#on top of the fact i feel like i need validation because of social media convincing me my art means nothing

[steddietogo]

So. This is my own take on Steddie meet cute at the Grammys (gets a little thirsty in the middle for a second so warning I guess??)

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The buzzing in his veins feel too much to contain in Eddie’s body, his cheeks ache from grinning too hard. He grabs Jeff by the shoulders to shake him and Jeff takes it without complain, too busy floating in his own cloud nine to do anything about it. All four of them are.

They’re being carted off from one interview to another, it’s all hazy in his mind, all he can think of is that they won a fucking Grammy.

“We’re here backstage with Corroded Coffin with their first ever Grammy from the best rock performance category,” the interviewer is saying, then he turns to face the band, and shit. Eddie has to sling an arm over Gareth to keep himself upright. “So how are you guys feeling right now?”

“It feels very validating to get the recognition for all our hard work—” and everything else Jeff says barely registers. Eddie is staring, he’s distantly aware of it. But he should hardly be blamed. The man before him is dressed in a deep caramel suit, jacket cinching around a trim waist and bubble gum pink lips stretched in a smile as he diligently listens to what his band has to say.

“— and Eddie, he’s really put his heart and soul in this song in particular,” the mention of his name unceremoniously drags him back to the land of the living where his bandmates know him too well and are actively trying to sabotage him before the sexy interviewer. Gareth is innocently blinking up at Eddie with his I’ve-never-done-anything-wrong-in-my-life eyes, urging him to speak.

“Um,” Um? Seriously? “Mob Mentality is an especially significant song to me personally—” Eddie’s given this spiel a hundred times, not that any word of it is untrue, but the practiced response lets him zone out just the right amount to fully drown himself in the shade of hazel of the interviewer’s eyes, imagine them looking up at Eddie from between his thighs, full of tears— goddamnfuckstopit.

The man must notice, because there’s a gorgeous smattering of pink dusting his cheeks Eddie could swear wasn’t there before.

After, Eddie is pretty much bodily dragged away from there, legs refusing to carry him away. He twists even as he’s walking, desperate to keep the man within his sights for even just a second longer. To keep him looking at Eddie, which by some miracle, he still is. And like an idiot Eddie waves, wiggling his fingers at him.

The man raises his own hand in return, and then he’s turning away, leaving Eddie to mourn the loss of his attention. But then he hears it— Steve. The camera guy calls him Steve. Sexy interviewer’s name is Steve. That in itself would be enough to sustain Eddie’s daydreams for some time.

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Predictably, its all over social media the very next day. Or more accurately there’s one particular clip circling the net like there’s no tomorrow.

Eddie Munson simping for hot guy at the Grammys.

The comments were the worst (best) part. Eddie hasn’t dated since coming out to the public. And the fact that most of the comments people have about him openly showing interest in another man is just nonchalance or excitement makes him feel much better about it.

Eddie’s heart skips as he sees the face from last night in the clip, looking even more gorgeous than in his dreams if it were even possible. And then there is also Eddie in those clips, practically undressing him with his eyes, right there in public. He looks like he wants to open him up and lick him like melted chocolate in a wrapper.

Eddie was so screwed.

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Top comments:

user 80085: that man is stronger than me because I don’t think I’d survive Eddie Munson looking at me like that

CorrodedFC: Eddie Munson Rendered momentarily speechless? by an interviewer?? More likely that you think

you_call_me_munson: they need to date. Right this second or I’m stealing one of the hotties for myself

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Part II

[elliespuns]

https://www.tumblr.com/elliespuns/743339485174054912/how-do-you-feel-about-everyone-going-nuts-on-tlou

you summed up my thoughts perfectly! there is a lot of very juvenile virtue signalling going on right now but then again i’ve always found things like ‘black outs’ and ‘strikes’ a little silly and just.. unrealistic honestly. it’s just a way for people to flex ‘i’m better than you because i’m dedicating all my free time to the cause and you’re not’. it reminds me of the very toxic twitter era where this sort of grapple for moral superiority was rampant amongst young people trying to assert that they were in fact good and pure (a LOT of these individuals are 17,18,19 it seems). not everyone wants to be a social media activist and that’s perfectly valid. calling you a zionist on anon is way too far though, at least have the guts to put forth such a serious accusation with your name attached.

I just think that people attacking bloggers for not 'spreading' informations about the conflict are unreasonable and rude. 

Every fandom blogger has their own personal social media where they might be talking about it, which these anon attackers won't ever know, yet they keep harassing. They are basically trying to spread good by being mean to others? How ironic.

I don't feel the need to apologize for not sharing it here. If I feel I want to share something here, I will (as I did a few hours ago). People should realize I am running a fandom blog here. Those who are already following me must already be aware of how things are.

Needless to say, many of us fell in love with the game back in 2013 (part 1) and 2020 (part 2) where there was no conflict and no 'choosing sides'. So now that the creator of the same game shows his true colors, we're supposed to start hating on something we already love and find hard to unlove? A bit harsh, huh? Because unless we go and buy the products from the big corporate companies, we are harming no one. Loving something from afar has never hurt anyone. For Christ's sake, we're loving a game with fictional characters, not the people who have the guns and bombs. The game will always be there; ignoring its existence will do nothing. 

For those who would be wondering (as I understand everyone expects a big fan like me to own things related to TLOU)… yes, I own things. But I bought them a long time ago, when there was NO conflict to get upset about yet. All of these things were bought secondhand on top of everything (well, except for Part 1, which I bought completely new back at the time—again, no conflict back then). So does that mean I should just take all these things and throw them away too? The damage has already been done; someone already bought these things from the corporate companies before selling them to me secondhand. Should I just take all these things, destroy them, and throw them out the window to prove what exactly? That doing so is completely useless too because it helps literally nobody? These things might as well just keep lying on my shelf. I didn't hurt anybody by getting them back in the day.

I am tired of repeating myself over and over. Those who understand this will get me. Those who don't, won't. And that's okay. I won't apologize for talking about Palestine in my personal life and not in the feed of the silly little blog I manage.

[small-strong-bookish-butch]

I've been wondering lately what the cultural impact— if at all— is, or will be in the future, of people generally talking about therapy more + using therapyspeak 'in real life' (or like, without code switching, so to speak*) + the fact that there's so many like.... therapy 'mental health education' Instagrams and TikToks that all say the same kind of thing everywhere, and all of this stuff is true on some level, but online it's like, this.... hivemind? Like, it's like this house of mirrors or something where it's not *a lie* but it's taken all the genuine "you need to look at your own shit" truth-telling out of therapy where it's this weird echo chamber of like ❤️something bad happened to you once and you are valid❤️ ❤️ your parents traumatized you and that's probably because they also are traumatized❤️ ❤️healing is when you listen to your inner child and nurture her❤️

*apologies if that's not the correct use of the term; it was the closest one I could think of off the top of my head

Thinking about Janelle Monáe saying "I saw my therapist/ she thinks you are my magic sin" and Noah Kahan saying "I poured my trauma out on some sad-eyed middleaged man's overpriced new leather couch" and "I'm still angry at my parents/ for what their parents did to them/ but it's a start" and Taylor Tomlinson's joke about how therapy is like solving a crime

Just like, sociologically/anthropologically and in the state of social media these days, I wonder what impact it will have? Especially since therapy is like, comparatively a very new science (and AFAIK it was popularized by Freud (who fucking sucked)) and now it feels like all this therapyspeak is watered down and easily misinterpreted and lacking accountability (overall) and just everywhere

[eddiegirls]

https://www.tumblr.com/eddiegirls/752518473419309056/i-just-what-the-fuck-are-we-doing-here?source=share

Can I also say that there are MANY queer men who very much dislike, or feel poorly represented by, or are just generally disappointed with, the manner in which Buck's arc unfolded this season and his relationship with Tommy? I don't know...on top of the misogynistic aspect this feels like a disingenuous attempt to weaponize male queerness in service of a ship war and I really find it offensive. Using 'queer men love this story, therefore it is perfect and immune from criticism, and anyone who disagrees needs to shut up' as a shield doesn't work when some of the most vocal and articulate critics of the story are, in fact, queer men.

Just don't pretend that you care so much about "own voices" when you are clearly discounting numerous of those voices! And speaking of "own voices"...as far as we know, a woman wrote the controversial Daddy joke (and YMMV on how you feel about it but opinions are valid). So miss me with the "This is how gay men talk and YOU don't understand!" BS.

completely agree on all counts!!!! the entire discourse surrounding this is so unbelievably condescending. these people are always saying shit like "i'm convinced all of them [buddie shippers and/or people who disliked the 7x10 date scene] are teenage girls who never go outside and don't have any adult relationships and never talk to IRL Queer Men." which is ridiculous for a number of reasons including 1) like you said, plenty of ppl who disliked the scene (and who ship buddie) are queer men 2) also like you said, a straight (?) woman wrote the scene 3) women are allowed to have opinions, even if they are young women with less experience than others 4) if you genuinely believe they're all children, why are you in your late 20s/30s/40s+ trying to fight with them on social media??? block and ignore??? 5) many people who disliked the scene have written long well-thought-out critiques explaining what they didn't like (incl. why it has nothing to do with "kink shaming" in the first place lmao. some of us love daddy kink and still hated it. and we are valid.)

what kills me is like, i'm sure that both buddie shippers and bcktmmy shippers are majority women/non-men, as many fandom spaces tend to be. but from my anecdotal observations, there are way more STRAIGHT women who ship bcktmmy and way more bi/lesbian/queer women who ship buddie, at least on tumblr (i do not venture into the twitter fandom much, but most buddie stans i see on there are also queer).

i just need to touch on it again - it's so fucking funny that i'm supposed to just accept the bcktmmy date scene without criticism because "that's how REAL queer men talk" when it was literally created by cishet TV writers

[plurillean-confessions]

Anyways, 💞 sysian bullshit 💞 (<- said positively) that singlets probably wouldn't understand (<- said negatively).

