnât protect nor support Jaqcui. Like he most certainly is not supporting or protecting Camilaâs image right now. Thatâs the thing about manipulative people. When you donât give them what they want they get really defensive. Enough to stab you behind your back without you knowing it.
Showmila and Andrew.
Back to the âCSW,â from the very beginning he saw the opportunity of money that he could make with Camila. ïżŒHe wanted her. Then he became her manager and introduced her to Shawn Mendes. Was it because of him or was it EPIC? Idk, but maybe it was both. They made a song. They made another song. And they made even more money, but against his clients image. Against a lot of things. What a weird way of saying, â Fuck you, get over it, go beard with him, and get us money.â
After Showmila, I was convinced he has something else heâs hiding. He is probably blackmailing her. Heâs never once defended her image in any of the scandals sheâs had. ïżŒThey leave her out in the open to continuously be hated on for no reason. ïżŒThey did a messy ass PR transition with Matthew and Shawn. They only interacted with toxic fans. Heâs involved with everything bad, and thatâs my theory. If you guys read my Jacqui post youâll know Roger and his label fucked her over. Which gives my theory credibility knowing that Roger was this girlâs manager.
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A lot like âUsâ (Part-34)
Word count: 3.4K
Pairing: Sam X Reader AU
Warnings: Feels, fluff
Series Summary: Y/N Y/L/N is eager and honestly, still in awe that she managed to get herself an acceptance from Stanford Law School. On the face of it, her life seems as put together, mysterious and independent as one might hope for. On the insides, she carries the burden of past that haunts her till date. Seemingly, sheâd left it all behind; that is until she sets foot in the class of the Law Schoolâs youngest, most promising professor.
A/N:Â The story employs two different timelines. The present timeline for the story takes place in 2014. Please let me know what you guys think :)
Beta: @deanssweetheart23ââ. I love you so much, darling <3
A lot like âUsâ masterlist
The rest of the week was hard.
There were things you wanted to do and then things that you had to do. Unfortunately for you, the Venn diagram of those two things were two circles that did not touch.
Normally, you loved your job, you loved studying and your classes. But sitting through Samâs class was becoming a new, different type of torture. The pretension was wearing you down. You could see it grating him, too. You rarely spoke up in his class now, trying not to draw attention, neither did he call upon you like he did with other students.Â
The library was still your second home, though, thanks to the untimely desertion of the other odd shifts librarian, you were left to run double shifts. Molly was sorry about it, but she didnât have a solution for you, not until she had a new hire. That meant you were stuck in the library all the time. The guys in the apartment were starting to miss you. Kevin came over one evening to inform you everything sucked when you werenât around. His face had made you hug him.
As for you? Without the free evenings, you couldnât go over to see Max. You missed him terribly and it would do no good to whine about that to Sam, since you were still unsure about how he would take your excessive attachment to his son.Â
Not that you didn't have the chance to talk to Sam. After Sam put Max to bed, each night heâd call. You would sit in the alcove of the library widow and talk to him for hours- about the day, the classes and everything under the sun. Sam told you about the cases he was working on, the judges he really disliked and the girl Chase was chasing. Sam thought he was named aptly. He was also your faithful informant about Max. Apparently the playground bullies were back at it with the mean words. You blurted out loud how you wanted to punch the kids and Sam piled on top of that. Cheerful conversations about shaking kids followed.
It felt so juvenile to talk with him over the phone, like when he worked in New York and you were stuck in Lawrence, but not quite. Now, it was exciting to imagine him blushing on the other end when you accidentally said something complementary. Or if a student decided to stay in the library late night, you had to giggle in hushed voices so they wouldnât overhear your conversations. The thrill of it was exciting. Those few hours had become the highlight of your day.
So, when Madison asked you what you were smiling about in the last lecture on Friday, you had to make up a reason. You couldnât very well tell her that the bruise Sam was sporting on his cheek was because Max outran him on the basketball court and Sam slipped and fell.
âJust thinking of something funny.â
âWouldnât have to do with the green eyed hottie from Monday, would it?â Madison wiggled her eyebrows.
âWho, Dean?â You burst out laughing. âMaddie! Heâs married to my sister.â
She laughed with you, face apologetic. âDang! Heâs really hot. Is it bad that Iâm sorry he is married?â
âDefinitely not,â you giggled. The good old Winchester genes had caused many casualties.
On the dais below, Sam collected his things.
âOoohh, Professor Winchester is heading out. I better catch him before he leaves. You wanna come? Talk about the assignment?â
âNo, you go on.â Sam had given you a run down of the assignment last night. You wanted to pout that he was right. You could have done better.
âStill awkward about the whole drowning thing, huh?â
You looked away, not wanting to remember the pool.
Madison wasnât paying attention. âYou were⊠I donât know, delirious. You kept calling him by his name andâŠâ Madison looked at you warily. She did not complete the sentence.
âY/N saw the opportunity and took it,â said Rebecca from the next row. âI would sell my soul to be lifted like that.â
You slung your bag around your shoulders and made a move to get up. For all you cared, Rebecca could get hit by a truck. Not only were you furious at her for planning that prank with Brad, it made you feel murderous when she objectified Sam like that, reducing him to some greasy creep of a professor. It was insulting.
âWait up now, sweetie!â She came up from behind. âDonât act so prissy now. We all know youâre not as innocent as you make yourself out to be.â
âExcuse me?â
âYou think Iâm blind? To not see how youâre playing with all these men to get what you want? First, you have Brad panting after you, so you get the attention? Then youâre dancing with some random blue eyed man at the induction dance. The very next day youâre swaying in the arms of Chase Lincoln of all people. The moment you touch the pool water, somehow Sam Winchester is miraculously saving you⊠and two days later youâre crying like a damsel in distress in the arms of yet another man!â She was counting off her fingers. âAnd people call me slutty! Iâm going to find out what your secret is, Y/N. Because I know you have one! And when I do...â
âYou know what, Rebecca?â You said as calmly as you could. âWhy donât you go screw yourself.â
With that you headed straight for the library. When Madison caught up with you, her face was red. âCanât believe I was ever friends with that hag! Gave her piece of my mind.â
âMadison, you should catch professor Winchester before he leaves. Iâll be okay.â
She assessed your words against your expression, then nodded and left.
You wanted to be by yourself.Â
Thankfully, cataloging was time-consuming and tedious. It took your mind off of Rebeccaâs awful words. For the life of you, you couldnât understand why she was so mean to you.Â
âExcuse me, miss, can I borrow this book?â Enquired a sweet voice.Â
You dropped the marker in your hand and looked up. Max was standing beyond the desk, a huge grin on his face. You gave a little yelp of your own and hurried from behind the counter to throw your arms around him, kissing him on his cheek.Â
âGosh, Iâve been dying to meet you,â you said, pulling back to look at him.Â
He was wearing a plaid shirt over a small faded t-shirt and jeans. Such a mini-Sam. You couldnât resist the urge to lean over and kiss his other cheek.
Max started blushing, looking down at his shoes.
âWhatâre you doing here?â You asked, leading him to one of the benches.
âAlex broke her arm last night. She couldnât come over today. Dadâs got work. He asked me to hang out here.â
âOh, no, is Alex okay?â
Max snickered. âYeah. She was trying to sneak out for a party and fell out of the window.â
You pursed your lips trying not to laugh with him. âPoor girl.â
âAunt Jodyâs super-mad!â He added and you couldnât help the giggle that burst through your lips.
âMax, is that you?â Molly asked, sticking her head from behind the shelves. âDarn kid! Itâs been ages. Where did you run off to?â
âMechanics camp!â He told her. âI know where an engine goes now. And how to hot-wire a car.â
âThey taught you that at the camp?â You asked, skeptic.
âNo, uncle Dean did.â
This time you laughed in earnest.
âYou know Max?â Molly frowned.
You nodded. âRemember my little friend I told you about?â
âThe one you were holding a bake sale for?â
âYep, heâs the one.â
Molly put her hand to her lips. âWell, no shit! Do you know who his father is?â
You and Max immediately looked at each other, confirming your secret with a tiniest of nods.Â
âHeâs Samâs boy, this cute little nugget here.â Molly pulled his cheek. To Maxâs credit, he didnât rub his cheek afterwards.
Which reminded you. âYou wait right here, Max. Iâll be back in a minute.â You quickly found the stash of cookies you were saving for tonight's dinner and hurried back to him. Eating at the library wasnât allowed, but Max was an exception to every rule. âCookies for you. I know these are your favourite.â
Maxâs entire face lit up. True to his nature, he offered you one before digging in. You watched as he took a few bites, sneaking looks to the book he was holding- Adventures of Sinbad.Â
âI read one of those when I was kid. It had a monster bird that carried Sinbad away to its nest.â
âOh, the Roc! That oneâs my favorite!â Max clapped his hand and the cookies clattered to the floor.
âIâm so sorry,â he said, trying to pick up the bag.
You stopped him with a gentle nudge. âLet me.â After cleaning the cookie crumbs from the carpet, you unwound the scarf from around your neck and used it to clean the crumbs stuck to Maxâs mouth and shirt, fussing over getting it all away.
When you made him stand up to clean the hem of his pants, you noticed Sam standing behind you, arms crossed over his chest. He had a peculiar expression on his face- tender but also guarded.
âYouâre not supposed to eat the library, young man!â Sam tried for stern, but ended up sounding amused.
You straightened up. âI make the rules here. Max can do whatever he wants.â
Max gave Sam a smug look, before running to him. In a motion that must have been more of less a reflex, Sam reached out and hefted Max up in his arms.Â
âLook, what I found!â Max showed him the book.
Sam made a face. âSinbad again? That sixth voyage was lame.â
âI wanna find out how it ends. Thereâs only one adventure left!â
âAlright, but this is the last of Arabian tales for the year. I get second hand sea-sickness just reading about it. Iâm starting to miss Charlie and the chocolate factory.â
âYou hated Charlie and the chocolate factory!â
Sam smirked. âYouâre this close to getting my point.â
Max turned the book over. âWeâre out of authors,â he told you.
The words shook you out of your quiet and you smoothened your expression. The scene before you was making your throat close up. You had never seen them together before. Maxâs entire body language changed- his shoulders relaxed and he became less polite⊠just a bit more demanding, the way a child should be. Sam on the other hand radiated contentment. His voice changed, becoming softer, loving when he spoke to Max. You were sure you had been staring at them hungrily as if you couldnât get enough of the interaction.
