#pardon me while i ramble

[1racoon7trenchcoats]

The whole 'you look like that homeless guy' line in npmd is actually kinda horrifying to me

Prefacing this with I haven't paid much attention to the npmd discussion as a whole and that it's been forever since I've watched Time Bastard (I really should watch that again but holy shit)

Seeing this guy every day that you don't know is basically a fucked up version of your brother and just. Going On with your life. I don't think Ted remembered any of it but imagine also seeing your brother all the time and just not being able to know why you get the weird feeling that you know him. You ask him for change every day bc he has a bowtie so he must be rich and you feel like you've seen his face from more than just roaming around the streets and you feel like you've heard his voice but it is just a mosaic you can't think about right now because you need to find some roadkill for dinner.

And then suddenly he and his weeb are trying to pin a murder of a high school kid on you that you. Probably didn't do

[tobeblamed]

listen i get it

i get that spn seasons 1-5 are some of the most genre-defining, unfathomably excellent pieces of media in television history

but- hear me out.

i'll admit, we've had some sloppy and at times, mediocre writing in later seasons. but the themes of late seasons are some of the most disturbing, psychological horror pieces of storytelling in the sci-fi horror genre.

like . can we take a second to appreciate:

season 6: sam's inner battle between the ego vs. the id

season 7: the horror of sam not knowing what's real and what's an illusion the whole time

season 8: dean's return from a lawless land of kill or be killed, having to learn how to be human beyond just survival instinct

season 8: sam's entire journey of self-purification

season 9-10: ✨ toxic masculinity✨ let's fucking goooooooo

season 12: mary relearning how to live and catching up with life after being gone for 3 whole ass decades

season 13: jack's nature vs. nurture. we had plenty of that ngl, wouldn't hurt to have more

season 14: ummmm can we talk about dean creating a literal mental prison cage to keep an overpowered archangel in and hearing him banging on the door inside his mind 24/7 because what the fuck-

[cronchy-spectre]

sorry! same anon is it ok to ask where kit falls on the aro-ace spectrum?

This one I might have to take a bit to explain. Don't apologize for asking! You're all good! ^^

So lore purposes, Kit is a robot, and I know it's kind of stereotypical like, "oh, of course it's aroace then!" and granted, the trio specifically are meant to be that way. It helps me understand and communicate feelings more concisely by compartmentalizing parts of me and fleshing them out to understand THEM and, in turn, me. But Kit isn't aroace because it's a robot, agender, maybe, but aroace is pretty organic(?natural) a lot of its thoughts and emotions and identity are very people-like, it's been alive for a very long time, so it forms itself and its own opinions much like a person would.

As for where Kit would fall on the spectrum:

Romantic: Completely averse. ❌

Sexual: Repulsed-ish but mostly by the organic, messy, aspect of it, and kinda just people in general. It can feel pleasure in other ways, but most just aren't willing to understand it or want more for themselves.

Platonic: Cautious, mostly trauma-related. Baby has trust issues. u_u

I'm better at tell than show, but I hope this makes sense regardless! ovo;;

[northwestofinsanity]

There’s suddenly been a lot of hush-hush, angry, passive-aggressive, no-names-but-lots-of-side-eyes gossip in the student lounge at school this week, and I really don’t like it…

[helianskies]

i'm sorry,, i just got very emotional at the thought of a nation listening to classical music on their phone and yearning for the days they would've heard such music played for the first time by the original composers and musicians and wishing so suddenly that they could go back to those days, those years, those fresh, young melodies

[aberooski]

I was just thinking about how in season 4 when we're seeing what Chazz, Alexis, and Syrus are experiencing after being absorbed by Darkness, we're seeing it through Atticus's eyes. We're seeing what he's seeing. Also it lingers on Chazz far longer than Alexis and Syrus. Granted he could be seeing more of them that we're not being shown but it really says something to me regardless. It always felt to me like Atty was more sad about Alexis and Syrus in that state but more hurt by seeing Chazz in that position if that makes any if at all sense.