Stuff where it is like. This is physically impossible in the outer world. Even if it was a feasible thing in the external world. We can't really imagine this working outside our system. So, sometimes, there's just the weirdest most batshit intersections we have ever seen because we are sysian.

Or like. WDK. We've just had some very VERY weird relationships to plural sexuality and probably should've known earlier than a few months ago we are sysian on a collective basis with some interesting plurillean plural4plural exceptions.

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For one specific sysian relationship, if anyone ever manages to understand it, considers it as just as valid as external world relationships, and then somehow asks "oh so how did you all actually get together" we know what we are (not) telling them —

[Okay, NGL we have one headmate here whose eyes must have been, like, modified somehow, because he literally has that thing where if he's feeling Things they do this thing where his pupils? strat blinking like white LED lights???

Amd it's kinda

Hot

*KEYSMASHING* ]

What was not mentioned is, aforementioned pupils also literally turn into heart shapes. We stg he is just doing it on purpose sometimes (read: definitely does it on purpose with the express purpose of getting partners to throw themselves at him, lol, we guess ot WORKS fwiw?) lol.

It's not even a hypnosis thing, not that this would even be needed considering at least two of them. keep going at it like goddamn rabbits jeezus christ WDK what it is

And we're not even sure if that would work with other headmates to be honest. We have yet to find literally anyone else who does this and does it well.

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Another example:

Pretty sure one system member is just flat out bisexual and technically falls under the plurillean umbrella instead of the sysian umbrella, but he's also around so little these days and that system isn't one we've talked to in awhile.

But like. Our Bungo Stray Dogs fictive literally gave someone a bisexual awakening by fucking around/kinda-shitposting on (unspecified social media) and not realizing they gave someone a bisexual awakening until they posted, literally, something along the lines of they had to pause. And stare at the post(s).

Said person was in a DIFFERENT system, and literally was like "so if I wanted to fight on another plane where we both had our actual fighting capabilities, not being restrained by this moral coil, is that bisexual????" and we just.

Goddamn Ryunosuke. 😭

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Even then it's like. We have only fucked each other. External world fucking is a NOPE for us (excepting Ryunosuke???? the world may never know). It's not even connected to anything (as far as we can tell), we just...wdk.

The most connection we might be able to make for that one is like, MAYBE autism sensory stuff and headmates in your own brain inherently know those boundaries better. And we have excellent communication intra-system in ways that just make stuff more intimate (you can't really consensually overlay each others' perceptions, of any sort, on top of each other if each of you is in a different brainbody).

You could blame this or that or the other thing but we just...don't have much of a motivation regarding the external world, and every reason we throw at the wall like a wet noodle doesn't stick, even the reasons we could expect to stick.

Like, we'll consider if someone asks us (romantic interaction only) and we know them well, but we still don't consider that aroace because headmates are people...

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The only other system we ever dated in the external world was a piece of shit (not sure if you were around following when we were grieving, or even regrieving, The Eras and the fact we had to initiate that breakup ourselves Mod Lepton? sorry using mobile hopefully that's the name) but the fact is, we dated somesys who we had known since middle school, and it turned out THEY were a system too, and we didn't know until we were dating them. Lolsob.

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TLDR, "we're only gay for each other" has way many, many layers to it, to the point that we don't even really know how comprehensible we're being right now. Oops.

The fact is we've only ever been pulled to ourselves, or, very rarely, other plural systems. We're not sure what to make of that, so we're going to plug the JoJo's Bizarre Adventure joke:

Stands and stand users are automatically drawn to other stands and stand users. 😂😭😭😭😂

!

[itsclydebitches]

I need to re-watch the scene for exact details, but I've been thinking all day about Nate's failed Diamond Dogs attempt and why it crashed and burned so hard. I mean, the obvious takeaway is that there is none of the love and support from which to build that kind of group at West Ham. As Beard lays out for Trent in the same episode, they're laying bare their innermost thoughts, feelings, and experiences. If you don't trust the people in the room (which Nate has no reason to yet - it strikes me that they're left in this awkward silence while waiting to officially begin, rather than the casual camaraderie we see in Ted's office) and if there's no respect (which there isn't, particularly between Rupert and Nate: Nate is catching on to all of Rupert's manipulations - what name to call him, cheating with his secretary, etc. - and Rupert just straight up refuses to see him as a person) then of course the core foundation of what the group is built on will crumble.

However, beyond that I also think intention is important too. The original Diamond Dogs forms because Ted needs advice about sleeping with Sassy. He makes himself vulnerable to the very group he's forming as a way of modeling what the Diamond Dogs are all about. In contrast, Nate's first meeting feels more like an excuse to brag. Yes, he does have a similar problem to unpack, namely the question of how he should navigate this relationship, but that felt secondary to me, with the excuse to tell these top dog (pardon the pun) men that he's finally landed a maybe girlfriend forefronting his motivations. Remember, Rupert was meant to be in the room and Nate makes it clear that this meeting is not really about the group helping each other, it's about them paying attention to his partial success/continued worries. The fact that the other guy (I don't even know his name, which speaks to the lack of bonds in this room) wants to talk about taking care of his ailing parents but Nate shuts him down kinda says it all. Compare that to Beard graciously telling Ted that he has the floor and then, once Ted is done, he asks if anyone else has a problem to unpack, including Roy. Nate's Diamond Dogs, beyond lacking the relationships necessary to work in the first place, feels like it's built on his own, stubborn self-interest; it was an attempted replacement for Rupert/formerly the social media/formerly Ted. What outside force is building up my self-confidence nowadays, especially when Richmond is on a winning streak? Nothing except a maybe girlfriend! Let's try to create a new source of validation.

Nate has undoubtedly improved a great deal throughout this season. I actually thought at first that he was improving too quickly and with, to my mind, no narrative explanation. It was only when I saw other fans pointing out the power of getting distance from those who have enacted real and perceived harm (AKA the club and Ted) that Nate's kinda-offscreen growth made a bit more sense to me. However, now I'm actually glad to see him failing in these ways. Trying to talk to Ted after the game, spotting Rupert's manipulation, fluff family time that makes no mention of his father's expectations, a perfect end to his terrible date, not caring that his box got crushed, not spitting in the mirror... it felt like the show was absolutely speed-running Nate's redemption arc because it's the last season, rather than allowing him to organically struggle with these issues and face on-screen events that act as a catalyst for his growth. To say nothing of how the show argues very strongly that growth has to be modeled/supported for an extended period of time... and Nate is without both this season, yet still seems to 'magically' be improving. Given where we left him, I kinda feel like I'm watching an alcoholic suddenly overcome their addiction while working in a brewery. Yeah, of course that's possible... but I very much expected this to happen in a different environment, or at least with far, FAR more support. So now, despite only having three episodes left, I'm reassured by the backslide. Nate refuses to wave to Ted in front of the crowd. He's still trying to suck up to Rupert, both over text and in person. He forms a group that, although oh-so-obviously modeled after Ted's, is really just a Nate the Great show. It feels like the show remembers that he has too much to work on to 'fix' it all with a girlfriend storyline. Nate is a very complicated character who needs a great deal of screen-time to come back from where we left him last season; frankly, more screen-time than he can feasibly get with just a few episodes left and a cast this large. Despite the potential pitfalls of that though, I think it's good that the season is reintroducing some of that complexity. Nate isn't just on a winning streak of his own with soft looks cast towards Richmond photos and an adoring girl in his bed. That need for external validation is still very much there and he's never going to fully come into himself until he realizes what the himbo boys did this season: Belief isn't a sign up on the wall, or a kind coach, or a girlfriend, or a Diamond Dogs group. Those all help support you, yes, but ultimately it has to come from within.

[standardquip]

Post I'm replying to is here

"Generally speaking, the more hours I devote to [editing] a video, the more I like it and the prouder I am of the results.

I fear that others don't feel the same, though. My second-most popular video on Tumblr is an "older" one of relatively little effort, and I unfortunately can't say that I care much for it myself. It took maybe 20 hours, tops, whereas more recent videos that pushed past the 50-hour mark—and that I'm far more confident in—have garnered maybe half the notes.

[...]

I enjoy edits with lots of clips and effects... but are those kinds of AMVs just "bad"? Or is the way I'm executing them bad? Am I focusing on all the wrong things with my videos?"

- @marshmallowgoop

This is touching on a much larger "issue" in the vidding/editing community than you might realize (although you do seem to recognize it is an issue) but I'm going to try to tackle it in many points.

These are in no particular order.

Your audience doesn't know how long it took to make something.

I know it's hard to come to terms with the fact that sometimes "crappy" things do better than stuff you personally like more, but unfortunately that happens with everyone, all the time. Memes get more traction than well-written anecdotes, headlines get more traction than the actual article, and short vids are often easier to relate to than longer ones with more of a story.

What the internet zeitgeist grabs cannot easily be predicted and is never a judgement of quality. Throw this logic in the garbage, because what goes viral should never have any factor in your self-worth.

Who is your [main] audience for your videos?

If you're making your videos for you, than whatever you like is good. If you like what you end up with, then the video succeeded. If you are making videos to chase audience interaction (which is valid, btw, just not something I personally do), then they need to appeal to a very wide general audience. You'll need to re-assess why the vids aren't getting as much interaction as they used to and adjust your editing style to increase that interaction.

But your past posts don't seem like that's your target. It seems like you make vids for you. So don't think your videos are "bad" because they're not getting likes. They're getting the most important like: Your own.