âAny suggestions?â Sam asked, tone still mild.
âT-Tolkein,â you stuttered. âYou should try The Hobbit.â
Sam rolled his eyes. âElven songs. Wonderful.â
Molly came over to greet Sam and you excused yourself to go back to the desk and take a stock of the emotions coursing through you. At any point it could get too much and you didn't want either of them to see that. Â
On their way out, Max waved at you. âBye, Y/N!â
âBye, Max.â You blew him a kiss. âYou turned my day around, bud!â
There were too many people in the vicinity, so when it came to Sam, you nodded. âProfessor.â
He mirrored your gesture. âMs. Y/L/N.â And with a look full of promise of later, he walked away. You waved at Max till he was out of sight.
âSuch a lovely boy,â Molly sighed. âHorrendous business what happened to him.â
âYeah.â You cut the topic short, still unable to think of Maxâs past without feeling faint. Thinking about it was so hard for you, Max had lived through it.Â
Molly was in no mood to change the subject.
âSamâs an amazing guy to give up the lawyer life and settle down here for that kid.â
You narrowed your eyes. âWhat do you mean?â
Molly threw out her hands, slightly embarrassed. âItâs Samâs personal choice and all that, but he had a solid career in LA. After that Simmons affair blew up in the media, he couldâve stuck around and bagged A-list celebrities as clients. He moved out to this place for Maxâs sake- so there was some normalcy and stability in his life. Then, again, Samâs had his share of downs.â
Your back felt like ice, knowing what was coming.
âIâm not supposed to talk about it but itâs just you.â Molly leaned in closer. âDid you know his wife left him?â
She must have interpreted whatever your face showed as shock, because Molly continued. âDonât know much about the whole thing. I heard bits and parts from the grape wine. Some girl he met in Kansas straight out of Yale. Took a plunge in a couple of months and this girl bolted not even a year into the marriage. Can you believe that? I mean, look at him⊠What the fuck was she looking for that he didnât have!â
You could taste the blood by biting into your lip too hard.
âNever heard of him dating anyone since. I think heâs still in love with her.â Molly whistled. âAt least they have each other- Max and Sam. That kid spends a lot of time here. Youâll keep finding reasons to feed your little friend cookies.â Molly flashed you a grin. You couldnât quite return it.
It was past twelve when your phone rang. Youâd just locked the library behind you and had given up on all hopes of the call.
You hurried to pick it up.
âHey,â Sam breathed. âSorry it took me so long.â
âItâs alright,â you sighed in relief at the sound of his voice. The sinking feeling in your stomach since the talk with Molly began to dissipate.Â
âItâs your fault really,â Sam said. âMax liked The Hobbit too much and went to bed real late. How am I supposed to wake him in time for his class tomorrow?â
His concerns were so normal, comfortingly mundane. Sam made it sound so easy, when in fact, all this must have been so hard. One time you heard someone say a mean thing about Samâs wife and it had you rankled. Sam mustâve lived through years of whispers, stories and ugly rumours. He mustâve had to defend his choice of staying committed so many times. Hadnât the words shred his heart?
âY/N? Everything okay?â
You cleared your throat. âUh itâs just⊠itâs good to hear your voice.â
He was immediately on alert. âWhat happened?â
âNothing. Weird day.â
âWhere are you?â
You looked about your dark surroundings. âCrossing the playground, almost to my building.â
âDo you want to come over?â He asked, voice hopeful but unsure. âWe can sit in the front lawn if you want.â
You made an impulse decision. âYeah okay.â
Ten minutes later you were sitting on one of Maxâs swings. Your tan sweater wasnât helping much as you shivered in the chill, waiting for Sam to show up. Weird how you made it before him. He lived right there!
Noiselessly the front door opened and closed. Sam walked briskly towards you. He was dressed in dark grey sweatpants and a black full sleeve t-shirt. In his hand he carried an afghan, a thermos and two mugs.
âHere,â he handed you the afghan. It was the same one that was wrapped around you on the night of the pool party. The memory brought blood to your face.
âWe donât have adult juice around here today, but we do have hot chocolate.â Grinning impishly, he tilted the thermos in your direction. He sat on the ground in front of you, carefully filling up the two mugs with the rich, brown liquid while you wrapped yourself in the Afghan.Â
Eagerly, you took a sip and moaned indecently.
âGood, isnât it?â Sam chuckled.Â
This was very close to what heaven would feel like.Â
âSo, whatâs the deal, huh?â He asked after a few sips.Â
You hesitated, not wanting to admit what the real problem was. It would be the case of a teapot crying to a boiler.
âYou know you can tell me things, right?â His voice was soft, beguiling.Â
âItâs something Molly said after you left.â You gave in, selfishly spilling it all.Â
Sam listened to the whole story, then shook his head at you in exasperation and beckoned you with his hand. You blinked a couple of times, then gave up and went in willingly.Â
What the hell, right?
 Sam tucked his arms around your shoulder once you slid on the ground next to him.
âYou and I, we know what the truth is,â he said. âHow does it matter what anyone else says?â
âIs that what you told yourself all these years?â You asked in a small voice, unable to meet his eyes.
Sam sighed. âWhy are you doing this to yourself, Y/N?â
âYou didnât answer me.â
His fingers curled around your shoulder over the afghan. âNo, I didnât have to tell myself anything. I knew I loved you. That was enough.â
âI donât know if I can be as strong as you.â
âThatâs because youâre so much stronger,â he said. âNone of those people have lived your life, they donât know what youâve been through. I can bet my ass, they wouldnât have made it out of half of it in one piece. Itâs easy to judge.â
âThatâs not my problem,â you argued. âI donât care what they think about me. But I canât stand how it makes you look!â
Sam surprised you by chuckling lightly. âYouâre cute when youâre indignant. Especially on my behalf.â
âQuit making this into a joke, Sam.â
âI seriously donât know what else to do.â He put a finger under your chin, tilting your face up. âLook at me. Iâm the happiest I've been in years! Do you really think I give a rats ass about what anyoneâs got to say about me? My personal life has never been anyoneâs concern except mine and yours. The only other person who has any say in this is Max. And that kid doesnât shut up about you.â
Samâs eyes were scorching, melting against the night sky.
âMollyâs wonderful, and I know she has a soft spot for me. But by the end of the day, it's just gossip. Thereâs no substance to it. So will you please drop it?â
At long last you nodded.Â
âThatâs like my Y/N.â
A rustle from the other side of Samâs fence made you stiffen. The bushes behind the planks began to shake.
âWhatâs that?â
Sam shrugged. âProbably Alex sneaking out.â
You frowned at him. âDidnât she break her arm doing exactly that?â
He snorted. âWhen has that stopped teenagers? It does make life a bit difficult. Jodyâs grounded her. She canât babysit Max for a while and I got work tomorrow.â
You saw Alex creeping on the sidewalk in front of the lawn. She saw the two of you huddled and froze like a deer caught in the headlight. Sam winked and waved a salute at her. After a minute she unfroze, returned the gesture and went off on her way.Â
âWhy donât you drop him off at the library in the morning? Iâll keep an eye on him. Iâm covering the first shift.â You worked to not sound too excited.
âYeah, that still doesnât fix the afternoon. I wonât be back before four.â
âEasy. Iâll wait with him here.â
Sam looked at you, hazel eyes wondrous. âYouâd do that?â
âSure. I owe him a pie anyway.â
âYouâre a lifesaver!â He exhaled. âSeriously, I could kiss you right now!â
All you had to do was look up. Sam was right there.
Another crash sounded over the fence, louder than the first, followed by a muted âow.â Â You saw lights flare up in what must be the living room. From somewhere inside you heard Jody curse. âJesus fucking Christ! Claire, whatâre you doing on the ground.â
âWhy do you always have to catch me!â Claire whined in the darkness. âAlex just left!â
âWhat. The. Fuck!â Jody yelled. âGet in the fucking car! Weâre going to find your sister.â
That did it for you as you buried your face in Samâs chest, smothering the giggles. His arms wrapped tightly around you. Sam himself was shaking with silent laughter over you.
Yeah, this was pretty close to heaven.
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âEntangledâ (c.h) (h.s)
Pairing: Calum Hood X Reader / Harry Styles X Reader
Requested: Yes!
Summary: You never wanted to be caught up in a love triangle, you never asked to be entangled in this situation. Now you have a choice to make. You know it has to be one of them at the end but, who would it be? And why is it so hard?
Warnings: Love Triangle! Pinning, unrequited love, language, angsty with a little fluff, mentions of alcohol and some grammatical error (English is not my first language, Iâm sorry)
Word Count: 7.2 k
Authorâs Note: Requested by my darling @rime-warrior a few weeks ago, I decided to turn her wonderful promt into a series. This part serves as the intro of the series! It starts with the reader in the âpresentâ (just go with it) and then it will follow their journey with the boys since 2014. Reblogs, comments and feedback are always welcome đ You can read my other works for Harry and 5SOS HERE. Hope you like it and happy reading đŠâš
@rime-warrior : Hi! Iâm back lol I loved the heather imagine and I was wondering if you could do a calum/reader/Harry imagine where theyâre on tour and trying to get the readers attention by being goofballs
Part 1: The beginning.
Never in a million years did you think you would end up making a decision like this. Hell, never in a million years did you think you would be here in the first place! If somebody wouldâve come to you a year ago to tell you that you wouldâve been in one of the biggest reunion tours of one of the biggest boy bands that's ever existed and one of the greatest pop/alt bands of the new generation youâd call them crazy and probably pepper spray them as you run away. But here you are and, surprisingly, itâs the last place you want to be at.
You are currently sitting at the stairs outside the venue, itâs the last concert on the âHere We Go Againâ One Direction/5 Seconds of Summer Reunion Tour. Tapping your feet relentlessly against the cold metal and regretting not bringing a jacket with you as you can hear the fans going crazy inside the stadium, and who could blame them? They waited so long to see their favorite people again, not only that but together! After almost six years apart. You wouldâve been just like them if it werenât for the stomach ache your nerves are giving to you at this exact moment.