I think because Chazz put up the strongest fight. He had to suffer more and was broken more thoroughly than they were at least with what we see it appears that way. Chazz being stuck in a time loop, nothing he can do to change the outcome no matter what he does only to end up back to the beginning again, driven to desperation to break free to the point where he cheats in the duel and fully breaks down, completely loses his will to go on, and surrenders to his fate. Just the sad, tired, and yet relieved laugh and the defeated smile on his face before he gives up is just devastating. And with how close he and Atticus are at that point, even with Alexis in this situation I can just feel his anguish season 3 calling 👀 not being able to help his boyfriend and just having to watch him suffer in such a through and profound way.

Also Alexis's doesn't hit nearly as hard because we never really see anything from her that suggests that she has the desire to be a teacher or feelings of inadequacy and worrying that she isn't worthy of showing people the joys of dueling and all that until season 4, and even then not until basically that point if not shortly before. It's been a little bit since I've watched season 4 I might be a bit fuzzy on some details, but I digress. Watching her suffer hurts, and you know it kills Atticus. It has to completely destroy him he loves her so much, seeing her tormented and in distress like that and having to just stand by and observe? Soul crushing. But hers is the least devastating for me because there's no build to it. There's nothing leading to any culmination of these feelings for her, but especially in comparison to Chazz, her section falls flat in terms of emotional devastation.

And Syrus is my favorite character and literally anything remotely upsetting that goes on for him devastates me to no end, but in terms of it hurting Atticus, they never really were shown interacting all that much and I never got the impression that they were too terribly close. But Atty loves and values and cherishes every single person he's ever known, Syrus is still very precious to him, and especially being the little brother of his former best friend. And watching him have to suffer and deal with the crushing weight of keeping Zane alive and carrying on his dreams all your closets of backlogged dreams and how you left them all to me 😭 and also the fear of coming home to find his brother dead? The pain that would put in Atticus's heart has to be immeasurable.

But above all of it, I always felt like Chazz hurt him the most. All of them ripped his heart into shreds, and then smaller and smaller shreds as it went on, but Chazz needed help the most. Needed him the most.

[todayisafridaynight]

The bookmark tag was #holder until i think of a tag for these asks but To Be Real even I forgot what it was...

BUT YEAH thanks so much for reading and I'm glad it's :] Intelligible At Least :] obviously I would be up for reading anything that came to mind after putting you and your followers through All That but understandable... A lot of people I've shown the checklist items or pointed out specific behaviors to have actually said similar [i.e. I'm In This Picture And I Don't Like It], so I totally get what you mean, too!

I think a lot of my picks wound up being generalized trauma responses/aftereffects of abuse or neglect [hence I meandered off into just talking about Jo's father half the time], so I guess it's to be expected a lot of them don't read as being CSA-specific or are broadly relatable; it's not like he's supposed to be read that way, after all. I just wasn't able to zero in on many of the more specific ones because I've Never Seen Jo In This Situation Chief I Don't Know What He Thinks About His Name Or His Body Or Mirrors Or Sex Or Affection I Don't Know How Well Or Poorly He Sleeps [Presumably Poorly Though He Has The Second-Reddest Eyes In The Whole Game]

I don't really think I'll have anything to add though unless Infinite Wealth goes off the rails or I actually continue reading the book... so that will have to do... I originally was just riffing on RGGJo's attachment issues, self-destructiveness, and specific entwinement of sexuality/aggression/romance, and his portrayal in my fic lined up pretty closely, so I thought it'd be interesting to apply the same lens to Y7Jo...

But Yeah x2 thank you for the opportunity to talk about it and I'm Glad It's Intelligible At Least x2

THANK YOU i really should change that tag to something better... <- i will immediately forget to do so like a jackass

BUT YA OF COURSE OF COURSE i was truthful when i said it was a real good read (but once again. i have -5 speech skills so i can't properly word SHIT) and was a thorough examination of jo's trauma and how it manifests in him and how it's exhibited through his actions. ALWAYS a big fan of that :)

[phoenixkaptain]

No but Obi-Wan only tells Leia about her mother until he comes to terms with Anakin’s “death” and can finally tell her about him, and it just makes me cry because he’s finally healing-

[always-a-joyful-note]

@lady-merian Sorry for replying in post but....KNOW HIM??!?! YEAH I KNOW HIM!!!!