Of course, it's always nice to be validated by other people. But that's generally not going to happen based on the amount of effort you put into something. It's generally just gonna be with people who vibe with or relate to your content, and if they don't then it won't be shared as much.

Another thing to factor in is where the people who like the stuff you like are located. Maybe your immediate circle is more about conan memes, and you need to go to reddit or something to find the conan romance fans. It could also be timing. Maybe the people who like conan romance aren't online when you post and don't see it. Or maybe it's just luck because the internet and social media are just Like That and totally random. Talk to any artist about trying to play the algorithm to sell more art! 😆

What is the ultimate goal for your videos?

On a per-video basis, you'll generally have a premise for a video.

Things like:

I want to play with new effects

I want to gain as many likes as possible

I want to make an action video

I want to make a character profile that people who have not seen the source video can appreciate

I want to make a good video for a particular song

A "good" video will balance visual entertainment with story, but ultimately, in my experience, it helps to simplify your video down to one goal, and then base all of your following decisions on if those decisions achieve the goal.

As an example, let's say you want to make an action video but your primary interest is the visual effects. This will affect your scene selection, as you should pick scenes that will work better with effects.

Action videos are generally more cohesive when they center around one particular character or duel. If that "plot" were your goal then you'd pick scenes that created a narrative structure aligning with the character or duel's progression.

But since you want to use as much vfx as possible, you may diverge from that cohesiveness by instead injecting a montage of "powering up" scenes with flashy transitions, or maybe you will sidestep the focus on one particular rivalry and include another fight with an unrelated character because that gives more opportunity for better added animation.

This does not make any quality judgements on what is "good" or "bad" when it comes to videos - instead it comes down to whether this particular editing decision advances the ultimate goal of your final video.

Similar to writing, if you're making a persuasive essay, you shouldn't meander onto your own related-but-not-actually-the-topic-of-the-essay rant. The rant might be great, but it's not the purpose of the essay and ultimately just muddies the point you're trying to make (much like this metaphor probably did for my post about video editing, whoops).

"is the way I'm executing [amv effects] bad?"

First of all:

"Good" or "bad" is so subjective, there is no overseer that can definitely say this is good or bad, because it's art, and art is subjective and on and on. Which I'm sure you know, but it bears repeating anyway.

I have tried to be unbiased for this reply so far, but I have to disclaim before I continue that I come from the "school" of "raw editing" - which is to say, trying to stay away from a bunch of effects - so while I am trying to remain unbiased, what I say next will probably be biased despite my efforts.

Even though there is not a definitive "good" or "bad" in vidding (and if you're hanging out with people who are making blanket judgements like this... don't), we can instead look at art, cinematography, and editing fundamentals for the general "laws".

As fan video editors, we are also essentially our own directors and cinematographers. We can choose which scenes we want to use for certain goals and sometimes even make up our own scenes through compositing.

I made this playlist that is about half fundamentals and half random editing guides. I do still add to it, but it's hard to find videos that aren't bloated (and also related to vidding somehow), so updates are few and far between.

Anyway, of note are:

These are both highly valuable as they can help you not only choose which scenes to put together, but how to position them if you're framing your own shots through zooms and motion effects.

I watched all the videos you linked, and I think you are a good editor that makes what you like and that may not appeal to a broad audience.

I'm not a conan fan, but your vids aren't boring. I'm not a heavy vfx editing fan, but your videos don't look like most heavy vfx shorts. You're either making stuff your own (what I assume) or using presets I'm not familiar with.

WARNING I'M GOING TO CRITIQUE SOME OF YOUR VIDS BELOW

(I assumed you might actually want answers to some of those questions; if not, skip this part!)

The school of thought I come from with vidding says that everything should have a purpose. If my goal is to make a plot-driven vid, then what does a particular effect add to the video?

In this video at 0:04, you have this kind of cut in block thing, and I'm wondering what is this for? Why is it there? To me it's distracting and interrupts the flow.

But it could be a callback to Yu-Gi-Oh somehow? Maybe it's to give the video a feel like it needs to buffer load or something?

I'm not familiar with either source mentioned in the description, so I can't say, but as a general audience member, there's just so much stuff happening visually that I have no idea what's supposed to be happening story-wise. Maybe it's a character profile?

I'm sure you could extrapolate effects and decisions for all your other AMVs. But deciding if something works for your video's goal has nearly zero impact on the time it takes to complete.

Meanwhile, I look at this vid, which seems like a standard romance vid and it seems like a good balance between the romance and the effects; I'd only maybe change one or two things. Nearly all the effects work together to advance the story of the romance, so I'm not sure what went "wrong" here (in terms of lack of audience interaction).

END CRITIQUING

Is accessibility a concern?

Many vfx-heavy amvs rely a lot on motion transitions, which can cause motion sickness! I've gotten motion sick from more AMVs than I care to admit LOL.

But even aside from that, there are photosensitive people, and their photosensitivity triggers are far more broad than just flashing lights.

I noticed all your vids have captions and that you participate on ao3, so it seems like you're hanging out with people who also value accessibility.

In this way, by making vfx-heavy videos you are probably limiting your audience to people who are not photosensitive and/or sensitive people willing to "gamble" on a vfx heavy vid.

What you can do to help curb this is by adding content warnings about photosensitive triggers in your videos. On ao3 these are typically called "physical triggers," but 2 years ago I made a whole system called Vidding Photosensitivity Relay (VPR) .

Basically is comes down to describing what visually happens in your video. In most of your videos cases it would be motion transitions, quick cuts, and peripheral text. These relays (I'd hesitate to call them warnings) give people a better idea of what to expect when it comes to the videos they're watching.

With a better informed decision they could know if they can watch the video now, or later in a different setting, or maybe not at all to avoid a days-long migraine or something similar-- I was very surprised just how many people involved in vidding are photosensitive!

So that may be something to look into. You don't have to use VPR as a system, but it at the very least does list potential triggers and examples so you could refer to those.

My somewhat off-topic more of a personal reply here

"But I'm absolutely terrified that I'm only getting worse here—that as I learn more effects and get more comfortable with my program, my work is actually degrading."

(source)

Maybe you're just losing focus? Did you go through a writing phase where you had a massive vocabulary and started inserting all the "big words" into everything? The usage is technically correct but the message gets muddied due to the readers perception?

Maybe it's that.

I think re-assessing what your personal goals are, and deciding for yourself what you want to prioritize - your likes vs other people's likes (for starters) - will help.

There is also a need to decouple internet interaction from self-worth, which I know is MUCH easier said than done. But there are SO MANY great artists, editors, people in general, who don't get much interaction because the algorithm doesn't prefer them and/or they don't market themselves. That doesn't make them worth any less than the people who make it their priority to market themselves instead of create art.

I hope this whole post doesn't come off as patronizing or anything!

I usually just talk into the void and not get actual direct replies LOL.

Also sorry for taking so long to reply! Hope it helps in some way.

[malkahpariyz]

Yesterday I saw a beautiful modest queen post her beautiful modest dresses… This is the ruckus her innocent act caused:

Backstory: a very fine Muslim woman posted her beautiful dresses on Instagram, merely wanting to showcase that her husband always talks about how she never wears the beautiful dresses she buys, so she’s showing them off in another fashion. These dresses were beautifully modest and elegant, and showcasing her personal sense of style all the while remaining modest…. And boy oh boy, did people have much wrongfulness to say about it.

Here is the video this good hearted and modest Muslim woman posted:

Many Muslim men began commenting on this post calling the video sinful, bashing the woman’s character, saying harmful things about all Muslim women who express their sense of style, saying things like “she needs to be punished” “she’s not a good wife” “ship her back” etc… here is an example of what one Muslim man had to say about her:

And here are the reactions to these comments that Muslim women, Christian women, Jewish women, Hindi women, and non-religious women alike had to say about these types of comments: *please read them all*

These women and some men had every right to feel disgusted by the way this woman was spoken to in these comments.

And I also had a comment I wanted to make on the woman’s behalf and to defend her against the attacks and hate she was receiving:

And in my efforts to defend an innocent woman.. I too was attacked by an ignorant little girl and here I will showcase the “conversation” and let you all know my thoughts as I truly feel I have a right to do so and I do have a right to do so… *please read the conversation thoroughly, the sequence goes from top to bottom, left to right*

Now, I will begin my true and valid thoughts by saying this:

That woman’s post is not doing what that girl is saying it’s doing. A woman expressing herself is not taking away from her relationship with God. And the children following after others is their upbringings fault, not the people they are following’s fault or responsibility to prohibit. If you see her and start prioritizing “beauty” and “style” BEFORE prioritizing God and following and believing in God. That’s your feeble ignorant issue!! Not the influencer who is RIGHT and ONE with God, prays without ceasing, and prioritizes God and her modesty, while also enjoying expressing her sense of creativity and style! If you do something you are not to do because she is doing whatever she is doing? That’s your issue NOT her issue…Nobody told you to look up to these influencers or follow these influencers or prioritize following what they are doing before you follow and prioritize God. Being a sheep is that sheep-like individuals fault, no one else’s. All young people of today have an issue with being influenced by INFLUENCERS on social media. And that is not the HUMAN MIND that is what FOOLISH MINDS do. People who cannot refrain from being followers of other humans are the issue, not people on social media being themselves, especially the people who are modest and pure. If many women cannot be modest if they want to? It is the fault of that particular woman NOT random people on the internet. All of this example of children being influenced by others, has nothing to do with religion and everything to do with the climate of society, while what I addressed truly had to do with religion and the fact that many people practice a said religion differently and not exactly how others do.

Claiming that I don’t know about what I am choosing to speak on, just because I MAY not be Muslim, is an ignorant false assumption because people know nothing of what I do and do not know.