You knew what you had to do. It was the right thing after all, but that didnât mean it didnât hurt like crazy. Somehow you were going to lose someone tonight and you werenât ready for that, youâll never be ready for that.
How the hell did this all start in the first place? How did you become so entangled in this mess without realizing? And how would you get out of it?
So many thoughts are running through your head, yet none of them seem to stick around for more than ten seconds before rushing onto another. Head spinning at a thousand miles per hour as you clenched your fists at the side of your body, knuckles turning white as they grasped the cold and dirty metal of the staircase.
You could run⊠you were kinda fast and they are all inside so they wouldnât be able to catch you. Maybe you could move to Peru, you always wanted to visit Machu Picchu and its alpacas, plus the ponchos look really good on you. The problem was that 1. You didnât know Spanish. 2. You had exactly 9.57 dollars left on one of your pockets because you left your wallet inside and 3. You werenât a coward.
Well, you were. That's why you let it come this far. But you were not going to do that anymore. You need to make a decision and it has to be tonight. But why was it so hard though?
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A few years ago
âY/N! Câmon!â You heard your best friend say âWe are going to be late again!â
Lottie was impatiently pacing around the hotel room once again, she had her bags around her shoulders as she considered leaving you behind.
âYou know I have to start early today! Thereâs gonna be four more people to style and I donât want to do it all rushed.â She whined, sitting on one of the beds.
You came out of the bathroom soon after, cheeks a little bit flushed because it wasnât like you to slow things down, especially when it came to work. But you wanted to look cute today, well, more cute than usual.
The tour was about to start and you were lucky enough that management let you come with Lottie to work on the stylish team with her. Her older brother, Louis, was a close friend of yours as well, so when he proposed the idea a few months back, you just couldnât resist.
âSorry, loveâ you replied sheepishly âI lost track of timeâ
Lottie lifted her gaze towards you and rolled her eyes playfully âOh, shush. You and I both know that you are bluffing. I know exactly what youâre doing wearing that outfit and honestly? Canât blame yaâ
She was right, sheâs always right when it comes to these kinds of stuff.
Itâs not like youâve never met the guys! I mean, you know Louis and Zyan because of Lottie, youâve never seen the other members of the band in person, yet. But itâs not like you donât know them either, they are everywhere! It was impossible to escape from the impact One Direction had. And now you were going to work with them as a stylist, it seemed like a dream.
Not only that, but you were also in charge of styling the opening number: An Australian band called 5 Seconds of Summer that Louis likes. You donât know much about them other than this is the second time theyâll open for One Direction and theyâll be around for the European and American leg of the tour. You googled them to have a reference of what theyâd look like so youâll know how to work around them and, honestly, where do they get those guys? They donât even look like eighteen year olds! And they are also talented and successful at such a young age? You promised yourself that you were going to listen to some of their songs, but still havenât gotten around to do it just yet, but tonight will definitely change that.
You were nervous. You could feel your hands get clammy just thinking about the pressure thatâs on you to make those guys look like absolute gods on stage (though that wouldnât be a challenge, knowing the nine of them are incredibly handsome already) But that thought didnât ease you a bit. You wanted to be good. No, scratch that. You know you are good. You want to impress them, hence the cool outfit.
âThink you know it all?â You said, already grabbing a pillow and throwing it to Lottieâs face.
âI know it all, darlingâ She laughed, throwing it back at you âNow, move your ass. We need to ge to the stadium as soon as possibleâ
You could hear the fans from a mile away before you walked through the backstage doors. The adrenaline was contagious, everyone was moving around like crazy but you could feel the excitement in the air. You already knew this was where you were meant to be, havenât even started but you love it already. This was meant to be.
Lottie was walking fast, easily leaving you behind as you stared in awe at your surroundings, not paying any attention towards where you were going until you felt something hard crashing into you, making you lose your balance and you fell to the floor with a massive weight crushing your lungs.
All you could feel was the painful sting that shocked your body as your ass touched the ground with a big âthudâ Luckily, the person that knocked you down was quick enough to put a hand behind your head so you donât hit it too harshly as it came in contact with the cement floors. You tried to curse but the weight in your chest made it almost impossible to talk, making you only gasp in surprise.
The person lying on top of you groaned in discomfort, they mustâve hurt themselves too when you both hit the ground. âAre you okay?â The deep voice said, trying to hide the pain. You opened your eyes at the sound of his voice and were shocked to find two green orbs staring right back at you.
Harryâs face was too close to yours. Noses almost brushing as you took in all the details on his panicked expression. He was beautiful. Breathtaking in the metaphorically and literally since he was still on top of you, crushing your chest with his.
You tapped on his arm trying to push him off you. He seemed to get the hint as he quickly apologized and stood up, offering you his hand to help you do the same. You gladly took it as the air came rushing back to your lungs, a little whine escaping your throat as you felt how your muscles ached after the impact.
âOh shit, are you hurt?â Harry asked, faced filled with worry as he looked at you up and down, trying to make sure there were no visible injuries.
âNot really, but-â You said bringing a hand to your lower back and rubbing it gently, hissing when you felt a hint of pain when you touched a certain spot âDefinitely gonna bruise in a few hoursâ
âI am very, very sorry. I didnât mean to- Do you need ice? I can get you some ice if you-â
âIâm fineâ You raised your palm to cut him off, smiling as you saw how worried he actually was âReally, Iâm fine. It couldâve been worse if it wasnât for your hand working as a cushion for my headâ You giggled âAre you okay, though?â
Harry nodded, smiling as well âI truly am sorry, I was not paying attention to where I was goingâ
âWell, that makes two of us. But why were you running?â
âOh, âm running away from my bodyguard. You see, they really donât like it when you do that and steal the keys to the vanâ He said with mischievous eyes, flashing a smile as he showed you the key dangling in his finger. Soon after, you heard someone yell âHarry Styles come back here!â You couldnât help but laugh at how ridiculous the situation was. Harry stared at you for a little while, eyes gleaming at the sound of your giggles âGotta go! Are you sure youâre okayâŠ?â
âY/Nâ You said, nodding your head.
âY/NâŠâ He repeated in a low voice, eyes scanning you once again as he backed away slowly âSee yeh round, loveâ The last thing you saw was his flirty wink before he started running again.
You felt your cheeks get warmer but you were quick to hide it. This was your job, you need to be professional. Though, you gotta admit, having Harry Styles knocking you off your feet on your first day wasnât bad at all. Really not bad at all.
âThere you are!â You heard your best friend call from the other end of the hall âCÂŽmon, we need to set everything up before they come hereâ Lottie came close to you, softly grabbing you by the hand and tugging it so you could follow her. She had an understanding smile on her face âDonÂŽt worry, I was in the same position as you when I first visited the tour. It's amazing, isn't it?â
âKinda intimidating, actuallyâ
Lottie laughed and linked your arms together as you walked through the enormous hall downt to a small room.
You spent the next hour or so getting everything ready for when they come, laughing and joking around each other like you always do, making you almost forget that you were here to do a job and not just hang out. That's one of the many good things about the Tomlinsons, they make you feel so comfortable that you forget all your worries.
The playlist you chose was blasting on the small speaker you had brought to entertain yourselves while waiting for the boys. You were both laughing and jumping around with brushes in your hands, pretending they were microphones and you were having your own little concert with the Spice Girls. You were in the middle of your solo, already lost in the sound of Baby SpiceÂŽs voice when the door opened at the same time you were stretching your arm in an improvised dance move, accidentally hitting the person next to you with the heavy brush.
âOuch!â The boy said as he quickly brought his hand to his nose, trying to make sure it wasn't bleeding.
You covered your mouth immediately and threw the brush into one of the cushions âOh my- IÂŽm so sorry. I'm so so so so sorryâ You soon apologized and went over to him, trying to assess the damages and hoping you didn't break his nose âAre you okay? I really am sorry I didnÂŽt-â
The boy opened his eyes, locking them with yours. You have never seen such an intense stare in your life, it was intriguing, magnetic. You could feel yourself blush, but you didn't know if it was because of the embarrassing situation or because you felt intimidated by those brown eyes.
âUh.. Yeahâ He said blinking when he realized he was staring at you for a little too long âI just wasn't expecting thatâ He chuckled to ease the tension. He had a beautiful smile, like the kind that's just so welcoming and warm, so you couldn't help but join in his laughter.
Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Lottie trying to hold herself together so she wouldnÂŽt burst into fits of laughter at the scenario playing in front of her. You quickly cleared your throat and asked âAre you sure you are okay? Nothing's broken?â
âNah, that's just his faceâ A voice with a thick accent said.
The boy rolled his eyes as you peeked over his shoulders. Leaning into the door frame were three other people, boys of apparently the same age, taller than life and equally amused by his hurt friend. You recognized them immediately (mostly thanks to the color haired boy) They were the opening act. They were 5 Seconds of Summer. And you just hit their bassist on the nose.
âWay to make an impression, Calâ Laughed the boy with the long curly hair. Ashton? or was that Luke?
Calum flipped them off as they made their way into the little room and you felt your cheeks get warmer again. The three of them went to say hi to Lottie, having already met her at the last tour, and started a whole new conversation with her.
âUhmm, I can go get some ice. If you want?â You asked, feeling a little self conscious now that there were more people in the room.
Calum smiled.
âIÂŽm good, but thanks sweetheartâ He winked at you âIÂŽm Calum, by the wayâ He extended his hand for you to shake.
âY/Nâ You said with a smile.
âBeautifulâ He said, barely even a whisper before his eyes met yours again and you swore your heart just skipped a beat right there and there.
âHey, Calum!â Lottie greeted him with a hug âWe are starting with you today, okay? Go grab a seatâ Calum nodded and sat in front of one of the vanities. Lottie came closer to you and whispered âTalk about a meet cuteâ She teased.
You rolled your eyes and muttered a âShut upâ before you walked away and started to work with one of the other boys.
This was going to be an interesting first day.
For the next hour or so, you found yourself amazed at the fact of how much you had in common with the Aussie band. You bonded over music, fashion and you laughed at the same dumb jokes, and were genuelly surprised at how grounded they all were. They were just as excited as you for the tour, knowing what big of a chance it was and how lucky they were to be here, just like you. In a matter of minutes you were acting like old friends.