He is literally one of my favourite authors. The way I SCREAMED when after two or so years of silence we heard from him again (with relief that he was all right).

I strive to match his chaotic writing style, his balance of emotional beats and ridiculous humour, the way he looks at his plot and goes "actually, we need more threads," the way he blends genres of portal and time travel and gaslamp fantasy and westerns and and and.....and also the way he shows his love for literary mythos (he has done his RESEARCH) with not just fairy tales and myths but also childrens lit and gothic fiction (the jekyll and hyde short story!!! the hints of dracula we're going to get in the next crockett and crane book).

Seriously, I love how he will make you cry with laughter and then actually just cry, but also how despite how heavy his books can get plot-wise, there's such a thread of lightness and fun even during the darker moments. Also absolutely obsessed with how all his characters will commit theft, arson, crimes against the time stream continuum and multiverse, and still believe they're the most sane of their group.

Sorry, this got a little rambly but I really love KRS.

[arborix]

ants found their way into my toblerone and I’m pretty sure I ate some

[little-pondhead]

[hoesamo]

[fangisms]

hiii i loved „spring breaks loose”!!🤍 could i request another something for theodore, where the reader is quite bubbly and loves talking and he, the quiet guy he is, just likes to listen? and maybe the reader is worried that she talks too much and it could be annoying to him but he’s just so in love that he’s obsessed with all her rabling😭😭 sorry if thats too specific

darling socialite

A/N: um i love this because if someone let me chat their ear off, i would fall in love. i love a chatter and i love a listener 🩷 gif creds: @perfectlyfuckingcivils

Pairings: Theodore Nott x Fem!Reader

Summary: You are talkative as all hell, and Theo has dubbed himself your devoted listener. 1.3k words

Warnings: i be cursing, fluff, mild self-consciousness, two dummies in LOVE, mattheo being a perv (boy moment), kissing…, pansy being a slight bitch (lovingly)

Everyday, you look forward to telling Theo anything and everything. Sometimes, you'll get so excited to tell him something that you'll jot it down on the nearest surface. Most of the time, that surface is your hand. Who can blame you; you can't resist the gory details.

Everyday, Theo looks forward to hearing anything and everything from you. You're his favorite news source, his sweetest messenger, his darling socialite, and he is your devoted subscriber. He's worried one day you'll run out of things to tell him, but according to the ink splotches across your skin, there's a slim chance that'll happen.

"Hi, teddy!" you chirp, and he turns to welcome you into the seat beside him. "You will not believe what I saw in the courtyard on my way here: a willow tit!"

Mattheo chokes on a gulp of juice, sputtering in his seat and looking over at you. "Pardon?"

"Don't be crude, Matty. I'm talking about birds."

"Yeah, I got that, I just never realized you’re playing for the other team—"

"Mattheo!" you holler, glaring at him in utter disbelief, "you complete idiot! Birds, as in real birds. As in those things that fly around and chirp and eat berries!"

"Let me get this straight, we're not talking about some bird's tits? Suddenly, I'm uninterested," he says, earning a pointed glare from Theo.

"Anyway," you say, rolling your eyes and facing Theo, "You hardly see them anymore, they're very rare, but I saw one, and it was the cutest creature I've ever seen on campus! It was so round, I could have died. He must've liked all the rain we got over the weekend. I hope he survives the winter and has lots of little tit babies in the spring!"

Theo could not be more head over heels for you while you babble about round tits and babies. He thinks if he ever opens his mouth to respond, he’ll screw it up in an instant. Thank Merlin, he's naturally quiet and content to listen to you all day. And thank Merlin, you never ask for anything more from him.

If only you knew how much he truly adores you and your ramblings. He holds your company in his highest regard and considers every time you choose him a blessing.

You never think too much of Theo's tight-lippedness. You figure if he was completely sick of it, he'd just get up and walk away. Or maybe that's not like him, and maybe you are a bother.

It doesn't help when Pansy skips up to you in the hall and says, "I'm really impressed you're able to hold Theo's attention as long as you do."

"What are you talking about, P?" you say.

"Well... don't you ever worry he's, like... bored with you? I mean, when was the last time he actually contributed to your 'conversations'. I just don't want you to get your hopes up, you know?" —she shrugs it off like it's not an unforgivable curse to the gut—"If I were you, I'd find a more attentive playmate. You can always talk to me!"