I truly do know the semantics of a situation like the one she gives an example of as proof this woman’s treatment was okay or justified…It’s the equivalent to a Christian woman not wanting her daughters following after these half naked women on Instagram. But sister, children being influenced by these influencers has nothing to do with this woman’s freedom to do as she likes and it does not mean she deserves these people’s HATE and in this case she is actually doing nothing wrong and still exuding an extremely acceptable level of modesty. And practicing Islam as she interpreted she should and could.

This young girl opened this conversation with “actually her neck is showing” then claims she has no issue with how the woman is dressed. Then completely tries to ignore, disregard, and discredit the fact that 75% of my family is Muslim and what that would say about my knowledge base and stance (and little does she know, my own mother and grandmother were Islamic for long periods of their lives, wore the hijab for long periods of their lives, and have extensive knowledge about the religion themselves… and what make her ignorant self feel like I haven’t asked my INTERMEDIATE family that I am close to {mother, grandmother, aunties, uncles, and male and female cousins alike} how they feel about subjects like this??) but she ignores all of these facts I have told and haven’t told, all to make herself feel and seem right about something she is wrong about and wrong for trying to justify the comments made about this woman. Assuming I do not know about exactly what I do know about so that she can feel right in this moment where she is wrong. Assuming I don’t know the facts and truth of the matter all because the real facts and truth of the matter of it all, makes me completely disagree with her and makes me disappointed in her for being another Muslim falsely judging and persecuting another Muslim. I am well informed and educated in many different religions. I am a theologian AND a historian. I know what is called for in Islamic modesty, and guess what there’s different forms of implementing it. Some women wear the hijab and on some days she will cover her neck and on some days she will not. Some people wear a niqab, and feel it absolutely necessary and SOME DONT, some people only wear hijab, some people wear khimar, some people wear jilbab, some people wear abaya and turban. Alllll throughout all Islamic countries at that. In Africa and the Middle East. Even LONG before modern times and modern styles, ALL different styles of modesty were being practiced and all still obeying what the religion has voiced as Gods words about modesty.

Its truly barbaric the wrongful assumptions people make to justify their sick behavior and delusions and their attacks on innocent people.

One cannot assume what conjures my stance in this matter. There is ALOT that I have studied and researched for myself about Islam. A lot of information I have gather from first accounts of Muslim women themselves. A lot that I have remained highly informed about. A lot that I have read inside of the Quran for myself and have learned from my VERY well informed family members who are practicing Muslims and who are serious about their faith. I know more than most people born and raised in that religion actually knows about it, and the plight of the people within it… but you can’t tell this IGNORantly ASSumptive young girl that addresses me about that now can you?… What she spoke about and her backing of her position is how SHE feels about it, NOT all Muslims and I know this for a fact. So yes, it is HER opinion of what the modesty spoken in her religion should look like. She is someone who wants people to adhere to her understanding of things. Which is not the only understanding of Islam. By saying “it’s giving the wrong impression to women who really want to be modest” : is as if the way SHE believes her religion said to be modest is the only form of upmost modesty, when there are others within her own religion that feel differently about the interpretation of what was called for in the religion and about what is and is not appropriate. THAT is my point to her. That all Muslims do not feel the way she feels about this woman’s level of modesty and do not believe that she is being wrongful. That is what I meant by what I said. Not whatever her ignorance is claiming about me and my comments….

She tried to save herself the embarrassment by changing her story and claiming to not actually care about the woman’s neck showing and ignoring the proof of my extensive knowledge base and understanding of Islam. Saying all that she said, not for any other reason except a truthfully spiteful and pitiful attempt at self preservation and justification of an innocent woman’s sustained attacks on social media.

The truth is the woman in the video above, has done nothing wrong and many other Muslims feel that she has done nothing wrong. If you are a balanced person, like you are supposed to be in Gods eyes. Giving yourself the freedom of expression through style and creativity is not taking away the focus from God. If you are being as you are supposed to be, God will still have all the glory and total focus in your life while you still express your passion for fashion through modesty. That is my message to all women who veil and practice modesty today. The only sin in this whole ordeal is the way these people JUDGED, SPOKE DOWN ON, BELITTLED, and ATTACKED this innocent woman on social media. That is the only sin that has been committed here. The young girl that tried to attack me for coming to the woman’s defense needs to realize that, that woman was not going against God’s orders, the young girl was going against God’s orders by proceeding to judge that woman, speak foully to me in trying to shew me away, insult my intelligence, falsely judge me and my knowledge base and understanding, and falsely assume everything she falsely assumed about me and the woman I was defending.

If I comment on something and say “please don’t hate on this fellow sister in faith” and you object to that comment. You are a hateful person yourself trying to justify hate and make an excuse for it. No matter what you disagree with, people’s mindset of hate is never justified. You cannot defend or justify an “idea people have” when they are expressing that idea based in hate and judgement of someone. Otherwise you are a hateful and wrongfully judging person as well. That poor young girl thought she won an argument against me that didn’t even exist. Unknowingly committing sin herself with every word she uttered in assumptions, judgements, and dismissals. I pray God show her the true way. God bless her like I originally said and meant and may God bless her with knowledge, understanding, wisdom, accommodation and unity.

“Purify the heart, to tame the tongue” - anonymous

There was nothing, modest, meek, humble, elegant, or graceful about how this young girl approached me in the comments, and her stance in the matter, with all kinds of wrongful assumptions and verbiage. I came to the Muslim woman’s defense and a fellow Muslim woman tried to fight down the defenses trying to protect a fellow Muslim woman. This young person has alot to learn about everything, including her own religion, that she may never even learn. Who cares if you dress modestly if YOUR SPIRIT DOES NOT MATCH.

I think people need to pick up a book besides the ones they are told to read. I think people should read their holy book for themselves and not take every interpreters words, attitudes, and opinions of what the text actually says and means. I think people should remove the hate, and keep the love and understanding. I think people should follow God how God told them to and not worry about what anyone else is doing or thinking of what they do. It is more of a sin to judge someone in the only way God can, than it is any other sin. Only God can judge and that power is reserved for God alone.

After I say God bless everyone, the conversation should be over for people who actually have God in their hearts.

I am a Hebrew Israelite, a denomination of Christianity, but I still love, accept, and support my fellow Christians who do not believe exactly what I believe or practice exactly what I practice. I hope many people of many faiths can take a page from my book and practice love and acceptance. That is the way of God. Truly. (P.S. I am a Hebrew Israelite that practices modesty and wears the veil (a.k.a. wears the hijab) so if I wanted to “ask somebody who actually wears the hijab”, I literally can ask myself, as well as 75% of the rest of my family, but I like to let ignorant people live in whatever feeble reality they have chosen, out of ignorance and whatever sickness they are plagued with).

It’s amazing how people will fight harshly and relentlessly against the light and love, all in the name of pointless hate and to prove wrongful points against innocent people.

Here is what I sent to uplift the young woman that was being attacked on social media by her own community and other ignorant individuals:

Educate to elevate.

Don’t assume, it makes an ass out of you.

Knowledge is power.

God is one love.

Lead by example not judgement.

Accept others and love them as God does.

Know who you are talking to and what they know, before you speak.

Read the room. Or just simply… read.

- The Modest Blog

[dazedpuppydairies]

Update

Here's an update I've been meaning to make for a while, but I've been so exhausted lately. I'm still exhausted, but I'm on Tumblr right now so here it goes. This may seem as if it's coming out of nowhere because I've mentioned several times I'm very weary being open about our plurality on the internet in fear of us getting harassed; however, in light of recent realizations and the fact that our plurality is now professionally validated this is the natural progression I believe we need to make. I'm just going to get to the point we're starting a system blog. Again I imagine this may seem as if it's coming out of nowhere, but as of recently I've come to the conclusion enforcing us masking as single or let's be real making my headmates mask as me has been detrimental to our system. I think I may have mentioned this before, but at this point in system discovery we don't have much communication between each other at all and I think that's partially my fault. I have some control issues and then topping that with the expectation we're going to mostly present as single I think I intentionally created a very unhealthy dynamic. I'm front stuck most of the time, but when other parts do get to fully front they're left with my life, my partners, my friends, my stuff, my social media, and shouldn't be that way. My headmates don't feel like they have the autonomy to do much because I've created that expectation and that's problematic to our well-being. I imagine the lack of autonomy is extremely frustrating. I can't imagine not being host and finding myself in that awful position. Didn't mean to create this unhealthy dynamic so I'm trying to fix it. I am very worried about us getting harassed for simply being ourselves, but I suppose we'll never know if we don't try. At the end of the day I'm really just hoping this helps.

[kcjacobs]

If we, we as in each individual, stood up for ourselves, took back all that power we have willingly given over to our so-called government, the people we trust to keep us, our money and our homes safe, then we could live a much better life one that we are still yet to discover.  Instead,  we have been made to believe thay without a president ( posh word for dictator ) we can’t function as a society  Funnily enough it’s those in question who are the ones that keep telling us that, scaring us to believe that this terrible world we live in, all the crime and violence we see constantly broadcasted worldwide, would only get worse without them. 

Why is this 100% not true? 

War is caused between governments, higher powers, and it’s all for money and power. 

Poverty isnt a misfortune, it could end, lets be honesy theres plenty of money in the world that if divided farely would end poverty all together, one football teams wages together alone, the houses of Parliament could save thousands of lives just by cutting their income by 10%.  ….but they earned it you say?  

If someone, anyone ould look me in the eyes with a straight face and tell me exactly how they earned all their thousands and millions that isn’t off us, weapons, trafficking or our taxes (a few examples from the top of my head) qnd make a valid point, you will never see me write again but it’s impossible. We hand over over 50 % of our hard-earned wages and don’t say shit about it out loud... we may huff and puff and tell our other halves, or friends how pissed off it makes us and then brush it of and continue our day to day lives. 