From time to time you would look at Calum over the mirror, only to find that he was already staring at you, flashing you a smile every time your eyes met. He wasnât much of a chatter like his friends, but he still engaged in every conversation, especially if you were part of it.
When their time at âyour officeâ as Lottie calls it, ended, he was the last one to go out. But before he stepped out the door, he gave one last look at you and said âYouâll be watching our set tonight, right?â
You smiled âWouldn't miss itâ
Calum's smile grew until it almost reached his ears, he muttered a last goodbye before closing the door.
âWell, someone has a crushâ You turned around and saw Lottie wiggle her eyebrows in a suggestive way, pressing her lips into a teasing fine line. You just rolled your eyes.
âWhat are you talking about? He was just being friendlyâ
âWho was being friendly?â A familiar voice said.
You looked behind you and ran towards the slim figure that just opened the door, pulling him into a hug.
âLouis!â You squealed in excitement, circling your arms around his back as he held tighter to you.
Louis was the closest thing you had to an older brother. Growing up as Lottieâs best friend made you an unofficial member of their family and you loved them all as your own. He was always the life of the party, making jokes, teasing you and sometimes reprimanding you if you messed up. You couldnât count how many times he took you both for a late night snack or let you hang out with him and his friends when you got bored. He also gave great advice, and you trusted him more than anything (besides Lottie, of course) The day that he went away to chase his dreams was one of the most bittersweet moments of your lives, for one part you were happy for him but you would miss him like crazy.
And now, almost five years later, here you were. The three of you, together again like old times but with a more busy schedule. And you wouldnât have it any other way.
âY/N/N! Itâs so good to see you, loveâ
âWhat? No hug for me?â Said Lottie sarcastically, cocking an eyebrow to his older brother.
âOnly if you tell me who was being friendly with Y/Nâ He said as he let you go and her in for a tight bear hug.
âWhoâs being friendly with who?â Someone called out from the door.
The three of you turned around to see Harry leaning onto the door. His brows frowned as his eyes scanned the room until they met yours. If he was surprised to see you there then he didnât show it. After all, you didnât get to tell him what you were doing here.
âH!â Lottie gasped in delight as she pushed her brother away and went to hug the curly haired man.
Harry hugged her with the same energy, holding her close and muttering a sweet âhelloâ, just like Louis did with you.
âOi, mate! Have you met Y/N? The new stylist and best friend anyone could have?â Asked Louis as he put his arm around your shoulder, showing you off like a proud big brother.
Harry looked at you and smiled âYeah, we ran into each other earlierâ He shared a knowing smirk with you and you couldn't help but chuckle a little bit.
âQuite literally, I must sayâ
He was about to say something when the door opened again, you realized no one here bothered to knock first, apparently. Niall, Liam and Zayn entered the room, ready to get themselves ready before the show. Lottie introduced you to each one of them and immediately started working when she noticed how knotted Niallâs hair was.
The conversations started flowing with ease, all of them genuinely curious to get to know you, convinced that any friend of Louis was a friend of them. They were all very sweet and welcoming, and, just like with the members of 5SOS, you bonded rather quickly. All the nerves you once had easily faded away as you felt more comfortable in this space, more convinced than ever that this was where you were meant to be.
âOi, what about those pretty eyes you saw earlier, Harold?â Liamâs voice filled the room âSeen them again?â
Harry instantly lifted his gaze to watch his friend through the mirror and shot him a deathly glare âDon't know wha youâre talkin âboutâ He stated.
You couldâve swore he looked your way, just for a moment his green eyes met yours through the mirror. It was quick, almost like a reflex. Maybe you were just imagining things.
âOoh, does Harry have a crush?â Lottie teased while applying some oils to his curls. He just rolled his eyes âWouldnât be the first one to catch feelings in this roomâ
You snapped your head towards your friend, knowing and dreading what she was going to say next.
âSpillâ Said Louis, living for the drama.
âWellâŠâ She started, searching for your face in the mirror. But you quickly averted your eyes, suddenly finding Zaynâs hair very interesting âLetâs just say that one of your Australian mates already started making eyes at our Y/Nâ
The room filled with âoooohsâ and âaaawwwsâ from all of the boys. All except Harry, who was just staring straight at his reflection with a rather serious look.
You laughed and shook your head âHonestly, Lottie. You are just imagining thingsâ
Staring at the mirror one more time, your eyes quickly met Harryâs green orbs, already staring at you from his seat. You shot him a smile and he returned it as the topic of the conversation changed once again.
Time flew without any of you really noticing it. All the boys were done with their hair and make up, ready to move on to the wardrobe department. Lottie tagged along with Louis, wanting to say hi to a few friends she made last year. You wanted to go too, but a quick glance at your phone made you aware of the time and the promise you had made.
âOh shootâ You breathed, quickly grabbing your phone from the vanity as you rushed through the door.
âWhatâs the hurry, love?â Asked Harry, amused at your behavior. You didnât notice that he was the only person left in the room.
âThe showâs about to start and I kinda promise someone that I wouldnât miss itâ You smiled âBut, now that I think about it, I donât even know how to get to the side of the stage!â
Harry got up from his chair, wiping his palms onto his black skinny jeans âI could take you there, but only if you promise to stay there for our set as wellâ
âWhat? Are you kidding?â You laughed âYou really think I wasnât planning on doing that already?â
His eyes gleamed with joy at your words and you swore you saw a glimpse of his pink tinted cheeks as he nudged his head and asked you to follow him.
You followed Harry though a complicated mess of halls filled with people running around, making sure that everything was already set to start. You had to admit, he really knew how to navigate, not only on stage but backstage as well, you wouldâve gotten lost the moment you stepped outside the door if it werenât for him.
Once you reached the side of the stage, making sure that you stayed way out of the fans point of view, Harry said he had to go back and change.
ââS not Ashton, is it?â He asked, just before he turned to leave.
âWhat?â
âThe boy who was a crush on youâ He stated, eyes locked to the stage, almost like he was trying too hard not to meet yours ââs not him, right? Cos Iâve seen him look at my sister and I donât-â
âNobody has a crush on me!â You laughed as you rolled your eyes, reminding yourself to kill your friend right after the show. âLottie was just teasing. Besides, Iâm here to work, not to look for a relationshipâ
Harry nodded, seemingly pleased with your answer, making his way back to the maze called âbackstageâ
You watched him walk away with a soft smile on your face. Harry was not like everyone in the media said he was, and you were glad. You didnât need more drama in your life, no boyfriends nor toxic relationships. You could feel that this was going to be your safe space, and who knows? maybe when the tour finishes youâll have a new friend to lean on.
The sound of a guitar riff caught you off guard, pulling your attention away from the black background and into the stage. You could hear the fans go absolutely bonkers as the four Australians came into view, smiling as they took their places on stage.
Sharing one understanding look among each other, Ashton banged his drumsticks together, setting the pace for their first song. The crowd goes wild as they recognize the melody immediately, singing and jumping along the words of a song about a girl friendzoning one of the guys.
They sounded incredible. It was hard to imagine that they were still teenagers like yourself, like most of the people in the crowd, actually. The way they moved on stage was erratic, always walking around and messing with each other as they sang and played their instruments like it was nothing. It was easy to tell that theyâve been friends for a long time now and they feel comfortable with each other, having the most fun up there, seizing every moment like it was their last,
You, on the other hand, found yourself enjoying their set a little too much. Since youâve never gotten the chance to actually listen to most of their songs before tonight, you were quite surprised at how much fun and kinda edgy they were, making you want to dance and jump like the rest of the fans. So you did. You didnât care about if people around you were watching, you just let yourself go to the rhythm and enjoyed your night. This was the beginning of your new life, what better way to celebrate it than letting all your worries go while your new favorite band played on stage, just mere meters in front of you.
You were so lost in your own little world, completely immersed in the music, that you didnât notice the looks Calum gave to you while onstage. Everytime he had the chance, his head spinned towards you, watching with joy as you danced along to their songs. Once you caught his eyes staring at you, you smiled at him and stuck your tongue out, mocking him. He just laughed wholeheartedly, bringing one finger to the side of his nose, the same one you punched a few hours ago. You did the same without questioning it, turning that little gesture into your first inside joke.
The guys played a few more songs before their set ended. Calum came to you as soon as they finished their bows.
âHey!â He said, still pumped with adrenaline.
He was sweaty, very sweaty. But his energy was contagious as he flashed one of his beautiful smiles to you, eyes shining from excitement.
âYou came!â
âTold ya I was going to!â You exclaimed âYou guys are amazing!â
âYou really think so?â Calum looked like a boy on Christmas, genuinely happy that you like how they sound like âOr are you just being nice because you almost broke my nose?â
âAlmost! Thatâs the key word thereâ You chuckled âBut no, Iâm being honest. You killed it tonight!â
Calumâs smile almost reached his eyes, making all of his little dimples pop out as he looked at you softly.
âHey⊠Uhm.. I need to get back to our dressing room, Wanna come with me?â He asked, suddenly shy.
âSure!â You said, making his eyes sparkle âThen we can come back and watch the others performâ
Calum furrowed his eyebrows âOh, youâre staying for that?â He sounded a little bit disappointed.
âWell, yeah? How could I miss itâ You chuckled, but stopped once you saw his expression change âWhy? Youâre not staying for the whole show?â
âManagement doesnât let us stay long after our setâ
You muttered a surprised âohâ That wasnât fair at all! Why couldnât they enjoy the show like the rest of you? Or even just stay backstage and do nothing but chill until the show was done? You could see Calum was disappointed in that fact too, it must be a bummer for them not to have the full experience.
âBut..â He said smiling, bringing his eyes up to meet with yours again âThere is an after party at the hotel later tonight, will I see you there as well?â
You nodded âOf course! Iâll be thereâ
âYes! Canât wait!â He jumped in excitement as he took a step forward and started walking towards the dressing rooms. Not before turning back around and saying âSee ya there, Y/Nâ Putting his finger to the side of his nose and smiling when you did the same.
A few minutes later Lottie showed up beside you, knowing the concert was about to start.
âHow did the guys do?â She asked.
âOh, they were amazing! I donÂŽt know why IÂŽve never heard of them until a few weeks ago!â
She hummed âYes, they are pretty good. How was Calum?â
You looked at her confused. Was this going to become a thing now? Couldn't you just have a friend without getting involved in some relationship drama? It was frustrating and it will only end up making things awkward for everyone. It has happened before and you were not ready to experience that again.
