#so u can go

[allblognamesaretakenso]

sooo i originally joined this fandom through twitter (mistake #1) and dipped because it was a toxic hellhole of cliques and shipping delusion.

tumblr was initially a safespace. and i love the like-minded friends i’ve found here. but for the past week, my inbox has been full of the most cruel and disgusting abuse i’ve experienced. i made this blog because i was tired of seeing people reduce nicola and luke into pawns for their shipping fantasies, then lash out when those real human beings didn’t act like fanfic characters. i’ve consistently called out hate — toward jake, toward antonia, toward nicola, toward luke. never once did i say anything cruel about any of them.

but apparently saying “hey, maybe spreading harmful rumours or harassing real people is...bad?” is cause for a firing squad now. dozens of faceless anons jumped into my inbox to tell me i’m scum. actual quotes include: – “a white man’s whore” (calling women whores in the 21st century! cute!) – “pathetic scum on earth” (ironic but ok) – comparing me to women obsessed with serial killers (????) – and, my personal fave: that i (a muslim, neurodivergent woman of colour) am “as privileged as the white man i stan.”

i'm not giving you the satisfaction of responding to ur pathetic little rants btw. i get it. something is missing in ur life so u feel purpose and power in anonymously abusing strangers online. ur purposeless and pathetic and i'm just another person u can take those frustrations out on.

but you’re not revolutionaries. you’re not woke. you’re just miserable cowards hiding behind grey icons, spewing venom at strangers online because your own life is so small and sad that bullying feels like a win. you're not deep. you're just pathetic. and no, you don’t hate luke. you obsess over him. you know more about his life than his IMDb page. that’s not hate — that’s just creepy parasocial lust rotting from the inside out.

so! anons are off. if you’ve got something to say, say it with chest or shut the fuck up. i'm done offering a platform for your hatred just so you can feel something for five seconds. get help. get lost. and get the fuck out of my inbox.

🖕🏽💋

[ashcremated]

he was a celestial immortal demoted to volcano spirit, he was a cultivator on a mission to kill demons, can i make it even more obvious? lil bday gift for @ranilla-bean, hi fratm di brutte vibes 💕 xianxia au century egg pookie be upon ye 💋💋🍋🌋🌋

[isjasz]

[Ready for a new game?]

day 11 definitelynottober - heart in your fist & week 1 weeklyhermittober - beginnings

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IM SO READY LETSGO SO EXCITED FOR THE NEW LIFE SERIES💥💥💥💥💥💥

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

your job is son now

[ladysatoru]

Honestly, no one is doing it like Vinsmoke Sanji. He's royalty. He's homeless. He's a convicted criminal. He is a damsel in distress. He's a knight in shining armor. He takes down the Government at 10 am then makes a Bouchée à la reine from scratch at 11. He has the empathy of a buddhist monk in the Himalayas. He will beat up a 90 year old. He has never given a fuck, he cant sleep at night cz of how much he cares. He is a ballerina. He sets his legs on fire. He is a slut. He is a virgin. He is a feminist He is a pervert. He's a fashion icon. He wears Alexander McQueen suits to the beach. He has never known happiness. God has personal beef with him.

[suntails]

growing up!

[bishy437]

he won

bonus:

[cordspaghetti]

mcr tonight

[illufinch]

they should let me design a miku figurine

[livetogether--diealone]

6'2'' weighted blanket with attachement issues

[hinamie]

oversaturate

[kewpie-notice-me]

this was made to help me better visualize 2012 leo in the Rise verse while reading crossover fanfics huehuehue

[chiimeramanticore]

touch

[imlostinmy20s]

🐾✨🌻

An art piece I started almost a year ago!

been working on rendering for the last three days

[disformer]

ITS BEEN SO LONG!!! Posting what I’ve finished from the Texaid comic I’d been chipping away at in my free time :,)

Atm i’m not sure if id be comfortable finishing this or posting the unfinished pages, and i’ll go into why a bit more under the cut, but for everyone who waited… thank you, you are so patient like the cobra 🥺🫶

Texaid is so beloved and important to me, and i don’t think that’s news to anyone who’s followed me for any length of time. I always come back to them, and even leaving a project like this on hiatus for so long I still felt pretty comfortable leaving this on the burner bc I knew I’d be back.

And with my work sometimes I do have to take fandom hiatus breaks! But I got a slightly confused dm from a friend at one point that said ‘hey man, did you know everyone’s crediting your designs to someone else in the fandom’ and ???? it was true!

And I know how obnoxious it is to see an artist get on their diva shit and claim design elements, but it’s important to know that, at the time, I was one of like three people posting texaid, and the other two were Japanese artists on twitter.

My redesign has my fingerprints all over it; those big circular rotaries on his shoulders? A mistake! I got my references mixed up at one point and just kept rolling with it because it was funny! His pointy teeth and nose and boots and fingers and eyebrows? I’m bad at squares! I was doing everything in my power to avoid drawing squares!

And people have asked if they can use my redesigns in their own au’s in the past, and i’ve always said no (especially in regards to texaid) and that’s because they’re personal to me. My vision of Texaid is something I projected a lot of my own personal romantic past onto, they were my first nsfw art, my first real emotional outlet after getting kicked out of home for being trans and was starving in a flop basement. Vortex’s design was cooked up out of the primordial soup of my brain at a time when I was at my most raw. Texaid doesn’t belong to me, but i redesigned them for a reason, and that was to distinguish the fact I was representing something personal.

So to come back to the fandom and see my boys and the dynamic i drew with the serial numbers filed off, with zero acknowledgement of my influence or even crediting another artist entirely… I feel really bloody hurt. Especially after watching the way this fandom viciously ran off an artist of colour for much less prolific art theft.

It kind of feels like y’all don’t care as long as you like the content. And idk if i want to keep posting in a space like that, where my niche vent art gets repackaged into something more marketable, and I go unacknowledged.

So yeah, might be the last time I post my texaid stuff publicly! If they’re that important to me and I get this upset when theyre cribbed, and if i feel like yall can’t rly be trusted, then Im just gonna keep it in dms with besties. Thanks for hearing me out xoxox

[obsob]

to be loved is to be held!!! print