 How can we be letting this happen and think its normal? we need to fight for what is ours, and that’s everything  

Our wages, our land, our kids, our freedom, our planet. We, as a society, are so strong…if someone stole 5000 euros or even 5p, knowing who they are, would u let it go or would you fight to get back? Assuming our minds aren’t completely delusional, of corse we would fight to get back whatever was stolen….if your answer is anything other than that then get back to believing your social media bullshit and catch up on what’s most important like, Adam Sandler in a hoodie at the grammys or the fact that Shakira caught pique cheating because her jam jar was half full because this is wasted on you. 

Once upon a time on this same planet earth we inhabit on, lived thousands of people with one simple rule/law….do no harm, to others…Easy and simple, but we then had thepower over ourselves and ourselves alone. Laws were put into place for buisnesses, corporations laws and even then two partys had to agree to it before it was put in place. Slowly, somehow at somepoint someo e placed this laws outside of buisness and into our lives and with power comes greed and that’s exactly what happened  

I look at my grandparents, my grandfather from my father’s side, his parents e.c.t fought for us in the war, and the guilt I feel keeps me up at night sometimes. 

They left their homes, their children, their wife’s and lives to fight for us for our futures and did not give up for a second, they must had been exhausted, petrified so lonely and lost yet they kept going with the thought of us, our families safety and for what? For the lives we have choose to live now, no freedom, no love, our society no longer has passion or pride, we just keep our heads down and do as we are told out of fear? Laziness? Or pure stupidity I don’t know but either way out soldiers have every right to be disgusted and disappointed in us but its fixable, we can do everything in our power to make sure our babies don’t have to live this continuous rat race we call life. 

If law was so important and necessary for us to live right, how come one rule applies to one and another to others? 

If we haven’t realized by now that all news is fake news and it is simply a disguise to keep us all blinded from what is truly happening around us, which is what we really want to know, or need to know. 

Credit to us all, getting through one of the biggest ‘epidemics’ as they called It. I saw a real society where I was at the time, exactly what our society should be like at all times, baking cakes, gardening, exercising, people caring for their neighbours,  helping our elders with shopping, most places became a real community, so I don’t believe for a second anymore that we can’t possibly be civil together alone because we can, and we will. 

[skynecraft]

I really wish art was something I enjoyed doing like it used to be 😔

[h2bakugou]

4k special | WAP dance reactions

a/n: it’s here! the big moment!! (edit 9.12.2020 - requests are closed and will reopen again soon!)

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thank you for 4,000 followers, and as of editing, we’re at 4.3k, it’s insane, thank you so much, i love writing, and your support is what makes it possible. here’s to more in the future. thank you for all your love and support <3

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dance credits go to @/ besperon on tiktok!

all characters aged up 18+ au!!

headcanon: them reacting to their s/o doing the wap dance

key: (y/n) - your name / (f/n) - first name / (l/n) - last name / (e/c) - eye color / (h/c) - hair color / (y/q) - your quirk

warnings: swearing, suggestive themes, fluff, no smut but 16+

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katsuki bakugou

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Before you even start the dance, you’re pumping yourself up. The song is playing, and you’ve just decided you’ll dance to the part when it gets to it.

You practiced hard enough, and you had a few injuries but now you were ready.

Bakugou’s watching you closely. This song was very interesting to him.

All of the analogies in the song are shocking him the more he listens to it. It’s kind of groovy though.

Bakugou’s waiting, and as he reaches for his phone the ending hook comes and he’s frozen as you kick your leg up and begin to dance.

He watches as you bounce back in forth, your curves moving to the music.

He’s shocked by the way you move, he’s never seen you do anything like that before. But he’d certainly like to see you do it again.

“What was that?” Bakugou smirks. You catch your breath and stand up, smiling.

“The new dance I learned, did you like it?” You question, walking over to him.

“Oh I loved it.” Bakugou smirked. You rolled your eyes and sat down on his lap.

“Glad you enjoyed it.” 

“Could you teach me how to do it?” Bakugou’s eyes were speaking for him, you knew exactly what he meant, but before you’d show him the dance privately, you’d worked his ass out and had him learn the dance.

He nailed it-

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shoto todoroki

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You’ve been practicing this dance for about a week or two now. And you were so excited to see Todoroki’s reaction of it.

“Hey Sho?” You call for your boyfriend and he emerges from his room. You were at his house, and thankfully there was plenty of space for you to do said dance.

“Yes baby?” He asks, standing in the doorway of the large studio you’d been warming up in.

“I have a dance I’d like for you to see me do.” You smile innocently.

“Alright.”

You begin to play the music, just before it gets to the part you’ll be dancing too and Todoroki’s face is already red.

And when the beat drops, you’re kicking your leg up and dropping down to the floor, popping your ass out and going at it.

Todoroki is entranced as he watches you, completely mesmerized by how you’re moving.

It’s so beautiful.

When you get to the split, Todoroki’s eyes widen as you move. He’s blown away.

“That was amazing.” Todoroki compliments. It was hot.

“I’m glad you liked it.” You whisper to him, pecking his cheek as his face reddens even more.

“Hey wait.” Todoroki grips your wrist and looks down. 

“Do you have a few minutes?”

“Do you want a private dance lesson?”

“Yes.” Todoroki whispers.

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izuku midoriya

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Be prepared. Because Izuku is going to be a blushing mess before and after.

You’ve practiced, and he’s heard the song you practiced too. It was all over social media and he accidentally interrupted you while you were practicing.

But you shooed him out and finished up alone without any interruptions.

Deku can be a shy boy but he can also be dominant. A true switch.

“You ready?” You ask as Izuku sits down on the couch nervously. He nods and relaxes, sitting back into the dark green sofa.

The music starts and you sway your hips, waiting for the beat to drop, and when it does, you do too.

Izuku’s eyes are glued to you as you kick your leg up and land on the floor, throwing your ass out and following the routine.

Midoriya’s cheeks flush red as he watches, but he can certainly tell how hard it must’ve been to learn the dance, let alone how badass it was as well.

When you finish the dance, you bow and smile at Izuku, who’s trying his best to contain his excitement and fluster.

“That was amazing!” He was proud of you. He knows how hard training can be.

“Did you like it?” You questioned innocently, striding over to him on the couch, taking a seat on his lap.

“I loved it! You did great!” Deku beamed, no longer trying to hide his blushing face.

“There’s a lyric, in this song...”

“Yeah?” Deku’s hands rest on your hips.

“I think I’d like to spell my name out for you sometime.”

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denki kaminari

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Horny. Jail.

If anyone knows this song, it’s Kaminari. He knows it word for word, and it’s probably one of his most played songs at the moment. Not for its lyrics, but because he genuinely finds it pretty groovy.

He also finds the ‘touch that little dangly dang that swing in the back of my throat’ part funny.

He’s probably also seen the dance a few times, he’s woke when it comes to tik tok culture.

So when he overhears you practicing the dance, he’s very curious.

“Whatcha doin’?” He peaks his head into the room and you quickly snap out of the position you were in.

“Nothing! Go!” You shoo him away with a smile, closing the door so you can finish practicing.

Kaminari has an idea of what’s going on.

So when you perform the dance for him, he’s aware and he knows what he’s expecting, but at the same time, he did not expect it at all.

The way your body moved and flowed with the music, you looked good, really fucking good.

“Shit.” Kaminari cursed, biting his bottom lip as you brought your leg back around, bouncing into the final split as you bounced up and down.

Kaminari’s never really seen you move like that before, but he knows now that he loves every second of it.

“What’d you think?” You ask, stepping over to him.

“I-It was good.” Kaminari had drool leaking from his mouth as he stared at you, his entire body threatening to short circuit.

“I’m glad you liked it.” You lean down and kiss his cheek, knowing that he was going to be smitten for you even harder.

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eijiro kirishima

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He’s heard the song maybe once or twice thanks to Kaminari. He likes the song and thinks it’s actually pretty good.

He doesn’t know there’s a dance for it, and he certainly doesn’t know that you’re practicing it.

So when you bring him into your bedroom and sit him down on the bedroom, he’s a little confused.

And when you start dancing, his faces turns a shade of crimson, very similar to the one he dyes his hair.

Your body moves swiftly, and Kirishima’s eyes never seem to leave you as he watches you dance.

From the way you move your hips, to the point of your toes as you kick into the split.

Watching you do something like that is impressive, Kirishima is impressed.

“Wow.” Kirishima utters as you rise to your feet, clapping your hands together with a big grin on your lips.

“Did you like it?” You question, excitement bubbling inside you. It’d taken hours, probably close to a few days in fact, of practice to nail it. And it was well worth it.

You felt sexy, and validated, and strong, and badass.

“I loved it. You did amazing.” Kirishima smiles, trying to ignore the heat on his face.

“You’re blushing Kiri.” You comment, teasing the red-head as you walk over to him.

“I’m not! I’m just...”

“Being manly. I know.” You kiss his cheek and sit on his lap, wrapping your arms around his shoulders.

“Are you tired?” Kirishima asked quietly, his large hands resting on your hips.

“Why? Do you have something in mind?”

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tamaki amajiki

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Tamaki is flustered just being around you. He’s a nervous kind of guy, granted he can swallow his nerves when he needs too, but generally speaking, he’s gonna be a blushing mess when you mention even holding hands.

It’s no surprise what this song does to him.

Between the loss of words, and the sheer heat that radiates off of the bright blush on his cheeks, he’s flustered.

Even more so when you begin to dance.

It’s not like he’s embarrassed of sex, or songs that mention it, he just happens to get flustered easily.