She seemed to notice your discomfort and immediately changed the topic. Not wanting to upset you. Clearing her throat she said âUhm.. the boys really like youâ
You snapped your head towards her direction.
âTheyÂŽve talked about you a little bit, they all say you are really nice and all the yadah yadah I already knowâ She smiled âHarry was especially pleased with your work. He says could come and stay with me permanently on the teamâ
You blushed at his compliment, but before you could even say anything you were interrupted by his voice.
âStraight off the plane to a new hotel..â
The fans go wild. Quite feral, you might add. But you couldn't blame them, not even a little bit. The five boys walking down the runway was truly a sight to behold.
You felt the goosebumps run around your body as the energy grew into something quite impossible to understand. This was it. This was the feeling everyone's been talking about, and now it was your turn to experience it every night.
As the music flew through the stadium. All five of them took over the stage like it was their home, and in some way, it was. They practically grew up there, being in the spotlight since a very young age and stealing the hearts of millions around the world. They were as professionals as they were goofy, always finding an excuse to have fun and tease each other in the middle of the songs and with the public, creating an atmosphere of pure bliss wherever they went on that huge structure in the middle of the stadium.
With every song they sang, Lottie grabbed your arm and started dancing and jumping like it's the first time she heard their music and you did the same, getting completely lost in the feeling, so much so that you didn't even notice how much time had passed and just before you know it, the concert was getting to an end.
When the last song came through, the guys were scattered around the stage, running around as they took in everything they could from this experience. At some point, Harry stood right in front of you, just like Calum did a few hours ago, and while he sang his heart out, his eyes connected with yours. His green eyes sparkled like stars when he met your gaze, only for a second too long before he joined his brothers in the middle of the runway, ready to give one final bow and exit the stage where he came from.
âCÂŽmon!â Said Lottie, pulling you out of your trance âThey are going to shower and get ready for the after party. We should get going now, because I am not going to show up there with this outfit!â
You laughed at her and followed her to grab a cab, feeling more than excited for the afterparty.
You walked along the lobby, Lottie right by your side. Both of you clean, fresh and looking hot as hell as you made your way to the venue. To say you were nervous was an understatement, you were downright terrified. This was your first VIP party celebrating, not only your first day, but also the first day of one of the biggest tours of the year.
âHey,â Lottie calmed you down, placing her little hand on your shoulder. âWe did an amazing job today, sweetie. Itâs time to celebrateâ
You nodded and let out a breath you didnât know you were holding, trying to calm the stomach ache that your nerves created and opening the door of the hotel club.
You immediately got caught up in the dark atmosphere, flashing colored lights flying around the room and reflecting themselves onto the mirrored dance floor. Out of the corner of your eyes you spotted a few people sitting on the bar stools, some were already on the dance floor and others were just sitting on dark booths pulled against the walls, chilling as they watched the party go by. You recognize some of them, but most of them were strangers, elite people that came to celebrate and wish another successful tour for the boys.
The pressure on your chest became tighter. You grabbed Lottieâs hand and felt some kind of comfort when she squeezed it for a second, at least you werenât alone.
âLOTTIE!â Someone called from one of the dark booths. You could recognize Zaynâs thick accent anywhere. With one reassuring look, Lottie pulled your hand and guided you through the sea of people flooding the room.
Once you reached the booth it was easier to identify its occupants. Zayn was sitting next to Louis who, at the same time, was beside Ashton and Luke. You all exchanged your hellos as you took a seat next to Lottie.
âWhatâd think of the show?â Asked Louis, taming a sip of his beer.
The group started rambling on and on about the different parts of the show, their favorite moments and about the craziest fans they managed to see. You spend quite a bit talking and laughing with the guys, slowly getting more comfortable being there. Itâs not like you didnât enjoy parties at all, on the contrary, you loved them. The problem was that this was new territory, pleasure mixing with your responsibilities and you didnât want to fuck this up. The sheer thought of that possibility made you feel ill again and you wanted nothing more than to breathe a little air into your lungs before you passed out from overthinking too much.
Scanning the room you spotted a glass door that led to some sort of balcony, you cheered internally âIâll be right backâ You whispered to Lottie, who was having a nice chat with Luke about his bone structure. She looked at you, worried. You smiled at her âIâm just going to get some air, keep talking. I wonât take longâ
You almost sprinted to the door, heart racing at the thought of a moment alone to gather yourself. Once the cool air of the night grazed your skin, you felt like you could finally breathe properly. You always felt more like yourself when nighttime arrived, it was complicated to explain but it seemed like the stars could understand you better than anyone. They were your comfort and your confidants, because no matter what, you knew they wouldn't ever leave you alone.
ââS nice to know âm not the only one who needed a breakâ You heard a familiar voice say next to you.
Harry was standing next to railing, green eyes fixed on you as you took a step closer.
âYouâre not having fun?â You asked, resting your elbows on the cold metal of the balcony.
âParties are all the same after a while,â He said absentmindedly ââm just really tiredâ
âWell, thatâs understandable. After the night you had? If I were you I would be sleeping until I turned 40!â
Harry laughed and shook his head at your comment âHowâs your bum?â
âMy what now?â
âYour assâ He said pointing at your backside âFrom the fall?â
âOh! Itâs fine, just a little bruised up. Which is surprising since I expected a lot worse from being run over by a six foot manâ
He smiled ââm sorry, love. If it makes you feel better I got my ass handed to me by a six foot five man right after thatâ
âYeah, that does make me feel betterâ You chuckled, looking at the sky again âStill canât believe Iâm hereâ
Harry came closer to you, his arm barely inches from yours. You didnât notice as he studied your face carefully, almost like he was trying to remember every detail ââs like a dream, isnât it?â
âIt truly is. I-â You turned your face to him, only to find his way closer than you remember âIs everything alright, Harry?â
He hummed, distancing himself from you as he laid his back to the railing âJust thinkingâ
âAbout?â
âThat I might actually enjoy the parties if youâre aroundâ
You were about to return the compliment when you heard the glass door open with a ferocious amount of force.
âY/N!â Lottie yelled from the insides of the party âGet your little perky arse in here! Theyâre playing our song!â
You knew better than to say no to that. So you laughed as you made your way back inside, but not before saying bye to Harry.
âIâll come and find you soonâ He said with a dashing smile.
âAs long as you donât throw me to the ground, then thatâs okayâ
You grabbed Lottieâs hand and she pulled you over to the dance floor, not wasting any time before she started moving along to the song blasting from the stereos, you joined her almost instantly.
At that moment, you didnât care who saw. You were having the time of your life dancing with your best friend in a party celebrating your new life. Your new beginning. Yes, you were scared. But why be scared now? Why donât just enjoy the moment? Lifeâs too short to be moping around hypotheticals. Right now, you wanted to dance.
And you did, for five more songs you let all your worries go down the drain. Tonight you were living the dream and you silently promised yourself to cherish every moment like itâs the last one, no time for worries nor fears. Just fun.
âUgh! I need a wee!â Lottie called over the music.
âIâm gonna grab some water!â You said to her before each of you made your way to your own destinations.
Once you reached the bar, you tried and failed to get the bartenderâs attention. Them being to worried about the other clients waiting for a line of shots at the other side of the bar.
Wanting to rest your feet for a while, you decided to sit up on one of the tall stools they had, trying to catch your breath after that intense dance workout you just had. Your eyes began to wander across the room again out of curiosity, you wanted to know what your friends were up to at the moment.
You quickly found Liam and Niall on the dance floor, trying to copy some choreography they probably saw online and failing miserably while doing so. Louis, Zayn and Ashton were still at the booth, they were laughing hard at something that Josh had said, making Louis spill his drink onto the table. You scanned the room a little bit more, pretending like you were in a game of âWhereâs Waldo?â Without looking for anyone in particular. Thatâs when your eyes met Calumâs.
He was sitting at the other end of the bar, eyes already fixed at you when you met them. When he noticed you were staring, he quickly shot you a smile and brought his finger to the side of his nose, remembering your secret greeting from earlier. You smiled back and did the same, beckoning him to come talk to you.
He was by your side in a second
âHey you!â He said excitedly âWas wondering where you wentâ
âI was just dancing with Lottie a few minutes agoâ You pointed out the dance floor.
âOh I know, hard to keep the eyes from yaâ He smiled âLooks like karaoke is not your only talentâ
âOh shut up!â You laughed as you playfully punched him in the arm âI could still break your nose, you know?â
âIâm completely aware, darling. Wouldnât mind it if you did, thoughâ
You rolled your eyes at him âAre you having fun?â
âI am nowâ
You laughed again and Calum swore he had never listened to such a beautiful sound before. His brown eyes met yours again, trying to communicate everything you needed to know with just one gaze, just one moment. He was never a man of many words, but he hoped that this would be enough.
âSo..â You said, trying not to get lost in his stare but failing miserably as you felt how his dark eyes took you in âWhatâve you been doing, if you werenât having fun?â
Calum smiled and shook his head âTrying to get Michael and Luke out of trouble-â
âCALUMâ A voice was heard from across the room, probably Lukeâs
âLike I saidâŠâ He pointed behind you at the two young men on the dance floor next to Liam and Niall, trying to balance some beer bottles onto Niallâs quiff âCal! Come here!â
Calum sighed âI better go see what theyâre doingâ
âMake sure they donât hurt themselves, I certainly donât want to deal with covering them with make up tomorrow if they end up cutting their faces offâ You joked.
âIâll take that into accountâ He chuckled âIâll find you later, Y/Nâ Calum said, turning around to their friends.
After a while, you decided to go over the booth and hang out with Louis, not wanting to be alone on a stool bar any longer.
âI can see youâre having fun, arenât ya, love?â He said, putting his arm around your shoulder in a brotherly kind of way.
âI am, in fact. Thank you for askingâ
âBeen a bit flirty from what I can see as well, havenât ya?â
You looked at him. He had a smug smile on his face, one brow raising teasingly as he waited for your answer. What did he mean by that?
âUhm.. what? I havenât been flirting with anyoneâ You state, confused by his question.
âYeah? Do they know that?â Louis said, pointing behind you.
