elphaba has such an intriguing relationship with her magic in the musical. like. imagine having this mysterious power you can't control and you don't understand and obviously nobody is going to help you understand it because everyone completely fucking hates you.
and elphaba wants so badly to control these powers she promises nessa that once they're at shiz things will be different and she won't use them but she doesn't KNOW how to do that. so this is yet another part of her that scares people or makes them angry at her, and it's yet another part of her that she has no control over.
it's fucked that she admires the wizard also. because she thinks the wizard has magic but of course that's a good thing. magic isn't the problem. the problem is her magic. she never even considered a career in sorcery because her magic is more a curse than a gift.
and we know her magic is tied to her emotions and it comes out when she's mad or frightened. can you imagine how many times she must've gotten mad growing up, considering how hard her life was? and how many times her powers manifested without her control? it must've happened a LOT if she had to promise nessa she wouldn't use her magic again. and how many times she stopped herself from getting mad in the first place because she was afraid of what she could do?
also elphaba tells morrible "something just comes over me sometimes. something i can't describe. but i will try to control myself." and then she apologizes to nessa. she apologizes for something she can't control, something she has clearly tried to control before, smothering down a part of her that should be natural, that should be considered a talent.
and a part of me thinks that she grew to resent her magic so thoroughly she carried that resentment even after getting training from morrible. after her lessons and after getting the grimmerie all the magic we see from elphaba is more "controlled" so to speak.
but still think about the scene at the governor's manor, when she purposely enchants nessa's shoes and she says "FINALLY from these powers something good" so even after all that time she still never saw her own powers in a positive light. and i mean. with the wizard and morrible tricking her to fuck up the monkeys of course she thinks like that.
she went from having to hide her powers, to trying to suppress them to make the people around her more comfortable, to being hunted because of her powers. of course she's never going to see that side of herself as something good. the amount of self-loathing she carries is just unreal i don't know how to finish this post but i love her very very much and she needs a hug.
Because I'm trans and gay, I have this weird thing where I don't know if I'm attracted to someone or want to be them. I had this a lot when I was younger , as what I thought were crushes are actually gender envy.
I remember being obsessed with male fictional characters, and I wanted to dress and be like them. So I made a venn diagram... these are ppl of the top of my head and probably not all.
(Probably spelling mistakes I made this in about a minute)
Like, it's fine to relate songs you like to fiction you like. That's good and fun! Hozier's music is often political commentary, but it's also about love and emotion and has inspirations in other genres of music and fiction (esp Unreal Unearth, which is explicitly based on Dante's Inferno).
The trouble comes not with linking, you know, a love song to your favorite blorbo, it's when you reduce Hozier the person into a magical sad fairy man stereotype Too Good for This World in a way that both reduces the influence of black music and artists on his work AND fetishizes Irishness as a whole as if Ireland is a fantasy kingdom of the past and not a real place populated by real people.
I finally got to see IDKHow live yesterday and it was great to do that~ I've been enjoying his music for quite a while now and was bummed I missed when he was on tour for Razzmatazz before, but was glad to get a chance this time not too far!
I hadn't been to a concert since 2019 so it was nice for a change, but tiring. I'm just really glad they played Clusterhug~
that stream gave us SO MUCH to be excited for, its truly insane how hyped i am for this show. i think this show has the potential to be one of their best, im seriously so pumped.
In the village in the Ramtops where they understand what the Morris dance is all about, they dance it just once, at dawn, on the first day of spring. They don't dance it after that, all through the summer. After all, what would be the point? What use would it be?
But on a certain day when the nights are drawing in, the dancers leave work early and take, from attics and cupboards, the other costume, the black one, and the other bells. And they go by separate ways to a valley among the leafless trees. They don't speak. There is no music. It's very hard to imagine what kind there could be.
The bells don't ring. They're made of octiron, a magic metal. But they're not, precisely, silent bells. Silence is merely the absence of noise. They make the opposite of noise, a sort of heavily textured silence.
And in the cold afternoon, as the light drains from the sky, among the frosty leave and in the damp air, they dance the other Morris. Because of the balance of things.
You've got to dance both, they say. Otherwise you can't dance either.
Terry Pratchett, Reaper Man*
*special request from @asmuchasidliketo, who wanted the unabridged account of the other Morris dance.
Handsome Sorcerer _ wip
Fanart
Character: Handsome Jack (Borderlands franchise)
I never really liked the design of the handsome sorcerer in the actual game.
Basically he’s a skeleton in a cap. I think that it would have been more cool if he had a magic violin with which he can summon a magic warrior, and also can shoot magic beams. He travels on he’s magic horse (ButtStallion), obviously.
I imagine him with no mask on, and when he uses his magic powers, his scar starts to bright.
I think I’d like to create a gif or something!
Let me know what you think! :)
when were y'all gonna tell me that hozier's music helps so fucking much with period cramps??
i played some random hozier playlist while waiting for the painkillers to help and the pain went from excruciating to slightly bearable too fast for this to not be some lesbian protector spell