Especially when you dance. 

And you dance well.

He’s battling watching you or looking away and not trying to imagine the dance as anything more than a dance. It’s hard, but you wanted him to watch you. Why should he feel bad?

“B-bunny.” He stutters quietly as you transition into the split, popping your hips out, bouncing off the ground.

When the music fades out, he covers his face to hide the enormous blush on his cheeks.

“Awe, Tama-”

“Bunny. T-That was so beautiful.” He stutters, peeking through his fingers to look at you as you approach him.

“Thank you. Are you alright, your face is really red.” You peel his hands away and get close to his face, admiring your boyfriend up close.

“I-I’m fine. J-Just a little hot.” Tamaki gushes, looking away quickly.

“You don’t have to be so flustered about it, I wanted you to see me dance! It’s okay Tamaki.” You kiss his cheek and hold his hands, earning his gaze.

“Bunny.” Tamaki pulls you on top of him and you laugh at him for a second before admiring him even closer.

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mirio togata

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Ass man ass man ass man.

He literally sticks his ass out of a bush and you’re gonna tell me he isn’t-

He’s sold the second he hears the song, he already knows what’s about to happen because he’s kind of into the whole tiktok thing.

He watches in antcipation as the song plays, waiting for the moment you drop to the floor.

And he’s so into it. He’s grinning like an idiot, practically drooling over you as your hips move in ways he’d only ever imagined them to move.

More so, when you do the splits, he’s curious about how long you can do them for.

And when it’s over, he’s clapping.

“That was amazing, I had no clue you could move like that.” Mirio hus as you walk over to him.

“I’ve been practicing. I’m glad you liked it!” You smile, giving hin a short hug.

“Could I see those moves again sometime?” Mirio asks cheekily. You giggle and sigh.

“I guess I could teach you a little about them.”

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hawks/keigo takami

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This motherfucker.

He knew from day one what you were going to do. Just from hearing the song a little more often from your shared room, and the denial of him entering said room while it was playing-he caught on really quick.

So he did a little research.

And after watching a few videos of people dancing to it, he couldn’t fucking wait.

To see you do those moves? To see you move like that? Oh god he was foaming at the mouth.

He’d purposely try and spy on you while you were practicing, even daring to peep in from the window by flying outside of it.

But at the same time, he wanted it to be a surprise. He’d catch himself in the act of trying to watch you practice and he’d curse himself for being so impatient. Being patient was going to make the final experience even better.

And oh how happy he was to have waited.

Watching you pop your ass and move your hips, laying on the floor and bouncing your ass upward and even doing a split.

He was impressed.

And he was even more so, very intrigued.

“You gonna put all that training to use, Babybird?” Hawks’ sly smile and relaxed position on the couch made the comment that much more sensual.

With his arms stretched out over the tops of the cushions, and his legs pointed outward, you crawled and sat right between them, gazing up at him with bright eyes.

“You’d be lucky if I even let you sleep in the same bed with me tonight, horny ass.”

“Hey- I’m not even in season yet!”

“Shut it bird brain! You can test them out for yourself!” You joked as you got up, walking away from the winged man.

“Oh Babybird, you have no idea.”

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dabi

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Much like Hawks, this bastard is way too horny to not know what the fuck is going on when he hears the song WAP playing.

Even more when you practically beat his ass for barging into your apartment without knocking.

“I’m busy! What do you want?” You ask as you push him out of your bedroom, into the hallway toward the front door.

“I’m just checking in on my baby. Is that illegal?”

“Dabi, you’re literally a criminal-”

“A criminal of love baby.”

“Get out. I’ll text you if I need you dumbass.”

Back to practice, it’s tricky. The dance is very fast-paced, but you nail it. after way too many ice-packs and ‘fucking shit’s said later, you have mastered the WAP dance.

Around ten minutes after a ‘come over’ text, Dabi arrives to your apartment.

With candles set out, awaiting Dabi’s blue flames to light them and set the mood, you’re dressed simply in one of Dabi’s favorite outfits.

“Oh baby.”

“Light the candles and sit down.”

With no further questions, Dabi does as he’s told and takes a seat on the couch which he quickly notices is pushed back further than it usually is. Come to notice even more, most of your living room furniture is moved out of the way entirely.

When the music begins, you begin to dance as well, not wasting a second as the lyrics float into Dabi’s ears.

Watching your hips and your ass, Dabi is clearly interested in what you’re serving him. You look good too, but when you move like that, of course he’s going to be a drooling mess.

In a less sexual way, he’s impressed with your moves, he knows training is a big step to anything, so he wonders how hard you worked, and for how long, it took you to master this dance.

“Come here baby.” Dabi ushers for you to come to him with his pointer and middle finger after you finish dancing.

You take a seat on his lap and smile.

“We’ve already set the mood, why not continue? You could give me a private lesson on those moves you just did.”

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overhaul/kai chisaki

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He has no clue what you’re doing. You asked if you could show him something and now he’s in a room alone with you.

You’re setting up some music and he can’t keep his eyes off of you and the way you’re dressed. He was thankful he was alone in the room with you or he might’ve had to tell people to step out.

You were his angel after all, not anyone else’s.

When the music starts, his the tips of his ears begin to burn bright red. This music is raunchy and sexy, but he likes it. It’s got a good tune, and it’s empowering, and then he sees you.

You’re swaying your hips to the music until a certain point and you drop to the floor, popping your ass and grinding against the floor, dancing to the music erotically.

He’s impressed. Not as much that you’re dnacing on the somewhat dirty floor, but he’s impressed nonetheless.

“Angel, that was riveting.” Chisaki comments, his arms crossed over his chest. He can feel his pans becoming tight but he decides to ignore it.

“So did you like it? I worked extra hard on it.” You look so innocent as you approach him, your pink lips pursed and begging to be kissed as you stand in front of him.

“I loved it.” Chisaki nods, a smile rests on his lips under his mask unable to be seen.

“I could show it to you again up close if you’d like.” You hint at something a little more physcial which only stirs Chisaki more.

“That sounds like a good idea, angel.”

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tomura shigaraki

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I’m not sure if Tomura is a big tik tok guy. He’s into video games, and probably graphic novels too, but depending on his fyp, he probably won’t even get close to hearing the WAP song or know anything about the dance.

That being said, he’s gonna get annoyed if he hears “now from the top, make it drop’ one more time.

Currently wishing he could grip a sound wave and decay it.

But, when you pull him away from a video game, or say a meeting with league and sit him down in a chair in a dark room with some rather unpleasant lighting, maybe just enough to illuminate the two of you and nothing else, he’s confused, but also very interested in what you’re about to do.

And there’s that stupid line- ‘now from the top,’ and- you’re dancing.

His crimson eyes lock onto your figure as you dance, the growing urge to turn the music off suddenly dies as he watches you bounce and pop your hips.

The way your body moves, he’s addicted. Like you’re administering some sort of drug, he can’t look away.

When you lay on the ground and roll onto your back, spreading your legs as you roll into a crawl and then into split and continue to bounce your ass, he’s completely speechless.

The very definition of no thoughts, head empty.

And the aftermath of it all.

forget whatever the fuck he was doing before, forget the grudge he was holding against the lyric’ now from the top, make it drop’, forget the terrible lighting, he’s getting down to the bottom of whatever you just did.

“What was that?” Shigaraki ask, his hands daring to scratch at his neck.

“Did you like it?” You ask, batting your eyes at your flustered yet confused boyfriend.

“I liked it yes.” He mumbles, looking at you from the chair, you’re still sitting on the ground as he stands and walks over to you.

“You’re really flexible. Why didn’t you tell me that before?” He towers over you before squatting to your height.

“Meet me in my room in ten minutes.” He whispers.

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eraserhead/shota aizawa

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A man addicted to black coffee and funny cat videos on youtube has no knowledge of WAP or it’s current dance craze on tik tok. But do not let that discourage you.

After hearing the song a few times while you practice your dance, unbeknownst to him, of course, he might get a little curious.

You’re being secretive and it leads him to do a little research. Simply typing in a few lyrics, he finds the song and the dance shortly after.

He’s more or less very interested in what you might have to be doing. Because if you’re learning this dance, he might not know what to do with himself.

Sure enough, you come striding out of your shared room one day, wearing something cute for Aizawa.

“Got a minute?” You ask, pulling him away from grading papers. 

Sitting him on the couch, you step back and turn on the song, smiling as he watches you.

And watch you he does. From the second you kick your leg up, to the second you bounce your ass the last time, ending the dance.

His eyes never leave you. The way you crawl, the way you lay on the floor and pop your hips up, he’s not the least bit uninterested.

“Where’d you learn all that Kitty?” He asks, folding his arms over his chest, his long raven hair parted to watch you even better.

“From the internet. Why? Curious to learn it too?” You tease, crawling over to him.

“Only if you teach me.” He says slyly.

“You’re supposed to do the teaching not me.” You smile up at him.

“Is that how you want to play?” Aizawa smirks and crosses his leg, cutting you off from crawling between his legs.

“You tell me, Kitty cat.”

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Hi! I'm an artist currently drawing a comic. The story is finished and I've edited this thing to oblivion. The problem is, I keep thinking about all its flaws. Characters being too similar, plot making no sense, character dynamics being borderline inappropriate, etc. However, when I actually read the story, I enjoy it. I laugh at my jokes, the action excites me and I am genuinely impressed by the way each scene flows into the next. Is this just my critical brain not letting me make progress?

Feeling Story is Flawed, Even After a Lot of Editing

Let's start here: "I've edited this thing to oblivion," and "Characters are too similar, plot makes no sense, character dynamics are borderline inappropriate, etc.," are two conflicting statements.