You turned your head to where he was pointing and you could see Calum and Harry, both coming from different sides of the room each one with two drinks in their hands, approaching the booth. Both of their eyes were fixed on you as they walked closer and closer, until they stopped completely in front of you.
It seemed like only then did they acknowledge each other, as they comically turned their heads to their side, looked down at each otherâs drinks and then lifted their gaze to meet again face to face, mirroring each otherâs movements and expressions.
âGuess you got a handful there, loveâ Louis whispered in your ear.
Oh, boy.
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TMNT 2014/2016 Raphael x Reader- (Short Story)
"What's taking Raph so long?" Mikey was getting antsy. Apparently the red clad turtle promised to have a match with him. You just smiled. "Would you like me to go get him." You had a feeling he was secretly hoping you would. Since they claimed Raph was under your spell. It was a nice thought. Since you told Raph about your feelings, everything felt easier. So you jumped to your feet, practically bouncing on your way to his room. When you came to his door, you just pulled the door open stepping in. "Raph, Mikey needs you to play a..." your jaw dropped and every muscle in your body actively shut down completely.
Raphael was standing there...Naked. Your voice was an indicator of your presence. He turned slowly, and you could see the bath towel on the floor. He must have just gotten out of the shower.
"Shit." He seemed equally speechless. After you collected yourself, you took hurried steps back, slamming the door shut. "S-SORRY!!" Dashing for anywhere but there, you covered your red cheeks.
"Crap, crap, crap!"
Why the hell did you not knock. How would you face him now?
"Huge..." you slapped yourself. "This isn't the time to be thinking about that!"
Today was going to be a very long day.
~~~
When Raph gathered his bearings, he pulled on his pants, clearing his throat. Usually he'd have no problem getting buck naked in the lair. He lived with his brothers, they all had their moments. Splinter only asked that in the main area they be decent, so of course their bedroom was fair game. If it had been one of his brothers, it would have been no big deal. But it wasn't, it was you. And he might have imagined it, but he could have sworn your face turned red.
"Damn it." he pressed a hand to his forehead, trying to rid the dirty thoughts that appeared. Short of kissing, the both of you never explored any further. And he didn't mind. He cared about you. And he was content with the way things were, he wasn't in a rush to do anything. The both of you were still teenagers. Plus you were just so..innocent in his eyes. He'd never force you into something like that without talking it over first.
The beginning of your relationship was already rough to begin with. He didn't want to risk stepping on any land mines if it could be avoided. How was he supposed to deal with this one. He grumbled, strapping his sais to his waist as he walked out the door. When he got to the main area, he saw his brothers moving about as normal, but there was no sign of you.
"Where's (Y/N)?"
Leo's eyes raised. "She bolted out of here like she was running from a wild animal. Did you do something?"
"Why do you think I did something?" Raph challenged.
"Because you always do." Leo said blankly.
"Whatever." Raph was pissed as it was, and now he had a completely different problem to deal with because of your sudden entrance. The image of your face would never leave his mind. He knew there were only two things he could do. Train like crazy for the next couple hours, and take a very very very cold shower.
Leo knew something was up, he just felt like this time, it was better not to get involved.
~~~~
"(Y/N) you have a visitor." the call of your mother made your eyes shift from the ceiling. You were just sitting in your bed daydreaming. You were expecting someone. So as you heard the knock on your bedroom door you smiled.
"Knock knock." The women spoke.
"Hey April." she stepped in, closing the door behind her.
"I'm sorry I've been so busy. I'm swamped at the office. Plus Casey's still basically celebrating his new position at NYPD."
"Don't worry about it. I feel lucky sometimes that I'm still in high school. Adulting sounds like it sucks." She laughed at that.
"It sure does. " She took a seat on the edge of your bed, folding her legs and turning to you. "So I'm positive you didn't call to hear about my boring life. Something up with you? Is Raph being a jerk again? Just let me know and I'll deal with him myself." you giggled.
"I-It isn't anything like that." It was embarrassing, but April was the only one you could really discuss this with.
"April, Raph and I have been together for a while now. A-And it never really crossed my mind before today but something happened this morning and I've been thinking about..you know.." you started playing with your fingers, and you could see her eyebrows scrunch up as she tried to make sense of your words. "I'm lost, what happened?"
You flushed. The memory made your palms a little sweaty.
"He was...I..saw..." you covered your face bashfully.
"I saw him naked!" you huffed out in one breath. April's eyes popped open.
"Oh!"
"I-I can't stop thinking about it so I just ran like a coward. He probably thinks I hate him now I'm so stupid!" April shifted closer rubbing her hand down your shoulders to calm you down. "Listen this is Raph we're talking about. He knows how much you care about him. I've seen you guys together for goodness sake. You're so cute together. Don't go overreacting." you released a sigh, sending her an appreciative smile.
"So...was it big?" you blushed.
"A-April!!" She burst out laughing.
"What, a girl can be curious can't she?" you just shook your head with a huff. She was so childish sometimes.
"Okay. So you saw him naked and it got you a little hot and bothered. My guess is this is the first time something like this has happened to you?" you nod, shifting your legs. The more you thought about it the warmer you seemed to get. "I feel so dirty because I...I wanted to touch him. I-Is that weird!" you honestly thought something was wrong. Because these raw desires, they weren't common for you. It freaked you out. "I want him to touch me..b-but I'm scared." you admitted softly.
"It's perfectly normal to want to be closer with the person you care about. I'm shocked it took you so long. I was starting to wonder."
"You seem to be really enjoying this, you're supposed to be helping me."
"And that I am. Stop over assessing the situation. Go back to the lair and talk to Raph. Tell him what you want. The only way to get through this is to talk it over with him. Raph may be a muscle head, but he cares about you. " She was right. Of course she was. But what she was saying was easier said than done. You weren't sure you could work up the nerve.
"I-I'll try." you mutter. April just offered a small smile. "I believe in you. I know this will blow past in no time. It's so cute though. I feel like I'm in high school again. All these hormones flying around."
"I think you've overstayed your welcome." She just smiled at you.
"Don't forget protection."
"Yep, time for you to leave."
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"Raph, are you okay?" Leo kept telling himself not to press. Raph was already a ticking bomb on a regular day. But he was more than a little agitated. And it worried him. As much as Raph stressed him out, he didn't like seeing him so bothered. Raph gritted his teeth, about to tell Leo off. He stopped himself when he was the general concern in his brother's blue eyes.
"I'm fine," he said tightly. Between his sexual frustration, and trying not to snap at Leo, he felt like he would explode. He had taken his annoyance out and New York's latest criminals, but it didn't seem like enough. You hadn't shown up for the entire day. And he was contemplating just heading to your apartment. But what if you didn't want to see him. The entire thing was just giving him a migraine.
"I'm going to sleep." He wouldn't get much, but he could try. Tomorrow if you insisted to avoid him, he'd just have to take matters into his own hands. So he trudged down to his room, slamming the door closed angrily. His eyes were low, and he just wanted to hit something. Anything that would get rid of the stupid fantasies.
"Raph.." He flinched, turning quickly.
"Geez, how long have you been there!" you deserved that. You were standing next to his bed, hands burrowed behind your back as you shifted on your legs. "I-I didn't mean to scare you."
"Heh, I wasn't scared. Just didn't expect you to come back after this morning. "
"Sorry." you mumble. You wouldn't look him in the eye. And he wasn't sure what he hated more, you avoiding him, or your inability now to look at him.
"I get it if you were freaked out, hell I was a little caught off guard. But you don't have to act so scared. I'm not going to do anything." you finally looked up.
"But..do you want to?" Raph wasn't sure what to make of that look on your face now. Did he misread the situation? You stepped over slowly. The closer you got, the more he could feel his heart race. "Raph I've never wanted anything like this from anyone before. B-But if you want to then we c-can.."
"Really." It didn't sound like a question. And when he took a step forward you suddenly weren't as sure. You backed up, falling unto the bed unceremoniously with a squeak. Raph clicked the strap across his chest, dropping the weapons at his feet. You took in a staggered breath, getting up on your elbows as you stared at him.
He lowered, and in seconds his lips were on your neck. You sank into the bed, and Raph pressed his palms into the mattress, leaving wet kisses on your skin. Your heart was going a mile a minute, and when his hand started to push up your shirt, you could barely contain your sounds. His lips moved from your neck, over to your now exposed torso. He gave a soft kiss on your stomach, and you trembled, closing your eyes.
"R-Raph.." you whimpered. He looked up, and he wasn't surprised when he saw tears gathering at the corner of your eyes.
"Is this what you want?" He stopped altogether, giving you his undivided attention.
"I-I don't know I just...I want this but I...I've never.." you felt sort of pathetic, and Raph straightened, scooping you into his arms.
"You don't have to force yourself, if you're scared next time just tell me. I'd never force you to do anything like this (Y/N). "
"I-I know that!"
Why was it so hard to voice what you were feeling.
"Whenever you're ready, we can. Until then, don't worry too much about it." How was Raph the level headed one in this situation.
"I think this whole thing is my fault. I shoulda known better than to change like that when you're here. I might have just given you a little kick start. And now you don't know what to do with all that energy. "
"How do you..."
"It's the same for me. I've been punching things all day. You've been driving me crazy."
So you weren't alone. This whole time he was just the same. You smiled, burying your face in his chest. He rubbed your back.
"We don't have to rush. I've got plenty of time to show you a good time (Y/N)." you could just feel him smirking.Â
Cocky punk.
Now that it was all out there, you felt lighter. Even so, there was still something you wanted. You pulled back a little.
"Raph can I just...touch you a little." Saying it aloud sounded a lot dirtier, but it's what you wanted.
"S-Sure." Hah! He was nervous.
You raised a hand, looking his in the eyes as you ran your fingers over his chest. He was fighting to keep a straight face. How the hell was he supposed to get sleep after this. Here he thought he dodged a bullet.
When you took his hand, he was confused, that was until you placed it on your chest, right over your heart. He could feel the quick beats under his fingertips. "You can touch me too.." you breathed. Raph took in a much needed breath.
"You're just full of surprises today aren't ya." you grinned, getting on your knees. Now you were at his height. His hand drifted down, and when he cupped your breast, you moved forward, covering your moan with a kiss. Raph groaned, closing his eyes and reciprocating it. When did you get so daring? You were flush to him, kissing him desperately.