"Thanks, Pansy," you say.

"Just looking out for a friend! See ya!"

You nod and wait by the bottom of the stairs as she hops her way up. You didn't think you were getting your hopes up, necessarily. You thought Theo was just a good listener. And sure, he's not super responsive, but he's just shy. That's not his fault.

…

There's a rapping of knuckles at the door, and Mattheo hurdles his bed and reaches for the knob.

"Why, good evening, dearest birdwatcher"—Theo perks up from where he's rifling through his trunk.

"I could say the same to you, perv," you tease, "Is Theo around? I need—"

"To talk to him? Figures. He's just hiding his softcore stash—"

"Shut up!" Theo hollers, popping up and hurrying to the door, a little flushed to find you looking at him, "he's just joking."

Mattheo chuckles, "No, he's right, Theo would never have so much fun"—he dodges the jab to his side—"Alright, I'll leave you two lovebirds to your tits and whatnot. Try not to make too much noise, we have downstairs neighbors." He winks and makes his way down the boys dormitories stairwell.

And suddenly, Theo can't remember the last time he was truly alone with you. No onlookers or eavesdroppers, no Pansy and no Mattheo. Just the two of you. His sweaty palms and your rapid heartbeat.

"I need to ask you something," you finally blurt. He looked so nervous you thought he might throw up over the railing, so you put him out of his misery before he has the chance.

"Yes, yeah, anything," he huffs.

"Well," you say, "I was thinking—just... ruminating, really, because it was suggested that I bore you with my chattiness"—you cross your arms over your chest and look to the floor—"and not that I'm begging for pity or even a response, I just wanted to know how you feel because I realized maybe I don't ask about you enough. You know, like I'm always worried about me, or something, but I do worry about you, too! I just wasn't sure if that's something—if you maybe wanted to talk about it more. Because I can be a good listener! I'd be happy to hear whatever you have to say!"

Theo leans his shoulder against the doorframe, adjusting the bottom of his sweater as it clings to his hips. How could he let you believe you're too much for him. How could he let you believe yourself to be some kind of social burden to him. All because he'd much rather listen to you than contribute his own two cents.

"See! Merlin, even now, I've just talked your ear off while trying to apologize for constantly talking your ear off! And I haven't even apologized, yet! I'm so sorry, Theo, I know it's a problem, and I didn't mean to take advantage of your politeness."

You scuff your sole on the landing with a whine, and he leans to the side to watch you look over the edge. It's so quiet for a moment, he can hear your soft breathing if he focuses on it.

"It's not a problem," Theo says. You look over, lips parted at the smug look on his face. "And if I was the one who suggested otherwise, I couldn't be more apologetic."

It makes you smile. He's just said two very thoughtful things to you. Out loud. To your face. You could crumble.

"No! No, teddy, it wasn't you, it was... doesn't matter. You really don't mind?"

He shakes his head, a little amused, honestly. How could he mind? You’re the greatest thing since dark chocolate, and he’d still give that up. You’d go just as well with his afternoon tea.

“Well, then,” you huff, warmer under his gaze, determined to get this damned apology across.

“Alright,” Theo says. Apology accepted. Apology not even necessary. But still accepted.

“Okay. But next time you catch me rambling, you better just shut me up! Tell me to ‘shush’ or something! It’s a problem, and I give you full permission to—”

He kisses you. He leans down, smug with his fingers under your chin, and he kisses you! Shuts you right up like you’re still some gullible first year completely wooed by his boyish charms! Oh, but he’s kissing you very sweetly. And when your knees go a tad wobbly, he rushes to cradle your elbow.

“Like that?” he says.

“That’s no way to treat a lady, Theodore. You should be completely ashamed of yourself for ever thinkin—”

He kisses you again. More sure and much quicker. Like a reflex. A knee jerk reaction without the kneeing or the jerking. Just his stupidly soft lips.

“Yeah,” you whisper, “that works… but you can’t just kiss me every time you want to shut me up.”