So, one of two things must be true: 1 - When you say you've "edited this thing into oblivion," you're talking specifically about editing mechanics issues like spelling and grammar mistakes, typos, punctuation errors, formatting issues, etc. Which, unfortunately, would mean that you've actually only edited this thing halfway to oblivion... part of editing is fixing issues like the ones you've mentioned. Making sure your characters are distinct, making sure the plot makes sense (filling in plot holes, fixing continuity errors, making sure everything is believable within what you've laid out for the story, tying up important loose threads), and making sure you're happy with character dynamics are all part of editing, too. So, if you didn't do those things on any of your earlier editing passes, you still need to.

2 - You DID work on all of those things when you edited, and some part of you knows you've gotten them to the best place you can get them to, but your brain is still telling you there are problems even if there probably aren't.

Having said that:

If number one definitely isn't the case, number two is. And, the fact that you're able to enjoy the story when you read it leads me to believe that's probably the case. You did take all those things into account when you edited, your brain is just being an ass. Which is something a lot of us experience, especially writers who are ND or have various personality traits. In other words, it's not unusual for brains to behave that way.

So, what do you do about it?

That depends on what you plan to do with this comic. If you just did it for yourself or for friends, or if you're sharing it on your blog or social media and are happy with where it's at, you just have to be happy with knowing you did your best with it and it makes you happy, so it will probably make others happy.

If you plan to seek publishing for this comic, or if you really just feel like you need a second opinion, go ahead and get another set of eyes on the story. Our opinions on our own work can't exist in a vacuum. They need to be validated or invalidated by a knowledgeable third-party, and ideally multiple knowledgeable third-parties. That's why we have alpha and beta readers who are other writers or are readers of the type of thing we write. It's why we have critique partners who are other writers, why we look to writing groups for feedback, and why we hire editors. Because if others read through your story and see the same flaws you see, you know they need to be fixed. If they don't see the same flaws you see, you have confirmation that it's just your brain being mean, and you don't have to listen to it. If the results are mixed, you can fix what you want to fix and not worry about the rest.

I hope that helps! :)

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[my-mt-heart]

I suppose I should address the Reedus-shaped elephant in the room next. It's a bit of a mixed bag.

First, like I stated in my initial response, actors have a team surrounding them. Generally, there's your agent, your manager, maybe a publicist depending on need, your personal assistant and social media manager. Some of them get a percentage off your paycheck (e.g. agents get 10%) and others are on your payroll (which means you have to provide health coverage too), so there's a lot of money going out. The first three categories have a say in your career decisions.

My impression of NR is that he's more clueless (to the impact of his own privilege) than malicious, but he hasn't been any kind of ally to MMB either. He cares more about his own situation and I'm not privy to his reasons for that, but my guess is dwindling cash flow.

Like I alluded to in my previous response, I don't think he's getting offers because that's generally when you start to see actors diversify their income. It's AMC or retirement for NR. As an actor, you can't lower your fees for one project because you can't bring them back up again and no one wants to pay NR the kind of money AMC does. They own him.

What he's doing in interviews or on social media is not a good look. His manager and the publicist should be all over that, but sometimes a client is headstrong. If it's a tactic, I can't see how it benefits him, since he's actively alienating the foundation of his fanbase, the Carylers, but insecure and/or self-centered male actors are not that uncommon (we just tend to hear more stories about the women) and they can be some of the more petty coworkers to deal with because they've been led to believe they're entitled to a certain amount of adoration.

NR's been told all these years that Daryl Dixon is the most popular character on the show and he clearly expected the news of his solo spinoff to be embraced with enthusiasm. I do think that Daryl is in the top three, but I can't see how you'd center a show around him as the sole protagonist. I think executives, agents and managers tend to oversell and flatter when they want to you to sign on and maybe he's bought into the hype?

His ghostwritten novel seems like it's aimed more at female readers and how is that going to sell when his behavior is going over like a lead balloon with the target consumer group? He might not like it, but he needs Carylers.

Thank you as always for giving us your thoughts. On one hand, I get that it's a shitty feeling not to be supported, but the thing for me is, it's not a lack of support for Daryl. I love Daryl. So much so that I'm terrified this idea of him leaving for Europe on his own is only going to ruin all of the reasons I love him. The fact that fans are being alienated for that concern, what I think is a valid concern, hurts. It always seemed to me like Norman understood how special and important Caryl is, and if that's not the case anymore or never was, that truly breaks my heart.

[thefanficmonster]

Rumors

Corpse Husband x Bimbo!Reader (Female)

Warnings: Mentions of Slut Shaming, Swearing

Genre: Fluff, Tiniest bit of Angst, RPF (Real Person Fic)

Summary: When some rumors start floating around, every content creator does their best to either ignore them or defuse the situation. However, sometimes, the fans attempt to do the defusing themselves which only leads to a worse disaster. That’s the case for Corpse whose fans were quick to jump to his protection of some ‘false’ rumors.

Requested by Anon. Hi dear! Thank you so much for your request, it was a joy to write. I’m sorry for how long it has taken me to complete and post the fic but here it finally is and I hope you enjoy reading it at least half as much as I enjoyed writing it! Love, Vy ❤

Corpse cracks his knuckles, then his shoulders, then his collarbone, then the his neck. He clenches his jaw as he breathes steadily and rhythmically, trying to control an overwhelming wave of anger that he has never felt before. This is a situation he’s never had to deal with nor did he ever think he’d have to deal with and address on a fucking livestream on top of all, but here he is now, doing his best to count to ten and not go on a Twitter responding spree, calling people out on their bullshit. He wanted to do so, he still wants to, but he was stopped in his intentions and brought to a calm mindset where he was swayed into dealing with this the civil way and not by roasting the fuck out of any and every foul-mouthed person he’s seen on his Twitter timeline.

He can’t really guarantee and civility during the stream either, he’s aware his tolerance is as thin as a stretched out, old rubber band and is a slight tug away from snapping and allowing him to unleash hell on these people because of who he’s been seeing red these past few days. 

Let’s not risk a misunderstanding here - Corpse absolutely loves and adores his fans, but seeing this behavior from them is quite upsetting and disappointing. When he uses the terms like ‘assholes’, ‘jerks’ and ‘rude motherfuckers’ he isn’t referring to them. He knows they are good people, but are using the completely wrong tactic of defending him, not to mention he doesn’t even need defending. Even if he did, he’s more than capable of doing it on his own and not getting other people involved.

“Hello everyone, hope you’re doing well.“ He finally settles on saying, officially kicking off the stream. If there’s any indicator of the serious nature of this stream, it’s probably the lack of lo-fi and the lack of even attempted playfulness and cheeriness in his voice. That’s how you know shit isn’t to be messed around about. “I just realized I didn’t specify what I’ll be doing in the Tweet, but I’ll tell you now, so those who aren’t interested in the subject or want to steer clear of the drama can leave. However, I wouldn’t advise clicking off considering this will be an overall, how do I say this, rant, of sorts? It’s meant to knock some sense in the people who have been spreading hate for a specific person on all social media platforms she’s active on.“

The majority of the viewers are already familiar with the subject, some even guilty of spreading the hate Corpse mentioned, but there are a few that are completely clueless - the ones actually not interested in online drama, not just saying they ‘hate drama’. With those people in mind, Corpse takes to addressing the issue from its very beginning.

“So, for a month now, me and this streamer, who’s also a TikTok star, by the name of Y/N have been interacting a lot on social media. She’s an incredibly sweet girl that a lot of people have prejudice towards. She’s very misjudged and misunderstood because people see he solely as her content, if that makes sense. They only know she’s that streamer who wears revealing clothes on her streams and posts risqué pictures on her Instagram. Like, no.“ Corpse cannot even fully believe he has to address this and that slut-shaming people is still a thing in the twenty-first century. He closes his eyes for a moment, fist tightening and his knuckles turning white, “I don’t understand how so many people can be so shallow and just plain jerks towards her in general, but then again - this is especially for my fans, the members of my fandom - I don’t understand the need you guys feel to put Y/N down to defend me from some ridiculous rumors as if it’s the first time I’ve had to deal with people talking shit for attention or to get someone canceled.“ He sighs, reminding himself to slow his roll as to not confuse any viewers who still don’t know the full story, “Anyway, back to the timeline of events. So, considering we’ve never interacted before, all the replying to comments, retweeting, liking posts and whatever sparked some dating rumors. Isn’t that just fucking hilarious - you see two people interacting on social media and the first thing that comes to mind is that they’re in a romantic relationship. Where did the friendship go? Does no one value or consider friendships to be a valid type of human relation anymore?“ He runs a hand through his hair, making another pause to clear his mind and prevent his frustration from overflowing. He promised he wouldn’t lose his cool and would remain calm and collected, but the more he talks about it the tighter he clenches his fist and the faster his heartrate is. His neck and ears are red from the tension he feels all over, almost like he’s physically restraining a raging wild animal and not just his own thoughts and emotions.

There’s layers to his anger, the lower ones - aka the ones he’s yet to get to - will be a nightmarish test of his self-control, he already knows it. Judging by how much of a toll this rant has already taken on him, his patience and control growing thinner and thinner, he’s not sure how he’ll power through the last layers without his voice raising awfully high in volume and his fists searching for some object to punch. To an ignorant eye, his reaction would seem exaggerated and overboard, but little does that ignorant eye know...