Your eagerness threw him off. If he didn't stop soon. Things would get out of hand. Somehow his hand gravitated down your back, you arched into him when his palm settled on your butt, giving it a little squeeze.
"All mine."
Yep, he was certainly the luckiest turtle in the world.
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No One Lives Forever- CH5
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Stardust Crusader Wolf Pack AU
[From the beginning- CH1]
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You wake up to a gentle tapping on your arm and the smell of home cooked food wafting around the cabin. You sit up with a yawn, lifting yourself off the man who rescued you and freeing his legs. Looking down to your bandaged leg you can tell the nap (and the pain meds) really helped numb the area, at least until youâd have to move. The man â Jotaro, his nameâs Jotaro- looks down at you from where heâs standing, blue-green eyes lingering on your wounded leg as well before he offers a hand to help you up.
You canât help the slight whine of pain that slips from your mouth, but quickly rally yourself and shift your weight to your good leg. You refuse to let go of Jotaroâs arm; you know you wonât make it far without leaning on him. He seems to be a man of few words but Jotaro understands exactly whatâs going on and holds his arm firm and steady as you grip it with both hands and hobble forward to the other room where the meal has been set out.
You make it to the dining room with his help and freeze when you realize how many men are here in the house. You make an effort to straighten up and lean less on Jotaro as you both make it to the empty seats. You realize no oneâs started in on the food yet as Jotaro starts heap food onto his plate. They were waiting for him to start- oh god, heâs the alpha, isnât he? Good thing you seem to be on his good side already. Less risk of being forced out of the packâs territory and into the path of more hunters if you had Jotaro on your side.
The redhead at the table seems ready to burst with questions, you can tell heâs doing his very best to be polite about it at least, not like the guy with the silver mohawk. Your explanation and apology seem to set everyone on edge, but theyâre not throwing out accusations at you, so it must be the fact that there were wolf hunters in their territory.
Itâs quiet for a minute until the older man- Joseph- regales you all with a story from his youth, how he once⊠crashed a plane while battling a god?
By the end of dinner, you are full of delicious food and exhausted. Just sitting upright for an hour has taken a toll and youâre pretty sure the pain killers are wearing off. Your leg throbs as you shift a bit to get the blood flowing. The rest of the guys clear out of the dining room, bringing plates and leftovers to the kitchen. Jotaro stands and offers you a hand to stand up.
âThanks.â You wince at how out of breath you sound and sigh as you take his hand.
He looks like heâs thinking hard about something before instead of pulling you to your feet he bends down and puts your arm around his neck. âWhat? Wait! I can walk, Iâm fine!â Youâre flustered to be back in his arms as he ignores you and lifts you from your chair.
âIts fine. Youâre tired, and thereâs no sense straining yourself just to walk down the hall.â You let out a little huff at his logic and canât help the soft purr that builds in your chest and you accept your fate. He purrs back in response and you melt further into his hold.
He carries you out of the dining room, but you must be more tired than you realized because when you blink and open your eyes again youâre suddenly in a hallway. Jotaro has stopped in front of one of the doors, another very serious look on his face as he thinks. You hum a little to catch his attention, and it works as those aqua eyes snap to meet your gaze.
He sighs and averts his eyes, âWe⊠donât have a guest room here. Youâll have to get settled in my room. Iâll sleep in the lounge.â
âOh! No, you donât have to⊠I can sleep in the lounge! I donât want to be an inconvenience.â
âNo, you need proper rest. And a room with a door. You donât know how loud the old man and Polnareff can be yet.â He wears a small smile as he opens the door and makes his way inside, setting you on the queen bed. Besides the bed there is only a cheap night stand in the room. They must have just been here for a guyâs trip or something, the space doesnât feel very lived in.
He turns and rummages through a travel bag while you survey the room and turns around holding a bundle of clothes. âYou can wear some of my PJs. Do you need help getting to the bathroom?â he nods over to the other door in the room that apparently is not a closet like you had thought.
âThanks. Just to the door is fine. The hardest part is getting up again, I think I can put a little weight on it right now.â You nod as he reaches and helps you to your feet again. You are able to hobble to the bathroom with his help and he sets the bundle of clothes on the sink counter.
He lets go of you and rummages in a linen closet for a minute, turning back to you with a slightly dusty and mis-matched washcloth and hand towel. âSorry, this is all that I have here, Iâll go see if the other bathrooms have a real towel or something.â
âItâs fine, this will do. Iâll just get the worst of it off right now.â You pause for a moment, trying to think of a way to word your next question. âYou, uh. You guys havenât been here that long, have you? Were you guys on a hunting trip or something? Guys weekend?â
Jotaro hums to himself, âSomething like that. We were actually scouting it to expand our territory. This was our test run to see if we liked it enough to stay. But youâre right, weâve only been here a few days now.â
âAhh. Wow,â your eyes widen as you realize, âI must have used up all my good karma or something to run right into your new territory. What are the oddsâŠâ You trail off as you realize how badly today could have gone for you. Youâre shaken from your worried thoughts by Jotaroâs hand on your shoulder.
âHey. Youâre safe now. You can stick with us as long as you need.â You smile and nod at him. âIâll let you get cleaned up. Iâll be just down the hall if you need me.â
He turns to leave but something possesses you take hold of his hand before he can make it out the doorway. âI⊠Donât want to be alone, tonight I mean⊠You donât have to sleep in the lounge if you donât want to, the bed looked big enoughâŠâ Oh jeez, you can feel how hot your face is from the blood rushing to it. Youâre sure if you turned to the mirror instead of looking at your feet youâd see a previously undiscovered shade of red.
âAlright, if youâre sure.â He⊠agreed? You canât help but smile as you look back up to his face, embarrassment forgotten. Heâs smiling a little too and you have a feeling this is normally a rare sight. He heads for the door again, âIâll get some more pillows while you get changed then.â
You shut the door behind him and turn to the bundle he left for you. T-shit and sweatpants. Good thing they were the kind with a drawstring, you had a feeling they were going to need rolled up at the ankle and the waist with how tall Jotaro is. You turn to your reflection for the first time tonight and are surprised with how pale you are, probably still anemic from your earlier injury.
You do your best to clean up the leftover dirt and smudges of blood and run your fingers through your hair as well as you can- a quick search of the bathroom had yielded no comb. You quickly don the sleep clothes and roll up the pants so you donât trip on your short journey to the bed. You exit the bathroom and hobble your way to the bed, hand on the wall to support yourself. Jotaro comes back into the room holding two more pillows and a blanket heâs found. He must have changed as well, but you have to admit he fills out the simple clothes well.
You both settle into bed side by side. Heâs opted to be a gentleman and keep a layer of sheets between you and let you have the thicker blanket all to yourself. Youâre still tense, sharing a bed with a virtual stranger, but then you take a deep breath and all you can smell is him. Instantly you are calmed, enough that you unintentionally start purring again. What is up with your instincts today? Youâve never given into them so easy, were you still on edge from the chase earlier? That must be it.  The close call must still be on your subconscious mind, youâve never been that close toâŠ
Your thoughts are derailed again as he purrs in response to your distress, but the fear and stress youâd felt in the forest still lingers in your mind. You wish you could relax like you had been for your nap earlier. Maybe a little bit of embarrassment now would be worth a good nightâs rest?
âOk, so this may be a dumb question, but,â you pause and inhale to build your courage, âcan I⊠just⊠hold your hand? So I know youâre there? That itâs you?â
He shifts around a bit and you hear a muffled âGood griefâ as he turns his head to you.
You look away to try and avoid the awkwardness as best you can, âFine, just thought Iâd ask. I knew it was dumb.â
âHmm. That wasnât a no.â He pulls his hand free of the blankets and holds it out next to you. You marvel a bit at how large his hand is compared to yours as you grasp it. You feel almost tingly as you both settle down to sleep again. This time your thoughts anchored to the present, not the terrifying chase through the forest.
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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
Some eagle eyed readers may have caught that Iâve changed at least Polnareffâs appearance a bit. This story takes place sometime between 2014-2018 so Iâm modernizing their outfits somewhat- including Polnareffâs hairstyle lol.
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YOU MET LITTLE MIX??? PLS TELL
technically i used to say iâve met 3/4 of little mix but now đ i have met all of little mix đ
anyways itâs a funny story cos actually i Accidentally met little mix and itâs gonna be long sorry
okay so i saw the girls open for demi lovato on her neon lights tour back in 2014. i soft stanned but my friend (ash) i was with STANNED.
we had soundcheck passes for demi and afterwards, there was this silly little âpartyâ thing with a dj and snacks n shite. you couldnât leave the venue once you were inside so that was their way of holding us without having it seem like they had to BDKDBFKFJ but the wee party thing was lame so me and ash were like well! bye! and we left the place they were keeping us. we started venturing around the venue before eventually finding doors to get into the actual seating and stage part of the building. we decided to just sit there because no one else was over there with us.
and in the process of us minding our business by ourselves, two more girls showed up. so we all started talking and just hanging out. and then suddenly. we hear music on the other side of the door. and it doesnât take all of us long to identify the song as salute. and we all just looked at each other like đł
so we crack one of the doors open and peep inside. we see little mix on stage doing their wee soundcheck. and obviously we did what any teenage girls would do - snuck into the room. we got like half way into the song before security caught us and kindly asked us to get out. and we were like đ fine. but then after a little while. move started. and we simply forgot how to act BDKDBFKDBFKDJ so we snuck back in. but this time when security found us, they were less kind and told us if it happened again weâd be kicked out and would miss the concert smh so we listened that time.
eventually their soundcheck ends cos we still listened from outside the door. and then like ten minutes later the same security guy who was making us get out came around the corner. and we all freaked out thinking we were about to be yeeted from the venue NDNDNDJFJXK
but heâs like âthe girls said they wanted to meet whoever was risking getting thrown out for them so theyâre going to come say hi before the go to their signing.â
so we all lose our fucking shit. absolutely lose our minds. we go bananas. apeshit. obviously.
then just a couple minutes later, perrie came scurrying out and shuffled over to us like HIIII!!! and leigh anne followed behind her. they came and hugged us and as i let go of leigh i turned around and almost head butted jade đ FJDNFNDNFJDJ but she was like âah!!! sorry, love!!!â and i think abt it constantly
anyways we asked perrie if we could see her ring bc the engagement to zayn was still fresh and she got so excited to show it off like it was so cute NSNDND and leigh came over to me and played with the ends of my hair and told me she thought it was pretty đđ
we didnât have time for pictures really like security didnât let us take them bc the girls rlly were on their way to a paid meeting thing NDNDNDN we were just in the right place at the right time doing the wrong thing đ but before they left leigh anne told us she loved us and thanked us and it was so sweet. idk where jesy was tho i never saw her smh
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media reccs? đ since apparently you are a man of good taste?