“No”—he pecks your lips, fingers gentle at your cheek—“I plan on kissing you much more often than that.”

masterlist

[noxtivagus]

ain soph aur brainrot

[emilyharmonia]

floortober, in which I lay on the floor and do nothing for a monh

[yulin-pop]

⤷ ✧ 𝐇𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐲

order 84 | Scenario | Cater, Jade, Idia, Silver | gender neutral

❀ NOTE: PRETTY BOYS AHHHH, I wonder if all the characters are canonically attractive or are some characters like Ace considered mid?

“Don’t take this the wrong way, but you’re so…”

➺ Cater Diamond

There’s a reason why Cater has so many followers on MagiCam. It’s because he has a cute face!! You’re not sure if he’s aware but he just has to be.

He does these tiny things like brushing the hair out of his face or slightly turning his head when he laughs. You didn’t really realize how pretty he was for a while. Sure, you got nervous just staring at him but now you can’t even look him in the eye.

“Don’t take this the wrong way, but you’re so hot…”

He blinked for a moment. He was in the middle of drying his hair when you said that. All he could think is “Oh wow?” He noticed that you’ve been staring at him so intensely for the past few days— maybe weeks.

But you said it straight to his face? He thought he misheard you at first but you definitely said that.

“Wow, I didn’t know you fancied me that way MC!” Admittedly it did fluster him, he was flattering in the best way possible.

“Don’t get it twisted, it’s not in the way you’re thinking!”

You’re in denial.

⊱Jade Leech

He has that certain look to him. It’s different than Floyd even though they’re identical twins. Maybe he’s not aware how MMMMMMM he is but he has to.

Just the way he looks at you can get you weak on the floor. His eyes… You noticed how his eyes squint ever so slightly when he’s focused. He’s calm under any circumstances yet so amusing in his own way. He’s the type of person you’d want to follow around just for the fun of it. And in his own way… he’s just so damn cute too.

“Don’t take this the wrong way, but you’re so cute…”

He quickly turned his head to stare at you. He’s not sure what you mean or why. It was so out of the blue. You’ve been stalking him for a while. Of course he knew and allowed it and treated it as if it was normal.

“Pardon? In what way am I… cute?” He turned his head curiously.

“Cute!” You said again.

He wasn’t sure how to feel, the last time someone called him cute was when he was a little kid. Most people would think of Jade as alluring or handsome, cute is something he hasn’t heard in a while.

“If you’re talking about my appearance, you must think Floyd is cute as well.” He says while smiling at you.

“Eh I guess so. But he’s not as cute as you.”

He moved closer, “Tell me, what else do you think of me?”

You put your hands out in front of you, as if to say stop. “Why do you have to be so close..?!”

*ੈ Idia Shroud

It’s already canon that Idia is very attractive from the character archives book and the ghost marriage event while being complete oblivious. He’s charming in his own way.

It’s hard to believe he’s so oblivious to his good looks. His smile is nerdy yet… attractive. His personality is rough but that’s what makes him so fun. Teasing someone like him is hilarious.

“Don’t take this the wrong way, but you’re so hot.”

He immediately cranked his head your direction with a baffled expression. He shook his head and let out an irritated squeal.

“Wh-who says stuff like that to somebody’s face?! Online I get it but this is IRL! Why does someone like you even think that?”

He just gets really flustered and ends up rambling about how it doesn’t make sense. But when he looks back on it, it gives him an ego boost for a few minutes and then he’s embarrassed because— it makes him happy that you think of him that way.

-ˋˏ Silver

Unintentional or not, Silver has been seeing you around a lot. He doesn’t think much of it since you’re in the same school so it’s not anything crazy but when he does see you, you’re always staring at him with this… funny expression.

Did he do something wrong? He tries to wave at you when he can but as soon as he turns his head you run away or start acting like you weren’t the one staring first.

But what were you suppose to do? Whenever you saw him, all your attention was diverted to his gentle yet sharp expression. His resting face was already so deadly, you couldn’t imagine if he were to smile.

“Don’t take this the wrong way, but you’re so pretty…”

He froze with a puzzled look on his face. This was one of the times you actually started a conversation with him instead of staring and running away and you say something so flirtatious?

“Ah…” He blinked as you gazed into his eyes nervously, “Thank you I suppose.” But in what way was he suppose to take that?