“When some of my fans saw those rumors, they reacted very badly. It was quite disappointing to see. Guys, I appreciate you standing up for me even though you shouldn’t do that - I can defend myself, not that this was a matter I needed defending from to begin with. But just the way some of you went about it was horrifically wrong and quite upsetting, to me but especially to Y/N herself.“ He can feel it, the aggravation growing, bubbling up in his chest, “What I saw disgusted me, I’m not gonna sugarcoat it. The things some of you were saying...I couldn’t believe you are in fact the same people who are my fans, my lovely fans who I’ve always thought so highly of. Never did I think you could be able of slut-shaming so vulgarly and grossly, I couldn’t believe what I was reading.“

He has every right to be upset - the things being said about Y/N were truly awful and a lot of things being said were meant to defend Corpse and defuse the rumors, doing so while stomping all over Y/N and her content. Rightfully so, many of her fans were outraged and quick to jump to her defense but were unfortunately outnumbered, leading Corpse to believe not many of her fans are actually real or as dedicated as his which only fueled his fury further.

Anyway, let’s take a look at Y/N’s point of view. Being a content creator for as long as she has, refusing to change her style no matter how many people disagreed and insulted her about it, she’s grown quite used to people spitting insults at her on every social media possible. It’s sad how throughout the majority of her content creating career she’s only had haters, creeps and fake fans watching her videos and streams. Rare are those in her fandom who’d actually stick up for her and defend her in ‘scandals’ such as this one. However, no amount of experience with dealing with hate could have prepared her for this outpour of some of the meanest shit she’s ever heard and been called in her life.

Y/N likes the content she makes, she’s comfortable in her skin and loves her body. She loves showing it off too and nor she nor anyone who wants that deserves to be shamed for who they are and what they do, especially when they aren’t hurting anyone and their content is still appropriate. People have always bashed her for all elements of who she is: her appearance, her clothing style, her streams, her gaming skills, her voice on occasion. She can count the instances when she’s received positive feedback on the fingers of her hands which would depress anyone else but not her. She’s always created content for her own amusement and entertainment so people’s opinions never really bothered her. Until now, until this very drama that has hit a specific nerve, an insecurity of hers she’s never talked about. The comments such as:

(Vy Speaking: Comments containing slut-shaming ahead, go to ### if you want to skip)

“Corpse would never date a slut like her“

“Corpse dating this thot? Please internet stop being ridiculous“

“Corpse ain’t a pimp, y’all need to chill“

“Even if they datin they gon break up soon - whore stays a whore“

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bothered her far more than she’d like to admit. She has no one to open up about it either, she knows what she’ll get in response if she does - she’ll be told it’s her fault. Her fault because of the way she dresses, the way she talks and acts, because she chose this career to begin with. All her fault. The only person she can turn to she refuses to because she doesn’t want to be a bother - not after so many people confirmed her worries that she’s not good enough for him already anyway, the least she can do is avoid bothering him the best she can.

And that is exactly why this has upset Corpse so much.

“Here’s a little message specifically meant for those who claimed I’d never date someone like Y/N or specifically Y/N. You better listen carefully: Don’t you ever, and I mean EVER slut-shame my girlfriend or any other person ever. I cannot believe I have to explicitly remind you that your behavior isn’t ok. You should fucking know that your behavior isn’t right and that you’re a massive piece of shit for saying those awful things about others you judge solely on appearance and clothing. Does it surprise you that I am, in fact, dating Y/N? If you say yes for the reason you think she’s not good enough for me or that I deserve better, please get the fuck out of my fandom. No one disrespects my girl and gets away with it. That’s final!“

Though still under the influence of a flurry of negative emotions, overhearing Corpse literally telling people to exclude themselves from his fandom for being mean to her, Y/N’s taking a step towards emotional recovery knowing her boyfriend will always have her back. He’ll always be there to prove people wrong, defend her and stand by her. He’ll be there to catch her when the hate knocks her off her feet.

But most importantly: he’ll never ask her to change. Not her style, not her clothes, not her personality, nothing. He fell for her the way she is and for who she is, and he will never allow anyone to try to change her either. For someone who’s never had much support all her life, a single speck of support overpowers all the hate within the blink of an eye. Corpse will always be her knight in shining armor, the knight who defeated all the hateful demons by just entering her life. And though she’s still struggling with the ��Am I good enough for someone so wonderful?’ and ‘He deserves better, doesn’t he?’ questions, with his hand holding hers, she’ll never let those doubts and insecurities overpower her.

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[izukult]

hq boys and cliche experiences from movies

GRRRR WOOF WOOF BARK BARK i love these men

characters: hinata, kageyama, oikawa, sugawara, bokuto, yamaguchi, tsukishima, akaashi, iwaizumi, matsukawa, kenma, atsumu, nishinoya

hinata shoyo; the kiss in the rain- his hair is pressed to his forehead and your shirt is stuck too tight on your skin. he’s laughing, head turned up to the sky, making a comment on how quickly the rain had started. your eyes are stuck on his adam’s apple and soon his are on yours. he kisses you fast, needy and urging and happy. you can’t grab his hair because it’s soaked, and his hands get puddles from your shirt when they grab at your waist. you both laugh when you pull away, and he tells you youd better get changed before you get sick.

kageyama tobio; kissing you to prove a point- oikawa was infuriating, and kageyama didn’t seem to have much impulse control. when his rival went on about how perpetually single he would be, a part of him snapped. he couldn’t prove him wrong with any set or the win of any game, so he turned to you with nervous eyes, and yours immediately understood. you agreed before you could process, and his hands were timidly on your face a second after. his competitive nature crawled through his skin, and his lips were on yours jumbled and messy. he knew beating oikawa always felt good, but it had never felt like this.

oikawa toru; the chase through the airport- his feet were going faster than he thought they could, repeatedly pausing as he bumped past multiple people. he couldn’t bother to apologize as his eyes scanned the airport for your gate. you were one of the last passengers to get on and he got there right as you were about to board. your name left his mouth louder than he thought it could, passerbyers turning to look at you. you crumble when he tells you he loves you, and the plane leaves as he holds you in his arms.

sugawara koushi; winning a stuffed animal at the fair for you- the lights were blindingly bright and the people were a little too loud, but it seemed to fade away when he laughed with pride. it took him twelve tries to win that game, which you’d told him was rigged, but nonetheless he won. he turned to you, smiling brighter than the carnival lights, arms outstretched towards you, passing you the stuffed animal the carny gave him. you fell asleep with it that night, wide smile on your face.

bokuto kotaro; the over the top declaration of love- his hands are shaky as he gets up on the table and you forget how to breathe. at first, embarrassment rushes through your body, settling in the pit of your stomach as eyes all around the room land on you. but, when he starts talking and you can hear him try to mask the anxiousness in his tone, you start to calm down. and when he tells you he loves you, you forget anyone else is even there.

yamaguchi tadashi; the accidental confession- the photo sent before he realized, eyes widening as he looked at his mistake. he desperately tried to come up with an excuse as to why he sent you a screenshot of the text you sent, but you told him you figured he’d sent that to the wrong person before he could say anything. he left you on read, and tears formed in his eyes almost immediately. his breathing calmed, though, when you sent a screenshot back, of you texting your friend about him seconds before.

tsukishima kei; someone giving you the wrong number- when youd texted him, he said was beyond confused. shortly after, confusion was replaced by second hand embarrassment and slight entertainment. telling you he wasnt the guy from the library was almost delightful, until he realized who you were. he’d actually seen you around before, and his bafflement came back when he realized how tolerable you seemed. your frown left your face when he told you he often frequented the library himself, and it would be such a strange coincidence if you accidentally ran into him at the nonfiction section at 3:00pm.

akaashi keiji; the unintentional stargazing- he had to remind himself over and over he definitely wasn’t walking you home, and it was nothing more than a mere coincidence that you two were going the same way. but, your feet fall in pattern with each other and soon enough come to a stop as you two get lost in conversation. it’s dark— cold and pretty, the view of the city from the hill you two are on is breathtaking. but, what’s even better is the stars above your heads. you’re convinced you figure out what love is when he tells you about the constellations looking down on you.

iwaizumi hajime; the calling off a wedding- he’s certain he’s about to throw up, he really thinks he might, but his legs are willing him to your room before he can stop himself. he’s dizzy as he comes in and you’re sure you see his eyes glaze as he looks at you. you’re so beautiful he forgets his speech and just blurts out that he loves you. and, suddenly it all makes sense. the feeling in the pit of your stomach that you were doing something wrong is validated, and you know you can’t go through with the day. after all, how could you if you weren’t walking to him?

matsukawa issei; being locked in with someone you hate- he made your blood boil, and you his, so the fact you were snowed in together was less than ideal. you pissed him off enough he considered trying to dig his way through the snow, and he aggravated you enough you considered knocking yourself out to help the time pass. he comes to realize you aren’t so bad, and you begrudgingly admit the same. it mutually upsets you both more than the other did when you realize just how much you actually care for each other.

kenma kozume; practically stalking (persistence)- he never understood why people cared about social media so much until he was checking your account every twenty minutes. he was more obvious than he thought, in his little glances and the way he was always immediately there if you ever needed something (i.e. a pencil, an answer to a problem). however, when he accidentally liked your post from two years ago, you figured enough was enough and you actually texted him.

miya atsumu; the bet about the love interest- your eyes well up at the words you overhear and he feels the panic sink in. he absolutely never planned on telling you, and now he couldn’t begin to figure out how to explain. he knows he has to, though, as he grabs your wrist to stop you from leaving. you can’t help but blame yourself for being stupid enough to believe him, and he can’t help but hate himself for needing a bet to give him the confidence to talk to you. (disclaimer: it all works out)

nishinoya yu; accidentally falling asleep on his shoulder- it was no secret he had feelings for you, not when he was so loud about it. but, you couldn’t help but feel like it was too superficial to respond to— or maybe you were just scared. he’d sat next to you on the bus and you couldn’t have been more exhausted after the stress of the practice games. your head lolled and landed on his shoulder. even in your light sleep, you could feel how fast his heartbeat was going, and yours picked up to match speed.