Wow thank you đ I have a masterlist of movies that have changed me I often recommend to people, I'll just copy and paste here with quick synopses lol, it's kinda long. I'm not super great at writing synopses tho so bear with me
Dead Poets Society (1989)
One of my favorite movies of all time and a total classic. It's about a group of boys at a strict boarding school who are inspired by their new English teacher (played by Robin Williams) to think for themselves and chase their dreams. This movie literally changed my life lol
Quadrophenia (1979)
This movie is based off of the story behind the concept album by The Who of the same name. It follow the life of a young man named Jimmy who is in a gang called the Mods. Theres this huge gang war between them and the Rockers (I think that's their name, it's been a while since i watched it) and Jimmy questions his beliefs about coming-of-age and his values in life throughout the film
Cabaret (1972)
Based off of the Broadway musical of the same name, this movie is about a British man who moves to Germany during the beginning of the rise of Nazis. He meets a woman who basically turns his world upside down, and it follows their love affair and sexuality and anti-semitism, and it's hilarious and heart wrenching and a beautiful movie
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)
This is a super trippy romance film. Basically in the universe of this movie, theres a technology that is developed that can delete memories of an entire person from your mind while you are in a dream-like state, and the main character of this movie (played by Jim Carrey) decides to undergo the procedure after a bad breakup. Its soooo good I highly recommend this movie
It's Such a Beautiful Day (2012)
This is an animated film about a man named Bill who is going through brain cancer. Its told from the perspective of an unnamed narrator essentially communicating everything Bill sees, hears, and experiences. This is the movie that got me into film and it is still a complete masterpiece and one of the most beautiful movies I've ever seen
The Dirties (2013)
Loved this one a lot back in high school, it's been a while since I watched it. This is a film made in Canada about a high schooler named Matt Johnson and his friend Owen who decide to make a short film for their class about them killing the gang at their school that bullies them, and things take a dark turn. It's a hilarious movie and hits pretty close to home for me in a lot of ways haha
Logan's Run (1976)
Great movie, pretty cheesy though so be warned. This is based off a book with the same name, and it takes place in the future where most of humanity is wiped out except for a small society that lives under a domed structure. No one is allowed to leave the dome, and to control overpopulation, no one is allowed to live past the age of 30. It's really bizarre but I love this movie
Donnie Darko (2001)
Pretty sure this was Jake Gyllenhaal's first big hit when he was super young (I think he was like 19 in this movie but I'm not sure) basically about this kid, Donnie Darko, who is somewhat schizophrenic and has a habit of sleepwalking. After one particular incident he has a near-death experience and starts seeing a man in a bunny costume everywhere who makes him do weird stuff. Another pretty trippy movie with a crazy ending
American Psycho (2000)
Honestly I'm sure a few on this list you've probably seen (most likely this one included) but I didnt wanna leave any out because they're all so good. If you haven't seen this, it's about a Wall Street executive named Patrick Bateman who is a materialistic phony by day and a serial killer by night. I tried to read the book but the inner dialogue was really hard to get through lmao. Awesome movie though huge recommend.
Clockwork Orange (1971)
Yet another trippy one. And fuck it's been a long time since I've seen it so I might get some stuff wrong here. But it's basically about this serial rapist guy who hangs out with this group of goons and they all like to go beat up homeless people and shit, but the main character gets captured and has to go through reformation therapy to make him a better person. It's an extremely bizarre movie but soooo good and kind of hilarious lol
Creep (2014)
Of course this is on my list haha. If you haven't seen it yet, it's a horror movie about this freelance film guy who answers an ad on craigslist to help a man with cancer film a movie for his unborn son. And shit gets weird real fast. One of my favorite horror movies ever, I wouldnt say it's super scary but it's fun as fuck
Hereditary (2018)
If I'm being honest, I don't like a lot of big movies made in super recent years and especially not horror movies (mostly because they're all cheap cash grabs with no substance) but this one is an exception for me. Hereditary is fucking masterful in my opinion, legitimately creepy as hell and well-produced and well written. To put the plot as vaguely as possible without spoiling anything, it's about a family (mostly the mother) who go through some crazy fucked up shit. That's literally all I can say without giving anything away. Super good flick, big recommend
Gattaca (1997)
This list isn't in any particular order, and I love all these movies to death, but if I had to rank them this would probably be on the lower end. It's not a bad movie, it's still great but it's just not as life-changing as the other ones lmao. This takes place in the future where genetic modifications have progressed to a point where you can modify your unborn child's DNA to have the perfect baby. This has led to, essentially racial bias against those who never had that procedure when they were born. The main character was not one of these "special" children, but he wants an extremely prestigious job which requires that of the employee. Through the film, he is trying to fake his identity and fool the company into thinking he is one of these perfect people. Still a great film
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (1998)
Johnny Depp, man, he is something else. I LOVE this movie. Based off a true story and a book written by the man who lived it, Hunter S. Thompson, this follows the adventure of the writer and his attorney as they go on a drugged-out, psychedelic romp through Las Vegas with the original intention being to cover a story on a motorcycle race, but things go off the rails as they both terrorize the entire city in a way. Just a fun ride the whole way, a great movie
The Truman Show (1998)
God I'm realizing this list is long as fuck. Don't watch all of these movies, it might take you a lifetime lmao. Anyway, this is a classic Jim Carrey movie and another one you've probably seen. But again, if you haven't, this movie is about a man whose entire life has been fabricated and shot for television without him knowing. Super great, super moving, fantastic film 10 outta 10 I gotta wrap this shit up
A Scanner Darkly (2006)
A lesser known Keanu Reeves movie, but fuck I wish more people have seen this. This is one of my favorite movies of all time, and it's based off a book which is just as amazing. This movie takes place in the near future, where facial recognition technology has progressed wayyy too far, and drugs have gotten to the point of no return. The plot follows a detective who is undercover in a junkie house trying to figure out who is the top of the drug dealing totem pole, but ends up wrapped in the junkie lifestyle a little too deeply. Seriously, I recommend this movie to everyone who asks, it's so damn good
Fight Club (1999)
Another popular one. If you havent seen it, it's based off a book by Chuck Palahniuk following the story of a man (the main character actually doesnt have a name lol) who meets a guy named Tyler Durden who changes his entire perspective on how the world works. They start an underground boxing club together to help themselves and other men blow off steam and get away from the capitalist consumer-centric lifestyle they are forced into. Big twist at the end, great movie five stars on yelp
Harold and Maude (1971)
This is a weird one. Gotta say. It's about a guy in his 20s who meets an old woman at a funeral and falls in love with her. Sounds pretty ok at face value but theres a lot of really strange subplots and a huuuuge twist at the end (one of the subplots being the guy compulsively fakes his suicide to get his mother's attention) big recommend
Polyester (1981)
This one I cant even explain u just have to watch it its fucking bizarre
Fargo (1996)
Ok lightning round on the synopses, this movie is about a man who wants to commit fraud by hiring guys to kidnap his wife so her father can pay them ransom and instead the husband gets the money but everything goes wrong it's really good
Bad Times at the El Royale (2018)
Another modern movie I actually like, last time I watched this I was on shrooms and it was crazy but it's about this hotel right on the border of california and (Nevada I think?) And all these weird people are staying at it and there are twists at every turn and chris hemsworth is a cult leader in it its great
Memento (2000)
GREAT MOVIE GOD PLEASE WATCH THIS ONE it's about a man who develops short term memory loss after witnessing the rape and murder of his wife AND WHEN I SAY THERE ARE TWISTS LIKE EVERY TEN MINUTES I MEAN IT. The film is chronologically backwards, in that the first scene takes place at the end of the story and works back from there in increments of like 5 minutes. Basically each scene is a segment of time that this guy remembers before his memory loss kicks in and he forgets and FUCK it's so good please god watch it
Almost Famous (2000)
This is another one that would probably be low on my ranking but still a great and fun movie, it's about this kid that wants to write articles about rock stars for the rolling stone (based off a true story btw) and he ends up running away to go ride on a tour bus with some band and gets into all types of shenanigans and its great and sad
Parasite (2019)
Another modern movie I love, fuck this is getting too long lmao. Poor family wants to make money and they hatch a scheme to pretend to be bougie and work for this rich family but shit gets weird and everything goes wrong and it's so good (also literally the only film ever that made me speechless afterwards)
Pulp Fiction (1994)
Pretty much lives up to the hype, I totally forgot the plot but it's pretty damn good I remember that lmao
The Warriors (1979)
Fun movie, theres a bunch of teen gangs in New York and the leader of all of em is like "hey we should rally all the gangs together and fuck up the cops so we can rule this city" but then he gets shot by someone in the crowd and the gang The Warriors gets blamed so the whole movie is them running from all the other gangs so they can get back to home base and it's just an all around fun time movie
12 Monkeys (1995)
THIS MOVJE IS CRAZY it takes place in the future where a virus has almost completely wiped humans off the face of the earth so these scientists send this guy back in time to figure out where it came from so they can stop it from ever happening but obviously everything goes wrong and yadda yadda yadda it's amazing
Waking Life (2001)
Gonna preface this by saying this film is definitely not for entertainment, it's kind of an arthouse-type flick. It's the type of movie you have to think really really hard about to watch. The basic plot is the main character is stuck inside his own lucid dream, and is walking around listening to all these characters in his dream talk to him about, idk like the meaning of life and consciousness and shit. It's really good if you're in the mood for that type of thing.
Okay I'm finally done, you probably didnt expect this but I've been meaning to put my movie recommendations on this blog anyway haha. I deleted some just cause it was getting wayyyy too long. If u want a shorter list I can just give u like a top 5 in DMs but there u go have at it, every movie on that list is a banger I swear
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